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Too Tired To Process Thought...
Tubeway Army.You Are In My VisionFade to scenes of violence. Like a TV screen but silent. Where the victims are all paid by the hour. Staring at the ceiling as she gyrates all around me. I'm trying to forget she's done this all before. Far too many people. For a quiet night with myself. Oh, I could be anyone tonight. Focus on a feeling I've detected while I was sleeping. Sing a chorus of On Broadway and deny it all. You are in my vision. I can't turn my face. You are in my vision. I don't move my eyes. You are in my vision. I don't move at all. You are in my vision. Delicate bodies that decay beneath their clothing. Play Gods in an empty house in Paris. The wreckage of our hero lies. Broken in the corner and. Everyone pretends they like to live that way. You are in my vision. I can't turn my face. You are in my vision. I don't move my eyes. You are in my eyes. I don't move at all. You are in my vision. So... new theory for a new short(ish) story (novella) ... Listen to Replicas,

Changes To Fu-owned Reimbursements
Starting now, all fu-Owned purchases will reimburse the previous owner by the reiumbursement percent applied to the old (pre-purchase) value as opposed to applying the reimbursement percent towards the new purchase price. For example: X is worth 1,000,000 fuBucks. Someone purchases X for 2,000,000 fuBucks. The previous owner will be reimbursed 800,000 fuBucks instead of 1.6M fuBucks.

Bleeding Mascara
Goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!A wraith with an angel’s body.A demon with a smile of gold.You soul-sucker.I won’t become like you.A killer with the perfect weapons,crystal eyes and a heart of coal.You soul-sucker.I won’t lose myself in you.Look how pretty she is, when she falls down.now there’s no beauty in bleeding mascara. Lips are quiveringLike a withering rose, she’s back again.What the fuck do you think love means?It’s more than words and more then feelingssucking me dry. Is my marrow that sweet?Your dead lovers left a trail of broken hearts and misspent hopes.Sucking them dry. Does their marrow taste ofSweetness, Sweetness? I hope you choke.Look how pretty she is, when she falls down.now there’s no beauty in bleeding mascara. Lips are quiveringlike a withering rose, she’s back again, she's back a-, shes back again.. shes back

New Here
ok so yeah im new here and i dont really know what im doing so heres to figuring things out... i reeally hope i dont fuck up my computer trying to work it all out that would just be me and my luck... FUCKING GREAT... so anyways... come be my friend or somyhing... i dont know... GO FIGURE... right well besides that i dont know

Thur Jul 23 [[goodbye Paradise, Hello Corn]]
Well, the move to Fort Pierce Florida is no more. I'm staying in Iowa, with the corn :) [[Which corn does not SERIOUSLY take over Iowa like some believe]] Anyway, I based my choice by my sincere desire to continue my education and get a degree in Health Information Technology. After two years I will have my associates degree. I graduated highschool a semester early because I had enough credits and I went straight to college. My first term I was enrolled in Psychology, Composition 1, Medical Terminology and Chemistry. I have an appointment to enroll for my Fall courses soon so I'll be sure to give ya'll a nice update :) Enough about school. I just got back home from my hometown (where I'm moving back to) And I came home and packed everything up right away. I'll be making the move on Sunday. -YIKES- I will have little computer time so I'll probably be on fubar about 10-20 minutes a day IF THAT. Yes, it really sucks but after I get a job I'm going to American (An electronics sto

My Thoughts For This Thursday
this week the police finally found the dead body of 8yr old tori stafford. she was kidnapped back in april and her killers sitting in jail right now awaiting trial. no an amber alert had been issued after she had been missing for over two days. now the amber alert was not isssued right after a child had been missing because according to the police she did not fit the criteria. now give me a break. how could a child still missing after 24hrs not fit the criteria for an amber alert. some people need their heads checked. the case was even shown on americas most wanted. the one good thing that came out of this is the amber alert system in ontario is being revised and 8yr old tori can now rest in peace. but what about her killers should they be put in general population and not in their own private cells i think they should. child killer paul bernado gets his own cell his own tv and has every thing he wanted cause he is afraid of getting killed in general population. no offense but he dese

Beauty And Society
Hello today i had a run in with alot of immature small minded people... Has anyone ever heard there is more then one type of beauty society has made this the only form of beauty according to them we should all succumb to this... no theres more forms of beauty

Freedom
"God forbid we should ever be twenty years without such a rebellion. The people cannot be all, and always, well informed. The part which is wrong will be discontented, in proportion to the importance of the facts they misconceive. If they remain quiet under such misconceptions, it is lethargy, the forerunner of death to the public liberty.... And what country can preserve its liberties, if its rulers are not warned from time to time, that this people preserve the spirit of resistance? Let them take arms. The remedy is to set them right as to the facts, pardon and pacify them. What signify a few lives lost in a century or two? The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time, with the blood of patriots and tyrants. It is its natural manure."-Thomas Jefferson

Auction
Hello Fu Friends I have decided to hold an auction. Entry fee is 50k Minimum bid is 100k No i dont have some snazzy name for this auction its just a damn auction lol i need your offering and a valid photo link to the pic you want used. Start date will be july 27th at 12am est and will close on august 10th at 12am est ownership will last one month if there is drama say goodbye you are out there is no deadline on when you can join but i would like it to be sooner then later If you are interested just let me know lets keep this simple please send all the info i need in the fupal transfer i hate the run around game if you need help with your offering i have a auction photo in my default but its really easy its stuff like rates, gifts, salutes, etc

I Need To Know About Something I'll Never Have..
I need to know about something i'll never have.. What is love.. I ask because I wasn’t put on this earth to be loved or to feel happiness You see in my life where kids my age spent nights at the dinner table with family recounting the day’s events I spent mine alone in my room crying for a mother and a brother I will never see again Leavening notes on their beds like “mom come home I miss you” or “take care of mom Neil where ever you are” but they never came back…. To young to fully understanding the gravity of the situation Until one day I worked up the courage and I asked my father what happen to my Mother and Brother You see while others learned of hugs and kisses fond memories and wishes I learned of loss and death shattered dreams and tear stained pillows So I ask you what is love….

Bella Is In A Contest And Needs Our Help
Bella is getting her butt kicked in this contest. Please take a minute and help her by voting for her and rating this pic http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2345636&albumid=1772820&i=884566532

Familiar Taste Of Poison
Drink the wineMy darling you saidTake your timeAnd consume all of itBut the rosesWere only to drain my inspirationsThe promises were spoiledBefore they left your lips[Chorus}I breathe you in again just to feel youUnderneath my skinHolding on toThe sweet escapeIs always laced with theFamiliar taste of poisonI tell myselfThat you're no good for meI wish you wellBut desire never leavesI could fight this'Til the endBut maybe I don't want to win[Chorus]I don't want to be savedI don't want to be so politeI want you on my mindIn my dreamsBehind these eyesAnd I dont wanna wake upNo not this time[Chorus]

Damn Libraries
I want to write a bunch but this damn machine here is going so fucking slow its driving me nuts. the idiots who run the libraries up here have librarians (ie-people with degrees in "library science" or whatever to run the computers so they dont have a clue what theyre doing-when things start fucking up their only response is to turn the machines off and restart them, which doesnt really accomplish much. plus, today theres a woman next to me what seems to be epileptic or something, its like she cant stop moving in these odd jerky motions that are impossible to ignore even if youre not (like myself) right next to her. so, I will simply put up a few more of my pictures of paintings Ive did and leave it at that. sorry if you was looking forward to hearing me rant. which I could-saw some things today that really made me mad, specially politicians talking about bullshit to keep everyone turned around about whats going on (heres a hint: GIVING THE RICH MORE MONEY ISNT HELPING ANYTHING MR. OBA

Just A Thought ...
why is it every time someone calls me gorgous ...beautiful ... or even pretty i have such a hard time beleiving them.... its not so much with the pretty i kno im pretty.... but im not beautiful and im FAR from gorgous...... i just dont understand i wish i could see what they see

I Want To Start A Levelers Group. Anyone Interested?
Attention everyone! I am looking to start a leveler's club, kind of like f.a.r. but a lil' different. But i wan us all get along and help people level. anyone game for it? Private Message me!

If I Fall Behind
We said we'd walk together baby come what may That come the twilight should we lose our way If as we're walkin a hand should slip free I'll wait for you And should I fall behind Wait for me We swore we'd travel darlin' side by side We'd help each other stay in stride But each lover's steps fall so differently But I'll wait for you And if I should fall behind Wait for me Now everyone dreams of a love lasting and true But you and I know what this world can do So let's make our steps clear that the other may see And I'll wait for you If I should fall behind Wait for me Now there's a beautiful river in the valley ahead There 'neath the oak's bough soon we will be wed Should we lose each other in the shadow of the evening trees I'll wait for you And should I fall behind Wait for me Darlin' I'll wait for you Should I fall behind

Feel The Breeze
as i feel the breeze blow on my face i close my eyes and see you face your smile, you bright eyes i think about our first kiss how our lips touched and our hands searched our bodies as we kissed we drew closer towards each other till we coildnot get any closer our kiss searching and explorling i felt your breath as you were searching for air as we kissed not wanting topart to breath i draw you closer to me holding you tight not wanting to let go i open my eyes and see the deep blue sea the clouds in the sky and im all alone feeling the breeze on my face i close my eyes again and wish you were with me once more

Zombie Take-out Episode 9: And Samuel L. Jackson As Neville Chamerlain.
Zombie Take-Out Episode 9: And Samuel L. Jackson as Neville Chamberlain is now online Uncle John plays armchair herpetologist while Scotto wonders about aviation architecture as they review their most recent film to date, Snakes on a Plane. Will Scotto bring up Troll 2 … again? Will Uncle John ever be able to get his Nevilles straight? Did they pick the wrong week to stop sniffing glue? Stairs on a plane? http://zombietakeout.com

They’re At It Again, Pa
Yup, that’s right. Those puritanical, right wing nutjobs are trying to take down porn YET AGAIN. You’d think they’d have learned to keep their noses out of other people’s bedrooms by now. Apparently, even with as prudish and snobish as the Bush administration’s stance on pornography was, they are DEMANDING even more from the Obama administration. WTF? FULL BLOG POST HERE

Ask Away
Lately something has become a bit of a pet peeve for me on here. I'll see people with the status basically saying no one has rated them, can they get some rates or love or something along those lines. Now what kills me is more than a few times I've gone to some of these people's pages and rated some pics of theirs. Now to me if you're going to complain you're not getting pic rates or love and someone shows you love then AT LEAST rate that person's profile or a picture or two. It's no wonder people aren't rating your pics when you don't return the love. And now mind you these aren't people who have pages that are getting slammed. Sorry but I just had to rant about that. The other day I rated a few pics for at least 2-3 people with status messages like that and NEITHER could even view my page. It's like then don't whine no one rates you. Now onto more fun things...I'm a bit bored so feel free to ask any questions you want. I'll answer them whether they are serious or go

The Flight
I crawled out of my seat and retrieved a pair of blankets from the overhead bin. The cabin was silent and dark, the flight attendants busy in the galley.I sat down next to Scotty and handed him one. Scotty chuckled softly, drawing me back onto his lap. "Good idea". Scotty pulled the blanket around us and worked at the buttons on my blouse. I stared up into your eyes. Suddenly I felt a bit light headed. I think we need more privacy, I whispered. Ill meet you in the bathroom. Wait for a minute or two and then come back. I rebuttoned my blouse and crawled off of you, then tiptoed down the aisle. I wasn't afraid, and that's what surprised me the most. I had spent years being fearful of one thing or another. maybe it was the alcohol, or the altitude- or simply the man himself. But I knew exactly what I wanted-no doubts, no insecurities. A few seconds later Scotty knocked at the door. I opened it without hesitation. I was going to have this man, here and now. And I was determined I wouldn't

Break Free
as the night slowly gave awayto a brand new morningmy eyes opened to abrand new beginning; trying to be what i am notI let you take over mecreeping and crawling you drove to me to the edge of madness; as I see the reflection in the waterI look deep into the eyesthat longingly stare from within mehoping I would wake up from this slumber; always putting you in-front of me,I drew a false smile on my faceallowing you to do all that you wantedand never I stopped you; now, when its time to wake upI find myself bound tightby your love and affection that I thought was true; not wanting to be like this forever,I cut the shackles that bound meand broke free to live life,as its time to set things straight; Written By: Praveen

Update On Chica
Hey everyone, I am so so sorry I haven't been able to be on lately. As the ones of you who are close to me already know my laptop completely crashed.. I moved out of my apartment back in with the 'rents bc of personal issues. I am now working full time and overtime to get myself a new car and a place of my own all while taking care of the baby and helping raise my siblings. I miss you guys all so much and I get on and check my stuff whenever possible. I have a new man in my life. His name is Danny but everyone calls him Boda. He is awesome. We've been seeing each other for almost a month now. I have made some new friends out here as well. I was WAY depressed because I was so far away from my family and friends that I'd known forever but I'm doing MUCH better now. I will continue to check in and let you guys know what is up. Just ask me anything you guys wanna know and I'll be sure to answer! Please don't forget about me. I am doing the best I can! WITH ALL MY HEART Ashley Nichole

Can Money Buy Love???
so i have this friend who i dated about 12 yrs ago and we always joke about getting back togeather, but we both know we're better off as friends. anyway i was telling her how im working with a company to get a patent for an idea i have and how the guy told me once its done even if i sell 1 item in each store a day ill be the happiest man in fl, or i can sell the idea to a company for 10's millions of dollars! so she said to me for that kind of money she'd deffinatly get back with me, so me being the smartass that i am i said since she would only want me for my money, with that kind of money i could buy 100 younger versions of her. odviously she didnt think i could or this blog wouldnt be posted! to make a long story short, she said yeah if someone saw me driving a nice car, wearing expencive clothes, jewelry, etc. then yeah i could find someone who would come along for the ride take me for what they can and be on their way. then that classic song "money cant buy me love" popped into m

Russian Vs. Redneck
Russian vs. RedneckA Russian and a Redneck wrestler were set to square off for the Olympic gold medalBefore the final match, the Redneck wrestler's trainer came to him and said 'Now, don't forget all the research we've done on this Russian. He's never lost a match because of this 'pretzel' hold he has.Whatever you do, do not let him get you in that hold! If he does, you're finished.'The redneck nodded in acknowledgment.As the match started, the Redneck and the Russian circled each other several times, looking for an opening.All of a sudden, the Russian lunged forward, grabbing the Redneck and wrapping him up in the dreaded pretzel hold.A sigh of disappointment arose from the crowd and the trainer buried his face in his hands, for he knew all was lost.He couldn't watch the inevitable happen.Suddenly, there was a Long, High Pitched Scream, then a cheer from the crowd and the trainer raised his eyes just in time to watch the Russian go flying up in the air.His back hit the mat with a thud

You Stupid Fuck!
I Truley dont understand why you have to be such an asshole all the fucking time. Im your daughter, but yet you insist on acting like a fucking dick! All i ever wanted was for you to get your act, your life and your mind togeter. Why dont you just kiss the drugs goodbye? You really dont know how much and how badly you effect us kids...Like i said before, i dont know the love of a father. You are 38 years fucking old, act like it you stupid prick. Lastnight when we got into that fight, you yelled at me, telling me you wanted to knock my fucking teeth out.. nice dad, you WOULD say that to your 20 year old daughter. I dont understand why you and mom decided to have more kids, when YOU cant take care of them. Mom and I are doing all the fucking work here!!!! not one cent, not anything to help us out atleast a little. YOu are a selfish fuck, and i hope that you rot. You are spineless...you are a disease. Have fun with your drugs. I NEVER ONCE GAVE UP ON YOU, NOT FUCKING ONCE, YOU WERE MY BE

I'm Featured @ Asylum.com
Hello all. Just want to let you guys know to check me out at asylum.com! They were gracious to do a story about myself being overseas. Just alittle more to know about me! Thank you very much. P.S. Much love to the mummers!

The First Time
As I walked up to the door, with my heart racing in anticipation, all I could think of was her beautiful face, as I had saw pictures of so many times. I rang the bell, and as I turned with nervous energy, it happened. She opened the door, and there was a sweet silence as our eyes met for the first time. The feeling of losing myself struck suddenly as I got lost in her chocolate brown eyes. I was mezmorized by her beauty. The way her hair flickered in the breeze, was like a swaying palm tree on a beautiful island. As she reached out to me and her hand touched mine, I felt an electricity, that I had never felt before, run through my veins like a flood. I softly placed my hand on the small of her back, and the other on the base of her neck, and pulled her ever so closely. I slowly placed my lips upon hers, as she softly let out a single sigh of passion, and we kissed as if there were no one else in the world who were meant to be there more than we were. As we ever so gently eased apart, I

Moments In Life
There are moments in life when you miss someoneso much that you just want to pick them fromyour dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens;but often times we look so long at theclosed door that we don't see the one,which has been opened for us. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile tomake a dark day seem bright.Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream;go where you want to go;be what you want to be,because you have only one lifeand one chance to do all the thingsyou want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong,enough sorrow to keep you human andenough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarilyhave the best of everything;they just make the most ofeverything that comes along their way. The brightest future will alwaysbe based on a forgotten past

Batter Up. Time Talk About Baseball.
Hello Everyone.I hope that you are doing well today. It's been some years now since I've watched anything on Entertainment Tonight. But I remember one time Leonard Maltin showed a movie trailer with the legendary Babe Ruth coming into aclassroom and telling kids it was time to play baseball..There is an anime coming out called Big Wind Up. It will be released by Funimation Entertainment and the manga creator is Asa Higuchi, plus the director is Tstomu Mizushima. This is not the first time that I've seen baseball beingcovered by anime. The Japanese people have for a very long time had amfascination with baseball. ADV Film released an anime series called, Princess Nine - a story about a girls baseball team. I've seen baseball episodes in manyanime series like Maison Ikkoku (Note: Chachamaru was the name of the baseballteam in Maison Ikkoku.), Ultra Manic, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, Yumeria. Even in the World Encyclopedia of Comics, edited by Maurice Horn, it shows on page 433 an

General
some addctions i want to give up like ,sweets but enjoy them to muchfor instance like cafeene , sweets ,and gmblingbecause they for me are bad but i enjoy them to an excessive ,compuilives behavior ,thats what i mean to be free or not be free .

Just When You Think You Heard It All...lmao
And you think you’ve heard it all….. I see stupidity is alive and doing quite well. 'Breast Implants For Your Tattoo?' 'Breast Implants For Your Tattoo!' 'Yes, Breast Implants For His Tattoo!' And this guy can vote? Heaven help us!

Check Your Receipts Esp. Wal-mart
Subject: FW: Check your receipts esp. Wal-Mart! > > Be> > careful and read your receipts….> > OMG! YES! THIS> > IS> > TRUE! It happened to me at Wal-Mart> > (Supercenter Store #1279, 10411> > N Freeway 45, Houston , TX 77037 ) a month> > ago. I bought a bunch> > of stuff, over $150, & I glanced at my receipt> > as the cashier was> > handing me the bags. I saw a cash-back of> > $40. I told her I> > didn't request a cash back & to delete> > it. She said I'd> > have to take the $40 because she couldn't> > delete it. I told her> > to call a supervisor. Supervisor came &> > said I'd have to take> > it. I said NO! Taking the $40 would be> > a cash advance> > against my Discover & I wasn't paying> > interest on a cash> > advance!!!!! If they couldn't delete> > it then they would have> > to delete the whole order. So the supervisor> > had the cashier> > dele

Burn It To The Ground
Well it’s midnight, damn right, we’re wound up too tightI’ve got a fist full of whiskey, the bottle just bit meOhThat shit makes me bat shit crazyWe’ve got no fear, no doubt, all in balls out We’re going off tonightTo kick out every lightTake anything we wantDrink everything in sightWe’re going till the world stops turningWhile we burn it to the ground tonightOh We’re screaming like demons, swinging from the ceilingI got a fist full of fifties, tequila just hit meOhWe got no class, no taste, no shirt, and shit facedWe got it lined up, shot down, firing back straight crown We’re going off tonightTo kick out every lightTake anything we wantDrink everything in sightWe’re going till the world stops turningWhile we burn it to the ground tonightOh Ticking like a time bomb, drinking till the nights goneWell get you hands off of this glass, last call my assWell no chain, no lock, and this train won’t stopWe got no friend, no doubt

Never Thought In My Life That I Would Be Doing This But I Am...
Well, I never thought it would lead to this but looks like I need it. THERAPY Yeah, I said it. THERAPY. I'm going to see a psychiatrist today. I never thought I would have problems mentally but I do. I need to get myself straightened up before I get into any relationships or basically anything. It's hard for me to keep a friendship with a woman or anybody because of the way I am, so I'm just gonna leave women and relationships alone. I'm doing a lot of dumb things that I'm not realizing that I'm doing (Annoying & smothering women, repeating myself, talk down on myself, etc.). I'm gonna talk to the psychiatrist everything that I'm having problems with and hopefully give me better medication cause the one I'm on now's not doing a damn thing to help me get better. I've gotten worse, so I hope that this doctor would help me throughout all of my problems. Wish me luck

Joke
In this life in this world i don't fuckin know Cuz i never ever fuckin do n people always gotta fuckin pick & target me like it's the only thing they can do in fuckin life make me fuckin sick make me fuckin sick make me fuckin tick lick a lick die or go eat fuckin shit. All i know is that i don't get people like you in this world. Always gotta fuckin get on my case be down my neck. Start your lil stupid shit n put me through it. You fuckin bitch hope someday i run you in & knock you straight the fuck out while ur passed out on the ground. Take ur panties off n fuckin rape ur lil pussy n ass n smack you the fuck round. Make you feel my pain i'm goin insane like i never had no mind. In my eyes is blind i could never fuckin see through out how this life to be. N everytime you always gotta target me n get on my case. Better hope we don't meet face to face beat ur shit out of misplace bitch that's not enough then i'll make you suck my 9inch dick make you fuckin gag on it down ur throat n m

Rating Guide
RATING GUIDE (without using money) A lot of people want to level fast but don't have the money for blings and bombs. Having money is NOT the problem. I will be the first to admit that it is the fastest way to level. However, there is hope with leveling fast without spending money. This is my guide on rating! Some of the information you may already know. Rating: As you can tell from the chart above profile rates give you and the person your rating the best amount of points. Also rating during happy hour gives you and them double points. However, that doesn't mean ONLY rate profiles during happy hour. 1 point is ALWAYS better then no points. Bitching about not being rated will not get you rates. If it does then eventually it will wear off and people will get sick of you crying for rates yet never giving rates in return. The best way to get rates is to do the work yourself and RATE. Don't expect everyone else to do the work for you. Create a system for yourself but spread things out

Sexiest Ladies Round One
255 MEL The Pirate Hooker 152 Sandi118 Sunshine105 Busdrivertohell 68 Coleen 59 Cherry Bomb 54 DJ Brittany Brutality 49 Inked Angel 47 DJ Soft 44 aLwaYsInTroUble 41 Beautifilly Broken 33 MS THANG 32 Huggiefux -- Sinfully Sweet Addiction 31 Lilsnoop 26 SiLLy CaLiFaS GuRl -- Sunny 25 GRLSKIKASS 24 DEB -- Pumkin41 23 LisaAnn -- Southerncakes 21 Rising Phoenix

Blastfm On Youtube
BlastFM is now on You Tube! Ryan P. designed the site and he did a great job. Watch Rick Darling makes his debut on You Tube. Check him out at www.youtube.com/blastcasterfm. BlastFM the best internet radio station in the world!!! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm.

The Evil Knight
"Crazy nights and crazy dreams,evil knights with laser beams.Doth protest t'his foulish scheme,rule the kingdom in supreme.Plague the people too extreme,leaving them with low esteem.Without hope, there is no gleam.Even with a common theme.Urge a hero they all scream,put an end to this regime.Edward Peters they all deem,No, one said, we need a ream.Yes, one shouts, he has a team,he'll finish th'all like a cream.Like one said he found a seam,drove the knights out to the stream.Without weapons they all teem,like untrained kids they all steam.Peters a hero, t'all seem,Sir t'his name was his redeem." © LT.David Martin

Personal Goodbye To Those I Care About ...
To All My Family & Top Friends .. I have been struggling with leaving Fu for sometime, as you all know. The draw here obviously is the great people I have met and how much I miss you all when I'm not here. You all have my contact info now though, so the decision to keep in touch is yours. Fu served its purpose for me at a time when I needed it desperately, when Nick was deployed. There are 4 of you that had I not met then, I would not have made it through his deployment .. you know who you are (My Cowboy Ways, Commo Daddy, Kerosene & cavhorseman, written in order of meeting, but all almost on day one of me coming to fu). I thank you with all my heart and you will forever be in it. Love you 4 dearly. Fu has long since passed its purpose for me .. I'm not a game player, I take things too literal and way to much to heart .. just not where I need to be anymore. I hope if you come to my page, you find something there that makes you smile, laugh and remember that someone thinks of you,

A Senior Story
A SENIOR STORYA SENIOR STORYA college student challenged a senior citizen, saying it was impossible for their generation to understand his. "You grew up in a different world," the student said. "Today we have television, jet planes, space travel, nuclear energy, computers..."Taking advantage of a pause in the student's litany, the geezer said, "You're right. We didn't have those things when we were young; so we invented them! What are you doing for the next generation??"(I love old people! They do have a lot to offer!!!)

15 Reasons Why Fishing Is Better Than Sex
15 Reasons Why Fishing Is Better Than Sex15 REASONS WHY FISHING IS BETTER THAN SEX 1. A big, juicy worm always gets a fish excited. 2. You don't have to eat a fish while it's still flopping around. 3. You can take a leak in the bush anytime you want. 4. Stroking your rod won't piss off a trout. 5. Sipping a beer and scratching your balls is all the foreplay expected of you. 6. Anything you stick in a fish's face, it eats. 7. A fish will never gag, choke, or come up for air. 8. A red snapper won't cry if you call it a flounder. 9. You wear rubbers on your feet, not on your dick. 10. If you want a bigger pole, you can have a bigger pole. 11. A smart fish knows when to keep it's mouth shut. 12. It's okay to cook a fish to make it taste good. 13. Fish bite for a guy of 60, same as they do for a guy of 20. 14. You're never called a jerk when you throw back an ugly fish. 15. Fish are real happy when you pick up your gear and go home.

Dont Turn Me Away
Looking down im filled with dread It feels like my life is hanging by a thin thread Cannot rest throughout the night Nightmares leaving me with nothing but a fright Dreams intruding that can never be Daydreams barge in, but ones ill never have happen or see I wish above all else to close my exhausted eyes Be free from all the deceit and lies I feel like im falling apart Although i knew this would happen from the start I never get to keep happiness in my life I feel like a biohazard it always ends in strife The last few years have been hell to deal I wish i could block out my feelings and just not feel To shut them off and just not care To not care if life was fair I'm forced to tread on with what ive been dealt To be alone in the feelings ive thought or felt i feel like i can never catch a break To find something to assauge the ache Disappointment floods in from ones i thought i loved Everyone always pushes and leaves me feeling unloved They ignore my wants and my dreams Leaving me

15 Pieces Of Advice To Be Passed On To Your Daughters..
15 PIECES OF ADVICE TO BE PASSED ON TO YOUR DAUGHTERS 1. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers. 2. What do you do if your boyfriend walks-out? You shut the door. 3. If they put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all up there. 4. Never let your man's mind wander - it's too little to be out alone. 5. Go for younger men. You might as well - they never mature anyway. 6. Men are all the same - they just have different faces, so that you can tell them apart. 7. Definition of a bachelor; a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable. 8. Women don't make fools of men - most of them are the do-it-yourself types. 9. Best way to get a man to do something, is to suggest they are too old for it. 10. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener. 11. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital. 12. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years. Even in biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions. 13. If he

10 Words That Don't Exist, But Should..
10 Words That Don't Exist, But Should 1. AQUADEXTROUS (ak wa deks'trus) adj. Possessing the ability to turn the bathtub tap on and off with your toes. 2. CARPERPETUATION (kar'pur pet u a shun) n. The act, when vacuuming, of running over a string or a piece of lint at least a dozen times, reaching over and picking it up, examining it, then putting it back down to give the vacuum one more chance. 3. DISCONFECT (dis kon fekt') v. To sterilize the piece of candy (confection) you dropped on the floor by blowing on it, assuming this will somehow 'remove' all the germs. 4. ELBONICS (el bon'iks) n. The actions of two people maneuvering for one armrest in a movie theater. 5. FRUST (frust) n. The small line of debris that refuses to be swept onto the dust pan and keeps backing a person across the room until he finally decides to give up and sweep it under the rug. 6. LACTOMANGULATION (lak' to man gyu lay' shun) n. Manhandling the "open here" spout on a milk container so badly that one has to res

Yeehaw!
I have a prank idea, which I wrote about previously. I am going to post a Craigslist ad, telling that I am a tall hot blonde in town for business, and I need to get some dick in me. Then I will tell them to meet me at the crossing of road X and road X, by my hotel. I would be able to see those losers from the entrance.

10 Reasons Why God Created Eve..
10 Reasons Why God Created Eve... 10. God worried that Adam would always be lost in the garden because he knew men would never ask directions. 9. God knew that Adam would one day need someone to hand him the TV remote because men don't want to see what's on television, they want to see WHAT ELSE is on television. 8. God knew that Adam would never buy a new fig leaf when the seat wore out and therefore would need Eve to get one for him. 7. God knew that Adam would never make a doctors appointment for himself. 6. God knew that Adam would never remember which night was garbage night. 5. God knew that if the world was to be populated there would have to be someone to bear children, because men would never be able to handle it. 4. As 'Keeper of the Garden' Adam would never remember where he put his tools. 3. The scripture account of creation indicates that Adam needed someone to blame his troubles on when God caught him hiding in the garden. 2. As the Bible says, 'It is not good for man to

Ensign: The Gift Of The Magi
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 23 July 2009 “Now when Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judaea in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem. Saying, Where is he that is born King of the Jews? for we have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him.” (Matthew 2:1-2) In the second chapter of Matthew, we are introduced to the wise men who saw the star appear over Jesus’ Earthly birthplace. They meet the local ruler (Herod), they go to the place the prophets foretold (Bethlehem), they present their gifts, and they are warned to not return to Herod and go home. Since the time the Bible was written, human tradition has added layer upon layer to this simple meeting. “We Three Kings of Orient Are” may be a popular hymn, but it may not be historical

10 Commandments Of A Teenager...
10 COMMANDMENTS OF A TEENAGER 1) Thou shall not sneak out when parents are sleeping. (why wait?) 2) Thou shall not do drugs (Alcohol last longer) 3) Thou shall not steel from K-Mart. (WalMart has a bigger selection) 4) Thou shall not get arrested for vandalism. (Destruction has a bigger effect) 5) Thou shall not steel from thy parents. (Every one knows grandma has more money) 6) Thou shall not get in fights. (Just start them) 7) Thou shall not skip class. (Just take the whole day off) 8) Thou shall not strip in class. (Hooters pays more) 9) Thou shall not think about having sex. (As Nike says Just Do It) 10) Thou shall not help old ladies cross the street. (Just leave them in the middle)

A Kiss
"I've been wanting all morning to kiss you." "And I don't want to wait any longer." She lowered her lips to his and his arms encircled her, pilling her down onto him. She angeled her mouth more firmly against his and threaded her fingers through his hair. His lips caressed sensitive nerve endings, sending waves of pleasure through her. She opened her mouth inviting his tongue, reveling in the feel of him, tasting of sweetness and salt. he smelled of seawater, and his skin beneath her hands was rough with sand. He smoothed his hands down her back, caressing her skin, lingering over the indentation at the bottom of her spine, shaping his fingers to her buttocks, and squeezing gently. A sharp ache of desire welled in her, making her catch her breath at its intensity. She could not remember when any man had affected her this way. She broke the kiss and smiled down at him. He reached up to brush her hair back from her forehead and said, "I want to see you naked now."

Soul Mate~~
Look into my eyes, See my soul Kiss me, Feel my heart Touch me, Our hearts become one Love me, See our future Lust me, Feel our sexual desire Ask me, I'll says yes We marry, we have a family Happiness, 2 see our children grow Completness, "Us" as we became a family Wisdom, What we lived and learned together Sucessful,Through good and bad during the years we can still..... Look in2 eachothers eyes and see our soul Kiss and feel our heart Touch and know our hearts are one

I Am This Guy
I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I’m the guy who once is in love, will always love you and never will forget

Tits
It fascinates me when I see homely, obese, insecure women ADMIT to looking for a man to support them. Seriously, is there a guy pathetic enough to settle for a gold digging cow? You might look good enough for a janitor, but NOT a lawyer.

It's That Time Again..
Vacation.. finally. And it is something I need. A break from work, life, and just about everything else lol. As always it is a trip to the Outer Banks (OBX). If anyone has never been there, it is a trip you should take. The drive for me takes anywhere from 8-10 hours depending on traffic. I'll be back home Aug 1. I might be able to get a wireless signal down there.. not sure. But I am not going to spend all day on the computer :) I'm sure I'll hear from some of you by cell... I BETTER HEAR from some of you lol. Leave me some love.

A Long Time Coming
Well, I knew this day would come and it looks like it has. For most of you, this is just the web and a fun place to hang out. For others, it is a place to find and connect with others and when that happens, I don't care who you are, emotions begin to play a role. I have found some really wonderful friends on here and I treasure their friendships more than they realize. You know who you are. Yes I am married, but as most of you know, not always and actually rarely happy. I found a wonderful guy on here and became quite attached. Well because of things beyond my control, that didn't work out so well. Am I a stupid girl for falling for somebody on the net, maybe (just one of my many flaws). Anyways, in my horrible attempt to try and get over this particular guy, I walked over a few other nice guys on the way and I would like to tell them how truely sorry I am. Was never my intention. (another flaw) Anyways, the reason for this blog is to tell you all that I will be stepping

Come And Get It!
Want to playSome dirty gamesYou touch me thereI'll pull your hairSpank your assYou moan and gaspSpread your legsI make you begI use my tongueAre you having funI get you wetI'm not done yetYou grasp my cockHard as a rockYou stroke my shaftSucking like madSqueezing my ballsSwallow it allOn your hands and kneesShaking your ass at meMounting you from behindTaking what's mineThrusting like a savage beastAs you buck and screamYour pussy starts to dripI reach around you rub your clitYou start to squirtMy balls begin to burstI empty my loadYour pussy lets goCompletely spentWant to play again

F*cking Computer
So my computer seems to have finally decided not to want to turn on again. This may unfortunately mean a system restore which is goddamn annoying as hell. I've typed this via my PS3, so I wont actually be able to see comments 'till my computer works again, just wanted to let people know.

To Let All The Men On This Site Know Becky W Got The Aids And Too Watch They Self....
well too all you man on this site id love to let you guys know that becky w from greencastle pa has the aids and please dont mess with her and if you had sex with her you better go get a check for aids ok and im not lieing at all... on myspace her screen names are sexy me,becky3404, sweet & lovable

Dead Beat Parents - What You Should Pay Attention To.
Blog Edited To Reflect that there are dead beats on both sides of the equation. Not just fathers. Well for one..pick better partners..dont just drop ya drawz for anyone who comes along Be smarter than that. But when it comes to them taking care of a child after it is here,well you need to be aware of the many tricks they will use on you to avoid helping any at all. 1.First trick which is always the very first thing they do.. "Im not paying to take care of you,I will help the kid in any way. But you need to do this and that.." Then you never see any help from them. Its an excuse used to avoid helping. Using you as the reason. 2.They will become very dodgy,cant find em..they disappear into the woodwork. Dont worry the state governments in which you live can find anyone they want to if they are pushed by you to do so. So file for support against the parent and have them actively pursue them. Remember,they will not if you dont show the interest to do so. 3. They will act a

Please Help If U Can
The above button will take you to my wish list.Below u will find the button for my 4 year old son's wish list. I am not asking for a hand out just looking for a caring soul to help out if they can. Christmas is coming up also we have school starting soon so I will be putting clothes for my son for school on there soon. It is amazon so it is fairly cheap.Please help if you can. If you do not want to buy anything but want to make a donation I have a paypal account.I also have my own website to sell the hair falls I make. If interested in buying some please feel free by going to my site.www.wix.com/SweetZFallZ/SwEEtZ-FallZThank you for taking the time to read this.

For Kiwichi....i Know How Your Feeling
You never said, you never said, you never said That it would be so hard Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard There's gotta be a better way for me to say What's on my heart without leaving scars Can you hear me When I call your name And when you fall apart Am I the reason for you endless sorrow There's so much to be said And with a broken heart Your walls can only go down but so low Can you hear me when I call your name Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long There's gotta be a better way for me to say What's on my heart without leaving scars Can you hear me when I call your name So, can you hear me when I call your name And when you fall apart Am I the reason for your endless sorrow There's so much to be said And with a broken heart Your walls can only go down but so low Can you hear me when I call your name

July 22nd, 2009
This one was very odd. Brad, me, my mum, and his father were at a picnic. There were GIGANTIC grabe. like, graped the shape and size of corndogs. and they were juicy, and delicous, and I nommed them lots. At one point, they became normal sized agai nand i was sad. then we went to the swingset and swung. Very odd.

The Funeral Of Hearts.
I saw new writings. I tell myself "don't read it". I just can't help myself and I read it anyhow. All I can think is that I still love this person so much, but I also know that I can't trust what she says she feels. How can you make it out like everything is so hunky dory, but as soon as you get here it's not. I really don't think I can ever trust you now. Besides I've always been 2nd best, the "if all else fails". It's how I've always felt around you. As of now though, I'm done. I still love you hard, still having dreams that won't go away, still can't get you out of my fucking head. It's only a matter of time before it all falls apart forever. I'm getting stronger everyday and learning to cope. I don't know what you want from me, but whatever it is just say it and stop beating around the fucking bush. That's a big part of the reason why things are the way they are. If you've got something you want to say to me, just say it. Don't be afraid to say something back.

Someone
It feels sad to miss someone badly.. Especially when both of you shared an unforgettable realationship. its so sad not to feel the presence of that someone. It burns your heart with such sadness and longing.. with all that burden your going thru.. you thought your someone misses you, but only to find out that the someone you know was enjoying someone and not you :(

Poem
I Love YouWith my every breath,With all I have left,From the deepest depths,Of my heart, I love you.With all of my strength,With a thousand miles' length,Every thought I think,I think that I love you.For the length of forever,As long as we're together,Through good and bad weather,For always, I love you.When no one is there,When you think no one cares,When love seems too rare,Remember, I love you.When everything's gone,When all has withdrawn,When hopelessness dawns,Don't forget, I love you.When you fall down,When your dreams come unwound,When hope can't be found,Be happy, I love you.When you make mistakes,When you're filled with hate,When you're old and gray,Even then, I'll love you.Until the very end of days,Until God takes my breath away,Until death separates our ways,Even after then, I will always love you.

Getting Into Heaven
It got crowded in heaven, so, for one day it was decided only to accept people who had really had a bad day on the day they died. St. Peter was standing at the pearly gates and said to the first man, "Tell me about the day you died." The man said, "Oh, it was awful. I was sure my wife was having an affair, so I came home early to catch her with him. I searched all over the apartment but couldn't find him anywhere. So I went out onto the balcony, we live on the 25th floor, and found this man hanging over the edge by his fingertips. I went inside, got a hammer, and started hitting his hands. He fell, but landed in some bushes. So, I got the refrigerator and pushed it over the balcony and it crushed him. The strain of the act gave me a heart attack, and I died." St. Peter couldn't deny that this was a pretty bad day, and since it was a crime of passion, he let the man in. He then asked the next man in line about the day he died. "Well, sir, it was awful," said the second man. "I was doing

Blowing
...the lid... Sooo...tonight I get a write up from the boss, blah blah blah; which happened cause my coworker deposited the $$ by accident, blah blah blah. The money was there, just misplaced cause he thought it was from his shift. blah I refused to sign it, since I didnt feel like it was my fault. Then I receive another shit about how some dude complained that I always fuck up his receipt when I switch his porn from a company card to a reg one. I told another boss that a) I do it all the time, and he is the only one complaining B) I showed the boss how its done Then he tells me that blah blah blah thats too many warnings. After which I...blow the lid. I told him that I am gonna guit without 2 wks, and fuck everyone over so they have to all take turns working nights for me, doing audit. Also, I said that they owe me big time for making me lose my vacation AND a plane ticket (that was credited towards a next flight, but they still) because the whore AGM decided to fire a

Poorly Run Lounge
I'd like to say I enjoy going into lounges chatting with decent people, and making new friends..After all that's what fubar is about right? And you can never have enough like minded friends? Well I joined a lounge Thunder's Oldies Night Club it was okay slow very slow not many ppl chatter as it's a new lounge. So every mornin I would drop invites to get the lounge going in which I thought was decent..Only to find out that it's poorly run, the pushiness of the owner and his staff was unbareable..It's a group of people that love drama, pushing people around, making up stories, talking behind peoples backs, Oh yes and they ban you for doing nothing wrong, if you're idle they eject and ban you...It's mainly a lounge that if you dont go along to get along you are ejected and banned..If this is the type of lounge people enjoy I say give it a shot... A group of people that say they cant and wont put up with DRAMA...well by gawd QUIT CREATING THE DRAMA and you wont have any... Now I'd like

Fake Profiles
I was curious if anyone knew where I could report fake profiles to. I have encountered quite a few people using internet porn stars as their profiles and I think it's jacked up. Any suggestions on who I could report it to? Thanks!

Blessings Of Every Kind
Blessings rained down Wednesday upon the defiled grounds of Burr Oak Cemetery as an ecumenical rainbow of leaders from diverse houses of worship re-consecrated what was formerly sacred but now is a crime scene. "Black and white, Jew and Gentile, Protestant and Catholic, Baptist and Greek Orthodox, we are here, all of us with one voice saying, 'These grounds are hallow again,' " said the Rev. Marshall Hatch of New Mount Pilgrim Church in Chicago. He was among some 50 area religious leaders who converged on the beleaguered Alsip cemetery to tour and bless the sites where corpses were allegedly illegally unearthed and dumped in mass graves as part of an alleged grave-reselling scheme. "We all come to grieve again as if it's the funeral over and over again," Rabbi Daniel Sherville of Northbrook Community Synagogue said. "Bewail the dead, but remember that continuing grief is worse than death." 'Gross depravity' The clergy were invited and accompanied by Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart, w

So Called Bestfriends?
So, My best friend(or so I thought) and I had a conversation the other day. And it came to me that she was a total bitch and was more about herself and the bar life. Before she was nineteenwe always hung out and did things together, and after i had my son she stayed a night in the hosp with me and everything was well and whatnot but then she turned nineteen and everything changed and we never spoke for 3 months till the other day. Does it seem fair that i always there.. then she has a bar life and just does not bother with me. Thought best friends stuck it out through thick and thin! Seems like You never know who your true friends are, till they really show their true colors.

French Dream
A boy was having a lot of difficulty in French class. To encourage him, his teacher said, "You'll know you're really beginning to get it when you start dreaming in French." The boy ran into class all excited one day, saying, "Teacher, teacher! I had a dream last night and everyone was talking in French!" "Great!" said the teacher; "what were they saying?" "I don't know," the boy replied; "I couldn't understand them."

Am I A Freak Magnet Or What?
So... As the title implies... What the hell is up with women these days?!?! The girls that I have been meeting lately are just... I dunno.. Let me start by explaining myself.. At the beginning of this month I met a woman who was really nice, polite, and even a bit wild. She was perfect.. or so I thought.. Anyway, about 3 dates in, I find out that she is still married.. After I found that out, it was pretty much over from there.. Come to find out, I had met her husband and all this sh!t started as a result... I mean.. WTF?!!! Why couldn't she have been honest with me? Take 2: I meet another nice young lady about the middle of the month.. I come over to her place, hang out a few times, and BAM.. It begins. This one started telling everyone I was her boyfriend after the first time we hung out.. I mean.. Damn woman, c'mon. After that, things just got blew up out of proportion.. She started lying to me, saying that she was in trouble and her roomate stabbed himself, a

Boredom Survey
1. Who was your last text from? My Son Devin2. Where was your default picture taken? 1 of many Hillsboro Parks3. Whats your middle name? Lee4. Whats on your mind? Answering these questions5. Does your crush/GIRLfriend/BOYfriend like you back? I assume so6. What is your current mood? Mellow7. What is your moms name? Sarah and Faith8. What color shirt are you wearing? Red9. Are you close with your dad? Once upon a time10. If you could go back in TIME and change something, would you? Not sure11. Have a crazy side? yes12. Ever had a near death experience? yes 1 to many13. Something you do a lot? Read14. Angry at anyone? not really15. Favorite Month? March16. Name someone with the same birthday as you? Erik Estrada- from Chips17. When was the last time you cried? night b4 last18. If you could have one super power what would it be? Mind Reader19. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Ass20. What do you usually order from Starbucks? NOTHING----THEY DON'T SUPPORT OUR TROOPS

Why Do The Good Guys Finish Last?
Well, my boss Terry was laid off during the last round, and his last day was this past Monday, when I was out of town. I had been hoping to have a few minutes with him to find out his plans, see what he had cooking, and most of all, to just let him know I appreciated him as a good guy. When I first started working here 15 years ago, he was my 2nd level technical support, so I talked to him every day. Used to tease him about being an Air Force pussy and he would tease me about being an Army grunt (AF people are not intelligent enough to understand that "grunt" is a technical term for an infantry soldier and does not apply to all personel in the Army, so I just forgave him for that oversight). Here's an example of the kind of guy he was. He had hired this man named Bill (who I later nick-named "Bushy Haired Stranger") who lived down in "The Nam" (Fayettenam = Fayetteville NC) which is a good 80 miles away from Raleigh. And there is no interstate between the 2 cities, so you're going th

Have You Ever Wished?
Have you ever wished, that when something or someone gets you either down or pissed off. You could just shut off your feelings like a light switch? Or when you have been with someone for so long, they just leave you at the curb, wondering what you did You could wish, that you could forget them and all you shared, just so you could go on with your life. Man I have always wished that for my self. I wear my heart on my sleeve and most the time, ohhhhhhhhhhhh helllllllllllllllllllllll all the time I get taken advantage of. And un fortunetly , no one ever comes to my rescue to support me or tell me just to keep looking for the bigger picture. That one day I will be rewarded for the kindness I have showen. Man isnt that a pipe dream. LOOKS FOR THE RAINBOW

To You
Just for one moment I want to breath you in to feel you to hold you. To question nothing to know nothing besides that you are mine. That you want me to be yours. So soft so my everything. I want to get lost with you feel your being. feeling each others thoughts in this time. One min to know im your dream come true. One hour to let go of all the fears I ever had. Take me with you to the place no one goes. I want to be fine so hold me embrace me without holding back. A day A week A month A year A life time Doesnt matter to me. As long as I feel your complete in making me feel the ways I have only dreamed .

Why Are You Afraid To Do Good?
1Pe 3:13 Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? 1Pe 3:14 But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear what they fear ; do not be frightened.” 1Pe 3:15 But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 1Pe 3:16 keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. 1Pe 3:17 It is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil. 1Pe 3:18 For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit, 1Pe 3:19 through whom also he went and preached to the spirits in prison 1Pe 3:20 who disobeyed long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being

Felt This Way
Hello you goodbye me I need too get away from this feeling so you take over ill go away. Who would mind anyway. I don’t need to be all I want is to be set freeI’m entrapped in my own body. I fight but I lose maybe this is what I choose. It must be my fault all the bad things that have happenedAll the people who came and went. It has too be me I’m the one to blame I feel so much shame. Its like I disappeared went some where else during those times. I wanted to say no but I couldn’t get out. I felt weak in the knees and wanted to scream this isn’t me. But maybe just maybe I deserve this consist nagging in my mind. My heart has fall and broken so many times. All I want is to not care this I have tried. It seems I trust to much think maybe just maybe if I give them what want they will stay around. But hey not everyone stays mostly they all leave any way I cant keep you your not mine. Even if you were id chase you away after time. You don’t

Hell
ill probably go to hell for this but being beside someone still doesnt give me the same feeling as thinking about someone. i really thought that would change. "Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you."

Love Letter
My pain brings you joy so I hand you the tools to do so. My body is my own you desire it so I give it to you so you can be pleased. My heart can break so I give you the pieces so you can put it back together and make it yours. My mind can wonder so I give you my focus and my thoughts so I never stray from you. My essence is free flowing so I give you the control of the very me so you can call me yours.

Lone
I am alone in this place that is my coming my tome I built it brick by brick all a slight beacon of hope and light shines in. with wind comes the coldness that is locked up tight brilliantly. Thoughts to skirted to make since I only know one thing that is the loneliness. Vanity that causes insanity quick hatefulness that eats me way. Everyone comes for a visit every once in awhile but do they stay I think not. I go back to being alone fearfully of the days that come to repeat to be that I am alone and will stay this way. Darkness is consuming the hope that is left as the bricks gather and no one will be able to get in soon there will be no visitors at my door for all I know is the loneliness that is in store.

Sorry For The Small Print Not The Best. But If Anyone Wants To Work Off It U Shall.
She didn’t just want his body she wanted his soul… his very blood., His love. Tonight is the night she thought as she pulled on her form fitting dress and stepped into her new sexy high heel shoes. She knew with her style that she would make his mind and body go crazy and with her attitude that would make any man want her she would have him. She smelled the scents of plenty of humans before but no one had the scent that drove her mad with desire. Leigh knew when she smelled Laken that he was the one he smelled so sweet and eager to please and control. Leigh easily knew where she could find her Laken. She questioned him though and how she could get him alone. She thought of all the ways she could easily lure him to her. With everything considered weighed out with long hours of thought she said screw it I love the haunt more then anything. I don’t want him to bow to me or throw him self to me like all the other ones before. I want him to make me chase him and make

Counseling Minnesota Style
Ole and Lars are quietly sitting in a boat fishing, chewing and drinking beer when suddenly Lars says, 'I think I'm gonna divorce my wife - she ain't spoke to me in over 2 months.' Ole spits, sips his beer and says, 'Better think it over.... women like that are hard to find.'

Little Bruce
Little Bruce and Jenny are only 10 years old, but they know they are inlove. One day they decide that they want to get married, so Bruce goes toJenny's father to ask him for her hand.Bruce bravely walks up to him and says, 'Mr. Smith, me and Jenny are inlove and I want to ask you for her hand in marriage.'Thinking that this was just the cutest thing, Mr. Smith replies, 'WellBruce, you are only 10. Where will you two live?'Without even taking a moment to think about it, Bruce replies, 'In Jenny'sroom. It's bigger than mine and we can both fit there nicely.'Still thinking this is just adorable, Mr. Smith says with a huge grin,'Okay then how will you live? You're not old enough to get a job. You'llneed to support Jenny.'Again, Bruce instantly replies, 'Our allowance. Jenny makes five bucks aweek and I make 10 bucks a week. That's about 60 bucks a month and thatshould do us just fine.'Mr. Smith is impressed Bruce has put so much thought into this. 'WellBruce, it seems like you have everyth

Colorful Life.
DARKNESS SHADES OF BLUE PALE GRAYS START TO FADE BLOOD SHED RED HURTFUL TEARS DRIP DOWN FALSE ACTION PLAYED OUT MOVES MISTY MEMORIES GO BLACK FLIP THRU THE PLAY BOOK OF LIFE TIME SLIPS GABS START TO CLOSE HOLD ON TIGHT TO LET GO.

Red.
Red mist all around seeping into the ground the smell of blood in the air Coldness all around brings stillnessWhispers you hear from your own fear telling you to run.Chills and goose bumps all over your body.What’s going to happen next eating away at you making you feel like you cant move.Your mind saying run your body wont move and all u smell is blood and all u see is red.All you know is what you don’t know how you got here where here is when will you leave this place that brings your worse nightmares to life…

Just Came To Me .
stubborn twisted mean diseased and suddenly pleased hated debated and misrelated miscommunication wishing intoxication lifeful or is it lifeless up down spinning round and round confused used wishing to be abused scream moan dreadfully alone the pain the hate the fact the fiction the misdirection the pure infliction…

I've Been Anti-social As Of Late..
guess i will leave out on a acid bath quote... (cause i can) "a highway of emptiness and i'm getting bored" anyway guess that is why i haven't been around... dunno... talk to ya later *waves*

A Note To My Friends
Hi and good morning friend... it's in the middle of week already hope your day has be wonderful so far... .. Life is about change... Sometimes it's is a Painful Sometime it is Beautiful Most of the time it is both. .. Just open ur eyes & see that Life is Beautiful!!! .. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are... .. have a Awesome & Happy Hump day and a Good & lovely week!! .. .. Hugs & Kisses

[sleep Is Stupid. And So Is Spongebob]
My dog and I really don't talk much.And mostly when we do, its because we don't agree.But one thing is certain...I have absolutely no reason to get out of bed tomorrow, and she's probably the only reason that I will.I think in one of those vague, 2 steps removed kinda ways she saves my life.She's getting cunty though.I have to actually pick her up about halfway just to get her to go to bed.I think she's figured out how heavy she is... hell she figured that out months ago.To win at tug of war she just lays down on her back.I taught this dog judo much too son.And now she's taken to jumping off my back as a springboard if she outmaneuvers me.Lil bitch.She actually did a death-roll today midair as I held her collar- coulda broke my thumb if I wasn't smart about placing it.Kicked me in the balls 3 days in a row.We play retardedly rough, but what's rough for her is fetch for normal sized dogs.I still think back to the guy hand raising tiger cubs who broke his hips and knee just from being bu

8.8 Million To Get My Angel Wings
Well I made Oracle on July 2nd.I can't believe I'm alreadly this close to Angel! Only 8.8 more million.The only problem is I didn't find out until the other day I need 25 referrals to level.I only have 4 lol.If anyone can help with referrals please pm me with what you want..because everyone wants something here lol.I need help and if anyone can help I will be very grateful.Thanks to everyone who has helped me be so successful the last 5 1/2 months I've been on fu.I love it here most of the time and it's fun.Love my fu family... P.s....Still taking donations for the spotlight fun any help given at all will be appreciated.

[insert Token] / Boyking.
Aww... switched blog modes again.*sigh*Hang on a sec.Alright. I had to take care of something and it wasn't my rear bleedind dog for the first time today.This is what happens when you write, and don't feel a single emotion.Are you ready?Are you ready for this?BAM! I got nothin.And I have for a while.I find that music is a major part of my inspirational process.Music, and actually being miserable.I'm just broke and frustrated.I'm happily single at the moment.I don't have any unattached crushes.Go ahead and check yourself...Yeah I'm not pursuing you.Weird huh?And I'm kinda winding down altogether on online games atm.But hey- Borderlands comes out this quarter, so don't cry for me virginia, and the fallout 3 expacs.I'm in an unfortunate state of stagnant contentment.Like someone that stopped fighting the current and realised the current was actually kneedeep mud.I really do talk like this people.--------------------------------------------------Western wind smells sweet.Like sun caked dus

The Judas Kiss - Metallica
When the world has turned its backWhen the days have turned pitch blackWhen the fear abducts your tongueWhen the fire’s dead and goneSo, what now?Where go I?When you think it’s all said and done.When you are the ostracizedSelfish ridden dead goodbyesTwisting on the tourniquetWhen the pieces never fitSo, what now?Where go I?When you think it’s all said and done.Bow downSell your soul to meI will set you freePacify your demons Bow downSurrender unto meSubmit infectiouslySanctify your demonsInto abyss,You don’t exist.Cannot resist,The Judas kiss.When the storm has blacked your skyIntuition crucifyWhen the ego strips your reign.Assassinate the living flame.So, what now?Where go I?When you think it’s all said and done.Venom of a life insaneBites into your fragile veinInternalize and decimate Patronize and complicateSo, what now?Where go I?When you think it’s all said and done.Bow downSell your soul to meI will set you freePacify your demons Bow downSurren

Tonight Was Beyond Horrible...am Praying 4 My Sons
All I wanted is for Craig, my ex, our boys Thad and Joey, and me -and now Craig's fiance Jenn-her kids..and my Matthew to be happy - that's it - live and let live..... I tried so hard while I was married to Craig-nothing was ever good enough..He is retired from the Navy - I walked away from a 2 story home in the Adirondacks, didn't want his retirement, didn't want alimony - I could go get a job, uncontested divorce w/joint custody -me having primary - and he has sat on the signed and notarized divorce papers for TWO YEARS...not done a damn thing... After my Dad died suddenly from a massive heart attack in Dec.06 two days after Christmas - I did a lot of soul searching -knew that 1.Craig smokes 2 packs a day and had since he was 17 and has no intentions of ever quitting -that = it's gonna catch up to him some time soon and 2. the boys couldn't get to really know him on 'summers' that school systems call summers these days - so in May 2007 I let Craig have the boys for a designated

Solitude
In this elusive time of solitudeWhen the night is drawnand the wind is at my doorI huddle closer to the fire andremember all that went beforeThe warmth of his embraceThe words of wisdom spokenThe kindness in his face.I allow my soul to touchUpon a love now broken. Poem by Tammy C.

(day 2)
it is day 2 as you can see and i failed in getting my weight but i see that i mit weigh atleast 220 pounds give a lot or take a little.today i ate cearl,for lunch i really didn't eat much but some fruit.for dinner a salad and home made mac&cheese.i hate my family well my older brother he calls me gay for not eating meat.which he dose to anything that isn't like him.i hate him.but i see that he just dosen't under stand anything that isn't normal to him,who has a baby momma and a second on the way.both of them figth nearly all the time beacuse of the kids,how get's on his neavers,they don't know how to act,o the baby momma has an other kid that's not his so she has two and a third on the way,he has one and another on the way.so you got to take care of two kids and worry about another soon.all i have to do is not eat meat.

Wtf Is This?
Status: If I rate you a 1 and then re-rate you a 10, it's only because I'm trying to level, don't take it personal.. I got rated a "1"and rerated a "10" I feel used I don't get this new leveling bullshit hoops people are jumping through. I get shouts asking me to vote on MUMMS so they can level. now this??? I'm so glad I won't get past my next level. Oddly due to stupid quallifications! OK, end of rant. Go back to your beer and mumms

Death
being close to death has brought a new meaning to life, live it !!! one moment at a time , smile when you can and hide your pain from the ones who care about you. I have not been on for awhile the reason is I have had one medical problem after the other, my left lung collapsed and they removed a 1/3 of it causing a great deal of pain and healing time away from the computer and the ones who are my friends , as well as my job. today I am mostly healed but with new problems I have been diagnosed with emphysema of both lungs and it is very hard for me to breathe and sit at a computer for very long no treatment has been given yet I am working out something now with medical stays in the hospitals and treament very soon I will address that, yes I still work and yes I still ride a bike but these days there is an engine on it. life has been hard but so to are your problems life is hard... thank you for all that have sent well wishes and are still on my list you are all truly a gift from a

Put A Shirt On!
It seems like every day on fubar, my eyes are treated to the indignity of another shirtless moron who thinks hes pretty damn special cause he goes to the gym a couple times a week. So all day/night i have to watch these hulks of stupidity roll up my bar tab because some chick added them, and im too lazy to filter it. What makes these fuckin meatheads think theyve all gotta default pic themselves shirtless?"Oh look at me, i dont have an ounce of brain inside my fat stupid head, i cant even spell my name correctly, and im probably a big pussy who skates by safely because i make alot of noise and hope that plus my muscles intimidates people who dont know any better." So each and every day, I gotta watch another cookie cutter fucktard who thinks hes unique, but is really just another pathetic entree in the long list of fucktards with a shirtless default pic and maybe the word "enforcer" horridly mispelled in their name. Really, dullards, put the shirt back on, listen to what your spell

My Daddy Said "boy You Gonna Drive Me To Drinking If You Don't Stop Driving That Hot Rod Lincoln"
When my son was younger, I tried very hard to turn him into a gear head. I'd bring him to car shows, I brought him to NHRA drag races, and NASCAR races, and I'd have him help me when I was wrenching. Me being a "Ford" guy I would have loved to bring him up to follow in my shoes, but none of this worked in the long term; he was then and remains today a gaming nerd. But for one shining moment in time when he was about 10, he was almost one:My wife had the kids in the minivan, Chris was in the front passenger seat wearing a pair of my sunglasses. Had his arm up on the window sill with the window down, rocking the shades. Oh yeah, he's as cool as can be in the minivan with his mom, lol.Sitting at a red light, this old hot rod pulls up next to him, with an older man driving it. No one who was there can even tell me what KIND of car it was but by description I'm assuming some 1930's roadster. It had a hot rod engine with a loud exhaust, and when he pulled up next to him at the red light, Chr

The Dance My Heart Does
Love is the dance my heart does, to the music of you. You're the melody...The rythm...The magic The beat I tap my feet to. You're the song I love to play over and over, The movie I'll never get tired of, The novel I can't put down, The poem I write over and over again. The dream I do not wish to wake from. Poem By Tammy C.

That Is The Thing About A First Impression...
You only get one chance to do it. Hi folks, I am a friend to many fu-folks here, and this is not my first campaign. Anytime I am on a social network, I like to take the power of the first amendment and assert it. Blogging is of course the way to go these days, but as an aspiring screenwriter and someone who already writes lyrics and poetry, I find it more fascinating to have what I write be published into the printed community. Unfortunately, that takes college and a tad more ambition than I find interest in, at the moment. One thing to know about me is that I am big on music. I live with music wherever I can listen to it, I sing lyrics when im alone or when it plays in my car. I aspire to play it in a band, or perhaps sing it. Lately I have been approached to learn some aspects of producing it, because I have a knack for observing what a bands chemistry is like. That is above my head though, and so that will be something that comes as it does. Here I am, writing. I started witho

Poetry2
The starlit night is endless, like the heart it is also beautiful. The stars represent a point in space, just as in the heart are the points the people closest to us hold. Everytime you look at the starlit night, remember it could be a reflection of whats inside you.

Melbourne, Day 1.
Wednesday, the day, vanished. Disappeared. Gone. Absent. Completely. Long 14 hour flight. In the very pleasant company of Sarah and her mother Kimberly (immortalized in my pic section). Verizon promised my phone would work. My phone didn’t work. Changed to Telstra, Now the internet on my phone doesn’t work, however at Telstra I did meet Belinda. A lovely woman….and married. Pass. Shuttle has no record of me but gave me a ride nonetheless. Anastasia was the operator. I dated a woman with that name. Maybe that explains the special treatment. Qantas lost baggage, then found it on a later plane. All of 8 minutes and a complimentary cup of “coffee” later. There is no coffee in Melbourne.

You Think You're Invincible?!?!!? Read This!!!!!
SHARE THIS BLOG WITH YOUR FRIENDS! REPOST MY BULLETIN TOO!!!! This is A VERY IMPORTANT READ!!!! My best friend had a heart attack at age 30!!!! YES HE IS ONLY 30 YEARS OLD!!! He woke up several times before it happened over the months, with his arms numb or they "fell asleep" and he'd have to shake them to get the feeling back!!! He has been a smoker since he was 17 years old. He used to smoke two packs a day and a year ago, cut down to half a pack to a pack a day. It doesn't matter how much you smoke people!!!! Smoking is going to kill you no matter what!!!!!!!!!!! Monday morning at 3am he called me on my cell phone. I NEVER sleep with my cell phone, but thankfully did that night!!!! He asked me to please come downstairs as soon as possible. I went downstairs and he was hunched over his bed. His arms had gone numb. He had no feeling in them, but could feel me touching them. He was cold and clammy. His mouth and arm were blue on and off. We went to the emergency room where he had t

Stole These From Andy
I'm thinking no one will get them all right. 1. What is my first name? 2. What is my favorite color? 3. Am I married, divorced, single or seperated? 4. How many kids do I have? 5. What type of music do I listen to the most? 6. What was my first car? 7. Do I have tatoos? 8. Am I a smoker? 9. Do i prefer the t.v. or to read?

I Thought I Try It Too Folks
1. What is my first name? 2. What is my favorite color? 3. Am I married, divorced, single or seperated? 4. How many kids do I have? 5. What type of music do I listen to the most? 6. What was my first car? 7. Do I have tatoos? 8. Am I a smoker? 9. Do i prefer the t.v. or to read?

Wishing Wells
In my mind's eye I see myself Going places... I've never been Seeing things... I've never seen Doing things... I've only dreamed. But in plain view I've seen cold truth. The pointless squandered days of youth. How many chances I Passed on by For wishing wells That came up dry. Poem By Tammy C.

Stolen From Lipstick..kinda
winners get a slap on the ass and "good game" 1. What is my first name? 2. What is my favorite color? 3. Am I married, divorced, single or seperated? 4. How many kids do I have? 5. What type of music do I listen to the most? 6. What was my first car? 7. Do I have tatoos? 8. Am I a smoker? 9. Do i prefer the t.v. or to read?

Bombing
Ok, I use Cherry bombs 3-4 times a week. Don't SB me if you don't have an auto on. Do not offer fubucks if you don't have an auto on. Don't SB without an auto and say "Bomb me and I will get you back" because 99% of you don't. I have plenty of people in my family that rarely gets an auto to bomb. They are in my family because they help me ALL the time. And for the people that ask me to bomb me and I do but don't return the favor, don't bother SB either. I have bombed yous like 20 times and like 10 of yous don't return the favor. You know who you are. Which brings me up the next subject. Why most people on here help people who don't even care about you? All they care about is leveling. So why waste your money and time on them when don't even bother to even say hi to you? Let them spend their own money and time. I am not saying EVERYONE is that stingy, but a good portion are. If ya'll read this an hate me then oh well. Its my opinion. Yeah I know. I will get morons that will comment chil

Incommunicado
Hi friends. Just letting you all know I will be offline for the next few weeks and while I will have my phone with me I will only be able to check for voice mails or text messages every couple of days. I am not sure exactly when we are heading out but it will be sometime between tomorrow evening and Friday morning. Feel free to leave texts of how you all are doing if you have the number. Also I plan to email the emergency contact number of where I will be to my top5 friends on here. Fates forbid something happen but should something really bad happen to anyone in my family or top friends ask one of them to let me know. They are trustworthy people. Be safe. Be good and have a fun fu time while I am gone.

.....or.......
Just a quick update on whats going on in my so called wonderful life... Today I had the finacial appt trying to get on the grant for the counseling, they couldnt set me up with another appt till Aug 11, but she told me to try to come in and be a walk in at 7:30 in the morning to see if I can be seen before that. I am getting a little more used to the house for the most part. Next Friday will be my cook night for the 1st time, so I plan on doing something easy the 1st night then after that attempting to do harder things, its just I have never in my life cooked for 12 people. My caseworker will be back next week, she has been on vacation since before I moved in, and I hear out of the two, she is the one that will keep me on my toes more. I have a list of goals made up to work on, along with strategies to get them done. They range from getting this grant, getting a physical, going to a 6 week class called reponsible renters, and would you believe she even put down learning to play the

The Forbidden
I dared to touch a forbidden fruit, Lost the being I once was. Yes, I surrendered to the unknown, Now I'm slowly slipping, To the nothingness of my creation. For I dared to glance, At the fading shadows of the forbidden, Promising tenderness it does not have. Broken I stand and stare… Wondering… Scattered letters of paradise,love… Knowing the secrets of the contents, I slowly walk, dragging my broken heart. Warning those daring to touch the forbidden. Poem By Tammy C.

..for Veterans & Their Families Only
OBAMA IS SURPRISED > I checked this out on "truth or fiction" and it is truth , but the proposal was withdrawn after Sen. Akaka, democratic chairman of the veteran affairs committee refused to let it out of the committee. The president then withdrew the plan. ******************* > HERE IS HIS RESPONSE WHEN HE BACKED OFF FROM HIS DECISION TO LET THE MILITARY PAY FOR THEIR WAR INJURIES......... > WHAT A EMPTY HEADED PERSON HE MUST BE.... SEND THIS TO EVERYONE TO SHOW JUST WHAT HE THINKS OF OUR MILITARY WHO FIGHT FOR OUR COUNTRY AND GET HURT PROTECTING OUR FREEDOM!!! > Bad press, including major mockery of the plan by comedian Jon Stewart, led to President Obama abandoning his proposal to require veterans carry private health insurance to cover the estimated $540 million annual cost to the federal government of treatment for injuries to military personnel received during their tours on active duty. > The President admitted that he was puzzled by the magnitude of the opposition to

Inspired
I've been inspired by a slew of elements lately that have sort of, reawakened my soul and quest for life. I want to start living now, instead of agonizing over the future, or worse, the past. It's time to embrace my environment and true nature, not cover it up with what I think I'm supposed to be doing or how I think I'm supposed to be feeling. It's time to just let it be. It is what it is.

If I Had One Wish...this...would Be It...
Home...I Just Want A Place...To Call Home...Again...A place I can breatheA place that is "Sancturary"A place to look forward to goingA place I won't be anyone...other than who I amA place that even with or without other people...I won't feel aloneDoesn't need to be much...I'm no princess...(not by a long shot...;)...)I don't care if I (we) struggle(I'm quite familiar with "that struggle")...And I dont care...Cuz I(we) can and always have gotten by...But...I don't wanna do it alone anymore...I need friends...I need love...I need to laugh...To smile...again.I know I need that...But...I know...I can't do it alone...anymore.I need some arms every now and again to help me up if I fall...(and everyone does)...I need them to be real...to be true...I need something to be there...and...stay there...without ever being taken away again...and...I wanna be able....to call it..."Home". (k...I'm done spewing...;)...but I meant every single word of it...the hell...if I didn't...)

Power
I have a shit load of it over her · friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...!· friend Hellyion got five across the lips by the Pimp Hand of MZ.CHEIV...! MZ.CHEIVIOUS©2 mins ago-- 53 of 57 Bounty Hunter™ said: Hellyion: lol she bought it JUST to use on me .... she made my fucking day I could make waste money like that ... make sure she knows MZ.CHEIVIOUS© said: Tell her it's not my money so idgad....and I have over 300 more bling credits so i will pimp slap her for a year straight...

Leaving Fubar Behind Me.
I'm Leaving All This Behind Me.This Is The Last Time I Leave.I Have College Soon Anyway So I Wont Have Time For Any Of This.Theres No Fighting With Me On This,Theres No Telling Me " Well Your Leaving Over THAT",I Leave Over Whatever The Hell I Want To Leave For. Im Just Done.Take It For What You Want.

Confessions Of A Submissive In The Making
So I was going to talk about my obsession with the deep sea tonight but I got side tracked. I just downloaded a bunch of music featured in Abby's lab on NCIS (love that broad, btw) and it brought me back to some of my... uhhhh... kinkier nights. I thought I'd share. Anyone here ever actually been to a sex club? Apparently Seattle is a pretty prime place for sex-positive culture. Very open, very experimental, and safe. {Side Note, new obsession = Android Lust. Enjoy listening while you read...} I've always had a dark side to me and it most definitely makes itself known in the bedroom. BDSM is what makes me tick. Control. Power struggles. Destroying someone. Being destroyed. All of it is hot. It makes sense with who I am, but I won't get into the psychology of it. That's for another time, maybe. The point is, I met someone that opened my eyes. Took my hand {or say, neck, by leash and collar?} and walked me into one of Seattle's BDSM sex clubs, turning years

Letting Them Go
In our lives there comes a time when we have done all we can do to prove to the one we love, how much we truely care. At that time after all the hard effort and all the pain and tears we must let them go. I know it will be hard for us to do, but it must be done. We must finally realize that they don't care and to them we are a joke or worse a dog that comes when called. We have stood by and been a door mat for long enough with not even the glimse of what we set out to accomplish. So we must be strong and try not to show how much it is killing us in side to let go. They think we will hold on to the hope of having them with no intention of giving themselves to us. Our love and hearts are just a game for them and playing on our emotions keeps them entertained while they continue to search for whats right in front of them. We will cry in privite but never in front of them because we know that they will try to make us feel like they care to keep us hanging on. Our hearts will break, our so

Dance
Most of you may know most of u may not i'm a dancer. Been a dancer ever since I was 3 and i'm 20 now so 17 years in the making .Ilove dance it's my passion and now I use it to usually vent or exspress my feelings instead of doing something stupid.So so far ive taken the fallowing: ballet,jazz,tap,hip hop,irish river, clogging, belly dancing, pole dancing, break dancing, salsa, ballroom, tango,modern, lyrical, swing so on and so forth lol.Yes,looks like i've taken every dance class possible but nope . Iv'e been very dedicated to dance my whole life worked my ass off everyday practicing had my dad build like my own lil studio in the basement then later on he actually built my a studio kinda on the outside looked like a barn and on the inside looked like a studio and used to spend hour after hour there practicing and did my homework there too didnt go back to the main house till around 10:00 around eveyday.Since breakdancing needed muscle, built up some pretty nice muscles with the hel

Stressed
im so tired of having to fight tooth and fucking nail for everything anything thats even remotly good in my life. im tired of having to defend my every move im tired of the constant struggle to prove myself. why the fuck am i even needing to prove myself i dont get it. maybe i need to stop being nice maybe i need to tell everyone to go fuck themselves?.....*sighs* im just so frustrated i have to fight with social services i have to fight with my family i have to fight with my daughter i have to fight with my ex i am just so tired of fighting for everything im tired of having to fight. i would love nothing more than to find that one person who will fight with me at the least. who i can depend on and share everything with. who will hold me and be happy to hold me and love me if for nothing other than the same in return. i want a family and at the same time i worry that if i wait to much longer i wont be able to have any more kids wich is sumthing i would want if i were to ever find that

The One Who Has My Heart!
Will you walk with me, the path of life,to explore every bend of the roadEnjoy with me the beauty of life,along its wonderful wayFind comfort with me, in each other's arms,when grief crosses our pathFind strength with me, in each other's strength,when despair lies in waitLaugh with me, a single true laugh,to enlighten another's distressCry with me, a single true tear,to understand true happinessCherish with me, the wonders of life,as they need to be preservedRejoice with me, in the mysteries,of what is yet to beFind peace with me, in each other's souls,when the world has gone insaneFind love with me, in each other's hearts,until this life has been fulfilledAnd when the path comes to an endI hope we can say from withinWe've known the beauty of true love,our love came from within

I Think I Am Misunderstanding The Whole Fan Thing
Let me know if I am wrong, but I thought when you fanned a person it is because your a fan of something you find interesting in a person. How can you Fan someone when you don't really know that person? My List is small but for good reason: Sugartastic: How can you not be a fan of her, she is an amazing writer with creativity coming out through every pore of her body...which not bad mine is better. :) But back to her writing, she could get me excited about her wonderful day of doing nothing all by how she delivers it.And all around amazing wonderful person for what I know, or what I know from what she expresses in writing and conversation.She even told me about firefox spell check, which stopped me from looking a fool. Mrs. Badcrumble: She is one that I think I could relate to by the environment of people and influences I bring into my life.Anyone that know about the great Divine, how can you not like?Risky at times but over all shows that she is a straight up person and tells you

My Motivational Quotes- Quotes I Strive By.
A blind man once said- The value of life has no limitations. Take each day as they are, but remember with materialism, happyness dwindles. "There once was a man who had the heart of a lion, the brain of a mouse, but the will power of ten thousand men. Anything in life can be achieved. You just have to follow your dreams"- Darius (Me) "How much can one be worth? Do you see yourself as an object or an entity? To claim one's own purpose in this life... Inevitably, there is a spot for us all awaiting in the void of death." - Me "Love yourself for who you are. Do not let the things in life stress you out. Your life is like a blade of grass, gentle and fragile, but maintainable with the right amount of confidence and care. Be wise in each and every decision that you make. Do not compare yourself to others. Hold your will strongly, and your positive thoughts will reign true in your life. No fault is of one's own, the circle of life has it's breaks. One must keep the cycle flowing

My New Owner!!!
I am now owned. He's an awesome guy that deserves every bit of great things he gets. So if you could please go throw him some rates, fan him, maybe even bling him...I'd greatly appreciate it. Hell, while you're at it why not add him? You won't regret it, I can promise you!!!! Sexy Savior@ fubar

I Don't Get It?
I have thought about this for a long time.. and it does not make sense! why do people always have to change? why does everything have to chane? Why cant People and thing just remain the same? http://fubar.com/user/2875609

To My Friends
No, I didnt fail to respond to you cause I dont love you anymore. I went to work out, and at 7 i dropped off a key from the gym at my dad's. So he and my step mom wound up feeding me for like 3 hrs. So there!

Feeling Down Lately
Sorry not been much of a friend lately.. just not been feeling up to being on here much lately. Just want to say thank you to the very few who actually show me love on here lately. I appreciate everything you do..and for who you are. I have thought of deleiting ..but I know I will regret it once I have. Anyways..just wanted to say thank you again..for being there. xoxo

Why I Carry A Gun:
My old grandpa said to me son,' there comes a time in every mans life when he stops bustin' knuckles and starts bustin' caps and usually it's When he becomes too old to take an ass whoopin', I don't carry a gun to kill people. I carry a gun to keep from being killed. I don't carry a gun to scare people. I carry a gun because sometimes this world can be a scary place. I don't carry a gun because I'm paranoid. I carry a gun because there are real threats in the world. I don't carry a gun because I'm evil. I carry a gun because I have lived long enough to see the evil in the world. I don't carry a gun because I hate the government. I carry a gun because I understand the limitations of government. I don't carry a gun because I'm angry. I carry a gun so that I don't have to spend the rest of my life hating myself for failing to be prepared. I don't carry a gun because I want to shoot someone. I carry a gun because I want to die at a ripe old age in my bed, and not on a sidewalk somewhere t

Strongly Dislike
Ok,just me being bored gonna talk about the things/people I strongly dislike the most... 1.) Well I strongly dislike fakers people whoo pretend to be what they really arent 2.)Strongly dislike liars 3.)Strongly dislike lazy people who don't know the deffinition of hard work 4.)Strongly dislike all the bitches who say their fat when their skinny as a rail 5.)Strongly dislike people who think they know stuff but really don't 6.)Strongly dislike people who don't know how to work for stuff in life and just like stuff handed to them on a silver platter 7.)Strongly dislike rubber duckies(their stalkers they watch you take a bath) o-O 8.)Strongly dislike jerks 9.)Strongly dislike werewolves(no offence to you werewolves out there...) 10.)Strongly dislike guys who only go after one thing (you know what that thing is) 11.)Strongly dislike stairs (not my fault...actually it is i'm the one who reads while gong down the stairs...) 12.)Strongly dislike beggers

Don't Worry About Me
subject: Please Rate This date: 2009-07-22 18:23:39 Don't Worry About MeI'm not trying to get back with youBecause you are not the Man I thought you would be Don't Worry About MeI'm through playing those games with youAll you had to do was say your through Don't Worry About MeAll the things we had planned togetherYou could have said you had a change of plans likemaybe never Don't Worry About MeAll I wanted to do was show how much I loved youInstead you showed me your thoughts on how to move Don't Worry About MeI tried to call you to see if you was alrightBut you would not return my calls any night Don't Worry About MeWe could have had a wonderful lifeInstead you changed your plans on me becoming your wife Don't Worry About MeSo we are through and that's a factI hope you get your life intactInstead of trying to be Daddy Mac

I Should Be Crying But I Just Can't Let It Show
Pray to God you can copeI stand outsideThis woman's workThis woman's worldOooh, it's hard on the manNow his part is overNow starts the craft of the fatherI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingAll the things I should've said that I never saidAll the things we should of done that we never didAll the things I should've given but I didn'tOh darling make it goMake it go awayGive me them back to meGive that little kissGive me your handI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingOf all the things we should've said that were never saidAll the things we should've done that we never didAll t

Beautiful And Sad
The other day I heard a story, so beautiful yet sad. It went something like this. I fell in love, tottaly and unexpectedly. His eyes as blue as the sky. Holding the weight of the world in them. His lopsided smile so broad it could light up an entire nation, and make ease a nervous soul. His every movement drawing me in, his every word captivating me. The way my heart pounds and my breathing quickens is shameless. I fear it will betray me. I feel but 16 again, and me, a full grown adult. Every day drags on by. The clock ticking loudly. The minutes pass slowly, Tick tock. Louder and louder the ticking grows. I can not even hear myself think. I wish for the day to be gone so i may get a glimpse, but tonight is not the night. Busy lives and another day is gone. I would but let my life pass in a flash if only for one glimpse. Another day dawns, another day of slowly ticking minutes. The morning seems to take years to pass. I check my phone, still nothing. Then as if on command the ph

Ugh...
You kno im tired tired of all the jerks,fakers,liars, know-it-all's etc... Well ive been in a bit of realtionships and they all dont work out ive seen em all the bad, the jerks, the sensative ones. the know-it alls, the jealous ones and lets just say im tired of it all and im about to give up on guys.Better for me ive tried my hardest i swear i have ive been the sweetest person i can be in a realtionship and nothing seems to work i always just get hurt and im sick and tired of it.Some are just jerks who dont give me a chance to prove myself just because I might be pretty doesnt mean im stupid and arrogant or a hoe just b/c im kinda rich doesnt mean im stuck up heartless and dont know how to work for shit. Some guys are just there and they don't tell me their feelings about things and all of a sudden they blow up about stuff thats not even my fault i'm not a damn mind reader how was I supposed to know?. Also im tired of trying to be put in a category like rich and snobby or beaut

There Is No Respite For The Evil At Heart
Is it only me, or did anyone else think in that song "Aint no rest for the wicked" that if the singer had gone with the prostitue he probably wouldn't have been mugged. You know, because he would have been busy for more than fifteen minutes. I think there's a valuable life lesson to be learned from that. If you arent familiar with the song: Well you'll have to look it up because fubar blogging sucks.

Love
by Untitled MeI once fell for a boy;only one word fit him--P e r f e c t.So I thought...Now perfection isa wasted term--like love whendesire interferes.Desire is a beautifulthing--but if not usedsparingly; it couldwreck your life.Yet--I was too ignorantto accept this warning--leading me to learnthe hardest way possible.I never wanted to bein love with a fairy taleboy--But I have nocontrol over myimperfect heart.Its love kills theurges I alwayshate to feel.Underneath it all--I learned one lessonessential to life...Never fall into the armsof abstract things...they can't catchthe invisible.xoxooxbestmoviestar

Where To Begin
I need to note in case anyone notices this phenomenon: I have made the decision to block certain people on here. I dont want to but I have to. so this is what is up: people who block non salute bearing folks get blocked: I have a salute as i have mentioned in the past but fubar has something against me so fuck em and their snobby folks. also, If I get in touch and you check me out and dont bother to respond to at least admit youre too snooty to consider me worht the pale imitation of friendship the thing provides you get blocked too. I should mention real people in the real world have been expressing interes tin my art. who knew? I didnt. so yeah, it may not mean much at the moment but soon enough you may well be kicking yourself for your snobbiness. just saying is all. NEWS: the poisonous cuttlefish! Some months ago I was at my neighbor Gabes place smoking pot which is something we both do and listening to heavy metal which is another something we have in common (and thats about it

Removed For Lack Of Bling.... Lol
Well, a new low for Fubar.... I became friends with ♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε®®Y♱Pìε-MemberofCandyShop- Page can be found here... http://www.fubar.com/user/899559 Started talking the normal how are you's ect. further into the convo she found out I do not put money on fubar, thus could not buy her bling... She then removed me from Friends lol Here is the Convo... remember read bottom to top..... (UPDATE She has now Blocked me) >♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: Wow.... ♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: ok thanks bye ->♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: I am sorry, I do not put money on here, much rather spend it on my Nieces and Nephew or other more important things ->♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: Why are you wasting my time? ♱§Шεε&

Birthday Sex
There are 365 Birthdays. Out of all of the billions of people who live in the world, there has got to be somebody born on each day of the year. We're going to try to accomplish the task of seeing if we can fill the calendar up with a birthday on every day of the year.Add your name next to your birthdate and lets see if we can do it!!! (Hey and don't delete any one) Copy and paste and make a new bulletin! ! ! ! ! ! ! !January 1-Dustin Engler!!!January 2 -January 3 -January 4 -January 5 -January 6 -Courtney BryantJanuary 7 -Ricky "Dunn Dunn"January 8 -January 9 -January 10-January 11-January 12 -January 13 -Judge D.January 14 -Samantha marie KlossJanuary 15 -autumn nicole pateee(:

Declaration
As many of you know my life has been pretty fucked up this year. I lost my girlfriend who meant the world to me, my life was planned with her. I lost my job. I started taking care of my mom. All and all my mental health has been at just about its lowest in as long as I can remember. I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm ready to call it quits. but I can't. Not because of my kids, or my mom, or anyone else that has no faith in me anyways, I can't cause its not in my nature. I'm sick of my anger. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. I done with other people having any major influence in my life, or how I live it. Do my mom and my kids drive me crazy? yeah. Did Erin really fuck me up when she fucked me over? yeah. Am I going to have a hard time trusting women again? Hell yeah (you all do suck) but I'm done having that control me. So my life hasn't gone to my plan. So fuckin what. I've got my friends. I'm more dedicated to living life than I was last year. I'm goin to have some fun now. New frie

Meet Djkingblaze
For some reason i cant get the pic link up so... yeah lol http://fubar.com/user/310694 Please go show him lots of love!!! He's a good friend and my new owner!! Please RFA him and tell him Tempted sent ya!!!

To A Wonderful Gothic Woman (d'hark Julez)
Here is one of the closest and dearest people I know. D’hark Julez is true blue guys and gals and a jewel of a best friend. I am proud and blessed to know and call her family. Go and show her some gothic love.I also wanted to pimpout her wonderful work and second home as well as mine, The Dhark Domain. You can SB or private message one of us for the details. $safe_uid_dname@ fubar

Folly
You under estimated me, i did the same to you...I never realized how much pain you could put me through...My heart was never fully broken, only slightly bruised...I gave love in it's purest form, i gave it to someone...I gave it to you...

Clouded Soul
Lost within his mind,His soul he wishes to find,Cast onto the forgotten path,Gained nothing he hath,Fighting to prove him true,His inner power he must subdue,Anger and hate like burning flames,Tired of the demons endless games,Holding to his shrouded past,Hoping that his energy will last,So near yet so far from his goal,The return of his clouded soul.

And All Of This For You...
nine inch nails.the great below staring at the sea. will she come? is there hope for me. after all is said and done. anything at any price. all of this for you. all the spoils of a wasted life. all of this for you. all the world has closed her eyes. tired faith all worn and thin. for all we could have done. and all that could have been. ocean pulls me close. and whispers in my ear. the destiny i've chose. all becoming clear. the currents have their say. the time is drawing near. washes me away. makes me disappear. and i descend from grace. in arms of undertow. i will take my place. in the great below. i can still feel you. even so far away. i can still feel you. even so far away... So... Another one of those odd sort of days, but this one is filled with a sense of longing. not the cold acceptance that everything is damned. i long for all those things i've convinced myself don't exist, that i don't want. love and family and children... yeah, i kinda want a kid right now. but it'll p

Pismo Beach...
I have read alot about human quirks. About the way we form social groups. It is very interesting. You know the classic line from the movie HIGHLANDER - There Can Be Only One!!! - apparently its just a fact of human beings interacting naturally. If you take five leader types and put them in a place together, for a prolonged period of time, one of them will retain the characteristics of the leader - another will become the jokester, one will be the philosopher, one will be the go-fer, and one will be the enforcer. Nature sorts us out, so that we might better preserve our kind. It is the prime directive. God make us resiliant. We, with such soft skin, and dull teeth, no claws, not even fur to allow for some resistance to a bite. Yet we thrive. Mind power, Sweeny - Mr. McGavin expoused to his amazed neighbor as the glow of electric sex from the controversial leg lamp from A Christmas Story bathed good old Cleveland Street.

To Thy Own Self Be True
Shakespeare said in Hamlet, "To Thy own self, be true"...and from what I've seen so far this week, a few people on here could use a little kick in the ass and I'm calling out one in particular JENNA-- you thrill the masses with your plastique thrills and your fake smiles..your "Girl Next Door" persona is also quite fake.. youre a cold hearted, retarded, naive little tussie..I would certainly love to know what or whom is pulling your strings.

Invalid
So I went to play some football today, it turned to not be a good idea. Stuck my left hand in front of a shot someone took, the result being torn ligaments in my thumb. Not the most pain I've ever felt, but is a close run thing.

My Thought On A Website!!
Cyber love is a figment of our imagination. A wonderful fantasy of our individual creation. I bought all the lines that came to own me. Never understanding the feelings that I couldn't see. Never realizing my heart he was stealing. Too caught up in the overwhelming feeling. Some people need a lesson to learn. I got mine and can still feel the burn. I never allow myself to make the same mistake twice. So don't read more into my words because I'm just being nice. I can be your friend but my secrets you"ll never know. Inside of my heart is someplace you will never go. Even when you believe you are very close to me. A superficial women is all you will ever see. So don't ask me for love or something else I don't feel. I'm not trying to be a bitch ,I'm just keeping it real. Everything that matters is what I won't share. So don't be foolish and begin to really care. Please ask nothing from me except some casual chat. Because that is all I have to give..nothing but that. I'm so much wiser and

Dildos, Psychics, And Clay Aiken
So my crazy neighbor is here visiting. I've been home from work for 2 hours. From what I've heard, she'd been here for 2 hours before I was home. This woman is NOT right in the head. She says she's married to Clay Aiken, "in her head". That he's really not gay, that his look alike is the one that is. She then said that she took an online quiz, and she's psychic because it said she was. She said the website, I went to go look at it, but the site is closed. Wanna know why? Because the site got sued, lol. I guess too many people took the quizes and thought it was real, hahaha. Next thing you know she's talking about how her and some guy that she knows went to some sex shop and seen a "dildo" that was as tall as her waist. Then she's talking about this new "sex toy" that she ordered off of Amazon.com. I now know that she will be getting a dildo that is light blue, kind of clear. I hate the stupid shit that I hear from people.

Bar Joke: If My Wife Find Out
A drunk in a bar pukes all over his own shirt, which was brand new before he came in. “Damn,” he says. “I puked on my shirt again. If the wife finds out, she’s gonna kill me.” “Not to worry,” says the bartender as he sticks a $20 bill in the drunk’s pocket. “Just tell her someone puked on you and gave you some cash to cover the cleaning bill.” So the drunk goes home and tells his wife about the guy who puked on him. She reaches into his pocket and finds two twenties. “Why are there two twenties?” she asks. The drunk replies, “Oh, yeah, he crapped in my pants, too.”

Judgement Day
I have been judged. How you asked?...You judged me by my negatives, weakness and life history and it allowed you to be clouded to see what is REALLY inside of my heart & soul. Don't you EVER realize love WILL and CAN conquers everything else, even more powerful?!? Or are you so completely BLINDED?! You choose to listen and see the other side of me instead of love me for who I am, therefore you judged for who I AM! What is in my heart, soul and love shows the real ME and you don't want or see it. It's the most saddest day ever of my life when you gave my judgment day. Can't you even hear my heart & soul screaming for you and for your love? Now that I see what you had chose the judgment day instead to contiune on loving and love me. Is it the end?? You tell me!

Oh No He Di-in't!
After a busty and dramatic drag queen was charged Wednesday with beating up a beauty pageant judge, it’s probably safe to say the Miss Congeniality award is out of the question. Two men, one of whom competed in a recent West Side beauty pageant, were charged with using a trophy to beat a judge whose vote they found unfavorable. The judge had not to voted for the suspect (you might have guessed). Oh, no he di-in’t! So, Leroy Tinch, 28, of Evanston, allegedly sought revenge -- sweet revenge with his buddy Anthony Johnson, 23, of Skokie. After their attack, the judge’s jaw was left shattered in three places and he had a gash on his forehead. That is like, so totally like, uncool! Tinch and Johnson were charged with felony aggravated battery, Rogers Park District police Lt. John Franklin said. They may have been competing on the basis of beauty at the July 6 pageant, but things definitely got ugly when police responded at 4:55 a.m. to a call of a person with a knife at th

Update
When corpses were illegally unearthed from burial plots in Burr Oak Cemetery in Alsip, bones from different bodies were indiscriminately heaped together in a back portion of the property, making it now "beyond possible" to make out who is who, investigators said Tuesday. "This is not as if someone was dug up and gently placed in a location," Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart said. "That did not occur. Things are scattered, co-mingled, different sizes, all of the above." Since the FBI began the laborious task last week of searching an area that stretches four city blocks for above-ground human remains, agents recovered more than 200 bones or bone fragments. And more bones -- as well as indications that more than 300 bodies were displaced -- are expected to be discovered in an area cordoned off as a crime scene at the cemetery where the ground is suspiciously elevated. Investigators were tipped that they may find additional mass graves involving commingled bones within those mounds, sourc

Omfg, Photoshop Is Soooooo Expensive!
My 30 day time time-trial of Photoshop ended yesterday. I am soooooooooooo bummed out because I'm going to start going to computer graphics type classes soon. Ugh, I'm just all upset. If anybody reading this can help me out in any way, let me know. I means so much to me. :)

Are Canucks As Fucked Up As They Seem?
first off this doesn`t apply to my new owner, bless her kind soul for saving me and disregard my status i`m still trying to think of a new one and this isn`t about wicked my lovely sweet fu wifey fuck,this must be about helly and her sending me links to every heiffer in lingerie on this damn site how can i get even with her?

Burn It Down - Five Finger Death Punch
You think you know me, you don't know shit. I've seen the world through your eyes, and it makes me sick I question all of your answers, they're fucking lies I won't conform to your system, I'd rather die I burn it down, just to watch it go, I burn it down So everybody knows, I burn it down, Just to see it fall, I burn it down, I hate it to the core. You think you're a martyr, Not hard to see You want to rule the fucking world You gotta get through me Your iron fists will be broken, No soul to sell You think I'll burn for my actions, see you in hell Burn it down I do it for myself, Burn it down For me and no one else I burn it down, just to watch it fall, Burn it down I hate you fucking all I burn it down, just to watch it go, I burn it down So everybody knows, I burn it down Just to see it go, I burn it down I hate it to the core

Are Your Thoughts Killing You?
Are you aware of the thoughts that are detrimental to your health, your relationships and your achievements?Do you know how to create the life you desire?We all have this amazing center of power - “Our Mind” - to use to create the good life we desire.Most people do not know how to use it wisely.This is why for some people life is a real struggle, while for others life flows smoothly. Why do you think this is?Everything in life starts with Thought!Negative; contaminating; destructive; weak and scattered thinking produces negative results...While positive; uplifting; contributory thinking produces peaceful, positive solutions and outcomes...When you can control and direct your thoughts, then you will be able to control your circumstances.Are you in control of your mind or is your mind controlling you?To be the master of our own mind is the first spiritual law. Everyone seems to be concerned about what they put into their material house, how they decorate it and who they enter

You Are What You Love.
“You are what you love, not what loves you. This might be one of the biggest misconceptions ever perpetrated about love. There is this pervasive embodiment of the experience as a coupled experience, it’s legitimacy resting in it’s reciprocation. When love is withheld, rejected or takes some other form, the one who loved first is belittled, even if only in his/her own mind. The stories of unrequited love and the range of tragedy and heartbreak from love unmet has filled the airways since we began to sing or tell our stories. The universality of the loss experienced by love gone wrong, or never really given a chance, or interrupted too soon by tragedy is something we all share. The pain is as deep and real as any cut with a knife. The sadness and loneliness of loving and losing the object of our love is searing like a burn and shadows us for weeks, sometimes months. This is the story that many of us never get over, sometimes keeping us away from the prospect of lovin

Noone Is Perfect
If she doesnt have a past, she is too young for me. If there is nothing wrong with her then she is not right for me. If her life is perfect then she doesnt need me. Quite simply put everyone comes with baggage of some sort and if they dont have any then they arent ready to move into my life. I only post this because I know there are women out there that feel they don't deserve to be happy because they have made mistakes or have complicated lives and dont think its right to push their problems onto someone else. Well let me correct that way of thinking. We men are fully aware that the chip on your shoulder or the suitcase you carry is heavy, yeah there are some people out there that are not willing to carry that burden for you but I would not not label these people as friends, family or even men. A real man knows how to open doors for a lady and I dont just mean a car door. I mean the metaphorical door to oppurtunity, the oppurtunity to get more out of life. I personally appreciate a wo

Stumbling Down Memory Lane...
...Want Ads stating "Help Wanted: Male" or "Help Wanted: Female". Replying to an ad of the wrong gender was a waste of time, as you would be laughed (or cursed) out of the Personnel Office (as they once were called)....Mothers leaving their kids with a "sitter", because there was no "day care". This was still a foreign concept when I was well into my teens, and a major demand from the "Womens' Movement"....The Womens' Movement. Women insisting it be "ok" for a woman to work outside the home because she WANTED to, not just because her husband was a layabout. The jeers at the "women who wanted to be men". The justifications for paying women less than men for the same work....Having to ask for a Private Line from "THE PHONE COMPANY"; otherwise you would have to be on a Party Line....When there was only one PHONE COMPANY, you leased your phone (and THEY fixed it when it broke), & yes, I remember Party Lines (and was on one for a time)....When you dialed (yes, DIALED) 5 numbers, the first 2

Capabilities
I haven't ranted in quite a while, so here goes... I have an amazingly wonderful (and sometimes completely aggravating) talent. It's called a bullshit detector. I am REALLY good at reading people and situations. This is a talent I believe I was born with, and cultivated through my years of working with the public. My job now is technically not necessary, but I am very good at what I do, and I make good money doing it. Part of my job is being able to size up whether or not someone is wasting my time, and not spending fruitless hours trying to obtain the impossible. Same goes for the people on here. I know there are quite a few people on here who don't like me. I know there are quite a few who have made it their mission to try to piss me off. Here's the deal, I don't kiss my boss's ass and he signs my checks. I don't kiss my customer's asses and they make me my commission, so why the fuck do some of you people think that I am going to bend over and kiss yours? It's NOT GOING TO HAPP

It Takes More Than Sinew, Comes Down To What's In You
I got home last night and had a sloppy joe dinner with Mary, Sarah, and Jeffrey. Martha would be home from work in another hour, and we were watching “Nova” on PBS. Sarah was caught up in the sight of the cuttlefish, and from what I heard of the narration, it was emphasizing one species’ newly-discovered ability to change its sex. I don’t think the kids got that, but Sarah did ask me who the guy speaking off camera was. I remembered last night was Disney Channel’s showing of “Hercules”, their 1997 take on the strongest man of Greek myth. It was a fun movie, and once the kids got into the plot and I explained the basics as simply as I could to a three- and a two-year-old, Sarah got really excited! She yelled “YAY!” when Hercules brought the mountain crumbling down on top of the Hydra (that monster which grew a new set of heads when you cut off one) and flung the Titans (giants representing earth, wind, fire, and water) out int

One Trillion Dollars Visualized
It's official, trillion is the new billion. No longer is government spending talked about in terms of a mere ten digits. With the recent flurry of government spending, we are going to need another three zeros to make sense of it all. One trillion dollars is a number that few people can comprehend, let alone your standard nine digit calculator. So what does one trillion dollars look like? Click here

Petition Plz Sign
Hey guys heres a petition for making not only an easier fu world for all but for people with credit cards to.. There should be an option for us to purchase things like bling, vips, blasts, happy hour,and tickers for fu bucks comment below as your signature ill give this to babyjesus and maybe hell hear us... it takes a 1000 members for it to process... So please sign it thank you!

How Much More Can She Take?
As most of my friends on here know,my 14 year old daughter was diagnosed almost a year ago with Melanoma.She has gone through many surgeries and had her lymph nodes removed because the cancer had spread.She has been on a type of chemo called Interfuron 3 days a week since Jan of 2009 and will be on it until Nov of 2009.Things have been looking up for her.The chemo is rough but she is strong and she is so looking forward to it being over.We just got back from Disneyland thanks to Make~A~Wish and her hopes were high. Then we get a call yesterday from her doctor's office.Jess(my daughter) has been having alot of pain in her hips so they sent her for an MRI a couple days before we left for our trip.The results said her hips were fine,but the reason her belly was cramping was she has ovarian something(I forget what they called it,and forgot my notepad where I wrote it down at work).Basically she has cysts on both her ovaries and they are bleeding.So now she has to go to the gyno and have t

Life Is As Good As We Make It
Life is what i make it to be, even when times are hard there is always something good to happen if i want too. Trying to surround myself with good people is the key to finding myself in good situations and good places.

They're Back!
So...I have been living in the same apt. on and off for about 20 years now. When I was little, I saw my first spirit/ghost here...a little boy. After that the strange goings on kept happening...I would see more spirits, objects would be moved, electronics would go on by themselves, I've heard disembodied voices, and have been touched by unseen hands. This went on all through my childhood...once I came into my teen years, the activity pretty much died off...but now it's started back up again...Only my Mother and I live here now, my sister has moved to her own place...Lately, I have found curtains open that are always kept closed. I have been woken up by the faucet in the bathroom being on, get up to turn it off, then later its back on again. I keep both windows in my bedroom open...I'll wake up in the morning and find that just the one above my head is closed. I asked my Mom about it this morning and she insists that she is not the one closing my window or the curtains or leaving the fa

Basement Dwellers!!
Dear Basement and Closet Dwellers! Here are the rules.... 1.Food and Alcohol will be supplied. 2. Ganga is provided please see Seamus for this 3. Witty will be handing out Pillows 4. Witty was the first stalker shes in charge 5. Seamus is second 6. Please if they hurt you in any way you may now see Kit for any injuries, she has alot of pills. 7. Ketch22 has little umbrellas for the drinks and is the official bed jumper 8. Drill will be providing free sex to all the ladies... please refrain from over using his butt... thank you 9. If you get angry because you have been couped up to long take it out on the BIRD (Name) 10. Hugh will be the resident petting zoo owner.. feel free to go pet Bruno, Leo or his furry cat... 11. SDSU Aztec... my resident pirate.....watch out for the monkey it tends to piss on you 11. Once again shes back the name changing crazy sister of mine.. shes off limits touch her and you will pay..love you Witchie Thank you for coming to the basement..

Dreams Do Come True
Dreams do come true, but only when They make it through despair, Limping into everyday Transformed beyond repair. No dream would be a dream if it Could pass for something real, Nor would we sail for paradise Would it its shoals conceal. So it is with love: the dream Long longed for, now possessed, Must be a dream no longer, but An emperor undressed. Stark naked it must come to us In unaccustomed shame, And we must take it in our arms And love it all the same. And we must love love as it is That dreams might still come true, Mangled into miracles To make our lives anew.

Letters From Losers
A reply to my story that I posted: Greetings hun. Like your 'tude babe. You could be my fantasy girl, baby. Meanwhile get ready for the onslaught your posting will bring. All the oversexed guys (yeah....I guess that is where I classify myself too, unfortunately, although I am about more than simply that) are coming at you like madmen now. Oversexed....what do I mean? Well....all i can think about is sinking my head between your legs....licking up a storm and making you cum like an absolute banshee. Harder than you've cum before. And pressing your breasts together.....so i can get both of your nipples in my mouth at the same time. Sucking on them....nibbling.......licking them like crazy. And when my head is between your legs....licking the alphabet...up and down. Direct and indirect. And when it gets time to climb on...watch out baby. It's coming at you..... My desire...to make you cum. Again and again and again. I know, words are cheap. But that is what it is about, babe. Openi

Things I Wanna Do To Her
as i gently lay you on your back and rub your body to a sensual numbness my tongue explores the lower levels of your body. no one can please you like i can i have the power to sensuate your love as my tongue moves between your thighs. i look at you in passion and and ask for permission to enter your cave of wetness your answer replies yes i slowly travel my tung between your thighs into your vagina the wetness takes over and my tongue is flushed with your fluids i lick passionately as you begin to orgasm i suck on your clit and make u shake your body jerks uncontrollably you moan in pleasure but the pleasure has just begun...i continue to lick you vagina as you drip from the previous orgasm. your body aches for more i deliver i suck ferociously on your clit giving you multiple orgasms. your vagina throbs from the orgasm as you beg for penetration, i insert the crown into your vagina but quicky remove it as i return to giving you oral pleasure.

My Great Love
My great love, it has always been you my aura, heaven and paradise. My great love, if it wasn’t for you, my empty life would be without light. My great love, I would like to be the beggar, king and sentinel of your loving. To dream without waking up, that I am your joy of night and day and to always be yours. My great love, I met you but centuries before we found each other. I felt you sweetheart for your passion and without realizing it has become a prose. I am now happy, my great love, because the dry tree of my life now has flourished.

Another Twat
ShAnNyBaBy...: we read ur pics u posted when u were in spotlight... so fuck off. ->ShAnNyBaBy...: bashed your country how you stupid cunt ? ShAnNyBaBy...: i dont. u fuckin uk assholes need to get bombed and killed ->ShAnNyBaBy...: i feel sorry for you then ShAnNyBaBy...: no i fuck white american cock. ->ShAnNyBaBy...: go fuck a flagpole ->~Cerri~: no you dont ShAnNyBaBy...: me rabid? why bc im american? fuck u brit! u bashed my country! i hope they delete ur account

Written By A Soldier In Iraq
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ ..I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant.Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? He's a freaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades?What about all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All those Soldiers who, knowing that they would be asked to fight in a war, still raised thei

Oh Well
so it seems posting hitler, osama and kim jung il as defaults one after the other was too much for the powers that be here. My spotlight was pulled. understandable really as it was probably in very bad taste. but oh well fuck it. is this bad taste though cos this photo got pulled too ?

How Jolie Got Her Groove Back
i'm confused about what year it is! i feel like it's 1994 & i am 16 cos i'm wearing a Nirvana shirt & baby hair barrettes!my mom just told me i was pretty...which she hasn't said for awhile. i guess cos i've a big fat hoggy for a few years....,when i was growing up i never thought i was ugly cos my mom always told me i was pretty. when i got to high school i felt ugly cos i was a nerd with long stringy hair & glasses. i was just a total geek. but once i got outta high school i wanted to prove that i could look better....so i got contacts & lost weight. even tho back then i was never ever really fat i just thought i was. i was always pretty skinny. i may have gained 10 pounds at the most my junior year. so when i was 19 & 20 i was the thinnest i've ever been & people always told me i was HOT & i liked it. my weight fluctuated A LOT in the following years. i'd gain 10 pounds lose 5 gain 15 & lose it. once i started drinking & going out to bars i loved being called a "hottie" & guys thi

Friends?
Ok so its been a while since I have put myself "on the market," so to speak. Still, I am not really interested in looking for a relationship. The way I see it, it will just happen when it's right. I don't think seeking your hearts desire finds much of anything except what it is you want to see based on hope, and the things others know you want to see in them. I look through all these profiles here at Fubar, and other sites I use; and I see so many guys to drool over. Nice to look at yes, but try to talk to them and see how very uncomparable appearance, intellect, and personality are to rate IN ONE CATEGORY. I personally look at a personality to determine whether a person is approachable as a friend (since that is all I'm looking for). Most of the people on my friends list here are strictly for the game, and I have never spoken a word to them. I have probably sent like five friends requests, and the rest are recieved and accepted, yet why if you never speak? I h

Self-deprecating Or Self-loathing
A couple days ago I was chatting with a friend of mine on Fubar. She asked me why I always refer to myself as a douchebag or asshole, as you see in the title of this blog, "A day in the life of a douche bag." I told her that it's just my sense of humor. I tend to be very self-deprecating. I put myself down, point out my flaws, call myself a douche bag, or a fat ass. But is this self-deprecating or self-loathing. I guess the answer depends on my mood and the day. Yesterday it was full on self-loathing. I was tired, moody, depressed. Not even Charlie's smile was able to brighten my day when I got home. I eventually lightened up a bit and I was able to play with her and laugh. By the time I went to bed I was spent. I find it takes a lot of energy to hate yourself. I hate that I got very little done at work, that I don't enjoy my job, and that I spend too much time on this website and others while at my job. I feel I should be a better husband to my wife and father to my da

Wonder
I have to wonder if there is incentive to have all these people wanting me to have this surgery? You know they get sometihng in return. Mr. Finance incrimanates himself right from the start by wishing me "good luck on your surgery." On 2/19 late when he should of wished me good luck on your Cath. on 2/20 very early. Series of reply to my email covicts him. Joe was apprehensive and I have to wonder why? Why is he standing there so lame when this stranger has all this information about me? The pop could of been anything like a incomplete combustion of air fuel mixture hitting the Catalytic Converter but the car is new and has less than 10k and it makes me wonder was there a fire cracker on the Cat? All this going around and running around get me no where and the same with others. Perhaps people just like me and wants me to keep on going? I have to wonder? Norio

Her Beauty
Her BeautyMy pen hath not the ink,Nor my mind the wit,To capture here in verse by my hand,Her Beauty I behold.Light from an endless star filled sky,Her eyes.Countless summer's warm gentle breeze,Her whisper.A thousand crystal cool mountain streams,Her kiss.Miles of pure white sand beach,Her smile.Wave after wave of crashing crimson tide,Her passion.Ranges of majestic snow capped mountains,Her strength.Deepest and widest of dark blue oceans,Her love.All of Creation itself fails to compare,In the entire depth of Universe,No single being past or now resides,Her Beauty I behold

"have I Ever"
Have I ever told youthat if I sit really still and silent,sometimes. I like to thinkI can hear your heart beatingin time with mine?Have I ever told youthat when I listen you speak to methrough lines and cords,and bytes and ram,I imagineyour voice,whispering into my ear?Have I ever told youthat I wait out each dayin anticipation,wantingonly an hour or two,just a second in space and time,to feel close to you?Have I ever told youthat there has been times,when I ached for you,ached for you so badly,that the emotions overwhelmed me..and so I sat and cried?Have I ever told youthat sometimes,I will reach out,touching your nameon this cold screen before me,wishingI could reach inand pull you to me?Have I ever told youthat after the first time I heardthe sound of your voice,thousands of miles away,I sat up all night,turning the conversation over and overin my mind,examining it,like some newly discovered species of flower?Have I ever told youthat I would give everything up,just for one nightto b

Just A Couple Of Things, Ok More Than A Couple
I am addicted to fla-vor-ice pops. It combines my two favorite fetishes: Ice and artificial flovors. My legs are refusing to tan. and my top half is a totally different shade than my bottom half. I'm going over to GBT's for Koolaid and Brandy. You should read a Tim Dorsey book if you like funny books. Also.... Wicked just called me a bitch. should i clothes line her in the roller rink?

The Truth About Haters
Seems like as many people as not have some kind of photo album dedicated to haters on this site. If you haven't seen them, you've likely at least seen a status message or blast dedicated to these people. From what I can tell, a 'hater' is a person who downrates or seems to arbitrarily flag photos as NSFW. What's constant is that the offended person feels that they've received unwarranted feedback or negative attention. With the confirmation of Sonya Sotomayer looming on the horizon, the Bill of Rights has been on my mind. It's almost a certainty that a reinterpretation of certain rights will follow sometime down the road, and I'm concerned that my worst-case-scenario may become a reality. However, the most uniformly defended right, and the one most universally accepted as inviolable, is freedom of speech. Almost to the point of taking it for granted, we accept that we may say whatever we want at any time, almost without consequence. While there are few exceptions to this paradig

Madness
Been trying to keep the reins taut on the perpetual straining of freedom's head. What is jealousy? I don't believe it has green eyes. I believe they're red, just as red as hatred and anger, and just as ugly--but at the same time, heartbreakingly beautiful, captivating, tempting enough that you just might sell your soul in exchange for the secrets and pleasures they keep. They say sticks and stones can break bones, but words can never hurt. That's a big fucking lie right there. Words slice deeper, wounding the soul and heart, not the flesh. No pain is deeper or hurts more. Words captivate, enthrall, manipulate--words keep the puppet on her strings, dancing for her master no matter what the cost to her person. Why, he could dance her right across a bed of hot coals, dunking her in the molten lava at the end and keep a smile on her face. Such pretty, pretty words they can be. So why then when their speaker is no longer present, do they leave a taste in the mouth that's both a

Tax, Spend, Regulate- No Solution To Healthcare
While the media focused its attention on Judge Sonia Sotomayor'snomination to the Supreme Court, liberals in the House ofRepresentatives introduced a health care "reform" package that willcost $245 billion a year by 2019. Heritage Foundation blogger Conn Carroll digs into an alarming aspect of the legislation: it will effectively regulate your private healthinsurance plan out of business. Here's how it works, as Carrollexplains: [A]ll health insurance plans must confirm to a slew of newregulations, including community rating and guaranteed issue. Thesewill all drive up the cost of health insurance. Furthermore, all thesenew regs would not apply just to individual insurance plans, but toall insurance plans. So the House bill will also drive up the cost ofyour existing employer coverage. Until, of course, it becomes tooexpensive and they just dump you into the government plan. And all this will come at a huge cost to taxpayers. According toestimates from the Congressional Budg

How Fucking Ridiculous People Are.
obviously with no way of knowing me, me placing hitler as a default would be seen as me being racist. i can live with that, i know i am not, it was just my bad taste in humour and my love for stirring up the hornets nest. but the thing that really made me pity the humanity of some people is the fact i got more complaints and shit in my shoutbox for posting bin laden. what a world we live in where a man responsible for in excess of 50 million lives lost as result of world war 2, this includes the holocaust, troops on both sides and civilians. this man is less vilified than someone who killed less than 10,000 people.

My Apologies
Dear Fubar Family and Friends, I am sorry I am not on here like I used to be, but life has gotten in the way of playtime. I have been super busy with my business. I have been writing a book and just picked up a second book along with countless articles for 2 magazines and various other clients. The best part about my new job is that I get to do what I love for a living and it makes me happy. Interviewing national acts, such as Theory of a Deadman, 7 Mary 3 and Company of Thieves has been a joyous occasion for me as well as continuing my quest for local live music. I still love you all and wish you nothing but the best life has to offer you. Keep doing what you do and find something or someone you love to spend you time with. Have a great week!

Lisa Marie Presley's Myspace Blog About Michael Jackson
Lisa Marie Presley Blog: Michael Jackson Knew He Would Die Like This Lisa Marie Presley, who was married to Michael Jackson in the mid-1990s, has take to her MySpace to unload some thoughts about the King of Pop’s death. Apparently “he knew.” Check out LMP’s interesting blog entry inside… Lisa Marie Presley: Michael Jackson Knew… He Knew. Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general. I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death. At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.” I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that. 14 years later I am sitti

What A Twat 5
->veronica: oohhh baby i love it when you are so cruel, spank me and use the barb wire butt plug on me Witchie: *Not telli...: good for you sweetie...i'll be over soon veronica: f off you sad as hell defunct jerk keel over and die your a waste of life n need be got rid off ->Witchie: thanks doll Witchie: congrats babe ~♫☆♥DORKS-...: you have to use this http:... ->veronica: oh yes baby, you're really exciting me now, i love cyber sex. don't stop i am nearly there veronica: vermin scum veronica: your toxic and need be incinerated and blown to smitherins ->roxy baby ...: thanks babes roxy baby ...: woohooo - u made the spotlight!!!!!! ->veronica: mmmm maggots, you know they a really good source of protein veronica: u need be layd out to pasture and the vutures and flys swoop in gnaw at your flesh tear u too shreds and pull u from limb to limb till u rot away and are nothing but a carkuss and decomposed and the maggots set in ~♫☆♥DORKS-..

Horny?!
I want pic suggestions and outfit suggestions for new pics that i'm gonna take in a few hours.. Both SFW and NSFW. Tell me your idea and if I use it, you will get a special pic of it with a salute. So come on people, this will be fun. Xoxo Annipoo

Conspiracy Theorist
In lieu of my Fubar general character lists, I forgot to mention (or rather someone asked me to) another type-a conspiracy theorist. This is a person that spends most of the hard earned money he gets from working for the Man on buying endless rolls of Aluminum foil that is used to make cone shaped hats. These hats are then used to prevent any mind altering and controlling rays and electromagnetic fields that the Man could possibly inflict upon its measly manservant during his overnight stint at a local Walmart. The CT usually believes that he knows the truth about a number of controversial topics, such as 9/11, abortion, death pentaly, and the location of a latest load of laundry that his mother did for him when his water bill was left unpaid for. He likes to impress local liberal arts scholars, especially females. In fact, he often, even at a middle age, takes classes at a local community college in order to spread his word, and eventually his seed, to unsuspected naive 20 some

What A Twat 4
>veronica: oooh are you into bdsm baby, that goods i am too. you can put a collar on me and call me rover and talk me for long walks veronica: cant dress up a looser you look a mess no matter what you wear you need muzzling you dumb ass mutt ->veronica: fantastic, can you ask him to voodoo up me a ferrari and a new wardrobe please veronica: you seriously going to hell now rascist scum veronica: and she gonner put it in the middle of a weegi board and curse you veronica: your mugshot pic ive copyed it and im perinting it out and giving it to my friend whose into voodoo and the occult ->veronica: i think you could probably manage walking and talking at the same time veronica: really you shouldnt try get 2 full of yourself u really dont know what im caperble off ->veronica: do you have a really big arse, is that the eclipse you are talking about, can you shake that booty for your daddy baby ? veronica: im a chav im putting my photo up ok as that ones no pretty clear and then i aw

For Mature Audiences Only
I WISH IT WAS MY HANDSTHAT CARESS YOUR FACETHAT EXPLORES YOUR BODYTEASING THAT SPECIAL PLACETOUCHING YOU WHERE IT COUNTSTREADING WHERE ANGELS FLEEMAKING YOU BITE YOUR LIPTRACING CIRCLES ALONG YOUR KNEEGENTLY SPLITTING YOUR THIGHSLIGHTING YOUR SKIN ON FIREGOOSE BUMPS ON YOUR SKINEVERY MUSCLE ACHING WITH DESIREEVERY TOUCH FILLED WITH EMOTIONEACH SIGH DRIPPING WITH LUSTNAILS DIGGING INTO FLESHA PASSION DRIVEN TRUSTSTROKING YOUR PANTIESJUICES FLOWING FROM WITHINYOUR BODY TENSE WITH DESIRETHE EXPLOSION SOON BEGINSMY FINGERS STROKING FASTERAS YOU BEG AND PLEAD FOR MOREHARDER AND HARDER AGAINST YOUYOU FINALLY CANT TAKE ANYMOREAS I RELEASE YOUYOU COLLAPSE WITH A MOANI KISS YOU ON THE LIPSYOU BEG ME TO GO ONI WHISPER SWEETLY TO YOU"THERE IS MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM"I LEAVE YOU CRAVING MOREOUR NIGHT HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN

A Crowd "pleaser"
Lying naked next to youI know you feel it tooYour pulse starts to quicken As my cock starts to thickenYou roll over and spread your thighsI climb on top and look into your eyesYou wrap your arms around me and press your lips to mineYour legs lock tightly around my hipsI slip inside, such a tight fitThrusting slowly in and out, making you so wetAs I gently kiss you up and down your neckPushing deeper as you begin to moanYour panting gets louder as my rod churns your honey holeGetting lost in ecstasy as we move as oneTeasing your hard nipples with the tip of my tongueYou pull my hair and arch you back as I bury my face between your breastsThe room starts to spin as I struggle to catch my breatheI roll over, letting you on topI push even harder as you beg me not to stopGripping you tightly by the soft flesh of your assPushing deeper, harder, faster, with all the strength that I haveYou scream "I'm ready to cum!" I say "Wait, I'm almost there"The sweet smell of your juices permeate the air

History Of Clancy
Clancy is by no means a "super bike" nor a big thundering cruiser. Bikes like Clancy are milestones, breaking many established records and riding into history with pride and dignity. Clancy has brothers that are in museums around the world, graced the covers of several magazines and is selling for more than the purchase price of new here in the us. These bikes are known to achieve 100 thousand miles. Just how many bikes have that kind of history and with legendary success for so many first introductions of technology? I know of a few, One is the Vincent Series D Black Shadow The FIRST 100 MPH Cruiser and I believe this was 1955, ( Honda's use of the word Shadow was "borrowed " from Vincent) another is The Honda cb4ooT. Honda had a good bike with the cb360 a world class racer for years which came to an end when Kawasaki and Suzuki launched an attack on Honda with their 400 four stroke twins (2 cylinder motors). There was a 400 cc Honda 4 cylinder already on the market. Honda had to dev

What A Twat 3
>veronica: with a flick of your hair in total chav style veronica: u have my number i dare you to ring and talk your trash in voice but i know u wont because your only a bad ass on pc in reallife your a nobody vermin veronica: jerks like you and scum i walk past in reallife you go unnoticed ->veronica: and its loser my angel, looser is like your cunt is ->veronica: it's too soon in our relationship darling for that veronica: you have looser written all over you veronica: u dont even have any decent comebacks to say send your number chickenshit lets hear u go with the flow and see how quick your wit is away from the pc ->veronica: i can spell amount veronica: irony ha trying flip the script back at me are you you dont have any intelligence you are braindead veronica: i feel sorry for you your a nobody have nothing going in your life thats why you talk the ignorance you do because you dont ammount to nothing your a lazy jerk whose jelous of others and envy them thats why you hat

Canadian Thinking
Coyote Population The Alberta Government and the Alberta Forest Service were presenting an alternative to Alberta ranchers for controlling the coyote population. It seems that after years of the ranchers using the tried and true methods of shooting and/or trapping the predators, the tree-huggers had a 'more humane' solution.What they proposed was for the animals to be captured alive, the males would then be castrated and let loose again. Therefore the population would be controlled. This was ACTUALLY proposed to the Alberta

I Don't Normally...
recommend too many albums but I'm really liking this one. Low vs. Diamond. A buncha good rock-ish songs. check some out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNgWt1a7OHw http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uiNjKxkSvU&feature=fvst http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rai5PsGRtHI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oC_bWtFbhec

What A Twat 2
Shoutbox veronica: send your number veronica: you have none you too scared ring me veronica: u would be goo on the floor you spoke any your trash in reallife ->veronica: i love you so intensely my balls are full of spunk veronica: i feel sorry for you all u are is words behind a screen u havent got the bottle to say what u type you would get decapitated reallife for your smutt you say ->veronica: will you be wearing something seductive baby ? veronica: meet me ok veronica: im from woolwich veronica: watch how your world is gonner turn upside down good to bad bad 2 worse anything i think in my mind can happen and u gonner be feeling so ill within a hour ->veronica: will i get lost in big bad london ? veronica: only chemistry we have is that i can do mind transgressioand trust me bad things are gonner happen to u ->veronica: you are showing your class dear veronica: how shameful a girl has exposed you for the gutless creep you really are MadroxLette: thats bullshit ->ve

And The Depression Continues....
This depression is killing me slowly. But I gotta give the guy credit No man has ever reduced me to this severe of a depression before. So WTG Mr. Not-so-dreamy-anymore. I have never cried so much for so long ever in my life. I have to get out of here. Staying here only reminds me of what was and what will never be again. I haven't slept in days I haven't eaten much All I do is hibernate in my bed. This is so far out of character for me. I can usually bounce right back, get back up on that proverbial saddle. Why is this time so different? I don't get it. :(

What A Twat
My Shoutbox veronica: ha scared of a girl cause in reallife id cut you down 2 size so damm fast veronica: 07717787028 ->veronica: im typing my blog , you keep spitting all over your keyboard darling veronica: quick im waiting for ur number or ring me ok now im waiting veronica: whats up cant say what u type veronica: im already owning you youve got looser written all over you i can back what i say veronica: only hard on the pc cant say what you type ->veronica: blog you dumb cunt, not mumm veronica: put your money where ur mouth is ok send ur number now veronica: 1st one is on bobo2008s page the crazy bitch thats me ->veronica: you would probably spit all over me if you talked like you type veronica: nice that would be my 2nd mumms about me veronica: trust me you wouldnt get veryfar i would shreu up pretty damm quick ->veronica: you are going in my fucking idiots blog by the way veronica: send ur number or whats up scared of a girl ha only pc hard arent u ->veronica:

What To Wear?
I am trying on different slacks. Putting and taking off. Well..as I removed one, I noticed a draft. Looking down at my pants on the floor is my panty..still in the pants. Don't you just love it when your panty is attached to your pants?? LOL Back to deciding what to wear.....

This Is The Way It Goes....
i can shead a thousand tears. i can say im sorry over and over again. but nothing i do will take away the pain i caused you. my mistake a momentary lapse of judgemnt has hurt you and for that i am trully sorry. you mean everything to me. have all of me. my heart i gave you. and yet i do something so silly and redundent that it will mess everything up for us. i would do anything to take it back but i cant. i dont want to loose you or let you go. cause the good times out way the bad ones. this you must agree. for when we are good we are great. so many hurdles we must over come for us to be. i wonder will they ever cease? i have siad im sorry so many times. but i have never once said......I am completly in love with you. and im so sorry i have hurt you. hopefully one day you will forgive me............

Step By Step
Step by step I will arrive to the place where your heart lives. Up to you door I will reach, and when it answers I will say, it is your love I seek.. Step by step I will reach to the place where your heart lives. I know that my big dream is difficult, but I will bring it to reality. I will be relentless in my intent to be your love and until you extinguish my anguish to have you.

Cute Fuzzy Bunny..... Grrrrrr
We were walking around the garden last night, get to the veggies and Marton says 'oh look, the bynny'! He's(she's?) A cute wiggly nose fuzzy bunny albino...........EATING MY GREEN BEAN PLANTS!!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaargh!!!! So I run into the garden, after opening the gate, climb uphill to chase him out, and the little muncher(

Blech
Alannah REALLLLLLY doesn't like taking her medicine. She started out on amoxicillin but it gave her a rash (at least, I'm hoping that's what caused it, because otherwise I'm stumped) so we got another RX called in. Gave her the first dose just now and well... she hates me now. I think it's a combination of waking up every hour, waking up too early, and mommy trying to kill her by giving her medicine that will make her feel better. I'm soooooooo mean. anyways. Hoping that she does better tonight since I *have* to go back to work tomorrow. I completely blanked that I have two more stores and not just the one. I don't really want to go to my store Friday, but oh well. Called out twice this week and they pulled me out of a third. In other news... stress relief is needed. Badly.

Pop
Pop goes the Weasel. Make it louder like tnt or perhaps like plastic. Joe was apprehesive while I was not. He laughed as I did. Mr. Finance incriminated himself and he's a good friend from when? There is no blood work after that incident. Almost had me but much louder because now I have to track down all that I had. Norio

Nothing Sucks Like Success --
I have just leveled at 16 = 'Fu-gee' if that matters - I am now in the midst of a psychic meltdown. . . This is not a MUMM, since I'm not asking for advice - this is a warning. . . My nerves are raw; say nice things about me. Enjoy your summer - J. in L.A. '_'

Win A Sexy Salute!
Up For Auction A Boob Salute From My Sexy FuWife Steffy. All Proceeds Will Go To My Spotlight Fund. There is not 1 pic of her topless on fu. So bid high, this may never happen again. Click through the pic below to leave your bid as a comment! (The pic is located in my Auction Folder in case the link doesn't work for you.) Thank you all so much!!! Have an amazing day! Michele :) $safe_uid_dname@ fubar PLEASE Rate This Blog

Musings
The return of someone on here today got me thinking, i call her a name that probably very few would be able to get away with, without the wrath being brought down around their ears. I have an aunt whose real name is ethel, she detests the name so much she uses her middle name of joyce. i am the person in the family (which is waltons type fucking huge by the way) that can call her ethel and she takes it from me. Are there certain people that just by their very nature can say or do things to other people (not abuse of course) and get away with them where others wouldn't. What is that thing about them that sets them apart like that ?

Shamanism X V
Criticism of the term “shaman” or “shamanism”Certain anthropologists, most notably Alice Kehoe in her book Shamans and Religion: An Anthropological Exploration in Critical Thinking, are highly critical of the term. Part of this criticism involves the notion of cultural appropriation. This includes criticism of New Age and modern Western forms of Shamanism, which may not only misrepresent or 'dilute' genuine indigenous practices but do so in a way that, according to Kehoe, reinforces racist ideas such as the Noble Savage.A tableau presenting figures of various cultures filling in mediator-like roles, often being termed as "shaman" in the literature. The tableau presents the diversity of this concept.Kehoe is highly critical of Mircea Eliade's work. Eliade, being a philosopher and historian of religions rather than an anthropologist, had never done any field work or made any direct contact with 'shamans' or cultures practicing 'shamanism', though he did spend four

Shamanism X I V
Shamanism among the Yąnomamö (of the Venezolano Amazonas and the Brazilian Roraima) is described in Tales of the Yanomami by Jacques Lizot.There is Asuriní shamanism of Pará, Brazil.Harakmbut shamanism (of Peru) involves curing by dream-interpretion.Among other literature on South American tropical forest shamanism are:- * In Darkness and Secrecy. (for various tribes north of the Amazon) MapucheAmong the Mapuche people of South America, the community "shaman", usually a woman, is known as the Machi, and serves the community by performing ceremonies to cure diseases, ward off evil, influence the weather and harvest, and by practicing other forms of healing such as herbalism. FuegiansAlthough Fuegians (the indigenous peoples of Tierra del Fuego) were all hunter-gatherers, they did not share a common culture. The material culture was not homogenous, either: the big island and the archipelago made two different adaptations possible. Some of the cultures were coast-dwelling, other

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Parades in San Miguel de Allende's San Miguel Archangel ceremony are really linked to the most ancient Mesoamerican traditions, and have grown in participation, including participants who may be unaware of the original reasons for the events or who the real keepers are for the ceremony. People watching parades may be unaware that the leaders often did not sleep at all the night before and that there is a poignant reverence for the Divine that gives them uncanny vitality and stamina for the arduous preparations, dancing, and serving meals late into the day's conclusions, all without having slept the night before.Marcela Andre ConchMayaMarcela Andre Lopez de la Cerda, reinitiating conchsounding after 800 years on the round Quetzalcoatl adoratory which is newly excavated, called the rain on 3 May 2008. Rainfall increased threefold.In San Miguel Allende, Marcela Andre Lopez de la Cerda is the Lord Keeper of the Sacred Conch and was named Malinche Mayor by Don Felix Luna Romero in 2006, the

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AmericasNative American "conjuror" Native American and First Nations cultures have diverse religious beliefs. There was never one universal Native American religion or spiritual system. Though many Native American cultures have traditional healers, ritualists, singers, mystics, lore-keepers and "Medicine People", none of them ever used, or use, the term "shaman" to describe these religious leaders. Rather, like other indigenous cultures the world over, their spiritual functionaries are described by words in their own languages, and in many cases are not taught to outsiders.Many of these indigenous religions have been grossly misrepresented by outside observers and anthropologists, even to the extent of superficial or seriously mistaken anthropological accounts being taken as more authentic than the accounts of actual members of the cultures and religions in question. Often these accounts suffer from "Noble Savage"-type romanticism and racism. Some contribute to the fallacy that Nativ

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Shamanistic features When speaking of “shamanism” in various Eskimo groups, we must remember that (as mentioned above) the term “shamanism” can cover certain characteristics of various different cultures. Mediation is regarded often as an important aspect of shamanism in general. Also in most Eskimo groups, the role of mediator is known well: the person filling it in is actually believed to be able to contact the beings who populate the belief system. Term “shaman” is used in several English-language publications also in relation to Eskimos. Also the /aˈliɣnalʁi/ of the Asian Eskimos is translated as “shaman” in the Russian and English literature.The belief system assumes specific links between the living people, the souls of hunted animals, and those of dead people. The soul concepts of several groups are specific examples of soul dualism (showing variability in details in the various cultures).Like most cultures labe

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Shamanistic features When speaking of “shamanism” in various Eskimo groups, we must remember that (as mentioned above) the term “shamanism” can cover certain characteristics of various different cultures. Mediation is regarded often as an important aspect of shamanism in general. Also in most Eskimo groups, the role of mediator is known well: the person filling it in is actually believed to be able to contact the beings who populate the belief system. Term “shaman” is used in several English-language publications also in relation to Eskimos. Also the /aˈliɣnalʁi/ of the Asian Eskimos is translated as “shaman” in the Russian and English literature.The belief system assumes specific links between the living people, the souls of hunted animals, and those of dead people. The soul concepts of several groups are specific examples of soul dualism (showing variability in details in the various cultures).Like most cultures labe

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Other Asian traditionsThere is a strong shamanistic influence in the Bön religion of some Central Asians, and in Tibetan Buddhism. Buddhism became popular with shamanic peoples such as the Tibetans, Mongols, and Manchu beginning in the eighth century. Forms of shamanistic ritual combined with Tibetan Buddhism became institutionalized as the state religion under the Mongolian Yuan dynasty and the Manchurian Qing dynasty. However, in the shamanic cultures still practiced by various ethnic groups in areas such as Nepal and northern India, shamans are not necessarily considered enlightened, and often are even feared for their ability to use their power to carry out malicious intent.Kipchak stone statues of Pontic steppes. The nomadic Kipchak Turks followed a Shamanist religion.In Tibet, the Nyingma schools in particular, had a Tantric tradition that had married "priests" known as Ngakpas or Ngakmas/mos (fem.). The Ngakpas were often employed or commissioned to rid the villages of demons or

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Some areas could enjoy a prolonged resistance due to their remoteness. * Variants of shamanism among Eskimo peoples were once a widespread (and very diverse) phenomenon, but today are rarely practiced, and they were already in the decline among many groups even in the times when the first major ethnological researches were done, e.g. among Polar Eskimos, in the end of 19th century, Sagloq died, the last shaman who was believed to be able to travel to the sky and under the sea — and many other former shamanic capacities were lost in that time as well, like ventriloquism and sleight-of-hand. * The isolated location of Nganasan people allowed shamanism to be a living phenomenon among them even in the beginning of 20th century, the last notable Nganasan shaman's séances could be recorded on film in the 1970s.After exemplifying the general decline even in the most remote areas, let us mention that there are some revitalization or tradition-preserving efforts as a response. Besid

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HistoryHypotheses on originsShamanistic practices are sometimes claimed to predate all organized religions, dating back to the Paleolithic, and certainly to the Neolithic period.Archaeological evidence exists for Mesolithic shamanism. In November 2008, researchers announced the discovery of a 12,000-year-old site in Israel that they regard as one of the earliest known shaman burials. The elderly woman had been arranged on her side, with her legs apart and folded inward at the knee. Ten large stones were placed on the head, pelvis and arms. Among her unusual grave goods were 50 complete tortoise shells, a human foot, and certain body parts from animals such as a cow tail and eagle wings. Other animal remains came from a boar, leopard, and two martens. "It seems that the woman … was perceived as being in a close relationship with these animal spirits," researchers noted. The grave was one of at least 28 at the site, located in a cave in lower Galilee and belonging to the Natufian

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Gender and sexualityWhile some cultures have had higher numbers of male shamans, others such as native Korean and some African Nguni cultures have had a preference for females. Recent archaeological evidence suggests that the earliest known shamans—dating to the Upper Paleolithic era in what is now the Czech Republic—were women.In some societies, shamans exhibit a two-spirit identity, assuming the dress, attributes, role or function of the opposite sex, gender fluidity and/or same-sex sexual orientation. This practice is common, and found among the Chukchi, Sea Dayak, Patagonians, Araucanians, Arapaho, Cheyenne, Navajo, Pawnee, Lakota, and Ute, as well as many other Native American tribes. Indeed, these two-spirited shamans were so widespread as to suggest a very ancient origin of the practice. Such two-spirit shamans are thought to be especially powerful, and Shamanism so important to ancestral populations that it may have contributed to the maintenance of genes for trans

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MethodsGenerally, the shaman traverses the axis mundi and enters the spirit world by effecting a transition of consciousness, entering into an ecstatic trance, either autohypnotically or through the use of entheogens. The methods employed are diverse, and are often used together. Some of the methods for effecting such trances:Plants (often psychoactive) Other * Psychedelic mushrooms * Cannabis * Tobacco * San Pedro cactus * Peyote * Ayahuasca * Cedar * Datura * Deadly nightshade * Fly agaric * Iboga * Morning glory * Sweetgrass * Sage * Salvia divinorum * Drumming * Dancing * Singing * Listening to music * Icaros / Medicine Songs * Vigils * Fasting * Sweat lodge * Vision quests * Mariri * Swordfighting / BladesmithingShamans will often observe dietary or customary restrictions particular to their tradition. Sometimes these restrictions are more than just cultural. For example, the diet followed by sha

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Shamanic illnessTurner and colleagues mention a phenomenon called shamanistic initiatory crisis. A rite of passage for shamans-to-be, commonly involving physical illness and/or psychological crisis. The significant role of initiatory illnesses in the calling of a shaman can be found in the detailed case history of Chuonnasuan, the last master shaman among the Tungus peoples in Northeast China.PracticeUnderlying beliefs of practiceThe shaman plays the role of healer in shamanic societies; shamans gain knowledge and power by traversing the axis mundi and bringing back knowledge from the heavens. Even in western society, this ancient practice of healing is referenced by the use of the caduceus as the symbol of medicine. Often the shaman has, or acquires, one or more familiar helping entities in the spirit world; these are often spirits in animal form, spirits of healing plants, or (sometimes) those of departed shamans. In many shamanic societies, magic, magical force, and knowledge are al

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Ecological approaches, systems theoryOther fieldworks use systems theory concepts and ecological considerations to understand the shaman's lore. Desana and Tucano Indians have developed a sophisticated symbolism and concepts of “energy” flowing between people and animals in cyclic paths. Gerardo Reichel-Dolmatoff relates these concepts to the changes how modern science (systems theory, ecology, some new approaches in anthropology and archeology) treats causality in a less linear way. He suggests also a cooperation of modern science and indigenous lore. Other qualitiesAccording to Vladimir Basilov and his work Chosen By the Spirits, a shaman is to be in the utmost healthy conditions to perform their duties to the fullest. The belief of the shaman is most popular through the people located in Central Asia and Kazakhstan. The traditions of the shamanism is also imbedded in the Tadzhiks and Uzbeks regions. The shaman’s bodies are to be formed in a strong manner, someone h

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Soul concept, spiritsThe variety of functions described in the above section may seem to be rather distinct tasks, but some important underlying concepts join them.Soul conceptIn some cases, at some cultures, the soul concept can explain more, seemingly unassociated phenomena:Healing may be based closely on the soul concepts of the belief system of the people served by the shaman. It may consist of the retrieving the lost soul of the ill person.Scarcity of hunted game can be solved by “releasing” the souls of the animals from their hidden abodes. Besides that, many taboos may prescribe the behavior of people towards game, so that the souls of the animals do not feel angry or hurt, or the pleased soul of the already killed prey can tell the other, still living animals, that they can let themselves to be caught and killed.The ecological aspect of shamanistic practice (and the related beliefs) has already been mentioned above in the article.Infertility of women can be

Shamanism
This contains IPA phonetic symbols. Without proper rendering support, you may see question marks, boxes, or other symbols instead of Unicode characters. EtymologyThe term "shaman" is loan from Tungusic word šamán, the term for such a practitioner, which also gained currency in wider Turko-Mongol and Tungusic cultures in ancient Siberia. The word's etymology is uncertain. It is sometimes connected to a Tungus root ša- "to know". Other scholars assert that the word comes directly from the Manchu language, and would therefore be "the only commonly used English word that is a loan from this language".BeliefsThere are many variations of shamanism throughout the world; and several common beliefs are shared by all forms of shamanism. Common beliefs identified are the following: * Spirits exist and they play important roles both in individual lives and in human society. * The shaman can communicate with the spirit world. * Spirits can be good or evil. * The shaman

Does Anyone Really Read These???
I'm not real big in the blog scene. I just put some on here just to see if anyone reads it. I know some people do. That's cool. So...I'm gonna do some thing outta character for me. Am I crushable??? HEHE. I look at peoples profile and all these crushes.....I have none. Am I admirable??? HEHE. Anyway. Sometimes I just get strange stuff in my head. I guess today was one of those days. I caught myself scrolling once. I thought that was cool. Anyway...I'm off to work.

Help?
This cutie needs a VIP. I can't add more pics now, and I have taken lots of new ones for your enjoyment. Can you give me a VIP? I will make it worth it. Just tell me what you would like in return and i will see what i can do. Pretty please!?

Blog Here We Go
Been a busy time, getting everything ready for Fringe, got flyers and posters organised and in the process of paying 3 grand for flat for a month! May have to sell Ashley on the web to pay for it! Last week went to John Smeaton’s wedding to lovely Christy from New York; she really was a beautiful bride. The setting was amazing in an ancient castle near St. Andrews in Fife, which is called the Kingdom of Fife…though they didn’t have a King in residence. Just squillions of American golfers, wandering about in the pissing relentless rain, but it was lovely. I was unsure what to wear to the wedding; I thought about setting fire to my hair and crashing my car into the front of the hotel…but decided against it. For those of you who didn’t get that reference, John Smeaton was the Glasgow Airport Hero during the terror attack on Glasgow airport in 07. Anyway, Ashley is still in London and I am still missing her heaps, but she is good and happy. S

First Blog...
The title of this "blog" is completely true. I have never "blogged" before this moment so I'm not sure if I'm going to take it the direction its supposed to go but im going to just keep going if its all the same to you lol. My name is Justin, I was born in NE Ohio, and grew up along all the east coast with the majority of the time in South Carolina so I'm quite the hybrid with the ability to understand country, and speak yankeeish:) I joined the army june 2003...Spent a year in Korea, 2 1/2 in Iraq and a year and a half at my new home around ft carson. I recently had a divorce, and decided to come back from Ohio to Colorado for a woman who I split from in 4 days and I decided to stay out here with an old army buddy. We're getting a house in the next 6 months, cant wait to get out of a crammed apartment. Ummmm, I will just end this with a few cool quotes for effect:) Comfort the disturbed, and disturb the comfortable When the rich wage war its the poor who die Sometimes it is a

The Replacements
I am reminded of a by line Bob "cat" Golthwieght "I lost my job the other day, well I didnt really lose it, but everytime I go there, theres this other guy there, and I dont even know his name." It amazes me how quickly we all can be replaced from our jobs, from friends, from relationships, and from daily routines. What once was tradition is know a picture with the words "insert face here". And it is all done without any reguard in the slightest for the one being replaced and is accepted by everyone from friends and loved ones. (those we thought were loved ones.) It starts slowly, a little moment here and a little moment there, replacing the memories with the newest of characters until your in a sitcom like bewitched....which darren was darren? In the end, no one knows and no one cares. It is the nature of things, but it still sucks.

The Whole Dating Thing Part 2
So the next day I told her it was going to fast for me and that i didnt feel comfrontable and it pretty much was with her. What was bothering me was she always keep saying its my fault or your fault....does there really have to be fault at all. Do we always have to point fingers and hope to find someone to blame? and what was getting me is that we only knew each other for six days....holy cow...SIX DAYS!!!!! Still tripped out by the whole situation, but it does get more intense. For the next couple of days she kept following me around, dang I know i am a nice guy and all, but I have my issues just like everyone else, I just couldnt figure out why she was so crazy about. This just could not keep going on, so I finally sat her down and told again my feelings and she again went towards the whole fault thing.....I finally got it resolved, but man what an effort. Never had a stalking....well it felt that way. So to be honest for a moment I liked it, but just for a moment.

The Whole Dating Thing
So about a week ago I met this nice women and we started seeing more of each other, but now I find myself being a little preassured and I dont like that feeling. We dont see each other all that much, but a couple hours here and a couple there, a little talking on the phone. Everything was going fine, I enjoyed her company (no sex in case anyone is thinking that) she's just fun to be around. So I invited her to dinner at my place and a movie, she brought some wine, we ate, drank wine, watched movie with a little kissing from time to time, and than it happened. She started singing love songs and using way to many endearements. I dont know why, but I felt uncomfrontable....I like her well enough, but anything other than that to be honest, I find now dont desire, well I realized at least with her. So I guess I have to break it off or tell her I may not be in it as much as she is, eithier way it sucks to do, but I did tell myself if for any reason I feel wierd, uncomfrontable, or strange, t

Lost In Troublesome Thoughts.
I sit here in my thoughts - all of the things I've done and said. I wonder what other ways of life that I could of chose, other ways of life I could of lead. The people who I've crushed, the ones who have broken my heart ... no matter how much inner bruising I'll always stay alarmed; assert - you have to be ready, eventually everything falls apart.Always so confident and happy on the outside, but no one knows the half of what I hide in my mind - my soul. Sometimes I feel myself want to shatter, some of the time I just feel my heart grow so dark ... so fucking cold. Dismay seems to devour away at all the guilt and sorrow inside. All of this hurt just won't seem to abide ...Mayhem emotionally strikes my heart constantly, fuck it - I'll just drown all of it away. Maybe I can actually be someone, maybe one of these days ...

I Am Spotlight
i cant list everyone who helped. you know who you are, not just the people who gave fubucks, large or small amounts, the people that wished me well too. i can't believe it only took me 2 days from saying i want the spotlight to bam, getting it. you people are awesome, and made a silly old fool happy.

Needing To Be Lost
Sometimes I get lost in the words that I hear from people, I believe their words when they say they care, I believe them when they throw words at me like love and friendship... So I ask myself "Am I Just kidding myself?? Do these people really mean this shit that I am hearing?? I want to believe these words I need to believe these words, so I guess I really could care less if they are true are not, the fact is I need them whether they are truth are fiction. We like to think we are self dependent and the only person we need is ourselves,but honestly who are we fucking kidding here?... We all need to feel loved and cared for by others it is only human nature to feel this way. So I get lost in the words I hear ....I am not sure if they are lies or truthful thoughts from the persons heart, but I do know I get lost, simply because I need to believe!!

Fubar Drama!
WELL,SEEMS LIKE I HAVE ALOT OF FUCKIN HATERS ON FU,BUT ITS ALL GOOD I AINT WORRIED ABOUT IT..I GOT BITCHES HATIN ON ME CUZ I GET BLINGED,SHIT ITS NOT MY FAULT IM LOVED,N TRICKS STOP CHASIN AFTER MY BESTIE TIM,JUS CUZ HE BLINGS ME,DONT MEAN HE GONNA BLING UR ASSES,GET A LIFE! ANYWAYS,SO I MIGHT HAVE THIS STALKER SPREAD RUMORS OF ME ON THE FU I AINT SAYIN NAMES,THEN AGAIN I JUST MIGHT TO WARN U ALL ABOUT HIM " ™♫Decaying Purity♫™@TAINTED ANGELS (Fu Married To Therma & Rachel Rotten)" FIRST OF ALL,LET ME LET U ALL KNOW THE DEAL WITH HIM,IN HIS MIND HE BELIEVES I OWE HIM,I DONT OWE HIM SHIT,IF SOMEONE BUYS U SHIT WILLING MEANIN THEY BOUGHT IT CUZ THEY WANTED TO,I NOT ONCE ASKED HIM TO BUY ME NOTHIN,N HE IS PISSED CUZ HE THINKS I OWE HIM,BLING! FUCK...I UNDERSTAND IF I BEGGED HIM TO BUY THE 2 HAPPYHOURS FOR ME,BUT I DIDNT..SO HE STALKS THE PEOPLE I BLING N HE FLIPS OUT,CUZ HE SAYS I DONT BLING HIM GOOD ENOUGH BLING,SHIT I BLING HIM AS MUCH AS I COULD,BOUGHT HIM A

Vampyre Creed
I will not let my ego blind me to truth and I cherish my life, for though I have lived I still have much to learn. I understand, and honor my animal instincts, but I never let that I am a predatory animal overtake me. I use my mind to clearly help me define all reason and to help explore that which I do not know or cannot be explained as rational. I recognize the difference between the worlds of truth, fantasy, the unknown and the planes of other existence and feel at home with them all. I acknowledge the fact that survival is the highest law, but make sure I do not infringe upon another basic right. I acknowledge the Powers of Darkness and Powers of Light, both to be hidden in its natural laws. I know that my external Rituals are but part of Physical Fantasy while my internal magic is what is real. I respect and acknowledge on all levels and plains the results of my magic. There is no heaven as there is no hell, there are only life and death. And Death is the end of life and life is t

Day 1
how they say that today is the first day of the rest of ur life. well 4 me it seemed like the end. i decided to get back to working out. yeah looks can b deceiving. i used to work out then i took spring break off with my son then it turned into summer break then it turned into fall break well u c where that went and that has been over 4 years ago...lol...well today i decided that i was gonna get up n get off the computer ok i was gonna start yesterday but it rained n i left the window open n my son hadn't cleaned up the room for me. yeah anutha excuse but i did get it all cleaned up this morning and i did get on the equipment. o wow! all i can say is looks r deceiving for me at least. i have people all the time asking if i work out cuz i look like i do but to actually start back today was well not a pretty site....to say the least. but im gonna stick with it. we decided to hit vegas for my bday....'NEW YEAR'S DAY" but u know the real celebration is on the eve n i think im gonna get t

The Wiccan Rede
Bide within the Law you must, in perfect Love and perfect Trust. Live you must and let to live, fairly take and fairly give. For tread the Circle thrice about to keep unwelcome spirits out. To bind the spell well every time, let the spell be said in rhyme. Light of eye and soft of touch, speak you little, listen much. Honor the Old Ones in deed and name, let love and light be our guides again. Deosil go by the waxing moon, chanting out the joyful tune. Widdershins go when the moon doth wane, and the werewolf howls by the dread wolfsbane. When the Lady's moon is new, kiss the hand to Her times two. When the moon rides at Her peak then your heart's desire seek. Heed the North winds mighty gale, lock the door and trim the sail. When the Wind blows from the East, expect the new and set the feast. When the wind comes from the South, love will kiss you on the mouth. When the wind whispers from the West, all hearts will find peace and rest. Nine woods in the Cauldron go, burn them fas

You Are Not...
This is your life and its ending one minute at a time.. This is your life and it only happens once... This is your life and you don't get another one... This is your life and it gets shorter with each breath.. You are not your job... You are not your paycheck... You are not your bills... You are not your college degree... You are not the car you drive... You are not the house you live in... You are not the state you live in... You are not your clothes.... You are not the music you listen to... You are not your friends you hang out with... You are not the way you talk.. You are not your exercise routine... You are not your cleavage.... You are not your penis.... You are not your waist line... You are not your own home porn pictures... You are not your hobby... You are not your myspace profile... You are not your profile pictures... You are not your friends list... You are not your point total... You are not your fu level.... You are not your fucking bling... Y

Here It Comes
Summer is almost over! =( Sad news. But I'm happy to be able to get another year of school under my belt. It's going to be alot more intense for me this year. I'm a full time student this term and will still be trying to maintain my job and keep what small incling of a social network I have left active as well. I've drifted away from quite a few of my friends. I'm sorry for that guys, I still love you all and miss talking to you. Please don't hold it against me. (Or think I'm a snob for it!) ;) With my schedule the way it's about to be, I expect I'll see even less of you guys on here and other sites I see any of you on. Don't forget about me and please keep me posted on your lives and what's going on in them, even if I'm not able to ask directly. I'll do my best to hit people up and occationally have a comment or two to throw at people. =D Life's flying by, and i'm hanging on by a thread. I can't let go now, it's only really just beginning. Love you all, and see ya round!

Work Today
Work went ok today, pretty much the same boring stuff as always. My friend keeps telling me I should go back to school so i can get a better job, I keep telling him I want to meet a rich man or woman and be a kept girl hehehehe!!! There is this one lady at work, she is so tiny she looks like a lil kid but she is like 40 or something, everytime I get to start liking her she starts bitching at me about something or another.....kinda wanna spank her when she does!!! Anyway, no one work, except my friend knows that I am bisexual, I think the people I hang with on breaks would freak out, oh I know the girls would, the guys would just drool like they always do hehehehe......Anyway, this one team lead, her title, she and a couple of the other team leads always go out after work for a few drinks, I'm not really into drinking that much, numbs my pleasure too much.....Anyway, there is talk about that they are lezzies and the talk gets pretty crude, I think they are just friends who hang toget

Submissive Woman's Creed
i am a submissive woman… i find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship i am not weak, or stupid. i am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life. i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength. i look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am i more complete than when He is with me. i know that He will protect my body, my mind and my soul with His strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him. His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me. Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but i accept them thankfully, knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind. If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one f

Something That Should Be An Area Of Concern To All…….
July 27 to July 31st of this year FEMA will be hosting NLE 09. FEMA describes the event as:The NLE 09 scenario will begin in the aftermath of a notional terrorist event outside of the United States, and exercise play will center on preventing subsequent efforts by the terrorists to enter the United States and carry out additional attacks. This scenario enables participating senior officials to focus on issues related to preventing terrorist events domestically and protecting U.S. critical infrastructure.And will take place in federal, regional, state, tribal, local and private sector facilities in FEMA Region VI, which includes the states of Arkansas, Louisiana, New Mexico, Oklahoma and Texas. I’m never one to raise an issue with training. Those “bloodless battles” help greatly when the actual time to perform comes. My problem comes in at the point when foreign services are coming to U.S. Soil to participate in an exercise that involves emergency response to a catastr

Born Again
A long time ago a man had an idea. He attempted to see if he could get it off the ground with a few of his friends.. but that didn't work out too well. This man later decided to try things a little diffrently. Thus the first incarnation of "Questionable Intent" was born. Unfortunatly a series of unfortunate events caused that to be taken off the priority list. This time however. Ezra Cold... the man who had an idea, has finaly gotten things to a place where Questionable Intent can once again be brought back. Perminantly this time. So welcome friends, To a new chapter in a diffrent idea.

So Sick Of The Bullshit
i'm sick of people telling me they think i'm pretty and they think i'm and they think i'm that.. but then they turn around say they dont want me.. well why not. what makes me not good enough?god damn i'd rather have you tell me the truth and say i'm sorry i just dont like you. than say all this bullshit about me being this and me being that and how you like me, but just dont want to date me. but have no reason at all.. way to make a girl feel real good about herself..

Hot Or Not? Best And Worst Foods For Your Sex Drive
Hot or not? Best and worst foods for your sex drive http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/32010736/ns/... It's no secret that the unhealthy American diet is contributing to an epidemic of obesity. But there's another hidden epidemic that our fatty diets are at the root of: A national sex crisis. One of the big culprits, for both men and women, is obesity. As a person's weight soars, their libido plummets due to biochemical changes that result in diminished bloodflow. That extra weight also hinders their ability to have children — with men, it's damaged sperm; with women, it's ovulation problems. The good news: With some simple changes to your diet, courtesy of "Eat This, Not That!", you can revitalize your sex life. How? First, as you consume filling foods with fewer calories, you'll begin to shed the weight that's dragging down your desire. Then, because these foods also contain ingredients and nutrients that strategically boost sexual attraction and perform

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I have pretty much closed my page down. I am bored and disappointed with fubar so it is time for a break. The point whoring, the ignorant assholes. the drama, and the bitchiness no longer make this fun for me. I will check in to clear messages but don't get butthurt if I don't say hello. I haven't decided if I am going to clean out my friends list now or when I come back. Nothing personal I just want to keep my list of friends small. I prefer to keep it to the people that I really do talk to. Take care all (h) See ya sometime :) xoxoxo, Lippy

Michael Jackson-they Don't Care About Us
This is the song that I can relate to right now. I'm in a pissed off mood. Michael Jackson-They Don't Care About Us Skin head, dead headEverybody gone badSituation, aggravationEverybody allegationIn the suite, on the newsEverybody dog foodBang bang, shot deadEverybody's gone madAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usBeat me, hate meYou can never break meWill me, thrill meYou can never kill meJew me, sue meEverybody do meKick me, kike meDon't you black or white meAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usTell me what has become of my lifeI have a wife and two children who love meI am the victim of police brutality, nowI'm tired of bein' the victim of hateYou're rapin' me of my prideOh, for God's sakeI look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy...Set me freeSkin head, dead headEverybody gone badtrepidation, speculationEverybody allegationIn the suite, on t

What I Really Hate!
I really freaking hate when a waiter/waitress takes the the bill after you paid and you haven't left yet. I don't know why but it just gets on my nerves. It makes me want to take my tip back. Don't get me wrong though I'm a great tipper but I just think it is plain rude. What do you think? Let Me Know!!!

Natural Cures For Poor Memory - More Than Home Remedies
To improve your memory, take a good multi-vitamin. And, be sure to get at least 100 percent of the daily requirement of Vitamin B-12, Vitamin B-6, folic acid, Vitamin E, zinc, and lecithin. Take ginkgo biloba and evening primrose oil daily. Play a memory game, like Concentration, daily. Use your brain more. Take up crossword puzzles, scrabble, solitaire, etc., to exercise your mind. Get enough sleep, and exercise daily.

A Letter For My Lover
i do apologize for how i acted over the phone and you know how frustrated i am with all this just like you and everything that's going on with my parents. but you know well enough i am not going to give up on you and i know you dont want to either. i don't know whether i should cry or whether to feel angry. i feel both. i know you love me and i know you want to be with me. i know you told me that you have things to do over there and to deal with. i know you dont want me to give up and i know you mean it when you said for me to hang in there even when things are tough. another hurdle i guess. i know you still love me and i know you want to be with me. i know you were saying things because you were angry to how we both were acting and that because she was there with you. i know you were acting how i am with people around but you know well enough that i love you even when i dont say it... so im trying to think along that same line. i know all this is killing you inside just as much as me.

Waiting For Them To Come Around
It seems the harder you try to win some ones heart the harder they make it for you to do so. You sit back, listen to their problems, help them when they need it, and silently loving them. You dedicate your life to them and try to keep them safe and with out heart ache. They go out into the world and come back broken. You mend their heart, and cherish the time you have with them before they are gone agian. And it just keeps going on and on like that and has no sign of ever stopping. You sit at home wondering what you've done to make you invisable to them and what you need to do so that they will see you agian. Your heart breaks as the seconds turn to minutes, the minutes turn to hours,and the hours to days. You cry silent screams of pain, as the tears flow down your face like the rivers after the rains. When you get to see them or talk to them you find it hard not to spill your heart to them and not to breakdown and cry. You smile when they are near and never let them now the pain you

The Bet
right now i want to see how long i can live with out dark meat.i'll slowly move for not eating white meat as well.i'll weight myself to see my weight and see the effect's on my weight.i started from lunch today and now i ate cheese pizze and for dinner salad and sqwash.see how long can you comment on it or jion along with.see ya .7-21-2009

Natural Cures For A Migraine Headache - More Than Home Remedies
Many people have had relief from migraine headaches by eating two teaspoons of honey at each meal. This will also prevent an attack in many people. Another effective means is to use natural apple cider vinegar. Equal parts of natural apple cider vinegar and water should be placed in a small pan on the stove, allowing it to boil slowly. When the steam vapors begin to rise from the pan, lean your head over it until the fumes are comfortably strong. Inhale for approximately 50 to 80 breaths. This generally alleviates the headache considerably, if not entirely. Moisten your fingertips with Pure Almond Carrier Oil then add two drops of Lavender Essential Oil. In a circular motion, gently massage your temples, the hollows at the sides of your eyes, behind your ears, and over your neck. Dawna says: "I suffered with migraines for over 20 years. I recently discovered that taking a feverfew daily eliminates my migranes. I told the congregration at my church and I have had MANY people

Natural Ways To Cure Insomnia - More Than Home Remedies
Stop insomnia by putting a few drops of Lavender Essential Oil on your pillow, on your nightie, or directly on your temples. Or, you can put the oil in a diffuser in your bedroom. The lavender slows the activity of the nervous system, promotes relaxation, improves sleep quality, and reduces anxiety. (If you use a candle diffuser, be sure someone else is around to blow out the candle because you will be fast asleep.) If your case is so severe that the lavender essential oil is not enough, you can take Valerian Root in capsule form. Valerian Root will let your body and mind totally relax, without feeling stoned or drunk, and with no "drug hangover" the next morning. Soaking in a warm bath a few hours before bedtime, and exercising during the day will help insomniacs. Going to bed at the same time and getting up at the same time each day will also help. If you read in bed, use a book lamp or a table lamp next to you instead of an overhead lamp. This keeps the light on the book ins

Interaction
Eyelids flutter lightly, lovers gazes lock. A ritual made nightly, not much left for talk. Smiles brighten slightly, teasing each to walk. Knowingly holding tightly, beating out the clock. Whispers take the pair, movements start a course. Thickness fills the air, from the heated source. To her in his stare, submissive to his force. Their burden left to bear, showing till they're hoarse.

Love
"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her..." " If you love me, let me know. If not please gently let me go." " Some of the grater things in life are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream." " If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours forever. If it doen't, it wasn't ment to be."

Point Whoring Mommas
Are there really that many useless tubs of shit in one place? Every time I turn around, theres a high level skank with a colored name and a status message involving bling packs and/or crushes and NSFW. A closer look reveals a collection of illegitimate children of various ethnicities and/or daddies playing on the floor behind them, surrounded by the debris of another drunken night of cam whoring and neglect. Is it REALLY so hard to lift your immense bulk out of youre sweat, cum, and food scrap encrusted chair every once in a while and take care of your kids, or lean against a snow shovel long enough to push the trash off of your living room floor and either down the cellar stairs, or more likely, since youre living in a filthy rodent ridden trailer, out the door and onto your front lawn? If this is too much stress to handle in your busy fubar day, please shove a hand grenade up your cunt so you can never reproduce again. Seriously.

Does God Exist?
In his Summa Theologica, the medieval Dominican theologian St. Thomas Aquinas answers the question "Does God exist?" by offering five arguments drawn from observance of the natural world to support the existence of God. They are: An argument from motion: Since the universe is in motion, something or someone must have set it in motion. An argument from cause: The universe must have a first efficient cause in order to exist. An argument from existence: In order for all things to exist, there must be something or someone that is existence and does not receive existence from something else. In other words, there must be something or someone which is not dependent for its existence from something else. An argument from goodness: The fact that there are differing degrees of goodness in the world means that there must be some standard or perfection of goodness against which we can measure lesser goods. An argument from design: All things in the are directed to an en

So. Such A Waste Of Space
SO let me get this out of the way first..as of the 28th i won't be on..since i am moving..my net will be shut off til the 4th of august. NO phone til the 3rd..so if you care to know i'll get numbers from those who want me to be able to contact them via my cell which will be working.. ANYWAYS i just wanted to get that out of the way first.. (h) to those who care and (fu) to the haters..ahaha...anyways.. RANTING....my random run on sentances..and bull shit.. 1. MY ex..this would be the father of my youngests..who joins fubar..who sends me 4 friend requests..and refuses to take no for an answer.. who also sees the need to spend a 100 dollers on a happy hour..which he could of used to LOOK AFTER HIS CHILD.. WHO since she was born 8 months ago has been nothing but a dick head..saying i can't do this i can't do that with out his permission.. Who also HASN'T bought his daughter anything but a set of bottles..a set of clothes..a blanket..and 3 toys..since she had been BORN..8 month

Fantasy
You call me and tell me to prepare for a weekend away. You pick me up and all you tell me about where were going is sit back and enjoy. We go out for a romantic dinner at a nice place. we sit in a dark corner near a fireplace and candle lit table. we enjoy a wonderful dinner and awsome conversation,after dinner we go for a moon lit walk along a beach. To my suprise you have been there before. You have a blanket and candles lit with a white sheer tent,and asti chiling,with a vase of pink roses. You kiss me so softly and slowly fall to our knees. You gently lay me down and kiss my lips and worrk your way to my neck. then you slowly un buttton my blouse with your mouth,and work on my bra then you caress my breasts softly and gently kiss them and ,you caress my nipples with your lips. As you are doing this I am moaning with utter pleasure. you slowly work you way down my body I shutter with pleasure the whole time . you softly caress my clit with your tongue until your face is moistened w

The Pirate Philosophy
What is a pirate? A pirate is a Buddha, basically. The differences are mainly cultural. Pirates like to sail the sea, and in pirate culture honor is gained by kicking ass and taking names rather than virtuous works. Similar to a Buddha, though, a pirate moves with perfect personal freedom and doesn't answer to anyone. The social hierarchy of pirates, like that of monks, is based on quick wits and applied experience. Examining the Four Noble Pirate Truths The Four Noble Pirate Truths are ordered in the opposite direction of the Four Noble Truths. Rather than explaining them in the order they need to be understood, you are told the last first and the first last, in true Judeo-Christian tradition. Thus, when you read the final truth the other three become more clear. Let's tackle these in reverse order. You are a pirate. People are not born or raised to be better than the others. Everyone has the potential for perfection within their own lifetimes. Every per

Everybody Knows
It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the painI’m trying to find the words to say, please stayIt’s written all over my face, I can’tFunction the same when you’re not hereI’m calling your name but no one’s thereAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I still can’t believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe’ve heard it all before, that everybody knowsJust how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsI don’t care what the people sayThey brought it all in anywayBaby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-saidIt seems like you just don’t knowThe radio’s on, you're tuning me out,I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me downAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I

It Was Fuckin Good
tossed some boneless chicken breasts on the grill about noon today, just seard both sides of them picked a few green bell peppers and some hot red peppers from the garden. sauteed them in olive oil with a purple onion. set the hicken in the crock pot, smothered it with the peppers and let it cook on low all day had that and some cubed honeydew and watermelon, chilled and dusted with sea salt boring day today but food was fuckin great

Another Poem
To be in loveWhat does that meanDoes love truly flowFrom sea to sea When you find the oneYou truly care aboutYeah, you will knowWithout a doubt To be in loveWhat does that meanJust you waitAnd you will see Nothing is to highNothing is to farAll you have to do is reachAnd you can grab the stars To be in loveWhat does that meanTo fall in loveWill set you free 06/02/98

Feelings
My mind spins through bits and pieces of the past that seem to make my heart cry yet hold on longer... yet somehow it still seems to hold on to nothing... and at the same time the memories mean so much, yet there worth nothing more then just parts of the past that are now only real in my mind!! what good is that if it cant rewind me back to the time when i could touch you.. smell you... and most of all to the time when you were mine and i was yours.

Working On My House
I bought a house about two months ago and I feel like tearing it down and starting over. I would if I hadn't already put all my blood, sweat, tears and money into it. I had to replace the wiring, it was out of date, Upgraded the plumbing in the bathroom, I wanted a better shower. Remodel ALL the bedrooms inculding ripping up the carpet myself. All 4 of my new bedrooms. The easiest part was painting them. Two are painted up for my children, Cars for my 7 year old and Hannah Montana for my 10 year old. I mean I have went all out. I hope they love the hard work that I put into this home. I did almost ALL this work myself with the help of my Fiancee Dante. Aside from the wiring I'm not certified to do that. Phew, I'm almost done. Just finishing up my kitchen and everything will be ready. I can't wait.

Tats
Soo, my 19 yo niece went to a tattoo shop today. Her mom (my sis in law) is always playing that responsible concerned mother, yet... There is no fuckin WAY my teen daughter (if I had one) would be gettin a nasty tat. Well, the mom got herself a butterfly tat herself, so I guess she cant be talkin. I am dumbfounded by the desire of some people to mark their bodies for LIFE because of some on a whim decision. Esp shit like names, flowers, skulls, demons, other stupid garbage they will regret later on for sure. Jsut dumb

All In A Days Work
due to the requirements of my work, at one point or another bruises get created, punctures are made, and some blood is spilled. c....tower work aint for the weak hearted and stupidity can kill you in a heartbeat. even when youre paying attention toyour task at hand, things can go weird...take yesterday. 300 ft of roan tower being dismantled..2 men with tools at top, 1 said tool dropped and rapidly accelerates to over 100 mph while being skipped off the tower like a pingpong ball..HEADACHE HEADACHE would be the normal thing yelled out by MR ?:>

Changes.....
Today...i had the biggest wakeup call of my life..I honestly didnt realize how much i took life forgranted until this happened.We had went to my aunts..my sister was fine,happy,jolly....and within a split second she had blacked out and fell in the floor,non-responsive...we had to call the ambulance out....i watched them put my baby sister on the stretcher & put her in the back of the ambulance.All i could do was pray to god that nothing would happen to her.I prayed & prayed & prayed...all that could come to my head was how much i had taken her forgranted & thought she would always be there..We got to the e.r. and waited & waited & yes waited some more....then by the grace of god my sister was alright.I could've cried a thousand rivers i was so happy.I hugged her & didnt want to let her go.So..ive been sittin here thinking of how much i really have taken forgranted,how many ppl ive took forgranted.thinking they would always be around.I realize how selfish i have been towards other ppl.A

Friends.
WHAT IS A FREIND? A FREIND IS SOME ONE THAT NEVER OVER STEPS THE BOUNDRIES YOU HAVE.. THAT IS MORE THAN JUST HERE ILL GIVE YOU THIS. A FRIEND IS SUPPOSE TO BE THERE FOR YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN NO MATTER WHAT.. A FRIEND IS SOME ONE THAT NEVER SAYS SEXUAL SHIT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE YOUR DATING LIKE " SEE MY TITTIES I HAVE BIG TITTIES I HAVE NICE NIPPLES" THATS OVER STEPPING YOUR FRIENDS BOUNDRIES.. A FRIEND DONT JUST DO THINGS FOR YOU THEY RESPECT YOU AS WELL. A FRIEND WOULD NOT DATE A GUY YOU LIKE REGARDLESS EVEN IF YOU LIKE THE GUY AS WELL.. THATS NOT RESPECTING A PERSON AT ALL..I ALWAYS TEST A PERSON AND SAY HERE YOU GO YOU LIKE THEM AND IF THEY GO FOR THE TRAP THEN I KNOW DAMN WELL THERE NOT MY TRUE FRIEND.. I KNOW THEN THEY HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND JUST ARE WANTING TO MAKE THEMSELFS FEEL BIGGER BY DOING THE SHIT THEY DO.. I WONT TOLERATE THAT SHIT AT ALL ITS WRONG IN SO MANY WAYS.. IT REALLY IS.. A FRIEND WOULD NOT ASK YOU IF ITS OK TO ASK ANOTHER GUY YOU LIKE ADVISE ABOUT

Without You-hinder
I just wanna be alone tonight I just wanna take a little breather 'Cause lately all we do is fight And every time it cuts me deeper 'Cause something's changed You've been acting so strange And it's taking its toll on me It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently Without you, I live it up a little more every day I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end When I watched you walk away, well, I never thought I'd say I'm fine without you Called you up 'cause it's been long enough And you said that you were so much better We have done a lot of growing up We were never meant to be together 'Cause something changed You were acting so strange And it's taken its toll on me It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave Without you, I live it up a little more every day Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end When I watched yo

A Farmer In Love
Guy walks into the bedroom carrying a sheep in his arms and says,"Honey, this is the cow I make love to when you have a headache." The wife, laying in the bed reading a book, looks up and says,"If you weren't such an idiot, you'd know that's a sheep, not a cow." The guy replies, "If you weren't such a presumptuous Bitch, you'd realize I was talking to the sheep."

Hypnotist At The Senior Center
It was entertainment night at the Senior Center and over 300 seniors came to see the show.Claude the hypnotist exclaimed: 'I'm here to put you into a trance; I intend to hypnotize each and every member of the audience.'The excitement was almost electric as Claude withdrew a beautiful antique pocket watch from his coat 'I want you each to keep your eye on this antique watch. It's a very special watch. It's been in my family for six generations.'He began to swing the watch gently back and forth while quietly chanting, 'Watch the watch, watch the watch, and watch the watch...'The crowd became mesmerized as the watch swayed back and forth, light gleaming off its polished surface. Hundreds of pairs of eyes followed the swaying watch, until, suddenly, it slipped from the hypnotist's fingers and fell to the floor, breaking into a hundred pieces.'SHIT!' said the Hypnotist.It took three days to clean up the Senior Center ...

To All The Kids Who Survived The 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's And 70's!!
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As infants &children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cup cakes, white bread and real butter and drank Kool-aid made with sugar, but we weren't overweight because,

Nursing Home Sex
Harold is 95 and lives in a Senior Citizen Home. Every night after dinner,Harold goes to a secluded spot in the garden behind the Center to sit andponder his accomplishments and long life.One evening, Mildred, age 87, wanders into the garden.. They begin to chatand before they know it, several hours have passed.After a short lull in their conversation, Harold turns to Mildred and asks,"Do you know what I miss most of all?"She asks, "What?""Sex!!" he replies.Mildred exclaims, "Why you old fart. You couldn't get it up if I held a gunto your head!""I know," Harold says, "but it would be nice if a woman could just hold itfor a while.""Well, I can oblige," says Mildred, who unzips his trousers, removes hismanhood and proceeds to hold it.Afterward, they agree to meet secretly each night in the garden where theywould sit and talk and Mildred would hold Harold's manhood.Then one night Harold didn't show up at their usual meeting place.Alarmed, Mildred decided to find Harold and make s

Did You Know....
Did you know: That the words race car spelled backward says race car. That eat is the only word that if you take the 1st letter and move it to the last, it spells it's past tense ate. And Have you noticed that if you rearrange the letters in "illegal immigrants," and add just a few more letters, it spells out: "Fuck off and go home you free-loading, benefit grabbing, kid producing, violent, non-English speaking, cocksuckers, and take those hairy faced, sandal wearing, bomb making, goat fucking, smelly rag head bastards, with you."

Post Turtles Explained
While suturing a cut on the hand of a 75 year old Texas Rancher whose hand was caught in a gate while working cattle, the doctor struck up a conversation with the old man. Eventually the topic got around to Obama and his bid to be our President. The old Rancher said, 'Well, ya know, Obama is a post turtle. 'Not being familiar with the term, the Doctor asked him what a post turtle' was. The old Rancher said, 'When you're driving down a country road and you come across a fence post with a turtle balanced on top, that's a post turtle.' The old Rancher saw a puzzled look on the Doctor's face, so he continued to explain. 'You know he didn't get up there by himself, he doesn't belong up there, he doesn't know what to do while he is up there, and you just wonder what kind of dumb asses put him up there to begin with ' ?

A Fake Gets A Fu Pony....
Are we serious folks? And she has a Fu PONY??? Jenna@ fubar With these HORRIBLE salutes… Then this dude tells me she's "real" I bet she is. On a cam site maybe that or conning poor people like Sultry1 did. He blocked me after this convo... Someone tell the Fu Pony dude I need an Auto or my VIP renewed it runs out soon. How fucking retarded. More soon from the land of the futardation…don’t forget to nominate me for F word… http://www.fubar.com/blog/279913/1015548 And here… http://www.fubar.com/user/2610511 …and it’s free… Apparently people are trying to flush out your votes with spam….I have a lot more to say but this required immediate attention….peace

What Starts With F And Ends With K
A first-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students The teacher asked, 'Harry, what's your problem?' Harry answered, 'I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!' Ms. Brooks had had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office. While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test. If he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave.

Iced Earth - Life And Death
I came into this worldA screaming infantForced entry into this lifeAs I grow the pain sustainsDeep inside my soulVisions come and visions goBut hate will never leave meAs I grow the pain sustainsDeep inside my soulVisions come and visions goBut hate will never leave meLife an Death never againI shall not returnSoul sucking pious manI shall not returnThe reflection, an aging soulMy body's old and crackedDeath soon will be with meColdness, inactive painSoul sucked at the speed of lightTrapped in someone elseNo please not againEvil reincarnatedThe cycle's spun once moreSoul sucked at the speed of light

Part 1
The Hunter: Path of Atonement The growling is heard from the alley way, as two boys run through it, looking behind them as they run, their faces filled with the fear of death. One of them holding their arm as drops of blood fall to the dirty street. Under normal nights, the figure watching them would enjoy the fear, even revel in it. The figure sighs and watches the figures …this isn't any night though, he has a mission and a person to draw out. "Damnable sire....wish she would use me for more than this simple task…could be feeding right now" the figure grumbles, following the two boys as they run, making sure to stay visible enough for them to know where he is...and to make sure his target knows as well. Picking up speed as he jumps from the top of one building to the next, keeping his hunger in check, knowing if all goes well he will feed plenty tonight after this little adventure. He jumps from another building to the next, grinning as he senses the presence of anot

The Chicken Nugget Incident - Alternate
“I would also like two orders of fries,” said Skip Bronson, a man who declares he is a relative to a famous director and never will deny it. Skip, along with his fiancee Missy Burberry, a girl whom her body size equals to her enormous attitude. “I want extra sauce Skip,” asked Missy in her usual whining voice. “NO, it costs 20 cents extra for each packet, are you going to pay for it?” answered Skip in a voice as if he lost all his Magic cards in a dare. “I want extra sauce! I want extra sauce!” replied Missy jumping up and down. “Shut the fuck up, Missy,” answered Skip. Then, in a quick grasp of a sentence, Skip said, “That’ll be all” to the microphone of the drive-thru menu. The clerk on the other end repeated the whole order to Skip and then he gave the reply, “It’s right”. Then the total came up and Skip drove to the window without a thank you. Skip and Missy have been toget

Role Playing Games Revisited
It’s Saturday Night, and you’re with your friends playing Dungeons & Dragons, a role playing game worthy of geek proportions, or could you be playing World of Warcraft, a very addictive online computer game with some of your buddies hundreds of miles away in the dark! Or even playing Call of Duty just because you like war! Whatever your taste is, go for it. However, since thinking about my last blog on Role Playing games, I began thinking I may have left some things out, but I cannot remember what. But since breaking my writer’s block, it was able to give me new ideas of creative expression. I was thinking since some of my friends have been playing role playing games for almost two years now, I wanted to do an experiment: make a role playing television show. Now, this won’t be some stupid reality TV bullshit that has been polluting the airwaves for the last six to seven years. I want to create a show for gamers, like something to show a group of people pl

Quotes...
2 of my favorite women from history are Marilyn Monroe and Mae West...They have some of the greatest quotes ever...A few of my faves... “The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn't any.”--Marilyn “the nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least i can dream”--Marilyn “It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone - so far.”--Marilyn “When choosing between two evils, I always like to try the one I've never tried before.”--Mae “A dame that knows the ropes isn't likely to get tied up.”--Mae “I only have 'yes' men around me. Who needs 'no' men?”--Mae

About Boston
Oliver Wendell Holmes called it "The Hub of the Universe." It has also been deemed "The Athens of America." To many it is known as "Beantown." Whatever name you choose, Boston is a unique city that has played a major role in the American experience. Boston is a city of history, of neighborhoods, of education. Our nation's oldest major city, Boston is a city of industry and finance, and a city of firsts. Boston is the city where we "pahk the caah" and love our "chowdah." World famous for its medical centers, Boston is also a city of seasons, where every spring is a time of hope eternal for the beloved Red Sox, until reality sets in with the chill of autumn and the call becomes "wait until next year." The streets of this old city are winding and narrow, and many of them are one-way, which adds to the charm of the city. It also makes driving in Boston a memorable experience. If you miss a turn and plan to circle the block to get back, you may see why it is rumored that the express

Starters
For starters... I'm waitin for my computer so I can get my salutes up. All I have right now is my iPod to get me online. So I can't do too much I just now figures out a way to add a blog on here. It just makes things harder being in Kuwait Well I'm still new to fubar so help me out I like reading msgs and comments And you can check myspace/facebook if u don't trust me without salutes. (buckymandude@hotmail.com) for both

Boston History
The first English immigrant to settle in Boston was the Reverend William Blackstone. He came by himself in 1629, to a peninsula by a stream, called by the local Algonquin inhabitants, Shawmet. A year later, John Winthrop and his Puritan settlers of the Massachusetts Bay Colony, arrived to the north in Salem. Finding Salem less than desirable for a settlement, Blackstone invited Winthrop to visit Shawmut. On September 17, 1630, Winthrop decided to make Shawmut a permanent settlement and renamed it Boston, after his hometown in Lincolnshire England. Winthrop and his followers left England to escape religious persecution and to establish a pious Puritan state. Ironically, Blackstone shortly left the colony due the harsh, intolerant society that the Puritans had created. Citizenship in Massachusetts was restricted to church members until 1664. Dissidents like Anne Hutchinson and Roger Williams were banished. Despite these facts and the hysteria of the Salem Witch Trials of 1692, the

Dream Girl
I met this girl one night onlineOne day i wish i can say she's mineBut i know in my mind i'm not her typeAnd i know in my heart that i am rightHer beauty and her charm sends chills down my spine.I wish we woke up next to each other all the timeShe's smart, sexy, gorgeous, and coolMe thinking i'll ever have her makes me feel like a fool.So i guess for now she'll be my Dream GirlCause why would she pick me when she can have any guy in the world............ A poem done by (Joe Blake)

My Life
Today is the day i begin my new lifeI spent so many years searching for a wifeI looked high and low near and farBut she won't appear tell me where you areI'm a nice guy who feels he deserves the bestSo till i find my one love i will not restPeople tell me that i should sit and waitBut most of the time i think i'm too lateWhat if my true love passed me byeWhen i was in and out of relationships that made me hurt and cryAll i want is a girl to like me for meAnd than finally and live happy as can be Another Poem By joe Blake

Why Now?
The sky turned dark and the rain came downThunder in the sky lightning hit the groundI pulled you close to ease my fearDribbling down my cheek a single tearHow dare you leave me on an awful nightCause you know these storms give me such a frightIf you cared for me even just a little bitYou wouldn't just dump me and leave me in this awful fitHold me please till the storm passes byIf you leave me now alone i'm bound to cryCry for you love that i once have knownEven though your love for me was never shownI loved you to the ends of the earth and backBut now i feel your love for me was just a silly actSo take your fake love and leave me beIt's ok i'll survive trust me you'll see. Another Poem By (Joe Blake)

Girl I Want
THE GIRL I WANT BY: JOSEPH BLAKE I want the girl to love me for meNot the guy that she wants me to beI want her to share my joy and painI want her to be nice not really insaneI want a girl that i can trustCause if she cheats on me my heart will turn to rust.I want a girl to be honest and kindI want a girl i can trust all the timeSo i'll search the world from back to frontUntil i find that girl, The Girl I Want

The One Sad Night
The One Sad Night I was walking through the pouring rainI saw a girl holding her ankle she seemed to be in painShe had a bloody lip and a ripped up skirtI looked at her closely and she had a black eyeShe said her man beat her for talking to a guyI picked her up and carried her to my homeCause what she had gone through she shouldn't be aloneWe got back to my house and she said with a frightThere is no way i can stay here with you tonightI said fine i'll take you back to that awful manThat treated you like shit and beat you with his hand2 days later i opened the paper and saw an awful sightYou see that girl that i helped.....well her man got mad and killed her last night.

The New England Patriots
For the first few years they were the Boston Patriots, a vagabond team in a upstart league, in search of a permanent home. They played in every possible venue, from BU to BC to Harvard and Fenway Park. They even played a home game in Alabama. Somehow they persevered and survived, and today the New England Patriots have a beautiful new stadium of their own, and three Super Bowl Championships since 2001. They were the last of eight teams that formed the new American Football League which began play in 1960. Though the AFL was ridiculed by the media and the NFL, it succeeded with a wide open shoot-out style of football. The Patriots were solid contenders with several standout players, in the early years. They won the Eastern Division in 1963 but lost to San Diego in the championship game. By the time of the merger of the AFL and NFL in 1970, the Patriots were in decline and still without a home. In the summer of 1970, the Patriots opened Schaefer Stadium in Foxboro. They also had a new

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?????????????????? Current mood: depressed Rain falls on the hot dark street.The wet grass cushions my soft bare feet.the lightning brightens up the dark cloudy sky.A single tear trickles down from my eye.Rolling thunder echoes all around me.Wind blows so hard it knocks down a tree.The falling rain dampens my clean cut hair.The leaves are blowing in the cold crisp air.I fall to my kness and pray to the man above.Please lord i beg you send me my one true love.He said "Be patient my son and soon she'll appear".Have faith in me and please don't show any fear.So i'll sit back and relax and wait for the time.When my true love appears we can let our love shine. A Poem By (Joe Blake)

The Celtics
Any discussion of NBA history starts with the Boston Celtics. Under the direction of Red Auerbach, the Celtics produced three dynasties winning 16 World Titles from 1957 to 1986. The fast break, the full-court press, and unselfishness on the court became synonymous with Celtics Basketball. They were a charter member of the NBA when the league began in 1946. The team struggled for the first four years, but in 1950 two newcomers arrived who would forever change Celtics fortune and the game itself. Owner Walter Brown brought in former Washington Capitals coach Red Auerbach to take command; and as the result of a league contraction and a draft, a six foot guard from Holy Cross, Bob Cousy returned to the Boston Garden. The Celtics continued to improve with the addition of quality players the likes of Bill Sharman, Frank Ramsey, and Tommy Heinsohn, but the addition of Bill Russell in 1956 was the final piece of the puzzle. Russell revolutionized the role of the big man in Basketball. His s

Boston Red Sox
The arrival of spring awakens the citizens of Red Sox Nation and the annual quest for a World Series victory by the local nine. They began in 1901 as the Boston Americans of the newly formed American League. They won the first ever World Series in 1903 over the Pittsburgh Pirates. In 1908 they changed their name to the Red Sox. In 1912 they moved into brand new Fenway Park, where they still play today. In 1918, the Red Sox won their fifth World Series, thanks in part to a star lefty pitcher named Babe Ruth, who could also hit the 'you know what' out of the ball. Following the 1919 season, Sox owner Harry Frazee sold Ruth to the New York Yankees. For the next 86 years despite the enduring loyalty by Red Sox Nation the team suffered a variety of gut wrenching disappointments and no World Series victories. After the Babe's exile to New York, thirteen futile years followed including nine last place campaigns. A resurgence began in 1933 when millionaire Tom Yawkee purchased the team, re

I'm Really Loving The New Font Applicator For The Blogs
Hello, fellow Fu-Men and Fu-Women. I haven't written a blog exlcusively for Fubar in quite some, and I thought I should do one for the record. After posting a new blog for the first time in a couple months just a few weeks prior, I noticed that Fubar now that a nifty little font changer for the blogs, and I do have to say I'm loving it! No more having to paste a code in the front of the blog no more! Also, I can now use the same font I use for posting blogs on MySpace, which I am happy for as well. Also, as some of you may not know, I have just joined the Army, so once I get my military email, I will have a little Army icon underneath my primary pic on my profile. I am so for that, I feel now I am part of something special, instead of some useless bum I have been doing the past year. But, for some of you may be wondering what my new profile pic is of, well let me tell you, it's a scene from a great Stanley Kubrick film called Full Metal Jacket. I have actually been watching tha

The Bruins
he Boston Bruins entered the National Hockey League in 1924. They were the leagues'first expansion team, and the first U.S. based NHL team. The first year they won only six of thirty games, but they rose quickly and won their first of five Stanley Cups 1929. Their first star player was defenseman Eddie Shore who came to the team in 1926. He led the Bruins to eleven playoff appearances in his thirteen seasons. The Bruins won their second Championship in 1939 with Shore as the captain. In the 1940's Milt Schmidt was the star leading Boston to a Stanley Cup victory in 1941. At the end of his Hall of Fame career in 1954, Schmidt became coach of the Bruins. Later he became the general manager and made the landmark trade for Phil Esposito, Ken Hodge, and Fred Stanfield from Chicago, to join a young phenomenon named Bobby Orr. Ask a Boston hockey fan who was the greatest to ever lace up skates and the answer will always be 'number 4' Bobby Orr. Carrying on in the tradition of Shore, Orr r

Yeah You Know Who You Are
IF YOUR FAKE ASS EVER TRIES TO TALK TO ME AGAIN.. ITLL BE A FUCKING MISTAKE. AND I PROMISE YOU WILL REGRET IT. THINKING YOU CAN FUCK WITH ME. FUCK YOU AND EVERYOTHER FAKE ASS MOTHER FUCKER YOU ALL CAN SUCK MY FAT WHITE COCK REAL TALK..

Damn, Yet Another Butt Hurt Mummer
Yet another butt hurt mummer, check out her mumm here, im saying if your gonna go back and forth with me at least be able to stand up and dont start blocking like a butt hurt Check mumm here.http://www.fubar.com/mum.php?id=564698She got offended when I spoke of the person who should pay for the trip is whomever going to kill the other, after a bit of time she said basically shut up.. lmao knowing me even if I didn’t want to say anything saying shut up provokes response, after one or two more responses im blocked and she still talks shit :P Now… should I A] Masturbate and throw semen in her faceB] Just go meet her and masturbate in her beverage and sit back and watch her drink it lmaoOkay I am bored … sitting here masturbating while looking at hairy midgets with no teeth.. hm you call them pink tacos [UPDATE] Lmao, so either talk about what you want or you block us, your 42 stop acting like a 12 year old... oh wait is that what your intellectual capacity holds?

Dear Lady At The Bus Stop...
Dear Lady at the Bus Stop: Despite the fact that you are 80 years older than anyone else on the planet, I got a warm and fuzzy feeling in my loins when I walked past you on my way to lunch today. What you lack in conventional beauty you more than make up for in your ability to fill out those pair of control hose, rolled to just under your shapely knee. I must admit that I was taken aback, yet my heart was aflutter, when you removed the cigarette from your mouth with a yellowed crook of a hand and uttered this seductive line as I passed: "Nice ass there fella" In closing, I would like to recite a line from a movie which sums up all I feel for you, O horniest of senior citizens. "Take me to bed or lose me forever" ~Faceman

Dear Crackhead...
So... I've been finding some very amusing things on the web lately, and thought I would start sharing them with you guys. Here's our first winner: (From Craigslist) Yes, you. You sick fucker. On Wednesday morning I emerged from my girlfriend's building by U.N. Plaza to find that you had sawed the tops off both the sparkplugs on my motorcycle. At the time, I had no idea why anyone would do that. Other than the sparkplugs, the bike was untouched. Some kind of bizarre vandalism? A fraternity prank gone awry? I had no idea. All I knew is that I looked like a huge douchebag riding the Muni to work in a padded motorcycle jacket and helmet. Because the bike was immobilized I got a $35 street sweeping ticket that night. Thursday I had it towed to the shop ($45) where they replaced the sparkplugs and the boots ($50 including labor). They explained to me that "people" - I use the term loosely here - like you break off the tops of spark plugs and use the porcelain tubes to smoke crack.

Teacher
It was with you that I learned that there are new and better feelings, you introduced me to a whole new world of dreams. I learned that the week has more than seven days, and to feel blessed, that I also learned with you. With you I learned to see the light at the other side of the moon. With you I learned that I would not change your presence with another. I also learned that a kiss can be deeper and sweeter, that I can depart tomorrow from this world because all the good things in life I have already shared with you. With you I learned that I was born the day I met you.

Furry Fiend. (photo Inside)
Hello. My name is Cosmo. You might know me from Fluffy Starr TeeVee, in such videos like "The Birds Crotch" or "The Talking Chihuahua" (yes, I'm talented), or more recently "The Synth Cat." Yes, Mother likes to have her fun with me... But what can I do? She told me from a young age that she was my Queen, and I was to do as she says. But she feeds me the best num-nums and gives me the most excellent toys, so it's quite palatable, I assure you. Here is a recent photo of me, in one of my beds. I have several. This one is smack in the middle of the studio, so I can lounge around (like the diva I am) while Mother plays with her synths. Aren't I simply adorable? Of course I am, even though Mother is sure I'm a monster at heart. (But I'm my Mother's son all the way.) Please feel free to post a photo of your furry friend here. x Fluffy & Cosmo

Just A Wish
if i close my eyes i can see it. I can almost taste it.. open my eyes and im left breathless. for what i thought was my reality was all just a dream.. Youll be the dream and ill be the dreamer:) Staring at eachother our eyes are locked. unbreakable force you and i have. chemistry .. mix it together we are toxic. but u are my poison the very thing that might kill me but id die with a smile. so come on baby kill me with those wrds.. make me feel alive. dance around me. never stop makin me dizzy. when u walk i dare not step to ur pace. for u are far ahead of me. and i would just be out of place. so come on. show me the way. show me how to bleed and breath at the same time.. an obsession we are.. 2 of a kind but one plays the game better then i do.. i step back to to take my bow and with my white flag ill wave it so proud. baby u just left me on the ground. thats ok i like it there on my knees;). so watch me because ill come up soon and ill make ur mind explode but for now its a you-1 me-

My 41st Birthday 09-09-09
Yay will be a lucky day 09-09-09 (or 9/9/9) and here is my wish list for you to take in to consideration when thinking what to treat me to on here :) (1) HAPPY HOUR (if you really love me) (2) 1000 credit bling pack (3) AUto 11 (4) Bomb (5) VIP renewal (if required) (6) Keep me shit faced from the 8/9 to the 10/9 One or all of the above will be most appreciated - and of course levellation to Godfather will be iminant :) KISSES TO YOU ALL

Come See My New Tan Lines
If you like a gal with a naughty mind to share over the free phone my hottest sexual experiences and I have lots to share, if you like blonde with a bodacious curvy bod and a really good time like taking a load off you should really join me now cause im waiting right now live for you on my webcam. i will truly make it worth your while.

Crumpled, Torn, Shattered, And Discarded
I once thought I had found love so I married the woman who made happy and after ten years she cheated. So I figure live and learn I am not the first person in the world this has happened to. I spent a few years enjoying being single then I met my second wife and I thought I was in heaven. That was until the day I returned home to find her packing her belongings up and leaving me for some 19 year old kid. I was shattered. I spent some more time alone then I found someone who I thought was truely the one. Only thing is she did not feel the same way about me. So I moved on and I found someone who I thought things were going to work out with but she only wanted to use me for money. So now I think I will become a monk less chances of ever suffering from heart break that way. To sum it up I no longer have a heart left its been crumpled, torn, shattered and discarded like yesterdays news paper. Speaking for myself LOVE STINKS.

Thinking Of You
I sat there in deep thought with no cares of what was going on around me. People moved about, like fast forward in a movie All I wanted was to be with you one last time. I wanted to here you laugh, tell me im making to much of it I wanted to know that I can walk thru your door and your right there. But when I walked thru your door, it was dark, sad, empty. You weren't sitting at the table, reading your books, You weren't there when I sat in tears wishing you were still with me. They say time heals all wounds. Why hasnt this healed?? Why does my heart ache every time, I think of you. Why did it happen to you, you were stronger then any of us. You laughed at us all when we made a big deal out of everything. You had such strength in you, that it flowed of onto all of us. What am I gonna do Ma? This hole in my heart aches. I miss you more then anything, and I wish it wasnt this way. RIP MA

Additional Service On Offer
for a one time payment of a very reasonable 15,000,000 i will assassinate everyones favourite conspiracy theorist in dear old fubar land. i will phoshop his head on a corpse of your choosing.

Relationship
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separat

Missin Her
Im sittin here at work and its dead like always and I hate it because then I have to much time to think.. I don't think anyone realizes just how much you miss someone until its to late and they aren't around.. I know she hasn't been gone but for a few days.. But knowing that I may not get her back for a while kills me.. So help me God I will never and I mean never complain about not having any time to myself.. I can honestly say I miss hearing the "mommy I need you" or "mommy I peed" followed by a lil giggle.. Or getting up in the middle of the night triping over her baby dolls or her sippie cup she left right before bed.. I won't complain about a 1 min shower alone or getting home to find she had gotten into my make up and wants to know if she looks pretty.. These are momments I may never get back.. and at this point I will do what it takes to get that back..

Where Did The Time Go?
Life goes on in the path that you are meant to go. Little do you know it would be like this. Ups and downs, love, joy, heartache, heartbreak. You set out for a life. you think you are doing it all right..then it crashes down. Once i was young. i had the world in my hands. So many possibilities. I was in love and married to a really great person. Time wears things and people down. Small bumped can shake you up. After having a beautiful baby, she started to grow up into the love of my life. All of a sudden, I lost control. I was the bad guy I guess. The illness took everything from me. I lost the house, car, marriage, job and almost her. Then I found people who helped me. They picked me up and taught me how to walk again. I thought I could try what ever I wanted..only to find out this time I would lose the love of my life. One day you wake up and..you are in your 40s. Your skin sags, crows feet, you get tired , you are broke, you have an empty bed, your kid hates you and you are all

Fascinating Biology Facts
The largest cell in the human body is the female egg and> the smallest is the male sperm.> It takes the food seven seconds to get from your mouth to> your stomach.> One human hair can support 3 kg (6 lb).> The average man's erection is three times the length of his> thumb..> Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete.> A woman's heart beats faster than a man's.> There are about one trillion bacteria on each of your> feet.> Women blink twice as often as men.> The average person's skin weighs twice as much as the> brain.> Your body uses 300 muscles to balance itself when you are> standing still.> If saliva cannot dissolve something, you cannot taste it.> Men who read this are probably still busy checking their> thumbs