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Stole From Stitch!!
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Best Friends Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason? Memories from someone lost If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass? With some super long, industrial strength gloves.. sure thing! I live on a farm, have done worse lol Has anyone ever promised you forever?Yes Do you get high?NoSomething bothering you?Want to get my research paper finished Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else? Sure thing What made you happy this weekend?My little brother kicked some bootay at his wrestling tournament!When was the last time you cried? lastnight ?? What color shirt are you wearing?white babydoll tee Last thing you ate? Ham, smashed taters, green beans! yummWhere did you sleep last night?In my bed. Are you happy right now? for the most part Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?The list is many ... grrrrWhat's something you're wanting right n

America's Agenda Blueprinted By A Convicted Felon?....
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America's Agenda Blueprinted By A Convicted Felon?....
..Hello everyone. First of all, I’d like to thank those who stop by here regularly to read this blog and its’ posts. It is truly appreciated. It’s made this blog quite a popular place over it’s 3+ year existence on this site, and has been the launching pad for quite a few things over time, be it opening someone’s eyes, suggestions to help make Fubar a better place, offering a different political view than what the mainstream media wants you to believe, giving tribute to the good people of Fubar while taking those to task that need to be. Calling out fakes, cheaters and cons and people that are a waste of bandwidth in this “self regulating” online community. Those are always a popular theme here. Asking the tough questions & being afraid of the answers, facing relentless smear campaigns, always unproven with no factual base in reality from coffee-shop bravado kings, dudes that con women into their online “persona” of being a “hot”

Borrowed From My Friend Nakey ♥
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you? absolutely Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?If i'm crying, someone i love diedIf you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?make it 50K and we might talkHas anyone ever promised you forever?Yes... Do you get high?newpSomething bothering you?Yes....Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?yepWhat made you happy this weekend? the Saints running 13-0! When was the last time you cried?when dirty boy mike died What color shirt are you wearing?black Last thing you ate?rum garlic shrimp creoleWhere did you sleep last night?in my bedAre you happy right now? eh, could be betterWho/what do you hate/dislike currently i don't hate anyone. it takes too much energy What's something your wanting right now?my sanity, if just briefly Who makes you the happiest right now? Wifey. She has a way of making me giggle Does someone hav

A Venting
For years i have started various projects to try to help employ ppl so they could make an income while spending time on the net instead of wasting it away on foolish things like watching crappy Youtube videos and twittering about how bad their last fart stunk so it will show up on all their frenz iphones. Its all just a huge waste of time.This year has been a big lesson for me. and i realize I can only depend on myself when it comes to reliable people on the net. All of my projects have come crashing down in failure because no one has the passion enough in the hearts to believe in anything anymore. This is why i am single and will remain so, and as well why U spend all your money on the net instead of MAKING IT. Youre all are too busy striving for glory while doing little to nothing to truly earn it through diligence and hard work.....and THAT quite frankly disgusts me. Ask yourself, how has your life changed since you started using the web? Most of you will probably say nothing, and

A Bit About Me
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Yeah. Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?I try not to cry.If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?Well yeah! Has anyone ever promised you forever?Yes. It didn't happen.Do you get high?Nope.Something bothering you?nope.Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?yup. What made you happy this weekend? workingWhen was the last time you cried?don't remember What color shirt are you wearing?blueLast thing you ate?yogart Where did you sleep last night?I worked last night.Are you happy right now?no Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?Nothing. Hate is too over-rated What's something your wanting right now?nothing in particularWho makes you the happiest right now?IanDoes someone have a crush on you?Nope Do you have a crush on someone?Nope What were you doing at midnight last night?I was at workDo you wish someone was with you, right now?Nope. Pick

Listening To Massive Attack...getting Massively "tall"
just thinking as usual about old shit. maybe not soooo old but still the past. realizing i went off on a so-called friend who snaked me out of 5 bucks but its the way he went about it not the amount. regardless i needed to call him on his constant bullshyt anyway. so i did and well...im not the best at keeping things back so im pretty much waiting for the art exchange partnership to be pulled from under my feet because i told my co-partner he could basically piss off if he needed anything from me...that didnt pertain to the event....yet folks dont like being told they fcuked over a good friend. so i'll get blamed for being the prick...fine with me. actions speak louder than words and ive painted my words and kept my actions as an artist and local art activist and promoter. i cant say the same for my partner...but some people think that if they dont live up to their part its everyone elses fault. i called bullshit and got shit on. good thing i had a hat on. had my heart ripped

Survey
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?yes Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?I'm missing someone...If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?is it a girl elephant? Has anyone ever promised you forever?Yes...they liedDo you get high?I do smoke a lilSomething bothering you?Yes....Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?Story of my love life. What made you happy this weekend?my beasts When was the last time you cried?no comment What color shirt are you wearing?not wearing one Last thing you ate?A brat Where did you sleep last night?At home in my own bed..Are you happy right now?not really...Who/what do you hate/dislike currently phonies and liars What's something your wanting right now?affection...slippery sticky filthy affection. Who makes you the happiest right now?it starts with a J,lol. Does someone have a crush on you?yes and she has mineDo you have a crush on someone?

Because Cyborg Posted Hers
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?She did at the time...was my girlfriend ...now she's just an ex. Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason? Intense sadness and anger. If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?Not if the 5,000 is actually in it's ass Has anyone ever promised you forever?Yes Do you get high?NopeSomething bothering you?Not really. Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?Yup. What made you happy this weekend?Nothing...I've had a content weekend. When was the last time you cried?About a month agoWhat color shirt are you wearing?Forest Camo Last thing you ate? brownies. Where did you sleep last night?In my bed. Are you happy right now?I am content Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?Nobody. What's something you're wanting right now? I wanted to correct the misspelling of the word you're in this question and i did. (was spelled your)Who makes you the hap

Spam Bot...
Spam bot here All I need is your credit card number, and your email address and we can get started :P BLAME WICKED RAVEN for this... And like your typically fu slut I will open up My NSFW pics for bling, and if you give Me VIP Me love you long time in bathroom stall MORONS if you give Me bling or VIP I will screen shot your stupidity!!!

A Blog Fit For A Whore
that's right, i am blogging for a whore Fruitcakes for Pietaster...teh whoreWinner gets 2 bottles of jack and 2 quarts of eggnog from the losers. (yes -He & his only two friends on earth) all love the fruitcake.Rules: 1)Fruitcakes can only be gifted. 2)international fruitcakes count for triple points. Should I:A) Rub this fruitcake on my ass before sending it to himorB) Ask the mummer crowd to send him a fruitcake (I have his mailing addy & will give it on request). A) Dingleberry AsscakeorB) Can you help?btw - my addy is po box 192, collins center, NY

True Love
Okay green name shouts Me Hi, you're sexy? I say piss off fuck wad... I get I don't come on here often, want my messenger... No fuck wad get out My shout damn it. Okay its (removed for obvious reasns) Hm, do you think she was My true love that I just let slip away.. or was she a bot that just wanted My credit card number and to spam Me? *damn if she was My one true love I let her get away.. damn bots :P*

Just Ask Ashley
Isn’t this a great country! Where else can this happens, no where but here in the Good Ol’ US of A. if you have a problem with your love life and you need some pointers just ask Ashley. Ashley who you ask? It’s Ashley Dupre. Remember her? She’s the babe that New York Gov. Eliot Spitzer was shelling out big bucks to for some hot love advice and I guess some action. Now Ashley will give you advice via the New York Post. The Post has been losing readers by the droves so they think Ashley can help revitalize the newspaper. She’s a hot babe that’s for sure. And I know she can revitalize most guys but can she do the same for the New York Post? That we will have to wait and find out. I’ll have to write her about my love concerns like what do I do about them? For more go here: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,580133,00.html Need advice about what radio station is worth listening to? It’s official BlastFM is considered the best in i

Any Closer And They Would Have Been Twins...
December 6, 2009, my Uncle Gene left this earth. He was 2 years younger than my Father, but you would swear these two were twins.They came from a huge family down state Illinois. They lived in a tiny town on the outskirts of farmland. Both Gene and my Dad over the years of their youth had a variety of jobs. They did just about anything and everything. Both of them excelled in school, went to college and had been in the military. Gene had met a wonderful woman on a blind date named Fran. She was NOT the blind date but the other girls room mate. The room mate decided she didn't want to go so Fran decided she couldn't let that poor guy (Gene) be stood up...and it was love at first site. Gene was stationed in Germany for a while and had Fran come live with him for 2 years.They all eventually moved from the country to the suburbs of Chicago. For years the two families blended. 4 girls with Fran and Gene and 5 kids from Evan and Wilma. The 9 of us kids were very close and still are. I always

Fruitcake, Needed!!!
I AM IN A LIL COMPETITION TO SEE WHO CAN AMASS THE MOST FRUITCAKES BY JANUARY 1ST. TWO FRIENDS AND I LOVE THE STUFF. EVERYONE ELSE WE KNOW -HATES IT. WINNER GETS 2 BOTTLES OF JACK & 2 QUARTS OF EGGNOG. ONLY RULE IS WE CANNOT BUY THE FRUITCAKES, WE MUST RECIEVE THEM FROM OTHERS. WILL YOU HELP ME? I WILL GIVE YOU MY REAL LIFE MAILING ADDRESS - (OR DROP OFF THE FRUITCAKE IN PERSON!) :)

My Juicy Peach
I glide my fingers over your velvet soft hairAnd admire the ripeness of your smooth blushed skinGathering you in close I can smell the sweet scent of youThe anticipation of how you must taste making my mouth water I run my tongue along your groove and kiss you deeplySinking my teeth gently into your virgin pink fleshBeads of nectar wet my lipsMaking my hunger for you all the moreI will myself to slow down and delight in your giftTrying to catch your essence as it dripped down my chinI push you harder to my mouthMy tongue deeper into your coreAnd eat you from the inside outDrinking greedily every droplet that flows from youAnd when you have poured all you are into meI will lick up what is left of you on my fingersFor you were made to be savoured Not simply devoured My juicy peach

Love Is Strange
Lovers unknowingly searching for each other, crossed paths at the intersection of fantasy and dream land, each cognizant of the other, but neither one had any idea of what was going down, once their spirits met. As the wonders of an internet romance came to fruition, through the miracle that is e-mail, their spirits entwined and became as one. Intoxicated by the passion that flowed from their fingers thru their keyboards and into each others hearts, and libidos, they both found the emotional bliss, both had been seeking for decades, in a matter of timeless hours. He found in her, all the qualities lacking in many past lovers, her invisible embrace offered him the emotional sanctuary he had sought his entire adult life. He could sense her lips kissing and sharing their sweetness in a manner most men craved but would never find. Her succulent body, thru his imagination, clung to him in an extreme carnal fashion, and brought forth mind blowing ectasy, which seemed endless. She found in hi

The First Month
Life as a married woman has changed alot. I now have a lot of responsibilities to do and more things to think about. Such as looking for a nice condo and getting a new car. But other than that, my life so far is going good.

R.i.p Brooke Young ..... Reset The Breaker Lyrics
Who wrote the rules?I'd like to knowDid they live it or laugh it off and let it go?Did they break down? Did it show?As their light was slipping awaySee the trends sink with the sunSee the old friendsThey're packing up and moving onAnd time will tell, 'cause time only knowsIt eats at your seams just to see if you'll let it goSave us all, darkness breaks through the afternoonLike no other, light is slipping away from usCould you reset the breaker?Reset the breakerI broke the rules and boy, does it showAnd I'm so ready, so say goodbye and watch me goTo this great uncharted unknownThat sleeps in these sheets and repeats in me ever so slowI'm aloneSo save all of us, darkness breaks through the dayLike no other, light is slipping away from meSo save all of us, light is slipping awayLike no other, our lives are drifting away from usWe're all aloneNow I cut all these stringsI fly away aloneSoftly singingThis wordIt's mineMy lifeMy songSing itScream itBelieve itI'm gone.

Something I Wrote For The Demons
It was a ravishing Sarcophagus Anointed with alluring gems of Hyacinth and Onyx Fitted for a Queen, A women with beauty of the fabulous Houri of the Turk For her to lay in the abyss of eternity with her only beloved in Luxor It is an astonishing Sarcophagus The envy of all the Mediterranean She who lay inside will be glorified in history It is the perfect Sarcophagus To deliver thy Queen upon Anubis He will take her prematurely It is a curious Sarcophagus In that the Queen still walks Why the luxury for this fallen women It is a mysterious Sarcophagus To be banished from the world herein And her dishonor with it It is a disgraceful Sarcophagus Which inside lies no Queen, in fact, But the Harlot who thought she was It is an avenged Sarcophagus For tramp who murdered the Queens heart Now lays with scarabs It was a mercifuless Sarcophagus Not only buried was the cold body of a young girl slain But the unforgiving heart of a humiliated Queen It i

Bedtime Blessing
In the still of the night while the world around me sleeps may the angels smile upon me and the Lady bring me peace. Blessings upon (list those whom you would like to remember in your prayers). I know that You will care for them and bring them what they need. Instill in me great harmony in thought and word and deed. So mote it be.

.....the Night Before Christmas By Black Widow.....
I wrote this for fun no pun intenened at chistmas or santa just for a laugh which we all need !!!! .....The Night before Christmas by black widow..... Twas the night before Christmas and not a prostitute was in sight; santa claws was on the cornor selling crack and coke all night, and he as the pimp that he is stood on the corner clling ho ho ho all night Santa had been busted but Rudolf was alright… Tethered to his slay, he gave a big shout… “Please Santa come back” as he gave a little pout. Santa was an alcoholic, but no one could care less… Best of all was those lousy millionaires… The prostitutes were dreaming of some nice white fun… But when Santa came round all they got was a load of his stinking cum. So let this be a lesson to those better off… Santa ain’t dead yet so you better back off… Surrounded by her pimp the prostitute gave a wink… For Santa in the corner that was code for show us you

And The Chef Of The Year Award Goes To
ME!!! First off I would like to Thank myself. B/c without me I wouldnt be here. Ofcourse all of the little people.THERE YOU ARE!! I am the KING of all that is Turkey Noodle Soup Bitches!!!

Eat Shit......and Live
The world of modern medicine never ceases to amaze. The latest high tech treatment for a potentially lethal infection.....a faecal transplant. Or in plain English......a shit sandwich. All will be explained below. Clostridium difficile (C diff) is a bacteria normally found in the colon in very small amounts or not at all. The colon is normally packed full of "good" bacteria that crowd out nasties like C diff and stop it growing out of control. If C diff does take over, it causes severe diarrhoea. It can also cause a very serious condition called pseudomembranous colitis. There are several deaths every year from C diff. C diff is normally linked to antibiotic use. Antibiotics wipe out the "good" bacteria and allow C diff to multiply. So it often affects already ill people. Conventional treatments for C diff are metronidazole and vancomycin. Vancomycin can also be delivered into the colon directly via a catheter passed through the rectum. In some cases, even these treatments fail. The

Manners And Fubar
I have been on Fubar since it's days as Lost Cherry way back in 2006. I have seen alot of people come and go over the last 3 years. As the site has changed so have the people on the site. What used to be fun now at times more of a pain then fun. There are still a lot of great people on the site but if someone buys you a drink return the favor if someone gives you fu-bucks say thank you. Manners are still important in today's world. Too many people feel like just cause your online manners don't matter. From the guys begging to see ladies NSFW pics think about if that was your sister if you have one or mother. Show respect to get respect. A friend once told me people forget there is another human being on the other end the pc your on with real feelings. Now I know you can't hit and rate everyone everyday. But just remember manners are still relevant in this crazy online world we live in.

Your A Fuckin Bitch
yes i said and yes im posting my thoughts...u fuckin bitch ....christopher kelly howenstien aka chicago kid2002 ur a fuckin shit talkin bitch who claims he better then me ....well bitch prove it...... u claim u comin to whoop my ass well bring it bitch u know where i stay . just like jolene said ur a weak excuse for a man how u gonna fuck a bitch and then bust on contact.... that must be the side effect of the drug u takin....yes the drug...that extenze shit u lil dick motherfucker.....its all good u werent blessed and that grill of urs omg how the fuck u gonna have teeth growin on top of ya teeth....u inbred fuckin homo.....come see me u so gangsta... all these bitches u talkin to dont know how crazy ya ass is.....tryin to be a playa....damn u be fuckin the game all up.... u gonna try and tell my shawty i aint worth her and all that ... i run this shit aiight ......u aint shit....never gonna be shit......and to show u i mean business,.... find ya baby momma and beg her to see

Nsfw Images On Comments, Blogs, Mumms, Profiles, Etc!
*****FROM SCRAPPER'S BLOG***** If you are posting PORN or overly NSFW comment tags on people's profile you will be either deleted or suspended from leaving comments for a week. If you have multiple accounts, we will suspend all of your accounts and/or delete you. This is clearly posted on the site. NSFW content must be marked. Comments, blogs, bulletins, stash, etc, etc. fall under this. If you are reading this blog because you are getting an error message when you post comments, bulletins, blogs, etc, I would rethink about the content you're posting. You are suspended for violating this policy. You are more than welcome to put your favorite NSFW content in a photo album and mark it NSFW. If you are a repeat offender, your profile will be deleted. The majority of people here do not want to be forced to look at soft porn when cruising the site. If you see someone who is abusing their comment privs, please report to a bouncer.

Walk Across America For Cancer
Please say a prayer for my friend scott norman, he recently found out that he has a progressive brain tumor and the doctors say he will be lucky to make it till christmas. he decided to do a walk across america before his time is through here on this earth and i am asking for my fu friends and family to please pray for him that he finishes his walk. All prayers will be greatly appreciated. I am very passionate about cancer and my heart goes out to all that have suffered from it...the reason i am so passionate about it is because it took my family one by one. I pray that there will be a cure to stop this monster from hurting anymore. God bless you all and remember your in my thoughts prayers and heart.

Love
What is love? why must we always search for love? Do any of us really even know what love is? hate is so much easier than love. That's why there are more wars then peace... love is easier to give up on. how do you really know if your in love? honestly? lust is easy confused for love. so how does one really know what love is? Some people just say its out of habit some say its cuz they are more in love with the idea of love then love it self.. So how do we find this out? i mean some say love is being able to see a person at their lowest point and still don't want to give up on them. Some say its loving a person to the point that you can't live without them. but shouldn't a reason for love not be so selfish? How do we really know? Is it being able to deal with a person all the time? Is it i that we cant see ourselves with anyone else? Or do we just all settle for the next best thing? because love is to hard that we find someone and be with the, cuz we are afraid of the idea of being alone

A Man And His Wife
A man and his wife are going at it all hot and heavy. When they hear a noise in the door way. They look back and there is they're son Timmie. Timmie runs off and the man says I'll go talk to him. He goes to Timmie's room opens the door and Sees Timmie going at it all hot and heavy with grandma. The man says OH MY GOD. and Timmie says. - - - Not so funny when it's your mom is it.

Edgar Allan Poe (published 1846)
THE thousand injuries of Fortunato I had borne as I best could, but when he ventured upon insult I vowed revenge. You, who so well know the nature of my soul, will not suppose, however, that gave utterance to a threat. At length I would be avenged; this was a point definitely, settled --but the very definitiveness with which it was resolved precluded the idea of risk. I must not only punish but punish with impunity. A wrong is unredressed when retribution overtakes its redresser. It is equally unredressed when the avenger fails to make himself felt as such to him who has done the wrong. It must be understood that neither by word nor deed had I given Fortunato cause to doubt my good will. I continued, as was my wont, to smile in his face, and he did not perceive that my smile now was at the thought of his immolation. He had a weak point -- this Fortunato -- although in other regards he was a man to be respected and even feared. He prided himself on his connoisseurship in wine. Few

Another Song Of How I Feel
No matter what you say about loveI keep coming back for moreKeep my hand in the fireSooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for No matter what you say about lifeI learn every time I bleedThat truth is a strangerSoul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free To admit that I'm wrongAnd then change my mindSorry but I have to move onAnd leave you behind [Chorus]I can't waste time so give it a momentI realize, nothing's brokenNo need to worry 'bout everything I've doneLive every second like it was my last oneDon't look back at a new directionI loved you once, needed protectionYou're still a part of everything I doYou're on my heart just like a tattoo (Just like a tattoo, I'll always have youI'll always have you, I'll always have you) I'm sick of playing all of these gamesIt's not about taking sidesWhen I looked in the mirror, didn't deliverIt hurt enough to think that I could Stop, admit that I'm wrongAnd then change my mindSorry but I gotta be strongAnd leave you behind I

Why Did We Ring Our Church Bell 350 Times?
Let the bells ring, the conch shells, drums and gongs sound 350 times for climate justice!Since immemorial times in cultures across the world musical instruments like bells and drums have been used to warn people of imminent danger – but also to call people to religious service, marking important moments in worship and seeking to connect to God.Sunday 13 December marks the height of the talks at United Nations climate negotiations in Copenhagen.At 3 p.m. – marking the end of a high profile ecumenical celebration at the Lutheran Cathedral in Copenhagen, the Church of Our Lady – the churches in Denmark will ring their bells, and Christians around the world are invited to echo them by sounding their own bells, shells, drums, gongs or horns 350 times.We envisage a chain of chimes and prayers stretching in a time-line from the Fiji Islands in the South Pacific – where the day first begins and where the effects of climate change are already felt today – to nort

Sin Ti-nb Ridaz
Ya no qiero llorar y no qieiro sufrir. Necesito tu amor (come on), yo me murero sin ti.Ya no quiero llorar (im sorry baby), y no no qiero sufrir, nesesito tu amor (come here girl)yo me muero sin ti.I told you when i meet you, that i had someone in my life. I won't tell if you won't tell is what you said that night. Do you remember? It stared as a game but when you play with fire sometimes you can't put out the flame. you said that you were a big girl understood the circumstances. Never took for granted, seek away romances. Tonight is the last night i cant go on like this, got you crying on my sleeve, trying to begging me not leave. Porfavor no llores, girl i gatta go. Estoy perdiendo, tu yanot rimpe el corazon. And if i stay five minutes, i just might give in, its a battle i cant win. more then just a sin, made a promise to my self. plus ther is someone els. From this day to the end, i gatta be somebody els. Forgive me mama if im making you cry, iv never meant to change your life, but

What Im Feeling
Baby, don't turn out the light I wanna see you look at me Whisper only truth tonight Not just promises and empty fantasies I don't need a bed of roses 'Cause roses wither away All I really need is honesty From someone with a strong heart A gentle hand Who'll take me as I am Baby, I need for you to know Just exactly how I feel Fiery passions come and go I'd trade a million pretty words For one touch that is real I don't need a bed of roses 'Cause roses wither away All I really need is honesty From someone with a strong heart A gentle hand Who'll take me as I am From someone with a strong heart A gentle hand Who'll take me as I am

Need A Free Shoutcast Server? Heres How To Get One!
Trying to find a Cheap Shoutcast server or just tired of paying for one? Why dont you get a FREE one instead? How you ask.... it quite simple. There are many sites that offer free ones but they dont allow you to stream out side of there web site they give you... or can you. With a simple work around you can! Dont beleive me, check out mine at the whisky lounge. now heres how I did it. Go to www.listen2myradio.com and make an account and install the server, it will give you several choices of server locations to choose from. Then will give you the ip and port, setup sams ( or your favorite streaming software) to stream to that server. change player in lounge to the new server, and start streaming. Listeners will need to open up the listen2myradio.com page that is setup for your server just long enought to hear music. Have them press play in your lounge player and close out the listen2myradio page and POW!!!! You are using your 100% free shout cast server out side of their site. Still d

What I Want To Do
I wish I had a woman here right now. I want to sit her down, lean her back, open her legs and lick her pussy til she cums just a little. I want to flick her clit with my tongue, I want to slide my tongue deeper in her to the point where she grabs my head and pulls it closer to her pussy. I don't go for the moans and groans, I try to make her body tremble and quake. Just when she thinks she can't take anymore I would stop, open her legs more and slide my manhood into her. I would start off slow, gradually moving up the speed of the fucking. I want her to be so into it that she wraps her legs around me and tries to squeeze every ounce of oxygen out of me, as she barely utters a word. I want to grab the back of her head and pull her hair as I shove my cock deeper in her. I want to fuck her harder and harder until finally we both cum at the same time, we are dripping wet, out of breath and spent. Is that wanting or asking for too much?

Christmas Is A Time For Love And Fun
Christmas Is a Time For Love and Fun, A time to reshape souls and roots and skies,A time to give your heart to everyone. Freely, like a rich and lavish sun, Like a burning star to those whose lonely sighs.. Show need of such a time for love and Fun. For Children First, whose pain is never done, whose bright white fire of anguish never dies, It's time to give ur heart to everyone. That not one Angel Fall, to hartred won for lack of ears to listen to her cries, or arms to carry him towards love and fun, Or Friends to care what happens on the run, To adult life, where Joy or sadness lies, It's time to give your heart to everyone. For God Loves ALL, And turns His Back on none, Good or twisted,ignorat\nt or wise, Christmas is a time for love and fun, A time to give your HEART to EVERYONE

Christian Christmas Traditions.
The Christmas Tradition of Saint Nicholas,Belsnickle, Kris Kringle, & Santa Claus For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ. ~ 1st Corinthians 2:16 Saint Nicholas was born of wealthy parents in the year 280 in a small town called Patara in Asia Minor. He lost his parents early by an epidemic but not before they had instilled in him the gift of faith. Then little Nicholas went to Myra and lived a life full of sacrifice and love in the spirit of Jesus. Nicholas became so Christ like that when the town needed a bishop, he was elected. Saint Nicholas was evenimprisoned for his faith, but later released. There have been many stories of his generosity and compassion: how he begged for food for the poor, and how he would give girls money so that they would have a dowry to get a husband. The story most often repeated was about how Saint Nicholas would put on a disguise and go out and give gifts to poor children. But the story of Saint N

The Mistake You Cannot Forget
You say you cannot forgetAnd you aren't ready to forgiveBut I need your friendshipMore than you'll even knowI need you there to liveWithout you by my side todayLife's been going, oh so slowI miss your callsOur endless talksThe places we would goYou can't even bear to look at me,And I know my mistakeFor because of one night,And a few thoughtless actions,When you saw me you ran and hidI know we cannot take it backAs much as we would like toBut we could forgetAnd start all overJust friends, that's me and youIf time is what you need,Then I guess that's what you'll getBut I need you there for me soon,My friend,I hope you will forget.

Ill-half Styler
Fuck forget you & your comments.I won't listen to you cuz i don't have to. I'm just gone insane in bein in this world fuck it all. I just wanna hurl scream cry & shut. I done been through enough i'm fuckin sorry for whatever the fuck it is you want or what i done. I try to be all everything you wanted. Gave you my love & you fuckin ran off with it. But thats ok. I will never fuckin forget you. & i hope that you never forget me. Our love will always be there whether if your with some lame douchebag. & remember i say what the fuck i want thick fhat white girl. I don't give a shit no excuses cuz right now i'm just feelin useless. Forget yourself comin around to rate me. Then leave some status off sayin i shouldn't say this go crawl back up in your lil bush hole. I ain't don't have time for tricks bitch bitch thats right i said fuckin bitches ho skank whore.I'll say it again bitch skank ho & whore. & i don't care if ya get offended. Its a cold world unapprehended. Feelin so dayum unattende

The Difference
I have been getting a few messages as of late, about my mafia character being mean or saying things that some feel is either offensive or cruel. SO, I decided to write this blog to explain something to you folks that don't understand the concept of a "game." On Fubar, I am me, Silver. In Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie. Frankie has a COMPLETELY different personality than I do. She is a mobster that her sworn enemies are the Whack-A-Moles. She hates the moles and will stop at nothing to exterminate them. Now, although Silver and Frankie are both smart asses, they are different entities. Whatever Frankie does or says in Fu-Mafia is NOT, I repeat, NOT a reflection of Silver. Silver doesn't hate anyone, including the real people behind the WAM's. Get it yet? When I am on Fubar, I am Silver. When I am playing Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie. If Frankie has done or said anything to anyone that pissed you off, while playing Fu-Mafia, well, then, YAY! That's part of the game!! Keyword here being

Video Blog : Fubar Salute How-to...plus More...
Check the blog below and to the left with a similar title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Video Blog : Fubar Salute How-to...plus More...
So the war of Real vs. Fake continues around here. More people cleverly disguising themselves under false pretenses are getting served by the minute, all day every day around here now it seems. And it doesn’t make me upset not for one minute. But I’m not the only one on here that is a little fed up with the games that people play. Honestly it’s good to see people starting to realize that if something or someone is too good to be true, it usually is. With that in mind I bring you my good friend Jrie. She’s taken the time to actually make a “How To” video for people that don’t understand why their salutes are being rejected or even to counteract those who continue to make ridiculous excuses as to why they can’t post one. Jrie is real, as you can see in her video below… To see why, in her own words, why she felt the need to do this, here’s the link to her own blog posting below… Click to check out her blog! ..an

Friends .....
Let's see how forthcoming my FB friends are. Leave a 1 word comment that you think best describes me. It can only be 1 word. No more than 1 word. Then copy & paste this post on your wall so I can leave a word about you. This should be interesting... Wonder if I have 20 brave friends (or more) who will do this............

Passion's In Fashion
Passion is in fashion and you're longing for what you don't got Or can't have or won't go for or just don't want You're indiscreation aren't teaching you any lessonsOr you just don't want to learn Everyone's so special they're all becoming the same The souls are alright its the brain I wanna blame

Interesting Tidbits Of Information ..... **stoled It From Jasmine**
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Yes, he's my hubby Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?Probably just finished watching a sad movie Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you? Yes, and he is!! If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?yesHas anyone ever promised you forever?NoDo you get high?NewpSomething bothering you?A littleHas someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?NoWhat made you happy this weekend?People and stuffs...When was the last time you cried?Thanksgiving ... Got a phone call that my brother Flat lined ... but he going to be ok!!What color shirt are you wearing?Blue LongjohnsHow long is your hair?Short ... Just got it cut this weekLast thing you ate?Yogurt and a nannaLast thing you drank?Tea..DUH!Where did you sleep last night?My bedAre you happy right now?Kinda What did you say last?I love youWhere is your phone?On my side

Monday
Tomorrow is Monday and I think it is appropiate to cancel the Cardiac Cath. and the surgery. Why would I do that? It has to be me don't you think? You have purpose and reason enought to fight and struggle. My price is different than yours. You are satisfied for the most part with life. I see nothing here or any place else going through the trouble like what would of have come up had I stayed on that path. My past does color my out look on life and what is going on here and ultimately how I view the future. If your content and happy you have your reward. I was not and am not content or happy with what life has to offer me. I'm not sure what's on the other side but I'll go and take a look and stay awhile when the opportunity arrives. Hell and damnation and such, if there is such a thing, will happen here. As I read The Bible again, it still speaks of the same thing, however, the foot notes as it is given to me is way off target. Yes, it can mean that but taking into consideration the oth

One Of Those Things
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Mr Ted? Yea he's so comfy and squishy.Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?Probably just finished watching a sad movie Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you? No I don't think so If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?yesHas anyone ever promised you forever?NoDo you get high?NewpSomething bothering you?A littleHas someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?NoWhat made you happy this weekend?People and stuffs...When was the last time you cried?I don't remember...What color shirt are you wearing?Night shirt? Purple.How long is your hair?Past boobs. No wait...I cut it...just above/on boobs.Last thing you ate?Porridge oatsLast thing you drank?Tea..DUH!Where did you sleep last night?My bedAre you happy right now?My belly is full so I must be ok. :)What did you say last?I haz a full bellyWhere is your phone?On my

Im Yours Only
ALL THE OTHERS THAT CAME BEFORE JUST MADE ME ACHE FOR MORE BECAUSE NONE OF THEM WERE THE ONE I WAS TO BE WITH. YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY AND I AM YOURS. THEY COULDNT HANDLE WHO I AM. YOU DO IT WITH SUCH EASE THAT IT AMAZES ME. I AM YOURS BABY IN EVERY WAY BUT PHYSICALLY AND SOON I WILL BE THAT. I LONG FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU. YOU ROCK ME BABY.

Indescribable Feelings
I feel your heartbeat right next to mine, and the warmth that comes close brings with it pleasurable moments that satisfy and drive my mind toward a special kind of feeling that is seemingly indescribable. In the middle of the night, when time has stopped calling, and the rhythm of the day has ceased to become, I think of the falling rain resting all around me and somehow your pretty face comes to mind. It sweetens me with every memory I choose to write in my mind and with each drop of rain, sadness fills me like drops of water dripping into a cold cup on a summers day, it fills slowly. Written by C.S. Times For my daughter Chelsey...

Dedicated..... To... A Past Lover
Stop Staring at me like that I can feel your gaze across the miles All I wanted was a piece of your time One on one conversation about.... US You gave me lies, accusations.... distractions I was one of your lies When I questioned you about it you denied me time and again But look at the stains on my hands and soul You called me your lil destroyer Told me to crush spirits and souls for you And blindly I followed your words How many have I killed for you? Is my soul forever tarnished? I ran to you broken You viewed me as a threat Hostile But still you bled what you could from me take took gone Nothing left when you were done Just a broken shell with an ice hard heart Running as fast as I could from you Putting myself in peril His knife was duller than the pain you forced Unwanted Unloved Whithered I crack like bitter leaves Still you push for things After the fact Your nickname for me.. "cumbucket"

Save The Navy Seals Sign The Petition
Save the Navy Seals Sign the petition started by Indiana Representative Dan Burton. Post it on your wall and any other wall, and on any sites you go to where you can post. www.indianadan.com

Great Song...great Meaning
Even if you were a million miles away I could still feel you in my bed Near me, touch me, feel me And even in the bottom of the sea I can still hear inside my head Telling me, touch me, feel me And all the time you were telling me lies So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart Well you can try sleeping in my bed Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me You’d never leave me Looking in the sky I can see your face And i knew right where I’d fit in Take me, make me You know that I’ll always be in love with you Right til the end So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you I’m gonna hold

Sorry...
I tried, so hard not to rub my relationship with Jaaron, in "Zero"'s face.. because, I thought it would be cruel.So, now, it would seem.. Zero doesn't like my personality because, anything and everything that he and I talk about, I tell my bf.. Why do I do this?Well, simply put..I do not want to have secrets from my bf.. and I know, I can be a bit of a flirt, so I think its better for Jaaron, to knw what is happening.Then for him to find out later.I told him about the chatroom I am in, *a greeter*..About the emotes, and the fact that I thought I could trust Zero, into knowing that I was PLAYING.Apparently, Zero thought I was serious.Are we all forgetting HE broke up with ME, after stalking my family, and I?I have the proof.So, why the hell would he think I wanted to BLEEP him?Yeah, so many reason,as to why I would not have done THAT. And he knows all of them.So, does my family.I mean, come on, would you ppl date someone, or BLEEP them, if they stalked YOU?Anyway.I also, didn't HIDE thi

Seasons
The seasons may continue to change Some things will remain the same The deeds that have been done and all of them that will come The past can not be turned around But the future shouldn't be without a sound Seasons come and seasons go Only you can make them change and grow

To All My Friends
well you know what they say about a man that loves a women, one day it will show you the way, just dont rush it and dont ever loose what you have, you never know when it will find you again, im luck enough to have found you even tho we are far apart. the luckest thing i have is our friendship and i will go to my grave protecting that and to make sure you know everyday that you are so dear to me.. kisses and i love you bedrock

New Computer Virus, Please Read
CHECKED THIS OUT ON SNOPES AND IT IS TRUE - PASS THIS ALONG TO EVERYONE IN YOUR ADDRESS BOOK! WITH THE HOLIDAYS COMING THIS WOULD BE AN E-MAIL THATA LOT OF PEOPLE WOULD PROBABLY OPEN. SNOPES link at bottom of e-mail The newest virus circulating is The UPS/FedEx/DHL Delivery Failure. You will receive an email from UPS/Fed Ex Service along with a packet number. It will say that they were unable to deliver a package sent to you on such-and-such a date. It then asks you to print out the invoice copy attached. DON'T TRY TO PRINT THIS. IT LAUNCHES THE VIRUS! Pass this warning on to all your PC operators at work and home. This virus has caused Millions of dollars in damage in the past few days..Snopes confirms that it is real. http://www.snopes.com/computer/virus/ups.asp This is legitimate. Please pass this along to your friends.

Leaving It Hanging
Greg, I’ve been thinking and I have much to say to you now, whereas I didn’t care to say much at all to you when you first contacted me. All I’ve ever felt for you was anger, bitterness and resentment. For ever meeting you, and for allowing you to be in my life for the very short time you were. Forgiveness is not something that comes easy for me, but is something I’ve been working on because being unforgiving lets you hold too much inside and all that negative can eat you from within without it ever being realized. And only now after almost 6 years have I realized it. Wait lets get technical, actually it’s been almost 25 years. First I’d like to back track to when we parted ways. Jeff told me that you knew of, and saw the explicit photos of myself. I was pissed and felt my privacy was invaded. He told me that you set it up on the computer that anything I received, also maybe even sent as well, you could see. So I decided I was going to stop that s

Learning Acceptance
I thought it was time to write something serious well at least to me anyways. In the last week I have been having a really rough time. I have been dealing with things, I wish I didnt have to deal with. I writing because things have change for me. I have learned lot of things over the years of being online. I am not looking for the love of my life on here, though if it happens that good too. I have accepted that finding true love anywhere not just one line is almost impossible. I have learned there are liars, player, and hurtful people even though they claim not to be. I just dont understand why people have to be that way to get what they want. For if i can't get what i want for being my self then i dont wont it. just sad to see alot of people pretending to be somethere not. This blog is not directed to just one person, its general observation. The things that I have been dealing with for the past week has taught me something. Even though I have heard it many times before. I am just goi

Path
MOTIVATION SELF HELP MOVE FORWARD DON’T GIVE UP SUCCEED YOU TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE WELL BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE IT BETTER OR WORSE BASED ON YOUR ACTIONS OPPOSED TO SOMEONE OR SOMEBODY MAKING THAT CHOICE OR ACTION FOR YOU. LIFE HAS SEVERAL PATHS ITS ONLY YOU WHO CAN CHOOSE THE RIGHT TO FOLLOW. YOU FOLLOW A PATH THAT YOU FEEL IS RIGHT TO WALK ON WITH THE PARTICULAR PAIR OF SHOES AND CLOTHS YOU WEAR. THE PATH YOU DESIRE IS SOMEWHAT IN A WAY OF RUNNING AWAY SO THE PERSON CAN DO WHAT HE OR SHE WANTS TO DO. THE DESTANATION IS CHALLEGEING AND PROBLEM SOVLING BECOMES DIFFICULT. LOVE MEETS YOU HALF WAY. YOU BECOME WANTED AND NEEDED. SOMETHING WONDERFUL APPEARS, IT’S THE REFLECTION OF YOUR INNERSELF AND IT GIVES YOU THE ENERGY AND MOTIVATION TO CONTINUE. BUT ITS STILL APPEARS TO BE DIFFICULT TO CONTINUE IN SOME WAY CANNOT EXPLAIN. IN THE DISTANCE YOU SEE A STORM. THE STORM GETS WORSE AS IT APPROACHES. THE PATH STARTS TO DISSAPPEA

My Life According To:
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)." ← not doing this Pick an artist: Dave Matthews Band Are you male or female: Monkey Man Describe yourself: Best of whats around How do you feel: So right Describe where you live: The space between If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Louisiana Bayou Your favorite form of transportation: Two step Your best friend is: Bartender You and your best friends are: True reflections Whats the weather like: Grey Street Favorite time of day: Sleep to dream her If your life was a tv show, what would it be called: One sweet world What is life to you: Help myself Your current relaitionship: So Right Your fears: What will become of me? Thought of the d

Allow Me
Allow me to be my own person accept me for who I am. Not the person others think I should be. Sometimes I have a lot to say and don't hesitate to say it, but sometimes what I have to say can only be read in my eyes. Understand me my moods and my feelings on days when I’m feeling sunny and on days when there's rain in my heart. I'll never go back on a promise and I will always be there for when you need me. Understand me trust me and the bond between us will be impossible to break.

Riddle
How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a would chuck couldn't chuck wood? Bored!! first to answer with the correct number gets a prize ... yes bored... now play nicely :P WICKED RAVEN GOT CORRECT ANSWER WITH ZERO Look "How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a would chuck COULDN'T chuck wood?"

The Line.
The line.You crossed it once.You crossed it again.One time too far,my very dear friend.Every cut.Every bruise.Every smither of pain...I'll enjoy returning the favor.In fact..Let's play a game."Karma's a bitch!"That's what they all say.It's back to get you.And you won't get away.I can garauntee it'll be slow.And very painful too.Let's use poison!No, Acid will do!I'll savor every second,as they each pass by.And as your body is eaten away,My spirits will soar,and they will soar high.Every cut. Every bruise.Every bit of pain..I'll see that it be returned.And enjoy every bit of whatching you burn.My Adrenaline thrives,As I see the pain in your eyes.The more I can make you scream,the more I make you feel alive.Just do it again..Cross the line one more time.I dare you.-Poe--12/12/09-

Yes I Need A Reason To Stay...
After being on this site for over 2 years... It has become a lost cause to me. Finally I have found a man that made me his everything. I won't be just a part of his life or just someone to talk to. I'm really hoping it works out. I really thought I had good friends on here. But... their only there 10% of the time. Thats not a true friend at all. I guess you have to meet the wrong ones to appreciate the right ones. I'm just tired of how fake people are on here & only chasing after points and trying to get a piece of ass. I'm just tired & fed up with it. I really like socializing but if you can't respect me then I don't have any respect for u at all. I love building friendships... as long as I can build trust & NOT have to beg u to be my friend or anything. It's pathetic. I just don't really know anymore. Tired of trying to get people to see the real me and appreciate me. It's not how I am. Either u like me or you don't. Just had to say something cuz its been driving me insane

Dream
stand beside a lonely man and see what he believes slow down and understand we all have need turn around im lost again in a world thats blind to me catch a train and dont look back its free to dream---- chorus dream dream dream i was born in a troubled life not far from here never learned wrong from right but now i see these bars they hold me in keep me from being free one thing i learned in life its free to dream chorus dream dream dream i dream of a better day with freedom from the hell i paid i hope i can see the day when i walk from here i believe ppl can change and i know im one of them im ready to change my ways and have god in my life bridge cause i see you love and i cant believe my eyes i feel your love in a way i cant deny i see your love and i cant believe my sees outro cause i only want to be with you only only you only only you only

I Need To Know
i wanna know - where ill be tmw i hope to see- questions in my mind cause i know- you will be- always on my side i will cry- out to you- will you please forgive my sins the question is- im wasting my life away will save me oh lord chorus i need i need to know i need i need to know help me lord- to what i have become look in the mirror- i dont like what i see make me strong- to over come- the sins of this world i will try- to understand- faith is inside me the question is- im wasting my life away will you save me oh lord chorus i questioned my faith tonight and i just dont know i wanna be here with you than being alone come and batize me in the holy water wash away all my sins i believe i am healed from the holy waters the spirit lives in me protecting my life i never knew god was real until i called his name he came and rescued me for now i know hes real

Things About Me
Favorite Flower: Lilies with Orchids I like to eat grilled cheese with mariinara sauce I don't like to play footsie once i can feel the other persons toe nails. i hate it when people fidget i love all fashion era's between the 30's and 60's I hate the 80's full of coke and bad clothes i like white gold better then yellow gold I love words by Dr. Maya Angelou I've seen someone die, I wouldn't choose to forget it I've had my heart broken more than once i used to and still do love shows like: Family guy, the cleveland show, The old Girl's next door, Doug from Nickelodean and the rugrats, power rangers, vr troopers, sailor moon, the vampire diaries, secret life of an american teenager, 7th heaven, party of 5, full house, family matters, the cosby show, and most of all Fresh Prince of bel air. Movies: I hate scary movies, I watched one in theatre's i'm not the kinda girl that'll just jump out and hold your hand. I will jump out and leave the theatre. lol. I love comedies, acti

Darts
"Smoke Gets in Your Eyes" Tournament by Loretta Osgood 8/95 - Houston, Texas USA There were about 45 people gathered for the weekly Sunday afternoon BDD at Sherlock's Baker Street Pub, an establishment located in a 2-story shopping center with the upstairs dart room opening onto a balcony. Just before the draw was made a strange smell was noticed. Laughs all around about someone having thrown a "funny" cigarette in the waste basket. But the smell got stronger. "It's OK folks, said the barmaid, "I think there was a paper towel burning in the trash can." But the smell got stronger...and the room got smoky. Really smoky, with solid curls of smoke obscuring the boards. Everyone started going out on the balcony between rounds for fresh air. Then sirens connected to great big red trucks sounded in the parking lot below. Then a man (I think it was a man, you couldn't really tell, what with the big yellow coat and oxygen mask he was wearing) comes running through the bar and is startle

My Life
I just got back in touch with my daughter after 15 years. We sat down and talked. She now knows where her temper comes from and why she has a big heart. Now she is sad that dont have anyone in my life. I just got out of a 7 year hook up. What do a 43 old an is going to do?

Where Have I Been?
I sometimes find myself wondering who really reads these entries anymore! Then again, I have had a lot of people ask me in the past week or so where I've been and what's going on...so this is the latest on me!First of all, health is doing OK! No massive seizures, but I find I've been having some blackouts from time to time. I find myself having gaps in time, yet people say I was with them and talking or I was over at someone's place one minute and the next I wasn't. Kinda freaky...been wondering if it was the meds or if it's mini-seizures? I have no idea! I have an EEG set for December 22nd, so we'll see what happens with that! Migraines come and go...so does the vertigo (nothing new there), so I guess I'm doing OK otherwise!I have been asked about my family, especially my brother...everyone is doing well! My brother gave us a few scares over the last month or two, but he's home and doing OK. My sister's been busy with work...rumor also going around that she and her boyfriend

Dazed And Confused
I guess there are several reasons to complain about school. So much time crammed into 3 days. So many things I need for learning not being in stock. So many heavy things to carry up and down stairs. But none of these things really bother me. I can do other things while I wait for supplies to come in and the heavy things will get less heavy after a while. The hours are no big deal compared to hours I've worked before. I guess the worst thing is I have to be in a class room with the most fucked up people I've met in a while for 10 hours a day. There is one girl who is about 4 feet tall that prefaces every question with, "I'm sorry, I have a question and this might be a stupid question. I ask a lot of questions, but you know someone else might want to know...." and then she asks her question. There is another girl that swears she is A.D.D. but her doctor won't give the meds. I think she is just addicted to black eyeliner and red bull. She gets both in gallaon jugs. She has already been

A Tiger Woods Video + What's The Difference Between Santa Claus And Tiger Woods?...
Joke of the day : What's the difference between Santa Claus and Tiger Woods? Santa stops after three hos. Hope you all have a great weekend, peace....

Cleaning Up!!!
OK ... I really kinda dislike my OCD at times, and now is one of those times ... I just spent the last 3 hours cleaning the house, and the really bad thing is that I don't feel like I'm done. So, it will spill over to tomorrow when I find something else ... and go crazy and start all over again. FFS, I need saving from myself!!!! /dies PS ... for those that don't remember or are just getting to this ... this is my status board till someone fixes my status board and icon .... damn surf nazis'

Aug 3
I think back to the day you utterly destroyed my soul you held me down accross a couch and strangled me till I wasn't whole You took away my freedom to go just jog away like you You gave me a pain that wont go away no matter what i do You wanted to kill me yet broke my back instead now i lay at home just waiting in my bed Waiting for a miracle for everything to be alright trying to trust people i dont know them using me in spite Right now I wait for things to heal or for surgery to come my way Praying those things will happen for me I look for another day So when you think I'm down and out and feeling all torn up and used please remember that I am torn and tattered literally stripped and bruised.

From Ms.giggles
> Words form beautifully through your fingertips from the mind> > Men envy the gift you have been given, your words easily entrancing a woman> > Never have I thought I could be swayed by someone so kind> > Your spellbinding poetry quickly spews from your mind and enchants me> > How lucky I am to befriend such a poet as you> > For now I see> > Poets like you are so very few

What Would You Do
What would you do if the IRS owed you $6601.00? They are holding it they think legally and they are not. At least one thing they'll have. What is that one thing? Death do not hang on me. This is not the first or the second but the fourth time messin with them. How quickly they forget how polite I was to them regarding a very sticky situation regarding the VA and their illegality. Another time I let a dead dog lay but unfortunately that was never setteled and I have nothing to loose but my life. Imagine that, favor after another is done by me and here they are raisinig their heel at me. If it was a beautiful lady I'd over look it. Goddess T has left and I will not call her to see. A letter was sent to the IRS, Certified, Return Receipt along with a letter to the USAG via Registered, Return Receipt regarding some matter as my being vague. So what's the deal if I'm alive or dead? Doesn't matter to you does it? So it should not matter to anyone else should it? A surgery is planned but I f

The Darkest Day Of My Life
*****This is a posting I made on MySpace a few years ago. I wanted to share with you a slice of my life and what it's like with a child with Down Syndrome**** For most, 9/ 11 is the blackest day in our history. I cried for days after 9/ 11/ 2001. I couldn't understand why we were under attack. And I celebrated my country right along with everyone else in the coming years. Then, 9/ 12/ 2005 happened. In May of 2005, Hunter went in for his routine well baby check. It was his one year checkup, so I didn't think much of it. He was growing like a weed, stronger and healthier. He had no trouble feeding, he was hitting his milestones, so I wasn't worried. Until the DR had a strange look on his face. You know that look where he either hears or sees something he doesn't like. Well, he was listening to Hunter's heart when he did that. Never a good sign. I knew that Hunter had a murmur when he was born. Most babies are born with a tiny hole that closes up by the first year, and this

Acute Myelogenous Leukemia
**Acute myelogenous leukemia (AML) is a type of cancer that causes the body to produce an increased number of the white blood cells that normally help fight infection (myelocytes). It sometimes is referred to as acute myeloid leukemia, acute myelocytic leukemia, myeloblastic leukemia, granulocytic leukemia, or acute nonlymphocytic leukemia. AML is more common in men than in women. The incidence of AML increases with age. AML is an acquired rather than inherited disease. Usually the cause of AML is unknown. But it may be caused by high doses of radiation, exposure to the chemical benzene, smoking and other tobacco use, and chemotherapy used to treat other types of cancer. It also is more common in children with Down syndrome or other genetic conditions. Symptoms of AML include weakness and fatigue, fever, poor appetite, easy bruising or bleeding, and weight loss. **Symptoms may depend on what type of leukemia you have, but common symptoms include: Fever and night sweats. Headaches. Br

Spent A Lot Of Time Like Me
I have a childhood friend in SC who spent a lot of time like me in West Germany. Ubfortunately he considers himself white, blond, blue eyes, and of European Stock but neglects to metion the Cherokee Nation that he is a part of. Unlike him I know myself a little better and know my racial make up better than him. I am also white and WASP because my father was but do not mislead myself of the other half being from Japan. Although a citizenship is given me from there but I was born where I was Initiated. Yes, I am very cryptic and this is the way it is now. Norio

My All Time Fave Song It Is So Beautiful...look This Song Up And Listen To It...it's Called Look After You By The Fray
If I don't say this now, I will surely break, As I'm leaving the one I want to take, Forgive the urgency, but hurry up and wait, My heart has started to seperate, Oh,Oh Be my baby, Ohhhhh, Oh, Oh Be my baby, I'll look after you, There now steady love, so few come and don't go, Will you, Won't you, be the one I'll always know, When I'm losing my control, the city spends around, Your the only one who knows, you slow it down, Oh, Oh, Be my baby, Ohhhhh, Oh, Oh, Be My baby, I'll look after you, And I'll look after you, If ever there was a doubt, My love, she leans into me, This most assuredly counts, She says most assuredly, Oh, oh Be my baby, I'll look after you After you, Oh, Oh Be my baby Oh, oh It's always have, and never hold, you've begun to feel like home, Whats mine is yours to leave or take, What's mine is yours to make your own Youre so beautiful to me I want a guy who will feel this way about me!

The Lyrics To My Theme Song...if You Read It You Will Understand Why
Can you imagine us, making love The way you would feel the first time that we touched, Can you think of it, the way I dream of it, I want you to see it like I'm seeing it, It's a picture of perfection, The vision of you and I... You're lips upon my lips, Can you just picture this, You're fingertips on my fingertips, Your skin upon my skin Would be the sweetest sin All night I lie awake, Cause its too much to take, dreaming about the love that we can make, All day I think of schemes, to get you next to me, I want you so bad that I can barely breathe, It's a sign of my obsession, That I can't stop thinking about Your lips upon my lips, Can you invision this, Temptation I could never resist, Your skin upon my skin, Would be the sweetest sin You are the sweetest sin It would feel so good to be so bad, You don't know how bad... I want that.... I would do anything to feel your love Your lips upon my lips can you just picture this your fingertips on my fingertip

About Last Night
I had an awesome wrap party night at the BBC gig, just lovely and my daughter Ashley came along and made me happy. She makes me laugh; she suggested that she buy me a small red duffel coat so that I can run around the river bridges of Glasgow in a 'Don't Look Now' manner. She says I look like a child from behind but have a wee old wrinkly face at the front. What a nice child I gave birth to eh? Last week I met up with my dad who told me to walk him to the bus stop, he then told me "That bus takes me home" and pointed to a big Glasgow bus. I waved him off then ten minutes later he called me shouting "This is the wrong bus you put me on" "Dad, I never put you on a bus, YOU said it was YOUR bus" I laughed loudly on the phone. "No I didn't its like going to Belsen horror camp on this bus" he muttered. Now before you get all umpity and suggest my dad is anti- Semitic, he isn't, it's a generational catchphrase, old Scottish people use the term 'Belsen' to describe any typ

Dear Soulmate
I wrote this a few nights ago on my phone. I just wanted to write it down. I suppose it's weird to most folks but thanks ok. I am weird LOL. I wrote it so please give me the credit if for some odd reason it appeals to you and you share it. Thanks! :) Dear Soulmate, I miss you all the time. It seems like a millenia since we were together. Could be, maybe longer. I often wonder if you remember me, heaven, the love we shared. I've searched for you in the eyes of a million souls. But none were you. I know, I shouldn't've followed you here, I simply didn't feel that I would quite be as at home in heaven without you. Plus I was afraid you might not make it home for a very long time, if ever, if I didn't come to remind you. I also remember us wanting to experience human passion together. Did you land here as a demon/fallen angel, or as a man? Are you still here? Have you already gone back home to heaven, and left me here to yearn? None of these senseless selfish human

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Please Help Missing Since 12--10-09
Please read this blog and comment ..repost..share...get the word out.. Im looking for my ex husband...missing for two days now... His name is Daniel and he is hispanic..5'10...and 28 yrs old ..He is bi-polar and schitzophrenic and needs his medication. He was last seen on a greyhound bus heading to California ...he got off the bus in Glendale Arizona where he got off the bus to smoke...his bag made it to California..he did not.. Officials will not start looking for him until Monday...it is imperative that we find him! He is sick and confused and we have reports of him being spotted wondering down the highway around Phoenix and very confused. Please share this and keep us in ur prayers.....He has a 5 yr old son that needs Daddy to be found alive... He was last seen wearing...a beige jacket ..olive pants..and tan hiking boots....You can see pics of him in my default album...these pics were taken last yr ..he has lost alot of weight due to his illness and drugs...He has many tat

*sigh*
what the fuck is wrong with me... i jsut want to sucker punch every one and there floating heart status's on myspace or there inatial + inatial=love forever crap... i feel like a grinch right now.. i know its not intentional but when they post the same thing like 8 times thats going overboard... i get it... thanks for shareing...

Comsec
Officially I was a COMSEC Clerk. COMSEC stands for Communication Security. All I did was type, file, and control and to monitor. I don't have to believe it but for now it's good enough. I know nothing about typing or to how file. Except what little I learned through the VA at the Abilties Center. I was there for the VA to see if I can be trained. Eight weeks turned into six month's. Well liked and no one had to worry about my motivation. These were disabled people with a hunger for purpose, reason, and excellence second to none. They earned my highest of respect. They and the people that worked with them. Norio

Who Dat Xmas Wish
we stress over hurricanes and the stock market fall. the economy,politics, and chinese dry wall. But just for the moment let's put these on hold, and pull for our boys in THE BLACK & GOLD ON colston ON Shockey ON Thomas and Moore, ON Bell and Bush, Like never before!! On Sharper ON Vilma defense, if u please. Forget not coach Payton and our passer Drew Brees. Our team is on fire! this we all know. But Santa , there's still a long way to go.with your help this christmas, we will reach our goal and our saints will win..... The 2010 SUPERBOWL!!!!!!!!!

For The Runaways
this is for all you runways out there the ones that run from the best things in life you only want to be there when its convfent for you well thats not how it works you need and should have been here snice day one no running and playing lilkids game is time for you to grow up and be a man take care of you what happens in your life and step up to the plate you made your bed now lay in it you cant have your cake and eat it too and if your sitting read this YES ITS FOR YOU !!!!!!!!!!1

Another Tree Planted
There is a place that I must go And speak to soldiers that I don't know I go there often just to talk On this sacred ground called Warrior's Walk Another tree planted means another life gone and another family tries to move on Planted in honor of the brave to thank these soldiers for the life they gave Fort Stewart Georgia is where you can see the love and pride around these trees we take for granted so very much like reaching out being able to touch so I go there my thanks to give I'm grateful to them for the life I live and if ever i think what a hard life I lead my heart will find perspective among those trees

Chritmas Blues
...My Dearest Daughter My arms remember how it felt to hold you. My mind remembers your sweet smell. My eyes remember looking down into yours. My hands remember the feel of your soft skin and downy hair. Not a day goes by where I don't ache for you. The mental anguish manifests itself in physical pain. I remember the last images of you, peering out at me from the back seat, confusion in your eyes, tears streaming down your face, a fake smile firmly planted on mine. I reassured you all would be ok, when in fact, my heart was crumbling inside my chest. Watching you slowly dieing and not being able to reach you in time crushed my soul, stamped out what little life I had left. My innocents. I am so sorry. I did not mean to leave you alone i did what I thought was best. If I had only known then that only 5 blocks away was another with mental issues, I would have done things differently. But I can not go back. I can not change the past, and feel powerless to change the present or the future.

A Trace
When at night, I close my eyesI have you on my mindThrough all the fun and gamesThere's something I seek to find. Signs I am searching forFrom expressions on your faceTo words that are spokenExpecting more than a trace. With this new discoveryWhen crossing over the lineAs sleep comes upon meThe dreams alone are mine.

1 Week
It's been a week since Dixie passed away. I miss her. I keep expecting to see her around the corner. It's seem very unreal. She should still be here. My family doesn't speak about it too much, but you notice it. Desktop backgrounds, phone wallpapers... her pictures are everywhere. This past week has been very emotionally and mentally draining. Dixie dying, my brother got married, final exams, and picking up work hours for the holiday season are really taking a toll on me. My body is sore.. it's just my emotions coming out physically. I feel more meloncholy than ever before. Lucky for Eric we're not Stick Boy and Match Girl. (Yay for those of you who understood that.)

Facebook Tourture
Hood Mood: Clay Travis : my older brother Travis December 12 at 8:12am (no subject)in regards to any heat you may catch from norms and simps by having me in your click Between You and Travis Travis McMaster December 12 at 8:12amClay I added you as a friend but you have to try to tone it down a bit here, and how about just a pic of "clay" not evil clay? Do I need to pick you up thursday night or can you get here friday (18th) morning to help me move?Clay December 12 at 8:42amfuck thatClay December 12 at 8:44amregarding moving, what is today....i want to help...i like helping....helping is nice for friends to help each other with love, cuddles, hugs, we kiss and love hugs....what is today....am i late already...i cant feel my thumbsClay December 12 at 8:55amplease consider: ones right to try and express their inner feelings by way of changing ones exterior to reflect the way one may feel inside/outside (inside,out) does not necessarily warrant EVIL or TONE IT

Palin Vs Gor - Subject Climate Deceit - Guess The Senator Was Right.
The following link connects to a story I first saw today 12-12-09 on MSN. It appears that the story I related from the Senator's letter has longer and stronger legs than just him. Go figure. For your edification only. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/34325366/ns/politics/?GT1=43001

Help....need Money!! 40$
PLEASE HELP ME OUT? I NEED 40$ JUST TO KEEP MY INTERNET ON..! I'M BEHIND IN MY BILL'S BECAUSE MY PIECE OF CRAP CAR BROKE DOWN AND I HAD 2 PAY 750$ AND I COULDENT PAY ANY OF MY OTHER BILL'S BESIDES MY RENT..! I'M A GOOD PERSON! JUST GO CHECK MY PROFILE OUT? AND IF YOU WANT TO HEAR THE WHOLE STORY OR HELP LEAVE ME A MESSAGE PLEASE..! THANKS SHAELA

Deceit Seems To Be The Order Of Business But The Environment Too?
I am by nature A-political. I have long sense accepted the reality that politicians lie. Now it appears if you believe what is written to me by a US Senator, it has extended beyond the traditional groups that lie to us with impunity. Quick summary of people or groups that lie to us, Politicians (so yes, why does this bother me?), Bankers, the IRS (for a fact I know this intimately) Executives of about any business that make more than a low 6-figure income, Lawyers and Used Car salespeople. Now ranking these would take alot of time and I am not concerned about that, but this that I received today I do find a bit disturbing. It seems if I can believe my source, a sitting US Senator (and yes I refer back to my opening statements) that the Environmentalists have taken up the Politcal Practice of deceit. According to the source, and I will cut and paste directly from the letter, to Me by the way, states the for the last 11 years there are no continuing signs of Global Warming. The Unite

As Time Goes By
As time goes by our love will grow, we want this love to last, so we'll take it slow. It's sharing and caring, giving and forgiving, seeing eye to eye, walking hand and hand, Loving hear to heart. Because it's you that makes my life complete. Because it's you, I don't have to hide, because it's you that takes away the pain from my past. Because it's you, I will not lie. You'll find this out. As time goes by.....

Caturday!!!
I loves cats ... but not sure if I could actually own one .. and if I did what kind? I'm way to loving on my animals ... so, if I got a cat and she turned her butt to me I would probably be upset and cries .... don't think cats are for me???

Northern Michigan Fun
I'm not real big on the fubar site. Sort of new to this kind of thing. BUT If you are into dirt trails, camping, off road motorcycles, and fun in the woods, or just love to ride on two wheels, please feel free to chack out: http://nmDSr.spaces.live.com http://groups.yahoo.com/groups/NMDSR Granted, I do not see many from northern micihgan on fubar, and it it winter. but check it out and pass it on if you like? Michael ~ NMDSR Founder

Sigh
I cried myself to sleep last night. I wonder where my life is going to be heading, I feel stuck in a rut. I try to still think positive. Things that used to be my happy thought and make me smile, only turns upside down. Sometimes I wonder if I hope too much and only will have shattered dreams. But if there's something so important to you, wouldn't you not give up? I feel like a rag doll, tosses around, used and beaten. Only to be picked up, brushed off for a moment and then tossed away again. I'm feeling real lonely, sometimes forgotten and unloved. I know there's people that do care, but there's something that I want of more. Like right now, I have mittens purring away on my lap. She makes me smile. I know I'm loved by her. She always seems to tell whenever I'm down. I still have a lot of stuff going through my head. I"m hurting, I'm frustrated. Sometimes I wonder if it's best to let several of the things that are burying me down....out from me. I day dream of life being so complet

Exchange
Hood Mood do i look like a fucking ninja to you little fucking gir... Sacramento, CA remove friend subject: remember, you scratch my back...i fuck yours date: 2009-12-12 03:24:34 REMEMBERWe experimentally investigate behavior in sequential one-shot transactions which are governed by non-binding contracts. In a second, incomplete information treatment, contracts are binding for some players. While according to traditional game-theoretical analysis no trade is expected in the first treatment, full trade should result in the latter. However, we find that trade is even higher in the non-binding contract treatment. On the one hand, non-binding contracts - although they are cheap talk - do guide behavior, especially at the beginning of a business relationship, while reciprocal reactions prevail later on. On the other hand, in the treatment with binding contracts cooperative behavior appears to be crowded out.so rate my photos n

This Is Grey.......old Acct Was Deleted
2 all my old frnds plz send frnd requst my old profile was deleted n i miss u all dearly,,,so plz help me put 2 get u'all bck as my fam n frnds kisses Kady Grey,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,name on proflie is Grey n id#3694892,,,plzz hurry ,,,,need rates to get goin again

My One Grate Fear
Child abuse is a subject i can not stand it pains me to speak of it and even to think of it,and many people ask me then why do it , well as a victim maybe ican stop some of it by speakinout maybe i can cleans my soul i realy dont know ,but many tell me that the paths you take as a child is the path that leads you to who you are and your parental figures are your instuctors of you life,well now my mom i have no problem withand my real fatherhe was grand,but the man my mother married and tryied to get me to call dad,he was a deamon from hell he fasioned my life alright he fashiond it into a wreatched soul of fear and not careing a selfish selfe centerd lump of clay that took doctors and psycotrise years to mold and repair, and a fear a fear so strong that it controls and manipulates every fear i have..... ......will i be like this man that made me like i am ,a child abuser ,and a women abuser,will i be the deamon that he was....well acording to my doctors the quakes the say 89+% of most

Razorblades And Whiplash~by Jd
Everyone wants to play favorites, Everyone wants to blame someone else but never look at themselves. You got this person calling that person shallow, Well remember that it takes one to know one so i'll save you a seat in hell. Everyone wants to be pass judgements, Like it was even your place to think you know who another is. Too bad i dont care just what it is your feeling, People make friendship seem so superficial, To me its just another hour killed. Rewind the time, Look back at the film, If i am correct it was you who approached me but now im the joke. Now im the one whos supposed to be feeling guilty, Right, as if losing friends in life was ever supposed to be the hardest part. You try to be so vindictive, Yet you have not yet begun to see just how nasty i can be. Ignorance is bliss to the majority of individuals, So what is it to me to even begin to care that your whispered words involve me? Gotta keep it moving, I never asked you to stay for the long

I'm The Reason
I'm sorry that I hurt you,I hate to see you cry.I'm sorry what I said to you,Made you want to die.I know why you walked away,Why you left my side.And when you walked away from me,My best parts all died.But for all the pain I caused you,Hurt feelings held inside,I really did love you,And it's the thing that still survives.

Shadows Of Another
Everytime I look at you,Hate fills me to the brimm.Everytime you speak, You make me sick again.Your touch,Its burns my skin,Like reliving a deep freeze again.Every day with you is death...Because your not Her.You can't compare to Her,Replace Her, Or ever erase Her.But you'll never know these feelings that I hide,I keep them locked up deep inside.I know you've never done me,Or deserve what I put you through.But would you understand, Why I love Her, but stand by you?

Invictus By William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me,Black as the Pit from pole to pole,I thank whatever gods may beFor my unconquerable soul.In the fell clutch of circumstanceI have not winced nor cried aloud.Under the bludgeonings of chanceMy head is bloody, but unbowed.Beyond this place of wrath and tearsLooms but the Horror of the shadeAnd yet the menace of the yearsFinds, and shall find, me unafraid.It matters not how strait the gate,How charged with punishments the scroll.I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul.

Intelligence And Respect
I like to think I am a pretty intelligent person in general. I always did well in school, scored amazingly well on my SAT and was accepted to universities that most would kill to attend (I wish I could have gone to one of them in the end). I say this not to talk myself up or brag because I know there are thousands of people more intelligent than I am. I simply am giving a background of myself to relate to. I respect people who are both more and less intelligent than I am. I admire people who don't have to flaunt their superior vocabulary or vast knowledge in all things to know that they are indeed smart. I understand that some feel the need to prove to others how much smarter they are, what I don't understand or respect is why. I respect people who are secure enough with themselves that they don't have to be so abrupt and down putting to others around them. If I put my mind to correcting everything I see, hear or read I would be correcting all day long. I can school many people I kn

Encounter With A Homeless Man...
So I was walking around downtown and was approached by a homeless man who asked me if I happened to have any spare change so that he might buy himself a meal. At first I wasn't going to give him anything, mainly because I'm a jerk, but also because I was on my way to a wishing well and had more meaningful things to do with my coins. But then I realized that I had a pocketful of those little golden coins filled with chocolate so I gave him all of those. The range of emotions that this man went through was beautiful. First he was excited because he was getting a handful of gold coins, then he got mad because he realized I gave him a bunch of chocolate. Next he got happy because he was just hungry in the first place, and finally he got sad because now he had to find some where appropriate to dispose of the wrappers.

Long Or Short
I can't decide whether to keep my hair long or cut it short again. On one hand, I think that it probably would look better short given that it's leaving me (damn genes). On the other, I have been getting quite a few compliments on it long. To that end, I've decided to ask here. Should I cut it or not? If you have an opinion on the matter please post it in the comments and please be nice.Ps. Yes, I know that I probably should have posted this as a mumm, but I really don't feel like being repeatedly insulted. lol

Children
Today I was in the mumms as usual when somebody mentioned the phrase "Children say the darndest Things" and it got me to thinking about some of the things my nieces and nephews have said when they were little. Take my youngest nephew for example. He is 5 years old. One day he and his father were playing catch with a foam little football when he lost site of the football and allowed the ball to hit him in that sensitive boy region. He yells out,"Ohh my peanuts!" My brother (his father) says "Your peanuts?" In which my nephew replies..."yeah...you know daddy...my nuts, my balls,my heuvos, my jewels!" Kids...gotta love them!

What I Fed My Buddah Belly Today
4:30am....coffee and banana8:00am....Coffee and Fiber bar11:30am... Salad with beets, olives, eggs with ranch dressing, 1/4 wheat roll, Vitamin water. (no java after lunch...sob)6:30pm...Coffee and 6 slices of turkey bacon

Lets Get Something Striaght..
BOYS BOYS BOYS. Oh how much fun they can be. but dont be fooled by me. you might think I like you... but you're thinking a little bit too much about yourself. you might think you know me.... but you have no idea. I'm not your typical girl. I flirt. but I don't feel. I'm not a clingy controlling bitch like most these days. I never have one guy...Most R Friend! because wheres the fun in that? but don't get me wrong... I'm no whore. I'm just not into relationships that never seem to last..... because they're a waste of time. I don't plan on settling down anytime soon. I have the rest of my life to live. why be held down by someone? I'm not like any girl you'll ever meet. I don't care if you talk to other people I don't see a ring on this hand. Other girls don't phase me... Because i'm most likely talking to another guy. Or they are!! I'm always on the road so don't expect me to be latched to your hip. I'm not the type for commitment because I do whatever the fuck I want. Just let

Perfect Song For How I Feel
I see your face in my mind as I drive away 'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way People are people and sometimes we change our minds But it's killing me to see you go after all this time Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see 'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down Now I don't know what to be without you around And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here

The Purpose Of An Altar
If you didn’t grow up with an altar in your home, having an altar now may seem like an exotic and unattainable idea. Yet having an altar does not have to be complicated or difficult, nor does it need to be based on a religion or a set of ideas that don’t seem to relate to you. An altar can be a simple, personal expression of what you want to focus on right now. You do not have to build anything or take up a lot of space. You do not have to buy anything new or follow a complex set of instructions to create your altar. All you have to do is have a general understanding of what an altar is and the willingness to allow yourself access to this wonderful, ancient tool of transformation. At its most essential, an altar is simply a raised structure that serves as a resting place for meaningful objects. It focuses the eye and provides a place for contemplation and, if so desired, ritual. All of these elements can be quite simple. One idea for a simple altar is a pot with a bul

Tiger Texting Dirty
The survey question of the day is, “How often do you exchange dirty talk when texting? I would say most of us have sent some suggestive messages to a person or two via your cell phone. And to spice it up a little throw in some phone sex. Well, you are in good company. Why do you ask? Our favorite golfer, Tiger Woods, was doing the sex texting with at least one of his babes. Now when the word pervert is uttered ol’ Tiger is going to be included in that group. From Golf God to perv in less then three weeks. For more Tiger dirty talk go here: http://entertainment.blogs.foxnews.com/2009/12/09/tiger-woods-dirty-text-messages-jaimee-grubbss/ At BlastFM we like dirty talk too. That’s why we play Poison’s “Talk Dirty To Me.” Email us with your thoughts, dirty or not. We’d love to hear from you. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

The Real Story Behind The Shade
Dried under all the dust His heart beats only for the feeling of lust no love, honesty, empathy left inside of him a lonly soul twisted through his lies Smile as dark and hollow as a grave which he always seems to dig with his actions His words are blank but catchy like a song that you can't stop humming Lord please catch me I have fallen for the devil suited up as prince charming but thats his plan he wants to captivate you and take you for a rollercoaster ride Damion the man of sin,lies, and growing rage Hides his flaws and pulls you in then fucks you over and plays with your strings You are his pupet and then once you break free he turns it around and starts all over again while you break, and your heart is left bleeding he is back here looking for another victim to fall in love with him and then murder their soul just to start all over again The lies build up The pain grows But one day I know he will die alone The world will forget him and my heart w

Lord Abortion
"Care for a little necrophilia, hm?"I was born with a birthmark of cindersDebris cast from the stars and MotherA ring of bright slaughter, I spat in the watersOf life that ran slick from the stabwounds in HerDub Me Lord Abortion, the living deadThe bonesaw on the backseatOn this bitter night of giving headA sharp rear entry, an exit in redLump in the throat, on my come chokeThe killing joke worn thin with breathI grew up on the sluts bastard Father beat blueKeepsake cunts cut full out easing puberty through Aah! Nostalgia growsNow times nine or tenWithin this vice den called a soulDying from resurrectionI dig deep to come againThe spasm of orgasm on a roll...I live the slow serrated rapeThe bucks fizz of amyl nitrateVictims force fed their own faceTear stains upon the drapeI should compare themTo a warm Summer's dayBut to the letter, it is betterTo lichen their names to a grave Counting My years on an abacus strungWith labial rings and heartstrings undoneDub Me Lord Abortion, the liv

Bad Temper
Bad Temper The sun was screaming through the window. It was the beam that always tickled the balls of your feet and made you laugh. That sun you hoped you’d fall into when you died. She lay on the bed, naked, out of the sun, tugging nervously at her right nipple. She traced the areola, then mechanically moved her fingers to her mouth, licked them, and pinched the nipple. She pulled the nipple and rolled it between her thumb and index finger – her eyes scanning his face, her ears straining for any sounds from the closet. Her breasts were a full C, luscious and wide. The nipples were dark and potmarked. Her cleavage was unmatched. It was her triumph. She used it shamelessly; bending over in front of construction workers so that they would be driven mad, letting the top buttons of her dress pop off as she danced at the nightclub, so she could get free drinks, acting as if she didn’t notice her breasts made the most wonderful platter in the world, as she sat down in fr

Inside
He had awaited this day his whole life. the day that She and he were finally 'one'. Thinking back about all the absolute **** they had gone thru, he was again amazed. Afterall.. so many had been against their union from the start. Those who were jealous, those who were suspicious, those who were just.. EVIL and wanted to see either him or her sufforing. Never happy. But now, on this very day, they are PROVING all the others wrong. He looks up as the music starts. Tho he's heard it countless times before, this time the song seems brand-new. He sees her.. 'she looks more beautiful evey single day' he thinks. Standing there, even thru the veil, their eyes lock. He smiles even wider. She smiles back, that smile of hers that just melts him. All his fears, all his worries.. every bad thing just disappears when she gives him that smile. She walks towards him, slowly, in time with the music, tho every instinct in her makes her want to run to him.. Now they stand there. Both answer the questi

Who Am I?
A dark seed Of evil is grown In the Shadow Age Hidden from the eyes Of the wise ones In anger and in pain I left deep wounds behind Wash away all my fear no one hears me crying Clean my wounds Let courage be mine Will grace die in pain? Will light ever rise again? Attack the fearful!! Cast out doubt!! The strong Obey the weak The innocent Fall by the strong Fear is my ally Dark is within, everywhere! Mourn in the dark! Cast out light! They curse my name! It's a dark fate Dwelling in twlight In a worl of fire

Percious Time
A touch, soft and tender. A whisper, full of desire. A gasp of sweet surrender As passion fuels the fire No words spoken between us No promises to be kept No lies being told tonight No looking back-no regrets Longing to hold each other Such percious little time Both vowed to another Being lonely their only crime Tomorrow bringing sorrow A brief moment of shame

This Is Hysterical!!!!!!!!!!
Praying For You ...... Haven’t been in church sinceI don’t remember whenThings were going greatTil they fell apart again. So I listened to the preacherAs he told me what to doSaid you can’t go hating otherswho done wrong to you! Sometimes we get angryBut we must not condemnLet the good Lord do his jobAnd you just pray for them.I pray your brakes go outRunning down a hillI pray a flower pot fallsFrom a window sill ...And knocks you in the head like I’d like to!I pray your birthday comes and nobody callsI pray your flying high when your engine stallsI pray all your dreams never come trueJust know wherever you are ... Honey, I pray for you!Really glad I found my way to churchCause I’m already feeling better and I thank God for the wordsSo I’m gonna take the high roadAnd do what the preacher told me to doYou keep messing up ..... And I’ll keep praying for you!!I pray your tire blows out at 110I pray you pass out with your best friendAnd wake u

By Design
Right now, I am contentLike the buzzard picks his victim cleanAs divinity finds a way to remain unseenRight now, I am the warmthLike the weeping child in mothers armsAs the once encaged robin flies far away from harmRight now, I am the systemLike the gears that methodically arrange the rhymeAs clocks will tick but wont keep timeMy sweet poison anodyneMy loneliness is mineTwo steps to you and, three behindI'm self destructive by designRight now I am at peaceLike an ignorance that walls upon a warlike mindAs a suicidal atrocity finds a reason why,Not to die,Alive...coupled with the choir I symphonize the infinate sigh.

Over You
Over You Now that it's all said and done,I can't believe you were the oneTo build me up and tear me down,Like an old abandoned house.What you said when you leftJust left me cold and out of breath.I fell too far, was in way too deep.Guess I let you get the best of me.Well, I never saw it coming.I should've started runningA long, long time ago.And I never thought I'd doubt you,I'm better off without youMore than you, more than you know.I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.I'm finally getting better.And now I'm picking up the pieces.I'm spending all of these yearsPutting my heart back together.'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you.You took a hammer to these walls,Dragged all the memories down the hall,Packed your bags and walked away.There was nothing I could say.And when you slammed the front door shut,A lot of others opened up,So did my eyes so I could seeThat you never were the best for me.Well, I never saw it coming.I should've started r

Humiliation Junkie.
You couldn't love me if ever you tried.I'm not your type, not full of pride.Or full of me, all i can be, is what you see.I'm in pieces...A cross to bear...A jaded Narcotic..defrauded tear..Still so hysterical...A moth drawn to your flame..Encomium showers me in glow.Don't say goodnight, you needn't have to go.I'm a Neophyte, Pristine...Burning inside..I want you to know that I really fucking tried...so, here's your poision, across there, the otherside.I'm impure.Slightly demure.My self - abuse it shows I missed the nooseon the inside my conflicts grow..I expected nothing more tonight, how obscure of me to think I might...I wouldv'e painted your world Euphoria..Raised you to elation, a seventh sense of sight.How Sedate.... My Nocturne isn't played with hate.I know you crave a malevolent symphony.One played not for you, but he.The demon that steals you, and hides you, and rapes you.What happened to serenity?Covered with blood again..Would you adore a halcyon?or maybe an anodyne, to fo

I Pray For You!
Haven’t been in church sinceI don’t remember whenThings were going greatTil they fell apart againSo I listened to the preacherAs he told me what to doSaid you can’t go hating otheswho done wrong to youSometimes we get angryBut we must not condemnLet the good Lord do his jobAnd you just pray for themI pray your brakes go outRunning down a hillI pray and flower pot fallsFrom a window sillAnd knocks you in the head like I’d like toI pray your birthday comes and nobody callsI pray your flying high when your engine stallsI pray all your dreams never come trueJust know wherever you areHoney, I pray for youReally glad I found my way to churchCause I’m already feeling better and I thank God for the wordsSo I’m gonna take the high roadAnd do what the preacher told me to doYou keep messing up And I’ll keep praying for youI pray your tire blows out at 110I pray you pass out with your best friendAnd wake up with his and her tattoosWherever you are, near or

B.k.p.s - For The Haters
-Each1 Teach1-of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: Saying BKP aint the fliest thing flexin is like saying the government aint lying bout 9-11... Cú Chulainn - Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: It's like sayin' Divinity's numeration ain't Seven... or Heaven ain't the seven plus two inch connection to my erection. Don't let the smooth taste fool ya', or judge a tome by it's complexion... it'll take a silver bullet to stop the anaphylactic venom injection. Against a brass knuckle polar bear, I recommend an elephant gun, for ya' protection. Why ya' stickin' ya' neck out? You ain't heard o' Natural Selection? Get ya' Windsor undone, like the tie from a Colombian around ya' kneck'n... I keep steppin', eyes open, awareness beyond your comprehension. It's like misjudging my cultural, historical collection, makin' the first move, lettin' my bishop rebuke you like a diagonal blessin'... correction, lobotomizing your ignorance feels better than sexin'... -Each1 Teach1-of Brass Knuckle Poet

My Spit Switches Hotter Than Fine Bitches With Hip Twitches....
-Each1 Teach1-of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: My spit switches hotter than fine bitches with hip twitches.... ANT ᵀᴴᴱ ЯANT - Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: we get riches, on triple digits, dig it, my company so legit it's...ridic-u-lous when we visit. lyric for lyric my squadron spit that satiric ill shit, so feel this... but you fake bitches couldn't hear it, if I whispered the realness directly to your ears bitch and that's what the fuck the deal is. S-A-double-V - Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: I'm like a pint of Guinness, Mayne, I'm fuckin' brilliant. My ism's tighter than ripe knife wounds with fresh stitches. I pick up what my brother pitched, yeah and fuckin' kill it; witness the Death of a Thousand Cuts, when my lips schism. I six-shot Billy-the-Kid-it, accurate and vicious, like Sweeney Todd with bionic scissors... no sanity, Tourettes and sick riddles. The scary shit is, my thought process is as lucid as my vision. My crew's all soul

Challenges
I don't blog often. Almost never, but things are happening that are out of my control. I haven't expressed my feelings or about this at home; maybe this will help put some of the things in perspective for me. I received a kidney two years ago. Had complications from the start in the hospital a lot, but I've been hospital free for almost a year now, which is great so I'm wanting to go back to work. I find out the kidney is on a down-swing (working at 40%), which is why I'm finding myself tired often. Doc says it will take a year and a half before I'm on dialysis again, which I can accept that. The major problem is financial. Even with medicare and insurance I can't keep up with the rising cost of my anti-rejection meds. They are very expensive. I knew before I accepted the kidney I would be able to afford them, but like everything else, they're raising the prices. Because I'm not taking the anti-rejection meds as prescribed (if I do I'll run completely out so I'm taking

For You My Dear
one day one night i finally see the light. i want you oh so bad but its something i never had you are the one for me please tell me you can see how much that i want to be the only one for you and me i want to hold you near and you can be oh so dear you make me smile when i am blue and all i know is that i want you

Total Randomeness..
Ok, so I finally go and do something for myself since I've not been able to in like.... never. I decide to go and get my nails done. (Shoosh you, it's about as foo-foo as I get) and the woman is doing her thing. I doubt you guys can relate *giggle snort* but any woman who has had them done will know what I'm talking about. And she's twisting my ring finger this way and that and she dislocates the damn thing. Now this is nothing new to me. Having EDS, my joints do it often. But the look on the womans face was funny as hell. And the look she had when I popped it back in was priceless! Bought the champagne for when lewis visits soon :D Glasses arrived yesterday. Gonna be one hell of a time! Pissed that my phone still isn't turned back on. I dunno what the hell is going on with that. I feel strange not being able to use the damn thing. but at least I'm over the withdrawls. I have the laziest, most grimy ass roomates EVER. *shudders* I'll spare you the details. Just trust me on this

Big Day Tomorrow
Tomorrow is going to be a BIG day. A local salon is doing 4 make overs for me and 3 other girls from the house. We are suppose to be there no later than 6:45 am *ugh* . We had to go get *semi* gently used outfits today from another business that is dealing with this as well. To top it off we will all be on the morning news here. I am terrified yet exited...I want a spiral perm, but if they cant do that then I will get a color.... plus they will be doing our makeup and stuff.

Let It All Out
The past couple weeks have been hell for me. I've been on a roller coaster, but really, the only direction it has gone is down. My heart has been put in so many pieces, I wouldn't even know where to start to put it back together. Thing is... I don't even know if I want to. The good thing is, I have made a choice. I'm choosing to move on in my life. I realize I can't put my heart back together, that is an impossible task. All I can do, is take a piece or two, and slowly start to grow it again. Is it gonna work? Hell, I don't even know. All I know is that I'm going to try. I haven't been very happy for a long time, and I think it is time I look for that happiness. I need to work out of my depression, and I am doing so now. It is time to start my life anew, and time to see if I even like the person I shall become.

Health Care
Ok i am growing tired of this back handed sneaking around bullshit from our politicians in the great toilet bowl called Washington D.C. what ever happened to a government ( OF THE PEOPLE BY THE PEOPLE FOR THE PEOPLE )? It has turned into a political agenda for the two parties,We need to flush these turds out to sea and find representatives that will represent us. Health Care is a serious issue but each party has their own agenda and it is like trying to fix a leaky dike with bubblegum. They should start with the illegal aliens why the fuck are we paying for them they come here and take our jobs. Next unwed mothers having children to collect welfare tell them suck dick next time. Now we come to what they call a broken system ( IT IS NOT BROKEN IT IS JUST REALLY FUCKED UP ). Get rid of the damn HMO'S and all of the other shit and combine them into one health care organization. Now you have one system with rates that are the same all across the country.

Made You Look
Wow I really should do some work today. But it’s Friday and thoughts of you just keep running through my mind. So yes this blog is indeed about you. You know who you are. Not that you will admit a similar attraction. That would be silly. But I will know deep down that you are feeling it too. I mean if anyone dare knew the thoughts you were thinking about me. And the ones I was thinking about you? I mean not only would there be disappointment all over FU but a lot of blushing FU’s as well. So if you think this blog has you on my mind you could be right. Or possibly I am just killing time? Only one person really knows.

Vision On Love And Relationships
Sometimes in life you try to hold on to something with your whole heart until one day you wonder why you are still holding on. Why you still want that one last chance to show a person you can be better and be everything they want. Truth is we all fall in love with the wrong people before we find the right one for us and sometimes you have to break up with someone to realize how much that person meant to you and how much you miss them and sometimes you love someone so much but you know it would be better for both of ya'll if ya'll went seperate ways. Love is tricky and you really never know how much you love someone until they are not there anymore. When you finally find the one for you that person won't judge you for your faults or insecurities instead I mean yes they will notice the things wrong with you but they will not care about those things. Love is not there for your partner to judge you but for your partner to help you and for you to help them. Love is not easy people it

Intoxication Rules And You Do Too
I AM RAWKING @ intoxication!!!! WITH THE LOCALS AND WE ALL ARE INTOXICATED ON MUSIC AND BOOZE JOIN THE MADNESS ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK JOIN THE COOLEST BAR IN HISTORY CLICK THE PIC TO RAWK WITH ME, CHILL AND LISTEN TO THE LIVE MUSIC FROM OUR LIVE DJS

Missing Appointments
Missing Appointments Many people live and die by the desk calendar these days. Ours is a time-conscious, time-driven culture. Most of us have more things to do on our schedules than we can comfortably manage. These pressures have created an environment where missing appointments and scheduled events is a constant threat. Dreams to this effect are common. One of the trigger events for these dreams is the nagging fear that we may not get it all done as we should. Our anxiety about appearing competent to others is fragile and often assaulted in dreams. Another interpretation of this dream is missing an opportunity. Life invites participation in more than could ever be accomplished. Every invitation comes with the promise that this event could change your life. The changes may include relationship or career rewards. A final scenario revolves around fulfilling the relationship obligations that already exist in your life. In this case, dreams of missed appointments may be reminding you

Kissing
Kissing Kissing is often associated with youthful love. It is teenagers, and not parents, who kiss until they are weak in the knees on the escalator in the mall. You can be kissing another, watching others kiss, or experience that I'm about to be kissed moment. Kissing another is often wish-fulfillment or sexual acting out. The wish-fulfillment may not be to kiss per se, but to experience the youthful energy of love. Kissing in this sense is the desire for the awakening of passion, not necessarily the passion acted out. Watching others kiss may be a sign of knowing too much about them personally or participating in their lives at too personal a level. The exception here would be if you are watching your partner kiss another, which is an obvious herald of infidelity or a desire for voyeurism in the relationship. The about to be kissed moment is an interesting one. Often, it occurs as we wake up. This is the dream that may most accurately reflect a desire for actual passion with a

Department Stores And Malls
Department Stores and Malls The department store is the personification of capitalism. Many people enjoy just wandering through stores and malls to experience the numerous choices. However, they can be a little overwhelming. Dreaming of these places reflects a feeling of having choices or even too many choices. It may also be a reminder that you have not been careful with your money of late. Depending on your status as a potential buyer, being in a mall may reflect your sense of power or competency given the choices you have. If the choices all reflect items you would find in a waking-world store or mall, the items you are most drawn to may be the objects of central meaning in a dream. The salespeople you are bumping into may be significant if they are familiar. Perhaps you feel as though you owe somebody something or someone expects particular actions from you. Are the items that you want missing or available in abundance? This may be a metaphor of the balance, or lack thereof,

Cave
Cave If you ever watched the old Kung Fu TV series, you may remember the powerful beginning sequence: Grasshopper (David Carradine) is in a cave. He seizes the smoking cauldron and burns the tiger and dragon images onto his skin as he carries the cauldron out into the sun. Upon doing so, his initiation is complete and he is an official Taoist monk. The cave is the archetypal place of initiation. Caves are the first and most sacred of human dwelling places. As such, people may often feel a primordial sense of attraction to caves in their dreams. Initiation is the Jungian term for becoming a Self in the transition from childhood to maturity. Jung contends that there are rites of passage that need to be completed. The cave is often the place this is done. For much of human history, caves have been sacred places of shelter from the world; the place that became the extent of a person's kingdom in the face of uncertainty and peril. While the cave itself may not be a central image any lo

Sex
Sex Sexual dreams are not about sex exclusively. Often they are about how we perceive people and how we think others perceive us. To construct a framework for interpreting sexual dreams, it is important to identify who is with us in the dream and how we feel about the experiences being had while dreaming. Certain dreams are simply romantic. Boy and girl meet in the dream state and find themselves enjoying one another. This scenario commonly involves an attractive acquaintance and a generally pleasing environment. There is no violation of taboo, except for a sense that perhaps things are moving a little fast in the nocturnal relationship. Often, the dreamer has simply acted upon a desire for a relationship with a particular person. Other dreams begin to press on the boundaries of our taboos. These include dreams with sexual content the dreamer would consider inappropriate in waking, but participates in during the dream. These dreams can be very troubling. One can wake up feeling

This Is A Good One
Recently I was asked by a funeral director to play at a graveside service for a homeless man. He had no family or friends, so the service was to be at a pauper's cemetery in the Kentucky backcountry. As I was not familiar with the backwoods, I got lost, and being a typical man I didn't stop for directions. I finally arrived an hour late and saw the funeral guy had evidently gone and the hearse was nowhere in sight. There were only the diggers and crew left and they were eating lunch. I felt badly and apologized to the men for being late. I went to the side of the grave and looked down and the vault lid was already in place. I didn't know what else to do, so I started to play. The workers put down their lunches and began to gather around. I played out my heart and soul for this man with no family and friends. I played like I've never played before for this homeless man. And as I played “Amazing Grace,” the workers began to weep. They wept, I wept, we all wept toge

A Little This And That With A Crappy Ending.
In the sprit of all things that are frigging cold out side let’s talk a bit about the less fortunate. Be it friends, family, wealth, homes, homes or just plain old common sense. In the winter we bundle up complain about the weather our utility bills and all the wrong doings in this world today. Let’s face it some people really just do not have anything else better to do. And they appear to be getting Dumber and Dumber with each passing day. We watch as a 15 yr old is to be tried as an adult for killing her 9 yr old neighbor. Because she wanted to know what it felt like to actually do it? A would be golfer that was so generous to share his personal club with many. And now hides his balls in shame. Then there’s oxymoron that wanted to teach his girlfriend how to use the gun safety lock feature on a few hand guns. To make her fully understand this valuable tool he held the gun to his head as a visual add. This technique worked well for him 2 out of 3 times. I suppose he

A Little Story That Haunts Me Kinda
I think about the past. about all the good shit I have destroyed, and the little things I have left. wondering when I will finally be able to say that I am over you. I look at all the things we have been through in the past 4 years. our lives have changed in a horrible way, with the both of us losing a sister, and having to be the strong ones. I remember the past like it was yesterday, every memory with you and how I still dream of a chance to see my sister one more time. I know that dream we probably share. I have done so much to try to get over you and I cant seem to get that sparkle out of my head. the sparkle that once brought me happiness and now im holding on to the pain. we have cried so many tears its unreal. in the past year and a half I have tried twice to escape from the grasp your feelings have on my but I cant for some reason. your in my head, my thoughts, my dreams, and even my nightmares when I die. I messed up my past by thinking I can actually stop loving you. i have h

Good-as-perkins Pancakes
Here's a recipe you'll certainly enjoy... Classic pancakes that won't turn out thick and doughy! The secret is in the charged water. 4 cups baking mix3 extra large eggs, beaten2 1/2 cups club soda, room temperature1/4 cup melted butter-flavored shortening, room temperaturePlace the baking mix into a large bowl.Add the eggs, club soda and melted shortening. Use a wire whisk to mix carefully until there are no lumps (don’t over mix).Allow the batter to rest while you preheat your griddle or skillet over medium-high heat.Be sure to oil your skillet! Use 1/2 cup batter for each pancake.Flip pancake only once when you see open bubbles appear on the surface and the edges appear dry around the pancake.Makes about 10 regular-sized pancakes.

Women.....
Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. Soooooo, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit............Just sayin

School- Oh The Horror!!
Well it was a shitty day! Woke up a little after noon and immediately felt like a pile of garbage. I whipped up a couple pieces of toast and lavished them with butter.. mmmm but then decided to order my books for session 1 of my classes that start Jan 4 2010. This didn't blow over well.. The lady told me, "Um.. You can't order your books because one or more of your previous loans are in default." --Wait, what!? What friggan loan? *rolls eyes* So they give me a number to call to see whats going on.. and guess what? I called the bastards. They told me that my previous loans from Colorado Technical University Online finally went into default. I thought I had worked it all out with them back at the beginning of 2008, but I was wrong. So I had 3 loans with them all in default. I tried to get a deferment for them, but they corrected em and said that I couldn't get a deferment since my loans were default. Well.. to make an incredibly drawn out story short and lovely, I had to call a consolida

Movin' On.
"Sit at my table and drink all my wine and tell me a tale of some happier times Sit at my table And sing me a song There's no time for sleep We haven't got long Sit at my table And tell me a lie How we'll be friends Until the day that we die." I wanted to let all that have interest know that I'm leaving the FU. I've been here for three years. It's time. I've made some good, great even, friends here. I've had my share of drama and heartache. Ive poured out my soul and tales of woe and listened in return. There are some really amazing people here and some really amazingly fucked up people as well. The decision is not a reflection of the site or the people associated with it. Nor is it a reflection on the people I have come to know. My decision is based mostly on real life factors that I am not going to delve into here. I want to thank all of you for making my life better. Just because I'm leaving the FU does not mean I am disconnecting from those of you t

To Nip Or Not?
As we all know it is days away from winter, though it feels as though it has been here for months. This has been pointed out recently by our nipples reaching out to shake your hand. Though some of you actually attempted to accept that hand shake and got slapped there are those that willingly allowed it. Because lets face it your hands are warm. And walking around groping ourselves while being convenient it is so very sad. Almost as sad as you getting more action in you’re dreams then in waking life. But that is a different blog. Okay, back on track. So what exactly is it about women’s breasts that drive men insane? Is it the big ones? The small ones, or the more then a mouthful yet cups well in your hand? Do we like the firm ones, the ones with more bounce or the heavy ones that cause you to tilt forward slightly? Are natural ones hotter then store bought one? Are a lot of cleavage better then no cleavage? And honestly do you have to see the cleavage to have dirty thought

Hmmm..
You would think by now, I would know my way around, I shouldn't miss you so badly, I should be on familiar ground. How many more lonely years, must meander by, until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry. What manner of iron will, must some people possess, to be always looking forward, to never accept regress. Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand, they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land. Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine, I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time. But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside, and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide. So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past, it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last. No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you, for the part of me that's still alive, believes you love me too. Maybe there will come a day, when that p

For Those That Can't Stay Away... Here's More
3 inmates in a South African prison, circa 1985, were discussing their sentences. 2 of them were white men, 1 black.The first white man says: "I'm in here 5 years, for robbery. If it had been armed robbery, I'd have got 10 years."The second white man says: "Well, I'm in here 10 years, for manslaughter. If my lawyer hadn't managed to reduce the charge from actual murder, I'd have got 15 years."The black man then says: "I was sentenced to 15 years for riding my bicycle with the light off. I'd have got 20 years, if had actually been dark at the time..." ************************ stevie wonder was ask what it was like being blind, he said it could be worse I could be black.and when he was given a cheese cratter for a present he said afterwards it was the best horror story he'd ever read ************************* Christopher Reeve and Ken Bigley had a race to heaven. Ken Bigley won by a head. ************************* Jesus walks into an inn carrying three nails and a hammer, and says

My Angels
A tear has fallen, fast and free, I fear my feet will not carry me. My life is great and full of love, Granted a wish I wished from above. But times are hard and sometimes sad, although I eccept the good and bad. I feel I'm falling far behind, no grip, no tread to catch the line. My heart is heavy, my mind is weak, My lips come open, I cannot speak. I scream and scream, yet not heard, I feel as though I have been cursed. Damned to hell, damned to fail, Away away, my feelings sail. In the distance a sweet voice heard, a voice of hope I know for sure. Look up, look out and there they stand, My angels smile with helping hands. With all else lost, and gone for good, There they stand as I knew they would. It takes a life to find true friends, who give you their heart, with out end. For they are my saviors, and carry me, When it seems all is lost they let me see. My Angels don't have wings, only smiles like mine, that will be there with me till the end of time. I thank you lord, for giving m

4 Animals Everywoman Should Have
A JAGUAR in the garage.................................... A MINK in the closet....................................A TIGER in the bed......................................And a JACKASS to pay for it all

Family Member Needs Help!!
I have a dear real life friend that lost his job this week!! He just got custody of his son this summer and this couldnt be a worse time of year to be unemployed! He is in the telecommunications field but has other skills as well. Lives in DelRay Beach, FL ... If ANYONE knows of a position open that you feel he may be qualified for there (or anywhere else), PLEASE, let him know! He's my #5 family member .. here's his link .. ~ Michael ~http://b.pcc3.fubar.com/47/37/1997374/tn_1550936266.jpg">@ fubar My mission is to help him gain employment SOON! Thank you to anyone who may have a lead!! Happy Holidays All!! Jacqui

How Much I Hate People
here are some of the reason why i hate people1. why is it so hard for someone to say hey iam not all that interested in you rather playing you like a fine turn violin2.why is it so hard to be bluntly honest and when you catch someone in a lie they try and turn it back on you rather then admitting to the crime 3.why is it so hard to openly admit that you have a bf/gf/married/open relationship4. as i said before i hate people who are hypocrite and cynical when they cant fix them self but they expect others to followi plan on deleting a lot of my profiles on a lot of different sites i was even thinking of deleting my my space page but i wont only becuse of the people who i do talk toi plan on keeping my myspace and my facebookother then that iam deleting everything iam tired of the lies the head games the dramai thought high school was long gone but people sure seem to live in it stillyou know i love it when people tell me something and then there action speaks differentlyit happens all t

Gunner
Seriously man. You're a nice guy deep down,act the part. You dont have to be rude and obnoxious to be liked around here. Even if that was the case,then so be it. I could care less if u rate my pics. My level and my short friends list is that way for a reason FFS! Go ahead and rear your ugly head to me,Ive got nothing to lose but my apathy...Your style is played out.Give up on trolling.You SUCK at it!If you dont want your ass handed to you in a mumm then dont start shit with your superiors.Yes,I said superiors because Emanon has a higher IQ then your entire family combined.In closing...Get the FUCK over yourself.Thank you and please drive thru....=== 'Bishop Lovelace *** AKA*** Gunner' wrote the following at '2009-12-10 09:05:02'..>> oh wait i dont want you backing me up for nothing as a matter of fact please dont come to my rescue and as far as me looking like an ass well thats your opinion they started on me so i only say the truth so if you want take me off your friends list if i rec

Request Page
Make your request here, and i will find & play what is requested, if you want a shout out leave a note and i will, remember no country music will be played as soon as i get 3 hrs of music i'll have a request day & maybe some bling awards So let me know what you want to hear METAL THE WAY IS SUPPOSE TO BE PLAYED WEDNESDAY-THURSDAY-FRIDAY 5-8 PM EST

Rien A Voir
ça n'est pas tes mains ni ta bouche, ça n'est pas tes seins qui me touchent, ça n'est pas le chaud de tes bras, ça n'est pas les mots dits tout bas, ça n'est pas l'ardeur ni la fièvre, ça n'est pas l'odeur de tes lèvres, ça n'est pas ta voix, ni tes gestes, pas ça non, qui fait que je reste, ça n'a rien à voir avec ça, ça n'est pas le bonheur de te voir, ça n'est pas la fierté dt'avoir, ça n'est pas l'confort, l'habitude, ni même la peur, la solitude, ça n'est pas parce que ton épaule m'soutient quand la mort me frôle, ça n'est pas mon corps dans le tien, pas ça, non, qui me retient, même si tu changes en soleil mes hivers et en paradis mon univers, même si ton âme, je l'adore et qu'elle fait de ma vie de l'or, ça n'a rien à voir avec ça, c'est juste mon cœur, mon coeur qui bat pour toi, comme ça...

Je Te Promets
Je te promets le sel au baiser de ma bouche Je te promets le miel à ma main qui te touche Je te promets le ciel au dessus de ta couche Des fleurs et des dentelles pour que tes nuits soient douces Je te promets la clé des secrets de mon âme Je te promets ma vie de mes rires à mes larmes Je te promets le feu à la place des armes Plus jamais des adieux rien que des au-revoirs J'y crois comme à la terre, j'y crois comme au soleil J'y crois comme un enfant, comme on peut croire au ciel J'y crois comme à ta peau, à tes bras qui me serrent J'te promets une histoire différente des autres J'ai tant besoin d'y croire encore Je te promets des jours tout bleus comme tes veines Je te promets des nuits rouges comme tes rêves Des heures incandescentes et des minutes blanches Des secondes insouciantes au rythme de tes hanches Je te promets mes bras pour porter tes angoisses Je te promets mes mains pour que tu les embrasses Je te promets mes yeux si tu ne peux plus voir J'te promets d'être heureuse

Fuck It
fuck politics. Fuck arrogant bastards and bitches. Fuck missed oportunities. Fuck low self esteem, depression, and regrets. Fuck being different, conformity is comfortable. Fuck the common denominator. Fuck trends and fashion. Fuck magazines the media and their stereotypes of worth and beauty. Fuck the internet for cp and praise it for wikipaidia. Fuck money and lack thereof. Fuck individualism, fuck wanting clothes that reinforce yuor uniqueness or as an attempt for a personal style or identity and not finding any/ not having the cash for it. Fuck boredom and wanting to go out and having no one to do it with. Fuck wierd metabolisms, fuck living in a conservative country. Fuck want. fuck ignorance, misunderstanding, racism, sexism, and all that jazz. fuck wanting to travel and be low on funds and days off. fuck not ever being satisfied with what you have. Fuck always feeling you havent done/seen/said/achieved enough. fuck having knowledge and intellect and no degrees to prove it.

Will You
Will you be there with me until the very endWill you be my soulmate, my lover my friendWill you stand beside me In good times and badWill you hold me & comfort me in happy and sad.Will you promise to love me, not break my heartWill you promise not lies, a fresh clean start.Will you promise to hold me, kiss me each dayWill you say "I love you" and mean it alwaysWhen its time to leave me, your time to move onWill you tell me goodbye, my friend, my love I'm gone.

Abandonment
Abandonment Watching a child realize he is alone is a heartrending event. In a moment, he goes from content to worried to panicked. One of our most primitive fears is the fear of being separated from family, friends, or society. In dreams, being abandoned can have several connotations that derive from psychological or physical experience. The primary interpretive question is: Who abandoned the dreamer, and why? Being individually abandoned by a significant other can represent a feeling of insecurity in a relationship. This may reflect concerns about the feelings of another towards you. Are you genuinely receptive to the idea of being loved and valued, or do you view another's affection as a put-on? Perhaps you view yourself as lovable as you are known, but fear that more revelation about you will lead to isolation. This could be especially true if there is a taboo experience being kept secret from the person who has abandoned you (e.g., marital infidelity). Dreams of t

Blessings
Blessings Although the word is something of an antique in many circles, the idea of a blessing is a powerful one in the human experience. Consequently, giving, seeking, or receiving a blessing are important dream events. Many times, dreams include some kind of conveyance that will fall into this category. The idea of a blessing was central to many ancient cultures. When preparations for death entered its final stages, the dying patriarch or matriarch of a family would convey last wishes or hopes for affirmation onto members of a household. This was a deeply spiritual act that conveyed peace or power onto the next generation. To be overlooked or rejected during the blessing was a sign of disfavor or judgment. These things can come across in your dreams based on the subjects in them and the amount of reverence you have toward them. In more contemporary times, we can look at these blessings or conveyances in terms of complete versus incomplete relationships. Especially wit

Traffic
Traffic Traffic is a fascinating dream image. If traveling is required in a dream, it is often central to resolving the dream story. Consequently, the traffic and whether it cooperates with or hinders the dreamer's achievement is important. Since most everyone encounters traffic everyday, dreams concerning traffic reflect the extent to which your environment cooperates with or hinders your goals. These dreams may be indications that more patience, more self-assertion, or more creativity is needed to reach your goals. Of course, to dream of traffic can also mean that you were simply stuck in it all that day and you need to work out the frustration in a dream. Did the traffic cause you to miss an important appointment?

Compass
Compass Dreams about a compass, the universal symbol of direction, often involve either getting back on track or trying to discern what course should be set for the path ahead. Or the compass may have been found or given to you by a mentor figure of some kind. Checking out the mentor and her or his relationship to you should be a central concern of the dream.

Angels
Angels Jacob wrestled the angel,and the angel was overcome.Bono, U2, Rattle and Hum With the tremendous interest in angels these days, it is not surprising that they are becoming frequent characters in dreams as well. Pictures of angels, stories of angels, and a popular spirituality of angels have put the images and imaginations of angels in our collective unconscious. The word angel literally means messenger. Often, delivery of a particular message in the dream is the role filled by these beings. As the needs arise, they may provide additional help to the dreamer beyond simply delivering information. Since so many religions and contemporary worldviews have made room for angels in their view of the universe, this topic needs to be broken down a little more. Jung had room in his worldview for spirit guides. These were apparitions that shared both knowledge and insight. This insight came as dialogue. Consequently, the Jungian angel was something of a spiritual mento

Politicians
Politicians In the media age, dreaming of things political is becoming more frequent. Since we are often exposed to the intimate details of public figures' lives, we feel we know them, even if we only know about them. Consequently, we work these figures into our dream lives when events in our lives seem to empathize with what we know of public figures. Often, politicians, like celebrities, pop into our dreams for no reason other than the fact that we are bombarded with images of them on a daily basis. What may be important, though, is your waking-life perceptions of the politician who appears in your dream.

Owl
Owl The owl is the archetype of wisdom in many cultures' parables. The owl is often a sign of longevity, as well as knowledge. This knowledge pertains especially to the future and the mysteries of the night. You may be seeking such knowledge or be receiving an oracle hinting that you may be in possession of such knowledge. Is the owl in your dream mysterious or forthcoming? Does the owl speak to you? What does it say?

Teeth
Teeth Dreams about teeth and losing teeth are common. Often the dream is troubling, although it does not contain the same fear or anxiety as a nightmare. In the dream, the teeth often are a concern only to the dreamer. Other characters in the dream either do not notice, or do not care, about the loose teeth. A 19-year-old woman reports: I am in the bedroom combing my hair. A guy comes in and asks me if I am in a relationship. I say no. Then, he asks me out on a date. I say yes. He is about to kiss me and I ask him to hold that thought for a second. I go to freshen up a bit. When I wipe my mouth, my teeth begin falling out! Every one I touch falls out. No bleeding, just empty spaces in my mouth. I go back out of the bathroom, concerned, but the guy doesn't notice. Meanwhile, I'm a wreck. In waking life, the woman reports feeling conflicted about ending a relationship with a man. She would like to renew it. Potential embarrassment is preventing her from doing so. Dream

Walking
Walking You may be trying to slow down your pace or lack the means to make speedy progress. Walking is a dichotomous symbol in that it can be both frustrating and relaxing to walk. Walking is much more of a discovery-oriented journey than driving, flying, or other modes of transit. When walking, you are forced to experience your environment in much more detail since you are moving through it so slowly. To walk in a dream, especially if your perceived destination is far off, may indicate that you are missing some of the pleasure life has to offer by fixating on destinations, rather than on journeys. In order to see the interpretive value of the walking, it must be determined why walking is the preferred mode of transit. Are there other dream characters involved in walking, marching, or hiking? Are you trying to walk in an environment that is normally traveled by car?

When Death Replaces Life
Irony....Its been said that "irony it seems....is not without a sense of humor". Looking on how I feel at this moment I'd have to agree. How ironic that my favorite song from the band Cannibal Corpse not in lyrical context,but the title of the song is the name of not only this blog,but also symbolises how the past 2 and a half weeks have gone for me. Now before I get into it all,I'm not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me,or saddened or anything,I just need to get this out of me as I walk through the fragments here on fubar of what my life used to be. In the past 2 and a half weeks I've lost 4 ppl that were very close to me,all of them I would've laid my life down without hesitation in a nano second if it wouldve meant no harm would come to them. Of the 4 I lost 3 had passed away,the 4th I lost due to the complications of the stress building up in my life trying to be supportive of someone very important to me's need and support her during her time of pain and grief for her loss a

Written For My Jonathan
I want you here so close by me till our ears no longer hear our eyes no longer see. When I reach for you I want to touch your hand even when we no longer walk nor either no longer stand. I always want to feel warm compassion in your heart never want to yearn for you never want to be apart. Our love will protect us from the bitting ,bitter cold I just want to be with you as we both grow old. When the time comes and the angel extends a hand close by your side I will firmly stand. They know it would hurt if they broke us apart for they see the love that dwells in our hearts. Then they smile for they know just what to do they will take me along to heaven with you. Always in love for an eternity you and I just like it was meant to be.

Father Had A Stroke 3 Weeks Ago - Update
Well, my father had a stroke about 3 weeks ago, i've been in and out of the hospital to visit him quite frequently, yesterday i went to the hospital to visit my him, and sofar he is able to move his leg pretty good but the newest news is he is actually able to move his arm.. with quite a struggle but still none the less he IS able to move it!!!

Savior
It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgottenwhat the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got themas the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is droppingthrough the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten there is no reconciliation that will put me in my placeand there is no time like the present to drink these draining secondsbut seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing youwalls that we just can't break through until we disappearso tell me nowif this ain't love then how do we get out?cause I don't knowthat's when she said I don't hate you boyI just want to save you while there's still something left to savethat's when I told her I love you girlbut I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have and the day pressed on like crushing weightsfor no man does it ever waitlike memories of dying daysthat deafen us like hurricanesbathed in flames we held the branduncurled the fingers in your handpressed into the fl

Another Victim Of The Rigid And Cold~by Jd
Caught running in cirlces, Life in motion and emotions in full swing, I am all but conscious, My mind wanders and i drift into distance thoughts. This trampeeze act is starting to look more like a stalemate im ready to go home, Sorry for my over reaction, I believe i've become another victim of the cold. I am tainted but not unlikely to rebound, Have a little faith, At this rate the bridge will crumble but i'll swim till i reach the shore. First glance and im this incredible portrait of that person you'd like to meet, I'll laugh along with you only for a short while, If only you knew the complications of living my life. My plate is never half empty, and my to-do list is always full, My mental compacity is overloaded and im running out of fuel. I get my moments where i pretend i am someone else for just an instance, Then i imagine that i fade into nothing, Man this visionary mind is so kind yet so cruel. I spend some days loathing those of us who make it so easy to

Men
I hate you.. reason number 1: shane Shane was a cook in a restaurant at work.. he gave me his number... talked about hanging out.. didn't tell me one thing though... he is married and has a kid reason number 2: Cassedy Cassedy was a barback/bartender at work... he gave me his number... flirted with me daily... even said some very dirty things to me... but anytime i wanted to go do something.. he couldn't... I found out why Tonight at work, we had a new bartender... her name is Jessy.. while talking to her she says " oh look! its my fiancee!!" and points to cassedy... they are getting married in April.. FUCK ALL OF YOU MEN!!!

Right On
Daddy's flown across the oceanLeaving just a memoryA snapshot in the family albumDaddy, what else did you leave for meDaddy, whatcha leave behind for me?All in all it was just a brick in the wallAll in all it was all just bricks in the wallWe don't need no educationWe don't need no thought controlNo dark sarcasm in the classroomTeachers, leave them kids aloneHey, Teachers, leave those kids aloneAll in all its just another brick in the wallAll in all you're just another brick in the wallWe don't need no educationWe don't need no thought controlNo dark sarcasm in the classroomTeachers, leave them kids aloneHey, Teachers, leave those kids aloneAll in all you're just another brick in the wallAll in all you're just another brick in the wall[Guitar]I don't need no arms around meI don't need no drugs to calm meI have seen the writing on the wallDon't think I need anything at allNo, don't think I need anything at allAll in all it was all just bricks in the wallAll in all you were all just bric

Naughty Lil Self
Ache... A slow burning candle...I begin to melt from the heat and passion of this flame. Lighting and warming my soul. As a moth to a flame, I can't resist to touch. Tenderly and softly as I move my hand up the inside of my thighs. Melting into thought and fantasy of you. The flame inside growing hotter. Laying back upon my bed, with my legs spread further. Slipping my hand beneath this panty. Soft like silk or the petal from a rose. The need getting stronger, wishing it were your hands upon me now... One hand caressing my breast, noticing my nipple harden as I allow my fingers to penetrate deep inside. Beginning to bite on my bottom lip, from passionate thoughts of you. The flood gates open and begin to drown as I lose all control. My moans now coming from this deep, starving ache for you... Wondering if you think of me in this way and if you were to happen upon me in this delicate position, would you set me free and release this ache within me... Thoughts and

Rollercoaster
Ok..this is a bit of a more serious blog.. For some time i have been dealing with some inner demons..given my situation i feel like im obligated to hold in my feelings most of the time. Now i know that isnt healthy for any person to do. But day after day i sit here going through an emotional rollercoaster..my life doesnt get any easier by keeping it all inside my head.. It takes everything i have in me to keep it away from those i care about..so many feelings and thoughts..things i should have said or still should say to some..Hearts mended and broken at my hands..trying to cope with it all..it races through my head constantly..and everyone still says i should just "cheer up"..well thats really is easier said then done. especially when no one realizes how serious my fears, pain and anger truely are. Even if i told them they wouldnt understand why..i barely understand it myself..But i continuously fight my own battle in my head wondering when the war will end. I dont hold it in becaus

Life Through My Eyes!
Life feels at times as if there is no end in sight. It Makes us wonder sometimes if there really is a God that is watching over us making sure we are alright. For as long as I can remember, life has been hard regardless of the situations we face, Regardless if we are stable or not. Life is a process that can only be taken day by day. Thoughts about the past must be forgotten, dreams about the future must always be kept in mind, but living in the present is the only thing guaranteed. Tomorrow is never promised. One is not saying not to dream about successes in the future, instead work towards those dreams and make them a reality each day of your life. As far as my life goes, its been a never ending struggle but the few smiles along the way are always cherished and the tears and heartbreaks are put in the past forever. i've given my everything to every situation in my life, ive made mistakes, ive taken risks but do not regret either one of them. for every one of them i learn from and use

December 10th 2009 9:55 Pm Pacific
well it never seems to fail that around this time is when my life really begind to suck 1. i have a friend who says his breaks are bad and cant help much and he doesnt answer his phone which he tells me he doesnt respond when hes driving. 2.im runnin out of friends for all the right reasons, my guess is they really either arent my friends or they just dont wanna deal with me. 3. things never ever go correctly in my direction.....importany peeps move away unimportant people stay close, and family well thats kinda laughable my closest family is neices and nephews my sister and brother who now both live away from me. so now there is just me my christmas is going to suck

Major Bar And Grill Favorite Holiday Receipe
Husband's latkes potatoe pancakes)..a traditional Hanukkah food, was wonderful.We play argue over the the many names they are called by many peoples...but it no matter..they are still yummy.We also incorperate foods like borscht,buckwheat loaves,etc. thru the coming days.My most favorite is an Ashkanazi dish.Roll out two massive amounts of puff pastry. With the first one..cut it in the shape of a fish...2 feet long by 14 inches wide.Then,begin layering things like lemon rice,smoked salmon,hAomemade egg noodles,diced cooked egg,eggs benedict sauce,some dill and parsley.(Non-kosher adds diced turkey and ham,maybe caviar).Then make a second fish from the puff pastery.Use a beaten egg yolk,melted butter or milk around the edge of the bottom one,lay on the top and press the edges together to seal it all.With the left over puff pastry,first make an eye.(Three circlesbigger,medium and smaller for a three -D look.Then, start cutting the 'scales',A scissor works better than a knife

Sex Quiz...
Sex Quiz Take It!!! HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID THIS WEEK? ;)EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE? oh yesEVER LAUGH DURING SEX? a few timesEVER CRY DURING SEX? IF SO, WHY? NO,WHY WOULD I? I LOVE SEX!DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX? oh yea if its with the right person its better.EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE? yeah but it happened so oh wellEVER FAKED AN ORGASM? yeah a few times with my Ex Jess...lolDIRTY TALK, OR STFU? Both lol.EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX? yeaEVER MASTURBATE TO YOUR FRIENDS SIGNIFICANT OTHER?NO, who came up with this question? EVER HAVE A THREESOME? yepEVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX? yep yepEVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX? yeaHAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKE? yes a couple timesWHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE?Hahaha my dad walked in on me & JenHOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY?oh god lol. ummm 14WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW?I'm a guy so YES!DO YOU LIKE 69?yea ARE YOU HORNY NOW? now i am thanksHOW MANY SEXUAL PARTNERS? my info not yours!!!DO YO

He's Gonna Kill Him Self
you go to far, because you're star burning bright in the night the things you do and you think its cool and so those who think its right you know its she's not your friend and you let her fuck you anyway what is it inside you that makes you want to explode ? what is it inside you you're afraid to expose ? A soft underbelly like everyone else that breaths? A feeling of something that you can't explain? I can't say much its the reason I drink but you take it way to far I think It isn't the attention , you were sucked into it like high school detention Why can't you get over yourself and see what you mean Why can't you get past it all and see you can do anything You want It's painful for me to watch you slide to escape whatever you're trying to hide why can't you just be you but why can't I be me. I know I'm setting myself up for the let down but seems these days that's whats going round I'll never be pretty like you can as you toss it away I know that I can do nothing but som

My
my headit would be better off deadit aches and burns it freezes as it thaws my eyessee things I wish I'd never sawthey lie and tell me you're beautifulmy earshear the things I don't want to hearthings you say when I'm away my hearthow it wants to bleedpump it all out until its overmy mindconfuses me all the timetelling me wrong and rightI sit hereon a Thursday nightdrinking until it all feels rightmy dickwants to make me sickwith the disease of a secret lover does better on its own timeit disagrees with my mindmy dickfucks me over and makes me sickmy mind knows bettermy mindnever listens to meno matter how much I plead my eyesI can't believe a thing they seethey always lie to memy dickwants to make me sickwith the disease of a secret lover

Read From Bottom Up. My Apologies To Just Plain John.
Buzz Meter: 80% - hammered Level: fubar bouncer (150) Gender: Male, 40 Location: United States Status: please all read scrappers blog before you come and scream at us boncers please YOUR FAVOR...: ANYway, I have tried to REPLY to BOTH private messages you have sent me, but I am NOT ALLOWED!!! I would like to know HOW one is supposed to CONTACT you if you do not allow replies to personal messages here????? ALso, I went to Scrapper's page and NOWHERE was I able to find and read the NEW NSFW rules you say you will have....it would be NICE to be able to do so...why are they only on ONE bouncer's page instead of your main site? YOUR FAVOR...: I have changed the picture back to the one I've had up for about a month now... YOUR FAVOR...: all of "us" in the picture had clothes on, and nothing showed! The IRONY is that your little young girls in the blasts and happy hours wear h

Been Awhile
Its been a little while since I have really blogged so I thought I would catch some of you all up on a few things. I finally will be starting counseling on Monday, believe it or not I cant wait and am anxious for it. I have been going to physical therapy for a few weeks now, those of you that have me on fb have seen that since that is how I kill my time there. Since it has gotten so friggin frigid and cold here my body has hurt like an SOB! My casemanger here has mentioned fibromyalgia a few different times to me, and today at physical therapy I told my therapist I was going to talk to my doctor about it and he touched a few areas on my body and literally sent me through the roof :( I have been just claiming old age, but technically I am not that old and there is sooo much unexplained things happening with my body that it would be a perfect explanation :( Here at the house its going okay, I am not thrilled about Christmas quite yet, I have a real difficult time at the holidays. I a

I Would Be Lying....
IF I SAID IT DIDNT BOTHER ME I WOULD BE LYING , WHEN YOU MISS IT....THE PAIN SOMETIMES IS TOO MUCH TO BEAR! FROM THE MOMENT YOUR EYES LOOKED INTO MY SOUL , I FOLLOWED YOU ONLY TO MISS WHAT WAS DEEP INSIDE

Again...with The Hating Of My Nsfw Pics...
It seems that my NSFW pics have attracted a woman that looks like a fuking truck driver in drag and she says that my pics arent real. My pics are ALL rwal and ALL ME. Dont get made cause your troll ass cant get none of this....get mad because your ass is all alone...sitting behind a computer with mno cock to occupy your time....

Poem - "motherhood"
I started writing this.. it is unfinished just tell me what you think!! Motherhood... Is not what everyone, thinks it to be. It's not all sunshine and smiles, laughter and rainbows. There are days when you , just want to tear your hair out. Days you just want to break down and cry, Days when you pray, please help me keep going. Days when you wander, if you'll get sleep that night. You give yourself up, and start thinking of him/her. No more late night parties, just late night feedings. No more last minute plans, unless you plan on taking them alone. You find yourself, worrying about the most, simplest of things. Then theres the days, when your little one, when you don't expect it. Laughs, smiles, and says their first word. walks, crawls and feeds themselves. Those days you know, you love you main job of being a MOM!

Poem- "untitled"
As i sit here, hearing your words, run through my mind. Thinking of you, wandering what exactly, you like in me. One of many questions, jumps to the front of the line. What makes me beautiful, in your eyes? What makes you stare, at me with that sexy eye? What makes me, the most perfect one for you? All those thoughts, and more cloud my mind. I look in the mirror, not seeing what you see. All i see is a girl, not sexy, out of shape, single mom, trying to start a new life. What is so amazing, about that? I wish I could see, what you see,

Leaving A Positive Footprint
Blessing Space Physical space acts like a sponge, absorbing the radiant of all who pass through it. And, more likely than not, the spaces we move through each day have seen many people come and go. We have no way of knowing whether the energy footprints left behind by those who preceded us will invigorate us or drain us. Yet we can control the energy footprint we leave behind for others. In blessing each space we enter, we orchestrate a subtle energy shift that affects not only our own experiences in that space but also the experiences of the individuals who will enter the space after us. While we may never see the effects our blessing has had, we can take comfort in the fact that we have provided grace for those that follow after us. When you bless a room or an entire building, you leave a powerful message of love and light for all those who will come after you. Your blessings thus have myriad effects on the environments through which you pass. Old, stagnant energy is cleared, cre

Everything You Do Matters
The Ripple Effect In a world of six billion people, it’s easy to believe that the only way to initiate profound transformation is to take extreme action. Each of us, however, carries within us the capacity to change the world in small ways for better or worse. Everything we do and think affects the people in our lives, and their reactions in turn affect others. As the effect of a seemingly insignificant word passes from person to person, its impact grows and can become a source of great joy, inspiration, anxiety, or pain. Your thoughts and actions are like stones dropped into still waters, causing ripples to spread and expand as they move outward. The impact you have on the world is greater than you could ever imagine, and the choices you make can have far-reaching consequences. You can use the ripple effect to make a positive difference and spread waves of kindness that will wash over the world. Should the opportunity arise, the recipient of a good deed will likely feel compe

Boyfriend Application
ame:Age: Birthday:Location:Sexual:Height:Weight: Body Type: Eye color: Hair Color: Favorite Bands: Favorite Movies: Favorite Food: Religion: Smoke?: Drink?:Drive?: Job?:Piercings?:Where?: Tatoos?: Where?:Why Are you Applying?:One special thing about you: One special thing about me:Your favorite body part on me: Am I a nice guy?(be honest): Do you think im hot? Why would you date me? Would you break my heart? Would you care if I was complicated? Would you kiss one of my friends to hurt me? Would you play hard to get? Would you run off with me at random times? What would you do to get my attention? Why would you be a good girlfriend? sex? Kiss? Cuddle? Lick?Bite? Would you tell me the truth ALWAYS? Would you ever consider going out with me? Is there anything you need to add to this application?

Rant Number 1
So why is it that in a society, where sex, money and drugs take the lead and we as people can purchase anything. We purchase our basic necessities, along with loads of other crap that we have no use for. Some even purchase sex, and try to purchase love. I believe that in this society that we has people have created, we have corrupted ourselves, and we have corrupted the sanctity of marriage, the all mighty power of true love, and the promise of a long happy life. In the pursuit of instant gratification, we have lost morals, and values along the way that cannot ever be recovered, restored, or rebuilt. Our older generation sits back and wonders where they went wrong in raising their children, and so the vicious cycle begins. I mentioned before the power of love, and the sanctity of marriage. What happened to those two commitments? When you love someone, you know that for sure down deep in your soul, I believe that our society has confused love with sex and vice versa. Sex is n

I Waxed A Poetic
SNOWFLAKE (INSPIRED by Naked Rocker) Formed from dust and vapor falling through the freezing air. If one should fall from grace and enter in the Devil's lair, May the beauty God's bestowed it; individual and rare put shame to all his minions crawling back into their doom. For with this Godsent snowflake, He reminds us he made room... Merry Christamas... Rox

Wish To Win The Lottery
So I went out car shopping again. Looked at one car, test drove it and all. Nice car.07 Nissian. Bit too much though, around 11 grand but it had low mileage...real low. Was there for over an hour trying to figure out payment plans but I really don't think I can afford more than 150. THey kept trying to make deals and all but I still wanted to look around. Seeing how my credit wasn't that great started to get me worried. My credit isn't that horriable but it's not that great. I think the big thing was that house that we used to have, that got foreclosed, which will be haunting me for a long time.I'll go car shopping again next week. If there was extra days at work, I'll take it. I need it. I've been careful which how I been spending my money as of late. I still make decent money at work, just that now that I'm on my own, I have all these bills and stuff I need to buy, it just worries me. I know I worry too much. Dad is still worried about Rich's car. I am too. Both worried that Rich w

Birthday Blog
as I predicted for the 3rd year in a row. my birthday sucked. Normally I go out to eat, get something from applebees or the pizza place near me. What did I get? McDonalds for my birthday meal (some friends, but its all good). For the first time in my life I realized, the older you get, the less a birthday is worth. my other friends who said they would pick me up to go out, flaked. So we shall see what happens.

The Larger The Community, The Less Interesting It's Become...
What gives? When there were only about 1.5 million users on Fubar there seemed to be alot more interaction and people talkin with people... now that there are over 3.5 million, this place seems dead as a doornail...

#3
(4dbhP) All day long. ALL DAY LONG!!! That is how often he has been on my mind today. I couldn't concentrate at work. I couldn't think about anything else. All I wanted to do was close my eyes & think about him. The feel of his body as my hands slid over him. The taste of his salty skin, the way he felt as I slid my tongue & lips over him, exploring every part of him. Tasting everything, over & over. I was so turned on thinking of him, but he would probably come home late or be in a bad mood or something else that would make my day long fantasy useless. I really, really wanted him today. The door opened. I was doing dishes & I heard it, but didn't turn around. I was listening to see if there was a huge sigh or swearing or something else to indicate his mood. I didn't hear anything. I went back to what I was doing. He came up behind me & hugged me tight. I held my breath. it was the kind of hug that had desire in it. Was it possible he was in the same mood? I prayed. I felt his br

Iced Earth=my Life?
Didn't work out as badly as I thought it might. Pick your Artist: Iced Earth Are you a male or female? Dragon's Child Describe yourself: Creator Failure How do you feel: Hollow Man Describe where you currently live: Solitude If you could go anywhere, where would you go: The Path I Choose Your favorite form of transportation: Red Baron : Blue Max Your bestfriend is: Attila You and your best friends are: Jekyll & Hyde What's the weather like: Desert Rain Favorite time of day: When the Night Falls If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: I Walk Alone What is life to you: Come What May Your current relationship: Blessed Are You Your fear(s): Dracula Thought for the Day: Consequences How I would like to die: Burning Oasis My soul's present condition: The Revealing Most Faithful Companion: Greenface My motto: Divide and Devour

It Started Out As A Simple Kiss
It started out as a simple kiss Eyes closed.. arms embraced.. Soft lips barely touch..Anticipation builds.. the kiss deepens..we search for more.Tongues caress.. lightly nibbling.. gentle sucking ...Passions flare.. shaking to the core. Hands roam.. fires ignite.. wanting.. skin on skin...Gasping breaths.. eyes glazed with lust.. heated to the brink.Moans excape.. with whispered encouragement...Wanting... needing... the desire.. in a daze... cannot think. Your shirt unbuttons.. fingers fumble.. my hands slide up ...Your stomache clenches.. lightly grazing .. I reach your chest.Heart racing.. breathing labored... skin.. so soft.. yet hard...Deep breaths now.. mindless ...shaking.. passion's obsessed. You grasp my hips.. you pull me close.. and closer still..My hands wrap around your neck... and still the kiss goes on.Savoring the taste ..such soft sweet lips.. the fire is raging..Pulses bounding.. lost in your touch.. practiced seduction. Your hands slide under my shirt... aah.. th

Three And More
I did those three things and more. Some never understand to let it go. I thought I was the one. No, there are many looking for the final say and the only one they may ever get is my death because of them. At the Cooper hospital I tell the Cardioogist I' ll go back to smoking out of spite and he walks out. Soon after that there was very loud laughter by the ER. I am back to smoking. WTF? A dialogue with Mr. Finance in SC just ended with him accusing me of what he exactly is. That boy is nothing but hatred, bitterness, fear, paranoia, and the rest. I should of listened to my 7th grade classmates. They said why are you missin with him? He's a geek. I over looked hes failures and I should of never over looked my classmates advice. They knew me better than him. Hes antics forces me into no surgery out of spit. Not spite but spit. What's spit? Hell fer I know like WTF? What the whatever right? I mean come on here. Six days and off I go. No surgery? What do you want 10 years? 10 years I may h

Bkp Aint The Fliest Thing Flexin!?
Sayin BKP aint the fliest thing flexin's like saying the government aint lying bout 9-11.... Cú Chulainn - Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: It's like sayin' Divinity's numeration ain't Seven... or Heaven ain't the seven plus two inch connection to my erection. Don't let the smooth taste fool ya', or judge a tome by it's complexion... it'll take a silver bullet to stop the anaphylactic venom injection. Against a brass knuckle polar bear, I recommend an elephant gun, for ya' protection. Why ya' stickin' ya' neck out? You ain't heard o' Natural Selection? Get ya' Windsor undone, like the tie from a Colombian around ya' kneck'n... I keep steppin', eyes open, awareness beyond your comprehension. It's like misjudging my cultural, historical collection, makin' the first move, lettin' my bishop rebuke you like a diagonal blessin'... correction, lobotomizing your ignorance feels better than sexin'... -Each1 Teach1-of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: we respond with good intentions, as

Echoes Of Past::2
She felt him arrive almost immediately. It made bile rise up in her throat and she gagged on it as he descended upon her. "Hello Vela." he growled in a thick Drekorian accent. He was a massive beast, even by dragon standards, standing over 34 feet tall, all black sinew and scale, and he absolutely reeked of evil. Yes, he was more than tainted by Tenebrae and belonged more on Bludloc with the Shadul then he did here on Dreckor. "Skul'ka" she nodded up at him, trying and failing miserably to cloak her fear. She had known one day that she would have to face him again, but why now, when she was so illy prepared and nearly drained of mageic? The Ophir and Teneb were always in conflict, as was their way, but it was time for it to come to a head and for the balance to be restored once again, in this, the 19th Mageic War. This was only the beginning.

Whothewhat
Ok, I don't really remember this one that much, but what I do remember is still disturbing nonetheless. I was back at my secondary school, killing anyone I could lay my hands on who defied me. Apparently I was laying claim to it as my territory. I recall being able to fly, and hunting down people trying to get away through the back entrance. Along with all that there was some sort stained glass window dedicated to me....

Eve.
Trapped in this constant reminder, I must escape. Everywhere I look an effigy. Still I hear you call my name. Forging slowly a new life o'er this past. Every end birthing something new. So I'll take the gifts you've given me, and grace your memory.

Jesus, The True Meaning Of Christmas!
JESUS, THE TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS! The, Angel, Gabriel, appeared unto Mary,With a message from God's throne!This virgin would conceive of the Holy Ghost!Her son would be God's own!He would be, 'The Son of the Highest!"Of His kingdom there would be no end!He would have the throne of David!He would save His people from their sins!Mary had found God's favor!Thus, Jesus' birth was her reward!But, He later became her Saviour too!Her son became her Lord!The "Good News" would be to all people,Gentile as well as Jew!The Gentile that was once known as a "dog,"Would have a Saviour too!Mary and Joseph went to Bethlehem,Because of Caesar"s decree.They traveled there to pay taxes,From Nazareth, in Galilee!When Mary's time to be delivered came,She brought forth Immanuel!The inn was full, so in a manger he was laid!That was the first Noel!Yes, Jesus was born in Bethlehem,In the days of Herod, the King.A light shone down from Heaven above!Angels began to sing!"Peace on Earth, goodwill to men,"Was

I Am A Fubar Godfather Now
Ladies And Gentlemen i Brucethe coolsexycat on 12/10/09 or 10/1209 aka 11/12/09 just leveled up to level 25 godfather here's the proof: your fubar level just increased to '25' (Godfather)and i chose angel as well i wish to thank my friends and infarred for the auto 11's bling been active 24/7 to help me get closer to the new level and leveling up before christmas 2009 it has only taken me 3 years to reach level 25 GODFATHER and i thank you for helping me out from Bruce oh and i did make it without having a vip as well

Everything From Birth Till Now That I Remember (only Read If You Really Want To Know About Me)
1974 - Present: I was born October 3rd 1974 in the city of Claremont, NH to a mother named Kim Boutwell. Soon after that she got married and had 2 more children (Chrisinta Brunelle & Jared Brunelle). From what I remember we grew up with just about nothing. I started getting into trouble when I was in kindergarden by taking anything I wanted when I wanted it and it escalated to arson & attempted murder at 9 in which I was taken from my mother and placed into a mental hospital for 3 months. I was transferred from there to another place run by Italian Catholic Priests and was there for 3 1/2 yrs in which time I ran away as much as I could cause I didn't want to be so far away from my mother. I got lost and ended up in a metropolis and stole a car off a car lot and tried to get back to my mother at the age of 11. After they finally realized it wasn't a good idea of me being there and the DCYF officer trying to send me to juvinile lock-up called YDC in Manchester NH, they found a place call

The Look On 2009
I HAVE SOME NEW FRIENDS AND LOST ONE AWESOME FRIEND BUT THAT IS OK..WE ALL HAVE GOOD AND BAD DAYS..WELL FOR ME THEY ARE ALL BADS ONES NOT ALBE TO SEE MY SONS WHICH REALLY BITES..NOT SEEING THEM IS KILLING ME SO MUCH HOW CAN I EVEN GO ON ANY MORE THEY ARE MY LIFE .HEART SOUL..DAMN IT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND MISS THEM SO MUCH.. BRING HERE LA SALLW FUCKING BITES ASS SO MUCH I HATE BRING HERE IN IL SO MUCH MISS MY MOTHER SO VERY MUCH BEING AWAY THIS LONG FROM MY MOTHER HURT SO MUCH...I REALLY DO NOT GIVE A DAMN WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY TO ME ANY MORE BOB YOU CAN FUCK OFF ..I AM HURTING SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO GODDAMN CLUE ANY MORE...I LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH I KNOW THEY ARE THERE FOR ME IN MY TIME OF NEED.....AS I LOOK BACK ON 2009 I HAVE COME SO FAR FROM BEING NOTHING IN THE FUCK UP WORLD NOW I AM ABOUT TO GET MY G.E.D SO FUCKING WHAT IF IT TOOK ME THIS GODDAMN LONG TO GET....I AM SO DAMN PROUD OF WHAT I AM DOING IN MY LIFE ..BUT YET I STILL GET PUT DOWN LAUGH AT ..YOU KNOW WHAT I REALLY DO NOT

Pope And Pelosi
The Pope The Pope and Nancy Pelosi are on the same stage infront of a huge crowd. The Pope leans towards Mrs. Pelosi and says, "Do you know that with one little wave of my hand I can make every person in this crowd go wild with joy? This joy will not be a momentary display, like that of your followers, but go deep into their hearts and they'll forever speak of this day and rejoice!" Pelosi replied, "I seriously doubt that. With one little wave of your hand? Show me." So the Pope slapped her.

Once Upon A Midnights Dream~
Once upon a midnights dream~ I lived my lies... and told my fair share... people cried, and i didn't even care... I severed the ties... my heart turn to ice... my eyes turn to hate... I hear the worlds voices... but i force them out of my face... I only see me in my reflection, but... I met you and everything changed... a sense of hope came to mind... things hurting don't hurt as much... seeing you blurs my mind... being with you is amazing... holding you in my arms stops my breathe... when i look in your eyes when I'm close... it sends my heart racing... and when i kiss you... it feels like nothing else matters... Once I have felt your heart beating, smelled your scent...I knew then I was lost inlove with you... HS 2009

Still Bare Before You...
Still I lay bare before youMy words like my soul on the pageStill I long for youMy heart like my love for youStill I need of youMy body aches with pain of missing youStill each time I think of youI feel bare before youEmpty words on a pageEmpty thoughts of our loveEmpty meanderings of what we wereStill I lay bare before youCertain these words are lost on you

Fubar, You Complete Me!
I came here, looking for a way to ease the boredom. Now I'm hooked. There is something nauseating about this site that keeps me coming back anyway. It's dumb, impersonal, sleezy,and I think it gave me a virus. Yet, here I am... just me, some slack-jawed yokels (love all the NASCAR-themed lounges), and girls selling soft-core porn for game points. I tried to get a friend to join... and she ran after the first 20 minutes. I guess only some people have the stomach for it.So... with all that negative stuff, why am I here? I like it. I get drawn in. I like to read photo-comments. I like to post stupid blogs like this. I like being around a bunch of strangers whom I could care less about, and who could care less about me. In anonymity, there is freedom.My browser has been hijacked to take me here before (it's so considerate of the Fubar people), but I never bothered to sign up. Instead, I only cursed them for it (poor ignorant me). Now I thank the Fubar folks for showing me the light. Fubar

Need You Now
My phone rang it was almost 2 am.I heard your voice on the line.That sweet hypnotic tone.Begging me to come back home.I couldn't get my pants on fast enough.Before I even hung up, I was dressed.I drove straight home to get to you.I kept thinking about our conversation.The last time I called you late, you said, "no."The thought made me want to turn around.Still I kept driving to you.Minutes later, I was standing at your door.Before I could knock it opened.You stood before me in you nightgown.A tear in your eyes.That look in your eyes said it all.I needed you as much as you needed me.We went straight to the bedroom.We climbed into bed and lay silent for hours.You're pressed against my chest.Your hair in my face just like before.I kept breathing in deeply.Each breath was like heaven to me.Those nights without was like hell.I have no idea how I got along without you.Before long the sun rose turning night into day.And our time together was over.We went our separate ways.I went through my da

Need 2 Swallow
Libra - Dec. 11, 2009Today The current astral aspect could turn somebody's words into a very tantalizing proposition. Somehow they just might, just could be believable, although on any other day this would be stretching it a little bit - you would know immediately that something was not quite right. But today you are happy and possibly even desperate to swallow them hook, line, and sinker.

Marital Advice
Earl and Bubba are quietly sitting in a boat fishing, chewingtobacco and drinking beer when suddenly Bubba says,"Think I'm gonna divorce the wife - she ain't spoke tome in over 2 months."Earl spits overboard, takes a long, slow sip of beer and says,"Better think it over..............women like that are hard to find."

Quitting
Quitting Quitting is an event that all of us are tempted with at one point in life or another. Whether it is home life, work, or planet earth in general, quitting may feel like the best choice. Virtually everyone has days when selling your possessions and buying a one-way plane ticket somewhere sounds mighty good. However, quitting is rarely about quitting altogether, but rather not wanting to continue under the current circumstances. Quitting is often elective as well. The quitter doesn't want to face the consequences of resigning from life, but rather to avoid the requisite hassles of participating in it. In dreams, we are often granted the latitude to quit without having to experience consequences. Rather, we can simply eliminate unpleasant facets of life in its troubling condition. This is wonderful, as quitting dreams illuminates our most draining emotional conflicts in waking life. Many times we quit things in life because we cannot conceptualize solutions to our problems.

One Day At A Time
So I've been dealing with a lot of personal crap lately. Why does it always seem that when you are down, life tries to pile more crap on ya and try to break you? One day, I finally looked up to the sky, and said just kill me now... get it over with. Didn't happen, and I'm still around. Whether that is a good thing or not is debateable. I remembered the quote though that I used to use for a character of mine I played before, and it fits. What does not kill us, makes us stronger. Yes, it is an old saying, but in a way, it does work. Each day is a battle, but each morning that you wake up, you've won the battle from the day before. I guess I am trying to remember that myself, and work though everything. Each little pain, each little arrow that is shot... it hurts like hell. But it also reminds me... I Am Alive. And while I'm alive... anything is possible.

Birth
Birth The birth event is the one sacred event that virtually every culture holds in common. Not surprisingly, it is one of Jung's archetypal selves-the self creating life for another. Since it is an archetype, there are lots of other dream images that lead back toward birth and life. Water and oceans are the two significant ones. Many cultures embrace the symbol of water as crucial to life. Many times, women who intuitively know that either they or a friend may be pregnant will dream of water. This may be related to the broken water images of pregnancy. Emerging from a cave or isolated place as a new self is a Jungian version of birth themes. In this sense, birth is not limited to biological events, but also includes the advent of additional facets of personality or self-awareness in your waking life. Freud held that entering back into small rooms or caves was symbolic of the womb. This could herald a desire to return to mother, be nurtured, or experience the mother's power as a

Drugs
Drugs Drug use in dreams is often a sign of taboo violation. Drugs have powerful social symbolism attached to them that makes it difficult for a drug-user to feel good about himself or herself as a user. The exception is use of drugs in spiritual preparation. In certain Native American groups, the use of peyote as dream preparation or during a dream is associated with journeying to find one's self and life vision. As interest in Native American spirituality increases, some people may dream of themselves as participating in sacred rites. How does using drugs affect your relationship with others in the dream? Do you fit into or become excluded from a particular group? Do you feel guilty or good? Effect of drug use on dreams Drug use affects the brain by enlarging the time spent in Stage 4 deep sleep and shortening REM-phase dreaming. Since certain drugs are consciousness-altering, they may cause dreamers to feel expanded consciousness prior to going to sleep. However, drug use u

English For The Grammatically Impaired (which Would Be Roughly 3/4 Of The Users On This Site)
VERB TENSES Simple Present: I EAT the dead. Present Progressive: I AM EATING a dead clown from the Barnum and Bailey Circus. Simple Past: Yesterday I KNOCKED the clown unconscious with a hammer and DROVE him home in my Honda. Past Progressive: While I WAS CUTTING the legs off the clown with a chainsaw, he sprang awake and laughed a horrible sinister laugh I will never forget. Present Perfect: I HAVE EATEN dead men, dead women, dead children, dead animals and dead insects. Present Perfect Progressive: I HAVE BEEN EATING the dead for, oh, I’d say about ten years now. Past Perfect: I HAD KILLED and EATEN a large sized homeless woman before I captured the circus clown. Past Perfect Progressive: I HAD BEEN SCOPING the clown with binoculars for three days before I finally made my move and tackled him outside the circus tent, hit him in the head with the hammer and stuffed him into the hatchback of my car. Future Perfect: By midnight tonight

Merry Christmas To One And All!
T'was the night before Christmas, He lived all alone, In a one bedroom house, Made of plaster and stone. I had come down the chimney, With presents to give, And to see just who, In this home did live. I looked all about, A strange sight I did see, No tinsel, no presents,

Stealin Blogs From Alix
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think Pick your Artist:Chris IsaakAre you a male or female?American Boy Describe yourself:Solitary Man (its a cover)How do you feel:Forever YoungDescribe where you currently live:In a Blue Hotel If you could go anywhere, where would you go:To see the Blue Spanish SkyYour favorite form of transportation:My legs, I just "Walk Slow"Your bestfriend is:Sweet LeilaniYou and your best friends are:Only the LonelyWhat's the weather like:just "let it snowFavorite time of day:Graduation day (great song)If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:The "Wicked Game" showWhat is life to you:Life will Go OnYour current relationship:I Want your LoveYour fear(s):UnhappinessThought for the Day:Think of TomorrowHow I would like to die:Don't Try SuicideMy soul's present condition:The L

Wishes!
Three men - a Canadian farmer, Osama bin Laden and a White Trash Biker are all walking together one day. They come across a lantern and a Genie pops out of it. 'I will give each of you one wish, which is three wishes in total',says the Genie. The Canadian says, 'I am a farmer and my son will also farm. I want the land to be forever fertile in Canada ' POOF! With the blink of the Genie's eye, the land in Canada was forever fertile for farming. Osama was amazed, so he said, 'I want a wall around Afghanistan , Palestine , Iraq and Iran so that no infidels, Americans or Canadians can come into our precious land.' POOF! Again, with the blink of the Genie's eye, there was a huge wall around those countries. The Biker says, 'I am very curious.Please tell me more about this wall.' The Genie explains, 'Well, it's about 5,000 feet high, 500 feet thick and completely surrounds the country. Nothing can get in or out; it's virtually impenetrable.' The Biker sits down on his Harley, cracks a beer,

Gemini
GEMINI - The Twin (May 21 – June 20)Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIB

Happiness :)
Things that make me happy... 1. Cats 2. Curling up in my snuggie (yes I have a snuggie!), in front of the fireplace with my cats, with a cup of coffee and a book or my laptop on a rainy cold day 3. fruit pie 4. Walking on the beach searching for cool rocks, meteors (yes I found one!) or polished glass. 5. People that make me laugh. 6. A good cup of coffee 7. Rainy days 8. Going up to Grass Mountain having a picnic and laying back watching the clouds 9. My car-it's so cute! 10. Making people laugh and smile 11. Honking at golfers as they tee off 12. Keeping my body and mind in shape 13 studying ancient history. 14. Going to Dublin or Las Vegas to gamble, eat and have fun

That Thingie From Sho
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist: Robbie Williams Are you a male or female? Handsome Man Describe yourself: Better Man How do you feel: Sexed Up Describe where you currently live: The Road To Mandalay If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Beyond The Sea Your favorite form of transportation: Tripping Your best friend is: Mr. Bojangles You and your best friends are: Come Undone What's the weather like: South Of The Border Favorite time of day: Eternity If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Advertizing Space What is life to you: Freedom Your current relationship: Something Beautiful Your fear: Misunderstood Thought for the Day: Let Love Be Your Energy How I would like to die:

Reflecting On My Late Daughter's Third Birthday.
Yesterday would have been Ceilidh's third birthday. She died sometime overnight between the 4th and 5th of December, 2006, and we found out about her death during a routine ultrasound on the morning of the 5th. It was marginally sunny when we arrived, but snowing when we left. Some people might think the snowfall after hearing about our daughter's death was a bit like adding insult to injury, but Jen and I know differently. We love snow, and to us, the snowfall on that morning was Ceilidh's way of brightening an otherwise sad day for us...she was "decorating" Mommy and Daddy's life in her own way. We took that night to absorb the news that we'd lost our little girl, and to make the inevitable and heartbreaking phone calls to family. The next evening we were admitted to Women and Infants' Hospital in Providence RI, to induce labor. Jen was then in labor for the better part of four days, and on the 9th, Ceilidh's tiny little body entered this world. Now, yesterday on her third birthday

Mmhmmm
Copied from a bunch of other bored ass people. Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pick your Artist: Outkast Are you a male or female? Ms Jackson Describe yourself: So fresh and so clean How do you feel: Where are my panties Describe where you currently live: She lives in my lap If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Cruising the ATL Your favorite form of transportation: Funky Ride Your bestfriend is: We Luv Deez Hoez You and your best friends are: Drinkin Again What's the weather like: Hey ya Favorite time of day: Millenium If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: B.O.B What is life to you: Decatur Psalm Your current relationship: The Way You Move Your fear(s): Knowing Thought for the Day: Take off your cool How I would like to die: Tomb of the boom My soul's present condition: Good Day

I Re-did The Last One........
Pick your Artist: James Brown Are you a male or female Its a Mans World Describe yourself: Super Bad How do you feel: I feel good Describe where you currently live: America is my home If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Kansas City Your favorite form of transportation: Sex Machine Your bestfriend is: Mother Popcorn You and your best friends are: Gettin on the Good Foot What's the weather like: Sunny Favorite time of day: In a Cold Sweat If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: i-don-t-want-nobody-to-give me nothing, i ll get it myselfWhat is life to you: Papa s got a Brand New Bag Your current relationship: Pris

The Wild Night
I am sitting on your bed waiting for you to finally come home. You were out with your friends and I know you will be tired when you get home so I had a plan for you when you get home. When you finally come home and see me waiting for you, you lift an eye brow but you don’t say anything. You walk to the bed to see what I was hiding only to have me pounce on you and kiss you before getting off you, grabbing your arm and pulling you to the bathroom. I start a hot bath for you and start to strip you of your cloths very slowly making sure to run my nails over every inch of your body. When the water is done I tug you to the tub and watch as you slide in all the while watching me. I smile sweetly and you only stare at me more not knowing what I have planned for you. I grab the wash cloth and my special soap and start to wash your chest, arms, neck and stomach. I then do a circle motion for you to turn so I can do your back as well when you feel my hands not the

Jump Back And Move Forward
There is a few things I need to let out. First: I'm stressing out because of school and finals. Second: I miss Dixie so very much. I can't count the times I've cried in private. Third: I miss reading for my own pleasure. Damn schoolwork. Last: I can't wait to relax when my semester from hell is over. That is all.

Our Love Takes My Breath Away
SOMETIMES OUR LOVE TAKES MY BREATH AWAY, I WOULD BE JUST SITTING HERE DOING SOMETHING AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I WOULD HAVE A THOUGHT OF YOU. IT AMAZES ME HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. WAS SITING HERE CHATTING AND LOL MULTI TASKING AND JUST HAD TO STOP FOR SECOND BECAUSE YOU CROSSED MY MIND. MY SWEET MAN WITH ALL YOU DO FOR ME AND YOU STILL SAY U ARE SIMPLY YOU NOTHING SPECIAL. TO ME YOU ARE THE CAFFINE IN MY COKA COLA. JUST LIKE WITHOUT WHATS THE POINT OF THE COKE LOL NOT WORTH MUCH. WITHOUT YOU IM OK BUT WITH YOU IM COMPLETE A LOT BETTER AND MUCH MORE ME. WHY I NEVER STARTED BLOGING ABOUT YOU OR STUFF LOL IM GOING TO DRIVE YOU NUTS WITH THEM. SO MUCH TO SAY. WHAT EQUALY AMAZES ME IS THAT YOU LOVE ME AND I BELIEVE IN THAT LOVE. I TRULY BELIEVE THAT TOGETHER WE CAN AND WILL BE AMAZING IN A WAY THAT NEITHER OF US COULD BE APART OR WITH ANYONE ELSE. PEOPLE TELL ME "SOUL MATE" DOES NOT EXSIST. HELL I WOULD SAY IT MYSELF NOT LONG AGO. BUT BABY YOU ARE MY "SOUL MATE" I TELL YOU ALL THE TI

Salutes
Hey ya'll :) Just wanted to say... If you want to talk to me regularly or be in my family, you MUST have a salute. Just gotta know that its really you on the other end. So... if you're real, I know this won't be an issue. Muah! And a little shameless self promotion since you're already here.... Go here to rate me please for a contest:http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=262812&albumid=1927607&i=2163979934&idx=6 If you really want to, you can bid too ;)

Never Outsmart A Woman
A man calls home to his wife and says, "“Honey, I have been asked to fly to Canada with my boss and several of his friends for fishing. We'll be gone for a long weekend. This is a good opportunity for me to get that promotion I've been wanting so could you please pack enough clothes for a 3 day weekend”?" "And also, would you get out my rod and tackle box from the attic? We're leaving at 4:30 pm from the office and I will swing by the house to pick my things up. Oh, and please pack my new navy blue silk pajamas." The wife thinks this sounds a bit odd, but being the good wife, she does exactly what her husband asks. Following the long weekend he came home a little tired, but otherwise looking good. The wife welcomes him home and asks if he caught many fish. He says, "Yes, lots of walleyes, some bass, and a few pike."He adds, "But why didn't you pack my new blue silk pajamas like I asked you to do?" The wife replies, “"I did. They're in your tackle box”." Neve

Done
Stole this from a Bear who took it from his wifey Klover who stole it from Lil Boops..who got it from Captain Anonymous, who got it from Spiker, who got it from Leah♊Alissa, who got it from ℑÿïç, and so on, and so on, and so on... Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist:DmB as predicted Are you a male or female : Pig Describe yourself: Best of whats around How do you feel: Still water Describe where you currently live: Don't drink the water If you could go anywhere, where would you go: The Space between Your favorite form of transportation: The dreaming tree Your bestfriend is: Dancing Nancies You and your best friends are: GraveDiggers What's the weather like: Crazy Favorite time of day: THe last stop If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Lover

Explication
Below is a beautiful summary of why I have my tattoo :) For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfill themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree. When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sicknes

The Inner Mind
Amazing how you can dream of someone or something from the inner part of your mind (the sub concience) while you sleep and dream, for instance...I dreamt of my father and could see and hear him quite vividly after 8 years of his passing yet can't do that while i'm awake. Kind of spooky in a way....

Merry Christmas To All Military Personel!!!!!!!!
You know its not very often you see a solder at home on Christmas. She gets to sit by a warm fire holding the one she loves not sitting in a cold lonely tower holding her gun. He's hanging the Christmas lights this year not his laundry on a line to dry. Now he lights candles to give the room a soft holiday glow not the night sky with gun fire and missiles to protect the ones below. You know so many of us do so much for the Holidays, but we never stop to remember or think about the ones that are not home enjoying what we get to enjoy. so as you go on with you festive things every time you do something with your family and loved one just remember instead of a solder doing those things with his or her family they are spending their holiday time some where far from their loved one and families to protect and hold or rights to do these things. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MILITARY PERSONNEL!!!!!!

Get Down Make Love
Stole this from Klover who stole it from Lil Boops..who got it from Captain Anonymous, who got it from Spiker, who got it from Leah♊Alissa, who got it from ℑÿïç, and so on, and so on, and so on... Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist:Nine Inch Nails (d'uh) Are you a male or female? Non-Entity Describe yourself: Me, I'm Not How do you feel: The Perfect Drug Describe where you currently live: Down In It If you could go anywhere, where would you go: The Day the Whole World Went Away Your favorite form of transportation: The Way Out is Through Your bestfriend is: Closer You and your best friends are: We're in this Together What's the weather like: Sunspots Favorite time of day: In This Twilight If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: M

Guess Who's Back?!?!?
thats right boys and girls i graduated the 65 day program last night so i am free for the day...im at the library right now so i only have an hour so make it good..haha its been 66 days without a smoke for me also and i feel great...no cravings and i cant even stand the smell anymore i am on case management which means i work and pay rent until i get my own place which i hope is soon i missed you all and if your letters came back i think it was because of the wrong zip so here is the new address Andy Smith 622 W. Union St Jacksonville,FL 32202 so i have been cooped up with dudes for 65 days i need to see real boobs so please for the love of god titty me :)

Need Your Support And Votes....
As Many of you know I am an avid Photography fan, I enjoy all the beauty and creativity one can find through photography. Well My college held a contest in October and I said what the hell and entered. Well I would greatly appreciate any and all support so that I may have my photo as a finalist so that it may be posted on campus as a school art piece. I have enclosed two links to two different contest where you can place your vote. Although I have more than one photo entered the one I would appreciate votes for is the one I took of a hand reaching out. " I thought it made a powerful statement of how Education is the Hand reaching out to a better brighter future. "Feel free to leave comment also http://cpccphotovote.slinkset.com/categories/56853-cpcc-themecontest → link to The Hand of Education photo, Rick Moffett 4 http://cpccphotovote.slinkset.com/categories/56863-non-cpcc-theme → Link to the Blooming Flower photo By: Rick Moffett

Power Equals Lost Of Sanity?(the Thoughts Of Mem Chapter 14)
Is Sanity The Price To Pay For Power? I Ask Myself That Everyday. Because It Seems That Everyone In Power Has Lost Their Damn Mind. They Keep Spending And Spending When There Is Nothing To Spend. Other Leaders Kill People For Some Of The Same Ideas I Type. Maybe I'm Insane Because People Read And Take Into Account My Typed Words? It Wouldn't Surprise Me If I Was. I Mean Some Pieces I Have Posted Were Good In Nature. Some Wishful Thinking. Others On How I Feel About My Self At That Point In Time. Then There Are Those Few That I Knew Would Cross The Line If I Lived In A Country Without Freedom Of Speech. Do I Stand By What I Type? Of Course I Do!!!! I Wouldn't Have Typed Them If I Didn't. Even If I Didn't Live In America I Would Type Them. Why You Ask? Well It's Simple Really... I Stand By What I Believe And I'm Not Afraid If I Was Martyred For My Words. Then So Be It... That Would Just Make Me A Legend. You Got Countless People Who Were Martyred For Their Beliefs...Jesus,

The Power Of The Human Voice For Times Of Change(the Thoughts Of Mem Chater 13)
I See Things Today As I See Them Before. The World Is In Turmoil, Everything Is Torn. Families Struggling Just To Eat, Chaos Is Born. The Rich get Richer As The Poor Gets Poorer. The Lies Of The Governments Get Bigger Every Day. "We'll Be OK We Just Got To Stand Together". Well Where Are You As Countless Soldiers Die? Where Are You While Mothers Cry? Why Does The Price For Freedom Have To Be So High? Why Must There Be Wars For There To Be Peace? Why Can't We Just Stand Together Without Any Fears? Stop All The Hate And All The Tears. It's Not To Much To Bear If We All Bear it Together. We Can Be Mighty As They Say..The Pen Is Mightier Than The Sword. Our Voice Is Stronger Than Any Missile...Any Gun...Any Weapon That Can Be Made. All We Have To Do Is Use It For Change To Be Made!!!! As It Is Written As So It Shall Come To Pass Quote The MEMesis NEVERMORE!!!!

George Bush Can’t Believe He Missed Out On Nobel Peace Prize By Just A Few Months
Ex-President George W Bush was said to be cursing his luck at the weekend, after he discovered that Barack Obama, his successor in the presidency was named the winner of the Nobel Peace Prize, just a short time after he himself left the position. ‘I was in the job for eight years, and that entire time I never had any luck with any prizes and competitions. I didn’t win a darned thing – except that war in Iraq of course, ain’t that right Dick?’ It was the same throughout the Bush presidency, according to the former leader of the free world, where Bush says he was always missing out on things due to bad timing. ‘Day after day I’d be stuck in boring meetings talking about really dull subjects like the Federal reverse physical policy, yet as soon as I leave to do something else I could hear everybody in the room laughin’ and whoopin’ and having a grand ole time. Dick said it was something to do with my presidential gravalax, but I thi

Women Are Bad People...
I submit that men are better people than women, and I'll give you an example. Now this is only one example, I may come up with more later I haven't given it that much thought yet, but I've been drinking so here we go. Should a man have sex with a woman and for some reason slights her in some way she will proceed to tell all her friends about how small this gentleman's penis is any many laughs will be had at his expense. Now I don't know if they think they are trying to tell us something that we don't know by making fun of our size, but I'm here to tell you, I know exactly how small my penis is because I've measured it. I know the size and have come to terms with it, now a woman will never know the size of her vagina because guys will never tell them because we're good people.

The End Is Here
You know it's always hard to talk about what you have on your mind, when there is so much to say, that you just don't know where to begin. I've been on here since April of 2009. since then i've met alot of cool people, even made a few friends, even fell in love & still am. But the thing is, I've been on this level for about 2 months. Yes i pushed myself to level, faster & harder than most people. But, before i left to San Diego back in June of 2009. i've had 2 AUTO's & 1 BOMB. I've paid for my own VIP for 2-3 months along with some1 else's for the same duration of mine. Then i was given 1 by a friend which lasted it's normal time 1 month. Since then i've had little help with anything. Even felt like closing my acct. at different times, until now that time had come. I even lost out on buying another AUTO & BOMB because of that same friend needed a new owner. That person cost me $14 mil fu-cash, then expired on me, then she costed me $22 mil fu-cash. Now that same person had promised t

Back To The Gym
I started going back to the gym yesterday. It felt good to be able to work out again. I can't recall the last time I been at the gym. Maybe my weight loss will go faster with me working out lol since I haven't been working out at all with all the weight I lost. Yesterday, I was putting on some old clothes I had. Jeans that are way too big for me..more clothes for goodwill. I was finally able to wear the pair of pants that my mother in law got me many years ago. Yay!! I texted her and told her that I was finally able to wear them...they're not even tight. I think sometime soon I'll be going down another pant size. I would look at myself in these certain pant size and be just amazed. I never thought I'd be able to lose the weight that I have and I'm still going. DId some christmas shopping. I think I might try to hit the mall again tomorrow or next week. I even decorated my place with some xmas stuff. Wish I was tall enough to put christmas lights out, but I can't even reach what i want

100 Dumb Questions
WHAT WAS YOUR:1. last beverage = Coffeeeeeeeeeee!2. last phone call = Heavy breather3. last text message = None4. last song you listened to = Paralyzing Ignorance by Meshuggah5. last time you cried = Been a whileHAVE YOU EVER:6. dated someone twice = I outdated someone...7. been cheated on = Ya My sister used to cheat playing monopoly. She was such a brat!8. kissed someone & regretted it = yes. the damn dog, yuck!9. lost someone special = yea, my best friend. But I found her at the mall10. been depressed = no, never, not me11. been drunk and threw up = Ugh tequila!!LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:12. Black13. Blacker14. BlackestTHIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)15. Made a new friend = yeah16. Fallen out of love = No, but I fell out of the car :/17. Laughed until you cried = I laughed til I peed!18. Met someone who changed you = I can change my clothes by myself, TYVM19. Found out who your true friends were = Not yet, I'll be watching tho20. Found out someone was talking about you = Everybody talks

Victim Of The Velocity~by Jd
This is the moment to live, This is the moment to die, This is the moment you missed throughout your self reflection. This is the moment that is gonna make you, While the rest tear you down, This is that one change at all or nothing, Will you live or will you die? Will you catch a break, Can there be a chance to survive? To the edge of the earth this battle will be fought, The lights fill the night sky. Drop down to your knees, Kiss this exsistance goodbye, This is the day of reckoning and this time its too little too late for last goodbyes. Are you the victim? This is your moment of truth so why chose to lie? Bend eternity to your liking, Or break as you remain content on hiding behind your disguise. The yin and the yang, Well spoken but never quiet loud enough, This is that one realization we have as it all falls down, Break into pieces nothing more than matter behind dusty eyes. Gather all your strength, This attack is going to be the one that hurts the most, K

Dead Of Night
We're snowed in ... and the lights flicker. Surrounded, trapped. Voices echo across the fallen snow. It's so bright we forget it is the dead of night. How easy to dismiss our fears to explain away our fright. How sad to come across your demons in the dead of night. 3/1/09 JGH

Winter
I love winter because my life has always been winter and when the ice cracks and things start to melt and bloom I am not used to it this thing they call happiness I always wonder if maybe it is just not meant for me…

I Hate This Crap
Fucking Helly! Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. NOOOOOOOOOO You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist: Manowar Are you a male or female? King of Kings Describe yourself: Warlord How do you feel: Hail and Kill Describe where you currently live: Valhalla If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Kingdom Come Your favorite form of transportation: Ride the Dragon Your bestfriend is: Dark Avenger You and your best friends are: Gods of War What's the weather like: Black Wind, Fire and Steel Favorite time of day: The Dawn of Battle If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Kill With PowerWhat is life to you: Blood of My EnemiesYour current relationship: Death Tone

Ok....i Couldnt Wait.......
Pick your Artist: Led Zeppelin Are you a male or female I'm a man Describe yourself: Dazed And Confused How do you feel: Ten Years Gone Describe where you currently live: Misty Mountain Hop If you could go anywhere, where would you go: South Bound Suarez Your favorite form of transportation: Im Gonna Crawl Your bestfriend is: Poor Tom You and your best friends are: Sick Again What's the weather like: The Rain Song Favorite time of day: In the Evening If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: In my time of DyingWhat is life to you: The Battle of Evermore Your current relationship: The Girl i love she got long black wavy hairYour fear(s):When the Levee BreaksThought for the Day: Nobodys Fault but Mine How I would like to die: Out on the TilesMy soul's present condition: Achilles Last Stand Most Faithful C

Short Stack.
Ever want something completely outside your means.Like a pet tiger? Someone to worshipin close confined metaphorslips taste like cherries. Skin tickles like ice.Fingers dance like isotopescolliding in tubes. I'll gladly take youto where the pillars once fellif you have the time. Pretend for a whilelike this isn't the high point-that its all downhill. Then I'll promise morerainy dawns to lazy noonsand we'll be happy. We can stay this way.As long as I can hold youwith wet ink, and lust.

Stolen Stuff
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!Pick your Artist:MetallicaAre you a male or female?I am EvilDescribe yourself:Harvester of SorrowHow do you feel:Creeping Death (sick)Describe where you currently live:Wherever I may RoamIf you could go anywhere, where would you go:Trapped Under IceYour favorite form of transportation:Ride the LightningYour bestfriend is:Stone Cold CrazyYou and your best friends are:FranticWhat's the weather like:BlitzkriegFavorite time of day:All Nightmare LongIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called:For Whom the Bell TollsWhat is life to you:UnforgivenYour current relationship:Nothing Else MattersYour fear:Enter SandmanThought for the Day:Frayed Ends of SanityHow I would like to die:Damage Inc.My soul's present condition:BlackenedMost Faithful Companion:OrionMy motto: Seek

Today I Have Proven That Time Can Move In Slow Motion...
I'm going to do a lot of rambling here, so bear with me if you dare. I'm a lot shaken, feel like I should be scared, and deeply disappointed in myself. I had a drs appt. for my best four-legged friend, my cat cole. He is having problems with an ear and it looks like we have to aputate it. It's either that or put him down. It's just his ear, hes only 8, and he's my best friend. I would do anything for him. The closest vet surgeon is a little over an hour away from me, and my appt. just so happens to be on a day we have a winter weather advisory. I was on the on ramp curving into the merge lane, there was an orange semi next to me. I tapped my brakes to merge behind him, and I hit a patch of ice. My back tires went left, and I over-corrected by wretching the steering wheel left and lost control. I slammed into a semi trailer at a 45 degree angle at 40 mph. It smashed my drivers side window in and pinched it in such a way as to buckle in my windshield. I hit the left side to

Holy Crapcakes!!
Gah. I got hit with this by Kerry, who stole it from James, who stole it from... aww, I dunno, but now I gotta do it. Dammit. Those of you who I show it to - don't hate me. Or, hate me if ya want. idgaf. :P Pick your Artist:Metallica Are you a male or female? Master0fPuppets Describe yourself: Am I Evil? How do you feel: Frayed Ends Of Sanity Describe where you currently live: Sanitarium If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Wherever I May Roam Your favorite form of transportation: Ride The Lightning Your bestfriend is: Of Wolf And Man You and your best friends are: Metal Militia What's the weather like: Trapped Under Ice Favorite time of day: Dyers Eve If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Invisible KidWhat is life to you: Blackened Your current relationship: Aint My BitchYour fear(s): Some Kind Of MonsterThought for the Day: Fight Fire With Fire How I would like to die: To Live Is To DieMy soul's present condition: Fade To Black Most Faithfu

My Life In Songs
Stole this from Kloverlynn who stole it from my Lil Boops..who gotit from Captain Anonymous, who got it from Spiker, who got it from Leah♊Alissa, who got it from ℑяïз, and so on, and so on, and so on... Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist:Disturbed Are you a male or female? Mistress Describe yourself: Perfect Insanity How do you feel: I'm Alive Describe where you currently live: Land of Confusion If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Hell Your favorite form of transportation: RunYour bestfriend is: God of the MindYou and your best friends are:DehumanizedWhat's the weather like: Droppin' PlatesFavorite time of day: The NightIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called: A Welcome BurdenWhat is life to you: Pain RedefinedYour current relat

Stole This From The Captain. ;)
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!Pick your Artist:Brooks and DunnAre you a male or female?Cowgirls don't cryDescribe yourself:Redneck Rythm and BluesHow do you feel:All Out of LoveDescribe where you currently live:Way GoneIf you could go anywhere, where would you go:Go WestYour favorite form of transportation:Boot Scootin' BoogieYour bestfriend is:She's the kind of troubleYou and your best friends are:Still in love with youWhat's the weather like:Neon MoonFavorite time of day:Beer ThirtyIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called:Born and Raised in Black and WhiteWhat is life to you:Deny, Deny, DenyYour current relationship:One Heartache at at timeYour fear:My Next Broken HeartThought for the Day:Still in love with youHow I would like to die:One More Roll of the diceMy soul's present condition:Our

The Ring Of Zeppelin
While i went looking for the lord of the rings video, set to zeppelins "Ramble On" (Rob,or anyone else, if you find it, let me know. I want to blog that one too), i came across this long piece of work on Live leak. I hope it embeds correctly. A very long tribute, awesomely done, to many of zeps tunes. The Ring of Zeppelin

Cleaning House
Sorry to imform those who don't give a damn whether i rate/fan you, but your time is up!! Find someone else........ For the Fu-Friends n Family who appreciate not when i rate/fan them, but my friendship as well: You're in the clear!!

Leaving On The Midnite Train.. Lol
Well, It was fun for awhile. Then came the buy me's, the the add a friend that never talks to you.. lol they just wanna get higher on the list.. Then of course there are the haters.. u know who you are.. lol Then of course you rate people but they never rate back.. so i'm done for now... my be back in the future.. I will not forget you guys and girls of FU... Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.. Peace!! Smitty..

I Dont Know What To Call It
u know i got alot on my mind alot what i say dont always come out the way i want and ppl take it the wrong way and it would seems like the one person i love took something i said wrong and i am sorry . what i said was not ment to be mean or sould like telling u what to do . u should know me better after 5 years i would never tell u what to do. u know i never hurt u nomatter what. i hope u read this i want to say alot to u and hope i dont fuck this up. i dont take this site to heart i mean its just a site and i have u in real life all that matters. what bugs me is when someone put u down. that bugs me cuz u are my everything. there is nothing i wouldnot do for u just look in your heart u know it to be true and if u dump me cuz of this site i would still love u and try to protect u u all i want in life all i need so let me know something i love u. love u so much i show side of me i always hide the human side cuz u mean so much to me i make a fool out of my self to make u happy ant that w

Trusting You
Everyday I get more afraid Of giving my heart away Scared of what love will bring Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say I find myself lost in you Not sure if I want to be I see the looks that you give And wonder what you see in me I don’t want my heart broken But I am so in love I can’t seem to give up A guy sent from above So I’m gonna trust you Please don’t let me down For I am giving you a chance To turn my life around Don’t take it for granted ‘Cause it might not last long I have weak thoughts And my heart isn’t too strong I’m putting my life in your hands Now it’s all up to you I look forward to the places we go And the things we’ll be put through But remember that I’m vulnerable And I can’t stand to be hurt I want to be at the top of your list But I don’t have to be first Believe me when I tell you That I love you with all my heart That I’m here for you forever and always Just like I was

One More Day
I'm so sad and depressed Is all I want to do is rest I go to sleep at night But my dreams I just can't fight I think of you lying in that bed And wonder if there is anything I could have said I wish I was still there with you But I know that you are still near I love you more than you know I just wish I didn't have to go I just want one more day with you And I know thats what you would have wanted too I miss you more and more each day There is so much more we had to say I know I will see you again But my life is just started to begin Wriiten By M David

What Field Of Science Are You?
You Are Astronomy This world is not enough for you... literally. You can't help but wonder about what else is out there. You're the type of person who believes that anything is possible, and you'd like to prove it. You are also quite philosophical. You spend a lot of time wondering about our place in the world, how the universe was started, and what the future holds. You may not ever get all the answers you seek, and that's fine with you. Questioning is part of the journey. What Field of Science Are You? Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

From The Darkness
from the darkness he shall walk, his blade held with a steady hand, His mouth covered so you never hear him talk, Walking with deaths intent throughout the land, with beastle rage he attacks his foe, every muscle hard as if made of stone, forever alone in this dance with death, he stands now upon the thresh hold of day, feeling cold and wanting his lover the nights deathly sway.

To You...
To You, Im not going to apologize for anything I have done, Even though i know i said harsh things. Maybe it will make you a better, stroger Person. Sonce you are wear minded and have a lazy soul. Hopefully it wont make you want to corrupt yourself with more pills and alcohol. You should try seeking deep within yourself for you have the control of the switch that you need to turn your own modivations , determinations and drive on. Wild is what you are especially while drinking, for you turn into somone your not, somone that I didnt care for. It is time for me to start a new chapter in my life, Let go of the past in order to move towards the future. They say Love makes you do stupid things... For I cant explain nor express the feelings from the happiness I can remember to the boiling in my blood from you doin what u will to continue hurting me. Im sure it doesnt matter to you. for all i get is "w/e" for everything anymore. This is my last note or contact in a

Tripping The Flight Fantastic
Southwest flight 1609 to San Antonio had been a rough one. The weather was uncooperative and we were being bounced around like Tiger Wood’s Escalade. I nervously stared out the window as we bumped, slipped, and descended closer and closer to the runway. The nervous stares on the other passenger’s faces told the story - it was going to be a relief when we finally touched down. We were only a couple of hundred feet off the ground when it happened.Birds. Freaking birds. You would think any animal would have enough sense to stay away from huge, loud, silvery tubes that go throttling through the sky. But apparently the term “Bird Brain” isn’t meant to be a compliment. No, birds think it’s an awesome idea to collectively go investigate the exact source of the screeching noise. So there I was, already white knuckled and sphincter clenching, when I saw the disconcerting visual of pureed bird parts and a small ball of flame ejecting through the back of the po

Friends
Wayne and Coconut...just two names in the grab bag of life, except to me. In a life with so much darkness and pain, I was blessed with you 2 guys as friends at different times in my journey. Many a road trip, many a lifted beer, many a night in a club drinking, dancing with a hot, half dressed college girl or someones mom, many a hotly contested softball game, many a time side by side listening to bullets zip overhead. Now here I am, the sole survivor..both of you gone from this life at your own hands. The field and the closet in which you took your own lives haunt me at times....and I grieve still. YOU ARE GONE.....BUT NOT FORGOTTEN......because I choose to remember the goofy smile, the generous spirit, the effort put forth by you both to live life. I lift my cup to those that have gone before me......Thank you Shannaliscious for the song" Why" by rascal flatts

The Graceful One
Graceful beauty yet untouched Not ever truly seen Beneath the gossamer veils The beautiful chaos lives It breathes and grows A beautiful contradiction Words that cannot truly express Never what people see Nor able to be what they want Not perfect, not beautiful, always wrong The graceful beauty of chaos in my soul

Numb
Numb………… If I could be so lucky Instead I hear echos I feel the hole in me Growing and taking- More and more. I’m not numb I feel the pain and burn I feel the depth of the hole in my soul I see where it should have gone But it will never be. Numb………… I should be so lucky

The Ghost
I am the ghost that walks these halls Present, but no longer fully here Dreams lay vacant for me now All that could have been is gone Silence fills the rooms While screams echo in my soul Torn and ripped asunder My heart beats no more I wasn’t able to scale those walls So here I am, the ghost of what I was

A Different Christmas Poem
I came across this today in a town newspaper and felt it needed to be shared. The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed around the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelidds were heavy, my breathing was deep, secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near. But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, A lone figure stood, his

Blogatry
Stole this from spiker, who robbed many others to get it: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist: Led Zeppelin Are you a male or female? Achilles Last Stand Describe yourself: Fool in the Rain How do you feel: The Song Remains The Same Describe where you currently live: The Ocean If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Misty Mountain Hop Your favorite form of transportation: Moby Dick) Your bestfriend is: Black Dog You and your best friends are: Trampled Under Foot What's the weather like: Rain Song Favorite time of day: In The Light If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Immigrant Song What is life to you: Stairway To Heaven Your current relationship: Dancing Days Your fear: When the Levee Breaks Thou

Thinking It Over...
i can think of a number of thing'sthat i'd love to share.in my first statment what i'm working toward's is a spritual awakeingand to me that mean's to be able to see everthing in life.and to feel happy and free and to make my life bettertowards my family.and not let any one or any man put me downagain.i am a person and a very sexy lady or at least i think i am no woman should go through life being scared of a man and to say whats on her mind a woman can't be scared.some men are week but most men are strong and would slap the shit out of you in a heart beat.take it from mr it's happen to me i was so scared for my life that i did'nt know which way to go.or where to hide i walked around with so much guilt and bruses all over me. i was a shame to go out i lost a baby at 3 months because of a man. i have never talked about this and i wanted to get it off my chest !!!!!! always sammyjo

Jessica Simpson Catches Another Pass
No longer catching passes from Tony Romo, Jessica Simpson is reportedly smooching with Billy Corgan the front man for Smashing Pumpkins. According to the reports her buddies think he’s to old for her. Why would they think that? He’s only 42. If he has to take those sex drugs to get it up then they have a point. If Jessica’s cool with it then let them be. What do you think? Click for the article. http://entertainment.blogs.foxnews.com/2009/12/09/report-jessica-simpson-smitten-with-musician-billy-corgan/?test=faces No drugs needed at BlastFM. We get it up 24/7 for your listening pleasure. We’re always rocking it! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

The Source Of Goods Would Be A Sign
Sold out Uggs classic style, are difficult to distinguish between genuine and fake, and even now packing boxes above the bar code trademarks are the Detector can test out, unless you call the official telephone calls, newspaper production number. How else you can do to differentiate? All of the above remarks are nonsense for so many years I have done a little experience in the shoeC the market is floating around, what is the real Australia, UGG, etc. In fact, production plants in or do, but also come from Australia, where imports UGG, just hung up a sign in Australia, with relatively low-cost labor to increase high-margin fills, but really works out of the shoes are more styles, but we have this line, in order to survive one, it is impossible to achieve ugg boots full article , in order to a sales, the market can only be achieved best-selling products, but also to reduce the risk of the plant. Production cost is very expensive, do not accept the popular styles, sales can not for

Dr. Benway Operates
The lavatory has been locked for three hours solid…. I think they are using it for an operating room…. NURSE: “I can’t find her pulse, doctor.” DR. BENWAY: “Maybe she got it up her snatch in a finger stall.” NURSE: “Adrenalin, doctor?” DR. BENWAY: “The night porter shot it all up for kicks.” He looks around and picks up one of those rubber vacuum cups at the end of a stick they use to unstop toilets…. He advances on the patient…. “Make an incision, Doctor Limpf,” he says to his appalled assistant…. “I’m going to massage the heart.” Dr. Limpf shrugs and begins the incision. Dr. Benway washes the suction cup by swishing it around in the toilet-bowl…. NURSE: “Shouldn’t it be sterilized, doctor?” DR. BENWAY: “Very likely but there’s no time.” He sits on the suction cup like a cane seat watching his assistant make the incisi

*another Virus Alert*
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To All
"To John Dillinger and hope he is still alive.Thanksgiving Day November 28 1986" Thanks for the wild turkey andthe passenger pigeons, destinedto be shat out through wholesomeAmerican guts. Thanks for a continent to despoiland poison. Thanks for Indians to provide amodicum of challenge anddanger. Thanks for vast herds of bison tokill and skin leaving thecarcasses to rot. Thanks for bounties on wolvesand coyotes. Thanks for the American dream,To vulgarize and to falsify untilthe bare lies shine through. Thanks for the KKK. For nigger-killin' lawmen,feelin' their notches. For decent church-goin' women,with their mean, pinched, bitter,evil faces. Thanks for "Kill a Queer forChrist" stickers. Thanks for laboratory AIDS. Thanks for Prohibition and thewar against drugs. Thanks for a country wherenobody's allowed to mind theown business. Thanks for a nation of finks. Yes, thanks for all thememories-- all right let's seeyour arms! You always were a headache andyou always were a bore. Tha

Response To Miss Friendly's Mumm: Help Me (waaaaaaay Over The 2000-character Restriction)
...the love you have in your heart has nothing to do with the lack of love in others' hearts or their inability to love or to appreciate the love you have offer them...sometimes distance can be used as an excuse not to pursue love (as countless other things can be used for the same purpose) BUT, in my humble opinion, anytime one can FEEL love and revel in its beauty and warm is never a bad time...YOU possess the ability to love and no matter what mode (web, letters/penpals, phone, face-to-face, etc.) the sensations of soaring emotionally into something that can make you helpless and vulnerable has its rewards as it has its "penalties"...and SO WHAT! the heart is resilient and protects us when in "combat" against fools and "gamers" who do not appreciate the value of emotions...so go out and flaunt your heart to the world, otherwise it'll shrivel up and slowly die from lack of use and being denied the adventures it is made to take us on...give that lil fucker as good a workout as you can

A Dance Through The Sky
I dance through the sky on shining red wings, I loop and I roll and do other such things; And when I'm up here I have not a care, for here I belong I'm at peace in the air; This dance that I do for the people to see, takes lots of hard work but it's all fun to me; So when I come down just ask me to dance, we'll waltz through the clouds if you just take the chance. This is one of the most beautiful poems I have ever read. It's fits my daddy so well, I thought it was written just for him.

High Flight
Oh, I have slipped the surly bonds of earth and danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings; Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth. Of sun-split clouds - and done a hundred things. You have not dreamed of - wheeled and soared and swung high in sunlit silence. Hov'ring there, I've chased the shouting wind along, and flung my eager craft through footless hills of air. Up, up the long, delirious, burning blue, I've topped the windswept heights with easy grace where never lark, or even eagle flew. And, while with silent, lifting mind I've trod, the high untrespassed sanctity of space, put out my hand, and touched the face of God. This is one of my daddy's favorite poems

Nsfw Images On Comments, Blogs, Mumms, Profiles, Etc!
If you are posting PORN or overly NSFW comment tags on people's profile you will be either deleted or suspended from leaving comments for a week. If you have multiple accounts, we will suspend all of your accounts and/or delete you. This is clearly posted on the site. NSFW content must be marked. Comments, blogs, bulletins, stash, etc, etc. fall under this. If you are reading this blog because you are getting an error message when you post comments, bulletins, blogs, etc, I would rethink about the content you're posting. You are suspended for violating this policy. You are more than welcome to put your favorite NSFW content in a photo album and mark it NSFW. If you are a repeat offender, your profile will be deleted. The majority of people here do not want to be forced to look at soft porn when cruising the site. If you see someone who is abusing their comment privs, please report to a bouncer.

If You Have Flown
There are no words that can express, the magic of that wilderness. That wilderness way up high, where banks of clouds float softly by and hide the problems of earth below. But then you know, if you have flown. If you have flown, then you know the beauty of the world below. The meadows green, the waters sapphire blue, you've felt that it belonged only to you. And as your ship obeyed your slightest will, you've felt a thrill...if you have flown. To those who sail the sky about, comes peace of mind and understanding love. There is no bitterness in the sky, as gently earth and clouds drift by. All is beautiful, serene. You know exactly what I mean, if you have flown.

Rogue River Pilot
If the walls of this canyon could talk they would tell, of a Rogue River pilot we loved and knew well. With a permanant smile and that look in his eye, in a '55 Cessna 180 through the canyon he fly. Rogue River pilot share your passion to fly. Over the mountain tops high in the sky. Up through the canyon where the bald eagles soar, and over the threshold of heaven's door. San Jose strawberries flown in for dessert, they found Paradise right here on Earth. An oasis for him and his co-pilot Beth, rest up a little and just catch their breath. Rogue River pilot share your passion to fly. Over the mountain tops high in the sky. Up through the canyon where the bald eagles soar, and over the threshold of heaven's door. Then one fateful day on a morning in June, they took with berries bound for Half Moon. Four souls went to heaven when God called them home. Left us all heart broke, sad, and alone Rogue River pilot share your passion to fly. Over the mountain tops high in the sky.

The Personal Choices You Sometimes Have To Make...
I went to counseling today at the local VA Clinic and I discussed the test next week and the decision that is weighing heavily on me.The guilt I feel for wanting to say "no" to any surgery that may prolong my life VS living with the Bipolar world that won't let me off the roller coaster.She gave me the advanced directive paperwork and I took it home so here I sit....Who do I ask to honor my last wishes?I have only one true friend left and he is suffering with melanoma that keeps recurring on him and I don't want to burden him in this way.I am not supposed to ask anyone who might be financially responsible for my care or my burial so I can't ask my elderly parents.I want to ask my ex-wife #2, the mother of my children but we aren't exactly on the greatest of terms and I am pretty sure she would decline to be involved in anyway.I don't trust my sister to honor my wishes upon my getting ill enough for them to be honored in the manner in which I want.This leaves me with only my older broth

Amen For Heavy Metal M /
Of all rock & roll's myriad forms, heavy metal is the most extreme in terms of volume, machismo, and theatricality. There are numerous stylistic variations on heavy metal's core sound, but they're all tied together by a reliance on loud, distorted guitars (usually playing repeated riffs) and simple, pounding rhythms. Heavy metal has been controversial nearly throughout its existence -- critics traditionally dismissed the music as riddled with over-the-top adolescent theatrics, and conservative groups have often protested what they perceive as evil lyrical content. Still, despite -- or perhaps because of -- those difficulties, heavy metal has become one of the most consistently popular forms of rock music ever created, able to adapt to the times yet keep its core appeal intact. For all its status as America's rebellion soundtrack of choice, heavy metal was largely a British creation. The first seeds of heavy metal were sown in the British blues movement of the '60s, specifically among b

Results For Tarot Card Test
You are The MoonHope, expectation, Bright promises.The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition. What Tarot Card are You?Take

Bloggery
Stole this from Leah♊Alissa, who got it from ℑяïз: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Pick your Artist:The BeatlesAre you a male or female?Mother Nature's SonDescribe yourself:Nowhere ManHow do you feel:I Feel FineDescribe where you currently live:Helter SkelterIf you could go anywhere, where would you go:Here, There and Everywhere (or Magical Mystery Tour)Your favorite form of transportation:Yellow Submarine (obviously)Your bestfriend is:Polythene PamYou and your best friends are:Three Cool CatsWhat's the weather like:Good Day SunshineFavorite time of day:Any Time at AllIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called:A Day in the LifeWhat is life to you:The Long and Winding RoadYour current relationship:Hallelujah, I Love Her SoYour fear(s):Taxman / When I'm Sixty-FourThought f

Suicide Girls??
so i'm takin the plunge in finally applying to be a suicide girl... yea i know finally...dang...neways i need help with pic choices to submit... this is what is says for pictures: Your pictures should give an accurate impression of what you look like. You do not need to be nude, but they must show your face clearly. Try to let your personality shine through. so help me pwease....put the link in here to let me know which one's r good and awesome pics..lol for suicide girls..not just for fubar... i am going to take new one's though...so we'll c

Boobs!!
Ok, now that I got your attention. I have a favor to ask you all. It's very simple and won't take up too much of your time. I was recently asked, nicely, to take down my previous picture because it showed too much cleavage. I obliged, with protest though. So I need help choosing another default. That's where YOU come in. I need you to go to my BOMB FOLDER and find a picture you like and has little to no cleavage showing. Thanks so much!! I'll be giving gifts and maybe even BLING (hehe) to those that help.

Join My Turf
If you want to join the most loyal and helpful turf on fubar come and join us. We welcome all low ranks to high rnaks if you need a good home click the link and you have found it. http://www.fubar.com/mafia/join.php?acceptinv=11982&turfreq=3076

Sdmf
SDMF is a the creation of Black Label Society--a band led by Ozzy Ozborne's guitarist Zakk Wylde. SDMF is a unique hybrid of shared ideals and fan club. The actual acronym is most commonly read out as either "Society Dwelling Mother Fucker" or "Strength Determination Merciless Forever". The BLS ‘Chapters’ system is not any sort of official club or organization, it is just a way to describe a BLS fan from a certain area. For example, if you are a BLS fan and live in New Jersey, you are automatically a member of the New Jersey Chapter. Black Label Society Bylaws And Code of Honor God, Family, Beer Suicide Is Not An Option Complaints Dept. Closed Live Life Stronger Than Death Thou Shalt Not Spilleth The Beer!!! Refuse To Loose/Born To Booze!!! Respect Is To Be Shown To All Society Dwellers Worldwide Colors Must Be Worn To all Black Label Society Shows And Events FEAR NO BEER BLEED BLACK LABEL SOCIETY R.I.P DIMEBAG DARRELL

A Letter From Ben Stein
The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary.My confession: I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees, Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are, Christmas trees. It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away. I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I

El Chupacabra
There have been hundreds of reported sightings of El Chupacabra. Translated into English, El Chupacabra simply means "goat-sucker". Named this for the strange way in which El Chupacabra has been reported to kill its prey. Reportedly, it hypnotizes its prey and then punctures the neck and sucks the blood, and on occasion the organs, through one or two holes. As its name implies the main prey reported are goats though it has been reported to also attack horses, chickens, and sheep. First reported in 1992, El Chupacabra was originally named El Vampiro de Maco. It was named this by newspapers for the small town of Moca in Puerto Rico where it was first sighted. Thought to have been the work of a satanic cult because of the strange killings the reports of killings started spreading around the island and were soon dismissed. El Chupacabra has been reported in several countries including Mexico and the United States. There are three descriptions given for El Ch

Chuck E. Cheese - For A 14 Year Old Kid?
There are many mysteries about Chuck E. Cheese's. What, for instance, does the "E." stand for? Is the cartoon mouse mascot of that name the same figure Rickie Lee Jones wrote about in her 1979 hit, "Chuck E.'s in Love"? And when the chain's signature ball pits were removed a few years back, were the discarded balls more or less virulent than your average emergency room garbage bag? The big one lately, though, is this: When you go to Chuck E. Cheese's, should you bring the brass knuckles or the nunchucks? You understand why families visit this boisterous restaurant featuring animatronic musicians. It's a relatively cheap, convenient way to throw a birthday party, and most kids, happily pumping tokens into the games, don't notice how tightly their grown-ups may be gritting their teeth. Yet in the past few years Chuck E. Cheese's has developed a reputation as a sort of impromptu fight club, a place where fisticuffs break out almost as often as complaints about the pizza. Just over

Dreams
Dreams Dreams are deceiving. My dream last night started out simple enough. It was a cool morning the sun popping over the horizon. I stand there my hand trembling trying to knock on your door. As I start to knock the door flings open. There you are smiling. As beautiful as i had imagined. You whisk Hunter up holding him tight. As you sit him back down you grab my hand. The smile leaving your face. You take my hand lead me inside. You lead me to the couch never taking your eyes off me. You lean in and whisper something to Hunter. A single tear rolling down your face. You Lead me to my car. As Hunter and I get in you whisper "I'm sorry". I pull away watching you in the rear view mirror tears start falling. As you disappear from my view Hunters says I'll Take care of you DADDY. I then awake leaving me wondering why what when........I LOVE YOU......WAITING ON A WOMAN

Own Some Honey :]
So Ive decided to auction myself off.. To the highest bidder.To bid just leave a comment.Dont make a bid if you aint serious about it. 1)as much pic rates cont.. thru out the month 2)Two tickers thru out ownership 3)Top friends 4)gets my crush for a month 5)random bling 6)daily rerate 7)Make sure you stay shitfaced 8)christmas card from me(must be single or non-jealous other) 9)Link on my page 10)couple of salutes 11)Special salute more to be added...Promise you wont complain about one thing :D

Love
Love is an endless stream of surprises Joyful filled bliss that hits your heart hard Falling like your world has been torn from under you Sometimes you hit bottom and realize it wasn’t real Sometimes you float forever With the feeling that it’s perfect in every way With the hope that you will feel like that everyday A heart is a fragile gift you give others No control over what happens to it and why United in a bond where your soul has found its match This love is not always spoken but felt by many No need for words when its power is wonderful Live your life to find this happiness When you find it never let go…….

Gold Rush Baby Cum On!
so i just realized something while watching a commercial for yet another cash for gold company and in lite of glen becks Goldline connection, What if these cash for gold companies (which target broke ass mofos with shitty 10k gold that is worth next to nothing in that state, BUT melt it, refine it and BINGO you have very valuable 900$+ an ounce 24-28 kt gold.) are subsidiary companies of Goldline? SO they manage to collect all this gold from the welfare riche for pennies on the dollar then refine it and resell it to the rich republicans that listen to that fear mongering monster Glen Beck, who gets rich of his kick backs from Goldline. Viva la Capitalism !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Out Of The Box
The third dimension is often referred to as 'In The Box'. When your polarities merge, your male and female aspects will move 'Out of the Box' igniting and creating union with your Twin Flame or Twin Aspect. As consciousness moves toward reunion, people miss their twin soul aspect and feel incomplete, often abandoned, lost, and depressed. They cannot find themselves. A piece of themselves is always missing. They search for it in third dimension but never completely find it. If they are lucky, they find someone who comes close to making them feel whole. They want someone to love them, share with them and help them through this journey. While here, you can meet someone who acts as a catalyst, carrying the frequency of your Twin Flame, giving you the feeling of union, while making love.

Dec 10, Didnt Know I Had Been Silenced..so U Better Watch Out
Libra - Dec. 10, 2009Today Once upon a time, you were a creature of reason, dear Libra. For you, everything had an explanation, a reason to exist, and a place in this world, and you would never miss an occasion to share your point of view. And then, all of a sudden, silence! You may have needed to get some perspective on things, not necessarily about the things you know but how you express that knowledge. Now, words have come back into your life, and you are more moderate in your ideas

Brandon My Preicous Moon
Brandon my preicous Moon,At the beginning you are just a friend to me, the more I get attrached to you, you had became my boyfriend, once we met, becaming 2 souls into 1, you are my lover. As deep we became into each other as soulmate, we knew in our heart n soul you are my husband.You know how to spoke in so gentle n supportive words to calm me down when I feel stressed out and overwhelmed when things seem not going what I want it to be. Thats the biggest thing I admires you about. All of your affections toward me put me at ease and making everything very comforting.I know I had told you this but I will say it again and maybe again n again down the road, you are the best thing EVER happened to me. I wasn't used to get all of the love, affectings and loving from someone like you. It surely made me feel extra sepcial. It made me cherish you ever more and more everyday. It has and have not yet stop growing.You know, when you look at the sea right? Can you count the every drop of wa

Where Do I Begin?
Wee baby Julia is now three years old and is my great niece, she is small, blonde and the perfect Aryan child that Hitler would have shoved on posters of the propaganda type. Her giant blue eyes that peep at you under the white blonde hair are disarming; she is the wee sister of Abi (famous in her mouse killing video on my YouTube site) and just gorgeous. Luckily Julia hasn’t started killing small mammals; her favourite thing at my house is to pull down the collection of miniature hedgehogs in my hall and make them all kiss each other on my wooden table. A lot of kissing happens and American type chatter, it’s funny that small Scottish kids use a Californian voice when they do ‘play’. American TV has such an effect on children, that annoying nasal voice that inhabit all the cartoon characters eventually come flooding out of the mouths of wee Glaswegians. She asked me to switch on kids TV which I did and I was agog at the adverts for Barbie&rsquo

Stupid Encounter #31 (please Read Botto To Top Its A Sb)
irishcharm: Its too bad because I bet suck a mean ...... irishcharm: Hmmmm....isn't the definition of petafiler, one whom targets those under 18? Didn't you just tell me that your sisters are 18 and 21.......You may not be a petafiler, but you sure are DUMB and need desperately to go back to school to learn how to spell.......haha............What a waste ...... To irishcharm: rightttt thats it 50 and dumb, I might be a biotch but at least im not a petafiler irishcharm: Ur facks r fuked biatch To irishcharm: just stating facks yo irishcharm: wtf? Not nice To irishcharm: arnt you like 50 or something and my sisters are taken irishcharm: Kelly and Valerie look like they may provide a handful of heaven sent..........hehe To irishcharm: my sisters are 21 and 18 irishcharm: How bout your sister brat? To irishcharm: All my friends are guys lol irishcharm: Well? irishcharm: U got any SINGLE friends as ADORABLE as YOU that might wanna chill? To irishcharm: ? irishcharm: omg To iri

Random Thoughts (part 1)
I should be posting the 2nd part of this either the day after my birthday or the day before new years. Everytime I plan something nothing goes right. all my plans are usually derailed by something. So I stopped planning Turning 33 I thought I would have my life in order. With unemployment at 10% (so the news says) I am deciding to focus on the LSAT and go into law school. This decade has been pure hell for me and I am hoping something goes right for me before Dec 31, 2009

My Brethren, Its Been A Long Time Since I Seen Ya How Have You Been?
Some of you may or may not have noticed I havnt been around this place as of late...And honestly I havnt...Mainly because....well...its like this... I watched too many friends turn to foes over who the hell knows, too many faces in this place and it starts with you hoes, Might as well have multiples.... for all the faces put out, if thats the case, half you bitches need like 15 accounts.. Putting this in perspective couldnt be easier to do, if you feel a twitch when you read this im prolly talkin bout you, Now im not the type to point fingers..like alot of you do, if you feel a twitch when you read this im prolly talking bout you, You can always come and ask me, Drow why you so nasty? Im just sick of all you bitches under going persona-plasty.. You can love me up or hate me, bling these nuts or rate me, smile into my face then turn around and say you hate me... Make me...justified in my rants, alotta dudes are wearing britches minus the nuts in their pants... Fakely..be a

So So Sad (a Dogs Tail)
How Could You? by Jim Willis When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask, "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a belly rub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day. Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you pat

Cher Père Noël,
Now listen here mister man, I think I have been fairly good this past year,least in my own eyes..but truly that is all that counts:) After hearing about what you did with Mrs Claus's sissy..you have no right to past any kind of jud...huh??? what do you mean I wasnt post to know?? OOOO I was post to keep it a secret! gotcha. sooo ummm,how bout those leafs??*clears throat* My wish list is not long,nor is it expensive and anyway,shape or form..but this is truly my wish list for this season. 1.Please Give my oldest the confidence in himself to stop wishing he was taller,that taller people are cooler and get to be important people when they grow up. You and I both no this is of course not true,help me inform him that he is perfect just how he is,but yet has plenty time to grow.So maybe a stocking full of patience might be in order. 2.Give my dog Harley Quinn a clue,let her know that tryin to go around itty bitty kitties isnt a good idea since mommy kitty will whoop her butt repeat

I Don't Get It.
I don't get it....I'm not one of those guys on here that comes right out talking "dirty" to women thinking it's "cool to do". I'm not one of the MANY people on here who constantly changing my status begging for something new. Is that why it's so difficult for me to lvl up on this thing? I want to lvl up just like everyone else on here. So does that mean I have to be like everyone else and beg, beg, beg? I just don't understand. Why can't finding people for semi-intelligent conversation lead to some kin

I Believe
A Birth Certificate shows that we were born. A Death Certificate shows that we died. Pictures show that we lived! Have a seat . . . Relax . . .. And read this slowly...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I Believe....

Fyi...
The next time a married man or woman glances your way, you might think twice before acting on impulse and frolicking between satin sheets. The scorned spouse could sue you. Yes, you read that right. You, the paramour, can get hit with a lawsuit that could cost you hundreds of thousands of dollars. They're known as "alienation of affection" suits, when an "outsider" interferes in a marriage. The suits are allowed in seven states: Hawaii, Illinois, Mississippi, New Mexico, North Carolina, South Dakota and Utah. The law allowing such legal action dates back to antiquated times when a wife was considered the property of a husband. A broken-hearted hubby could go after his wife's lover -- not with a gun, but with the law. so if your from these states sorry but i wont look at your junk...who am i kidding yes it will

Send Me Your Fubar Shoutbox/chat Feedback And Suggestions.
Can you please post your feedback, suggestions and wishlist for our chat/shoutbox? What chat client do you use? Please be contructive and keep this blog focused on the questions above. Thanks

A Clue, He Needs One.
To sexysoldie...: yeah, not cool indeed. sexysoldie...: lol wow really? that is pretty jacked up To sexysoldie...: lol Wel puddin most guys want something perverted in return..that is something I pass on of course..due to be a lady.Plus I promise I can live without. sexysoldie...: awwww a guy should get you one! To sexysoldie...: well I cant say no.. I might buy some after christmas and whatnot. sexysoldie...: u want one? To sexysoldie...: I dunno lol I just dont. tis sad its true but I will get over it lol sexysoldie...: hey how r u? awww how come u dont have a vip or blingp ack? You could smell the hint of send me some nakey pics and I'll sportcha a bling pack/VIP a mile away. Do I look like the type of gal that would do so?God I hope not. later days.

Fighting On Line
You know what I think is so juvenile and yet so dam amuzing? Grown up people going into mum's that someone posted and starting a fight. How stupid do you have to be to do this? Have you nothing better to do then to act so childish, and bash and call names to one another, as if your in junior high school. There are alot of issues you can debate, if you really want to get into a covoe about something of importance, not name calling . You could talk about the war, the cost of food, taxes going up, gas prices, bullys on line, such as your self when you pick on others. I may read the mumm's and yes on occassion comment on them, BUT!!! I never ever trash any one or call names. I wont lower myself to that level of stupidity. I think every one who bullys on line, needs a reality check Cause your all nuts!!

[they Call Me Doctor- Doctor Love]
London calling... So today the weather report said it was-8 with wind chill.I spent 40 minutes jimmying my door latch (because when it gets below zero my door goes bananananananas) Now, granted, I've got this exquisite wool overcoat, paper thin gloves, and a full mop-top.I was warmer than I could've beenbut I couldn't feel my hands or feet, pretty damn fast. I get down the driveway, the door swings open wooooooohooooooo So I haul it around, do it again, and finally get the door to secure, hop over my passenger seat (after screaming about 30 FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK's, so much so that my new neighbour came out to see what the hell was going on) and tapping my brakes more rapidly than the X button during the torture scene in MGS.NAOMI!MY ARM HURTS! ...shut up you liked it. I finally get to work, and notice that the parking garage is barren.Still carrying my screwdriver and hopping onto the elevator, I see breakroom lockedlights out at the main entry.... .... Tried my pass card, tried t