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Song: In Heaven
In HeavenVerse 1Look at me. I know it's not easy but someday you'll see. There's a better place beyond this life. And you'll find happiness like mine.In Heaven.CHORUSSo dont look away. Keep your eyes on the prize.And try not to stray.Just stay strong. And know that with Jesus, is where you belong.Please dont give in.Hang on and one day you'll be next to him.In Heaven, in Heaven.Verse 2I know that it's hard, to live a life that scarred by the pain of loss.Just take his hand.Follow his path away from this place.And try not stray from his grace. And you'll find for the first time.That happiness is real and that here thats all that you feel.In Heaven.CHORUSSo dont look away. Keep your eyes on the prize.And try not to stray.Just stay strong. And know that with Jesus, is where you belong.Please dont give in.Hang on and one day you'll be next to him.In Heaven, in Heaven.Verse 3So just close your eyes.There's no need to cry. Cause your struggle is over and soon you'll be by his side.In Heaven.

Song: Dont Go
Don’t Go That’s pretty bad, what you said to me. (duh duh duh duh) That your drowning in apathy. (duh duh duh duh) You don’t care anymore. You don’t want to be here. All you want is to leave me drinking my tears. CHORUS: DON’T GO! don’t go DON’T GO! don’t go I wish you would just take back. (duh duh duh duh) I promise it would be better than that. (duh duh duh duh) If you take my last name it will never be the same. I’ll take you high in the sky. In the rain I’ll keep you dry. CHORUS: DON’T GO! don’t go DON’T GO! don’t go Don’t do this, please don’t go. (duh duh duh duh) Loving you is all I know. (duh duh duh duh) Listen to my flow and know that it’s true. (duh duh duh duh) Just believe I’d do it all for you. CHORUS: DON’T GO! don’t go DON’T GO! don’t go I don’t want it to end like this. (duh duh duh duh)

Song: Its Worth The Fight
It's Worth the Fight It's been a long time coming.Five years in the making.I watched others come and go as I stood there waiting.Smile at me baby.I had hoped you might.I stayed there and waited.Cause it's worth the fight.chorus:You are, you are, you are all I wanted.I won't, I won't, I won't let you leave my sight.Cause it's worth the fight.I'll stay with you baby.I'll never leave your side.Forever I'll stay, for the rest of my life.I'll avoid the light.Strive to stay alive.To hold on to your love.Cause it's worth the fight.chorus:You are, you are, you are all I wanted.I won't, I won't, I won't let you leave my sight.Cause it's worth the fight.Now you'be cut the line and have started to drift away.And with my harsh words I pushed you farther away.I didn't mean to say those things to you. Deep down I knew that......You are all I wanted. And I don't want you to leave my sight.Cause you are worth the fight.

So Here's One For Ya.
I'll try and condense this. I used to work for Bank A. While I worked at Bank A I was stoked becuase I wasn't "the man" anymore. I didn't have to solve ERERY damn problem. I had a role and it was for maintaining the security of the network and web development. While employed with Bank A I had a co-worker who sat in the same office as I. During my run with this bank I would provide ideas and solutions to make the network more effiecient and safe, as well as outline some policy and procedure adjustments that might need to be addressed. Enjoying my time as not being "the man" I slowly watched this coworker act on every email that I sent to my director as a suggestion. All the project ideas I had, he began to implement, of course when he hit a brick road I helped him, I figured, it would be good for him to learn, what I know, share the wealth if you will. Over time I found that I began to do nothing but significant troubleshooting and saving the day tasks. Still made me a valuable emp

The Feeling Deep Inside Me
in life we are ruled by feeling..i wonder why. At times and think about it late at night and come up with nothing... and no matter how hard i try i keep getting the same old feeling for some one i care for and i feel as i mean nothing to her...so i ask what should i do ?

This Could Be A Scam
The chance to finally reform our nation's health care system is here. While Congress moves rapidly to produce a detailed plan, I have made it clear that real reform must uphold three core principles -- it must reduce costs, guarantee choice, and ensure quality care for every American.As we know, challenging the status quo will not be easy. Its defenders will claim our goals are too big, that we should once again settle for half measures and empty talk. Left unanswered, these voices of doubt might yet again derail the comprehensive reform we so badly need. That's where you come in.When our opponents spread fear and confusion about the changes we seek, your support for these core principles will show clarity and resolve. When the lobbyists for the status quo tell Congress to hold back, your personal story will give them the courage to press forward.Join my call: Ask Congress to pass real health care reform in 2009.After adding your name, please consider sharing your personal story about

Eluveitie-omnos
Immi daga uimpi geneta, lana beððos et' iouintutos. Blatus ceti, cantla carami. Aia gnata uimpi iouinca, pid in cete tu toue suoine, pid uregisi peli doniobi? Aia gnata uimpi iouinca, pid in cete tu toue suoine Aia mape coime, adrete! In blatugabagli uorete, cante snon celiIui in cete! Vrit- me lindos dubnon -piseti Vrit- me lindos dubnon -piseti [x2] N'immi mapos, immi drucocu. In cetobi selgin agumi, selgin blatos tou' iouintutos. Nu, uoregon, cu, uorigamos, lamman, cu, suuercin lingamos, indui uelui cantla canamos! N'immi mapos, immi drucocu. In cetobi selgin agumi, Ne moi iantus gnaton uorega, iantus drucocunos uoregon, cante toi in medie cete. Vrit- me lindos dubnon -piseti Vrit- me lindos dubnon -piseti [x2] Cu allate, papon sod urege, eððiIo de iantu in cridie. VediIumi: cante moi uosta! Ne, a gnata, cante t' usstami, ne uostami, ne te carami. Ne carami, nec carasumi. Boua daga uimpi geneta. Immi trouga, lana nariIas. Vrit- me lindos dubnon -piseti. Vrit- me lindos dubn

2010 Hoochie Mama Drive! (free Gear!)
Eros-Oddyssey.com & L.A. Zen team up to give away FREE Hoochie Mama (HM) T-shirts & HM/Screw Hard Gear (SHG) Ballcaps! (*)HOW!:Contact -K- (here @ fubar) and claim your free gear. Women AND men can claim FREE HM/SHG gear! (**) WHAT ELSE!:Model your HM gear & send in your pix so we can post them on the L.A. Zen site, MySpace, Facebook, fubar, etc.Regards,Eros-Odyssey.com & Team L.A. Zen/-K- (Host)PS - FREE toys, lubes, novelties, drinking & 420 games for hottest, funniest & most creative participants. (See L.A. Zen xpeeps' pic folders.)* = We take care of mailing costs.** = Womens small & medium tank tops & scoop necks available. Baseball caps are adjustable, "one size fits all."

Paradise Lost-forever Failure
You must feel frustration Cause your mind feels such temptation And your ways appear a total lack of faith You may feel elation At your body's re-creation And that joy you need, restricted by one thought Are you forever - loss of purpose in a passive life Are you forever - pale, regarded as a waste of time High times are courageous But in truth they suit no purpose Induced, reduced, unable and afraid...... Can you feel rejection And a lack of motivation And the joy you need restricted and delayed

Skinny Puppy-empte
Beat my head to wake up cause I feel as if I'm sleeping past is in the heart and I am waiting for the rhythm feed the holy jaws no saying pain is the answer after all is gone the story leaves me feeling empty and all alone it leaves me feeling emptE breathe we are all animals inside free the spirit is alive to guide us we're all alone and really feeling empty we're all alone when all revenge falls apart taken a step back from the start leaves me feeling empty

Cruxshadows-winterborn
Dry your eyes and quietly bear this pain with prideFor heaven shall remember the silent and the braveAnd promise me they will never see, the fear within our eyes(my eyes are closed)We will give strength to those who still remainSo bury fear, for fate draws nearAnd hide the signs of painWith noble acts, the bravest soulsEndure the heart's remainsDiscard regret, that in this debtA better world is madeThat children of a newer day might rememberAnd avoid our fate(I've waited all day in the pouring rain, but nobody came, no, nobody came)And in the fury of this darkest hourWe will be your lightYou've asked me for my sacrificeAnd I am Winter bornWithout denying, a faith is comeThat I have never knownI hear the angels call my nameAnd I am Winter bornHold your head up high-for there is no greater loveThink of the faces of the people you defend(you defend)And promise me, they will never see the tears within our eyes(my eyes are closed)Although we are men, with mortal sins, angels never crySo bur

Using The Fu To Get Real Work Done..shimmy Schedule
hoping to show off my own belly improvements in the near future.. thank you fus.. LOL Jan 12, 4:00 pm (30 minutes) Shimmy Episode 12 TV-G, CC Dancers begin with a graceful warm-up that prepares the body to dance, then teach new moves including shoulder- rolls, the village-shimmy, and the more challenging belly-rolls, zaar-head and Lebanese hip-circles. Jan 12, 8:00 pm (30 minutes) Shimmy Episode 11 TV-G, CC Dancers teach sequences of four new belly dance moves including the head-slide, the hip-circle, the Egyptian figure-eight, and the Turkish bump. These movements then take shape in a fun and energetic dance. Jan 12, 8:30 pm (30 minutes) Shimmy Episode 14 TV-G, CC Dancers begin with a gentle floor and standing warm-up, then cover some new moves like frontal chest circles and liquid arms, the shoulder shimmy and two variations of hip isolations. The performance combines these moves.

When Things Happen
The truth hurts at times. But the truth only hurts when one person lies in the first place and then you find out a little too late on what truly happened. One thing about being honest though is that when you are honest people have a hard time believing you anyways because so many has lied. Like for instance a guy tells you bluntly that they have a thing for another woman while you are with him in a sense. So many miles apart and shit is it selfish to hold him back and tell him to wait for you? Or do you really want him to be happy? I believe if he comes out and is so honest with you, and you do want him to be happy let him free and let him be happy. Selfless as it may seem, it does hurt, and will hurt. But it's for the best. Why make him wait when he can have something right there in front of him. Stupid some may call it, or foolish, but if you love someone you want them to be happy no matter what. But on the other hand when you have had someone and they keep letting you down and lying

Just What I Feel
i sit here wiht thoughts of you in my head day after day i wish i could tell you what is in my heart for you i see your face in my sleep and everywhere i look i relize i lost the best thing in my life my world is so empty and meaningless without you without you in my life i am nothing but a shell you filled my life with joy light and happiness and i let it all go i love you with all my heart and soul would walk threw the deepest depths of hell and back just to prove my love i am affaid to approach you cuase i know i would screw up on trying to put how i feel into words your my one and only true love and the only one i want to be with I LOVE YOU MY LOVE YOUR MY WOLD AND ONLY REASON FOR BREATHING I WILL ALWAYS BEEN WAITING IN THE SHADOWS MY LOVE MY ANGEL

To All My Lady Friends.
"The lady reading this is beautiful,classy and strong,and I love her.Help her live her life to the fullest.Please promote her and cause her toexcel above her expectations.Help her shine in the darkest placeswhere it is impossible to love.Protect her at all times,lift her up when she needs you the most,andlet her know when she walks with you,She will always be safe.Luv you Girl!!!!Now you're on the clock!!!!In 9 minutes something will make you happy. ;-)But you have to tell 9 sisters you love them,including me. Go!!!!"""""""

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
Remember all the things we wantedNow all our memories they're hauntedWe were always meant to say goodbyeEven with our fists held highIt never would've worked out rightWe were never meant for do or dieI didn't want us to burn outI didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stopI want you to know that it doesn't matterWhere we take this road someone's gotta goAnd I want you to know you couldn't have loved me betterBut I want you to move on so I'm already goneLooking at you makes it harderBut I know that you'll find anotherThat doesn't always make you want to cryStarted with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set inPerfect couldn't keep this love aliveYou know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you goI want you to know that it doesn't matterWhere we take this road someone's gotta goAnd I want you to know you couldn't have loved me betterBut I want you to move on so I'm already goneI'm already gone, already goneYou can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrongI'

01/10-11-12/2010
Genesis 27http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+27&language=english&version=31 Genesis 28http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+28&language=english&version=31 Genesis 29http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+29&language=english&version=31 Genesis 30http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+30&language=english&version=31 Genesis 31http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+31&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays. Genesis 32http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+32&language=english&version=31 &nb

*giggles*
Someone please explain to me how a person can be obsessed with the sounds of a language. For example, you can't speak it, but everytime you hear it, you know it. Your heart skips a beat. For a second you revert to your old teenager self with a longing after your first crush. Is it just me, or do others have a problem with this too? Inquiring minds (well, at least mine anyway) want to know!

Day 1
ok so day 1. heres the scoop: im disappointed to find that being sick took more of a toll on me than i thought. im not 220, im actuall down to 210. FUCK ME so 25 pounds in 10 weeks i feel defeated already. i dont think its possible to put on the kind of size i want to put on in the time frame i have alotted myself. my body doesnt want to be that big. i hover around 215 when i dont work out. thats where my body wants to be. i have to really work hard to stay big. and im thinking now that it wont happen. anyway, the gym was more packed than i thought. tons of new faces but i did see alot of old friends. they all said the same thing... "holy shit, what happened? you used to be HUGE" thanks man. wanna stab me in the eye with a stick or maybe pour some lemon juice in a paper cut while youre at it? FUCK that SUCKED but i did my thing. i stopped myself from overdoing it and being too sore to go back tomorrow. hit up a quick total body workout and will probably do it a few more times

Bra Color Statuses
ok, it's kinda come to my attention after the set ur bra color to ur status to make people aware of beast cancer why is it always breast cancer this breast cancer that? what about other cancers? like uterine cancer or pancriatic cancer lung cancer ect i think breast cancer over shadows all the others not that its any less important but all the other cancers are important to fight against am i right? what about set your status as ur pantie color for ovarian cancer..How about instead of save the ta tas we say save the vaginas! is that wrong?

Bacon Grease
I NEVER REALIZED THE DANGER OF REUSING BACON GREASE......UNTIL NOW. HOPE ITS NOT TOO LATE IN GETTING THIS INFO TO YOU !! We were raised on bacon grease as kids and even into adulthood. I will never reuse it again! I just threw out my last 2 lbs of bacon grease!! I hope you will throw yours away whenever you fry bacon from now on. It seems as though nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!is safe to eat anymore. This is what happens when you keep recooking with bacon grease. It could happen to you... This is a warning, send this to everyone you care about. .......... ;

Dear Cinnabon Corporation - I'm On To You!!
Anyone who’s watched my blog for long enough knows how much I dearly love airports and airplanes. The security lines … the crowds … the guy that hogs my 1/8th inch of armrest … but really it’s the overwhelming smells and the festering cauldron of germs that just seals the deal for me.Last month, while layed over in O’Hare for a couple of hours, I was reveling in the Friday evening business rush to get home. There were plenty of people to aimlessly cross in front of my path while dragging their oversized luggage behind. There were others to sneeze down the back of my neck. And yet even more people to fill the narrow corridors with flatulence and other bodily induced odors.In other words – O’Hare be stank!!But as soon as you round the corner between terminal 1 and 2 something magical happens. The air stops smelling like the locker room of a Sumo wrestling tournament and starts smelling like baked bread. The funk of 1000 half-digested bur

Wind In Tha Willows Singing Tea Fer Two...
"Blood, Milk, And Sky" The siren sings a Lonely song of all the Wants and hungers The lust of love a brute Desire - the ledge of life Goes under - Divide the Dream into the fleshKaleidoscope and -Candle eyes - Empty Winds scrape on the Soul - but never stop To realize -Animal whisperingsIntoxicate the nightHypnotize the deperateSlow motion light - Wash Away into the rainBlood, milk and skyHollow moons illuminateAnd beauty never diesRunning wild running blindI breathe the body deep1,000 years beside myselfI do not sleep - Seduce The world it never Screams Dead water liesRide the only one who Knows - Beauty never dies White Zombie

I Stole This From Myspace..
Ready to spill your guts?Sure.What do you think about the weather?I hate it.Who was the last person to text you?Not sure.Do you find it hard to trust others?Very much so.What were you doing at 4am this morning?sleeping.What are you excited about?bowling.What piercings do you have?Just my ears...I know, I'm a rebelDo you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?Yeah.Last time you got let down?It's been a while.The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?I haven'tHave you ever had a best friend?Of course.When's the last time you completely broke down?I don't think I ever have.Last person you got upset with?My ex.Last time you cried was?Maybe last week.Where was your default picture taken?my bedroom.Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?Yep.How is your heart?great , thanks. =]What is your current mood?just wonderful.Where is the biggest scar on your body?I don't have many scars, but I think my biggest one is on my foot.Does it bot

4 Condom Hooker...
I seen this last night, but I was way too tired to put anything down. Not sure if anyone else seems to care, but this doesn't seem right. In Washington DC, if a female has more than 3 condoms, in the 'prostitution free zone', she can be arrested for prostitution. According to the thing I seen San Fransisco and New York are doing the same thing. I guess they don't want women to buy condoms. I also guess that they are promoting unsafe sex, the transfer of STDs, and an increased amount of abortions. I'm not saying that it is soley up to the woman to provide condoms, but it shouldn't be up to the man. I don't see how the "4 condom hooker" thinking is a good thing. [shakes head] I'd rather see a woman with a shit load of condoms than seeing a bunch of pregnant women or a raise in STDs.

Saurday
Ok, so Saturday bit the big one. He cancelled. My sitter bombed out. I was a little bummed, but it was so last minute... Then I get an email from him Sunday night. He tells me he's not really ready to date. Huh? Then why the f*ck did you ask me out on a date, you idiot? I was pretty angry at him. Not for cancelling, but for taking the coward's way out and NOT telling me this in person. He didn't even have the BALLS to take my call... So much for him being "honest"... I was angry for a little while. I'm not any more. Chalk it up again. All I gotta say is, his loss, not mine.

Hey You This Is Me....
Am not that great looking girl....I find myself also not sexy....But there are man that see a lot of things that i don't can see...What there reason also me be....It comes always from me....Am still looking for new people and to have new friends...Not for a sexdate or to fall in love with...I have already a man in mine life...We did and we never will go to marry...I am the one that not wanne marry either so there will never comes a man in mine life That is going to think she goes to marry me....Than there is a big problem mine answer will always be NO...You can always dream about anyone...To do what ever you wanne do in your dreams...

I Choose
"It's quiet. It's early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black. The world is still asleep. The day is coming. In a few moments the day will arrive. It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day. The calm of solitude will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met. For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands. It is now that I must make a choice. Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose. And so I choose......I CHOOSE LOVE...No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves. I CHOOSE JOY...I will invite my God to be the God of circumstances. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God. I CHOOSE PEACE.

A True Hero
AMSTERDAM - Miep Gies, the office secretary who defied the Nazi occupiers to hide Anne Frank and her family for two years and saved the teenager's diary, has died, the Anne Frank Museum said Tuesday. She was 100. Gies' Web site reported that she died Monday after a brief illness. The report was confirmed by museum spokeswoman Maatje Mostar, but she gave no details. The British Broadcasting Corp. said she died in a nursing home after suffering a fall last month. Gies was the last of the few non-Jews who supplied food, books and good cheer to the secret annex behind the canal warehouse where Anne, her parents, sister and four other Jews hid for 25 months during World War II. After the apartment was raided by the German police, Gies gathered up Anne's scattered notebooks and papers and locked them in a drawer for her return after the war. The diary, which Anne Frank was given on her 13th birthday, chronicles her life in hiding from June 12, 1942 until August 1, 1944. 'Helpers'Gies

First Installment
ok, so i decided to make my resolution for 2010: to be in the best shape of my life by my bday (april 24) there are pics of me posted in my photos from years past that are dated within days of my bday as a reference life kicked me square in the nuts by giving me a monster cold right after new years this year. long hours at work, lack of sleep, eating like a single guy, crap weather, tons of snow, never wearing a jacket... you name it, i was destined to get banged out by something. i never go to the docs or take medicine. parlty because i feel like im being a giant Vagina if i do, and partly because i am of the thinking that if i force my body to fight it and beat it, it will be stronger the next time. that thinking has served me well. i only get sick once a year but ususally when i do, it puts me on the shelf for a while. but anyway, im over it now and ready to hang and bang. having worked in a gym, i know that the place is going to be jam packed with the new years resolution folks

Do You Practice Being That Stupid, Or Is It A God Given Gift?
some more randome thoughts about stupid people that i encounter in my day to day life behind the bar: explain to me why every night, without fail, someone will walk into my bar after we close and see all the lights on, nobody in there except me and my employees mopping or whatever, ALL THE BARSTOOLS AND CHAIRS ARE UP... and they without fail ask the same question: "you guys closed?" yes we r closed. and yes u r as fucked up as a football bat. when i worked at the casino, i had people complaining to me because i wouldnt give them drinks for free when they lost all their money gambling. "i just lost a grand in here and you guys wont give me a free drink?" nope. sure wont. its not MY fault you just gambled away your mortgage money now you need some liquid courage to tell your wife when you get home. complain to your kids, im sure they would love to hear how you lost their inheritence from grandma and their college money. someone please explain to me how you can be

~ Your Beautiful Release~
I simply want to lay by you and hold you. My mind is specific. I want to know what your body goes through as you come. I want to feel invisible when I am by you. To feel what it is that's happening without disruption. I want you to think and only care about yourself during this time. Become selfish. So you can let go, and dive into your release. To see and feel this happen. It is one of the most beautiful things in life. To go any further than this simple act would only ruin the outcome of this perfect scenario. I want purity combined with such a release. A sense of innocence and vulnerability inside it's highest point. Holding you, with a hand lightly at your throat. Show me what it is that you are feeling.

20 Fun Facts About Sex
1. Sex is where babies come from, so although it’s good fun, be careful out there people! 2. Sex has many euphemisms, including “having it off”, “doing it”, and some others. 3. I have seen nearly three bare ladies. 4. A man who has a lot of sexual partners is called a “stud” or a “heart throb” 5. Famous heart throbs include Hollywood Star Brad Pitt, sports star Tiger Woods, and TV’s Screech from off of ‘Saved By The Bell’ 6. A woman’s bossoms are fun to mash. 7. There are all sorts of diseases that can be caught from off of girls, like cooties, the lurgy, and the AIDS 8. Hollywood actor Ben Affleck has had sex with so many women that scientists have calculated his the AIDS rating as 3

The Year You Were Born!
The links below are cool! Everything that was going on in the year you were born, from 1900-2006, Enjoy! :) _1900_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1900.html ) _1901_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1901.html ) _1902_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1902.html ) _1903_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1903.html ) _1904_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1904.html ) _1905_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1905.html ) _1906_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1906.html ) _1907_ ( http://www.infoplease.com/year/1907.html _1908_ (

Somethings I Can't
I wish in my life I had found some experience that would've made me understand . But unfortunately I'm intelligent enough to see things through a larger glass . So many say don't analyze , never question , but life's lessons have taught me , never turn harms notice to nothing and never refuse to see what you reallly see . Close down now , the lights go out , and I guess we all lose .

~i'll See Me Later~
Our brief encounter will be missed. I will fail, even before an attempted pass. My reality is gone. I am sorry I have failed you. I am leaving now. I will get back to you once I can feel myself again. I am simply saying good-bye to myself. All the feelings available. Now feeling them all at once. Even through evolution. I was not equipped to handle this task.

Missing My Text Buddies
hey boys I miss our texting fun...... all my numbers were deleted from my old phone. send me a message (not a shout) with your name (real name) and number in it please ..... It has been soooooo long ***giggles*** Im so excited n shit!!! ****HUGS N KISSES**** Mary Berry :)

Uggs Prevail
UGG, CGM, jumbugg these three legendary brand, first see her in person will be heavy but the shape of this Qichou not understood, but is such a rage in Europe and Asia boots, earth, and is now all over the world the wind whipped up a pop, which is a gust of mainstream stars in Europe and America brought the. Ugg Australia sheepskin boots on the history dates back to 1978, and a young Australian named Brian Smith surfing once brought a group of members of sheepskin boots to the U.S.. In the past many years, Australia's craftsmen have been used to sew the beach in New Zealand, sheepskin boots, however, is that this business-minded young people with a bold attempt to bring the United States that Australia's traditional products. At that time, he only brought a few sheep, a few pairs of Ugg boots, a bosom of blood and self-confidence and began selling streets of New York. However, he did not start so good luck, one day down, did not sell a pair of boots. However, he did not become disc

Lets Play A Game Contuine My Story....
Ok so lets make up a story ill start and you continue... from the person who commented above you ... dont finsh the story tho... so its more fun keep it going... Once upon a time... There was a very Beautiful Princess.. But she was not happy like all the others ,her brother prince ________

If Today Was Your Last Day By Nickleback
If Today Was Your Last Day Lyricsmy best friend gave me the best advicehe said each day's a gift & not a given rightleave no stone unturnedleave your fears behind& try to take the path less travelled bythat first step you take is the longest strideif today was your last day& tomorrow was too latecould you say goodbye to yesterday?would you live each moment like your last?leave old pictures in the past?donate every dime you had?if today was your last dayagainst the grain should be a way of lifewhat's worth the price is always worth the fightevery second counts 'cause there's no second tryso live like you're never livin twicedon't take the free ride in your own lifeif today was your last day& tomorrow was too latecould you say goodbye to yesterday?would you live each moment like your last?leave old pictures in the past?donate every dime you had?would you call those friends you've never seen?reminisce old memories?would you forgive your enemies?would you find that one your dreaming of?swe

Wow Wrost Come On Line Ever Wth Is Wrong With This Dude Ha
SO THIS IS THE WAY YOU COME ON TO WOMEN WTH IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE WHAT EVER HAPPEN TO JUST HELLO .... ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ SO HES SAYS:.................. " Hell-O Beautiful Thou id really like to request tying you up in my 3D dungeon , maybe to the giant spider web of chain , or my bed that hangz from chain . But I guess 4 now ill just ask 4 ur friendship here I can dream thou dreamz are still free. and if nothing else I bet this iz the strangest friend request ever , if u get a chance and u want to check out the picz in my profile , I really do have a 3D dungeon and U can check it out there ... Spanx Sexy ur devilishly delicious XoXoX ~****"___________________________________________________________________________________________(LOL LOSERR) WHATS THE WROST U EVER HEARD?

The Animal That Represents Me.....
A PeacockA peacock represents your sexual appetite. You like to look good to attract potential lovers and you are very preoccupied with sex – not that that is a bad thing. You are into fantasizing, and enjoy sex a lot.Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Sex..what The???
You have a Sexual IQ of 156 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. 'What is your Sexual IQ?' at QuizUniverse.com

Good God By Anouk
"Good God" Surely I am winning but I won't Claiming that I'll do it but I don't Knowing I'll do anything that you want Pretending that I am someone that I'm not Good God, my mind won't let me think right I know you're trouble But I'm determined to create these things up in my head That never happen In time I've got to choose Freedom or loyalty Look at what you have done What am I gonna do? So now that you have made a mess of me You showed me stars that I have never seen I know it's wrong why does it feel so right You haven't got me yet, but you might Your smiling back at me I wanna do it I wanna be with you let me get through it But am I gonna make it back alive Will you show me all the things that you can doooooo Good God, my mind won't let me think right I know you're trouble But I'm determined to create these things up in my head That never happen In time I've got to choose Freedom or loyalty Look at what you have done What am I gonna do? Yeah Good God, my mind won't let me think r

What Is It About This Damn Site?!
Why is it so freaking hard to quit this site? I am just taking a break from here until Spring Break because I have already spent hours on here instead of doing my school work, but I really don't want to leave. I feel bad saying goodbye to everyone and it's so damn hard to even log off lol but I know I have to. I just hope I can have the self control...I may need my boyfriend to change my password for me haha. See you all in March!

R.i.p. Dennis George Mcclain
Sometimes i just feel like whatever i do the world will just continue if i died tommorow. Thats very true but we need more people on this earth that will make change for the better. I know i am here for a purpose, whatever i do with my life will make me happy. If your current situation makes you unhappy then by all means change it, but your life has to have a purpose or general direction. I think everyone could improve at least one thing in their life and mabye that one thing is the biggest thing but you have to at least try. If you dont that one thing could turn into a divorce,loss of self esteam,and even thoughts of suicide or murder. There was a point in my life where i didn't even leave my home to visit friends or even go to school. I was in a horrible depression and didn't even feel like leaving my bed. My dad was the person who i called everyday for advice. He talked me out of killing myself countless times. My dad is a musician and one day he came to my house and played me a son

Hm.
those other three blogs were dumb. i miss being obsessed with heal these wounds and i killed the prom queen. now it's all about the musicals, green day, and in this moment. still madly in love with jamey jasta, but that will never change. he's still hot, even being fourteen years older than me? i wanna work at build-a-bear. real bad. perfect job. need it. call me back plz. imangine writing lesson plans while organizing a store based around creating a child's best friend. i'm so tired. i probably shouldn't be doing this, and instead be sleeping. i need to get my text books for this semester. hm. procrastination at it's finest. by the way, dean winchester is hottest dressed as a priest, well. besides being shirtless. oh jensen ackles. love.

It's Just Too Cold!
Have you kissed anyone yet in 2010?I have.How many different people did you kiss last year?Not sure.Are you happy the holidays are over or sad?I guess I'm happy.Are you on a break for the holidays?nope.If so, when do you go back to work/school?Tomorrow?Would you say you have a 'type' when it comes to a significant other?I use to not think so, but now I know I do.What was the last movie that you watched?Men who stare at goats.Have you consumed any alcohol recently? If so, what kind?Nah.Do you think you take too many pictures?I don't think I take enough.Are you unhealthily attached to your cell phone?not unhealthily.What age do you feel is appropriate for one to have a cell phone?Not sure. I guess it depends on the kid.Do you still live with your parents?No, not MY parents.What did you eat for breakfast this morning?I don't think I ate breakfast.Do you feel like the saying "New year, new me" is accurate?I guess if you really want to change it's accurate.Do you think you're pretty good a

Lashing Out
The loneliness sinks deep My life is in shambles No one to share things with I am totally alone Nothing makes me feel good anymore I can't go on living It has to end All of it Why must I live with such pain? My heart cries for want of another to share my feelings with Yet I have no one I feel as if no one wants me As if I'm a joke to others No one listens to me They probably think nothing of me Doubtful I will ever find a woman for me I'm only ever loved one woman in my life And she won't have me So maybe I would be better off dead Do you know what it's like to feel as if you're no good? I do It's a terrible, haunting feeling It tears your mind, body, and soul apart Slowly kills you from the inside, out You begin to despise everyone around you Most of them have everything you want Begin to believe they are taunting you Yes, it hurts to bo so alone among so many Cuts to the core of your being Sometimes making you want to lash out in anger

The Mythological Gods!
Your result for The Mythological God Test... Cernunnos Indeed, you are 38% erudite, 67% sensual, 63% martial, and 75% saturnine. Cernunnos was one of the most important of all the Celtic Gods. He was the horned God of fertility, sexual love, the wilderness and wild animals. He was known as the stag deity and as such was portrayed with an impressive set of antlers sprouting from his head. Since he was so popular, the Catholic Church discovered that the Celts were extremely resistant to abandoning his worship for the sake of a new religion called Christianity. So the Church decided that instead of ignoring Cernunnos altogether, they would simply incorporate his horned image with the Catholic notion of "Satan." Abracadabra! With a wave of the hand one Celtic Nature God becomes a Christian devil. This is why Western culture often depicts Satan with horns. Apparently the tactic worked since to this day horns are, more often than not, linked symbolically with diabolical matters. This

My True Identity
Suffering seems to be my only friend Living this lonely life Tearing away my sanity I can barely go on living My soul a shattered cry in the wind Endless thoughts racing through my mind Where can I turn for help? Few are trustworthy these days Hiding, always hiding my true self No one can ever know I cannot let the pain I live with to touch others They couldn't understand my true torture Life without meaning An endless drone But I still feel I still hurt

My Leaving
I don't know where it all began This pain running through my body A cold shiver escapes my spine My heart shredded beyond repair Why does it hurt so much? To love and lose No ending in sight for the agony Body racked in misery It's all an old friend Yet it still rips me to my core Getting worse each time Should I just run from it all? Leave it behind and start all over again I hope I can live through it You left me for another Now I'm slowly dying inside Wasting away to nothingness I shall leave this world as I came into it In pain

My Own Misery
Holidays are a time for happiness and joy Of laughter and love Yet I seem to be the only sad, lonely human I sit and wallow in self pity Pushing everyone away from me My life has been nothing but a mess Constantly inconsistent Nothing I do pleases anyone I'm told I need to get out Yet when I do, I've gone too far Why do I feel so alone? Mind spiraling down a sea of chaos Heart shattered beyond repair I feel as tho I can barely breathe

End
Pain shrouded so deep Memories long forgotten, buried A life without you is neverending My soul screams without mercy I am the shattered being Wanbdering the surface in agony Love was in your every move Yet I was ever empty of life In this lonely world of suffering Alone, I stand before you Your judgement sending a shrill scream down my spine Life drains, pain continues, love is swallowed In the end, you are all I want In the end, I am all you despise In the end, I hurt for eternity

Random
She hates me I can see it in her eyes Agony so deep I can't bear it I can't express enough How much I love her Will she ever believe in me? I don't think so If only the arguments would end Things would be wonderful Wishful thinking, I know My life has led me to a dead end Nowhere to run No place to hide Facing my worst fear Will never work The fear of losing her forever Yet I know it will arrive I should have gotten out when I could But my love for her is so strong I have dedicated my whole life to her She is my sweetness My everything I don't know what to do anymore

My Spirit Animal!
Your result for The What is Your Spirit Animal Test... The Otter Here's your results! Your spirit animal has a Nobility ranking of 11 out of 18. Your spirit animal is the otter. Playful, curious and fun animals, they are truly the start of what can be considered a noble creature. Otters are good at figuring things out, and make great friends. You are lucky to have one as a spirit animal. Otters are fairly rare as spirit animals. ***Wondering how this animal was chosen for you? These questions were carefully thought out to see how important you hold certain virtues such as: humanism, self-knowledge, rationalism, the love of freedom and other somewhat Hellenic ideals. Some of the questions were very subtle. Your score was then matched with an animal of corresponding nobility. However, you shouldn't think this was a right/wrong sort of test, but more of an idealistic values test. It's ok to not hold these values, you'll just get an animal spirit of lower stature if you do!*

Now That You Are Gone
How can we be friends? When I want and need you this fiercely You are all I think about Myself the constant reminder of failure I can't stand to live without you by my side Waking up without you beside me That's my tormented hell How can I go through life? Without you I am insignificant In this world of hopes and dreams I find myself drowning in misery The one love I had, no longer in my arms

Through It All
I'm Suffocating Drowning in a pool of agony Timeless pain in my life Neverending suffering I am the contradiction The falsehood of your being Negativity is attracted to me I can never run far or fast enough Thoughtless meanings run rampant How do I live with it all Can I ever escape the pain?

My Dying Day
It is a deep dark hole And I can't dig myself out I feel so alone in misery They don't hear me scream or shout My pain burns intensely inside Battling through, I can't bear Was it all a mistake? Or do I go on without a care? Days are numbered and quick I've lost the way to you Sitting here trying to drown my thoughts KNowing my mind already withdrew Can you tell me what it was all for? Because I feel this is my dying day

Character Analysis!
Your result for The Character Analysis Test... Prophet You scored Now, don't take this the wrong way. You are probably not a prophet in the strictest sense of the word. However, your creativity allows you to come up with brilliant ideas on how to spread your morality. You are good at inventing reasons for people to follow you. Whether this is a good or bad thing... well, that's entirely up to you. Take The Character Analysis Test at OkCupid

Butterflies
crazy in polite societys eyes...perhaps not damaged or morally lost just set apart just lost in thought rough angles rubbed soft I yearn to wander & begin to feel alive in my own matted fur once again recognizing the face in tha mirror not high, enlightened each excess with purpose pain evolves into pleasure unbind myself in tune with a deeper rythm content to be a speck of dust in tha universe looking up from yesterdays primordial mud

How Emotionally Damaged I Am!
Your result for The Emotional Damage Test... You are 64% emotionally damaged. Please take this to heart when interacting with others. Thank you for taking this test. Obviously, the higher percentage you scored, the harder the life you have lead. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but you certainly need to be careful about how you treat others. Humanity is all linked by just 6 people, and each broken heart sends just another damaged person out into the world that can potentially harm others. Tread lightly and try to be understanding of the differences of others, as they will hopefully be understanding of yours. Take The Emotional Damage Test at OkCupid

The Best Thing About Me!
Your result for The Best Thing About You Test... Compassion Compassion is your strongest virtue Compassion is the most human of the virtues. And you? Your heart has limits far beyond normal levels empathy, and your capacity for feeling the world's pain is boundless. You poor, beautiful, wonderful thing. All 7 virtues are a part of you, but your compassion runs deepest. It is likely you're an altruist. And it's likely (but not necessarily true, think of Bono) that your humility score is high too. Compassionate famous people: Brad Pitt, Mother Theresa, The A-Team. Your raw relative scores follow. 0% is low, and 100% is perfect, nearly impossible. Note that I pitted the virtues against each other, so in some way these are relative scores. It's impossible to score high on all of them, and a low score on one is just relatively low compared to the other virtues. YOUR VIRTUES 60% Compassion 56% Intelligence 38% Humility 44% Honesty 38% Discipline 29% Courage

Birthday Cake Fer My Otis
ahhh tha only good girl is a dead girl, talking mad gibberish, we like our house, barbeque... Im still kinda glad ya were born stooopid... I calls em like I sees em: Murder Black feet black wingsmirrors gone cloudylost fairest of them all reflectionswatched our freefall, having devolved past primalcut to the center, soul born from dead embersashes, once kindled, rose fast burnt awaytha cobwebs and debris, cleared path to tha coreimpossibly infinite- blinking stars reflected on crystal waterendless soul stretches wings incarnatewings shake ice free unfurldirty and gossamer, strong as steelall light and shadow... echo laughing and cryinguncloud mirror, mind, crystal ball long time, Baby

Tarot Card That Resembles Me!
Your result for The What tarot card resembles you Test... The Devil You scored 32 change, 30 wellbeing, 41 wisdom, and 49 truth The devil card represents blindness and misconception. The black background is the lack of light or understanding. The 2 humans, male and female are loosely bound to the stone pillar. They could easily remove their bindings, but stay there by will. The pillar that they are chained to is half of a square, representing the half truths that they bind themselves to. The torch that the devil is holding is pointing down, and the flame is eating at the torch in a wasteful way, not giving off any light. some extra words: experiencing bondage accepting an unwanted situation being obsessed feeling tied down against your will losing independence allowing yourself to be controlled being addicted and enslaved submitting to another focusing on the material being caught up in appearances believing only in the physical forgetting the spiritual getting and spending over

The Story Of The Phoenix
I DID NOT WRITE THIS, GOT THIS FROM SOMEONE ELSE WHO FOUND IT FOR ME AFTER I BEGAN TO SPREAD MY WINGS AND FLY. BEING ABLE TO SEE AND HEAR AND USE ALL OF MY SENSES FULLY, I AM THANKFUL THAT I AM NO LONGER AMONGST THE WALKING DEAD. SETTING IGNORANCE ASIDE, I OPENED MY EYE AND BEGAN TO SEE REALITY BEYOND THE MATRIX, BEYOND THE ILLUSION THAT WAS SET BEFORE US. There is a bird that lays no eggs and has no young. It was here when the world began and is still living today, in a hidden, faraway desert spot. It is the phoenix, the bird of fire. One day in the beginning times, the sun looked down and saw a large bird with shimmering feathers. They were red and gold--bright and dazzling like the sun itself. The sun called out, "Glorious Phoenix, you shall be my bird and live forever!" Live forever! The Phoenix was overjoyed to hear these words. It lifted its head and sang, "Sun glorious sun, I shall sing my songs for you alone!" But the Phoenix was not happy for long. Poor bird. It

Hit For The Cycle
Engine, Tanker, Tower, Ambulance, all in one day. Again. Geez. I need to become less utilitarian; all this running around is wearing these old bones out. So much for studying... oh well it's life. At least the rookies are starting to pick up the slack. Got some good Jake's in this group. I'm tired as shit. As soon as I finish this I'm heading to bed. I need more studying to get done but fuck it I'm tired. Remind me why I wanted to stop being a big dumb firefighter? Lol.

Thug Babies And Da Babies Mama.
From a blog posted by AUDIOGASM having to do with a conversation she had in her shoutbox. This is a perfect example of what S.H.E is all about. There's only so much you can do in talking to some people, but I think the message is very clear! THANX AUDIOGASM for sharing this and allowing us to post it! Read bottom to top. Audiogasm: ok i'm done talking to you.you're sucking the life out of me. cya. ~Stone~Ang...: I don't judge people either ~Stone~Ang...: lol no I spend more time with my son then i do on here Audiogasm: are you stupid or something? honest question. ~Stone~Ang...: nope lol we was playin my son always comes first an right now he's sleepin Audiogasm: well maybe instead of "tryin to type and take care of your son at the same time" you should log off and take care of your son. apparently fubar and he come equally then yeah? awesome ! ~Stone~Ang...: i not normaly like this really I just kinda lost it a lil Audiogasm: whatever you say. ~Stone~Ang...: well because

On Being A Proper Dominant Master.. For Those Who Are Interested..
credited to Dominatrix vs Mistress Those just entering the BDSM world will find the abundant usage of both of these words by members of the online community. This is primarily due to the rapid growth of access and the restrained attainability of quality texts to correctly interpret what these words mean within the community itself. Up to a few years ago the BDSM world was a tightly closed and almost secret society. Membership in this society was kept totally private and hidden with significant effort. Entree into the community was by referral and accompaniment only. Protocols or rules of conduct were strict and strongly enforced, not from some control standpoint but because those rules emerged from bitterly hard lessons in survival. A Dominant is a person with a dominant aspect in their personality. A Master is a Dominant with significant rea

Time Bomb
The last two days I have spent in a completly irritable mood. The slightest things have been ticking me off beyond belief. I feel bad for snapping at people; I just can't help it. To top it off I have also had such a sluggish/run down feeling. Maybe it's just from the weather or everything piling up thats finally just taken a toll on me. I just hate walking around feeling like a ticking time bomb.

Why?
Why is it so many lounges that have kickass "metal" type names play sissy bitch tunes?...... Dont give me the usual .." we play everything " crap. Your lounge has a name that suggests metal, thrash...whatever, play it. Name ur lounges accordingly people.... and thats my 2 cents

Roxxxy Never Says No
Artificial insemination allows women to have kids without intercourse with a man. OK, let’s go one better. Introducing ROXXXY, the female sex robot! At 5’7”, 120lbs she’s ready for action according to her inventor, Douglas Hines. Says Hines, "She can't vacuum, she can't cook but she can do almost anything else if you know what I mean." With ROXXXY at home who needs the frustration of trying to meet a human. Check her out http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2010/01/11/worlds-life-size-robot-girlfriend/ BlastFM is a frustration free zone. Come and get your groove on! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

You Can Laugh If You Want To!
Ahhhhh... the smell of sects and candy. The Sugar Shack of Maam the Shepherdess. EVERYBODY IS WELCOME! If you lay an egg - JUST SIT ON IT! It's true, when I am not invoking the energy of a mosh pit in my witty retorts (maybe it is my imaginaaaaaaaaaaaaaation), I allow my mind the comfort of a feathery and tart avatar; never watery - that roof is 100 percent Graham Cracker! There is just one rule - if cats come over no cat nip is allowed, the munchies could result in being eaten out of house and home. And roost. Sylvester behave...

C51 - Bling Me Babyjesus (with Bloopers And Remixes) Enjoy!
i HOPE YOU ENJOY THE VIDS :p LOL NERD ON PATROL i TELL YOU WHAT! iF THEY DON'T SHOW UP CAUSE EMBEDDED HATES MOST OF US!iT'S LIKE IF ITS NOT A MAC YOUR fU*KED RIGHT LMAO... BUT YEAH THE LINKS ARE UNDERNEITH EACH ONE! AS ALWAYS... PLEASE SUBSCRIBE, RATE, COMMENT, AND FAVORITE THEM ON YOUTUBE.... I will get to CNN one day! Lmao! But I can settle for FOX news too! Muah! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OFFICIAL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U1racrtnRUE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BLOOPER 1~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysMIoHQroGk ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ORIGINAL WITH OUT THE BLING FROM BABYJESUS PART~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guhsJp5kWkI

Each New Day
Passion ignited within me, burning deep from every part of me. My heart beats as the embers in my soul flame. Love has awaken from its hiding place. I know now that I am meant to be yours. Each new day my feelings grow ever stronger.

Judgments, Petitions And Goats? Oh My...
So, today began as any other day would in a law firm: hectic, frantic, busy and no coffee creamer. I spent hours combing through paperwork and taking countless phone calls, making countless phone calls, internet searches and a partridge in a pear tree - you get the picture. Now, this afternoon...things took a bit of a turn. While we are awaiting the return of our boss from court, I was in the back two offices gathering some files I needed. As I pass from one office to the other, directly across the hall, I glance to my left toward the lobby and then proceed to the other office - and then I freeze. I wasn't sure if I actually saw what I thought I saw, so I thought it best to take a step back and peer into the lobby once more. Yep, it was still there. Staring back at me is a goat. In our lobby, wearing a leash and a diaper. I quickly stepped into the office again and announced to my coworker, "There is a goat in the lobby." She laughed and responded in disbelief - naturally. I rei

Covered With Sores
Bleed on me, digesting the clotted scabsBlood thirstyUngodlyPassing on my curse, the spell pussing goresOf those I infect become my loyal servantsTo ride me of my own rotWhittling meat from the bones of the deadPulverizing pelvic regions with a sledgeThe mutilated bodies I leave rotting after IHave fucked them with my knifeBecoming a product of my own nigtmaresA bleeding sac of infection, years deceasedI hide my slobbering skinCovered by a victims flapI love to watch the blood ooz down the bodies stumpLike scap, a vulgar way of life, my hideous sideNow revealedRemembering the future is the key to unlock my pastLeaking membrane, consuming bodiesCarving out the cunts, blood my lubrificationSpewing pus on rotted skin I celebrate myCruelty, boils begin to form, dripping on my tongueSwallowing throbbing glands, the juice leaks fromMy lips, my only thirst is pus eruption of cystsIncurable disfigured bodies, I rape the dyingHorrific sights now manifest, penetrating inner organsThe ruptured or

How Much I Love Him....
I sit here and think of nothing but you all day...You are the last thing I think about each night and the first thing each morning...everytime I hear your voice I get chills that run all over my body...I say your name to myself just to feel that rush that comes over me and I feel butterflies in my tummy...I look at your picture and the love that I feel for you just runs through my body and gives me a warm fuzzy feeling...I sit and wonder if you feel the same way?...Do you think about me all day as I think of you?...Do you yearn to hear my voice?...Ask yourself how much longer we can actually be apart?...I have put my heart and soul in your hands and all I ask is that either you love me the way I love you or you have to give me back my heart and soul...I know that you COMPLETE me...and I want to do that for you...So tell me this am I the one who completes you?...For all these longing questions I will wait for you...I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU...

Where Have I Been?
To be honest, depressed. Very depressed. I lost interest in everything I once enjoyed. Thats not really the point though. I'm posting this blog to let my Liliths Lair family know where I've been. I promised I'd never close the lounge, and I don't plan to. Just somedays I don't have the drive to get out of bed. I'm sure I'll overcome this someday, until then, keep an eye out cause when I have good days I get in there,DJ live and have a blast! For those of you who haven't givin up on me, THANK YOU! XOXO

Companions And Mistrust
I wonder if anybody fully understands that once you plant the seed of doubt in any relationship everything else that accurs is just watering the seed into a garden of mistrust and doubt. Who can honestly say that they can be with someone they don't trust. Isn't that way too much work?

Small Update
Just a real quick small update. I got notification that they had changed my medical insurance on Saturday so I can get the much needed counseling I have been after in the first place. Yeah to that! With this new medical insurance, its a step torwards ssi, they have a facilitator call me, and we do the paperwork together, whats nice is I will have the state behind me. I have been taking lyrica for 2 weeks now, The all over body pain has lessened, yet its still there. The colder the mornings are, the older I feel :( Its pretty bad to feel 90 when I am only 39. Now the fatigue is kicking my ass. Even though I go to bed, I generally cant fall asleep till between 12-2 am. Then I am always up by 8. During the day I feel extremely drained. So many times I tell myself I need a caffiene shot or IV. Alright thats all for now, just sending an update.

Lol....i Will Post The Video If The Words Dont Make Sense
"Chickenheads"(feat. DJ Paul, Lil Chat, Juicy J)[chorus]bwok bwok, chicken chickenbwok bwok, chicken heads (boy please whateva)bwok bwok, chicken chickenbwok bwok, chicken heads[x4][Project Pat]bald-head skally-wagain't got no hair in backgelled up weaved upyo hair is messedneed to get bout' a hustle missionget up on loot run to beauticanrun game until the game is gravythat don't mean spend cheese fa tha baby(bwok bwok) on a stalk stalk for a bootleg(bwok bwok) pretty walk walk givin out headain't a thang eat a chicken wanggot some gold teethat da club tryin ta shake that thangtryin ta get piecechicken chicken always into some dumb shitshuolda paid ya light billyou bought a outfitstay at ya mammy houseand keep a smart mouthits Project Memphis Tenn represent tha southso pass tha dro-dro and we gone stay tickinfull of that mo mo holla at a chicken[Chorus][Lil Chat]yeah you like my outfitdon't even fake the deali thought you said you had your girl on the light bill[Project Pat]always in m

Lmfao
An atheist was walking through the woods. 'What majestic trees! 'What powerful rivers! 'What beautiful animals! He said to himself. As he was walking alongside the river, he heard a rustling in the bushes behind him. He turned to look. He saw a 7-foot grizzly bear charge towards him. He ran as fast as he could up the path. He looked over his shoulder & saw that the bear was closing in on him.. He looked over his shoulder again, & the bear was even closer. He tripped & fell on the ground. He rolled over to pick himself up but saw that the bear was right on top of him, reaching for him with his left paw & raising his right paw to strike him. At that instant the Atheist cried out, 'Oh my God!' Time Stopped. The bear froze. The forest was silent. As a bright light shone upon the man, a voice came out of the sky. 'You deny my existence for all these years, teach others I don't exist and even credit creation to cosmic accident.' 'Do you expect me to help you out of this predicament? Am I t

In Rhode Island Its Ok For A 16yrold To Strip That Is Wrong....
So i was watching tyra show , and in rhode island aka a state in usa for those that dont know.. its ok for 16yrs to strip as long as there home by 11.. lol that fcuked up? 16 is to young to be a stripper .. sorry no offense but the dancing and adult ent world is to hard to start that young ... The adult world can eat you alive if your not careful.. , being that young ull end up making wrong desions or crying in the dressing room .. hell i know some clubs that wont even let you try out unless your 21... Js...

Missing Out
if you haven't had a chance to check out my blog over on blogspot, you're missing some good material. several of my fufriends are participating...we have posted over 30 blogs in under 2 weeks from 8 different regular contributors. here's just one of the many you have missed... convo between another poster and i on our yahoo: perfectly_inked: i am not always a dark humored cunt, you know groobes: i don't think you're dark humored at all. groobes: i think you're dry, but it's not the same thing. perfectly_inked: sarcastic/dry... okay fine. i'm not always a dry humored cunt. groobes: you're not always a dry cunt? ZING! perfectly_inked: i think i just take this seriously because i want badly to write for an audience perfectly_inked: but maybe if i can meet your standards at least partly then i'm sure i can pass for the rest of my slacker brethren groobes: its something to aspire to, certainly perfectly_inked: i sent that invite, dicklick groobes: OHBOY! groobes: maybe im alrea

My New Site
Attention musicians ... My new site, Open Lessons Forums, is now live. It's a forum for musicians to post tips, tricks & lessons, ask questions and just generally share what we know with each other. All instruments, skill levels and musical styles are welcome. Since it just launched, it's a little sparse right now so any and all contributions are greatly appreciated. Thank you. :D http://www.olforums.com/

Death
so last night me and tiffy bought our fish.. we bought a pretty nice tank, fish food, and a heat lamp! so two hours after everything was done our fish were dead! so i drove to walmart asked the lady i wanted to return them she told me sorry but customer service is closed and im like uh okay what do u want me to do with two dead fish! then, shes like sorry customer service opens at 7 am! so as im walking out i yell FUCKING HILLBILLY TOWN! *i know the cashiers heard it!

Rape Program (retire Aged People Early)
OFFICIAL NOTICE Due to the current financial situation caused by the slowdown in the economy, Congress has decided to implement a scheme to put workers of 50 years of age and above on early retirement, thus creating jobs and reducing unemployment. This scheme will be known as RAPE (Retire Aged People Early). Persons selected to be RAPED can apply to Congress to be considered for the SHAFT program (Special Help After Forced Termination). Persons who have been RAPED and SHAFTED will be reviewed under the SCREW program (System Covering Retired-Early Workers). A person may be RAPED once, SHAFTED twice and SCREWED as many times as Congress deems appropriate. Persons who have been RAPED could get AIDS (Additional Income for Dependents & Spouse) or HERPES (Half Earnings for Retired Personnel Early Severance).Obviously persons who have AIDS or HERPES will not be SHAFTED or SCREWED any further by Congress.Persons who are not RAPED and are staying on will

Rape Program (retire Aged People Early)
OFFICIAL NOTICE > > > > Due to the current financial situation caused by the slowdown in the > > economy, Congress has decided to implement a scheme to put workers of 50 > > years of age and above on early retirement, thus creating jobs and > > reducing unemployment. > > > > This scheme will be known as RAPE (Retire Aged People Early). > > > > Persons selected to be RAPED can apply to Congress to be considered for > > the SHAFT program > > (Special Help After Forced Termination). > > > > Persons who have been RAPED and SHAFTED will be reviewed under the SCREW > > program > > (System Covering Retired-Early Workers). > > > > A person may be RAPED once, SHAFTED twice and SCREWED as many times as > > Congress deems appropriate. > > > > Persons who have been RAPED could get AIDS (Additional Income for > > Dependants & Spouse) or HERPES (Half Earnings for Retired Personnel Early > > Severance). > > > > Obviously persons who have AIDS or HERPES will not be SHAFTED o

Dreams!
I see dreams in the sky,they are wanderers They pass through the barriers That we build all day long. They disappear,and leave no evidence Wishes in confidence Revealed in a song. When i look at what i am leaving behind I've no regrets for all the tears i have cried. My dreams if they could be true i'd gain my freedom for good My dreams are vain and cruel But the are all i need to face the gloom The are beyond the white shores Away from my room I see dreams in the night,they are drifting far To float over seas of stars And reach for the moon A silent kiss on the lips of Providence Faith in pure innocence When hope is gone soon I began to see the world that i made When i marched across the deserts and plains My dreams if they could be true I'd stay in a free world for good But they are all i need To face the gloom They are beyond the wired fence Away from this room Everybody says that i am just another fool Who flies with their fantasy And talks to the moon,but who is the real fo

Metallica
"St. Anger"-MetallicaSt. Anger 'round my neckSt. Anger 'round my neckHe never gets respectSt. Anger 'round my neckYou flush it out, you flush it outSt. Anger 'round my neckHe never gets respectYou flush it out, you flush it outSt. Anger 'round my neckYou flush it out, you flush it outHe never gets respectFuck it all and no regretsI hit the lights on these dark setsI need a voice to let myselfTo let myself go freeFuck it all and fuckin' no regretsI hit the lights on these dark setsMedallion noose, I hang myselfSt. Anger 'round my neckI feel my world shakeLike an earth quakeIt's hard to see clearIs it me? Is it fear?I'm madly in anger with youAnd I want my anger to be healthyAnd I want my anger just for meAnd I need my anger not to controlAnd I want my anger to be meAnd I need to set my anger freeSet it free

R.i.p. Jimmy
Jimmy as we all called him is so missed I only ask for him to help me once before in 2007 & he brought the whole posse and after the creep left I said Jimmy whats up with all the crew I just asked you to help why the crew ??? And he said Bob you've never asked me for help before so I thought you needed alot of us !!! As I one more time needed help jimmy didn't hesitate to say sure now problem Bob I'll help you any time !!! He was the Best Brother I had I could tell him any thing and he would keep it to him self !!! Even when I've cried I can still hear him say buck up chef it will be ok and rarely said I Love you "But always showed it !!!any time we needed each other we were always there for one and other !!! I LOVE YOU JIMMY !!! And hope mom and Debbie are not trying to get you to play Bingo.Love always your Brother Brother Robert E/go to his guest book at /http://www.legacy.com/gb2/default.aspx?bookid=6081810920683&cid=full

Metallica
Dear MotherDear FatherWhat Is this Hell You Have Put Me ThroughBelieverDeceiverDay in Day out Live My Life Through YouPushed onto Me What's Wrong or RightHidden from this Thing That They Call LifeDear MotherDear FatherEvery Thought I'd Think You'd DisapproveCuratorDictatorAlways Censoring My Every MoveChildren Are Seen But Are Not HeardTear out Everything InspiredInnocenceTorn from Me Without Your ShelterBarred RealityI'm Living BlindlyDear MotherDear FatherTime Has Frozen Still What's Left to BeHear NothingSay NothingCannot Face the Fact I Think for MeNo Guarantee,it's Life as IsBut Damn You for Not Giving Me My ChanceDear MotherDear FatherYou've Clipped My Wings Before I Learned to FlyUnspoiledUnspokenI've Outgrown That Fucking LullabySame Thing I've Always Heard from YouDo as I Say Not as I DoInnocenceTorn from Me Without Your ShelterBarred RealityI'm Living BlindlyI'm in Hell Without YouCannot Cope Without You TwoShocked at the World That I SeeInnocent Victim Please Rescue MeDear M

Dreams
Dreams Can you close your eyes & imagine us there? A place where we're free & their isn't a care. Where we can be how we wanna be, & no one would stare. A place we could meet without anyone around, a place 4 just us, quiet & dark. Would you meet me there, in the dark? Meet me there, you know where it is, just close your eyes & dream & I'll meet you there.

Something For The Witches
This high-handed execution of priests shows plainly enough that M. de Lancre was a man of an enterprising and independent spirit. The same is true of him in politics. In his book Du Prince ("Of the Prince") 1617, he makes no bones about declaring that "the Law is above the King." Never have the Basques been better characterised than in his work L’Inconstance des Démons, above mentioned. In France no less than in Spain, the privileges they enjoyed really constituted them a virtual republic. The French Basques owed nothing whatever to the King beyond the obligation of serving him under arms; at the first tuck of drum they were bound to put two thousand men in the field, under their own Basque captains. The clergy were of small weight or account, and did little in the way of punishing Sorcerers, being in the trade themselves. The priests used to dance, wear swords, and take their mistresses with them to the "Sabbath." These mistresses were the priests' sacristanesses or bénédictes,

When I Said
How about I come home and the house appears empty - I want to have a hot bath and slip into something more comfortable. It's been a week since you have been gone and I know you are coming home tonight. I want to prepare myself for you.....properly.Take care to powder and scent myself in preparation of your return. I have just the right outfit for you....I bought it with you in mind! I've had to pleasure myself this week and it just hasn't been the same. I have even resorted to chatting on a sex site with a stranger - just to be able to pleasure myself - without you being here I really - really need a release. The thought of those long sexy chats and phone calls with a stranger make me feel oh so horny! And wanting your lovely cock even more.... I rub my nipple and it hardens - I can feel my desire for you rising....maybe in the tub I can warm myself up for you!?As I walk to the bedroom I start to disrobe slowly taking my time. Suddenly I am grabbed and am blindfolded from behind! No wo

Think About This
The next time you hear a politician use the word 'billion' in a casual manner, think about whether you want the 'politicians' spending YOUR tax money.A billion is a difficult number to comprehend, but one advertising agency did a good job of putting that figure into some perspective in one of it's releases. A.A billion seconds ago it was 1959.. B.A billion minutes ago Jesus was alive. C.A billion hours ago our ancestors were living in the Stone Age.. D.A billion days ago no-one walked on the earth on two feet. E. A billion dollars ago was only 8 hours and 20 minutes, at the rate our government is spending it. While this thought is still fresh in our brain...let's take a look at New Orleans ..It's amazing what you can learn with some simple division.Louisiana Senator,Mary Landrieu (D) is presently asking Congress for 250 BILLION DOLLARS to rebuild New Orleans . Interesting number... what does it mean? A.Well... if you are one of the 484,674 residents of New Orleans (every man, woman,

Pick Me!
I am an incredible snuggler! You have no idea..I'm tall and sexy, have a hot voice, nice eyes (so I get told this stuff) and get told I look like so and so, lol.I have a nice place, pool, cool shop and animals! lol.I have never been married and no kids.I have never left a trail of fatherless kids, broken homes or anything like that.I have never been an abuser or a meany, none of that screamin n yelling stuff.I don't have any sort of questionable history at all!I never been in jail.I'm very clean and healthy and totally safe to be with and I know it! How many can say that in this town? Like nobody obviously....I'm educated, intelligent and articulate!I have an awesome sense of humor and can make a girl laugh.. I'll keep you in stiches!I can fix, build repair anything and could build you your dream car or bike!I am monogamous and I've never cheated on anyone! I'm totally honest, have more integrity than most, totally straight up, genuine, down to earth and chill.I keep a clean house!Whil

Words From The Heart
When I fell in love my heart was on fire To be with you was my one desireAnd if you love me I’ll give you everything you need A lifetime of promises and a world full of dreams For only my heart knows what it means And I promise you it won’t be wrong One love, two hearts we will make it strong,But now my love is lost in your sweet kiss Honey when I’m alone you’re the one I missAnd your sweet, tender love it hard to resistDarling it's true my heart has fallen in love with you Looking upon the stars tonight wishing with all my mightHoping someday you will realize this passion I hold insideHoney it doesn’t cost a dime. And if you give in your love could be mineI feel truly blessed for this feeling the Lord has given meAccompany by faith and much understandingAnd I know this gift will guide me for all eternityAs my heart fly by with angel wings And the clouds form into wedding rings On and on a soft melodyThat’s how it feels to be in love like me.For thou

Lounge Poachers
DA (http://www.fubar.com/user/3416295) is head of promotions at Mayhem Radio.... this is a sb convo with one of our members... To {Evil Bitch}: ok good.. im glad u didnt go we yah in there... and ty for tellin me she shouldnt be in here tryin to pull our members {Evil Bitch}: i told her naw i like uhp so i'm gonna stay there {Evil Bitch}: yep but i didnt To {Evil Bitch}: hey sweets just real quick... was DA tryin to get u to go to the other lounge with her

Hes Got A Set Of Balls!
Seriously do they read my status? Im so changing my name to PREGNANT EVIL BISH!! hello...is your submissive behaviour as good as your outer appearance? i message you, because i have seen you while i was roaming arround the profiles...i am looking for an online-sub. when you are interested in bdsm related chats, cam-to-cam chats, tasks, exercises and when you would like to know more, just send me a message. it would be really nice to talk with you about this...have you ever thought about serving someone? to serve someone mentally or sexually... to take care about somebodys needsto talk with me about mental or sexual desires... to act as submissive for me. a dominant who tells you what to do, how to react and that takes care of your submissive needs if you have some?to please me mentally or sexually... to act as submissive on command... to know how it is to serve as submissivetake a look at my profile and blog. i am sure you will like what you see there. exspecially my bdsm related p

Luck
"All of us have bad luck and good luck. The man who perisists through the bad luck-who keeps right on going-is the man who is there when the good luck comes, and is ready to receive it"-Robert Collier "None are so fond of secrets as those who do not mean to keep them"-Charles Caleb Colton

Inspirational Quotes
Inspiration #1 October gave a party; the leaves by hundreds came- The Chestnuts, Oaks, and Maples, and leaves of every name.The sunshine spread a carpet, and everything was grand, Miss Weather lead the dancing, Professor Wind the band. GEORGE COOPER Inspiration #2 I love the night. I love to feel the tide of darkness rising slowly and slowly washing, turning over and over, lifting, floating, all that lies strewn upon the dark beach, all that lies hid in rocky hollows. KATHERINE MANSFIELD Inspiration #3 At the core of who we are is the roots of those that have influenced our lives the most and the impact of what they have exposed us to is always there and when the foundation is laid with love and commitment, our lives at some point will reflect that of which we have been taught. AJA GRAYDON Inspiration #4 Yesterday I sat in a field of Violets for a long time perfectly still, until I really sank into it- into the rhythm of the place, I mean- then when I got up to go ho

Forever Walking Alone
Alone I travel though the wasteland in my heartAs the grievance tears me apartThinking of you and the things you meant to meMy heart is bleeding, I can't go onIf I could unwid the wheel of timeI would have been by your sideIf I could turn back timeMy precious love would be aliveThe empty void inside my heart grows day by dayI have nowhere to turn to ease the painRemembering the smile you used to give meAnd your laughter that could lightMy way homeIf I could unwid the wheel of timeI would have been by your sideIf I could turn back timeI never had a chance to say goodbyeI have cried and mourned my lossMy heart keeps beating only for youAm I strong enough to fight on?Without your love I stand,I stand empty and aloneSo my love watch over me nowMy rage catches fire, I will strike them downI will avenge you, oh, vengeance so sweetThat's my last gift for youI'm forever walking alone

Better Off Alone
I'm alone in this worldAnd I like it this wayBy myself is how it isAnd by myself is how it'll stayI don't need anyone,To call me on the phoneTo chat with me for hoursTo make me feel not so aloneI don't need anyone,To hold me when I'm downCheer me up when I'm sadMake me smile when I frownI don't need anyone,To take a walk with meTalk about the little things in lifeTo laugh and smile with gleeI don't need anyone,To tell me it'll be OKThat everything will get betterMy problems will fade awayI don't need anyone,To tell me they love meI don't need to feel lovedI just want to feel freeFree from other peopleFree from what they feelFree from the effect they have on meOn my own I'll healSo what are people for?Caring? Talking to? Holding you? Talking on the phone?Why would I want any of these things?I'm better of being alone...

I Am Nothing
If I ever get free of this place,My happiness would lift me into space.I'd die a thousand deaths to turn back time,For a happy life free of the misery and pain.A happy family, happy childhood, is that insane?All I ever wanted was to curl up into a ball,All I ever did was throw my feelings at the wall.Yeah, I'm good at sport andYeah, I've good qualifications from which behind I can hide,But it's not me, it's not me inside.All I ever feel is nothing for anything or anyone,I'm kinda like a candle with all the wax gone.A light that was there, just an empty space in which it shone.I got used to it, and now it's who I am,The me before is me anyway, how can I change,When this is all I am, when I am really nothing.How can I change what is set for me,I can't, I have to feel pain, at least feeling pain is feeling something.Something is better than nothing and nothing is all I can be,I look behind, I look ahead, still nothing's all I see.

A Heartless World
Welcome to hell.Not the general hell, by my own.Where money and power rule,where gunshots are heard every minute of everyday.A place where men are kings and women are whores.A place of deceit, lies, death, destruction, and drugs.Some may see this place and think of it as a nightmare,I call it reality, I call it home.Am I happy in this hell?In a sick and twisted way, yes I am.They don't call me "heartless" for nothing.I smile at the things of this world,laugh at the destruction,and find amusement in the people.I cherish every moment of this world,and can not wait to be back in it.Call me what you want,it doesn't matter to me.I don't show love,don't want love,don't care about love.Love has cost me more than I was willing to give.Now I show only hate,and I am happy with what I am.I am happy with what I have become.This is my life,and I choose it well.

When I'm Hurting
"When I'm Hurting"Original Song By: Mike BlairIt's easier for you to walk awaythan it is for you to reach out to me.It's easier for you to look awaythan it is for you to see the depth of my despairIt's easier for you to look through me,than it is for you to see "me."It's easier for you to distance yourself,than it is for you to really care.It's easier for you to bask in your joy,than it is for you to feel my pain.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.It's hard for me to smile......When I am hurting.It's easier for me to cry,than it is for me to talk.It's easier for me to walk alone,than it is to risk rejection.It's easier for me to push you away,than it is for me to be held.It's easier for me to distance myself,than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.It's easier for me to die,than it is for me to face life's challenges.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard

Demons
Can't you see?All you're doing is killing meI'm an empty shellFull of nothing, not even airEmpty soulEmpty heartEmpty mindI'm nothing in your eyesPlaying your little gamesSmiling your little smileYou might as well fucking laugh in my faceBecause it has the same effectGoing behind my backTwisting your words into truthTry to hide your snickersI know I'm uglyI know I'm worthlessI know I'll never be perfectHate meAbuse meKill me insideIt's not like you careYou look down at my wristsYou look in disdainYou think I'm so patheticBut you're the ones who move the bladeYou break the skinYou break throughWith your voices and your wordsYou all make me go deeperYou all turn me inside outYou make me turn into myselfAnd let the demons outThe demons that call themselves my mindPolluting my very existencePolluting everything around meBecause what you say is trueAnd I'm so patheticI try to blame it on youI try to say it's your faultI try but there's nothing I can doThe demons are killing meThey have a th

Sometimes
Sometimes life never goes our waySometimes I just have to figure it's not my daySometimes I wish I could make everything rightSometimes I cry myself to sleep at nightSometimes I hope it'll all be okSometimes they just try to take my perfect day awaySometimes people can be so cruelSometimes friends break all the rulesSometimes people aren't what you thinkSometimes I feel like I'm on the brinkSometimes I wish I could've said something differentSometimes I feel like I'm being bentSometimes people just won't go awaySometimes I can't get people to staySometimes people make mistakesSometimes people can't just be happy for my sakeSometimes I wish everyone would just dieSometimes I want to feel more aliveSometimes I hate to see your faceSometimes I feel like the biggest disgraceSometimes I wish happiness could be freeSometimes I wish I just wasn't always me

Nearly Unnoticed
He is lonelyEven though you can't tellHe is reaching outFor what, he doesn't knowHe will continue to sit in silenceAnd hope that someone may stumble acrossHim and all of his emptinessBut they only hope that they do it in timeOtherwise he will have drifted too farAnd he may let goOf whatever grasp of the world he hasAs he slowly fades out of the lives of everyoneNearly unnoticed.

Wishful Thinking
Sometimes I wishI could be a star,I'd shine down on youAnd brighten up your midnight sky.Sometimes I wishI could be the moon,I'd light your wayAnd guide you throughthe night.Sometimes I wishI could be the wind,I'd blow my breeze upon youAnd cool your warm nights.Sometimes I wishI could be all theseSo that some way, somehowI could be near you even for a moment.Sometimes I wishI could be all theseJust for you.

Come Back To Me
"Come Back To Me"An Original song by: Mike BlairCome back to me,I'd do anything,To feel the love we felt,To keep the dreams we had,I long to see you again,Baby please come back to me.You left to follow a dream,But I'm still here baby,You said you'd be back,That we'd be together again,Our dreams go seperate ways,But I want you here with me,Come back to me,I'd do anything,To feel the love we felt,To keep the dreams we had,I long to see you again,Baby please come back to me.You took your clothes,And left the rings,Now my heart is broke in two,I lay here shattered and alone,Just waiting for you to be here,And praying to God that you'll...Come back to me,I'd do anything,To feel the love we felt,To keep the dreams we had,I long to see you again,Baby please come back to me.Haven't spoken to you in 3 weeks,No phone call, nothing,I know for sure I'll never see,Your sweet face surrounding me,It's over and you're gone for good,But sometimes I wish you would,Come back to me,I long to see you again

Before I Let You Go
When we were still togetherI truly loved youBut what’s happening right nowI guess we are throughIt’s really hard for meTo get off with youBut I know this might be goodFor both me and you.I love you but I have toSet you freeI’ve come to realize thatYou’re no longer happy with me apparentlyEven though it hurts, I haveTo say “good bye”It’s really hard for me toLive without you, butPromise I would try to move on.It hurts me so much but I haveTo let you go.But before letting you go,There’s one thing I want you to know...Someday...Soon...You're gonna miss meAnd realize I was the bestThing that ever happenedTo you....

Goodbye
My love,I had you in my heart,not realizing I did.Love,I knew somewhere in my heart,you never really cared.Love,when you went away,the tears fell like the rain in the sky.But love,I know you wanted my happiness,and my heart.But love,you never gave yours.My heart has never known this pain,and I know its all because of you.I want you to know,I eally fell for you...No matter what you think,I had loved you.The proof was in my tears,The proof was in my heart.So love,remember that I had cared,something I never thought I would dare.I know you don't want me,so good night,good bye,and good luck,my love....

Stay
"Stay"An Original Song By: Mike Blair[CHORUS]Stay with meOh oh stay with me nowStay, won't you stay, with me.You came for an hourStayed for a whileAnd my heartBeat went wildYou got me some pride girlMy confidence grewYou started to stay girlI started to love you.[CHORUS]Stay with meOh oh stay with me nowStay, won't you stay, with me.Before too long you'd moved right inYour pots and your pansKnew how to treat meMy heart was in your hands.Now you've grown coldDon't laugh anymoreI know I've seen youLooking at the door.Now you've gone and told meYou'll soon be moving onYou say the love we hadHas withered up and gone.[CHORUS]Stay with meOh oh stay with me nowStay, won't you stay, with me.[CHORUS]Stay with meOh oh stay with me nowStay, won't you stay, with me.

I'll Never Understand
"I'll Never Understand"Original Song By: Mike Blair*This is my newest song I wrote with my thoughts on my previous relationship that ended with questions in my mind.*===I thought we'd last foreverThe things we did togetherThe love that we hadThe times of ups & downsMy faith in love is gone[CHORUS]It's a god-damn shameWhatcha you're doing to meNever knew what you were thinkingNever thought that I caredIn you're crazy fucked-up mindI'll always question why?(Pause)I'll just never understandYou say that you still love meBut choose to be with himYou tell me he's not the man I amAnd not as good a loverBut in your mixed up mindThere can never be another[CHORUS]It's a god-damn shameWhatcha you're doing to meNever knew what you were thinkingNever thought that I caredIn you're crazy fucked-up mindI'll always question why?(Pause)I'll just never understandYou say he treated you badlyAnd that he never caredWhen we were togetherI was always fairI put you first every timeAnd never thought of meBut yo

Your Guardian Angel
**Such an amazing song.. Fucking women..**When I see your smileTears roll down my face I can't replaceAnd now that I'm strong I have figured outHow this world turns cold and it breaks through my soulAnd I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the oneI will never let you fall (let you fall)I'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it all (through it all)Even if saving you sends me to heavenIt's okay. It's okay. It's okay.Seasons are changingAnd waves are crashingAnd stars are falling all for usDays grow longer and nights grow shorterI can show you I'll be the oneI will never let you fall (let you fall)I'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it all (through it all)Even if saving you sends me to heavenCuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heartPlease don't throw that awayCuz I'm here for youPlease don't walk away andPlease tell me you'll stay woah, stay woahUse me as you willPull my strings just for a thrillAnd I know I'll be okayThou

Update!! Woohoooo!!
Ok, so apparently I'm needing to fill you all in on my date with my ex husband. It went great! We had dinner and talked, then went back to my house and sat and talked some more. It was 3am before we realized the time! And only then because my roommate came home from work and told us! Well....we ended up spending the entire weekend together! We talked about everything. About our dating, marriage and subsequent divorce. We caught up on the last 11 years. We have decided, together, to start dating again. But this time, we are going to just take it one day at a time. The old flame has never been completely extinquished, and the thought of re-igniting it thrills me to no end! He was and always will be the love of my life. So, wish me luck in this endeavor. yanno, actually, I don't think I will need luck wished on me. This feels too right. :)

Dream Eyes
Your eyes are big-big, And clean white, Like the purity of a cold-cold winter night. Their color is blue and grey, Like the heat coming down a hot-hot summer day. Paleolithic verities, In your eyes I see, That the one you are looking for, Sure-sure is not me. I’m very-very poor,

13 Years
13 years ago this morning my dad passed away. It still strikes me funny how it's been so long but yet it still feels like yesterday. I remember every detail of that morning. Every freakin' visual and I truly wish I could forget it. Twenty-seven years I had him. Twenty-seven freakin' years of memories and the images I get still so clearly are those of the morning when we found him. How fucked up is that? Like that is truly the last image you want to have of someone. *sighs* RIP Dad.

I Hate Face Book.........
I've been on there for awhile, but never used it much. When my space finally got over-saturated with MAFIA updates and gifts and such, I was already comfortable here. I'd get on FB just to see what my RL friends are up to. I admit, sometimes it'd be depressing to me.... I'd see that friends I knew in high-school and such now have 2.5 kids, married, and even some who have their own businesses. Don't get me wrong, I'm really happy for them but especially now that I'm only FIVE years away from hitting 40, it sinks in even more I'll never get that life I always wanted. Just last night, I visited one of my former student's page to see pics he posted up and found out HE'S now teaching at the school I used to. Once again, I'm happy for him but I admit... That was the BEST job I ever had, and miss it big time. With the life I've had, that was the closest to being "normal" I've ever been. Alot of times I'd clock in at 7AM and won't leave till 10PM, but I LOVED IT! And I admit, as I w

Spread The Word
in light of january being cervical cancer awareness month i feel the need to tell my story. In 2003 i went for what was to be a normal pap smear and it turned out to be anything but. i was unexpectedly called back to the doctor a week later about my test results. I was nervous going cause they dont tell you to come back in unless theres something wrong. i walked in and they said the doctor was waiting on me to go right back. i walked in the exam room and the doctor said "i have your test results here" At that time he said that the results showed i had cervical cancer. he said they had to do another test to see just how far this cancer was but he was setting me up with a specialist. The next few months were like a blur to me. At first they said that it didnt seem to be too far and could do a simple procedure and get rid of it. but as it was when i went in to have the simple procedure done they found that the cancer had spread to my uterus. I was devestated to say the least. i wondered w

Without You
I know Im a little wrong, I know Im a little cold, I admitt Im a little lost , While I dont have you to hold. Walking in the shadows, Ducking in the dark , I cant seem to peice together, All that this love has torn apart,Its just a day up , its just another knock down , Another Im tired of all your coming around, Another dream gone , Another let go , Another way out , and nobody knows, Ive been thinking about you , I keep trying not to call , I can't eat , I think to much , and I don't sleep at all , Don't know where its headed , Theres gotta be a new way gone, Something a little more than, all this holding on, Its just a day up , its just another knock down , Another Im tired of all your coming around, Another dream gone , Another let go , Another way out , and nobody knows,Im dying without you .

Terrorism... Poor Kids
That's right folks!! Terrorism, the Church of PedoPriest has engaged in an act of terrorism and Us at the Arach of Atheos Newspaper has uncovered the new story!We uncovered this story of their Newest member, formerly known as Lord Spinoza. Spinoza had given his life over to god! In the most faithful of all acts He had done what god commanded of him, as has uttered those four words JESUS IS THE GREATEST, he blew himself up while on a bus full of teenagers on their way to Christian campIn this statement released to the media, as well as us those at the “Arach of Atheos” paper, you can see his statement below. Okay you conspiracy theorist, we all the AOA newspaper, thought it all a little too suspicious that a priest by all accounts on good terms with everyone would just one day decide to commit an act of terrorism and blow himself up.. that was until we found this floating around this secret order of pedophile priest newsletter. In it you see that it was NOT a random act,

Moody Ass Pregnant Woman Of Mine
So yet once again the GF is pissed at me...all because of the below reason So yesterday im sitting in line at the local grocery store waiting to pay...this Morbidly Obese woman is in front of me on one of those lil electric wheelchairs to haul her fat ass around throughout the store to get her snacks....and she is bitchin up a storm about how the McDonalds straws are way too thin....So in my most humble of voices i say..."oh for fucks sakes lady...just pay and roll your big ass outta my way..and dont forget your diet coke too"... apparently im an embarassement to be out in public with....

The Worst Tequila - Great Music
The worst tequila I have ever swallowed was just prior to seeing this band. The music took the bad taste from my mouth. I wonder if nine out of ten dentists would agree with the bacteria fighting properties of Type O Negative? Maybe they should study it...

Latestb News
McCanns back in Portugal for trial (UKPA) – 5 hours ago Kate and Gerry McCann are returning to Portugal for the libel trial of the former Portuguese detective who headed the investigation into their daughter Madeleine's disappearance. The couple launched legal action against Goncalo Amaral after he published a book questioning their account about what happened to the little girl. Mr and Mrs McCann, both 41, from Rothley, Leicestershire, will fly to Lisbon ahead of the three-day trial, which is due to start at the main civil court in the Portuguese capital on Tuesday. It is understood that they plan to attend all the hearings, but do not intend to go back to the Algarve resort where Madeleine vanished more than two-and-a-half years ago. Family spokesman Clarence Mitchell said: "I can confirm that Kate and Gerry McCann will be returning to Portugal on Monday to attend the resumption of the Amaral trial on Tuesday at the main civil court in Lisbon. "The details of their trave

He Is My Shepherd
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Take My Strength
TAKE MY STRENGTH Little child,wontcha come out and play?Your color don't scare me,I won't runaway!Touch my heart.......feel me near.....Take my strength......I'll take your fear.......Little child,your secret is safe with me~~See my back, arms and legs?Black and blue is how we're meant to be!Touch my heart.....feel me near.....Take my strength.......I'll take your fear......Little child,I know you hurt so much~~but we must hide those tears,no time for our feelings and such!Touch my heart......feel me near.......Take my strength.......I'll take your fear........Little child,fight and scream until the black comes on in~~bury the days of blood, torture and tears,forget this is a place you've ever been!!Touch my heart........feel me near.......Take my strength........Let me BURY your fear........Little child is no more these days,Battle-scarred woman-child left to walk in her stead~~A life bathed in darkness and shadows help her survive,An echo deep in the abyss her only proof she's

I Hate Hw
I don't hate hw that has a point, but I dislike homework simply for the sake of doing it. If it's just a review of stuff we already have proven we know, why waste our time? There is more effective ways of dropping deadweight off the roster, or maybe it's just a way of weeding out the lazy people. I figure if I should be doing work I might as well be learning something new. Oh well, maybe I'm just tired. Night all!

Another Fine Day
Didn't get any studying done, but that's what tomorrow is for. Went to one of my friend's eagle scout ceremonies, then back to the firehouse. Showed a new guy around, bullshitted around, and went on a fire-that-almost-was. Now off to get some sleep cause my sleep schedule is all jacked up again and start another hell week on tuesday. Whee.

What's Going On?
I've been sitting in fubar listening to a few people complain about the rules. I admit sites have to have rules, but for god sake we're all adults here. I've created a site for all people 18+ to enjoy, i call it..... Social Jungle. I built this site with the goal to not steal members from other sites, but to provide an exciting social experience for those who seek it, without the hassle of strict rules and guidelines. Let me give you some of my background, I've been doing web/graphics design for about almost 9 years in August 2010. I do own my own hosting company known as SiteMax-Hosting, which provides affordable web hosting & shoutcast services. I've also dj'ed online for several well-known radio sites and soon retired from the dj scene in late 2009.

Strange Encounters And The Ability To Grieve~by Jd
Funny how in a matter of seconds, Someone unexpectedly can share with you their world, One small act of kindness, The people in this life struggle and just need someone to listen close. A little gesture and a genuine smile, For someone to open up and you learn alot from a little, Two complete strangers walking different directions in life, Funny but fortunate is what i call "real life". Pain seen through the eyes of the beholder, Yet still determined to hold onto what matters most, I fight the painful struggle every moment of my life, I am trying to stay above the current and i know just how it feels. Yet the stories are so different, Mine is my personal struggle, Yours is the beginning of a tremendous amount of pain, You dont feel sorry because of the lose, This pain only comes when it finally sets in life has changed all thatr you've ever known. I stood at these crossroads before, Came down to the point i no longer has a choice, I walked away from everything i ever had

So Lost
So I have come to yet another point in my life where I am confused and unsure where to go. I am stuck in so many situations and I'm not exactly sure how I got into them in the begining. I mean its bad enough that people who I thought were my friends are rippin each other apart in court and draggin me down with them when I had nothin to do with it. But now I have a even bigger problem. I mean dont get me wrong, I love my friends. I love them just as if they were my own family, but when they start taking advatage of people and throwing themselves pitty parties everytime you see them...not worth it. It hurts to know that thoes are the people that I loved like family, when they never gave 2 shits about me. I heard that they were talking some massive shit about me and as of late...I'm starting to believe it more and more. They never talk to me and when they do its like a total waste of time for them. Oh well. Been dealin with alot of personal issues too. Have dealt with alot of loss over

Soldiers Poem
For all the free people that still protest. You're welcome. We protect you and you are protected by the best. Your voice is strong and loud, but who will fight for you? No one standing in your crowd. We are your fathers, brothers, and sons, wearing the boots and carrying guns. We are the ones that leave all we own, to make sure your future is carved in stone. We are the ones who fight and die, We might not be able to save the world, Well, at least we try. We walked the paths to where we are at and we want no choice other than that. So when you rally your group to complain, take a look in the back of your brain. In order for that flag you love to fly wars must be fought and young men must die. We came here to fight for the ones we hold dear. If that's not respected, we would rather stay here. So please stop yelling, put down your signs, and pray for those behind enemy lines. And then when the conflict is over and all is well, be thankful that we chose to go through hell.

Can't Hear K-irb? Don't See The Cams?
Having a problem listening in to K-IRB, the Anti-Lounge's radio station? Can't see the cams? Let's try to fix that! First, let's see what we can do about K-IRB. If you're using a PC, and you're using Chrome or Firefox, click here. If you're using Internet Explorer, you may have to update your Windows Media Player to the latest version If you are using a Mac or are having problems with the above links, then try these: If all else fails, then visit the listen page at K-IRB. Hopefully that fixed your audio chain and you can hear the best mix of rock and your requests on K-IRB. Now, let's see what's wrong with your cam issues. Please make sure you have the Adobe Flash Player Plugin. If you're STILL having problems, we suggest you clear out the cache for your browser. And if that doesn't work, you may need to defragment your system, or perhaps try another browser. We suggest Chrome for optimal usage. Hope this helps!

Promote The Lounge!!!
Promote the Lounge!!! The only way for us to grow is if we let other people know we're here. Here's a sample of what you can post to pages of new people to both welcome them to Fubar and invite them into Anti. Feel free to re-word it. Welcome to Fubar! Come join us in the Anti-Lounge, where you'll find things done different than most other lounges. We like to have fun, talk about good times, and we even host weekly contests and live radio shows! Cut and paste the link below to your browser and we'll see you soon! http://www.fubar.com/lounge/anti Want a list of new people to promote? Here you go! Remember, if they're green, always welcome them to fubar!!!

Spread The Word!!!
Please help promote the lounge whenever you get a chance... Just cut and paste the code under each graphic... thanks! Bulletins, blogs, profile comments, anywhere and everywhere you can think of! Thanks! Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: Cut and paste: If you make any graphics and want us to add it to this list, leave a PM with John [Radio X show] with the graphic! Thanks!

Yes I Really Do Shimmy
Jan 10, 9:00 pm (30 minutes) Shimmy Episode 7 TV-G, CC Dancers showcase the 'grapevine' traveling step, the 'falling leaves', the 'head-slides', the 'hip-down ronde de jambe' and the 'hip-circle.' The new moves are combined into a choreographed dance followed by a freestyle belly dance. Jan 10, 9:30 pm (30 minutes) Shimmy Episode 10 TV-G, CC Dancers teach new moves including the lively three-step-turn and three variations on hip isolations. The new moves are practiced in an energetic dance followed by a freestyle belly dance.

Anti-lounge Cam Rules
ANTI-LOUNGE WEBCAM RULES Here are a set of rules we ask you adhere to as far as our lounge cams are concerned. IF YOU ARE JUST A VIEWER... Try not to ask the person or persons on cam to do things. We are not trained monkeys, we are not strippers, and we are not your personal pets. If you want to be a director, go to Hollywood. IF YOU WANT TO GO ON CAM... If you are lounge staff and want to take an open cam, by all means... go for it. Start with Cam 1 if it's available, that's the staff cam in the lounge, and only staff members are permitted on that cam. If you are a lounge MEMBER and want to take an open cam, please ask an active staff member first. If you happen to be denied and feel you have an issue with that, send a private message to Radio X show. If you are a lounge VISITOR and want to get on cam, fuck you. Seriously... you can't join the lounge first, you impatient prick? ONCE YOU'RE ON CAM... You should change your status to reflect that you're on cam. A goo

How To Cam In The Anti Lounge
HOW TO CAM IN ANTI-LOUNGE While we like to have fun, please adhere to our four-word cam policy.NO SEX. NO DRUGS. Next... Let your friends know what's going on and that you're going on cam with us! Change your status to something like "SEE ME ON CAM IN ANTI-LOUNGE" Now... the technical part. Getting on cam. 1. Go to http://smotri.com/broadcast/list/ NEW!! 2. In the circle click "Создать трансляцию" (Create broadcast)... and in the box that pops up, click "форме авторизации" (the login form)... From there, log in with one of the following: Cam 1 username: anti01 password: **** (staff only cam)Cam 2 username: anti02 password: 0hsh3r1Cam 3 username: anti03 password: n3wy0rk

My Present Mood
Baby, do you understand me now,Sometimes I feel a little mad.But, don't you know that no one aliveCan always be an angel.When things go wrong I feel real bad. I'm just a soul whose intentions are good,Oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood. Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree,With a joy that's hard to hide.And sometimes it seems that,All I have to do is worryAnd then you're boundTo see my other side. I'm just a soul whose intentions are good,Oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood. Life has its problems,And I get my share,And that's one thing I never mean to do, Oh, oh, oh, baby - don't you know I'm human.I have thoughts like any other one.Sometimes I find myself, lord, regretting,Some foolish thing - some little simple thing I've done. Eric Burdon and The Animals

Bare
Is it too much to ask to actually meet someone who wants to be there and wants to put an effort into a relationship with me? I give and I give and I give and I feel so damned empty it's pathetic. Should I be more selfish? Demanding? I'm so lost. Fuck money and material possessions. I want to feel emotions coming from someone who thinks I'm special to them. I'm a very emotional needy person. If I put a little extra effort into how I look, I want to know it's appreciated, or I stop trying. I want to be a part of someone's life, if he would just let me. Oh man.. I'm a romantic. Nothing good ever comes from it. I don't like the way I look. I'm not pretty. I'm not in any good physical shape. I'm not attractive. No, I'm not fishing for compliments. I really feel this way. I give what I can, my mind, my personality, my body if it ever gets to that point. If that's not enough, what is? I've always heard "I want a girl just like her" "If they ever perfect cloing, I want 5 of her" or someth

Thirteen Choruses For The Divine Marquis By Robert Anton Wilson
FIRST CHORUS "You are afraid of the people unrestrained — how ridiculous!" — Sade1 I dreamed I called Rita Hayworth on the phone and asked her if she hears the babies of Hiroshima screaming in the night. "No," she said, "I useta have kinda kooky problems like that but my analyst cleared them all up." But — I insisted — after all, it was your picture that was painted on the Bomb. Not Harry Truman, or Einstein, or even Marilyn Monroe. You. "Well, yeah, if you wanna look at it that way," she said. "But, Christ, they was sticking my picture on everything those days." But, but — I shouted — don't you feel any sense of responsibility? "Waita-minit, Mac," she said, "what are ya, some kinda nut? Nobody ever asked me nothing about it. They just went ahead and dropped it." But, but, but — I screamed — all those people — 550,000 of them, according to one estimate I read — blown apart by a picture of you — "Look, Clyde," she sa

Hitting Chicks
Ok, I'm watching this stupid show and I don't even know why I am, and no I won't say what it is. LOL And it got me thinking... I'm all about the fact that guys shouldn't hit a female, but if the chick is instigating and throwing punches...then she deserves to get hit whether by another female or a male. Am I wrong for thinking that?

Stevie Wonder
"If It's Magic"By Stevie WonderIf it's magic...Then why can't it be everlastingLike the sun that always shinesLike the poets in this rhymeLike the galaxies in time If it's pleasing...Then why can't it be never leavingLike the day that never failsLike on seashores there are shellsLike the time that always tells It holds the key to every heartThroughout the universeIt fills you up without a biteAnd quenches every thirst So...If it's specialThen with it why aren't we as carefulAs making sure we dress in stylePosing pictures with a smileKeeping danger from a child It holds the key to every heartThroughout the universeIt fills you up without a biteAnd quenches every thirst So...If it's magic...Why can't we make it everlastingLike the lifetime of the sunIt will leave no heart undoneFor there's enough for everyone

Advice.
I read a lot of articles. The subject matter varies but my favorite ones are relationship articles. Some of the advice I automatically toss off as nonsense, sometimes I take it to heart and sometimes I just don't know. Here are some I just don't know about let me know your opinion. 1. Buy a guy in a bar a drink. this seems like it would be weird. A lot of times it's weird when guys do it. 2. Recruit your friends to set you up. has this ever worked for anyone? Maybe my friends are just assholes. Seriously, a couple of years ago one tried to set me up with a friend. When I asked her if she was talking about the one with the prescription pill addiction she said yes. ugg 3. If he texts you more than he calls you, he's not that in to you. I am not a texting fan but is there a communication hierarchy? 4. Meet guys shopping. Most guys I know hate shopping. They get in, get what they want and get the fuck out. And don't you dare tell me book store. I have never seen ANYONE spark up

Fee Fie Hi! Fidelity An' Jack Black
Most fees consist of the giving of green stuff from one person and/or organization to another. Fie is what the Jolly Green Giant said when he had a cold and was ordering dessert from his cook (undoubtedly LL Cool Jay). HI! is English for Aloha, which makes it only half of an accurate translation. Fidelity is important in relationships; whether between a man and a woman in an intimate physical and emotional relationship - or between any gender combo that you are blessed enough to have found that is full of love (I am not a judge, and love is hard no matter how it comes if you intend for it to stay). Fidelity is important in relations between organizations and countries. It breaks down into the words that around 1375 to 1425 meant LOYAL and FAITH. Jack Black has a comedic fidelity - his style is clear and concise and you will laugh. He also has some excellent metal songs with Kyle Gass as the band Tenacious D. This Thursday he will be on the comedy called COMMUNITY - along with

Holy Fire Insurance
Holy Fire Insurance Salvation is exchanged for worship & it's nothing more than a holy barter system where you say the magic words & you are saved. On the surface it's cheap, easy and painless. It appeals to anyone who doesn't want to be burdened with thinking for themselves, but it's in no sense "free." Christians claim we have free will to choose if we go to hell or not. It can't be free when you have to fear the consequences. That completely conflicts with the definition of free: to give or receive something without an expectation of anything in return. We call giving or receiving of such a thing: a gift. If I put a gun to your head and say, "you have the free will to not give me your wallet, but if you defy me, I will kill you." This is not free will, it's Circumstantial Will. If a parent put a gun to their child's head and said, "I want to give you the gift of unconditional love, but if you reject it, I will kill you." This is not a gift, it's conditional love.

Is The United States A Christian Nation?
Is The United States a Christian Nation? The United States was never a Christian nation and was never founded on Christianity or Christian principles. Although many early colonies were made up of Christian sects, they were all of different denominations and all were leaving England and other parts of Europe to escape persecution by the Christian governed British Parliament and Catholic/Vatican ruled Roman government. The colonies had Puritans in Massachusetts and Virginia, Jews in New York and Rhode Island, Quakers in New Jersey, Roman Catholics in Maryland, Germans and other Europeans in Pennsylvania which had a diversity of religious sects, etc. However, there were also atheists and deists in America's colonies. Deism was very popular during the birth of the United Colonies, most of the Founding Fathers were deists. Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Paine, among many others, held Deist, rather than Christian, religious beliefs. Some Founding Fathers were Christia

Atheists Who Become Religious On Their Deathbed
Atheists Who Become Religious On Their Deathbed Fundamentalists often claim that Charles Darwin renounced his theory of evolution on his death bed, in a way to claim that evolution is false. They also claim that Thomas Paine, who played an integral role in the American Revolution, and wrote a famous attack on Christianity called, the Age of Reason, that he recanted his atheism on his death bed. Paine wrote the Age of Reason while awaiting the guillotine, but was later released from prison. His recantation was a rumor started by Puritans. There are many bogus stories of atheists recanting their disbelief on their death bed circulating by dishonest evangelists. As with science, Scripture, history and their own beliefs, fundamentalists have selective observation, focusing only on things that support their claims of God, Jesus and the Bible, while ignoring, denying, down playing and revisioning any evidence that proves these ideas to be false. If you actually read your Bib

Jesus Is Not The Reason For The Season
Christmas and Easter Atheists celebrate the Winter Solstice, which has been recognized since ancient times as the shortest day of the year – December 25 by the Julian calendar. The ancients celebrated this day because they realized that they had “rounded the corner” and, soon, days would grow longer and longer, and their crops would once again provide sustenance. During the early days of Christianity, believers tried to persuade the ruling authorities to establish a legal holiday to commemorate Jesus' birth. But the governing authorities refused. So the Christians decided that “if you can't beat them, join them” and thereafter celebrated Jesus' birth on an already-established holiday: the Winter Solstice, Dec 25th. (This was in the 4th Century. Before that time, Christians only celebrated Jesus' Resurrection, not his birth.) Pope Gregory XIII later revised the ancient Julian calendar; and so the calendar we use today –the Gregorian calendar--

Meet The New Dj Dj K She Sways And Sways The Tunes Your Way
DJ K and the INTOXICATED LOCALS oh hell yeah COME GET YOUR INTOXICATIONcome join the UNHOLY TWO right now and meet the new dj DJ Kshe is so gonna SWAY SWAY and have some fun with them and their friends MEET OUR NEW DJ. SHE IS DJ K AND SHE SWAYS AND SWAYS THE TUNES YOUR WAY TUNES ARE UP AND JAMMING SO VROOM VROOM OVER TO THE PLACE TO BE INTOXICATION home of the INTOXICATION LOCALS and crazy parties with AWESOME people!!!!!!!!! COME AND JOIN ME Click the banner to join the party! INTOXICATION is here to stay

Our World
is the u.s.a. ever going to change,, 911 wasnt enough ,ppl fly through our security loop holes everyday and get through are ports daily with bombs ,drugs,even simple product that make these bombs,and we spend billions of dollars every yr to strenghten our NSA,HOMELAND,DOD,SECRET SERVICE,and so many more securities every single day,,so the reason for this blogs is the USA is under attack and our country isnt even going to say that because they dont want to see chaos in our streets,,we even let our country tamper with ourcell phone everyday and let terrorist through our gates and put them through college so they can blow up our country ,instead of fighting against one another in USA we need to stand close together,,,and stand for our place we live in and stand strong,against world peace ,ppl wake up if we dont our babies will have nothing but a one world country ,,please leave a comment,,, because im going to take a stand ,i want my children to grow up and believe our country still figh

Fussgelenkbandage Von Bewegungsmelder
Eine Fussgelenkbandage stabilisiert das Fussgelenk gegen Umknicken bei Sport, Beruf und Freizeit. Ein Bewegungsmelder erlaubt eine wirkungsvolle Ueberwachung von Privathaus, Wohnung, Gewerberaum und Liegenschaften.

Cancer Supporters
Cancer is a deadly disease It makes you sad when you hear it mentioned It makes you worry about the "What If's" It makes you very sick It makes you lose your hair It makes you have the shakes It makes you very weak and tired It makes you feel like you should just give up It can or can not be cured with chemo treatments What you need most with cancer is family and friends Family and Friends will always be there for you Family and Friends are the best support you can have Family and Friends will pray with you to help get you healed With family and friends anybody can fight this evil battle of cancer Family and Friends is what this world needs more of CANCER SURVIVORS = FAMILY AND FRIENDS @ Dedicated to my aunt ruth bostic and others who are fighting cancer

In Response To My Status
Just want to clear this up, thanks to those of yall who showed concern... I had an arguement/miscommunication with a friend and was blocked. I asked that person to do something my status and that person's status response was something like "save the drama for ya mama. don't you have some exercising videos to do" (This person KNOWS I am very self conscious of my weight and that tomorrow I am starting a new program to help myself shed some lbs so it's a dig at me to make me feel worse about my weight) So that's where my status came from. My mother is deceased, but she has been since I was 19. Sorry if I made yall worry and think she just passed away. XoXo

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Somthing wrong somthing not quite right touch me baby all through the night all my world is a bright delusion all my life is a torn curtin all my mind comes tumbling down im gettin tired of hanging around waiting around with my head to the ground i hear a very gentle sound very near very far very soft very clear come today baby come today .....

Why Would
Why would David say, The Lors said unto my lord? It is accepted that. The Lord is God and my lord is The Son of God The Christ. If that is the case should it not be, The LORD said unto my Lord? Why would The Christ depect Himself as not bringing peace but to put at odds all of us against each other? Reincarnation some of us have an understanding of it. Transmigration, does anyone truly understand that? A refernce source has Transmigration as reincarnation? Transmigration, all reincarnation cease. There are lot of thnigs I question and yet most don't care or never given the opportunity to ask or question. I question my own self and why am I here? Norio

Candle
let me light the wayhold me closedont be afraidwalking in darknessis not the same as the blindyou have me nearto seek what you wish to findgive me oxygendont try hardneed you now more than thenkeeping you warmin winters of the mindgive me your handmelt away uncertain timesi burn for youi dance for youi glow for youan eternal flamelit long agoin your name......

2039482
I don’t care anymore that I’m asleep more hours than I can be bothered to be awake. In the middle of the night when I wake with nightmares I’ll ask you “Will you please come home? I need you.” And you’ll respond “I’m sorry I can’t.” At night when you call, you’ll whisper to me that you’re so afraid I’ll off myself before you come home. And I bet it’s awful to know that you caused this. I’d give anything to forget that you swore you loved me and then you threw it all away, and stupid stupid me tried to salvage it, I can’t even salvage myself. I hate you for doing this to me. I’m the kind of broken that means three year old temper tantrums on the bathroom floor because I think that maybe someone will bring you home when they can’t stand to listen to me anymore. And not sleeping for three days because the nightmares won’t stop. And drinking half a bottle of vodka because it brings back memories and then I’ll have a reason to be this way.

890
Tarin- Every time you have a dream about being pushed down stairs Put a penny heads up somewhere So maybe someone will find it and have better luck than you. Tarin- Remember, Sometimes there are happy endings. Maybe not for you, but there are. Out there. Somewhere. Tarin- It always hurts for more than a minute. No matter how hard they try to convince you, it’s always a lie. Tarin- Don’t live your life in fear. besides; there’s not much left to fear anyways. Tarin- For the love of all that is holy don't fucking throw it away this time.

9973
I spend these nights alone, downing vodka and coke. And after all these years, I still can't stand the taste. I thought it was something you would eventually become accustomed to, like sleeping alone. But I guess I never did develop a taste for that either.

2020
That night I could barely stand your Holier than thou attitude. There is a bible in this hotel nightstand- you know. And I tried so hard to open it, I really did. I suppose though…You can’t forgive those who have no desire to be forgiven. Uncle Sam got his and now I’m going to get mine. At least for a little while, because forever never really was the plan. Those late nights never said we loved each other. Never whispered we needed each other. They shouted- we were lonely. They say that healing takes time. And que sera sera. And don’t give up hope. No matter how many cigarettes we turn up, we could never get that lucky.

09897
These days counting to ten takes tons more tenacity than I can consider having. Cigarette burn holes remind me in the morning of my fragile flimsy fast morals. I remember asking once, twice, thrice for you to please stop me. Because these days I just can’t conjure the courage. “I lied.” “About what, cupcake?” “Anything I could.” There should be a title page with that novella of emotion.

What Do You Want From Me By Pink Floyd
"What Do You Want From Me"As you look around this room tonightSettle in your seat and dim the lightsDo you want my blood, do you want my tearsWhat do you wantWhat do you want from meShould I sing until I can't sing any morePlay these strings until my fingers are rawYou're so hard to pleaseWhat do you want from meDo you think that I know something you don't knowWhat do you want from meIf I don't promise you the answers would you goWhat do you want from meShould I stand out in the rainDo you want me to make a daisy chain for youI'm not the one you needWhat do you want from meYou can have anything you wantYou can drift, you can dream, even walk on waterAnything you wantYou can own everything you seeSell your soul for complete controlIs that really what you needYou can lose yourself this nightSee inside there is nothing to hideTurn and face the lightWhat do you want from me

Things Happen
Sometimes it's easier to express what you feel through a song you hear and know. You can, because the people who write the songs feel what you do. They live a human life, just like you do. The same emotions felt over and over by billions of people, all put into a song. That's what I'm doing with this section of my blogs. The songs reveal my emotions better than anything can at points in my life when I don't know how to express myself. I'm sure others can relate.

Fubar Pics
Due to not having a VIP I am unfortunately having to remove a good portion of my photos on here in order to upload some that I have recently downloaded. I think its unfair that I should have to do so just because unlike 90% of fubar I can't afford to purchase a VIP on my own. I think Fubar needs to take into consideration and make VIPS, blins etc accessible by fubucks not just forking over actual cash.

U Say Toemaytoe, Y Say Toematoe
I never heard of Anvil, nor am I familiar with the allure of the floppy sounds the lead singer Lips can make; though I, too, can make those same sounds. My husband introduced me to the beauty of metal in a place called Sword Swamp - appropriate, I do believe. I had started out with an affinity for Kiss, Aerosmith, Deep Purple, Lynard Skynard - and then jumped to the Parliment Funkadelics, The Ohio Players, Slave - then I switched to Adam Ant, Billy Idol, Kajagoogoo - then there was this weird period of country music which I phased out of and in to the offerings of my beloved husband, who says I am not shy at all (SEE KAJAGOOGOO "TOO SHY".) Any way - after watching Phil Anselmo "THANK YOU! THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH!!" (my best Phil Anselmo impression based upon personal observation at a Pantera concert) conducting this interview I came away with one question: What is the difference between a Bass player and a BASS player? They both have to have hooks, strong fingers, and a line.

The Zoo
So we have amassed quite a few pets in our house.. have our own little Zoo. As Follows Mine2 Bearded Dragons (Tesla & Einstein)3 Bettas (Candycane, Peschi, & Chill) (I lost Jeff :( )2 Turtles (Madori and Cosmo) I plan on getting either a leopard gecko or a Horny Toad next :) My Husband1 Florida King Snake (Souxsie)1 Mountian Horn lizard (Godzilla)1 Neon tree dragon (Leon)1 Tokay Gecko (Ebenser)2 Mantellas (Jay & Silent Bob)1 Bananna Waxy Mantella (Brody)2 Green Anoles (Ferd & Sterdag)2 Bamahma Anoles (Watson and Red)1 house Gecko (houdini AKA A** Hole)1 Dumpy Frog (fatso)1 australian Golden Frog (Marty)1 australian beeked frog (Morty)2 fire belly toads (Memnoch & Thulsa Doom)1 white lipped tree frog (Race)1 green tree frog (Benton)1 Fat lazy cat (Tiger) My Husband plans on getting either a Poison Dart Frog or the True Fire Skink Next/.. Our roommate and my best friend2 cats (Mittens & Boo)2 Rats (Oreo & Jersey)1 Betta (Nino) = 27 pets for us= 32 pets in the house!! Anyways t

Someone Save Me From Myself
feel the darkness around me,lord plz help me see what i have done, im trying so hard to be a better person,im lost in this life,someone save me from myself,my heart bleeds for you,i would do anything to see you smile,why do i hurt myself, my walls are tall and thick, a twisted globe i live in,how do i break this shell, im scared whats next, lord plz show me the way

Yay! New Reptiles!
I have new reptiles. Yay! so the list goes as follows: 1 Tokay Gecko 1 House Gecko 2 Bahama Anoles 2 Green Anoles 2 Fire Bellied Toads 1 Australian Golden Tree FRog 1 Australian Beaked Tree Frog 2 Silver Mantella Dart Frogs 1 South African Banana Waxy Tree Frog 1 Australian Dumpy Tree Frog 1 Green Tree Frog 1 Mountain Horned Lizard 1 Neon Tree Dragon 1 White Lipped Tree Frog 1 Forida Kingsnake

Wolfsheim
Walking down the streets at nightI see her stumbling through the rainA skinny figure in the darkHer face a shade of grayBegging here and barking thereShe's swearing all the timeHer fingers fumbling with her hairA dirty mess of grimeAnd she starts to cry and she's asking whyHer life's always the sameBut she does not see that unfortunatelyThere's no one here to blame"Heroin", she said, "Was the best I hadNo more mountains left to climbThe world so slow, all my dream's just too highTo be fulfilled in time"She grabs my arm and I feel alarmedHer fingers gripping tightI see her pleading eyes, so I start to disguiseAnd say, that every thing's alrightAnd the reason why I pretended and liedIs that I don't want to killThe poor dream that's left in the deepest cleftOf the thing that she calls will"Heroin", she said, "Was the best I hadNo more mountains left to climbThe world so slow, all my dream's just too highTo be fulfilled in time"

Random. Not Complete.
Glossy eyes and starry skies, do you even know what I'm saying? I gave you so many chances to prove yourself, yet all you brought was pain. The look on your face tells me right away that you've smoked yourself dumb and when you were off getting high, forgetting about our problems, I was at home feeling numb. Why is your escape so easy? Why do you get the quick release? I'm all alone, sitting by myself. No word from you. Are you alive or are you deceased? Your habits, your choices, and your patterns, they all point to the latter. I can see the problems you are having even when you say nothing is the matter.

Sexual Sign
Your Sex Sign is... You're fierce, forceful, and dominant. Lovers leave your bedroom with a few scratches and bites - if they're lucky! You're a born performer and totally hot. Everyone begs to be your slave.Leo, many people are attracted to your dazzling style. You are always at the center of attention. Heads turn when you enter a room. You are flamboyant, glamourous, and spectacularly attractive.You are known and sought after for her fiecy, forceful lovemaking. You're totally abandoned (and noisy!) in bed.You kick, bite, scratch, and scream with pleasure. You like rough, heavy foreplay - and hot pounding intercourse. You like to play the dominant role in S & M games.One of your strongest sexual traits is your exhibitionism. You adored being watched during sex. (Have a cam in your bedroom yet?)First, you do a slow, sexy strip tease for your lover. You become aroused yourself as you peel off your sparkly thong. You especially like to have mirrors strategically placed

Dear Angel
dear angel verse 1 dear angel, could you carry me blood is dripping from my broken feet i cannot go on, i know you'll understand its hard to smile, when you got nails in your head chorus i am the line of chalk, they always put me down you better watch where you walk when your in this town i am the wooden cross,they always burn me down you are the stagnate pool, where all my children drown verse 2 dear needle, could you pardon me i call you empty, your quick to disagree my soul is hollow, there's nowhere left to hide its hard to smile, when there's a hole in your side chorus x1 verse 3 dear father, could you answer me ill pull the plug and end your suffering collapse your towers, crush your bleeding heart its hard to smile when you've got thorns in your head chorus x2 then fade with music

Your Tears Have Touched My Heart
Your Tears Touch My Heart Beautiful Daughter,from the day you were born,you have struggledto make it in this world,and your tearshave alwaystouched my heart.I held you to my breast,prayed you'd latch on,watched you struggle to find the lovethat would sustain you....and your tears again touched my heart.We managed to get throughthe eating difficulties,you and I, and it wastime to learn to walkon your own....and you'd crawl and reach upto me....and your tears touched my heart!Elementary school camerolling up on us fast....you were bright and smartand knew so much....but that big yellow buswas taking you away from all you knew....and your tears touched my heart!You were only sixwhen your life was to change forever.I sank within myself asyour father left us....and your tears touched my heartas you begged him to stay.It took us some time,but we found ourselves....I taught you to laugh again,to smile again,to hope again....and your tears touchedmy heart as you graduatedwith honors.Yo

Personality Quiz
You Are An ENFP The InspirerYou love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. You break a lot of hearts.At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understandingWhen other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused What's Your Personality Type? Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

No Ordinary Thing By Opshop
Was this to show you I would not fail you Was that the reason you were lookin' back So I'm trustin' in existence I'm thrustin' on momentum I don't wanna see these threads of love collide Not ever again No, not ever again No' I know it's not working Knowledge will capture comfort one day Our worlds will be worth more than living once in this lifetime We could liberate today We could alleviate tomorrow But no one can reach the light switch No one can reach the light switch, they say No, that's what they say No' [Chorus] My love' This is no ordinary thing, my love My love, my love' This is no ordinary thing No, it's just no ordinary thing I'm naked, I'm naked in this afterlife I was fallin', I was fallin' from the greatest highs If everything, if everything should come to pass Tell me when are you comin' home to stay When are you comin' home to stay Again to stay Again' 'Cause my love' This is no ordinary thing, my love My love, my love' This is no ordinary thing, no No ordinar

Walmart Very Smart
Makes being a "greeter" sound like a good job. 1. Americans spend $36,000,000 at Wal-Mart every hour of every day. 2. This works out to $20,928 profit every minute! 3. Wal-Mart will sell more from January 1 to St. Patrick's Day (March 17th) than Target sells all year. 4. Wal-Mart is bigger than Home Depot + Kroger + Target + Sears + Costco + K-Mart combined. 5. Wal-Mart employs 1.6 million people and is the largest private Employer, and most speak English. 6. Wal-Mart is the largest company in the history of the World. 7. Wal-Mart now sells more food than Kroger & Safeway combined, and keep in mind they did this in only 15 years. 8. During this same period, 31 Supermarket Chains sought bankruptcy. 9. Wal-Mart now sells more food than any other store in the world. 10. Wal-Mart has approx 3,900 stores in the USA of which 1,906 are Super Centers; this is 1,000 more than it had 5 Years ago. 11. This year 7.2 billion different pur

Your Final Journey
I know your journey threw the gates are just beginning . it seems that no matter what we do in life we cant control when its your time to walk down that road. the road that leads to those big gates in the sky . i want you to know I LOVE YOU. you've touched me in all these years . we have laughed cried we've watched love ones die . the late nights the long days . you have always been there even when you where gone.. I cant get used to the fact im losing you in life . i want you to tell dad i love him. i cant look you in the eyes in your state it hurts deeply to realize the long hard fact that you soon will not be here. ill always remember the good ole days and look forth to the days i can sit and smoke with you and dad in haven.i want you to know ill watch over your kids . it pains me to write you like this to lose my best friend ever in life at our age is so much . we never value someone to we lose them. but it seems i know how much i value you. so when you look over at me and a tear r

Come Get A Piece Of Pleasurable Trouble
Lookin to own a piece of Pleasurable Trouble? Well look no further, I'm in my second auction. Lookin for an owner, I can spoil. Just click on the link below and come get your bid in. Auction ends 1-14-2010, so what are you waitin for come get you some Pleasurable Trouble. While your there show the hostess some mad love, she Roxx!! http://fubar.com/photo.php? u=1029198 & i=300466494 & album id = 820891

Idk
How many you bless is how you measure success, Im sick of looking back with a pain in my chest, It isnt my fault I cannot forgive you, The hurt you caused will never go away, I lost myself for awhile But I refuse to live my life without a smile,I have no problem going mile after mile, to find my happiness CUZ I FUCKING PROMISE ILL NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS!!

Siroccos Of Artistry
I used to battle Siroccos in the little lost land of Yserbius.org - it really was beginners stuff, after I learned to fight the battle properly. Keep in mind this was an imaginary place with imaginary challenges, yet the satisfaction from quelling them is known to gamers everywhere. Last night I was blessed with the company of my young granddaughter and my youngest daughter in the car at the same time. My granddaughter had my phone, and access to the music I find inspiring so this is what was filtering from the backseat to the front: In the meantime, my youngest daughter had control of the car radio, and after I l gave her the historical tidbit that she would have been named Drake, if a stem would have been on the apple when she was born (Thank you, Mr. Bill Cosby for forever giving me that imagery in regards to gender), she told me all about the latest GOTTA DO A SONG WITH HIM guy in the hip hop/r&b genre - Drake. Then on the radio came a Drake song (with a

Lord, Your Right
lord, Your right. Time to let this anger go before me and the rest of me is consumed with it. I understand what is meant by you lord in that I have to let go of smoking as well and I have to allow the rest of me to accept this decision. Also understood by me is your acceptance of my decision about this surgery. I understand a little bit more about life and death. That experience was very uique giving me that extra boost. Life here is not forever and we all come to the same end. I can fight or deny this as much as I want, it is waste of a sort because our nature is to fight this. Without this natural tendency to fight then we'll just give up and not be born. I and others can beleieve whatever we want regarding life and its meaning and the end of it, but you lord has the wisdom gifted to you from The Lord. I thank you lord for the same Lord that gives you this wisdom is The Son of God, my Lord and Hes Father, God, is my God. Norio

How Bad Are You Wanted?
How bad are you wanted? Post this and see how many msg's you get......... dont be scared!(1) just friends(2) georgious(3) cute as hell(4) hot(5) fine(6) sexy(7) amazingly sexy(8) we can be friends with benefits(9) see ya

~how Good In Bed Are You?~
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 83% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

Second Chance
I'm so confused right now and not sure what to do. Everything down here is different and not sure if it'll ever go back to being the way it was. I lost my girlfriend and that's hurting me so bad and it seems like she is just fine with it which hurts more. I was hoping that it wouuldn't happen and I'm hoping that she will change her mind soon. I love her more than life itself and would do anything to have her back. One other thing now that is making it harder is that I finally have my birth certificate copy and need to decide if I'm going to stay around here or if I'm going to leave. But I can't make that decision until I can talk to her and I don't want to force her to talk cause that will be a bad scene. Forcing her to talk is what made her leave me. She can't understand that it would just be a constant reminder if I stay here and not be with her again and that I'd be nothing but miserable. But I don't want to go cause I still have hope that she'll change her mind and I wa

The Power Of Love
Love is a gift to given from the heart and cherished. Given freely from the soul. Love heals all wounds, old and new too. It grows stronger as the days go by. Pain is sometimes involved and yet when with the right one, worth more than anything in the world. Talking things through and working out the problems is the best way to workout things. Its hard to do it all alone including the communication in a relationship. Take the time to work things and make things right when you find someone that makes you feel special!! Btw I'm only human so might make mistakes.

First Timer
what up my fellow fubar's i have been here along time i meen from way back lost cherry cherry tap an way before that lol i have seen good friends come an go an i think i never have done a blog huh weird well tu da lol hopefully there will be more though im not much of a talker im more of a listener boy has that ever pist off some of my gurl friends lmao " y you never talk to me " couse aint shit going on up there lol if i have something to say i will say it well how was that for my first blog ? laterz all

Hate
Feverous thoughts burn brightly within me Filling me with ravenous desires full of malicious intent Searching for an outlet, a means of escape A victim capable of fulfilling this primal urge, this dark fantasy Which instills in me a hunger for passionate self suicides.

Questions To Self
I am on the verge of a long sought after moment Is this the moment, is it true? Am I a naive fool? Should I lie? Protect? Or let slip all unintentional truths? Do I have the strength left Or will I be overwhelmed, drowned by my little obsession?

Payouts And Total Counts
I would like to know if anyone else has a problem in getting payouts for specific days with the right amouts posted. This is like the third time I have tried to get into the rating contests and I for one do not think that the person or persons running it is keeping a legimate account of the ratings. I know that they do not pay the amounts offered for the ratings and this is getting to be a habit with some of the payers. I have gotten to the level I am at by rating only and when the person or persons do not pay what is posted it is very discouraging to say the least. I can not afford all the frills of bombs and autos and sure as Hell no one will give them to me so I thought entering a contest would be a fun way to aquire these things. But the way it is looking it has been fruitless and un profitable for me but not the one getting rated. There is 7 more days to the contest and I will see where it ends up. If not a fair contest I will be writing another blog and naming names

Need Some Help!
i was wondering if anyone knew if and how i can check if someone is jumping off my wireless. for some odd reason it's saying i dont have the full 4-5 bars i should seeing as i'm only 15 ft frmo the router. It used to show full connectivity which is why i'm assuming it's due to someone jumping on my internet.Is there a way to tell? if so, how? and can i boot them off my internet? thanks so much!!!!

The Oath
There she was. Again. As I was looking out from my bathroomwindow. Third day in a row I see her standing under a tree, not close enough to recognize her. But still... I've lived here for 12 years now, never have I seen someone standing under the tree before. My gut tells me it's her. Can't be someone else. I finish shaving and decide to go for a walk. It's my day off and since there's nothing else I have to do, I'm going to check it out. It's on my way to the store as well, in case it was a false alarm. Once outside I hate myself for leaving my appartment. It's too damn cold to go for a walk, so I really hope she's still there. One might say I'm a nosy person. Last night I was laying awake for hours. Thinking who the woman might be. Don't know why she was standing there in the street, but she was looking at my windows. Not anyone else's. Damn. She's not there anymore. There's nobody under the tree. There's not a single person in the street. Too damn cold. Was it only a dream? Some

Dsfgd
Filll it out, you know you want tooo. x WHAT DO U THINK OF ME [] I want your number [] Pretty/Cute [] Hottie [] Sexy [] Gorgeous [] Amazingly Beautiful [] I'd take you home in a second [] I'd make out with you right now [] I'd Hit it [] No, I dont like you like that [] I love you [] Wanna hook up? Would you kiss me? [] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] already did Would you do me? [] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe []you look to sweet to screw [] already did Am I attractive? [] Heck no [] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay I think ur pretty [] Sexy [] Ugly! Do you think im a virgin? [] Yes [] No [] Don't know Name one thing you would like to do to me... [] ________________________ I look like.. [] A player [] One time thing [] Next bf/gf If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No [] maybe Would you rather.. [] Hook up with me [] Cuddle with me [] Date me [] Marry me [] Friends On a scale of 1-10 (10

Be Contagious!! In A Good Way :)
I was flipping through the channels the other day and a show caught my attention. It was about "happiness". What IS happiness, how does one achieve happiness, what does happiness mean? Etc. etc... At that point in the show, a P.O.W. was talking about surviving and how him and his buddies used a "tapping" system to communicate between the walls and how important that little bit of communication he had was so important to him and his survival. He also was speaking about about how he designed his dream home over and over again, knowing exactly how many bricks would be here, there etc. and then reconstructing it a different way. All part of his survival. Anyway, HIS story was awesome, so I kept watching. (if something can keep my attention for more than 3-5 minutes it usually has me) I will be honest and open, I personally do struggle with "happiness", so yeah, this show in general did interest me on many levels. Another topic spoken about that I found fascinating was this ... and quo

Not A Poem Just What I Was Thinking To Myself.
This is not a poem its more of what im thinking of. I look back in time and i remember the good and the bad things i done i know what happend in the past is done its behind you and you cant change it but dont you ever wonder that you will wake up and the next thing you know is that you are back to when you are little and know what the future will bring. For all the bad things i done in the past i wish i couldve done better. Ever since the passing of my grandmother who was like a second mother who took care of me since birth i havent been the same. My mind keeps going back in time to where i first thought of this dreadful day thinking about the day she passes what will i do? Well the thing i knew for sure was that i wouldnt be able to keep payments for my house i thought i was gunna be homeless. However thats not the case im actually living with the one i love and care alot about as well as she does for me. I have this lonliness in my mind on where im at i have nobody to turn to for sup

Hello!?
Yeah I know I was gone again for awhile, but shit happens that you can't control. I guess no-one wants to talk anymore bc of it..Well, if you are mad at me just let me know please don't give me the cold keyboard..lol

All About The Doll 1.
1. Okay, newest of the newest questions, ya ready?Yeah..2. If you had to choose dying or having sex with your boyfriend which one would you choose?lol what kind of question is this! 3. Is the last person you kissed more than a year older than you?yes. 4. Last December, what was your love life like?oh boy!5. Has a girl sat on your bed before?duh!6. Look at your phone. Speed dial 12?I don't use speed dial.7. Look at it again. Speed dial 6?/9. Are you afraid to grow up?I think I'm done growing.10.whats your worst subject in school?I don't take subjects or PAY for classes I'm not good at! :p11. Have you ever been around someone who was high?Many times and many people12. Three days from now will you be in a relationship?probably not ?13. What is something you wish you had more of?car :p14. Do you like to hold or be held?be held since i'm a girl :)15. When was the last time you cried?...16. What does your 10th inbox message say?Happy Holidays!17. Last person you saw other than your family?co

Of The Things (repost From Original In Daily Journal Blog)
Of the things I've seen of the things I've done makes me who I am today. I see end results and can trace back with clues left I can see beauty within the pain I can see the pain in the beauty I can hear the melody in the rain drops I can hear the roar in the silence of woman I can feel the pain in the silent stare of man I can dance to the rhythm of Earth Most of all, I can write poems off-the-cuff when duly inspired. Peacey

Just Eat It Already!!!!
First off I must admit while I didn't write this, I could have written something similar(wink). I think the author brings up some really good techniques and adds some valuable insight in "Doing Yo Thang". Take what you will from this...nothing like a good manual!Introduction This section is for men who want learn how to properly eat a woman's pussy, or who've heard that it might not be all that bad to put their face down there, and for women who want to get their man to eat them period, improvement in performance can come later. I am not an expert. I am simply a woman who knows what she likes, and has had all too many experiences with men who didn't seem to have the vaguest idea what they were doing between her legs. Eating a woman's pussy is about the most wonderful thing you can do for her. It makes her feel loved, admired, sexy, and of course it makes her cum like crazy. Many women prefer it to intercourse, and for most, it's the easiest way to cum with a man. You may have the littl

Drama !!! I Swear!!!
Alright.. We all have it either in the home,school,work, chatsites. I could care less for the He said / She said bullshit! Hell, i've got my own damn drama to deal with! Y'all think i care about who's on whos freaking page ... FUCK NO! This also isn't my first goaround on fubar either. So I know how to play.. I just don't play well with others' who are attention whores. THIS IS JUST A GENERAL RANT! BUT IF ANYONE DOES TAKE IT PERSONAL... YOU NEED A LIFE! My famous phrase to say.. and No offense to Our Men and Women in the military.. SUCK IT THE FUCK UP!!! If i come onto your damn page to rate your MOFO pics then that's my right same as for y'all to do the same on mine. And if someone gets butthurt by it.. well then you just weren't worth my time to pay attention to. Like for intense: I had went onto someone's page I honestly couldn't remember if i had rated this persons pics... This person.. knowing fully well I don't have a salute decides to chat box me .. Well i can't explain

Doyou Know Her?
Its not the way my heart skips a beat, nor the way my eyes light up when you walk into the room. It’s not the elation I feel when I hold you close to me with my arms secretly begging me to never let you go. It’s not hidden in your soft sweet kiss that makes me melt every time, nor is it in that oh-so-magical-touch my body longs to feel whenever you walk by. It’s not in your words that caress my heart with such loving care. It’s not the way your smile says so much without a single word. It’s not how your laughter feels like a warm summer breeze to my soul. It’s not all the color you bring to my world. It’s not how much I miss you the second after you are gone from my side. It’s not the explosion I feel when our worlds collide. It’s not in how I can seem to cover so much ground without the earth ever touching my feet. It’s not the strength you give me to weather the strongest storms in my life, nor is it the song my heart si

What Tarot Card Are You? Im The Empress.....
You are The Empress Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation. The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful. The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Te

Sometimes Pt.2
Here is part 2 of my last blog. Like i said in my last blogi thought that i would never kno what tru love is. And you kno i was right. I tryed things out wit my kids mom again. And you kno what i got hurt again. So now when i look at my son he knows that i am hurting and the only thing he could say to me was daddy everything is ok and give me a hug and kiss. And my lil girl just gives me hugs and kisses. If there is one thing that i kno that they are not goin to break my heart. I love you renzo and nikita. You two are my life and soul. I just hope that the one that i am wit knows that i really do care for her and love her. I just dont want to get hurt again. I thank god everyday for my two kids. I am truly one lucky guy to have to wonderful kids that bring joy to my life everyday that i am wit them. I want to shout out to all the single mothers out there i kno that you have a hard job to do and i got noffin but love for ya. But you kno what all the single fathers out there that s

Return To Me Salvation And The Dark Embrace (the Thoughts Of Mem Chapter 16)
This Feeling Cuts Worse Than A Razor Blade To My Veins. Why Can't Salvation Be Returned To Me? The Dark Embrace. The Lost Of Pain. All I Want To Do Is Feel Again. So Tired Can't Sleep. Shattered Pieces Of Glass Of What Used To Be A Mirror. Can't Breath. Trying To Hold On. My World Is Spinning Before Me. Why Can't Salvation Be Returned To Me? All I Want Is The Feelings I Had. I'm Losing My Wits. The Abyss Keeps Haunting Me. If I Punched A Mirror Would I Even Feel It? Would I Feel Healed? The Dark Embrace. The Lost Of Pain. The Light Is Leaving. I'm Being Drenched In Rain. I Feel Like I'm Being Flogged With A Cane. Lash After Lash. It Connects With Me. Why Can't Salvation Be Returned To Me? My Heart Beats Coldly. I'm Losing It All. Feels Like I Can Never Be Warm. The Chains Of Deception Bound Me. Tie Me Down. It's Dark And Hateful Game. It Burns My Soul Through The Fire And The Flames. The Unknown Name. The Rose's Thorns Pierce My Flesh. Bleeding, Screaming, It Hold

The 23 Enigma By Robert Anton Wilson
I first heard of the 23 enigma from William S Burroughs, author of Naked Lunch, Nova Express, etc. According to Burroughs, he had known a certain Captain Clark, around 1960 in Tangier, who once bragged that he had been sailing 23 years without an accident. That very day, Clark’s ship had an accident that killed him and everybody else aboard. Furthermore, while Burroughs was thinking about this crude example of the irony of the gods that evening, a bulletin on the radio announced the crash of an airliner in Florida, USA. The pilot was another captain Clark and the flight was Flight 23.Burroughs began collecting odd 23s after this gruesome synchronicity, and after 1965 I also began collecting them. Many of my weird 23s were incorporated into the trilogy Illuminatus! which I wrote in collaboration with Robert J Shea in 1969–1971. I will mention only a few of them here, to give a flavour to those benighted souls who haven’t read Illuminatus! yet:In conception, Mom and Dad

This Is Revised Edition...
This is hysterical. You have to try this. It is absolutely true. I guess there are some things that the brain cannot handle.HOW SMART IS YOUR RIGHT FOOT?You have to try this please, it takes 2 seconds. I could not believe this! It is from an orthopedic surgeon............. This will confuse your mind and you will keep trying over and over again to see if you can outsmart your foot, but you can't. It is pre-programmed in your brain!1. While sitting at your desk in front of your computer, lift your right foot off the floor and make clockwise circles.2. Now, while doing this, draw the number '6' in the air with your right hand. Your foot will change direction.I told you so! And there's nothing you can do about it! You and I both know how stupid it is, but before the day is done you are going to try it again, if you've not already done so.

How Smart Is Your Right Foot
This is hysterical. You have to try this. It is absolutely true. I guess there are some things that the brain cannot handle.HOW SMART IS YOUR RIGHT FOOT?You have to try this please, it takes 2 seconds. I could not believe this! It is from an orthopedic surgeon............. This will confuse your mind and you will keep trying over and over again to see if you can outsmart your foot, but you can't. It is pre-programmed in your brain!1. While sitting at your desk in front of your computer, lift your right foot off the floor and make clockwise circles.2. Now, while doing this, draw the number '6' in the air with your right hand. Your foot will change direction.I told you so! And there's nothing you can do about it! You and I both know how stupid it is, but before the day is done you are going to try it again, if you've not already done so.

The Beauty Of Living
You cant do things "again" in life, you cant re-create what was. That only comes once in a lifetime. But only that particular experience does, other experiences will come along and they will matter just as much. If not more...they will just be different experiences. And one day you will look back on them and they will also be a once in a lifetime experience as you move forever forward on to the next. Believe it or not but your life will be filled with "once in a lifetime" moments, that will totaly complete you in the end. Thats the beauty of living...

Life
Just sliding through life is never good enough for anyone. If you have to try harder, even just a little, it will make you better and stronger (i hope it would at least). I think all the things I've gone through have done that for me. Easy roads arent always the best ones. We think they are, because they take less effort, but look at the people you have respected in your life. They were usually the people who made it when the going wasnt easy. People who have survived and grew from all the pain. I know I did. The ones who had it easy dont have a hell of a lot going for them. Its the others, those of us, who have climbed the mountains with our heads banged up, our faces scratched, and our shins bleeding, who were worth knowing. They(we) had the ability to be able to share and pass along the things weve seen and been through and to be able to leave our footprints on those roads that the weaker dared never to travel.

Four Things That Matter
These four simple statements are powerful tools for improving your relationships and your life. 1. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. 2. I FORGIVE YOU. 3. THANK YOU. 4. I LOVE YOU. These 11 words carry such wisdom of what people need to hear who are dying. A deep, natural drive to connect with others lies at the heart of what it means to be human. These four expressions help us to discover opportunities to revive ALL our important relationships--with our children, parents, relatives and close friends. By taking the time and by caring enough to express forgiveness, gratitude, and affection, you and I can renew and revitalize our most precious connections.

Kinkyinky
She wants the tears to stop,But they wont quit from her eyes.They left with a reason,Not saying goodbyes. She made a new home,Where she welcomed me in.And I'm thankful this beauty,This beauty let me come in. So beautiful dont stress,We will all make new friends.Because its your turn to shine,And a new life you begin.

Wanted Fu Bf!!
Hey everyone it's Tiffany A.K.A Psycho.T I'm looking for a man to call mine and before you ask me to be your's here's a list of things I'm seeking for in my man. 1.)He has to have the same intrest as me. 2.)He has to love the same types of music as me. 3.)His age has to be below "30" 4.)He must have a great sense of humor like me! 5.)He must not be clingy or a very crontrol person. 6.)He's not shy and has a bit of a wild side like me. Thoes are the main things I see in my man so if that's you message me and we shall chat. ~Bye!

I'm Beginning To Forget
I'm Beginning to Forget I thought my life should have been overwhen I heard your news that day.....but powers well beyond minewouldn't let me end my days....and we all know how hard I tried......but I'm starting to forget.Twisted metal and shattered glasstold a tale that wasn't so.....by all rights,I shouldn't have survived.....let alone without a mark on me......but I'm starting to forget.Pain like no other became my new constant friendas muscle wasted into oblivion....so much soft tissue damage,yet not even a bruise to tell my tale......and months of physical therapy.....but I'm starting to forget.Then your leaving became finaland my world rocked under that blow.....how could I go on without you?who would I be without you?Would anyone ever HEAR me again?but I'm starting to forget.Tears came and went as I resolvedto find myself alone, without you.....each crisis devouring me less and less,not because they were minor in nature.....but because MY nature was growing stronger....

Father, Have Your Arms Grown Weak??
Father, Have Your Arms Grown Weak? Sweet Heavenly Father,I fall on my kneescrying out to you once more,pouring the very being of my soulout amongst the winds thatthey may carry my prayers even faster to Your ears.My baby girl, you know the one,I placed her in your care at 15...she's 24 now and her pain is somuch greater, more sophisticated,more devastating to herself,and I.I'm doing as you would want,my Heavenly Father...I am raising her two young sonsas my own, loving thembest as I can,guiding them forward to Youdespite the doubt that tears at my heart once more.You KNOW, as no other can,how I cry out to you for Amber...as she still can't call to youon her own.She's been beaten,she's been broken,she's without hearth or home,without hope or dreams,without me to hold her....and I'm dying inside out for thelife she throws away!Dear Sweet Jesus,I knew way back whenI wasn't strong enough tosave my little girl,and my entire being laid her in your armsI swore to stay back and let you

Heartache, Why Do You Stay???
Heartache, Why Do You Stay? Love you,Hate you....REPEAT!!Love you,Hate you...REPEAT!!Tell me,heartache,why do you stay?I loved you in my mindfor a very long timebefore you even noticedI was actually alive.You held me in your armsfor such a short time,loving my body,denying my heartand everything 'emotions'would add to the sex.Hate you,love you.....REPEAT!!Hate you,love you...REPEAT!!I never asked for anythingfrom you.You never felt anything for me.You needed an outlet,and I opened mineto please you,hoping to make you feelwhat you never would,but what you swore youheld dear for anotherwhile taking me in your bed.DAMN,heartache, why do you stay?Love you?Hate you?Confused...Confused.....no emotions allowed...no strings,no ties,just entwined bodiesdrenched in lusty sweatseeking release of painthrough each other....but I couldn't hold to the no emotions.....Hate you, right?No, love you.....heartache,why must you stay?Don't you get it?Without you,I'd be whole?I can't just be a nothing

My Swan Song
My SWAN Song MY SWAN SONG Can anybody hear me?Is anybody there?Will anybody listen?Will just one person care?Can anybody see me?I’m starving my life away.Will anybody reach me?And ask me to live today?Can anybody touch me?Feel the pain I have inside?Will anybody dareLook in this place I hide?Can anybody love meImperfect though I am?Will anybody save me?I’m a frightened little lamb!Can anyone imagineHow much I want to live?Has anybody noticedI’ve run out of things to give?And will anyone take noticeOf what this disorder does?And will anyone rememberThe me that I once was? By ChinaSwan © 2009 ChinaSwan (All rights reserved)

Just If You Would...tell Me
I have had a ruff past year.Its been hard on me with medical conditions and relationship problems..When i was out today i realized that i dont have it as bad as i thought i did..There was this guy with his son and he was a tiny baby he was three months i asked the guy his sons name and he told me in a studder...which i do to..he said aaadden i was so surprised that i had meet someone who studdered like me and stuggles as well as i do..I thought to my self its amazing that he was so willing to talk to me..i dont even like talking at times bc i know that im going to studder...I have more cat scans and mri's coming up and theres a possabilty of other things which only one person on here knows of..I'm not explaining it all...I just felt the need to vent a few things...But hey you know i cant complain at all...i have some great friends that stick by me..and i thank the lord for everyday that i wake up..for everyday i see the sun set..for everyday i can feel my heart beat and thats the best

My Personal Instrumental
give me a pen and a pad and watch me paint picturesas long as there is ink in this pen i can keep bringin thisinfinite is the depth of my mind that comes intertwined withhumbleness, insanity, realness, cocky with sarcastic wita magical arsonist who played with fire and just inhaled itif i gave you a glimpse into my minds very own cypher5 me's are involved and it quickly becomes hard to decipherwho's the normal one, all of their sanity is hanging by a small wireall eyes are, locked in on me and it makes me feel uncomfyrather be below the radar where very few know of meanti social hand gestures from me to you just said blow mei apologize, that was out of line of me and i'm truly sorryi lie... i'm not sorry, when i'm being sarcastic i lack sincerityi will forever only speak what my heart tells meevery time my heart beats it's like it allows me to seetruthfully, it gives me a canvas to lay on verbal imageryevery time my heart beats it's like an instrumental to memy hearts telling me to go

I'm Very Fancy
I am fancy.I am a much more cultured and resplendent individual than you. Women like fancy men. As such, I am required to have fancy things. I drive a fancy car. I like espresso (those are fancy Italian coffees). I like quiche (those are fancy Fraunch foods). And I like to shop at fancy boutiques (boutiques are Fraunch too).Living in Phoenix, it is hard to find good fancy things. Thus, I was very happy when I drove past a place called Apollo and Hyacinth Adult Boutique and Video. I am intrigued by this notion of an “adult” boutique. Because really, too many boutiques cater to cutesy children stuff. And I am not a cutesy child. No, I am a fancy lad.I like to say “lad” because it makes me sound more Britishey and fancy.The name “Apollo and Hyacinth” sounds fancy. I think it is probably fancier than most boutiques because hardly any others carry video. I assume these are videos about Fraunce, Englandia, and other fancy places. I could always further my

"with No Negro Dialect" - Reid
Who described Husain Obama as “light skinned” and “with no Negro dialect”? George W. Bush, Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck? It was none other then that giant of moral character democratic Senator Harry Reid of Nevada. Do I detect a hint of racial bigotry in him? If it was one of those others that I mentioned who said it there would have been a lynching party but since Reid is a democrat he gets a pass. Our first Negro President as Mr. Reid thinks of him. For more http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2010/01/09/reid-apolgizes-racial-remarks-obama/ BlastFM is not only color blind it’s gender neutral. Listen and see for yourself. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Finally, Some Good.
I did it! I survived the week! that was the goal and I made it. I had my first client today. It was a relaxer to loosen up the curl on african american hair. It turned out great and the client was super happy. theinstructor did most of the chemical stuff but I think it was because she was uber nervous about burning his hair. If you didn't know, relaxers are extremely harsh chemicals that can burn the skin very quickly. It can also burn off all you hair if you don't know what you are doing. But that was not the case this time! His curl loosened up just a little bit so he can now comb through it easily and style it. One thing about doing other people's hair.... there is a moment when you catch them look in the mirror and they have this look of "omg wow" or "I look dayum good" and you can see it is just genuine happiness. This is an amazing thing to be responsible for. I would like to be responsble for that look several times a day, everyday. Everything else is unresolved and mes

My Nights Here Without You
AS I LIE IN MY BED, THOUGHTS OF YOU RUN THROUGH MY HEAD, WISHING YOU WERE HERE WITH ME, LOVING YOU IS ALL I NEED, WANTING TO LOOK IN YOUR EYES, AND TAKE AWAY YOUR HEART FILLED CRIES, TELLING YOU EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT, AS I GENTLY HOLD YOU THROUGH THE NIGHT, BUT I WAKE UP ALL ALONE, RELIZING YOUR LOVE IS GONE, I FEEL MY WORLD BEGIN TO TUMBLE, AS THE PEICES OF MY HEART JUST CRUMBLE........

01/08-09/2010
Genesis 21http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+21&language=english&version=31 Genesis 22http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+22&language=english&version=31 Genesis 23http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+23&language=english&version=31 http://BiblePlan.org/3/niv/ Bible Reading Plan -- Complete NIV Bible in a YearRead the NIV Bible in a year, reading three chapters daily and five on Sundays. Genesis 24http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+24&language=english&version=31 Genesis 25http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+25&language=english&version=31 Genesis 26http://mobile.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Gen+26&language=english&version=31 &nb

Playoffs!
Almost nailed it two weeks ago :). Got one pick wrong. Revised: Round 1, AFC: NYJ @ CIN, BAL @ NE. NYJ and NE win. Round 2, AFC: NYJ @ IND, NE @ SD. NE and IND win. Round 3, AFC: NE @ IND. NE wins. Round 1, NFC: PHI @ DAL, GB @ ARI. DAL and ARI win. Round 2, NFC: DAL @ NO, ARI @ MIN. MIN and NO win. Round 3, NFC: MIN @ NO, NO wins. Superbowl: NE @ NO, NO wins. If I have an upset pick, it'll be BAL beats NE.

Cast
lord, Your move. The shadow was cast on you. I hold my position for now. This back door is a sore spot because of the email I may send could be carrying a surprise. Someone caught it. Email had deleted itself. How is that possible? Something was written on it to delete itself. I'm not healing as I should by what I see, however, there are other signs that tell me of an Auto Immune disease. The First Trime, the base was a Virus in all three dreams. Federal Police came up with he has no convictions, priors, wants and warrants, he didn't do anything. He asked, doc what do you want us to do, just tell us. All I heard was silence. He's the guy that lost hes house to the mental health people. Not only that ladies, I lost Tiger and Sheeba to death and my wife to oblivion. Mr. Martin Gievers was the man in charge with hes White Dodge Durango. Frank says you want my Field Glasses because I told him of them waiting out there in the back. Waiting for me to disappear into the night or a girl f

Missred63
As the sun fades,She is not at my side.The night will take its toll,Because she is not at my side. A beauty I dream of,During my days never a thought without.And when the sun sets,Shes in my thoughts,always without a doubt. She could be day or night,Her beauty commands whatever she wants.And forever in my mind,Her beauty will haunt.

Alcohol That Doesnt Make You Drunk
http://www.sphere.com/world/article/drinking-without-getting-drunk-researchers-hope-to-make-it-happen/19309217 Ok really? I've seen this scrolling across Fubar most of the day and finally clicked on it to read the article. Here are my thoughts on this subject, seeing as how its kind of a sore spot for me... I'm sure everybody would love to get drunk and not have the nasty side effects. However, if people learned to have maybe a glass of water here and there throughout a 10 hour binge, they would find that the water won't compeltely fuck you over from getting drunk, but it will help with side effects in the morning. The nights I drink water here and there, I don't have a hang over or headache the next day. The nights I drink straight booze, I'm miserable the next day. I guess that's just my personal experience. Who knows if that works with everybody.... "The new substance is based on chemicals related to Valium." My favorite part of the article. Besides the fact that the next paragr

Fifteen Crosses
Fifteen Crosses by Lisa Teller I had a dream I was kneeling, at fifteen crosses on the hill Not a whisper from the trees, everything was still, I felt a sadness in my heart, an empty kind of pain, Fifteen souls had gone away, only memories remained. I tried to cry out to ease my grief, Lifted my hands to heaven, prayed God's relief. Not a sound or a word, emptiness abounds, My sorrow overcoming, I began to drown. Such bitter suffocation, I wish someone could hear, Why we let this happen , in my dream nothing was clear. I shook my fist to heaven and begged for reasons why, But only silence spoke, offering no reply. No sound came from my lips even as I screamed, I prayed it's just a nightmare, an awful kind of dream. Then I heard a choir of angels beckoning from above. "The world is reaping hatred," "Because the world's not sowing love." "You should embrace each other's differences no matter what they may be," "And enlighten each other with the hope of peace and unity." When the angel

Don't Drink The (bottled) Water
I watched the documentary, “Water Wars,” today. Watching it will make your body begin to physically reject bottled water. If it doesn’t change your mind, then I don’t know what will. I really have only one principled stance in my life, and it is that I will not support the bottled water industry. Not only will I not buy it, I will not drink it. I felt this way, before I watched that movie, by the way. But, the movie wrapped up all of the reasons that bottled water if for suckers into a nice, little package, and wrapped it in a big o'l’ bow. To sum it up: 1) Bottled water is a million times more expensive than water from the tap. Yes, “a million” is hyperbole, but the point remains. 2) Tap water is potable and safe. Yes, there are contaminants and particulate matter that make it into the water supply, but something like 60% of the people on the planet would still kill for your tap water. If there is a health benefit to drinking bottl

Who I Am
I am a student going to school majoring in psychology and minoring in CMIS. I love to talk to others unless I am either doing school work or working on my job. I am in the medical field in various titles. It does not make enough money. So now I am a phone sex operator at www.niteflirt.com/nursepinky. I am also a webcam host, and I am starting escorting and next is the movies. I love sex, and I am now ready to enjoy myself. I love sex and I love money what could be a better combination. Anyone wanting to talk to me its nursepinkyiam@yahoo.com, but tell me where you heard of me from because I have many websites. I am looking for a sugar daddy to share mutual good benefits with; email me and tell me you are the one. Actually at this time so far I have only slept with one man in my whole life who is my husband, but I am really looking forward to playing with some strange.

My Nurses
I don't want to hear anything negative have happened to my nurses in either hospitals! I take that personal. Single candle lit to illuminate the path I must follow. It led me to my sister. Showed me calmness. I am open and receptive to the future. My sister like another believes I am making a mistake. I maybe but at this juncture I remain the same. I experienced a almost feeling of death late this morning and early afternoon. It culminated in me loosing counciousness and to awake 20 minutes later as if I was stunned. I am a member of Humanity and also The Order. Many will quit because of loss of interest and too much occult. I do not mess with the occult for the simple reason it is negative to Humanity and to The Order. 21 was the number of us that started way back. I alone remain. Telemitsu asked for the second meeting. He better deliver her undamged and be on time. Someone is waiting in West Africa for me. Someone is supposed to be here now and will come looking for me. I may ch

It Just Can't Be! So Shocking!
Found out something very disturbing about my Chris last night....he has NEVER seen the masterpiece that is fight club! I cannot...I mean CANNOT marry a man that does not know who Tyler Durden is! The wedding is in 5 weeks, we must do something about this!

Another Thought
There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.”

My Thought Today
“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard

Molested Soul
chorussoul i reach to grasp but i cant find searching the past for my mind O you dealt me hate out of control searin pain ..x1verse 1 look what you done to me look what you made me be who can say whats right whats wrong who can say where i belonglook inside my sanity look inside my soul you'll seechorusx1verse 2i honestly cant believe how you mistreated me hatred arose in my mind to be released in timenow the thoughts raise my desire to see you burn in a pool of fire chorusx1verse 3 how long will one fasthow long til this storm blows pastwhen will i be set freewhen will memories leave me be how i hope for my sanity how i hope my soul i seek chorusonce fade then repeat

Scared Anger
verse 1 my heart is scared with anger how can i escape the pain your memories are my enemies things will never be the same grey is your shade of color you were always meant to be cold loved by some feared by others .. x1 chorus i finally found a reason and tried to carry on now i cant understand why or where my feeling have gone x1 verse 2 my mind is so twisted frustrated with pain every thought i have about you tears my world apart like a hurricane my bodies without a purpose without reason or rhyme in the mist of heaven or hell for all times can you break the spell ..x1 chorus sing once fade to music the repeat chorus one time verse 3 your thought forever haunt me every breath i take was loving you part of my life's long mistake cant release this pressure pounding upon my brain you were never part of my sunshine ..x1 chorus

What Do You Think Of What Aldous Huxley Is Saying About Beauty Here?
“Where beauty is worshipped for beauty's sake as a goddess, independent of and superior to morality and philosophy, the most horrible putrefaction is apt to set in. The lives of the aesthetes are the far from edifying commentary on the religion of beauty.” Aldous Huxley quotes

It Is A Wondrous Thing And We Step Out On Pure Creative Love To Do It..
“Call it "womb awe" or even "womb worship" but it's not simple envy. I don't remember even wanting to be a woman. But each of the three times I have been present at the birth of one of my children, I have been overwhelmed by a sense of reverence... It was quite suddenly, the first day of creation; the Goddess giving birth to a world... Like men since the beginning of time I wondered: What can I ever create that will equal the magnificence of this new life?” Strider1957 Sam Keen quotes

The Stimulus Math
Despite the startling job figures released this week, there are signsthat the nation's economy is finally starting to improve; the endof the recession may be in sight. But why is the economy improving,and is this improvement sustainable? Many on the left are hailing the President's $787 billion "stimulus"package as the key behind the budding economic turnaround. These samefolks support the President's proposal for a third stimulus spendingpackage to give the economy a final boost into recovery. But they aremissing one critical point: as Heritage Foundation economist BrianRiedl explains, "government spending does not stimulate economicgrowth." In a new analysis, Riedl debunks liberal myths about stimulusspending, details the long history of failed stimulus packages andprovides sound alternatives that offer real economic revitalization.The Myth: Government can spend its way into prosperityStimulus advocates make what is, on the surface, a plausible argument.They often attribute recessi

Firsts
Well, here's my first blog. Guess this is like a journal only everyone can read it. Hope not to bore you. :) Probably just be using this to post writings of mine, random thoughts(pretty much one in the same), the like. Now where to start... I remember when I was about 13, a McDonald's opened up in the local strip mall. Nothing fancy, just a McDonalds. 'Till then, our town had never had one, as it was rather small and had just been digging itself out of a bad recession. But, we had gotten a small amount of attention for having a Media Play(remember those? lol) open up in the same strip mall, so I guess the city council decided to let them tack on a McDonald's next to it for convenience sake. Anywho, they treated it as a pretty big deal, grand opening and all. Had coupons for free shakes, balloons for the kids, and they even had people dressed up as characters from McDonald Land. They had Grimice, Birdie, i think the Hamburgerler, and Ronald McDonald, of course.... Mayor McCheese was s

Random Thoughts And The Slow Burning Ash~by Jd
Cold winter days, Wasting away time just another saturday drone, Nothing good to do so im counting the tiles on the ceiling for hours to come. Light me up the next ciggarette, The sand in the hour glass flows fluid i like to call it " liquid time", Hurrying up just to wait even longer, Somehow this day seems pointless this is what its like to feel alone. Entrapping myself in music to escape the endless thoughts of reason, The laughter of children in the background brings a soft smile to my serious face. The fire on the back of my lungs flows silent and deadly into the atmosphere, Such a deadly habit, But such a beautiful addiction and right now i love the fucking taste. I could stare out the window and dream of things to come, Yet i would just hate this more, Walking in circles and trying to find ways to be productive, Bet it would be fun to slam my head into the door. I feel somewhat animated, Bet if i tried hard enough i could make myself fly and leave colored trails,

From Within
Love grows in our hearts, and it grows slowly over time, Within each of us it is enriched and nourished-- Shaped by our experiences, and raised within The depths of the soul. It comes not from folly, and is not readily achieved within youth-- Only from the seasoning of time, and the wisdom from maturity, Can true love in all its forms be fully known. Love is love is universal. And only when we embrace the inevitable within ourselves, Instead of running away from the passing of time, Can this realization occur. Upon this, only then can we be happy and ready to Experience the full bounty such love has to offer.

Naughty App
"!!NAUGHTY APPLICATION !!!Your Name:Age:Location:1.Favorite position:2.Do you think I'm cute?.3.Would you have sex with me?4.lights on or off?5.Would you have to be drunk?6. Would you take a shower with me?7.Have you ever thought about having sex with me?8.Would you leave after or stay the night?9.Do you like cuddling afterwards?10.Condom or skin?11.Have sex on the first date?12.Would you kiss me during sex13.Do you think I would be good in bed /?14.Would you use me as a booty call?15.Can I use you as a booty call?16.Can we take pictures of the act?17.How long would we have sex?18.Would you tell your friends about me?19.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?20. Will you fill this out & send it back to me?"Also

More From The Archive
FeelingsI'll rise from the realm of dreamswalking slowly back to the world of men and machinesI'm not sure what it meanswatching this planetcome apart at the seams.Those with shining souls in tow will soon have complete controlplanting crystal columnsfrom the front rowby multitudes and volumeswords will only be compulsoryfeelings will soon ruleas love will be the only worthwhile tool.

[woops- That Was Awesome]
bone marrow, breadcrumbs, balsalmic vinegar, course ground mustard stirred into rice, and a rib eye. ... I'm still eating, but god daaaaaamn.Alright, this may be the worst idea I've ever had or the best. I started with 2 12 inch beef shanks (just the bones), filled my dutch oven about half full with water and boiled away for about 30 minutesnow, it was a minor drilling operation (spooning about) getting about 2 tablespoons of the goo- store aside.get a fistful of breadcrumbs half a tablespoon of coarse ground mustard and combine it in a bowl with the marrow. Now, some of you may have heard, marrow is about the same as biting a big hunk of wet fat off a big walking mass of meat. ... guess what!it is. I managed to render about a cup of marrow from the rest of the bones, but that has been set aside for other applications now grab the best ribeye you saw at the butcher's... thinly cover one side in this rare hand harvested sea salt that was more expensive than anything else you're e

Off The Top Of My Head
I've decided to write more....again. Always have feelings that get jumbled up and tangled and don't know how to deal with them sometimes. Usually I am writing about being hurt because when I am happy I am just too busy being happy. So now I am going to write when the mood strikes me. And it may be babbling but I can do that. So I was having a discussion with a friend regarding love. How there are so many different types of love and how people shouldn't be so narrow in thier view of it. Can you love more then one person at a time? Absolutely Can you be in love with more then one person? That was what we were debating. to me in Emotional love is different then love, it's more encompassing and more consuming. I always wanted to know what people thought about it. What do you think? Hmmm maybe I'll post a Mumm?

Goodbye Mom
GOODBYE MOM A young man shopping in a supermarket noticed a little old lady following him around. If he stopped, she stopped. Furthermore she kept staring at him.She finally overtook him at the checkout, and she turned to him and said, "I hope I haven't made you feel ill at ease; it's just that you look so much like my late son."He answered, "That's okay.""I know it's silly, but if you'd call out 'Good bye, Mom' as I leave the store, it would make me feel so happy."She then went through the checkout, and as she was on her way out of the store, the man called out, "Goodbye, Mom."The little old lady waved and smiled back at him.Pleased that he had brought a little sunshine into someone's day, he went to pay for his groceries."That comes to $121.85," said the clerk."How come so much? I only bought 5 items."The clerk replied, "Yeah, but your Mother saidYou'd be paying for her things, too." Bet you thought this was going to be a tear jerker. Don't trust Little Old Ladies!!!

For You Grandpa I Will Always Be Your Water Girl...i Love You
My Grandfather has Dimentia, My sister, and me were watching him over the summer in 2009. He believed we were his World War II Water girls...so We played along just to keep him sane....I hope you all enjoy.... Your face of a pale color, So many years filled with wonder. It's full of wrinkled age, But a passion of a wisdom filled page. Tales of your boyhood you wear a "Great Smile" So we shall sit here and listen awhile. Man seas you have sailed, Roughest of waters to, it seemed. Your mind has drifted to the war, It is there you fought tooth and nail. As the sound of bombs rang loud and clear, A smoke settles in your pale blue eyes. You look to thee, and say, you were there to see. "My Watergirls, I was fighting the Japanese" Why yes our memories would recall, We must play long or he will loose it all. You raise your fist, they are clenched tight. As you stand up and say, "Let's Fight". We cower knowing your mind, it is of a young man, A youngman lost in time.

Im Always There/poetry
I'm always there when you close your eyes, No matter how far away heaven seems to be. I'm always there when you reach for me. In the night no matter how empty your bed seems to be. Im always there when the tears blurr your site, No matter how hard it is to see. You say my eyes are like the clear blue waters of the seas. But when you look in to them do you see the choppy waves and dark clouds of, The storm that is brewing inside of me. You help to open up the storm gates hidden deep with in, I release the deep pain and it floods like rain once again. I am always there when the clouds are heavy and dark, No matter how dim. You are there to help them part. You see a delicate heart so full of life, But can you feel how hollow i truly feel. Lost in a world to walk alone so shallow I feel so all alone. No matter how grim or how hollow i truly am I am always there even if it is just to reach out my hand. They all say they see a strong gentle me, But is this what they all

Poetry
That look, I am hooked, The sound, I feel you all around. The way you feel, So sensual oh so real. When I kiss you the world around me slips away. So passionate so sweet, Our bodies melt together as they meet. I feel your skin of fire, We slide together with lust. Full filling every desire. You put your hands in mine, As we thrust with a rythmn in time. Sensual touch, I long for this oh so much.

Because The Caturday Mumm Poofeded
There was a stupid MuMM that Poofed, which we were making a Caturday MuMM. So I am posting this blog entry as a Caturday forum. Post all the pics you want, but PLEASE keep them CATS! Rock on!Shawn, AKA DurhamNtx

Poetry
One whisper upon your lips, Those Silent words i long to kiss. The hum in your breathe, It's rythmn of silence scare me to death. A hush so suprised, This feeling deep with in what a rush. The stir of silence takes on the meaning of sadness, Yet this is my guidance. The breeze among the leaves, It is singing it's melody to you and me. Chirping birds dance through the sky, We watch them dance on by. Many Stars light up the night, So silent yet so bright. The stir of silence fill the air, I want to reach your soul to consume you with, love and care. So this stir of silence is pure, This stir of silence is our hearts only cure.

Taking A Stand For The Bitches!
Bullshit is now out the window and here is whats up! I am tired of everyone feeling bad for such an idiot. I am tired of the truth being twisted so that mamma boys don't get convicted by friends, family, and even the judical system. I am tired of the world being led by single moms on account that a good part of us pick men who attract us at first by their thug loven ways and then when it comes to getting serious and having a baby their dumb asses can't for the life of them take the right steps to emotionally, physically, and mentally grow the fuck up! Then when it comes down to them also being honest about the shit they put us through they bring out arguments and then twist them around to make themselves look better! They end uplooken like the poor little puppy, and we are the crazy bitches...or we bring to much drama! I DON'T think so!! Why do you think we are bitches? I mean when you first meet one another there is no bitch, or asshole. We bring out the best in ourselves. The trut

Moar Ardi Findings....
A beautiful math emerges from the acrobatic flips of supercold atoms in a magnetic field, researchers report in the Jan. 8 Science. Scientists detected an elusive, complex symmetry known as the E8 Lie group in resonating particles, a symmetry long analyzed on paper but never seen in a physical system. The work suggests that this numerical grace may be hidden in other physical systems and may provide a mathematical link between quantum processes in condensed matter and the physics of the cosmos. “Finding a mathematically exotic symmetry in a regular material we can find on Earth — well, it is mathematically beautiful and very interesting,” comments Robert Konik of Brookhaven National Laboratory in Upton, N.Y. Symmetries helped theoretical physicists to predict the existence of certain particles before they were detected and to explain phenomena such as superconductivity. E8 in particular may help describe the unseen dimensions in string theory. But the emergent E8 sy

Who I Am
Who Am I I am kindness, tenderness and understanding. When you are sad, I will cry with you but I'll also hold you in my arms and kiss away the tears. I am funny, charming and witty at times, and inquisitive I look for the humor and the excitement in life and appreciate all the the fullness that life brings. I enjoy finding new things to experience. I am serious, a thinker, responsible I value friends and family. I try to keep my promises. I will stand by you in times of crisis. I am affable, social and friendly My friends are important, they know I will be there for them if I can, I trust them and want to see them happy as I trust that they want to see me happy in my life too I am old and I am young. Much I have experienced in life and much more that I want to experience. I am faithfullness and devotion to the one I'm with Even when we are apart, you are always in my heart and on my mind. I am artistic, creative and imaginative I paint, I photograph, I see the world at times t

Needs Assesment Test Result
My Needs:According to relationship experts, what you seem to be looking for is a "vixen." A vixen is well-poised to meet the hidden or unspoken needs you might actually be trying to fill in a search for a relationship. A vixen is… * Someone who takes pride in her health, fitness and appearance, and who'll make you feel sexier and more attractive in just being seen together. * Someone who doesn't want or need to rely on you for economic security but rather comes to the relationship with existing resources. * Someone whose enthusiasm is infectious and keeps you motivated and feeling young and energetic. * Someone who's grounded with a strong sense of identity, purpose and independence, secure in theirselves, and who can give you support and space so you can focus on your personal interests and goals. * Someone who garners respect and makes a good impression on others, which in turn reflects well on you. * Someone who understands the busy or chaotic lifestyle and

Pomegrante's And Pleasure
I die for darkness craving light "I'm done with the dark boys..." I've turned in my innocence badge. This sacrificial lamb will never bleed dry Chilling tales of a Horror Junkie are proverbial personal evolutions. Terror ridden we ride the spiral people like us, you and I fear nothing and everything at once. Complicated layers, complex intricaies We are following our pattern repeating history already knowing how the tale plays out. Dangerous liasions laced with cruel intentions, Perpetual madness in perfect medicinal doses. Here I am standing in the skeletal orchard bearing pomegranates. Contradicting the breath of life held symbolic in the fruit of death. Forbibben to eat, I am hungry, in need of filling, lip licking lust permeates my projective aura. All wisdom comes in retrospect too little, too late, too much, too often He says there is no moderation, I say there are no simplistic answers.

Bella Morte
"Death no longer happens in the streets of America. So as not to startle those of us still living." Rather, we have hospitals with IV's and feeding tube labyrinths. Technologically immortal. Sparks of life become artificial breath for vegetative brains Unwilling to let go of this world. Men brush shoulders with angels in the ER of some dingy inner city sanctuary built on chaos and concrete. Never experiencing the depth of sudden, unexplainable loss. No more worship of Bella Morte

On The Brink
On the Brink "That which nourishes me destroys me." Angelina Jolie's tattoo He is a permanant elixir on my lips tasting the reminder of my lesson. All things become clear through trial. He is my tribulation touch. Invaluable in articulation lashes, Poetic thoughts descend upon flesh like a swarm of leather licked kisses Stinging as they devour my composure. Breathless hesistation seem to just make you want more. Asphixation like sugared morphine leads to honeyed inner thighs spread like a banquet before you. Feast upon me, all of me, taste the divinity within words, thoughts, astrological symbology emotions, energy, body, soul, thought forms, feed until sated, I will always have more to give. In being nothing, I become His something.

Uninvited
Miss not-a-piece-to-the-puzzle because I am to be kept at arms length Which feels like a fifty foot radius no matter how much I close the distance they wonder why I feel like I should not be here. I wonder in retrospect if they will realize the wound, perhaps come to understand fine art of being uninvited. Untitled and incomplete I draw myself up by the threads of my sanity, Recreating my personal volition and vendetta. I wanted to be something praised I wanted to be something inspiring Muse to your mind, mentally stimulating Dropping little hinderance hints tiny tainted clues of complusion. You resurrected a dying Lotus Neglecting needful necessity Unaware what tending would be required. I am simple in complexity trial and error always worked for me I had to touch the flame to know it was real feel the burn to trust its pain smell the searing on my own flesh to know the scent of humanity on fire.

Change
Change Instead destruction of self loss of inspiration lingering lost corrupted my destination. final breaking cracked my glass chipped away china or tarnished brass swimming in desperation attempting to break free mud up my eyes i can not see the smell of you fills my head i am trapped here instead.

Rare Coin Fetches Ver £2.3 Mmillion In Auction
Amazes Me Sometimes Seeing This Sort Of Thing... MIAMI (Reuters) – A rare 1913 U.S. coin once owned by an Egyptian king and later featured in a famous U.S. TV detective series was sold for more than $3.7 million (2.3 million pounds) in a public auction in Florida, the auctioneers said on Friday. The so-called Liberty Head nickel, one of only five known of that specific date and design, was sold "in spirited bidding" to a private East Coast coin collector in Orlando late on Thursday, said Greg Rohan, president of Dallas, Texas-based Heritage Auctions. The buyer wished to remain anonymous. The $3,737,500 price for the five-cent coin included a 15 percent buyer's premium. "It is probably the most famous United States rare coin," Rohan said in a statement. Once part of the coin collection owned by Egypt's King Farouk, who was deposed in 1952, the Liberty nickel changed hands several times and featured as part of the plot in a 1973 episode of the well-known CBS TV series "Haw

Retired?
You can retire to Phoenix , Arizona where...... 1. You are willing to park 3 blocks away because you found shade. 2. You've experienced condensation on your butt from the hot water in the toilet bowl. 3. You can drive for 4 hours in one direction and never leave town. 4. You have over 100 recipes for Mexican food. 5. You know that "dry heat" is comparable to what hits you in the face when you open your oven door. 6. The 4 seasons are: tolerable, hot, really hot, and ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!! You can retire to California where... 1. You make over $250,000 and you still can't afford to buy a house. 2. The fastest part of your commute is going down your driveway. 3. You know how to eat an artichoke. 4. You drive your rented Mercedes to your neighborhood block party. 5. When someone asks you how far something is, you tell them how long it will take to get there rather than how many miles away it is. 6. The 4 seasons are: F

Guardian Angel!
Guardian Angel! God gave me a smile to make your day brighter, he gave me a heart to love you with. He gave me arms to hold you when you feel all alone, a shoulder when your pain has taken over. He gave me a mind, smart enough to make the right decisions, a voice that can sing to your soul. He gave me eyes to see when you cannot, and legs and feet to walk in your shoes if I had to. He gave me hands to lend to you when you are in need, Then he gave me these wings, to be by your side into enternity, to carry you as far as your life takes you. I was your friend, I was your family, I was your lover once too. Now I am the guide of your spirit, God gave you to get through! ---}-{@ Tammy R. Morris @}-{--- © Copyright 2010

Need Help Findin My Real Father
My name is Leland Stanley and i'm 24 years old, and back in 1984 my mother lived in Thompson Falls, Montana. While there she met a man named Earl Lee King. He was in the Army when they met. The story i've been told is that when my mother told him she was pregnant, he told her that the baby wasn't his and left her at a road side cafe. All my life, i have been wanting to meet him, but everytime i try, i fail. These past couple of years, i've been thinkin that my mother is either lying to me or hiding me from my real father. so i would really love to know the truth. his name is earl lee king. and if anyone on here or knows anyone who knows him please contact me asap.....thank you either on here or contact my girlfriend at sexy_mama_198529@yahoo.com leland d. w. stanley

Haven't Got A Clue
I haven't got a clue but go read myspace. Up and atem. Dose of truth might show me the way regarding this surgery but no reply. My reltionship with Cheryl is that we are friends. Difference between us are huge but we both like Angel Heart and The Ten Commandments. I believe as I pulled in the neighborhood there was emergency vehicle or two up the road. I hope all is good there and it's just a false alarm. I had a tough time again sleeping and got up and thought what the Hell, go for a pack of smokes. I think Ernie is right about just a pack and that he himself was up to three packs when things went bad for him just like me. Mostly just a pack for me now but today maybe another one of those days of plus. Myspace is where you want to be. Norio

Love Suks
my head is spining with pain my eyes are burnin with tears my heart is brokein by love ive worked my ass off to get this amount of clean time i have ive never been very good at shareing my feelings i opened up my heart to a girl i love she kicked my ass i want to toss all this love and careing shit in the trash go kick some ones ass.ive become such a coward scared to act out on my pain and hate they tell me this to shall pass pray go 2 meetings share my feelings and fears been ten days i want to use this hasnt come to pass ive seen her with him she looks as if shes happy told i should pray for her her im the one whos goin down the pipe i know this is sad and im a grown man should pick my ass up and move on some time there be some one interrested in me wants to be with me but shes not here now so im left with all this lonelyness and fear mixed with hope that just for today i wont have to use no matter what

I'm Out Of Reasons...
to allow you to be my fu-friend. You stab me in the back...lie to my fu-face...and I keep on takin' it...and for what? A fake fu-friendship? Whatever I'm fu-fucking better than that...believe me! I'm a real fucking person and I deserved to be treated as I treated you. Fu-venting over...

True Friends
True friends, does anyone really know what a true friend is anymore. So many people have become hard or too soft and lost what a true friend is. Too many people forgot what it means to be a true friend. To be a true friend means to see the other person as like family. To care for that person like they where your brother or sister but on the same page know there not. To care for the person and be there for them when they need you but at the same time make sure that person know that they did wrong if they did but still be loving and not hard. You are there no matter what and never give up on them but be there for them. A true friend will help their friend out of anything as best as they can. A true friend sees their friend’s faults and never lets that get in the way. A true friend never lets anything get in there way with their friend, even if that friend pisses them off. They are there for them and shrug off everything and keep goi

Feed.....
Feed....verse1I never knew my fatherI guess I should feel badMy mother never mentioned himI guess I shlould feel madI was known as the poor kidWho lived down the streetYou'd look at me and spitand laugh at my defeatchoursyou've made me this way Constantly feeding on hate Maybe i can break you Just another day verse2I dont need your sympathyCause I feed off your hateIt turns into my energyand throws it back in your faceNow you need my sympathyand I dont need your hateThis is saying thant you but the thanks came to latechoursx2verse3This is how you made meYou made me feel this way This time I wont thank you but maybe i can break youYou will cease the laughingand i will cease the shameYour at the end of the line and I'm through this gamechours once then fade out of music

Life Is A Game.....
Life is a game.....verse1my visions black my bodies blood red sometimes I wish I were dead I finger these scares lineing my armsand sink into thoughts of self past harmchoursLife is a game you shouldnt playWhen you lose it'll all fall awayI am the stagnat pool where you start to drownlocked away for ever until you rot in the groundx1verse2Im reaping now which what i have sownThe voices inside wont leave me aloneThe moment were born we start to die Ending it all just to say goodbyechoursfade to bridgebridgeIn my head im lost and deadPlease tell me can you feel me PAIN!!x1verse3Bones and blood lay unpon the groundRotten limbs dead bodies foundSlit my wrist and let my blood run redWatch me now as my blood is shedchours x1verse4I just want to be crucifed Lost in space does it matter why The seconds on this clock slowly fadeEach must feel longer than a daychoursfade to bridge

Dilate
life used to be life-like now it's more like showbiz i wake up in the night and i don't know where the bathroom is and i don't know what town i'm in or what sky i am under and i wake up in the darkness and i don't have the will anymore to wonder everyone has a skeleton and a closet to keep it in and your mine every song has a you a you that the singer sings to and you're it this time baby, you're it this time when i need to wipe my face i use the back of my hand and i like to take up space just because i can and i use my dress to wipe up my drink i care less and less what people think and you are so lame you always dissapoint me it's kind of like our running joke but it's really not funny and i just want you to live up to the image of you i create i see you and i'm so unsatisfied i see you and i dialate so i'll walk the plank and i'll jump with a smile if i'm gonna go down i'm gonna do it with style and you won't see me surrender you won't hear me confess 'cuz you've left me with not

Anticipate
you are subtle as a window pane standing in my view but I will wait for it to rain so that I can see you you call me up at night when there's no light passing through and you think that I don't understand but I do we don't say everything that we could so that we can say later oh, you misunderstood I hold my cards up close to my chest I say what I have to and I hold back the rest 'cause someone you don't know is someone you don't know get a firm grip, girl before you let go for every hand extended another lies in wait keep your eye on that one anticipate dress down get out there pick a fight with the police we will get it all on film for the new release seems like everyone's an actor or they're an actor's best friend I wonder what was wrong to begin with that they should all have to pretend we lost sight of everything when we have to keep checking our backs I think we should all just smile come clean and relax if there's anything I've learned all these years on my own it's how to fi

Soldier That I Am In Life
[Eminem]I'm a soldier (*repeat 4X*)Yo.. never was a thug, just infatuated with gunsNever was a gangsta, 'til I graduated to oneand got the rep of a villain, for weapon concealinTook the image of a thug, kept shit appealinWillin to stick out my neck, for respect if it meantlife or death, never live to regret what I saidWhen you're me, people just want to see, if it's trueIf it's you, what you say in your raps, what you doSo they feel, it's part of your obligation to fulfillWhen they see you on the streets, face to face, are you for real?In confrontation ain't no conversation, if you feelyou're in violation, any hesitation'll get you killedIf you feel it, kill it, if you conceal it, reveal itBeing reasonable will leave you full of bulletsPull it, squeeze it 'til it's empty, tempt me, push me, pussiesI need a good reason to give this trigger a good squeeze[Chorus]I'm a soldier, these shoulders hold up so muchThey won't budge, I'll never fall or fold upI'm a soldier, even if my collar bone

Light Of Some Kind
i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks i guess i'm not concerned about getting away 'cause every time i try to hold my tongue it slips like a fish from a line they say if you want to play you should learn how to play dumb i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time 'cause we both know what i've been doing i've been intentionally bad at lying you're the only boy i ever let see through me and i hope you beleive me when i say i'm trying and i hope i never improve my game yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind there must be a light of some kind i must have blown a fuse or something cause it was so dark in my mind she came up to me with the sweetest face and she was holding a light of some kind and i still think of you as my boyfriend i don't think this is the end of the world but i think maybe you sh

Public Political Imprisionment
You charm us with a smile, you promise all your worth. Your lies begin to pile, from your egos girth. Hid behind denial, you ever shame our earth. With every bloody mile, insuring Satins birth.

Anger!!!! (the Thoughts Of Mem Chapter 15)
The Darkness Of The Abyss Has Returned To Haunt Me Again!!!! Every Day I Go On My Light Is Taken Away Little By Little. This Forsaken Darkness; A Curse It Is To Me. Am I Ever To Be Rid Of It? Or Will It Stay Like A Cat Lurched Down Waiting To Pounce On Me? To Bound Me With It's Chains? To Drown Me With Rain? This Forsaken Eternal Darkness; Your A Thorn In My Side!!!!! A Pain That Won't Let Go. I'm So Angry I'm About To Implode. THIS GOD FORSAKEN ETERNAL DARKNESS!!!! JUST LEAVE ME BE!!!!! LET ME BE HAPPY!!!! LET ME DREAM A HAPPY DREAM!!!!! YOU AND YOUR DECRYPTED CURSE CAN GO TO HELL!!!! NO MORE NIGHTMARES!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO HOLD ON ME ANYMORE!!!! THAT WANNA A BE LOOK ALIKE I SEE IN THE MIRROR ISN'T ME!!!!! I AM BREAKING FREE OF YOUR CHAINS!!!! I AM TAKING MY FREEDOM!!!! THE DEPRESSING FEELINGS ABOUT MYSELF: MY DARK ABYSS!!! TWO WORDS: F*CK YOU!!!! AS IT IS WRITTEN AS SO IT SHALL COME TO PASS: QUOTE THE MEMESIS NEVERMORE!!!!

The Cunsumption Of Her Heart And The Poison Touch~by Jd
She'll crush your world, She'll drag you down into the depths, She'll talk real sweet and turn it around, Next she'll make you want to die. She'll whisper all to you all her insecurites, Only to find out she was never real, She'll make your head explode, Her words are poison to the touch, Run and hide. She build you up, Only because shes in love with breaking you down, She'll get you drunk then make you drive, her life is spinning out of control. She'll make up lies to make you feel helpless, Behind your back she'll be laughing in your face, She'll promise you that you are her everything, Only until the moment she decides its time for you to be erased. She'll whisper sweet nothing when you embrace, But shes really thinking how pitiful you seem, She'll do her damage until it can't be undone, You will be empty and she'll still be having her fun. She'll load the gun and tell you theres no bullets in the chamber, Do not be a fool, She'll make you regret ever trying to love

Maybe
It's amazing to me. I fall into the same trap as everyone else. Oh 2009 was total dog shit, so 2010 will be fuckin great. Well if the first 8 days are any indication, I totally deluded myself. Yeah, I have already had ups, but the downs are what get ya. My kids are still my kids. My mom is more psycho than ever, or maybe I am getting more delusional and psycho and just think its everyone else. Maybe my hatred of the world and the trust I've had from friends and lovers alike that ALWAYS gets betrayed is all my fault. Maybe my rage and anger is not justified. Maybe my marriage and my relationship with Erin would have worked if I was sane. Maybe H and R block loosing my taxes from last year is a delusion in my own head. Maybe getting fired for NO damn reason is still my fault somehow. Maybe ,my mom is right. Maybe I do walk in the house and start yelling and bringing everybody down with out me knowin I'm doin it. Maybe I lost it a loooooooong time ago. Who knows, maybe I'm sittin in a pad

Bid Live Feed Is Gone???
BIG Live feed is gone from the bottom middle of homepage..I am sad in the face.Post in your status and just maybe we get it back LOL Will be hard to chase bombers and find people leveling to help. lol

Part One "monsters Do"
january 7 2010 i am reading a book on the fold out bed at my parents house in the cold mountains of northern california, i am by my...self....i am sober.....slighty intoxicated on good beer but no speed....i am....clean....i miss her....the crystal mistress...the sting of her tears running up my nose....the feeling like my heart will explode and i will die....the relief she can bring it is the middle of the night...i am....alone.....my son sleeps beside me...but i am alone...only the sound of him inhaling and exhaling oxygen into his lounges.....i remind myself that i love him....that i have some idea what love feels like....but it is a lie...he might as well be a vampire...or one of the monsters i hold court with in my dark mind...and everything is so dark...and so i say to him in his sleep "Cameron...your Father is a Monster" knowing his sleeping mind already understands me and agrees comforts me somehow...and tears run down my face but i only smile because i know know the l

Caring
First off, if you are a negative responder, please do not read this. I really need care and love right now...Since August of last year, I have been bedridden due to being almost strangled to death and my back fractured. This has taken a tole on me. My husband is Active duty army, and was just told he is restarting after christmas exodus. So, I have to wait another half a year to see him. This is all very hard. This site is my world right now. It sucks that it is...but I can't go do things...so it honestly is. I care about my friends..and the people I love more than anything. I am broke as hell with all these bills, and cant do everything i want to do for people. But god, when someone does something for me..it means the world. I don't get autos much. I never have got a bomb as a gift. And the blings i get come from one person, whom i feel is wanting to walk away from me. I am really upset right now. I hve no one that really wants to just sit down and talk to me and make it better...Wel

World Of Warcraft: Does Anyone Else Play?
If so: Faction/Race/Class/Spec(s) and why you like your spec(s). Main: Horde/Undead/Priest/Holy and Shadow. Most versatile combination available for a priest (in my opinion). Alt: Horde/Tauren/Death Knight/Blood DPS and Frost Dual-Wield Tank. Tons of fun both ways, `nuf said :D

Who Did Start The Fire ?
Ok, so today I was listenin to my IpoD at work like I do everyday, and one of my favorite songs came on. It is "We Didn't Start The Fire", by Billy Joel. I'm sure most if not all of you know the song. It is a list of events in his life. Starting with the year he was born and working to the year the song was released. There are so many events listed...Disneyland, the Kennedy Assassination, Space Flight, and The Cola Wars among others. Important and interesting. It is his legacy. His claim to History and what it has left us. So here I was singing and dancing and it hit me...why not write down the events of my life? My, or I should say OUR legacy. So for all of you born around the same year I was, this is for us. For those of you reading who are perhaps older (Hi Pops), your legacy stretches further, and entails so much more. So without any more blabber and even less ado, let us begin our walk through History. 1971I was born August 19th of that year. China joined the UN that year as well

Its The Law ( I Swear To God It Is )
Now to the real reason for todays mind numbing blog. I was thinking today about some of the more "out of date" and rather idiotic laws posted across this fine country and even throughout the world. So seeing as how the Legislature just ended their lawmaking session, I thought I would bring up some of the laws that will never be revised but should cause a chuckle or two anyway. In Utah it is illegal to hunt whales In Boise it is illegal to fish from the back of a camel In Alaska it is illegal to wake a sleeping bear for the sole means of taking pictures In Hawaii it is illegal to place coins in your ears In Florida it is illegal to fish off a bridge while driving In Kentucky throwing eggs at a public speaker could result in up to one year in prison In Massachusetts all men are required to carry a rifle to church on Sunday, yet it is illegal to hunt on Sundays. In California, no vehicle without a driver may exceed 60 miles per hour In Wyoming, you may not take a picture of a rab

Tricks Of A Memory
Lately many of us (me included), have been posting notes on our Facebook pages asking others to recall memories of us through the years, or perhaps silly things they know about us. We have all answered our fair share of questionaires, and we have all endured the skeletons emerging from our prospective closets. I wont post one of those. I am not sure what people remember about me is what I remember from childhood. Or growing up for that matter. Im sure I would get the obligatory "you made me laughs", and the " You were so funny" comments, and that is all good and well. But I thought in order to really clear the cobwebs I would write what I remember. I have been feeling old lately. Not in the sense that my bones ache and my memory is shot. Just old. Weary. Tired. For some reason I have been thinking a lot about my youth and the years that bring me to who I am today. In reality what I am writing here is a confession. Knowing that, if you turn back now you will never be the wiser and you

20 Years Ago
I was burning some music for my sister the other day (yes, I can be nice once in a while), and it got me thinking. You see, the music I was burning for her was Kenny Rogers Greatest Hits. There is one of his songs I happen to like ( ok, there is more than one), and it is titled "Twenty Years Ago". Part of the lyrics say "Life was so much easier, twenty years ago". I dont think it matters what decade you were born in or what happened twnety years ago, but I believe this holds true for most if not all of us. So I thought today we would discuss what happened to us twenty years ago. Twenty years ago a Flock of Seagulls ran (they ran so far away), Madonna wasnt married and she was doing the Vogue. Johnny hated jazz, Frankie went to Hollywood, and Prince sang under a Purple Rain. Men Without Hats popped the world, Motley Crue took the world by storm with headbanging, thrashin metal, and Bon Jovi set a fashion trend with ankle length trench coats. There was The Cure, The Femmes were violent,

Things I Have Learned
My Niece and Nephew are a crazy pair. If I ever happen to be there as they get out of school, I get to hear everything they learned that day. It keeps me sharp, keeps me informed and its a great way to pass the afternoon when it takes them twenty minutes to tell me how the spelling test went that day, or how the teacher lost her cellphone. An animated duo for sure. It got me to thinking, and eventually led to this posting. I dont post much anymore, and I think it is due to the fact that I dont have as much going through my head as usual. Regardless, here is my list of what I have learned in life so far. -No matter how much I care, some people just dont care back-You cannot make someone love you-No matter how thin you slice it, there is always two sides-My sense of humor has never failed me-Its a lot easier to react than to think-Either you control your temper or it controls you-Death is final...there is no time out, no take backs and no do-overs-My best friend and I can do anything o

Deer Camp
Four guys have been going to the same deer camp for many years. Two days before the group is to leave, Frank's wife puts her foot down and tells him he isn't going. Frank's friends are very upset that he can't go, but what can they do. Two days later the three get to the camping site only to find Frank sitting there with a tent set up, firewood gathered, and dinner cooking on the fire. "Damn man, how long you been here, and how did you talk your wife into letting you go? "Well, I've been here since yesterday. Yesterday evening, I was sitting in my chair and my wife came up behind me and put her hands over my eyes and said, "Guess who?" I pulled her hands off, and she was wearing a brand new see through nightie. She took my hand and pulled me to our bedroom. The room had candles and rose petals all over. On the bed she had handcuffs, and ropes! She told me to tie and cuff her to the bed, and I did." And then she said, "Do what ever you want" ..., so... here I am."

Thanks For The Star Cart Peacey
from: Peacey Belize subject: this might not work received: 01/8/2010 07:04 pm replied: 01/8/2010 07:35 pm block this member Flag as spam Birth Date: 2/19/1963, Time: 8:36 PM. Country: USA, State or Region: California, Location: La Mesa. Geographic Coordinates 32.46 N, 117.03 W, Time Zone = Pacific Standard, Special Code = Standard Time. GMT Difference = 8:00. House Method is Placidus.BIRTH HOROSCOPE FOR ISKHAIMOS YOUR OUTLOOK:Your Ascendant is Libra.Your charm is your key to the inner circles of beautiful people who exude refinement and dignity. You feel lost when alone. You need excitement in love.ASPECTS (or Angles to Other Planets):Your Ascendant is Squared to Moon.You are unable to project your emotions in a useful posi

Yes I Am Still Alive Lol
WELL I HAVE MOVIED OUT OF TENNESSEE AND NOW I AM LIVING IN OHIO, AND NOW I AM FINALLY SETTLED IN WITH MY MOM AND STEPDAD AND MY STEPGRANDMA, ALSO I AM GOING TO GO THROUGH ALL MY OLD PICTURES AND DELETE THEM AND I AM GOING TO PUT UP SOME NAGHUTY PICTURES UP OF MY SELF AND I FINALLY GOT A CAMERA SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT I CAN DO THINGS ON MY OWN LOL.. ANYHOW , I WILL BE LETTING EVERYONE COMMENT ON IT AND SO ON.. GLAD THAT I AM KIND OF BACK BUT GOING TO FIX THE PROFILE BACK UP.. TALK TO YOU ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS LATER.. LOVE YA ALOT. ALISHA

Boy Uses Wooden Gun To Rob Store
The Obama economy is in the toilet and not expecting to get better until he leaves office but using a wooden gun to rob a store in going a little far. May be it’s not to far fetched since the alleged robber is only 12-years old. It’s report he walked into a store and pointed the wooden gun at the clerk demanding money. He got it but was captured soon after. For more http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,582641,00.html?test=latestnews You don’t need wooden anything to listen to BlastFM. Just type www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm in your browser and you’re hooked up!

For Boo, Cuz She Always Makes Me Smile
along time ago, in a land far far away lived a lil princess named boo. she was the fairest female in all the kingdom. the kingdom was in a tropical locale with warm oceans and sandy white beaches. it was as close to perfect as you could imagine, except for one thing. her great great grandfather the king erected a huge fence around all his lands to keep invaders out, but by keeping the invaders out he inadvertently kept all his subjects in.this ended up causing a lot of inbreeding making it impossible for poor boo to find a suitable husband. so one night in the dead of night boo snuck over the wall in search of other lands without drooling 3 toothed men. the first land she came to was called mummerville but all she found there were a lot of troll like creatures aside from a few ravishing lesbians. she snuck out of mummerville and traveled 2 full days where she came upon a kingdom called blogville. she spent a week wandering there checking things out. but alas the was nothing there that

The Honored Few Code Of Conduct
The Honored Few COC Please Read Carefully 1. All The Honored Few Prospects must have a verified salute. 2.Must sign the COC (code of conduct) agreement below as a comment o"I AGREE " in order to be considered for membership.3.Shout Box & Fu Mail must be open to all Officers for communications .You may be able to set your profile to friends only if you have added all officers this allows us to communicate with you when necessary. 4.The President, Vice President, and Sgt. At Arms, must be added to family, they do not have to be top family, but they just need to be there for communication. 5. When requesting to join the Club As a Member, please specify when you request membership. Club members will be U.S. Military Vets. 6. All other friends and fans are asked to remember that this club is for U.S. Military Veterans, please do not use this name with out the Presidents

Kissy Face
What would I have to do,So she would look my way.To sparkle in her eyes,Throughout all of my days. How can I turn her head,To smile towards me.I will be myself to her,And ask her only from her to be. To be true from her,Is really all I ever need.And a real friendship,Will grow from that seed.

Dinner
What was supposed to be a decent night out turned into a bust. We went to dinner, but couldn't go to the club like we wanted because it's snowing and the roads are getting bad. We decided to cut things short. Good news is, we planned for a follow-up tomorrow night at the club we wanted to go to. Instead of meeting him there, I think I can trust him enough to pick meup at home. He lives in the same town, and gave me his address without even asking for mine. He doesn't ave to come in, meet my kid, or anything like that, just show up in my driveway. He's a good kisser, though. *grins*

Buzzkillin Beauty
This beauty in the past,I had known befofe.Today she reminded me,Of times long before. When her smile to me was young,And of her much I did not know.And happily through the memoryes,My mind would love to go. The first I ever saw her smile,Or maybe try to recall our first chat.Never again for me will this happen,And I will promise her that. Beautiful now reaquainted,Please never again leave my eyes.Once gone is surely enough,ever again do I want your goodbye.

Be Who U R
Don't get stuck in the past,Where you linger on and on in familiarity,And replay old memories over and over again.Don't overindulge in the future,Where you daydream about leading a grand life endlessly,And imagine the sweetest days you could ever live.Don't neglect your present,Where true life begins to unfold and pass you by silently,And you wonder about missed opportunities and lost moments.For lessons, quietly contemplate about your past,And you might realize life has cleverly placed you in situations,That demanded you to raise up to the challenges and to grow.To reduce your anxiety and panic attacks, make plans for your future,And you might see that your dreams and goals are acting like guiding lights,Shining the path for you to follow through and learning to overcome your fears.To avoid the state of merely existing, be aware of your present,And you might notice that you are part of a grander scheme,Where the past is long gone and the future has yet to come,And that your present is

Spiritwolve
Hey everybody! SpiritWolve is only 60899 from leveling and requested help....Lets see what we can do as a family and try to help out with leveling him...... ~Spiritwolve~"No Hard Feelings"~OWNER The Wolves Den~@ fubar

Here
she closed her sore eyes and asked "why am I here?" ... then in the blind distance a voice came through clear he said "I came not to judge or own any of your fears... I came to be the one you need to simply soak up your tears. I'll be gone again soon but at this moment, my dear I am yours... I too am here"

Repent!!!
Lmao, My gay best bud got online and this is what he comes online to…Lmao Jason.. that is Me.. I am the forgotten son :P See I told you I could act like a Christian and that ya wouldn't be able to tell the difference.. LMAO No I do not share the views of those below..shit I am a atheist I do not even believe in the god or devil.. just thought it would be funny to mess with him since he has not been on for a year read from bottom up... L ' ange d...: well, you do that honey, pray all you want, and while your at it, ask god why he has let so many children go hungry, beatin, killed and throw to the side, molested, you would think a god, of his caliber wouldnt let little innocent babies be molested by grown menTo L ' ange d...: good day sirTo L ' ange d...: I shall pray for your soulL ' ange d...: you stick to what you do, and ill stick to what i do,†hê £ðrgð†...: Sir.. I am not attacking you, just want to save your soul†hê £ðrgð†...: homosexualityy is

When The Tones Go Off
I've had the best/worst luck the last three days. I've walked into the firehouse and each time within 5 minutes a call's gone out. Yesterday was no exception... walked in, said my hello's, and we get tapped out for a 7 year old female seizing. Look around, no one else to drive the medic unit... God dammit. Jump on, off we go. Head into the house, she's unresponsive and barely breathing. Then she starts seizing again. Get oxygen flowing, establish an IV, push some drugs, then I pick her up in my arms and take her to the ambulance. Put her on the cot, help get some equipment set up, then go back up front. Hop in, throw it in reverse, and off we go. I always tell my guys that speeding is almost never worth the risk it comes with; you might save a minute or two and you also might wreck. Well, in this case I decided it was worth it. Turned a 19 minute trip into just a hair over 13. Rolled into the ER, and within 5 minutes they had a helicopter en-route Priority 1 to take her to a pediatric

If You Know A Biker
IF U KNOW A BIKER" PLEASE" REPOST!!I saw you hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant.But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by.But you didn't see me driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window.I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children.But you didn 't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.I saw you stare at my long hair.But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love.I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves.But you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and gloves to those that ha

You
I love u but I hate uI want u but can't stand uU make me happy but yet I'm angry I trusted u and u betrayed meI gave u everything, u gave me nothingWhen will my nightmare become a dream.How much longer must I wait for that ring.When will it change for good and last forever.I love u but I hate uI want u but can't stand uU make me happy but yet I'm angry I trusted u and u betrayed meI gave u everything, u gave me nothingU asked me to marry u after three weeks.We had a baby boy by choice.U told me u love me but yet u abuse me.I love u but I hate uI want u but can't stand uU make me happy but yet I'm angry I trusted u and u betrayed meI gave u everything u gave me nothingWe made love so many times.U did something no one could.I got hooked on u.I love u but I hate uI want u but can't stand uU make me happy but yet I'm angry I trusted u and u betrayed meI gave u everything u gave me nothingWhen will we say "I do."When will u loose ur attitude.I'm about through with waiting on U!!!

Gary
I hold him so close to my heart.I never told him how scared I was.He never saw what I really felt.We spent our first night under the stars at a park.I wanted it to last FOREVER.The first time I let u know that I was falling for u was when u had my phone.U never really told me u felt the same as I do.I sit up wondering what could have been instead of what is.Please end this pain u have given me.My heart is broken and I cant fix it on my own.Its been two years now and I don't see a change.U yell at me saying the three words most girls love to hear.I wish I could open up to u and let u see me for me again.I need u to start being honest with me.Wondering what u are doing day in and day out isn't what I need to be doing.Trying to trust is something I have been doing for awhile.I love u more than what my words and actions will ever say.When I gave u my heart I gave it for keeps.I trusted u with it all.Now I'm left sitting here trying to figure out why u caused me so much pain.U took Kaden in

Candles..
Candles lit and burning bright shine a glow upon your skin, My fingertips they ache to trace you, and draw your heat within. With beating heart and shallow breath, I long to feel you near As I move my lips to taste your skin, I close my eyes in fear. Your body arches, escapes a whisper, You beg me to go further... Your hands restricted, bound loosely with silk, your eyes dilate with pleasure As I enclose your heat, you respond to my warmth, my tease akin to a feather.. I trace every contour with fingers and tongue, Then at last you are spent, it is over and done. I untie your binds; you are free from my lust, But your mouth moves to mine and in your heat I trust. Soft kisses of fire build my passion again, Your tongue brings me pleasure, it releases my pain. You know what I need, yet you make me tell I'd do anything now; I'm under your spell. As our hips move in closer, tension is killing, As we join together, sensation is thrilling. I beg and I plead, you respo

The Surrender...
His key turns in the lock; the doorknob is heard, twisting. That knowing little click as the door is shut, gently, quietly, so as not to disturb the inhabitant of the room. The chink of keys on the dresser, the soft tiptoed footsteps, almost creeping, almost unheard, her ears strain in the darkness to hear where he is at. With eyes tight shut, she hardly dares to breathe; she lets her senses guide her to his direction. She senses him. He is close. He removes his shoes, his socks, that task, he cannot disguise. She knows he is seated on the chair. That chair, the one covered in red silk, almost destroyed by passion just the day before. He must be standing now, because she can hear the familiar slide of his belt out of its loops. The sound of metal hitting metal, as his belt becomes undone. His zipper is down. She hears him slide his jeans from his toned legs, first one then the other, left then right, she knows the routine so well, he will leave them in their usual place, crumpl

Learn Something New Everyday.... About Food And Diet
ok i feel like a nerd for knowing this .. but a fruit is produced as the "fruit of the blossom or plant" from something that has seeds falls and can reproduce from its seeds ... tomato a fruit. which most of you probally know ... but It also makes cucumbers, squash, green beans,avacados,olives etc.. and walnuts all fruits as well. VEGETABLES such as, radishes, celery, carrots, and lettuce do NOT have seeds (that are part of what we eat) and so they are grouped as vegetables. also bananas and avacodos are high in fat so is yuka and platians ... FEEL FREE TO POST ANY DUMB FACTS ABOUT FOOD AND DIET U WANA HAHA

In Memory Of My Beloved Andy
December 7, 1996 - January 7, 2010 Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the gr

66/187 Pc
I thought about you all last night.And through until the mornings light kissed my cheek.When I stepped outside the days beauty knocked me off my feet.I forgot to think of you.Forgot to worry about us.This day was so beautiful just for me.And as the sun set and the shadows grew,My heart broke again and I sat longing for you.And as I tried to sleep I tossed and turned in our bed.Going back and forth with "what ifs" and getting lost in my head.Why do I feel you're absence so deeply in the dark?I'm all alone even when I am not.Our memories haunt me, but I think of all you've taught me."Don't miss me" you say..."I'm always with you and never too far. Now is just time for you to aim for the stars. Follow your dreams and keep me in your heart, and no matter what remember I love you and remember who you are."Words you've left me that I keep so near.I say them to myself when I am the most full of fear.I don't know how to be brave with you gone.I don't know how to be strong without you to lean o

A Poem
DanceThe ballroom is empty .A sweet aroma captivates my senses as you pass me .A gentle melody surrounds the room as you sway to it .My ears hear it but I’m to absorbed by your magnificent self .You gesture to me to join you .I step towards you and feel the electricity of your gorgeous being rip through my soul .You embrace my body to yours and gaze into my eyes .I wrap my arms around you as I get lost in your eyes .We dance, not to the music, but we are inspired by each other as well .I abstain no more as I move to kiss you, only to find your lips searching for mine . An electrifying feeling eclipses the room .An extraordinary gesture of love over whelms me .We part our lips and I find the most magnificent way to express my feelings to you. ” I love you and everything that makes you,you .” I whisper to you .We embrace each other and we dance.

Fu-mafia Slander
T o X i C: boo yahTimeTraveler: you too*CB*: Yeah, I'm goin too. Have a good night.*CB*: Or at least watch some tv.TimeTraveler: well CB i'm out have a good oneTimeTraveler: true he really should try getting out in the real world*CB*: Somebody that has to do things like this must really have a boring life...if one at all.*CB*: I saw that.TimeTraveler: he just deleted that last one*CB*: It'll be interesting to see what name he uses this time.*CB*: I'm sure he is.TimeTraveler: hes make a new acct now probTimeTraveler: i think ur rightTimeTraveler: lmao*CB*: I think you're in for a long night of banning. Unless you just ignore him. That's what is keepin his motor running. Well, that and the batteries in his electric air pump for his plastic girlTimeTraveler: lol hell i dont care they can check me all they want i have 1 ipscrapper is pai...: like i cant make 4000 accountsscrapper is pai...: hey how many times are you fucking paid off bitches going to ban me hahahahahahahahah*CB*: Like I sa

Blarrrrr
I just got news that a sweet man I used to work with (he actually worked for my mom at one point) passed away this week. He had colon cancer, and had a lot of complications. The visitation and funeral are at a funeral home that's just a couple miles from me, so I'm trying to decide whether to go - my mom's not even going because she hasn't talked to him in years. I fvcking hate cancer. Why does it take all the good people?

Fakes For The Fcuking Love Of Fruity French Toast Will Someone Tell Me ...why
For the Fcuking Love of Fruity French toast will someone tell me ... Why are all these People pretending to be Someone there not and not just that BUT FAKES IN GENERAL..... NOT FOR NOTHING BUT ITS REALLY GETTING OLD.. it doesnt make sense to post fake pics ur only preventing yourself from meeting someone who will love the real you and friendships with people who will love the real you ... i wonder how many girls and post pics of girls are really girls here and not guys , for that matter i wonder how many people actually have real pics .... people it isn't about who Prettier looks fade in time , u can be the hottest person and people still like something different , or i mean u could be the most normal looking or odd looking person and someone find u beautiful .... beauty is flawed humans are flaws .... the only true beauty is loving yourself regardless and not having to hide behind a mask rather its a fake pic a fake personality or just thinking u always have to be dolled up

50 First Lines... And You
So, um, yeah. Some of you may remember that aeons ago, when the stars were aligned, I had a blog. No, not this one, another one. Y'know, a semi-legitimate one. Some of you might even have read it. It's called Experiments in Ontological Relativism, and Other Brain Farts. Anyway, a few months ago I started a new project on it. It's called 50 First Lines. Essentially, I'm pretty good at coming up with first lines for stories, but I never get around to really doing much with them. So I decided to give them away, for free. Freeeeeee! Well, almost free. There is one string. Sadly, it is not that you have to give me your soul (though I still accept soul-related donations). All you have to do is credit me for the line in whatever you use it in. Yup, that's it. Then I can vicariously ride on your fame! Uh, I mean, then I can be happy to see how you've used it. Anyway, me being the attention junkie uh, good sharer I am, I figured I would let you know about it, in case anyone was interested.

Crazy Peoples....
There is a woman on Facebook that is deleting people from her friends list because all their animals on Farmville are fenced in. She believes it's animal cruelty and keeps posting as her status how mean we all are because the animals need to be free.I love crazy people. They are such entertainment. Just thought I'd share.

Need Help Leveling,please, 8.5 To Go...chaotic And Bratt
BRATT ANDCHAOTIC NEED YOUR HELP IN LEVELING... SO LET'S HELP THEM GET THIS DONE !! CHAOTIC 8.2 MIL TO GO BRATT 8.8 MIL TO GO ♥~ß®ãťť~♥**@ fubar SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR, GO LOVE THEM NOW!!!

Hell Yeah This Rocks Damn Right
Do you see me, sitting here?I'm waiting for you to say anythingHead hung low, kicking stones downKicking stones down the road to hell nowI'm waiting for you to say anything, anything yeahI know you are the only one, my little taste of heavenAnd you know I am the only one, your bitter taste of hellYour eyes scream the end is creeping in on meI'll need thirty-seven stitches, to keep the pain inI know you are the only one, on the darkest side of the sunOoh yeahFollowed the piper's sweet whistlingGuided down the path by the wrong handClose my eyes for the chance of a better viewPlug my ears so I couldn't hear youAnd I know you are the oneAnd you know I am the oneYour bitter taste of hellI know you are the only one, a little taste of heavenAnd you know I am the only one, your bitter taste of hellYour eyes scream the end is creeping in on meI'll need thirty-seven stitches, to keep the pain inI know you are the only one, on the darkest side of the sunDo you see me sitting here?Still waiting f

Wake Up!
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. The next week the man realized that he would need his wife to wake him at 5.00 am for an early flight to Sydney. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence, he finally wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 am". The next morning the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 am, and that he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't woken him when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed..it said... "It is 5:00 am, wake up!"

I Have A Hot Date Tonight!!
Sooooo yeah I got a date tonight. No, there is nothing unusual about that. What is strange is that I am going on a date with my ex-husband! We have been divorced for 11 years and have always remained friends. Even through our divorce. But what is very strange for me is that when he called me yesturday to confirm our date, after I hung up, I had the EXACT same reaction as I did the very first time he called me more than 20 years ago! I'm being flooded by a whirlwind of emotions right now. Excitement, fear, wonder, anticipation, and I even have the proverbial butterflies in the stomach! CRAP!! I'm so nervous and excited I can't sit still! Sooooo yeah, thats it. Wish me luck!

Libras
Libra-The Lover Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person you wanna #### with... u might end up crying... the most irresistible. POUNDS HIS CHEST LIKE KING KONG...

My Ramblings....
.... *sighs* ... well lemme start by saying... i have zero typing skills and i can't spell for shit so in reading this ur takin a big chance of either gettin to know the real me or gettin a big ass headache tryin to understand what i'm sayin... i ramble.. alot... its a curse of having a random brain that jumps from thought to thought with no reguard for the convo at hand... maybe because i have spent my life tryin to change the subject from things that had to do with what i was feeling or how much i was hurting... it's a coping mechanism... just like my smartassyness (is that even a word?... oh well lol) and my sumtimes flagrant disreguard for the nonviolent....i can be very mean and sumtimes downright evil if u hurt the ones i love ... i'm one of those i can b ur best friend or ur worst enemy dependin on how u cross me. to put it bluntly... i'm a bitch.. but i figure if i'm a bitch and u keep talkin to me then your worth the time to get to kno... i don't let people in easily which mak

Some Of My Work
In your eyes is were I feel safe, everything about you is wonderful The touch of your lips against mine, the scent of your skin, my every desire With you is where I want to be, stay always I love you more as each day passes You know me better then anyone else, without saying a word you kiss my lips Stay with me always, my love, my passion, my everything

Kar$way
When they talk of the earths warming,I know there is no cure.Because it comes from this beauty,Of this I am totally sure. Her smile so genuine,So soft are her eyes.It could be the dead of winter,All I would see are summer sky's To me you shine like the sun,On a warm summers day.My days are so much brighter,When I see you Ms Kar$way.

I Dont Even Know What To Say...
Been a while since I’ve written here, so let’s see where did we leave off? I went on vacation to Cali and had a great time but was busier than I preferred and didn’t get to see my Sonja. That made me rather sad. It is one of the top reasons I go there. Had a LOT of bonding time with my sister in law (LOVE that angel of a woman!) and my brother. I got to do a lot of great things while being out there. I wish I could have gotten to do more though. For the very select few…you know that my trip to Cali was great, but is also bittersweet. Doesn’t matter how old I get or how long it has been…It will remain that way. I think the reality of being in Cali hit Thanksgiving night. I came home and things seemed fine. LOL Of course things are never fine with me. I will say the ripple effect of Cali was much more subtle this time round…or maybe I just wanted to believe that I was better this time around. My emotions have been bouncing all over the place a

Could It Be
View: Full | Compact * My Notes * Notes About Me * Drafts Dirty Bird Share Tuesday, May 5, 2009 at 3:20pm | Edit Note | Delete Dirty Bird I took the pain of today And let it slowly slip away Down the drain it went Like all of the time I spent A tear slowly falls from my eye As I say my silent goodbyes Knowing fate had played me again Punishing me for my mortal sins Something about him got under my skin I let my guard down and let him fall in He captivated me with his words and his ways Leaving me longing for much better days The sands of time now move so slow I must pick up and get on with the show The passion and desire he inspired Will fuel the spark of this internal fire Some people are not meant to be caged They give us what we need then fly away Leaving our world a much drearier place Knowing they are gone without a trace Updated about 8 months ago · Comment · LikeUnlike Frank Rodriguez likes this. Louis Huff Louis Huff wh

Dirty Bird
I took the pain of today And let it slowly slip away Down the drain it went Like all of the time I spent A tear slowly falls from my eye As I say my silent goodbyes Knowing fate had played me again Punishing me for my mortal sins Something about him got under my skin I let my guard down and let him fall in He captivated me with his words and his ways Leaving me longing for much better days The sands of time now move so slow I must pick up and get on with the show The passion and desire he inspired Will fuel the spark of this internal fire Some people are not meant to be caged They give us what we need then fly away Leaving our world a much drearier place Knowing they are gone without a trace

Friend
When someone goes astray And makes countless mistakes How many chances can they take Before you have to turn your heart away When their world falls apart And their actions break your heart Leaving chaos in their wake How much can you take I've sat down with the devil I've looked him in the eye I've met my share of angels Demons know where I reside Everything I've been through Every place I have roamed Never felt as warm to me Your heart it is my home I sit here full of anger My contempt I can not hide You're not the man you once were This can not be denied I have to make a place for you That's close but not inside To love you for who you are Not the memory of you that has died My struggle is not important Right now you need a friend As I have always told you I will be there til' the end

England
England my England Goodbye to my England, so long my old friend Your days are numbered, being brought to an end To be Scottish, Irish or Welsh that's fine But don't say you're English, that's way out of line. The French and the Germans may call themselves such So may Norwegians, the Swedes and the Dutch You can say you are Russian or maybe a Dane But don't say you're English ever again. At Broadcasting House the word is taboo In Brussels it's scrapped, in Parliament too Even schools are affected, staff do as they're told They must not teach children about England of old. Writers like Shakespeare, Milton and Shaw The pupils don't learn about them anymore

Warped & Twisted
Harsh words & violent blows..: Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream

Get Over It.. Part One
Swinging back and forth,..: Emotion to emotion ... Never once stopping, Nor slowing the motion. No reason, No answer, No justification. The creation of a sterile imagination. Just passing through time As time passes me…

Get Over It..
Hatred and anger will destroy one's soul,if day after day, these emotions do control, Fuck your anger. Get over your hurt.Too busy dwelling there,Beyond any worth. So far up,Your own back side.Scurrying backwards,In order to hide. In the past that assures you,You lived at all.That you made a mark,Scenting the wall. Fucked someone over.Made a scar.Imprinted your soul print,Made clear who you are.

Where Did My Baby Go
Where did my baby go?I wonder where she ran off toI miss my baby soI'm calling but I can't get throughPlease tell that girl if you meet herThat someone's longing to see herWhere did my baby go?I wish that she would get back soon (get back soon)I'm searching for the lover I knewHave you seen her?Where did she go?Feels like I've just lost my only friendFlames subsided, colors fadedLove just got so complicatedWish that I could see her smile againSo if you see her out there, tell her I'm still hereWaiting for the day when she will reappearWhere did my baby go?I wonder where she ran off toI miss my baby soI'm calling but I can't get throughPlease tell that girl if you meet herThat someone's longing to see herWhere did my baby go?I wish that she would get back soon (get back soon)Maybe I was wrong and IIgnored her for too long and IDidn't even notice when she slipped awayMaybe while I lay fast asleep thenOut into the night she creepsI'll leave the light on, so she'll come back somedaySo if y

You Know Who You Are..
Sometimes a heart can’t dictate the moment... As I walk into a room, and it’s you that owns it. You are what I see, and my eyes will do the asking Just give me one sign Because with no voice, my words are lacking It’s not what you might end up saying.. But it’s everything you do. It drives me Crazy And it’s all because of you.. I can’t stop these thoughts They enter me everyday

For Lilys Man Brian
She longs for his return,So often these nights.Like a night without the moon,Without him she sees no light. Her days ever so gray,Her nights equally as dim,Her heart doesn't beat,Unless it's near him. I hope somehow,He can hear what I say.And bring her sadness,To an end this day.