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Billy Mays
TV pitchman Billy Mays found dead at Florida homeBy MITCH STACY, Associated Press Writer Mitch Stacy, Associated Press Writer 10 mins ago TAMPA, Fla. – Billy Mays, the burly, bearded television pitchman whose boisterous hawking of products such as Orange Glo and OxiClean made him a pop-culture icon, has died. He was 50. Tampa police said Mays was found unresponsive by his wife Sunday morning. A fire rescue crew pronounced him dead at 7:45 a.m. It was not immediately clear how he died. He said he was hit on the head when an airplane he was on made a rough landing Saturday, and Mays' wife told investigators he didn't feel well before he went to bed that night. There were no signs of a break-in at the home, and investigators do not suspect foul play, said Lt. Brian Dugan of the Tampa Police Department, who wouldn't answer any more questions about how Mays' body was found because of the ongoing investigation. The coroner's office expects to have an autopsy done by Monday afternoon

Deleting
I AM DOING A MASS DELETION ... IF YOU WANT TO STAY ON MY LIST. LET ME KNOW. IF NOT OUT YOU GO...I AM TRIED OF HAVING 15,000 SO CALLED FRIENDS AND NONE OF YOU TALKING TO ME. SO...I AM FED UP.. HURT.. AND ANGRY.. SO YEAH.. LET ME KNOW.

H.i.m.
I taste death in every kiss we shareEvery sundown seems to be the last we haveYour breath on my skin has the scent of our endI'm drunk on your tears, Baby, can't you see it's hurtingMmhhh mmmhhhhEvery time we touch we get closer to heavenAnd at every sunrise our sins are forgivenUh.uhYou on my skin this must be the endThe only way you can love me is to hurt me againAnd againAnd againAnd againYour love is a razorblade kissSweetest is the taste from your lipsYour love is a razorblade kissSweetest is the taste from your lipsOh the taste from your lips, my DarlingTaste from your lips, oh my LoveOnly inside I'm freeI'm tired of waitingYou've got to let me dreaminside you babyI'm not afraid to feelI want you to love meCause you are the oneCause you are the oneCause you are the oneYour love is a razorblade kissSweetness is the taste from your lipsYour love is a razorblade kissSweetest is the taste from your lipsYour love is a razorblade kissSweetest is the taste from your lipsYour love is a r

I Think I Owe 3 Of These..
I'm days behind on these things. I'm not really sure how much I owe you all, but I'm putting three. And Van...look, they are in the right blog section =] Today, I went to announce to my son that I am pregnant again. After I told him, he looks up and yells: "fuck this shit!" and walks out of the room. My son is nine years old. FML Today, my girlfriend broke up with me telling me I have problems communicating and that I didn't understand her. When I asked her why she didn't talk to me about this before she said "I didn't want to talk about it." FML Today, I finally got a chance to try out my vibrator. I've never orgasmed before with a guy, so I thought there was no hope until my friend gave me the vibrator for my birthday. It was going amazing, better than sex. I was literally 2 seconds away from climaxing when the battery suddenly died. FML

What Is An Arrhythmia?
What Is an Arrhythmia? An arrhythmia (ah-RITH-me-ah) is a problem with the speed or rhythm of the heartbeat. During an arrhythmia, the heart can beat too fast, too slow, or with an irregular rhythm. A heartbeat that is too fast is called tachycardia. A heartbeat that is too slow is called bradycardia. Most arrhythmias are harmless, but some can be serious or even life threatening. When the heart rate is too slow, too fast, or irregular, the heart may not be able to pump enough blood to the body. Lack of blood flow can damage the brain, heart, and other organs. Understanding the Heart’s Electrical System The heart has an internal electrical system that controls the speed and rhythm of the heartbeat. With each heartbeat, an electrical signal spreads from the top of the heart to the bottom. As it travels, the electrical signal causes the heart to contract and pump blood. The

What Is Sudden Cardiac Arrest?
What Is Sudden Cardiac Arrest? Sudden cardiac arrest (SCA) is a condition in which the heart suddenly and unexpectedly stops beating. When this happens, blood stops flowing to the brain and other vital organs. SCA usually causes death if it's not treated within minutes. Overview To understand SCA, it helps to understand how the heart works. The heart has an internal electrical system that controls the rate and rhythm of the heartbeat. Problems with the electrical system can cause abnormal heart rhythms called arrhythmias (ah-RITH-me-ahs). There are many types of arrhythmias. During an arrhythmia, the heart can beat too fast, too slow, or with an irregular rhythm. Some arrhythmias can cause the heart to stop pumping blood to the body. These are the type of arrhythmias that cause SCA. SCA is not the same as a heart attack. A heart attack occurs when bloo

Broken
I'm back in new jersey now. my faith and hope in life have been extinguished. the reason i am still alive has more to do with cowardice than desire to continue living. i failed at life once again. i failed at love. i failed at meeting the potential that everyone else but me can see. for those that had my number, i no longer have a cell phone. for those that had my yahoo, i do not know when i will be able to access a computer from now on, as i mentioned in the last blog. i am in excruciating pain now, from the inside. my heart hurts. my soul hurts. i don't regret a single moment in his arms. not a single kiss. i only regret that i could not be the person he needed me to be in order for this to have been a relationship. he said over and over that he did not think he made me happy, because how could someone that made me so happy make me so angry... the truth of it is, he's the only one that made me happy in a long time. the anger is something i could never control. i wish i could hav

Stonewall Riot Police Reports, June 29, 1969
From OutHistory Jump to: navigation, search Newly Obtained Documents Reveal Name of Woman Arrestee and Names of Three Men Arrestees: Marilyn Fowler, Vincent DePaul, Wolfgang Podolski, and Thomas Staton To honor the 40th anniversary celebration, in June 2009, of the Stonewall Riots, OutHistory.org is, for the first time, publishing nine pages of New York City Police Department records created early on the morning of the rebellion’s start, June 28, 1969. Reproduced in facsimile with transcriptions, these sometimes hard-to-read but historic documents provide an immediate sense of what the police called an "Unusual Occurrence" at the Stonewall -- the rebellion that has come to symbolize the start of the modern, militant LGBTQ movement for civil rights and liberation. The NYPD records include new, important, and striking details: Raymond Castro, about 1969 Officer Charles Broughton of the 1st Division arrested Raymond Castro, Marilyn Fowler and Vincent

Hope&why
THE DARK IS,GENEROUS AND IT IS PATIENT,AND IT ALWAYS WINS- BUT IN THE HEART OF IT'S STRENGTH, LIES IT'S WEAKNESS; ONE LONE CANDLE IS ENOUGH TO HOLD IT BACK... LOVE IS MORE THAN A CANDLE, LOVE CAN IGNITE THE STARS!!!!!! DO I HAVE BLIND FAITH? I MAY HAVE FOUND HOPE ON HERE AND IM TO SCARED TO REACH OUT

Babble
I CUT MYSELF TO FEEL THE PAIN I BRING UNTO OTHERS, I YELL AT PEOPLE TO MAKE MY POINT CLEAR, WHEN IM IGNORED ALL THE TIME, I BITCH BECAUSE, I WANT TO,AND I WANT TO BE HEARD I LAUGH CUZ MY LIFE... IS A TOTAL WRECK I SING CUZ IT, SETS MY HEART FREE!!! I FLIRT, SO I CAN FEEL NOTICED I CRY CUZ I FEEL INCOMPLETE AND IM HURTING EVERYHERE!!! I FIGHT FOR WHAT I STAND FOR, AND WHAT I DON'T I READ, TO GET LOST IN THE FANTASY I DRIVE AWAY, TO LEAVE ALL MY MISEREY BEHIND I OVERDOSE, SO I CAN BE AND FEEL FREE!!! I DIE CUZ THERE IS, NO OTHER REASON TO BE ALIVE!!! I'M SORRY IF IM HURTING ANY ONE SHARING THIS....IF I DON'T ILL, THERE WOULD BE TO MANY ON ANSWERED QUESTIONS!!!

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See You Soon!
Ok my friends...it has come time for me to take my yearly vacation to Walt Disney World. I'll be gone for a week but I just might pop on from time to time just to check mail and stuff. I will miss you all while I am away. Don't forget about good ol' Stitch!

The Comfortability Of Knowing Where We Are Going.
As a race of people we are raised to know someday we will die . As we grow and are old enough to understand we are told and some taught , that someday we will go to another place called heaven . That we never really die that our soul which is the best in us will be released from this body and we will go to this place that is nothing but good . And if we are not good our souls will be lost and in the dark . And in the fires of Hell some others believe . We are all trying to get to a better place that most of us believe is better then here . And any mistakes that we make we can ask for forgiveness and everything will be alright . We talk often about God the creator or Jesus or many other names for the one that creates all the things that are in the universe . But many have families and the sadness of having them leave this place is a sadness that is remembered at birthdays , Christmas and all the rest . It never seems to go away it is always there in a song a place you once shared with

Where Would We Be If We Had A Better Idea>
Where would we be if we did not invent cars with a combustible engine?What would of happened if the inventers early on thought of a better way of getting us around instead of noisy gas guzzling polluting held hostage by oil company autos ,planes ,jets motorcycles and the rest ? We had a idea and ran with it and for a long time it was great we got to see things because of travel we would of never seen walking . But can you imagine if we went in another direction like magnetic energy . Quiet none polluting renewable energy . I was playing with some neodymium magnets the other day so powerful and so much none polluting power it amazed me . I did the usual. Had them stick together then reversed them and could not put them together they wanted to fly out of hands .Invisible quiet energy . Then I was thinking of the power of how whole planets are held up in the heavens with the north and south poles rotating planets .As well as the gravity and lack of it depending on magnetic fields and size

What If Aliens Were The Transporters Of Our Souls?
One time a few years ago in 1996 my step dad died.We brought him to the hospital on friday and by sunday he was dead he was full of cancer. He had prostate cancer when he in his forties and it came back when he was 73 and it killed him .He had just been complaining for months he was tired all the time and had a doctors appointment .I was at home and in the middle of night a small light came in the window when I was in bed my wife who is now a x wife. And I said what the hell is that light. So I jumped up and went to the window because it was gone. I lived in the country with no neighbors. And thought someone was in my yard with a flash light but know one was there. I went back to bed and when I woke up my wife said are you feeling alright I said yes why she said after I fell asleep a great heat was coming off my body .But when she touched me I was cool to the touch. I thought nothing of it until my mom called with the news my dad was not coming out of the hospital he was full of cancer

What If We Were All Blind.
I have been injured many times. Dislocated my shoulder not bad just 1/4 inch out.It was enough to not be able to lift my arm over my head for 3 months. I have been cut in the cornea of the eye with barbed wired again not enough to lose the eye. But enough to not be able to see out of it for a few weeks . I broke my leg in 4 places at once not being able to walk for awhile . I even lucky me pinched a nerve in my neck to were I could not move at all for three days. All my own fault I am one of those guys who is always doing things I should not be doing and wham I am hurt or bleeding pretty bad . Yes just like alot of guys we are funny that way. Hope aliens do not want to make me have sex with a alien to make a hybrid or the thing won't make it a week when it is old enough to walk. The only thing these things have let me experience and think at the time is. I know what it is like to have limitations but only for a short time .To appreciate it was not forever. Or to never have been able to

Everyone Will Be Abducted Sometime.
I read alot of websites talking of alien abductions. Some tell stories of evil aliens doing all kinds of things to us poor humans. I do believe in abductions from aliens . Some abductions have happened to me in the past and then there will be my final abduction never to return. Just as all who is reading this storie will be abducted. That is if you choose to believe in a God or angels or yes aliens . To me there almost all the same. Even God would be considered a alien. I do not mean any disrespect to God but compared to me he fits in the class of alien . Some people call spirits spirit guides . Again alien to this world. The bible if you have ever read some of it .Talks of angels that glowed outside of Jesus tomb. They did not have the words we have now back then. Years ago if you would travel by horse and I saw some thing in the sky I may call a spaceship a fiery horse that came down from the heavens. Heavens being somewhere in the universe above. Or perhaps call something coming do

Stolen From Friend's (sasquatch Who Got It From Per First)
This turned out annoyingly accurate. Your Gift Is Energy You are easily excitable, and you love to be on the go. You crave intensity.You need to live a dynamic, interesting, and challenging life. Otherwise, you get bored.It's hard for you to relax. You're constantly being inspired to do something.You're the type of person who finds success, innovation, and creativity easy. What's Your Gift?

If You Wanted To Leave This Planet And Could Go See The Universe But Had To Change Bodys Would You?
After hearing and seeing so many things of aliens from other worlds on blogs chat lines tv. Plus having had experiences myself. They all say how cool it would be to travel the galaxies. To go to places that many would never get to see. To be in this spaceship. And I often think these things and agree how great it would be. But I like to make people think by asking strange questions just to hear there answer. My question is if you could leave with the aliens under two conditions. One being you would have to have a alien body. Meaning what most people have called the grays. Little friends from space with large heads and grayish skin big black eyes. That being the body you would need to fly at there speed. Then second question you would never be able to come back and see anyone from this world again. Would you do those two things to travel the galaxies above. They all say no to either of these questions. For me it is different I would do both. It is just funny how into the whole alien thi

Would You Ask Help From Aliens If You Had To Make A Promise?
So as I live in my fantasy world which is pretty comfortable for me and the most fun. I was thinking of my friends from space the aliens as people call them and was wondering. Lets just say with things seeming to be going down the drain world over. I started thinking usually not a good thing but thats what I do being human and all.The planets are lining up at there full magnetic shift on Dec 21,2012. yes the end of the mayan calender . So lets say as this world might be falling apart at the seams . People all over the world start dieing off before there time. Typhons, Hurricans,Floods . The middle east goes to war with Iran it is total kaos. The war that people thought they could win everyone looses.Things are so bad people are on the street with know place to go food is held by the goverment for there own somewhere in bunkers.Where the rest of us cannot get too. The special military that the goverment people have are everywere. Riding around in there special vehicles.Most of us have l

Do Angels Have Angels?
I sit often and look and think of the Universe above . I start to think of how little I know . They say you learn something new everyday even if it's about yourself . I then started thinking do angels have angels . If I am but so limited in my knowledge of understanding of what is up in the heavens are my friends from space just one more step above me and do they have angels above them also . Does God have many levels of spirit teachers to help everything get to a higher level one step at a time of higher knowledge of going to the light which is God . There appears to be no end to the heavens above as well as no end to eternity of learning . So do our friends from space have what we on earth would call a church of learning about the next step up to the light of all things . It is a never ending heaven and does God have many spiritual beings of higher life forms all over the galaxys teaching the levels below ? I myself am just one pebble of knowledge in the desert of the Sahara and as e

Angels The First Step To The Light.
This has been with me and my thoughts for years . Because of selfish ways of man kind and the lack of knowledge of what we know because of our limited mind being born of this world earth . It has given me a different way of thinking then most . I believe there is a creator to all things a God as most would call it. As humans and our tear jerk reactions in bad and uncontrollable situations . I believe as with everything learned there are steps along the way to get to the heavens above . People are brought up in a limited way of thinking you go to first grade then the second and so on to learn until you graduate get a job and live a life that takes many turns . We are also brought up reading religious books to do the write thing and always fail . We are also taught if you do not do these things according to the books we will pay the price fail your exam go to hell and not see God or make it to heaven . We are told and made to believe that when we die and are good we will get to heaven .

What If Everything Was Planted?
Some times when I see all the speculation and findings of the human race .I have to wonder what if we are some kind of experiment . That all the things we have found and then invented to prove how long ago and old they were was all a big joke on us . For instance we find fossils that date back to millions of years old even billions of years old .We invented carbon dating to say if this much time past then this is how long it took to have this result. But what if all the dinosaur bones were planted from a whole other planet and placed down here and just made to look like they were here at one time and it never happened . Just like when I was told of the Easter bunny bringing eggs of chocolate or Santa Claus. So can you imagine if a very high intelligence planted things down here to see what humans would come up with . We would be inventing all kinds of things and thinking we new what we were talking about and be wrong . What a laugh those who would have planted these things would get .

Alienated
Yanno, there is nothing worse then feeling alienated from your family even though you are around them all the time. My sisters boyfriend told me yesterday that my other sister had gotten a loan to get a condo. Cool! When I should be happy for her, why is it hush hush that I know. I knew my mom was going with her somewhere this morning, but didnt know where till my other sisters boyfriend told me. Then he said to me, Tawnya, Remember everything we talk about is between us. That's fine, I have learned so much in the past few weeks that is unreal, I know his g/f my other sister hates me with a passion, but I have always known that. Him and I began talking when she broke up with him a few weeks ago and he really turned out to be a nice person. I knew if they got back together our friendship would be over, but he makes it a point to say hi and ask how I am doing. I am worried about the psych eval tomorrow, the one that is required to get into the transitional place, what if they tell me I

Soul Shine (beth Hart) Awsome!!
Album: 37 DaysWhen you cant find the lightThat guides you through a cloudy dayWhen the stars aint shinin' brightYou feel like you've lost youre wayWhen the candle lights of homeBurn so very far awayWell you got to let your Soul shineJust like my mamma used to sayShe used to say soul shineIt's better than sunshineIt's better than moonshineDamn sure better than rainAnd if the people don't mindWe all get this way sometimesYou got to let your soul shineShine to the break of dayGrowing up I thought that I had it madeI could make it on my ownBut life can take the strongest manMake him feel so aloneNow sometimes I feel a cold windBlowin through my achin bonesI think back to what my daddy saidHe said girl, in the darkest before the dawnLet your soul shineIt's better than sunshineIt's better than moonshneDamn sure better than rainIf the people don't mindWe all get this way sometimesYou got to let your soul shineShine till the break of daySometimes a man can feel this emptinessLike a woman has s

Did We Come From Mars?
I remember seeing pictures that were taking of Mars in 1976 . It appeared to be a picture of a large face on Mars . It reminded me of Egypt . To me it looked like the same faces the Egyptians had on the side of there pyramids . Which looks like the faces on King Tuts coffin . And then we have all heard or most of us have of what appears to be runways in Egypt that can only be seen by plane up over Egypt with what looks like drawings made in the earth as if to show something from above were to land . So why do they look so much alike . It's not like you can see the planet surface of mars from earth or the other way around . So since this planet still has life and that does not . Not that we know of anyway there really is no proof one way or another . But did the Egyptians come from mars and then duplicate what they had on mars down here with those faces .And some of the pictures show what looks like pyramids and when you look at some of the gourds that were found in some of the tombs th

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The Death Of The Oxi-clean Pitch
RIP BILLY Thats right no one could sell over priced crap to over expactant info- mercial shoppers like he could . BILLY YOU WERE THE PIMP SHIZNAT YO! (here is the link to the so yall can read the story-http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,529328,00.html) ***THEY ARE DROPIN LIKE FLYS STUCK IN A ZIPLOCK***

Good Mornings With Good Doggies
I went to bed early last night and slept for hours like a rock. Once I got up I went through the usual routine. Bathroom, start the coffee, start the computer, say good morning to Baxter. Baxter. He's not used to me being up this early. He didn't move when I came into the living room he just laid across the whole couch following me with his eyes as stumbled through the house. I sat down next to him and he lifted up his head so he could rest it on my lap while I petted him. "good morning Baxter. I love you." he wagged his little nub but kept his eyes tightly shut. I scratched his shoulder blades because I know it makes him kick his hind leg. I got up and fixed my coffee. Pured some food in his dish and told him in a happy voice, "Baxter I made you nooba's. Just for the baaaby!"(he's the baby) He lazily looked at me and the started his morning stretches. Hind legs, front legs, back, head shake. He sniffed at the bowl but decided he just wanted water and the gave me the usual signal th

Crashing Down (beth Hart)
Album: 37 dayshell is on to me this desert wants a She black fire becomes the road diving down the dark gold inside my hear black fire begins to blow chorus: I'm crashing down there's no one for miles around crashing down on the road, on the road on the quiet side of the road I begin to run begging for someone bring mercy for my soul Too damn tired to breath I'm too damn scared to scream My will begins to slow (chorus) repeat guess that I just don't know better or I'd change my ways I'd change everything But we all can't live forever So I'll take my fate And swallow whole I can hear his heels the scratching of his tail he's coming for my goldon his chest it reads liars, tramps and thieves and my name is Big and Bold (chorus)

Preludes And Knock Knocks
sometimes when I think i have my life figured out something happens where i get kicked back down to the ground and then kicked in the ribs a few times. my life is a confusing turmoil that no matter how hard I try i can't seem to get things to work out to where everyone involved is happy. i have trouble with giving out my innermost feelings and thoughts because i can't risk opening up without knowing whether or not i'll get hurt in the end. and 90% of the time i end up hurting and trying to cover it all up. i put on my smile and make jokes but the smile is only skin deep the jokes a cheap cover up of what's going on in my head. as my namesake says I'm the joker. and a saying i like to hear is it only takes one bad day to drive the sanest man insane that's how far i am away from that. just one, bad, day.it's hard to stay focused sometimes. my life starts to interfere with my job and that's not good cuz that could get me fired. but i spend 75% of my life on the road working to try to mak

Leveling Requirements
A lot of people are not aware of the requirements for each level after 30, so I am posting them for easy reference. I will do ANGELS first, and then DEMONS. At the bottom of this, I will also be putting the Level 31+ User Agreement. ANGELS Level 31~ 105,000,000 Points Must have had 100 ability points spent on you. Must have been added as family by at least 50 people at time of levelup. Level 32~ 120,000,000 Points Must have at least 25,000,000 fuBucks at time of levelup check. Must have won the spotlight after reaching level 31. Level 33~ 140,000,000 Points Must have been rated 11 by fubar family. Requirement must have been met within the last two weeks and after reaching level 32. Must reach the weekly top score in 1 of the top5 arcade games after reaching level 32. Level 34~ 165,000,000 Points

My Gift
Your Gift is Intellect You are a big thinker, and you're always playing with new ideas. You are curious about the world. You enjoy learning and developing new theories. You enjoy researching, analyzing, and solving problems. Thinking hard feels good! You're the type of person who finds most mental tasks to be easy. You love to stretch your brain. What's Your Gift?

Last Days
Am taking this site down at the end of this week. My last day of FUBAR will be Saturday July 4th. If you want to keep in contact with me I can be reached at terrytti@msn.com for other networks that I am in. If not I understand and wish you the best of luck here in the bar and it was nice having you as a friend.

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wearing MY STUFF @ WWW.CAFEPRESS.COM/JONNYWADD2!I will feature you! We have a new album on our Myspace that will feature you guys wearing MY STUFF @ WWW.CAFEPRESS.COM/JONNYWADD2 !! If you have a picture on your profile that you want to submit in one of our tops, just leave a comment here and we will post you. � Want to email somebody a link to this photo?

Healing
the tears flow freely for now my eyes no longer shine dark they have become a smile is now a faded memory a voice filled with joy has become one of sobs for now time will come when all this will end the healing will begin for me with each day it will erase all the damage done my heart will mend my soul will not die it feels like it now but it will all heal you will become a memory one i will not touch or open again

Virgin Mobile
Grrrrr!!! I'm over my minutes. I had enough money on my account to cover the 3 minutes, so I'm fine. Thing is....starting today I was suppose to have unlimited everything, text and phone calls. They haven't changed it. Normally as soon as it's the 28th [or whatever date is my due date] they change it....and I mean right at midnight. It's been 12 and a half hours since they should have changed it. I have people I need to call and I can't! Blah.

Billy Mays
TAMPA, Fla. – Tampa police say Billy Mays, the television pitchman known for his boisterous hawking of products such as Orange Glo and OxiClean, has died. He was 50. Authorities say Mays was pronounced dead Sunday morning after being found by his wife at home. There were no signs of a break-in, and investigators do not suspect foul play. The coroner's office expects to have an autopsy done by Monday afternoon. Mays' wife, Deborah Mays, says the family doesn't expect to make any public statements and asked for privacy. Mays was also featured on the reality TV show "Pitchmen" on the Discovery Channel, which followed Mays and Anthony Sullivan in their marketing jobs. Who is next?

Mermaids!
Watches Mermaid's emerge gracefully from the depths' Emerging there silky hair off wonder above the cool blue, There shiny scale's reflecting colours off wonder under the sun, Greet them with open arms & loving hearts, Before they Dart. The queen's off the ocean arise, Maybe only once, In the believer's eye's there is no deceit, Guiding the ship's in slowly through storm's dark & strong, If you look beyond the surface of dream's & Fairytales. Sailor's drift slowly buy on there ships off steel, Periscope in hand looking for hope, Salvation & Silky dreams, Green & Blue ocean's are vast, No such thing as a past, Dressed in Ivory white Material they pass. Until the next arrival or sighting of that viscious past, They'll continue there journey, Unswayed By Bitter winds, Storm's & snow may fall, They stand tall on the mast, Time passe's by fast until they reach the last. There Tai'ls off wonder lap gently in the warmth, Sitting upon the rock's watching the docks,

Betrayal Of The Heart
I asked you for one thing never to break my heart you gave me your word stolen moments were all you gave me time became my enemy a prisoner of your words lost alone in your darkness you betrayed my heart i gave it to you freely never again i vow how can i make such a promise it no longer beats in my chest carefully hidden away locked forever listen to you hear it now you made me you wanted someone just like you how happy you must be to know you did it i have become just as you heartless

My Brother, The Soldier
My brother, a soldier.Fifteen long months he'll be gone in Kuwait.My brother off to war at 22 years,known him all my life. Said goodbye in the house,and walked with the family out to the car.Another hug, another goodbye. Starts to leave,I start to cry,and run to his side of the car, he gets out.I wrap my arms around him,like I'm never gonna let go. He tells me its going to be alright,that he's gonna come home.I'm hugging him and crying.Tears stream down my face as my heart's being ripped out. If he dies,I don't know what I'll do.I will be missing him until the day he comes back.If he dies,I'm gonna go down to the world of the dead and bring him back,there's no way I'm going to live without him. My brother the soldier.I love you,don't you dare get yourself killed.I love you and you'll never know how much I do

The Fate Of Human Kind
-Yo, have you ever even tasted life? Or are you satisfied with just black and white? And if you don't quite get what I mean, maybe it's because the only color that you see is GREEN. See, any fool can drop a rhyme on a dime, but when you open up your mind and feel whats inside,... truth, comes out and it's frequently misunderstood, but it's not the body, it's what's under the hood. We like to criticize what's on the outside, erecting walls of lies, for some false sense of pride. It's a damn shame that we have to pass the blame and use other's names in vain, in order to brush away our own pain. It's about time to see this way of thinking, is precisely what's destroying every human being. -So what will you do, to push your way through? There is always more than one way to change, but there is only one way to remain the same. -You have to think, about half the things you haven't seen and then ask yourself, “Is that for me”. How about those things, in life considered most common

Girlfriend Application
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Random Musings Of A Disturbed Mind...
here i sit on this muggy blasphemous sunday morning, the air is so thick you can gargle it. the communist weatherman is calling for thunderstorms. i haven`t mowed my lawn in a week and a half and it`s dense enough to be considered a protected wildlife preservation area... SO WHERE`S MY TAX EXEMPTION?! my coffe has grown cold and vulgar to my sences but it`s too early to drink. i never could abide by consuming alcohol this early in the day, not to mention the fact that my wife will be home from church soon. myself with beer on my breath and my wife have never been a good combination. much like mixing buttermilk with southern comfort and pretending that it`s palletable, hmmmHA! in a totally wretched state my house is! the detritis of the weekend littering every corner. FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST! THERE IS A CAT TIED TO THE CEILING FAN BY IT`S TALE!!! THIS IS NOT NORMAL! NOT EVEN BY MY ECCENTRIC STANDARDS! i`m begining to rethink my "no a.m. drinking" rule... i need a good binge to bri

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A Poem By Unknown Author
This poem was giving to me by the vet when my dog Jasmine passed away on June 6th. It is a very beautiful poem. When you bring a pet into your life, you begin a journey-a journey that will bring you more love and devotion than you have ever known, yet also tests your strength and courage. If you allow, the journey will teach you many things. About life, about yourself, and most of all, about love. You will come away changed forever, for one soul cannot touch another without leaving its mark. Along the way, you will learn much about savoring life's simple pleasures-jumping in leaves, snoozing in the sun, the joys of puddles, and even the satisfaction of a good scratch behind the ears. If you spend much time outside, you will be taught how to truly experiences every element, for no rock, leaf, or log will go examined, no rustling bush will be overlooked, and even the very air will be inhaled, pondered, and noted as being full of valuable information. Your pace may be slower-ex

Where Are You Going-dave Matthews Band
Where are you going? With your long face Pulling down Don't hide away Like an ocean That you can't see but you can smell And the sound of the waves crash down I am no Superman I have no reasons for you I am no hero Oh, that's for sure But I do know one thing Is where you are is where I belong I do know where you go Is where I want to be Where are you going? Where do you go? Are you looking for answers To questions under the stars? Well, if along the way You are grown weary You can rest with me until A brighter day and you're okay I am no Superman I have no answers for you I am no hero Oh, that's for sure But I do know one thing Is where you are is where I belong I do know where you go Is where I want to be Where are you going? Where do you go? Where do you go? Where are you going? Where do you go? I am no Superman I have no answers for you I am no hero Oh, that's for sure But I do know one thing Is here you are is where I belong I do know whe

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Fantasy
Curiousity is said to kill the cat, But for me, it only tantalizes. I have this fantasy, and it often haunts me. It cam about from an actual event that appened in my life, something more of that I saw without meaning too. I should have never seen it, because it wasnt ment for me to see, but I stumbled into it, and found myself profoundly excited. As I walked down the streets of Seattle where I used to live (now in Iowa) I heard noises coming from an open window. Now I am no 'peeping tom' as the saying goes, but I couldnt help but wonder what it was that was happening. SO I crept over, and found the binds cracked open enough for me to see. I saw a man, tired down to his bed, with a woman, tall and seductive with long black hair falling around her body. she was doing a tantalizing dance in front of the man, pouring liquid latex over her skin. Her tits were large and round, curved luciously, and the swell of her hips almost made my own mouth water. I watched as the latex slid down her bod

Within Temptation - Our Farewell
In my handsA legacy of memoriesI can hear you say my nameI can almost see your smileFeel the warmth of your embraceBut there is nothing but silence nowAround the one I lovedIs this our farewell?Sweet darling you worry too much, my childSee the sadness in your eyesYou are not alone in lifeAlthough you might think that you areNever thoughtThis day would come so soonWe had no time to say goodbyeHow can the world just carry on?I feel so lost when you are not by my sideBut there's nothing but silence nowAround the one I lovedIs this our farewell?So sorry your world is tumbling downI will watch you through these nightsRest your head and go to sleepBecause my child, this not our farewell.This is not our farewell.

M.i.a - Short Sweet, 2 The Point!
Hello Luvlies! I never write these things with "this is what's going on in my life" stuff... but so many of you have sent gifts and etc. with question marks and questions as to why I'm Missing In Action... Beginning of May I decided to move again... the hole of a basement apartment I thought that I could call "home" (at least for a little while to pay off some student loans) was intolerable... I was miserable.... you can ask just about anyone... Well, one of my coworkers told me of a lil farm house on a 200 acre horse farm that was for rent... and decently cheap. I went to see it... and immediately... fell in love. They told me to "fix it up"... take it off the rent... they'd install cabinets... new appliances... it has a brand new bathroom as it is... I was in heaven. For those of you who have never taken on a big project such as a complete flip of a house or makeover.. It's not easy... it's time consuming... and your body aches in places you had NO IDEA you could ache... (which

Witness
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Each day I listen to my heartMapping a path for our possible love startMy head speaks and so does my heartFeelings of mine for you wish not to departWith millions of gadgetsSpread across the planetNone of them can measure the wayMy heart feels about you each dayBaby, Listen to my heart! Will you be my sweetheart? Baby, Listen to my heart! Our heartbeats shouldn’t be beating apartHeart to heart We can build us bridges of loveHeart to heartWe can sing our songs of loveHeart to heartWe can trust in this thing called loveEach day I listen to my heartMy heart has constantly infinitely spokenEach time it beats for you a work of artOnly you can heal parts that are brokenBaby, Listen to my heart! Will you be my sweetheart? Listen to its instant drummingGlisten to its constant hummingBaby, Listen to my heart! Our heartbeats shouldn’t be beating apart

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My Damaged Heart
For my heart there is no cure For my heart that once was pure For my heart now beats for you In my heart a new tear has grew In my heart there is a pain In my heart that’s not the same With my heart I cry for you With my heart I never knew With my heart I die in pain Now my heart will never hurt again.

Love
When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is when you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not a part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try. You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to f

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"What is Love?" you ask it's a feeling in both mind and body A passion, a chemistry one might say longing to be near, close laughter and sharing Eyes filled with devotions, Not wanting to imagine life without the other, Doing nothing together and having the best time Well, I think you know the answer already Listen to your Heart and you will hear the answer ,,,it's there just listen closely and it will be very clear..

I'm A Nice Guy!
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b

Dept Of Energy
Absolutely the funniest joke ever......ON US!!! Let it sink in. Quietly we go like sheep to slaughter. Does anybody out there have any memory of the reason given for the establishment of the DEPARTMENT OF ENERGY during the Carter Administration? Anybody? Anything? No? Didn't think so! Bottom line... we've spent several hundred billion dollars in support of an agency... The reason for which not one person who reads this can remember. Ready??????? It was very simple... And at the time everybody thought it very appropriate... The 'Department of Energy' was instituted on 8- 04-1977 TO LESSEN OUR DEPENDENCE ON FOREIGN OIL. Hey, pretty efficient, huh????? AND NOW ITS 2009, 32 YEARS LATER AND THE BUDGET FOR THIS NECESSARY DEPARTMENT IS AT $24.2 BILLION A YEAR

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Survey Body: 1.Who is the last person you held hands with? my best friend 2.If you were drafted into a war, would you survive? I won't get drafted 3.Do you sleep with the TV on? Sometime 4.Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton? Yes 5.Have you ever won a spelling bee? yes 6.What is your longest fight with one of your friends? months still going 7.Have you ever stuffed your bra? never needed to 8.Are you afraid of the dark? No 9.Have you prank called someone? yes 10.Who can you always turn to? my mom 11.When is the last time you took a bubble bath? last night 12.Who was the last person you hung out with?some creep 13.Are you drinking anything right now? dr.pepper 14.Who are you thinking of right now?my kids 15. Do you talk in your sleep?sometimes 16. Have you ever flown a kite?A long time ago 17.What do you want for Christmas?to visit my friend in arkasas 18. Do you know the muffin man? yes i do 19.What are you looking forward to? the weekend 20.Have yo

Leaving Fubar
To all I have met here it has been a pleasure & lots of fun. I got to know many of you on a personel level & shared many of lifes dissapointments & blessings for that I am grateful. There comes a time in ones life to move on to the more important things in life. It is my time to move on. Thank you so much each everyone in the words of Jimmy Hendrix "If I don't see you again in this world I will see you in the next one & don't be late" God Bless

My Moms Potato Soup
Cheryls Potato Soup 5 lb bag of potatoes , you can leave the skins on if you like . chopped into squares 1 lg onion , chopped 3 to 4 celery , chopped 3 to 4 carrots , chopped 6 chicken boullion cubes Green tabasco sauce a few dashes 1 1 b Block Velvetta Jalpenpo Milk and Salt and Pepper Yellow cap Mrs Dash Chop all vegetables . Cover with water add bullion cubes & Mrs Dash Salt and Pepper and cook til vegetables are tender . When Vegetable are cooked tender add mik til water is white then add velvetta til melted . And Enjoy ! My family loves this . You can also Just make plain patote soup by not adding the cheese . Thicken with a slurry of flour and water mixed in a cup and added to water and milk at boiling to thicken .

Changes In Settings
Another blog not many people will read, but they'll ask questions, so I'll just send them to read this. From now on only my family will be able to send me shouts, and only my friends will be able to send me PM's. The reason why I'm doing this is because my shoutbox gets flooded all the time, so I miss a lot of messages from my real friends. If you're not on my family and you have something to say, PM me, if you're not on my friends list, add me, I add pretty much everyone. Now as for my family, the only reason I could add someone is because I feel like it, and adding me to your family won't automatically get you into mine. This way I'm hoping not to miss any messages, at least PM's don't just disappear. Thanks for understanding.

Realitizations
I've come to the realitization that I have some pretty sorry ass aunts and uncles on my mom's side of the family. My mom's parents are still both alive and are in their late 80s to early 90s..Granted, I don't see my grandparents as often as I should (I was raised particularly by my dad's mother who has been gone for 9 yrs now), I do tend to see them more then their own children. The same can be said for 2 of their other grandchildren. They have 7 children in all, 4 daughters and 3 sons. The 2 oldest daughters, my mom being the oldest are retired and stay with my grandparents rotating days of the week. 2 of the sons have just started staying off and on within the last week, but no clue how long that will last. While the other son lives in Alabama, so that is understandable. The 2 youngest daughters can't "bare" to see their parents like this. They feel that they should be put in a nursing home, so they just don't show up anymore unless they drop by to inspect things. These two

Once Upon A Star
ONCE UPON A STAR............... I gaze up at the sky each night and find the brightest star. It's always waiting there for me so close, but yet so far. The star winks in the evening sky and reaches out to me. It magically appears each night for all the world to see. I've wished upon this special star my whole life through, it seems. I've closed my eyes and made my wish of hopes, and plans, and dreams. And then, one day I got my wish for I finally met you. You are that someone special who's made all my dreams come true. So now whenever we're apart I find that same bright star. It makes me feel so close to you no matter where you are

On Dreams Of Perfect Love
ON DREAMS OF PERFECT LOVE.................A misty sunrise fills the east With yellow, gold and red. The bowl of space a palest blue, Sheds light upon our bed. The warmth beside my soul, a feast Of love for only you. So let the birds, with song, remain Within the morning hours, To pour upon the crisp, new day A hope, like cleansing showers. For you I send refreshing rain To wash the past away. A quiet breeze so warm and slow, Has drifted â€˜cross my face. It brings the scents from flower climbs, And leaves without a trace. It stirred this battered heart, you know, To love this perfect time. Like whispers lost at sea, we soar Beyond the sky of fire. Together. Lost together, free To claim our each desire. Like leaves we float to earth, once more To close our eyes and be"

Night Dreams
Night Dreams.........I want to take a romantic trip with you,To fly way up into the heavens so blue.Where the sky is always crystal clear,And the harps of the angels we can hear.To be free from all the stress of life,Enjoying time together as man and wife.To gaze upon all of the stars in the sky,To watch the clouds as they go drifting by.Beautiful mountains that rise up in the air,A guitar and a piano, just sitting there.Waiting for someone to play a melody,For two lovers hearts forever free.This vision appears in my night dreams,The balcony aglow with lovely moon beams.To be anywhere at all my darling with you,If indeed, our dreams do come true.Is this a possibility for you and I,Or is it only in our dreams we can fly.When I go to sleep I envision us there,Youre arms holding me with tender care.Then ever so softly your lips touch mine,Magical moments spent with you so divine.My heart wanting it to really come true,Time spent alone, just me and you.Can a heavenly fantasy become a reali

First Kiss
FIRST KISS........................ You leaned over and you kissed meI felt my knees go weakYou leaned over and you kissed meI couldn't even speakYou leaned over and you kissed meWith a passion flowing freeYou leaned over and you kissed meSparks flew that we could seeYou leaned over and you kissed meA touch so soft and tenderYou leaned over and you kissed meA kiss I would rememberYou leaned over and you kissed meI'm sure I kissed you backYou leaned over and you kissed meWith the fire no kiss should lackYou leaned over and you kissed meYou left me wanting moreYou leaned over and you kissed meMy soul you did exploreYou leaned over and you kissed meMy heart no longer full of painYou leaned over and you kissed meDarling, kiss me once again.

If Only You Knew
If Only You Knew ...................................You are my everything, my one and onlyWith out you, I just feel too damn lonelyI adore the sound of your voice and your beautiful smileThat is why thinking about you makes it all worth whileI dont know why I do the things I doMaybe it's because I love you.You are the greatest thing that's ever happened to meWhen I try and dream at night youre all I ever seeI try to remember the good times we hadKnowing you're not with me makes me very sadI would do absolutely anything for youThat is why I love you the way I do. I try to imagine how things would beIf you were here right now with meWatching movies or just hanging outCause baby, that's what I'm all aboutYou know that I am always here for youThru all the good and bad.

Love Is
LOVE IS.......... It's having someone to be withSomeone you can't be withoutIt's wanting to hold them every secondThat's what its all about.It's the happiness you feelWhen everythings gone wrongIt's the way you sit thereAnd think of crazy love songs.It's the sadness in your heartWhen you know their not thereIt's the safeness you haveWhen you are feeling scared.It's the hope you haveWhen everythings goneIt's the dreams you hold When your alone.It's having someone to talk toWhen noone else is listeningIt's being so in loveThat nothing in your life is missing.It's knowing I love youAnd I'll love you foreverIt's thinking of you every secondThats what true love is!

Love Is
Love Is... Love is the way you kiss me so deep, the moans you make my heart skips a beat.love is the way you hug me tight.Love is the way we make love at night.Love is the way you make me feel.Love is the way you make my life real.Love is touching your skin.Love is where dreams begin.Love is the accent in your voiceLove gives me no choice.Love is the moments we share.Love is knowing that you care.Everything I say or do...it's because Ifell in love with you.

Angels
ANGELSSeek an angel with an open heartand you will find one.The way you know an angelis by your feeling.Angels may not always come when you call them,but they always come when you need them.An angel is someone who helps you believein miracles again.Sometimes you know angels only by the miraclesthey have blossoming in their pathsafter they have gone.An angel is someone you're always happyto bump into.An angel is someone whoraises your spirits.An angel is someone you feel you've knownforever even though you've just met.An angel is someone who helps you grow.Angels make you feel welcome in this world.Angels encourage your best qualitiesand hidden talents.Angels give you those gentle pats on the backwhen you sometimes need to keep going.Angels give you direction.Angels gently push you out of your little selfand into the broad arena of love.Angels remind you that you are enough.Angels help you see your life in a better light.An angel is someone who brings out the best in you.

Dream Lover
Dream Lover ............Reach out your handAnd place it gently in mineLet us become oneAs ours souls intertwineThe night surrounds usFilled with the starsAs we danced under the moonAnd make love in the darkYour kisses like velvetYour touch like silkAs we envelope each other And create a love stiltLet our bond be unbroken And lasts many nightsFrom the beginning to the endNever losing its sightSo if by chance we let goAnd drift slowly apartLet the love we endeavoredContinue silently in our hearts

A White Rose
A White RoseThe red rose whispers of passion,And the white rose breathes of love;O, the red rose is a falcon,And the white rose is a dove.But I send you a cream-white rosebudWith a flush on its petal tips;For the love that is purest and sweetestHas a kiss of desire on the lips.

Eve
Eve was unique. She's the only gal who didn't have to go through puberty, peer pressure, or pimples. When she and Adam met, she didn't have to wonder, is this the right man for me? No mother-in-law or father-in-law conflicts. A romance, marriage, honeymoon and home life that was made in paradise. Eve had it all... well, almost all. Why is it we aways want what we don't have?

I Wish You Could Have Known Me
I wish you could have known me when I was young. When I looked more like a girl than a boy. When hope and pure sweetness was still in my heart. I wish you could of known me when I was 4’ 11” for 3 years of my life. Wondering if I would grow to be tall enough to reach the lips of the first one I would kiss. I wish you could have known the love I held inside that helped me to see the beauty in everything. To have compassion and trust that should neverbe broken and a love for the one I was spoken. To give to the one true love for which I would cherish. I wish you could have known the boy before he became a man. I wish you could

Getting Old
An 80-year-old man went for a physical. All of his tests come back normal. The doctor said, "George, everything looks great. But, how are you doing mentally and emotionally? Are you at peace with God?" George replied, "God and I are tight. He knows I have poor eyesight, so he's fixed it so when I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, poof! The light goes on. When I'm done , poof! The light goes off." "Wow, that's incredible," the doctor said. A little later in the day, the doctor called George's wife. "Ethel," he said, "George is doing fine, but I had to call you because I'm in awe of his relationship with God. Is it true that when he gets up during the night to go to the bathroom that, poof!, the light goes on in the bathroom, and when he's done!, poof!, the light goes off?" "Oh, my Lord!" Ethel exclaimed, "He's peeing in the refrigerator again!"

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Immortal Sonnets Pt.2
NAKED, YOU ARE SIMPLE AS ONE OF YOUR HANDS, SMOOTH, SOFT, WARMING.. EARTHY AND SMALL, TRANSPARENT AND ROUND.. MOVE IN MOTIONS TO FLESH WE MOAN SOUNDS, AROUND YOUR HALF MOON LINES, APPLE PATHWAYS, NAKED, YOU ARE SLENDER AS A NAKED GRAIN OF WHEAT IN HEATS OF ME......

Eh.
Just me and you, With the world in our hands, So say what you want I'm really not who you think I am, I keep the ones that make me sane, So stop telling me I'm not who you thought I would be And I'm so much better now that I'm far from you, This passion drowns our need for love Don't you ask me any questions. Just come on and follow me Through the wires and ocean bottoms, Through the skies and empty rooms. From the pit of my stomach Coming out through my throat, Regret and failure, The need to keep you coming back for more. And this is all still so new to me, Our eyes have lost their color. And now I'm trying, I'm trying to keep my balance. But there is nothing, there's nothing to keep me steady. And I'll hold myself up. And I'm so much better now that I'm far from you, This passion drowns our need for love. No, we can't stop even if we wanted to.

No Need For Comparison
"Nothing is good or bad but by comparison." -- Thomas Fuller We are each unique, so comparing ourselves to others serves no purpose. Even comparing myself to how I was a while back is not usually helpful. Typically, comparison just brings the ego a false sense of either superiority or inferiority. If we let go of comparison and choose instead to completely accept where we are, we can enjoy both peace and growth. "Do not judge and you will never be mistaken." -- Jean Jacques Rousseau

Immortal Sonnets Pt.1
FULL... WOMAN, CARNAL APPLE, LUNA CALIENTE.. HOT MOON, THICK SMELL OF SEAWEED, CRUSHED MUD AND LIGHT, WHAT OBSCURE CLARITY OPENS BETWEEN YOUR COLUMNS.. IMMORTAL ANCIENT NIGHT DOSE MAN TOUCH WITH HIS SENSES... LOVING IS A VOAGE WITH FIRE AND STAR'D CLOUDS, WITH SUFFOCATING AIR AND BRUSQUE STORMS RAGE LIGHTNINGS... LOVING IS A BATTLE OF LIGHTNING BOLTS, AND TWO BODIES, CLASH OVERCOME BY ONE HONEY... KISS BY KISS

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HERE..HERE I SAY...THE HEART OF POETRY HAS NOT YET DIED..FOR US NEED NEVER DIE..DREAM... THE SUMMER SCREEN RETURNS YEARN..AND THE AENEID OF AGE OLD..BLOWING VICTOR IN MORNINGS TO COME..MERGING NOW WITH ALL I LEAVE IN THE WAKE OF MY STEPS..MY HEART IS LODGED IN POETRY AND ITS ADVENTURE..FREELY...WITH ALL I LEAVE IN MY WAKE..POETRY COMES..ANGLE OR DEMON..POETRY COMES FREELY LIKE A BIRD IN THE CLOUDS..I OFFER IT THE SKY..AND IT ALIGHTS FIERCELY ON MY HEAD AND EATS..WHAT IS AGNOSTIC IN ME..BUT NOW ITS NOT JUST THE DAWN..NOT JUST THE SONG OF BIRDS BREEZE..NOT JUST ME..MY PAIN..MY GAIN.. POETRY COMES...HERE..I'LL TELL OF COASTAL WAVES AND THE REVOLUTION..HERE POETRY COMES WITH A BEAUTIFUL SWIFT SWORD OF MY ARMS BLOOD IT FLOWS...WHO AM I..WHO HEARS THE DREAM OF MY CURSED YOUTH FOR WHOM DO I SPEAK..AND THAT OF ME WALKS THE FIGHT THO LIVES DEMISED IN SHEETS OF WHITE WE GRIEF..WE CARRY THEIR EXSISTENCE IN ACTION IN SPEECH..WHAT EAR WILL SAY YES TO MY WORDS..THE MOUTH OF THE POET FILLS WITH ANTS

11's Auction
hey all my auction ends at 9am central time-- almost up.... you get a bonus gift if you are the winner-- this is for 200 daily 11's to be given sunday and monday of this week- only one bid so far-- so please come bid-- thank u. http://fubar.com/myimages.php?albumid=1744994 if the link does not work just go to my pics and its in a folder there

Growing Up
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probaly will. You will have your heart broken probaly more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for something an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing to fast, and eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happyness you'll never get back.

Widow Creepers
widow creepers come here golden boy and piss in my tea lets go on the roof and talk about the birds and the bees ill touch you there and you'll stroke my hair lets lace our fingers and call it fair let me stand on your head while you're holding my thighs lets have some cake and eat with no plates ill sit on the grass while you bathe in my sweat I'll close my eyes once you change your mind you'll open your eyes till my bodies nude and wet I'll try not to be shy but i cant help the rose in my cheeks lets lace hands and call it fair ill kiss your lips while you touch me there ill shut my mouth and wont make a peep ill keep it a secret before your words cheat golden boy come here and piss in my tea i prefer the bitter truth then the careless words that sound so sweet we'll grow old you'll be deaf and ill be mute lets be physical than talk cheap i'll fight you while you hold me tight touch me here while i touch you there

Simple Ritual For Forgiveness (from A Friend)
On a day devoted to the energies surrounding a state of forgiveness, I'd like to share a way to forgive and forget without ever having to confront the offender in person. If old wounds are making it harder for you to move forward in your life than this would be the perfect day to realize that the pen really is mightier than the sword. Take a pen filled with red ink and write a letter to anyone who has harmed or wronged you in your life. Write everything you feel and whatever will offer you a release from this hostage situation. Don't worry about anyone actually seeing this letter because you're not mailing it. But write it as if you were standing in front of whoever hurt you, whether dead or alive. Purge, purge, purge, and then purge some more. When you are finished writing put it into a red envelope and place in anywhere inside the 'Family/Friends and Ancestors' area. Put a healthy and flowering green plant on top of it and leave it there for 27 days. On the 27th day, take the letter

Dirty Valentine
Hey everyone,If you haven't picked up your copy of my band ONE's new album DIRTY VALENTINE. Be sure to and get a package deal for both albums TODAY!!!!http://michaelsucar.googlepages.com/dirtyvalentinealbum

A Stupid Man Said Here
I have to leave my mark of opinion in light of recent of events; some trivial, others monumental in the aspect of our world. I defer to he who said it best, and fitting, somewhat omniscent his words; as our world so many decades later seems to fall in the embrace of what Thoreau was convicted by then. Let it find you and quesiton it. "The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate county, and have to console yourself with the bravery of minks and muskrats. A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things." Henry David Thoreau Walden

Never Hate
You don't care you say never did. Hope ur bitch as dead. Fucked me over for wantin fun on ur self. You bitch i can't believe how you played me to selfless trick u prick don't amaze me. I hate you fuckin hate you if i ever say i fuckin knock ur dayum face in. Chop of ur neck bloody code bitch. How the fuck are you just gonna play me put me throught ur shit wantin off at my dick whore. Thought it would be me n you v.i.c.k.i but it's not someday hope ur ass gets it skank. Beat you dead with a shovel put ur body in the trunk smellin like a skunk with ur seepin funk. Hope you die never wonder why. Can't believe how you put me down. Fhuck you i fuckin hate you fuck you don't give a shit who are you fuck you never thought it have to be like this. But you decided to turn ur back u faceless fat like crack beat ur ass put you down on thumbtacks bleedin ain't what you sold to leedin. What made you ever wanna turn on me idk why i always knew my life was dayum lie fuckin life that should've never

Unfathomable"
Love is everywhere,yet elusive at the same time it is basic,yet complicated. For those who find it,in its purest form,cherist it,care for it. For those who continue to look for it,strive to stay perceptive.and never settle for anything less than the real thing!!!

A Perspective
A perspective by Walter Richters I see the world these days in a different light. It’s like a carnival ride with no safety harness. We’re all hanging on to the sides while some of us stand watching below, oblivious to the danger. Some of us disbelieve. We replace the facts with a comfortable fiction. A fiction made to resemble our happiest memories. Though our memories may be fictitious also. Some of us hang on to our ideals like a sword made of paper in a world that would burn it up in a flash. Some of us build a defense based on the truth that lye’s beyond the horizon line. But for that self protection, we have sacrificed innocence and the bliss that comes with ignorance. The knowledge burns into our minds and leaves a scar. And there are those of us whose inner peace can withstand an earthquake. Those of us who can know of the evils out there waiting for us; and accept it with an uncanny weightlessness. Maybe it’s because to those of us, death

Cry Of The Hippie
Cry of the hippie Silly man Jack Silly man Jack They told you in the 60’s But you didn’t listen The brothers fighting and dying The cousins loving and crying The war bringing hell home to your doorstep What has ever really changed? Tell me Pappy Jack, tell me something Tell me why ideals cost so much blood Tell me why countries hate so much Tell me why hate is just a crutch protecting us all from fear I see them jeer I try to steer away

I Said Goodbye To The Rage
I said goodbye to rage I stood in his face in the rain I faced down his heat, his power, and his ability to destroy And I turned away from him I was suddenly vulnerable to sadness I was vulnerable to despair All the old memories haunted me and tore into my heart I began to look back I kept walking forward My strongest fears called out to me

Insanely Long
It has been insanely long to wait for a world where we can all be different and all be as one gigantic family. It still hasn’t happened yet. Everybody’s guard is still up. But we’re close. If President Obama is any kind of indicator, we are close. The stubborn and the narrow minded will still cling to their hate and their violence. But the rest of us; most of us, will learn to love and live freely in a civilized kinship. We will look on the mistakes of our fathers as ones simply not to make ourselves. We will know better. Love grows, hate destroys. We will know what is unacceptable and we will not accept. We will bond, we will bury, and we will know our brothers and sisters and love them.

The Cold Chill
The Cold Chill by Walt Richters I stand alone in the darkness and cover of trees Losing sight of the world crumbling The world mumbling The world crying for help I walk along under an old street light, watching my breath I see a homeless woman I let out a sigh She has more strength than I The moon is covered in cloud, as snow falls A grin crosses my face I forget about the disgrace… About the forgotten place of my elders Kick the snow Crack an ice puddle

The Living Sadness
The living sadness, by Walter Richters (2009) Just a kid inside, standing next to a man inside Just a unique personality, trying to hold back on the pride Just the flannel shirt kid from 1988 With howdy doody hair, and nothing that was great A whirlwind of life, a roller coaster from hell Pain not worth remembering, and punishing if I dwell From 13 to 33, what the hell happened to it all From rise to fall to rise to fall Still today Im a hobbit in a hole A single overgrown child, afraid to face his role A man with a big heart who could have been a great father But who was too critical of his own life to even try and bother So 20 years later I am still Wally to my friends

The Not So Simple Plan
The not so simple man, by Walt Richters He’s a man in his thirties He’s never done much worth writing home about He’s inspired few people with thoughtful words from his heart He’s written few poems down on old yellow paper They say he has a nice smile, but he won’tHe’s afraid of his imperfections As a child he felt embarrassment He tries not to feel that again He has a an eclectic taste in entertainment He lives for containment He is a hobbit by nature But He is Beorn the bear man when those he loves are hurt His heart is squishy with melodrama His thoughts are in line with his heart

The Room
The room, By Walter Richters It was 1994 and he was 18 A lunatic of emotion trapped in a room He felt safe there But he harbored despair The truth was outside his window Life was going on without him So he sat there listening to his alternative albums Pearl Jam Vitalogy, The Cranberries But then life came soon Caught unaware Unprepared He was not ready It was 2009 and he was 33. The only true education he had was learned hard

The Window
Take a look out the window See the world in wait with falling leaves See the world in silent panic See the world needing an answer Walk outside your door Breathe in the chilly air under gray clouds Breathe in the tension from behind locked doors Breathe in wonderment as to how things became so bad Walk down the street Walk the walk of a million starving souls Walk the walk of a person about to die Walk the walk of a leader with a million pound decision to make Sit down on the bench Sit down knowing your faith is upon high Sit down and delegate your stress to your higher power Sit down and rest knowing that true strength is give

This Country Is Divided
This Country is divided into fragments. Democrats and Republicans slash at each others throats. Different races of man keep hate alive for each other. Science and Faith battle continuously. And among the Different Faiths, so many heads have fallen by the knife. The Rich and the poor are from different worlds. The Rich look down on the poor, the poor begrudge the rich. Gangs spill one another’s blood over territory and money. How can we as a Country stand when we are so divided amongst ourselves that our foundation is fractured completely? If we hold onto our hate, our greed, our jealousy, and our ignorance, then in time the Eagle may fall to the ground for good, and never take flight again.

Tragic Stand
Tragic stand by Walter Richters Head bowed down Pain and frown and tear The buildings all around are on fire The buildings all around are crumbling Children cry in terror Their mommies aren’t there Can’t find them anywhere They’re fighting the invasion Death of a Nation Overflow comes the enemy Overload comes the cannon America and apple pie burn down The souls of our founding fathers turn over The spirits of the young get older All the bickering seems a waste

We Are Not Prepared
We are not prepared By Walter Richters It is the calm before the storm I smell water but the air is still Everything is quiet I know it is coming We all walk around trying to ignore the sudden calm As long as we have shopping malls and fast food.. Then we have the illusion As long as we stay tuned out.. Then we don’t have to know But eventually what happens thousands of miles away hits our door steps This is a world in crisis A horizon on fire So many are not prepared for this Tragedy awaits like wolves, and we are sheep

With What Ive Got
With what I’ve got Just these two hands and my willpower Just this lackluster body and my courage Just this scarred mind and my vision Just what I have in my pocket and my character Just my broken heart and my determination Just my ailing health and my compassion Just my broken waddling walk and my resolve Just my strange demeanor and my endurance These are all I have to face the world with So much of the world only see’s me So little of the world actually knows me But with what I’ve got, I will go out and do what is right It is how I can sleep at night And I hope that some of it makes a difference

Might Go For The Big One.
So Pk and I were talking about how I have had this account since 2006 and I havent even come near Godfather,but she did it in like a month.Now I know that my friend making skills has nothing to do with it b/c I am loved everywhere I go.And I am online EVERY second of EVERY day.So it must be that I have never had the spotlight.I am kinda worried that if I go for it I will end up saying something offensive and get deleted so it will all be for not.Now I know all three of you that read this are thinking JUST DONT SAY SOMETHING STUPID!!!It isnt that easy.It is almost impossible for me not to.I am driven to piss someoen off.I LOVE IT.I think I just need to come up with a really clever way of being offensive and I could get through it.But then again that might defeat the purpose of me getting Spotlight.I wont get any rates,but I dont care.Still not helping me Godfather.See I have already given this way more thought than I would normally care to give,but the chance to piss off a SHITLOAD of

Learning To Live
Lyrics are a bit off because it's a live performance but you get the idea... I keep my head on straightAnd my eyes wide openI try to move forwardWishing and hopingI took a hold of myselfIn the middle of NovemberDon't you look back nowIs all I can rememberI feel like I'm leavingLike I'm leaving homeLike he clouds are parting, and I'm not alone[Chorus 1]I'm learning to liveLiving to learnStarting to sing my songRight, or wrongBreaking awaySetting me freeFree to be, my own meI'm learning to liveI got my vanity crisisFrom my beautiful motherI'm not gonna go thereI'm anything otherTake another deep breath nowIt's just one more hurdleI'm breaking this lineBefore it comes full circleI feel like I'm leavingLike I'm leaving homeLike he clouds are parting, and I'm not alone[Chorus 2]I'm learning to liveLiving to learnStarting to sing my songRight, or wrongBreaking awaySetting me freeFree to be, my own meI found a place, where I can lay my shit downSomewhere that I can finally be myself - be mys

The Kiss
the kiss looking into your eyes i see your pain i see your love i look closer and see the heart that beats forever wanting and yearning for love i draw in closer to feel your breath against my lips it takes my breath away our heads meet and touch they roll together and i can smell your perfume i lean in abot closer and can feel you shake you breathing quickens when our lips bearly tuch as they do oour lips part and we kiss deeper and deeper till we are holding eachother soclose we feel like we are one looking into your eyes our lips pressed against each others a deep kiss that will bring a tear to your eye when it over but it ever will be as long as your with me this kiss will last forever in our hearts and minds even when i am gone

Over You....
Lonelier tonight than a sinking stone I can hardly breath I am drowning in the dark wrong is never right still I'm breaking bones & every part of me I hear the pounding of my heart Mama I can hardly wait take a little chance on fate chew it up and spill it out Finally see what love's about chorus: I'm living loving laughing over you Tossing Turning Trying over you Kicking Screaming Crying over you Wanting Needing Dying to get over you Mama always said that “you'll know better When you do grow up” “all you gotta do is breath” “Take a little look inside yourself & see what turns you on and then you will finally see” Well mama I can hardly wait to take a little chance on fate Kick it up into the sky

I'm Turning All Fat And Greedy.
This is no joke btw... I couldn't sleep last night because I knew there was custard slices in me fridge. I went to bed about 11:30PM, and i kept waking up and going downstairs getting drinks. I eventually woke up properly at 3:44 am. And I'm sure it's 'cause there's custard slices in the fridge, because even now, as Im typing this I'm thinking about them. Am I a pregnant man or something? :|

Night And Day
Writer(s): cole porter Like the beat beat beat of the tom-tom When the jungle shadows fall Like the tick tick tock of the stately clock As it stands against the wall Like the drip drip drip of the raindrops When the summer shower is through So a voice within me keeps repeating you, you, you Night and day, you are the one Only you beneath the moon or under the sun Whether near to me, or far Its no matter darling where you are I think of you Day and night, night and day, why is it so That this longing for you follows wherever I go In the roaring traffics boom In the silence of my lonely room I think of you Day and night, night and day Under the hide of me Theres an oh such a hungry yearning burning inside of me And this torment wont be through Until you let me spend my life making love to you Day and night, night and day There's much more I wish I could say, but the technology seems to be against me today.

Isolation...
so you think i'm crazy want to take me away inject me with electric shock i'm not going nowhere hear what i say loud and clear reveal your sly intentions and free my isolation a second longer say it's alright a second longer say it's alright a second longer i'll be insane the second i become you and what you say run your wires through me fry electricity gas me till i pass on out you will not control me with your failed philosophies weep to ease the tension and free my isolation a second longer say it's alright a second longer say it's alright a second longer i'll be insane the second i become you and what you say lost my mind today it was my desire i told them what was wrong but they called me a liar yeah, they called me a liar i am not afraid why should i care what they say i told them they were wrong still they called me a liar so i set 'em on fire a second longer say it's alright what your gonna say PS: Thank you Lewis love, for helping me figure this out! LOL!

The Prs Are Greedy F*ckers.
You can't even use project playlist now. First they stopped Youtube vid's in certain countries and now it's music on project playlist! Why are they so horrible to us UK folks? I mean, it's not like we're doing anything different to you US folks is it... we're only putting music on our pages, same as you guys and gals. So unless I'm missing a point, could someone please explain to me why o' why are playlists unavailable to people in the UK? I'm not very cognizant with the reasons :| I think it's another classical case of fat cats been greedy assholes again, but me could be wrong, it does happen sometimes... Discuss? :|

Truckin
when i became a driver over 20years a go. little did i know tht it would take over my life when you frist start driving a truck you will enjoy it because u get to see the country and gst paid while doing so . but after a few years goes by like weeks ,afer 5 years it truns into a real job ,lot of rules and regs we have to abide by the regular person dont understand what a trucker goes thru on our job its more than driving tht truck. any minkey drive . but in the truckin world if one thing goes worng its on the driver nomatter whoes at fault,most of us stay out 3 to 4 weeks with out seeing home , or having a good meal to eat . truckstops suck they dont really care 4 the driver they just wont our money,, just like the doy police and lets dont 4 get the company,if one thing is wrong with our paper work it could hold it up and we mite not get paid on friday ,well thts not even half of it but thts trucking in a nut shell

Fine Pussy Needed
WHATS UP FUCKERS? NEED TO FIND SOME SEXY FEMALES TO BE MY FRIEND,LOVER,SEX KITTEN,ETC. MUST BE HOT!! {NO FAT CHICKS}BIG TITTIES,PREFURED BUT NOT NESECARY.BUT MUST LOVE TO ROCK OUT,AND FUCK HARD!!! AND I NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME HOW TO UPLOAD MY MUSIC ON HERE??????...................LUKE

Indescriable
I was talking to another coworker today about how things have been going down on my end. For a while at work, I wouldn't talk to anyone. I would just keep quiet. People could tell I was upset and kept asking me what was wrong but I wouldn't talk. That was about two months ago maybe? I've been slowly talking more at work, but yet a lot of stuff are on my mind. But anyways, I was telling her about the whole deal. I was telling her when I had this long serious talk with Rich. During that talk, I was crying and explaing how I was feeling again and how I don' tthink things are working out and that I didn't want to be with him anymore. I told him that I couldn't see us starting a family or having any kids. And he got mad at me for that. How could he even want to bring children into the world with how the relationship has been so unhealthly? Yeah I want kids...but not in a time like this. She asked me how did Rich take it. He didn't cry, shed a tear or anything. He talked calmly and one th

Boring Day
Work was just blah...people said that I looked good in a white shirt....but it's nothing that I'd wear often. Im starting to have a cold...ugh..hopefully it goes away by tomorrow. I don't want to be sick on my days off. I'm gonna drown myself in cold medicane before I go to bed. Was happy that I didn't have to work with that cunt today...yay...I got my yearly review. I ranked at highly successful, highly successful and then successful...The highest you can be is highly successful........yay me..I so rock. Rich's mom is in town for whenever...hopefully she won't be here too long. She gets on my nerves fast...ya know how mother in laws can be...yap yap yap yap yap.... She brought hom a bunch of crap home...I have no idea how the hell she even stores that stuff in her little crossfire car or even in her truck...she's a truck driver. I just cleaned up this room and she has it all stored all over the floor. At least she hasn't been home when I get off work..she's always wanting to grab

Panic Switch-silversun Pickups
Time It's never worth my time Blue shine Bleeds into my eyes I still Sleep on the right side Of the white noise Can't leave the scene behind Could I be anything you want me to be It's always meant to be seen [Chorus] When you see yourself in a crowded room Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped? And will you step in line or release the glitch? And can you fall asleep with a panic switch? And when you see yourself in a crowded room Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped? Will you step in line or release the glitch? Do you think she'll sleep with the panic... Mm, I'll try To hold on tight tonight Pink slip Inviting me inside Wanna burn skin And brand what once was mine But the red views Keep ripping the divide If I go everywhere you want me to go How will I know you'll still follow? [Chorus] I'm waiting and fading and floating away I'm waiting and fading and floating away I'm waiting and fading and floating away Waiting and fading and floating I'm waiting and fadi

The Big Party! Night 3
I will be out enjoying the big party! Back on 7/6. Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there. But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick! Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts hung out with a great friend! Night 3- Vaughn Anthony -- John Legend It was so HOT as in SEXY -- I thought people were goin' to get it ON!!!!!! Me is tipsy!

Some More Info On The Hospital I Was Born In
Jefferson Davis HospitalThis unused hospital building was built on top of an old Confederate graveyard. During the excavation for the basement (the morgue), several human bones were unearthed. It is rumored to be haunted by angry Confederate soldiers, doctors, nurses and patients. The building is the property of the Harris County Hospital District and is off-limitsThe hospital has spirits such as nurses, doctors, and patients that still roam its halls. Many have gone into this establishment and have had their own personal experiences such as being watched, seeing shadows, and smelling sterilization solutions in certain spots. The spirits are restless and have been agitated from all of the visitors they've been receiving. It was built upon a site of about 3,000 graves of Civil War and yellow fever victims, from when it was a cemetery in the 1800s. It is now patrolled fairly heavily by the local fire department, which is right next door. Explorers and ghost hunters suggest that it not be

Haunted Hospital I Was Born In
well hello boys and gouls i just found out something strange but awesome about the hospital i was born in the jefferson davis hospital in houstin tx was bult on four burial grounds is condemmed and is also one of the most haunted places on earth i found this out and i was speechless i think its cool let me know what you think

Michael Jackson Memories Before Your Loss
Never forget when I got to meet Michael Jackson I grew up on Michael Jackson and Bob Marley plus Madonna I wish I could of met Bob Marley but when I just went to go see Michael Jackson in Los Angeles,California with my friends and I damn I was so lucky to up in front of the stage and meet him omg I was so happy I cant believe I gave him a hug before the day of his loss of a good man it's sad that the media was talking shit about him I know he didn't do anything bad to a child except for hanging his own baby over a balcony in Germany that shouldn't of happend but it did we all as people make mistakes in our lives we live a we learn but I'll never forget meeting Michael Jackson and giving my last hug before he had his ticket to heaven I just had tears in my eyes of joy he'll never be forgotten Rest In Peace Michael Jackson

Dont Judge
I will walk through every shadow and all darkness through life will my head held up high but screaming inside nothin will nock me down so intense i feel so much pain that makes me numb to what if nothin to me i push so hard but struggle free so contradicting life i live so ironic some people laugh some people cry but nothing from you matters nothing from anyone matters at all im like at book dont just look at the cover and jus judge it from it look inside look past the few pages look deep inside read till the end dont judge a book by its cover

What Would You Do
What would you do What would you do if you woke up tommorrow and i was gone.What would you do with all the hurt and anger knowing i was your best friend. You were my everythingWhat would you do to go on without me What would you do with all the memories and pictures I will always be there waiting for you,We are apart of each other NO matter where i am What would you do if you had the chance to say goodbye

Someday
for every day there is no answers but yet if you look deep down there is an answers for everything i know being so left alone bet standing so tall holding your head up up so high putting on that fake mask to show every one that your ok on the out side but your dying on the inside you so despretaly reaching out but no one to reach out to so i die each day slowly each breath each heart beat im not sure what to do in life i know i need to be strong i have some strength left but not sure how much loner its going to last im trying so hard my little ones i never new how hard it would be but each day i will live each dying breath i will struggle on there are 2 things in my life that are keeping me alive an they are my girls i wish i could say more to that but my hopes and dreams were broken maybe someday it can be mended someday

And So Goes Another
I guess I'll just never understand what goes on here. Again, another who had me in their family list has booted me out, no reason give. In fact, not even contact for ages. Sure, the person's on a break from here, but is that really a reason to drop a person from family? If it is, my list would have 5. (and not the 5 most would think either) Just another reason why I'm not here so much any more.

Myth
AS i lay here night after night,missing you here laying by my side. thinking to the day that i met you was such a slap in the face i was never especting, i didnt want anyone, didnt want love. But when i met you you turned my world upside down, maybe hyporcrytical so to speak sayin i have been in love before, but nothing like this. I have loved in my past, and thouht i have been in love, but with you you bring my world in a whole new perspective./ You make me see what i havent seen before and surpirsingly keeping at bay my worst side yet. In so many ways im scared to show you my true side,its my worst who can ever tell, if i can show you I can be very overconfident, protective, jealous, insecure, many things, more than the normal. But that whats makes me who I am, I can be so complicated but yet so simple its so ironic. I can contradict my self in so many ways but yet to speak so much simple truth if you look deep enough. I more than just words can explane but yet so simple to

Dawn Breaks
Each dawn breaking as the sun rises Every moon burning bright as the sun when it sets Water burns like fire as ice we cant breath So crystiline with misery, those who walk are not lost I have an understanding of teh sun so bitter and the moon so sqorching Ignorance can bee seen so easily, but understanding takes you beyond ignorance, nieve, and selfishness I see what most can not even comprehend The sun so bitter and the moon so sweet, every shadow, every light, Has there own pain, but I , I understand why each dawn breaks and the moon so sweet

Must
WHy must i wish for death MUst i see bloood WHy must i live within pain dreaming suicide, dreaming of my anegel that i will never meet. SOmetimes I watch my blood run cold down my hands, feels like ice , wollowing in my own self-destruction. I give into this pity world LIfes like a candle, flickers and dies SOme have the stregnth to relight there candle but, i didnt ! I see my self by the river watching the blood seep into the dirt, watching my world go black, The color fading from my once rosey cheeks. Waiting for that Angel I will never meet

Alone
I often wish i was alone thinking of a place to go bu not realy being there,Impossible you think but i know its possible.In my mind i can make it happen but i dont know if i realy want to be alone.I often dream im alone by a river side feeling my blood run warm down my hands into the water feeling my self-destruction, feeling my body going cold.All alone by the river side i feel im not alone death is near. I start to fall, falling in to the water, i see my self fall, i stand there my body float and my blood starts to slowly turn the water red. My body starts to sink to the bottom of the river,im in my place but not realy there, im all alone in death's world. I'm dead but my soul still lives, see im right here. you can feel me but you can see me, days go by i wish i wasnt alone not in deaths world but in reality. i could be sitting in a dark corner all alone. They found my body in the river, i never been to a funeral before,but being at your own is something different. I watch from afar

Interesting Test
This was fun...my results. IPIP-NEO Narrative Report http://www.personal.psu.edu/%7Ej5j/IPIP This report compares Seeker from the country USA to other women between 41 and 60 years of age. (The name used in this report is either a nickname chosen by the person taking the test, or, if a valid nickname was not chosen, a random nickname generated by the program.) This report estimates the individual's level on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model. The description of each one of the five broad domains is followed by a more detailed description of personality according to the six subdomains that comprise each domain. A note on terminology. Personality traits describe, relative to other people, the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings, thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the other. This report uses e

Last Minute
Im lying here on my bed starring at the white ceiling, feeling my blood run down my cold handsFeeling my warn body go coldThe pain that was once so scrucinating now so numbly gone Waiting for my angel that i will never meet Remembering the love i had for the special someone,The one i love so muchIm sorry i had to leaveI will be back with you again,Some day in heaven or in hell I slowly start to loose the strength to hold on,I take a glace around to remeber where i lay dying and i see you standing there, You drop to your knees knowing im goin soon i use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU !! I slowly shut my eyes and let my l

Juggalo Dictionary
JUGGALO DICTIONARYAxe: A sharp blade on the end of a long piece of wood... you don't want to get too close to a juggalo who is goin wicked style with one of these.Big Money Hustlas: The Insane Clown Posse's first movie staring ICP, Twiztid, Rudy Ray Moore, Alex Abbis, Myzery, Jumpsteady, and more.Bitch: Often meaning a female, sometimes even used to describe males.Bigot: A person who is strongly closed minded, and does not accept to learn or understand other peoples thoughts or believes.Blaze Ya Dead Homie: A Psychopathic records Music Artist.Cellulite: The fattness on legs that hangs over when you are over the limit.Chicken: A red neck, bigot, racist, (Used in the song: Chicken Huntin) from both RiddleBox & RingmasterCotten Candy: Pussy, Cunt, Hole, Vagina. Often called (Neden)Dark Lotus: A group created by some of the top artist's in Psychopathic Records.Delray: A city near Detroit.Echoside: A fate worse than hell. Often used in Amazing Jeckel Brothers.Faygo: Its a Soda pop that come

Answers
All the things that have no answersEverything is all going away My feelings are going numb There is nothing in my worldMy self-destruction is catching up with me Every one i cared about are slowly dyingAnd i know i'm slowly dying too People say they don't see the pain But they don't look deep enough My scars are bleeding on the inside The only pain they see is the tears that poor down my face I try to ease the pain But nothing works Is the only answer to the question Death ? Its all around slowly trailing in peopls lives Soon enough death is going to come to close And all questions will have answers?

Death
Who is death Why do we fear him Can he be a secret we hid in our mindsHes getting closer to my life I wake up lonely Your next to me Do i know if ive survived my sleep Your living inside me I feel you swimming in my blood eating my brain Killing me from the insideI dont mind and i dont care I cant feel my soul in this lifeWhat have you done YOu've taken my lifeIm not afraid of you but now im in you my soul is part of you swimming in your bloodyour darkness is my shadow Now the question is should you be afraid of me Im living in your shadows Im becoming death or am i death Afraid?

An Apology
Just wanted to drop a note. I need to apologize for my behavior last night. I had a few too many of this and that and got in that mode of feeling sorry for myself. Its been a rough road and sometimes I feel like there is no point in trying to maintain inside the yellow line. I have to thank a couple people that were there for me. Helly for one. She is the best. Bounty, I love ya man. thank you. Terri, I see how strong you are and I don't understand how you can hang the way you do. It is truly an inspiration. With everything going on in my life at the moment sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming. I need to pull myself up and slap myself around sometimes. Lot of people depending on me and I can't let them down. Anyway, I apologize to everyone. Highway Song

Frank Sinatra- As Time Goes By...
You must remember thisA kiss is still a kissA sigh is just a sighThe fundamental things applyAs time goes byAnd when two lovers wooThey still say, I love youOn this you can relyNo matter what the future bringsAs time goes byMoonlight and love songsNever out of dateHearts full of passionJealousy and hateWoman needs manAnd man must have his mateOn this you can denyIt's still the same old storyA fight for love and gloryA case of do or dieThe world will always welcome loversAs time goes byMoonlight and love songsNever out of dateHearts full of passionJealousy and hateWoman needs manAnd man must have his mateOn this you can denyYou must remember thisA kiss is still a kissA sigh is just a sighThe fundamental things applyAs time goes by

Blasting Live
BlastFM has had a live (real time for computer geeks) segment from 3PM to 6PM Monday through Friday and it has garnered some fans. The music is great but having a live DJ makes it ever more fun to listen. I have a blast being the DJ. Come by and listen some time. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Life As I Know It....
O.K..have to vent...Why is it that you give your heart to, whether a friend or someone close to you and they BREAK it...And then find out nothing but LIES...DAMN, It kills, I try never to lie, or even make small lies to anyone and Even my kids which that is hard to do...As us parents know...Even the smallest hurts....So I'm out here wondering why people intentionally hurt someone when they are nothing but loving??? I can't do that, or try not to...And to give to people and in return get STOMPED on, that shit HURTS...Damn, I wish People could just learn to stop hurtin the people that truely LOVE them..DAMN IT..

Fixing Me
She's doing it. I don't know how. Shes' fixing the places that were so easy to break. It's been so long since someone could make me feel the way she makes me feel. I don't know her yet, except in my soul. But, that's the place where I need her most. That's where she's fixing me.

Tired N Pissed
I knew this would happen! I threw caution to the wind n performed an act on this guy that is not my favorite but for him i'd pretty much kill someone if he asked to. I wanted to do it, so I have no regrets there. He's not the kind of guy that wants one thing, etc. so he says. I understand he's dealing with a psycho ex girlfriend n the mother of his child is being a royal pain. (if i had a dollar for everytime my daughter's father started royal shit w/ me, I'd be rich as sin!) Any who, now the guy has my cell and house numbers, yet he hasn't called since. And before the act we talked everynite here on fubar, since I performed this act, he doesn't talk me or even call or txt me. I feel so used n pissed off it's not even funny. I mean hell if he didn't like it atleast be a gentleman and tell me, or hell be fuckin' man and tell me "hey not interested found someone else" don't know what to think about this truely. I've been approached by other guys on this site that want to tak

Desires
The morning whispers with moist dew that gently covers a blanket of grass. Her memory fills my senses with the sweetness of her touch. Her soft voice calms me like the eye of a storm. As she holds me tight I can almost feel her passion.

Tiny Scraps Of Paper
I have tried all my life To be what everyone wanted me to be I was born with hurtfulness All around me And yet I knew deep down inside There was something Different about me, I cared About anything and every thing All that the world bestowed upon me I found some scraps of paper Half sheets people would through away I had gathered them up and folded them To place in my pockets to take them away

I May Be Leaving
Well IDK what to say but I'm thinking of deleting my fubar page. See here is the thing when I found out that some shitty stuff has been going on with my roommate and her supposily guy...lets just say he knows he's on my shit list there is no point in being here. I know she's moved on and has better things in her life then to worry about some ass wipe who says one thing then does another thing behind her back, but there is no point in being on here really. Plus I said as long as my ex doesn't find me on here then I'm cool (and thank heaven he hasn't) I've met some pretty cool guys and chicks on here but its just online and thats it...well IDK I still have to think this through. Now if you don't know me don't you dare write some ass whole comment on here because this is a blog for a reason right? I hate when people look around for some type of easy points yet give you an dick answer. If I do leave give me an email or something and I'll keep in contact with everyone who has been great t

Bull Shit
A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. Fiction gives us a second chance that life denies us I would go out with women my age, but there are no women my age. In these times you have to be an optimist to open your eyes when you awake in the morning. Most of the change we think we see in life is due to truths being in and out of favor. Perhaps in time the so-called Dark Ages will be thought of as including our own

Sweet Like Honey
sweet sensual words that spill from ur lips better than the finest wine in all the world. they taste so sweet the aroma is enticing inviting so alluring draws me closer with every breath that i take. so golden so light so fulfilling just hangs on my palate very tasty so enjoyable so sweet. dont care bout anything else at the moment. i just wanna b absorbed into the page b a part of the words to truly understand the meanings of them to truly appreciate them to hang on with every breath that i take. my heart can't take it but i try to hang on my heart is beating fast so very fast i feel woozy i think im gonna fall but i feel myself fallin but i never hit the bottom. something or maybe someone is holding me. i wanna speak but i cant my mouth moves nothing comes out no sound my lips are moving well i think they are i cant feel any thing everything is going on its too much...

The Man Inside
i know you better than you know yourself ive rode the currents of your moods you pull me close push me back you want my love my respect but to hide your true thoughts from me is a stab to me call me your friend your love whatever you want as long as its safe be that man inside who tells the world i lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllove her be the one who isnt afraid of life the man who can stand at my side id take an arrow to my heart die a warrior then lie down and be a coward you keep me around for one reason i burn with an intensity you want to that so much but the man i know would not bow to others he spoke to me with passionate words of poems songs of love only to break my heart now

The Truth Behind Fubar
fubar.com well i was a member for 3 years and in that three years i watched the site change from a place to chill make friends and have fun a well presentd fun friendly site. as the popularity grew the owners of the site begain to change it for the worse. Used to be there were no requirements to level beisdes a verified salute to get past level ten and what ever points the next level requires. now you have to refer so many of your friends to move up levels and the previous referals dont count towards new required level amount. you have to pay for some of the levels there currency fu bucks and now even real money for a few. they added alot to the site but all these new additions cost you money. the amounts they want to charge for fake things on a website is down right greedy. as for being a non vip member your options are limited and will not elvel up anywhere near as fast as vips no matter how hard you try. they have crafted there site to force you to spend your hard earned

Hands Of Rain
I wrote this story two months ago for a creative writing class, and it got rave reviews from my classmates. I hope you enjoy it. It was raining, but that didn’t surprise me. It rained every time we made love, as if some cosmic force declared the heavens should open and let forth the enraptured outpouring they felt for our coupling. At least, that’s the way I chose to look at it. Eric, on the other hand, well, I think he just saw me as a good lay. He had called earlier in the afternoon, and the moment my cell phone was illuminated with his name, I knew I shouldn’t answer his call. I knew what he wanted. I also knew what he didn’t want. But, out of some possession beyond my own free will, I pressed the “talk” button and allowed his deep voice to melt me like chocolate left out too long in the sun. Within minutes, the clouds had brought him to my door and now they kept us sheltered inside the afterglow of my bedroom. He rolle

July3rd!!!!!! Plz Read
My big 25th birthday is just 6 day's away and ALL my birthday's past have sucked so i was hoping this being a big milestone for me would EFFIN rock maybe someone will be kind enough to throw me a big lounge birthday bash and what not i'm not asking for anything but that everything i get is your choice to give i love all my fu friend's and fam....let's make my birthday ROCK!!!! tyvm

Bored
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. LET THE FUN BEGIN........ Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?

Answer Truthfully!!!
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. LET THE FUN BEGIN........ Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?

Passion
passion some sizzle with it others fear it the wild uncontrollable kind rips through me you can shiver in the corners i prefer to offer it my open embrace id rather burn up with passion then sit back and die a cold coward to walk in the intensity to feel alive then weep and cower like a broken mess passion is not for the weak it takes a strong person a heart , mind , soul worthy of a warrior my mind reels at those who bend under it passion stop fearing it embrace it open your arms wide offer it your throat i did

We Are "surprising"...?
Minus Fyder All Stars. the band name...the band i sing for now...er again. more players, bigger name to fit em in. how funny last night's jam session was to have a few hipsters come have a listen. but while i was warming up...singin "warming up"...i could barely hear the drums over some chick's know it all voice and stories. of course, nothing against people hanging out and listening to us jam...but jesus god!! i think this girl wanted to be heard over the music. and i realized how far off...these people were. no clue what we were playing...no chance of learning that fast. and i was stuck. i couldnt sing...all i heard was that yappy drunk high pitched voice. but..i know the rest of the band felt it. or heard it. and noticed that the people not playing anything were feeling left out haha. hipsters...rockstars...indie cool folks that need to be acknowledged non-stop. i sang over it all. the guest guitarist seemed scared...he "never played this kind of music" haha it didn

Angels & Demons Updated 06-27-2009 Now A Homepage Pls Add Also
Ever wanted to be a Angel or a Demon but not Yet a Godfather, Or maybe you wish you picked the other choice and wish you can change it. Well Now is your chance but unfortanitly no Special Abilities or Special Icon. Back By Popular Demand From the Creator of Fubars #1 Train in the Past Now Brings You Angels & Demons. Basically Just a Normal Train But Can Also Be used as a Leveling Family. Rules & Qualifacations 1. Must F/R/A The Founder and All other Members Also The Home Page 2. If Already A Friend Must Leave Them a Comment on thier Page Saying Joining Angels & Demons 3. Dont have a Salute Not A Problem This Time Pay The 25k Fee and your on Send it through Fupal to The Founder and mention Angel & Demons Fee 4. Have A Salute Then No Fee Needed to Hop on 5. In The Request Need To Mention Angels & Demons and Also Must Messege the founder when your done or you will not be added 6. Must Also Add Angels & Demons Member To Your Name or A&D Now For The Fun To

Spotlight Quest
After helping multitudes of otherson the site withfu-bux donations for Spotlight Half a Million here20 Million there To make it to Level 32the site requires meto win the SpotlightThe bid will be highmuch too high at this point So I fear the time is hereI must request the help of my friends Your donation to this special fundwill gain you permanent mention in thisblog and special pimp out when I win. Thank you in advanceFor all the help you can give! Donors (in the order of Donation) 1,000,000 fu-bux donated☆ ♥ Dawn ♥ ☆ 300,000 fu-bux donatedDJ Ghost 1,250,000 fu-bux donatedSunshine 1,000,000 fu-bux donated~Sandi~ 300,000 fu-bux donatedღღღღ_RoSe_ღღღღ 100,000 fu-bux donatedBonziBabe

Tribute To Michael Jackson
My Playlist has been updated with 10 of my favorite Michael Jackson songs, in no particular order of greatness. I grew up listening to him, and the world has lost one of the greatest talents in the world, past, present, and future. RIP MICHAEL JACKSON!! Just Keep Dancing!

Dreams And Wishes
Ever feel like you have a knot in your stomache that just doesnt go away with anything you do. Im in that spot, I cant stop thinking about or wishing to be near a guy. And I wish he feels the same I want more but what do I do!

Ambivalence
Ambivalence consumes me Love and hate war within my headDrawn and yet repulsedI'm filled with constant dreadI yearn for his affectionYet I don't want him near meIf I can't have his full attentionI don't want any of it.His half-hearted attempts to please meOnly make me want him lessHis unwilling touch sickens meThis much I will confess.While he sleeps beside meI gaze upon his faceA jumble of emotions fill meMy heart begins to raceWhy do I even want himDoes anybody know?Yet if I don't want himWhy do my tears flow?Copyright V.A.R.D. 2005

So Into You
When I’m into you I’ll do more than listen to your desire I’ll for sure glisten that fire Taking nothing for granted with each breath I won’t wait for fate As I’ll pull more than my weight When I’m into you I’ll do more then understand your concerns I’ll make sure it will be no more as the world turns The last days won’t be lived with regret As we’ll look back on the sun That was, that still is because I’m so into your mind, body and soul All your thoughts , all your curves , all your energy The way you make me laugh , the way you walk, the way you set my mind at ease I’m so into you , into you I’ll find our shore splashes onto eternity There in the midst of night Our bodies retrieve the outer limits of ecstasy

Boring
Oh dear husband can't you seeJust how boring you can beSitting on your ass all dayGet the hell up!I want to play!All you want to do is sleepWatch TV, make not a peepSitting on your ass at workYou never moveYou're such a jerk!You're in your thirties but who can tell?I've seen more action from MattelI've always known you could be coldBut who'd have knownYou'd act so old?We don't fool around… your drive is latentI've seen more life in a geriatric patientSo listen up my sad old manGet off your ass And make a planI may be sick but I'm not dead yetI need more fun than I currently getSo heed my words my boring friendI'll go out dancingWhile you buy Depends.Copyright V.A.R.D. 2005

Nostalgic & Wishful Thinking (repost)
As I sit here listening to some kickass music from my younger days, I can't help but think of how my life used to be compared to how it is today. And with that sad comparison I realize that like many others, I wish I could go back in time. Back to a time when my body did what I needed it to do, when I needed it to do it. Back to when I didn't have to beg and plead for kisses and affection. Back when I was happier. When I could still sing and dance when I was still free. I want to stop wanting all the time. Wanting to kiss someone for hours, to love and be loved back in the way that I need. Wanting to be healthy and "normal" again. Wanting to be wanted. I'm so tired of yearning for what I can't have, stuck in this situation that cannot be resolved by myself alone, yet the person who can help me refuses to do so out of either stubbornness or just plain indifference. Tired of being more lonely now that I'm married to the man I always loved than I was without him. Tired of the only roman

Its That Time Of The Month Again
OK, so your opinion isnt really wanted here - feel free to say what you like cos frankly I dont give a damn..... I have noticed over the last few days that I have helped a good deal of people out on here rating their pics - yet hardly any of them have returned the love - that dont matter............... what does matter is this If you suddenly find your self unable to communicate or see my profile - think why that might be ....................... IN FUTURE I RATE THOSE THAT RATE ME AND THE REST OF YOU - WELL THERE ARE PLENTY OF OTHER PEOPLE ON THIS SITE THAT ARE WILLING TO HELP YOU - WHAT CLARE FUREY SAYS CLARE FUREY DOES IN FUTURE and if that means deleting AND blocking some people so be it - I really DGAF AFTER READING THIS IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT YOU READ PLEASE FEEL TOTALLY FREE TO DELETE ME - I WILL MARK IT NSFW ESPECIALLY FOR YOU PEOPLE THAT DONT FUCKING LIKE THE ODD CUSS NOW AND THEN

The Abyss
Trapped…In this hell of my own makingI rail at my prison walls and curse the day I fellFell for your lying eyes and twisted heartHow blind could I have been?Lost…In a maelstrom of love and painWanting to be near you, Wanting to run awayNeeding to find something to end this constant painNeeding to find my way out of this dark holeBound…By my love for you, my heart enthralledBy the vows I spoke in truth on that far away dayThe day I locked myself into this never ending tormentThe chains wrapped around my soul have at last drawn bloodDying…Slowly on the inside where no one can seeMy life's blood seeping from invisible wounds of my own makingNo aid offered from your cold heart, your indifferent touchCursing your name and mine, I fall into the abyss…Copyright V.A.R.D. 2005

Turning About
If all I did was smile And my words came out in fumbling style Please realize I’m just taken away with the beauty before me As there is much more then these eyes can see If all I did was stare into your eyes Then know my heart speaks no lies True beauty like a humming bird Captures the wind beneath its wings giving word Giving of its self without thought If all of this is true If all of this is because of you Then there is no coming down There could only be you and me You and me out at sea Quenching the flames with our bodies tender plea

Vitriol
Vitriol noun - Bitterly abusive feeling or expression. Now some of you may be wondering about all the piss and vinegar in some of my blogs. The thing is, when I'm upset or annoyed about something the best way for me to let it out is to write about it. Just because some of my blogs are of a certain mood, doesn't mean I'm always like that. I write what I'm feeling at the time and then I take a few deep breaths and let it go. Unfortunately, I tend to take things rather personally and there are certain aspects of my life that bother me quite a bit so I take it out on my keyboard. And you all know how it goes, it's easier to say things to a stranger than to people you know. To me, the blog is the stranger (and stranger lol). I don't really talk to my offline friends about a lot of these things so I have to let it out somewhere. I do appreciate comments and the like, but please don't think I'm always as dark and angry as my blogs imply. I hope everyone who reads this is happy and healt

Getting Away
Every word I’ve uttered is true Everyday I picture your smile , your laughter Your innocence at had and now I wish I was holding it Gazing at the joy in your eyes I wonder if we share the pain But that conversation has nothing for us to gain The sun rises another day just like yesterday But our today is very special Our today has no fears or tears Only the shine as the stormy weather clears @ @ @ @ Pinch me if I’m dreaming Perhaps my feelings are misleading Its been to long , too sad To right , too wrong and all one can take Watching you , watching me Its strange when eyes connect and souls are set free Its an Indian summer captured in a jar But now things don’t have to go that far You’ve brought me the sun The moon , the stars , a loved one A new beginning to the same old ending There isn’t any sense in pretending In denying our lives new journey Our separate paths drawn by our hearts glee I accept this twist of fate And I

Hell
I'm so sick of the life I have todayJoy is fleeting, emotions swayThe love is gone and money is tightI can no longer see the lightEach day that passes makes it worseWhy must my life be such a curse?To keep them happy in Hell I stayBut the cost is higher every dayThey care not how it makes me feelAs long as they're happy they will not yieldLike sharks they watch from all aroundI sit and fade, make not a soundMy soul cries out, my shoulders bendI only beg for the pain to endThis constant nightmare that is my cageHas killed my fire, has killed my rageDefeat is the only thing that's leftAll hope is gone, my soul bereftAll that's here is an empty shellCan anyone save me from this Hell?Copyright V.A.R.D. 2006

Appearances
Keep it up let no one knowJust how often my tears flowHow much I hate this life of mineKeep on smiling, do not whineMake them think that all is wellTry and hide this lonely hellNever let them see me cryNever let them find out whyThey're just waiting for things to failSmile outside, inside just wailWish upon the stars at nightEven though I've lost the fightThe only person who needs to seeIgnores my plight so selfishlySomeday I won't have to pretendSomeday this hell I'm in will endCopyright V.A.R.D. 2006

Haunted
Try as I might I can't get freeOf this despair surrounding meWavering 'tween love and hateUselessly cursing at my fateCan't you see how bad things are?Each day my heart bears one more scarYour selfishness just sickens meJust how heartless can you be?Caring only about yourselfEveryone else put on a shelfLeft to languish and gather dustFilling me with such disgustNot only for you but myself as wellFor letting you lead me to this hellFor staying where I am not wantedBy memories forever haunted...Copyright V.A.R.D. 2006

What Does You Name Mean?..
J: Easy to have fun with U: Gets blamed for everything S: bad Kisser ( im a great kisser) T:Great In Bed I: Loves to laugh N:Can Kick Your Ass A:Drop dead gorgeous A:Drop dead gorgeousB: Loves peopleC: Really easy to fall in love withD: Is great in bedE: Fuckin' beautiful eyesF: People wild and crazy adore youG: Never let people tell you what to doH: Easy to fall in love withI: Loves to laughJ: Easy to have fun withK: Really sillyL: BEST SMILEM: Makes dating funN:Can Kick Your AssO: Has one of the best personalities everP: Popular with all types of peopleQ: A hypocriteR: Good bf/gfS: bad KisserT:Great In BedU: Gets blamed for everythingV: Not judgmentalW: Very broad mindedX: Never let people tell you what to doY: good kisserZ: Lives life for fun

My Thoughts On Love
I'm so sick of hearing the word love being used in such a common way and without meaning. There are people who think that just because they say the words "I love you" that should be enough. What they fail to understand is that words are just words, ACTIONS are what are needed to verify the true meaning. Telling someone you love them and treating them like shit, is not love. Telling someone you love them and selfishly only giving in to YOUR wants and needs, is not love. Telling someone you love them while hitting on another, cheating and sneaking behind someone's back , is not love. Breaking a person's heart and then expecting the person to forgive you and be happy just because you make love to them, is not love. Giving your attention, affection and having sexual desire for someone ELSE, is not love. Only making love to someone when you have a fight or when you are trying to make up for being caught making sexual advances to another, is not love. Love is wanting to make the other pers

Don't Think
Don't Think (Poem) Current mood: depressed Don't think that because I love you that you always have free reignTo do as you please while ignoring my needs, causing me so much pain Don't think that because I'm fool enough to be in love with youThat I don't know how far you goOr what you say and do Don't think that what I don't know won't hurt, just to get your wayThe time always comes when I find outAnd I'm the one who pays Don't think that just by making love all pains will go awayIt doesn't work, not anymoreMy pain you cannot sway Don't think that you have control anymore over what I will not doYou've pushed too far, I've had enoughSoon betrayal will come to you… Copyright V.A.R.D. 2007

What Can You Do?
What Can You Do? (a poem)Current mood: stressed What can you do when your days are so dull you work to get through the day?What can you do when your life is so stressed you wish you could fly away?What can you do when each day that goes by your life just seems to get worse?When the more you try to fix everything the more you feel like you're cursed?What can you do when you know it's not you who's failed to so much as try?When you wake up each day and the first thing you want is to lay your head down and cry?What can you do when your body won't work but you have bills to pay?When you look all around but nothing you've found will help you find a way?What can you do when you feel that your soul is just plain worn and beat?When you sit at home and worry alone over how your family will eat?What can you do when it's only you with the burden on your back?When you hide from your kids that life's on the skids and the future just looks black?V.A.R.D. Copyright 2007

Lounge Issues!!!
To All of my staff!!! I have been noticing if I am not in the lounge no one shows up and that is making me and the owner very upset. I haven't been in the lounge cuz of my living situtions. I have been physically and mentally hurt last nite and depressed the other nite. I am fine tonite so far. But if I don't seen any changes in the next few nites you guys showing up without me I will have to do some firing or talking to the owner about it. I am going to start hiring some new staff as well. Thanks!!! If you have any issues plz see me!!! Thanks again!!! Sassy

What Does Your Name Mean Borrowed From Satara
WHAT YOUR NAME REALLY MEANS? G: Never let people tell you what to do A:Drop dead gorgeous I: Loves to laugh L: BEST SMILE A:Drop dead gorgeousB: Loves peopleC: Really easy to fall in love withD: Is great in bedE: Fuckin' beautiful eyesF: People wild and crazy adore youG: Never let people tell you what to doH: Easy to fall in love withI: Loves to laughJ: Easy to have fun withK: Really sillyL: BEST SMILEM: Makes dating funN:Can Kick Your AssO: Has one of the best personalities everP: Popular with all types of peopleQ: A hypocriteR: Good bf/gfS: bad KisserT:Great In BedU: Gets blamed for everythingV: Not judgmentalW: Very broad mindedX: Never let people tell you what to doY: good kisserZ: Lives life for fun

Van Update
Ok so get this... we finally get the damned van back on Wednesday, just in time for my Thursday appointment with the doctor..... we didn't even make it HOME! Damn tranny went out AGAIN on the way home and we ended up parked on the side of the road not 5 miles from the house in the middle of the night. So now the van is sitting out in front of the house like a lawn ornament along with all the other cars in our graveyard. But then again I really shouldn't be surprised. I haven't had a working motor in my life for years (if u catch my drift lol). I guess I don't have the right fuel. Anyone got a pipe wrench? *raises eyebrow*

Serve At Your Own Risk
Taken from http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=7283040&blogId=476191455 We live in a militaristic society, where those who “serve” our country are lauded as “heroes” and “defenders of freedom,” when in reality, I fear that they're not only doing harm to freedom by obeying an oppressive and morally bereft system of beliefs, but they're buying into their own hype. That's dangerous. It’s dangerous because these people who join the military in order to “protect” freedom have placed on themselves something akin to a holy decree, much like the crusaders did in the 16th century. They believe that what they are doing is morally right, regardless of the consequences. They believe that what they’re being ordered to is the right thing to do for the country and for our freedom. I'm so tired of hearing about how soldiers who fight wars in modern times are fighting for my freedoms. Bullshit. My freedoms are not in danger from afar, they're more in danger from the p

*sigh* Repost
I wish I could find some way to make this constant feeling of... its hard to describe... it's like I'm overflowing with pain and sadness and loneliness and worry and need and anger and lethargy and this just ACHE... only it's not overflowing, it just sits there, building and stewing and I can't seem to find a way to let it out. Right now I feel as though I'm on the verge of crying but I also want to yell and scream and hit something ... or find some way to make myself numb and not feeling anything at all for just a little while... but there's no way to do that is there? I suppose I could take a nap but I'll just feel the same way when I wake up. Only maybe worse because I'll not want to wake up and I'll be hungry and in physical pain as usual. Not to mention the stomach acid that will happily greet me before my eyes are even open. Catch-22 moment btw... I finally have an appointment to see a gastroenterologist for my stomach but I have NO way to get there *cynical laught

A Ride
One year Esther and Morris went to the fair, and Morris said 'Esther, I'm 85 years old. If I don't ride that helicopter' I might never get another chance.' To this, Esther replides, 'Morris that helicopther right is fifty dollars, and fifty dollars is fifty dollars.' The piolt overheard the couple and said, 'Folks I'll make you a deal. I'll take the both of you for a ride. If you can stay quiet for the entire ride and don't say a word I wont charge you a penny! But you you say one word it's fifty dollars. Morris and Esther agreed and they went. The pilot did all kinds of fancy maneuvers, but not a word was heard. he did his daredevil tricks over and over again, But still not a word. When they landed. the pilot turned to Morris and said. 'By golly , I did everything I could to get you to yell out but you didn't. I'm impressed!' Morris replied, 'Well to tell you the truth,I almost said something when Esther fell out, But you know' Fifty dollars is fifty dollars!

The First Taste Of My Rant...
Did you ever just have one of those days where nothing seems to go right no matter what you do or how hard you try? Or are you one of those poor souls (like myself) who just seems to have one of those LIVES? Where you feel that if someone were to write the story of your life it would be called Catch-22? One step forward, two steps back. Five pounds lost, ten pounds gained. $250 stimulus check, $500 in the hole? Well ladies and gentlemen, welcome to my world... Some of my online friends are privvy to the fact that my life isn't as peachy as I try and let on. Well to be honest, I don't try to "let on" anything, I just go hide in my offline cave when things aren't going well. Needless to say things have not been going well at all, as my long time absence can attest. But don't feel bad for not knowing, I even try to hide it from my family. I have, however, reached the point where I can no longer let my pride, my shame, or my failures keep me quiet. I have to vent to SOME

Loungin Levelers
The Loungin Levelers Is a great family of people that help each other. Finally a family that doesnt asked you to give up your hole fubar life for them. All they ask is that you show them some luv and help out your fellow levelers. Theres a few simple things that they ask and im going to show you some easy ways how. First when you join the family the first thing you should do is start to add the other people in the family. You dont have to do the all at once but if you do it shouldt take mor then 20 mins to add rate and fan everyone. A good way of doing this is to go into the family's homepage which should be in your family. Then visit the blogs, you want to go to the New Member Blog. Now scroll down you will see them on your left. Now just click on the first one and there will be a picture of the person on the top of the screen. that is a link to their profile. Now depending on your computer and operating system, when you click on there page it should open a new tab. If so, Check out

The Dj
a friends pushing got me in here but the music spun its web ensnaring me asking who is this man that can make this music call to me enter the dj dark eyes dark hair raw sexual dangerous thoughts of him pinning me to a wall biting along my flesh staring at him licking my lips as lil girls toss things at him numbers abound lingerie litter the floor sitting back sipping my drink sucking my ice just as he notices a glance from head to toe confirming my interest daring him not to notice a wicked smile appears be careful this ardent fan bites i may appear to be just a woman come closer mr dj if you dare

I Dont Wanna Stop .....
kissing you in the rain touching you pulling you close people watching us i dont wanna stop stolen moments on the dance floor you feeling so good so close to me i dont wanna stop just cause they say its wrong bites along my skin cries for more looking at their curious stares i dont wanna stop i wanna stay like this forever my mind screaminggggggggggggg i dont wanna stop

How Big Of An Ass Can Ya Be?
Eliphas Levi: so your dateing more then one person now?Kare: Yeah. My girl and my guyEliphas Levi: anyone elseKare: NoKare: I don't cheatEliphas Levi: cheat lol thats funnyEliphas Levi: your dateing two people yo already areEliphas Levi: hahahahahahaKare: Yeah and they both know bout each other. It's not like I am doin one without the other knowin.Kare: And my girl is awhile away. haven't seen her in awhileEliphas Levi: sureEliphas Levi: still cheating anywayKare: No. Before I get with any man, I let them know I have a girl. If they are fine with it, then we are good.Eliphas Levi: And what if they wanted to just be with you and not her??Kare: They aren't with her. I am with her. She is with her husband. I am with my boyfriend.Eliphas Levi: not what i askedEliphas Levi: what if they wanted you to date just them and not herKare: Then they can walkEliphas Levi: thats pretty sadKare: No. She's been in my life for 4 years. A man who just comes in my life don't give me them the right to make

Auto 11 3-27-09
hello all, im running an auto 11.i have a cherry bomb also, im gonna use that after my auto 11 is done. i will bomb the people who rate me first then on to others..i will also be handing out random blings to people rating me THANKSBIGSEXY

American Income Life
Has anybody heard about American Income Life? I'm just wondering what your thoughts are on them. They do benefits for Union workers, like accicent and sickness stuff and life insurance. Does anybody here work for or know of em?

My Daughter N Firemen's Parade
Ok my daughter wanted to go to this Firemen's Parade we had in town, I figured ok so she likes the trucks, the colors, mascots, whatever. NOT! The whole time we are watching the parade she keeps asking, "So Mom, would ever consider dating a fireman again?" I'm like what!!!!! Where the heck did this come from! I'm seeing someone, atleast I hope the dude is still into me. . .but anywho, and I look at her and "Where is this coming from?" Her responds, "I want to find you someone who will take care you, treat you awesome, and take you out on dates. . . cuz Mom you starting to embarrass me." At first, I started to laugh so hard cuz of her last comment. It's probably true, though. There is only so much you take of mom being around ya 24/7, n I think she likes being home by herself without me. Then I thought about the rest of what she said, and I just sat there not knowing what to say or do. I mean I know I'm not prefect and I'm going to fuck up a bit here or there, but now she want

I'm Kinda Scared....
My ex broke the news to the boys that she is marrying this guy, and moving to Texas, and that she wants to take them with her. She did this two hours before Neil's birthday party. Needless to say the party was ruined, because none of them want to leave Kansas. I had a "come to jesus" meeting with her Thursday night, and basically told her that if she takes them without my permission, that it is basically kidnapping. She had no idea she had to go through the courts to get persmission to move them out of state. I have joint legal custody, so she has to file an intent to move with courts and wait 30 days to do it.... So, anywho....after our "meeting" Thursday night, I think I have convinced her to take a year for herself, go down and marry this guy, and I will take full custody of the boys and raise them on my own, and then we can re-evaluate the situation. As much as I know this is the right thing to do, it scares the hell out me. My boys and I are tight, but I have no one here but

N Time
So tired lately no matter how much sleep, rest, relasation I get. I'm still so tired. My skin is changing again not so bad this time don't have the dark patches least not yet don't want to get them again to me they are so ugly. Make me look scaley don't like that but not like I can stop it from coming just try to cope with it. Skin feels so dry no matter how much water I drink how much H2O, hydration is received. Change my lotions again, this one seems to work better but I still like the body butters I still like the ones with the sweet smells. My skin feels so soft after rubbing it on but its only temporary. But I like the smells of the strawberry mango, lavender, cucumber melon, orange truffle yes the sweet smells of deserts a delicious treat. Woke up the other day cleared my throat and spit out a wad of blood it was like I spit out a scab or something. Then I had to deal with a nose bleed. Bright red blood just wouldn't stop so I just plugged nose with tissue and tried to get ready

Green Light, Kid! We Did It!
This phrase from the beginning of every episode of the 1979-1980 TV series “Voyagers!” was a sign that history was “back on track”; that is, that the title characters had done their job and made sure history continued to flow the way most of us have learned it. I was eight when this show debuted and I also saw it on reruns the following year on Saturday mornings; you learned a lot from it, and the public service announcement at the end of the show – “If you want to learn more about (whatever historical figures were featured on the show), take a voyage down to your public library. It’s all in books!” – was probably a bigger motivator for me than I admit. Before I’d ever heard of H.G. Wells’ “The Time Machine”, probably the smallest such device I’d ever seen appeared on the show, an Omni that was the size of a pocket watch. Back then I didn’t think – nor did most of the civilized world, I

We Met Upon The Internet
We met upon the Internet, A friendship electronic, Expressed alone in words and thoughts, Inevitably platonic. We live too far apart for us To mingle in the flesh, But much more close than family, Our hearts and feelings mesh. Your dear, dear self reveals itself Without a voice or face. We have our own sweet home within Our precious cyberspace

Goodbye To Romance
Yesterday has been and gone Tomorrow will I find the sun Or will it rain Everybody's having fun Except me, I'm the lonely one I live in shame I say goodbye to romance, yeah Goodbye to friends, I tell you Goodbye to all the past I guess that we'll meet We'll meet in the end I've been the king, I've been the clown Now broken wings can't hold me down I'm free again The jester with the broken crown It won't be me this time around To love in vain I say goodbye to romance, yeah Goodbye to friends, I tell you Goodbye to all the past I guess that we'll meet We'll meet in the end And I feel the time is right Although I know that you just might say to me What'cha gonna do What'cha gonna do But I have to take this chance goodbye To friends and to romance And to all of you And to all of you Come on now I say goodbye to romance, yeah Goodbye to friends, I tell you Goodbye to all the past I guess that we'll meet We'll meet in the end And the weather's looking fine And I think the sun will shin

Appearance And Reality
To appear wise, one must talk; To be wise, one must listen. To appear to do good, one must be busy; To do good, one must know when to stand aside. To appear to lead, one must put oneself first; To lead, one must put oneself last. To appear caring, one must give advice; To be caring, one must give space. To appear to love, one must know how to give; To love, one must know also how to receive. To appear happy, one must smile; To be happy, one must be free with tears. ~Richard A. Zelonis

Randomly Jotted Down
I see the spark maybe its muted to some but in my head and my heart its shines incandesent lost in the tribulations dysphoria lost but not gone hidden well disguised to all select few allowed behind the facade but i see i see illumination vehemence benevolence fervor inumerable things to behold veiled to most but i see......... the radiance

Breaking The Fuaddiction!
No, I'm not leaving Fubar, however I need to seriously cut down time spend on here! Some of you know I was on layoff and had the time to waste, however I've found a new job over a month ago and now that I past my state exams and started working I need to spend more time earning my keep! I'm a spoiled bitch, I like my new house, want a new car and love hot tubbing. To bad Fubar doesn't pay the bills! My new career is strictly based on commission, so spending all these hours on here directly affects my income. Now that I have reached level 31 and Fubar has decided to only allow 1 person a week to level to 32 there is no challenge left. I'm at the top, the chance of me ever winning spotlight is 0. Not with everyone at 31 trying for the same thing just once a week, fruitless effort and a waste of my time. No I'm not upset about that I'm hoping now that the challenge is gone, I can break this FuAddiction! I've met some awesome people on here, I hope they stay in touch! I'm not leaving,

Ur On My Heart Like A Tatto
Oh, oh, oh No matter what you say about loveI keep coming back for moreKeep my hand in the fireSooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for No matter what you say about lifeI learn every time I bleedThat truth is a strangerSoul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free To admit that I'm wrongAnd then change my mindSorry but I have to move onAnd leave you behind [Chorus]I can't waste time so give it a momentI realize, nothing's brokenNo need to worry 'bout everything I've doneLive every second like it was my last oneDon't look back at a new directionI loved you once, needed protectionYou're still a part of everything I doYou're on my heart just like a tattoo (Just like a tattoo, I'll always have youI'll always have you, I'll always have you) I'm sick of playing all of these gamesIt's not about taking sidesWhen I looked in the mirror, didn't deliverIt hurt enough to think that I could Stop, admit that I'm wrongAnd then change my mindSorry but I gotta be strongAnd leave you be

Poetry
Souls of Destiny It may have been in a dream, So real it seemed. Was it among the stars, So close yet so far. In the breeze, It must have been in the waves on the seas. These are all that brought us to, Our Souls of Destny. Was it in tears of pain, That two hearts became on in the same. It was our souls calling out each others names. We are two Souls of Destiny. I am your soul, As you are mine.; Two Souls bound together forever in Time. This is for you my love. Tabatha Lynn

Journey In Concert In New Orleans Sept. 2009
JUST GOTTA SAY THAT JOURNEY IS PLAYING HERE AT OUR UNO LAKEFRONT ARENA ON SEPTEMBER 26 AND MY FRIEND KAREN IS TREATING ME TO THE CONCERT AS AN EARLY BIRTHDAY GIFT....WOOOHOOOO. I STASHED SOME TICKET INFO AS THEY ARE ON SALE FOR OUR CONCERT TODAY. "DON'T STOP BELIEVING'.....XOXO

Run Rabbit
run little rabbit run bean chasen you for years dove to grab ya by the ears through the looking mirror and the whole world disapeared and im like, run every thing's in disaray cried cause i lost my way turned into an ocean walked across with no delay cause its all a crazy dream and nothing's as it seems you aint the only one thats late for the party so run so run little rabit if i can see it ima grab it gonna keep pushing forward cause im mad as a hatter bout it but if i can catch the dream ima ditch reality the field mouse and me yo relax'n drink'n tee so run

Well Isnt That Clever
I just noticed I am at the level labeled "psycho" on this thing. I have to laugh. I am on my way to the store, I have some things I am going to try to return cause I cant use them (got them before I ran out of funds without realizing my family as well has turned on me so yeah Im getting real hungry and bisquick by itself is little solace) Why it is nobody has proved willing to hire me all these months when Ive been applying for everything availiable, surely I would be capable of working as a janitor even but no. I just dont get it, I mean, what am I supposed to do? Im out there daily since october I must have put out thousands of copies of my resume, for every job offered online and off. What does this society that demands I obey its laws expect me to do when it refuses me work to afford the necessities of life? and then to look me in the eye knowing I have cancer and tell me I should "get a job with health benefits"? seriously, its so utterly paradoxical, isnt a society a social co

Just Wow!!!
The oddest things happen at the strangest of times. Was walking home from the shop with the ex and the kids when we saw a guy having a go at a young woman, they where fighting about something then he grabbed her and bit her hand, so ex-hubby lets go of the kids i grab them and he goes to see if he can help, well the guy starts shouting at him then by this point i've seen enough and call 999 on my cell phone. I give all the details i can to the police and take the kids home. About 15 mins later my friend Cath calls me and says "nice to talk to you on the 999 call" I can't believe i didn't recognise her voice on the phone but guess instinct takes over and you just try to give all the info you can at the time.

Happy Birthday To Me...i Guess
Well today is my birthday and my own family doesn't really care. I know that birthdays are just regular days just like any other day but I kind of wish that my family would acknowledge it...I am just glad that I have friends that love me and tell me happy birthday.

Men
For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. ------------------------------------------ 1. Men are like ..Laxatives ..... They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like.Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

Want My Points For 12 Hours? Here Is How To Get Them
I am offering every single point I make in a 12 hour period to people who get me a 135 credit bling pack. You can pick the 12 hours, to a point.(This is the new ability that Angels get when they reach Virtual Virgin.) The price of the bling pack includes me running an auto during your time. If you would like a HH to run, then you would have to get me that and tell me when you want it scheduled. Anything else you would like to do to promote more points is fine - within reason. Don't think I will be sitting here nonstop through out your 12 hours. But I will do whatever I can to help you make the most points possible. If you are interested or have any questions on this, please send me a bottled water from the gift shop with your message. (I have my PM's to family only. As it gets to be way too much if I don't. See another one of my blogs that explains it.) Thank you so much! Michele :) DON'T FORGET THE RATE THIS BLOG! THANKS SO MUCH!

Contest For Bling
i am putting on a contest for fun and wild time. i have a auto 11,cherry bomb, and a few other blings to award in this contest. ive seen how hot you females can get on here now id like to see if you can push that too. all females willing to take part need to send me 3 photos of themselves, the 5 hottest and most sexy and erotic will receive the choice of auto 11 or cherry bomb, the runner ups will get bling as well. the contest starts july 1 st. good luck to all who wish to play

Take Something
All I have is myself it is all I have to give. There is not much left, some of it has been lost or broken or simply went away somewhere or it may just be displaced. Other parts were stolen then discarded as if they weren't worth having in the way. You are welcome one and all to pick through the twisted heartaches or a tear or two take some broken memories that's all but left me too. Look at the pile of hopes and dreams, you might find wishes that are blue. They haven't seen the light of day since they were brand new. There is one slightly broken heart that used to beat so true it gave the wary mind a lovely poem for me for you. So give a look and find something you think that you could use the rest is gone so hurry fast before all this goes too. 11/01/03 Christopher Kortz

Random Thoughts
So when I first saw the new levels I thought, wow, this is going to be even more annoying than before. But actually, I've been getting a ton of profile rates from point whores who are now gunning for level 31 and it's kind of become amusing. It's like a fu race to see who levels first. Side note, Nick Swardson is fucking hilarious. I'm excited to go out tonight with my bff. Should be good times. I hope for lots of drunken debauchary and whoriness as this will be my last drunk night in Plattsburgh...but then this town sucks so bad that I'm sure it will be lame.

Wtf
So my ex and i say we are best friends and nothing could ever change that, lol to that i say. I stayed a loyal faithful friend for 3 years now, he so couldnt say the same if he was on his death bed. We promised we would never let anyone come between our friendship, yea well i held up to that one, too bad you can not say the same huh.. Now he tells me i ask too much from him. Im sorry if askin you to come to my sons graduation party (which you didnt fucking come to anyway after bein part of his life for 13 years) and then asking you to give us a ride to drop him off to leave for the army is asking too much of you. But dont you worry there cuz i will never ask you to do anything ever again for me or my kids. For 3 years now you tell me how important it is to be part of the family still, yea thats a joke too. These kids looked up to you for so long and now you could give a rats ass about them. to me that shows what kind of man you really are. How could you be there for so long for th

The Years
The years I’ve known you have gave me guidance when I was searching for the truth. You helped me to see what I needed to do. If I were lonely down in despair needing to hear that someone was there with compassion to lend an attentive ear. All those times in my life I needed to mend you were always the one I could truly call a friend. I hope in my heart I have been there for you too and that we’ll be friends our whole life through. Christopher Kortz 12-17-2002

Cutest Lil Love Note Ever..... (repost)
One night a guy & a girl weredriving home from the movies. Theboy sensed there wassomething wrong because of the painfulsilence they shared between themthat night. The girl then asked the boy to pull overbecause she wanted to talk. She told him that herfeelings had changed & that it was time to move on.A silent tear slid down his cheek as heslowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding downthat very same street. He swervedright into the drivers seat, killing the boy.Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, shepulled it out & read it."Without your love, I would die."1st:If u post this on a bulletin in 5 minutessomeone special will message or call you.2nd:REPOST IF YOU CARE ABOUT SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT THEM!!! (EVEN YOUR BEST FRIENDS!)repost this with the title "cutiest lil' Love Note ever''CUTE

My Journal
Ive decided to start my own little journal.Ive always enjoyed writting,and it deffinatly makes me feel better to write down how I feel.and what I have gone thru. I think we all get twists and turns in our life,some bad,hopefully most good,but it feels good to know that were not the only person that goes thru difficult situations.And maybe they will shed some light on this and share what has made it easier to get thru tough times. 1st post.Have you ever thought everything was so bad,no where to turn,and just about to give up when out of the blue someone you have never met,seen,puts a smile on your face?makes things seem like its not so bad after all.

I Love You
Love will come and love will go but then one day that one love will never leave your heart . Days will come and days will go but that one love will always be near even if he is far away. So always remember I love you and always will no matter if we are together or not. You are my one true love and always will be until the end of time.

Things Girls Don’t Realize
1. guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it’ll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.3. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.8. Guys don’t care how gorgeous you are, if you’re a bitch-- Goodbye.9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did somethin

What A Kiss Means... (repost)
*Kiss on the stomach-----"lets do it"*Kiss on the Forehead ----"i hope we're together forever"*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"*Kiss on the Neck ---"we belong together"*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"What the gesture means...*Holding Hands ---"we definitely love each other"*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"*Holding on tight ---"i don't want to let go"*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"i just plain love you"*Playing with Hair ---"Tell me you love me"*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"--Advice--* Dont ask for a kiss, take one.*If you were thinking about someone while reading this,you're definitely in Love.--Requirements--*Post this again after reading!!Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right nowand can't get them out of your headthen R

My Life
learning about me in the tornado of hell that is my life Current mood: apathetic Since I have come home from Iraq I have been lost. I dont know who I am or even who I was before war. I have searched for what was missing, which is Me. But how do I find me when I dont know who or what I am? Where did I go? Or was I ever even here? I feel so out of place in the post deployment world. my memories of all that came before seem so distant yet the memories that happened only a mere few weeks later seem like yesterday.what happened? To my friends who care about me I am sorry for what I have done. To my Comrades I am also sorry for what I have done as well.So I have been talking to a therapist about me. And she wants to know my beliefs, things I value and my rules. what I learned from her is that I ( in her opinion) is that I am a philosopher. I have a sense of humor. I am persistant and angry all the time(yet i feel nothing). The total lack of emotions sucks. I miss the war. at least there

Michael Found Alive
It's not a sad day! He held his 3 month kid over a balcony, and don't say that he was "Showing his kid to the world" He was doing that so people would leave him alone! I think it's a miracle that he's gone! And the kids, anyone who would hurt a kid, an innosent kid, would kill a man. I did really love his awesome music, and dancing, but, who dies, was meant to die for a reason. =[ ( btw i know your going to spam this but please don't, let people see the truth!) It might seem horrible, but it not

My Trip
Well, I'm finally in Missouri. I haven't been on nearly as much as I was when I was home. It feels weird. I miss it here, but I'm really having fun with my friend. The flights here were....different. I've now come to the conculsion that I hate flying. Too bad I have to do it to get home. Taking off scares the hell out of me. The first 15 minutes of it I pretty much have my eyes closed. Of course that my have been because the planes I had to fly in were old and I was sitting right by the wing and I really didn't want to see if the engine caught on fire =/ My actual trip: I was suppose to leave Charleston at 7am. I was really nervous because I'd never been on a plane and I'd heard so many things about the airport that I was flying out of...like the runway was smaller than some other ones, that it looks like you are going to hit the mountains. Well, about 20 minutes before I was suppose to leave they come over the intercom and tell us that my flight has been delayed for 2 hours and

Grrrrrrrrrrr
OK LOOK IF YOU HAVE ARE "FU-MARRIED, HAVE A FU-GF', A R/L GF WHATEVER IT MAY BE! DO NOT AND I REPEAT DO NOT EVEN ATTEMPT TO TALK TO ME AS MORE THAN FRIENDS. I WILL FIND OUT AND I WILL EXPOSE YOUR DIRTY LIL SECRETS. I AM ONE OF THE FEW REAL PPL ON THIS SITE. I DO WHAT I SAY AND MEAN WHAT I SAY. SO FAIR WARNING FUKKERS I AM NOT THE ONE TO PLAY YOUR GAME WITH. DONT DO IT. YOU WILL REGRET IT I PROMISE YOU!!!

Chemo / Results
Mom had her first round of chemo yesterday. Let's just say she isn't the ideal patient. She acted like a coke addict going through withdrawl for like 8 hours. She kept kicking me too lol - - supposively it was the pre-meds; the combination of benadryl and steroids that did her in. She can't remember any of it but I think that's because of all the ativan we gave her.I've been so so tired even before we came to Philadelphia. The Cancer Treatment Center of America here is definately amazing though. Even the people there want me to go get checked out back home (they only accept people already diagnosed with cancer) for tonsillar, lung and chest tumors. When mom had her complete scans at the hospital they found a spot on the right side of her skull and her liver too. It sucks because that means she can't have radiation yet and her condition is so agressive they wanted to do both at the same time but the field of radiation has become too wide-spread. Will update later. As the movie subtly su

28 Facts About Wrestling You Didn't Know.
1. The average wrestling fan spends six years of his life watching The Undertaker walking very slowly towards the ring. 2. Shawn Michaels is addicted to mice. 3. Stephanie and Shane McMahon aren't really Vince MacMahon's children. But every other wrestler on the roster is - even the black ones. 4. Wrestling was invented in 1986 by Suzi Quattro. 5. Rey Mysterio Jnr is six foot five. In order to make him appear shorter, he is filmed from further away than the other wrestlers. 6. Kane movie-vehicle 'See No Evil' is the least enjoyable film ever made. 7. Jim Ross and Jerry 'The King' Lawler were married in the first same-sex civil ceremony in California. 8. Former Women's CHampion Trish Stratus is, in fact, a man. 9. Videos of a 2007 match between Mark Henry and Viscera are used in US schools to demonstrate plate tectonics. The footage is speeded up to render it more lifelike. 10. John Cena can't grow a beard. 11. Batista is shit. 12. One of the most contraversial storylines

Dust Off Your Creativity Please
Music is my salvation, my therapy...my comfort on a terrible day. It's my passion and my peace. A continuous double bass kick has the ability to free my spirit in a way not much else possibly can. Music is as necessary to life as water, food, air, and sex. So, it's time for a tattoo. Tattoos are like therapy, too, of course. Either way, I want to express my love in a way that exceeds the standard musical notes tattoo. That just isn't my style. Give me some ideas. Maybe someone will send me in the right direction. It'll be on my right calf, btw. Unless whatever idea I get is best suited for somewhere like my ass...

In All Candor... A Slew Of Lyrics My Head Keeps Playing Over And Over...
Could you let down your hairBe transparent for a whileJust a little whileTo see if you're human afterall Honesty is a hard attributeTo findWhen we all wanna feel likeWe've got it all figured out Well let me be the first to sayThat I haven't got a clueI don't have all the answersAin't gonna pretend like I do I'm just trying To find my wayTryingTo find my wayThe best that I know how I haven't memorized all ofThe cute things to sayBut I'm workin' on itMaybe I'll master this art form some day If I quote all the lines Off the top of my headWould you believeThat I fully understand all these things I've read I'm just tryingTo find my wayTryingTo find my wayTryingTo find my way the best that I know how Well I haven't got it allFigured out just yetBut even if it takes my whole lifeTo get to where I need to be And if I should fallTo the bottom of the endI'll be one step back to you and Trying To find my wayTryingTo find my wayOh I'm tryingTo find my wayTryingTo find...my way... I'm

What Pictures To Post And How To Post Them
I'm very close to removing most if not all of my NSFW, you guys are cheap and you barely rate the photo's I have and I need to load a folder with enough pics to get bombed. I'd rather not deprive you, but I really need pics to rate and I can't put any more pics up! So, if you like my NSFW, spend time rating my other pics please, or they will go away.

Sad
I think it's really sad that people want to bash Michael Jackson. The man is dead show some respect! He was never convicted of any crime. I believe he was just very misunderstood. And ok a lot of things may have seemed weird to us. But unless you've walked in that man's shoes it isn't your place to judge him. He is an icon and a musical legend. He was a superstar and that is why he was attacked the way he was. I'm glad he's at peace now. RIP MICHAEL FARRAH ED

Angel Awards
Good Morning Friendly Fu's, I am really excited about leveling to 31. Most of you know about the NEW SPECIAL ANGEL ABILITY. If not let me tell you. When used on a fellow they will recieve all my points for 12hrs. Cool right? Yeah I am so pimped. But I need to be pimped and buzzed mor to level up. Don't really like the idea of paying people to do this. Leveling is a special thing and should be shared with friends not bought. So here is my idea for every 3 ability points you give me u will be added to this blog. When I have autos I will grab u up and give u all my points for half a day. (it wouldnt let me do the links i need to ask support)Polish :) Big Daddy Sparks Simply Me#2939456 Vicki#694853 Mia#660043

Loves Roller Coaster Ride
Its 6 a.m and how alone you've been Raging clock tells you its life's chance again Life's chance to break you and leave you alone Life's chance to push you away from your throne This seat you consume through solitude and shouts The perch that you reign more strongly through doubts Constantly a victim to the daily grind There's no slowing down when trapped in your mind Constant tremors splashed with the past Riddled with memories of joys that don't last Their faces they fade like erosion on shore No matter who's there you'll always need more A lovers sweet lips or their warmest embrace Might never awaken your smiling face For what burns in you is darker than hate Sadder than sorrow and crueler than fate A familiar stench of loneliness creeps out of the abyss Will the shadows consume you or shall you resist Fight back with all you may be holding inside Please show me your goodness for I have nothing to hide I am emotionally burned and physically scared But wont you come in must you ma

My Heart Breaks
I love him so much, he is the love of my life. My heart breaks as i watch his shoulders slump forward, tears stream down his handsome face. I understand his pain all to well. I reach out and wrap my arms around him and whisper " My love it will be all right, I promise. " I feel his heart beat wildly inside his chest as he holds me tightly to him, sobbing softly. How i long to take away all his pain and fears, yet i feel so small and helpless. June 23rd 2009

7 Common Reasons Relationships Fail
Failed relationships are one of the biggest causes of stress and unhappiness in life. Working on successful relationships, whether they are with our children, parents, friends or partners, is one of the most important life skills we can learn. If we cannot maintain lasting relationships, we will always struggle to be happy Jealousy It is ironic that we can easily become jealous of our closest friends. Jealousy often occurs when there is a feeling of separation and competition. We need to learn to be happy at the success of others; it only when we can feel a sense of oneness with others achievements that jealousy will remain far away.Also, we need to trust our partner - a suspicious mind is very poisonous. It is better to be trusting rather always suspecting infidelity or disloyalty. Others will be rightly discomforted if we mistrust them. If our partner lets us down, it is not our fault. But, if we suspect, because of our own insecurity, we are bound to create serious problems in

Hotel Adams
Tonight - AUTUMN'S OBSESSION AND DOXOLOGY July 4th - HOTEL ADAMS ROCKFEST Hotel Adams has your tickets to Sevendust. Friday August 7th 2009 Watertown Fairgrounds Arena SevendustW/ Shelflyfe, Caustic, Lake Effect Mud & Cry to the Blind Get Tickets @ Ticketweb.com In Watertown At: Big Apple Music, Bradley's Military, Bolton's Pharmacy, Nelson's Dry Cleaners and the U.S.O. building on Fort Drum , (and now) HOTEL ADAMS

We Need The Votes!!!!!!!
http://beautifulbabies.trb.com/kcpq/babies_home_gallery,0,3993475,permalink.ugcphotogallery?u=rockabilly_ma Click the link and VOTE VOTE VOTE for my lil monster! Voteing opens July 6th and i have my eye on the grand prize of 5,000$ so yah PYHWEEESEEEEE!!! After all she is the cutest baby in washington state and you cant deny it !!!

Questions Of The Day
Q: "YOu want your cake, and you wanna eat it too?" Who the fuck came up with taht? If I have a cake, I damn sure want to eat it. As fast as possible. Q: What happened to Travis Barker's genitals? (the guy that was in a plane crash)

Sleep
Didn't sleep too well last night...had bunch of stuff in my head like usual...made me sad. Cried myself to sleep. Woke up with a sore throat...yay..... Today I'm giong to be wearing a white shirt to work....Ohhh white wow...I tihnk it's been like a year and half since I've worn white to work. This would be my second time of working there wearing white...worn red and blue before....but I mostly wear black. I think it makes me look fatter...ugh..Even though another coworker asked if I been losing weight and she said it's pretty noticable... still need to lose more. I hope that I don' thave eto work with that cunt that I had to work with yesterday...little Miss...Oh I'm so much better than you and all the other girls that aren' barbie dolls like me. She thinks she's the african version of Paris Hilton and all the fuckin' dudes just love her. Not that I'm jealous of her looks, it just pisses me off that guys fall for her while she's a total bitch to other girls, making fun of them becau

Life
A Soldiers Word... Take a man and put him alone, Put him twelve thousand miles from home. Empty his heart of all but blood, Make him live in sand, in mud. This is the life I have to live, This the soul to God I give. You have your parties and drink your beer, While young men are dying over here. Plant your signs on the White House lawn; "Lets get out of Iraq". Use your signs and have your fun, Then refuse to use a gun. There's nothing else for you to do, Then I'm supposed to die for you? There is one thing that you should know; And that's where I think you should go! I'm already here and it's too late. I've traded all my love for all this hate. I'll hate you till the day I die. You made me hear my buddy cry. I saw his leg and his blood shed, Then I heard them say, "This one's dead". It was a large price for him to pay, To let you live another day. He had the guts to fight and die, To keep the freedom you live by. By his dying, your life he buys, But who gives a fuck if a Soldier dies!

For Want Of Love....
Perhaps even love laughs at these shead tears and, to make the world weep even more. Divides and sunders yet anothers desire's and, while he makes marry over this,the wide sea of all our tears darkens and deepens further still. For if man could love to his hearts content with out confronting contrary desires, the pleasure of love would have no equal.. And if destiny had laid down the law that in supream delight earthly good may not attain the bliss of heaven..My woe is all the greater as my habit is to fall in love and to feel though loving this beloved mismatch in love. however much i reflect on myself, I see that fortune leads me where ever life follows an always troubled path..

Something To Think About...
My mother told me to be good at current things in life, so I made a list of those thing. 1. By trying to a Good Person. 2. I off the hook when it comes to cooking. 3. Dancing, a lady loves a man that knows how to move. 4. I love being a DJ. 5. Fucking, thanks dad for blessing the family stone. But the point of the matter is that when two friends ( male and female) to know their role and place when it comes to sex. I told her how things need to be, but she got all Nutty after I gave her 3hrs of Mr. Good-Bar. Know she thinks that we are on that other level shit. And the thing is, that I'm moving at the end of the summer. She is a cool ass chick, but this isn't some K. West Love Lockdown.. So ladies if you got that cool dude in your life and you take it to the next level don't make the shit all weird. Unless he likes that weird stuff. But with joking aside I am a man the loves being relationships, but right after I got out of one, it is a little too soon for all that noise. And ye

I'm A Working Girl Again! Yayyy
Letter I got in my email today from my new boss!!! Hi Jolene, Congratulations and welcome to the Pittsburgh District. I am still inTexas but I will be calling you Monday morning to give you directionsfor completing On Line training. As you know you are paid for On LineTraining; this training will take approx. 3 hours to complete; there are7 sections to this training. I will call you Monday morning to discusswith you. Once you have completed On Line Training we can start in storetraining next week. I will contact Melany regarding training. Over the weekend I will place an order for a Handheld for you. I willmake sure you have the Handheld by Wednesday of next week. Someone MUSTbe home to sign for the Handheld that it has been received. Thanks Jolene, Cheryl Cheryl Spinelli District Manager/Pittsburgh

Fuck Me Over
LOVE ME love me cause im the only one that beautiful fulfillment of sensual concealment .......... you give me butterflye FUCK ME fuck me like u fucked her that exotic release of absolute bliss ............you're secretive eyes HUG ME hug me 'cause i'll never see you again that painful sensation of my obliterlation ..............you'll be my demise HATE ME hate me like you've never hated before that sesitive exposure of not having closure ......... you say you're final good bye to all those ass holes who hurted me this is for u writen by my bitch and bestie for life ashley williams

Enjoy The Silence
Enjoy the Silence Words like violenceBreak the silenceCome crashing inInto my little worldPainful to mePierce right through meCan't you understandOh my little girlAll I ever wantedAll I ever neededIs here in my armsWords are very unnecessaryThey can only do harmVows are spokenTo be brokenFeelings are intenseWords are trivialPleasures remainSo does the painWords are meaninglessAnd forgettableAll I ever wantedAll I ever neededIs here in my armsWords are very unnecessaryThey can only do harmAll I ever wantedAll I ever neededIs here in my armsWords are very unnecessaryThey can only do harmAll I ever wantedAll I ever neededIs here in my armsWords are very unnecessaryThey can only do harmEnjoy the silence

Nothing Left At All
"Nothing Left At All"It's so ugly inside hereI'm trapped hereI cannot leave this placeEverything is all changing and fadingAnd i want to escapeBut just when i thought i'd found a way outI fall right on my faceSo don't wait too lateTo see that they take til there's nothingNothing left at allWe live to give ourselves awayBut they take til there's nothing left at allIs there anyone out thereTo hear meHear me crying outCause i need someone to show meThe reality of what i've got to faceBut just when i finally start to wake upI find out it's too lateWhy can't they hear usWhy can't they seeCause we're crying out for somethingSomething to believeDon't wait too late to see that we're fighting for somethingSomething that's already goneToday i gave myself awayAnd i'm left here with nothingNothing left at all

By Myself
"By Myself"What do I do to ignore them behind me?Do I follow my instincts blindly?Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?Do I sit here and try to stand it?Or do I try to catch them red-handed?Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thinI make the right moves but I'm lost withinI put on my daily facade but thenI just end up getting hurt againBy myself [myself]I ask why, but in my mindI find I can’t rely on myselfI can’t hold onTo what I want when I’m stretched so thinIt’s all too much to take inI can’t hold onTo anything watching everything spinWith thoughts of failure sinking inIf ITurn my back I’m defenselessAnd to go blindly seems senselessIf I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’llTake from me ‘till everything is goneIf I let them go I’ll be outdoneBut if I try to catch them I&rsq

Easier To Run
"Easier To Run"It's easier to runReplacing this pain with something numbIt's so much easier to goThan face all this pain here all aloneSomething has been taken from deep inside of meThe secret I've kept locked away no one can ever seeWounds so deep they never show they never go awayLike moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)(I would take all my shame to the grave)[Chorus]It's easier to runReplacing this pain with something numbIt's so much easier to goThan face all this pain here all aloneSometimes I remember the darkness of my pastBringing back these memories I wish I didn't haveSometimes I think of letting go and never

No Roads Left
"No Roads Left"Standing alone with no directionHow did I fall so far behind?Why Am I searching for perfection?Knowing it's something I won't findIn my fear and flawsI let myself down againAll because[Chorus] I runTill the silence splits me openI runTill it puts me undergroundTill I have no breathAnd no roads left but oneWhen did I lose my sense of purpose?Can I regain what's lost inside?Why do I feel like I deserve this?Why does my pain look like my pride?In my fear and flawsI let myself down againAll becauseI let myself downIn my fear and flaws[Chorus]I runTill the silence splits me openI runTill it puts me undergroundTill I have no breathAnd no roads left but oneNo roads left but oneIn my fear and flawsI let myself down againAll becauseI runAnd the silence splits me openI runAnd it puts me undergroundBut there's no regretAnd no roads left to run

Morning After
"Morning After" Caught up against the wall again Tied and chained to the ball again Never cease to amaze in minds So I just sleep sleep sleep please don't Wake me till the morning after [2x] Cut and bruised by the fall again Lick my wounds like a dog again Is that a light at the end of the tunnel That I see I see please let it be but don't Wake me till the morning after [3x] Oh I'm so tired there has got to be an end to the pain I feel when I'm awake and alive alive alive alive and I'm dreamin' Caught up against the wall again Tied and chained to the ball again Is that a light at the end of the tunnel That I see I see please let it be but don't Wake me till the morning after [3x] Oh I'm so tired there has got to be an end to the pain I feel when I'm Awake and alive alive alive Alive and I'm dreamin'

Faith (too Much Time On My Hands)
Have you ever seen a sand clock? Have you flipped it over and observed those tiny grains of sand all over sudden come rushing through the funnel, one just like the other, hurrying to get to the narrow part, pushing and shoving while being concentrated in a tight spot, just to fall through and join its counterparts all the way at the bottom?For hundreds of thousands of years, since the beginning of humanity, we have been going through a gigantic sand clock of life, starting all the way in a top chamber the moment we are born and making our way down every second without stopping. Unlike the sand clock, however, we do not get to start all over again once we reach the bottom and the clock is turned upside down to repeat the process. This is where this analogy ends and the reality of our existence begins. Since the beginning of human experience we have been trying to find the explanation for our presence and the reasons for overcoming the struggles that life throws in our face. Do we ponder

Super Xero (by Myself)
"Super Xero (By Myself)"What do I do to ignore what's behind me?Do I follow my fate and escape blindly?Do I hide my pride away from these bad dreamsAnd give into sad thoughts that are maddening?Do I let it go and try to stand it?Or do I try to catch them redhanded?Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?Or do I trust nobody and live life in lonliness?The sunlight burns the skin of sleeping menI make the right turns but I'm lost withinI put on my daily façade but thenI just end up gettin' hurt again[pre-chorus:]By myself (Myself)I ask why (but in my mind I find)I can't rely on myself (Myself)I ask why (but in my mind I find)I can't rely on myself[chorus]:I can't hold onTo what I want when I'm stretched so thinIt's all too much to take inI can't hold onTo anything watchin' everything spinWith thoughts of failure sinking inIf I turn my back I'm defenselessAnd to give in to fate seems senselessIf I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they'll take from me 'til everything is goneIf I

Still Frame
"Still Frame"Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and i cant get outPlease help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of hereBelieve me, I'm just as lost as youan every time I think ive finally made it I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before I see the clock and its ticking away, and the hourglass empty What the F***do I have to sayPlease help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get outPlease help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of hereRelease me, I'm just as lost as youBelieve me, I'm just as lost as youKeep it inside, the image portrayed As if I couldnt stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no wayA small confession I think I'm starting to lose itI think I'm drifting away from the people I really needA small reflection on when we were younger We had it all figured out 'cause we had everything coveredNow were older its getting harder to seeWhat this futur

Rip My Clothes Off.
Rip off my clothesI'll rip off yoursDon't be gentleI want it roughI want to you have animalistic sex with meForce me on my kneesmake me say pleaseDon't be gentleI want it roughI want you to have animalistic sex with meI have been a naughty girlI want you to punish mePut me over your knees and Spank meThrow me on the bedPin my handsPin my kneesDon't be gentleMake it roughI want you to have animalistic sex with meRam your dick in meMake me screamI want you to slam into meI want you to fuck meDon't be gentleMake it roughI want you to have animalistic sex with meTurn me on all foursand Please, Please slam into mePull my hair and pull it hardPound into my pussy, make it rawDon't be gentleI want it roughI want you to have animalistic sex with meWork my body, make me sweatFuck me so good so I will never forgetYou got my bodyIt all yoursDon't be gentleI want it roughI want to you to have HotSweatyWildFreakyAll day, all nightDon't stopHardRoughScrachingBitingHair pullingAnimalistic sex with me.

Sweet Chocolate Kisses
Rain on me your sweet chocolate kisses.You melt on my lips and I begin to taste you with my tongue MMM you taste so sweet as you swirl around in my mouth and smoothly slide down my throatYour sweet chocolate kisses I am so addicted toand you are just right for my sweet toothRain on me your sweet chocolate kissesLeaving a trail of chocolate goodnesson my neck. Your warm sticky chocolatyaroma is so intoxicating to my sensesit takes me a minute to realize thatI am on a sugar high andI am your chocolate fiendReady for my next fixYou got me licking my fingers so I don't waste a dropThose sweet chocolate kisses have me in a tranceThey are more delicious with every flick and lick.I want you to pour on meCovering me with your sweet chocolate kisshaving me holler for more, more, moreI am like a kid at a candy storeRain on my your sweet chocolate kissesas I close my eyes and feel you slideyour chocolate rod inside and you begin again to kiss my chocolate stained lips and I savor all of your fla

A Lil Bit About Me
IT was just to much for my profile page....I liek to keep things like that clean and simple :) TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - Name: JeniBirthday: are you kiddign me....April 21, 1980Birthplace: Beale Airforce Base, CaliforniaLocation: Central Valley, Ca....soon to be back on the east coast...I move entirelyt too much...I know Brandi I need to pick one caost....lol.Eye Color: Blue/Green....piss me off and they get a yellow tint on top of the other colors. Hair Color: *deep breathe* Really really really really really dark brown :DHeight: 5'7" I AM NOT VERTICALY CHALLENGED!! I am tall enough to poke you in the eye :DRight Handed or Left Handed: Righty tightyYour Heritage: My father is Puertarican and Scotish my Mother is Cajun....yeppers she is.....yeah i have a HIGH alcohal tolerance :DThe Shoes You Wore Today: Cleats and flip flops....baseball cleats....lolYour Weakness: CHEESECAKE hands down....LMAOYour Fears: Clowns, Spiders, Midgets (any one under 4'11") Your Perfect Pizza: The Bran

I Want To Be Kissed
I want to be kissed.I want to be kissed with passiontingling with love, lust and desireI want to be kissed like I am the air you breathe and I am your oxygenI want to be kissedI want to be engulfed in your armsI want your fingers lost in my thick black hairgripping it tight, hold on to me with dear lifeholding on to me as if I will disappear right before your eyesI want to be kissedI want to feel your lips pressed against mineI want to melt into your mouthI want to feel your tongue on mine moving it in and out and around my mouthI want to nibble and suck on your bottom lip I want to hear you moan and feel you squirmI want to be kissedI want to be kissed as I close my eyes and clear my mindI want no distractions I want all my attention on you, on us, on this kissI want to be kissedI want to be taken away and lose all sense of timeI want to be kissed and get lost in the movements of our mouthsI want to feel your eagerness and I want you to feel mineI want to revel in the taste and the fe

Yummies
I recently decided with everything going on in my life that I needed a change. I need to restress alittle and one thing that makes me happy is my love for cooking. I so very much wanted to be a baker and now the chance to start doing a little here and there has come up. Starting next week I will be baking my ass off so if any of you live anywhere near me and would like to try some treats feel free to ask and i'll be more than happy to assist you. I'm so freaking excited. Maybe now i'll stop losing my hair and my fiance and I can finally work things out before I kick his butt to the curb!

Time Happiness Me
After giving much thought about this,and giving the most part of my adult life trying to make others happy.I'm done with it. Its time to get my own life back on track and do whats important for me.In the past I have always put others in front of myself,and when I do this it never fails but I'm the one that gets screwed. So do I change my ways and beliefs? I've always tried to see the good in people,and their are many good people out there.But most the people I have tried to see the good in them,all they do is take,take,take,and never once say thanks or try to give back to me or anyone for that matter. So the answer is yes.I am going to have to change my ways and beliefs.But I'm not sure if I can.But will have to force myself just so I can protect myself.They always say change is hard.But as this world changes so do we,whether its good or not. I'm sure I will get some mouthy comments on this,and people will say stop your whinning and such.But after starting over several times,some p

How I See The World In The The Lyrics Of Dreamer By Ozzy Osbourne
Dreamer lyricsGazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime After all there's only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself Time after time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days I watch the sun go down like everyone of us I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those Who will come after us ... This time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away oh yeah I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ It doesn't really matter much to me Without each others help there ain't no hope for us I'm living in a dream of fantasy Oh yeah, yeah, yeah If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ... Be gone?

An Old Farmer's Advice
* Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong. * * Keep skunks and bankers at a distance.* * Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.* * A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor.* * Words that soak into your ears are whispered...not yelled.* * Meanness don't jes' happen overnight.* * Forgive your enemies. It messes up their heads.* * Do not corner something that you know is meaner than you.* * It don't take a very big person to carry a grudge.* * You cannot unsay a cruel word.* * Every path has a few puddles.* * When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty..* * The best sermons are lived, not preached. * Most of the stuff people worry about ain't never gonna happen anyway.* * Don't judge folks by their relatives.* * Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.* {Wisdom has 2 parts - having a lot to say, and then not saying it} * Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll enjoy it a

Fvckin Teletech!
Ok..so you know how you have to press 611 from your cell phone when you have a problem???? Well you get me on the other end of that call. Ok so I just recently started this job, and I don't think i'm doing very well at it. They record and grade your phone calls. My problem with the job is that I don't know how to talk to people. They don't want any "dead air" on your phone calls. But seriously what the fuck am I suppoused to talk to people about????? If i'm working on there problem and I need help from my soup...i'm suppoused to stand up and raise my hand. Well we are not allowed to put the customer on hold while we are waiting for the soup to come over. We can't place them on hold until the soup actually gets to our cubicle...And in that time i'm suppoused to hold a conversation with that person. About what exactly??? I don't know how the fuck to talk to people, or what the fuck about. And honestly when I call 611 I just want them to fix the mf problem. I don't really wanna ha

Silent Thoughts
A simple thought of you and I'm gone again,Just thinking about your sweet face.Wishing I could touch your body,While giving you kisses all over the place. I'd caress your back,As you stare into my eyes.The thought of you here next to me,Puts my body in a rise. Your hands all over my skin,While your tongue traces my lips.The feeling begins to intensify,As you move just past my hips. I imagine you inside of me,And I let out a slight moan.The thought of you making love to me,Begins to set the tone. Slower in the beginning,I want to feel your every thrust.Your kissing my neck now,As you touch me on my bust. I run my fingers through your hair,As you breathe into my ear.I bite down on my lower lip,Just wishing you were here. You pick up the pace now,And I begin to lose control.I imagine your face looking down at me,As the ecstasy takes its toll. You rub my face with your hands,And softly kiss me on my cheek.You can tell just by my smile,How much the thought of you makes me weak. I ta

Red Rider Sounds Like My Childhood =d
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SuZqSsnEGzU This band is one of the best of its time. Kudos to Tom Cochrane. He is still an amazing musician and his concert with John Mellencamp was indescribable. Anyone else who likes his music message me

While You Were Sleeping
While you were sleeping,I sat by your bed.I watched youas you smiled through your dreams. I traced your perfect shell ear,Touched every curlOn your little head. I tried to sleepBut the sound of your breathingDrew me back to your room. I couldn't resistThe magic which tuggedAt my heartstringsAnd brought me to your side. I settled on the floorOnce again.Back against the wall,Holding your tiny hand in mine. While you were sleepingI fell in love with you all over again.

Our First Afternoon Together
the day has been long,as you are finally here in my arms.we are at my house,but not for long as we have decided to take a walk.just like we have talked about on the phone for so long.as we put your bags into the bedroom we close the door,and walk out of the house.as we are walking you feel my hand clasp yours our fingers interlocking,as we walk down the drive.as we get to the end,we turn right.walking up the street.as we keep walking a few cars pass by,but we don't let it slow us down.we reach the spot where we must now walk down a path to the secluded spot we have wanted to go to.as we are walking down the path we push aside the different bushes.finally we make it to the place.we both smile to each other as we spread a blanket down over the grass.then we both sit down,as i look at you and smile saying"my love.i have waited for this day for so long"as you gaze into my eyes you smile"as have i mon cher"you feel my arms wrap around you pulling you close as we start kissing very deeply

What The Fuck?
Ok..so I am going to put this out there to all you motherfuckers out there on my friend list. I will NO LONGER be tolerating your spam from other websites in my shoutbox. I WILL not even go look. Now I just received some bullshit link from somebody and I am afraid to go look. If it has anything to do with her being naked I would just barf all over the fuckin place. Any more of you fuckers do this again and your asses will be terminated off the list. If I have said anything that offends that's too fuckin bad because I just don't give a fuck about you and your feelings.

Been Awhile
what can i say... i gave up on this site and then something pulled me back... well i got some new photos and well its been quiet so not much new... looking to get out and well party it up... saturday off and im not being stuck here thats for sure... or maybe... just get plastered maybe... lmao. ribs are bleeding with fresh new ink and well that sting is waking me up!!!! wooooo wooooooooooo!

Until The Day You Really Make Me Scream
I dream of him on the darkest of nights, He comes to me surrounded by an aluminous light. My body he knows how to please, All of my worries only he can release. I know not his face, But my fingers can always trace, The outline of his soul Through his captivating voice. Though we have never met, Only he can make my soul tremble, And my body this wet. You have always been the faceless Person in my dreams. Continuously ligering, And pulling me at the seams. I can always feel your presence, But tonight I welcome you into my essence. Come to me quickly, Before I explode. For the dawn we both shall loathe. I want to feel our first passionate kiss, All of my heart I am willing to risk. Just to have you deep inside me. I want to feel your powerful thrusts, For this moment has been my constant lust. Feeling our bodies in numerous positions, Ride me harder make my heart and soul listen, To the knowledge that my body already knows, You heighten my passion And ma

The Big Party! Night 2
I will be out enjoying the big party! Back on 7/6. Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there. But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick! Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts hung out with a great friend!

Is It You Im Thinking Of?
I awoke one day to find an angel Crying pretty tears. I asked this creature of such beauty From whence had come her fears. Someone had said her pretty wings Weren't quite white enough. I looked, and saw wings of light, With not a wrinkle or fluff. I said, "Oh, you amazing Creature sent from heaven, Your wings are bright enough for me To think that I'm in heaven." If you don't mind my saying Just how much I feel, And how much beauty I see in you - A beauty that is real, You are that angel, bathed in light, That fills my heart with love, And only Satan in his hate could Tamper with such a dove. Do not listen to those who cause Your angelic tears to fall. They don't know beauty when they see it They don't know you at all. You're so beautiful to me As your heart shines true, No one can convince me life's Not made for such as you. People may want to destroy A temple with stained glass, But I want to treasure and preserve The pearl, that it may last. You are a treasure of more value

Who Ever Said Talk About It?
Who ever said "talk about it", seriously who listens or cares, who even answers their phone, or returns messages. They say in psychiatry and psycology, talking about issues is the best way to heal. In regards to children, A parent is overbearing and causes undo stress and emotion on that child by trying to communicate. It accelarates issues, making more drama and pressure where there is already plenty. But what is one to do about the constant worries, racing thoughts..."What can I do?" "How can I fix this?" Yet lack of talking results in an unrelentless imploding feeling when left with no outlet. So hold back or speak? The tears and fears and worries They fill and fill, to what reservoir are they to be released in a "proper" manner? WHERE ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PUT THESE FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS? When CAN you talk, Where..... Please leave comments, thoughts and ideas, I need help.

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Days of endless struggleMore hopeful pills todayTrying to appear ‘normal’In some sort of way.It seems that the struggleIs always here with meAnd I wouldn’t be here nowIf guilt would leave me beI know there’s been manyWho’ve had it worse than IBut that doesn’t always meanThat I wouldn’t say good-byePeople say I have a lot going for meI’m sorry, but I just can’t seeI can’t see because my worst enemyIs not my life, but inside of me.Always on a roller coaster,Not much consistencyI’m nothing if I’m not up or downI’m nothing if just ‘me.’Very little energyWanting to stay in bedWishing to be enthusiasticInstead of feeling like I’m made of lead.Wanting to be excitedWanting to care for moreBut when nothing makes senseIt’s hard to focus on the poor.Cluttered mind, cluttered thinkingIt’s hard to keep in touchWith what is happening around meAnd not to worry too much.I feel that everybody is

Rip
I was shocked.....Michael Jackson is not much older then my own father.. but i wasnt as shocked as when eddie guerrero died.The king of pop dying is a great and tragic loss to music even if he wasnt pumping out hits anymore or doing world wide tours the king of pop will always be remebered. Unlike today's musicans He had skill and talent not only on the stage and in the recording booth but his videos were pure amazing. With the exception of the great Steven Tyler.. Jackson was a man i knew from my birth from the jackson 5 to his solo career i know it all its a tragedy to lose such great talent. Love him or Hate him YOU ALWAYS KNEW who Michael Jackson was.I can go years without listen to him but once i heat the beat of beat it the sounds of remeber the time all the words flash before my brain. He was an impecable man. Great. People seem to remeber...oh he was a child molester...GUESS WHAT HE WAS PROVEN INNOCENT BY A JURY OF HIS PEERS ON ALL CHARGES..Can you blame him for being strange?

My Yahoo Groups
Hey Everyone , I'd personally like to invite you to join our other groups.http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ablondeandblackcock4funhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/interracialhotspotcrosscountryhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/thebiggirlsnextdoorhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlpartygirlshttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/imphamouzphreakmob/http://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlcandyshophttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/foxynylafanclubhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlbibitcheshttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlplaygroundhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/midwestmodelzhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlbigbootybytcheshttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/309swingershttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/stlinterracialhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/bbwfriendsandluvershttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/king_royalty

Juggalo Family
Juggalo FamilyI dont care if you tant me or tease meI dont care if you use me and abuse meI always keep my hatchet up in the airI look around and see ninjas and ninjalettes everwereYou look around and dont see shitMy family of ninja and ninjalettes hide high and farI know that each and ever singel one of them will have my back when I fallWont leave me like your pussy ass friendSo juggalos and Juggalettes keep your hatchet raisedYour Faygo botttles filledAnd your blunts rolledNEVER EVER let thoses other hoes see ya die

Werewolfs Moon
I stare up at the skyWaiting,AnticipatingNight to fall.Watching the clockAs the minutes slowlyTick away.My palms sweat,My heart pounds,As the sun sinksBelow the horizon.I watch the moon rise,As if taunting me,knowing that I'mTo transform.I look up,My breath gets short.I let out a loud howl,I no longer have control of myself.Hunchback,Fur,Sharpened teeth.I am nowWild!Free!I can do as I please!WillingnessTo take the blood of another.To make them sufferThe sameHorrible fate as I doOn the Werewolf's Moon.

Life Is A Prison
Life is a prison,Oh God let me out.No one to listen,To hear when you shout.Climb the walls of insanity,Ride the waves of despair.If you fall it don't matter,There's no one to care.Used to wish for a window,To see birds, trees and sky,But you're better without one -Stops you aiming too high.Watching freedom is painful,For those locked away.Seeing joy, love and happiness,Another price that you pay.Strong is good, weak is bad.Be it false, be it true.Your mind makes the choice,And enforces it too.Cell walls built by society,With rules to adhere.If you breach the acceptable,You had better beware.Hide the pain, carry on,Routine is the key.Don't let on that you're not,What you're pretending to be.Lock it all up inside you,How badly that bodes.Look out for that one day,When it all just explodes.Leaving naught but a shell,Base functionality too.But killing all else,That was uniquely you.So how do you grow,With a timebomb inside?Or how to defuse it,Without destroying its ride?

Gone
What do I do, now I've reached the edge? The cliff is steep to the plain below Miles upon miles of emptry airAnd no hand will I hold, but your hand and you are not there! Whatdo I do when smothering black Of night engulfs me So dark I tingle with sudden fear No arms do I need but your arms And you are not there! What do I do with a life that tellsthe end of the world in a darkened mistBut still must keep senselessly onNo love keeps my heart, but your loveAnd you ... you are gone!

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Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seenso unsure but it seems, ’cause we’ve been waiting for youFallen into this place, just giving you a small tasteof your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anywayI see a distant light, but girl this can't be rightSuch a surreal place to see so how did this come to beArrived too earlyAnd when I think of all the places I just don't belongI've come to grips with life and realize this is going too farI don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from hereA place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rainCan leave this place but refrain, ’cause we've been waiting for youFallen into this place, just giving you a small tasteof your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anywayThis peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)No pain or sign of time (I’m much too young to fall)So out of place don'

Sorry
things are as they are and arent what they arent. I'm sorry you feel as you do about everything. I'm sorry you can't take being friends and I understand your decision. I'm not going to apologize for anything though. Through the years I told you what I wanted to tell you and you did with that what you wanted to do. I blame the downfall of what could have been on both of us equally. I didn't tell you how upset I was when I was single and you'd be with someone else. Or that when you were with someone else and got them pregnant it made me sad because you were with someone else and I was giving you your space to have something with someone other than myself. It was just never meant to be I guess. I am sorry you feel so much hatred towards me, I never know what to say when you get that way so I just dont respond. I don't wish anything bad for you, I've always ever just wanted you to find someone to be happy andin love with and I still hope you find that.

Michael Jackson
ok, seriously... Its been 24 hours since the passing of Michael Jackson. And the Jokes are flying outrageously. Really? Gonna crack jokes about someone whos body hasnt even turned cold yet? I mean how sad... Regardless to what he may have or may not have been (and it's here that I would like to point out that he was never convicted of anything.) First case was dismissed due to lack of evidence, and second case he was aquitted. Does this mean that he was innocent? In the eyes of the Law, Yes. In the eyes of others, No. However, I think that most everyone here is neglecting the fact that as a child, he was physically, and emotionally abused. Studies show that abuse like that can have an adverse effect on a persons emotional state of mind. No im not making excuses, im pointing out facts. Personally, I think Michael Jackson was vilified by the media and no matter what would have happened... He was going to carry this burden for the rest of his life, in which he has. I

I Need Your Assitance
A couple of months ago I entered a tattoo contest on a Las Vegas radio stations website. I just found out that the month of June my photo is entered. It only runs this month. I need your help bu going to the website and voting on my tat. Please ask your friends to vote to. Here is the website url...... http://xtremeradio.com/pages/4437090 Look for picture captioned Kenneth j-jpg. It is a pic of the tattoo I have covering my skull. I really appreciate all your help and I hope you can help me to win this contest.

Life...and Death
I work in a field where people die all the time. It is part of working with the elderly. They come to places like my work to live the rest of their life. To die comfortably and get the care they need....Today we lost a resident. She had dementia and was 84 years young. I remember going into her room and saying it was time for pills and being swore at one minute and smiled at the next. Funny how you take things for granted like being able to remember who is standing next to you in a childhood picture. But, as I was thinking about her and all the other people I have taken care of at the end of their lives I was taken back to 2 yrs ago when I first started my current job. I am going to enclose a newspaper article and then tell about how this man, Patrick, changed my life. Nick Coleman: Monsignor was the face of God in war's inferno With strength and grace, the Rev. Patrick Hessian walked easily where he was needed in the spiritual and military worlds. By Nick Coleman, Star Tribune

What Independance Day Means To Me
I'm a lover, a fighter, a poet these things are what made me a good soldier I spent 12 years of my life (10 active, 2 reserve) as a Marine and I've fought in both Iraq and afghanistan and I have seen the good and bad, pretty and ugly, but in all of it I saw the humanity of the situation-- people wanting what we have-- and that being freedom.. So when the 4th of july rolls around, I'm asking you all within reach of my blog to remember that day, not as a day to gorge yourselves on burgers, dogs and watching the fireworks, but to remember those like myself that gave all and are currently giving their all to protect you Thank you Chief Warrant Officer 2nd class Glenn Robert Barr, USMC Reserve SEMPER FI! GOD BLESS AMERICA!!

Nobody
i will never find a man because he wont want a women with kids and i know my wish to get a divorce wont happen i will never have the money i to get my divorce what man want a famale that still married and dont divorce . i wish i was single again and not married so i know i will not have nobody i will be lonley the rest of my life married to a man that abondon me and my kids .janet you r right you know what i mean i wish i can see what coming for me but i know whats comeing for you . and other people ut i cant do myself . i miss talking to one of my friend he understands me but now he in another state he was a good lissoner i look up to him like a little brother to me oh will i feel nobody cares and hate me but i did not do nothing to them i try to help people but later on i get stab in the back by them and i am sick of triederd of it that why i am afried to make friends and get close to people . and for males i am afreid to be hurt by them

Today I Smiiled
Today I smiled, and all at once Things didn't look so bad. Today I shared with someone else, A little bit of hope I had. Today I sang a little song, And felt my heart grow light. I walked a happy little mile, With not a cloud in sight. Today I worked with what I had, And longed for nothing more, And what had seemed like only weeds, Were flowers at my door. Today I loved a little more, And complained a little less. And in the giving of myself, I forgot my weariness. ~~~~~DSMH~~~~~

Paying
IM PAYIN 8 MILL FOR & AUTO11 BLING THE FRIST ONE THAT DOES THIS FOR ME I WILL EVEN GIVE THAT PERSON DRINKS FOR 1 WEEK SO PLZ LEAVE COMMENT,S SO I NO ,,WHO WHATS 8 MILL FOR AND AUTO ,,I REALLY NEED TO LEVEL SOME TIME THIS YEAR THXS & HUGGSSS,,

Where Is The Fun?
I've been on this site since December 2006 and things don't seem right anymore. We used to have fun without the drama and childish games that go on here now. You didn't beg for points, gifts, bling, Fubucks and what not. You couldn't buy your way to the top, you had to earn it. It took work and friends not money and empty promises. I don't visit very often because it took me over two years to reach level 22. Now I see people reach it in a few weeks. I've made some friends here and hate the thought of loosing them but at this rate it just might happen. I plan on taking a break to think about what to do. If any one has an idea how to enjoy this site as it is let me know. If you read this please leave a comment. If you do at least I'll know some one read this. Thanks, Eddy

Parrotheads
We are not Parrot Heads because we are Jimmy Buffett fans.We are Parrot Heads because:* We love the ocean.* We love our planet.* We love to have fun.* We are Parrot Heads because:* We are not afraid to be silly.* We are not afraid to act foolish.* We are not afraid of love.We are Parrot Heads because:* We like scantily clad members of the opposite sex* We like playing in the sun with those same members.* We like singing songs that say all of these things.We are Parrot Heads because:* We believe the best things in life cannot be bought.* We believe sharing the best things make them better.* We believe in the innate goodness in all of us.We are Parrot Heads because:* We know shared joy is increased.* We know shared pain is lessened.* We know a good friend has value beyond measure.It just so happens, that Jimmy Buffett sings about all these things. So, we are not Parrot Heads because we are Jimmy Buffett fans, we are Jimmy Buffett fans because we are Parrot Heads!

Listen Up!!
FIRST THINGS FIRST..IM TIRED OF PEOPLE COMING TO MY PAGE AND BITCHIN AT ME,FOR STUPID REASON,DONT ASSUME IF U DONT KNOW WHATS GOIN ON..IF I DNT RATE U WHILE I GO TO UR PAGE ITS CUZ I ALREADY RATED U,THE REASON I GO TO UR PAGE IS TO SEE IF ITS TIME TO RE RATE U,SO DONT COME INTO MY SHOUT BOX BTITCHIN N TELLIN ME SHIT CUZ I DIDNT RATE U WHILE I VISIT UR PAGE...MAN,GROW THE FUCK UP PPL,IM GETTIN TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT,THATS WHY I LEFT FUBAR FOR ONE MONTH,I CAME BAK HOPIN EVERYTHIN CHANGED BUT NO EVERYTHIN THE FUCKIN SAME...I WILL RATE UR PAGE WHEN ITS TIME FOR IT TO BE RE RATED...SO JUS LETTIN U KNOW DNT BRING UR DRAMA TO MY PAGE,CUZ IF U DO U R GOIN TO BE BLOCKED... TY,MUCH LOVE;THICKNESS85

Best Laid Plans
Today was moving day. Spent most of my time packing my office, and moving stuff out of it so the person who was moving into mine would have a place to go, so I could move into his office. I don't know what the deal with the office swap was, but it was by order of the Dean, so it happened. I feel kinda bad, because my co-worker is moving into an office half the size, and I'm getting a pretty freaking nice office. It has windows on two sides, so I have an overlook of most of the campus. I shall have to take pictures soon and share them. The bad thing is, we are on a strict deadline for getting this done, so I was planning on going to pick up a piece to my new desk tonight and then spend the rest of the night setting my office up. So I went to the storage thing and ended up realizing they close at 9:00. Boo. so I was unable to pick up the parts of my desk, and thus unable to setup my stuff. So, sadly, I'm going to have to go into work tomorrow. Bleh. But, I guess worth it for the offi

Steve
Hello everyone! For those of you who have been concerned about Steve I have the news. Steve has had a bad stroke. He's home now and doing better according to his mom. He just can't speak very well or get on the computer. I talked to him a little on the phone and he misses everyone and will be back as soon as he can! So let's all keep our precious Steve in our thoughts and prayers.We miss and love you Steve!!! (h)

Drink Recipes
Ike Drink RecipesFor the tea totallers this is great humor. For the real enthusiasts, this is pertinent to your survival:FEEDER BAND2 oz. Midori2 oz. rum1 scoop vanilla ice creamAfter your home loses power, combine Midori and rum in a cocktail glass. Add a scoop of the vanilla ice cream that is melting in your freezer. Stir, and drink through a straw.============================================================MANDATORY EVACUATION1 1/2 oz. Absolute Ruby Red vodka1/2 oz. vermouthClamatoPrune juiceCombine vodka and vermouth in cocktail glass. Fill remainder of glass with equal parts Clamato and prune juice. Stir. Drink. Ask next-door neighbor whose ficus tree blew over and crashed onto your roof -- even though you'd warned him for months to uproot it -- if you can use his bathroom. Repeat.============================================================CATEGORY 51/2 oz. vodka1/2 oz. tequila1/2 oz. rum1/2 oz. bourbon1/2 oz. ginSweet-and-sour mixSplash of fruit juiceCombine vodka, tequila, rum,

A Little Truth
So I'm genuinely sorry that people died and stuff but holy fuck if I hear Thriller one more goddamn time I'm going to go on a murderous rampage. Also, I'm so proud that Leia approves of me... · ╚»Princess.Leia... became your fan! · ╚»Princess.Leia... rated you a '10'! Along with a can of fuweiser was this message: "I stopped by to re-rate your profile and fanned you in the past. If you could take a sec, and rate my profile and fan me, great! Have a great week! Click the pic below to access my pics. 'Princess Leia luvs bling -Laurie" She's lucky I just don't have the energy to be a cunt tonight.

Drown The Hero
The bubbles of mirth have already burst upon the surface of despair. Whispering winds have long since whisked the pleas into oblivion. Dark tides of time have erased the destiny written by the fates. The stars stare coldly down from their places in the heavens. Deep depths and darkened caverns consume and conceal. Shores of erroded stability stand testament to torture. Shredded souls, upon the ghost ship of sorrow, sail silently by and by. Treasures of phoenix light buried in the sand.

Tick ... Tick ... Tick Goes The Clock...
It's like watching the hands of a clock...just waiting...waiting for forever to begin. It's that point where you know you're on the verge of starting what will ultimately define you, but you just haven't found it yet. You start to look in the strangest of places. Can I find my path in people...places...work...my interests? By and large I think that there is a destiny for everyone. We never really completely understand why certain things happen or why they happen to us, but there is a reason. When someone dies do you weep for them and ask why? Do you celebrate their life? Or do you send yourself into a massive depression? Or all 3? If a doctor called and gave you news you didn't want would you take it in stride and continue to live your life or would you think that your world had ended and see no value in staying around to deal with the reality of it? I believe the mind is intensely stronger than anyone can imagine. Which is why some people can work in the EMS, the burn uni

Limbo
you got me in limbo cant take it no more you got me in limbo baby please open the door some doors, there always open and some you can only walk out some locks were made to be broken we've bean kick'n them down no more we aint taken it no more lest we keep it for our selves you got me in limbo love pergatory you bend my will till you get your way baby then you ignore me asken for some flow out the door you go well i aint take'n it no more no more aint take'n it no more lest i keep it for my self you say that im up to no good well i say that your rob'n the hood your self if you's a bully, you'd best to treat me good cause im a step'n razor watch my sides im dangerous and im pretty sure your dangerous too. no more we aint taken any more lest we keep it for our selves lest we keep it for our selves

What An Idiot
Can someone decipher this for me? Read bottom to top. Who is this wanker? Spark Sexy: tuly i wish i was block ->Spark Sexy: whatever dude....you need to clarify and stop calling people assholes in their shoutbox.....you don't know me Spark Sexy: the reason why i ask that is menny use it as a sex thing ok now as far as for me walking with it there little or no info as for sex with it there a who lot of info i trying to get to so i can understand it more ->Spark Sexy: you were talking about using it for sex or something....if i remember correctly Spark Sexy: 1th of all i use it on my leg to help me walk 2th who youo think you are to say that shit ->Spark Sexy: that was like yesterday dude....what's your beef Spark Sexy: the mum about eletro stimlatrion ->Spark Sexy: what the hell are you talking about? i just logged in Spark Sexy: i saw what you wote on my mum youo fucking ass hole who you think you are ->Spark Sexy: huh? Spark Sexy: who the helll do you think you are

I Can`t Take It Anymore, Blog Time
totally sick of the celebrity death channel, otherwise known as the mumms this will be a confession blog say anything you want or feel serious or not only one rule anythng you run across in here stays here i was gonna do this family only but BA said to do it open my start; i`m seriously thinking about quitting fu, the mumms aren`t as fun as they used to be. filled with drama, jealousy whining about unrequited love and other bullshit. the only reason i haven`t is cuz i really depend on some of you for my sanity

Rockers (no Crackers)
"kingston to london town...its everywhere around!" Glen Washington...reggae legend said so. haha so this fat rudie and my reggae playin friends/band mates keep it goin. a new band..with old roots being acknowledged in every song. theres no fakin...theres no wanna be. its strictly roots music being played in the dirt valley of CA. midnight sessions being played til 3 am. recording and gettin things smoothed out to start playing places soon. its a better release than fighting or stressing out. all things can be expressed in a song or 10. and thats whats been goin on. the reactions already from people who have listened or seen DIY videos of sessions...shows we know what we're doing. not tryin to come up or impose our thoughts on others through music. strictly jammin. just so happens its creative life blood that we shed and not tears or BS agendas. singing again is a great thing...especially with band members who actually can play and know what theyre playing. no need to t

The Diplomat
We don't have specifically named titles at work. I'm not technically a manager, but I tell people what to do sometimes. One of my coworkers isn't technically called a two faced, back stabbing, old hag, but she takes on that duty quite well... For the most part, we each do a little of everything. Sometimes, however, certain tasks get left to just one person. I have a load of them but perhaps the one I hate most is being the diplomat of sorts. When something tragic happens, I am the only one to make plans on sending flowers, cards, making donations, attending funerals/viewings...I'm the one that has to get everyone else moving on it at the very least. Today, it fell on my shoulders again. I'm too fucking empathetic for this shit.... I walked into the hospital with a chocolate cake in one hand and the other making nervous taps on the back of my leg. It calms me. The cool of the lobby was a sweet relief as I headed for the gift shop. Balloons. Why do we even give adults cheerful ball

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Click the button below to open up a message to me, then copy and paste the application, answer the questions, and send! Basics:name:e-mail : AIM : MSN : yahoo! : birthday [mm.dd.yy]:location: physical: height: weight: build: eye color: hair color: tattoos/piercings: website/picture URL: smartie pants:how much school have you finished? and what year did you graduate? do you think you're smart? what are your future plans? are you a moron or are you somewhat grounded?habits: (smoking, drinking, drugs, etc)discribe yourself in 5 words:whats your clothing style? where do you like to shop?what music do you like?do you dance? hows your kissing skills? miscellaneous: are you a felon? any pets? any weird talents? are you really really emotional? what are the most important things in your life? relationships: what do you look for in chicks? have you been or are you 'whipped'? (no, i don't mean break out the

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World's Most Boring Cam Show...
It's friday. That means it's time for my Call of Duty clan's clan nite. We drink, we act the ass and have a grand old time. Guess you just have to be there. Anyways, I run my cam during this. Could be me in shorts, underwear, robe, nothing at all or perhaps nothing but a cockring. game position is on the opposite side of the command center, so if you're there I won't really be responding except between matches. I've been encouraged to give it a tug in the past and I'm sure I can be talked into it again, though that probably won't happen til after 2300CDT. If your interested in this sort of thing I'll be broadcasting through YIM (flyingashtray230 at yahoo dot com). Shoot me an add and I'll add you and get you into the feed.

Blocked?
I went to a random mumm and tried to comment, but I got the error that I'm blocked. I don't even recognize the kid who posted the mumm. So weird. I piss off people and don't even realize it. Is that a good or bad talent?

Angels ?& Demons Updated 6-26-09
Ever wanted to be a Angel or a Demon but not Yet a Godfather, Or maybe you wish you picked the other choice and wish you can change it. Well Now is your chance but unfortanitly no Special Abilities or Special Icon. Back By Popular Demand From the Creator of Fubars #1 Train in the Past Now Brings You Angels & Demons. Basically Just a Normal Train But Can Also Be used as a Leveling Family. Rules & Qualifacations 1. Must F/R/A The Founder and All other Members Also The Home Page 2. If Already A Friend Must Leave Them a Comment on thier Page Saying Joining Angels & Demons 3. Dont have a Salute Not A Problem This Time Pay The 25k Fee and your on Send it through Fupal to The Founder and mention Angel & Demons Fee 4. Have A Salute Then No Fee Needed to Hop on 5. In The Request Need To Mention Angels & Demons and Also Must Messege the founder when your done or you will not be added 6. Must Also Add Angels & Demons Member To Your Name or A&D Now For The Fun To

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I wonder if there is and where he is. If he's out there he's either hiding really good or he's not there at all. Maybe i'm just kidding myself. . . I'm not good enough! I said it! I'm not good enough!

New Divide-linkin Park
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me That I get what I deserve And your voice was all I heard So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies Across this new divide Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes Across this new divide And the ground caved in / between where we were standing And your voice was all I heard In every truth that you'd deny And each regret / and each goodbye In every loss / in every lie That I get what I deserve So give me reason / to

Best Of You-foo Fighters
I've got another confession to makeI'm your foolEveryone's got their chains to breakHoldin 'youWere you born to resist, or be abused?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Or are you gone and onto someone new?I needed somewhere to hang my headWithout your nooseYou gave me something that I didn't haveBut had no useI was too weak to give inToo strong to loseMy heart is under arrest againBut I'll break looseMy head is giving me life or deathBut I can't chooseI swear I'll never give inI refuseIs someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Has someone taken your faith?It's real, the pain you feelYou trust, you must confessIs someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Has someone taken your faith?It's real, the pain you feelThe life, the loveYou'd die to healThe hope that startsThe broken heartsYou trust, you mu

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The more bs I get on this site the more I start to wonder why I am even on here anymore. Thanks to some ppl I cant even make new friends. If youve known me since I have been apart of fubar then you know what I am talking about. (2 years) I am upset and hurt to have found out that people that say they are my friends are talking crap behind my back and it makes it hard to trust anyone. So if you have any info on the bs that I am talking about please come forward and send me a message. No names will be spoke of, I just really need the truth.Thank you. I need the truth not the lies.

The Fragility Of Belief
THE FRAGILITY OF BELIEF "True spirituality is not a fixed faith or belief; it is the ennobling of the soul by rising above the barriers of material life." Hazrat Inayat Khan "In the realm of religion most believers are still locked into traditionally accepted beliefs... Since these beliefs differ, they are often a cause of political conflicts with the trail of avoidable human suffering... The future perspectives of spirituality are based upon experience rather than belief systems..." Pir Vilayat Inayat Khan I bought a copy of Reading Lolita in Tehran by Azar Nafisi and began to read it. This does not always happen. Often I will buy a book because I like the title or the theme appeals to me. But then, in some strange form of imposed osmosis, I will believe that I understand the book without reading it. Sometimes I will break through this odd form of self denial and read, often discovering that my preconceived notion of the content is a great barrier to actually

New Fun Blog...
Alright...I'm gonna give a 1 credit bling out to the person who answers the most of the following questions right...Lets see who knows Woo the best! 1. How many kids do I have? 2. What age did I have my first child? 3. What is my favorite color? 4. Do I actually live in Minneapolis? 5. Who is my favorite painter? Monet, Renoir, or VanGogh 6. What is my favorite kind of dog? 7. What is my favorite fast food place? Okay folks...try to guess! You can guess more than once!

Come Party It Up La!!!
COME ON IN AND SEE ME AT DAS BUNKER TONIGHT WHAT IS NORMALLY $5 ENTRY TONIGHT IS $10 GUEST DJ'S SICK ASS PPL SICK ASS MUSIC THATLL BLOW UR FUCKING MIND AND OF COURSE ME! ^^ AND BOOZE I RECCOMEND AMF'S LOL SO COME SEE ME ILL BE HAPPY TO SEE YOU AND STEAL UR SOUL! IM ON THE PROWL FOR SOME HOTTIES

The Coupon Game
I recently found a way to waste even more of my time online. I offered to do my mom a favor. I adore my mom and there really isnt anything i wouldnt do for her. Now my my is not computer literate, so when it comes to things she wants done online I will do them for her. She had asked me if i could go online and find coupons for her. If coupon clipping was an olympic sport my mom would hold the gold medal. So I sat here and was trying to find coupons online for my mom... Ok, if you have ever attempted to obtain coupons online then you will understand when i say.. "OMFG JUST SHOOT ME!".. However if you have never had the pleasure of this joyful experience... then you are probably just looking me like i am freak.... which is okay because i know my outburst was justified. If you are ever bored at work or at home... there is a fun game you can play. Its called "Keep up with the pop up ads".. simply go to google and type in printable coupons, click on any given link and LET THE FUN BEGIN! It

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IN A TIME WHERE MY HEART IS SUPPOSED TO BE SEALED AWAY FROM THE WORLDSOMEHOW YOU BROKEN THE SEALAND EMBRACED IT GENTLYI FEEL LIKE THIS WASNT SUPPOSED TO HAPPENYET IM ENJOYING EVERY SECOND IN YOUR PRESENCEYOUR STUNNING INFLUENCETHE LOVE IN YOUR VOICETHE EVER SO BEAUTIFUL EYES I STARED INTO ONLY ONCESLOWLY CAPTURING ME IN YOUR WEBOVERTAKING MY THOUGHTS AND DREAMSBUT I WONDER IF MY DEVOTION IS RIGHTAND WILL YOU TRULY RETURN IT TO MESOARING ACROSS THE SKY WITH TORN AND TATTERED WINGSIN HOPES THAT ANOTHER STORM DOESNT COMESO I FIND A MOUTAINTOP TO SIT AND WATCH THE WORLD BELOW MEWONDERING IF YOU NOTICED MY THOUGHTS TOWARD YOUIN THIS UNSHAKEABLE DESTINY THAT HAS BEEN BESTOWED UPON ME -Z-

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so... i really can't stand people who can dish the insults but can't take them. an asshole wants to call me fat, but gets pissed, calls me a bitch, and threatens to hit me when i call him on the fact that he's not that great looking himself and is obviously a loser since he has absolutely no friends on fubar but is considered a "bar-fly". ha ha ha apparently he's not as great as he thinks he is... if you want to see the asshole search for thephoenix located in lambertville, mi

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RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted?ed[2] You were in the car with? mark [3] Went to the mall with?havent been to a mall in years[4] Person you talked on the phone with?carrie[5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? i think it was seamus but not sure..T/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends?trueQ: Been searched By Cops?falseQ: Been suspended from school?falseQ: Sat on a roof top?TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?TrueQ: Broken a bone?trueQ: Have shaved your head?TrueQ: Played a prank on someone?TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?trueQ: Shot a gun?TrueQ: Donated Blood?trueWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?drink[2] Be serious or be funny?funny[3] Go to the beach or mountains?beach[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?ShotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon?Moon[2] Winter or fall?Fa

I Got The Job!!!
Well I got the job!! I am so thrilled! I thought the interview on Tuesday went so so. It is a little bit of a pay cut from my last job but the hours are better and I know I will put up with less crap. I am so excited. Thank you everyone for the well wishes and the support. xoxoxoxo

So You Need Ability Points To Level?
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Love Him Or Hate Him
You know, I just need to vent a little bit. I am so sick of these people coming out and saying cruel things about Michael Jackson like "one less pedophile" or calling him a "rapist". Say what you want to say about the man, he was found not guilty on all charges and I sincerely believe the accuser's family were after money and that was the motivation. I truly believe because of his eccentric ways and the way he looked, made people quick to judge him as a child molester. Is he strange? Yes. Eccentric? Yes. Maybe a bit weird? Yes. Do these things make him a child molester, no. I am choosing to remember Michael Jackson as the artist he was. His songs were brilliant and the world has lost an enormous part of it's musical DNA (to steal a line from John Mayer via Twitter). He was talented, creative and he did love children and chose to live in a childlike world. I don't see anything wrong with that. He was the first artist I can remember listening to when I was old enough to real

I Heart The Dollar Store!
I've always been an advocate for expensive razors. The cheap ass Bic ones always made me feel like I was shaving with tree bark, so for a while now I've only used the Venus ones which are rather expensive. Now that I'm on a rather tight budget I had to downgrade to cheaper ones...well the other day at the Dollar Tree I found some shavers that had the 4 blade on them so I decided to give them a try. I LOVE THEM!!! They felt exactly the same as the Venus razors! And they were only 3 for a dollar! Yay! Okay, yes...my life has come to this...don't hate :P