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Eclipse Solar
By INDRAJIT KUMAR SINGH, Associated Press Writer Indrajit Kumar Singh, Associated Press Writer – 2 hrs 8 mins agoTAREGNA, India – Scientists, students and nature enthusiasts prepared Tuesday for the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, while millions planned to shutter themselves indoors, giving in to superstitious myths about the phenomenon.The eclipse will first be sighted at dawn Wednesday in India's Gulf of Khambhat, just north of the metropolis of Mumbai, before being seen in a broad swath moving north and east to Nepal, Myanmar, Bangladesh, Bhutan and China.The eclipse — visible only in Asia — will reach its peak in India at about 6:20 a.m. local time (8:50 p.m. EDT; 0050 GMT), and will last 6 minutes and 39 seconds at its maximum point.It is the longest such eclipse since July 11, 1991, when a total eclipse lasting 6 minutes, 53 seconds was visible from Hawaii to South America. There will not be a longer eclipse than Wednesday's until 2132

Countinuing Education
Spring Classes for Women at THE ADULT LEARNING CENTER REGISTRATION MUST BE COMPLETEDby Tuesday, July 14, 2009 NOTE: DUE TO THE COMPLEXITY AND DIFFICULTY LEVEL OF THEIR CONTENTS, CLASS SIZES WILL BE LIMITED TO 8 PARTICIPANTS MAXIMUM. Class 1 Up in Winter, Down in Summer - How to Adjust a Thermostat Step by Step, with Slide Presentation. Meets 4 wks, Monday and Wednesday for 2 hrs beginning at 7:00 PM. Class 2Which Takes More Energy - Putting the Toilet Seat Down, or Complaining About It for 3 Hours?Round Table Discussion.Meets 2 weeks, Saturday 12:00 for 2 hours. Class 3Is It Possible To Drive Past a Wal-Mart Without Stopping?Group Debate.Meets 4 weeks, Saturday 10:00 PM for 2 hours. Class 4 Fundamental Differences Between a Purse and a SuitcasePictures and Explanatory Graphics.Meets Saturdays at 2:00 PM for 3 weeks. Class 5Curling Irons--Can They Levitate and Fly Into The Bathroom Cabinet?Examples on Video.Meets 4 weeks, Tuesday and Thursday for 2 hours beginning at 7:00 PM

Running Away!!
I know that some of you feel like running away today so do i! SO i figured we will all run away together.... Cause i will miss you!!! Hughes driving the rv... don't know the destination Anyone need a lift? Wicked Apparently all of you want to come we need a plane... Hmmm wonders if Hugh can fly a plane? List of runaways (not in order) Reeka Witchie WItty Hugh Boo Seamus Misfit Serenity Daisy Not telling Swift Spiker 425 Silver Diamond Doug Crystal Swift Philemon (wether he likes it or not) Wicked Goddess DurhamNTx Majik CantSleepClownsWillEatMe

Lovers Lane
They have come and goneEach one different and uniqueBlessed with knowing themMany have touched my soulJust a few have broken my heartTime has healed those wounds and dried my tearsGood times..Fun times..No regretsWhere will this lane take me?Will there be more encounters?

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Demise
ALL THIS MESS IN MY HEAD DARKNESS KEEPS ME AT REST IF YOU CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND FEEL MY HAND TOUCH MY HEAD FEVER PITCH IS IN THE RED DEMONS ARE INSANE TO KEEP ME ALIVE BECAUSE EVEN HELL CANT HELP WITH MY PAIN SIN IS TAINTING MY BLOOD CONSUMING MY LIFE TILL THE END WHERE EVERYONE DIES WHERE EVERYONE MEETS THEIR BITTER END WRITTEN BY: ROY VENEZIA JR (THE WRETCHED)

Come Gangsta
[Intro: Some guys talking] The spiked red hair...and the..and the, paint on his face Whow, hold on man, Tech is losein' it man He's not as grounded as he used to be Tech was a devil worshiper You know you see a black dude with red hair And a long beard, I mean look he look scary to me too Yeah that nigga Tech man he sellin' out man That..that's he's doin' that for the white folks That white shit he doin' man [Verse 1: Tech N9ne] I've been writing for Nineteen years for sure Haters in these times Niggas don't wanna see me shine Stop me, and then try and tell me (Come gangster) And then compare me to Nelly (What ya bang bra) So this songs is gonna tell me so called gangster Niggas, who the fuck has always been the bigger G? Hey, I've been bustin' And fizz knuckin' bitches It tizz nothin' for years puffin' I've been clutchin' riches from his muffin' Heres fuck you niggas this is toughin' I (Don't know what the fuck you thinkin' telling me this shit is hella fake) Say, since way back in t

Past
ok im not one to write much but i just cant shake a few things off ,i just dont understand if someone is susposed to be your best friend and you did and have done everything possible to help that person,even going as far as giving them a place live so the kids wasnt going without,how can they turn around and tear a family apart,take a father from his son ,and rip apart a relationship ,it might have not been the perfect lil family and maybe we fought alot and i wasnt treated the best but we managed to make it through 9 years together,but now my so called friend has took over and is living the life i once had,and dosnt feel bad at all for doing what she did,i guess it still dose hurt me some,i mean other then my son, him and his family was my life and thats all i knew i never imagined in a million years that i would have to lose everything i knew and start a new life clear across the country,it just hurts to know she is gong to be waking up everyday in a house that was once mine in the s

Whether To Crap Or Go Blind As The Saying Goes.
Well so I'm sitting here messing around on the computer when I hear my miniature pony going nuts outside so I run out expecting the neighbor's dogs to be out there taunting him as usual...no,a bigger surprise, a 1500 lb. horse is out there trying to molest him. Egads so do I shit or go blind,thinking to myself. Luckily I finally got my pony calm so I could put him in his corral and then the other horse starts to stampede my way...what the hell. Thank God my neighbor came out and distracted him and he ran off . Anyway didn't shit or go blind but you can bet your sweet butt I downed a shot or two!!! Gotta love the country life,yee-haw!!!

Whats In A Name
Enforcer- a man who couldn't enforce wiping his own ass in real life, but who is great at onlinez machismo. Shirtless pics are a must, ofcourse, to lure women that consider themselves goddesses...online. Goddess- an overweight woman that was raised on fairy tales about a success of an ugly duckling; failure started in grade school, when she was nominated for "the most successful to fail". Chances are, she turned bitter after a crush stood her up at a homecoming dance, to which she wore a floor length pink gown and crimped hair. Scouting bars and seedy joints, she complains why there is no prince Charming to sweep her and her 5 kids away on his horse. The answer is- because he is too busy courting a Hottie. Hottie- a woman that is aimlessly trying to make her appearance look as artificial as possible in order for people not to see the real thing. Because if they did, chances are, they wouldn't want that in a first place. She usually is busy spreading air or pompousness.making pe

Fascinating Biology Facts
Fascinating biology facts> The largest cell in the human body is the female egg and> the smallest is the male sperm.> It takes the food seven seconds to get from your mouth to> your stomach.> One human hair can support 3 kg (6 lb).> The average man's erection is three times the length of his> thumb..> Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete.> A woman's heart beats faster than a man's.> There are about one trillion bacteria on each of your> feet.> Women blink twice as often as men.> The average person's skin weighs twice as much as the> brain.> Your body uses 300 muscles to balance itself when you are> standing still.> If saliva cannot dissolve something, you cannot taste it.> Men who read this are probably still busy checking their> thumbs

I Adore
I adore the street where I first saw you, the night when we met. I adore the things that you say, our little happy times, I adore them. I adore the way you smile, and the way that you sometimes try to argue, I adore the silk from your hands, the kisses that we give each other, I adore them.I adore the glitter from your eyes and the sweetness of your red lips. I adore the way you sigh and even when you walk I adore you life of mine. You see I’m dying to have you here with me; you are my existence, my feeling, my moon, and my sun; you are my night of love.

Not Feeling Well ..
alright, so this may be just a bit extreme, but whatever thats just who i am.i want nothing more in my life then to find the perfect person to spend the rest of my life with, but these days i just dont think that person is out there anymore. and everyone seems to think they are that person. so here are some guidelines for what I want and dont want... pretty much if you have these things dont talk to me.. 1. kids or want kids- i dont want em and i dont want a man that thinks he can change my mind cause he wants em, sorry 2. if youve been married, sorry. im afraid of marriage and dont believe in divorce, so if youve been there, im sorry. 3. smoker, heavy drinker or drug abuser- dont get my wrong i drink from time to time, i just dont want an alcoholic or pot smoker, whatever. 4. if you live with your parent, dont have a vehicle and or drivers license, dont talk to me. the last thing i need is another free loader. 5. you must also have a freakin job! i get that times are though but

Anime Question And Answers.
Hello Everyone . I do hope that you are doing well today. I just got this posting off the Internet and would like to share it with you. . Robert,.You are only scratching the surface for the Jrock out there. What you haveis good, no doubt, but be sure to check out the best:.1. Versailles2. Malice Mizer3. Moi dix Mois4. Hizaki Grace Project.Of course there is much more out there, but Versailles and Hizaki GraceProject are, hands down, the best of the best with Malice Mizer and Moi dixMois running a close second..And, of course, don't forget Gackt. After he left Malice Mizer he startedhis own solo career. His music is tamer than my usual fare, but I do enjoyhis work. (Me and 3 billion other rabid fangirls.) . Justin .You are right, Justin. It was only a small scratch. I believe that a good leader should always act like a crooked poker player. He or she should always have some aces up the sleeve! Why tell everyone everything all at one time, like what I know about J-pop? If

Curtain Rods --- Priceless‏
On the first day, she sadly packed her belongings into boxes, crates and suitcases. On the second day, she had the movers come and collect her things. On the third day, she sat down for the last time at their beautiful dining-room table, by candle-light; she put on some soft background music, and feasted on a pound of shrimp, a jar of caviar,and a bottle of spring-water. When she'd finished, she went into each and every room and deposited a few half-eaten shrimps dipped in caviar into the hollow center of the curtain rods. She then cleaned up the kitchen and left. On the fourth day, the husband came back with his new girlfriend, and at first all was bliss. Then, slowly, the house began to smell. They tried everything; cleaning, mopping, and airing-out the place. Vents were checked for dead rodents, and carpets were steam cleaned. Air fresheners were hung everywhere. Exterminators were brought in to set off gas canisters, during which t

I Was Thinkin...
So yea I was thinkin and I came up with I want a relationship but I'm not lookin for one does that even make sence? I didnt think so. I also came up with I think I wanna be a body builder. Scary huh? I thought so. I also thought about bein a Marine. Perfect huh? YEA IT IS!! I thought about bein a porn star. Creepy huh? Yea it is! Anyway this blog was completely random and I just went on about stupid bullshit to see what other people will say about it. ........ so yea.

Stupid Encounter #18 (read Bottom To Top Its A Sb)
->TouchUrTon...: hows he a loser? he has a job he supports his kids... that in a nut shel is the best TouchUrTon...: pray for your loser husband ->TouchUrTon...: oh so now im a cunt your just mad you cant get with me dont worry i'll be praying for your wife to let her know what kind of guy you really are TouchUrTon...: cya...don't want to waist my time with a cunt and a loser husband ->TouchUrTon...: he says again hiding behind a girl strong words... what are you a pussy? and i have a job ty and i have two kids and i support them TouchUrTon...: sure....go get a job u loser ->TouchUrTon...: he says anytime anywhere that retirement should get you to where you need to go TouchUrTon...: i am affraid I might take is wife from him when she sees how wimpy her husband really is ->TouchUrTon...: â€ S51â„¢ BOYâ€ ...: HAHAHAHA TELL HIM I WOULD BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM BUT IM AFRAID HE MIGHT BREAK A HIP TouchUrTon...: does your douche bf husband have a shaved head and a baseball cap like

Older Woman Are So Reasonable
After> > being married for 44 years, I took a careful look at my wife> > one day and said, "44 years ago we had a cheap> > apartment, a cheap car, slept on a sofa bed and watched a> > 10-inch black & white tv but I got to sleep every night> > with a hot 25-year-old girl.> > > > Now I have a> > $1.5 million home, a $45,000 car, nice big bed and a plasma> > screen tv, but I'm sleeping with a 65-year-old woman. It> > seems to me that you're not holding up your side of> > things.'> > > > > > > > My wife is a> > very reasonable woman.. She told me to go out and find a hot> > 25-year-old girl and she would make certain that I> > would once again be living in a cheap apartment, driving a> > cheap car, sleeping on a sofabed and watching a 10-in black> > and white tv..> > > > Aren't> > older women great? They really know how to solve your> > mid-life> > crisis.

My Prayer
Lord I really need your help. Give me strength and guidance to take me to the right direction. Give me the ability to have moreconfidence in myself. Please let people know that I mean no harm I'm a good soul, God. I just need help mentally, dear Lord. I'm not a bad person, just misunderstood, dear Lord. Please heal me, please give me knowledge. Please God correct me and let people that I made uncomforatble know that I mean no harm. Please give me strength and guidance. In Lord Jesus Name, AMEN.

Contemplation
i don't know where to start or where i ended everythings the same but so damn different where've i been what've i become a lone wolf standin tall proud and alone looking everywhere for the peices of my soul and my broken spirit that used to fill this whole scattered through time space and endless voids even the one in my mind where angels and demons see the peices as toys tattoos and scars is all i have to show and dust on my shoes from travelin so far down this road i broke ties that burned bridges others were crossing putting them on thier own dismal drawstrings falsly i take the blame even though its two to tango and 5 to linedance its no one persons fault tho but the first to flee is repayed ten fold when everyone leaves and your all alone i ran from everything and cloed the doors and when i opened back up it was a maze of corridors with no hope of finding my way one day i stopped to pray and still couldn't hear the voice and saw no light did mine burn out or d

Too Fat
okay, so the simple truth is: i weigh way too much. ive gone to being a 190 lb lean muscle fighting machine to a 245lb tub of lard. so in the last month, ive cut out sugary drinks and fast food. here i am a month later at 235. only 45 more lbs to go...wish me luck. im gonna need it.

The Word For Abuelito In Spanish
One no-prize goes out to the first person who spots the error in today’s title and tells me about it. Actually, I don’t know if Marvel Comics even gives out “no-prizes” anymore; they were blank envelopes stamped “Official Marvel No-Prize” sent to eagle-eyed readers of their comics who were the first to spot a continuity error in a story or an incorrect reference or even a glaring art error. I remember an issue of Captain America (vol.1, no. 308 – it’s scary I remember that) where his nose was missing in one panel, and Marvel got a few dozen letters about that. This morning I caught myself in mid-sentence as we were eating breakfast seated on our living room couch and watching Disney Channel. We tend to flip between that and Nickelodeon when the kids aren’t ready to head out after they eat, which they were – I don’t worry about their being TV zombies. The preview for this weekend’s new episode of “Handy M

Manson Is A Pussy
I watched a documentary on the charles manson story earlier and it made me think a little. It portrayed him as one of the most evil serial killers in history because of the way that he managed to seduce seemingly normal kids into committing horrific acts of violence. basically he utilised something called group will, an old trick known by ancient people. have two people say something to a third that is clearly wrong nine times out of ten they will agree and submit to group will. it then went on to say how unique in history this situation was, well basically i thought that was bollocks there were cults in india in the 1200's that seduced young people into committing violent acts. violence resulting in thousands of murders in horrific orgies of bloodlust. mansons family i think would have been consigned to the annals of local history and given the occasional airing on serial killer documentaries had it not been for the murder of sharon tate. this single murder is the only rea

The Yupeye Story
This is the story behind the drawing. My friend Lisa and I were out partying one night. Somehow in the course of the evening, after way too many Budweisers and Patron shots, the conversation wandered around to cartoons. She was trying to say "Popeye, the sailor man," but it kept coming out "Yupeye the Paler man." We then proceeded to invent this whole character from just a mispronounced cartoon character. After the night was over, I got out my pad and pencils and the results are what you see in the drawing. That's it. Nothing more profound or deep than that.

Alone...
I have never felt so alone or stuck in a place that didnt want me My car broke down in the desert and I got no money I came out to see the woman of my dreams and I aint gonna make it... its God's Will it seems No, I never felt so alone in a place that didnt want me I thot I had received a sign from the Big Man upstairs He took my job from me and I took it as "ya gotta get out there." I took off on a journey to a hell hole called the Mojave Just to get my heart broke by the woman who wants me Someday if ya have the misfortune of ever out there and ya see an old guitar case just tossed aside without care Just remember there was an owner to that old axe cover and he just might still be walkin there lookin for his lover Cuz... I never felt so.... lost and alone... in a place that didnt want me

The Day After
The day after the worst day I have ever had I think.I dont have much feeling in me today>Life has delt me a hard blow and now the work of repair begins . As this day moves forward i must be dilagent as i go through changes that may or may not be synonomous to life as i know it at this time .You can only mean the word forever one time in you life with someone that really counts .everything else never really did .I will be live always at crossroads lounge,evenings and weekends,sometimes during the day as well and this page becomes a diary please read every day a new post will always be here .

Wounds So Deep
wounds so deep not even a knife can reach to cut out the pieces and allow my pain to heal walking within the darkend shadows from which i turn to hide desprately trying to release this painful poison within my body these wounds are buried deep within a knife can barely scratch the surface this pain is like an itch I can not scratch I feel it burning within my vains as it flows through my body tingling with every second wounds so deep not even a knife can reach desprately wanting this pain to cease and disappear wounds so deep not even a knife can reach walking through this world my mind is in a haze like an intoxicating drug becoming more and more addicted to how it feels knowing that its wrong unable to fight the silent whisper of it pulling me in covering me like the ocean waves consuming the shore it washes over me like nothing ive ever felt before on one hand unwanted and wrong yet tasting so incredably intoxicatingly sweet needing to feel more of it its like

What Fighting Can Do
http://www.wtvm.com/Global/story.asp?S=10749596&nav=menu97_3 HERE IS THE LINK ON THERE IS A VIDEO OF MY BF AT HIS DEATH BY THE HANDS OF ANOTHER MAN.... IT KILLS ME MORE THAN JUST THE LOST TO KNOW PPL HAVE TO BE SO CRUEL IN THE WORLD ...KENNY U WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN KENNY HEATH 12/13/69 TO 7/18/09 DJ DARK PRINCE AKA FROGMAN TATOO FU/RL BF TO DARK ANGEL@ fubar

The Atmosphere Will Split And Rain Down Diamonds Of Understanding...
Life is an interesting beast. One that will never be truly understand. While I am someone who doesn't believe in a single God, not even multiple gods, actually, I don't believe in anything, but we'll get into Nihilism later. The point is, sometimes there is a gravitational pull, so to speak, that keeps things from happening. Call it fate, god's will, whatever, I don't really care. I call it gravity, or magnetism. When you have a pair of magnets with the same poles, they repel one another. Get it? Got it? Good, let's get going. The thing is, I find myself in a sticky situation... with a sticky situation in my life, and the poles have kept it from meeting for a month or so. Give or take. I don't know, time is not my forte. Time is an abstraction best left ignored, but anyways. I realised something just now. Well, half an hour ago... I'm tired of dating, I'm tired of fucking indiscriminately (which is one reason I haven't done the latter in the year and a half I've been single... but th

Please Make It Go Away.....
The pain is so strong It's never been this strong It's never hurt like this Why is this time so different? It makes no sense. I feel like a wounded animal suffering There is no peace in my head No relief for my heart The stabbing sensation is just getting stronger. I can't seem to shake it off As I have in the past So why is this time so different? I don't understand None of this makes any sense Sorry, I tend to ramble when I hurt. I just wish it would stop. :(

The Mayonnaise Jar And The 2 Beers
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers.A professorstood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar, he shook the jar lightly.... The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively fillin

Aint Dat The Truth?
"We shall extend and display respect to all others which reflects our own appreciation of humanity. We shall carry our pride quietly, neither boasting of ourselves nor speaking badly of others - often a dishonest method of self-praise. Yet we must be unashamed of our principles and honest in our criticisms."~ Hawaiian Code of Conduct

A Short Thought
as i gently lay you on your back and rub your body to a sensual numbness my tongue explores the lower levels of your body.no one can please you like i can i have the power to sensuate your love as my tongue moves between your thighs.i look at you in passion and and ask for permission to enter your cave of wetness your answer replies yesi slowly travel my tung between your thighs into your vagina the wetness takes over and my tongue is flushed with your fluidsi lick passionately as you begin to orgasm i suck on your clit and make u shake your body jerks uncontrollablyyou moan in pleasure but the pleasure has just begun...i continue to lick you vagina as you drip from the previous orgasm.your body aches for more i deliver i suck ferociously on your clit giving you multiple orgasms.your vagina throbs from the orgasm as you beg for penetration, i insert the crown into your vagina but quicky remove it as i return to giving you oral pleasure.you begin to orgasm as i lightly bite on your cl

Giggity
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Teach Me? / Summer Schedule
I need someone to teach me about life on Fubar. I dont seem to be very good at it. I send lots of gifts and love. I try to be friends with people and start chats. But no one seems interested. Will someone help me? Show me how to love and flirt and be a good friend on here. Be my teacher for one month and get 1 million fubucks. Also, I weant to let everone know that I am not on my home computer much in the Summer, due to my crazy Summer work schedule. I am usually away from home 5 days a week. But i do have a cell phone, and also can get email and text and chats on it. If anyone wants to stay in closer contact, my email is markiephx@yahoo.com My yahoo messenger ID is Markiephx. and I will gladly give my cell number to anyone who asks. Thanks. love, hugs, and xoxoxoxox Mark

Note To Self!!
Note to self: NEVER QUIT!! There is this lady who thought she could take away my fu hubby and my fu lover. In the last few weeks this lady and I have been in a pissing contest. I believe im winning! Needless to say after one upping her on bling and blasts and threats off all sorts, she topped me by buying me a HH. She thought she had me I would bend to her will, she implored me to say Uncle.. I SAY NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO i bought her a HH as well, You will see us tomorrow together. Please so I can win just go hit her like mad.... I will not bend, nor break I will win SPARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Where Was I........
When Sam got here last night, I could tell she was crying earlier, I gave her a hug and we all three sat down at kitchen table. She told us that her bf, now xbf, called her parents and told her nasty lies about her, like she was a stripper and prostitue and said she has had like 4 abortions. WHAT A FUCKING JERK!!!!!!! I was so enraged I wanted to drive over there and slapped the fuck out of him!!!!! Oh dont ever get me pissed!!!!!!! My friend was able to calm me down and also calmed down Sam. My friend said he would take care of it and went into his study and got online and then his cell and talked to someone. After he got off the phone, all he told us was that it would be taken care of and that Sam wouldn't have to worry about that asshole anymore. He didn't say anything else. We all had some cereal and then went to his bedroom, something happened last night that I am trying to sort out right now. I have always enjoyed having sex with him, the pleasure he gives me is nuthin l

Gosh I Miss Y'all!
I have been incommuicado for awhile due to only having internet at work and then it depends on if there's a computer available. So...thank you to those of you that have been taking such good care of me in my absence! You know who you are... :) I will check in here when I can. I'm finding that if I get to work a half hour early there's usually a computer available so I'll do my best to check in here when possible. Life is coming at me fast and furious right now so I'm hangin' on and not doin' too bad! Love y'all and miss ya's!!! Take care and stay outta trouble...nah...have fun!! LOL\ Until next time...xoxox

Eclipse
Well tomorrow night there is suppose to be this cool eclipse in India. I would like your input on this subject. The Hindus believe this eclipse is a mark of bad things to come. What do you think of this if you know anything about it. If not google it or got o ask.com and find out then tell me what you think...

My Talents Are For Sale.
5,000 fubucks, naming your puppy/kitten 7,000 fubucks, naming your any other pets excluding reptiles 10,000 fubucks naming your reptile 15,000 send me a colour swatch and i'll tell you what colour it is 20,000 i'll secretly laugh at you 100,000 ill promise something non-sexual 1,250,000 ill abstain from abusing americans for the entire period it takes me to get enough funds to achieve spotlight 5,000,000 ill say i love america in every mumm in a 1 hour period (hour to be chosen at my convenience) 10,000,000 ill buy a stars and stripes pair of underpants and send pics to donator. (please allow time for me to find said article, underpants not anything else, i know where THAT is)

Benifit For Bud & Jackie Green
Whitetail invited you to: Bud and Jackie Green Benefit When: Sunday, July 26, 2009 12:00 PM to 6:00 PM PDT Where: Felts Mills Fire Hall Please join Whitetail, Froggy 97, and the friends and family of Bud and Jackie Green. Local radio DJ Bud Green and his wife Jackie tragically lost two daughters, Susan and Denise, in an auto accident over the Memorial Day weekend. There can be no greater tragedy. This event will be an opportunity for friends, family, and supporters to show this wonderful family how much we care and help them heal. There will be food, music, prizes. We will auction off a guitar autographed by Lorrie Morgan, Aaron Tippin, Kevin Sharp, Michael Peterson, Mustang Creek and more, specifically for this event. Music by Whitetail. Felts Mills Fire Dept has graciously set up this event. Froggy 97 personalities and Mr. Froggy will be there. The fire hall is on Rt 3 in Felts Mills. For more information visit www.froggy97.com - Whitetail Ignore invitations from W

Hello
Hey everyone. Hope you guys are all doing well.. Zachary is great..growing like crazy already lol He'll be 2 months on July 29th..cant believe it. I'm hoping to put more pics of him on here soon. I went back to work again..and thas going ok..well its work what did ya expect? lol Anyhow..drop me a line or two if ya want to let me know whats up with everyone. Laters ~Cin

New Insight
Mmmm now that’s my woman she knows how to treat her man gooooooooooooood Sweet taste of golden sun on your lips The tides swell at the shake of your hips You walk trembles the mountains foundation And the rise of your breast makes or breaks a nation Tell me true Do I seek the 9th wonder or do I seek u cause u are all that is needed in this world, phenomenal woman exceeds all expectations of any limitation that man can set and has meet gods challenge by becoming the helper and caregiver as well as caretaker of his first creation of man and bearing , rearing, and guiding god’s gift to man and woman...children..You are just that...a true gift, a treasure truly undiscovered Just showing you how a woman should and needs to be appreciated And how I see them : ok you can break it down to the basis of survival and procreation, but physical attraction and hormones can only take u so far More is needed to truly be immortal in the eyes of the generation that comes after u

Ice Cream Flavors
The young man entered the Ice Cream Palace and asked, "What kinds of ice cream do you have?" "Vanilla, chocolate, strawberry," the girl wheezed as she spoke, patted her chest and seemed unable to continue. "Do you have laryngitis?" the young man asked sympathetically. "Nope," she whispered, "just vanilla, chocolate and strawberry."

Could It Be?- John Mcintosh
f there was something we could do to bring Joy to another ... Why would we not do it? Could it be ... If there was something we could do to Heal a broken heart ... Why would we not do it? Could it be ... If there was something we could do to bring about Peace ... Why would we not do it? Could it be we are afraid of surrendering to Love?

I'm Back, Baby.
So after quite a long Hiatus, I'm back. I'm utterly wow'ed out, even though if I don't keep trucking along with Vorel then that asshole Meriph will catch up to my gear... >.> I'm taking this moment to say that yes, I AM in a relationship. With the most wonderful man. Seriously, I... i can't find words to describe brad. he's just... perfect. In every way. and I love him. ^^ I'm happy. Also, with the weight gain, i haven't been into taking pictures of myself. But i have a TON from disney world, and the zoo, and some other events if you'd like to see them, I'm gonna try to follow in my aunt's footsteps (she used to be a photographer).

He Denies It. Go Figure!
LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Michael Jackson's father told CNN's Larry King Monday night that he never beat his son or made any mistakes in raising him. Joe Jackson told CNN's Larry King he suspected foul play was involved in his son's death last month. Joe Jackson also said the rumor that he wanted to take the singer's children on tour as the Jackson 3 was "a bunch of jive." Jackson repeated his suspicion that foul play was involved in his son's death last month, but he conceded he did not know what happened. He said he had been blocked from seeing or talking to his son in the days before his death. There were indications in the interview with Jackson, who was in Las Vegas, that he was not being included in all of the family's activities in recent weeks. When King asked about the findings of the private autopsy -- which daughter LaToya Jackson last week said she's seen -- Joe Jackson answered "Well, they have not showed it to me, Larry. I'll put it like that." He

Hot Damn! Lol
(CNN) -- A man, who doused himself with gasoline and charged at an officer, burst into flames when he was hit with a Taser, police in Australia said Tuesday. "He was carrying a lighter and pouring himself with petrol," said Inspector Bill Munnee with the West Australian Police. "We don't know if the lighter set it off or something from the Taser." Authorities have launched an inquiry into what happened Monday when an officer arrived at the 36-year-old man's house in the remote desert community of Warburton. Police had received a report that the man and some others were sniffing glue, Munnee said. At the sight of the arriving officers, the man ran out of the house with a container of gasoline and a cigarette lighter, police said. When he ignored the officer's command to stop, the officer fired his Taser stun gun -- and the man "caught alight," Munnee said. When used, some stun guns emit an electric spark as they deliver an electric current. The jolt of electricity inhi

Gonna Be Closed For Some Time
Burr Oak Cemetery won't re-open by Aug. 1 after all, the troubled graveyard's court-appointed overseer said Monday Roman Szabelski said it will take longer than he previously expected as crews transfer burial records from index cards to a database. Eventually there will be an online search mechanism so loved ones can find deceased relatives' gravesites more easily. "Hopefully that will reassure them," said Szabelski, executive director of Catholic Cemeteries. Szabelski spoke with reporters after emerging from a meeting with the Cook County judge who appointed him to oversee the sprawling south suburban cemetery, which has been named a crime scene. "I am in charge and that's with the direction of the court," Szabelski told reporters. A management consultant who has been running day-to-day operations at the cemetery for owner Perpetua Holdings of Illinois was the surprise guest at the meeting. In the days after four cemetery employees were arrested and charged in a sche

Whats Up With Coot? Im Glad He Is Quiet
To anyone who has wondered, I am sorry if I have seemed distant or just not been around comunicating much. I have been sick off and on for the past several years and this year for a few months it was really severe. No drama here Im starting to feel better, Im not cold all the time and I am starting to eat again. Now I can slowly start to get things done around the house that my poor old wife Debbie cant do, which really makes me happy :) I was going to type a long rambling epistle but My sister inlaw is coming over and I want to cleanup the house so she wont know how we really live :-D David

Dana Andrews
I just watched the video of Dana Andrews that has been going around net and OMG I Am In Love!!!!! I want her NOW!!!!!!! hehehehe! I know now to cover peephole when I stay in hotel!!!! She has like the awesomeness body, just want to lick her all over. I have read some articles about it and some suggested it was a set up and I was like NO WAY Freako's!!!!! Then I watched video and then googled her and saw some of her pics and now I am not so sure......she does like to show off her body when she is reporting, guess she has to in male dominated world but like the image I am posting here it is like I think it may be a publicity gimick like more n more are saying. We all pose in front of mirror but she seems to be doing it for the camera, the person shooting vid even makes noises and she does nothing.......Anyway, doesnt matter really all i know she is smoking HOTTTTT!!!!!!!! and I want her!!!!!!!! Just my thoughts for today (subject to change) hehehehehe!!!!!! laters y'all kisses n

Exodus
I have returned. After an eternity away from you all, prettyface is back. It's time to reconnect with old friends and establish a new, larger network of friends to support me and push me into the high levels. I'll be satisfied with Godfather but i know it'll take forever. I look nothing like i used to, so a lot of you may not remember me. But in time, you'll learn to love me all over again.

Haha Your A Twunch!!!!
to those who want me to buy you a bling or give fu-bucks just so i can show love and help you level I have a 3yr old little girl who is a special needs child all of my money goes towards taking care of her so FUCK YOU! she is my number 1 always has been and always will be1

Someone Actually Bought Me...who'd've Thunk It?
Someone actually bought me and boy how sorry do I feel for that guy. He has to look at my ugly mug checking him out all the time to rate and stalk and all that good stuff that comes with ownership...you guys can send him sympathy cards later. lol Thank you D o u g for buying me. It will definitely be fun. You guys go check him out and at least rate him...he really is an undercover sweetheart. $safe_uid_dname@ fubar

Didn't See This Coming....
FINALLY...THE $50,000 QUESTION WAS ASKED !!!!!.....YESTERDAY ON ABC, BETTER KNOWN AS THE ALL BARRACK CHANNEL, THE OBAMA SPECIAL ON HEALTH CARE......OBAMA WAS ASKED"MR. PRESIDENT WILL YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GIVE UP YOUR CURRENT HEALTH CARE PROGRAM AND JOIN THE NEW "UNIVERSAL HEALTH CARE PROGRAM" THAT THEREST OF US WILL BE ON ????.....OBAMA IGNORED THE QUESTION AND DIDN'T ANSWER IT !!!...A NUMBER OF SENATORS WERE ASKED T HE SAME QUESTION AND THERE RESPONSE WAS...WE WILL THINK ABOUT IT !!!! AND THEY DID.IT WAS ANNOUNCED TODAY ON THE NEWS THAT THE "KENNEDY HEALTH CARE BILL"... HAS WRITTEN INTO IT THAT CONGRESS WILL BE EXEMPT ( FROM THIS GREAT HEALTH CARE PLAN)..HOW ABOUT THOSE APPLES...NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR OBAMA OR CONGRESS.. BUT "OK" FOR THE REST OF US ????????

A Prayer For Love And Encouragement
God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be. Dear God: The person reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love them. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above their expectations. Help them shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect them at all times, lift theim up when they need you the most, and let them know when they walk with you, They will always be safe. Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

Is This You Too?
A South American scientist from Argentina , after a lengthy study, has discovered that people with insufficient brain and sexual activity read these blogs with their hand on the mouse. Don't bother taking it off now... it's too late!

Mowing And Electric Fences
We have the standard 6 ft. fence in the backyard, and a few months ago, I heard about burglaries increasing dramatically in the entire city. To make sure this never happened to me, I got an electric fence and ran a single wire along the top of the fence.Actually, I got the biggest cattle charger Tractor Supply had, made for 26 miles of fence. I then used an 8 ft. long ground rod, and drove it 7.5 feet into the ground. The ground rod is the key, with the more you have in the ground, the better the fence works..One day I'm mowing the back yard with my cheapo Wal-Mart 6 hp big wheel push mower. The hot wire is broken and laying out in the yard. I knew for a fact that I unplugged the charger. I pushed the mower around the wire and reached down to grab it, to throw it out of the way.It seems as though I hadn't remembered to unplug it after all.Now I'm standing there, I've got the running lawnmower in my right hand and the 1.7 giga-volt fence wire in the other hand. Keep in mind the charg

Star Crossed
Star crossed lovers They say we're not meant to be 'Cause the stars in the sky, and the fashion that they are aligned. I say if the futures been drawn out there's no point in living. I wont give up my love so that fate can have its way. If the stars say that you couldn’t love me, Are you telling me that you would listen? If the words make their way from your mouth, Don’t ask my permission, All is forgiven. Star crossed lovers, we do what we want to. Some learn the hard way, We all learn through consequence. I say if the futures been drawn out then nobody’s living. I won't give you up love, so fate can have its way. Its way. If the stars say that you couldn’t love me, Are you telling me that you would listen? If the words make their way from your mouth, Don’t ask my permission, All is forgiven. Is it over? (The stars keep this fire from burning out) Is it over? (Are you saying that you’d really listen?) Is it over? (The stars keep this fire) Is it o

Happy Birthday Chell
Since NO ONE even looks at bullies anymore. LOL. I want to wish booty2you (Chell) a very happy birthday. I hope everyone i know drops by and makes her day a special one. Being me,(Cubby) of course i made her some pictures. What is a girls birthday without a penis cake right? She seems to like it. :D

The World's Most Beautiful
The World’s Most Beautiful........I’d give anything to see the sun set on the horizon,I’d do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky;Even a rainbow would make me smile,And I’d love to swim in crystal clear watersOf an untouched sea;Sometimes I’ll see a shooting star,And try to gaze from afar,All the diamonds in the night sky;The mist on the mountains is breathtaking,As is walking in rainforest;To see cascading waterfalls I’d do anything for,As to stand on the highest peak in the world,And look at the sights below;I’d love to soar on wings above the clouds,Across the bluest skies;I’d do anything to seeAll the beautiful things in the world,Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara,Like a river twisting through a dusty land,All the beautiful things in the world;But I also know I am looking atThe world’s most beautiful creation,Every time you smile,And every time I look into your eyes

Poems From Master Of Disaster
When I have no one to turn toAnd I am feeling kind of low,When there is no one to talk toAnd nowhere I want to go,I search deep within myselfIt is the love inside my heartThat lets me know my Angels are thereEven though we are miles apart. A smile then appears upon my faceAnd the sun begins to shine.I hear a voice, so soft and sweetSaying, 'Everything will be just fine'It may seem that I am aloneBut I am never by myself at all.Whenever I need my Angels nearAll I have to do is call.An Angel's love is always trueOn that you can depend.They will always stand behind youAnd will always be your friend.Through darkest hours and brightest daysOur Angel's see us throughThey smile when we are happy, and will cry when we are blue..Thanks for being my Angel my friendI will be there for you until the end

Angel In The Night
Angel In The Night.......................... You're my angel in the night you're everything i think ofeverything i dream of.Yours is the voice i hear whenThe moon steals the day. Yours is the voicei hear when the sun sneaksin to warm me.When my heart aches with lifes pains,you are my angel.I never expected someone like you.Someone kind and loving as you.You snuck into my life like a trueangel in the night.Loving you is the only thing thatbrought me this far.Cuz' your my angel in the night

Unconditional Love
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE........................................My love to you costs nothing but freeYou are the only one not two or threeI will thrive your days like leaves on a treeAssured between you and I is a decreeThe bond that binds us is realThe love in my heart I will revealAnd your love in my soul I will sealWhat is between you and I is a dealMy love to you needs no statementI gave it to you all and not a segmentI promise you truly it is a commitmentBetween you and I honey no concealmentNever make my life look horribleSurely loving you was irresistibleAnd leaving you seems impossibleWhat is between you and I is tangible

Waiting For Your Love
WAITING FOR YOUR LOVE...................Love is strong, love is true.I'm waiting for it, longing for you.The moon smiles, I see your name in the starsBut, I can't read it, it's still too far.Destiny holds me in the palm of her hand,I need relief from this hot burning sand.I want to hold you, feel your touch,I've waited so long, this is all too much.Sweetness abides in the clouds up above,Carry me there on the wings of your love.The warmth that comes from the one you love so,In the dead of winter can make flowers grow.I have a treacherous road to travel,Before the mysteries of life I unravel. But, you'll be with me forever, your love in my heart,Til the day we meet and from there never part

What Is Love
What Is Love?.............................Love is free, love is kindlove is yours, love is mineLove is here, love is there love is simply everywhereLove is ours, love is yourslove is stiches, love is scarsWhat is love we might say, Can love lead us far astray? Can love take us there or here, Can love bring us anymore near? I love you and you love me, why can't we just agree? Our love is for everyone to seeI love you and you love me.Life goes on and we must leave, and remember and always believe me

Unsuspecting Love
UNSUSPECTING LOVE.................... Words, phrases and sentences of greeting,'How are you?' and 'Having a good day?','Wonderful to see you',And 'Oh. by the way'...Two of us among our friends,Enjoying each others company,Never knowing the bond being created,Aloof to the thoughts of many...Time passes on as days go by,Oblivious and anxious at the same time,Feelings whirling and tumbling,Watching my heart soar so high...You came upon my life,Unsuspecting, open and true,Smiles brightened as names appeared,Drawing colors of a perfect hue...Love rises from deep within,Showering us with emotions,Shivers, breathlessness, warmth and kindness,Hearts quickening in rapid motion...A hug, a smile, a touch, a kiss,Minds and bodies united in sync,Blessed with this newfound love,Wonders what to think...A joy has immersed my soul,Shedding new light,A voice, a mind, a soul, a hand,Creating happiness and deligh

Seasons Of Love
SEASONS OF LOVE............................... When tender leaves are budding greenand all is new...remember me.I'll think of you with heavy heart...emotion, yet unseenAnd come the summer's starry nightwhen roses bloomand life is sweet in Nature's womb,I'll wish for you 'till darkness fades to light.And when the green has turned to gold,the leaves will fall as tinted tears,my soul will call across the miles, its secret love, untold.For when the earth is cold and bareand all is white with winter's snow,the fire's light will blaze in eyesthat whisper still... "I care

Colour Of A Butterfly
COLOUR OF A BUTTERFLY..................Your butterfly has truly emerged.Bright, beautiful, symmetrical.Blazing with colour.Pinks for our love.Deep reds for our hearts, Our passions, our lips.Yellows for our glow, our Light,Our Spirits, our beautiful Sun.Blues for our clear skies,Our peace, our calm, your eyes.Greens for our earth, our plants,Our nature that surrounds Our beautiful little bridgeThat you built.With hearts bonded and melted,With pure love and sexiness,With sheer poetry and excitementCome fly with me

A Knight In Shining Armor
A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR.................................... Once I had a heart of stoneFor it had surley lost its homeIt could not love or wanted tooBut in my life, then came you. The stones began to fall awayAs happiness began to fill my dayA feeling so sweet and special tooCould this be love, I pray is true.My heart now sings a song of loveFor I know that it was sent from aboveMy heart is warm, there is no coldHard no more, but with wings of gold.It soars above the sky so highSometimes I think of why and cryMy heart now sings a loving songFor the part of me I thought was gone.The gift that you have given meIs so important, can't you seeNo more sadness or being aloneFor now my heart returns to home

Laying Here
I've been laying here in bed tossing and turning..Simply can't sleep.. thinking.. Just wondering why am I not dating material... Am I destined to be just a friend with people.. their buddy, their pal, or what I can not stand the most is.. "Just one of the guys"..I HATE THAT SAYING with a passion.. Am I too strange, too dorky, not feminine enough..are my jokes too hardcore... Am I too blunt.. Am I too direct... Am I too odd... It's gotta be something.. If someone knows....please tell me... Thank you for reading my ramblings.. Anyways, have an amazing Tuesday!

Issues... Thoughts, Feelings.... All That Stuff....
Do you ever kick yourself in the ass? I don't mean literally but you know... over something you did that you shouldn't have done, or, something that you didn't do but should have done? I'm sitting at a point in my life right now to where I either have to dwell in what's going on or force myself to move on for the sake of sanity. Everytime I turn around, something in my life that seems like a big deal to me, is changing. Some things for the better and some for the worse. 99% of these things are things with my friends. I don't have the ability to say "don't do that" or "do this". They are my friends, not my children. They live their lives the way that they want to. No matter how I try to convince myself that everything is going to turn out great, I just can't shake this nasty feeling I have deep within my gut. This nagging feeling that says "you will never feel that way again, that moment is gone, you will never get it back no matter how content you were"... I was honestly ju

7-21-09
Today is the start of another wonderful day, I'm quite emotionally a wreck now I found out. I helped my daughter pack to leave for a year during the day yesterday. This will be my first full year without having custody of my daughter and I'm worse then I thought I would be. She tells me she loves me and its okay. She tells me to be strong, and she is 9. I cant help but hurt. This being said if you notice like most of you have that all of the sudden I am not cocky, outspoken and my normal self you aren't alone. Messages have been pouring in pretty much the past 2 days and all I can really say is I am sorry and will try to be more chipper for all of you. Its a huge loss for me this year, but I will have to get used to it. I havent had to let her go for so long before so all of this is very new to me. Thanks, to all of you for your continued support and love and prayers. It does mean alot to me, and I'm sorry I have put alot of you on the sideburner. There is just alot going on in my hea

Family
Let me introduce you to my Great Great Great Great Great Grandparents, John and Elisabeth Chapman. I know virtually nothing about them, other than John was born around 1795, and Elisabeth around 1803, but my parents gave me these photos last night, and also showed me some research a relative had done into one branch of our family tree that amazingly goes back two or three generations than these good folk. I also know that both John and Elisabeth were born within thirty miles of where I live now, meaning that I do indeed come from a very old Norfolk family. This discussion was all prompted last by a visit by my Great Uncle Cecil. He's staying the week with my parents, and me and the girl went over last night for dinner. Cecil's a great old fellow - a story for every occasion, all delivered in his rich Ulster accent. A fountain of knowledge, being a former Headmaster (school principal, my US chums), although the names don't come so easily now he's the far side of 80, and an absolut

I Will Wait
I will wait for you to feel the same as I, for you to see the moon the same color as I do. I will wait for you to be able to foretell my love verses and find warmth in my arms. I will wait until your path is my path and until you give me your soul as I have surrendered. I will wait for you to dream and soon desire to kiss. I will wait for when your hands to yearn my touch and to be always in your memories. That my presence is the world you want to feel and that one day you could not survive without my love. I will wait for you to feel nostalgia for me. I will wait for the time for when you ask me not to part from you. Maybe you will never be for me, but I will wait.

Rip Will...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZVWn-nwG00&feature=player_embedded Crash on U.S. 26 in Clatsop County kills Hillsboro man by The Oregonian Monday July 20, 2009, 8:26 PM A traffic accident on U.S. 26 west of Elsie in Clatsop County left a man dead this afternoon, the Oregon State Police reported. A Chevrolet pickup was westbound about 4:15 p.m. when it passed another vehicle in a no-passing zone, said Lt. Gregg Hastings, a state police spokesman. According to witnesses, the truck was speeding and went out of control as it moved back into its lane. It struck an embankment, rolled several times and landed on its top. William J. Pierce, 37, of Hillsboro was pronounced dead at the scene. -- Staff reports

My Husband Has Gone Straight!
My husband noticed that BT Vision weren't sending bills as he went through the accounts and decided to call them. He didn't mind he had to pay them when they found out we weren't being charged as he reckoned two things - 1) They would soon notice and we would get hit by a huge bill and - 2) He really likes receipts. My man loves receipts more than anything else in the fucking world, as they represent cash spent and therefore represent less tax to pay when doing the accounts. Now I don't like that he called BT Vision, I preferred it when we were bent...hang on I have just noticed something, 'bent and straight' doesn't always refer to the nasty euphemism of being gay - it also means being crooked and being law abiding! Anyway I recall the old days when we were rather 'bent' and rarely did anything legal, now this new found 'straightness' annoys me. I know the old days are over, but fucksake I still find it hard to pay full price for anything. When we owned the bar in

If Only
First off, I'm just ranting off thoughts. This is not meant to be a poem and I don't care what the hell you think of this entry. If only I knew what you called the other girls. Am I special enough to be called baby? What is this I feel when we speak? Is it love? Is it admiration? Is it lust? Is it a yearning that remains unfilled when I think of you? If only I could feel your arms hold me close. If only you could take away this sorrow and loneliness I feel deep inside. Am I being too serious for you, my dear? Forgive me, but I have a taste for romantic drama of the heart and mind. Your words linger here in my mind causing sweet little butterflies to swell inside me. If only I knew just how true your words are. Don't tell me you say these sweet things to toy with me. I want to lay with you and be surrounded in the fondness you have for me. But would you take me seriously or as just another girl? Why do I fuss with all these thoughts about you? If only you were mine and I could escape t

Survey
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted? Mikey[2] You were in the car with? My sister and her fiancee, along with my niece[3] Went to the mall with? Me, myself and I[4] Person you talked on the phone with? Mikey[5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? Don't recallT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends? FalseQ: Been searched By Cops? FalseQ: Been suspended from school? FalseQ: Sat on a roof top? TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? FalseQ: Broken a bone? TrueQ: Have shaved your head? FalseQ: Played a prank on someone? TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership? FalseQ: Shot a gun? FalseQ: Donated Blood? TrueWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink? Eat[2] Be serious or be funny? be funny [3] Go to the beach or mountains? beach [4] Die in a fire or die getting shot? ShotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1

A Special Star
You know who you are, you stole my heart in a blink. What a wicked woman to leave this boy to crave that taste of you again. A smile from you fills my heart to point of explosion. Your eyes bleed through mine to see right through me and show me who I am. Your lips keep me frozen under your power. Not have I ever felt so at ease, like there has been a lingering spark from another time. Its funny how a Star came to make me feel whole again. Under our sky of broken paths we managed to find more than we imagined. I'll never stop trying cause your light shines greater than you see.

More Quotes N Lil' Rhyme I Jotted Down
Friends are like stars, they come and go but the 1's that stay are the 1's that glow U see, U like, U try, U fail…-Meanwhile-… I see, I like, I want, I get! * I thought that U+Me= Never, But it turned out that it meant 4Ever. Make your life a Mission, not an Intermission.

U Try Just 2 Die
U Try Just To Die Dope will never be forever. That dope will get us Hi; it can also change Ur life. So lets get spun and let us spin. Dope brings U up and tears U down, in the times that it seems to appear. Speed will make us tweak, Meth we call as death. Ice is like dice cause we always flow with that roll. Dope let's us freak as we tweak. The devils drug or also known as speed will pill us and then begin to kill us. Once U try, U begin to lie, then cry and may also die. Hour by days, days by years, Months seem to always disappear. So if U tries to rise and keep them lies from Ur eyes, Maybe Ur life will lead us into the sky, not the darken ends of Ur life. Into the hells that we know expels as we walk upon the gates of hell.

Quotes I Ran Across
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together...:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /> I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me-à I'm going to smile. You and her that's what you want. You and me… That's what I dream. Our wants are many, Our needs are few.

Kenny Chesney-who'd You Be Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.I wear the pain like a heavy coat.I feel you everywhere I go.I see your smile, I see your face,I hear you laughin' in the rain.I still can't believe you're gone.It ain't fair: you died too young,Like the story that had just begun,But death tore the pages all away.God knows how I miss you,All the hell that I've been through,Just knowin' no-one could take your place.An' sometimes I wonder,Who'd you be today?Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?Settle down with a family,I wonder what would you name your babies?Some days the sky's so blue,I feel like I can talk to you,An' I know it might sound crazy.It ain't fair: you died too young,Like the story that had just begun,But death tore the pages all away.God knows how I miss you,All the hell that I've been through,Just knowin' no-one could take your place.An' sometimes I wonder,Who you'd be today?Today, today, today.Today, today, today.Sunny days seem to hurt the most.I wear the pain like a heav

Lyrics To Song Carpe Noctem
Tanz der Vampire - Carpe Noctem (Seize the Night)Lyrics:Vampire 1:Come with me and bless the night !Let the darkness be your salvation.Curse the day ! Escape the light !Break of chains of imagination !Come with me and seize the night !Nows the time for some insperation !Leave the day and lose the light,No taboos, only new sesations !Vampire 2:In the shadows of the city ???? A hero's waiting for the call !And all the devils are waking up.And all the angels start to fall.Vampires 1 & 2:In the shadows of the cityWe're dying for a thrill !We're going out over the edge !We're moving in for the kill !Vampire Group 1:You've got to curse the day.Its nothing but a merciless light, So open up your armsAnd then you get down on your kneesYou suck in all the darknessAnd you ready now to seizeSeize the night !Seize the night !Vampire Group 2:Dies irae, Kyrie. Libera me, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Requiem da, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Libera me, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Requiem da, Domine !*Dies ira

The Way Love Works
Its amazing how love works. First off you fall in love. That makes you act funny and do every thing you can to make the person you fell for feel the same way about you. Usually it works but some times it fails miserablely. then thats where the pain comes in. You sit back and watch the one you love off with some one else oand it feels like they are a million miles away where you can't see them. So you talk to them any way you know how just to keep the hope that you might win them over alive a little longer. In the end You'll cry and It will feel like your heart is being torn out but you will live...... And that is a fate worse than death because at least in death you would have the release and no pain. But in life after love you find misery every where. Plus it seems like every one knows what has happened and keeps there distance like your a leper or some thing...........so to the one that know what it feels like, "I feel your pain' and for the ones that don't I pray you never have to

Faderhead- Still Missing
Sometimes I did But now I don't All lights are out And no one's home Sometimes I wonder What's become? Some days are white Some days are gone Some days just wiped away Everytime I try and open my heart I'll be searching for the part still missing Rain and sun may form a colorful arc

Vnv Nation- From My Hands
So much i thought i'd have to say Though i try to speak my meaning strays. We can't avoid the facts that brought us here.I have come to say goodbye. The lies i try to tell with my own eyes;An act of pride a willful compromise. Please understand how torn i am When i walk away from here. I lament the moments we won't share. If i am far too sentimental i apologize. Please understand this is who i am And who i'll still be when i've walked away from here. You know i'm not unkind When i say in the futureThe past is just the past. No going back No change of heart But this is now Time will not differ. My thoughts(?) betray so easily confess(?)How long i'll wait here after you have gone. Nothing ends(?) but i don't believe that nowPlease don't walk away from here. I went alone and i remember days.Nothing will change a single fact(?) of who you were to meOh come what may forever to the endI find it so hard to let you go. And hush now let it go nowThere's no need for sad goodbyes.Hus

Landstuhl Germany Army Hospital
“Afghanistan” The patients who are able, rise.The President, with cameras and microphones,Invades the healing space. The soldiers’ eyesRemember blasts and blood and broken bones. A trooper’s leg becomes a photo op.One question brings the fear and shakes anew.No order comes to make his story stop,His Nike nudging Presidential shoe. A woman, draped in pink, waits in her chair,The wheels well braced. Her arms are not in view.The drape she wears itself suggests a clue:Beneath, she may not have the arms to bare. Not quite beyond the camera’s frameA soldier thinks, “They never understand.He’ll march again; I’ll never be the same,And learn to live with one remaining hand.” He sent them whole and healthy to Kandahar.…The President thanks each, then thanks the LordTheir blood and bones bought early passage back.“…You’ll get the best care yer taxes can afford.” The cynics eyeball their departing Prez.&ld

What's Up By: Ron Killings
[Intro: R-Truth]Whassup?Stand up and say whassup?What's, up? {*repeat 3X*}[Chorus]People over there whassup?If you feel me, stand up and say whassup?Whassup? (Whassup?) Whassup? (Whassup?)Whassup? (Whassup?) Whassup? (Whassup?)You can get with this, or you can get with thatYou better come get with this, cause this is where it's atWhassup? (Whassup?) Whassup? (Whassup?)Whassup? (Whassup?) Whassup? (Whassup?)[Verse One]I be skippin and jumpin and, leavin the competitionMakin 'em disappear like your favorite magicianI ride that {motherfucker} 'til the wheels fall offAnd I bounce 'em back to back 'til they necks get softMost of the time you see me, I'm tryin to keep it simpleThese are the type of people to get popped like a pimpleStatin my claim to fameTo be one of the baddest-ass {niggaz} to step foot in this gameAnd I haven't even started yet~!But you can better believe I'ma yank it off a sure shot betWhassup? (Whassup?) Whassup? (Whassup?)Whassup? (Whassup?) Say WHOA[Chorus] - last "Wha

Pourquoi? (why?)
French... Pourquoi es-tu si belle? Pourquoi tu bouges comme sa? Pourquoi tu me fais mal? Oooh, je me sens tout nu Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Pourquoi tu fais tout ca? Pourquoi tu dis tout ca? Pourquoi tu me fais mal? Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Viens plus près de moi, jai besoin de toi,

Random Thoughts
A tear forms in the corner of my eye.From a pain no longer held inside.It slips and slides its way down my skin.From across my lips to the bottom of my chin. Then into the wind on a cold Winter day.To rest in the snow and dig its own grave.The Spring melts the snow and that tear insidePrepares itself for one more ride. As a river, a lake, or even an oceanThat tear becomes an emotion in motion'Til the emptiest cloud drinks its fill of pain.And cries to the world in the form of rain. Frantic people all run for cover.But not myself, I was born to suffer.And there I stand seeking death's embrace.And that tear finds its way back onto my face.

The Fear Of Tears.
One day its here, One day its there.The world is spinning.Another day has past,Yet nothing forward,Nothing back.Churning, ChurningTime keeps turningMy heart its burning,When will it end?Looking forward, Looking backI'm lost on this path,Life it changes to fast.Love is out there,But where?Walking, WalkingWalk away it's the same,Say's the Mind.Stay say's the heart.Lost in this world, Lost in this girlNothing left but tears.Nothing left but fears,Nothing inside but pain.What is this change of love,To pain?Nothing but the end,I fear.

General
freindshiips are strange ,just like relationships once you think you have them figured out, and then they arent what they seemed to be and they change on you when you try to test them to see who they really are and not the front they put on just to see if they can take what they want because the think you have money or connections to get them out of trouble because they don,t want to work or go do things like a responible humanbeins that they should be in life.

New Roomie!!!
So far so good in living with my friend, he keeps to himself and lets me do whatever I want. He told me when I moved in that it was up to me if we had sex or not, that he wasn't letting stay there just to get a piece of ass! that's why I like him so much!!!!! Good news on roomie front! Samatha, my friend from school, the girl I wrote about. Sam came over last night and we went out to late dinner, just her and I. She was wearing these tight jeans that hugged her ass, damn I wanted to peel them off her! :) Anyway, we talked for a few hours while nibbling on some rabbit food. We talked about everything except sex. I finally brought up her bf and what she was going to do. Sam said that she didn't want to stay with him anymore, that he changed way too much, getting to be too posessive and even "suggesting" things for her to wear. She said she could stay at home with parents for a little while but they wanted to sell their place and move out of state soon and she has a good job h

My Brother James Died Today
My brother james died today. i havnt cryed at all yet. my bothers friends and my friend cady came over. she any my family balled there eyes out. it happend so fast. my body feels so weak and nimb. i dont know what to do. he also has a page on here. it is so sad. i cant hardly breath. i need help.

Better In Time.......yeah Right
Better in time thats what everyone says, how do you get better when you can't forget what brought you down so low you broke. Breakdowns seem so trivial till it happens to you. No one understands the way you feel when all you want to do is disappear and forget yourself sometimes. Call it emo or whatever its my outlet so I can make sure I still feel. Sometimes I wonder why things have to be the way they are and the things you said flood back to my mind and twist me back up so I'm complicated once again. You made it clear I'm not good enough for you yet slowly you creep back in and this viscious cycle return once again.

Sign Me Up For Cloneing!
Ok So i was just watchin a vid on youtube bout a dude that wanted a clone of himself n it hit me like a bolt of lightning!!!!!!!! I need a clone of me so the doctors can amputate his arm n leg n put them on me! How fuckin awesome would that be!!! lol. ok so now im startin to think bout the hell frankenstine's monster caught, but hey they can transplant faces, so why not arms n legs im sure its been done somewhere. Anyways that was just a random thought i had lol. But if they start cloneing people like in multiplicity sign me up!

Trauma Therapy
Ian was released from the hospital on Friday. We spent Saturday and Today together and it has been the best therapy, just watching movies and sitting in each others arms. Although our relationship is strained, we still love each other dearly and will do anything for one another. We are working on ourselves separately, and each other together. He has apologized profusely for what he made me see, and I have apologized for things I have said about him (in anger about what happened). 5 months of marriage, and we're going to be okay. Maybe not today, not tomorrow... but together, we'll do it and we'll get through it.... If we can survive what happened last week... we can survive anything. I love you, Ian... so very very much. I'm so happy you are my husband and I am your wife. Though shit is hard and crazy right now, we'll get by... no matter what. Our angels will get us through. I LOVE YOU, BUG! -Bella

To My Bonnie
Could stay lonely to myself but I dontCould leave you to yourself but I wontBecause right now where I am atWhere I should've been right off the batIs a place I know so devineThat heart of yours is also mineTried so hard to be my babyI made it hard, how did you break me?A two letter word, a four letter emotionPut together and now you have devotionEverything you wanted, all that you've askedWas probably already there, just only maskedHand in hand, we are going placesRebirth of Bonnie and Clyde, yet different facesIt's safe to say no one will ever be our equalThe first year was a hit, wait til they see our sequelSpeaking of the past, oh boy here we goWill we ever watch an entire show?Never have you abused or hit meBut I need to ask, why did you "pinch" me?And when you said "somebody" needed a kissAll I could say was "Yes please do, Miss"When my shyness was more than I could standYou took that away when you directed my handAnd showed me that it was okay to embraceGawd, the cave is such a l

Old Man River
Ol' man river, Dat ol' man river He mus'know sumpin' But don't say nuthin', He jes'keeps rollin' He keeps on rollin' along. He don' plant taters, He don't plant cotton, An' dem dat plants'em is soon forgotten, But ol'man river, He jes keeps rollin'along. You an'me, we sweat an' strain, Body all achin' an' racket wid pain, Tote dat barge! Lif' dat bale! Git a little drunk An' you land in jail. Ah gits weary An' sick of tryin' .... Ah do gits so weary. But Ah will keep rollin along, jus lak ol man river. Now it jus so happens dat mah dearly loved auntie died today. Dat ol man river, done gently took her up and guided her down to the paradise oasis dat mah granson Harper an mah grandmas an grandpas an two of my uncles and too many ah dah other longer reachin folks a mah line stretch out into. But ah knows dat dey will be waitin fo my auntie, an my granson will show her how to look down inta dat speshul chanted forest what I made fo his brave sistah. Oh, dat ol man rive

Sick.........
gettin worse everyday it seems . have I said M S really kinda sux ? It's slowly (but not slow enough) taking away my freedom . I've decided that I'm not getting any gimpier than I am . My youngest daughter asked me how did I know . I simply told her cuz I said . (wish it was that easy)

[exploding Ghoriba]
Hey... we changed blog layout again. Cool. It's not as clunky as before. Anyway, while my first campaign is wrapping up with my zeon comrades *sniffle* I started downloading a couple series and decided, fuck it- I'm going to make ghoriba, or at least something similar. Now... I have a recipe. And I messed with it. *shrugs* Instead of confectioners sugar, I used standard. Instead of orange water, I used a few drops of grenadine, instead of peanut oil I just used more clarified butter instead of cardamom I used about 1/2 a tablespoon of cinnamon and about 5 clove bulbs. ... I think that's about all I did to it. So- 5 tablespoons clarified butter (but really... 3 and a half is probably overkill) 1 1/2 cups ap flour 5 tbs sugar cinnamon and clove as per above 2 tbs water 10 drops of grenadine 1/3 cup almond pulp solids from strained almond milk. (or 1/3 cup chopped almonds >>) mix by hand. My clarified butter was so fresh it was still warm so the cookies wo

Gone
well i just want to let my close friends know i wont be on much anymore i need to get a break from this place and try and get my real life together it seems to have all fallin apart... but slowly comin back together ... ya win some you loose some... and all dark hidden things will come to the light in time ya know but anyways those of you who i hold dear to my heart have my number and ya always know i love you all but there isnt anything really keeping me here anymore... it gets old looking at a screen and not talking or doing anything because you have no desire to be here... i will check in from time to time or i may get a wild hair and just stay but as of this moment i am gone... remember to live , laugh , and love love always tab

What I Have Noticed...
Things are never easy.. No matter how we try to make everyone happy, it is impossible. I just want someone, I can be myself around... I am a fun, flirty, freak. I like to have fun, be silly, and cuddle. It's really hard because, lately I have been judged HARSHLY, over my flirty attitude. And it's really not fair.. I am going to be 19 a week from Friday... I deserve to be happy, in any and all relationships. Friends...family.. and a boyfriend, if it comes to that.. All I am saying is... I need my match.. I THINK I have found one but, the past has taught me to tread slowly.. And have fun. So that is what I am doing. I just wish I could stop my other friends from being dickheads and flipping out on me. One friend, is about to lose me the next time he (yes HE) flips out on me. *pssst to my special friend, you know who i mean* This has been a long week... I think I have suffered through enough drama to "trump" my whole 19yrs. xoxo

Who 2 Choose
OK SO THERES THESE TWO LADIES ON MY TOP FRIENDS LIST AND I WAS DEBATING WHO WAS SEXIER AND I WANTED TO SEE IF YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE COULD HELP ME DECIDE WHO WILL TAKE THE TOP SPOT. FIRST ONE IS !.- ~*NeaNea*~ *Jeezy's Wife*~ 2.- *Bootyful* Fan&Rate Me before you add Me Pls WELL THESE ARE THE WOT LADIES SO JUST COPY AND PASTE NAME IN SEARCH ENGINE THEN GO FROM THE AND VIEW THERE PICTURES AND COME BACK HERE AND RATE THEM ON BLOG THANKS AGAIN FOR YOUR TIME.

Boredom At Best
If the last person that you kissed said they wanted to marry you, you say?lol, I'd say no.Are you currently looking forward to anything?going to NC in a few weeksAre you wearing something that belongs to someone else?nopeDo you think someone is thinking about you right now?seriously doubt itWhat's something you really want right now?my stiff neck to go awayDid you go anywhere with anyone this past Valentines Day?nopeThis time last year, can you remember who you liked?I have no clueDoes it bother you when people respond to you with one word?kind ofWho was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?nateDo you currently like anyone?I doWere you single on your last birthday?yepAre you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?nahIs anything bothering you?kind of, but I'm really trying to not let it get to me too muchIs anyone else in the room with you?YesWho was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?lizHow do you feel right now?tiredWhat were yo

Not Sure...
I am not sure exactly what I feel today. I don't feel sad, for once I am not angry, I just feel sort of empty. I wanna find someone to share my time with, but I don't trust anyone based on how things have been for me. If I do run across someone I MAY have something in common with, I seem to sabotage any possibility. I am not sure why I do that. I feel like the screaming is so loud someone will hear it & come rescue me, but no one hears it but me. I guess that means I am not ready, or just no able. Maybe I am far too damaged now. I guess someone will have to do it for me since I don't seem capable to do it for myself, but since it doesn't happen, I just......am. Oh well. Maybe next life...

"lovers Dance"
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance,seeking pleasures from each other,seeking wonder and romance.She touches his face with tenderness.He draws her body near.Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses,their tongues begin passion's war.Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly,she arches up for his caress.He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness.She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away,wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body,eases him into her feminine hollow.She leads him on a rhythmic dance,his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then,to hear his wondrous sighs.She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels,and tangles them in a lover's knot that every answer reveals. Sated, they lie side by side,s

Here There And Everywhere!
I feel like crap, I have ocd really bad... I can't stop cleaning, I have three kids, and my main living space, really don't show the fact that I have kids, other than their pictures. I need more decorative stuff, and I also need more money! lol Im gonna go psycho on my old boss if she don't give me last check stub soon, so i can go back to school. I need it before 8-28.... damnit i'm really bored. ..... oh yeah and I need to level up and it's just not happening!

One Of My Poems
Friends will comeFriends will go.True friendship, though,Comes from the Heart. Once a true friendAlways a true friendTrue friendship, of course,Never dies But if it never diesThen where does it lie?Does it lie in the mind or heart?Can anything ever tear it apart? True friends always careThey always listen to your troublesThough they may not have a solutionAtleast they take the time to share Having a true friendIs an honor to cherishIf ever you find oneDo not let him or her get away 11/17/92

Effects And Stunts For Horror Film In Aug
Zombie Make up: 2, 2A, 6C, 7, 8, 9A, 9B, 10, 11, 11A, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 17A, 17C, 18, 18A, 18B, 18C, 19, 20, 21, 22 Stunt: 8: Uncle tom pushed out into field, tumbles back 9: Guest hurdles over fence 10: Uncle Tom pushing bottles into zombies (choreographed) (reverse action), 12: Bowl smash over zombie head. 14: Guests falling from weight of zombies (random). 15: Joseph and Amanda strike zombies with blunt weapons. Zombie fall. 17: Zombie falls back reacting to shotgun blast. 17C: Uncle tom leg takedown and zombie fall. 18B: "Headless" (won't show) Zombie falls back in reaction to shotgun blast. 18C: Fight (choreographed) (bearhug) between Reggie and Joseph. Reggie under material (material thinned to have zombie teeth breaking and gnashing through. Amanda kicks person under sheet and he flys back landing on the ground. Priest hits zombie with butt of shotgun. 19: Chair bounces off zombie head. 21: Wendy and Uncle tom drag zombie away from Joseph along ground. Speci

Pastiche
pastiche\pas-TEESH; pahs-\ , noun:1.A work of art that imitates the style of some previous work. 2.A musical, literary, or artistic composition consisting of selections from various works. 3.A hodgepodge; an incongruous combination of different styles and ingredients.

Sorry A$$ Men
I am so sick of sorry ass men. All I want is to be treated with a little respect.. a little sincerity... a little kindness. I am not a booty call, I am not your personal plaything, I am not a cyber-whore. If I'm not good enough to take to dinner and or out on a date, then I'm not good enough to spend the night with you. Plain and simple, end of story. If you are looking for a booty call or a one night stand... keep looking, I'm not the one. I am sure there are some dumb bitches out there, probably running rampant on this site as a matter of fact, that would not mind being treated like a whore but I am not one of them. You talk a good game about wanting to spend time with me and wanting to get to know me when all you're hoping for is a shot at getting in my pants. Well let me let you in on a little secret... I was born in the morning but it wasn't this morning. I am not stupid and I know what you're up to... but what you don't get is that I'm a hell of a lot smarter than you and apparen

Sincerely Me...
So the love has died and I'm erasing all the reminders. It's been a hard task and should've been done a long time ago. Things went too far and can't be reversed. I'm very dissapointed in her actions and how she chose to deal with it, by not dealing with it. Now I must move on. I've decided I'm done with relationships for a very long time. I have no need for one. They've become a hassle and quite frankly they make me sick. It's hard to have a decent relationship now days. People are so materialistic and greedy. Last time I check that's now what love is about. I know that sure as hell is not what I'm about. For now I'm just done with everything. This love I had really hurt me something bad. I'm sure I'll recover just fine, but it took a lot out of me. I'm no good for anyone let alone for myself. As PanterA once said "I'm Shedding Skin, Changing within"!!!

About Me**
STUBBORN** yes indeed.. i am the craziest bitch you'll ever see. whats your game? whats your style? what do you want? simple questions right... but do you really have an answer? you may now... but tomorrow, the next day.. your answers will soon be changed... i am 23 i love the outdoors, the woods, rivers, lakes, ponds, forest, caves, canyons.. i dreamed about, that place packed together... it would be exciting to live there....... i love water sports, i love to read books sometimes, if i am feeling it..but i spent most of my time networking.. meeting new friends, searching for someone.. someone who can give a magic and meaning into my life.I'm trying to write something that will make you love me and i am at such loss.i woke up twenty minutes ago and am still wrapped in my blankets like a cocoon. im that silly butterfly waiting to break free watch for me flirting. chances are if you ever saw me you would think i'm a mes, i am a mess, but i'm fine with that, i'm n

Women
Just came back from harassing my dad for food, and he told me a following joke: An American, French and Russian women are talking about their husbands. An American woman goes: -Right after John and I got married, I told him: "Don't even expect me to do any housework, I'm not going to. So...I didnt see him for 4 days, and when he came back, he brought back a truck full of house appliances. So now we have a dishwasher, cooking aides, washing machine, et to do everything for me." Then the French woman goes: -Right after I married Francois, I told him: "I'm not gonna do any housework, don't even ask for it. So...I didnt see him for 4 days, and when he came back, he brought a hot young woman to do all the housework. So now she does everything for me." The Russian chimes in: -Right after Ivan and I got married, I told him: "I"m not gonna do any housework, dont even ask for it. So...I didnt see him for 4 days, and when on a 5th day my eye finally opened, I started doin all the

Did You Hear?
BUFFALO- Today, NFL wide reciever Terrel Owens was in the news for a different kind of catch. While walking through a suburb of Buffalo, Owen noticed a fire in a high rise off in the distance. From his vantage point he could see a woman on the 10th floor on a balcony clutching a baby in her arms. Terrel, acting quickly, ran to the scene to help. Witnesses say that he called up to the mother to throw him the baby. Hesitant, but knowing of Terrel's reputation of making clutch grabs, she bundled the baby tight and to the shock of onlookers, let it go. Wind had picked up and pushed the falling baby a little to the right, so Terrel made a step to the right. A second gush pushed the baby, left, so terrel corrected and moved left. Hot termals from the fire blew the baby out ward and Terrel was in a sprint, the baby was blown back 15, 20, 25 yards with Terrel streaking like a race horse, At the last possible second, Owens layed out in a beautiful diving catch to the wild cheers of a crowd. He

Damn This Hurts...
Why does this time hurt so much more than any other time? I can't seem to stop crying. I feel so gutted. fuck I want to crawl into a hole and stay there. GOD this is SO not like me. I'm usually stronger. but dammit......

Hurt
granted, this song talks about drugs, but right now, I'm giving it a different meanin-- being hurt by someone you thought loved you and having the courage to start again. I hurt myself todayto see if I still feelI focus on the painthe only thing that's realthe needle tears a holethe old familiar stingtry to kill it all awaybut I remember everythingwhat have I become?my sweetest friendeveryone I knowgoes away in the endyou could have it allmy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtI wear this crown of shitupon my liar's chairfull of broken thoughtsI cannot repairbeneath the stains of timethe feeling disappearyou are someone elseI am still right herewhat have I become?my sweetest friendeveryone I knowgoes away in the endyou could have it allmy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtif I could start againa million miles awayI would keep myselfI would find a way

Excruciating
So I cut myself on this rusty piece of fence earlier whilst playing some football. It's near the middle on my left palm, so I've spent the rest of the day since trying to avoid the cut so I don't aggravate it. It's just not possible, so I found this liquid sort of healing aid stuff, supposed to stop infections and stuff, acts as a second skin so to speak. Holy fuck that shit hurt, was worse than when I cut myself. Think iodine on an open wound x 5. I later read that it should not be applied to open wounds....

Thinking In Black And White
It occured to me that the metaphor of thinking in black and white or "grey areas" is critically flawed. When one thinks in black and white they see things very ridgedly no matter the evidence to the contrary. "Grey areas" are just mixed black and white, just as ridgid and calcified but in ambivalence and indecision. One must think in COLOR as there is a whole spectrum between black and white not merely muddled shades of grey. When thinking, making a choice one must use the spectrum and not limit themselves to confining shades of grey or the crisp brittleness of black and white. That results in a flat existence devoid true experience Only by using the prism contained within us can we truly live. We can trancend the death inducing black and white or the quotidian greys that societies, philosophies, religions and others try to enslave us in. If we think in COLOR !!!!!

Laaaaaalaaaaalaaaa
Just put together a new fan for Alannah's room. Hers died last night. When she had a 102-103 degree fever. Turns out she has an ear infection so she's on ABX. She slept really good last night though. I didn't so much since I got up to check on her a few times. She's down for the night now and I am definately liking the 7pm bed time. Not loving that my bosses pulled me out of my store tomorrow but whatever. Tryingnot to get pissed about that again. It will work out pretty well i nthe long wrong. If things work out right, I may take Alannah to go see Josh. It will be nice to get out of the house for a bit. I really can't wait until my vacation. Talked to dad today and he was talking about having a cookout on the 5th- for Labor day and his 50th. I miss the cookouts. anyways..

Getting Started
Well first day on fubar. checking it out. will let you know more when i find some new friends. hope you like the picture of Ginger, she is my service dog and is very well behaved and well trained. like to make to friends on the internet. Hope everyone had a good day.

Doc Called Today...oh My!
So I got the call from the doc Ive been dreading. I have whats called Non Alcoholic Steatohepatitis. Basically my liver is enlarged and I dont drink. Its not hepatitis either its called that because it is a liver disease. The good news is I can cure it with diet. So begining immediately I have to cut out alot of things from my diet. Im gonna be feeling sick for awile tho it could be up to 2 months before I start feeling better. I just cant beleive this is due to eating everyday things that I thought couldnt hurt me very bad. I still have to go in for blood work to check for the severity. Trust me I feel like it has gotten bad. Ive been sick for about 2 weeks now and I have to endure it for some time until I can make my liver better. The other good news is I dont have to go have surgery like the doc thought originally. Thats awesome cause I hate surgery. I just have to eat like a freakin rabbit for probably the rest of my life which isnt so bad when I think about it. Im gonna go redo m

No Such Thing
"twice the legal limit"... There is an AP story out now ,and I am paraphrasing, that says ex-NFL quarterback's blood alcohol content was twice the legal limit. Another example of misleading and stupid stories ,since there is no such thing as a "legal limit" when you are drinking within the privacy of your own home. Like him or not, I mean c'mon the guy was murdered and AP is writing stories about his BAC and linking him by tangent means to make it seem like he was in the wrong. The guy was asleep...ASLEEP ...when his girlfriend shot him in the chest and head. He was drinking at home....and AP has the freaking gall to say his BAC was "twice the legal limit". Another example of how useless the normal news media actually is. They have turned into "entertainment news".

Point Whores Be Gone
we all know at least 3 of them. someone that was a good person, you were friends with them, and they seemed to be a real person. then, all of a sudden they are gone. they became too caught up in the point system, to give a flying fuck about friendships, or even to care about being a human being. well... i am not on here for that. sure, we all get a little grin, when one of our friends bombs us, or gives us a cute bling. but i dont allow myself to become engrossed in it. the mentality that, "if i'm not in your family, you cant be in mine" is fucking ridiculous. are you just a collector? is it a status thing? if you're reading this, and it offends you, ask yourself when was the last time you contacted me for anything other than something to do with anything other that a level requirement? have you asked me how my new apartment or job are going? have you thought about me or my kids at all? maybe getting a REAL life and thinking about something other than your pathetic little e-bullsh

Don't Ya Wanna See My New Tan Lines Live?
Got a webcam with toll free phone and Cam to cam (can see you) Bigtoys sound and a hot cum squirting pussy. I have a naughty mind new tan lines and lets have some sizzle till we blast off. http://www.ifriends.net/JoinMe.htm?AMBERXXX

Life With Toys
I have been into adult toys for around 10 years now. I have always enjoyed making sex better. I used to have a male ego issue about adult toys, but come to find out it is the best thing that has happened to me. I would suggest everyone enhance their sex lifes it has saved my marriage. I have recently opened a adult store online and I really enjoy the fact that I am making someones sex life better! I just wanted to pass on that you should try it if you already don't. Enjoy, and thanks for reading! ipleasureyou.

Time Means Nothing
WHOA AMAZING HOW SOMEONE CAN JUS WRITE LYRIC'S TO UR LIFE AN THEY FIT SO WELL!! WRITTEN BY MY SISTER SHANNON-(SHE HAS THE TALENT NOT I) DEDICATED TO DJ IRISH PRINCE 7-20-09 TIME MEANS NOTHING You told me it would never happen again, you said our love was to strong, but here I am crying again. Was it worth it was it worth the cost to see my heart lying on the floor. You said she didn’t matter, you’ve said it all before you said it was a mistake, but mistakes just don’t happen and now my heart lies before you on floor. The words you spoke sounded so sincere, but talk is cheap. I should have known I should have listened to my heart when it said it would be broken again, was she worth all the fights was she worth all of my tears, and all the hurt I feel inside, was she even half of me, did she do for you what I can do for you. You spun me around and I hit the ground, lie after lie, I believed the words you put in my head. Time means nothing it doesn’t ease the pain, Time

Spooked.
let me start by saying i absolutely do not believe in superstitious anything at all. but i have to admit to being fucking totally spooked. in less than two hours these things happened. i had to give my address to my wife in a private message earlier today. anyways someone added me and read my blog about things finally moving about the divorce. shoutboxed me about it, the same instance i get a reply from my wife. little later i am looking through old photo album, folder with about 100 pics in it. one and only one of those pictures has one of my nieces in it. the same instance i get to that pic i get a text from her for the first time in about 2 weeks maybe. finally i had a kinda play fight that got a little out of hand with someone earlier. i was talking to a third party that i think i really pissed her off. i sb'ed i am sorry. left it for a while then sb'ed the other person that i still getting nothing but silence. the same instance the person i thought i had pissed o

Joker Has Returned
IT HAS COME TO MY ATTENTION THAT OUR OLD FRIEND JOKER HAS RETURNED HE HAS ALREADY HIT MY PAGE AND A FEW OTHERS BELOW IS HIS LINK HE IS SET TO FRNDS ONLY SO HE WILL NOT KNOW YOUVE BEEN ON HIS PAGE I WOULD SUGGEST THAT YOU ALL BLOCK THIS PAGE IMMEDIATELY BEFORE HE STARTS ANY CRAP WITH YOU HE IS FULL OF DRAMA IN THE HIGHEST I PERSONALY WILL NOT BLOCK HIM BUT I HAVE MY OWN REASONS AS SUCH BUT FOR YOUR OWN SAKE PLEASE DO http://www.fubar.com/user/3364802

Obama Bashing
I have seen to much of it in my opinion. He is trying to undue all the things the previous president has done. Make no mistake about it----BUSH MESSED THIS COUNTRY UP!!!!! He was one of the worst president we have ever had. That caused his party to lose the election by 6million votes. You want Palin as the vice president-----pleasse!!!!! I would have taken Stevie Wonder over her. LET OBAMA TRY TO TAKE THE COUNTRY OUT OF THIS MESS----LET HIM LEAD!!!! He needs more than 6months ---let's see after a few years.

Acting Together For Good
CooperationCooperation seems simple: working together toward a common goal for the benefit of all involved. But amazingly it can be quite challenging, even when we have so many successful examples all around us. Human society is based upon the concept of cooperation, but finding a balance to ensure the good of all members of society is difficult. In nature, symbiotic relationships form between unlikely allies: a bee and a flower, a bird and a rhinoceros, small fish and sharks. Yet nature also shows us instances of constant competition in which only the strongest survive. Given the choice, it seems most people would choose the more peaceful path of cooperation. Intellectually, we know that together we can create something greater than what one could do alone, but cooperation still seems to be one of the greatest challenges people face. We don’t always agree on how goals can be reached. Our priorities may be different, or our methods, but in the end, cooperation offers the best cha

Pattern Of Pain
WithholdingThe most common form of withholding is what we commonly call "the silent treatment," but withholding encompasses any unwillingness to express your true feelings. It also includes an unwillingness to give support, praise, or positive attention to the people you love. We have all known someone who is impossible to please, and many of us have suddenly found ourselves at the other end of a chilly silence with no explanation. At the same time, many of us will recognize our own tendency to withhold our emotions rather than express them. Most of us have seen both sides of the withholding dilemma. Emotional pain is at the root of our tendency to withhold, and withholding causes pain to the people subjected to it. It is a dysfunctional pattern that creates a breakdown in communication and understanding.No one deserves to be subjected to withholding. Feeling ignored, disrespected, or shut out, and to not know why, is a terrible feeling. The first thing to remember if this is happening

Permission To Simply Be
Working Through TransitionsThe elation we feel when we have learned an important lesson, achieved a goal, or had a big breakthrough can sometimes be met with a period of downtime afterward. During this period of transition, we may feel unsure and not know where to turn next. Many people, during the pause between achievements, begin to wonder what their life is about. These feelings are common and strike everyone from time to time. Human beings are active creatures—we feel best when we are working on a project or vigorously pursuing a goal. But there is nothing inherently wrong with spending a day, a week, or even a month simply existing and not having a plan. Just be. It won’t be long before you embark upon your next voyage of growth and discovery.The quiet lull into we which we fall between ideas, projects, and goals can make life seem empty. After accomplishing one objective, you may want to move immediately on to the next. However, when your next step is unclear, you may

Check Out This Great Friend Of Mine Please!
$safe_uid_dname@ fubarLisa is a great friend to me, and she deserves to be pimped out and loved up! Go show her lots and lots of fu-love for me, please!Thanks for everything hun and the great welcome back you gave me!This pimpout brought to you by Seana$safe_uid_dname@ fubar

Gifts We Give Ourselves
FriendsGood friends enrich our lives in so many ways. Through a magical combination of similarities and differences, friends offer us the opportunity to know ourselves as we are and help us grow into who we want to be. Our similarities attract us to each other, comforting us with familiarity when we see ourselves in them. When we are drawn to those we admire, the same recognition is at work, unconsciously acknowledging that these people possess qualities that we ourselves possess. By acting as mirrors, friends help us define who we are by reflecting our selves back to us.Friends also help us know ourselves through our differences. Differences allow us to see other options and make choices about who we want to be. Sometimes we are drawn to those who appear to be our opposites, and we learn to accept the parts of them we love and the parts of them that don’t resonate with us, thus allowing us a valuable learning experience. By expanding our understanding to include others’ ex

Progressing With Patience
Doing The Best You CanIt isn’t always easy to meet the expectations we hold ourselves to. We may find ourselves in a situation such as just finishing a relaxing yoga class or meditation retreat, a serene session of deep breathing, or listening to some calming, soul-stirring music, yet we have difficulty retaining our sense of peace. A long line at the store, slow-moving traffic, or another stressful situation can unnerve you and leave you wondering why the tranquility and spiritual equilibrium you cultivate is so quick to dissipate in the face of certain stressors. You may feel guilty and angry at yourself or even feel like a hypocrite for not being able to maintain control after practicing being centered. However, being patient with yourself will help you more in your soul’s journey than frustration at your perceived lack of progress. Doing the best you can in your quest for spiritual growth is vastly more important than striving for perfection.Just because you are devoted

Emerging Courageous
Walking Through Your FearThe situations, activities, and individuals that frighten us remain static. Their relative intensity does not change. Fear, on the other hand, self-magnifies. It is when you are afraid and envisioning all that might go wrong that the energy underlying your fear grows. A tiny flicker of anxiety can easily develop into a terror that manifests itself physically and eventually paralyzes you into inaction. Though frequently, in walking through that fear, we discover that the strength of our fright was out of synch with reality. And we learn that doing what frightens us can lead to great blessings. Confronting your trepidation head-on will help you accept that few frightening scenarios will ever live up to the negative disasters that we sometimes play out in our minds.Though fear is literally an evolutionary gift meant to sharpen your senses and energize you during times of great stress, it can nonetheless become a barrier that prevents you from fulfilling your poten

Allowing Others To Be
Controlling BehaviorWe all know what it’s like to want to be in control. In some ways, exerting control is an important survival skill. For example, we have every right to be in control of our own bodies and our own lives. Taking control in these cases is empowering and necessary. Controlling behavior in the negative sense comes from a tendency to reach beyond our own boundaries and into the lives of others. Many people do this with the rationalization that they are helping. This can happen with parents who are still trying to force their grown children into behaving in ways that they find acceptable. It can also happen when people try to control their partners’ behavior. If you have control issues, you will see that in one or more areas of your life, you feel the need to interfere with what is happening rather than just allowing events to unfold.Almost everyone has at least one situation or relationship in which they try to exert control. This often happens because someone

Experiences To Savor
Magical MomentsMost of us are adept at seeing the big picture. Caught up in the hectic pace of modern life, we feel compelled to immediately distinguish what is important from what is not. The assessment is an easy one to make when we are mired in the daily grind容verything relating to success seems significant and everything else seems comparatively trivial. But what is most precious in this life cannot be measured in affluence or influence. The truly noteworthy events in our lives are often the least momentous yet the most wonderful. They are the magical moments in which we are simply awestruck by the wonderment of life. Though our perception of magical moments may be blocked by worldly concerns, our days are filled with such moments. To experience them fully, we need only open ourselves to their existence.Magical moments are not measured by the composition of an experience but rather by our reaction to it. Since such moments come and go quickly, they should be consciously savo

Alive In Joy
Dispelling DramaThere are scores of people in the world who seem to be magnets for calamity. They live their lives jumping from one difficult to the next, surrounded by unstable individuals. Some believe themselves victims of fate and decry a universe they regard as malevolent. Others view their chaotic circumstances as just punishments for some failing within. Yet, in truth, neither group has been fated or consigned to suffer. They are likely unconsciously drawing drama into their lives, attracting catastrophe through their choices, attitudes, and patterns of thought. Drama, however disastrous, can be exciting and stimulating. But the thrill of pandemonium eventually begins to frustrate the soul and drain the energy of all who embrace it. To halt this process, we must understand the root of our drama addiction, be aware of our reactions, and be willing to accept that a serene, joyful life need not be a boring one.Many people, so used to living in the dramatic world they create, feel u

Observing Evolution
Allowing Others To Walk Their PathsWatching a loved one or a peer traverse a path littered with stumbling blocks can be immensely painful. We instinctively want to guide them toward a safer track and share with them the wisdom we have acquired through experience. Yet all human beings have the right to carve their own paths without being unduly influenced by outside interference. To deny them that right is to deny them enlightenment, as true insight cannot be conveyed in lectures. Rather, each individual must earn independence and illumination by making decisions and reflecting upon the consequences of each choice. In allowing others to walk their paths freely, you honor their right to express their humanity in whatever way they see fit. Though you may not agree with or identify with their choices, understand that each person must learn in their own way and at their own pace.The events and circumstances that shape our lives are unique because each of us is unique. What touches one perso

Asking For What You Want
Cocreating with the UniverseMost people don’t always fully realize that we all have within us the ability to cocreate our lives with the universe. So many of us are taught to accept what we are given and not even to dream of anything more. But our hopes and dreams are the universe whispering to us, planting an idea of what’s possible while directing us toward the best use of our gifts. The universe truly wants to give us our hearts’ desires, but we need to be clear about what they are and ask for them.To ask for something does not mean to beg or plead from a place of lack or unworthiness. It’s like placing an order—we don’t need to beg the salesperson for what we want or prove to them that we deserve to have it. It is their job to give us what we ask for; we only have to tell them what we want. Once we have a clear vision of what we desire, we simply step into the silent realm where all possibilities exist and let our desires be known. Whatever metho

Giving Up Wine
Giving Up WineI was walking down the street when I was accosted by a particularly dirty and shabby-looking homeless woman who asked me for a couple of dollars for dinner. I took out my wallet, got out ten dollars and asked, 'If I give you this money, will you buy wine with it instead of dinner?' 'No, I had to stop drinking years ago', the homeless woman told me.'Will you use it to go shopping instead of buying food?' I asked..'No, I don't waste time shopping,' the homeless woman said. 'I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive.''Will you spend this on a beauty salon instead of food?' I asked.'Are you NUTS!' replied the homeless woman. I haven't had my hair done in 20 years!''Well, I said, 'I'm not going to give you the money. Instead, I'm going to take you out for dinner with my husband and me tonight.'The homeless Woman was shocked. 'Won't your husband be furious with you for doing that? I know I'm dirty, and I probably smell pretty disgusting.'I said, 'That's okay. It's import

Learn And Let Flow
We Don’t Need To SufferThe idea that we have to suffer or live in poverty in order to be spiritual is an old one and can be found in the belief systems of many philosophies. Most of us carry this idea around subconsciously, and we may be holding ourselves back from financial or emotional well-being, believing that this is what we must do in order to be virtuous, spiritually awake, or feel less guilty for the suffering of others.While it’s true that there can be a spiritual purpose to experiencing a lack of material well-being, it is rarely intended to be a permanent or lifelong experience. What we are meant to find when material or emotional resources are in short supply is that there is more to our lives than the physical realm. Intense relationships and material abundance can distract us from the subtler realm of the spirit, so a time of deficiency can be spiritually awakening. However, once we recognize the realm of spirit, and remember to hold it at the center of our li

Criminlas
More I thought about this stranger having my personal and private medical history it came down to being criminals. The stranger openly talked about my medical history in front of Joe a long time friend and barber but two other customers breaking State and Federal Laws. I wondered who's interest did they have in mind? Mine or someone else? Like the Doctor who gave me the two Insulin's, Lantus and Novalog which by creating the low blood sugar damaged my Heart, Brain, and other Organs for three years plus. Now I want this stranger's personal information and all those involved. Dare I say it even my friend from the 7th grade on February 19 late, wishes me good luck on your surgery that never took place because on the 20th of February at 6 AM is my Cardiac Cath. How did he even know? He's better off as a Fortune Teller than the racket he's in. No one addressed where the Heart damge came from, dopes. The Insulin's causing the low blood sugar for three plus years? Norio

Fubreak
look im not doin this for attention or for anyone to feel sorry for me im doin this for me im taking a fubreak i'll get on n do my 11s, if u want em one day send me a sb n you can have em idc if u rate me or not when im gone u do as you please if u want my yim, aim or email just ask n i'll give it to you Josh

If You Could Read My Mind--gordon Lightfoot
If you could read my mind love What a tale my thoughts could tell Just like an old time movie bout a ghost from a wishin well In a castle dark or a fortress strong With chains upon my feet You know that ghost is me And I will never be set free As long as Im a ghost that you cant see If I could read your mind love What a tale your thoughts could tell Just like a paperback novel The kind that drugstores sell When you reach the part where the heartaches come The hero would be me But heroes often fail And you wont read that book again Because the endings just too hard to take Id walk away like a movie star Who gets burned in a three way script Enter number two A movie queen to play the scene Of bringing all the good things out in me But for now love, lets be real * I never thought I could act this way * And Ive got to say that I just dont get it I dont know where we went wrong But the feelins gone And I just cant get it back If you could read my mind love What a tale my thoughts could te

Country Star Trace Adkins Becomes Comic Book Action Hero
"Luke McBain" Is First Original Concept Comic Book Series By A Country ArtistCountry music sensation TRACE ADKINS can now add action hero to his ongoing list of career accomplishments. In November, 12 Gauge Comics unleashes "LUKE MCBAIN," a four-issue comic book series featuring a tough Southern hero that is based on the platinum-selling country star.Other music artists have been involved with the comic book scene including Gerald Way of My Chemical Romance and Tori Amos, but Adkins is the first country artist to be featured as a fictional character in a comic book project.Writer David Tischman (Red Herring) created the idea with 12 Gauge publisher Keven Gardner, and they spent a lot of time with Adkins to make sure "MCBAIN" feels authentic.

Questions
As my body dies and soul decays I wonder "is this the path I have chosen or has it been chosen for me?".Did my actions condemn me or set me free?Were my thoughts my own or something drilled into me as a seed?I will never be at peace because I will never know.I don't want to know.If you had all the answers then you would not have anything to question.Is my passtion what makes me a hopeless romantic or is it the other way around?Am I made to hold the world or am I afraid of what will happen if I let go?Why mend a broken heart to break it again?Did I not learn from my mistakes or do I procede to repeat the past?

Take Pity And Pray For The Fallen One
Come good people of the bit and baud rate there is one amongst us who has strayed from the path into the dark nether regions of bitterness and rejection of the sacred phallus. let us go down to the water and drink of the bounty of the earth so that her soul shall be saved and she can once again retake her rightful place in the sisterhood of the slippery sluts.

Allergic
OK SO HERE IS A FUNNY THING TO ME.. WHY IN THE WORLD IF YOU DONT LIKE SOMETHING PEOPLE SAY THIS.. WELL MY MOM IS ALLERGIC TO THAT SO I MAY BE TO? I WANDER IF THIS SHIT WILL WORK FOR ME.. LIKE SAY FOR INSTANCE A GUY YOU DONT LIKE KEEPS BUGGIN YOU SAYING SEXUAL THINGS TO YOU LIKE SHOW ME YOUR TITS. CAN I SAY I AM ALLERGIC TO THAT? I USED TO DATE THIS STUPID GUY AND HE WAS ALLERGIC TO CELERY CUZ HE DIDNT LIKE IT.. KEPT SAYING I AM ALLERGIC TO SHIT SO HE CAN TRY TO MANIPULATE ME TO MAKE WHAT HE WANTED... WELL FUCK IS HE ALLERGIC TO WATER? HOW COME PEOPLE CANT JUST SAY WHAT THE FUCK THEY MEAN INSTEAD OF MAKING UP SHIT LIKE I AM ALLERGIC? NEXT TIME A GUY SAYS SUCK MY DICK I WANDER IF THIS ALLERGIC SHIT WILL WORK FOR REAL.. LIKE SAY MY MOM IS ALLERGIC TO SUCKING STRANGE DICK I MAY BE TO.. I AM ALLERGIC TO PEOPLE THAT BEAT AROUND THE BUSH AND CANT SAY THEY DONT LIKE SOMETHING..

Wurd
i love all my friends on here and you all know i'd do anything for yall but i need to take some time to find myself again. ive been wrapped up in everyones problems n ive lost sight of what i need to do for me. im sorry but i dont want to hear any one else's problems. i need to find myself before i can help anyone else josh

Michael Vick
Let me just say that...I dont think what he did is such a horrible thing at all. The breed of dogs he used were bread for ages, since the ancient times, for fighting. It is in their DNA. Naive people that claim that their pitbull or Rottie is cute and nice as a baby are...naive. While appearing to be docile because of proper care and training, they are still very unpredictable and explosive. There is no need to deny that, as those character traits were specifically developed in those breeds over centuries, not one or two years that an owner might help the dog for. Is it any wonder that "family pets" maul kids, fam members? So...Vick wasn't doing anythin terrible, except for not realizing that stupids would not be fine with what he did.

Life God....
So like yesterday was a fucked up day. Today was slightly better. I got my coffee like always, worked like always and got a lovely text message from my ex bf. Him and I got into a huge fight yesterday in which he decides to reply back today. He said goodbye to me and I said bye dont let the door hit you on the ass on the way out. He replies ooOo tough girl. I said look you said goodbye and im just ending it by saying bye. What was funny was that he was the one that was like quit texting me. Fuck. I told him bye and i ended it and i said now im telling you bye and having the last word ass. And that was that. In which I give him about 2 months he will be crawling for me again. This hasnt been the first time this has happened more like to this day in the past three years 20 times that we have gotten into fights and he has came crawling back to me. I got a huge shocker today, my friend who I work with well she has been divorced two times and I feel bad for the poor woman, shes dating this

Everything Don't Last Forever!!!
Not everything lasts forever, not the tears in our eyes, nor the pain in our hearts. Life seems to lose meaning when love ones choose to depart. The friends we earn and the people we know may choose a different path or a different way to go. We are left with nothing, but memories they've left behind. Fortunate that for a moment our lives were entwined. How many people have we met, how many friends have we lost due to time? death? or distance? Years from now would we still remember their names or perhaps their faces, the way they smile or maybe their favorite places?! People come and people go in this whirlwind life can we choose who we want to stay. Theres no comfort in knowing that all we have is today? Makes me wonder why not everything lasts forever *sigh* hope everything turns out for the bette.

Feed Me
Soo...I havent gotten fuckin food in forever, secretly hoping that I would invite food gnomes (like the ones that steal your socks, but bring food), but no. I have a jar of old caviar, and some moldy bread. And some liquid eggs I snagged from my hotel in desperation. Yay me! I need to crawl out and get some food, but I just can't see myself motivated enough to get my ass out. BLAH!

Drowning Ones Sorrows
One glass, Short, Tall, Lower the percentage, End toll the same, The carnage only evident the morning after, Amber, clear, flat, carbonated, The damage in time will tell, Motor functions blurred, Vision doubled, Never been to bed with a minger,

Getting Ready To Retire The Wall
The time has come to retire the wall of cock from Fubar. With waning interest and less that wanna strut thier stuff, I have decided to delete the wall. If you care to comment on the wall and this blog then I will take it into consideration. Thanks to all the brave guys for your support. Its been fun.

Zero
In this worlds scheme, In the percentage of this world reduced to just numbers, The mathematical equation of life, It’s where we are measured, Out of ten, One hundred percent, In between, just above average, Just a twitch on the Richter scale, A murmur from Mount St. Helens, A burp from Krakatau,

Micki Mcmillen
R.I.P 7/12/09 To my best best best friend... Mickinli Jeanne McMillen; Mickinli Jeanne "Micki" Grass Lake, MI Age 23, died suddenly due to a car accident on Friday, June 12, 2009. She was born May 7, 1986 in Ypsilanti, MI, the daughter of Mark T. & Gayle Ann (Preston) McMillen. Micki graduated from Chelsea High School in 2004. She worked at Taco Bell in Chelsea for five years, and attended Baker College. She had formerly worked at Polly's. Micki had many friends, and they stayed close after high school. She is survived by her mother, Gayle McMillen of Grass Lake; Micki's "forever special family" Char "mom," Dave "dad," and Davey "Bubby" Miller of Chelsea; her maternal grandmother, Barbara Preston of Ann Arbor; her aunts and uncles, Bob and Linda Preston of Belleville, John and Lisa Preston of Chelsea, Patrick and JoAnn McMillen of Portage Lake, OH, Susan and Lenny Breiding of Cuyahoga Falls, OH, Linda McMillen of CO; her cousins, Amanda and Travis Preston, Robert and Laura Prest

Last Farewell
The note is laid, To whom it may concern, No blame is taken or passed out, The final goodbye from this broken soul, No cryptic clue lost in its text, No hesitation in self extinction, No discussion to avoidance, One iron act of will spelt out on scarlet flecked paper you first clue, But all to late to help my in animation, cold and still, It tells not of the razors bite on tender flesh, Or how its furrow reminds me of autumn fields, Or how it glide through sinew and fibre, Like a knife through summers butter, Claret jets with the grace of fountains through spring air, But with my lifeblood unending in this lifetime, Euphoria hits like cannabises first hit on a teenage mind, Driven on and through by pressure beyond these protective walls, Whose comfort I stepped beyond in cat like curiosity, To a world too uncompromising to be mindful of me, In childlike innocence I welcomed it with open arms, But trampled by its aggression and impatience, My dreams shattered at

Help
im trying to find that special someone for two years now and it seems like i was never meant to be happy cause every time i think i found that special i get cheated on and hurt so i dont know f i should keep looking or just stay single for the rest of my life. I need advice. Can any1 help?

Addicted
A familiar feeling forms from the base of my anesthetised spine, It creeps up on this cloudy mind as it swims in chaotic confusion, My addiction once more takes hold of this beleaguered soul, Tormented yet again to find an excuse for this demise, This habit craving in its infatuation, Blurring life's edges enough to bear the abhorrent horrors, Ensnaring me in the spiralling circles of its obsession, Craving relief from mans hatred of its self, In compulsion I re-light, snort, pop or open another can, A need dependent on a human weakness,

Devastated
I'm so bored and lonley, I'm totally going insane, I can't stand being me only and my head's playing games. Darkness is all around me as the rain falls from the sky. This emptiness feels so mean my heart just wants to cry. I wish the sun was shining bright but what difference would it make. My heart's to weak to fight the power of this cold heartache. So as my tears slowly fall the silence takes me in. I know I can't take the pain of it all as the lonliness takes me once again.

Goodbye
The hardest part of any friendship is when it's time to say goodbye. As much as we might like things to stay the same, change is an inevitable part of life. The universe may seem huge and the rift between friends on opposite side of the world may seem a great distance. There are many tools available with which we can communicate, but even without these tools there is a secret that only real friends know, and it is this. All the mountains and valleys in the world cannot separate friends whose hearts are as one.

Silence Is Golden
Never tell him you luv him. Bury the secret deep in your heart. Once the words are spoken reality is given the opportunity to enter your dreams so the color fades like a dying rose. Just a thought to add...Seeing him everyday...Whether in reality or just in the cyber world...Makes it hard to keep the silence...But the fear of losing a friend locks the lips quite well Adding another thought to this...Letting someone else in on the secrets of your heart...Confiding in them can backfire even worse...Esp when they ridicule you for how you feel...No matter how many people have went thru similar situations as you have...It is a totally different experience for each and every person...Some survive and go on...And others are scarred for life Additional thought: When that person comes back to apologize after ripping your soul to shreds it really means nothing...It is just a reminder of the pain they inflicted when they swore they were a friend and would never hurt you...Apparently my definit

What Would You Do?
If you had 24 hours left to live... What would you do? What i would do is see how much i can accomplish, push myself to the limits that can never be reached any other time in a person's life. I would love not what is of material things, but of those who are around me. It's not too often that i find love in my heart anymore, aside from the kids. I wouldn't know what to do without them. They are my world. They are my everything. Leaving them would not be an option, if i had any other choice. Another thing i would do: Not live a moment that i have left with regret. Life is too short to regret things. Mistakes happen. If one was perfect, life wouldn't be life. It would be dull and meaningless. The best times of your life are when you do stupid things. That's what i think anyways. Don't know if anyone else agrees with that or not. But the stupid shit that i did.. I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't be the person that i am today. I would enjoy going to see my haters as well,

You Know ;)
Just so you know......I mean it.... lol seriously you know who u r :) Nickback - I'd come for you Just One more moment, that's all that's needed.Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.Time to be honest, this time I'm bleedingPlease don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean itI cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the groundBut it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me nowEveryday I spend away my souls inside outGotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.By now you'd know that I'd come for youNo one but you, yes I'd come for youBut only if you told me toAnd I'd fight for youI'd lie, it's trueGive my life for youYou know I'd always come for youI was blindfolded, but now I'm seeingMy mind was closing, now I'm believingI finally know what just what it means to let someone inTo see the side of me that no one does or ever willSo if your ever lost and find yourself all aloneI'd search forever just to bring you home,Here and now this I vowBy now you'd know

What My Thoughts And Feelings Are Now
I've been with my fiance for over 2 years now. Things have been rough for a while. I love him to death and I would do anything for him, but at the same time....I'm feeling yucky inside from the stuff that he has done to me in the past year. I feel like my heart is aching from everything that he has done to me and that I'm actually falling apart inside. I act like I'm okay, but deep down I'm not. People think I'm overracting about what has happen, but they don't know the feeling I'm feeling inside. If I wanted too....I would spill all my feelings out in the opening to them, but I'm just afraid that they might say I'm "overracting" again. I mean, how would you feel if you found out that the man you loved told another girl(s) they he loved them, etc.? How would you feel if he touch another girl? How would you feel if he straight up lied to you? How would you feel if he kept doing this to you? Those are the questions I even ask myself even though my fiance has done every single thing I sai

Memories...
Saturday I ended up going to a music festival thingie with a couple friends.I ran into the ex wifes Aunt and Uncle. I was always close with Uncle Tom, he is a loveable lush, always has a fresh blue joke for ya, and accepted me from day one. After we seperated I hadn't had any contact with the family at all other then her brother. It kinda hurt when I never heard from Tom again, but I got over it.Anyhoo running into him brought back some painfull memories.Le sigh

The Tabernacle Arises
“Moreover thou shalt make the tabernacle with ten curtains of fine twined linen, and blue, and purple, and scarlet: with cherubim of cunning work shalt thou make them.” The instructions for making the tabernacle of the LORD itself – the actual building which will contain all the holy objects due to their being for the LORD, not for any virtue the building materials or the builders themselves possess – occupies the twenty-sixth chapter of Exodus. The whole chapter’s an unbroken monologue with Moses, and I imagine the latter took careful, careful notes! Something built for the glory of the LORD requires us to be as exact, as total, as the children of Israel’s worship of Him (then and now) should be. I don’t claim to read the significance of all the numbers of objects that some commentators do, but that’s my limited understanding. The descriptions of “fine twined linen” with the finest colors indicate something that has to

Cowboy Named Bud
A cowboy named Bud was overseeing his herd in a remote mountainous pasture in California when suddenly a brand-new BMW advanced toward him out of a cloud of dust. The driver, a young man in a Brioni suit, Gucci shoes, RayBan sunglasses and YSL tie, leaned out the window and asked the cowboy, "If I tell you exactly how many cows and calves you have in your herd, Will you give me a calf?" Bud looks at the man, obviously a yuppie, then looks at his peacefully grazing herd and calmly answers, "Sure, Why not?" The yuppie parks his car, whips out his Dell notebook computer, connects it to his Cingular RAZR V3 cell phone, and surfs to a NASA page on the Internet, where he calls up a GPS satellite to get an exact fix on his location which he then feeds to another NASA satellite that scans the area in an ultra-high-resolution photo. The young man then opens the digital photo in Adobe Photoshop and exports it to an image processing facility in Hamburg, G

Need 2-3 Individuals
I Just realized how eaasy it would be for a few of us each worth 1 million on fu-owned to level. We could just keep buying oneanother. It's not cheating it's just free fu-market fu-capitalism... Who's with me?

Struggling With A Decision?
"You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind." -- Dale Carnegie My anxiety level spiked the other day as I wrestled with whether to choose option A or option B. I was so afraid of making the wrong choice! And then I remembered, with deep gratitude, Susan Jeffers’ sage advice: There are no wrong decisions! Whatever we might choose in life will bring valuable experiences if we are open to receive them. “Lighten up! Whatever happens as a result of your decision, you’ll handle it!” -- Susan Jeffers

Points Breakdown
Fubar points Breakdown WHEN YOU DO THE FOLLOWING YOU GET 3 points for rating a profile 2 points for leaving a profile comment 1 point for rating a photo 1 point for photo comment 1 point for stash rating 1 point for stash comment 0 points for fanning someone THE PERSON YOU HELPING OUT GETS THE FOLLOWING 11 points for fanning them 6 points for you rating thier profile 6 points for a photo rating 6 points for a photo comment 6 points for stash rating 6 points for stash comment 5 points for page comment Please keep in mind all points are doubled for you and them during Happy Hour As you can see when trying to level someone it pays to fan them Stash and pic rates and comments may be worth the same but I personally find it alot easier to rate stash than pics. Also for those of you that may not have realized as you can see it is also helping you out when your helping others A side note too: You DO NOT get any points for RIPPED PICS.. might pay to h

The Ebb And Flow Of Life
Maybe its just me....but i this describes life in general for some poeple....espically the ones fighting depression (myself lol)...either way its still a great song... Nine Inch Nails - THe Great Below Staring at the seaWill she come?Is there hope for meAfter all is said and doneAnything at any priceAll of this for youAll the spoils of a wasted lifeAll of this for youAll the world has closed her eyesTired faith all worn and thinFor all we could have doneAnd all that could have beenOcean pulls me closeAnd whispers in my earThe destiny I've choseAll becoming clearThe currents have their sayThe time is drawing nearWashes me awayMakes me disappearAnd I descend from graceIn arms of undertowI will take my placeIn the great belowI can still feel youEven so far away

The Summary Of Life
GREAT TRUTHS THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED: 1) No matter how hard you try, you can't baptize cats.. 2) When your Mum is mad at your Dad, don't let her brush your hair. 3) If your sister hits you, don't hit her back. They always catch the second person. 4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato. 5) You can't trust dogs to watch your food. 6) Don't sneeze when someone is cutting your hair. 7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time. 8) You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk. 9) Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts. 10) The best place to be when you're sad is Grandpa's lap. GREAT TRUTHS THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED: ! 1) Raising teenagers is like nailing jelly to a tree. 2) Wrinkles don't hurt. 3) Families are like fudge...mostly sweet, with a few nuts 4) Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut that held its ground.. 5) Laughing is good exercise. It's like jogging on the inside. 6) Middle age is when you choose your cereal for the fib

Deadly Premonitions Premier August 7th!
Deadly Premonitions, another Dr. Squid masterpiece, will be premiering at the Northern Lights Theater Pub in Salem, Oregon on August 7th at 9:30 PM. This is the movie with my first ever (on film) lesbian love scene. i also die topless. Now, if that isn't enough to get you to the movies, i don't know what is, lol! As always the cover is $3 and they have BEER! Hope to see you there!

Bleh...
I'm the happiest I've been in a long time...things seem to be coming together...well except for having that whole job thing...but I'm working on it. I went to the dr today for a new sleeping med...*crosses fingers* I hope this one actually works. Insomnia really is a slow death lol. So yeah, nothing really awesome to report...I know I'm not around too much anymore but life can get in the way sometimes...but i ♥ you guys =)

My Mother
You know everyone fears the day when one of their parents pass away. Well im no different. It happened o March 9th this year. My mother was 72 years old and have a heart attack due to kemo therpy after recovering from breast cancer.I know that it must have been time for my mom to go but i hate that i had to lose her. I know that she will always know that i love her and miss her. i just need to express my feelings. I LOVE YOU MAMA. You will be missed rest in peace

Rolex And Timex
A blonde moment A girl was visiting her blonde friend, who had acquired Two new dogs, and asked her what their names were. The blonde responded by saying that one was named Rolex and one was named Timex. Her friend said, 'Whoever heard of someone naming dogs like that?' 'HELLLOOOOOOO......,' answered the blond. 'They're watch dogs!'

"death, Life"
It stalks the night It stalks the day It seeks out life And whisks it away It's known as death And other things too But it's all the same What matters is you. How do you see it? What does it mean? It's best if you know For death is unseen. It can take you at day It can take you at night Knowing death well Can lend you some light The passage to death Is always unclear And it's best to know That you're very near. For death is at hand It is for us all Know it's face well So you don't stumble and fall Now think hard on death And know that it's near And the meaning of life Will be all to clear And that is to live For your hearts desire Not to stumble or fall But to burn with a fire. A fire for life To live for each day To reach for your dreams No matter what people say Life is a question And death holds a clue Reach not for the answer For your life's not due Live for the moment And die for it too For it's the moment that counts It, and you Now I'm

21st Century People,uuugh!!!!!
"I PREFACE THIS BLOGPOST WITH THIS;AND WHOSOEVER SHALL SPEAK A WORD AGAINST THE SON OF MAN SHALL BE FORGIVEN HIM:BUT UNTO HIM WHO BLAPHEMES AGAINST THEHOLY SPIRIT SHALL NOT BE FORGIVEN!!!!!'AND WHEN THEY BRING YOU UNTO THE SYNAGOGUES,AND UNTO MAGISTRATES,AND POWERS,TAKE NO THOUGHT HOW OR WHAT THING YOU SHALL ANSWER,OR WHAT YOU SHALL SAY:FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT SHALL TEACH YOU IN THE SAME HOUR WHAT YOU OUGHT TO SAY!!!!!"LUKE 12:10-12MERCY UNTO YOU,ANDD PEACE,AND LOVE,BE MULTIPLIED!!!!!'BBELOVED,WHEN I GAVE A-L-L DILIGENCE TO WRITE UNTO YOU OF THE COMMON ALVATION,IT WAS NEEDFUL FOR MR TO WRITE UNTO YOU,AND DE-X-H-O-R-T YOU THHAT YOU SHOULD EARNSETLY CONTEN FOR THE F-A-I-T-H WHICH WAS ONCE DDELIVERED UNTO THE SAINTS!!!!!"FOR THERE ARE CERTAIN MEN CREPT IN UNAWARE,WHO WERE BBEFORE OF OLD ORDAINED TO THIS CONDEMNATION,UNGODLY MEN,TURNING THE GRACE OF OUR GOD INTO LASCIVIOUSNESS AND DENYING THE O-N-L-Y LORD GOD,AND O-U-R LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!!!"I WILL THEREFORE PUT YOU IN REMEMBERANACE,THOUGH YOU

Feeling Uninspired....
sucks left sweatry nipples.... :( *sigh* The hotel had to have tight buds so that the arrangements looked top form for Thursday... I didn't take pics cause most of the arrangements weren't blooming yet .... *sigh* and here I sit..not wanting to design the leftovers... *sigh* at least with all this sighing, I'm getting air to the noggin. ♥ Postal

Care 4 U
Y should it bother me so much y do I care so much about youy am I checking my messages seeing if you were thinking about me like I am thinking about youwhat did u do to me that got me all crazy doing things I would have done as a teen checkin my phone voicemail checkin my texts checking my email my yahoo msn even my AOL yeah AOL havent signed into that one in bout a year dont even give that address out. But jus n case, maybe, u never know u just might have gotta checkno! still no word from you, still no messages, no message no bottle no answer no answers to the ones I sent but Y do I care so much Y does it matter so muchY should I care that u r having a fun time doing what ur doing visiting who ur visiting seeing who ur seeing doing the things ur doing with the people that ur doing them with....Y do I care so much. Y do I light up when U do leave me a message a short hello how was ur day how u doin but it does n I dowe're both with someone else n I wouldn't change that for nothing in

What Do You Bring With You?
My prison, my freedom, my darkness, my morning star, mixture of breeze and storm, that’s the way I love you. Is you my passion and my heart, May’s rain or winters’ sun? What are you giving me, what do you bring with you? Maybe delight, poison. Lover of love, I would like to be the morning glory that climbs up your skin of silk and the one to drink your passion.

Happy Friends Day!
Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.With lovebestmoviestar

Does Anyone Have A Heart Pls Read
i made this website to actually raise money i figured if everyone got the word out and send a $1 each and passed my site out this is an actual site i made for the cause of everything u can think of on here thats why i did it i did some research now i have this kool site to raise money now i need some help whos with me its going to everyonethat needs help with money for a place to live,food,bills,anything they need this assistance forhttp://www.yourcause.com/anglewingscourtney

First Time
The clock read a little after 1am. My eyes felt heavy and the slight chill in the air made the hairs on my chest and arms bristle. After two beers and three movies, I was tired, but every nerve sung with excitement and anticipation. I had come over just to spend time with you, and though you had promised to be good, my heart secretly wished for something else. You insisted that I stay, not even waiting for a response before you threw the bolt on the door. Taking my hand, you led me to your room and you settled down into the bed. I quietly stripped off my clothes, down to my boxers, and crawled in behind you. Circling your waist with my left arm, I pulled you against the crook of my body and nuzzled your neck. You moaned softly and turned you head towards me to find my lips. An involuntary shiver ran through me; my abs tightened and my body curved in a stretching twist. One soft kiss begat another, and another, until soon our hands roamed greedily and our mouths gained momentum.

This Blows
Libra - July 20, 2009You have reached one of the most climactic times of year in regard to love and romance, dear Libra. This is the time when the dream that you have been working toward finally materializes, or you realize that all your efforts are a complete failure. All depends on how you played your cards over the past few months. This is one of those moments of reckoning when you are faced with reality; you must bring your ship down to the landing pad and check in with the base.

My Lot In Life.....
...........is to be alone.....apparently. They say bad luck always comes in three's. ok, so I lost my job, lost my boyfriend..... what's next? fuggit.....maybe I should get back into promoting. I never even thought about dating anyone while I was promoting. All I thought about was my next gig. I truely wish I had better control over my heart. shit :(

The Things I Come Up With In A&p Lecture...
The Progress of Obsession Mutual attractionA meeting of the mindsLeading to seductionOf thoughts intertwined Wrestling with a conscienceMarred by self-hateClouded judgment clearingLife wanted to take Hating the controlSomehow they gainedClearing now the skiesRevealing a psyche maimed Words sharpen the biteOf wielding mind's bladeGun at a knife fightA soul unjustly slain Possession become impossibleA bloody oath swornSince he cannot have herSoon everyone will mourn As yet Untitled... Curiosity brings a certain interestA desire to familiarize the unknownWith proximity come comfortThus the seeds of attraction are sown Mutual wants convalesceThe fibers of two lives together weaveFinding in each other solaceFrom the real world comes reprieve Each has their own colorsFlaws and secrets spiralA delicate dance unfurlsDemons released so feral The gates have been openedBy the mingling of the threadsOne longs for her with hope andThe other for him tears shed Together only in dreamsIn

Free Issue Of Online Pagan Man Adult Magazine
Finally after what seems like forever we have finally got our free issue of Paganman Magazine done and ready. Hope you take a minute to look and enjoy. I would always love feedback. Any of you who want to send the link to friends let me know as we will pay you money to do so :P Here is link goodness: www.paganman.com/freeissue Thanks all. Much love!

Who's Your Favourite Hottie??
Attention girls!! Do you have what it takes to become fubars favourite hottie??? Send your favourite picture of you, or link one, and include some words on why you are a great hottie (not just a great 2nd alarm hottie, but hottie in general). Send it to homepage in a private message. What the prizes will be I will get back too, have to ask around to get some donations;) If you know any that would wanna donate something great to the winner, let me know and I will find a way to repay the favour.. The contest will start August 1st and last for 1 week. Everyone can vote, but only once for each girl. ( To vote type yes in the comment box under the pic which will be in a special folder.) We want as many of you girls to participate. So come on girls, this will be fun:) Xoxo Annipoo

Lmao
A certain male wannabe mummer came and checked me out this weekend. He rated me a 10 and that is all. What makes this funny is that I am still blocked and it was a shock to see him online after all this time off. The doctor is back and it will only be a matter of time before he does one of two things... 1. Post a mumm 2. Go check out Bounty to bask in BH's naked glory...this ought to be fun

Employment History
To pass the time while our plane was being de-iced, the flight attendants played a trivia game with the passengers. They asked us to guess the total number of years the three of them had worked for the airlines. After an attendant collected our estimates, we heard the announcement: "The correct answer is 26 years. For the two people who came closest with 28 years, we have prizes. And for the passenger in seat 12F who guessed 85 years, would you please step off the plane once we are airborne."

Addiction Conspiracy
I spent a good chunk of the weekend helping a friend deal with quitttting smoking 'cold turkey'. (Imanaged this last August on my own) She didn't think she'd need help, she thought i was trying to get her into bed, but ultimately she did, and she was able to get through the first 72 hrs. which means the real chemical addiction is past. For those of you who have never bee through this, and believe me I congratulate you, and for those thinking they will try, let me describe it... I'm not doing this to scare you, just prepare you. Day 1 first 8hrs... gnawing... think long meeting no break, can't leave x 100. if you've never been there... think gotta pee, no place to go. 8-12 hrs. your first fit... willing to drive your head through a wall. Between 12-15hrs... the real withdrawl begins... crying, nausea, fits... screaming yelling... self inflicted injury, finally fitful sleep... Day 2 is an all day event of withdrawl... time seems to drag on so slowly you count each second in the d

Jessica
It all happened 3 years ago for the first time in my life i was able to say i love u without feeling scared. I started to talk to this girl named jessica i had many fun moments with her. One the last day of school i told her how i felt she said she couldnt c me more then as a friend. In that point and time I was sad but i didnt stop. We kept in touch till about 2 weeks ago when i tried to talk to her she said she would call me back I knew that was the last time i would here from her. I know she has had it rough and all i just wanted to b there 4 her and i think to myself how could i b that guy. And it occured to me that i could never b. I had always been there 4 her aparently that didnt matter but its cool im strong at heart and im not letting that hurt me. I guess this is y nice guys like me and others out there dont go ahead and say what they feel cause of things like these. Its not easy u know, its hard the heart is not a toy to b messed with so dont b like jessica and keep happy gu

Fake Azz Clowns
OK ... LET ME GET SOMETHiNG RiGHT!!!YA'LL KNOW i HAVE A PROBLEM WiTH JUGGAHOS!!!YES i REALLY DO!!CAUSE ALL THiS FAKE AZZ CLOWNS SUX BiG BALLS! AND LiKE YA'ALL NOTiCED ... WikdClownz69 & HornyJuggalo ARE iN MY FAMiLY! NOW READ WHAT TYPE OF CLOWNS i DONT LiKE. iTS ALL ABOUT THE WANNABES ... NOT THE ORiGiNAL ONES! SO STOP FUKKiN CALLiN ME BAD NAMES AND STUFF!! Pierce County park visitors assaulted by gang of thugsBy Jennifer SullivanSeattle Times staff reporterFor several nights last month, a group of thugs with black hooded sweat shirts pulled tight over their heads, including at least one in "angry" clown makeup, terrorized visitors to Pierce County's Fort Steilacoom Park, police say.The group cried "woo, woo, Juggalo" as they assaulted park visitors with a machete and fists. They stole cellphones, cash and wallets and even threatened to cut their victims' heads off, according to court documents.So far, two men and a woman have been charged with robbery and assault fo

Two Things
I am often called upon to give advice. I say I am called upon, though it may be in fact that people just want to bitch and I see this as an opportunity to fix their problems so I won't have to hear about them anymore, but I digress. When I give advice the two most common things I tell people are: Pick your battles Cut your losses Picking your battles refers to making the choice on whether or not you want conflict over a particular matter. Some people think this to mean only challenge when you think you can win, or when you know in your heart of hearts that you are absolutely 100% correct. I do not think this is the case, my own personal recommendation is only seek conflict when you think the outcome of that conflict can actually cause a difference. For example, I see many a person that sport anti-immigration slogans, here in New York, which is basically all immigrants since the Dutch bought the island over 300 years ago. Now I know I am correct when pointing out that fact

Why I Hate Golf
I have a friend, Bobby, who is an avid golfer. Because I play hockey, he felt that I would naturally take to the sport because of similar mechanics to the game. So, at his encouragement, I gave it a try. I spent a couple thousand buying the best clubs, bag, time at the driving range, ect. I began to get fairly good and competative. One morning I went out to play 18, but I just wasn't feeling my best. I decided to call it a day after just 9 holes. I headed home to find another car parked out in front of my house. Sneaking in, I crept throughthe downstairs to hear two people upstairs. I crept upstairs and down teh hall to my bedroom where the door was cracked. I peeked in and on my bed, Bobby was screwing my girlfriend! I was pissed! I burst through the door like a wild man!. Surprised, Bobby had no fight so I grabbed him by the man hood and drug him out the door, down the stairs and through th kitchen into the garage. There, I stuck his johnson in a vise and squeezed it real tight, Cry

I Really Have To Wonder...
Last summer I was "seeing" this guy for about two months. By "seeing" I mean sleeping with and hanging out with every single dang day and then he one day poofed. I didn't really mind, as I wasn't in the mood for a man in the first place. But we've kept in touch randomly via text messaging and such and I happen to be friends with his cousin. Anyways, an entire year has passed and suddenly I get a text message from him telling me that he was falling in love with me last year and became scared. This is his excuse for one day just disappearing. He loved me. Now, what's the most humerous part is that he's just letting me know. He isn't telling me because he wants us to get together or anything. He was just "letting me know". WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?

Bringing Home Baby
Just a little over a week ago I added an addition to my life. Someone had thrown a baby kitten out of their car at a gasa station. I was asked if I would be willing to take it since I had no pets. I really didn't know how little this kitten actually was. Her eyes were open and she was walking around but upon taking her to the vet she weighed less than half of a pound . They didn't know how old she was. Just a few weeks. She didn't eat and at first had to be fed with a tiny baby bottle. This happened on the weekend and as the ugly head of the monster called work drew closer, I realised I couldn't leave the baby alone. As luck would have it my gf said that her kids volunteered to watch it. Like taking a baby to the babysitter, I packed up it's formula, antibiotics, toys,and food and litter box and took all to the sitter's house. I think they were ready to kill me after a few days. I guess I should have told them that they can't tie a kitten down. They named her "Precious". It h

Water Therapy - Benefits Of Water Therapy | Water Therapy Information
Water Therapy has magical effects in curing diseases. Everybody has experienced a positive change in their health after implementing water therapy in their daily routine. You can never believe it before practicing.How to do Water Therapy?Man Drinking WaterEarly morning, after you get up from bed, (without even brushing your teeth) drink 1.50 liters of water i.e. 5 to 6 glasses. You may wash your face thereafter. This is called water therapy.Here it is very essential to note that nothing else, neither drinks nor solid food of any sort should be taken within 1 hour before and after drinking these 1.5 liters of water. It is also to be strictly observed that no alcoholic drinks shall be taken the previous night.If required, boiled and filtered water may be used for this purpose. Is it possible to drink 1.50 liters of water at one time? To begin with, one may find it difficult to drink 1.50 liters of water at one time, but one will get used to it gradually.Initially, while practicing you ma

My Everything
In the summer breeze the wind whipsers your name,moonlite nights and stars so bright dont compare to your beauty.My heart beats for your love,My soul reaches for your touch,To have the never ending embrace.My love for you streams down apond my life, such as a waterfall fills the pooled water below.Your beauty and grace is comparable only to natures,and takes my breath away everytime.With you I feel as though I'm flying,soaring so high nothing can bring me down.My feelings for you so strong, they are unbreakable by anyone.Lying with you would be pure heaven to me,Holding you in my arms are dreams someday will come true.Eternity is how I see our future together to be,With you I have all I need and will ever want.You are my love, my life, my world, my everything.

Survival Guide For Taking A Dump At Work
Survival Guide for Taking a Dump at Work We've all kicked back in our cubicles and suddenly felt something a brew down below. As much as we try to convince ourselves, the WORK POOP is inevitable, hence the reason youʼre sitting here right now. For those of you who hate pooping at work as much as I do, I give you this Work Poop Survival Guide. Memorize these definitions and pooping at work will become a pure pleasure! ESCAPEE - Definition: A fart that slips out while taking a leak at the urinal or forcing poop in a stall. This is usually accompanied by a sudden wave of panic/embarrassment. This is similar to the hot flash you receive when passing an unseen police car and speeding. If you release an escapee, do not acknowledge it. Pretend it did not happen. If you are standing next to the farter at the urinal, pretend that you did not hear it. No one likes an escapee, it is uncomfortable for all involved. Making a joke or laughing makes both parties feel uneasy. JAILBREAK (Use

The Flu
Natural Cures For the Flu - More Than Home Remedies A half teaspoon of Colloidal Silver for kids and a teaspoon for adults can be swallowed to ease or eliminate flu symptoms. If you take colloidal silver regularly, you may never get the flu. AND/OR At the first sign of a flu, put a few drops of 3% hydrogen peroxide into each ear, one ear at a time. Keep the solution in for 10 minutes or until the bubbling stops. Your temperature should start dropping within minutes, and your flu should be gone within 12 to 14 hours. NOTE: Do not put liquids into your ears if you have a ruptured ear drum. AND/OR Diffusing Oil of Oregano will either keep the flu away entirely or at least dramatically decrease its severity and duration. To diffuse oregano essential oil, put some water into the aromatherapy diffuser, add five drops of the oil, and light a candle underneath. Once you see a mist rising from the diffuser, keep the mixture burning for at least 20 minutes, even i

Natural Cures For Depression - More Than Home Remedies
IT IS NORMAL Everyone may get depressed occasionally when life gets tough. It is normal to be depressed if you lost a loved one, lost a good job, are having financial trouble, etc. Treat yourself to a little chocolate, which contains a chemical that will lift your mood. Just don't go overboard and cause more problems from too much sugar). Get plenty of exercise. Keep your regular schedule. Get up and go to bed at the same times you normally would - unless your routine had included depriving yourself of enough sleep. Force yourself to look your best. You will feel better when you look good and dress nicely. It surely helps some people to count their blessings and realize that many in the world have an even tougher life. CHRONIC DEPRESSION Chronic depression is different - it comes more often or lasts longer. St. John's Wort will help. A normal dosage is 300 mg, three times per day. But, this can take weeks to fully build up in your system. There are other things that you can do

The Dark Swallows
Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer The dark swallows will return their nests upon your balcony, to hang. And again with their wings upon its windows, Playfully, they will call. But those who used to slow their flight your beauty and my happiness to watch, Those, that learned our names, Those... will never come back!

Common Cold
THE COMMON COLD Natural Cures For the Common Cold - More Than Home Remedies All of the natural cures for a cold listed below are most effective if used at the first sign that a cold is starting. But, they will all be of some help if you start later. A half teaspoon of Colloidal Silver for kids and a teaspoon for adults should be taken at the first sign of a cold. But, we had a full-blown cold and cough disappear by morning. AND/OR At the first sign of a cold, put a few drops of 3% hydrogen peroxide into each ear, one ear at a time. Keep the solution in for 10 minutes or until the bubbling stops. Your temperature should start dropping within minutes, and your cold should be gone within 12 to 14 hours. NOTE: Do not put liquids into your ears if you have or ever have had a ruptured or perforated ear drum. AND/OR When you first get the feeling that you may be starting a cold, begin taking zinc, extra Vitamin C with rose hips, and garlic (you can get odorless

What I Need To Do To.....
I've been doing a whole lot of thinking in the past hours, and I have an idea what I need to do. I need to fix myself before I help other people, cause I have a lot of growing up and learning to do. So I'm gonna just stay away from women and leave relationships alone until I get myself straighten up. So I'm not accepting any applications, I'm just gonna do me for now on, cause just like I said, I got a lot of growing up to do and a lot of soul searching cause I'm a real bad mess, and bad with women. I don't have any other choice. I smother them way too much and Amy's right. I should learn how to give people space. So I'm gonna work on myself and get therapy. I'm making things worse as it is, cause I'm bad at dealing with women or people in general.

About Me To All
I was born June 7, 1973 to Patricia Ann and William David Jordan. Growing up life was hell for me. Growing up I was physically attacked by a bully non stop on a daily basis having lunch money stolen every day and then having my nose broken every afternoon by the same bully just for having scoliosis, being legally blind 20/200 vision right eye and left eye not much better, and for having attention deficit disorder. The taunting continued through my high school years where I was gang tackled by the school football team and beat on by the players and called awful names by both faculty and students. I was not the best student in school due to my A.D.D but only three people out of the entire school’s faculty believed I would make it in that cruel outside world. One was a guidance counselor who I truly owe a debt of thanks along with my History and Latin teachers. While in that school I was placed in classes that made me feel all but worthless due to being placed in learning disable

Random Megan Facts
Your name:Megan Marie TrustyOldest/youngest/or middle sibling:youngest middle childYour dad's name:John David Trusty-HaskettWhat kind of phone do you have?verizonFavorite type of music:Country and Melodic Death MetalHow many pillows do you sleep with?as man as I can get my paws on, but usually just two.What do you find most of in your room?mismatched socks or wires...How many piercings do you have?3 *ears are guaged to 1/4 inch, then my tongue*Who is your neighbor across the street?Rena and DavidDo you dye your hair?never have Own a pair of skinny jeans?um, ew, now lolHow many cell phones have you owned?2What were you doing this morning at 8am?taking the dogs outsideWhat are you wearing?wifebeater, bra, jammie pants, and socksAre you mad at anyone right now?kinda...Last person to send you a text?JeannineHow many different drinks have you had today?water, tea, milk, and ummmmm...... pink raspberry lemonade Do you draw your name in the sand while your at the beach?not mine noWhat are y

Moon
If you like the sort of movie that is a sci-fi movie, but instead of being lots of lasers and explosions and cgi, is instead old-school model work, good acting and a plot that is about things, like what they used to make in the 70s, and has Sam Rockwell in it being very good, and is about a man that works on the Moon on his own and it's made him go a little bit funny in the head (possibly), and is just sheer quality from beginning to end, and makes you hanker for a time in cinema when films were genuinely very good indeed, then you would probably enjoy 'Moon', which I saw at the weekend and was rather super.

The Dragons Moon [7-20-09]
SOARING THROUGH A STAR LIT SKYTHOUGHTS OF HER SHINE DOWN UPON MEOVERSHADOWING EVERYTHINGOVERFLOWING DESIRESSTARING AT THE MOONLONGING TO STARE INTO YOUR EYESJUST ONE MORE TIMETHE HEART BEATS FOR ITEVER SINCE THAT FATEFUL DAYWHEN EVERYTHING CHANGED FOR USHER VOICE STOPS ME IN MY TRACKSHER PRESENCE DRIVES ME CRAZYUNTIL THAT SPECIAL DAYSHES MORE THAN MY OTHER HALFSHES MY MOONLIGHT ILLUMINATING MY NIGHT SKYAND IM HER DRAGONSTAKING FLIGHT OVER THE ENDLESS SEA OF DESTINYAS THE BOND GROWS STRONGERHOPING WE LAST FOREVER AND BEYOND...

And The Sky Cried
Down fell the rain in sheets, careless to those below it. People curled up beneath their shawls, suddenly chilled to the bone. And the sky cried. It cried without relent. It cried for the loss, for the sacrifice, for the fate of Jesus Christ. The Sky cried because God hurt, though he knew what was to come and what had to be done. His son, himself in the flesh with power given to him, did not defy his fathers’ wishes. He gave himself over to the men who had no clue what power he beheld at the whim of a thought. Had Jesus wanted to, he could have eradicated the entire Roman army. He could have made the Pharisees tremble in trepidation. But that was domination, a counterpart of evil, and he simply defied those thoughts. He allowed them to beat him. He allowed them to flog him with leather and metal spikes, tearing him to the bones. He allowed them to spit on him, and he carried his cross not by force, but by choice. For he was of his Father God. And he would complete the task that h

[2 1/2 Things]
*sips his almond milk*Ah~ this is what being a Zeon is all about.Playing with my SUPERIOR Gouf Custom, and blowing shit up.Two good things today... two and a half good things1. I bought a MSG strategy/squad/shooter today for $8.I played it for about ... 8 hours today, and got through half of one campaign. It is BADASS! I'm not usually much for constrictive limited resource environments in games but- heyI got a Gouf Custom. That means a shield with a GATLING GUN ATTACHED >< and some other bad assed toys. That sucker flies around the field compared to the other suits too.So... I'll forgive it.2. I made almond milk. It's... really one of the simplest albeit time heavy beverages I've ever had. And my word it is tasty.You take a 2:3 ratio of water and blanched almonds. Blend, fridge overnight, heat, strain, add sugar and cinnamon.Also... I'm left with a large amount of almond paste, which I think I'll use to make ghorba. It's a spice cookie.It's actually a very similar process to making coc

If I Were Sadness In Human Form
If Sadness were a human being, it would be me. I would greet you with a weighted smile. I would listen to your woes, for no woes shock me. I would touch your heart, and steer you away from the pain, from me and what I reflect. I would lift you up as I sank further down. I would save you from the very thing that makes into me. For if I were sadness, I would warn you. I know the feeling in my core and it is despair and I would flag you down. “Do not approach me, for I am too much”, I would warn you. Spare yourself. I would not make a very efficient reaper for I wouldn’t take one soul. Rather I would plead, stay away, take a different road, put that glass down, make a different decision. I am glad that I am not Sadness in human form. I am glad I am not the Reaper. Because I wouldn’t dare spread to you what I am, what I feel, what drags me down.

Serial Killers
Minds of mad men. Who knows what sparks their devilish deeds. Somewhere in time, something is missing from them. Then you add stereotypical abuse from a complete loser parent’s who doesn’t even realize that he or she is creating a monster. And *Poof*, in time you just may have a serial killer. Someone whose inner hurt shrouds out all ability to have sympathy or compassion. Someone who seems to bleed their pain out only by bleeding out others. Someone who forgets their lack of validation when they indulge in a sadistic practice of torture killing. It is a process of dominating, conquering, and laying to waste lesser beings in hopes that there somewhere lye’s their own self validation and pleasure. Serial Killers are a special kind of monster. For one they are very real. Not like Vampires or Zombies. You cannot shut the book on something so real, and sleep easy at night. They wish to exact ultimate suffering amid ultimate fear and then discard you as if you were simply

Hahahahaha Wtf?!?!?
http://albuquerque.craigslist.org/w4m/1278339300.html This is exactly what I am NOT looking for. If you recognize yourself in this list, please DO NOT send me an e-mail. If you … have served time in jail or prison are married are in an open relationship have kids (sorry – it’s not about the kids; it’s about your ex-wife/gf, who is a huge part of that package deal) live with your ex-wife/gf don’t have your own checking account consider frozen meat and Mountain Dew a meal have atrocious table manners don’t like dogs don’t like cats don’t like vegetarians have not read a book in the last 3 months (magazines do NOT count) identify yourself as “a Christian man” describe yourself as “lonely” post ads that include the words “massage” or “cuddling” post ads promising to “treat you like a princess” are looking to get married, settle down and have kids don’t like sports don&r

People With No One To Hold
Many people are lonely we all know that for a fact, but giving people a chance can better a relationship and with luck the person could find someone to be with and hold. Lonelyness is the steping stone b4 reaching happyness so hold on people b happy.

Very Unhappy
Hello there I'm in a lesbian relationship for 8 months now! I am very unhappy. More than I ever was. I have totally lost myself in this. Here's the stroy. I fell in love with this girl from England, she was married to another woman. She left the marriage for me and moved to Switzerland to stay with me. In the very beginning I started to have jealousy issues with her past (she has been with 6 guys and 2 girls) and I couldn't deal with her saying she's gay but she's had that past with guys. So, we had these problems for like 4-5 months of our relationship. We are both aquarius and of course, none of us would back down and we started to hurt each other with lies and exaggerations. One month ago she broke up with me for like 1-2 hours to go and sleep with a guy to get some release from all the drama we had. It smashed me to the ground. She blames me because I wouldn't stop talking about guys (because of my jealousy) and that I basically drove her into his arms. It was an encounter tho bu

Starting Point
building model cars is something i have been doing since high school. it was part of a class project to build a model car. i think the first one i did was a 1966 ford fairlane. and from then on i was hooked. i might not build show winners or contest worthy cars but it is something that i enjoy doing. i don't have too many places to show off what i build so i was hoping to start posting pics of what i have been building lately. not too many places carry car model cars anymore so i have to find them wherever i can. usually i pick them up at yard sales and second hand stores. right now i estimate i have about 200-300 kits in my collection. plus about 3 trunks full of parts. what i find most fun is finding a kit that isn't complete and putting my own spin on it. so now what i am gonna try to do is post pics of some of the projects i have worked on and share them with the rest of the world. i hope you enjoy them as much as i have enjoyed bringing them to you.

So Alone
So alone in my bedAlone listening to nightly whispersAlone in my thoughtsAlone standing in courtAlone I stand and fight Alone I pray for rainbow lightsAlone in the morning I awakeAlone I celebrate my joysAlone I cry out my sadnessAlone I voice out my fearsAlone in strenghtAlone in wealthAlone in good healthAlone I try to understandAlone I seek knowledgeAlone I share what is mineAlone I try not to be aloneAlone when my time has come, I pass away.....................

Uh Huh. Just As I Suspected!
When Burr Oak Cemetery went up for sale in 2001, the Illinois comptroller's office found money missing from trust funds at both the Alsip cemetery and at a Calumet Park cemetery owned by a company seeking to buy Burr Oak, a state official confirmed Saturday. The comptroller, which does some regulation of cemeteries, was alerted to the alleged irregularities in a maintenance trust fund at Cedar Park Cemetery, which was operated by Perpetua Holdings of Illinois Inc., office spokesman Alan Henry confirmed Saturday. Perpetua was seeking to buy Burr Oak at the time. James E. Becker, a former Perpetua employee, had sent a letter asking the comptroller to investigate his claims before clearing the sale of Burr Oak to Perpetua. The comptroller's office scrutinized the trust fund practices at Cedar Park and Burr Oak cemeteries, Henry said. In addition to uncovering "minor'' violations at Cedar Park, Henry said, an audit revealed that the former owners of Burr Oak had made $400,000 in illega

Bullshit!
As the chilling grave-reselling scandal at Burr Oak Cemetery unfolded over the last 1½ weeks, the company that owns the historic site in Alsip has been virtually silent -- even as authorities repeatedly blasted the company. But Saturday, 10 days after the scandal broke, officials with the owner, Perpetua Holdings of Illinois, gave the first extensive public defense of their actions. They denied claims they had stopped running the cemetery and did little to help the thousands of families who have loved ones buried at Burr Oak and are now looking for answers. Trudi McCollum Foushee, a management consultant for Perpetua who was in charge of day-to-day operations at Burr Oak, pointed out it was a company groundskeeper who discovered the first piece of evidence in the case -- a partial skull -- in an unused section of the cemetery in late May. Foushee said she immediately notified police. Four employees were arrested July 8 and accused of pocketing $300,000 in the scheme, in which bodies

This One Goes Out To Those Who Arent Afraid To Be Real
you all know who you are-- those of you out there that dont need a sugar daddy or a sugar momma to get you bling or to pay your go phone bill those of you out there that dont need to constantly flash these dumb ass status messages like "whomever loves me will put me on top with an HH"....whatever LOL (now I'm not bashing any of my family members..I'm talking about the players out there) show some fucking courage and self esteem and say "fuck it! i know who I am!, my cup size doesnt determine how many friends, family, or fans I get"(that's right players, I'm talking to you" and those of us that know we are real can look at ourselves in the mirror, and not hang our heads low just because we got played, but can hold our heads up high and say "good riddance to bad trash" those of us out there that are real are comfortable in our own skin, and don tmind showing a little bit of skin, because we know we're damn proud of ourselves because we are real, and not those that hide behind that be

My Beaner Babies
My ex-husband always called our kids this nickname. He was born and rasied in Mexico and I never thought anything of it. Not til I called my daughter that at the store the other day and received a very nasty look from some woman. Now,am I being racist or politically incorrect? I don't think I am. I feel that if he always called them that and it was okay then it shouldn't be a problem for me to do the same. Maybe I am wrong,but do I look like I really give a shit anymore? Everything is politically incorrect now. Fuck it! They will always be my beaner babies and I am thinking it was a good thing I didn't call her my dry back baby like used to do also.

I Will Never Follow
If there is ia Hell, and I KNOW THERES NOT, I would NEVER worship any so called god that put his children through that type of pain and torture. That is NO KIND of parental love. I would rather burn in Hell than worship a psychopath that would do that sort of thing. Aliens? I don't know...I know the Greys can be bastards but why would they be torturing people to that extent?

Summer Has Been A Bust Of Sorts
Ok, I don't k now what the hell is the deal with the weather here, but this is getting ridiculous, my arms & shoulders hurt and wonder if the weather is changing again, this summer has not been good at all butwhatever is going on , if it's arthritis hereI'll fight it till the day I die, with or without medication & moving around as much as I can too, with or without someone's help here too!

My Chinese Symbol, Survey Says:
Thomas took the What Chinese Symbol Are You?? quiz and got the result: Love!!.. Love!!: You love to be loved. and you love to love people!! Your probably one of the best people to be mates with, you know what to say to put a smile on people faces!!

"the Dream"
I finally crawled into bed last night, late. With visions of you still in my head. Anticipation pounding in my heart. All my senses filled with your existence.As I escaped into the dream world I know so well,I took you with me.We walked down the beach together. Our hands touching and our hearts bonding through them.The wind kissing our faces gently. The sand giving way under our feet.The warmth in our hearts that only a poet would understand.Finding an oasis in the never ending edge of the world,We sit beneath the giant tree, on the patch of thick grass that seems to have been put there just for us. We talked for what seems to be hours. Never running out of things to say, feelings to share, thoughts to exchange.I reach out to touch you and you stop my hand with yours. Our fingers touch. Our hands envelop each other. Almost as though they were making love to each other. Our fingers dancing. Our eyes gazing into each others. A soft and gentle smile exchanged.Our bodies seemingly without

Cycle Of The Season
As we open our eyes and realize, life comes to an endCycle of the season is to us but an evil friendWe laughed in her face for many years, without even caringConsequences are here the world that we live inJust look around your block and you will see the struggleLittle girl selling their body just to smoke in a bottleYet we go through this without caring cause it's none of our businessMom and dad don't even care so why bein' a witnessAnd as our sympathy decrease we lead the blind through of visionAgony will be our death whether you're Muslim or ChristianSee baby cries, baby gets, babies parents are missingEither gone or forgotten cause that's world were we live inAnd after all, life's a flash and then we die on your ownMake a promise to God, maybe he'll leave you aloneSo who's to blame in the end if you're the last on earthTake a look in the mirror, you'll see how much truth hurtsYou're so consumed in your own world so you ignore realityThere is true evil that is out there but you don't

Grindcore
I got a minute on my time so I'm gonna make it quickGrab any kid in front of her mother to suck my dickAnd as the infant chokes on my semen, their very last breathSwallow it down and enjoy the elixir of deathStill blood thirsty mommies lucky that she's got a baby in herPress the belly really gently as she emptied out her bladderBaby slide out the womb covered in blood and gutsCut 'em up, slice 'em down, make eat his baby nutsThen I took the little corpse and put it back in her bellySewed the bitch up cause the bitch had said that she wanted her babyAnd I ripped one of her eyes right out of her fuckin' socketWiped the blood with my finger cause she couldn't see shitAnd to finish it I ripped the jaw straight off her headHad to put it back in place cause she had forgot what she saidSo mommies done, mommies crying, PreQuel couldn't care lessPreQuel killed, PreQuel laughed, PreQuel stabbed her in the chestClose your eyes, look around, nobody can hearGrinding in the house, where we feed off

07-19-2009
Well, here we are once again.....Again, with the exception of a few, VERY-VERY few, friends here; I have a plethora of friends on here that just seem to want to add me as a friend, as a notch in their belts. Well, boys and girls, THAT COMES TO AN END TOMORROW. I am DELETING those that have not stayed in contact with me, nor have even bothered with the occasional "Hello". Is that so trying? I know most of those in my friends list are on WAY late, but I am a father of 7, so I need my sleep. Even an occasional PM, letting me know you're ok and still alive, would be pleasant. OH WELL...Tomorrow, most of these are goners. I'm sick of this. Being a friend is not a GAME to me.

Dig Up Her Bone
The clock strikes midnight I'm holding myself tightAnd as the wind blows outside it fills my heart with frightI'm use to you being by my sideBut now I'm all alone and you're nowhere in sightI cry tears of blood at your graveI'd do anything to bring you back but now I'm enslavedTo a life of loneliness, tremendous painBelieve me when I say I'd give my life just to see you againThe demons took your life and now I'm all aloneNo friends, no family I live in an empty homeThe white pads and the jacket are okayBut it gets uncomfortable when I'm thinkin' of the painI'm gonna see in my mind now my hearts turned blackIf I get hold of the knife that murdered you I'd take it backBut if I can't have then nobody canSo please forgive me and believe me I'll see you on the other endI was on my wayThe product stings my veinsI'm gonna dig up her boneI'm not going to let her die die dieIt's been awhile ever since you've seen my faceNever should of pulled my mind you should have left me erasedEverytime I cl

My Book And Website
Hello, all! I haven't been around for a while. Been kinda busy. My book "Astral Force Rising" is coming soon from RoseDog Books. Read all about it at my new website: http://corwinnighthawk.com While you're there, stop by my contact page and leave me a message. Blessed Be, Corwin

The Glory
I am very humbled right now.I could have lost my father today.He wrecked his motorcycle on some train tracks today and wrecked at 40 miles per hour.He didnt have a helmet on and he usually wears one.He hit head first and slid on the pavement.People stopped who saw it and thought he was dead he hit so hard.He has a tiny bump on his head and a scratch on his stomach but walked away pretty much unhurt.He was on his way to our church.He is the pastor.He showed up his clothes werent even dirty.The only thing I noticed was his shoe got scraped up real bad.His bike even barely got a scratch on it.He still was able to preach his sermon and have a smile on his face.I give all the glory to GOD for being merciful to spare my father his life or serious injury.I had a bad feeling about my father riding a motorcyle.I've lost alot of friends on them.I thank God for knowing that my dad has work here to do and that we need him and not taking him.My parents are the greatest parents in the world and my f

The Problem
as you know i am no stranger to online romance and it has not exactly worked out well for me. but for some reason i am compelled to keep trying, but there is the biggest fear which is that the person the other end of the screen is having a good laugh at the sad person the other end.

Promotion From Coast To Coast
my brother's friend Dale Wolphin got his promotion as top carpet salesman. the man is part whale and part dolphin...yet he sells Berber like no ones business. swimming around the competition with speed and grace. almost like sonar of some sort. i need to paint his portrait. ive never done real life as a medium. hmm..

A Great Man Died Today
A great man died today I often wonder if there is a God how he decides who lives and dies. Today my uncle died. He was a reformed alcoholic who strived for over 20 years to fight his addiction. Some 20+ years ago he met a woman with 4 young daughters and married her. He raised those girls like his own. He them out of Cleveland away from the problems that this city can have. He bought a house and built it up for his new family. Eventually they added a son who just a few short weeks ago graduated from high school. What I don't understand is how murders and drug addicts can live for many, many years, while the good people seem to die way too early. If there really is a God, he is a very sadistic son of a bitch. He has robbed our family of 2 great men in just over 2 years, while people who don't deserve to live are still walking. I will miss you Uncle Jim. You are gone but definitely not forgotten.

Loneliness
Should I pretend to like a guy that is flirting with me even though he knows that I don't see him like that? I am also leaving in a month to go back to college out of state and more than likely will not see him when I come back to visit my home. Should I give in to him hitting on me or say back off.

Don't Trust Me Lyrics
Black dress, with tights underneath, I've got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth. And she's an actress(actress), but she ain't got no need.. She's got money from her parents in a trust fund back east. T-t-tongues, always pressed to your cheeks. While my tongue is on the inside of some other girl's teeth. Tell your boyfriend (boyfriend), if he says he's got beef, That I'm a vegetarian, and I ain't f**king scared of him. She wants to touch me (wahoo). She wants to love me (wahoo). She'll never leave me (wahoo, wahoo, hoo hoo). Don't trust a ho. Never trust a ho. Won't trust a ho. 'cause the ho won't trust me X's on the back of your hands, Washed them in the bathroom to drink like the bands, And the set list ou stole off the stage Has red and purple lipstick all over the page. B-b-bruises cover your arms Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm, And the best is, no one knows who you are. Just another girl alone at the bar. Sh

Your Eyes
Your Eyes They Say"the eyes are the windows to the soul" If this is the case,then your eyes are like a hot sharp blade cutting into my flesh,Heart and soul. it feels wonderful and is painful at the same time. So much so, I am lost in and with you for all time. JWR 7~19~09

A Heartwarming Story
An Iowa boy These are the Americans that make us great.... John works at the Cargill plant in Eddyville , Iowa , when he's not in Iraq . Wouldn't it be fitting if this went completely around the world!..... This needs to make headline news...not some of the other junk that makes the news these days!!! Like the Rosie O'Donell war of words...celeb weddings...who's not wearing undies...etc. It's a tough, but heartwarming story...with a picture of John Gebhardt in Iraq John Gebhardt's wife, Mindy, said that this little girl's entire family was executed. The insurgents intended to execute the little girl also, and shot her in the head...but they failed to kill her. She was cared for in John's hospital and is healing up, but continues to cry and moan. The nurses said John is the only one who seems to calm her down, so John has spent the last four nights holding her while they both slept in that chair. The girl is coming along with her healing. He is one of the real heroes of the war, a

Life Is So Short
about a month ago i found out that a girl i grew up with has a rare form of an aggresive cancer that isn't or doesn't go into remission. she just turned 30 and is a single mom with 2 kids. today we went to a benifit fund raiser for her family and children. it was amazing how many ppl turned out for the event. they had it at this small VFW hall in our area and there wasnt a place to sit. the 50/50 raffels alone raised 1600 bux. i was so moved. and then she showed up. it was so moving to see her there. she can't see all that well anymore and her hearing is very sensitive, but she is the bravest person i know. she isn't afraid to die, and isn't feeling sorry for herself. she has amazing faith in the Lord and i admire her for that. don't get me wrong, i too am a firm believer in God. but i don't know that at my age if i were in her shoes i'd not be afriad todie. i will continue to pray for her and her family until the Lord calls her home. she is so brave and she's going to be remembered

I Cant Help It...
i actually like to talk to people on here. i must be truly insane...but if that is indeed true then zang...im glad haha. i dont want to see how far a woman will go to eventually get naked on here. it really makes no sense other than instant gratification. and once that instance is gone..then what? another rate? hahah 0o0oh...show me your other cheek and i'll buy you a bling. the sarcasm is too easy haha. i know im on here all the time and should be making moves to get 11s and fu-bucks. i know thats how its supposed to be played on here but i like the idea of talking to folks that add me or that i rate and add. because...that just seems to be the point. not falling in love or the perfect match by seeing each other's "best side" in a picture at that haha. hell i know it happens but...nah not so much a driving force for me to always be online. i play with the things everyone can do on here...why not? but i believe its also ok to maybe have conversations at least with the pe

When You Fall Madly In Love
When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, heir hearts beat faster and deeper than normal. There is nothing unusual, They stare deep into each others eyes, silently telling one another that there must be no lies, and if there will be love and lust, there must be between us trust. Standing there only inches apart, no one or nothing else could be heard, not even a weep nor even a bird. When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, they fall head over heels, and not one feels like arguing, even when push comes to shove. You know the deal. They ignore it or them, and continue to pursue the other’s thoughts, and their feet seem like lead. Nothing or no one can separate them, no matter what they think or try to do. When Two Hearts Fall Madly In Love, that when they stand so close together, not even an inch apart. Their eyes meet, and they can feel each others body heat, and so quiet, they can even here the thumpity thump of their hearts beat. Sunshine rain or sno

Lustful Longing
Tell me what I'd have to change. Who would I have to be To slip into your arms; for you to make sweet love to me. Must I climb the highest cliff; swim along the ocean floor Crawl over broken glass - would you demand that I do more? Could you take me as I am, with my issues and my flaws Pull me to your chest without a hesitation or a pause? Slide your hungry tongue between my parted lips. Run your anxious fingers along my quivering hips. Wrap me in your passion, expose your every need. Press your steamy lips to mine, every secret freed. Sprinkle your tears across my cheek, confess every desire Moan my name, call me yours, and set my soul on fire. Need me more with every breath that slips into your chest, Please me nightly, miss me daily, never compare me with the rest. Grip my wrists; look in my eyes, and say the words I long to hear Kiss me roughly, and weep my name, forever hold me dear. Do I ask for wishes that could never quite come true? Is my sin, my greatest fault, that I can't s

The Dream
I finally crawled into bed last night, late. With visions of you still in my head. Anticipation pounding in my heart. All my senses filled with your existence. As I escaped into the dream world I know so well, I took you with me. We walked down the beach together. Our hands touching and our hearts bonding through them. The wind kissing our faces gently. The sand giving way under our feet. The warmth in our hearts that only a poet would understand. Finding an oasis in the never ending edge of the world, We sit beneath the giant tree, on the patch of thick grass that seems to have been put there just for us. We talked for what seems to be hours. Never running out of things to say, feelings to share, thoughts to exchange. I reach out to touch you and you stop my hand with yours. Our fingers touch. Our hands envelop each other. Almost as though they were making love to each other. Our fingers dancing. Our eyes gazing into each others. A soft and gent

Iowa Boy -may 29, 09 Heartwarming
An Iowa boy These are the Americans that make us great.... John works at the Cargill plant in Eddyville , Iowa , when he's not in Iraq . Wouldn't it be fitting if this went completely around the world!..... This needs to make headline news...not some of the other junk that makes the news these days!!! Like the Rosie O'Donell war of words...celeb weddings...who's not wearing undies...etc. It's a tough, but heartwarming story...with a picture of John Gebhardt in Iraq John Gebhardt's wife, Mindy, said that this little girl's entire family was executed. The insurgents intended to execute the little girl also, and shot her in the head...but they failed to kill her. She was cared for in John's hospital and is healing up, but continues to cry and moan. The nurses said John is the only one who seems to calm her down, so John has spent the last four nights holding her while they both slept in that chair. The girl is coming along with her healing. He is one of the real heroes of the war, a

Saying
A PRAYER FOR THE STRESSED! ! !Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i cannot accept, & the wisdom to hide the bodies of those PPL i had to kill 2day because they pissed me off.& also, help me to be careful of the toes i step on 2day , as they may be connected to the ass that i may have to kiss 2morrow.Help me to always give 100% at work 12%on Monday 23% on Tuesday 40% on Wednesday 20% on Thursday 5% on Friday & help me to remember.....when i'm having a really bad day, & it seems that PPL are trying to piss me off , that is takes 42 muscles to frown and only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to KISS MY ASS ! !

Long Distance Love
Long Distance Love When it hurts so bad, why does it feel so good? I wish this all made sense, I wish I understood. Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside, but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try. You know how I feel about you, and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you. Why does it gotta be so complicated? Loving you feels so right, but at the same time, knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night. I just want this to be simple, I just want you here with me, to look into your eyes, be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy. Right now this distance between us is out of our control, but I'm still hoping one day soon, I'll get what I'm wishing for.

Our First Meeting
Waiting for my special knight to arrive, My heart was dancing and very much alive, A bleep of the mobile and a sign of his presence, An opened door and a moment oh so intense. A heartwarming moment were two became one, Dreams were realized and worries were gone, A loving embrace and kisses on the lips, Bonded by love ~ sealed in a magical grip. We talked and laughed all the night through, The spark was there and we clicked ~ me and you, Two halves united just like peas in a pod, Together at last sharing a special love sent from god. Were two in a million and one of a kind, You're my one true love who's always on my mind, A Perfect couple sharing a love that's rarely found, Were flying without high above the ground. Feels like I've known you for many years, Even though were apart you're always near, My bed maybe empty and the nights lonely, But you're mine and my one and only. You're my best friend with a listening ear, My soul mate with an understand

Pain
In a darkened room Beyond the reach of God's faith Lies the wounded, the shattered remains of love betrayed And the innocense of a child is bought and sold In the name of the damned The rage of the angels left silent and cold Forgive me please for I know not what I do How can I keep inside the hurt I know is true Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room All the precious times have been put to rest again And the smile of the dawn Brings tainted lust singing my requiem Can I face the day when I'm tortured in my trust And watch it crystalize While my salvation crumples to dust Why can't I steer the ship before it hits the storm I've fallen to the sea but still I swim for shore Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room WHY DOES LO

Fade Away
I wanna be there when you call. I wanna catch you when you fall. I wanna be the one you need. I wanna be the one you breathe....Today's the day we'll fade away. Today's the day we'll find our way grown. Today's the day we'll fade away.....I wanna be there when you cry andwhen your down I'll help you fly. I wanna be the one you need I wanna be the one you breathe.

Why?
How can you walk away so quicklyHow can you move on so fastI would do anything for you What will it take for you to figure that outMy heart cant take this nomoreYou are my world you are everything to meYou used to say I was the same to youPeople say move on But love dont go awayplease pull me from this bed of roses the thorns are too much..

So Then
as i said in an earlier blog it looks as if "she" is finally gonna file the divorce. while i am relieved it is all gonna be over there is a slight tinge of sadness, no fuck it, there isn't i lied. so ladies this is it, past its prime english balding podgy beef on the market, who wants me. bidding starts at a blow job and just the tip in.

Ohh Baby
So, after I got hubby to admit that I have indeed gained weight, I started workin out. Well, my lazy azz was too lazy to go to the gym in my complex, so I was draggin my ass around the pond, gettin victimized by a couple of enormous swans in process. Finally, today I decided to make that step, and actually go to the gym. Now... one of the reason why I LOATHE gyms is...all the disgustingly fit people around me hoppin their miles away like theres no tomorrow to a Baywatch theme song playin in their heads. While I drag my unfit trunk behind me, feeling it gettin ASSaulted by gravity every step, huffin and puffin like a lung cancer victim. Well, my condo complex is nothin but old people, so I was hoping that maybe they would gawk at my ability to walk sans the walker, and use me as their inspiration when making that 5 meter/ hr dash. But no...I walk in on a really fuckin hot guy lifting weights. Great, so now my bloated overeaten self has an audience (today my grandma decid

The Importance Of Honesty In A Relationship
Honesty, Integrity, Loyalty; not quite grammatically correct, but to write it any other way diminishes the interdependence of three separate values that have no value without the others. That is not the difficulty with setting this triad as a basis for living. The difficulty is that the values conflict with social interaction. The conflict is not an intrinsic part of the values.The conflict is generated in the way the values are interpreted.At the risk of clich, take this example:Most of us will agree that honesty is a desirable quality in a friend and an invaluable necessity in a relationship. Yet, there are situations where we do not want brutal honesty.Q: Does this dress make me look fat? A1: Why yes dear, it does. A2: Not as much as the one with the horizontal stripes does. A3: Why no, it is quite slimming.The point is honesty has degrees. It has degrees because most people are afraid to ask honest questions and are even more afraid to be honest with themselves. From this, a decisi

Arena
Before me plays the endless film Relentless splinters I recall Each living thing breathes life. Only sentiment remains. To liquid born, from patterns formed the sands descend with blind intent Where the river takes me will in time be revealed. I cannot turn my feelings down Beyond my means to turn my thoughts around expressed in every word I will ever speak brighter than all the stars combined more than the waters, earth and sky all that I wish, all that I dream Above the waves with my hands raised Dare the wind, to lay claim to me Knowing somehow none could take me Watching the sun come up in vain the only reason I can find why I remained the need to leave the point where I came to again and again. It didn't matter how hard I tried it took so long to claim that I knew how or what it meant to let go of this to ever say goodbye Call it destiny, call it fate chose my direction, running forward each life to learn anew, whatever may come. I cannot tur

Things That Annoy Me
1. people that add signatures to their responses in mumms/blogs 2. people who constantly try and whore themselves in their status...we all do at one time or another but not like others constantly do 3. people who take this site WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too serious 4. people who are/were in the military who demand you respect them because of it..fuck you earn it like everyone else 5. people that start a convo when u are apparently busy i.e. reading, working, masturbating etc etc 6. the American Family Association as well as other "i have gods dick up my ass" religious groups 7. people who get all pissed off when u remind them of something when they forget 8. people who take offense to mothers that breast feed... 9. welfare people that do nothing to get off of it 10. people that bitch about smoking i have dealt with all of this today...its been a focked day

Why We Remain Resolute In Our Opposition To The Calgary Stampede Rodeo And Chuckwagon Racing:
Why we remain resolute in our opposition to the Calgary Stampede rodeo and chuckwagon racing: In the over 15 years of actively protesting the Calgary Stampede's rodeo and chuckwagon racing we have come to see the tide change in our favour, running counter to the claims and pronouncements of both the Stampede Board, and the local media. Perhaps the most telling proof of this came a couple years ago when, in response to the Cloverdale Rodeo decision to ban certain events from their rodeo, both myself and a member of the Calgary Stampede were invited to discuss this on BC Talk Radio as it applied to the Calgary spectacle. The Stampede of course refused to engage in any dialogue with our side, so it was left to be where I would discuss our position and then the Stampede would give their perspective. During the course of their dialogue it was admitted that every year there are animal deaths that occur at the Stampede-a far cry from their official position, which can be read on both w

10 Things I Wonder About Fubar And Its Members.....
1. Do they really think the camshot from above the head showing the grand canyon of cleavage but hiding the camel hump of a belly really works? 2. Do those who really intended more friendships from the various forms of interaction on here actually expect the majority of people not to simply use each other to advance then throw each other away? 3. do the guys who give to the PW's (point hos) as i like to call them realize theres free porn out there? and a secondary to that, do they realize the porn stars LOOK BETTER? lol 4. I wonder, are those threatening to leave actually gonna leave or just be emo? 5. wouldnt it be more accurate to say show me lust? lol 6. chicken & egg statement: which came first? girls who got burned by player guys? or guys who got burned by emo girls? 7. is 25 bucks worth the 15 naked pics shes got? oh , Im sorry i meant bling packs lol 8. if someone pays money for a bomb/auto/blast and the site goes down, shouldn't they be given a credit or a reimbersement

Bra
>.< i had to go get a new bra yesterday... so.. i go and i get measured.. and BOOM...the lady made my jaw drop she tells me that the band size is smaller.. but the fucking cup size went up.. A FUCKING TRIPLE D! I hate having boobs sometimes...

Mizury - No More Dental [free Download]
CLICK ALBUM COVER TO DOWNLOAD TRACKLISTING:----------------------------------- 1. INTRO 2. SMASH 3. HOOD CHRONICLES MISSOURI 4. SUICIDE IS DA ANSWER FT. REMY DA D-MENTED 5. HO-DESSA 6. COMPLICATIONZ 7. E-THUGS PT. 4 FT. REMY DA D-MENTED8. MOMMA E TALKIN SHIT9. MY WORDS [POEM]10. KARMA 11. ITS ALIVE & TALKIN FT. REMY DA D-MENTED 12. YAHOO RAP & HIP HOP FT. DA DIZZY DEVIL 13. FUCKUGHBEAT & FUCKSUMHATERZ 14. 40 BARS OF STRESS [MY FAMILY] 15. REDCORNJOHN13 VS. MIZURY [THE N WORD]

Watching It Fall Apart?
ok, so I'm not one who will normally share my family's business...but this one has me shaken and I'm jsut not sure how to wrap my head around it. My parents, who have been married for almost 29 years have a 50/50 chance of divorcing. I'm just not sure how to handle this. I mean, wow. And it's all over fucking money! They're going to throw away 29 years together over the almighty fucking dollar. Now, the reasonable part of me knows that they will work this out. Hell, they've been through a whole hell of a lot worse. But the daughter sude of me wants to rail and scream and throw myself on the floor and have a hissy fit. There are my parents!!! It's one thing for my own marriage to fall apart, but something different when I look at their marriage, watched them for 28 years pull through so much. I mean I pictured my own marriage after theirs. Yeah, they fought and argued, but they ALWAYS worked through it. I just don't know what to think and feel about all of this. Anyone readi

Should I Rebirth This Storyline?
Made different is a series I've thought about, and that has held a few different names. It is based loosely on my own past, and the shared experiences of me and my friends as I've grown and learned.I also embellished and created some completely fictional storyline to work alongside the facts. So while it is based in fact, it is still a work of fantasy and fiction.This is the basic beginning (Prologue) that I have for this story right now, written when I was 20, before I learned much in how to write and properly portray emotions and flow in storylines:....... …Pain surged through his shoulder, ripping memories of failure from the deepest recesses of Ley’s mind, forcing them to seek refuge in anyplace they might find, yet serving no other purpose than to enrage him all-the-more. With an animalistic rage, his blood pumped through his shaking body, as heat radiated from him, burning hotter and stronger, until he was engulfed in a black aura, like the birth of a hidden nova

Myspace Karaoke - Contest Videos
Hey FUBAR! I'm entering a contest on Myspace... if ya can, please go to the link below and take a look at my submissions for the Dierks Bentley contest... AHHH! I know I'm a horrible singer... but I luv to sing! So ultimate motor mouth here... check them out, be nice, but watch 'em. I need 100 plays to be able to qualify. So watch each one a few times... or watch 'em all 100 times. Here's the link... http://kSolo.MySpace.com/lady_flicka THANKS MUCH! LOVE U ALL KINDS!!! Fawn

Our Marines !!
Our Marines !! I sat, as did millions of other Americans, and watched as our government underwent a peaceful transition of power a few weeks past. At first, I felt a pride and patriotism as I watched Barack Obama take his Oath of office. However, all that pride quickl y vanished as I later watched 21 Marines, in full dress uniform with rifles, fire a 21-gun salute to the President. It was then that I realized how far America 's Military had deteriorated. Every last one of them missed !

Hold It In, Slut
im sorry. dont care, She says. Get naked, lay on My lap. yes maam WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. dont cry, bitchboy, that'll only make it worse. WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. keep it inside, smile, tell Me how much you like it, slut. i like it, Ma'am please Ma'am, give me more. WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. And, again WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. And, again WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. Red and swollen and throbbing, Her fingers trace lightly over the crack of the slut's boy pussy. Then WHAP!WHAP!WHAP! goes Her firm hand on my bare bottom. Now, stand in the corner slut, She says. I wanna see nothin' but ass. Gladly ma'am, thank You Ma'am the slutboy whispers, kneeling to kiss, lick and suck Her toes, before taking its place in the corner, its shame on display for all to see. Holding in the tears until She permits it to cry.

F*ck You Very Much
Look inside, Look inside your tiny mind and look a bit harder 'cause we're so uninspired, and so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor. so you say it's not okay to be gay well I think you're just evil you're just some racist, who can't tie my laces your point of view is medieval Fuck you. Fuck you very, very much. 'cause we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew so please don't stay in touch. Fuck you. Fuck you very, very much. 'cause your words don't translate and it's getting quite late. So please don't stay in touch. Do you? Do you get a little kick of being small minded? You want to be like your father it's approval your after well that's not how you'll find it. Do you? Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful? 'cause there's a hole where your soul should be and your losing control of it and it's really distasteful. Fuck you. Fuck you very, very much. 'cause we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew so

Soooo Rich
LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF- L I T E R A L L Y!!!!! I find it both disturbing and hilarious that you call me a stalker for telling you I fell in love with you. Didn't know that love was stalking- and I mean any kind of love, friendship love, more than friend love. LOL, this is Fubar and uberden of lust and obscession. You were on here, yet you followed me to to other websites. NICE. I find it both disturbing and hilarious that you write me off, because you think I am a PSYCHO. yet I'm the one who blocks your ass here, (deleting your bling as well), blocks your ass on MYSPACE and on FACEBOOK, and yet somehow you still send me stuff on my fucking applications there. WTF?!! Not psycho enough for you to use or send things through apps? MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MIND! LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! ZOMG! It is bad enough that when I hear your name, or get notifications from you I feel sucker punched in the stomach, let us not forget the state of catatonic shock I was in when you said your bul

The Heat Of My Desire
In the still of the eveningWithout sunlight to intrudeI see the twilight's in your eyesAs the moon sets up the moodPlaying music soft and slowWhile romance fills the airI can't help but feel arousedThe very word you sing to meI submit to your embraceWhile candles flick their flameAnd the smell of sweet perfume fills the airSeems to drive my lust insaneAs I look into your eyesAnd you run your fingers through my hairand taste the sweetness of my neckAs I nibble at your earI then whisper soft words in your ear "I want to feel you"As you answer with a sighAnd in a very sexy wayYour sweet body comes aliveYour the heat of my desireAs we slowly come undressYou then start to lay me downWhile I welcome your caressWith your sexy voice, smile and eyesYou have a taste I can't resistAnd my breast show some responseWhen you touch them with a kissAs I soak with you inside of meTo a sexy love conditionFeeling passions start to riseWhile making love in all positionsYou give me so much pleasureFor ecsta

Um...okay...
Okay..well I just finished with my Cherry bomb that Ashley got me, for some reason she wanted to see me level, I am not here for points and only used it cause it was very quiet and no one was talking... so any way I leveled and am now a Prophet... As a prophet I shall lead you all to the promise land... also known as the local porn store or whore house... I shall spread joy to all the lonely people ... by buying them porn movies .... I shall take the misery away from your life... by buying hookers... So before I launched the Cherry Bomb and while the Cherry Bomb was active i had the status of "It's quiet and I am bored, so launching bomb some one got me now to get it over with... shout open to family only so show me your tits... oh wait i have seen most of yours any way :P" While EXCUSE me I figured your average dullard could figure out that this status was purely comical ... such a shame the inferior intellectual capacity that one must have to take such a thing serious... Yet I t

Why I Hurt
This is for one special person on here that I hope someday finds me here and reads this, she knows who she is... For what it's worth... I'm an ass For what it's worth... I'm lost without out you but I can't bring myself to ask for your forgiveness. For what it's worth... I hope you find happiness For what it's worth... I'm sorry For what it's worth... I will always love you

People Smiling In Passing
Why do we as a society feel that we have to smile at another person when in passing? In my line of work I see a ton of people every day. I'm not going to smile at everyone that I see. Women feel that they have to smile or atleast say hi. The only problem with that is the fact that if you don't smile or say hi back you get a dirty look like you just gave her a shoulder check. If guys don't want to smile they will do the head nod. Everyone knows the nod, especially the people that don't like it. Women don't do the nod, unless they are big time tom boys. Ladies, feel free to use the nod. If you really want to me smile, smack my ass, have me smack your ass, show me your tits and I garuntee you I will smile. All I saying is don't get offended or pissed off at me if I don't smile back at you. There are many reasons for me not doing so. I'm busy with something at the moment, there is something else on my mind and I didn't notice you at all, or perhaps I'm just in a bad mood bitch and I

Stupid Encounter #17 (read Bottom To Top Its A Sb)
->mikeymyea: yes thats why you casked me for my yahoo and to cam with me cause I'm ugly EPIC FAIL mikeymyea: blog this. youre ugly. ->mikeymyea: yes thats right... lol ignorant fuck mikeymyea: religious nut ->mikeymyea: your just mad that I won't give you my yahoo... awwee so sad... I feel sorry for your wife though to... and thank you so much... now I can blog this convo! ->mikeymyea: lol redneck... south... and you don't believe in God? haha mikeymyea: lol. religion is for the ignorant. go play hocus pocus by yourself. peace out, redneck republican. ->mikeymyea: lol exacully an ignorant fuck... lol I believe in what i believe and you get all mad cause I have beliefs... WOW see God was on my side on this one... don't give that ass a yahoo mikeymyea: lol, bible? whatever. dont waste my time with religion ->mikeymyea: yeah well my man would get pissed at me i respect him to much to do that to him is in the bible mikeymyea: so am i. its just web cams ->mikeymyea: Im married m

Fubar Pet Peeves
Ok, somebody pulled my string, so let the ranting begin... People that don't know the difference between your and you're, or there, they're & their. People that ask me what I'm up to when my status clearly answers that question. People that completely ignore my profile & blogs and ask me to tell them about myself in my shoutbox. People that get pissed at me when I don't talk to them on a regular basis. I have 2000+ friends for fuck's sake, not to mention a REAL life. Just because I added you, doesn't mean I'm obligated to talk to you. I'll give a fuck when you do or say something give a fuck worthy. People who assume that I'm a slut or whore because I have racy and/or NSFW pics of myself on this site. Exhibitionism in & of itself says nothing of one's sexual frequency. Don't be a douche. There is most certainly more to rant about, but quite frankly, I have better things to do at the moment, so I'll leave it at Fuck You! Oh, and have a wonderful day ;)

The Gift
I don't have much to give youin the way of material things.But then, I have never been a material person . . .so it wouldn't matter much anyway.I do have something to give you, though . . .and I hope you accept this gift with joy.I have chosen not to wrap it . . .I want it to be presented to youas pristine as can be.And anyway, decorations or wrappings wouldcertainly ruin the effect.And so it is . . . that I stand before you . . .unclothed, but surprisingly, unashamedof my nakedness.You have already captured a piece of my heart,and you have captivated my soul.The only thing left for me to present to youis my very being . . . and I do that willingly,happily, and most of all . . . lovingly.Standing before you . . . watching your every movement . . .seeing the desire in your eyesfor the very first time.I don't believe in all of my life,I have ever witnessed a momentas beautiful as this.Neither one of us can speak . . .and we are finding, even breathing, is difficult.Your heartbeat is poun

My Final Goodbyes
My final Goodbye's still trying to understand why. We laughed we cried, But I never even tried. You were little when i saw you last, time goes by so fast. someday i will see you again, I know the pain, will drive me insain. My final Goodbye's Someday i will know just why. i raised you from the start, but now we are so far apart. So take care little ones. We will meet again someday, I have seen your smiles through the miles. Just like the roses you both will continue to grow. I will never forget you, even though it is time for the final goodbye,s. This i wrote for my 2 little nephews who were taken from my sister and now will be put up for adoption i love and miss them so much it tears me apart. I love You Both I will be waiting for us to meet again someday

Reflections
A few weeks ago i got hit by a car and fractured several ribs. As a result I developed complications and spent some time in hospital recovering. While away I understood how random occurrences can change the way you see life. For a while I did not think I would get through it. Happily I did. Although Fubar has many faults, one thing makes it special and that is the real friends you make here. Thank you to those people and I'm happy I made it through. You know who you are and thank you x

The Last Words Spoken
The last words spoken can change your life forever. To say goodbye and never know the reasons why. To say hello but then walk away. the last words spoken, can mean a broken heart, The tears to fall, and to never hear your call. the words can make you fall. Be careful on what you say, because the words you say today, can mean a lifetime of hurt tomorrow, The last words spoken, can change your life forever.

Saying Goodbye
Saying Goodbye i often wonder why. I have to walk away with a sigh. the tears are falling, I can no longer hear you calling. I am falling. Don't cry for me. I have wiped away your tears, and chased away all your fears. It must mean something you. Saying Goodbye, I will always wonder why, There is never enough time, to chase down the rhymes. Not sure if this is real, the book has been sealed. Saying Goodbye it is never easy.

2 My Friends
No matter where we go or the distance in between I’ll always be here for you I hope you can be there for me Everything we’ve had to go through and everything still to come I hope we can still stay friends and help keep each other strong You know I’ll always be by your side if you need a helping hand don’t be afraid to ask you know you always can. There have been soooo many people on here that have touched my heart and continue to do so far beyond the reaches of Fubar. Here is a list just to name of few of them..if i missed you i mean nothing by it i promise u that!!! Ur Obsession (h)'s on everyone!!!! My Big Sister

It's Gotta Stop!
SALUTE SALUTE SALUTE!!!!!! I AM SO SICK OF BEING HARASSED FOR NOT HAVING A SALUTE. I HEAR IT EVERY SINGLE DAY.. I WILL NEVER HAVE A SALUTE..THOSE THAT DO HAVE THEM DID THEM FOR THE FOLLOWING REASONS... 1.THEY ARE POINTS WHORES AND WANTED TO LEVEL... 2. SOME LOUNGES WONT EVEN LET YOU COME INTO THEM OR WORK FOR THEM SO, YOU GAVE INTO WHAT THEY WANTED... 3. YOU WERE HARASSED INTO POSTING ONE AND GAVE INTO SOMEONE ELSE'S INSECURITIES AND CONFORMED INTO WHAT THEY WANTED AND FORGOT WHAT YOU WANTED.. QUITE A FEW HAVE THREATENED TO KILL ME AND RAPE MY DEAD BODY IF I DIDN'T POST ONE. i KNOW A FEW WOMEN THAT WAS SCARED OFF THIS SITE BECAUSE OF MEN HARASSING THEM FOR SALUTES AND THEY WERE SCARED. WHAT A FUCKING A SHAME. HELL, MOST OF THE PEOPLE I TALK TO DON'T HAVE SALUTES AND I HAVE NEVER HARASSED ANYONE FOR ONE. I AM HERE TO TALK AND TO HAVE FRIENDS.. I'VE MET QUITE A FEW OFF THIS SITE..WOULD I HAVE DONE THAT IF I WAS FAKE? SERIOUSLY, THINK ABOUT IT DUMB TWATS

At Heaven's Gate
She was dying of cancer that she had been fighting for yearsToday would be her last day and he had to hold back his tearsThey would only make her sad and today he must be strongTo make her last moments happy and nothing must go wrongShe opens her eyes and asks; "My love, are you here?"He leans closer and whispers; "I will never leave you my dear"She smiles a sweet smile then closes her eyesThen her heart stops beating as she slowly diesHe can't hold back anymore and his tears pour down like rainHe whispers; "Come back to me." and his heart aches with painHe kisses her softly; "I guess this that is what they call fateBut we will meet again for I will kiss you at heaven's gate"- Me

Stupid Encounter #16 (read Bottom To Top Its A Sb)
->stoneguy: no Im married now stoneguy: u still masterbate tho..dotn ui stoneguy: was now..the girls were 18 and 19..lol stoneguy: its hot..lol stoneguy: 18...1 might have been 19 ->stoneguy: how old stoneguy: wow..but u still diddle with it..dotn u ->stoneguy: and i gotta say i regret it... wanted to wait till after marrage stoneguy: i've "had" 3 of my daughters friernds..lol ->stoneguy: 18 stoneguy: how old..FIRST time u had a dick in u ->lazbrat: lmaoooo sorry for you almost spitting your coffee out stoneguy: lol ->stoneguy: who didnt stoneguy: ever fck in hS? ->irishman: hey ->stoneguy: nope can't say that I did... none of my friends had daddies stoneguy: when u were in HS, ever catch ur friends DADDIES cehcking u out? lol

If You Like Women Bound And Gagged...
then you need to go check out my clip posted on clips4sale. www.clips4sale.com/store/31225 Watch Jezebel squirm as Kordelia Devonshire binds and gags her and leaves her alone.More clips are also available ranging from POV BJ, to forced fem, topless cleaning, spanking...and more coming next week.

Greetings From Sabbath Seven
Hey, I'm the drummer for this band. I got an invite thru the band's email address to join so thought I would. I have no idea how to change the background or put info in...at this time. I have obviously discovered the blog ;-) If you are curious, just do a search for "Sabbath Seven"...our myspace page should be in the search results...Peace! We have been called "The Bad Boys Of Christian Metal." We will not beat you over the head with a Bible. Most of our songs have some spiritual connotations...mainly due to our core beliefs, and our bass-player recovering miraculously from a life-threatening brain tumor. I personally believe that God and Medical Science worked hand-in-hand in that situation. OK, about me, I'm 40 currently and am married, and am a very happy and proud Father of a 13 month old girl. My only child. I didn't think kids were "in the cards" for me for the longest time :-) I have to go for now. I may see ya around!

Need Joins? I Can Help. Read On!
If you need joins I can help. I will send your join link out to 500 people to get legitimate joins. 25 credit bling pack I send out 500 join links for you. 65 credit bling gets you 650 and a 135 gets you 1000 join links sent out. I guarantee no results as they vary but I have helped several people and they will tell you I have not failed yet! SB me if you want more details. 10 credit bling packs gets you information of where to send your own links to get the joins yourself. Porven results!

Tears
Okay... after a really great couple days.. I was about to log off and I watched a movie trailer that I had minimized at the bottom of my screen...... Now, not many ppl know... but, my birth father, died in Iraq, when all this shit started... (he died in 2005)... He went.. and never came home... This movie..... starts out... everybodys dream.... Soldier, MIA, or... pronouced dead, and all families prey, that it was a mistake.... So, this trailer.. just ripped me apart... http://www.apple.com/trailers/lions_gate/brothers/ So... I don't feel so great atm... I am going to go laying down and cry.. cya...

To Whom It May Concern
Most of you probably won't care about this (no need to comment if that applies to you), but a few of you might have noticed that my nsfws recently disappeared. That is because I moved them to a second account so that they wouldn't be associated with my real name. Here's the link: http://fubar.com/user/3305949 Feel free to send an add request if you'd like. :D

I Live In My Head
I live in my head (or a lament on the price of cold coffee) (or, lauding the virtue of sour cream) I live in my head With monuments to pristine clarity Where crystalline palaces gleam In a city on the edge of eternity, Where the ideal is close enough To solve the problems of reality. She lives in her heart With obstacles of immense enormity Where burdens drag her at a weary pace Through the ruins of what never was, While myriad complications dash her hopes On the troubles she discovers and explores. In many lifetimes my blanched fingertips Pressed the filmy bubble of difference between us, In disbelief that the hair's breadth of years Must snatch that unique pear from her short life So that we can never be.

My Life.
To all of you who knew Whezzie... either on here or in real life, I say thank you. Thank you for being a friend to him. Thank you for loving him. You all meant so much to him. Steve (Whezzie) passed away on June 22 from a hemorrhagic stroke. He was in the prime of his health. The neurologist told me that he was most likely born with a weak artery in his brain that just took 44 years to decide to burst. There was no coming back from this type of traume. When he collapsed on June 18th I tried to hold out for a miracle. Some small sign that he was still with me. When I removed him from the respirator on the 22nd I knew that I was doing the right thing. Steve would NOT have wanted to live his life as anything but 100% himself. Thank you for taking time to read this and know that my husband and my best friend will be looking down upon all of his friends now. A guardian angel? Perhaps. All my love. Cindy (catz)

What Is Forgiveness
What is forgiveness?There's no one definition of forgiveness. But in general, forgiveness is a decision to let go of resentments and thoughts of revenge. Forgiveness is the act of untying yourself from thoughts and feelings that bind you to the offense committed against you. This can reduce the power these feelings otherwise have over you, so that you can a live freer and happier life in the present. Forgiveness can even lead to feelings of understanding, empathy and compassion for the one who hurt you. What are the benefits of forgiving someone?Researchers have recently become interested in studying the effects of being unforgiving and being forgiving. Evidence is mounting that holding on to grudges and bitterness results in long-term health problems. Forgiveness, on the other hand, offers numerous benefits, including: Lower blood pressureStress reductionLess hostilityBetter anger management skillsLower heart rateLower risk of alcohol or substance abuseFewer depression symptomsFewe

Fun Times
I met with my new landlord yesterday, she is about 40 or so and has a cute lil ass, oh I know I shouldn't be thinking about that but can't help noticing cute asses lol ;) Anyway I am paying less than I was b4 and have much more room. Maybe if i get a new gf I can have her live with me or I can get a roomie and make her my gf hehehehe. Anyway, my new place is in the country so I can enjoy the peace and quiet and maybe get to shoot my gun out there too and don't have to worry about anyone wondering who I am sleeping with! I went out afterwards with my friend and saw a movie, we were going to go to theater but decided instead to go to drive in. We were just relaxing watching movie, well ok we were teasing each other also hehehe. I wanted to something to eat and went to concession stand, in line while waiting a old classmate of mine got in line in back of me, we never really hit it off in school, but since then we been friendlier. Anyway, we talked some and she said her bf was being

Something I Wrote
You've put a skip to my step. Kept my mind wrapped up. Given me hope. Irony is just how much Ive missed you though we've never met. To hear your voice sooths me so. To know I've your heart. Allows me to dream again or even just future trip. I can't wait to meet you, let alone see you. To be able to touch just your face. Makes me giddy, the thought of it elates me. As each day progress's. I can't help but wonder just how much of this is infatuation or simply it being what it is? For now I will ignore that, but wont put it out of my mind. I really truly wish,... meeting you. Will be my last time. As I will be yours,.. & you will be mine. All we have between us are miles & time. ...

Keepin Our Family Together In Prayers For Our Dear Friend Smoke R/l Husband To Fire From The Duct Tape Club And New Death Bbg Special Forces Lounge
PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS GO OUT TO FIRE R/L WIFE TO SMOKE OUR TWO MEMBERS OF THE DUCT TAPE CLUB AND OUR LOUNGE . THAT GOD WILL HEAL YOU THROUGH PRAYERS AND OUR LOVE. " MAY GOD'S ANGEL'S WRAP THEIR WING'S AROUND YOU'S AND PROTECT YOU'S ALWAYS" WROTE BY ME ON 3/14/97 BREW aka CHERIE' MARIE

Neverland Auction
~Bratt~ & Chaotic and some sexy friends are in an auction and want you to be their new OWNER! So show some love and bid on your favorite !!AND PLEASE RATE TERESAS PIC FOR MOST RATE CONTEST. SHE IS AWESOME~~=) TERESA ~Bratt~ Adding 1 pimpout a week for fubucks!Adding 2 pimpouts a week if cash bids like blasts or small bling packs! Adding 1 PIMPOUT EVERYDAY FOR 4 WEEKS FOR 30 DAY BLASTS AND BIG BLING PACKS!=) Chaotic DONA INKMAN So come on and bid on the one you want!!=)

I Want You!!!
I want to be your companionand walk hand in hand,your strength enveloping mine.Autumn leaves falling,scuffing feet and laughter,sharing nights, not finished by the dark.I want to be your confidantas you pen your deepestthoughts, as your heartachesbleed and finally break free.Your dreams, I keep as if my own.I want to smile as you smileand giggle with youat nothing at all.I want to be your loverand find the passionsthat move you to action.I want to be the softnessthat induces you to trust.I want to be the naughtythat makes you come back for more.I want to please you.I want to share your breakfastand your dinner,I want you in the showerand in your bed andwith soft steps to bring you coffeeYour strong arms, the legsthat power your thrust,your lips of pleasure,these are the fuel of my desireno it is no secret,and to put it very simply,I want you.

Angry 1.2.9
1.Your evil attempts at annihilating my heart will not work.The hard years have made me resilient, and hardened me in places that prevent your coldness from entering.But I am prepared for you spells, and I am ready for your witchery.You will not own me as you did before, you will not be my puppet master.Those days of you entering my life and having your way are gone, and never to be seen again.One brick today, then another one tomorrow, my wall begins.Those days of you controlling me, those deceitful days are dead.©0815062.My head still spins.My body still trembles.My emotions are a wreck.I love you with every fiber within me, and yet I despise you.My knees weaken, my heart races, my palms sweating, and thats only at the thought of you.My blood boils, my temperature rises, and the cold sweat starts, all at the sight of you.Sadness arises, misery begins, the torture initiates, the pain has returned and all because you walked away.You made me this way, you created all this, you are

Hurts
This past Friday and Saturday I stopped at Joe's Barbershop in Mantua, NJ and looked at one guy in the chair and three more waiting? The cry from all is no money. On the way back from Home Depot I was going to stop on Saturday to ask, let me guess your running a special? Talk to my friend on Saturday and the cry and he did admit that he had to cut back but the status quo. I go get gas and the same people in their vehicles filling up? Yeah it hurts and I know the pain. When I was married way back when we took a hit by loss of half the income and we did without. We burned kerosene and set the temp on 55 and she made meals to last several days. I suddenly became a Handy Man. Cable TV? Forget it. Norio

Days And Nights
my days and night go by so slow as i sit here alone wondering what might be what will be when will i catch my one break i need to get thing done to set aside my aches and pains and really live life go to unknown places i have never been see the world so to speak then i wonder will i go alone will i be alone no one wants to live life all alone we all have our people we hang with family and friends whether there on line on in real life we are never really alone untill we say bbl or cya later to the ones we see physicaly then when we power down and turn off the lights who is there to hold you to snuggle up against and feel the warmth of a human body next to yours who will you tell your inner most secrets too i stare up to the sky at night seeing the stars the moon i feel my heart heavey with that lonely feeling the wonder if i sleep tonight and not wake up who will miss me who will go to my funeral who will cry the same as who is with me no one sure illbe missed but as sure

I Believe
Lessons in Life.... A Birth Certificate shows that we were born A Death Certificate shows that we die Pictures show that we lived! Have a seat . . . Relax . . . And read this slowly, I Believe... That just because two people argue,it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other. I Believe... That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I Believe... That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I Believe... That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I Believe... That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I Believe... That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I Believe... That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I Believ

Rat Race
I've seen the ending of all things Such resolution brought a smile to my face There seems to be no point in going further As one chapter ends, so begins the next I sought to remake myself Looked to turn my blood to wine Is there a point to all this Run this race like a rat in a maze I'm sick of running Tired of being put through these paces Kill me to force a smile Take me away to the finish line