Bender gatekeeperheaven and earth's blog: "almostalien"

One time a few years ago in 1996 my step dad died.We brought him to the hospital on friday and by sunday he was dead he was full of cancer. He had prostate cancer when he in his forties and it came back when he was 73 and it killed him .He had just been complaining for months he was tired all the time and had a doctors appointment .I was at home and in the middle of night a small light came in the window when I was in bed my wife who is now a x wife. And I said what the hell is that light. So I jumped up and went to the window because it was gone. I lived in the country with no neighbors. And thought someone was in my yard with a flash light but know one was there. I went back to bed and when I woke up my wife said are you feeling alright I said yes why she said after I fell asleep a great heat was coming off my body .But when she touched me I was cool to the touch. I thought nothing of it until my mom called with the news my dad was not coming out of the hospital he was full of cancer and they had lost him once already and brought him back. I was stund because last I had heard he was just going to get a check up in the hospital she said you better get to the hospital. She said she would meet me there. I got to the hospital and found his room he was sitting up and looked like he always did like he was just there for a headache or some thing. My mom was crying I told him I loved him and that he had been a better father then my real dad bailing me out of things I had done when I was a kid. I said why could it not be my real dad but said howard because that was my dads name I never called him dad. That's a storie for another day. Well my step dad had two sisters .One was 84 and the other younger 72.The younger one whose name was Ann had medical problems like dementia .She had to take medication so she would not just forget where she was .But when she took her medication she was fine so the older one took care of her she also looked at my step dad almost like a mother because my step dads mom died young. The sisters never married. They just kind of lived together. When my step dad was dyeing I said I would check in on his sisters cut there grass and stuff like that. He said thank you but to watch Ann for obvious reasons. As a few years past I decided to sell my house and move to Montana . The rat race was just wearing me out in Boston. The last time I went over to see my dads sisters I told them I was moving they were sad .But before I left I said to Ann. If something happens to your older sister you call me and you can move in with me in Montana. She said thank you that would be nice. In 2003 I was on my property and my favorite bear had showed up and we went for a walk after walking for awhile he layed down and I layed down about 25 feet from him as he slept I was day dreaming looking at the night sky. I then saw this light making no sound coming in my direction. It was about 1/2 mile away just coming over the trees . I watched it as it came closer . When it got about a 1/4 mile from me I was thinking here we go again I had this happen to me before in the past with other people with me.The light then went out and it appeared over behind the tree I was sitting under I looked at my bear friend he was still sleeping I thought animals had feelings we have lost over the years as humans no he just kept sleeping away . I looked threw the branches and the light was up just behind the tree. I turned and looked at the bear again still sleeping I looked back and the light was gone. I went in my cabin after my bear friend woke. My now x wife was in the house she woke up when I went to bed and I told her I saw one of those lights again like in the past. About 3 weeks later my mom calls me and said she had bad news that both my dads sisters died. They found them in the house because the neighbors called because of a smell coming from the house .They said it appeared that the oldest one died of a heart attack and ann did not take her medication and did not drink any water and after days died.The day that ann died was the same day I was with the bear three weeks earlier.I then started thinking . Did when ann die she was given a trip to see me before she made her transition to the next level of spirituality.Are these spaceships what people have seen including me over the years really what I have labeled the soul transporters.Is these things we think are aliens really Angels.Maybe this whole charub floating on the clouds not really the way it is.Are our souls really taken up in ships to be delievered to some other place.Some other tranitional place.That we could not with our limited minds know of the heavens above all at once.And our souls are just made of the good and bad choices we have made .And we need to have it purifide so we can be ready for eternity.I don't have any answers just like I don't know were I got the sword from or alot of things that have happened to me in these 51 years.As always to many questions and my stupid limited human mind cannot figure out on this level now .But hopefully some day we will all know.