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See What I See.
Look into my eyes of green, see you looking back. Find your-self so serine, make your-self retract. Find your soul, wash it clean, calmly you react. Then no more in-between, the first and second act. Enjoy.

Not 'nough Said
Ok I thought I was done..maybe I am. I should probably preface any statements I might make by saying that I am divorced and widowed...Does that make me a two time loser? Probably. But what the heck, noone listens to me anyhow so why not spew to you. I'm not an opinionated jerk, by the way. I have one, you have one, That obnoxious guy druling in you drink probably has one. I think mine is right, you think yours is right, he probably thinks his is right. If you can live with that, so can I...Deal? I know the primary pic is a little goofy looking, but I'm looking to have fun here...it's a bar...hello!!!! Take me as I am or leave me alone, I can get just as drunk without you...but I need you to get L@!D :-) Machinery aside that is..... I know, your thinking, when is he going to shut-up already...... Soon Don't get the wrong impression, I don't want to just fall into bed with the first woman I see...Well I'm a guy,,,,OF COURSE I DO,,,but I would prefer to share intimacy with a w

4th Of July Dreaming
P.S. Happy Fourth of July i had a dream last night of you and i in a big empty field, lush i lay on a picnic blanket you stood above me and undressed, as a fireworks display arose behind you youre gorgeous naked body was silhouetted as you stood in front of the flashing lights smiling at me and we made love bathed in reds, whites, blues, oranges, purples and yellows a multicolored symphony of orgasms

For Michael
Two minds together as one  From the beginning of day  Until the night is done.  Knowing the other like oneself,  Connected in the mind today and forever,  Loving the other completely  And ceasing to love never. A soul mate that is. A mile or thousands of miles  May separate with distance  Longer than is the Nile  But no matter how far your soul mate is,  You are close and together in the heart,  In tune and close are the spirits,  “‘Til death do us part.” A soul mate that is.

What A Great Bar
I mean really...You get as drunk as you want, and the drive home is a few yards,feet, inches at most. Drinks are reasonable and the girls are pretty, for the most part Yes, I'm 51 years old and I still call them girls...sue me Ladies, if you prefer, Each have their own unique quality that makes them pretty. I may not see it, but you can be sure someone will. I don't think I am perticularly attractive and yet I know that there are women, ladies, girls out there around my age(not looking for another daughter thank you) who might find me so. (I hope) :-P Just as a by the way....If a gentleman holds the door for a woman, it's to get a close look at her ass...I'm just sayin' If a woman grabs der Wienerschnitzle offer her a bun as well...food for thought

The End Of Heartache
The End Of HeartacheSeek me, call me I'll be waiting This distance, this dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors my torment (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart Am I breathing? My strength fails me Your picture, a bitter memory For comfort, for solace (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call

2 B Me
This is what its like for me, a tainted whisper you cannot see. What does it take to be free, and will I find it inside of thee? Does this thought create glee, or in turn make you flee. Do you recall just who'll you'll be? When face to face, eye to eye, with me. Whadda ya think?

A Poem
staring across the deep blue ocean watching the sun go down i think of a green eyed lady so full of life full of joy she makes me smile when i think of her name watching the sun set i wish she was near me with me watching the sun go down feeling her soft touch and the way she smells alwys so fresh her lips a re soft and when our lips touch it makes it seem like it will never end but as i sail off into the sunset alls i have is the picture i care and the memories i hold on to of my one and only you

Better Than Me
"Better Than Me" I think you can do much better than me After all the lies that I made you believe Guilt kicks in and I start to see The edge of the bed Where your nightgown used to be I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me While looking through your old box of notes I found those pictures I took That you were looking for If there's one memory I don't want to lose That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me The bed I'm lying in is getting colder Wish I never would've said it's over And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older Cause we never really had our closure This can't be the e

Prayers For My Husband
As most of you know, Ian and I are rapidly approaching our 5 months of marriage. Unforunately, Ian had a breakdown and I took him to the local psychiatric hospital. We waited for 7 hours... and even when I left at midnight, not even one physician helped him yet. Please pray for my husband and send good loving energies. We don't know what's wrong, but he's definitely not being the man I married. I love you honey, so terribly much. Please get better soon. I love you. Forever, Bella

Emotiona;
i am an emotional wreck right now. im sitting home alone on 4th of july at 11:46pm, my bestfriends sis in law basically is 3 hours away dying, and there is a chance im lossing my bestfriend too. its like seriously wtf. idk what i would do if i lost her. and its not like we arent going to be friends anymore she isnt going to be here....with me.....my best friend and my nieces gone. i keep trying NOT TO cry but its so fucking hard. its like i have no one to turn to. its me. all aloone. again. my worst fear coming true. its like everyone has that one person that is always there and always got ur back and never misses a step in ur life and thats her. i spend all my spare time with her. every min i can get im with her and my girls. its like i joke around but dude she is going to be basically half way across the other side of earth. not just the united states but over wherever it is. (i know where it is but im not really talkin bout it to official).

Most Men Love Slutty, But Respect Modesty.
lesson one If you want to be treated with respect by the majority of men, here or anywhere else...... dress and act accordingly. case in point: stupid bish scrolls across the top of my screen whinin about how she got blocked cuz she wouldnt give up the e-pussy, then goes blaming him for taking that angle at her. I go to investigate her pics if said man was provoked, and sure shit, her boobs are 3/4 hanging out of her shirt. Now I have no problem with boobs hangin 3/4 outta teh shirt, I think its hot, but on the same token, its also slutty, not sexy. ok so me, like most men, like slutty, ok get it? got it? good! BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT dont bitch and moan about gettin respect from men, if you dont have the self respect to cover up a bit. lesson two the difference between sexy and slutty. some men will say its the body underneath, particularly if they are tryin to nail said body. but really the difference is this........ provided ur job is not a

Rhianna @ Palms Pool, July 4, 2009
Well, I was chillin at the Palms Pool today, down at the end where the chill cabanas are and who comes and sits right beside me??? Rhianna. Man!! It was hella cool. We talked about her tatt (the stars on her neck). Her friend has a piercing like mine on her cheek bone and we talked about how ppl trip out all the time about the piercing and "how does it stay in?" giggles. I tried taking her picture when she wasnt looking but the Security arses were all over my camera like white on rice. I did get some of the entourage leaving cause the Security dude was in front and not looking, but we will see. the Camera ended up submerged in water. We will see if Best Buy takes it back (14 day return period). Man what an awesome day. Im burnt to da crisp!! Happy 4th of July 2009!! *kttn*

Just Wanted To Save This
I believe that we don't have to change friends if we understandthat friends change.* I believe that no matter how good a friend is, they're goingto hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them forthat.* I believe that true friendship continues to grow no matter how long the distance * I believe that you can do something in an instant that willgive you heartache for life.* I believe that it's taking me a long time to become the personI want to be.* I believe that you should always leave loved ones with lovingwords. It may be the last time you see them.* I believe that we are responsible for what we do, no matterhow we feel.* I believe that either you control your attitude or it controlsyou.* I believe that heroes are the people who do what has to bedone when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.* I believe that money is a lousy way of keeping score.* I believe that sometimes the people you expect to kick youwhen you're down, will be the ones to help you get ba

Me
So what to write? I'm an asshole? A nothing? A good person? A bad? Vengeful? Deceitful? Honest? Kind? Charming? Handsome? IDK what the hell to write about, im me. Always have been, and yes everything I said up there I am/was/have done. I'm sorry? I'm scared? All these things I feel with no way to let them out...lol what would you do? Cause I have no ideas...

Marines March In Grueling Afghan Sun July 4th
By JASON STRAZIUSO, Associated Press Writer Jason Straziuso, Associated Press Writer – 39 mins ago NAWA, Afghanistan – Taliban militants were nowhere in sight as the columns of U.S. Marines walked a third straight day across southern Afghanistan. But the desert heat proved an enemy in its own right, with several troops falling victim Saturday to temperatures topping 100 degrees Fahrenheit. The Marines carry 50-100 pounds (23-45 kilograms) on their backs. But because they are marching through farmland on foot, they can't carry nearly as much water as their thirst demands. Few even realized the date was July 4, but once word of the holiday spread through the company, several said they knew relatives would be holding lakeside celebrations — a world away from the strenuous task Bravo Company of the 1st Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment was taking on. "Happy 4th of July, dawg. Happy America," said Lance Corp. Vince Morales, 21, of Baytown, Texas said to on

The Bigger Issue Behind North Korea's Missle Launch
AP – A North Korean mock Scud-B missile, center, and other South Korean mock missiles are displayed at the … By BILL POWELL Bill Powell – Sat Jul 4, 1:45 am ET Though older now, and a bit infirm, and increasingly consumed with thoughts of passing on to his youngest son the family business (running North Korea into the ground), Kim Jong Il still has a fondness for a decent Fourth of July fireworks show. Pyongyang shot at least seven short-range SCUD missiles in the direction of the Sea of Japan on Saturday morning, in what some analysts termed an act of "defiance" against the United States and its allies in east Asia. But the SCUDS, fired from the eastern coast of North Korea, have limited range, and fell harmlessly into the sea less than 300 miles (480 kilometers) from where they were launched. The exercise drew perfunctory condemnations from the U.S. and some of the North's neighbors. Indeed, "acts of defiance" have become so predictable with

Simple Thoughts Of A Complicated Man.
When a heart beats......the energy of it fills not only our souls but our lives as well. Once you find your place into my heart......why do most of you feel the need to make a mess and destroy it? Isn't paradise beautiful enough without you fucking with it? These are just a few thoughts crossing my mind lately. When I try to look at the people in my life, I try my hardest to convince myself each person is worthy of knowing all of me. As I continue on, I learn that most people can deal without knowing bits and pieces of me. Does this mean I am withdrawn? Certainly not. It simply means I have learned things about you that make you untrustworthy. I can't remember the last time I met a person (up until now) that has always been 100% honest with me about everything. I admit when I am wrong. Those of you who have argued with me about something knows that is a fact. I am man enough to admit when I am wrong, but when I am right, why continue the shit trying to FIND a way to prove me

So Far Away
So Far Away This is my lifeIt's not what it was beforeAll these feelings I've sharedAnd these are my dreamsThat I'd never lived beforeSomebody shake me 'cause II must be sleepingNow that we're here, it's so far awayAll the struggle we thought was in vainAnd all the mistakes, one life containedThey all finally start to go awayAnd now that we're here, it's so far awayAnd I feel like I can face the dayAnd I can forgiveAnd I'm not ashamed to beThe Person that I am todayThese are my wordsThat I've never said beforeI think I'm doing okayAnd this is the smileThat I've never shown beforeSomebody shake me 'cause II must be sleepingNow that we're here, it's so far awayAll the struggle we thought was in vainAnd all the mistakes, one life containedThey all finally start to go awayAnd now that we're here, it's so far awayAnd I feel like I can face the dayI can forgiveAnd I'm not ashamed to beThe Person that I am todayI'm so afraid of wakingPlease don't shake meAfraid of wakingPlease don't shake me

My 4th Was Better Than Yours.
My 4th was better than yours because I spent it with mummer chicks. I went over to GBT's and hung out with her and Broken Angel. GBT and her man made staeaks and omg delicous cheesy potatoes. i totally helped by turning on the dining room lights. I drank an entire bottle of cheap wine and I think everyone else had some strange cool aid rum brandy drink. Mummer's revenge I think it was. After dinner we went down to the pool and scared the shit out of the locals. BA has some kick ass pics she is going to load up later. We played keep awya and dodge the mosquitoes which i totally lost. I left a little early beacuse i missed you all so very much. and also because of all the blood loss to the mosquitoes.

Tangled Up In You
Tangled Up In You Tangled Up In YouYou're my worldThe shelter from the rainYou're the pillsThat take away my painYou're the lightThat helps me find my wayYou're the wordsWhen I have nothing to sayAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youStill tangled up in youYou're the fireThat warms me when i'm coldYou're the handI have to hold as I grow oldYou're the shoreWhen I am lost at seaYou're the only thingThat I like about meAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youHow long has it beenSince this storyline beganAnd I hope it never endsAnd goes like this foreverIn this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youTangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youStill tangled up in you

I Have Returned.
Hello to all my Fubar friends. I don't know if all of you remember me but I'm back. I had to take a little vacation away from Fubar. In fact it's been about 2-yrs. I am so glad to be back to all my friends and love ones. I really hope to hear from all my old friends as well as make new ones. Well that's it for right now. I hope that everyone is having a great time here on Fubar. Keep up the good work Baby Jesus.

Some Of Fu's Best
These are some of Fu's best, show them a little love and expect to get it returned. ChyenneElizabeth@ fubar ☆ ♥ Dawn ♥ ☆ ♫RockCandy's ~Twinkie~Ownedby:GRLSKIKASS2@ fubar รє๔ยςtгєรร รเภ™@ fubar ~Tricia~@ fubar SnowWhite Queen@ fubar Mia Slutgoddess-Playing By The Rules - YEAH RIGHT!!! (fan first please)@ fubar Wonder_Woman™@ fubar Styx@ fubar Artemis - Happily Owned by Patchy@ fubar 68-IOU-1@ fubar yelkafo@ fubar ♥-Pookie-♥ Fu-Owned by Яoyalty™@ fubar

Questions 7-4-09
Ask me ANYTHING and I will answer. No matter how personal, embarrassing, or complicated the question. I will, in response, ask you a question. What better way to get to know someone? I shall start: Why is it, when my shoe comes untied, it's always my left?

My Mind
I cant see the lightto take flightTo get away from this sadnessthat intertwines with my madnessHow can we say we are happybut inside we want to cry?How can someone who has everythingstill want to die?Longing to feel the warmth of the sunto be in the group having the funWiping the tear from our eyelooking at the clouds in the skyHoping the dark ones fades awayso please stay and be a friendhelp me,my mind & soul to mend

New Alcohol Warnings
Newly issued alcohol warnings The Outer Zone board of Health has proposed that warning signs be placed on all alcohol bottles to tip off drinkers about the possible peril of drinking a pint or two of any alcoholic beverage.1. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to wake up with a breath that could knock a buzzard off a wreaking dead animal that is one hundred yards away.2. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like an idiot.3. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the same boring story over and over again until your friends want to assault you4. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to thay shings like thish.5. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the boss what you really think of him.6. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is the leading cause of inexplicable rug burn on the forehead.7. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, handsomer and smarter than some really, really big guy

Can I Have The Rest In A Doggie Bag?
I'm sorry, I do love dogs, but my neighbors' are getting to me. Some days it sounds like they've decided to open a puppy mill. For the last couple of months they've had a backyard full of wild, yapping, puppies. While the image seems cute, the actuality is far from it. At any give time for any reason these four-legged piranhas are liable launch into this fusillade of barking, yelping and squealing. I've gotten a bit used to it now. But every now and then a visitor will come over and at some point the din begins. Someone asked the other day how I put up with it. I told her about the fantasy I have in the back of my mind. I'd never put it into words before, but when the little monsters get going really loud, I imagine they're venting their full puppy fury at a huge, slavering, Werewolf that's just about to eat the lot of them, whole. Then, when the barking suddenly stops, as it always seems to, I smile quietly and think to myself: "Bon appetit, Loup-Garou, Bon appetit."

Steve Mcnair
(CNN) -- Former NFL quarterback Steve McNair was killed in a shooting in Nashville, Tennessee, authorities said Saturday. Police said they found McNair and a woman shot to death in a Nashville residence after receiving a phone call about an injured person. The woman has been tentatively identified, but her name is not being released, authorities said. A law enforcement source close to the investigation said the woman is McNair's girlfriend and that the residence is her condominium. Witnesses said McNair was a frequent visitor there. Authorities were questioning people who were near the home, but they said no one was in custody. Watch report on McNair's death » They could not provide details about the circumstances of the shooting. McNair's brother, Fred, also confirmed the death but had no immediate details. McNair, 36, spent 13 seasons in the NFL, the majority with the Tennessee Titans, and was named the NFL's co-MVP in 2003. He spent his last two seasons with Baltimore Raven

Back Home And Relaxing
Well, I’m back from vacation and now quite relaxed. I started out on a cycle ride down to Ocean City for some fun and sun (that’s downyoshun, hon for you fellow Baltimoreans). I came home, changed out the clothes, supplies, and off again to the beautiful eastern shore of Maryland for a visit to St. Michaels. Nice ride, quaint town but damn how I hate going over that bridge on a bike. Then, off to beautiful Virginia for some time at the resort. This place really relaxes me since there is no hustle and bustle there. The town doesn’t even have a stoplight. Relaxed by the pool, ate the best pizza in the world from Colonial Pizza, and then hot dogs over the campfire last night. By the way, R.I.P. Black Dog . You folks near Richmond know what I’m talking about. Overall it was a simple, yet enjoyable vacation time. Not as exciting as many of you would prefer but I’ve had plenty of excitement in my life already. Well, 1 more day then back to work. Until nex

Ink Slinging
there are fine points in this feild i love,you get to know the person on a very high plane befor i get to do the art they truely want ,and true trust in me that i am there god when i hold the gun and inks that they will never forget,and the fact that they will always have a story to tell that will envalve me when some one complements them on there ink work.i do all kinds of work.i do full body modifacations,inplants,scarifacations,hangings,and yes i have turned down work because it did not fit them or like i dont do names unless it is one that will never change.i also love rides on the harley,cool nights that make your nipples hard to the romantic moods, i am a straing creature who just needs to be loved .i would truely like to here from you about any topic,hope i put this in the right place.also i need help working the fubar.any advice is greatly aprisheated

Soundgardem - 4th Of July
Shower in the dark dayClean sparks driving downCool in the waterwayWhere the baptized drownNaked in the cold sunBreathing life like fireThought I was the only oneBut that was just a lieCause I heard it in the windAnd I saw it in the skyAnd I thought it was the endAnd I thought it was the 4th of julyPale in the flare lightThe scared light cracks & disappearsAnd leads the scorched ones hereAnd everywhere no one caresThe fire is spreadingAnd no one wants to speak about itDown in the holeJesus tries to crack a smileBeneath another shovel loadAnd I heard it in the windAnd I saw it in the skyAnd I thought it was the endAnd I thought it was the 4th of julyNow Im in controlNow Im in the fall outOnce asleep but now I standAnd I still rememberYour sweet everythingLight a roman candleAnd hold it in your handCause I heard it in the windAnd I saw it in the skyAnd I thought it was the endAnd I thought it was the 4th of july

A Matter Of Lots
I had to have been 16. Maybe 17. Let's just say it was 17 and move on. I remember seeing her. Dusty, rusty, tucked away in the handbuilt barn belonging to my uncle. A ratty, heavy tarp haphazardly covering the hood of the car with various peices of engine debris scattered on it. I look at the lines, strong but unassuming. She had been a lovely electric blue at some point in time, but that point in time was not one anyone around could easily remember. Now she looked...rough. I later found out she was a 1967 Ford Mustang coupe. I fell in love right away. I loved every part of her, and would often sneak and sit in her seat, feeling the aged wood of the steering wheel in my hand and imagining what she and I could do together if she were ever mine. My uncle had paid the astronomical sum of $1,000 for her, and being 17 and working at a convenience store making $80 a week on a good week, the sum of $1,000 might as well have been a million to me; but that did not stop me from dream

Love,life,pain
~Have I~ Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some newly

You Might Be A Biker If.....
1: That oil spot on the garage is just the bikes way of "marking it's territory"2: You have ever started a barbecue with a welding torch3: All of your children have a bike manufacturer's name as part of their name4: You own more bike related t-shirts than underwear5: Any day you can ride is a good day6: You come home and curse the"cages"7: You chant V room, V room" to go to sleep8: People have nearly died of starvation looking at all your bike/run pictures9: Every picture you take has you/your bike/women in it10: You stare longer at the pictures of the bikes in Easy riders than the naked women11: You save your dirty oil from the bike to put in the truck, cause "hey! it's just a truck"12: The other vehicle is a truck13: You can drink more beer than a platoon of Marines, then really start to party14: You don't go a day without wearing something that says Honda, Harley or Kawasaki, etc15: Your wedding picture is you on the bike "who? oh yea the bride"16: If the weather is too bad for ri

Echo...
You did it to yourself,Now you're all by yourself,Acting like you hate me,I left because you made me,You played me to the left,Now there's nobody left,To hear your complaining,I'm gone and all you're hearing is your ownEchos!E-echos!And I'm gone,And you're all alone,Can't you hear the hear the,Echos!E-echos!No one to hear you,There's nobody near you,It started off great,But who was to know,That love that is lost,Cannot be let go,You said it's my fault,Ok then I'll go,It's better to know,Now there's nobody to argue with,Cause I'm not home,Don't care who you're with,Don't call my phone,Or did you forget,You know you're wrong,I'm gone!And you're all alone, hearing your own damn,Echos!E-echos!And I'm gone,And you're all alone,Can't you hear the hear the,Echos!E-echos!No one to hear you,There's nobody near you,Disgusted with trust,I trust no one no more,Just went with the flow,Found myself on the floor,When you went away,All my pain went astray,Like it's a new day,Now I have no one to argue

Everyone Is Dying
NASHVILLE, Tenn. (AP)—Former NFL quarterback Steve McNair and a woman were found shot to death Saturday inside a residence in Nashville, police said. Nashville police spokesman Don Aaron confirmed that authorities were called to a condominium and found McNair and a woman shot to death inside. Aaron said police don’t yet know the circumstances of the shootings. “I don’t have any answers for you now as to what’s happened, who’s responsible,” Aaron said. Aaron said police tentatively have identified the woman but did not release her name. “There are persons who were around the complex today, visitors, who have been taken to headquarters for questioning, just to see what they know, what they may have seen,” Aaron said. “No one is in custody right now.” The condominium where the bodies were found is one that McNair was known to frequent, but police spokeswoman Kristin Mumford could not say whether he was the owner.

Rum Runners - Closed
This game is now closed. Thank you for playing! Game F.A.Q. Who can I order for?You may order for ANYONE on Fubar, with the exception of yellow staff, and anyone that refuses play. Anyone who wishes to be removed from the game may do so by requesting such through private message at any time. Not all people play for the win - most play simply to give the tokens as gifts to those they care for :) Please request removal ONLY if you do not desire to receive more tokens. Can I order more than one at a time?Yes, you can order as many as you want, for as many people that you want. To keep it organized, please send the appropriate amount of fubucks with a list of how many tokens are meant for each person. For example, if you send 5000 fubucks (enough for 10 tokens) you would say "5 to Dawn, User # 975528 and 5 to Cali4nialovin01, User # 884702." If you have earned tokens, you can say something like "Rated Love Box #1 10s. 100 tokens for Dawn #975528". How long does it

Men Worth Killing
Men Worth Killing(Written 2005)It wasn’t the mortar that woke me. It was the headache.This is my 5th trip to the desert, so I recognize the tell-tale signs of dehydration as soon as I see them in myself. The headache was one of those signs. It woke me at 2am and I was lying there trying to shake it off when the mortar came in. The impact point was quite some distance from where I was lying, so it did not register immediately. After the gunfire followed I realized that was a mortar I had heard. Oddly enough, I smiled and got a little excited and thought to myself, “So that is what they sound like!”The other guys in the tent just kind of lay there. I reached for my 9 millimeter Beretta which we keep with us at all times. Our M-4 rifles, we keep at work. No one else moved, so I just lay there and kept listening. All the noise died down quickly. I just kept lying there, wide awake, waiting for 6am to come.I really do not mind Iraq. I really don’t mind the war. I hav

The Truth, Good Rum And Answers
Normally I don't say anything worth hearing. Brooke would say it is a defense mechanism. My way of keeping people at bay. Lots of $10 words, abstract concepts, impossible things. It keep the "real me" hidden. "Real me". That term sickens me. There is no "real". A fake you is still you. There is no hiding. Not that it matters. We were talking the other day. I said something I felt like writing down. We were talking about "true love" and how everyone looks for it and no one ever finds it. It occured to me, like the mirror scene in the movie "Labyrinth", we have this all backwards. This is an inversion of what should be, and what is. We all say we haven't "found Mr. Right" or "Ms. Right" or whatever. We think that there is this One Magical Person that will enter our lives and make it all better and everything will be sparkles and sunshine and cheesecake after that. We are all looking Out There for that One Person. I think we have it backwards. Instead of looking for th

Note To Guys.....
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY

Crying
Love, Crying With Me (Written 1998) The echoes had the distinction of careening and cascading around in my head, the voices varying with repetition in pitch and intensity. The sounds would sometimes combine into harmonies of triadic beauty, and as often as not, unbearable cacophony, and vary in voice from crystalline and piercing, to barbaric and pounding. Such was the voice of love, the tiny voice that thunders. The sounds never began. There was no single note, no vibration, no sound with which one may retrace the path of the crescendo to find it’s singular source. The notes could, however, be retraced like the threads of a tapestry, never ending, like a Celtic weaving. They were more like raindrops. They were essentially what they always were, like raindrops were essentially water. Regardless of what manifestation they chose, they were always essentially what they were, and that had no beginning. It does not matter. It is of no significance. What is of significance, however,

Remember Those Who Died For You
I have seem to have lost my path on what is important to me,but I have found a place of focus and this is what I want to do. A project called a A Painting For The Fallen. I want to get the word out to anyone with Who has lost or knows of a fallen troop to contact me so I am able to I do a painting for them.,in between the painting's I am working on. I will get with my Web Master as soon as I am able, so I can set up a picture to be sent and all the info required. I want to give back at least a little part to those who gave all. I will donate all the supplies and my time, it is just the shipping cost is what I will need. I am literally a starving Artist here. Thank you and pass the word Brandon. PLEASE HELP BRADON OUT SPREAD THE WORD! HE IS THE MOST AMAZING MAN I HAVE EVER HAD THE PRIVELEGE TO KNOW, HE SACRIFICES ALL OF HIS NEEDS, TO MAKE SURE THAT THE FALLEN ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN! SEMPER FI MY DEAR FRIEND! /fubar.com/user.php?u=2140730&friend=2140730">http://fubar

Harry Potter Star 'had Swine Flu'
Harry Potter actor Rupert Grint is recovering from a "mild bout" of swine flu, his publicist has said. Grint, who plays Ron Weasley, took a few days off filming but has now returned to the set of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. And he is well enough to attend the world premiere of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince in London on Tuesday. "He has now recovered and is looking forward to joining his fellow cast members," his publicist said. Scenes She said that Grint's doctor had confirmed the 20-year-old actor had recovered and was no longer contagious or at risk of infecting others. "Other scenes were shot in his absence which did not require his involvement and thus filming was not disrupted," she added. Grint has starred in all the Harry Potter films as well as British comedy film Thunderpants and the comedy drama Driving Lessons with Julie Walters. He is currently filming Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - JK Rowling's final book about the teenage wizard and hi

Hard Gore Henchmen
Leaving with your life you a lucky motherfuckerMutilation so bad that the coroner's will shudderMake you watch your girl die as we viciously cut herSeeing horror so intense that you're left with a stutterHard Gore be the label, drink you under the tableFound fucked up strangled with electrical cableIlluminati carved deep from your neck to your navelSix hateful henchmen ready, willing and ableKick in the door my saw's full throttleViolent death in one hand and the other a bottleA bunch of crazy hooligans and yes we on the loose againTaking out them tools again, removing flesh and chunks of skinLike a pack of hyenas, we laughin' as we eat youSledge hammer to your temple is how we fuckin' greet youPlastic bag around your head and watch your suffocationMissing limbs and vital organs, permanent vacationI rep the Hard Gore yeah the underground teamIn the underground scene, make you fagot's all screamYou know what I meanYou can't keep up with my crewWe cuttin' up bitches to put in our foodCau

Planck Achieves Ultra-cold State
E-mail this to a friend Printable version PLANCK SPACE TELESCOPE Planck is now the "coolest thing in space" Planck will survey the famous Cosmic Microwave Background This ancient light's origins date to 380,000 years after the Big Bang It informs scientists about the age, shape and evolution of the cosmos Planck's measurements will be finer than any previous satellite Planck prepares to go super-cold Europe's Planck observatory has reached its operating temperature, making it the coldest object in space. The observatory's detectors have been chilled to a staggering minus 273.05C - just a tenth of a degree above what scientists term "absolute zero." Launched in May, Planck will survey the "oldest light" in the Universe. Its detectors, or bolometers, should see detail in this radiation that offers new insights into the age, contents and evolution of the cosmos. Although laboratory set-ups have got closer to absolut

Firework Backfires
So its the 4th of July and its rainy! Why is that on such awesome holidays like this it has to rain on my parade? So we bought a shit load of fireworks and a shit load of booze and were sucked into staying into the house all evening. Joy! Anywho so we decided to see how well the fireworks would work in the rain and you would be amazed! ( here comes the WTF part) We had a huge roll off 500 firecrackers and we decided itd be kewl to set them off all at once instead of unrolling them out...yea we werent to smart. granted we have had a few, but anyways. so we light it and decide that it wont be bad to be buy it. next thing we know the rain has caused it to expand and roll.....can u guess where this is going? Yea it went crazy and we all had to run and jump for it so we didnt get hit or burnt with the firecrackers...LMAO!!! so FYI dont light fireworks when u drink and definately dont think that ur safe to stand right by them!

Heading To Memphis-here Is My New Number
If any of my true friends need to reach me here is my number 912 463 0115 unlimited nights and weekends, free mobile to mobile thru alltel and unlimted texting k hope to hear from some of you while I am on the road or once I get there! UPDATE---GOT TO MEMPHIS SOME THINGS DIDN'T WORK OUT AS PLANNED SO ME AND SHON PACKED UP AND MOVED BACK TO CARROLLTON, MY OTHER CELL PHONE LISTED HERE WAS TURNED OFF SINCE ME AND TIM SPLIT UP. IF YOU SHOULD NEED TO REACH ME PLEASE TEXT OR CALL ME ON MY TRACFONE 417 429 6545

Please Buy Me
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Wtf
just felt like saying it, actually i want to know where is the mfkn love today ? guess i need auto 11s, cherry bombs, bling packs and a default picture showing my cleavage to get some love. all the people ive helped are nowhere to be found, well guess i need to quit doing that. just wanted to bitch for a bit, dont care if you read this or not and one last thing THANK YOU to DIPPINDOTS, HEATHER and JUGGALETTE for the love today, YOU GIRLS ROCK !!!!

Bling Messages From Me To Tim And From Tim To Me...i Thought It Was Meant To Be
from hotrodtb81 Pink Diamond Ring gift message: here you go love i hope you enjoy this i love you and i miss you i will see you soon it wont be long my love ------------------------------------------------------- from hotrodtb81 Lucky Number Seven gift message: here you go honey a lucky number seven for my most wonderful and loving girlfriend i hope you love it honey enjoy the points heheh ------------------------------------------------------- from hotrodtb81 Cherry Bomb gift message: here you go sweety this for you i hope you enjoy it this im glad to have met you im glad you gave me a chance to be your bf hugs and kisses miss you alot luv ya bunches ------------------------------------------------------- from hotrodtb81 Devilish Heart gift message: hey honey just wanted to send you a bling and that i think about you alot and i cant wait to come home so i can see you and hold you and have you in my arms holding you tight and kissing you and cuddling you never wanting to

Journal
It's long. If you don't like to read, please just skip it. -- I picked dinner, a two-quart salad, half lettuce, half spinach, a few beet greens. As I eat, a deer gallantly strides into my back yard. She grazes as she walks, nibbling on lawn-salad. It is dusk, and her coat glows, rusty against the tree-filled background. Craning my head to see around all the branches, it occurs to me that I need to trim back these trees. I need to be able to see out. These were Albert’s trees. He planted a lot of them, including a long row of evergreens by the road. When he planted those, he used the power lines overhead as his guide to keep them straight. As they grew up, someone asked him, “Why did you plant the trees under the power lines? They’re going to grow up and someone will have to either cut their tops off or move the line.” Albert didn’t care. He said he wouldn’t be around when that happened. He was right. Years after Albert died and his w

Portraits Of Valor
From Iraq and Afghanistan, a few American heroes you've never heard ofBy Robert J. CaldwellApril 16, 2006 On any given day, American soldiers and Marines fighting in Iraq and Afghanistan perform extraordinary feats of courage and sacrifice in the service of their country. Hundreds of these unsung heroes have been awarded this country's highest decorations for valor in combat, often given posthumously: Navy Crosses, Silver Stars, Bronze Stars, Distinguished Service Crosses and, in one case so far, the Medal of Honor. Yet, with rare exceptions – Army Sgt. First Class Paul R. Smith's Medal of Honor among them, fortunately – these acts of valor go mostly unreported and unknown outside the brotherhood of arms that is the United States military. The Media Research Center, a conservative watchdog group that monitors television news, complained last fall, for example, that the major television networks (ABC, NBC and CBS) devoted only eight stories from Jan. 1 through Sept. 30, 2005

Military Terms And Abbreviations
APACHE LONGBOW – Latest, most sophisticated version of the AH-64 Apache attack helicopter with microwave directed Hellfire anti-tank missiles.ABRAMS – Fully-tracked M-1 Main Battle Tank featuring 120mm smoothbore cannon and three machineguns.BRADLEY – Fully-tracked M2 Infantry Fighting vehicle that carries 12 troops.BUSHMASTER – 23mm chain-gun mounted on Marine Corps LAV-25LAV-25 – wheeled armored vehicle used by US Marine Corps in place of Bradley.SP – Self-propelled as in artillery.PACK III PATRIOT – Latest, most-sophisticated version of first-line anti-missile/anti-air missile system.RPG –Rocket-Propelled Grenade. Bazooka-like weapon developed by Communist-bloc forces and now used all over the world. Version being encountered is RPG-7V and is designed for anti-tank/anti-armor work.LMG – Light Machine Gun.M-4 – Short carbine version of the M-16A2 rifle.FRAG – Fragmentation hand-grenade.AT-4 – Shoulder-fired anti-

Why Men Can't Win
Why Men Can't Win -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If you work too hard, there is never any time for her. If you don't work enough, you're a good-for-nothing bum. If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay, it's exploitation. If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay, you should get off your ass and find something better. If you get a promotion ahead of her, it's favoritism. If she gets a job ahead of you, it's equal opportunity. If you mention how nice she looks, it's sexual harassment. If you keep quiet, it's male indifference. If you cry, you're a wimp. If you don't, you're insensitive. If you make a decision without consulting her, you're a chauvinist pig, you bastard. If she makes a decision without consulting you, she's a liberated woman. If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy, that's domination. If she asks you, it's a favor. If you try to keep yourself in shape, yo

Know Your Enemy
What does Al Qaeda want?Their goals are relatively simple. The want to drive Americans from Muslim holy lands and establish pan-Arabian, fundamentalist Islamic rule in every area worldwide that has a significant Muslim population. They want to destroy what they see as the profane influence of the West on all Muslims and all Muslim-populated areas. If that involves killing every “infidel” they run across, so be it.What does Al Qaeda mean?The term in Arabic simply means “the base” which refers to the concept that the organization should serve as a launching pad or base of operations for a global Islamic revolt against the West. What is Al Qaeda’s history?The organization grew out of the fundamentalist “Services Office,” which served as a clearing house for the International Muslim Brigade opposed to the 1979 Soviet Invasion of Afghanistan. Later in the 1980s, the Services Office – which was run by Osama Bin Laden – recruited, trained

Unheard Problems
ABC News' Luis Martinez reports: The Army has had another bad month for suicides within its ranks with 18 suspected suicides during the month of February. That is a decrease from January's record-high of 24 suspected suicides, but one Army official said Wednesday the number still remains high and "very disturbing." The Army's in the midst of a month-long training stand-down to help soldiers identify suicidal behavior among their colleagues. That stand-down was prompted by last year's record number of 143 suspected suicides in the ranks, 138 of those have been confirmed as suicides and five remain under investigation as possible suicides. Still, last year's 143 possible suicides were substantially higher than the 115 suicides that occurred in 2007, and the fourth straight year that suicides had increased Army-wide. Army Vice Chief of Staff Gen. Peter Chiarelli and top Army mental health officers released the February numbers during a bloggers conference call this morning. Last month's h

Vets Blacklisted
The Departmet of Homeland security has black listed Vets. as possible domestic terroirst. They have informed law inforcement to be on the look out for vets as possile terrorist. So now I have to worry about driving around with my Vet plates I am a target. This morning I wrote a post about a Homeland Security paper that warned about “right wing extremists” and the threat that they may pose to the government. This paper basically lumped in people who are either pro second amendment, anti abortion, anti illegal immigration, or pro smaller government (or more than one or all of the above) with white supremacists and domestic terrorists. As maddening as I found that paper there was one aspect to the paper that I missed this morning and to me it is much more egregious. This is what the Department of Homeland Security thinks about our military men and women who are overseas fighting on our behalf: the return of military veterans facing significant challen

Squeakyyyyyy
LESS THAN 2 MILLION TO GO AND THIS MILF GETS HER VIRTUAL VIRGINITY BACK! WOOT! LOL! THAT'S ALL SHE NEEDS EVERYONE IS THE POINTS! SHE HAS ALL THE OTHER REQUIREMENTS! PLEASE SHOW KINBERLY SOME LOVE AND MAKE HER SQUEAK WHEN SHE WALKS AGAIN! LOL!! Kimberly**Owned by sexymedic4u**@ fubar

Hurt
I Look In The Dark And All I SeeIs The Reflection Of My Dead LifeLooking Back At MeNow That My Angel Has Gone AwayThe Black Has Come AndConsumed My Soul TodayNever For Her To Hold Or For Her To Try I Fall To Bended KneesAnd Alone I CryI Close My Eyes And Brace For ThisMy Peaceful Calling Deep In The Abyss

A New Reality
I've meet some intresting new people on fubar ! mabe i'll meet the girl of my dreams ? stranger things have happend in stranger places in my life . so i'll keep the search up for new freinds and the love of my life .

Happy 4th Of July
Happy 4th my friends. Hope everyone is enjoying this day with friends and family. Tonight, I will be joining friends in the little town of Yoncalla. They have lots going on tonight. Big Fireworks display at dusk. Rodeo all day. Anyone want to join me? The fireworks display will be located at the high school sports fields. Coming from the south...to your left across from an old mill. Coming from the North...through town you can't miss the high school on the right. Get there earlyish to find parking. Hope to see my Oregon friends there!

Love
Other then free will, love is the only thing god dont control, he lets us decide on how we use it. And many of us men take advantage of the fact its there and we seem to forget what it really means. So to all you women out there, Im sorry as a man for being so damn stupid to let pride over run my heart and not show you love can be real. And to all the guys, wake up as i have and realize real love dont come around much, so live the love you have now or it will be gone in a blink. frankielee

From Another Standpoint
Ghost and i were not ready for the step we took by living together in illinois. We both had things that we need to work out in our own psyches, mine more than his, i'm sure. I have a lot of work to do ahead of me. i have med switches and therapy, and i'm hoping i maintain the strength to continue through all of it. Ghost and i have decided to try things from another standpoint. a relationship that hopefully will go back to resembling what it started as. the relationship that drew us together in the first place. talking together, and being there for one another without it being at the expense of ourselves. i do love him and i do know why i had to leave where i was living, but there is that part of me that is hoping that i will be able to be with him at some point in the future in the capacity that we originally intended. where we are both working towards a future together that makes sense to both of us, where we are not sacrificing ourselves in order to do so. i know alot of people be

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Response For Spinoza...
Spinoza and are debating on his blog herehttp://www.fubar.com/blog/210819/1041187^^ Do go see his blog so you know what i am replying to^^and my reply was to long to fit so this is just so he could read and reply either on his blog or on here===================== Reply to Spinoza Comment 2Well i am speaking of the blacks in the United states, as in most other countries they do no do the "my nigga" thing, and yes most blacks know some black history, i did not say they were scholars in black history merely know about black history, i do not believe you nor i are scholars yet we know about it, and the majorite of blacks do not use such idiotic terms as referring to each other as "nigga" this is usually teens and 20s. You have seen many, but surely you have not seen the majority of blacks. But i am merely speaking in the US, blacks know key figured in black history they may not know the minor players who have done amazing things.You have yet to see progress in the black community, that sh

Love
This poem was written years ago by a woman I used to work with. It is absolutely beautiful and I wanted to share it with everyone. Love Love, is not the uncomfort of a cold, windy night it is the warm feeling of having you near when the first chill is felt Love, is not the sadness of a cloudy rainy day it is the clear fresh drops falling upon our kiss Love, is not the tears that are shed after a quarrel it is the forgiveness and the embrace between us Love, is not whether I'm right or you're wrong it is the agreement and compromise among us Love, is not whether I go or I stay it is remaining beside me from near or afar Love, is not how much you or I have it is what we can create together Love, is not how large the amount you give me it is the little things you show me Love, is not the expense of it but the thought behind the flower Love, is not you or I alone it is you and I together...................

If There Were No Tomorrow's
I would tell you today That you are the one that fills my life Whose smile I cannot wait to see Whose arms I long to have wrapped around me Whose lips I live to kiss Softly, passionately, in every way. I would want you to know That you make my heart skip a beat You fill my soul with contentment You brighten my dark skies You fill my days and nights With stars, hopes, and cascading dreams. I would want you to see How beautiful the world looks with your eyes through mine Your eyes light up the sky Your touch paints the Heavens Your kiss creates amazing rainbows Of beauty, sunshine, and life. I would want you to understand That I have always loved you Before I knew there was you Before our eyes ever met Before I found in you Happiness, completeness, and passion. If there were no tomorrow I would tell you That you are the greatest gift in my life Whose love I cherish above all else You sustain me with Your laughter, love, and friendship Before there was no kno

Fubar Fun
just started fubar like a week now, kinda a weird but fun site, heh heh. dont know if i'll use it much, heh heh. anyhow, i been in the Navy for the past 2 yrs, things been going ok for the most part. every place has its ups and downs. san diego is great though. well, i deploy soon, on vacation back home in MN atm. next phase of my life, tryin to not be so dark... past few years have been pretty rough i guess, overall outlook on life you could say, heh heh. well... we'll see what happens in the next few years ~.o

Not Very Nice People
Do all you women that talk to my husband really think that he loves you. Someone that won't give u his home number and doesn't answer his cell most of the time when you call. Are you all that desperate that you need to try and take someone else's husband you should all be ashamed of your behavior. He is playing each and every one of you and if you don't believe me have a chat with Madnezz Lady she has come and got him twice from my house and had to bring him back twice cause he don't want anyone but me. Do you really think someone you meet online on a drinking site is for real he's playing each and everyone of you.

I Want You...
I want youI want to feel youI want to touch you I want you to touch meI want you to explore my bodyI want you to find all the places aching for you I want to feel our lips pressed together I want to feel our tongues tying and twisting togetherI want to feel our breathe increasing and our hearts beating faster and faster I want to feel the heat of youI want you to feel the heat of meI want us to be one, united when we are able to give into our desires of the flesh I want to give you blissI want to give you pleasure I want to give you ulitmate satisfaction I want to be with youI want to kiss every inch of youI want to make love to you, until our bodies give out I just want you....

Speaking My Mind
Comments (0) [Delete] [Edit] So what am I not supposed to have an opinion Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman Call me a b?tch cos I speak what's on my mind Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled When a female fires back Suddenly the target don't know how to act So he does what any little boy will do Making up a few false rumors or two That for sure is not a man to me Slandering' names for popularity It's sad you only get your fame through controversy But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say This is for my girls all around the world Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth Thinking all women should be seen, not heard So what do we do girls? Shout louder! Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground Lift your hands high and wave them proud Take a deep breath and say it loud Never can, never will, can't hold us down So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying Are you offended by the message I'm bringing Call me whatever c

Here I Wait...
I was told that you will come one dayAnd save my heart from needless painRescue me from desolationAnd here I wait for you.I was told to stay right here and anticipate youI canonize you with nonsensical expectationsMy life a decrepit chasmAnd here I wait for you.Constantly I think of youLonging for your loving caressWondering when I will truly know your essenceAnd here I wait for you.My heart yearns to hear yours beatPatiently I sit and waitI ache for knowledge of youAnd here I wait for you

I Dreamt Of You...
I dreamt of you last night.....I was on my knees, my arms stretched out besides me. My hands gripping the quilt in tight clenched fists. You behind me. Sliding slowly, inch by inch, into my tight, hot, wet channel. Only to retreat to the point of almost pulling all the way out of me. I whimper at the loss. Your hands tighten on my hips. You plunge into me. I scream. You thrust faster, harder, deeper. My sobs of ecstasy fill the air. I'm slamming up against you as hard as you are slamming into me. We ride that fine line between pain and pleasure. I feel your body tighten, coil. My body pulsing around yours. We explode, shatter. You collapse upon me. Neither of us can draw a steady breath. Your arms enfold me.Last night I dreamt of you....

Hey Dad!!
First off - HAPPY BIRTHDAY to day july 4th. Today would have been your 71st birthday. It has now been 12 years since I got to see you - talk to you - listen to you - hug you - tell you in person how much I love you - and laugh together with you. All the memories are so strong I feel as today was like 2 days before you died. I talked to you on the phone before your surgery. Do you remember what we promised each other on that day? I do - and I try my best to keep that promise every day. You wanted me to live my life as I knew and felt was in my best interest. You did not want me to say *have a good one* - you wanted me to say : *I see you on wednesday dad* - I did as you asked me. That following monday morning you had open heart surgery. I woke up when I knew they were prepping you. Couldnt get any rest after. I knew what time they put you under for the surgery. I talked to the nurse all morning. She told me after one hour that all looked oki so far. They did all they

Spade
The beauty spot was borrowed andNow my sweet knife rusts tomorrow.I'm a confession that is waiting to be heard.Burn your empty rain down on meWhisper your deathbeat so softlyWe bend our kneesAt the altar of my egoYou drained my heartAnd made a spadeBut there's still traces of mein your veinsYou drained my heartAnd made a spadeBut there's still traces of mein your veinsAll my lilies' mouths are openLike they're begging for dopeAnd hopingTheir bitter petal chant,"We can kick, you won't be back."I'm a diamond that is tiredOf all the faces I've acquiredWe must secure the shadowEre the substance fadesYou drained my heartAnd made a spadeBut there's still traces of mein your veinsYou drained my heartAnd made a spadeBut there's still traces of mein your veinsAnd we said 'til we dieAnd we said 'til we die

First Impression
Thank Facebook again. I do like that the picture was a bear though =] Guess what?! You love meeting new people and you are good at it. You strike up easy conversation topics you listen attentively. Your personality is very inviting and people are naturally drawn towards you.

Emptyness
Me and My Empty Soul Category: Life Does anyone feel like me Do any of them see my pain How much I hurt Will it ever stop Time is supposed to heal But how long do I have to wait I hate myself everyday It penatrates my wound Hate digging deeper Making me suffer I was hoping this experience Would make me tougher But I fear I don't know How much longer I can last Im slowly slipping deep down Into despair I don't know if I can recover So dark The sum of all my fears Has finally surfaced It scares me The thoughts in my head Just aren't right I know they can never be said How long can I continue Holding it inside Help It's eating me alive Destroing my sprint Removing my soul Soon will remain nothing But a mindless Empty hole

Life
All the time we sharedthe moments i thought you caredfilling me with the same linesyou'd tried a million timesLike a fool I bought your liescompletely blinded by loves eyesYou had me hooked read me like a bookspitting out ....I love your hairyour skins so fairwe'd be the perfect pair...Hearing only what i wantedyou do exactly what i fearedyou took my heartsliced a hole ripping through my inner soulOne day happy next day sadI cant believe you ruined what we hadI should have know it wouldnt last becauseyour heart never left the past....Now im left feeling nothingbetrayed and lost just trying to findsomething to make life worth living...

How We Need To Treat One And Another
we need to treat each other with love, honor, respect ,loyalty, trust, etc... if we don't do all that to each other there wouldn't be no friendships ,relationships and marriage. if we can give up our differences the world and country would be a better place to live in. we don't need all the wars at all. that's a waste of lives etc.... and thats' how we need to treat each other. we need to show that to each other for once and how things change in each other live. we don't need to believe in racism and putting people down.if we put each other indifferent place then we will know how the other one feels

Last Day On Earth
"Last Day On Earth"Yesterday was a million years agoIn all my past lives I played an assholeNow I found you, it's almost too lateAnd this earth seems obliviatingWe are trembling in our crutchesHigh and dead our skin is glassI'm so empty here without youI crack my xerox handsI know it's the last day on earthWe'll be together while the planet diesI know it's the last day on earthWe'll never say goodbyeThe dogs slaughter each other softlyLove burns it's casualtiesWe are damaged provider modulesSpill the seeds at our children's feetI'm so empty here without youI know they want me deadI know it's the last day on earth

Independence Day
Ladies and Gents, I would just like to share my thoughts on this important day in our (American's) history. Most people know this day as the 4th of July and a day of pool parties and BBQ's and fireworks. But the day itself often gets over look of it's real meaning. It's not just a day off work. It's our day of declared independence from Great Britian over 200 years ago. It's they day that we celebrate our decision to stand on our own as a nation. A day where we declared we, America, were not just another country under the rule of the Kings and Queens. This day isn't celebrated as the 4th of July. The 4th of July is the day we celebrate our day of independence. So when you go to that BBQ or pool party or someone at the checkout line or the person that walks by you says "Happy 4th of July" remind them we are celebrating Independence Day, not the 4th day in the month of July. I hope that all of you have a great day and that hopefully this will make you think a bit HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DA

Contemplating Thoughts On My Lists
Most of the time I listen to the radio while I drive and a few of my local radio stations play really awesome songs. I came up with this idea to write down all the songs I listened to throughout the day. I started writing them down on a piece of paper then dl or copying to notepad once I was home. Right now, I need some work done to my computer. Instead of downloading thousands of songs then wiping them out{yaya I know*rollseyes*, no. really, I know}, I figured writing the songs online would be a great start and it gives me something to look forward to if I need a smile. That's all for now, I need to rest{not feeling well today}. There may be a list when I get back here. Yes, I did turn on the radio today already. Sadly, I only listened to one song before I got too dizzy and had to walk around. It was one of my George's so Im happy. Rebel Girl

I Still Miss You
I've changed the presets in my truckso those old songs don't sneak upthey still find me and remind meyeah you come back that easytry restaurants I've never been toorder new things off the menuthat I never tried cause you didn't likeand two drinks in and you're by my side I've talked to friendsI've talked to myselfI've talked to GodI prayed liked hell but I still miss you I tried sober I tried drinkingI've been strong and I've been weakand I still miss youI've done everything move on like I'm supposed toI'd give anything for one more minute with youI still miss youI still miss you babyI never knew til you were gonehow many pages you were onwell it never ends I keep turningand line after line you're there againwell I don't know how to let you go you're so deep down in my soulI feel helpless so hopelessit's a door that never closesno I don't know how to do thisI've talked to friendsI've talked to myselfI've talked to GodI prayed liked hell but I still miss youI tried sober I tried drink

2nd Bling Auction
This auction is for any 1 credit bling your choice.... see pic folder or follow link.... ends tomorrow 7/5/09 at 1pm central time. Thank you and Good Luck http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1660183&albumid=1754611&i=2001825666

Blogarama
So, back in Glasgow after my London sojourns life got back to normal. I have had so much to do like getting the posters and flyers done for Edinburgh, getting the accommodation for the festival (£3,000 for a month people!) getting bills paid, being organised for the festival and dealing with my rotten ear infection. I went up to see my dad, who is coping admirably since step mum’s death, I do worry about him. He is addicted to the Spotify music website! He is getting right into it and talks about it all the time! Meanwhile on the home front Ashley is preparing to go to London for a bit and she had to graduate as well. She had organised all the graduation stuff herself, all I had to do was turn up and be a nice smiling mummy. Ashley and her best mate Vikki were all excited and giggly in the back of the car as husband drove us through to the seaside town of Troon. It was bathed in sunshine and the beach was the backdrop to the concert hall where the ceremony was taking place.

Is It Dead?
I belong to a few sites, but it always seem they are the same. Is Romance dead?? I guess my age is showing. It is not like it was when I was younger. No one wants a mystery. They want to know it all and tell all they want to do to you. I want a man who remembers what romance is and likes a bit of mystery. Yes, I do have shots of me and my cleavage online, but that is what it is my cleavage. I dont need to see what the man has. If the time comes and I meet a man, then I may want to see what he has. I like having fun and all that, just it is so show me what you got and i will show you what I have, BEFORE you have even met. I am guilty of this, but I am beginning to realize it takes some of the fun of getting to know someone, if you have been given a play by play first. I want romance, I love romance , and I need romance. Sex and romance are not the same thing. Sometimes having a romance makes for great sex. Think about that.

This Is Us Lyrics
Artist: Keyshia Cole Song: This Is Us Album: A Different Me I'm like a sunday morning, you're like friday nightAnd when we kiss, the perfect weekend -no rain in sightWhen i'm feeling incomplete, you're my missing pieceAnd when you need your breathe taken away i'll be your thief From the start to the endWe don't need to pretendThat we're perfect all the time'cause we know what we haveThru the good the badIt's a strength that you can't deny... I don't need to find a million reasons whyThis is us, this is us, this is how we loveSome ways we're differentBut together we're so rightThis is us, this is usAnd this is how we love And even if we fall apart, we'll never feel aloneJust like the moon starts rising, our hearts bring us homeWe can always find each other like the northern starDoesn't matter where we are, i'm looking, going far From the start to the endWe don't need to pretendThat we're perfect all the time'cause we know what we haveThru the good the badIt's a strength th

My Destructer
It started out as a friendship, you were there for me when i needed some1. You sat and watched me go through so much pain and shit in my life, but never walked away. When you finally told me how you felt, completely, I accepted it and took it for what it was. Or so I thought. You made me believe those words i swore id never say again. I left everything behind and came 3000 miles to be with you. Ive waited sometimes not so patiently but I still was here when you came around. I believed the promises you made me, and even dreamt of them. You broke a promise, I asked for proof...If you truely felt the way you say you did there should have been no problem. You took it as i was mistrusting you, not that prehaps i needed it to keep my sanity in check. Thus the proof is in the pudding as they say, cus you walked away, you changed everything you said, back to old ways, and to even worse words that Hurt and make it hard to believe you. and yet somehow im the one who gets to sit here

The Fighting Irish
The American Revolutionary Army contained, as history states a "disproportionate" number of Irish soilders. Years later; my great grandparents, from County Cork immigrated to the United States. When they arrived, in America, they were faced with unwelcome signs "Irish need not apply"! A bullet does not care about race, creed, color, national origin or sexual orientation. Our fight for freedom, that freedom was and still is for all. Now I will shut up, drink my beer and eat my potatos! Cheers and Happy 4th of July!

7/4/09
Fact of the day: The French have a doughnut called "Nun's Fart." Joke of the day: A hippie gets onto a bus and sits next to a nun in the front seat. The hippie looks over and asks the nun if she would have sex with him. The nun, surprised by the question, politely declines and gets off at the next stop. When the bus starts again, the bus driver says to the hippie, "If you want, I can tell you how you can get that nun to have sex with you." The hippie of course says that he'd love to know, so the bus driver tells him that every Tuesday evening at midnight the nun goes to the cemetery to pray to the lord. "If you went dressed in robes and some glowing powder," says the bus driver, "You could tell her you were God and command her to have sex with you." The hippie decides to try this out. That Tuesday, he goes to the cemetery and waits for the nun. Right on schedule, the nun shows up. While she's in the middle of praying, the hippie walks out from hiding, in robes and glowing wit

Come & Join The Bomb Train
FOR LIMITED TIME 2 FOR 1 SPECIAL BUY THE 12 CREDIT BLING PACK TO BE ADDED TO THE BOMB TRAIN & YOU GET TO PICK 1 PERSON TO RIDE WITH YOU **** COME & JOIN THE BOMB TRAIN **** bombing back to back, if you would like to be added, it will cost a 12 credit bling pack to be added to the bomb list, the more the credits are sent the more bombs will be bought will update stash with people to be bombed & the # of times, date & time of bombing **** People that has already been added AS OF 7/11/09 = 3 BOMBS & ADDING MORE **** Bratt http://fubar.com/images.php?u=709013&albumid=906274 TJ http://fubar.com/images.php?u=1803244&albumid=1350820 DONA http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2715893&albumid=1568202 Chaotic http://fubar.com/images.php?u=1211040&albumid=1426997

'sex Plot' Sailors Sent Home
A GROUP of sailors from HMAS Success has been sent home and an inquiry is underway after they allegedly plotted a challenge to have sex with as many female crewmates as possible. The sailors allegedly detailed their plot in a document called “The Ledger” where dollar values were placed on each woman's head, during an overseas deployment in May, Channel Seven reports. Larger amounts were offered if the sailors could sleep with a female officer or a lesbian and sailors challenged each other to have sex in various locations, including on top of a pool table, the report said. The arrangement was discovered while HMAS Success was visiting Singapore. The captain ordered the sailors to immediately return home to Australia after they were formally interviewed. The Defence Department has launched a formal inquiry into the incident and confirmed an unspecified number of sailors from the Success, one of the fleet's biggest ships, returned to Australia in May. Related C

Remembering The 4th
The Shadow of a Soldier A silhouette is seen through the smoke and haze. Watching all the images A country set ablaze. Standing tall with confidence and poise The image in the distance tunes out the battle noise Tanks and trucks Roll across the land America's finest Walk the desert, hand in hand Hearts are heavy Eyes, full of tears This war could take months Maybe even years Images of pain Etched into our minds

Ask For Pic First
Had a bad experience just a few minutes ago where a girl showed interest in me on a dating site and she didn't have a pic. I continued talking with her and then she sent me her pic. Needless to say she wasn't my type and then I made her feel bad by telling her the truth, I don't how many times I apologized, it didn't matter, b/c her feelings were hurt. I should have lied, but then that would have led her on. From now on I will ask for a pic first if they don't have one displayed. I know looks aren't everything, but there must be some type of physical attraction.

I'm In An Auction
HEY THERE FU'S. IT'S MY TIME TO BE IN AN AUCTION. IT'LL BE RUNNING FROM 7/4-7/31. SO, COME ON AND CHECK ME OUT. WHO WILL I BE OWNED BY? WILL IT BE YOU? SO HURRY ON UP & PLACE YOUR BID. I'LL BE WAITING. HERE'S THE LINK >>>>> www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=383306&albumid=1740609&i=3546416932

Brain Teasers
1. Once upon a time, in the West Lake village, a servant lived with his master. After service of about 30 years, his master became ill and was going to die. One day, the master called his servant and asked him for a wish. It could be any wish but just one. The master gave him one day to think about it. The servant became very happy and went to his mother for discussion about the wish. His mother was blind and she asked her son for making a wish for her eye-sight to come back. Then the servant went to his wife. She became very excited and asked for a son as they were childless for many years. After that, the servant went to his father who wanted to be rich and so he asked his son to wish for a lot of money. The next day he went to his master and made one wish through which all the three (mother, father, wife) got what they wanted. You have to tell what the servant asked the master 2. Decapitate me and all becomes equal. Then truncate me and I become second. Cut me front and

The Young Boy
The Young Boy A young boy asked his father the difference between potentially and realistically?" The father then answered, "Go ask your mother and sister if they would sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars." "Then, go ask your brother. So the boy went to his mother, sister and brother and asked, "Would you sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars?" The mother replied, "Of course I would! We could really use that money to fix up the house and send you kids to a great University!" his sister replied, I LOVE Brad Pitt. I would sleep with him in a heartbeat, the brother replied. "Do you know how much a million bucks would buy?" The boy then went back to his dad. His father asked him, "Did you find out the difference between potentially and realistically?" The boy replied, "Yes... potentially, you and I are sitting on three million dollars.............but realistically,....... we're living with two sluts and a queer".

July 4th
Today is our country’s birth day. It's a special day when we should all take stock of what a great country we live in and rejoice in the many opportunities we are presented with. Some times those opportunities are difficult to see. Some times that opportunities might appear to be out of reach. But they are still there, waiting for us to discover them and to take advantage of them. Life is good, if we choose to view it that way. Seeing is believing. Some times, despite what we find ourselves confronted with, we still have to believe that it will all get better. I hope that everyone has a happy and safe 4th of July.

You Give Love A Bad Name
Shot through the heart and you're to blame Darlin' you give love, a bad name Fuck you An angel's smile is what you sell Promise me heaven, then put me through hell Chains of love, got a hold on me Passion's a prison, you can't break free Whoa! You're a loaded gun Yeah, whoa... There's nowhere to run No one can save me My damage is done Shot through the heart And you're to blame You give love a bad name I play my part and you play your games You give love a bad name You give love a bad name You paint that smile on your lips Blood red nails on your fingertips A school boy's dream, you act so shy Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye Whoa! You're a loaded gun Whoa... There's nowhere to run No one can save me The damage is done Shot through the heart And you're to blame You give love a bad name I play my part and you play your games You give love a bad name You give love... Shot through the heart And you're to blame You give love a bad name I play my part and you play your ga

Calling All Bikers And Soldiers In The Dfw Area
if you have a motorcycle, or even if you dont and you wanna ride today, there's a Freedom Aint Free ride going on today at noon CST-- starting from Downtown Dallas, going all the way out to Little Elm and back...I hope to see you there!

Difficult
I recently got divorced and feel that the only medium that I can use is to use online dating sites. I have been out of the game for a long time and it is hard to get back in. I don't know what the rules are and as for bars, forget it. I tried to do that and honestly, the type of girls that were there seemed to be very sluty and drunk. I want to be able to find an intelligent woman that I can intereact with who will not bore me and that will challenge me to be a better person. I know there are these women out there, but it's hard to find them or I'm just not looking in the right places.

10...
Reasons Why "Gay Marriage is Wrong"1) Being gay is not natural.And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicone breasts.2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay.In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior.People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all.Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed.And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children.So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed

Ways To Keep Relationships Working....
Wayz to keep relationship working… 1. Luv each other 2. Don’t lie 3. Keep communication open 4. Stay sweet 5. When u got hurt, juz 4giv and 4get 6. Never talk about break-ups 7. Never say it’s ok, even if its not 8. 4get about pride 9. F u say sori, mean it 10.Don’t compare ur past 2 ur present 11.Don’t talk about ur s2pid ex’s 12.Give and take process 13.B aware of her/his feelings 14.When u had fyt, don’t let d day pass w/o being fine 15.Don’t be perfect 1, be d right 1

Adding People For Nudes Then Removing Them
I have reliased that no women on this site wants to become Real net friends.so what i do is add them long enough to see their nudes.then after I'm done i remove them.i never use to do this untill i have added women & they set on my list like a fucking dust collector.so i have come to realise that no lady's on this site is worth no more then the price of adding them & seeing their nudes sense they can never talk to me after i add them.this is why my list stays low.I HATE YOU MOTHER FUCKERS THAT ADD JUST TO GET THE POINTS.i mean why add a fucking STRANGER to your FRIENDS list.Their not interested in a friendship with you.So I'm cleaning out my list AGAIN!!!.

4th Of July Auction Starts Tonight....check Out All The Hotness...not To Late To Enter!!!
4th of July Auction Starting 9pm Est. Tonight!!! Please A/F/R Your Hostess Babz!! Enjoy Yourself!! COME CHECK OUT ALL THESE SEXY FU PEOPLE AND WHAT THEY HAVE TO OFFER YOU.....HAPPY BIDDING & GOOD LUCK!!!

Saluteeeeeeeeeeeeee ;) Leave Comment If You Want One!
I'm becoming quite the Salute junkie anymore... I've had many requests for them, but there's just one thing... My memory sucks and come salute time I always forget who wanted one... Soooooooo... I decided to start this blog... I love all of my fu friends and I'll be more than happy to make you a salute if you just leave a comment in here! :) I'll let you know when I get it done... Sometimes it can take a week or so, because I am a mother and it'd look awful funny if my kids walked in while making sexy salutes... :P And not only that, but seriously I don't feel all that sexy EVERY night of the week... haha :) So... Just leave me a comment... I WILL get to it :)

What?
Sup, Im Martin, and just another Fu chatter, surfer, what ever just trying to do my own thing ,,? on a pc. Well on to deeper things, the other day my christiananity was put in front of the spot light, and, because I dont have a christian bone in my body ,Well. (Laughs).LMMFAO. oh, waite. why? would I. No, why? would any one follow after a God that also claims to be our father, Hmm. Im a father and I would never tourture my child todeath. or starve my child, or the worset, go and murder the first born, wile they sleeped in there beds, just come in and take there life, and not just one but thousands. wow what would we as a pepole born in a world full of relegin, but your baby, your child , what would you do to that person, or thing. if they so much, as lay a finger on your baby, I cant new testoment old testoment, I dont care, now made in his likeness, so, we, are at birth sick and twisted, and could mueder, but I dont care how you are, your child you could never harm your child , but, G

What Independence Day Means To Me
It;s funny when we remeber days gone by in that it sometimes brings joy then other times it brings a tear to our eyes,, I remember back some 50+ yrs ago and the excitement tha the fourth of july brought to me as a young lad...The brightness of the sparklers and loudness of the fire crackers...The Independece Day parades.. the soldiers in uniform all saluting our flag as the marched by.... the families gathering fopr picnics...the neighborhoods have get togethers... Then I remember the Bobm drills in school...the pledge of alligence to oue flag as classes began...the prayers silent and verbal each morning... Then I remembered A funeral for my cousin killed in action in the Korean conflict.. I weeped for him this morning...he was my hero growing up in the 50's... I remember the country called Vietnam and we were advisors of the conflict.... Then I remember the draft of our men into that conflict...I remember my wanting to be a draft dodger because of my memories of my cousin... I reme

Friendship
You are friendly, kind and caring Sensitive, loyal and understanding Humorous, fun, secure and true Always there... yes that's you. Special, accepting, exciting and wise Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright Yes that's you... not one bit of spite. You're one of a kind, different from others Generous, charming, but not one that smothers Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game But not just another... in the long chain. Appreciative, warm and precious like gold Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old You'll always be there, I know that is true I'll always be here... always for you.

Happy Holidays
Happy 4th to your and yours. Please be safe and happy on our Indepence Day, America. The same to you Philippines. With (it seems) so many screaming "Yank go home" it's nice to know someone has officialy set aside a day to celebrate it's freindship with the U.S.. Fire up the BBQ

Understanding
Understanding (also called intellection) is a psychological process related to an abstract or physical object, such as a person, situation, or message whereby one is able to think about it and use concepts to deal adequately with that object. An understanding is the limit of a conceptualisation. To understand something is to have conceptualised it to a given measure.

The Choice To Rate Pics Or Not
UNBDOUBTEDLY I HAVE A DIFFERENT OPINION ABOUT RATING PICS THAN OTHERS DO... SEE, I AM NOT GOING TO SIT DOWN AND RATE 250 PICS OF SOME FUCKING ACTRESS OR A FOLDER FULL OF BULLSHIT A 10!! ! IF I RATE A PIC A 10...ITS A FUCKING 10. BUT I WILL BE DAMNED IF I GIVE A PIC A 10 I DONT THINK IT IS A 10! IF I FEEL ITS A 7, I WONT RATE IT BECAUSE THEN YOU GET CALLED A DOWNRATER. THEN YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO SOME FUCKING ASSHOLE WHINE BECAUSE YOU RATED THEIR PIC A 7. I AM NOT ON HERE TO FEED YOUR EGO AND I AM NOT HERE TO CATER TO YOUR NEEDS. I HAVE SOME REALLY GREAT FRIENDS ON HERE AND THEY KNOW THAT IOF YOU HAVE 250 PICS OF WHAT I FEEL TO BE 10'S...ILL RATE EM 10'S. IF YOU HAVE 250 PICS AND 3 ARE 10'S...GUESS WHAT? YOU GET 3 10'S AND THATS IT. IF YOU ARE ON MY FRIENDS LIST AND YOU DONT LIKE THAT PHILOSOPHY, THEN REMOVE ME FROM YOUR FUCKING LIST... NOW...IF YOULL EXCUSE ME...I HAVE SOME REALLY GOOD WEED AND ITS CALLING MY NAME...

Just A Poem
fighting normalcynonconformedbut a humanhas transformedonce an outcast now accepteda girl now grownhas changed perspectivenot the people who have changedbut the limts that which chainedher views on lifeonce were bleaknow she's strong enoughto speakideas flowing just the samebut now she know's to the play the gameyou must followto later leadcannot live withoutsome greedan honest lifeshe craved the mostbut can't survivewithout a hostso on she goeswithout a carepure intentionsbecome rarethe girl a ghostinnocence fadednow she's feelingworn and jadedis she happyshe still asksor is she hidingbehind a maskmade of moneylust and liesthe light has long sinceleft her eyesshe tries so hardto maintainbut later seesshe's drenched in shameso adulthoodseems to bea lonely voyageon an endless sea

Keeper?
I seen them die. When they were attacked I cheered I knew now that they knew I was not crazy. Hehehe . as the first one came to the door my father braced the door. He sent them all my brothers and sisters to the other room why!? I don’t know they were all going to die by the end of the night anyways I make sure of that. I am not crazy the zombies they talk to me they tell me this is right. They are the new way, this is there world now. So all I am doing is the better part I am giving them immortality what’s would be better then that. I can feel them calling for me they love me they want me to be with them I feel them. The feeling of there energy is all over me. They are in my head I am there’s. I am the keeper of there thoughts and I love them.

Along The Twisted Road
Trees enclosed the twisted road, the only light came from the broken branches above were the faint stars tried to shine through. As he walked down the path voices whispered from the trees. “Turn back.” they cried, The voices were childlike, scratchy so full of pain. Deeper along the path the voices got louder This path will surely be your dooms please turn back. Bodies knocking on trees the children who gave him this warning hung from every tree along side of the road. There lips were blue and cracked and eyes were colorless. They swing there little bodies back and forth making the forest around the road blaring with a clock like THUM THUM THUM. Head held high looking in all directions he comes upon a village at the end of the forest. The buildings glow red from the light of fires on the corners of the village blocks. The wind blows the fire gets brighter. A sure sign of dread is in sight. Along a walkway that leads to an office building clowns with blood as face paint th

Please Comment Michael Jackson Fans
Do you think this father that told his son to lie on Michael Jackson so they can just get the money from Michael do you think this Father should get in trouble as we know as well as I do Michael Jackson isn't a Child Molester so leave him alone

Were You Can Find Me
To all My friends & fans this is my last weekend here Have a great 4th July. if you wish to keep in contact let me know & I will send you a link were I'll be. Thanks & God Bless Gene P.S. I need to give away My $$$$$$$$$ do you think you desrve it, tell me why you should be the one?

Pathetic
There is nothing more pathetic than men who take themselves too serious, esp ones that HAVE to pick steroid laden names like PITBULL, or BULL, or DeathlyRider, or Hardcore, etc. It is even sadder when they have sappy/steroid laden stati like "Hell has three gates: lust, anger, and (somethin else I donr recawl). Ask me how I know", or "shoot, I'm bullet proof", or "made of steel, you cant break me", or some pther pathetic shit like that. Its even MORE tear jerking when they misspell things in those, like "I'm a man of steal". A thief?? Finally, this pathos cannot be complete without a shirtless pic in the mirror.

Intorduce Myself
Well A friend of mine sent this over to me and join this site. So I am new here, please be nice don't make too much fun of me, I haven't checked everything out here and not sure of all what is here too do. If you like please feel free to drop me a line, making new friends is always nice and chating is always good and I guess the rest will fall into place to figure out this iste and see whom responds too this blob. And I guess once I figure this all out more like howtoo see who all is here at this site and may enjoy the same intrest as I do. Well thanks and hope that this will be a great new start in a brand new site.

Again In My Own Head
i was thinking about this how each one of us is so different and that makes me wonder how anyone can have a relationship i find that people have too many expectations i was telling someone how my dad died and i didnt care and didnt even cry and she was like are you cold and heartless and i said no and told her alot of the shit he put me through growing up so why should i care he got what he deserved heck we all get it in the end and i was thinking should i care more about a man who had no time for us once we learned how to talk a man who never did anything for us unless it helped him somehow he never bought us anything so why should i give a shit but some people in this world think i am cold because of that who are you to judge this is why you cant love someone because its not real there is a feeling you can have for someone but why does it have to be defined as love that just adds expectations i would rather see all of you inside and out have some fun enjoy life and not worry about ex

Well It's The First Fubar Blog
Well its my first blog here on fubar and I have to say so far I like fubar so much more than any these other social sites which are just bland and blend all in together. Anyway so yeah I'm a 21 year old male, I'm about 5'6" and 140lbs, hazel eyes and auburn brown hair. I work a lot ;( I mean like 50 hour weeks, but you know, work play and play hard. but yeah I don't really feel like filling anything else out right now, guess I'll just have to add more later, peace out everybody

People Today!
I was layin' in tha bed thinkin' ( I do all my best thinkin' it seems when i am tryin' to sleep) ,and I wondered what Norman Rockwell would think of America today. He was a Great Artist he did paintings that are famous ,and are pure Americana. What would this man think of how people in this country are now. I always make a point to wave at someone and smile as I drive by .or Hold a door open for a person so the may enter where ever I am first. I try and be kind to people . I wasn't always that way.I used to think it was cool to be a Jackass ,but as I have grown older I have realized that being good to people is why we are here. To be selfess is much better then being selfish. To be kind is much better then being mean. I look at the way people go about there day to day lives thinking of nothing but themselves. At some point they have to ask themselves the ultimate question. "What is being such a fucking Prick really getting me!" Life is about more then that . We are on this earth to b

Important Please Read.
FOLKS LEARN TO FUCKING READ! I PUT A ABOUT ME SECTION ON MY PROFILE FOR A REASON! IT SAYS SPECIFICALLY DO NOT FUCKING LEAVE ME BLANK FRIEND REQUESTS IF I HAVE TOO ILL START BLOCKING PEOPLE WHO DO IT. I EVEN HAVE A BLOG THAT SAYS THAT IN IT THATS LINKED IN MY ABOUT ME SECTION. THIS CRAP IS GETTING OLD FAST. THANK YOU.

Slightly Confused ....is It Heart Or Head
ok... so here's the deal. I recently met a fellow military man on line. Matter of fact, on here. We have so much in common, that we just "mesh". So, here's the only problem though.... He's married!!! He says that he wants to give her the chance to change, but I guess he just doesn't see it happening. According to him, they fight all the time and can't get along... but he says he thinks its b/c of him being away all the time. It seems it would be the opposite to me. Now, here's the dilemma. After talking for several wks and getting to know each other and so on and so forth, I have developed feeling for him .... a little stronger feelings than what i'm used to getting for someone so quickly. He makes out like he really likes me too. But, it seems to me that I'm just something to pass the time till he can get home to her and fix the happy family. So, should I just say fuck it and not talk to him anymore until he gets his shit straight at home or continue to pursue him knowing that h

My Punkstar Dream
Sweet friend, with black dress,with a lot of pearching,with a lot of tatoos,i can see in your eyes,only a beautiful flower,that are you. In your eyes the dreams,in your hands there's life,and you make every daywork, friends and choses. I wanna stay there wit you a daylike in a dream,me and you on a cloudfor smile, for play, for listen your voice,see in your soul, in your world i know that this isn'tonly a stupid and stupid dream,couse i learned in my life,that if you wantdreams become real,and that coud is thereunti we can t go in to the sky,only me and yousweeming in the airsoul in the soul. For PunkStarChik from my heart http://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/

Fireworks
I really think they are REALLY fuckin overrated. Its a blast of lights, accompanies by a loud annoying noise, boohoo! I really dont see people's obession with this event. In Moscow, there was a port right across from my house, and they would launch fireworks from there. I always hated them, since the particles would land on the balcony and freak me out. Just a waste of time

=/
I want to say something so bad. It's on the tip of my tongue, but I know I can't say it. I don't like when I get like this. I really don't like holding things back, but this time I know I have to. I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this. I'm turning into something I don't like.

Hackfest: How The Hell Do You Intend To Prove That's My Nuke?!?!
Greetings, flatulent substitutes for goat cheese, and welcome to a much overdo HackFest. If you don't know who I am by this particular issue, congratulations, you've just made my "People who need to be wiped from the gene pool" list. Many of you actual fans have been wondering for a long time when I was going to actually post commentary and editorials on recent events, such as the death of Michael Jackson and other things that light up your evening. Though I've tried desperatly to steer clear of those minefields, you people have been brazenly leading me back there through fan mail, so I decided to indulge you clods a bit and actually chose a relevant subject for the devastation that is the rant. That subject, as much as this pains me to do so, is on Iran. Now the subject remains to be seen as to how the revolt in Iran will exactly go. Apparently, or at least from my knowledge, the Iranian government has been turned on its ear faster than Paris Hilton at a Chippendale's concert armed

There Funny As Hell
A song from your lips is an aria from heaven. All this could be yours for one low, low price! Apart from being sexy, what do you do for a living? Are you a parking ticket? (What?) You got fine written all over you. Are you a tamale? 'Cause you're hot. As she's leaving....Hey aren't you forgetting something? She: What? Me! Ask a woman for the time. "10:30? So today is January 10,1999, at 10:30 PM, thanks I just wanted to be able to remember the exact moment that I met you." Baby did you fart, 'cause you blow me away! Baby, if you were words on a page, you'd be what they call fine print Baby, somebody better call God, cuz he's missing an angel! Baby, you must be a broom, cause you just swept me off my feet. Baby, you're so sweet, you put Hershey's outta business. Baby, you're the next contestant in the game of love. Can i get your picture to prove to all my friends that angels really do exist? Can I have directions? ["To where?"] To

Th Magic Carpet Ride Is Starting!
Welcome One, Welcome All. Come with me on a MAGIC CAPET RIDE! We are celebrating the 40th anniversary of the “Summer of Love”. 1969 to 2009. Come join the ride. Rate/Fan/Add the existing members and pm me with title Magic Carpet Ride. If already a friend rate 100 pics, hope to see you there!

Questions...
Am I gorgeous? Am I tall? Am I beautiful at all? Am I strong? Am I weak? Should my eyes they never leak Should I walk? Should I run? Should I go out and have some fun? Should I dance? Should I sing? Should my hand bare a ring? Should I be happy? Or be sad? Should I go and hug my dad? Should I laugh? Should I smile? Should I go to sleep a while? Should I hide? Should I run? Should I say I have begun? Should I stop? Should I go? Should I already know? Should I trust? Should care? Should all of this be fair? Do I dream? Do I wake? Do I have to eat the cake? Am I crazy? Am I real? Are these things what I should feel? Ask a question. Leave a mark. Don’t sit lifeless in the dark. Make a move Turn on the light Be surprised at your new sight Are you happy? Are you there? Do you really truly care? Are you laughing? Are you confused? Do you feel like you’ve been used? Am I worth it? Am I here? Should I even have this fear?

What's Sexy About My Name?
You Are Demure Sexy You are sexy because you are reserved. You keep most of your passion hidden. In truth, you are a very sensual and sexual person. But you mostly keep this to yourself. You are secretly very interested in sex and very open minded. You definitely have a wild side most people don't know about. You are comfortable with every aspect of your sexuality... but you don't flaunt it. When you're finally alone with someone you trust, it's like flipping a switch. You're sexually savvy, exciting, adventurous, and carefree. No one would ever guess it! What's Sexy About Your Name?

Fuckin Scams
ok just to let everyone know...there is a scam going on now with texts. the text is about michael jackon...it says if your forward the text to so many people that you will get money off your bill. ok i work for a phone company. and it's a scam. i've been getting a lot of phone calls about it. and people are seriously trying to get me to take money off of ther bill because they forwarded the text! i even had one guy that wanted me to give him 20 texts for free because he sent the text to 20 people. it's a scam don't forward it on

Bitter
You Are Bitter You aren't bitter at the world, even though you have a strong personality. Instead, you are sophisticated and cultured. You appreciate acquired tastes. You are very powerful. You have the ability to change a room's energy. While some may find you disagreeable, your points of view are intelligent and interesting. What Taste Are You?

Paintings For The Fallen
I have seem to have lost my path on what is important to me,but I have found a place of focus and this is what I want to do. A project called a A Painting For The Fallen. I want to get the word out to anyone with Who has lost or knows of a fallen troop to contact me so I am able to I do a painting for them.,in between the painting's I am working on. I will get with my Web Master as soon as I am able, so I can set up a picture to be sent and all the info required. I want to give back at least a little part to those who gave all. I will donate all the supplies and my time, it is just the shipping cost is what I will need. I am literally a starving Artist here. Thank you and pass the word Brandon.

Lunar Cee
The moon is a liar qnd a fake, why does he get so much respect for romance and love, he takes and takes and gives nothing. Stealing light from the sun to put on your fake face but you are a barren whore when the light dont shine, full of holes and nothing to look at. The cancer you put on cancers and the lunar cee with your gravity. I am a cancer but I know the real you moon and I hate you.

Moving Forward, Finally.
There have been several changes in my life, these last few weeks. I decided to move to a new apartment with the kids, it was a great choice. Its not any bigger, but is in a much better school district, and is much nicer a neighborhood. Also, i started a new job a few weeks ago. I'm the assistant manager in a shoe store. It's not all glamorous or anything, but i feel like i'm getting my feet. For the first time in my life, I'm actually making it... and i dont have to ask for help, or answer to anyone for what i do. We are all smiling again, the kids' laughter fills this new apartment, like crazy. I couldn't be a happier Mama :) After spending the past year, feeling helpless and confused, I finally see how many oportunities I truly have for happiness. It can only get better, from here....

Dead- My Ode' To Michael Jackson
(Sung to the tune of Bad.... ) Dead My butt is sooo Worm chow right now Betta believe I’m underground I’m telling you Sleep sound tonight All of the kids Will be alright Jump on, Jump on, I’ll pay my du

What A Day
Wow what a Day. I went looking for pictures to uplod to my fubar site I was looking at Kindred the Embraced photos which is a short lived TV series Based on the game Masquarade. Well there is this one picture of the main character Julian Luna that I love where his eyes are blue because he is getting ready to turn wolf. I found it in 5 minutes today where the last time took me two days and I didnt even find it. So then the downward emotions i cant get the pics to load and cant find the program. but the upside i was snooping around the kitchen and found my favorite Extreme Gulp cup that glows in the dark. I am sitting here bouncing off the walls seeing as i had 4 mountain dews Take caere all will write more soon.

Espin Personality Test
The eSPIN Personality Test Result: The Thinker You're smart, and you know what? You totally know it. You value brains above almost anything else, which is pretty good. (Better than valuing, say, booties). But you also tend to get cocky about your own intelligence. Keep up with the intellectual pursuits, but don't be afraid to be wrong every once in a while. Seriously - stupidity can be cute!

I Hate The Color Red
You are Red! Red people are passionate and fiery. You do everything with energy and vibrance. You probably have a bit of a temper, too. :) You are always up for an adventure, and you almost never get tired! You have an intensity that is hard for some people to stand, but your friends love it about you. You are probably very opinionated and loyal, jumping up to defend the ones you love when they need you. You can sometimes be a little rash - quick to make decisions without really considering the outcome. As a general rule, you follow your heart more than your head. You can be competitive, and are probably good at just about everything. You, in a nutshell: Passionate, energized, loyal, intense, competent, extroverted, adventurous. RED!

Joke
The male patient asked that the nurse not laugh at his ‘problem’. Of course I won't laugh, said the nurse. I'm a professional. In over twenty years I've never laughed at a patient.''Okay then,' said Jim, and he proceeded to drop his trousers, revealing the tiniest 'man thingy' the nurse had ever seen. Length and width, it couldn't have been bigger than a AAA battery. Unable to control herself, the nurse started giggling, then fell to the floor laughing. Ten minutes later, she was able to struggle to her feet and regain her composure.I am so sorry, she said. I don't know what came over me. On my honor as a nurse and a lady, I promise it won't happen again. Now, tell me, what seems to be the problem?'It's swollen,' Jim replied.She ran out of the room.

When You Say Nothing At All
It�s amazing how you can speak right to my heartWithout saying a word you can light up the darkTry as I may I could never explainWhat I hear when you don�t say a thingThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fallYou say it best when you say nothing at allAll day long I can hear people talking out loudBut when you hold me near, you drown out the crowdOld mr. webster could never defineWhat�s being said between your heart and mineThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says you�ll catch me if ever I fallYou say it best when you say nothing at allThe smile on your face lets me know that you need meThere�s a truth in your eyes sayin� you�ll never leave meThe touch of your hand says yo

I Swear
swear by the moon and the stars in the skyand I swear like the shadow that's by your sideI see the questions in your eyesI know what's weighing on your mindYou can be sure I know my partCause I stand beside you through the yearsYou'll only cry those happy tearsAnd though I make mistakesI'll never break your heartChorusAnd I swear by the moonAnd the stars in the sky I'll be thereI swear like the shadow that's by your side I'll be thereFor better or worseTill death do us partI'll love you with every beat of my heartAnd I swearI'll give you every thing I canI'll build your dreams with these two handsWe'll hang some memories on the wallAnd when (and when) just the two of us are thereYou won't have to ask if I still careCause as the time turns the pageMy love won't age at allAnd I swear (I swear) by the moonAnd the stars in the sky I'll be there (I'll be there)I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your sideI'll be there (I'll be there)For better or worse Till death do us partI'll

Tarot Reading..
I'm not too sure about this one. I just answered truthfully. The Lovers Your Tarot reading drew The Lovers card. This card is of good fortune, and show's the beginning of a romance, or the rebirth and growing love of a current relationship. The Romance, harmony, trust, and respect, in this relationship will grow stronger and burn brighter in this unity. Take time to recall this joyous event to streangthen your love in year's to come.

Wooohoooo
Well FINALLY, my favorite holiday is upon us again! This holiday really means the most to me, and it sets my heart on fire!! It's hard to describe, but something like that. Tomorrow is going to be soooooo DOPE! My unit, A CO 1/141 INFANTRY (L) 36th INF DIV (TXARNG) is tasked to be the honorary Grand Marshals in the Schertz, TX Fourth Jubilee! We originally were going to march (in true Infantry style), but it was better decided to ride fire trucks. I don't ride fire trucks in battle. But, better than humpin' it. lol Our family members are to be on the floats, and it's gonna be cool (I think). I've never done anything like this in my career. What's especially awesome is I get to celebrate the holiday here. I've missed more than a few of them overseas already, and will celebrate the next one again overseas. My battle buddy Stockton drove out to San Antonio tonight from Houston, where he lives. It's about three and a half hours away. He came to go to the parade, and also invited me to go t

Come On, Man...
sooooo, i have this profile on a singles site. it's been there a while and ever so often i go check it just to see what's there. to say that occasionally i find a rare gem would be an outright lie. here are some examples of the usual responses and what i think as i read them.... notice the lack of anything intelligent or creative. What the fuck? absolutely no effort at all whatsoever and you want me to go out with you? fuck you? right... if your message is a good example of your efforts elsewhere, my own fingers can get the job done just as well or better. i'd take masturbation/phone sex over mediocre sex any day. -dam girl you sound relly interesting let me get to know you i you would like send me back something- ffs, did you even read this before you hit send? if not, you can't possibly give a shit about how you presents yourself. if so, then i hope you're sterile. -hey how are you sexy...and wow your hott....i would love to get to know better....- i would rather stab

Celebrate Life
Every day is a blessing! It's a celebration of life and it's FUNtastic! To my very special FuFamily and friends thank you so much for your prayers, so many blessings, patience and understanding. You are the BEST! My battle still continues with some problems, but its all good. Your prayers have been appreciated and are being answered daily. Sorry that I haven't been on line much over the past couple of months but I should be all settled in by mid July and back to normal, whatever that is, lol. Remember you are in my thoughts and prayers as well. Big Bear Hugs, Rick

Telephones And You
So a few years back im doing some work on the homestead. This one room didnt have a telephone jack in it, so I figured would be a good idea to put one in there. Now anybody that has ever done this knows what could happen. I got the telephone line ran fine, went to splice it in. Here is where I lose my head. Keep in mind this phone had not rang ALL DAY. So I have two wires I am tryin to splice together, there came a point where truthfully I needed another hand. So in my infinite wisdom, I decided to place the ends of the wire in my mouth. So im holding between my teeth, working on the other stuff, and just at that moment the phone rings. If nobody has ever felt this before, lets just say its shocking. It shot me across the room. All I could do is sit and twitch. My dad with his wonderful grasp of the english language looked at me and laughed and said SON, you look like a coondog shitting pepper seeds. Needless to say I learned my lesson. Only reason I bring this up ton

Deppression Sucks
Well sometimes you feel like killing yourself for all the wrong reasons. And today, that is my day. I just feel like no one cares and no one want's to be there for me. But I know when the day come's for my son to arrive, everything will be better !!!

I Hate My Love Life
I hate the fact that when you have a boyfriend They tell you every day that they love & trust you Then turn around and won't cause of something That doesn't meant sh*t to you Blame you for something you could do nothing about And call you a cheater cause of it They won't even talk to you like a person They block you and tell you to not contact them again They even tell their friends to block to you. ------------------------------------------------------- To the one who this is about, You know DAMN well I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. You knew I loved you with my whole heart I would have done anything to keep from losing you.

To Be A Real Man
i've seen my brother hit his kid when his in dip shit,but when he cries he and his mom say's "boys don't cry".."if you cry then your a girl".."i should buy you a dress"..man i think thats fucked uped.i can't say shit because his not my kid.what do you people think some should say. i would say"ha mat if you learn to hold back your tears you wont get talked shit from your dad and mom.but if you do that your'll always be afriad of them and soon when your an adult you'll hate them.so learn to face your fears and cosume them from they consume you,and turn you in to another person how hates every one and everything."........"a real man lives with no fear, and isn't afriad to live or die"....."just be a kid for now,and a man later"

Truth Or Dare
You opened it and read it.Now you have to pick one.Truth or dare? So pick one and I will give you a truth or a dare depending on your answer. Then you get to pick someone else in the blog to ask "truth or dare?" too. The only rule on dares is make it something that can be done on cam and a pic taken of it.Pics or it did not happen. Truth or Dare????

Help Me Understand
Lately I have seen more and more guys walking around with their pants almost to their knees. I know that it's been a "trend" for some time now, but I haven't understood why that is so. It's impossible for them to not be able to afford a belt when most of the pants (and drawers) usually look to be brand name. Why can't these guys pull their damn pants up so I don't have to see their drawers, or their hand placed inexplicibly in the front groin area holding the pants up anyways? Does anyone know the answer several answers to this?

Dull
DULL IM LOOSING GRIP AS I START TO DRIFT I CANT COPE IVE LOST ALL HOPE IM DULL DULL LIKE THE RAZORS SLICE ONE & MANY MORE TO GO SLICE TWO IM GETTING NUMB SLICE THREE IVE LOST CONTROL AS THE RAZOR FALLS THE BLOOD FLOWS FROM MY ARM IM LOOSING MY SANE 11/30/04

Failure
FAILURE SOMETIMES I SIT HERE AND WONDER IF I WAS PUT HERE TO FAIL I OFTEN PONDER WHY WAS I PUT HERE I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT RIGHT IS SO FAR OUT OF SIGHT I JUST CANT DO IT AND SOMETIMES IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD DIE I OFTEN PONDER WHY WAS I PUT HERE WHY DO I ALWAYS FUCK UP AM I A JYNX AM I DOO

Contest
As I'm taking pics to upload, there are a few that I'm not sure what body part it is. So I thought I'd make a little game of it. Can you help me "Name the Body Part". There is only one rule - You must be my friend to play. And since it is a game, there is a prize to anyone who gets all the body parts correct. What is the prize? I will make you a salute and/or link you to my profile (if I can figure out how to do that). It's your choice (or you can have both). Instructions: You must get all the body parts correct to win. Some pics are at different angles, so you may need to turn them to guess it correctly. Send me a PM with your guesses. Indicate the photo # and your guess. I will let you know if you got any of them wrong. You can guess as many times as you want. Well I guess that's the basics. Any questions or suggestions, shoutbox or PM me.

Clips And More
Jezebel Tempting is proud to announce that she has finally opened her clips4sale store for all your pervy kinky people.She will updating the new store at least once a week except the week of Fetishcon .www.clips4sale.com/store/31225Be sure to follow her on Twitter as well for many interesting things she has to say and going on.twitter.com/jezebeltemptingYou can also find her at the following sites as well.myspace.com/abletemptress and her yahoo grouphttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/JezebelsTemptationsFor those photographers and talent scoutsmodelmayhem.com/jezebeltemptingShe will also be attending Fetishcon for her 5th year this August 13-16.She still has openings at this time for shoots either TFP or paid.Be sure to send her an email at jezebeltempting@yahoo.com to contact her for your shoot!

Heroes
The thunder is rising, can't you feel the cold winds blow The magick is growing We were born to be heroes Born to give it all, Win at all costs born to be heroes, Forever heroes A hard rain is fallin, To soothe the dusty road, Today, we are outlaws, But our legend still grows, And will they remember, remember when they call us heroes Thunder beats within our hearts, Fire in our veins, Lightning flashes with our thoughts, oh, To pay the price of pain. (solo) Time turns slow, Our quest never ends, One brief rest, Then ride out again, Some call us outlaws, And some say heroes, Born to give it all, win at all costs Born to be heroes, We were born to be, We were born, Forever, Heroes We were born to be heroes Born to give it all, Born to be heroes, Born to win it all, forever heroes They will never know the truth or the pain, Of the road... From the Magick in our souls, forever heroes, Born to be heroes, Born to give it all, win at all costs Born to be

A Virtual Kiss
A Virtual Kiss A simple kiss in conflicting light To journey great distance of technical might All along, its path twists round Past graphical nonsense and virtual sound Within its own mother born Giving life to this virtual sin To travel pages from the mainstream Past the last poets bin Upon this broad band, it fly’s freely beside A song writers big hit, of his own shattered pride

Hiring All Staff
WE OUR HIRING ALL STAFF MEMBERS @ SEXUAL PLAYGROUND!!! SO IF ANYONE OF YOU LIKE TO JOIN OUR STAFF PLEASE LEAVE ME A MESSAGE! YOU HAVE TO HAVE A SALUTE TO PROVE YOUR REAL PERSON BEFORE WE DECIDE TO HIRIE YOU!! WE NEED -BOUNCERS- ENFORCER-BARTENDERS-GREETERS-CAMGIRLS-PROMOTERS-DJ'S- PLEASE COME JOIN THE FUN WITH US!

Whoremaster
I don't really have anything to say to him. I know he won't read this, but I want anyone who is a friend of his to realize how great he is and not take him for granted. I miss him like crazy. Talking to him about stupid crap, finding out how Ben and Crosby are, making sure him and Kristy are okay. Anyway...I miss him and I'm sure he's doing fine. I just seen him in the MuMMs and it made me think of this.

Another 102 Places To Have Sex..iif Repeated..don't Blame Me!
On a pier at the beach with the waves crashing under you In the middle of a basketball court under the stars. In the pool on a floatie. In a convertible. In a hummer. On your couch at home. In the Hugh Hefner Sky Villa at the Palms hotel in Las Vegas. On a tropical beach. In the honeymoon suite of a hotel. On the balcony of your cruise ship stateroom. On a mountain peak with cloud mist surrounding you. In a kayak on a river. Up against a wall in your house. In a classroom on a desk. In your closet. In front of your web cam. On a ping pong table. In the stairwell of your office building. In a nightclub - either in the restroom or a secluded area of the club. In a lounge chair in your backyard. In the middle of a group of bushes at a park. On a bicycle. On a riding lawn mower. In an RV during a road trip. In a go cart.

Where To Have Sex... A 102 Places...
On a porch swing. Inside an unknown rocky cave or limestone cave. In the weight room at your gym. In your not-yet-finished new build house. On the hood of your car on a deserted gravel road. On a pool table. On top of the washer... while it's running. On a soft rug in front of a fireplace. On a secluded island beach. In the backyard under the stars. In the woods after it rains. On a motorcycle. In a public restroom. In an airplane restroom -- join the mile high club! On a train in the middle of the night. In bed with silk or satin sheets. In bed with rose petals all over. On the beach at night. In your lover's childhood room while their parents are home. Outside in the rain. In a hot tub. On the deck of a yacht during a full moon. Under a rainbow. On a trampoline. On top of a hill.

One Lick At A Time
One Lick At A Time I could almost hear her panties hit the floor As my hand reached to open the front door Her heart pounding like waves against the rocks I could hear each click as our handcuffs locks Candles flicker illuminating sweat covered flesh A body of lust underneath black lacey mesh My Love waits to serve Her Desire Her Desire yearns for what My Love does inspire Shedding coverings for My Love to see my attention Soft moans escape lips without mention Tip of my tongue slowly makes way up soft skin

So Much For That
Dont think Ill ever get why cops try so damn hard to stop folks from killing themselves. that said it wont be long before nature takes its course anyway as hunger has a way of killing folks pretty thoroughly in and of itself. anyway just here to put up a few more pics, this time of my doodlings. I dunno my neighbor cays theyre art and I should try to sell em but I dunno. you make up your mind for yourself. also, if you happen to meet my "parents"-Pam Rocklin of Camarillo, CA and Dennis Roof of Sherman Oaks (or thereabouts now not sure) CA do something to hurt them, even if its just to remind them I died cause they let it happen. I still dont understand how they blame me for my inability to get a job in this job market-hows a guy with so little work experience supposed to compete with recently fired boeing engineers, microsoft programmers and starbuck executives. whatever I dont control the economy or this greedy ass country. You can rest assured if I did NOBODY would be homeless or hun

Me
Brian completed the quiz "What does the week you were born say about you?" with the result The Week of the Loner – Pisces 2 March 3-10. You live in a private world all your own. Your home is a retreat from the world, where you admit very few. You tend to isolate yourself more then what is good for you. You have a distinct dislike for superficiality; you mistrust loud, aggressive or pushy people and find it hard to work with people who lack sensitivity. Grace, honesty and an unassailable aesthetic and moral code prevent you from acting underhandedly or particularly hurtful. You have elegance and grace in all that you do, you are a great admirer of sensuous beauty, particularly in people and paintings and you give your home a special touch. You have a strong soulful side and have empathy for all forms of human suffering. You see a distinct difference between being lonely (which you rarely are) and being alone (which you are often) You can become addicted easily to drugs, dri

Wrong Place, Wrong Time The Story Of Calamity Jane.
My luck has never been the best. My choices deserved to be reproached. From the sheltered life i have lived as a child and a teenager, to being forced to marry the first man I "gave it up to"....and I think God why couldn't I have held out for a better man?..but marry him I did, and he was a selfish, arrogant, abusive son of a bitch. No where to run, because my parents didn't believe me when I said he was hurting me, when he finally beat me for hours and put me into the hospital, I ran to my friends not my family. I ran to the people who knew the truth, the people who looked after me. my chosen family. I also fell in love again, and thought I was given a second chance. And God help me I really loved him. I was 22 and he was 18, but he made me laugh, his touch made me shiver and I though I finally found it, and so this is what it's like to finally be happy. No matter how badly things have turned for me and this particular person now, he stood by me when I bruised and broken. He watche

Watching My Heartbeat Slow (palindrome)
Watching My Heartbeat Slow Crawling further away from me My eyes blacken in the pain watching you My skin withers as it freezes Sirens scream slicing the night’s silence Machines monitor my slow demise As my chariot races to save me I watch the line begin to flatten Watching My Heartbeat Slow I watch the line begin to flatten As my chariot races to save me Machines monitor my slow demise Sirens scream slicing the night’s silence

Let Peeps Know A Lil Bout Me.
down with the death sports, go big or go home, hit the narr shit in whitewater in a raft also a inflatable kyak. do the drunk floats down any class two to three, hit it even biggerwhen back to camp. Bring on the good times.

Showing A Player On Fubar
THIS IS TO ANYONE WHO IS FRIENDS WITH BABYBLUES OR BLUE EYE BABYDOLL I HAVE KNOWN HER SINCE MARCH AN THE WHOLE TIME TILL THIS PAST MONTH WE HAVE CALLED EACH OTHER TEXT 100S OF TIMES AN MADE PLANS TO BE TOGETHER I HAVE RECENTLY FOUND OUT THAT SHE IS A PLAYER OF NOT JUST ME BUT SEVERAL OTHER MEN ON HERE AS WELL SO IF YOU ARE AQUAINTED WITH HER IN A WAY OTHER THAN FRIENDS SHE IS PROBABLY PLAYING YOU AS WELL IM DONE WITH HER SO GOOD LUCH TO ANYONE WHO IS WITH HER OR THINK THEY ARE WITH HER NOW

4th Of July
This is gonna be short and sweet. This 4th is historical. The fist 4th with a man of color as president. That's cool with me. But the main things are this.... 1- Say thanks to those who are keeping our freedoms free. 2-Be safe. Dont drink and drive. I wany ya'll to be here for a while. 3- Enjoy America's birthday bash!!!! HAVE A GREAT FOURTH!!!!!

What's New Pussy Cat
Woah woah woah! So I got a new kitten today. All black female, sorta chocolatey. Less than two minutes in my car and she jumps free of my grip and books it straight up under my dashboard. Long story short she was in there for 5 hours before coming out. I am so glad she is safe and she is never going in my car again unless locked in a cage XD But I need to name her still. I have found a few names from a baby book that I like but I am still looking for suggestions.

Bikini Bike Wash
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Im Evil!!!
Today i have to confess i was mean to Seamus........ I planned to say yes to the marriage even tho we laughed and said we would never pay for it.. boy was he shocked He heard my evil laugh and knew i was planning something I said i would make a blog about the guy who told me Seamus was an asshole today .. when i got home from work... Then 20 minutes before I got home I told him to make a blog about what and evil cunt i was .... he took the bait.... After fighting for 5 minutes i paid for our marriage.... I win I'm evil Wicked And Micheal thought Seamus was an asshole... he never met a girl like me by the way this doesnt mean im stopping perving you .................ever!!!!

Can`t Speak
Cantspeak Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything they want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live w/ all my soul Inside Can't speak Can't talk Can't stop for the reeling cause Or love I told 'em all about it Can't talk Cause i'm already lost Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide It's hard [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] I just can't forget it Gonna fade cause i'm already dead Can't think Can't dream Don't care if i live or die Don't talk I just can't believe it Gonna fade cause i'm already dead Can't speak Can't lie Don't go anywhere to hide Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything i want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live w/ all my soul inside

Killer Wolf
Killer Wolf I'm the wolf I'm the one you want I'm the killer wolf I'm 'onna pound you home Howlin' all night I curl up next to you When you're all alone When i go inside your little girl When i go inside your little girl Just one kiss [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] From my lips Rake your soul Over burning coals Just one touch of my love Make you howl 'til the sun comes up I'm the wolf Howlin' all night I'm the king wolf I put the chill in your bones I'm the wolf Hunting you down i ain't no back door wolf I don't scratch at no doors

Pain In The World
Heart full of hell Room to burn Heart full of something Unclean Dreadful to know Fair in the mirror Hard on the soul They should have known it From birth Pain Had come to this world Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world Heart full of sin Breeds so slow Should have killed it from birth This treacherous son [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Angel of wisdom See how it's grown Agonies bastard of lies Coming - down - upon Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world Heart full of hell Indifferent and cold Heart full of misery's seed You should have learned Hate is your mirror Like it or don't Angel of suffering smiles Coming down from above Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world

12 Days Of Hell.
Right now, my daughter is on a plane. And it's making me crazy. I already miss her, I'm worried, I'm sad, I'm proud, I'm...well...I'm a lot of things. She's never been on a plane before and she's flying alone...all the way to St. Louis, where she's going to be staying with her paternal grandmother. She refused the offer to stay at her dad's. I'm glad of that, because he has no right to have her. Not when he's never paid a dime of child support and he's broken just about every promise he ever bothered to make to her. After 14 years of doing all of it on my own, struggling and scrimping, I begrudge him any moment that he gets to spend with her. Why should he get to enjoy her? Why should he get to take her to a portrait studio to get family photos taken together when I can't even afford to do that here? Why should he get to whip a snapshot out of his wallet and show her off to his buddies when he goes to the bar to play darts? He hasn't had a hand in raising her. He's had nothing to do

Looking For One Thing And Finding Something Else The Sword
Have you ever woke up one morning were looking for one thing and then found something else ?One night when I was driving to my place in the mountains .I had a really bad day and was thinking of all the bad things I had experienced in my life. I have not been very lucky in love I have had things that I loved killed because they were to friendly yes bears by the fish and game. My life was just to much for me to handle . I have to say I was ready to pack it in . And this was not the first time I just wanted to end my life. But every time I would feel this way something stopped me . Then there's that problem I have with thinking if I ended it once and for all what would God think and that was something I did not want to risk. Well as I was thinking this I looked up at the sky on this long road to the mountains out my wind shield and said in my mind God just take me home I was broken . I finally made it home got into my cabin stayed outside well into the dark . Looking at all the stars and

Friendships Shattered.
I'm here again, frustrated and annoyed. I can't believe I've circled around in life again finding myself alone. I look around me and find that I should have stayed cold and hard. I should have never let anyone inside my walls. Its better to freeze everyone out than to watch them walk out. PPL say that everyone needs someone to talk to, convide in and to share with. That ppl who do not live full and happy lives. Well I beg to differ. I think ppl who trust too many ppl are fools, and are putting their souls out there to be distroyed. Its easier to go through life not knowing what your missing than to spend the rest of your life heartbroken, trying to bury the pain.

Wicked Is An Evil Cunt, Again
i feel so used, i pimped the whore out, gave her fubucks for her spotlight and then she texts me that she is blocking me when she gets home because i didn`t answer my phone when she called twice. wtf, she is more fuckin needy than a puppy, but 300 times more evil than any junkyard dog block her before she blocks me or give her the pleasure

Lmfao
How do you decide who to marry? "You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming." Alan, age 10 "No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're stuck with." Kirsten, age 10 What is the right age to get married? "Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then." Camille, age 10 "No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get married." Freddie, age 6 How can a stranger tell if two people are married? "Married people usually look happy to talk to other people." Eddie, age 6 "You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids." Derrick, age 8 What do you think your Mom and Dad have in common? "Both don't want no more kids." Lori, age 8 What do most peo

Help Your Brother And Sister
when i do that ifeel so much better about my self it al most make it be able to handle people at all thanks for being my friend and i talk a little lady name madina to join here and she a new be please help her learn bob

My Lifetime Match?
They are born between 24th October - 22nd November People sometimes find you cold, reserved and passive. This just means they don't know you well enough because in reality you're warm and passionate with a sensitivity to nature and natural beauty. But you hide your feelings. You're a natural worrier and as soon as you fall in love, you're afraid of being deserted. It's this fear that too often prevents you from committing or doing what feels right deep down: for example, leaving a someone you love through fear of them abandoning you one day. But over time, you gain confidence in yourself and your relationships have a better chance of lasting. Hidden agendas don't exist with you pair, as you both expect honesty and loyalty from one another no matter how brutal it may be. You complete one another, with these people you are able to have an intellectual debate or those deep conversations which you crave. The sexual chemistry between you to will last a lifetime and you only improve with ag

Boys Needed!
Ok, so I’m getting a little bored around here and I need something to spice up my fubar experience. Interested? Keep reading: I need the following: Boy Toy: Age 18- 25 who doesn’t mind pleasing and being dominant at the same time. Must be able to emote properly. Ill need to see what you’ve got first. Must be ready to assist at my discretion. Messenger is a plus. Age can be negotiated based on emoting abilities. You will always stay drunk and rated. Sugar Daddy: Any age who is caring, kind and will give me the things I need. E.I. keep me drunk, help me level, give random gifts, possible bombing and optional blinging. You will always be rated and loved. Roleplay Partner: Ages 19-30 who emotes well, enjoys naughty play, creating and acting out storylines, and preferably has some type of messenger and no significant other. Age can be negotiated if you emote well. Ill always be ready to play. Boyfriend: Age 19-25 lives in Florida, or atleast has the financ

2009 Song
Hrmm...love me for my money? lol Kiss Me Thru The Phone - Soulja Boy Tell Em' You are a very kind, fun loving person. People love to be around you. Especially to be going out with you because you shower them with gifts and you are a very good kisser. Your kisses are very passionate and the people love you. Your the oddly hot, sexy person who is really the UGLY person but people love you for your money

Personality Type
Type B Although you are an assertive, natural born leader, you don't mind being led. No doubt, you may procrastinate at times but you really are a hardworker. However, you know when to cool down and have fun. You make sure you incorporate rest into your day and often feel agitated without a good dose of alone time.

Abuse
they yell they scream they push they shove they touch they feel they take and steal and nothing is ever good enough you think maybe one day ill be good enough just gotta keep trying.. keep trying you slip and you fall close your eyes and hit the wall you give and you give until theres no reason to live they take everything you pride youself worth your thoughts they control your life to the point they have killed you to make they wat they want your dead inside...... dead not good enough to talk and share your thoughts your pushed away like a corps that rotsyou sruggle and your strive falling down everytimeyou are left voiceless mute as a mime you fade away till nothings left but your skin and bones.... and still when you die ...... no one will have known .... its all silent no mind to choose decide what is right no heart no courage to continue to fightlost in their ways it becomes all you know and eventualy you learn never to say no you can not stop them their will is too strong and

Foolish Games
I forgot what a brilliant song this is... Foolish Games-Jewel You took your coat off and stood in the rain,You're always crazy like that.And I watched from my window,Always felt I was outside looking in on you.You're always the mysterious one withDark eyes and careless hair,You were fashionably sensitiveBut too cool to care.You stood in my doorway, with nothing to sayBesides some comment on the weather.[Pre-Chorus 1]Well in case you failed to notice,In case you failed to see,This is my heart bleeding before you,This is me down on my knees, and...[Chorus]These foolish games are tearing me apart,And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.You're breaking my heart. You're always brilliant in the morning,Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved onesAs I clumsily strummed my guitar.You'd teach me of honest things,Things that were daring, things that were clean.Things that knew

A Reason, A Season, Or A Lifetime
A REASON A SEASON OR A LIFET I M E People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on. When people come into

Blessed
Yes, I am, and I know this. I have been blessed with the most incredible people in my life. And I know I don't tell them nearly enough just how grateful I am that they are in my life. Many people look at those I am close to and wonder why I am friends with certain people. All I have to say about that is never you mind. It is not for you to know. I have never been as close to as many females as I am now. I actually do not get along with most women (for various reasons, mostly because I chose not to participate in the stupid high school crap when I was there, so I damn sure am not doing it now). But the women I have grown so incredibly fond of, I have to say, are the greatest group to ever grace my presence. I think most women are conditioned to be in constant competition with each other, and I have consistently kept my closest friends males simply because I didn't feel the need to compete with them. Competition is for drinking games, and sports, not for attention. I sometimes wish w

A Guys Point Of Things
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys’ side of the story. (I must admit, it’s pretty good.) We always hear “the rules ” From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered “1 ON PURPOSE! 1. Men ARE not mind readers. 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday sports. It’s like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! 1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only If yo

We Are Getting Older
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930s '40s, '50s, '60s and '70s !! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright- colored, lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors, or cabinets, and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention the risks we took hitchhiking. As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle, and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter, and drank soda pop with sugar in it, but we weren't overweight b

A Universe Of Little Things...
Why are there shining stars that we can not see? Like people that I will never know even when I am able to see. They are the hurting blues of the dawn, they detach from the sky and then they proceed to scratch me and graze you. All that is beautiful is waiting for your glance. There is a Universe of little things that are only awakened when you name them. With me I have a caress that without you it will spill. There is a Universe of little things that will fly over your head if you blow them away. There are dusks that won’t set it's self.

A Bad Day At The Jail
Andrea gagged as Vicki pushed her pussy against her face. "Suck me if you want to breathe." Vicki said above her as she mashed her pussy against Andrea's struggling face. Andrea had been sent to this prison after being sentenced to 5 years for killing her abusive husband. When he had hit her the last time, she had slammed a knife into his chest, right through his heart.Andrea had married Mark Sinclair when she was 18, now 10 years later she is being smothered by another woman who wants her to suck on her. Not exactly how she pictured her new life. At 5í8î and 130lbs, Andrea had always considered herself an independent woman. She thought she would be able to defend herself if the need ever arose.She had barely been pushed into the cell by the female guard and the door slammed shut when she was thrown roughly onto her back on the bottom bunk. She had moved to get up, but had the breath knocked out of her when her roommate suddenly sat down on her chest. "Ooooooffff. ..Get o

Always Mj
In our darkest hourIn my deepest despairWill you still care? Will you be there? In my trialsAnd my tripulationsThrough our doubtsAnd frustrationsIn my violenceIn my turbulence Through my fear And my confessionsIn my anguish and my painThrough my joy and my sorrowIn the promise of another tomorrowIll never let you partFor youre always ïn my heart

..why..
..WHY.. Pain..... that’s all I feel just the sour taste vinegar& tears that burn like acid.... the metallic sent of blood and the sound of shattering dreams ....why.... must I cry myself to sleep only to be tormented by the past the faces of those around me begin to blur as my strength weakens ....why.... must I suffer at your hand? I already want to die.... why must you make it worse?!! aren’t I tormented enough already?! another suicide attempt, another bloody mess on the floor while you stand there watching ...laughing... as I lay there bleeding my heart...cold and broken as memories flash before my eyes ...why... what point is there to fight it never knew the warmth of happiness or knew what it was like to be loved I’m just another broken heart that was forgotten by the world just another child without a home and family who cared nothing more then an empty shell, stripped of all emotion all that’s left is pain and hatred it has to be my fault... every

Medical Marijuana Business Plan
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The World According To Emanon
Am bored saw this photo in Wetts photos figured i would my own bored interpretation on it.... America Number One in what… Hm not in educationNot in murdersNot in suicidesNot in Obesity rates… America is not number one in anything… not anything important that isCommunist … why do people say YOU’RE A COMMUNIST as if communism is a bad political system?Santa… yea he stays there with the tooth fairy, the easter bunny and god….Evil doers… hm really should I rant on the idiocy of most Americans versus the lifestyle who allow religious BS to run their lives and tell them what to believe in and think hmPussies… oh for their ability to stay out of petty pissing matches between most countries…Do our laundry.... Mexico… hm much more hard working over all then the majority of Americans… Coffee come from here… hm oh yes its only made in one country in the whole world… They make our stuff… l

I Know Someone Out There Feels Me
Do any of you beautiful people truely value me or want me as a friend?If you do then hit me up.I like to talk to people and give advice and most importantly listen.So anyone who is reading this please drop me a line.Let me know that im one of those people that everyone appreciates,I look forward to hearing from someone please.

Packing And Moving
Hello everyone,I want to start off by apologizing for my lack of communication here. I am moving next weekend. This weekend is my last weekend to pack and get everything organized.I know I have received a lot of music from bands and I just have not had the time to dl the tunes and update and organize the band list.My internet will be shut off on July 8th at my current address and will be turned back on at my new place on July 18th.As soon as I get settled I know I will be playing major catch up with everyone. I appreciate everyone supporting God's Forsaken Radio and I will get back to each and every one of you as soon as I can.You can also send your music to Mike aka DJ Groundzero. He is the owner and creator of the radio station. His email address is: zground@hotmail.comThank you all for your patience and understanding.Much love and respect,Mindyhttp://godsforsakenradio.com/news.php

Friends
My biggest reward is to see you smile, know you are happy, and feel you are loved. I know life is sometimes cruel, but that's why I'm here, to show you that life can be good when somebody cares. the first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away. No matter what you do, he'll stay with you forever Love has a way of blinding even the sharpest minds. We don't look because we don't want to see. But once love is stripped away, we see the real person clearly. There revealed to us, with all their flaws, their foibles, and their secrets

Prelude To Passion
Prelude to PassionLet me describewhat I have in mind.A couple hoursexiled from the world,an afternoon of love.Candles, music,a bed, food, drink,you and me.Alone.Together.No one elseto penetrate our paradise.Let me lay you down.Climb on top.Lean down to kiss you.My hair will protect usfrom the eviloutside the room.It’ll be a barriermade of steel.My hands,on each side of your head,powerful, soft guns.They will touch,caressplaces which haven’tbeen felt in a while.Let me kissyour birthmark,scars, lips,chest, fingers,manhood.Every inch that makes youyou.My lips,all over your body,will seal your life to mine.They will give youthe strength tomake it to the end.Allow my lipsto heal you from the outside in.Touch my body.Caress my thighs.Wrap my legsaround your waist.Enter my heavenon earth.Be still.Relish the feelingof becoming part ofonewhich never existed before.My bodywill be your homeaway from home.Allow my essenceto fill the darknessinside us both.Connect with meas only you can

Want To Join My Auction?
IM going to host an auction that will start Friday the 10th and will end Sunday the 19th. I will take entries up until the auction starts as well. It is free to join and the bidding will start at 100K. AllI need is for you to email the link to the pic you want to use and your offer!!

Philosophical Notion
This one I just wrote A few days ago to A vary intelligent writer. Her compliment inspired me to share my incite with you all. I try to live by the golden rule if we all did, there would be no reason for any laws. I wish we all had empathy, and could see what pain we caused other we wouldn't do the things we do. A long time ago when the governor of the land asked a great philosopher what the answer was to the greatest question ever asked. He said "always do good never do bad". The governor then replied "that's it", "I knew that when I was 3 years old" the philosopher then said. "yes the child no's it, but the old man is still looking for the answer". know one ever believes it could be that simple, but it is. We are all looking for a great answer, but the answer itself dos not have to be enormous. the best things in life are the little thing's. you do what you can and let God handle the rest. we can only accomplish one small step at a time we are only human. God bless you all.

Trial's Of Good And Evil
People say that three forth of the world is good (hopeful), and that the other one forth is evil full of (doubt). It stands to reason that had it been the other way around the world would fall into darkness, but reason isn't always clear. "what do you mean" you ask. picture a room (call it room 1) with 100 people only 1 person is good (hopeful).The rest evil (doubtful). Now picture another room (call it room 2) this room also has 100 people 1 person is evil (doubtful) the rest good (hopeful). the two rooms are given a choice the good (hopeful) person in room one must stand up and give his life to save the others in the room. the evil (doubtful) person in room two must also do the same. the one person of light, good, hope will come foreword and be happy to give his life for the others to live even if they are lost soul's. many may even change their life because of it. The dark, evil, doubtful person in room two would stay quiet hoping his life would be spared. Dooming the rest for his o

The Truth In People
People show there true nature when they are at the edge. when life get's hard who are you really. do you enter a stat of column and watch what you say try to figure things out, or excitement lash out in fear saying whatever comes to mind. What come's first anger, or pain, and will you let yourself feel pain? Anger is the body's natural way of telling you something Isn't right. It's meant to be dismissed as quickly as it came, then replaced with pain from being hurt, that's all anger really is. feeling the pain and crying help's your body release the toxins produced by stressful feeling's, also giving your body the chemical's it needs to properly heal. When you us anger to replace pain. there Isn't any healing that takes place. the chemicals that have been produced from stress have know way out. They can only dwell inside one after the other to later harm you physical, and manifest mentally and emotionally. The more you repeat this pattern the easier it is to do, and the harder it

Ensign: The Lord Hath Not Spoken By Me, Part 2
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 3 July 2009 When I was going through the teacher education program at Stetson University (I graduated fifteen years ago? That’s still weird to me), one of my instructors let us know up front that she wouldn’t tolerate any instance of sarcasm directed at a student in the classroom. Dr. Dershimer – with all due respect, she looked like everybody’s grandma and seemed the LAST person who’d do this – said she once had a student kicked out of the program for that very thing. Even though the words of Scripture don’t convey the tone the speaker uses most of the time, one can’t help but believe that Micaiah, the prophet of the LORD we met last week in 1 Kings 22, was being sarcastic when he

Srsly...
Why is it that a person can sit with the same damn owner for days, I come in and buy them and within 5 minutes there is a sudden bidding war? I feel like I'm being watched. The person isn't ever even bought back from whomever I bought them from either. I think I'm just done wasting my money on people.

Toilet Seats
Something I don't understand. Why do women get so pissed when a man leaves the seat up? I hear them say that it only takes the guy a few seconds to put it back down..but why can't they take the few seconds to put it down then they go in or take the few seconds to turn on the light BEFORE they sit down? I just don't get it.

Accepted
Wow, after a few months of calling in weekly to check into the transitional place and let them know I am still interested, and then following through with what they suggested I had to do before being accepted in, they called me this morning and told me welcome on board. I will be moving in there the 14th at 4pm. She told me she would prefer if I got a pt job, and in the beginning to focus on me. To see if I need counseling of some sort, she even mentioned vocational training which would be the awesome. The room is gonna be significantly smaller then the one I am in now, so I wont be able to take too many things, so I will be packing up a lot here. I am scared and nervous at the same time, my life is about to take some drastic changes...... and I just hope they are for the better, cuz I certainly dont think it could get any worse then it has been....

Begginnings
well just making a statement about turning around and getting a new perspective. I'll be paying more attention to my own stuff and taking total accountability for all that I do. I figure if I can do this then I can make myself or let myself make any changes I want. I know I have to feel the changes from my heart to actuallt get past the mental stage the intelectual stage. I know I can do it its just letting myself get back in total power. It all seems so simple in theory, just getting past a lifetime of BSing myself thats the fun part. When I do let myself actually feel the changes I desire it seems to happen like it was there all the time. Just it is so "un guy like" to "feel" without trying to fix or make some judgement. Well the training wheels are back on an I see, ie. feel myself making some major changes just because thats what feels right.

Life These Days
Well, most of you who had my old account know how my "Life These Days" blogs can go. For those of you that don't, just read on. ----------------------------------------------------- Life these days has been ok i guess. That is, except for today. My hubby busts his ass at work. He HAD cancelled the insurance that the company he works for put on him in his name. Now, there's $100 missing from his check and we kinda have an idea it could be that but we're thinkin that the company he works for docked his pay due to the weather this past week. Everyone he works with knows that we have a kid. I mean come on. I am so pissed at this crap right now. We have bills just like everyone else and we pay them on time and all but idk what we're gonna do now. we may be forced to get rid of something. I just don't kno yet. I'd hate to. But anyway, life is pretty crazy right now as you can tell. But it will all come out better once we move to where we're going.

Rain
Someone needs to tell "the powers that be" that the rain has to stop. They aren't listening to me. I'll even be willing to make a deal...rain now, no rain tonight. Me, my friend, and her husband are suppose to be going to look at the "spook light". I've seen it before and it's amazing. But the light can't be seen when it's raining. If you want to see what the spook light is, click here. Anyway, who wants to try getting the rain to stop?

Last Ride Home
Grace to what i ask myself, for all i have seen and done, yet not satisfied and not ready to quit. Still wanna fuck more, still wanna do more, still wanna make me; i feel someone still owes me that last call "booty"-won't it be nice if i stage my own fiction of what i have become, see for myself what i want and get it done right, leaving behind all this fake scrappers who comes around pretending they do; whilst amongst a mist. I want to know better, i want to give better, do i say "she" yes i heard that, wish you are here, we could really do better. I can really become me. send me a love song.

Domestic Violence
Am I an asshole for not feeling bad for all those pathetic women that let their man lay hands on them? WTF??! If you put up with that shit, that means you like it, or at least dont dislike it. I like it when women say that they dont leave because of the kids...So its OK for your kids to witness that shit goin on? Most wifebeaters are that way becase they have witnessed it in their childhood. So those bitches that dont leave and let their kids be victimized are doing a great disservice for their offspiring by showing that its ok to put up with that shit/act like that. No sympathy from me.

The Real American Patriots
Have you ever wondered what happened to the 56 men who signed the Declaration of Independence? Five signers were captured by the British as traitors, and torturedbefore they died. Twelve had their homes ransacked and burned. Two lost their sons serving in the Revolutionary Army; another had two sons captured. Nine of the 56 fought and died from wounds or hardships of the Revolutionary War. They signed and they pledged their lives, their fortunes,

Ambers Wedding Song?
You woke up this morning......getting ready for your big day. rushing here and running there.Trying to make sure everythings just right. you have no time or daddy. i stand on the sidelines,with tears streamin down my face,remembering yesterdays little girl,that only a short time ago would sit on my lap and fall asleep. I look at you now and wonder where's daddy's little girl. your all grown upand ready to start a lie of your own.

Let Me Be.....
baby please.....let me be,come on and set me free. why wont you turn loose of me,cut the ties that bind. you say you love me....then let me spread thesewings and fly away. one of these days......you'll wake up, and realise you been holdin on. to what has been....but is no more. you say you love me..... then let me spread these wings and fly away..... baby please let me be....

Silly Email
Bricklayer's Accident Report ~ Possibly the funniest story in a while. This is a bricklayer's accident report, which was printed in the newsletter of the Australian equivalent of the Workers' Compensation board. This is a true story. Had this guy died, he'd have received a Darwin Award for sure.... Dear Sir: I am writing in response to your request for additional information in Block 3 of the accident report form. I put "poor planning" as the cause of my accident. You asked for a fuller explanation and I trust the following details will be sufficient. I am a bricklayer by trade. On the day of the accident, I was working alone on the roof of a new six story building. When I completed my w ork, found that I had some bricks left over which, when weighed later, were found to be slightly in excess of 500 lbs. Rather than carry the bricks down by hand, I decided to lower them in a barrel by using a pulley, which was attached to the side of the building on the sixth floor. Securing the rope

Live To 100
When a grandmother was in her late eighties, she decided to move to Israel. As part of the preparations, she went to see her doctor and get all her charts. The doctor asked her how she was doing, so she gave him the litany of complaints - this hurts, that's stiff, I'm tired and slower, etc. He responded with, "Mrs. Siegel, you have to expect things to start deteriorating. After all, who wants to live to 100?" The grandmother looked him straight in the eye and replied, "Anyone who's 99."

Dream Of Better Days
Gazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime After all there's only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself Time after time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days I watch the sun go down like everyone of us I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those Who will come after us ... This time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away oh yeah I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ It doesn't really matter much to me Without each others help there ain't no hope for us I'm living in a dream of fantasy Oh yeah, yeah, yeah If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate and bigotry ... Be gone? I'm just a dreamer I dream my li

Sheila
I screamed at the gates of vallahalla. Told my God you should be next to me. He cried in anger. But began to see. Her smile makes mine. Without it I could do no more. When it shines. I am so much more. Someday she'll be my breath. Then she will see my eyes. And finally know. There are no lies.

July 4th Celebration
The long awaited day to celebrate our country's Independence is so near. Here in Florida it has been raining every day, well it is our rainy season. Its time to enjoy the long days, warm weather, cook outs, family and friends or just relaxing with someone special. We plan on doing as most enjoying the great outdoors. Others may be enjoying a state park for the day or camping in one. Plan ahead if your going to watch fireworks at a public display as some city's are not having them due to budget cuts. Whatever you chose to do be thankful for what we have, be thoughtful to others and mostly be safe. Camping and outdoor supplies provided by www.rcampout.com

Ways To Die
Can someone tell me ways to die???? I can't deal with stuff anymore... my friend Holly is in the hospital....my breast cancer may have come back.. i dont see my daughter....i am losing my friends..all of them.. i just don't want to go through all this pain anymore...so.. pleaseeeeee help me.

Bf Application Lol
I was told to do this... Name: Birthday: Location: Hair color: Eye color: Height: Religion: Are you still a virgin: Tattoos or piercings: Favorite Animal: Smoke: Drink: Make the first moves: Opinion on Cuddling: Favorite Band/music: Favorite Food/Beverages: Fav. Colors: Fav. Sounds: Fav. smells: Fav. Movies: Fav. TV Shows: FAv. Places to hang out/or just be: Special Talents: Describe your perfect date: One special/unique thing about you: What would you do to get my attention: Would you tell me the truth no matter what: 4 words to describe you: Highest education: What do you see in your future: Favorite physical feature/quality: Whats the longest relationship you?ve had: Why have you applied to be my boyfriend: Whats your ultimate weakness: Who has been the most influential person in your life and why: Are you a vegetarian: what turns you on the most: What kind of a woman do you respect: Have you ever regreted a hookup: How many sexual partner

...than Go With A Boy... Or Two
So I just listened to Rizo pour her heart out singing There Are Worse Things I Could Do *watching Grease with the roomies*, and I feel just like t hat right now, every single line in that song is for me right now. Ever since my boyfriend, who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, and I broke up about 3 months ago now, I've been profoundly promiscuous. Haha since I started college, sometimes I am waaaay in heat, but luckily I've had a boyfriend who gladly alleviated my frustrations for me, but I've been going to multiple guys, trying to find something I'm not finding. And I'm thinking that something will come of these situations, but of course not, because even though girls like to think otherwise, more often than not, when a guy sees you as a fuck, you stay a fuck, so here I am haha. And I feel bad now, and I feel like I'm not good enough, even though I know I am. Unfortunately, I'm one of those people whose life feel's more in balance when I have a boyfriend...

Mad
MAD I am so tiered of people who us to be there for me as a friend turn around and till how bad of a mother I am when that person walked out on her frist Kid for Drugs and cant take care of the on she now has and the stupped B-ch is having another one poor kids and her husband has 3other kids he cant even take care of. He also walked out on them for this stupied Cun- I need to get out of here befor I hurt someone it will ether be this person after she has the baby or my loving B-ch of a sister who also says I am a bad mother really do they have nothing better to do. And all I was trying to do was give the us to be friend some baby clothes so I was trying to help her out wont make the mistake aging. I am smart anuff for that I want help nithor one of them out aging ever they both can rout in Hell.

For A Better Wedding
Wedding date comes near at hand. Choosing wedding dresses has been submitted to schedule and also becomes a big tough task for me. My friends tell me the following three styles are fashion now. I have to made comparison among them. Simple StyleF Simple design could build up to the special character of ladies. However how to emphasize on the merits and avoid demerits is a tough point with simple designs in the international fashion industry. The excellent pruning and material are the best points for success, which could embody the quality and class of wedding dresses perfectly. In my opinions, this style is fit for the girl who owns the strong sense of independence. Romantic Style:Maybe all of us would get to term of” romantic” for referred to wedding. And all of us make efforts to set up the natural and romantic mood.@The wedding gowns with hollowed bordering ornament or lovely clarity flowers, mysterious veils. All of these embody romantic style. It is fit for the

Just My Thoughts......
I look at the years my grandparents have been alive and it truly amazes me as to all they have seen. The world is a 'fast pace' world and it is difficult to keep up with it. I could get into this deep.....but my feelings are that, just in my lifetime, I feel things have gotton worse. People have changed and I sure as hell think young adults these days have much less respect for anyone or anything. I blame this on our Government. Try to discipline your child these days and all the child has to do is turn in the parent for abuse.....when I was a child I new better than to be disrespectful..otherwise I'd get my ass whipped or grounded or some kind of punishment. But as much as I grew up in fear of my dad and at times I hated him......I thank him now!!! I have respect and commensense because I was taught and brought up that way by my parents and family. So I don't blame the kids of today for their lack of respect------I blame the Gov. for stripping parent's rights away to raise their chi

Broadripple Is Burning
children broadripple is burning and the girls are gettin sick off huffin' glue up in the bathroom while your boyfriends pick up chicks and darling im lost i heard you whispering that night in fountain square the trashed filled streets made me wish we were headed home and there was love inside the basement were that woman used to lie in a sleeping bag we shared upon the floor most every night and darling im drunk and everything that i had loved has turned to stone so pack your bags and come back home and im wasted you can taste it don't look at me that way cause i'll be hanging from a rope i will haunt you like a ghost if my woman was a fire she'd burn out before i wake and be replaced by pounds of whiskey cigarettes and outer space then somebody moves and everything you thought you have has gone to shit we've got a lot don't ever forget that and i wrote this on airplane where the people looked like eggs and when a woman that you love is gone she was bombing east japan and do

[dusty]
*blows the dust off this place*Geeze I haven't been here a lot lately.I think I posted more during my dreaded "PS3 era".Well, I've got bad news, and bad news, and bad news, and bad news.So I'm skipping it.I guess every aspect of my life is kinda kerploding in my face.Including health relationship, family, dog, wealth.This isn't news, and I'm so tired of havin the exact same things to say when people ask me how I am, that I've really just stopped answering.So I'm gettin barbecue and watchin the game with my folks tomorrowfuck yeah.Maybe lookin at shoes since mine are held together with... nothing you idiot! They would be with duct tape if I could afford duct tape.It'll be a delightful distraction from another 4th without my brother.And I'm still not in a poetry/productive mode right now.Deal.

New Guitar Amplifier
After almost 30 years of playing guitar i bought my first Marshall amp a few days ago. And its a real one, not one of those cheap transistor amps, i bought an old school JTM45 with a 4X12 cabinet with celestion greenback speakers. And theres nothing polite about this amp at all, its the loudest nastiest sounding amp ive ever owned and ive owned pretty much every amp out there, this is the one that makes every other amp sound like mickey mouse.

Movie Reviews #1 Transformers Revenge Of The Fallen
On Thursday 25-6-09 or 6-25-09 i saw in the cinema Transformers Revenge Of The Fallen also known as Transformers 2 this movie is also Directed by Michael Bay the director of the first Transformers Movieand in this one there new AUTOBOTSand new DECEPTICONS and surprises and if you haven't yet seen the first movie i suggest you do because the end of the first movie relates to the 2nd movie this movie is totally awesome i loved it i give it 10 stars for a rating it is certainly worth seeing people from Bruce.

I Am For Sale
Starting today i am for sale, you can place a bid in my comments on how much you would buy me for! What is the benfits you ask for buying me for 2 weeks, well: 1. I will use all of my 11's everyday to rate you and yours photos. 2. You will be added as my top friend, and Family 3. Being in my family, you get access to my NSFW pic's 4. You will be displayed all over my profile, to get more friends, family, ect. So if you would like to own me for two weeks place you bid below!

More Ranting
Another long day at the shop, had alot of business today though which is good. Most of the day though i was thinking about what has happened to me in the past few months. I called home to talk to my father, he was telling me how my whole family is saying its MY fault everything turned out the way it did. How its my fault im trying to figure out. Things happen for a reason i guess, the only thing i can think of is that soon something good will happen. Im just hoping its soon because i cant take much more of the low and bad. I just have to get on with my life and keep my head held high....easier said then done. I still have my bad days where i just cry and wish everything would end so i didnt have to deal with it. But like i said...things happen for a reason...why i still dont know. I just want to be happy, and have a place of my own again. Is being happy so much to ask for? thats all i want. im happy with certain things but other things i would like to change. I hope someone understands

Akmost A Year.
MY DAD WOULD OF BEEN 67 ON JULY 4TH. I LOST MY DAD ON JULY 16, 2008 LAST YEAR. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. I HAD ASKEDMY BOSS. FOR THEM 2 DAYS OFF FROM WORK. BUT, MY BOSS DIDN'T GAVE THEM TO ME. I AM REALLY HURT. I KNOW ALL I WILL DO IS CRY ON THEM TWO DAYS. I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALMOST ALL DAY AND HALF THE NIGHT. I KNOW THAT EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME THAT IT WILL GET BETTER. BUT, IT STILL HURTS VERY MUCH. I KNOW HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE, BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER THATS FOR SURE. I MISS MY DAD VERY MUCH AND I LOVE HIM TO. JUST WISH I COULD SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM. LOVE YOU DAD. YOUR BABY GIRL...

Level Him, He's Close
http://fubar.com/user.php?u=2314457&friend=2314457" target=_blank>Raistlin✯Majere✯fuMarried to Jaymatghttp://b.pcc1.fubar.com/75/44/2314457/tn_1953890167.gif">href="http://fubar.com" target=_blank>@ fubar he's less than 200,000 away... have at it :p

25 Years Of Life
Well, what can I say about my 25th year alive? Not really much I guess. There really hasn't been alot in my life that's really worth talking about. I didn't accomplish much and what I did accomplish in my 25 years was graduate high school, get into some trouble, move around alot, get a couple tattoos, get engaged, had my heart broken many many times and was hurt in many serious relationships throughout my life. There is still much going on right now as that I am not going to give into detail about it all because it's still currently taking effect. I held down many many jobs including Burger King and KFC, TGI Fridays, and two of which just weren't jobs but possible career paths I could've chosen but did not. One being a medical records clerk for a family practice office in NJ and the other being a tractor-trailer service repair technician for a major towing company in Pennsylvania. At least with that "career" I was going out on jobs in the middle of the night, cleaning up after major ac

In Memories Of Ding
I felt the urge to put my feelings in writing The thought of not being with you is freighting Ding my dear lil sister You are on tops of the chart so don’t cry tear drops You used to tell me you hated me, But way back then we couldn't see, Peace of mind goes out the door, as the rain pour in How close we would grow and how strong, if you were here But deep down we guessed it all along, That for us there couldn't be another, And I'm proud to be known as your brother. When starlight holds no mystery, When thoughts walks are history, When you are gone and I'm alone, When no-one answers the telephone, Now I truly know you gone When no-one stops to say hello, Now I know you are really been gone for a long

This Love...this Love ...tell Me What They Knew About My Love
Tell me what they know about my love, Tell me what they know about my love You reeled me in you ride it out, shorty you lift the back high and drop it down low you you need it deep,you like it in depth but I can also fill the cheeks I’m an explorer I can reach where no one has been before,I have so much seed so much seed they should start a fleet If you like I can make it hurt pleasurable pain leaving nut stains on bed sheets You sweat it out you let drip rolling down my length like a creak, its hydro baby this love is not cheap I hit it hard Im rough you like that stuff I know you do you’s a freak You made me one too at, least under the sheets 24/7 days of the week 360 cycles thats my motion I can do more but you like in every entrance babys having you been eating beef I can smash in slow hit up high crush it down even moe,for sho I pull out long I crash it in wide just to see you stumble push and crumble till your kneels get weak I’ll grip you hips tight

Even Trade?
Anybody know where I can get my hands on some H1N1? I figure that would be perferrable to spending the next five days with my family. I need a good quarentine. Does the CDC have like test subjects? I hate holidays, because then it's a great excuse for my family to get me to drive to them. Why I have to be the one to go to them all the time, I don't know. I'm seriously considering moving across country when I graduate so I won't be expected to make six hour weekend drives to sleep on a couch. Cause that's what I want to do with my time off. "Oh, and bring your swimsuit, because we have a pool." Like I give a flying fuck you have a pool. Bring a big basket for the load of give a damn I'm brining in from the fields. Anywho, have a good weekend people. I'll be in hell!

Phlilly Fill Filled
Philly fill filled by Oudawn Sup ma you bored? you want to, you know….. So roll up the Philly fill filled…!!!!What is so wrong with Mary Jay? Dam she looks good I’d have to sayHeated up flying high against the sun rayAll nice and feelin' fine and cool Fuck my math class I’m going for politics,haaay!!!It takes away my worrays makes me starve for canday They say its a drug that’s badIf you believe that, you've been hadIf we're gonna get high, lets do this right! So roll up the Philly fill filled…pass the chronic and the light Here’s the purple, roll that shit up, Dam use a razor you fuckin it all up!! Pass the chronic and the lightSocially alcohol is okayAlthough it makes people pass awayBut marijuana is a "killer" drugBut it causes no graves to be dugCigarettes kill thousands of usersEven when they're not abusers So roll up the Philly fill filled!!!What you may have heard is slantedBecause this "drug", was actually plantedUnl

Because Im A Damn Whiner....
Ugh, its humid as all fuck here...83% ffs. I'm crabby at this damn place. I want to sleep but can't. My friggin' ins only allows 15 of my sleeping pills every 23 days so I get to go a week without sleeping because HealthPartners finds the need to fuck with me. Can someone just knock me the fuck out? p.s. wookiesnatch.

Any One Whant To Join Face Book
does any one whant to join facebook look for me male bethlehem pa frkm51@aol.com check this out www.pasands .com any one whant to chat e mail me frkm51@aol.com ill be yur pen pale on line friend just e mail me ok

Missing Out (for Witchie :d )
Missing Out The sands in my hour glass Poured down like my fortune As my harried hour came to be Cut short and out of tune As I quickly crashed hard Long before my time was due My opportunities wasted The story of my life was nothing new My head in my hands now To weak to scream and shout I left some waiting in the cold Leaving them lonely and Missing Out

Food Fpr Thought
So I am not all that good looking of a guy, but I do make up for it elsewhere. I met some one and got close. She had all the means to make it work out, but never did. Don't get me wrong, but if you have the money and am in love with some one from long distance away and tell them they love you and want you and love your kids and even send photos and claims and has friends say they have photos of you and them in their vehicle and home, and yet they never make the attempt to meet you or even visit. But yet they still try to say they love you and when I mention it would be nice to meet she says I am being pushy or when I text om the weekends when she is at home, she claims she can't text or call back because she is with her family. Ok enough rambling, just thought I would post this and basically say, if you say you love some one and have the means to make it work do it because the other person does have feelings too and so do their kids.

Omg I Made Oracle! Whoo Hoo Thanks!
I am super excited right now! I just made oracle.I had 2.1 million points when I logged on this afternoon and through all the awesome people blinging me and bombing me I made it! You guys fricken rock! You know you you are who helped me.I am so happy.It just feels cool to make it.I started fubar 4 1/2 months ago and made it fast cause ya'll loves me.(h) So anyways..I don't really like the new format of the website.I don't like the status thingy and it limits you on your statuses so I can't even update my status right now to say thanks to everyone.I have one pimpout left and the first person to comment me and say they want it for 1 million fubux its yours.Im fubroke.I gave away the other two though to people who always pimp or help me.Im so excited!

Want Rates Or Bombed?
i will have two bombs this weekend,the first is for repays and 11's.The second will before blings..Here is what i am offering i will rate 250 pic folders at a cost of a 30k per folder..I WILL BOMB A 250 FOLDER FOR A 1 CREDIT BLING...i will take 50 total bling so i know i have time to get them all!!!!BLING AWAY!!!!!

Our Real Origin
The truth is within us. Within our brains but we have forgotten it. The truth is...that we are not what or who we believe. I will tell you a story, a maise-kind of story. Our very distant Ancestors came on this planet 1.5 billion years ago from other Solar systems to create and develop a great and powerful civilization. Some other galactic explorers, from a different human alliance, came first (2 billion years ago) in order to exploit the uranium reserves found in Gabon, at Oklo. Some time after one of their departures, our Ancestors settled here and lived in peace and harmony until they found themselves suddenly involved in a terrific nuclear war with the former explorers. The nuclear radiations have greatly affected the brains, health and lifespan of survivors in such devastating way that they truly believed afterwards in what their hot fantasy told them it was true. Because they were mentally ill. Some fortunate (or even cautious) settlers remained untouched by radiations. The unf

Ta Crystal
... so i can see your eyes, their light,so i can ask the love, and the sky sand you for me,so i can know a star, that come on heart to talk with me,soi can kiss your lips, touch your hands, take in my heart,like a done with a divine form, i love you, divine creature, that show to me the real sense of the dreams,and like the dreams appearsi can see you,peace for my eyes !! http://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/ tp Crystal

Wicked Is The Whiskey
Evil is the darkness Eating at my soul Tearing at my heart A terror to behold Wicked is the whiskey That numbs me to the pain When the agony of living Is driving me insane There is no inspiration In the years that I have lost There is only sorrow As I calculate the cost The sum of all my choices The ticking of the clock Time is past forever The hands will never stop Wicked is the whiskey That numbs me to the pain Tearing out my heart A razor to my vein Empty of the meaning I hold on to my dreams Trapped within this nightmare Into silence do I scream There is no sound to find me But the breaking of my heart I shed the tears that drown me As i sadly play my part Evil is the darkness Eating at my soul Tearing out my heart A terror to behold Wicked is the whiskey Tho it numbs away the pain The agony of living A razor to my vein...

Seriously,ladiez Grow Up..
OK,IM COMING TO THE POINT WHERE IM GETTING TIRED OF THESE DAMN FEMALES ON FUBAR,THEY ARE NOTHING BUT FUCKING DRAMA,I CANT BE FRIENDS WITH A GUY CAUSE THEY FUCKING FLIP OUT,IF ITS A GUY THEY ARE INTO AND I COMMENT THERE PAGE,THEY COME AND STALK MY PAGE N THEN BLOCK ME,LADIEZ IF YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME COME AND LET ME KNOW DONT BLOCK ME,GROW THE FUCK UP,I AINT STEALING YOUR MAN,IM A HAPPYILY MARRIED FEMALE,JUST BEING FRIENDS WITH MEN ON FUBAR,YOU AINT KIDS NO MORE,SO GROW THE FUCK UP AND STOP STALKING MY PAGE...THATS ALL I GOT TO SAY..

Anger N Hate
Anger fills up my soul, I bet its something you've never known. the sweet girl you once knew, lied to me, look what you put me through. Im at my breaking points sick of the shit, I dont know what to do with it, the feelings i have for people that lie, ill take this to the grave, til the day i die. If you dare keep my friend ship be warned, from the heart u ripped out and torn. You're a fucking coward you cant face the pain, the feelings, the hate, the wrong, it pours down like rain, on your soul as it thickens into the ground, no longer will you smile when im around. Becareful what you wish for becareful what you say, because no longer will i FEEL the same way.

Joshua Tenzley.
I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.Is it over yet, in my head?I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.Is it over yet? I can't win.So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.I'm going all the way, get away, please.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.You got to fight just to make it through,'cause I will be the death of you.This will be all over soon.Pour salt into the open wound.Is it over yet? Let me in.So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.I'm going all the way, get away, please.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.You got to fight just to make it through,'cause I will be the death of you.[Bridge]I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hiding.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.

Highly Upset..what The Hell?
Something happened here a few minutes ago and I am highly upset and surprised.A family member bought me from another family member a few days ago.He was in my family and I thought we were friends.Obviously I was wrong or he was mad at me for something I'm not aware of.He just disowned me.The only reason I knew that is because I was worth 12 million fubux and then someone bought me for 5 million.I was like wtf?This family member disowned me and I just asked about him a few days ago and we were talking and getting along.Im fucking pissed.That wasn't necessary.If you have a problem with me be man or woman enough to come talk to me about it instead of being a child.It hurt my feelings and now I deleted people who I know don't care and I'm down to 5 family members.I am here for fun not for people being straight up dickheads.If you don't like me or you have a problem with me it is best to just delete me now and save yourself some trouble.I get sick of futards here.On the brighter side Im 300

China Babies 'sold For Adoption'
Dozens of baby girls in southern China have reportedly been taken from parents who broke family-planning laws, and then sold for adoption overseas. An investigation by the state-owned Southern Metropolis News found that about 80 girls in one county had been sold for $3,000 (£1,800). The babies were taken when the parents could not pay the steep fines imposed for having too many children. Local officials may have forged papers to complete the deals, the report said. Unpopular policy Parents in rural areas are allowed two children, unlike urban dwellers who are allowed one. But if they have more than that, they face a fine of about $3,000 -several times many farmers' annual income. The policy is deeply unpopular among rural residents, says the BBC's Quentin Somerville in Beijing. Nearly 80 baby girls in a county in Guizhou province, in the south of the country, were confiscated from their families when their parents could not or would not pay the fine, Southern Metropolis News sa

If That's The Way It Is . . .
I had a mumm about eating nickel, there are few who would remember. But maybe it's time. I'm sure there's a Saturday Night Special with my name on it. And if that's not open to me, I have a length of rope and places to attach the other end. If there's not an anchor for the floor, there's a doorknob on the other side of the room. There may not be time to change the course of the tides, but I wouldn't mind going out on a high note. If you care to stop by, tell me from your experience with me, what it was that was important to me? No holds barred now. Just out with it. I look forward to hearing from you all, but if not, I always liked flowers.

Ally Way
Ally WayAfter a long night of dancing in a club, watching the strippers do there dance. All you can think of is the smell of cigarettes in the air with the slight hint of perfume. The drinks that just kept coming and of coarse the beautiful breasts that were in your face most of the night, especially these one pair. You sigh and remember these beautiful breasts that were perky, no scars so and didn’t look fake at all. The light smell of roses were all over them. Those breasts were attached to this wonder full beauty that came out in the best outfit. She started out the show in this black and red velvet corset that tired up the front allowing her voluptuous breasts poke up and look like with any wrong move they would fall out. Bottoms was that of a pair of booty shorts velvet with red ties up sides that matched the corset. Her knee high boots made her even more lovely as they pushed her ass out in all the right places. Her hair was down in slight ringlets, it was the color of th

Time For A Change
Hello again, fellow readers. Wow, I think this is the longest I have went without typing a blog! Well, there were some reasons behind the situation. First off, I have been sort of busy on other things to where I didn’t have time to type up any new topics and so on. Also, there was an extreme lack of topics to talk about. However, I have been gathering up a good amount of topics over the past couple months, so I will try to go and do some typing to kill some time. And finally, I got bored of the internet. I know some of you may think how could that be or I saw you online a few times. Well, there just were some things that I just got burned out on that’s on the internet, and the only times I would be online were to check email, and if someone I knew was online, I would talk to them. All in all, I was trying to limit my time on the internet. One thing I felt for this was my impatience for not finding work and trying to end my current situation. But that is about to

Randomness
You are amazing. I miss you. Do you think of me? I hope you're happy. I'm glad you've moved on. I wish we still talked. Things would be different if I could make them that way. You're really not as great as you think you are. I love you, far more than you could possiblly imagine.

My Friend
thinking long have i forgotten what was original thought replaced by your face your voice telling me yet again how much i mean to you a smile replaces my frown as i think of you blushing at something i did yet again a soft laugh at how you are such a goof at times you would do anything to cheer me up even a clown wig not sure where my life would be without you in it in some way or another your very much a part of it now youve become so much more than a face priceless a simple word can discribe you so well always there when i fall down usually on my face laughing when i land on my butt instead it never bothered you that i was never the high maintenance type that i preferred ponytail to coifs no makeup to all dolled up torn jeans and tank top over silks and lace that a sunny day out meant me on the back of a bike instead of a stroll i seem to be your exact opposite on so many things im a country girl your a city boy but we are the best of friends forever

Get Starting !!
Hi friends, i want write poems also in english, so i try here. I have a big blog on Msn, evryone say that is marvelous, everyone visit it from every place of the word and i knowed a lot of people with it. My principal blog is ://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/ Here you can rea my most beautiful poems, also in english a few. Here you can search for much more of my, Pics, friends, my city Roma and much, much more again. If you are ready to read, my blog starting also on Fubar. Enter in my blog and ivite also your friends to read it. I hope that my poems could like you, Ciao from the poet.

Am I Ready?
Have you ever been stuck between a proverbial rock and a hard place? That's how I'm feeling right now. I have so many things in front of me and I'm not sure if I'm ready to accept the responsibilities and deal with the changes. How do you prepare yourself for such a life altering change? I want to take the next step and make these changes, I just don't know if I can handle it. It will not only change my professional life, but it will also change my personal life as well. This will dump a whole new level of responsibility on me. I know that it will be a good change for me, I just don't know how to prepare myself, or if preparation is even possible. I usually just jump into everything head first and worry about everything else later, but I'm a little worried that I might be taking on too much, and that I might not be able to handle it. I've always been very independent, but this change makes me re-think my stability. Maybe I am just secound guessing myself and I need to just sh

New Stash Items For The 4th Of July
So I just got finished stashing some items in honor of US Independence Day. The first item is a bit of good ol' American cheese. It's a clip from 1980s era WWF wrestling TV (Specifically a show that aired occasionally on Saturday nights on NBC, creatively called Saturday Night's Main Event). It features a music video for Hulk Hogan's wrestling theme song, called "Real American." The video is ultra cheesy. But I thought it would be "appropriate" to post it in honor of the 4th. The second video is taken from the Boston Pops 2005 4th of July Concert, and includes the National Anthem, and the end of the 1812 Overture, complete with cannons and fireworks. :) The final item, is a little piece called the Declaration of Independence. I thought that might be nice to post! And as an interesting aside, I've got a distant cousin on the list of signers (Well first cousin, many generations removed). Any one else around here have a relative who signed?

Handy Little Chart
HANDY LITTLE CHART HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER: YOU SAY GOD SAYS BIBLE VERSES You say: 'It's impossible' God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27) You say: 'I'm too tired' God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30) You say: 'Nobody really loves me' &nb

This Is For Every Woman That Thinks Nice Guys Dont Exist
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b

Life!
what one might think is bad..like say a man robs in the middle of the night..one might think he is a crackhad..but if you look deeper you might find to follow an walk his path might lead to .two kids an no mother ..who lost his job..cant get work...an has to take care of his kids yet because he owns the home he worked his life for an is the very reason the state wont help! what would you do! ...an even better what would you not do....

I..
know I don't deserve to feel the way I do ppl have it way worse than me but theres this creeping lonely meloncholy thats starting to effect the way I feel and how I view things. I feel like alot of what I hear ppl tell me is a show something thought out and played for me so as to make me feel good about myself like noone is genuine and i'm talking to patronizing department store maniqines. I don't know if what I just said is true but it sure as hell feels true My only comfort the one light I have beyond anythng else is music but even then theres the impending doom of daylight signaling another day filled with the promise of diffrent hues of greys because honestly is there anything else?

Am I Crazy Or Sane..? You Decide
I'm a crazy woman. Although, I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.. I do know that this once a week thing, it's getting to me. And that's most definitely NOT a good thing! (The once a week of seeing Adam, not that it gets to me.) I had two invites to go over to people's places and hang out tonight. And I am sitting here. I'm either really crazy or really sane. Because they were both guys, and I've dated both of them before. Does this make me a good, nice girlfriend? Or an overly conscientious one? Hmmm... (not that anything would've happened, but just the idea, you know..) I asked Adam a few times today if he was going to be able to come over tonight, after I got off work. And he said no. That this weekend would be the earliest that would work for him to have some time for us together. I got off at seven. I hung out in electronics, giving David a hard time and then came home. (It's an Iowa thing, to hang out in Wal-Mart, I assume.) I changed into comfy, (but nice looking, yo

Poem 3
A Slow Bleed My life is incomplete without you I am always thinking about you Who am I to doubt you To say that life can go on without you Knowing that I have trouble believing That looks can be deceiving With an inner beauty feeding And growing upon the grounds Of which have taken too much of a beating Please god let there be some meaning

Poem 2
The Pain’s End The pain within Is at the end Cutting bends the blades There’s no need for shades To hide the dilation Of meths mutilation The infatuation Of the death gripping insinuations Clock stopping Time ending

Poem
Empty soul!!! What is this world all about Why is it that I am so filled with doubt The open soars that are filled with grout That empty spout Where life poured out Has just dried out I know to turn Face to face to shout But with muttered thoughts On the tongue

Again
Today, I decided I was going to bleach my bikini line, as I have not been able to shave there due to some ingrown hairs, and I also have to lifeguard every day. As it turns out, I'm allergic to the bleach. There is now an angry red, burning rash on my crotch that you can see around my swimsuit. FML

To All My Friends And Those I Love.....i Wish You Enough....
Recently I overheard a Father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough'The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.'They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?''Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'.'I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' he said.'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?'He began to smile. 'That's a w

They Need To Realize...
When will they understand that I don't need a heling hand? how many times must I say no before they finally give up and go? What is it in me they see that makes them only want me sexually? The minute they start to speak of the cock the only urge I get is to quickly walk. I am not a woman in desperate need who needs to get on her knees and plead. I am a woman who is looking for more than the sexual offers knocking on my door. Any man can provide some dick but sex without love leaves me feeling sick. When that love is there it is much more intense which means there is no need for the usual pretense. They need to realize, they need to see that I'm in control of this wet pussy. If I wanted nothing more than a piece of ass they would see me walking to their door crossing their grass.

Yeah I Guess It Describes Me
Their tendency towards resentfulness not withstanding, Cancer people offer many things to the world. They have an incredible wellspring of kindness within where given half the chance, they’d gladly love to show you. Other traits include: Kind: There’s a big difference between being nice and being kind, and Cancer is truly aware of this. Whether it’s rescuing a stray dog or feeding the homeless, Cancer (along with soulful Pisces), is the first one in line to offer a helping hand. Dependable: While their moods may flicker like that of a candle caught in a storm, there is one thing we know for sure. You can always depend on them. Whether it’s for love or money, or simply to lend a helping hand, Cancers are known for coming through in a pinch. Intuitive: Perhaps most importantly, Cancer, and by extension, the role of the Moon in astrology, teaches us how to intuit. Along with their great capacity for love comes a strong intuitive force that seems to guide them. Much

2 Faced Peepz
I HATE HOW PEOPLE GET SO SERIOUS ON HERE IT'S JUST A GAME THEY SOME PEOPLE JUST SAY WHAT THEY HAVE TO TA GET THERE WAY ON HERE THEY TALK SMACK ABOUT E1 BEHIND THERE BACK SO SICK OF THAT WHY DOES E1 HAVE TO BE SO FAKE I'M A 100 PERCENT REALZ ALL NATURALL LIKE IT OR LEAVE IT ME THE PHENOMINAL WOMAN ALWAYS

Boy They Start Early!
This is an email I received from a 19 year old guy. Boy the games sure do start early! lol (note: i have changed his name just to be nice) ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: P To: midnightrhapsody Date: Jun 30, 2009 6:32 PM Subject: hey gorgeous im glad u added me. wanna have some fun one nite? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: midnightrhapsody To: P Date: Jul 1, 2009 11:08 AM Subject: RE: sorry. you're a little too young for me but thanks for the request. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: P To: midnightrhapsody Date: Jul 1, 2009 12:04 PM Subject: RE: babe, babe, babe, there is no age on size. just give me one nite or day with u and u will never see age as a factor ever again. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: midnightrhapsody To: P Date: Jul 1, 2009 6:47 PM Subject: RE: my final answer is no. btw you need to learn that begging is not very sexy. you need to stick wit

Papas Rellenas - Cuban Stuffed Potatoes
Cuban Papas Rellenas recipe - Stuffed Potatoes 2 lbs large potatoes (peeled and cut into quarters) 1 lb picadillo (seasoned ground beef) Vegetable oil for frying 1 cup dry bread crumbs4 eggs1 tsp salt Add salt to a pot of cold water, and boil the potatoes until they are soft. Drain the potatoes, and then mash them, then set aside to allow them to cool. Separate the egg yolks from the whites in two bowls. Mix the egg yolks into the mashed potato mixture, whisk the egg whites for a minute. Take a 1/4 of a cup of the mashed potatoes, and form it into a ball. Make a dent in the ball, to give it more of a bowl shape. Fill the indentation with a tablespoon of picadillo, and then reseal it. Reshape the potato as a ball again. Dip the ball in the egg whites, then roll the ball around in bread crumbs until it is coated. For a better coating, or for a crunchier texture, you may dip the ball into the egg whites again and coat it with another layer of bread crumbs. Refrigerate the

Survey # 4
Are you a fan of PDA's? (Public Display of Affection) yes Have you ever been caught making out? yes How many "bases" have you been to? all of them lol Have you had sex on the 1st date? yes How many different people have you had sex with? 6 Have you ever had a three-some? no Do you kiss and tell? yes Lights on or off? depends Have you ever tried 69? yes Do you have hair down there? no What about your mate? yes What's your favorite position? doggie When did you lose your virginity? my dads house

First Day Back
Well, my first day back at work, and what do you know? It's a short day? I went in, checked in with everyone, let them know I was alive and back. Spoke with my Battalion XO, and what do ya know? I could be gone in under 30 days. Heading to have fun in the sun and mountains As Soon As I can get everything done to get on a bird. Granted, I have a lot to get done to get there, but I am working my butt off, and going to get it accomplished in a quick military manner. I am ready to get there. It's kind of boring here without my buddies. They left the week I left for Georgia, and I need to be with them. I am out of place here. Besides, no point in me trying to find my Juliet when I am getting on a bird for who knows how long? Oh yeah, and my cell phone is about to DIE! Die hard! So I ordered a new one, and what is the point of paying for 2 day business when it is going to take 6 business days to get here?

So
So lately I've been frustrated with a lot of real life stuff. Then I come on here and people just sometimes make it worse. I hate when people tell you they are going to do something for you and even when you tell them they really don't have to they go no I want to and guess what happens? They don't do it. It's like don't tell me you're going to do something and then you don't. I don't expect people to do things for me. Look at it this way...how do you feel when someone says they will do something for you and they don't do it? I'm not gonna get into what things are bugging me because most people really don't care. Some people will say they care but really they don't. They are just saying that because they think they have to say it. I had someone today get upset at me because I basically got an attitude with them. But when I make a comment that I could not come on this site for weeks and people wouldn't care and your response is just "ok" don't be shocked then when I get

Inner And Outer Beauty
Hi! Inner beauty is beautiful. It consists of compassion, empathy, love, acceptance, forgiveness, confidence, humility, gratitude. a person can look hot and sexy on the outside very easily. Is that beauty or is it society that has conditioned people to think and look a certain way? People sometimes wear the glasses that society has given them and they choose to look through the same filters. They can get a new pair and look through different filters. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder it's all about whether we stop, look, and choose to see it. There is beauty everwhere all around where ever we go. Is being sexy and hot on the outside beauty? If a person has all of the above qualities then that is sexy and hot. Being comfortable in our own skin is where it's at and what we see when we look in to the mirror because it says everything. People get caught up in the cycle of life for some reason. It's like a washing machine they choose to spin and spin and spin around in circles and they d

Survey # 3
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would consider having sex with? not that i know of lol 2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? all of the above 3. What side of the bed do you sleep on? right 4. Pork, beef, or chicken? chicken 5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? no 6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? no 7. Shower or bath? both 8. Do you pee in the shower? nah 9. Mexican or Chinese? both 10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? both 11. Do you love someone on your friends list? yes 12. Do you know all the people on your friends list? not really 13. Love or money? love

Old Poem I Wrote
This is a poem I found in my juournal from about 3 or 4 years ago I hope you like. It's kinda old so be gentle lol. Before you I was unspoken, Before you my heart was broken. With a broken heart and a broken spirit it was very heard for me to let you near it. Scared of what people might say or what they might do, now all I want is to be with you. You unbroke my heart and raised my spirit now that you are near I have nothing to fear

Mickey And Minnie Are Getting Divorced
Mickey and Minnie Mouse are getting a divorce and the Judge is looking over the papers. The Judge says to Mickey "I see you say here you're grounds for divorce is that she is a little silly. Are you serious? I mean, you are cartoons after all, aren't you supposed to be a little silly?" Mickey looks up at the judge and says "I didn't say she was a little silly, I said she was fucking Goofy!

Survey #2
1. Do you have kids? If so, how old are they? yes she is 1 years old 2. Who do you live with? my man 3. Have you ever done something to an ex you regret? yes 4. What is your biggest pet peeve about other people? i'm not completely sure 5. Are you currently fighting with someone in your life? no 6. What is your opinion on the war? doesnt need to be any wars 7. Are you disappointed with where you are in life right now? not really 8. Do you believe in being in love with more than one person at a time? yes 9. Biggest regret in life? smoking cigs 12. Most embarrassing thing that has happened to you? idr

7-2-2009
It's another time to clean things up a bit...first, so called "friends"...well, quite a few more when down the shitter. I wonder who's next? I can't clean out "fan"s... but what good is it that you're a "fan", and you don't even fucking say hello? What the fuck is that? Game or not...it's fucking stupid. All that have gotten the axe, fucking deserve it.

Last One
Sometimes u gotta run away so u can see who will run after u. Sometimes u gotta talk quieter just to see whos listening. Sometimes u gotta step up in a fight just to see whos on ur side. Sometimes u gotta make a wrong decision to see whos there to fix it. Sometimes u gotta let go of the one u love just to see if they love u enough to come back.

And Another One
Maybe ... it is true that we don't know what we have until we loseit, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missinguntil it arrives.Maybe ... the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best ofeverything; they just make the most of everything that comes alongtheir way.Maybe ... the brightest future will always be based on a forgottenpast; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go ofyour past mistakes, failures, and heartaches. Maybe ... there are moments in life when you miss someone -- aparent, a spouse, a friend, a child, your girlfriend/boyfriend -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, sothat once they are around you appreciate them more.Maybe ... the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porchand swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.Maybe ... you should always try to put yourself in others' shoes. Ifyou feel tha

Jeremiah 17 : A Reminder To Myself And To Anyone Who Desires Godliness.
5 This is what the LORD says: "Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD. 6 He will be like a bush in the wastelands; he will not see prosperity when it comes. He will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives. 7 "But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. 8 He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." 9 The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? 10 "I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve."

Another Year Come And Gone.
I cried a little today. Maybe it's the passage of time and so many things changing. Maybe it's the things that I've done wrong in the past...the mistakes I've made...the regrets that have piled up alongside the years that just seem to slip past me like a train headed to nowhere. I'm not happy. And I want to be. I so frigging want to be.

Don't How Or Where But Here It Is. . .
You wait your entire lifefor that special love.Then it is unreachable.Perhaps because of fear,perhaps because ofcircumstancesor perhaps becauseof love itself.A special love that leaves an emptiness within youif you cannot hear the other person's voice.But that makes you feelwhole again with onegentle helloA special love of longing night, after, nightfor just the sight of them.or just the feeling of knowingthat they may care too.A love that you know in this lifetimeyou will never feel again.nor would ever want to feel again,if it brings you this much painnot to have it.Oh, my special loveplease come to meMy special one please hold meand tell me this is not allfor nothing.That deep within your soulyour love is the same as mine.We belong together.We need each other to make our lives complete.My only one,my treasured one,my special love.

Darkness Untold
Darkness chases me through barracaded nightmares,skin running cold from leering stares.Heart faultering from screaming voices,cursing myself for horrible choices.Running forever through a mind untamed,I don't want this no more, I didn't like this game.Being chased from an invisable force, in the beginning, this was never my course.A voice that was whispered is now loud enough to hear,all of the sudden, I'm no longer in fear.Turn left it tells me, I did and I knew this voice wouldn't flee.A light appeared that seemed devine,warm against my skin, I was sure this was a sign.The voice was in front of me, hand on my cheek.You're safe now, please speak. So I did what she said, in the comfort of her arms, I was finally safe, comfortable in her arms.The nightmare was now a dream.Sewed up even at the seems. Promise me my love. You were my angel, sent from above.I never want to wake, unless you're the one to wake me.You saved me from my own darkness.You saved me from myself.I no longer lay awake

You Never Said Goodbye
We grown up together, childhood friends *But I care for you more then that*We become different people *but we still remain friends*You fall in love, over and over again *I watch and hurt inside*But you always came to me when ever you were down *The only time I ever got to hold you*I could never describe what I was feeling *But I realize now*When ever I see you, a smile breaks my face *I think I love you*Three simple words, is all I want to say *even though they mean a lot*Look at me and tell me you think the same *I pray you do*Things began to chance *what happened to you?*You were no longer yourself *You were a monster*But those feelings never went away *I know I love you*I wish I asked you *Even though you never speak to me*I came to visit, to see how you were doing *the front door was open*I walked in and seen you *Laying on the ground, almost dead*I ran to you, held you in my arms *I missed holding you, but not like this*I stared down at your beautiful face *Even though the heroin