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Believe The Unbelievable
This is just an email i received yesterday I thought was funny.. Curtis & Leroy saw an ad in the Starkville Daily News Newspaper in Starkville, MS. and bought a mule for $100. The farmer agreed to deliver the mule the next day. The next morning the farmer drove up and said, "Sorry, fellows, I have some bad news, the mule died last night." Curtis &Leroy replied, "Well, then just give us our money back." The farmer said, "Can't do that. I went and spent it already." They said, "OK then, just bring us the dead mule." The farmer asked, "What in the world ya'll gonna do with a dead mule?" Curtis said, "We gonna raffle him off." The farmer said, "You can't raffle off a dead mule!" Leroy said, "We shore can! Heck, we don't hafta tell nobody he's dead!" A couple of weeks later, the farmer ran into Curtis &Leroy at the Piggly Wiggly grocery store and asked. "What'd you fellers ever do with

Pretty In Pink
she likes pinkWhether it is a robe, slippers, or pantiesshe is pretty in pinkAnd her pinkThe pink of her fleshy cunt is prettySo a pretty pinkDouble bullet toy Plunged into her pretty pink pussyShould bring a pink glow to her cheeksMaybe I'll give it to herAs a stocking stuffer (so to speak) for Christmas

Fubar First
I've been on this site for over 3 years and I've never once been top promoter until today. And it's very strange because I didn't even actively ask anyone to join. Apparently I have a link to my fubar profile on some social networking site that I don't use anymore and I can't remember which one it is. Happy Thanksgiving!

Black Friday Specials On Bling, So Im Offering Goodies For Bling Packs.
For a 25 credit bling pack (it will be $10 bucks on black friday) rate 100 pics 11's 1 sfw salute 2 imikimis Add to fam/top friends For a 65 credit bling pack (will be $25 bucks) All of the above, plus.... Link to profile on my page Auto 11 or Cherrybomb (your choice) 1 special MILFItaliana salute For a 135 credit bling pack (will be $50 bucks) All of the above, plus.... Another Auto 11 or cherrybomb or a combo of blings worth 35 credits (your choice) A Ticker message from me, promoting you! For a 350 credit bling pack (will be $125 bucks) All of the above, plus.... Another 130 credits that you want.... Give you all my 11's for a week Any other offers I will discuss with you personally... thank you and have a happy black friday :D

A Christmas Poem. Please Read All
Today we are suppose to think about what we have and be thankful for it. I have been gone all week and when I got home today had this in my email. Just another reminder that not everyone has it easy and no matter how hard we have it someone has it worse. Our beloved military are alone and away from their family. This is their choice to protect us and it should be our choice to love them and support them. New Christmas Poem TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE

What Colcr Should You Guys Think I Should Dye My Hair.
Hey there fubar fans I am here with another blog for you but, this isn't like any blog this is a question. Okay are you guys ready here we go. What color do you fubar fans think I should dye my hair I have to remind you that it must stay within my work hestition. No weird colors like red, blue or anything like tat until I can find out I can dye my hair that color and no get in trouble. Let me know hit my blog up.

Just Time!!
Well, I am giving up fubar for good and getting back to real life. I joined Fubar after I ended a serious relationship with someone local to me and a friend told me about the site. I was trying to fill some free time in my life at the moment. I use to sit here with some of the friends I met on here and we would laugh about how serious some on this site would be in relationships situations and trying to level. For the first 4-5 months I was on here I didn't take it serious at all really but I ended up falling into the trap that it can create and let it start affecting my everyday life. For those that know me, I am a successful business owner, and never thought I could fall into this trap. Either way, I did and have noticed that I have become sort of addicted to the attention someone in a different states gives not that I don't get any in real life. Well, I started getting on more and more and loved the attention I was getting. I then started putting aside my parental duties to ta

My Love...
You’re on my mind most of the time, I always do day dreaming… Can’t control my self, not to think about you, And through the night, I’m dreaming what is the feeling, To be in your arms while your caressing my face… Thinking how is the feeling, When I touch your lips to mine… Oh! If I could have just one wish, I would wish to be with you everyday… To feel the warmth of your lips, The touch of your hand on my skin To wake up everyday, that your laying beside me. But my heart hurts… Knowing that how far a way you are, I just have faith in GOD, And keep praying that one day in our life, We will be together, And I know in God’s will my dream will come true… That Wonderful NYE....A New beginning of Forever!

Just Stay
A nurse took the tired, anxious serviceman to the bedside.'Your son is here,' she said to the old man.She had to repeat the words several times before the patient's eyesopened.Heavily sedated because of the pain of his heart attack, he dimly sawthe young uniformed Marine standing outside the oxygen tent. He reachedout his hand. The Marine wrapped his toughened fingers around the oldman's limp ones, squeezing a message of love and encouragement.The nurse brought a chair so that the Marine could sit beside the bed.All through the night the young Marine sat there in the poorly lightedward, holding the old man's hand and offering him words of love andstrength.Occasionally, the nurse suggested that the Marine move away and restawhile.He refused. Whenever the nurse came into the ward, the Marine wasoblivious to the other noises in the hospital - the clanking of theoxygen tank, the laughter of the night staff members exchanginggreetings, the cries and moans of the other patients.Now and then

Revolution?
Talk on all sides is revolution? Forget it. They got it covered. Expected and anticipated. Quit putting your money in what they recommend. You'll be empty handed and out in the street. Forget investing into but your own selves. Forget cash as well because we will become a cash less society. Can't buy squat or claim shit unless you're able to verify through the IRS. So anyone living on illicit cash get ready for control to take over. Do'nt like it take it up with those the electorate palced into office. You don't believe that you placed them into office do you? Please read The US Constitution as they should of taught you from the very beginning. To late to wake up because they got it all figured out, unfortunately, they left out God. I expect to exit and do a mia coupa, the ultimate coup de tar. Otherwise, enjoy your Thanksgiving. Norio

Bluetesseract, Part 2
Bad Kitty....: No, but you assume I'm stupid enough to believe the bullshit you're telling me. And I'm not.BlueTesseract: i didn't say POW Bad Kitty....: Yeah nice try to attempt to convince me it's Arabs doing it. I think it's whomever you're involved with. IF you were a POW you would not have internet access. As I said, I'm not stupid. Have a good night. When you decide you want an actual conversation, feel free to talk to me. Until then, don't waste my time or yours.BlueTesseract: fubar.com...Bad Kitty....: I'm a very sadistic person. Size has nothing to do with it. And, I personally think you're full of shit and are here in the states.BlueTesseract: I don't know. It was pretty big. You look like a tiny thingBad Kitty....: No, but give get to know me. You'll see I hurt much moreBlueTesseract: you are as hurtful as the cucumbers they use!Bad Kitty....: Yes, I am. I am a red head. And a woman. Need I say more?BlueTesseract: you are meanBlueTesseract: ughBad Kitty....: yeah you are loo

Happy Thanksgiving.
Means we are the weirdest family in Halifax.Our friends and family here humor us in our celebration of a day that means nothing to them,BUT MY WIFE IS THE GREATEST!!!! I had a delicious dinner ready when I came home from work.Did I mention it was AWESOME??If I didnt IT WAS DELICIOUS!!!And to top it off,my princess made my favorite cake for my birthday and a PUMPKIN pie for Thanksgiving.I love pumpkin pie.My cake was Red Velvet.From what I gathered from PK they dont sell Red velvet cake mix here,so SHE MADE IT FROM SCRATCH. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Did I mention that I have the greatest wife ever?? Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.Im out to spend time with mine.BBL werd

You Deserve The Best
This life is yoursTake the powerto choose what you want to doand do it wellTake the powerto love what you want in lifeand love it honestlyTake the powerto walk in the forestand be a part of natureTake the powerto control your own lifeNo one else can do it for youNothing is too good for youYou deserve the bestTake the powerto make your lifehealthyexcitingworthwhileand very happyTake the powerto reach for your dreams Annette

This Stupid Bitch Takes Rates To Serious. Look At This Idiot
OUR SHOUT 69MiNdFrEa...: you're not my friend so i don't know you're personality TopCats~Ti...: from somone who doesnt know me, u sure come off rude69MiNdFrEa...: looks or personality.69MiNdFrEa...: two ways to rate69MiNdFrEa...: you wish you were way over 10 but nice thought huh?69MiNdFrEa...: none of you're buisness why im here TopCats~Ti...: im way over a 10 hun, as i said u dont know me69MiNdFrEa...: well what can i judge if from you're personaality? TopCats~Ti...: and ur here why?69MiNdFrEa...: thats pathetic that you think anything other then a 10 is rude. TopCats~Ti...: so im a 7? and you judge that off a picture and by not knowing me? then yes69MiNdFrEa...: so you do taake ratings serious...calling me raating you 7 rude...my rude is HONEST.69MiNdFrEa...: i sure hope you don't take ratings serious TopCats~Ti...: was pretty rude TopCats~Ti...: ummm ok...69MiNdFrEa...: i really rated you a 7 but you had auto 11's on.

Weak Ass Negro's Like "'♎sʞıʇʇlǝz♎" Is Weak In The Mind For Leaving Message Then Blocking.
Here would of been my reply to her. HER REPLYstop bitching for one thing...she can't possibly respond to everyone that comments herif that bothers you so then you shouldn't be her friend MY REPLY Shut you're big lips Negro. stay out of other peoples business that has NOTHING! to do with you. I made a mistake on adding her. shes worthless & a pile of dog shit. you're her friend so by all means take her. she was never my friend just a STRANGER on a FRIENDS List. so no love loss there. before you even messaged me I had already removed her & blocked her sorry ass. shes more worthless then the dirt i walk on. I bet you get told you look like the female version of urkel. now get lost you fucking LOSER. you're easy to avoid & you wont be missed by anyone.

Ok It All Most Time
ok boys and girls i have 18 of the hotts ass on fubar in the best butts on fubar if you think you have what it takes but your hot ass in the contests we will have daily winners get 1 point bling by how many votes you get in one day on dec 26 the champion will get a bomb or a auto 11 so if you think you got a hot ass get it in the contests.

Tee Hee
I asked her to pick up a six pack of beer while at the store. Instead -she bought some facial cream. I said - The beer would have made you more attractive than the cold cream. Thats when the fight started.

Thankful For.....
This is the first thanksgiving I have not spent with my mom. But I am thankful that she has found love again and is deliriously happy. I am thankful for many things. I am thankful for many people. I have my health, a job, a place to live. I have my family and friends. I have a full tummy. Wishing you all a wonderful Thanksgiving! kk, all done being sappy :)

A Poem Or Two I Had Wrote
i lay here with your picture next to my heart prying that one day that i can hold you close to me like i had done so many nights before. i cry myself to sleep relizing i ruined the best tin in my life and pushed the one person that meas the world to me away. when i get asked how im doing i tell the ones that know me best that i miss he one i lovemorthen anything thatone is you my angel . i woud crawl threwte deepest parts of hell on my stomach to prove my love for you. i nearly break down in tears when i talk to my freinds about hat happened cause i relize that i have lost forever. but to prove my love for you i keep on breathing even though iont belive that i deserve to. i tell everyone that the thoughts of you is what keeps me going day after day. i love you my angel!!! always and forever just for who you are. and to me your perfect and very beautiful. i must go lay my head down and drift off to sleep o i can help you and kiss you in my dreams like i once did in true life. I LOVE YOU

Adam Lambert's Advancing Of The Gay Agenda
Seems to me that the “queer stomping” was done on stage by Adam Lambert. When people act this badly, how can you blame normal, decent people for criticizing? Gays need to keep their sexual practices in the privacy of their own homes, not on stage and TV, not in parades down main street in San Francisco, just keep it private for God’s sake!! They are flaunting this and then expect us to remain silent. Just keep your private acts private…geez! How hard is that to understand? Satan is alive and well in the entertainment industry, and we are supposed to just smile tolerently and try to shield our children from the worst of it. Disgusting…filthy and terminally evil. By the way, MOST gays understand this and are decent people. I’m talking about the flaming liberal gays who think we all should love their lifestyles no matter how ugly and disgusting they act in public. They don’t realize that they are setting the gay agenda back by turning most peop

Thanksgiving Day History And Myths.
Wild turkey was never mentioned in the original Thanksgiving account. Photo by Half ChineseIf cranberries were served, they would have been used for their tartness or color, not the sweet sauce or relish so common today. In fact, it would be 50 more years before berries were boiled with sugar and used as an accompaniment to a meal. Potatoes weren't part of the feast, either. Neither the sweet potato nor the white potato was yet available to colonists. The presence of pumpkin pie appears to be a myth too. The group may have eaten pumpkins and other squashes native to New England, but it is unlikely that they had the ingredients for pie crust - butter and wheat flour. Even if they had possessed butter and flour, the colonists hadn't yet built an oven for baking. The first feast wasn't repeated as an annual occasion and wasn't the beginning of a tradition. In fact, the colonists didn't even call the day Thanksgiving. To them, a thanksgiving was a religious holiday in which

11/26/09
Vagetarian: 1) A straight male or lesbian female. 2) A cannibal that dines only on the pinkest of meatVagination: 1) Imaginary sexual partner 2) Sexual daydream 3) "Tucking it", as in a cross dresser or pre-op trans-sexualLesbitanic: 1) A woman who is an ardent lesbian 2) A woman who greatly enjoys giving cunnilingus, as in "She goes down like the Titanic" 3) A very large lesbian

Just To Let You Know.....
I never wanted to act like this towards you. It's not my intention to ignore you and act like you were never part of my life. I would walk up and talk to you and say something but I can only be silent because I don't have nothing else to say to you. Funny how so much have change, how we can chat for hours but couldn't even say a mere sentence to each other. Seemed like everything was just a dream that happened so quickly. Funny how we just look at each other and just tend to walk away. Seemed like were nothing but associates now. Crazy how so much have happened, but we act like nothing ever did. I'm not complaining because sometime we can't help our actions, it's just something I've noticed lately. I just want you to know that even though were nothing but friends or associates now is that I'm happy that your happy even though knowing I'm not there by your side anymore. I just wish you happiness in your future in life. Thanks for the happiness and the love you've shared and the memories

Funny Stuff
You measure distance in minutes, not miles. You drive through a rich neighborhood and see the wannabe redneck kids with their brand-new Fords and their designer holey jeans and cowboy hats. Boomsday in Knoxville is equal to New Year's Eve at Times Square. Knoxville becomes the third largest city every Saturday in the fall. Sweet tea is THE DRINK...no questions, no exceptions. Most people from Tennessee begin drinking sweet tea even before they can drink out of sippy cups. Iced tea is appropriate for all meals, and you start drinking it when you're two. We do like a little tea with our sugar! You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day. You use "fix" as a verb. Example: "I'm fixing to go to the store." All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, insect, or animal. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked. You know what a "DAWG" is. You carry jumper cables in your car -- for your OWN car. You own onl

I Ask For...
I asked for strength, that I might achieveI was made weak so that I learn how humbly to obey I asked for help that I might do greater thingsI was given infirmity so that I learn to do better things I asked for riches that I might be happyI was given poverty so that I learn to be wise I asked for power that I might receive praise I was given weakness so that I learn how to need I asked for all things that I might enjoy lifeI was given life so that I learn to enjoy all things

Cherokee Legend
Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of Passage? His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him an leaves him alone. He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to anyone. Once he survives the night, he is a MAN. He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own. The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him. Maybe even some human might do him harm.. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man

What Would You Do??
What would you do?? Well I like many others are having a tough time with the economy. So I decided that I would pawn some gold I have had for a long time and never used. Being I lost a roommate it's been kinda tough making the bills. So anyway I went to the pawn shop turned my Gold in which wasn't much and got some cash!! Enough to catch me up on food that I was lacking. Well when I left the pawn shop I noticed he gave me $100 dollars more than I was supposed to get. Hummm what to do? Should I have gone back and returned the extra $100 or just count it as good luck and move on?? What would you do? Part 2 to come up of what I did...

Thanksgiving Day Text Msg Experiment...hehehe
So how many of you have a cell phone? I imagine quit a few...duh...this is the millenium after all! well i like to go thru on the holidays and send out the usually "happy" greetings...today i picked ten people that i text regularly and a few i rarely hear from (i have to mention that my phone is full of numbers of people who just love to give them out and most are online friends that i put their number in and i never hear from them again...lol) alright..i send out my little msg..and in the meantime get several in from people that i talk to and replied all that happy crappy...and in the last hour i have received 5 replies to my text...one was from the ex who couldn't be bothered to write his own...he just sent mine back...lmao! 3 that wished me the same...and 1 who said "who the hell is this?" now is that love or what! hehehe so if you get a bored spot occuring in your holiday celebrations...go thru your phone and start wishing every tom, dick and harriet a happy thanksgivng and see

Friend
Where I lived in Stonybrook there was a neighbor who became sort of a friend. He told me a little of hes life and what has happened up until when I met him. He claimed he was a Christian and takes The Bible literally. This disabled man, neighbor, and a friend was filled with guilt. As I understand Christianity, The Christ, has paid for our Sins and the consequences of it. However one writes this, be it final judgement or karmic with us creating our future, the emotion such as guilt or fear is taken from us and The Christ at the cross paid in full all that we would pay. Giving us a sense of Peace even now. The ritual laws and ceramonies were worth less with out the Sacrifical Lamb being slain for our sake. It was this slaying or spilling of an Innocent Mans Blood that did the Miracullous work through The Son of God, The Christ, Ordained by God. I was puzzeld by my sort of friends actions and reactions based on what I took away from The Bible. He wanted to buy hes way to Heaven or earn

Happy Thanksgiving?
Well, it's Thanksgiving time again. What am I thankful for? Whole bunch of things that would really take too long to list. Let me tell you a little story about something I'm NOT thankful for... Last night, while wrapping up my night on the fu and trying to help my mom prepare for cooking the heavenly smelling turkey in the kitchen, everything went to hell. There was a argument between myself and one of my best friends, which is not the main part of my story, but it made me sad nonetheless. I hope we can resolve it soon and I hope we both have a fantastic Thanksgiving. No, my story is really about my family. Well, rather, about one side of my family. About how those closest to you are always the ones that hurt you the most. At least, that's what I had to remind my mom of while she cried on my shoulder. There are very few of you here on the fu that know what's happening within my family. My brother, who is very intelligent, but can sometimes be the most dumbshit kid in the world, is go

Thanksgiving Day...i Woke Up With A Smile Then...
looked at my fubar page staring at me (ok...so i'm a true online junkie...i never turn off my pooter or my yahoo...and i'm always logged in to fubar..hehehe) and i have a nasty message from a "friend" who seems to have forgotten that i had to work 12 hrs yesterday...the same "friend" who told me off and accused me of using him becuz i didn't answer his texts yesterday (i might note here...i answered NO ONES texts yesterday since i didn't have time to be texting and try to get done with my job so i could actually spend time with my family...as a matter of fact...i never opened my phone until 7 pm last nite and had a LIST OF MISSED EVENTS!) so anyway...i open my msgs on fubar this morning...and lo and behold! here sits a nasty msg from the same "friend"...needless to say my thanksgiving day is starting to go downhill and i've only been out of bed for half an hour then i decided i better get my pumpkin pies made and realize no pie pans! (ok i'm the type that usually buys pre made pies b

Happy Thanksgiving
I have so much to be thankful for this year. I have been brought to my knees for prayers and tears in fear, but I made it through. I almost lost my Mother in September. Through God's grace and after a month long stay in the hospital. She made it. I am honored to be able to hear her laughter and see her smile today. For those of you who have lost loved ones this year, may God bless you. I know what a holiday is like without someone you love. It's been 11 years and I would still love to see my Dad come through the door picking on me. At my job, I saw something that I hope I never will again. Thieves in the mist at work and the influence over co workers. It was difficult to watch how my department was crushed.....however. It worked out. I am even up for a promotion. Sorry can't tell you much more than that about the job issue. My love life....yeah I dont have much of one. I have been drawn to someone for a while and looks like I may see a change in that soon. Exciting scary, bu

Come Join Us At Exotic Dream (nsfw)
If you have not been to our lounge recently, you're missing out! Click this link to visit us in EXOTIC DREAMSLOUNGE (NSFW) click on this link to joinhttp://www.fubar.com/lounge/64813

Girl Your So Fake......
Everybody know you be jocking/copying others come on now girl be original....stop acting like you hard thinking you can take everybody....I already know you be talking ish behind my back....stop being childish and say it to my face....If you got something to say. SAY IT....I've stayed quite long enough, but you tempted me already....Get your fact straight before you go ahead and spread some false information honey, it's not my fault I'm known more than you....Man stop hating on my ish and just worry about yours....go ahead and laugh because I'm directly laughing at you also for worrying about my situations....you honestly think your better than me don't you....It's OK you can go ahead and think that because I rather not waste my time on some little girl who trying to prove that she a big girl now....The world does not revolved around you hun so stop acting like your perfect and stop expecting that every good things will come to you ayt....make sure your hands are clean before you go an

....and It Begins
so most of you start your holiday season with thanksgiving...well not this family...our holdiday season begins the day before on what we call "black wednesday" lol i been delivering newspapers since 2000 and for the last 8 years the day before thanksgiving has been the nightmare from hell!!! lol a paper to every home and business in branch county...18,000 in all...and 1200 of them mine! ugh!!! filled with xmas ads for thanksgiving and the day after (black friday) so this year...all in all it went well...except that i also added a shoppers route to my job list which was another 290 papers that christa and i did on tues nite...and only took 2 hrs which i was very pleasantly surprised about! christa and i go to the office yesterday about 830 or so and were out the door by 11 am which sucked cuz that was an hour later than last year...but the day went well...we had a lot of laughs...picked up Jr after school and he pitched in to deliver when my hands gave out and christa had to finish

Mep Reprimanded For Exposing Eu Dictatorship
MEP Reprimanded For Exposing EU Dictatorship An astounding exchange took place in the European Union Parliament earlier this week when MEP Nigel Farage was reprimanded for daring to expose the fact that the EU is an authoritarian dictatorship ruled by unelected bureaucrats to the detriment of national sovereignty. Farage effectively broke a tyrannical 1999 law that states it is illegal to criticize the EU.http://www.prisonplanet.com/mep-reprimanded-for-exposing-eu-dictatorship.html

Patrick
I cant believe the thoughts so near, the moments that I knew you were here. Your life and tributes I hold so dear, but now your gone and all is left to fear. I was the one know should have been, the one who you knew would have been, but now your gone and all I know, is all of what that should have been. I hold you high upon my mind and keep you there for I am blind, Your death to me is not so weak, I am only but the meek, I swear to you, I live your life, and take before one and only wife, Its not a curse but the law, for me to seek and know it all. I don't care if I rhyme, it is only and in time that you knew me and loved me so, but for this I only show, the thought of you in my mind. I swear to you I am but true, your life to me so few have knew, but from you I give my soul, to take me out of this hole I'm the one who is dead, and your the one who had his head, now your the one with wings, and in my dreams is what I dread, For you have shown me the light, and i but seen its hol

Dad
I memorized the lines of your warm calloused hands, many times I traced them w/ my finger tips. The strum of your guitar was the music of my life, playing my favorite songs whenever I asked. I can still almost feel the shoulder that was mine to cry on, ever at the ready as promised. Your eyes would water as you comforted me, aching because of my pain. You were my peace. I miss sharing jokes with you, the gentle way you laughed. How we called each other to share our latest feats. I can still hear your "hello, hello" when you came to visit. Our heart to hearts shared while passing a joint. You always listened and understood me. You were my greatest friend. You raised me to be a fighter, to have courage to stand up against wrong, be for myself or someone else. Moving mountains to make the world what it should be, never settling for disappointment or backing down. You were my hero. I never doubted your love for me. Or how proud of me you were. No matter what I did, you were

Missing
So in january it will be my 1 yr anniversary here on fubar. Since then I've managed to make more enemies then friends so it seems. There are some people that I miss, sadly, I don't think they would want to talk to me even if I tried. I find it disturbing that people think so poorly of me, as though I were out to screw over others. I'm horrible w/ words, so its best I don't speak much, or so I've learned. On that note I'm going to smoke and drink coffee..LOTS of coffee

Happy Thanksgiving?
Wait. We cannot break bread with you. You have taken the land which is rightfully ours. Years from now, my people will be forced to live in mobile homes on reservations; your people will wear cardigans and drink highballs. We will sell our bracelets by the roadside; you will play golf and enjoy hot hors d'oeuvres. My people will have pain and degradation; your people will have stick-shifts. The gods of my tribe have spoken. They have said, "Do not trust the Pilgrims, especially Sarah Miller." And for all these reasons, I have decided to scalp you and burn your village to the ground. Christina Ricci as Wednesday Addams in Addams Family Values, playing Pocahontas in "The Camp Chippewa Thanksgiving Pageant"

Seeds Of Love
I thought I could write a book About how great you are To my surprise It seems I can't find the right words Everytime, I scribble something on a paper I'd think its not good enough You are simply more than that I felt like any love stuck person All I can write about is love But you are more than The mushy lines I used to write in my writings You are a person, No, a thingy That jump into my life Turning it upside down Before I could take a breath And fix my hair To understand what is going on You pulled me into your arms And fly so high All I could do is To grasp you tight So I wouldn't fall I'd call you superman But you don't wear Your underwear outside I'd call you the man of my dreams But I want you to be In the realms of reality I want to be awake beside you I'd call you the present and the future Because, you do not belong in the past You reside in my present And my future, will be the garden Where the roots of your future grows To an everlast

A New Life
The place was dark I could barely see my hands A flash of lighting Brighten the room through the window The room was visible for a moment I could see a staircase Walking up the stairs Toward another room I could see a man, standing by the window I could smell his cologne Its somewhat familar The scent of the man, that man Who has left ages ago The man who disappeared Without even saying goodbye For a moment, I felt my limbs weakening As though I'm going to fall He turned around And walks towards me The scent grows stronger and stronger He stops and meets my gaze Time stops For what seems like a long while Neither of us say anything "I'm sorry" The tone of his voice was soft It was clear it was a struggle for him to say Those words But, it was those words that I longed for The words to close a chapter in my life "Tha

Loves Searing Fuckup..
To alter the given course of Loves path is to fiddle with shit one soul; at best, can never understand... What am i , who could i think i might be to ever know what course in life i am ment to walk.. and yet.. fuck i thin kto pursume that i know with heart searing clarity the truth of my mistakes.. WE can never know the depth of our mistakes.. our misdeeds. that which we would give a shard of the soul to remake. echoing not within just my very own soul but within His,...... So many of whom our actions touch reverbarate to the depth of their very Core. Each knowing in that timeless moment of Memory the agony of unspoken words; actions never undertaken. Appoligy is nothing but curtisy. What is the honest Expression from one kindred soul to another, Remorse...???? Je ne sais pas.

Fallen Angel
Fallen Angel by Deborah Kussan She flys to places no one daresTwisting,turning,tumbling ,crying.She smiles but clouds invade her eyes;Loving,leaving,falling,tr ying. Sky is blue only for awhile.Tears are flowing like a good song.The sun is comfort while she aches.Her heart has fallen but she is strong. She flys against the wind that howls;Soaring.whimpering,lost again in the rain.She whispers out a precious name;No one hears her lonely pain . Sky turns dark and a star appears;The truth leaves her soul like leaf from a tree.A wish is made and heaven does not seem to listen.She tries to fly but does not feel free. Fallen Angel dancing in the dark.She wants to fly again but stops her heart.Night invades and day will again come once more.Wings feel torn and ripped a part. She can fly again once she sees what's true.She has fallen but the sky is not too far.Fallen Angel with imperfect eyes reflecting hope.She wishes upon a falling star.Fallen Angel sleeps dreams away.She wants to fly

11/25/09
Okay...so what else could POSSIBLY go wrong???? They moved him to a satellite a week earlier than anticipated. This should be a good thing, but no. He's now 3 HOURS away instead of only 30 MINUTES as we were told before. Not to mention I only get to visit once every OTHER week on the weekend. Grand....and it's the weekends that I work too. I fucking hate my life.

Moon Of My Life
Oh, Moon I see you all bright in the dark of the night. You are so a full moon in my sight- so seem so closely to my eyes. I can feel your moonlight all over me, just like your love is spreading all around me. It feel so good just to feel you all wrapped me tightly. Oh, my Moon, you are not too far away from me anymore. I can simply reach you and hold you closely to my heart. The fullness of the moon I see, feel and touch are just as much I can feel your love for me. As I have you, Moon, in my hands, I whispered "You are my Moon of my life." I knew the truth, I will never let my Moon go. Grasps on you tightly and closely to my heart, where you will stay forever. I can still see you even in the most darkest nights when there's no moon in the sky because you are easily found in my heart and my arms.Oh, Moon, I love you very much no matter what. I got you in my hands. Be my Moon and be the Moon of my life.

Thats Why We Don't Keep In Touch.
Well its time to just smile as you see some of those relatives that really don't want to see! You know the ones that always have something to say to you,mostly the older ones Uncles,Aunts or friends of the family,that you don't like but can't say nothing back out of respect!

The Dark Corner 2
When the next day came I did not want to go but I ended up driving there and waiting there like some kind of dog in heat. I felt dirty for wanting you again when I did not even like it the first time around. When I saw you walking up to me with a huge grin on your face; I wanted to slap you right then in there that my hand started to rise before I could think to stop it. You laughed and grabbed my hand before I even got to slap you. “Now now my sweet, no need to greet me like this. You liked it and you know you liked it or you would have fought me and not shown up. I am glad you did; now walk this way I live right around the corner from here.” You grab my hand and make me walk with you all the way to your house. I do not say anything because I am still trying to think of a way to get out of this without hurting myself. When we made it to your house I still had no idea what I was going to do and when you shut your door I knew it was too late to come up w

Fatty
Soooo I need to get to my goal weight..or goal size.. which is getting tougher and tougher as Im losing more. LAME! I've dropped 20 so far... but it has fluxuated these past few months and I can't seem to get past that bump. So annoying. One week I feel nice, but then the next week I feel like "oh hi my name is Heffer McFattyfat." So glad I dont look like how I used to... but still. I'm not satisfied at all. No idea why I'm posting this... maybe to get some feedback... support... suggestions? Maybe to stay on track and keep going so I dont end up looking like the Hindenburg at some point in my life. Ok so it was never that bad. Im down for even dropping another 20. Even 10! Stupid metabolism, let's get with it yo, speed yourself the fuck up. I'm going running tonight to burn off this Thanksgiving dinner. And this ass. So yeah, if anyone has any suggestions, ideas or tips that can help me along the way that would be splendid! Wish me luck... I'm gonna need it :D

Pics That People Take
Personally i think its cool that people take pics of themselves and surroundings,in general i like people they facinate me and i enjoy seeing what other people do and how they live.but think of this the next time you decide to post a pic for millions of people to see....clean ur room!

I Am Back!!!
Hey all I am back and missed you all lots my life has changed alot!!! I am happier then I ever have been in a long time, I now have my Granson w/me and am taking care of him full time!!! So I will be on and off for now just to let you all know all is well and I am doing great hugz, Cindy.

Broken Lyrics - Lindsey Haun
Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the skyThen it starts to rain, my defenses hit the groundAnd they shatter all around, so open and exposedI found strength in the struggleFace to face with my trouble When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but you can't hold on anymoreEvery tear falls down for a reasonDon't you stop believing in yourselfWhen you're broken Little girl don't be so blueI know what you're going through Don't let it beat you upHitting walls and getting scars Only makes you who you areOnly makes you who you areNo matter how much your heart is achingThere is beauty in the breakingYeah When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but you can't hold on anymoreEvery tear falls down for a reasonDon't you stop believing in yourself When you're broken Better days are gonna find you once again Every piece will find its place When you're broken, when you're broken When you're broken in a million little pieces And you're trying but yo

I Believe----- So True
A Birth Certificate shows that we were born A Death Certificate shows that we died Pictures show that we lived! Have a seat . Relax . . . And read this slowly... I Believe... That just because two people argue, It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other. I Believe... That we don't have to change friends if We understand that friends change. I Believe.... That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I Believe.... That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I Believe... That you can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life. I Believe.... That it's taking me a long time To become the person I want to be. I Believe... That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

Letter To My Baby!
Dear Kent, who are we to judge the wheels of fate to presume we understand, fate has no open window for us to see through as it shows its hand, cryptic or transparent we will never really know or see, but one thing i do know fate sent you to me, if perfect does exist and theres a perfect match for us all, then baby hear me now you answered cupids call, for in you i see perfect in all i have got to see, especially in your heart i think its made for me, time will tell i guess , but i know i love you!, your heart is different its unselfish and true, and i really do love every little thing that you do, you see my beauty that it comes from inside, and so far my love i know you have not lied, deception is something you could never do, and the words i love you mean something to you, so on my heart i have opened the latch, for i think that just maybe, your my perfect match I L U Shaniya

Light
I have a feeling Like I'm falling Imto a darkness All I know is I'm judged Everything I do All that I think and feel Angels no longer sing For I am lost and forgotten Love no longer exists For my heart no longer trusts I know a hunger Never ending Just pain and suffering A simple bloodlusting Life is fading fast I'm alone and lost I need my knight My knight in shining armor To save me from the pain Of my broken soulAlways tortured By others peaking Of true love and forever There is but a small glimmerof Hope, much like a candle The light in my dark life!

I Have Loved
I have loved and been hurt by loveI have seen joy and yet there is painI have breathed and yet i am breathlessIn your presenceConsumed by your beauty the essence of loveI have walked a thousand miles in my shoesOn a road which never endsThrough the driving rains many tears have fallenSwept up in the passage of timeMy heart will linger in the moonlightAs i breathe the ocean breeze tonightFor on the horizon there is a new dayA story still left untoldFor the dreamer dreams of hopeAnd a lover feels with their heartSo why is it human natureFor us to tear ourselves apart??

Tagged..
Hellyion Tagged me Gawd dammut.. 10 useless facts about me... 1. In real life I hate most females simply because they are the type that give most of us a bad name. 2. Im the youngest of 9 kids (my mom was a baby Pez dispenser) 3. I lived on the streets from the age of 12 til I was 15 4. I have a serious bad addiction to man titties (not to be mistaken for man boobs) 5. Im a very quiet and reserved person in real life. 6. I have a Wolverine fantasy 7. I hate it when I see people wearing pajamas and fuzzy slippers in public 8. I look at peoples butts (more like everyone) 9. I have to go shit everytime I go to my in-laws house 10. I dress my animals in clothes for entertainment There I friggen did it...laugh at me and I will tag your ass!

Thanksgiving Blog 2009...
Originally I planned for some big long winded elaborate blog for the holiday. Due to time constraints in real life, I won't be doing that this year. What I will be doing however is wishing all of my family and friends a very safe and Happy Thanksgiving Day. Remember what it is you are truly thankful for, appreciate what you do have and what it means to not only you but the people you care about most. For those that took a minute or for some more, to either donate money to a worthy cause, some turkeys or canned goods to a food bank or volunteer somewhere to spread some good will for those less fortunate - I agree with and commend you. You just never know when that could be you or your family. Especially these days. Everyone enjoy their holiday, for whatever it brings to you be it little, big or somewhere in between. It's times like these when it really feels good to remember what matters most....and what you are truly thankful for.

Women
ok, so I think that most women feel so much pressure from society to look and act a certain way, that the majority find it easier to just fit in, no matter how NOT them it is, rather than be different. only the truly strong women out there will take the chance of being different. The majority of women are middle grounders who prefer to go with the flow rather than to actually be ourselves and be noticed. what if people notice the things we don't WANT them to see? is it worth the risk? I think so. out flaws make us perfect in who we are... (h)

Yes Its A Beautiful Day!!!
Thank you for being you Thank you for showing me more then i knew. Thank you for making songs about me Thank you for helping me to see All that this life can be. Thank you for being you Thank you for making me want to say i do. Thank you for giving me everything I have everything... And everything is YOU.

Some People....
...are just stupid. Daddy McLo...: Fuck baby you are so fucking yummy and sexy as fuck daddy likes!To Daddy McLo...: Dude...read my profile real quick like...then remand your statement No reply...hmm...MAYBE he got a clue?

The Mason Jar -poem For Me Lol
For my Saer Friend.... Write em down, seal em upOr pour em out into a cupFeel em come and watch em goSometimes the cup does overflowHold em close or let em flyBut either way, don't be shyShow the world just who you areDisplay em in a mason jarThey're yours to have or give awayYou may just get em back one day -Laura Ratliff 11-24-2009

Why Did Abc Cancel Adam Lambert?
After performing in the AMA show, ABC decided to cancel Adam Lambert’s scheduled morning show performance. ABC apparently was freaked out by the sexy AMA show he did there. That’s a little strange since ABC has a number of TV shows that are sexually charged. Adam thinks there is a double standard and I think he’s right. Read his interview with People mag: http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20322693,00.html At BlastFM some of the recording artists are sexual but you can’t see them only hear them. Why not give a listen then www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Love Poem
I knew you all my life You were allways a good friend But when I got to know you better I let my heart unbend I couldn't help past memories That would only make me cry I had not forgotten my first true love And was able to give it another try So ive fallen in love with you yet again and will never let you go I love you more than anyone I just had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what i'll say But i'll never stop loving you Each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just to let you know And it's TRUE when I say to you I'll allways love you so

Thanks (what I Am Thakful For Lol)
Thanks- For the year of Friendships, new ones and rekindled ones, old cherished ones For the love of family that can't stop loving you even when they think they want to For the ability to walk a path full of both roses and thorns For the sight of a full moon and twinkling stars after a day of dazzling sunlight For passion as hot as the heat of a fire burning in the middle of the yard For the sound of music that plays in your heart long after the song has ended For that goodnight kiss that lasts til sunrise For the sound of laughter shared For tears of joy because You make me happy For allowing me to find that dreams do come true For giving me the chance to say these things to those I know and love.. For giving me a second chance to say I love You..

New Primary Photo Policy - Owl's Rant
Make my life easier... Follow this, please. This starts Thursday, November 26, 2009 - Thanksgiving day. Baby J's Blog on the new policy for primary pics For those who don't want to follow the link, in a nutshell, no more bare chests, bras, panties, or lingerie are allowed to be in your primary. My take on it is that too many people decided to see how close to crossing the line they could get, and admin got tired of hearing complaints that someone is marking their primary photos. This will, no doubt, lead to the usual grumbling about free speech and how one person's shots are more classy than others and how people should have the right to show skin on an "adult" site, but bear in mind the following: This does not apply to photos that are not your primary. In other words, you can still be in lingerie, but it will only get marked if it's your primary photo. We are not an "adult" site in the traditional sense of the word. Too many members see "18+" and equate it to "adult," further

The Screams Of Fallen Angels
in my head awakes the dead walls spayed red from massive unloading of this led bleeding down the skull life became so dull kiss he face of hatred now taste your lips listen and hear the screams of fallen angels bash your head into the wall close your eyesand fall lay on the ground look to the sky pluck the sun and soon it dies made the choice to end this hell from the heavens god has fell i looked and smiled as he decended to hell kiss the face of the hatered now taste your lips listen and hear the screams of fallen angels armies rip heaven from the skies pluck the sun and soon it dies........

Walk Away And Then Come Back To Ugg
I have long been the production side, we all know, a few years ago, Uggs factories have been located in China, Taiwan and Guangdong, although plants in China, also covers the supply of raw materials, are also arranged factory, of course, Genuine fur is to use the real one in Australia, but the leather supply side of the UGG original volume also have a certain amount, the rest are into the market, for example, as we went to a small plant (I say the truth, just want to the establishment of a credit sale, really is a small plant, only more workers, the daily production capacity is only pairs or so, pay attention to a quality, fast production, no production of pairs a day to reach the level of high-quality boots.) I was a shoe division, a few years ago in Guangdong ugg boots factory. More than two years ago, myself, and set up factories, then domestic orders, because I are not well educated, and no thought to do business with foreign friends to go. Now, with the point of plant scale, but

I Tired All Along..
you rejected me. you said you didnt want me. but all along your heart was bursting. it wanted to make a bridge over to mine. even though love has to take its time, i knew all along, that you were the one for me, and i for you. you want to come to me, but now its tolate, you never appreciate something untill its gone.

She Walked Out..
she was her name she was her name druggy major was her game she did not want any help she did not ask for any help i tried many times to help her i tried many times to worn her she pushed me away, walked out the door, screaming back echos of her voice remain in my head as she said i chose what i want i do what i want face it i am your mother as thow she walked out the door screaming thows words echos of her voice remain in my head as she screams back no more for now she is dead...

Thinking
Imagine that the first life forms on earth were fish, that eventually worked there way up onto the surface. After millions of years of evolving, liforms can actually study the earth, the millions of other planets, and other lifeforms and chemicals they can find. Hurling through space directly towards them is a massive rock. The rock smashes into earth and half of the world is embedded into nothing. Dust is thrown up into the air and the remaining lifeforms slowly die from the lack of sunshine. If this is so how many times has this happend before we got here.

An E-mail I Got From The President
Chris -- Tomorrow, Thanksgiving Day, Americans across the country will sit down together, count our blessings, and give thanks for our families and our loved ones. American families reflect the diversity of this great nation. No two are exactly alike, but there is a common thread they each share. Our families are bound together through times of joy and times of grief. They shape us, support us, instill the values that guide us as individuals, and make possible all that we achieve. So tomorrow, I'll be giving thanks for my family -- for all the wisdom, support, and love they have brought into my life. But tomorrow is also a day to remember those who cannot sit down to break bread with those they love. The soldier overseas holding down a lonely post and missing his kids. The sailor who left her home to serve a higher calling. The folks who must spend tomorrow apart from their families to work a second job, so they can keep food on the table or send a child to school. We are grateful b

Got Away
Would you please stop calling me,I don't know what else to do.For god sakes girl you're the one who wanted me to forget about you.You told me to forget so that's what I was tryin' to do.I went a whole month without talking to you.Then you call me out of the blue.Please leave me alone so I can forget, focus on the present.If you leave me alone I might get you out of my dreams, yes you heard me correct, Your face, Your name, Your voice, Your sweet soft skin and your long light hair.All these things continuously plague me.I would love to get you back.But thats not going to happen.So forget about me and get to steppin'.

Lips Plague My Dreams
I lay awake at night thinking about how I used to kiss you. How I would caress your skin and how my lips miss you.I would hold you all night long even in my sleep and nomatter what time I wake up I'd kiss you on the cheek.If only life was so simple as it seemed so far back when. I long for the day when I see your face again. The pain and angiush you caused when you ripped my heart to shreds, was enough for me to wish that I myself was dead. But for what it's worth I miss you much and love you so much more. I long for a time when our love is like it was b-4.

Components Of A Heartbreak
I met you long ago on a night quite like this. Your most dominant feature seemed to be your tits. you had big rosy red cheeks and you were quite a bitch. Every remark that came out of your mouth was ripe with smell like piss. never-the-less we sat on that porch and for hours we would kiss.Joys blindness made living together great and worth the battles. We both slipped up once or twice but those losers were just cattle. Days go by and numbness digs at my head for just one break. I've dealt with many things but your bitching I can't take. You nag, We fight, You won't say shit but hey the sex is great.Off to the city to make some money, I say I'll count the days. Silence in my ears I hear it's great to be away. The days go by day by day and still away I stay. I got a call from you one day with urgence you would say "We can not pay the bills no more It's time we moved away.The darkness sets in cold and fast this feeling it is harsh, I took your love for granted and so broke my own heart.

My Fake Break Up
After long days at work or fuckin' off I would come home and you would comfort me, I would take so much of you in it was hard to see. But no matter what you stuck to the facts, You always help me kick back and relax. Although you ended up wasting alot of my money sometimes I think it was worth it. your hair was so soft and fine, every time I saw you I considerred you mine. And would never belong to any one else, Shit you even helped me get to know myself. But that time is through it's gone and done. so long POT we had some fun.

Unwanted Stuff.
Here's a list of stuff I hate/pet peeves because boo is bored or at least she was 5 hours ago. Let's see if I can get to 10. 1. Drama filled statuses. I have just started deleting people who put things like fuck off you asshole If you don't like it stay off my page. I don't mind the profanity but I do mind your need to make your whole friends list rush to your side. 2. People who fail at satire. Making a racist statement and then calling it ironic does not make a satire win. It makes you socially (perfect example of satire fail) retarded. 3. The fact that drug dealers are so unreliable. just sayin. 4. People that say "that's my thing". ex: wearing all stars with skirts is my thing. no it's not. 5. verbally abusive assholes. i got a friend with a verbally abusive new husband. I would like to stab him in the face but she has no where else to go. Hopefully she can find a new asshole to latch on to. 6. entertainment shows that aren't The Soup. Fuck you mary heart, mario Lopez a

Everything
from the deranged pschopaths to the cardiotherasik neurologist. from the crack fiend to the little pot head on the corner.imagine if life was an adventure but were is the adventure.what if life was just somone elses thoughts? then that would mean that there would be an infinite number of thoughts to be acted out.Now what about the guy that thought us up who thought him up.

Gradual Incline
The parralllel transicities of the universes in my head would puzzle even the most educated of men. The gradual incline from world to world would throw even einstien. The many hardships in my conciuos existence have manifested many more. and my undieing love has created one so beautiful one could not even comprehend

Tagged.
Ty tagged me. Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. As much as I hate me ex, and he makes me want to throw up in my mouth, I love him for giving me my son Noah. 2. I can pick things up with my toes. 3. I use to be a porn star - paid for my college 4. I love the color pink 5. I am a sucker for pit bulls 6. I can't stand when people chew loudly 7. I feel like sometimes I am one huge mistake 8. I have awful A.D.D 9. I also have O.C.D 10. I love being an Army Wife!

Thanksgiving Bummer
Thanksgiving is pretty much cancelled at our house this year. My step dad's brother-in-law fell and broke his hip today. He needs surgery and will be in the hospital for awhile. Well his wife was supposed to cook up most of the food for tomorrow. My mom was only making the turkey and green bean casserole. We don't have the time or money to buy the other things now. So it will be a pretty lack luster Thanksgiving. I'm just thankful to be home with family. I hope everyone else has a lovely Thanksgiving!

For Your Entertainment-adam Lambert
So hot Out the box Can we pick up the pace? Turn it up, Heat it up I need to be entertained Push the limit Are you with it? Baby, don’t be afraid I’ma hurt ‘ya real good, baby Let’s go It’s my show Baby, do what I say Don’t trip off the glitz That I’m gonna display I told ya I’ma hold ya down until you’re amazed Give it to ya ’til your screaming my name No escaping when I start Once I’m in I own your heart There’s no way you’ll ring the alarm So hold on until it’s over Oh, do you know what you got into? Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do? ‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you I’m here for your entertainment Oh, I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet ‘Ya fallen angel swept ya off ya feet Well I’m about to turn up the heat I’m here for your entertainment It’s alright You’ll be fine Baby, I’m in control Take the pain Take the pleasure

Bulimia Kills
So I'm not even very actively acting out with the ED, but I'm having the most painful muscle cramps and twitches today. Which must be nutrition related. Somebody needs to rescue me before I kill myself doing this bullshit. I'm in too much pain to go on. And all the meds in the world only do so much for the arthritis, the muscle pains, the mental agony. Somebody just do something, because life's slipping away from me much too fast for my 23 years...

Ugh Fucking Asshole
Uuugh I just want to strangle my ex!!!! I texted him again today when he would be getting the rest of the stuff out of the old aparement cause when I went there early in the morning, 2am...it was still a mess. He told me to get off his back about getting in there to clean. I told him he had to get his shit out by tuesday night..did he? No.... Did he come back last night to finish? No.... He went on telling me how he only had two days to pack up when that's total bullshit because he knew beforehand that he had to be out of there. He was too fucking busy being with his gf and his friends....He goes to his friends house at least one or two times a day to hang out and do his nerd shit..when he could of started bringing stuff over there..but no..he's the fucking last minute man. Now I'm getting real pissed and worried because he's taking forever to get that stuff out and that's leaving me less time to clean. why is he being such a fucking lazy asshole? I so fucking hate him... Felica cal

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6 Ways To Confirm Santa Is A Guy !
6 WAYS TO CONFIRM SANTA IS A GUY ! 1 HE SHOWS UP LATE AT NIGHT 2 EATS YOUR COOKIES 3 EMPTIES HIS SACK 4 HE ONLY COMES ONCE 5 CALL YOU A HO 6 LEAVES WHILE YOU SLEEP !!! TOOO FUNNNY

Heading Home For The Holiday
So Ive decided to go home for thanksgiving. well, not home really but to Portland to see family. I wasn't going to because my family is too crazy when theyre all together, but it beats sitting at home watching Lonesome Dove. Doubt my families craziness? Every year they think this is a good idea. And every year it ends with everyone getting drunk, and at least two people fighting. My favorite was a few years ago when my cousin called her alcoholic mom a bitch and a cunt, and they decided at 2 in the morning to take the kids and drive, presumably blackout drunk, from northern WA to Portland, OR. We all turn into kids when we're together. the cousins all act like we're teenagers, and cause trouble. and my mom and her sisters rehash fights from thirty years ago, til theyre all crying. The dads just quietly drink and talk about how much the rest of us suck. Here's to another fun thanksgiving On the plus side, I'm going back to my hometown for a night. the night before thanksgiving, e

It's Up Now Baby Whats Up Now ?
Just a Word from INTOXICATION HOME TO THE INTOXICATION LOCALS WITH GREAT PARTIES AND AWESOME PEOPLE we wanted to keep you informed on the updates of everything going on CLICK THE PICT5URE AND JOIN THE MADNESS

Do You Ever Wonder???
Days like today when I am working but not really working makes me wonder what a lot of my family/friends do for a living. Yeah i joke, play with and kid around with a lot of you, but very few of you I know what you actually do. And I am pretty sure almost no one knows what I do for a living. YES I work. Few things about me: I am happily married I have 2 kids 3 dogs 18 fish I have a post graduate degree I plat indoor soccer I travel alot for work That is all for now...

Primary Photo / Avatar Policy Update. #1
*****FROM THE BLOGS OF SCRAPPER AND BABYJESUS***** We are making some changes to our avatar policy. Please read this blog which was posted on Babyj's blog. http://www.fubar.com/blog/9/1087948 Starting on Thursday, we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name everywhere on the site. The policy will be: * no bare chests. (men, or women... duh) * no lingerie, bras, or underwarez. * nothing deemed sexually suggestive, at our discretion. Any primary photos which we find in violation of the policy will be marked as NSFW (even if they wouldn't normally have been marked NSFW had they NOT been a primary photo). Repeated offenses will result in suspension and/or removal of your account (the same as if you break other rules on the site, repeatedly).We want as many people to have fun and e

Not That This Will Do A Damn Bit Of Good, However One Must Continue To Try....
Sent to the President of these United States of America via E-mail Dear Mister President, I had a dream last night, not an uncommon event and in this dream I found myself sitting in a military induction physical center waiting my turn to be examined by the staff. One of the doctors present came over to me somewhat upset. “I remember you! You were here back in January of this year, we disqualified you from service.” I looked up at this person already feeling tears rolling down my face and asked. “What am I suppose to do? This has been my life ever since I was a kid!” He didn’t answer that question, I’m not sure there is an answer to that question. For the very first time that I can remember I dreamt I was praying. When I awoke from this dream my lips were still moving as I had been praying aloud in my sleep. I grew up believing in dreams, people told me over and over again to follow my dreams to whenever they lead me. The one dream I ha

10 Best Risque Christmas Songs
Now, it's time for the nitty-gritty...The 10 Best Risque Christmas Songs Ever Made! I'm talking about the kind of Yuletide songs you wouldn't be caught dead caroling in the streets or at a Christmas Eve service! However, suppose this year you throw (or get invited to) a Christmas party where an exotic dancer is hiding behind the tree, draped in red and white. (Hey, it can happen!) OR, maybe, you're planning a romantic evening in front of the tree with your loved one and you want to put on some seasonal tunes to get you in a freak-on mood. Here are the songs for those kind of occasions: 1. Ben Light and His Surf Club Boys, "Christmas Balls" (c. 1936, bootlegged in the 1940s.) See what I mean? 2. Ella Fitzgerald (!), "Santa Got Stuck In My Chimney" (1950) This song created so much controversy that it never got re-issued as a single. Well worth the search, though, if you ever find it. 3. Eartha Kitt, "Santa Baby" (1953) Need I say more? 4. Clarence Carter, "Back Door Santa" (1968)

Social Networking Sites
I have been a member of this site on and off, and I see it advertises itself as a "Social Networking site" . I find it kinda hard to meet people here unless you "Add/fan/rate" them, which is fine, but you try to talk to anyone, they are beyond stuck on themselves to even acknowledge the fact you are reaching out to them. So, is it kinda misleading to consider fubar a "social networking" Site, or even the other 2 sites since it seems that everyone seems to have their own personal agendas? I don't know, but I came here to make friends. I don't know about anyone else, but that is what I am here for. End rant...

10 Pet Peeves
I stole this from Boo. :D 10 pet peeves in no particular order: 1) People who can't take a joke. 2) People who make nothing but jokes and don't know when to be serious. 3) Men (I guess women do it as well, just in a different form) who call other men gay, simply because their SO says they're attractive. I guess women would call another woman a whore or a slut for the same reason. 4) People who think when I say a woman is a stupid cunt it's because I'm jealous. No...she's really stupid, I swear. 5) People who get too wrapped up in the "making" of the holiday and forget the meaning behind it. 6) Anyone who drives that isn't me. 7) My mother in law (way too many reasons to list.) 8) Leaving lights on when you're not in the room. (I've turned into my dad.) 9) When I tell someone how I'm feeling or an opinion and they say "Well that's stupid." Well..fuck you! You look stupid! 10) People who think you're flirting when you're just being nice.

Thanksgiving Thoughts For Pagans
To many, rather than the Brady Bunch version of happy pilgrims sitting around with their Native friends eating corn cobs, Thanksgiving represents oppression, greed, and cultural annihilation. For people of Native American ancestry, it's often considered a day of mourning.Your family wants to have a big Thanksgiving celebration, but you don't want to participate. You object to this holiday as a protest of the treatment of Native Americans by my white ancestors. How can you survive Turkey Day and still hold true to your Pagan ideals?You have a couple of options. The first, obviously, is not to attend the family dinner at all, but stay home instead, perhaps holding a silent ritual of your own in honor of those who suffered under the guise of settlement.However for many families, the holidays are the only times they get a chance to be together. It's entirely possible that you're going to hurt some feelings if you choose not to go, particularly if you've always gone in the past. No one want

For My Moma
This is just to let all my friends know, that after a long illness mom passed away this morinh at 5. I ty all fer yer prayers n cocerns it means alot to me n my family. I might not be around as much or answereing call. but i'll return messages as i can. This is gonna take some time folks but bear with me. Love u all

Sos By Lifehouse From Where U R
So far away from where you areThese miles have torn us worlds apartAnd I miss youYeah, I miss youSo far away from where you areStanding underneath the starsAnd I wish you were hereI miss the years that were erased I miss the way the sunshine would light up your faceI miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to meYeah, I miss youAnd I wish you were hereI feel the beating of your heartI see the shadows of your faceJust know that wherever you areYeah, I miss youAnd I wish you were hereI miss the years that were erasedI miss the way the sunshine would light up your faceI miss all the little thingsI never thought that they’d mean everything to meYeah, I miss youAnd I wish you were hereSo far away from where you areThese miles have torn us worlds apartAnd I miss youYeah, I miss youAnd I wish you were here

Big Business Does Have A Sense Of Humor
YOU MUST TRY THIS, SERIOUSLY! Call the Nestle Crunch Hotline at 1-800-295-0051. When you are asked if you want to continue in English or Spanish, just wait quietly for about 10 seconds and you will smile. Promise! (if you comment on this status after listening, don't give away the surprise...) keep going and press 4, it gets even better, then you have to press 7.... Try it (keep trying if it's busy)...

New Default Pic Rules
FROM BABY J'S BLOG ...... Primary Photo / Avatar Policy Update. created @ 2009-11-25 08:36:26 Starting on Thursday, we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name everywhere on the site. The policy will be: * no bare chests. (men, or women... duh) * no lingerie, bras, or underwarez. (DID HE SAY WAREZ?) * nothing deemed sexually suggestive, at our discretion. Any primary photos which we find in violation of the policy will be marked as NSFW (even if they wouldn't normally have been marked NSFW had they NOT been a primary photo). Repeated offenses will result in suspension and/or removal of your account (the same as if you break other rules on the site, repeatedly). We want as many people to have fun and enjoy the site as possible and quite frankly, some of you who've been abusing ou

November 25, 2009
I just found out I'll have to endure another lumbar spine MRI to get to see the Neurosurgeon I want to see. The first MRI was 45 minutes long, and by the time it was over, I was in so much pain I could barely move off of the MRI machine. Apparently, this is required because my last MRI is over 6 months old. I will also, of course, have to pay another shitty ass co-pay. I am so sick of my medical issues that I really can't stop thinking about killing myself. I am not happy in my job, I feel like I'm struggling just to make it through the day, every day. The last 3 antidepressants I tried just made me even more suicidal. I'm sure I sound like I'm being a whiny baby. I'm sure there are millions of people out there with problems 10x worse than mine. It doesn't change the fact that I don't think I can handle another week of this. No amount of therapy has been helpful. I'm starting to feel like inpatient treatment or suicide are my only options. I bust my ass at work 5 days a we

Be Stress F R E E; 5 Principles
Be STRESS F R E E; 5 principles Stress is the root cause of many illnesses. In fact, how we deal with stress can make the difference between health and illness, life and death. It may alter the way we look at the world around us. It affects our feelings about ourselves. Coping with stress can increase our productivity. It can make us healthier. And it can result in fuller, happier, more relaxed lives. Here are the five simple principles that can help you to a stress-free existence in the New Year: 1. Be who you wish to be. Whenever you find yourself contemplating the idea of becoming, stop and repeat the phrase, “I do not need to become, I will be this person beginning right now.” 2. Solve the problem. It is folly to lament the fact that you have a problem. What you must do is decide on a solution and try it. 3. Concentrate. Whatever you do, put everything into it. If you decide to be lazy, be lazy, concentrate on your laziness! When you relax, really rela

New Icon , Primary Pic Policy
From the Desk Of Baby J! Starting on Thursday, we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name everywhere on the site. The policy will be: * no bare chests. (men, or women... duh) * no lingerie, bras, or underwarez. * nothing deemed sexually suggestive, at our discretion. Any primary photos which we find in violation of the policy will be marked as NSFW (even if they wouldn't normally have been marked NSFW had they NOT been a primary photo). Repeated offenses will result in suspension and/or removal of your account (the same as if you break other rules on the site, repeatedly). We want as many people to have fun and enjoy the site as possible and quite frankly, some of you who've been abusing our lenient primary photo policies have started turning fubar.

Intelligent Question
Intelligence Riddle Barak Obama meets with the Queen of England. He asks her, "Your Majesty, how do you run such an efficient government? Are there any tips you can give to me?" "Well," says the Queen, "the most important thing is to surround yourself with intelligent people." Obama frowns, then asked, "But how do I know the people around me are really intelligent?" The Queen takes a sip of tea. "Oh, that's easy, you just ask them to answer an intelligent riddle." The Queen pushes a button on her intercom. "Please send Tony Blair in here, would you?" Tony Blair walks into the room and says, "Yes, my Queen?" The Queen smiles and says, "Answer me this please, Tony ~ ~ ~ Your mother and father have a child. It is not your brother and it is not your sister . . . Who is it?" Without pausing for a moment, Tony Blair answers, "That would be me."

Seductive Pleasures Dj Rules
1) Any and ALL problems you may have will be presented to the DJ managers first. If it is not handled to your satisfaction, go to upper management. All issues should not be handled in the lounge under any circumstance. We keep ALL DRAMA out of the lounge. 2) No dissing or disrespecting ANYONE in the lounge, PERIOD. This includes criticism of the DJ's music. If you are having an issues with someone, get with your Manager to get help with the situation, We will not tolerate any misconduct in the Lounge. You will be silenced or kicked....staff or not. 3) Only MANAGERS will have the Kick Codes for the encoders, you must find a manager to kick the encoder, this is for security purposes. 4) You must be present and visible in the lounge during the entire time you are on air. I would ask that you ONLY be in our lounge and no other additional lounges when you are on air. When you are not on air, you can hang out in any lounge that you choose, this only applies to when

New Avatar Policy Please Read And Tell A Friend
We are making some changes to our avatar policy. Please read this blog which was posted on Babyj's blog. http://www.fubar.com/blog/9/1087948 Starting on Thursday, we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name everywhere on the site. The policy will be: * no bare chests. (men, or women... duh) * no lingerie, bras, or underwarez. * nothing deemed sexually suggestive, at our discretion. Any primary photos which we find in violation of the policy will be marked as NSFW (even if they wouldn't normally have been marked NSFW had they NOT been a primary photo). Repeated offenses will result in suspension and/or removal of your account (the same as if you break other rules on the site, repeatedly).We want as many people to have fun and enjoy the site as possible and quite frankly, some of you who've bee

Primary Photo / Avatar Policy Update.
Starting on Thursday, we will begin enforcing a new policy for primary photos / avatars and it will apply to everyone. This does not effect non-primary photos (i.e.: random stuff in your photo albums), only the photo that you select to be next to your name everywhere on the site. The policy will be: * no bare chests. (men, or women... duh) * no lingerie, bras, or underwarez. * nothing deemed sexually suggestive, at our discretion. Any primary photos which we find in violation of the policy will be marked as NSFW (even if they wouldn't normally have been marked NSFW had they NOT been a primary photo). Repeated offenses will result in suspension and/or removal of your account (the same as if you break other rules on the site, repeatedly). We want as many people to have fun and enjoy the site as possible and quite frankly, some of you who've been abusing our lenient primary photo policies have started turning fubar.com into something a lot of us simply don't want to u

The #1 Worthless Low Life Piece Of Shit Fubar Member "hard 2 Handle".
(MY REPLY)WHY SHOULD I COMMENT YOU??...you say you love comments but you can't seem to return the favor. why should people give & give & give & you not return the favor. i have sent you tons of text in the past without so much as 1 single letter in return. i think the people that have commented on you in the past have built a monster within you. (her reply) dude, you know what - dont fucking comment. I dont ask for them. I just say I like them. I get 100s of comments a day and over 500 messages a day - you think I have the time to reply and return them? I do have a life outside if fu. I think it is funny that you get all pissy like a bitch only after I reply to a comment you left me where I corrected you on the way things work. Don't get mad at me cause you were wrong. (MY REPLY) if you have a life outside the net then delete you're fucking account & go back to it 24/7 & 365 a year douche bag. you don't have to fucking worry about me commenting you anymore. i have realized

10 Things About Me!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I can't eat mash mellows, gummy bears, soggy corn flakes, jello and the like, I have a bad gag relex ever since I was a kid :/ 2. I had a dream that went on for 2 weeks.. 3. I help delivered a stranger's baby @ 2 am 3 years ago :) .. 4. I have not eaten bread in over 5 years.. 5. I have not gained any weight ever since I was 19 so I wear the same size undies :) 6. I have a rare blood type, so I can't give blood or get.. 7. I still have a T-shirt I have owned since I was 8 years old, I still have it and don't know why.. 8. I hate TV, I watch tv prob 25 times for the

What About Me
TO START THIS OUT I BEFRIENDED A MAN IN HERE THAT I KNEW WAS MARRIED... MY BAD I GUESS .. WE GOT FU MARRIED..SEC MISTAKE... I THOUGHT WE WAS GOING TO FRIENDS ONLY.. CAUSE HE IS MARRIED.. AS TIME WENT ON I WAS GROWING CLOSER TO A MAN WHO HAS A WIFE ... BAD ..BAD IDEA...I SAID TO MYSELF DONT I DESERVE MORE... I GOT TIRED OF HEARING HOW HE WAS ON HIS WAY HOME TO HER,,TIRED OF HEARING HOW MUCH HE WAS BEGGING HER TO SLEEP WITH HIM,,ETC ETC THE NORM HE IS MARRIED JERSEY YOU HAVE NO RITE TO BE UPSET ... WELL RECENTLY I FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN TALK TO ME ON DAILY BASIS AND ISNT MARRIED... I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER JUST LOOSING MY MOM... HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM SPECIAL.. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW I AM NOT A MEAN PERSON FOR LETTING SAY GO ... I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY..AND IM SORRY I HURT HIM..I WISH HIM THE BEST.. SO WHY DOES ALL THIS MAKE ME FEEL BAD??? I AM TRUELY FINALLY HAPPY WITH DUSTY.... AND ITS BEEN 8 YRS SINCE IV LET SOMEONE LOVE ME..SHOULDNT I BE HAPPY??

Not Enough Ugly People In The World.
Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love. The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail has long been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!!"All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down,

Part Of Me
Perhaps a part of me understands what that corpse minus the cross taped on my hospital bed means? Along with the act of someone wrapping me like a mummy means? Perhaps I left rather suddenly this past Friday from Cooper because this part of me felt a threat? Same part of me that took over on August of 2008 to avoid a head on collission. No innocense there. Self preservation alone was the motive, where as, I would do it to protect those that are innocent. The passive driver facing me made the mistake of making a left turn while I was going straight on a green light. We'd all be dead if Mike did not take over. Mike did it for self and for no one else. I'm not Mike but it is getting very hard to define myself as an individual. Happy Thanksgiving. Norio

Long Story
So, the dad of my first two kids apeared outta nowehere and decided to call me collect. From jail. I was pissed cause he asked me to bail him out, he has a gf that should do that, and not a person he lied to, chaetead on, and hit several times. He hit me when I was pregnent even, and i had bruises from him all over. And he called me to bail him out. I was like HELL NO i was so pissed. I hope he rots there

Tagged By Pixie...
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I find jeans very uncomfortable, I haven't owned a pair in over a decade. Either cargos or athletic pants for me. 2. I love drawing, writing and music yet I can't stand the majority of artists/musicians out there. They usually seem smug and douche-like. 3, I have a 8-1 police chase record. I retired on that loss =P 4. I did two years in the pen back in 95-97. I'm thankful for that because it saved my life. 5. I love music and have a collection including ALL genres. 6. Speaking of genres, I believe there only TWO genres. Nine Inch Nails and EVERYTHING ELSE. 7. Speaking of NIN, I have been to every

If Only
When I dream, I dream of fallingFalling, FallingFalling onto youWhen I dream, I dream of drowningDrowning, DrowningLonging for the shore, to breathe againBreathing the air which is your essenceWhen I dream, I dream of burningBurning, BurningBurning bright, burning strongLonging for the water too put out the flameWhen I dream, I dream of darknessDarkness, DarknessThe darkness devours meWaiting for the light, for the candle, which you holdWhen I dream, I dream of rain pouringPouring, PouringDrenching me with its coldnessFeeling the blanket that you lay across me to give me warmthWhen I dream, I dream of youSaving me from all my fearsWhen I dream, I dream of a heaven Where you and I can lay underneath skyAnd where you'll always be with meWhen I dream, I dream of foreverWhen I dream, I wish it lastedWhen I dream, you never leaveWhen I dream, my heart does not get deceivedIf only the dreams I dream would come true

To My Friends And Family And Anyone Else That Wants To Read This
First of all let me start by wishing you all a happy thanksgiving holiday.... I would really appreciate all the prayers I can get right now as well..As most of you know i have two teenage boys....my 14 yr old has some medical problems and one of them is his breathing...some doctors are wondering if it something about his heart and others think it could be his lungs....keep in mind he was born dead for the first 10 minutes of his life too so it could be anything actually....on dec 22 he does have to go and see a lung specialist....but monday night he had to be taken to the Er because he turned pale and had trouble breathing and was barely able to stand....they said he dehydrated....how does someone that drinks water like he does do that? Hopefully we will find out next month...but please pray hard for him....with this problem he has and the possiblity of him having Lincoln's disease(a form of md for those of you that don't know what that is) the dr in oregon when we were there said tha

Darkness
The Darkness by Christinia If only it were so simple, to cruise through life smelling roses; but the obstacles blacken the countryside, and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots. Dreams sustain us through the madness; goals give a finish line to our race. Yet they change with every turn, around every wall, and remain elusive throughout the quest. Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage; we will drag them with us to slow us down. The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends. Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us. Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us. The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths, yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness. There are others trying to race to the end; occasionally, we bump into one or two. The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness. Alone is not

Waiting
Waiting by Dawn D. Wanting, lusting, to be held, to be loved, to feel warmth, to feel your beating heart. Wanting to be sheltered from the cold, heartless winds. Falling into invisible arms; into an abyss of love. Wishing, hoping, that my desires will be filled; my desires of loving warmth. Wanting to be held, comforted, loved. Dreaming of passionate embraces, of tender kisses, loving words, romantic nights. Waiting for undying love.

Buuhuu
lord , som ppl seriously blows my mind. last couple off days i been named called, cus of a game. lol like imma sit in a corner n cry cus somone callin me names. wont happen. i dont give a shit, if me helpin my friends, n doin somthin gd for somone makes me a bad person, then hell, then im hella bad. get it straight i dont give a shit, call me wut ever u wanna call me, but seriously grow up, its like bein back in high school, sheesh , those who know me, knows who i am, they know i am a nice person, dont do drama, just cus i dont sink down to theire level dosent mean im weak n dont know how to fight back, just lazy at times, lmao but seriously keep the shit comin, n il show ya how big off bitch i can be, n il do that with a smile on my face :) *gets up n dances, n sings* keep on hatin keep on hatin ur makin me famouse :D:D:D peac out

All One Sided
Yes here we go again but again this is for my own personal vent more then anything. Yesterday another wanna be a man but cant get his head out of his ass long enough to realize it. Decided that he would show off to his friends and be little woman on their role in a mans world ..(COUGH). That we are brain-less creatures that now according to him cant even cook . (laffin my ass off here , hes such a joke ) Why is it when something goes wrong between a man and a woman, men automatically goes into the victim, wounded animal, self pitty mode? I have seen alot of men (cough boys )who decided they want to tear down a woman all woman for that matter, just to justify their inabilty, to take some of the respondiblity for there own actions. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO They have to pick on woman, nothing but a coward, whos so insecure about his own ablity and feelings , that if he actually admitted he fucked up, his friends might look down on him. Blehhhhh I wonder if woman started to post blogs

Lazy Ass
So I had given my ex until Tuesday night to get his shit and his mom's stuff out of the old apartment. Did he? No... I went back there later on in the day to see what he moved out. It didn't look like he did much at all...It's even more of a mess. It looks like he just took all his electronics and furnature out and that's it. He told me that he'd probably come back later in the night to pick up the rest or by early afternoon tomorrow. I told him I needed that stuff out as soon as possiable cause I need to clean that place. I can't believe how much he has left. I can't even clean one room. I had my old bedroom all cleaned up and he threw shit in there. Ugh..grrr I just want to strangle that man. If he doesn't get all that stuff out after tomorrow..that only leaves me Friday to clean, since Thursday is thanksgiving and I'm helping my dad cook since mom will be working most of the day, then I'm going over to Kari's to help her. I won't have time to clean Saturday and Sunday cause I'll b

P03m
What is love?! Is it the Blood flowing to my organ, Travelling through the green lines beneath my skin? Alongside evry bone, pretty much evry inch within Is it why?, When touched by one soul that is the same... I get a tingle through evry limb? And when absent the body goes cold so im left craving the warmth from him? And so,.. how would one know.. before the touch? is it from socially interacting!? the info collected slides back n forth in my brain igniting the wick beneath my skin and it travels down to my organ. And when the brain is stressed from all the clots put in is this when,

Someday
SOMEDAY Nina Someday you’re gonna realize One day you’ll see this through my eyes By then I won’t even be there I’ll be happy somewhere Even if I cared I know you don’t really see my worth You think you’re the last guy on earth Well I’ve got news for you I know I’m not that strong But it won’t take long Won’t take long 'Coz Someday someone’s gonna love me The way I wanted you to need me Someday someone’s gonna take your place One day I’ll forget about you You'll see, I won't even miss you Someday someday Right now I know you can tell I’m down and I’m not doing well But one day these tears they will all run dry I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye Coz' someday someone’s gonna love me The way I wanted you to need me Someday someone’s gonna take your place oohh.. One day I’ll forget about you You'll see, I won't even miss you someday, i know someone's gonna be there Someday

My Being Here
I joined this site on August 9th this year,now I think it time for me to leave. 1.Because I may have offended some people and 2.I may have hurt some peoples feelings. That is certainly not the reason I came here it was to meet new people and make friends but It seems I have done the opposite of what I did come for,I don't know when or if I will come back and incase I don't I want to do at least one thing right and wish you all a Happy and Safe Holiday Season.

6 Things Woman Hate About Men
No human being is perfect. There are some bad habits which every human being is indulging in. But these habits should never be out of limits. Also, we develop a dislike with people with certain bad habits. Women, also being human beings have certain dislikes about men and their habits. The following article gives some of the habits which for sure are hated by most women. Moody men – Women naturally are more emotionally inclined than men. But some are more moody and emotional. One moment they are happy and the very next they become angry beasts. It is very difficult to predict how they would react and behave to situations. Women would never prefer such men. The alcoholics- Everything needs to be indulged in limits. But some men just never believe in limits. They make drinking a habit and cannot live without it. Women hate men who are not in control. Alcohol addiction will be the first thing that will drive women away from you. The stalker – Women cannot tolerate men who l

The Pirate In Me 2
It was two months since I meet Captain Ron and I was starting to think that I would never see him again but then after we docked there he was standing right in front of me with a huge grin on his face. He grabbed my hand and pulled me along to the hotel. I did not get to say a word before we were in a room and he was stripping me. I tried to stop him but he just slapped my hand and then went back to my cloths. When I was finally naked I stud there glaring at him he only smiled and started to strip himself. “What the hell do you think you are doing Ron, I have work to do. I docked to unload and get stuff not to have fun with you. Now let me get dressed and go back to my ship.” I went to leave but he stopped me by grabbing my hair and dragging me to the bed. He then jumped on the bed and wrestled me down to where I was pinned and could not get up. He then licked my neck and chest before biting my nipple. I scream but he stopped me by kissing me again.

10 Random Things
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I have a made in Canada tattoo on my a$$ ;) 2. I have a secret passion for vampire books and movies, including Twilight! 3. My confident exterior hides a shy center. 4. I donate blood regularly. Don't mind the 2 by 4 in the vien but the finger prick hurts like hell! 5. I love getting in a car and just driving, no destination in mind. 6. I still believe in white knights and prince charmings even though facts point to non-existance. 7. I love ice cubes in my milk but hate ice cubes in anything else! 8. When I was a kid I played Dungeons and Dragons (yep, Paladin here) 9. I kick ass at pool an

Love
Death comes in many shapes and sizes. I believe toom any of his lies. I wish I knew how to tell him, How much I truly love him Pain is the norm you see for me, My heart only wishes to br free To love and be loved I guess I'm not to be loved

Fumafia
Hey guys, Just wanted to let yall know that the DDL Fam is welcomed to join the fumafia turf " The Independents" its an awesome turf that kicks some hardcore ass. So if yall want to have some fun and raise some hell come join us :D It's been awhile since I have posted anything in here ... but yall know I had an asshat to deal with , which with all yalls love and help I have finally seen the last of the asshat.... I just want to thank you gys for all your support and kindness in helping me through that . I love ya guys and don't know of a better group of ppl id rather have as friends .... BTW ... zhan hun ... congrats on the pregnancy and I hope everything goes well with you hun .... miss you lots ... stop in and leave message with us on how you are doing Love you guys lots Dark

Shadow On My Wall - 11/25/09
SHADOW ON MY WALL The date just turned over. This day is thirteen minutes new. But, I am plagued by the dark of night thrown against the dawn to come. Reading friends' comforting words had these corners of my mouth making a mad dash to my ears in a wise and peaceful grin. Just then my subconscious whispers to my peripheral as I glance to my left; "There is a Chinese dragon on the wall" It is clearly delineated in its poise to swing to and fro. Countless times I have seen that view. Never seeing the forest for the trees. Or, more to the point, the potted hanging plant for the dragon. But how could I? There were cataracts on my soul barring me from unclouded vision. The giant shadow on the wall of my heart had me stumbling and tumbling after so many false starts Letting it shape me like so much origami But you see? Even my shadow knew I was not as fragile as a mere piece of paper, nor did I have the elusive, untouchable quality of its nam

I Got Some Good News Today
well my sister in-law Brittany went in a like a week or so ago went in for a pet scan done(that were they see how the cancer is looking) and well they got the results back and they could not find any of the Hodgkin's lymphoma!!!!!! She still have to go in for kemo for the rest of the year, (thats only like 3 or 4 more times)

Randomness
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you.1. I'm a borderline hypochondriac2. I am deathly afraid of dolls and robots3. I don't like when people use ain't 4. I love Twilight5. Yes I am 6'2"6. I am a vampire freak.7. I am addicted to games on fubar.8. I have OCD and anxiety. Yes I have crazy meds! I don't like to clean my house for this reason or else it will be an all day task. Yes I even scrub the walls.9. I don't like it when people don't speak proper english. 10. I am scared to death of fires and tornados.I am going to tag: Lowell, AJ, BOOBS, Hunter, and Disturbed One

Eveyone Is Invited
Everyone is invited witness Shaniya and Kent getting Fu-Married... God could not have made you people more perfect for each other... It was love at first sight and since then it been getting better and better... Come be apart of this wedding at the Se7en Sins Lounge

Yes Your All Invited!!!!!!!!!!!! Take A Look....
JUST CLICK ON http://fubar.com/lounge/se7ensins TO COME JOINS...HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE!!!! I Only Love and Adore You by Shaniya 4 my Wonderful Hubby 2 Be. I love you in a place where there's no space or time I love you with my life that you have made divine. There's a world waiting for just us two picture it in your mind that's where we'll always stay together till the end of time. I've got you under my skin deep in the heart of me just look into my eyes and know that you're all I see. Life will never be the way we want but I can be satisfied just knowing that you love me and will always be by my side as I am by yours.

Another One Of My Rants On “time”
"Time… I don’t have it. I try to keep all of my to do’s and to don’ts in check and in order but nothing seems to work.As you probably know. I had a stroke a month and a week ago. It prevented me from being able to perform or work on my online projects updating my sites and all of the normal work I generally have to do for nearly 3 weeks. This is mainly due to the fact that I was in the hospital for over a week and couldn’t read a lick for two weeks.Someone eventually brought my net-book to the hospital for me to try to check my emails which by that point were backed up worse than I have ever seen them. ( I generally get about 300-400 emails a day. They range from business folks, affiliates, members, fans and some of these emails are well disguised spam which has to be waded through to determine which is which…)When I first got my sick little hands on my tiny net-book I was so infuriated at the fact that I couldn’t understand ANY of my emails

Wishful Thinking
Have you ever felt that something so impossible to happen is the thing that would make you complete. A dream, a wish something so out of your reach. You knew if only it could come to reality you would be complete. But most of the times dreams are shattered by reality, wishes are broken by the truth.Only if my wishes and dreams could come true just one time, I'd be complete and happy. I could finally found what i've been searching for. But most of my dreams never come true and most of my wish remains just a wish. WISHFUL THINKING Carole King I see you, but you don't see me Like a ghost of the future, hovering dark and dreamy You fade in and out of the mist Do you even exist, except in my wishful thinking I reach for you, but I can't touch you I feel you just beyond a star Do you know how much you are all I ever wanted Is it too much too soon Am I foolishly dreaming Just baying at the moon Playing impossible visions like an elementary tune How I wish that I could realize my heart Bu

No Matter What I'll Be There For Them!
Nothing will ever change how I feel and see my kids,NOTHING! No matter what I'll never turn my back on them or tell them they're on their own when things get really bad! There maybe times that they'll make me so damn angry I'll say things that hurt them deeply but never "I HATE YOU, I WISH I NEVER HAD YOU, YOUR JUST A FUCK UP,and never will I ever say to them "I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN"! Having a 26,23,20 yr old(men) and a 14yr old daughter I have been through alot and still have more to go till the day I die I'll always be there for them! NO MATTER WHAT!

13 Xmas Things That Sound Dirty
Did you get any under the tree? I think your balls are hanging too low. Check out Rudolph’s Honker! Santa’s sack is really bulging. So…What’d you get in the sack? Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist. Lift up the skirt so I can get a clean breath. Did you get a piece of the fruitcake? I love licking the end till it’s really sharp and pointy. Polly Pocket really is a kids toy. From here you can’t tell if they’re artificial or real. Can I interest you in some dark meat? To get it to stand up straight, try propping it against the wall.

Adam Lambert!
I think this was a great performance. He reminds me of Madonna, Prince and Michael. I don't understand all the fuss. We see provocative performances all the time from rappers and half naked girls and some of Beyonce's performances have been questionable if you are going to take the high road. I think he is a great sin...ger and good performer which was more than some of the other performers on stage last night.

Grrr Grr Grumble
These tears flow from my eyes As I say my goodbyes I forgot how it feels to cry from hurt Maybe Im just being curt? But this is how I feel You made this real Let you in and you stabbed me straight through the heart Yes we are seperated by distance but this stunt tore me apart I feel destroyed And yet again there is that stupid whole in my heart Maybe this was all ,to you, a game Maybe Im just another stupid dame You tell me Wait! How will I know its not another false guarantee?

For Laghs
A young lady came home from a date, rather sad. She told her mother, "Anthony proposed to me an hour ago." "Then why are you so sad?" her mother asked. "Because he also told me he is an atheist. Mom, he doesn't even believe there's a Hell." Her mother replied, "Marry him anyway. Between the two of us, we'll show him ho...w wrong he is..!!

Rain (was Written In 1988, Middle School)
I am cold and clammy to teh tough I am wet and warm and hot I float down to earth in many forms and sometimes I help wood rot I spoil some peoples day others dance with joy for flowers I am a treat and make mud puddles for little boys I travel from city to city and leave a part of me behind Sometimes when I come the skies darken and people scatter and hide Though you have your own opinion of how good I am to you I don't really want to make your day sad and blue I mostly come when you need me although not all the time I actually try and wash the earth and rid it of its grime

Silhouette In My Dreams By Jesus Riveria Calderon
WONDERING WHY THE DISTANCE IS SO GREAT, BETWEEN OUR LIPS. DESTINED TO COLLIDE, WITH PASSION AND ROMANCE. A TENDER TOUCH FROM YOU . MAKES LIFE WORTH LIVING! YOUR THE AIR AT THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN. FOR NOW MY BREATHING PATTERNS CHANGE, AS I NEAR THE TOP.BREATHING HARDER&HARDER. TO CONSUME MORE YOU WITHIN ME. SO NOW THINGS GET PLEASANT. VEIWING YOU AS A WOMAN, LOVING YOU AS MY WOMAN , AND PROTECTING YOU AS MY QUEEN FOR THIS METAPHYSICAL BOND IS GOD SENT. LIFE IS GOOD , BUT UNITY MAKES IT PROFOUND. Copyright © 2009

Help Me Understand
I feel like I am losing my male friends left and right since I got divorced. They ask me out, and want a relationship, which I am in no position to tie into that yet. When I explain this to them they then avoid me and get angry. Can anyone explain this or tell me what i can do to keep from losing my friends?

Never A Reason
If the bouncers and admin have a problem with something a fubar user does it seems logical that they would let that person know right before or right after they do stuff like ban you from commenting on mumms or if they're going to delete someone's account maybe they could send them an email message to the email address that person created thier account from letting them know why. I still don't know what I did to lose my commenting powers in the mumms maybe if I did I could make a point not to do whatever it is I did wrong in the future. I have a feeling that they do not care enough to be bothered to inform folks of the reasons why the bouncers and/or admin take disciplinary action on your account and I also believe that sometimes they do stuff like delete people's account just because they do not like them out of some sort of passive aggressive bullshit power trip. I just made this blog because one of my favorite folks on here got his account deleted and he has no idea why, sim

Unrequited Feelings
You love to see his gorgeous face Pictured in that holy place His fantastic smile sets you on fire Each time you see him you soar higher He picks you up he puts you down His happy face & his cute frown He seems perfect in everyway But something keeping you at bay I see there's a problem you can't ignore It's killing you, you are too sore To forget his love & affection You are stuck in this one section He has found his true soul mate Now I see that you're too late Still in too deep you can't get out He although has no doubt She is for him; he is for her You've got no chance to him deter So it's all over, your happy days Your heart broken in many ways

Unrequited Love
Relationships are a pain Especially loving someone in vain Knowing that no matter what you say He loves someone else that way Looking at the person you love Can be a painful thing not from above Knowing that he doesn't love you like that Wishing the couple would have a spat Feeling like you've lost your best friend Knowing he won't love you in the end Hoping one day he will change his mind Wishing that your heart he would find In the dark you stand Watching him hold her hand Wishing you could just hate his guts Why does this feeling make you so nuts Wanting to talk to him hours on end Even when you know he has a girlfriend Watching him play with her curls Wishing it was you instead of that girl Knowing one day you'll make it through But all the while wishing it was just you That's the feeling of unrequited love Something most definitely not from above

Ten Things About Me
1. I am a BBW 2. I have 4 kids who I luv 3. I have a brown toe nail from when I had infecton last yr 4. I am very kinky 5. My mom was 15 when I was born 6. I have a pitbull 7. Once I was arrested for having sex on a roof of a semi (toldja i was kinky) 8. I like black men 9. I am classy but sassy 10. I never finished high school but am gonna get my GED so I can get a better job

Ive Been Tagged
my friend jen asked me to write 10 unusual things about myself an than ask 5 friends of mine 2 do the same, here goes: 1. When i was young, my mother chased me around the house with the turkey neck an stuff u make the gravy out of. It grossed me out ! So now i only eat ham on thanksgiving. 2. My son says i talk to myself an dont even realize it. 3.When i grow up or retire, I would like to treasure hunt for gold and jewels or own a nut tree farm. 4. Parrots always attack me but i get along with almost all dogs and cats. 5.When im worried about something, I get a rash around my neck and ears. 6. Most of my close friends all have the same astrology signs. 7.I cant keep a secret an dont understand why people have them? 8.I like to read about people who say they can channel the higher mind (edgar cayce ect..) I dont know if they really can but they have some imaginative things to say! 9.Ive worked for room and board an entire summer just because it

Just The Beginning (part 2 Of The Broken By Kitty Simpson)
Part 2 Just the beginning*As the dark mistress walks over to the table on the other side of the room She lightsfour candles putting a light glow over the room. The light dances over the walls to what seems to be a forgotten melody. The misteress takes one candle out of its holderWalking over to her struggling victim. She pulls the flame close to his face. His darkeyes glow at the burning flame..the sweat falling from his forehead gleams like a diamond sky. The baroness smiles wickedly holding back a chuckle she says to him "Whats the matter? Scared of a little fire?..Well dont worry my pet. I wont burn you.Not yet anyway..If you are good..this will only hurt a little" The young mans eyeswiden with fear as he mumbles under his gag.**The demonic goddess pulls a lever next to her feet..The mans chains loosen as she pushes him backward. His chains spread his arms and legs as he is hanging in the air.Running her nails over his thighs she pulls out her knife..Sliding it up his shorts..Slicin

Inventory By Nick G.
The day we wait for Is when we count And when we get yelled at For the wrong amount Counting here From left and right Miscounting items That are out of sight Oh my gosh this is So fun When there’s 3 item numbers Just for one Procedure’s here Procedure’s there With all these procedures

My Deliveries By Nick G.
Going on deliveries Is a mission on its own I can’t believe the cars we have Are not yet blown Walking up stairs And carrying large boxes Some people say I got the strength of four foxes Using the Ford Van Or the little Matrix car Nothing to to near And nothing is too far There isn’t anything better Than wearing a green ARC shirt But I’d rather be wearing

Not Always Right | It Was A Love/hate/poison Relationship
Grocery Store | Ontario, Canada Customer: “Hello. How do you have strawberries so late in the season?” Me: “They are a special breed called Everbearing. They last until the frost comes.” Customer: “How did they get such a breed?” Me: “Well, they bred them especially for this.” Customer: “So they were genetically modified? That causes cancer!” Me: “I’m sure they won’t give you cancer. There are other things that cause cancer, but–” Customer: “Don’t tell me what causes cancer! Don’t you think I know what causes cancer?!” Me: “I’m sorry.” Customer: “It’s okay, I’ll take a basket. They’re for my sister.”

Not Always Right | Hair In Mid-air
Pet Groomer | Orem, UT, USA (A customer brings in a beautiful long haired Shih Tzu for a trim up. As I am petting the dog, I feel that she is very matted.) Me: “I am sorry, but Missy is very matted. She needs to be shaved down very close to her skin.” Customer: “Oh no, she’s not matted. Can’t you see how long her fur is? I brush her every day.” Me: “I’m sure you do, ma’am, but you are only getting the hair on top. The hair on the bottom has become very matted and needs to be shaved.” Customer: “Can’t you just shave the bottom and leave the top?”

Not Always Right | Baaaah-laboring The Obvious
Shoe Store | Baton Rouge, LA, USA Customer: “Do you have any kid’s shoes?” Me: *thinking she’s referring to a similar-sounding brand* “Yes. They are right over here.” Customer: “No, not these. Kid’s shoes!” Me: “Oh, I’m sorry. The youth department is over here.” Customer: “No, not kid’s, kid’s!” Me: “I’m sorry, are you looking for the brand, or kid’s shoes?” Customer: “Kid’s!” Me: *showing her the brand* “Is this what you are looking for?” Customer: “Yes. Do you have them in kid’s?” Me: “No, we do not have kid’s sizes. Customer: “I am not looking for kid’s sizes! I am looking for some to fit me!” Me: *confused* “These are our adult shoes…the youth section is over there.” Customer: “Do you even know what a kid is?” Me: “No?” Customer

Not Always Right | A Sign Of A Long Day
Grocery Store | Mississauga, ON, Canada (Note: I am a self-checkout attendant.) Customer: “Miss, my debit card doesn’t seem to be working.” Me: “Are you sure you’re swiping it the right way?” Customer: “Which way is the right way?” Me: “Stripe facing outward.” Customer: “Miss, it’s still not working!” Me: “I’m sorry sir, but that debit machine is currently out of order.” Customer: “I want to use this one. Why isn’t this one working?” Me: “I’m sorry, but we called tech support. If you’d like, I’d be more than happy to suspend your order and–” Customer: “It’s your responsibility to put up signs if something isn’t working! I want to speak to your store manager.” Me: “There’s no sign on that machine? I’m sure I put them up just a couple of minutes ago.” Customer: “Do you SEE

Not Always Right | Fast Food For Fast Thinkers
Fast Food | Maryland, USA (I am working as a cashier and two customers come in talking loudly about how dumb minimum wage fast-food workers are. One of them decides to prove it…) Customer: “Let me ask you a question. What’s 7 times 7?” Me: “49.” Customer: “What’s 8 times 8?” Me: “64.” Customer: “E equals MC squared?” Me: “What about it?” Customer: “What does it mean?” Me: “Energy equals mass times the speed of light squared.” Customer: “Uhm…” Me: “Would you like fries with that?”

Kids
“One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to Disneyland, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said. "Disneyland burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down, he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real Disneyland, but it was getting pretty late.”

Not Always Right | How About Some Techiflu?
Tech Support | Torrance, CA, USA Customer: “Hi, I had my computer looked at there, and you guys said that it’s running slow because there are probably bugs in it. Well, I sprayed some bug spray in it and now it won’t turn on.” Me: “Ma’am, when they tell you bugs, they mean computer viruses, not an actual bug.” Customer: “Well, what can I spray it with to get rid of the viruses?”

Not Always Right | Latte In Translation
Coffee Shop | Minneapolis, MN, USA Customer: “I want a vanilla iced latte.” Cashier: “Okay, anything else?” Customer: “No.” (I make the drink for the customer and give it to her.) Me: “Here you are, ma’am.” Customer: “What is this? It isn’t a vanilla iced latte!” Me: “Yes it is, ma’am.” Customer: “What? No! I said I wanted a vanilla iced LA…TEA!” Me: “I’m not sure what you mean… we do have iced tea.” Customer: “I wanted a LA-TEA!” Customer’s husband: “She wants an iced coffee.” Customer: “Yes! Why are you people so stupid?! I always say the wrong thing. You should know by now what I want!”

Not Always Right | At Least They Made It To The Paper Anniversary.
Grocery Store | Greensboro, NC, USA (I am waiting to bag a couple’s groceries. The man walks to the end of the register and looks me straight in the eyes.) Customer: *out of earshot of wife* “Let me tell you something.” Me: “Okay.” Customer: “If you ever think you love a woman and want to marry her, run away.” Me: *chuckling* “Alright, I’ll keep that in mind. So, are plastic bags okay?” Customer: “Yeah, that’s fine.” (As I put items into a plastic bag, the man’s wife joins him.) Customer’s Wife: “Oh, can we actually have paper bags?” Customer: “I can’t even make this decision?”

Not Always Right | How About A Chia Pet?
Pet Store | San Diego, CA, USA (I walk up to a customer and her family holding one of our pet store rabbits.) Me: “So, are you ready to buy that rabbit?” Customer: “Yeah, I think I’m going to. What do rabbits need?” Me: “Well, the first thing a rabbit needs is a good home. We have a nice selection of cages start.” Customer: “I think I’ll just put it in with my guinea pig.” Me: “Well, that really isn’t a good idea. They should really have separate cages.” Customer: “Okay, I’ll put the guinea pig somewhere else. What else do rabbits need?” Me: “Vitamins are good for rabbits, especially younger bunnies who are making their first move–” Customer: “Can’t I use ferret vitamins?” Me: “Well, no, because rabbits are herbivores and ferrets are carnivores. They have different nutritional needs.” Customer, to husband: “I don’t n

Not Always Right | Third Tail's A Charm
Hotel | Sanibel, FL, USA Customer: “Hi, I’m planning to stay here for a few days and just wanted to find out whether I can bring pets.” Me: “I’m sorry, sir, but our hotel has a strict no pet policy.” Customer: “So I can’t bring my dog?” Me: “No, I’m afraid not.” Customer: “But it’s tiny, doesn’t shed, and I guarantee I’ll always let it out in time.” Me: “No, I’m sorry.” Customer: “What about my cat?” Me: “No pets, sir.” Customer: “Alright, fine.” *stands around for several moments* “So my wife can bring her hamster, right?”

Ummmm I Love You
Ok so where to even start...Ummmm meet a guy...talked forever seemed like n still talkin, fell in love the usual... Been a good week talk to him more everyday... had a few disagreements cause he is stubborn like I am. Am still learning its a lil more give then take but I like it may way soooo damn bad lol. Want to see him sooo bad he is injuried pretty bad n waiting on him to get well again so I can... cant get him out of my mind at work home when Im with my son running around outside playing its like I want him with me all the time I want him to wanna be around me n have my attention all the time. Ahhhhh what its like to be in love again Love u my Bam Bam

Not Always Right | Wrong About The Right
Jewelry Store | Leicestershire, UK (I’m filling out a return slip for a customer.) Customer: “Oh! You’re a lefty!” Me: “Err no, this is my right hand.” Customer: “But it’s on my left!” Me: “It’s still my right hand.”

Not Always Right | Best Grandpa Ever
Grocery Store | Portland, ME, USA (I work at a small grocery store owned by my Grandpa. It’s in the middle of summer and a customer wearing a thick jacket comes in.) Customer: “Can I get some cigarettes?” Grandpa: “Excuse me, would you mind open your jacket up?” Customer: “No, why would I do that!” Grandpa: “Sir, I saw you take that beer. Give it back and we won’t press charges.” Customer: “That’s crazy, I didn’t take anything!” Grandpa: “Sir, I–” (The customer seems like he is about to run, and my grandpa grabs his arm. The customer tries to shove him away, but in the process he opens his coat and reveals the stolen goods.) Customer: “GET OFF!” (My grandpa grabs his balls, and begins squeezing them.) Grandpa: “Just put the beer down, and I won’t pop them!” (He put the beer down.)

29 And Being Single
I may be the only guy in the world that likes having someone by their side who inspires them to be better and love them through life's obstacles. I never was the one to want to sleep alone. I do like my privacy but I feel like that can be over done when you can't share your life with someone. Never was much to talk to myself. I feel like I can vent and listen just as equally. Finding someone is tougher and tougher the older i get cause most females my age are either married/ have kids/ or just nutso. I obviously have not had much success with relationships because I haven't had my fair share of experiences. I've been cheated on, ignored, used for money and never gotten my 50/50 girl. You may ask yourself what 50/50 girl means..well it means doing things 50/50. Paying for bills together 50/50.. paying for dinner 50/50. I never have experienced any of my friends or family have that work. Maybe my uncle but I don't think he is happy with his wife either. Its hard to call her m

Not Always Right | In The Land Of Milk & Money
Meat Packing Plant | Minnesota, USA (I am working at a packing house, cutting checks for local dairy farmers who sell us one or two cows at a time. They are given a scale ticket in the barn, which I use to cut a check.) Me: “Hi, can I have your scale ticket?” Farmer: “I’d like him to help me.” *points at a USDA associate* Me: “Sorry, sir, but he doesn’t work for us. He works for the USDA.” Farmer: “Well, I’d like you to find a MAN who can cut me a check for my cows.” Me: “I’m sorry, but none of the men that work here know how to cut checks. All our office staff members are women.” Farmer: “Don’t lie, you little hussy! Only men can run a business! You go back to making coffee!” Me: “Sir, you run a dairy farm, correct?” Farmer: “Yeah.” Me: “And you make money from the milk you sell?” Farmer: “That’s how a dairy farm works, swee

Not Always Right | Cutty Out The Attitude
Kindergarten Class | New Zealand (I am working in a kindergarten where over half of the kids are Maori. The Maori word for scissors is ‘kutikuti,’ which is pronounced ‘cutty cutty’.) Me, to a child: “Can you pass me the kutikuti please?” Mother: “What did you say to my child?” Me: “I asked her to pass me the scissors.” Mother: “Don’t talk baby to my child. She’s smart enough to use adult words.” Me: “I wasn’t. I was using the Maori name for scissors.” Mother: “No, you said cutty cutty. That’s not Maori. I’m Maori, and I think I know Maori when I hear it.” (The child interrupts. She grabs her mom by the hand and drags her off to a poster on the wall which has a few art objects and their Maori names under them.) Child: “Mom, why do you always have to pick fights with people? I’m very disappointed in you!” (When her mother left I gave

Not Always Right | Why Judgment Day Is Going To Be A Cakewalk Part I
Retail | Phoenix, AZ, USA (I’ve just finished ringing up some items for a customer and her daughter.) Me: “It looks like your customer card is about to expire. Would you like to renew it now?” Customer: “Yes, I would.” Me: “Okay, just press the green button on the key pad.” (The total rings up as $24.32.) Customer: “Okay, I want to pay cash.” Me: “Okay…” (We stand there for a few seconds as the customer continues to stare at the total on the register.) Customer: “Well, what do I do?” Customer’s daughter: “Are you serious?” Customer: “Yeah, there is no cash button. What do I do?” Customer’s daughter: “Mom.” Customer: “What?” Customer’s daughter: “Hand the poor woman your cash.” Customer: *hands me cash* “I’m so sorry…I’m used to the machine telling me what to do!” Customer&rsquo

Not Always Right | Why Judgment Day Is Going To Be A Cakewalk Part Ii
Retail | St. Charles, MO, USA Customer: “Excuse me, how do I get out?” Me: “The door is right over there, ma’am.” Customer: “Yes, but it’s not opening.” Me: “It isn’t an automatic door.” Customer: “So, how do I get out?”

Not Always Right | The Wind In The Windows
Call Center | Orlando, FL, USA Me: “Thank you for calling ***. How may I help you today?” Caller: “I’m having problems with my computer and–” (Suddenly, what sounds like an air raid siren sounds off in the background.) Me: “Ma’am, I apologize. I was unable to hear what you said.” Caller: “Stupid tornado warnings! They always make it hard to talk on the phone.” Me: “Oh…should I let you go?” Caller: “Nah. This happens all of the time.” (In addition to the siren, I hear a door slam and the sound of someone else entering the room. I hear a male voice who I guess is the caller’s husband.) Caller’s husband: “D*** it woman, are you crazy?! Get to the basement!” Caller: “Oh, I guess I should go…” *hangs up*

Not Always Right | In Hot Water For Hot Sauce
Fast Food | St. Catharines, ON, Canada (At my store, we charge for certain sauces if you get them on the side. I have just given the customer his food, but rather then leave he just stands there and stares at me.) Me: “I’m sorry, sir. Was there something else I can get for you?” Customer: “Yeah, I want sauce.” Me: “I’d be happy to get you some they are 25 cents. How many do you want?” Customer: “No, just give it to me for free.” Me: “I’m afraid I can’t do that. I’d get in trouble sir.” Customer: “I won’t tell you manager!” Me: “Actually, my manager is right there.” *points him out* Customer: “Oh…well, give it to me anyway. You can get another job later.”

Not Always Right | Saved By The Boss
Tech Support | Summerville, SC, USA Me: “Thank you for calling tech support. What can I–” Caller: “F*** YOU, B****! YOU G**D*** WOMEN HAVE NO F***ING RIGHT TO BELITTLE ME! B****!” Me: “Um, sir, I think you have the wrong–” Caller: “I SAID F*** YOU!” Me: “Sir, this is tech support.” Caller: “What?! Um…I mean…um…” *click* (A few moments later, the phone rings again and I answer.) Me: “Hello, tech support. What may I–” Same caller: “F*** YOU!” Me: “Sir, you have the wrong number.” Same caller: *click* (My boss who has been observing this the whole time decides to step in.) Boss, to me: “I’ll handle the phone now.” (Not surprisingly, the phone rings again. My boss picks it up, and before the guy on the other end can say anything…) Boss: “Sir, if you keep pressing redial, you will keep reaching the

How's The View Up There?
“I thought it was pretty cool” so said German traveler Dirk Gensler commenting on watching a couple having a bit of sex in a clock tower across from where he was staying. People in Sydney are all abuzz about the couple doing the nasty in broad daylight for all to see. And according to news accounts everyone was watching. Apparently, none of the watchers were upset so I guess that means the horny couple get a resounding “10”. Click it for a picture of the amorous couple: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,576649,00.html?test=latestnews We’re exhibitionist at BlastFM too! Come by and enjoy our musical forays. I’m sure you’ll enjoy the entertainment. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

To All Of You Who Care Lol
My site lolosky(dot)cjb(dot)net is now open its still under construction but its now open for viewing. so go check it out and let me kno what u think as I work harder to make it the best.. xoxo

Odd Quotes!!
~ It hurts when someone says they don't love you, but it hurts more when they lie and say they do! ~ A face without freckles, is like a sky without stars! ~ Every girl wants a man, that she can go to in her swearts, her hair mess, makeup running down her face, eyes red from crying and the first thing he says to here is, " Baby your beautiful" and means it. ~ People will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints in your heart. ~ When a friend leaves you, don't miss them and cry, but remember them and laugh. ~ Smiles and tears, Giggles and laughs, Late night calls and cuter photographs, I'll be there for you till the day of my death, Best friends forever til my very last breath. ~ The worst thing in life is to lose a friend, a friend that means the world to you, a friend that you put all your trust and faith in, a friend that you believe in from the start, a friend that took the canter of your heart, a friend that you'd die for, a friend that you cherish

Stolen From Witty (the Female One)
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I have like 4000 comic books hidden behind the clothes in my closet. 2. I complain about reality TV and how much it sucks, but i secretly watch Tool Academy, and still tell everyone else they suck for loving it. 3. I am pretty outgoing, but I often feel like I'm faking it. 4. I used to box, but quit because I don't like hitting people. now I bounce on the weekends at a club. go figure. 5. When I wash the dishes I have to rinse them twice in hot water, and once in cold. I dont think I'm OCD, I just had a mother who was really bad at washing dishes. So I'd rewash them before using them. 6. I have metal shows in

Just Some Beautiful Words
You Feel Me In The Darkness ... I See You Through The Mists, My Presence Fuels Your Passions.... That Makes My Blood Run Hot, I Cannot Return To Your World, But You Can Enter Mine, Cast Away The Gold That Keeps Us Apart.... Reach Out And Take My Hand .... Eternity Awaits Us..

Poem- "baby Blues"
i wrote this poem when i was pregnant with my son! Baby Blues Listening to the rain, Wondering about the pain. Knowing I'm not ready, but can't wait to give you, your first teddy. Wandering why me, yet praying to God to help me. Ashamed to face my family, Ashamed to look in the mirror, but so ready to hold you, when you shed your first tear. Asking why life is unfair, but knowing your close in every prayer. and yet every part of me is ready, Ready for you to make me happy. and I myself am ready, Ready to Love you, My sweet baby. ** let me know what you think?..thank you! **

My Health
So, today was the last day of my treatment, and I am completely clean now. It hurts when ppl say that crabs ar for hookers and druggies only cause I got em, and I am none of those. It can happen to anyone and people should get a life before judging. Its not like its aids or somethin, so whatever. I am completely done with all the medications they gave me, and I have a clean billl of health as of today. For advice: just cause you use a condom doesnt mean you cant get crabs, I used one but I guess the guy had em. I wish I knew right away, but. Its not worth the hassle and money.

A Chuckle...
A stoner finds a poor person on the street and helps him up. The poor person says, "Son, I'm a genie. And since you helped me I'll give you three wishes." The stoner says, "I want a six inch joint!" The genie says, "Okay!" POOF! They stuff a six inch joint and smoke it between the two of them. "What's the second wish?" asks the genie. "I want a twelve inch joint," says the stoner. "Okay," says the genie. POOOF! And they stuff it and smoke it between the two of them. "And the third wish?" "I want a twenty inch joint!!" POOOOF!! So, they stuff it and smoke it between the two of them. Finally, the genie gets up and says, "Okay, it's time for me to go." The genie takes a couple steps, pauses, turns around and says, "Okay, just one more wish."

Facebook Request
Someone obviously did not read my page. This message was sent to me on FACEBOOK after I repeatly denied a mans friend request: "Do you feel special enough to keep deleting me? Do you feel that you can pick and choose your friends? That was so fucking rude of you. You are not that special. You can't pick and choose your friends. Since I am not special enough to be on your friends list here, you are not special enough to remain on friends list on Fubar! Fuck you!" LMAO. Seriously? Don't we all have the right to choose our friends and who has access to what pages? omg. lol My family and CEO for the company I work for are on my facebook. There is nothing interesting on there. If you want the "goods" fubar is where its at.

The Foo Fighters........
HelloI've waited here for youEverlongTonight I throw myself intoand out of the red out of her head she sangCome down and waste away with medown with meSlow out you wanted it to beover my head, out of my head she sangand I wonderwhen I sing along with youIf everything could ever feel this real forever If anything could ever be this good again the only thing I'll ever ask of youyou've got to promise not to stop when I say whenshe sangBreathe outso I can breathe you inHold you inand nowI know you've always beenout of your head out of my head i sangand I wonderIf everything could ever feel this real foreverIf anything could ever be this good againthe only thing I'll ever ask of youyou've got to promise not to stop when I say when love this tune....i hope you do too

I Have Been Tagged.
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. So here goes, 1. I would be lost without my internet friends to talk to. 2. I am a nervous driver, if I get out of my 'comfort zone' I break out and hyperventilate. (not kidding) 3. If I ever have the freedom to do it I really (freaking out or not) want to visit a bunch of my internet friends. 4. Some of my friends consider me one of their loudest friends and I really really don't get that. 5. It really bothers me to not be acknowledged when I walk into a room. 6. I'm very un-decisive. 7. I think I'm fat, but am mostly comfortable with it. 8. I am an older sister. 9. I'm 2 inches talle

Knocking On Another Door
"Fire scares me, yes, and earthquakes, and venomous snakes. People scare me more than anything, for I know too well the savagery of which humankind is capable." ~ Excerpt from Chapter 10 of Odd Thomas, by Dean Koontz In the middle of reading a book about a man who talks to ghosts, solves crimes, and takes down criminals I had a thought. In general, I don't particularly like people. Not to say I don't like certain individuals, I have friends and I enjoy the company of others. But in the grand scheme of things, I would just assume avoid delving into the real world social mix. I have the unfortunate gift of seeing things as they are and not how I would wish them to be and reality is no fun place to live. I don't think there is any inherit good, or evil for that matter, inside any of us. Rather, I think there is a primal desire. Supremacy. Simple enough, we all want to win. And, who doesn't? There is nothing wrong with wanting success. The issue lies in seeking individualism power vers

My Brookie
I Miss You Terribly, I Miss You More. I Cant Believe, Your Not Here Anymore. You Were The One, Who Brightened My Day. You Were The One, That Made Me Want To Stay. Without You Now, While Your Away. I Dont Know How. To Spend Each Day. Everyday That I Wake, Without You Here. I Cry To Myself, I Just Want You Near. I'll Never Understand, Why He Took You Away. I'll Never Forget, The Place You Now Lay. Close To My Heart, Forever You'll Be. Closer To God, And Farther From Me. I Wish I Could Hold You, I Wish He Would See. Without You Here, I Dont Know How To Be. Please God Hold Her Tight, And Dont Let Her Go. My Little Brookie, How I Miss You So.

I Stolz Yur Facts.
Reading through all the tagged blogs I was struck by how many of the things I indentified with. I am not sure if that means that I have populated my fu-friends with people like minded to me (Yay!) or all people are boringly alike (not so yay) For my list I am stealing some of your comments that resonated the most with me. 1. If my socks and shoes are both near me, I will put on sock, shoe, sock, shoe. Otherwise it's sock, sock, shoe, shoe. 2. I didn't read any books for years. I just started reading again and I wonder why I ever stopped. EDIT. I don't have as good as excuse for this as the person I stole it from and I didn't completely stop. However I did go from being an avid reader for most of my life to rarely reading for a long time. I am back to reading much more again. 3. I really cannot remember names and dates. 4. I refuse to go to chain restaurants while on vacation. This is something that my parents taught me that has stuck. EDIT Not so much learned from my paren

Wait For Me
i met you in a very strange placewe hit it off i felt like a rocket going to outerspacei was scared to talk to you at firstnow i cant go a day without getting a thirstwake up at 930 to call you on your ride into worktalk for hours but seemed like foreveri love how i helped you remember how to smile why did you fall in love with my smirkim at a loss for words ill come up with something in a moments whilemy mind feels like that of a 60 year old man after 59 years of hard worki didnt know what i was getting myself intoalot of these feelings were newborn to mewe use to make each other laugh and smilenow it seems were walking away from each other mile by milei want to stay with you foreverbut now it seems like it will be neverwhy do we make things so complicated to achievewhen you tell me one thing and write something differentit makes me crazy and hazymy broken heart has left me feeling absentis everything too big of a giftyou speak in a tongue i dont understand im not very affluentyou say

Life’s Tough When You’re Stupid...
Life’s Tough When You’re Stupid... A classroom full of first year Veterinary students were participating in their first day of anatomy class. For the lecture, the professor begins by unveiling a dead cow under a white sheet laying on an operating table. The professor tells the class “In Veterinary Medicine, there are two qualities you must possess as a doctor – the first of which is a strong stomach. You cannot, under any circumstance, be disgusted by anything involving an animal’s body. For example, the Professor pulls back the sheet and sticks his finger right up the dead cow’s hindquarters, pulls out his finger and sticks it in his mouth. The students just stand there, paralyzed at what they see. “Now, go ahead and do the same thing, each of you,” the professor says. Freaked out, the students take several minutes but eventually take turns sticking their fingers up into the anal cavity of the dead cow, and then sucking on them. Once eve

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Gone
i am out of here i cant belive people on here thikn they can use u and the person being used wount get mad. so fuck it i dont fucken care and to all the people who use othere people fuck u cauz u know what it turns nice kind harted people like me in to bitter angry ass holes!!!!!

My Lover Sleeps ...
She looked down at his sleeping form, shadowed in the half light, from the hallway. His breaths were deep and regular in his dreamless sleep. She could hear the blood rushing through his veins, in a rhythm like sex, slow and steady. She leaned forward, her mouth nearly resting on his sun scented skin. Her face felt hot, and her stomach tightened. Her breath quickened as she hovered over his pulse, breathing deeply, trying to still her mounting desire. A drop of moisture pooled on the edge of her lip. She could smell it, the blood of her lover. She could feel it in her soul. She could taste it in the back of her mind. She wasn't pretty. She wasn't sweet. She was hungry. She needed to eat...

Mr Pigeon Go Away
I haven't had a decent lie in since London. Honestly you would think I had a proper job or something, having to get up early and be places is the very reason I became a comedian. I do nowt! This morning I had to get up and go see the specialist about my 'bowel' issue suffice to say I am getting a colonoscopy quite soon which I am sure is sexual to a few hard nosed politicians yet evil to me. I have NEVER found excitement in shoving things up my back bottom, seriously -its exit only- and those folk who shove hamsters and lava lamps up theirs need executed or put in a special ward. Ok that might have sounded extreme, but I am having a strange day as a pigeon attacked me as I slept. Here is the story; my bed is beneath my window, so my pillows are basically where your knees would be if you were hanging out of my top floor windows. I like it that way but sometimes I push the windows open full and birds come up under the eaves, spot the gaping window and do a wee peep in. The

Story Of A Heartless Robot That In The End Learned To Love
Upon the stairway of despair,Complete with broken love affairsAnd promises that never came,But faded with a touch of shame,A pretty girl with golden hairAnd innocence so sadly rare,Strove to keep her head aboveA way of life devoid of love.Feeling pinned against Life's wall,She chanced upon a robot tallAnd said, "Please come and share with meWhatever Fate has deemed to be.I'm through with love, done with chancesSpirit crushed by past romances,Just be a friend in word and deed.That's all that I shall ever need.""There's not too much from me to learn,"Remarked the robot, in return."Emotions do not form a partof my cold, solid-steel heart.Whatever maker fashioned meDid not permit my circuitryResponsiveness to love or pain -You're thoughts for me would be in vain.""No matter", spoke the maid. "No moreDo I wish passion to explore.Be someone I can come home toWhen my exhausting day is through.Count yourself a well-worn shoe -A friend that I can slip into . . .Protection from a stone cold f

Heart Of Pain
Love Is like the wind, It passes by, And leaves nothing, Behind, Just passes through, My heart, My soul, And never let me, Enjoy the feeling, The sensation, Of being cared for, By someone, Who really loves me. Why is my life, So desperate always? Why is love, Treating me, So unkindly? I look forever, I search forever, Look everywhere, Search everywhere, And all i end, Up with is, A love that, Never lasts long. My heart is a, Heart of pain. It has never, Been able to love, Someone longer, Than it wants to. I always love, But does, That person love me? The answers, To my questions, Are always, Painful, And different to, Take into term. Am i suppose, To search, The rest of, My lonely life? Where will i go? Where will i search? I am tired, Of searching, And wondering, Day by day, Why must my heart, Be all pain, And none of love? Read this an loved it!!!

About Me Section (complete)
Well what can i say. I am 29 divorced and have 3 beautiful wonderful kids that are 7 , 9, and 11. I have been through a lot in my life and tired of all the bullshit. My marriage lasted for about 6yrs and then been through 3 other serious relationships since then and all of them didnt work out either. Im the kind of guy that puts all of my heart and soul into something when im serious about certain things. I know what i want and i go after it. Call me stupid but im a determined kind of guy and i dont give up easily. Ive obviously been hurt quite a bit otherwise i wouldnt be putting it all out there like this. I dont know what i can do to change things to make people see how i really am cause i do a really good job of hiding things now. Cause every time i show how i really am i end up getting hurt all of the time. Its the people that i am right in front of that have been there the whole time that dont even see it cause they are too blind or dumb to even notice that right in front of them

Glimmer Of Hope
A glimmer of hope, in eyes used to pain.Don't trust your heart; love is a game.Yearning to find love; love that will last.A glimmer of hope; sparks from the past.The past is your present and the future is unclear.Being alone is your greatest fear.Will happiness come? Or does loneliness stay?A glimmer of hope; you will find a way.

Was It Just
Do think it was just a shower or the six days? Get real. It was my neck and head. The Cervical Spine and the position I was forced into by the hospital bed caused enormous pain and head ache. This nausea and vomiting may have been caused by it. Here it is four days past and a little more and I have no nausea and very limmited pain. No narcotics are being used by me. Just two Advil is all. If this surgery is ever offered to me again it will have to have all the prep up front and have me come in and on that very same hour the surgery. The neck will have to be addressed in advance to something like that. To that beautiful young lady, a Nurse, my apology to you. I did what I did for the sake of survival and not out of any animosity to you or any one. I regreted my actions but I tried my best to explain to Neurology staff physician but all that was getting through hes head was what he wanted to assume. I found the same attitude and mentality by other specialties. I found the Residents an

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Its All Over ~ By Jd
Look at this real close, Understand this is not what it seems, Think of all the tmes you had your chances, Look down upon all wasted time. Fate is cold blooded, Yes that is right fate can be a killer of dreams, Push yourself past all the insecurities, The risk is meant to either make or break. Do what you do, See when it comes to me i travel the unbeaten path, The seperate can come to be a good thing, Either way right now your wings are clipped. Battered and broken, Obviously you need to find a new way to feel alive, Handle this situation with care, This may be your last shot to survive. The words hurt but only create surface wounds, You never puncture till they cut the vein, So maybe this time your ready to call it quits, Do not let the guilt restrain your choice. Sometimes in life we get so used to what we used to know that we forget we also have a voice, Time to speak up, Matter of fact shout it out loud and clear, All doubt is about to dissapear. I dont want to

A Bit On Deaf/ness
Main Entry: deaf Pronunciation: \ˈdef, dial ˈdēf\ Function: adjective Etymology: Middle English deef, from Old English dēaf; akin to Greek typhlos blind, typhein to smoke, Latin fumus smoke Date: before 12th century 1 : lacking or deficient in the sense of hearing2 : unwilling to hear or listen : not to be persuaded — deaf·ish \ˈde-fish\ adjective — deaf·ly adverb — deaf·ness noun LINKS: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deaf_culture (informations on deaf culture) http://www.aslpro.com/ (to learn how to do ASL signs) http://deafness.about.com/cs/deafculture/a/deafculture101.htm (more informations) ON PERSONAL NOTE: FE

I Was Tagged...
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. My middle name is Lee..and mys sister's is Dee..weren't my parents just the most imaginative people?! 2. I always sit with a blanket on me @ home..I dunno why..even if it's hot as hell outside! 3. I chew my finger nails when Im stressed..I know its GROSS but I can't help it!! 4. I was born and raised in Germany and I still have a Greencard... 5. I vacuum my matress...Im not sure if that's normal?! lol 6.When I was younger I had a shaved head..just cos... 7. I got my first "home made" Tattoo when I was 12...I was like the MONSTER child every parent was scared to have!lol 8. I hate school..even though

Christmas
I think this is the first year in I don't even remember how long that I've been excited for. I think the last time I was excited for Christmas I was 14 and I was excited cuz the day after Christmas I was leaving for Orlando and Miami, Florida. The last 3 or 4 in specific have been awful. I've been dreading this time of year all year. That's why I picked up so many hours at work. Ever since I took this job, the days fly by. The MONTHS fly by. Fuck I swear I just took the boys to a Halloween dance the day before Halloween like last week. And now it's almost December! Matt's now planning on maybe being here for Christmas. Of course, I have to work Christmas which is fantastical. I'm hoping maybe I can trade my coworker Christmas Eve for one of her days so I can at least spend SOME time on Christmas with him if he is here. And my family and I'll take a few hours of paid leave. I'm sure she'd like the double time anyways. So, needless to say, I'm excited. Matt might be here on Christmas a

Late Nite **nsfw**maybe?
The night is silent except for the soft chirp of crickets filtering in through the window, moonlight dances with the curtains that float across the bed, and there is a warm breeze drifting up from the mountain valley below. It is as I lay staring out of my open window that I hear the soft pad of your feet against the hardwood floor as you walk down the hall. You hesitate outside my open door before you come in and walk to the bed. Once again you hesitate. Slowly, you lift up the sheet and crawl in next to me, letting the bed settle with the new presence. You lean towards me and I can feel your warm breath on my shoulder a moment before you lay your lips upon it. Your hand moves to lay atop my hip, your thumb softly stroking. I let out a sigh as your lips make their way from my shoulder to the back of my neck, blowing my hair from your path. Your hand slides from my hip to my stomach as you begin to kiss the side of my neck, nuzzling me. I lean into you and I hear you let out a strang

Sanity : There Comeing To Take Me Awya Hehe Hoho
well, to make it through this life, you have to be a little bit mad. just enough to see the pointless bits that everyone else holds so high. my life has made such a turnaround in that past few years. i am in a familiar place, yet feels so foreign to me. I got lost, years back, and i had to walk a new path to figure out who i am and was supposed to be. So, i walk out the door, paint a smile on my face and question who is truly sane and who is just hiding behind a mask like mine....You can go through your whole life telling yourself that life is logical, life is prosaic, life is sane. Above all, sane. And I think it is. I've had a lot of time to think about that. I really believe that. I think: therefore I am. There are hairs on my face; therefore I shave. My wife and child have been critically injured in a car crash; therefore I pray. It's all logical, it's all sane. We live in the best of all possible worlds, so hand me a Kent for my left, a Bud for my right, turn on Starsky and Hutch,

Marathon
Marathon The marathon is the archetypal struggle of the self to accomplish something beyond the limits of the human body. Many times, we dream that we are competitive, which is a sign of competence. However, other times we lack the ability to be competitive, because in our dreams, our waking limitations often accompany us. This may be particularly true if your colleagues and associates run in the marathon also, but more effectively than you. Why are you in the marathon? Are you able to run it competitively? Are your competitors familiar to you, or strangers?

Amputation
Amputation Amputation of Self Whittling away at oneself in a dream state is not unusual. Many people find themselves acquiring different forms of handicaps in dreams. Often, these can be associated with perceived physical weaknesses or self-destructive psychological patterns. The reason for the dream amputation, method of amputation, and anxiety caused by the amputation should all be given some thought. The result in the dreamer's life as far as inconvenience or further liberation deserves attention as well. Also, the dreamer should give consideration to the role of the amputated body part in waking life. Amputation can also have a religious, moral, or ethical connotation pertaining to behavior. Followers of some sects view their bodies as their own worst enemies in terms of the ability to adhere to particular social or religious codes. Christians, for example, believe the words of Jesus when he stated that it was better to chop off one's own hand and enter Heaven than to send th

Temple
Temple Temples and spiritual dwellings are common in dreams. This is because many dreams include events of cleansing, preparation, moral judgment, or divine communication. Often times, these dreams occur at times in your life when inner peace is elusive and sought after. Often, such dreams involve strangers as temple ministers or priests. These ministers will often give clues about what type of temple service is needed and what area of your life is to be effected. They may be presented as all older than you, all of one particular gender, or dressed in particular ways. If ministers and priests are absent from the temple, that could indicate an inner journey or struggle that needs resolution, versus the outer moral choices illustrated above.

Witch / Warlock
Witch / Warlock Encountering persons with supernatural powers, or becoming those persons ourselves, is a common dream image. In the case of occult power dreams, there may be unique elements of personal projection of will power by you upon others or by others against you. Who is the occult personality, you or someone else? How these powers are projected is important. If they are projected by you onto others, you may feel as though they have an unfair advantage and you want to level the playing field. Another version of this dream is that you may want others to appreciate your influence more. A third option is that you have repressed anger towards another. Still another possibility is that you may want someone to become romantically attracted to you. You may be projecting the power onto a stranger, who is likely a representation of someone else in your life or a representation of a part of yourself. If another is projecting power on you, it is likely that you believe others are pul

Luggage
Luggage Talk of emotional baggage has become very common nowadays. This contemporary term has given rise to a new way of experiencing relationships with yourself and with others. Dreams of cumbersome baggage often represent a life that is too cluttered, or one that lacks reasonable emotional boundaries. To dream of a mysterious piece of luggage may indicate something that is hidden, such as a secret or an idea. Does the luggage in your dream seem to get in the way? Are you very nervous about losing a piece of luggage that you are carrying around for no apparent reason? This may mean that you should take stock of things that you are holding onto-maybe there is something that you can safely dispose of that will lighten the load.

Dining
Dining The act of social eating is an interesting mixture of sensuality, personal interaction, and just plain survival. In dreaming, it is usually remarkable for the camaraderie that accompanies it or the method of preparing the meal. The dinner table has always been central to the family myth. We see one another and communicate the most around the dinner table. Even in families where communication was vague or non-existent, the dinner table was the central, or only, place of meeting. In dreams, these eating events may include characters who have long since passed on, or who you may have only met through pictures. The people eating the meal together should always be examined to see if anyone is notable either for their presence or absence. What is being eaten is also worth examination. In some families, particular dishes become associated with the family identity in general or particular members of the family. These may include foods no one particularly likes or good foods prepar

Politics
Politics Politics and political posturing are part of our everyday lives. From office politics to national politics, we are threatened by the coercion of others, as well as encouraged by the prospect of their accolades. Being in a political dream may indicate that you feel you are having to bargain for attention, moral choices, or the affirmation of others. You may also see yourself in competition with those around you for a limited supply of money or emotional affirmation. Did you or someone else initiate the particular politics of the dream?

Physical Exam
Physical Exam Dreams of physical examination often occur at times when we feel our lives may not be as well-ordered as they could or should be. Close scrutiny often reveals trouble where we thought everything was fine. Or, conversely, it reveals that we are fine when we were having vague feelings that there may be trouble. Who did the examining and what was the nature of the problem discovered, or were you fortunate to be given a clean bill of health?

Dancing
Dancing Dancing can be a powerful psychological or spiritual release for people. Many primitive cultures view dancing as a sacred, as well as recreational, event. Dancing before religious icons has been a symbol of praise and sacrifice to divinity for thirty centuries or longer. Often these dances were done to elicit favor or providence from the gods. In contemporary culture, dancing is more recreational as an offshoot of mating ritual. All this is a fancy way to say we dance in hopes of getting lucky. As such, dancing has taken on more sexual connotations for many people. If you are dancing alone, this may be a regression to a more sacred understanding of dance. Some people use metaphors like, I'm dancing as fast as I can to illustrate their sense of relationship to the world. This may include dancing alone or dancing individually for an audience. Dancing with others may include a sense of uncoordinated participation with the world around you, depending on the dance and nature

Thunder
Thunder Sound effects in dreams work much like movie soundtracks. Thunder in dreams may occur in scenes that otherwise preclude any storminess or threatening weather. When this happens, there is often psychological anxiety that things in the dream may not be as pleasant as they seem. This dream may occur if your relationships in the dream would have devastating consequences in waking life.

Trains
Trains Trains are the cross-country transport of antiquity and therefore are often perceived as romantic. Dreams of this nature often reflect a hope for liaison on the part of the dreamer. The dream may unfold with the object of romance as a companion. The train station, like the subway station, is the place of life choices in the dream.

Statues
Statues Dreams of statues are fascinating. Whether you stumble across the statues, create them, or become one yourself, dreams of statuary can be challenging to interpret, but offer great insight in return for the effort.If you discover statues randomly, note the kinds of figures they are and the emotions they conjure for you. This type of dream may be a version of the skeleton in the closet dream. The statues may also be mythological or spiritual icons. Another statue scenario is the dreamer making a statue. In these dreams, the statue often represents someone you know (or some facet of your own personality) whom you wish to control or contain. This dream may be signaling a memory that needs to be brought out in the open for resolution. The dream of being a statue often finds its inspiration in the phenomenon of sleep paralysis. Since we cannot move large muscle groups while dreaming, our brains assume we have become statue-like. In dream logic, it makes perfect sense. Being awa

Subway Station
Being at the terminal of a transportation system (such as the subway) often indicates choices. Places of commotion and confusion often appear in dreams when choices are being confronted in life. Many times, the dream experience is a good place to test various choices with a more open mind than the waking world permits. The initial question to ask about the subway station is: Do you have the means to ride any train, only some of the trains, or none of the trains? Who is with you in the subway? Are they deciding which train to ride or are you leading them through the station?

Forest
Forests can seem magical, daunting, majestic, sacred, dangerous, or phallic. Forests exist in a dream context as something to be enjoyed, embraced, avoided, or traversed. These ideas are central to the interpretation. If a dream is spontaneously set in a forest, then the forest should be considered as a peaceful, benevolent setting or a more dangerous setting. These dreams say something about how the dreamer is experiencing their waking environment. If the forest is somewhere to go, then who goes in and for what purpose (to acquire or avoid something) is prominent. If it is a singular journey made to acquire good, special powers or wisdom from a forest- dwelling hermit, then the forest is a place of trial and transition. A forest as a hiding place may show that the dreamer is reacting against a feeling of being overexposed to technology and modern business. The desire is for a time of renewal and the majesty of silence in life. A mixed-couple (in either gender or orientation) journe

Public Speaking
Public Speaking Public speaking is the number one fear of the majority of adults-it even ranks higher than death! The result is that dreams of this sort are common. Rarely are they nightmares, but rather dreams of scrutiny and overcoming. Often the occasion of the speaking or the audience members will suggest something to you about an area of your life where people are looking too closely for your comfort. Another version of this is the public speaking dream where the topic or attire is totally inappropriate for the dreamer's context. This dream is similar to the nudity dream in that exposure and inadequacy are themes in the dream. The dream may be an attempt to expose a weakness that you are covering up. Was the nature of your public appearance absurd, or did it somehow fit logically with your waking life? Did you feel a sense of high anxiety during the situation, or were you calm and forthright?

Garnet
Garnet This is the crystal of focus and order. Finding or being given jewels of this type may indicate resolution of difficult circumstances. Another scenario may be peace and clarity of mind in the circumstances you are facing

Power Relationships And Figures
Power Relationships and Figures In dreams, one of the central interpretive concerns is the relationship between the dreamer and other dream characters. Usually, the relative power of the dreamer to others is important to understanding the meaning of other dream exchanges. Dreams of police, military figures, possessing supernatural powers, weapons, money, or special knowledge are all dreams of power. The question is, does the power reside with the dreamer or with others in the dream? If the power resides with you as the dreamer, there are probably feelings of competence, success, and conquest (especially romantic) prevalent in your life right now, or else you are hoping for them. People over whom you assert power may represent a facet of your life that feels out of control. This relationship becomes particularly complex in dream interpretation if you are leading others in a non-coercive way. Power is not just making others do what you want, but being able to influence cooperation

Wild Animals
Wild Animals Wild animals may reflect an area of our lives that is out of control. Many animals have stereotypical meanings that can tell more of their presence. Think of what the wild animal means to you in waking life to understand the reason for its presence in your dream. Wild animals that are domesticated in dreams may not be animal dreams, but rather dreams of interpersonal success or self-discipline. Many times, making peace with animals is a sign of harmony in our lives and hope for smooth interpersonal relationships. Is a wild animal posing a threat to you in the dream or do you have it under your influence?

Oars
Oars Oars are an archetypal sign of man against nature struggles. It is our labor against the elements that represents what we are striving toward. To dream of rowing a boat or anticipating to do so is to dream of your struggle against circumstances. You may be feeling overworked or outright overwhelmed by trying to keep your head above water financially, relationally, or vocationally. Are you straining in life to make progress? Do you feel as though you are working with inadequate support in your vocation, marriage, or other relationship? Are you rowing against a prevailing wind of negativity or distractions from your aspirations?

Vulture
Vulture This is the ultimate scavenger. If you dream about a vulture, it may be that you are feeling like a bottom feeder or that others are picking your bones clean. It is seldom a comforting dream or herald of good prospects for the future. A vulture appearing in your dream can also be symbolic of loneliness. Was the vulture eating or hovering over the feast of other animals? What was it eating?

Wedding
Wedding Obviously, one would want to examine possible trigger events, such as other weddings in waking life, before too much interpretive work goes into this dream. This dream may be simple wish-fulfillment or personal anticipation. However, if you aren't in the midst of such activities, other scenarios may exist. Initially, it is worth examining other commitments in your life. Are you becoming over-committed, or on the brink of making a major commitment to an employer, romantic partner, or other relationship? This dream may be commenting on how appropriate the commitment is for you. If the wedding goes well, you may see yourself as entering a sound union. If the wedding is a catastrophe, or your role in it is unclear, you may need to reexamine your commitments.

Mirror
In dreams, mirrors can reflect directly, reflect with additions or deletions, or serve as a doorway into another reality as in Alice in Wonderland. The mirror is troubling because it shows us plainly what is before us, forcing us to interpret and evaluate whether or not we like what we see. If the mirror is inconsistent-by adding or deleting images-it is a projection of perceptive versus actual reality. In this case the dream may be a herald that you are misinterpreting the motives of others by not accepting them at face value. (Who or what is being added or deleted from the mirror?) Finally, the mirror as a doorway to another world is usually a fantasy created by the subconscious. As Alice discovered when she went through the looking glass, the mirror is a metaphor of possible worlds. Does your dream mirror function as a gate or access out of one boundary and into another possible world? What is more desirable or more threatening about that world?

Seriously Wtf??
So ..I know you shouldnt let what some people say on the internet get to you but this guy (on another website) said this about my kids..Im pretty steamed, wondering if I should report his ass to someone..Who the heck would I report it to in the first place...UUgh!! some people need to be tied to a pole and shot!! This guy said this shit about My and my mans 7 year olds (we both have kids the same age) What would you do?? this sicko lives in canada Me :Dreading the moment Rob and I have both of our 7 year olds at the same time. The guy: At least you get to fuck them at the same time. Me: Ok Im gonna make one thing fucking clear..DO NOT involve my kids in any of your perverted child fucking comments.Thanks...Im officially done with you as well. The guy: i'd totally nibble ur daughters labia Seriously WTF !!!

New Campaign Will Defeat Obamacare
The League of American Voters and Dick Morris have launched GenHope.com, a powerful Web hub for an intensive education campaign to generate public opinion among young voters to defeat Obamacare. "The key vulnerability in Obama's healthcare plan is the financial burden it will impose on young people and their families,” said Morris, the chief strategist of the League of American Voters. “It threatens them with jail if they do not either get high cost health insurance (averaging $15,000 per family in premiums) or pay a fine of 2.5 percent of their income to the government. With friends like these, the young uninsured Americans don't need enemies." The League’s campaign, billed “Generation Hope,” is targeted toward the difficult-to-reach voters, ages 18-29, who don’t watch cable news or closely follow politics. It blends a traditional paid-media strategy on broadcast television with a “new media” campaign powered by a cutting-edge Web oper

10 Things About Me
Instructions......I was tagged but I will not inflickt it on others. You may go ahead and do one if you like :)1) My screen name came from me working on a photo when I was signing up for FU and I was stuck for a screen name. 2) The longest distance I have ever ridden in one day on my bicycle is 120 miles. 3) I have an obsession with old labels and posters. Yes and pin ups as well lol 4) I have two Thomas the Tank engines on the shelf above my desk. 5) I have only shaven my beard off twice since I was 16. 6) I like dark coffee, dark beer and thick crusty bread. 7) I do have in my record collection a Cheryl Ladd album. 8) I once ate steak tartar and loved it 9) I have piles of dead computers and printers in the basement. 10) No I don't have any dead bodies around at all :P The 5 people that are gonna hate me are:Unwanted1Fallen PaladinMedikneightedDickhead83Rustynail

Under Your Spell ~ From Buffy Episode Once More With Feeling~
I lived my life in shadow Never the sun on my face It didn't seem so sad, though I figured that was my place Now I'm bathed in light Something just isn't right I'm under your spell How else could it be Anyone would notice me? It's magic, I can tell How you set me free Brought me out so easily I saw a world enchanted Spirits and charms in the air I always took for granted I was the only one there But your power shone Brighter than any I've known I'm under your spell Nothing I can do You just took my soul with you You worked your charm so well Finally, I knew Everything I dreamed was true You made me believe The moon to the tide I can feel you inside I'm under your spell Surging like the sea Wanting you so helplessly I break with every swell Lost in ecstasy Spread beneath my willow tree You make me complete

Haterz
So just cause I tell my opinion about men all of suden all these lowlife haterz cum out and hate on me for nuthin. I hate people like that who are jelos cause i got what they ain't. Whatever, feel free to hate on me losers.

Men...
I hate all the playaz and haterz. Its really gettin on my nerves, why cant I find a real man thats not a cheater or an asshole? But I dont want a real nice guy thats gonna be a total pussy either. Is there a good medium, where I can find my ideal guy? I like a man with lots of tats, piercings, and a badass, but I want him to be nice and take care of me and be with me all the time. Will I ever be happy?

Alive
It feels so good to breathe the airAnother spin around the sunOn this spec of lifeIn the universeThe gift of loveIs there for everyoneAngels working over timeDay or night to hold the handsThat play all aloneA baby's born pure to the worldAs the old man lays down his head and closes his outWith nothing saidEvery year another promise is madeA pint of beer raised towards a better dayLets find a star, a star to call our ownAnd make a wish, maybe we can make it homeAin't it good to breathe the airAnother spin around the sunOn this spec of life in the universeA little peace of life in everyoneAin't it good to be alive?To feel the sun strong against your faceIt spills over me like the milky way

Am I Ever Gonna Get Over Feeling Sick
Its about 8ish in the morning and like usual my reflux is letting me know its there, my tummy feels wonkie and muscle spazms in next and last but least....sinus presure. Other then that im just funkin peachy. I have like cant even count on how many times I have told my doctor about these headaches, he has yet to pay attention and send me to a specialist, to see why I am getting them so frequently. I suffer from depression and anxiety disorder which , I wouldnt want my worst enemy to have. Believe me it sucks ass. You never know if your reasons to feel angry are lagit or not. You have to force your self to do things. I have mastered it pretty good. I will Just do it and not feed into the tired, no energy blah blah blah feeling. However I have one wish for Christmas and that is to wake up one morning and feel like a million. No complaints zip. Believe it or not and this is soooooooooooo not like me, I waited for 4 fucken days to see if my reason to be pissy with hubby a

Today
Today is a day just like any other you see But today is so much better then yesterday was for me While yesterday was grand and the best day to date Today will be better just you wait For I loved you as much as I could yesterday But today I love you more For I missed you greatly yesterday I miss you today less than before Because soon in your arms I’ll be And forever you will see That tomorrow will be a day just like any other day But I’ll love you more than I do today And I’ll miss less then every other day In your arms I will be And on the day…….. I’ll Love You Endlessly! For I won’t miss you at all that day Cause In your arms I’ll forever stay.

Where Do I Belong
It was never that easy to express who i am, what i feel, what i'm capable of doing, what i can achieve. Specially to a world where everyone and everything seems to put me down. Where do i belong in a society who's judgemental and has high morals? Me, who does not care what people think and say about me, as long as i'm not doing anything wrong, where would i fit in? A society who values family, where would i go?? Me who grew up living in a house not a home. A child who never experienced a hug from my mother and a smile from my father.Where would i belong, someone who is known by everyone but understood by no one. I'm afraid to be alone. But where does a girl like me belong. In search of a place i will call home, in search of person i could call my own.You may not see it in me, i may not show it but in my mind there's always a question, Where Do I Belong............... WHERE DO I BELONG Anastacia Life doesn't promise a bed of roses Or white knights Fields of emotions I'm trapped

{perfectly Imperfect}
Just Because Your words of compassionShows that you careA rose "just because"With many you share. Your stories have meaningWith laughter and tearsTelling parts of your lifeDoing what others fear. So to you I applaudAs I have from the startFor being Perfectly ImperfectAnd sharing your heart.

Tux Diet
I have a large Black dog. I was buying a large bag of Tux Dog biscuits at a New World Supermarket and was in line to check out. A woman behind me asked if I had a dog? (DUH!)On impulse, I told her that no, I didn't have a dog, and that I was starting the Tux Diet again. Although I probably shouldn't, because I'd ended up in the hospital last time, but that I had lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and with IVs in both arms.I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Tux nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry and that the food is so nutritionally complete I was going to try it again.(I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now enthralled with my story.)Horrified, she asked if I ended up in intensive care because the dog food poisoned me. I told her no; I stepped off a curb to sniff an Irish setter&

Chemistry & "what Really Matters Most" On The Internet Of Today
you know people tickle me wtih all this fuengaged,fumarried and fuboy /girlefriend crap its just another way that people have again bought there real life in to the inernet and messed things up,so i thought but then i read every day of people or watch t.v were people hook up on internet and the real thing fasanating about this is in a paper i read almost 20% of those matchies is on the cherry tap or fu-bar network damn...well i have had no luck at this and its basicaly because It's often said that, "it's what's inside that matters." Sure, perhaps for the world at large that W/we see passing on the street everyday, that may be true. What is meant by "what's inside" sometimes seems to vary greatly depending on who is speaking. But where sexual and especially romantic relationships are concerned, there is no denying that what REALLY matters is chemistry. Chemistry, where the heart, mind and hormones collide... usually heavier on the hormone part. This idea, in general, can apply also t

My Weekend
Okay, so I went to London to see some friends, and we did lots of exciting things, like visiting the Old Operating Theatre where a mad Essex woman told us all bout the "surgeonts", and I saw the most horrific thing I've ever seen. And going to see William Morris' house, and wandering around Burrough Market (where I had a panic attack cos there was too many people and I got all 'mental face'), and watching a movie in Bexleyheath, and eating cake in Southwark Cathedral and watching the X Factor (tch, girls), and wandering round a park, and trains, lots of trains. I sent my mum and dad a postcard, and had a right old good time.

♥tag!!
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you.1. I hate when people call me Chris, short for Christy.2. I dance around my Apartment in my socks to old pop songs.3. I chew on straws all the time.4. I'm addicted to the feeling of tattoos.5. I wear ribbion in my hair.6. I once found a snake in my car.7. I eat Chiense food at least once a week.8. Vodka will make me do just about anything.9. I scrunch my nose when I'm mad. 10. When i laugh I snort.

Harry Brown
If you like a film that is Michael Caine being a pensioner who's wife dies and then his best mate gets killed by some YOUTHS, who then decides to get all medieval on their asses, and it has Emily Mortimer as a thoroughly unconvincing detective inspector, and it's all GRITTY, and URBAN, and the score gets on your nerves for being heavy handed, and the whole thing is very well-executed, but the more you think about it, the more it feels like 'Daily Mail : The Movie' because, you know, all YOUTHS are BAD, and therefore it's OKAY if you KILL them, then you'll probably like 'Harry Brown', cos that's sort of what it is.

Even Though Trina Totally Failed, I'll Play.
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you.1. Weird? I believe I'm psychic.2. im pedantic when it comes to the correct spelling of my name [get it right] I like to call her Trina. 3. I'm not a 'normal' male?4. I can admit to being insecure.5. I fucking hate the Twilight series. :)6. I'm an only child.7. I'm too trusting at times. 8. i loathe liars

Solitaire - 7/30/09
SOLITAIRE This game did not yield multiple personality excuses to an only child whose misery did not love company Shuffling the cards incessantly in the desperate hope that chaotic silenced emotions could be so easily tamed Masterful acrobatic digits had cards tumbling smoothing furrowed brows with semblances of control via accelerated snapping arcs that rose and fell Knowing any real control popped like bubbles prophetically leaving you with a wet sticky mess Smooth textures belied its rough edges as you methodically thwap each card down in military precision Smirks linger for each and every slap of triumph eradicating for mere moments ignorance’s smackdowns Bittersweet irony for a girl perpetually thumbing her nose at empty authority to mark Kings to serfs in an unforgiving lineup Only in this game do victory and failure have fleeting tastes So comfortably addicted to effortless do-overs leaving only the question of why we yearn to co

Hurting
ONCE AGAIN LIFE THROWS A DAMN BONE OR STONE IN MY WAY AGAIN....LAST NIGHT I WAS IN TEARS TODAY I AM DOING BETTER...BEING THE WAY I AM WOW ONLY ONE CAN OK ARE YOU GOING NUTS....NOPE I AM NOT GOING CRAZY OR INSANE....I HAVE INNER DEMONS JUST LIKE EVERY BODY DOES SOME TIME THEY ARE ON MY SIDE AND THE OTHER TIMES THEY ARE NOT.TILL THE NEXT PART WHEN THAT IS I HAVE NO CLUE......

Wonder
I'm wondering when my new life will actually begin or has it begun already? I feel so proud of myself when I get one thing accomplished that i've been wanting to be done but I am wondering why I am still down. I'm happy that I've lost the pounds that I've lost, amd still wanting to lose more cause I still feel that I'm a whale. I'm happy that I"m finally away from that asshole and living on my own, but yet..I'm lonely. Real lonely. I talk to my cats a lot...I feel like I'm gonna be some insane person...heh...I'll talk to people online...every now and then I'll hang out with some friends, but...I still feel so lonely and hurt inside. I am wondering how long this feeling will last. I'm trying to erase things from my life that wouldn't bring painful memories. Whether it be the times with my ex or other things. Sometimes I'll think of things or things would come into my mind and I have to yell at myself to get that thought out of me. Afraid of being hurt, bad memories or whatever. After

Will Be Gond For A While
AS MANY OF MY FRIENDS KNOW I BEEN DEALING WITH BEING SICK FOR A LONG TIME WELL I AM GOING OT BE HAVING SURGERY TOMMORROW MORNING SO I WILL BE GONE FOR A WHILE MY SURGERY IS AT 9 AM I AM HAVING MY APPENDIX AND SCAR TISSUE FROM PREVIOUS SURGERIES I HAD WHEN I WAS A KID SO IF U KNOW ME GOOD AND WANT THE NUM TO THE HOSPITAL U CAN CHECK UP ON ME PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SEND ME A PM AND I CAN GIVE IT TO U SO PLEASE PRAY FOR THINGS GO SMOOTHLY

Randomness
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. My real name is not Dj Lost Soul LOL!!! 2. I am deathly allergic to bee stings. 3. I honestly hate strip clubs. To me they are a waste of money for seeing something i can see for free by a woman i can actually touch or at the very least see for free on the internet. lol Either way not paying money for that shit plus the booze is over charged. 4. I am the type of person that would do absolutely anything for my friends but I DO NOT give second chances. Done that too much just to get burned again in the past. 5. I am a Star Wars geek at heart. 6. I do enjoy a good chick flick with the right woman. 7. I am a complete romantic. 8. I use to have really long hair in high school... was even told I looked like A

Time 2 Help Name The Baby...
So i have yet to find out if my little one will be a boy or a girl.... and as a new mommy i have no clue what to name the baby... if any of u have cute, clever, or even sexi names for a baby please let me know... i will keep u updated on the sex of my little one as i find out... Thnx 4 all the help, ~Jessie~

A Secrate Told
well,as yall can see I read a lot,and I am a free thinker on life,for those that don't know what a free thinker is well he is one that belives in nothing yet has answers to everything lol he was one that bases his belifes on the lessons of life and feelings ,he /she may not be right or wrong but all the same will state his case and stick to it till he 's proven wrong ,and belive me thats not as easy as it sound....any way I am a man of many words and pomes all that you read that I post here is my own works if I ever use anothers works it will be stated for all to see whos works they are...one of my favorite authors and you will see quoats from her alot is Emily Dickinson: my favreote thing she wrote was, "HOPE IS A THING WITH FEATHERS" --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- HOPE IS A THING WITH FEATHERS Emily Dickinson Hope is a thing with feathers That perches in the soul And sings a tune without words And never sto

Tyob1 ★☠i Do It To It☠★® Tagged Me.
tyob1 ★☠I do it to it☠★® tagged me. Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I love to dance while im drivinng. 2. I always think i have grey hairs (i don't though) 3. I'm not patitent 4. I love bacon 5. I like older men better then my own age 6. I can only sit still for so long 7. I say I hate Fubar, but I always come back for more 8. I'm very unorganized, seriously.. i am 9. I miss high school . 10. I am just plain werid

Hmmm...just Some Thoughts..
I know that there is a lot of chaos going on right now..but here are some things i just dont understand... Most people that i talk to and get close to say that they want whats best for me..but then when i try to make that happen those same people come back around saying that im a bitch for doing what makes me happy...? makes no sense to me. I have come to the conclusion that no one ever means that.. For some reason people say that just to make you feel special..then turn around and drag you to the ground. i wish people would just be real with me for once.. Its really sad where this world has gone. . . and im sure there are people out there who dont have the greatest things to say about me..but you know what..tough shit..turnabout is fair play you assholes... But anyways..i felt like ranting. And to the very few people who stay true with me thank you so much..to the rest of you...please fall off a cliff and die..Have a nice day.. I will be looking at who my real friends are

So Random
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. In the real world I am SHY around guys. 2. My real name is not Daisey. 3. Never had chicken pox 4. Was once a BIG BIG girl!! 5. Hate cleaning my house 6. Born a natural blonde 7. Likes to watch teen Disney shows with kids and yes alone to feel like they are home. 8. Loves to sing and dance around house like I know what I am doing. 9. Growing up I was quarterback football player on street team and guard in basketball team. 10. HATE cry babies that say they are leaven FUBAR and then a day or week later they are back!!

10 Stupid Things!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1.I'm sick of taking Meds 2.I've been in every state on the East coast and as far as Indiana. 3.I like watching FOOTBALL 4.I've been known to cry at the drop of a hat. 5.I love everything. You name it, I like it, well more so the none. 6.I have to see what time it is before I close my eyes and go to sleep. 7.I still say "ggod night I love you , goodnight" 8.I'm obsessed with a clean house. 9.I like saying penis because it sounds funny. Feels even funnier!!! hehe,, 10.I love you Dud!!

Your It!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. My wife grew up practically right down the road from me and passed by the house I grew-up in & knew alotta people, was related to kids in my neighborhood but yet I didn't meet her until she was 40 and I was 39! 2. I have 4 cats, a dog, 7 rabbits & alotta fish! 3. I call my one car "the deer-magnet" because instead of me hitting a deer a humongous buck ran into the side of my car one night while driving and I had to force it's head out my driver side window. My daughter who was with me was like; "Daddy what was that ... was it a deer?" 4.I dislike gang-bangers but enjoy the show "Gangland"! 5. My favorite sports-team is no

Poem- "let Me Go"
My heart wanders back and forth, between the two of you. I dont know who to choose, But there can only be one. I toss and turn, with many wandering thoughts. You both are so very different, in so many ways. kind and gently, sweet and smart. You both stole a piece, Of my heart. I can only choose one, but who will it be, The one who will love me. So i beg to the other.. you must please set me free. Let me go and if i return it was meant to be.

Because She Duped Me Into This
Boo Tagged me...Grrrrr Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1)I am not a tall man...but my feet are ridiculously big and I often trip over them when going up the stairs. 2)My nickname in High School was "Cockdiesel." I was very stocky and compact and a track star. 3)I didn't reach 5'0" tall until I was 17 4)Lost my virginity in my mid 20's. 5) I love cheese...but will not eat a ham and cheese sammich. 6) I do not eat Peanut Butter and jelly sammiches. Jelly does not need peanut butter. Yuck! 7)I didn't eat pizza until I turned 13. Weird being that I am from NY. 8) Because I was so short, my parents kept me from playing the sports I loved after the age of 12. They meant well, but seeing my older brothers thrive and become All Americans and actually

To The Lovely Ladies Who Care To Know
Hello,my lovely ladies: I am a flirt, a man of many words,I can read people,like others can read a good book,I tell it like it is,the people i meet are the muses of my creativity, I'm a mystery of life and a poet,now if only I could spell i'd have it made...many of you are sucked in or drawn to men like me you find them irressistable or very cute,but unlike them i am not a player or trying to get in your pants,thats the real me,but be warned and i do this truefuly to,i do hide a past and many secreats that i never share so im really no better then the man who wants in your pants or the player,lets face it all men have flaws just some worst then others,as im sure that woman are the same but hey we are all human and toned for human nature which to me is only one step from beastality one way and godly like the other,so we are the testing fields of those natuers......Now back to me I really dont like to talk about my self i useally use parabels ,pomes and attanimes to explain myself so w

Poem- "many Come"
Many come many go, who may stay, you will never know. Lovers say, forever, never will I go. that will never change, but life shall come and go. why do I stay, why do I fight. For you , my heart, beats twice as hard for you. And yet i can't explain, any of it. So if you must go, please tell me so. So I know, everything you told me was a lie. But everything i told you, that came from my heart and you said, you would always be here for me. But now i see,

Tagged By Boo
boo tagged me. Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. If I sit at a booth in a restaurant, I have to sit on the outside with my left side facing out. 2. The only food I DONT eat is runny eggs. 3. I still get nervous around the opposite sex. 4. I love Blue Cheese dressing. On everything. 5. I have a thing for older women. (Cougars, lol) 6. I have a VERY short attention span. 7. I think my left eye is lower on my face than my right eye, which it's not. 8. I get all "glowy" inside when I hold a kitten. I fuckin love kittens. HAHA 9. I am very unorganized, seriously.. look at my room. 10. I swear that everytime I get on here I say that I hate fubar, but I always come back.

One Year
Well everyone a year ago today my best friend of 30 years killed himself. It has been on my mind a lot lately, I still don't why he did what he did it. I have found myself dialing him just to say hi how is the family doing. I guess I just wanted to say you never forget a true friend! And he was a true friend and I miss him. So I guess you never forget true friends and those you love!!! I just needed to say this tonight to honor my friend!

Mish Mash
I record "Dexter" every week, so I can watch it when the kids are sleeping. I just got done watching it and all I am saying is: "OMIFUCKINGGOD!!! HOLLLLLY SHIT!" I had more crap to put here and now I can't remember...crap. Well one thing was: how is it they deep fry EVERYTHING down here, and I do mean EVERYTHING, but they don't deep fry their chicken wings? Deep fried meatloaf, bread & ice cream but not chicken wings. I am not being "tagged" for that blog thing anymore. :-P I am NOT that interesting, people. I will add another tidbit, though, just to be nice: With two separate men, I was the first woman to get them to cum orally. And they have never been the same since. ;) Damn, I wish I could remember the third thing I was going to put in here...if I remember, I'll edit. Oh..I love Helly's boobs too.

The End Of Russian?
Well, she's done it now.... attacking YOTD personally and Scrapper, now she gets her account deleted before she even reaches level 3 for nothing at her but for being her.(deleted 4 times in just the last week) i knew her well!

11/23/09
* this morning my mother-in-law rushed off to N MS because her dad defibbed something like....17 times last nigh.........probably won't make it through a whole other day * I kept waking up from either awful nightmares or people calling/texting me for stupid shit * my son told his grandmother I had already approved him staying through Sunday....which is why no one called me to tell me when the kids were coming home * AND found out my only surviving grandmother has altzheimer's....probably won't remember me at all this time next year After 7 months of complete bullshit and frustrations in every aspect of my life....yeah, I'd say this was a tough fucking day.

Does Beauty Transcend......
Through the coldness and impersonal contact of the cyber world, one does not often take the time to look and find that special spark of beauty and feeling when conversing with others. While it may happen by chance, one does come across that which can only be seen as natures view of perfection. One can make a happenstance connection with a special someone that exudes both charm and grace. One can find that by simply taking the time to ever so carefully get to know someone.......you find that through the miles of cabling, electronics and magic which is the computer......a real beauty shines forth. In clumsily forging a new friendship, a new relationship with an image......a heartfelt posting, you find the perfection of a rose. It is not often that one feels the utter charm, grace and beauty in a cyber world friend. The shear elegance of words cannot adequately define the feeling of radiance that this special woman puts forth. In this new found union of minds....one can see and

Just Don't Lie!
If there is one thing that really upsets me badly it's gotta be LAIRS! What good does it do to tell someone a lie thats gonna come back to bite ya on the ass! Just be truthful and honest about things,why do some people feel they've gotta lie about who they are or what they do? I think that if you need to lie to anyone to impress them or get them to like you well you just aren't worth meeting in the first place! So think about it for a moment or so,is it really worth it? Its better not to say anything at all if all your gonna do is lie about shit!

Stuff
ok first of all i am not adding anymore nsfw pix of me so plz quit asking to see more,if i wanted you to see more i would add them dont ya think ? second what is so important about yim ? i mean seriously im always getting asked "you have yim?" and when i give em my sn this is the typical convo them: hi me: hi there them: whats up? me: nt much, u ? them: im horny me: ok them: have anymore pictures? me: no then this member has signed out so what is the point of going to yim ? you could just tell me that shit in my shoutbox,lol. ok third im thinking of having a fu owned contest, something like the first person to buy me for 10 million gets an auto 11 or cherry bomb and the first one to buy me for 20 million gets a happy hour BUT those are just thoughts running through my head. nothing set in stone yet. thank you all for voting and commenting my mumms, they are just for fun and not taken seriously :) but anyways, much love to all my friends and my close friends i call my fa

Tagged By Mike Hunt
ok guys. i'm not really good at sharing a ton of personal stuff, but i'll do my very best. 1) i am the oldest of my father's children and the youngest of my mother's. 2) i lost the most important woman in my life, to breast cancer in 2005. the grief sent me into the worst bout of depression i've ever known (i was 5 months pregnant and subsequently delivered a premature, 4 pound son) 3) i was a very troubled teenager, and ended up in several different "homes" due to my behavior. 4) i believe in God, but am not affiliated with a church right now. 5) the last year has shown me that i'm capable of anything i put my mind to.. and i WILL see myself through the things i have committed to. 6) i'm addicted to music, without it.. nothing in my world would make sense. 7)i used to be a nail biter, but gave it up 3 years ago.. and now my damn nails break all the time. 8) i'm feircely loyal to my friends and family. i will stand behind those that i love, until the bit

What I Am.....
What I Am..... I am a man of many issues Just like any other person on the planet Because I am not perfect. What I am, is that man That will be supportive in all things That you want to do in Life. What I am, is that man That will not change you into

10 Odd Lil Things You May Not Know About Me
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am always nice, prolly to a fault unless fucked with or someone fucks with a friend. 2. I am like a Hee-Haw song cause if it wasn't for my bad luck, I'd have no luck at all!...lol 3. I know way too much trivial lil shit and not enough useful facts. 4. I have never even tried any drugs, yes including pot!..I know what cave did i grow up in....lmao 5. I value some of my closest friends on fubar like real life friends and yeah i know the diff between fubar and real life, I did say some fu-friends, not all. 6. I was in the navy for almost 8 years and have been just about everywhere but Europe, Mediteranean, and Austr

Family
Well, thought I would try this out even though my typing sucks!! Ha ha as if you can see me typing! Family is what keeps life interesting the one you are born to and the one you make. Friends who are more than just friends and family who are friends too. Cherish them, they are treasures which me often neglect to show our appreciation and love to. I lost my best friend, my Mom last year. She was an inspiration. Now my husband and our kids are in Alberta so I miss my nephews, brother's and Dad. Talk to Dad often. My new job has turned out to be like a big family. It's great. So maybe this move will work out.

Tag
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. I blame Superman231 1. I don't like eating meat on the bone 2. I love cooking and baking 3. My nose has been broken over 5 times 4. I had the skin removed that holds your upper lip to your gums so I can stick my tongue all the way up to the base of my nose 5. The cup of my bras are larger than my hats *shrugs* 6. I hate foods that taste like orange and grape. They do not taste like orange or grape, or peach either. 7. I masturbate more than any woman I know. 8. My great aunt died 2 days ago. I don't think I told anyone. Death is a part of life, it rarely upsets me. 9. I love to sing.

I Am Weak
In every heart there is regretBut they soon repair and don't forgetThe deepest songs that life then fears Through the pain, through the yearsThese are the thoughts that I concealThough my eyes can't hide the way I feelThere are no angels at my sideI am weak, I am tiredI am afraid of what I seeWhen my world is safe, what I dreamI do not shed a single tearWhen I sleep, you are hereYou know it's trueI am brokenCan we recaptureThe life we knew?I am missing you

Into You
The world is cold and thunderousAs one dark day follows the nextFrom high up in the heavensShadows fell like rainDrenching me in sorrowDrowning me in painPulling me deeper Spinning me faster Into turbulanceEverything turned to blacknessFor my eyes had closed before meI tried to hide from my sadnessBut there's nowhere to hideIn an empty worldJust as hope seemed to have faithThere appeared a shelter in the distanceThat shelter was loveThat shelter was youIn cover from the tourment I felt warmthI turned and saw a glow risingNothing like anything I'd ever seenSpellbound I was drawn to itSlowly giving myself to itEverything was stillFor this new life lay within me nowFrom this light beauty grewAs my heart stirred music lived in my breathSoared from my lips in a song of loveEven from the depths of my memoryShadows and death fledFreely I fellDeeper into this world of blissFaster Into youThere I stoodBeneath heavens cloudy veilThreatening in its darknessI tried calling outVivid sweet songsOnly

Worst Enemy
There's a place, in my head A place I know I really shouldn't go But I'm easily lead I seem to have a problem saying no You think it's a front So it doesn't really matter all that much A publicity stunt A fabricated tendency to self-destruct You turn a blind eye Cause it's just another phase I'm goin' through Well what good is goodbyeThese things have a habit of haunting you I just can't seem to trust myself So what chance does that leave for anyone else? I'm my own worst enemy You ain't seen the end of me..

Dag Nabit @(*^*(^$(*$(*&_!!!!
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1: I have 6 double jointed fingers. 2: At age 15, I was teaching adults how to play guitar, for money. 3: I can never type "remember" without makin one correction. 4: I once invoked an oral induced orgasm that sent the woman to the hospital, tru story. 5: I have an affinity for soul food. 6: I am a musical snob. If there is not a reasonable amount of dexterity involved, or there is too much technical assistance, my mind wont register it as music, simply a parody thereof.... a joke. 7: I flew 4 hrs, and drove 12 hrs to bring back a classic muscle car that was identical to my own. 8: There is a 75% chance that I will leave out

Tag
Tony smacked me around n forced me to share…I did this last year, I’m not going to look to see what I wrote so I may wind up repeating myself. That being said, this is difficult for me but I’m going to try to share some things that I don’t normally share.1. I recently started therapy, I tried this once before but I was not ready to really open myself up to someone and did not have a therapist that I was entirely comfortable. We haven’t gotten anywhere too deep yet, but I’m hoping to make some progress.2. I’m honestly working on trying to be more open with people, it’s difficult for me to share my feelings with people because, well, letting people close to me is frightening. I usually deflect with jokes or sexual inuendo.3. I sleep with 5 pillows because even after 4 years it’s hard for me to get comfortable and fall asleep alone.4. My brother died in a car accident when he was 17 and I was 22. I still miss my him terribly

My Own Mo Fn Stupidity
I am having a really tough night. Last night my mouth went off without stopping to think just what the hell I was doing. I have a very very very close friend that is from the site. My ass got jealous, ugh I hate jealousy, and friggin said shit I didnt mean. I was sad cause I could share anything with this person and I hadn't spoken to them in a week. I felt like I was stupid for allowing myself to get so close to someone knowing this would happen. But right now I can't even begin to think of what not having them in my life. Having them in my life means so much to me, that I wish they knew how sorry I really am. To top it off, have been on an estrogen patch for over a month and found out my insurance wont cover it anymore so that has really affected the way I have been handling things this past week. Yanno, I know I have issues with major depression, but when it feels like it is totally controlling you, I dont even know how to think straight. Guess thats enough..... any advice wou

The Dream
For as long as i can remember... i have wanted to do something amazing with my life. I mean, who hasn't right? But, the trouble is, what is that one amazing thing for me? And when will i find it? If i do, how will i know what it is or how to do it? This life is too short...but what can we do to make the most of it? The one thing that i wanted to do was to love and be loved. I often ponder why life is so cruel to those that are not. What is our purpose....what is mine? Dreams of the morrow hath shattered soulPride is Lost. Wings stripped away, the end is nighSuch is... the fate of a monster. Are we just monsters with no pride left in us?On several occaisions, ive lost my pride...but more so, ive lost Love. Love that was the only thing that i wanted. It is the only thing that i want. But who is who to judge what Man can love and cannot? Life is a journey where you alone judge your quest... Iv'e lost this battle against love....this war on love....ive lost. Defeat comes at a bitter t

Baby Battle (c'mon People Help A Mommy Out) :)
Our sweet little angel Gabriella D. is in STAGE 2 (woohoo) of the baby battle contest! We could use some votes! Voting is easy, go to the link below to voting gallery G-Jo (make sure it says Gabriella D.) and click for her! You have to enter your email then register (takes a minute and they don't send unwanted emails) Thanks for your support and as you vote let me know so I can show ya some lovers! ♥ Thanks! http://radiobase1.clearchannel.com/front/OpenContest.asp?Action=Login&SurveyID=45165&zx=102

A New One....thanks C
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. Crystal tagged me 1. I live in a trailer home 2. I can cook a little 3. I do miss home(NYC).......i hate winter which is why i moved south 4. I hope Barack Obama proves everyone wrong and becomes the greatest President we've had in decades 5. I love nice watches(owns 6 at the moment) 6. I have an innate terrifying fear of rejection 7. I have a hard time trusting men 8. Misses my gramma (she died May 3rd) 9. I LOVE sex(as if most of you didnt know that) 10. I listen to old country music (pre 1980) dont know who to tag...so feel free to do one f you choose

Quantum Leap
So I've decided to start contributing to the fubar Blogging. I've been on here for a while now and never tried it. This is my first one, and right now all that's on my mind is how much I love a show from the late eighties and early ninetees. Does anyone else love Quantum Leap as much as I do? I have netflix, and I remembered loving it as a kid so i started watching it again from the begining. I'm hooked. It's cheesy at times but I think that's part of it's charm. Plus Scott Bakula in drag is hilarious. "OOh boy"

Union Boss Tells Boy Scout To But Out!
You union guys are so insensitive. Nick Balzano, presiden of the Service Employees Internation union in Allentown, PA was filing a grievance against the city of Allentown, now get this, for allowing 17 Kevin Anderson clear a park walking trail voluntarily. What? Anderson is a Boy Scout who along with his troop created the walk way in the first place. Union prez Balzano told the city that union member should do the work and get paid for doing it. That sounds short sighted to me and quite selfish. For more go here: Have no fear music lovers. You are welcome to come voluntarily to BlastFM and listen to great rock music for as long as you want to. No charge. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,576438,00.html?test=latestnews www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Christmas Village Name:
Made the three tiers of the christmas village with the trolls tonight. Train tracks up to the top of it. It is going to be a mountain setting this year, Just don't know what to call it. Should I name it A) Zurich, Switzerland or B) Silvertown, Idaho This is more like a mumm, but -I've been banned due to other peoples butthurt. Whaddya Think???

Tewdope ™ Gilf Said To Do This , You Ff
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least a people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. im obsessed with working out 2. if i do something bad , i do feel guilty 3. im the shit at online games FF 4. i will fuck cindy 1 day !!!! 5. im a lesbian trapped in a mans body 6. im good at EVERYTHING 7. when i say i love someone i really mean it 8. i like to do all xmas shopping b4 november 9. i have OCD about certain things 10. i shave my balls lol repost with your answers if you get this !!!!

Thinking Too Much
Possibly being introduced to love and having absolutely zero knowledge of love is much worse than never finding it before. I think as Humans, we have an inherent desire for love, and an everpresent quest to find it to fill a longing and a hole with which we are born. As we age, we accustom ourselves to that longing, and inure ourselves, and as we experience life, we get used to it and numb that desire, especially during negative circumstances. It stands...if we've never tasted chocolate, how could we have a desire for it? As we stand and listen to someone try to explain the taste of chocolate, without having experienced it, how do we know what we are missing? Therefore, having never experienced it, we don't know what we're missing. I posit that yes...I refuse to believe that it's much worse to have loved and have lost than never to have loved before.We have a want, a desire...but how do we know exactly what we are missing? That is the question asked by those that don't even know

Merry Christmas!!
Twas the month before Christmas* *When all through our land,* *Not a Christian was praying* *Nor taking a stand.* *See the PC Police had taken away,* *The reason for Christmas - no one could say.* *The children were told by their schools not to sing,* *About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things.* *It might hurt people's feelings, the teachers would say* * December 25th is just a ' Holiday '.* *Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit* *Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it!* *CDs from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-pod* *Something was changing, something quite odd! * *Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa * *In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda.* *As Targets were hanging their trees upside down* * At Lowe's the word Christmas - was no where to be found.* *At K-Mart and Staples and Penny's and Sears* *You won't hear the word Christmas; it won't touch your ears.* *Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-si-ty* *Are words that were used to intimid

Serving A Greater Need
I was in Muncie this past weekend. I had massage appointments scheduled and was hoping to get to attend a holiday function with friends later that evening. I do believe someone mentioned something about impact play and damn if that didn't sound good!!! Now that I only provide two days of availability a month for massage my schedule is usually tight. This day was going to be no exception it seemed and then it looked as if I might get away early enough to go. I was going to surprise everyone at the last minute by showing up. As I packed up my gear and readied myself I checked my messages received during my therapy sessions and had one from a dear friend wanting some reflexology and balance work. Now, I have always tried to remember that in massage I provide a service; I am not a servant. It took some great debating on my part but her case and cause was different than someone just wanting a swedish. Her needs were greater than my own needs; my needs for the company of like minds, my need

Poems That My Friend Requested Me To Post...so I Am.
®©™Please do not try to steal these as you're own...this is something I do that I hold near & dear to my heart and for me to come out about it is nothing practical. The only reason I have posted these is because a certain "friend", we shall call him, has asked me to post them. ®©™ Poem 1: This is what "I don't love you" feels like A stab to the chest, Ripping out my heart & stomping on it. Poison slowly leaking into my veins. A car crash that just happend right in front of you & your left all like wtf & don't know what to do. You've been lied to that whole time, wondering if theres "someone else". Everything you thought you knew all along is gone. You broke me down & tore me up inside for the world to see. Poem 2: "That one night" How could you do this to me? I gave you my plea. You pushed & pushed until I was bare. All that you wanted, just wasn't fair. The past is supposed to be the past, but I see now that wouldn't be the last...time it would happen to me. How was

Mr Potato Eyes Told Me Tew
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am a speed reader 2. I cannot take a crap without a book 3. Speaking of taking a crap, I just recently am able to drop one at work (would hold it like a champ all freaking day before) 4. I have done jagerbombs for the past two years every Friday night (except twice I switched it up and partied on a Saturday instead) 5. I used to be skinny when I did coke............now I have a fat ass that I adore 6. I am a gifted cook and there is not one measuring spoon or cup in my house 7. I am aware of my being a know it all and am working on keeping my mouth shut more and my ears open................ 8. I have carried the n

Me And Stuffs
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am a fucking bitch (as I was so nicely told yesterday) 2. I have finally made peace with myself and am content with where I am in life. 3. I tend to piss people off on a regular basis. 4. I miss tae kwon do and haganah. I got into them because it's a great stress reliever and it is cheaper than anger management classes. 5. I have the most wonderful serial killer dog in the whole wide world! Even if he is only 2 pounds and silly as can be. 6. I danced competitively when I was stationed in Germany. 9. I have an intense dislike for most people, I tolerate the rest. 10. I love my job. 5 vict

Do You Believe In Powers Of All Sorts?
To start this I would like to ask the reader a simple question, "Do you believe in an individual actually having powers?". Now powers can range from having a sixth sense to actually being able to make things happen with the mind. I have been interested in this subject since I was young enough to actually make decisions of what I like and don't like. My personal opinion, and I'd like to note this is from experience, is that these 'powers' do exist and people have been able to tap into them since the beginning of time. I have had many weird things happen to myself in the last 10 years. Call it coincidence or pure luck, but I have made statements out-loud or even thought of something that has came true within a short period of time. In a later blog I will give a few examples of where I have personally experienced these happenings.

[canard!]
To keep the needle in the cutting groove.To keep the needle in the cutting groove.To keep the needle in the- Oh.Right. Duck. 375.50 minutes. 165*? or was it 175*?Either way I hit it easilly. Don't buy the hype about syphoning off the fat, or trussing and stuffing. Take out the gizzard, Season the fucker. Roast the fucker. (Spatchcock as necessary.)Let that fucker sit for at least ten minutes, and start carving. Drain the fat into a jar while its still liquid but not scalding. Pick the meat off the bone but do it half assed (you want some meat on the carcass still) and throw the carcass into a large stock pot, aromatics and herbs as you like, innards and neck as you like- I got about half a gallon of VERY thick stock doing so in just a couple hours. So... now you've got a big pile of quacker meatyum.You can put it in fried rice, (in the duck fat of course) or eat it cold in a salad, or piping hot roasted. ...but what you don't use immediately, pop it into the fridge. There's a

Julie By Nick G.
She comes in the morning She then sits down If there's a lot of work She gives a frown Her throat gets itchy As you can really tell Then she blows out a cough That sounds like a yell It's heard round the world Yes it is that loud The cough is tremendous It can knock down a crowd You may think it lasts minutes But no it lasts the whole day Too bad I ran out of cough drops I gave them all away I hope she covers her mouth I hope she gets better too because I don't want to get sick And I know you don't too!

Raul Don't Like My Tape By Nick G.
I like cute things I am not gay But Raul thinks The opposite of what I say I have post-its Of a cute frog-face But Raul says Get that out of this place I also have scotch tape Of a cute panda bear But Raul don't like it Or anything else that's there It's not my fault That I like childish things But if I bring all my Sanrio stuff Raul woul break everything Oh I'm sorry Raul For me being so witty I just have to show my love For Hello Kitty

My First Time At Venice Beach By Nick G.
The sights and sounds And the scenery Oh how wonderful This place can be Long long strip Of stores and shops Business owned And mom and pops Pretty girls In booty shorts Poeple on the grass Playing sports People holding Signs to see Oh theres a guy Waving to me Asking me To kick his ass Oh what an opportunity That I cannot pass Five bucks is All he took And by far I gave The hardest kicks in the book For making fun Of my little pants I gave him kicks That made him dance That was the most Greatest part of my day And after that there's Nothing else to say

Jus A Lil Somethin
I tried to write a song for youSomething when you have the bluesA song that came right from my heartI didn't know just where to startI wanted it to be full of loveTo let you know all I've dreamed ofA tune that would make you want to danceOne that would lead you to take a chanceI wanted to show you just how I feelTo let you see a love that's realI wanted it to shine right throughAnd get to the very heart of youSomething slow, that could make you swayJust to dance the night awaySo break out the wine and candles we'll lightThere isn't anyone else in sightHold me close and move with meLet the rhythm set us freePut your arms around me nowWe'll get through it all somehowClose your eyes and dream awhileDon't try to hide that smileJust think of how it makes you feelAnd one more kiss, we will steal

It's Been A Hard Days Night
I think the hardest part of this whole trying to go to school thing is having to deal with the lack of definitive answers. I drove to St. Pete today to drop off yet another single solitary piece of paper to sing song Laura. I can't pretend to know what's involved in her job. A lot of her job seems to be telling me that I ask good questions. I too think that, "So will I be able to go to school in December even if the grants aren't through?" is a good question. I think that applies to anyone who wants to go to school. One of the first things to ask is, "can I fucking go here?" Regardless, I'm not sure that I got my answer. I got more a sing song version of options. I'm just going to show up on the 10th and keep showing up till they ask for money. When that happens I will throw sand in their eyes and run. But until then I will just hope that sing song Lauren's hair dye riddled brain will pull through for me. After that I drove to my sister's place. We talked a bit. mainly about how I

Eat, Pray, Love
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

What Man Or Women Build Let No One Tear Down Lest They Realy Care
You Know they say ,"one dose not build emotional walls, to keep people out,they build them to see just who will care, enough to tear them down".Well I don't know about you but I personly have many defensive walls I've built around me that are there to keep people out lol,I am a weird and strange person,no i'm not dangerous or crazy, but because of the pains and the happeness of my life and the entertwineing of them I am an emotional mess,yes one of which normal people do scar me,and i have a strong fear of Emotional rejection,therefore my emotional walls were built... Now for shits and giggles, today I wanted to put this saying,this comment ,this tagg that I see all over the internet to the test; One dose not build walls to keep people out, But to see who cares enough to tear them down Ok I also got a chance to do what every one man woman and child ,has dream of I got the chance to connect physically and emotionally and spiritually with

About Me...
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. I smoke BUT only when I drink. My "best friend" is more than twice my age. I have a brother, and I always say "He is chronologically three and a half years older." When my great-grandmother and my grandmother passed away, I asked for only their cookie jars, now that seems to be the only thing people buy me as gifts. I hate Facebook, for this simple fact, I didn't like or talk to the people I went to school with when I saw them everyday, why should I interact with them 12 yrs later too? Despite my hatred for what Facebook is all about, I seem to be kinda addicted to Farmville. I like to make out with guys when I drink,

Boo
I went to the casino earlier today. Spent a little over an hour there....didn't win big..boo. Broke even liike usual. I think I only played with 20 bucks and came out with 38 bucks. Oh such a big winner. At least I didn't lose all, right? Grabbed some seafood for lunch. Yum. Went to a German store. Been a while since I've been in there and grabbed some groceries. Prices have changed since I been there last, a lot more expensive. But their meat is sooooo good. I don't know what I'll be doing the rest of the day...

The Ultimate Insider Black Friday Guide
With a slowly recovering economy, retailers are looking for ways to lure wary customers into their stores on Black Friday. Some retailers are attracting shoppers by staying open on Thanksgiving Day, in addition to extending their hours on Black Friday. Wal-Mart leads the pack, with most of its stores remaining open for 24 hours on Thanksgiving Day as well as Black Friday. On Thanksgiving, the Gap will open at 9 a.m., Banana Republic at 11 a.m., and Old Navy at noon. Toys "R" Us stores will open their doors at midnight before Black Friday. Others are employing social media contests to draw in customers, like J.C. Penney Co.'s Facebook sweepstakes, in which winners will receive a Penney's $500 gift card, assistance from personal shoppers, and a limo ride to the store. Here's where you can score some impressive Black Friday deals: Wal-Mart will allow customers to camp out next to their desired items beginning on Thanksgiving Day, and Black Friday specials will last from 5 a.m. to 11

Clouds---a Poem By Margaret Bergeron
CLOUDS Always different Never the dame No single cloud Even gets its own name. Some are of rain Others of snow Some look like angels They float to and fro. Some are so thick You'd think you could stand On a piece of the fluff Or grab hold with your hand. Some look like people Your eyes see a face A cat or a dog Or some special place. Before your eyes It stretches away Every one is so perfect, but Not a one ever stays.

Random Things About Me
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1)I really am not a Bitch unless I feel I need to be 2)I love my family to death....Even Tater regardless of him forcing me to do this. 3)I am a skinny girl trapped in a fat girls body, and I really don't like it 4)I am turning 31 in about a month....and hate the fact that I am getting old 5)My son is my life 6)I have no patience for stupidity 7)I work way too much, and play way too little 8) I love the fact that PK drives Tater crazy in my absence 9)Im a big flirt.....but guard my heart...too much sometimes 10) I am totally addicted to Fubar The 5 people that are gonna hate me ar

My Songs
On my Youtube site I have 4 clips with me singing in the background. They all have copywright concerns but what the heck I'm never going to make any money with my voice. lol Here is the link to the page http://www.youtube.com/user/MobyDick725 What'll I do....... Always On My Mind........... The Superman Love Theme...........................This one Warner Bros won't let me put an external link to it but it lets me have it on youtube Younger Than Springtime. ............ The other clips I made or they are of my daughter singing and dancing at dance school or when she was in the play Annie playing Molly.

Insaneviless Freestyle
Insaneviless steppin em up comin in again. Spittin with shit thats hard for thin. Insaneviless stressin off hard on shit. No mess no kicks time tick tock its as it is straight handling over a lyrical virtue. Mis lightweight handler dismantlin shit over ya. Brains unstrainin with what you sayin. Lyricals go on with the insane reality. It ain't all up to be with what you see. Everything ain't all in its superioristy lost yaself in ya own discomfortable zone. Animosity gets the best while i just leave ya like the rest. Ain't kickin no shit thats a mess insaneviless to put kick push wushin my way through to let you know how i just do. Straight off handin shit to you on a plate with no platter. While you off in yo brain fuckin scatters. So what the fuck is the matter. You head like games just like the mad hatter. Batterin up chargin like a ram. Just like my sign is. I'm a ram & they say i'm ego headed. Gearin off with what shit is deaded i'm off & unleaded. To not let know what shows how it

Yeah,never Done This Before.....
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1)I really care what you all think despite my outward appearance 2)As a young adult I never wanted children,but now I cannot live without mine. 3)I am a recovering Alcoholic 4)I am turning 29 this week (i am old :( ) 5)I am turning 29 this week and collect Transformer Toys,yet I make fun of Trekies/fanboys 6)I watch Icarly with my children(happily) 7)I work @ junkyard w/o running water 8) Suga introduced my Wife and I (thanks mami) 9)Pk drives me FUCKING INSANE,but I am worse without her 10)Everyone drools over my wifes boobies,I actually get to drool on them :D The 5 people that are gonna hate me are: QueenBitc

Just Wanna Kill Some Haters
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My Love For One Person
i lay in bed at night cry myself to sleep everynight since i have lost you in my life. i look at your picture several times a day and the tears start like water works. i relized i had ruened any chances of correcting my biggest mistake in the world of letting you go. i openly admit to all my freinds that i am still in love with you and miss you so much. fighting back the tears each and everytime. i am either weaker now that i have lost you in my life. i get on my knees and gut and crawl accross hot burning coals to tell you sorry if it would help. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL.

Just Something On My Mind Again
when a man admits he crys himself to sleep at night over a woman is it a sign of weakness ? When a man say he would get on his stomach and knees and crawl back to a woman for forgivness is that a sign of weakness.. is it a sign of weakness when a man lets everyone know that he loves a woman so much he will do anything in the world for her. or is it a sign of weakness when a man wont admit any of this to himself or anyone else.

Open Arms
Lying beside you, here in the dark Feeling your heart beat with mind Softly you whisper, you're so sincere How could our live be so blind We sailed on together We drifted apart And here you are by my side So now I come to you, with open arms Nothing to hide, believe what I say So here I am with open arms Hoping you'll see what your love means to me Open arms Living without you, living alone This empty house seems so cold Wanting to hold you, wanting you near How much I wanted you home But now that you've come back Turned night into day I need you to stay So now I come to you, with open arms Nothing to hide, believe what I say So here I am with open arms Hoping you'll see what your love means to me Open arms

My Go Phone For When Im Off Shore
my sprint palm phone (POS) is being replaced, and they are having problems with switching my phone..idk...grrrr anyways, those of you that have my FB can go there and get the number to txt me, or call if you want. I will only have service while close to shore so if i dont respond for a few days, dont think im ignoring you. i got this phone cuz my sprint service doesnt reach the dock :( Ill be picking my sprint phone up as soon as they finger it out... and prolly sending out txts to those of you i talk to already on my other #, for this att # BTW never buy a palm pre...this is the third one ive had to get under insurance, and the replacement phone is screwed up...im gonna have to get a damned black berry or something!!! so see yall in a month or so on fubar..and there ya have it

Random Thoughts
(1) went to college in NYC for one year then changed schools and complete direction in my life (2) lived in Japan for a few years growing up and I speak the language (3)family is the most important thing to me (4)going dancing is my favorite thing to do. I can dance all night (5) I used to be a belly dancer (6) I made love in a laundramat . next time I went to that laundromat with my BF at the time, the mangar told us we were no longer aloud in. My BF said "why not?" the mangar just pointed to the camera (7) I have never smoked anything in my life and never will (8) my favorite movie is GREASE (9)my brothers sudden death had the biggest impact on my life in many ways.effected who I dated, what I look for in a guy and even my direction in school (10) doing this told me how lame that I am! LMAO

Love Herts
i dont do this things how come we can love with all we have and it takes one person to rip your heart out. you trust someone with your life but they almost kill you when they just leve you for no reson what so ever i trust her with every thing and she just go and say it not me its her i have not been in love with someone in ten years i have seen a woman stay with a asshole and get beat on. i cant under stand that. but i do nuthing like that why cant find love like that i just try to love with erverything i have but why is that not good

Some Thoughts On My Life
Shit gets personal, are you ready?okCoke, crack, heroin, oxy, acid, x, k, peyote, mushrooms, opium... HOW MANY HAVE YOU DONE? none of the above :D BE HONEST HOW HAS YOUR HEART BEEN LATELY?covered with mud beaten and torn trying to rise aboveDOES ANYONE LIKE YOU AT THE MOMENT?i dont know by which you mean like as in relationship wise or like as in just like i'm liked all aroundbut i sure hope someone out there would understand where i'm coming from for onceinstead of trying to mess me over..WOULD YOU EVER CONSIDER LIVING WITH ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS?i already have hell my top friends are my friends i have known the longest and bands that i do like to listen too alot... people i support people that have met me and bands that have made songs that really have touched my soul... WHEN YOU SAY YOU DON'T CARE DO YOU MEAN IT?not always i do let you know when i do mean it. but usually i'm the person the only person that truly actully honestly gives a damn... only time i would say i don't care

Staff Pimpout
Introducing Red Dragon's Realm Staff!Please visit their pages to A/F/R and when your done feel free to hang with us in RDR!! ~DJ MASS~The Red Dragons Realm Lounge Owner ~Maha ~ Fu Wife & R/L Companion to Mass~ *DJ Candy* DJ↕↔Jinx↔↕ lizzee~DJ/Greeter@ RDR ÐĴ-ŘĘĎĐĄŴĜ scooby doo @rdr lounge DjSinz of the Flesh@The Red Dragon Realm Lounge His wanton wench~Beloved pet, fu-engaged, and r/l gf to Iceman~ DJ wench in RDR BIG ROCK

Someone Please Give Advice
I love someone so dearly and i want to be back with them and it just seems to me they dont want a thing to do with me and that they are hiding everything from me and when i get this feeling im usually right about my predictions and all i really want to know is why they are acting like a complete ass to me now and shit like that and when i have the time they make it a point not to have the time and im just so pissed and flustered anyone got any advice on this issue cuz im at a lost i have told everyhthing out and im just standing here ready to run out and play with cars on the road to get rid of this pain i feel i wish they would actually tell me what the hell is going on cuz im about to give everything up for them and all i want is to be happy with them but it just doesnt seem like they want the same

The Seclution Of My Mind Is Safer Then The Outside World....
As the saying gose Normal People Scare me lol: I am sorry but as it stand this statement is very true to with all of the bullshit and games being played both on the net and off the net I joined fu-bar for an escape the pains of reality and maybe make new friends,but i quickly learned that there was no real difference, its hard to explain the reasone why but ill try and make it simple net and non -net are the same probably because of the people though the net is supposed to be a gate way to fun and fantasy its become a mess just like real life for the people that came to it for help decided to acttually live it therefore bringing there real lifes together with the internet. Damn people its the internet you can live after death ,you can fly,you can do any thing, But You Cant not live your real life here though many try....and this is why normal people scare me and Even with all My own demons and occasional angels that live there, I find it odd and intriguing that (as dangerous, co

Sometimes You Find A Song That Just Fits
i betchya lie awake at nighttryin to make up your sweet mindwonderin if you'll ever findjust what you wanta home-town number oneor a california loaded gunbut you know you only get oneor that's what you thoughtbut here's what you've gotchorus:i could be your baby blue jeanswith the holes in the knees in the bottom of the top draweri could be your little beauty queen just a little outta reachor the girl livin next doori'll be your angel givin up her wingsif that's whatchya need i'd give everything to be your anythingif you want hard to getif you want...all you have to do is let me knowif you want a bumpy rideor someone with a softer sideeither one'll be alrightjust let me knowcause this is where it goeschorus:i could be your baby blue jeanswith the holes in the knees in the bottom of the top draweri could be your little beauty queen just a little outta reachor the girl livin next doori'll be your angel givin up her wingsif that's whatchya needi'd give everything to be your anythingit's n

Drip Drop Dreams
drip once like acid rain drip twice to bring home the pain drip a park drip a dream drip a fight drip a passionate night drip revenge drip a car drip another drip lies drip deceat drip utter defeat

Global Warming Fraud Implodes
Call For Independent Inquiry Into Climategate as Global Warming Fraud Implodes Calls for an independent inquiry into what is being dubbed "Climategate" are growing as the foundation for man-made global warming implodes following the release of emails which prove researchers colluded to manipulate data in order to "hide the decline" in global temperatures.http://www.prisonplanet.com/call-for-independent-inquiry-into-climategate-as-global-warming-fraud-implodes.html

Inhofe Calls For Investigation Of Un Ipcc
Global Warming On Trial: Inhofe Calls For Investigation Of UN IPCC In response to the astounding revelations arising out of the hacked CRU emails, Senator Jim Inhofe has stated that unless something is done within the next seven days, he will lead the call for a rigorous investigation into mounting evidence that top climate scientists conspired to manipulate data to hide evidence of global cooling while engaging in academic witch hunts to eliminate scientists skeptical of man-made climate change.http://www.prisonplanet.com/global-warming-on-trial-inhofe-calls-for-investigation-of-un-ipcc.html

Why
Why did I decide to walk on out on Friday? Self preservation I believe is the answer. Way things were going I would of not have been around to be keying this. I did notice how shaken and pale the nurse was and I said to her that I was sorry and has nothing to do with any personal issue with her. I did briefly explain my reason to her first and than to the physician. The reasons are very simple and here it is. Six days has been squandered by them and I am not willing to squander any more. I asked for a permission to take a shower before 6 AM and here it is after the second request past 10 AM and still no shower. I left out the fact on Tuesday when I came back from the lung test, some one left a corpse of The Christ taped to my side of the upper left rail on the fancy hospital bed. The nurse mentioned it on Thursday since I had the same day nurse from Tuesday to Thursday. Also three people on the night shift asked me if I was cold and I said no. That Wednesday night into Thursday. I woke

I Pray All Is Well In David-land
That’s what my friend Lani in an email that I just read this morning asked me, and I was pleased to say, “I suppose so”. Actually, it depends what time of day you ask me, and if I am having problems I try not to broadcast them. I see neither any need and ultimately no goodwill in making others miserable nor profit in looking back on this moment days, months, years from now and realizing I did nothing. Perhaps that’s why I plug myself into writing fifty thousand plus word novels in thirty days like I am this month; I’m sure every artist will tell you that if they are not creative they will go crazy. Any of us who blog and Twitter and whatever the next mode of communication is, even if it’s not read by a wide audience, is trying to make a mark and leave the world just a shred better than they found it. Aren’t we? Shouldn’t we? Saturday night Martha and I got to see “The Secrets of Jonathan Sperry”, a movie heavily promote

Love
Love is a war, love is not something you can just throw away. Love can find you anytime, and anywhere. Love will always hurt you in some way, but in the long run it is all worth it. Some find it quickly while some take almost their entire life looking for the right kind of love. Love can be wonderous, love can burn the soul, love can be anywhere, but sometimes a person gets unlucky and the never find the love they were looking for.

I've Never Have
I'm just as suppose to ain't never a known to. Kickin illest spillin shit. Takin much in for the all i get. Ain't never have had the so much to go through in never ending unhappy life for you to see. This wasn suppose to. This wasn't suppose to. Be be I'm uneducated equal off no faded just maded feelin played no self less dealin with high stress to leave out the rest its just a test to deal. I ain't never have to been one to think that i have to go through so much. Just left & feelin stuck like i'm suppose to have a fuck to give. Ain't no reason in disbelievin. Where i'm goin at leavin hallow fallows in where shit borrows. I feel like so i ain't never have to know how i'm suppose toBe be be be beThis wasn't suppose to be. You took away my life. Made me like some fool. Shit wasn't so cool. Put all your self life blame on MeI ain't thought to ever thought to never have to go through such lengths. To wanna get myself to you. I ain't never thought shit was suppose toBeBe beBeYou say fuck m

Music Monday 7
Throwback week 1. Song 2 - Blur2. A Praise Chorus - Jimmy Eat World3. Open Road Song - Eve 64. Not the Doctor - Alanis Morrisette5. Brain Stew - Green Day6. Say It Ain't So - Weezer7. Criminal - Fiona Apple8. Interstate Love Song - Stone Temple Pilots

Lounges
I created my fubar account a couple years ago but never really used it until recently. When I found lounges I thought wow this is cool I can listen to some Jams talk some shit and make some friends. This doesnt seem to be the case. Most of the lounges I have been in are filled with staff and bullshit whos sole purpose it seems is to make themselves seem important. If your being an asshole you should be able to be called on it instead of hiding behind some bullshit title of lounge staff. I thought the purpose of a lounge was to shoot the shit enjoy each others company and talk about whatever. If your a member of a lounge that plays good hard rock and arent full of youselves please get a hold of me.

I Was Tagged (by Skifreak)
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. Marie is my middle name....no i'm not telling you my first name 2. Sometimes I perfer to be alone 3. my closet is organized based on sleeve length and color.... 4. I've been around horses all my life but I've never been thrown from one 5. I like a LOT of pepper on my potatoes... 6. I tried to get my mom to try pot when she was dying from cancer... 7. I'm cold a LOT 8. Kids and dogs love me... even if they don't know me.. to the point it creeps me out sometimes 9. I wanna base jump off Angel Falls before I die

I Was Tagged
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. david is my middle name....no i'm not telling you my first name 2. i hate clams but love new england clam chowda... 3. i believe rock can beat paper... 4. i used to live in nyc... 5. i believe cheese makes everything taste better... 6. i enjoyed college WAAAAAAAAY to much....but still managed to graduate:P 7. i can't bluff at poker...or can i??? 8. when i die i want my ashes scattered down the champagne glades of vail's blue sky basin... 9. i never told my parents i went skydiving....sorry mom 10. this is not weird or random but must be said as it sums me up....NOTHING IS MORE

"see....what Had Happened Was..."
Ok so I guess everyone wants to know how my fight went Saturday night. Let's just say.....IT FELT GOOD!!! First of all, thank ya'll for helping me choose my entrance music. It was a hit!! The event was called "Combat Warriors International". It is an event that sponsors both Muay Thai and MMA (Mixed Martial Arts). The event hosts two rings. A standard square 18 foot boxing ring, and a 17 foot octagon cage (similar to what you see on UFC). Typically on a fight card, there are up to 26 fights in one night. A LOT of action!!!! The fights are juggled usually.....3 MMA fights, then 1 Muay Thai fight, alternating as such starting with Muay Thai as the first fight of the night. I am 6'3" and when not training for a fight....I weigh about 225lbs on average. For this fight, I had to cut weight down to 185lbs which would put me in the "Light Heavyweight" division. My fight team is called Universal Fighting Systems (UFS). My oppenent's name was Marco Callison. He was 5'9" and weighed

Darkness
On this journey of life Gliding along the path In the wilderness without a guide No light to shine the way Solitude at times like this Not always welcome Through the darkness Alone and with no hope The darkness closes in On my soul, and upon my heart This despear can longer be held Searching for the answers Alas, they are far from my grasp Your light was close But now it's far away Your love was cherished But now it's gone Destined to live this life alone I wander the hills and streams Searching for an escape From the pain and hurt Happen upon a cove As the surf crashing around I lay my head upon the sand Wave upon wave flowing over my head Drifting further into sleep A slumber tha

God's Promises
GOD HATH NOT PROMISED SKIES ALWAYS BLUE, FLOWER-STREWN PATHWAYS ALL OUR LIVES THROUGH; GOD HATH NOT PROMISED SUN WITHOUT RAIN, JOY WITHOUT SORROW, PEACE WITHOUT PAIN. BUT GOD HATH PROMISED STRENGTH FOR THE DAY REST FOR THE LABOR, LIGHT FOR THE WAY, GRACE FOR THE TRIAL HELP FROM ABOVE, UNFAILING SYMPATHY UNDYING LOVE.

Comedy Can Be Hell
Late blog - I know. Sorry, I was either really busy or asleep in London. The time just flew past and I didn't quite catch up with myself. And I have been partying a wee bit, I do that in London - I rarely go out in Glasgow and save all the time up and end up staying out at The Groucho Club till 2am, then sleeping in like a fat old dog. My trip here has been really interesting, firstly on arrival in London I decided to call up Gordon Smith who is the boss of the Scottish Football thingy and I applied for the job as Scotland football manager. The fact I called it 'thingy' should indicate I am not really suited to the job. But the press were touting Sean Connery as the next manager and because I actually live in Scotland, I thought I should be more in the running so to speak. I can order men about, I can actually play football and I am great at strategy, what's not to like? "Do you have a valid coaching license?" Gordon Smith asked. "No, but I do know Hologram Tam and he is

Loco Roco!
This is a song's lyrics made for the game Loco Roco, for the PSP. I personally did not care for the game, but the song is so bloody happy and cheerful that it could even be the missing link to reversing an emo to a normal person. This is translated into Japanese Gibberish. :) Bajumbo moi noi noi jeckerDabatto bunkergait jun junNora juerue-rotto pura-pura pettoPuraret dum dumPapuranoi noi noi jeckerDabatto bumperget tum tumOra poerketino bookeran tan-tan-so Bokeretyo kyenturanai mimani unlalhood-cha-laTerra hooki-ra pishi-to diki-ra poody-toSeni-kidi koseiboKokorenkyo kyenturanai mimani unlalhood-cha-laTerra hooki-ra shishi-sho tusura hajiki yo Bajumbo moi noi noi jeckerDabatto bumperget tum tumNora juerue-rotto rokorolo-pettoPura-purarun dum dumPapuramoi noi noi jeckerDapatto bumperget tum tumOra poerketino bookeran tan-tan-so http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oORpDuzjjHU

You May Not
You may not knock on my doorIf you're not prepared to come insideYou may not remake my nameAnd start calling me yoursYou may not walk on my waywithout showing me your goalDon't steal my goodnessto fill up your emptiness You may not tear down my wallsthat i so carefully built upIf you're not prepared to protect my dreamsSo that I can fall asleep safelyYou may not have me as your dreamWhen i want to be your realityYou can't say that you hope, if you don't believe But you can take all the time you needTo understand what you really wantYou may ask for that all the timeYou need is enoughAnd you may gather your thoughtsSo that our souls can find peaceSo that everything that we promisedourselves can be And you can not breathe on my foreheadCan't make me fall even moreIf you can't stand for the mess you madeAnd you can't touch my heartAs if everything was clearBut yes i wish nothing more than that you do all of that to me soon

The Reason Is You
I’m not a perfect person, There’s many things I wish I didn’t do,But I continue learning, I never meant to do those things to you, And so I have to say before I go, That I just want you to know, I’ve found a reason for me, To change who I used to be, A reason to start over new, And the reason is you.

Hold My Heart
Hold my heart, hold my soulLay my head in your lapSay that you meanand wish me wellHold my heart, hold my soulHow I waited all these yearsYou can heal my woundsTake my hand and make me wholeTake my heartTake my soulHold my heart, hold my soulJust let me stay hereSo all I ask of you, all I requestHold my heart, hold my soulHold my soul

...
Anyone who takes a heart Should know what happens When they tell a lie Just to cure his loneliness You who stole my heart Give it back in one piece And I hate that I love you So much that I almost suffocates Here in my loneliness

I Saw Them Dance To The New Beat
I remember your mouth,what it said,how it kissed me,And how it was burdened,not like anyone elseAnd I remember your feet,I saw them dance to the new beatAnd When I asked you to,they walked a mile in my shoes.We were best friends,more than best friendsThat’s too little again…

Seems Like Yesterday
The night is calling out your nameSharp like an arrows aching painBut you escaped the tears i cryEscape the misery of mineI close my eyes and dream of youCause there's a fire that never will burn outThere's a rock falling from my heartwhen you call my nameAnd the world around us fall apartBut we stay the sameWe were together night and dayWe used to share a million dreamsWe had a language of our ownWe were the lovers in the nightStill close my eyes and dream of youCause there's a river that never seems to dry. R.I.P my beloved mine...

Mafia Wars Strategies
Discover the trick to dominate Mafia Wars and building up a family of 500+. Not just that, but you need to learn how to equip your family so you never have to worry about losing a fight again. Click here to read more - Dominate Mafia Wars and Mafia Wars Secret It can be quite difficult for lower leveled players to get money in Mafia Wars. From upkeep costs to robbing, attacking, and buying all your weapons, it's very fortunate for us there's no debt system in Mafia Wars! Apply these simple strategies to get and keep the money rolling in. Strategy 1 - Sell your properties and items that require high upkeep, especially Tommy Guns and Chain Guns. Bank your profits from these sales so you don't lose the money. Wait until your hourly income is high enough to stock up on these again. Strategy 2 - In the lower level jobs, Collect on a Loan offers the highest payout for the lowest energy cost. It only requires a baseball bat, which has no upkeep cost. Strategy 3 - Search your Mafia for the

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Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1.I'm sick of filling this thing out. 2.I've been to 17 states...I think it is. Too lazy to count again right now. 3.I like watching the tween/teen shows (i.e. Hannah Montana, iCarly) 4.I've been known to cry at Hallmark commercials. :/ 5.I love boobies, including my own and Kisses Papercut's. 6.I have to see what time it is before I close my eyes and go to sleep. 7.I still call my comforter my blankie. 8.I'm obsessed with penises. 9.I like saying penis because it sounds funny. 10.I blame Philemon and Kisses Papercut. The only person I'm choosing is Per, becaus

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Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1.I hate chili but love chili dogs,I know makes no sense!! 2.I wont eat anything yellow for fear that it will taste like soap.(minus bananas of course) 3.I still make forts outta blankets and couch cushions. 4.ice cubs+milk=awesomeness. 5.I love boobies but loathe my own. 6.Get excited when my husband buys me a colouring book. 7.Still take flintstone vitamins,orange is my fave! 8.Addicted to tattoos. 9.Im gonna be a mermaid when I grow up. 10.filling out this blog game for the 4th time since first coming to fubars,curse you Philemon!! My victims will be : Papabear,even thou I know everything little thing

Poetry Workshop 7/16/09
Workshop w/Connor 15 – 10 – 5 – line reduction exercise then down to 6 words Prompt: There is nothing here 15 lines There is nothing here. Finally, the boxes have been inventoried, the memories have been catalogued. Emotional spring cleaning of the torrential aftermath of our separation. At first the realization that there is nothing here was the zipper caught with the fabric of betrayal that can no longer realign its tracks. Conceding that the ignored worn threads foretold of screams that were only eclipsed by the roar of the vacuum of silence. But now, stripped bare of the blindfolds of convenience, we now stand as we once did; as friends without agendas. We can now smile and say there is nothing here. Each prepared to paint on our own canvases. 10 lines Inventoried boxes of catalogued memories yielded from emotional spring cleaning left in the torrential aftermath of our separation. The zipper of our marriage got caught

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