Bender gatekeeperheaven and earth's blog: "almostalien"

I have been injured many times. Dislocated my shoulder not bad just 1/4 inch out.It was enough to not be able to lift my arm over my head for 3 months. I have been cut in the cornea of the eye with barbed wired again not enough to lose the eye. But enough to not be able to see out of it for a few weeks . I broke my leg in 4 places at once not being able to walk for awhile . I even lucky me pinched a nerve in my neck to were I could not move at all for three days. All my own fault I am one of those guys who is always doing things I should not be doing and wham I am hurt or bleeding pretty bad . Yes just like alot of guys we are funny that way. Hope aliens do not want to make me have sex with a alien to make a hybrid or the thing won't make it a week when it is old enough to walk. The only thing these things have let me experience and think at the time is. I know what it is like to have limitations but only for a short time .To appreciate it was not forever. Or to never have been able to see would of probably been the worse. No beautiful rainbows . No mountain top views. None of the things I thought nothing of until it was gone . So being blind would be bad . But then I also would not have experienced being a racist. I am not anymore. Was it a faze? Was it what I was seeing on tv. Was it just going along with the people I hung around with. I am just glad it is gone now. I was hating everything without putting myself in the history of those peoples lives. I used to hate gay people . I am not a gay pride sign holder . I think just my opinion which is not very much that is a hard life to live just for sex. And so I do not if it's not to late piss some of you off because I said it is about sex. I love my brother and would do anything for him he is male so am I . Am I gay . No why because I do not have sex with him. So that's just me my feelings. I used to think abortion is bad . And I would say after seeing something on tv about abortions those murders. But then I thought what would I do if I was raped by my father or some guy down the street would I want to carry this baby and remind me of the rape forever and never be able to get away from it. Would I kill myself what if I was married and I knew if I kept it my husband and I have been trying to have a baby and now we could have one but it would be the rapists. If you can handle things like that I am glad for you but we are not all the same. So now that I have put myself in all of the things that I hated and wished those people would just go away. I am more understanding. I guess what it has come down to is I may not like the things that people do but I understand it better . I did not pick my parents or were I was raised had no control how people would treat me in my life or what I would see that would make me have all these bad feeling .I am just me one dumb human with so many different then me people trying to get threw it all .They say children are blind to color they are right they just want to play with anyone of any race. Even children whose parents are of the same sex or different color different faiths . So I will go way out on a limb right now for all my friends who like thinking of aliens from outer space . Would you be afraid of them if you lost your sight for a short while . And all of a sudden these aliens from another world looked so ugly in human terms but you could not see them .They just met you knocked on your door and started talking to you nicely said they were having problems with there transportation and could they use you phone . You would probably say sure you would probably let them in they would talk to you joke with you then say thank you and leave. And the only memory you would have when they left would be how nice that person was who used your phone . And because you were blind you did not see how normally ugly they were that they were not any different then you and you were glad to have met them . And you would probably always wonder what they looked like. That is me now I am blind to the seeable as well as the things I have yet to understand. I have along way to go but if there is a heaven for me up there somewhere. I will make sure that I am blind so I will be able to understand how happy I can be.And not be reminded of the blinding hate I once had on earth.