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~confusion Inside Of Despair~
Pain, tears, restriction.
Rush from my addictions.
Confusion, torture, illusion.
Sun, moon, a lights protrusion.
Numb, tender, a flow.
Clouds breaking, the skies a glow.
Old, shattered, and empty.
The broken ends you've sent me.
Remember the smile that knew me.
A lost sense of beauty.
Not In Titled To Be SickOkay ..ummmm, I suffer from anxiety and depression, so I am not ever at my best , health wise and it sucks.
I hate when people ask me how are you, I tell them whats wrong.
I then realized, just to lie and say I'm okay how are you. Cause if every time they ask and you are always sick they are just gonna stop talking, I feel cause they assume your just looking for attention.
And although that is partly right, its not totally right.
Explaination commin lol
When I was say ermmmmmm around 12 years old , I had to take care of myself mostly. As my father was working and my cough mother was always out of her mind on drugs.
As I grew up that part never changed, meaning taking care of myself not depending on any one to help or support me.
Even to this day being married over 33 years, I still take care of me. Why wish to gawd I knew. But just seems my family feel I have no right being sick and if I am sick, I should still be able to clean the house and tend to their needs.
Th
Oh My Gawdz Im Baaaack Again?AFTER SEVERAL MONTHS OF TRYING.....
im finally back in fubar....for some reason iwas not getting logged in all i got was blankness and thought oh wow they are shutting it down? so i just gave up on it! anywho..im back to have dome fun keep fingers n toes crossed who knows mebbe it will block it again
....pathetic Reality...its a proven fact that in the world today sex sells. its a sad truth but true none the less. anyone unwilling to submit to this sexual hunger will be broken down and eventually succum to it. losing their dignity, self respect and the respect of others. everyone scoures the earth for someone to see them as more than a piece of meat in this vicious game of life. through the search you'll run into characters of all sorts. the players. the sweet talkers. the obsessive. the possesive. all of the above will tear through the population using anyone in their path. which leads to low self esteem, depression, yearning for attention and by any means necessary of course. leavin the masses left behind like used tissues. leaving behind people like me... being sick and tired of feeling hollow and worthless because no one sees us as people who are just looking for that loving feeling but as objects of desire and lust. having been taken advantage of for the simple fact that we yearn for someone to want
No Tru Friendspeople r fuking shady ass bitch im really beleve only friends that r tru is one that was around before all the shit that bring FAKE ASS BITCHES AROUND
Breathless While SleepingSept 14 2009 9:45 am.
As I'm laying in my bed on my back while sleepin I fell wo hands touch my shoulder blades. Feel's like someone's going to give me a massage. Next thing I fell is someone choking me. I start to choke, gasping for air. I'm fading. I wake up all of a sudden. My heart is beating normal. I didn't panic. This is just a dream. Who would want to choke me.? Why? Did this really happen? I lay back down and to to go back to sleep but can't.
Sept 17 2009 10:14 am.
I'm layind in bed sleeping as usual faced up. I fell on my right neck like someones kissing me and going to bite me neck and give me a hecky. Next thing I know, I feel by breath being sucked out of me. I'm shocked, frozen stiff. I'm trying my hardest to move but can't. I can feel the palse on my neck, the suction like gettimg a hecky. More and More my breath slipping away. Again I'm fading like I'm going to pass out. I finally force myself to wake up from this nightmare. I turn my head to my right to see
One Good News About Rs Power LevelingWell you know there are numerous ways to reaching 99 ranged in RS. However, this guide will show you ways in which you can get fast ranged. Also, when you get a ranged lv, look to see if you can wear any new arrows or bows so you can go to the grand Exchange to buy them. By the way, longbows are bad for training? bad for anything in that l this phase is very easy. All you have to do for now is buy some arrows and a bow and kill chickens by some skills, If you are a low leveled player, picking up the feathers would not be a bad idea.10-20 By now, you should try getting some ranged amount. Use what you can wear. For now, just range some cows in the cow fields. Again, it wouldn’t be a bad choice to pick up the cowhides. Might be needed for later in the game where you really need cash for some ranged to 20-30 Well during this stage you can keep ranging cows until 30 if you want. You can also try ranging mina tours in the stronghold of security.. Anyways, this is pretty good xp/hour.3
Sitting HereI don't often think about the things I'm grateful for
I don't often remind myself of how well I have it
I often look upon the negative side of the day
I often see what faults I possess
I rarely find the answer to my questions
I rarely remember what I said a week ago
I'm not sure what I will be doing tomorrow
I'm not sure if I'll be here in three hours
I do know that I am sitting right here
I am currently thinking about you
I can not do so much except think
I think about the decisions I have
I am sitting here wondering about it all
I am sitting here hoping for a truth
I sit to keep my mind at calm
I sit so I do not think
I'm sitting here because I miss you
I'm sitting because this feeling isn't new
I'm sitting because I miss you....
Amazing WomanThere is this woman named Paula that is a guest at the casino I work at. She is a big player and her husband is in the top 100 for cash in at the casino. She is an AMAZING woman and her husband is also amazing.
I love her to death.. always talk to her. One day (the day the husband and i split up) she asked me what was wrong because I looked sad. I told her about the husband and I splitting up. She hugged me and talked to me about everything for about an hour.
A few days later I was about to go on vacation and was telling her bye and what not.. She handed me $100 and told me how great of a person I was and how I deserved to spoil myself a little. I started crying and told her how much i appreciated it.
I see her almost every day at work. Tonight she was gambling and i stopped to tell her bye since I was going home for the night. She slipped me ANOTHER $100 and my jaw dropped. She winked and her husband started grinning ear to ear. She said that she was giving it to me because the S
A WindScattered leavesThat have fallen freeSignifies changeFor you and for meWith a wind so strongSwaying the treeWill you try to stop itOr let come what will beStirring withinBlowing closer to seeLook deep in your heartThere, you'll find the keyKey to open the pleasuresThat comes with gleeOnly then can you feelLike a leaf blowing free
Shall We Play A Game.These are all lyrics from tv show theme songs. How many can you guess without google.
1. So while you’re here enjoy the view Keep on doing what you do
2. You'll have some fun now With me and the gang Learning from each other
3. There's a time you got to go and show You're growin' now you know about
4. Don’t waste another minute on your cryin’. We're nowhere near the end (nowhere near)
5. You'll see that life is a frolic and laughter is calling for you...... Down at our rendez-vous,
6. Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.
7. They'll have theirs, and you'll have yours, and I'll have mine. And together we'll be fine....
8. Not getting hastled, not getting hustled. Keepin' your head above water
9. As long as we live, it's you and me baby, There ain't nothin wrong with that.
10. This is the music that you hear as you watch the credits. We're almost to the part of where I start to whistle.
Life!to live a life without fear would be amazing to me,to live a life without any problems of my own would be heaven! to be able to do whatever the hell i want to would be awsome! to be able to love fully honestly and completely would be the best thing ever but its just not gonna happen! it never works out its the same old pattern everytime! im the one who ends up in the tears and pain because i let you love me and what did you do!.you have posined my heart and now i have none! i have an emptiness inside me the wrost part about this all is that you didn't even know any of this cuz you never cared to ask me not even once!so fuck you and everything that you have ever ment to me! cuz thanks to you i live in fear! fear of life and everything around it and in it.so fuck you!!!!
Tag?Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
1) I once played in an international soccer tournament when I was 12. We won and I scored the winning goal.
2) I have an ecyclopedic knowledge for movie quotes.
3) I've been reading books/stories by myself since I was 6. Best memory is my mother reading to me The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe.
4) My grandmother on my mom's side died when I was 10. She introduced me to my love of horror.
5) Sarcasm is a second language in my family.
6) I'd rather go out and do something random with a friend than have to spend money to go do something.
I Have Been TaggedInstructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
1- I weigh more now than I ever have in my life 230lbs
2- I like butts and I cannot lie.
3- I love Indian food.
4- I am trying to stop smoking and not just stop buying cigarettes.
5- I am quite the smart asssssth.
6- I love beer.
7- I am all butt hurt that I cannot comment on mumms!
8- I have a thing for chicks with accents I think that accents are very sexy.
9- I think Doctor Doofenshmirtz is the funniest cartoon character EVER!!!
10- I want to go to the UK and Ireland someday please.
Tagged- Mike Hunt, Fetishist, WHore, Seamus and Kins cuz Im feeling gay tonight so I didnt choose any ladi
Do This For Me And I'll Do It For Youuuu :) Current mood: amused
1.Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Whats your sign? 5. Phone Number: 6. Location: 7. Height: 8. Hair (color and style): 9, Piercings/tattoos: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 9. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 10. Would you walk on the beach with me? 11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 12. Do you/have you talked about me? 13. Do you think I'm a good person? 14. Would u take a nap with me? 15. Do you think I'm cute? 16. If you could change anything about me -would you? 17. Would you dance with me? 18. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? What Do You Think Of My...? 1. Personality: 2. Eyes: 3. Face: 4. Hair: W0ULD Y0U... 1. G
What Its All AboutLife isn't about sex. Life is about children, and passion, and spirit! It's not about fucking and balls and pussy. It's about love. It's about people. It's about connection. It's not about tossing salad. It's not about cock and ass and tits. And butt hole pleasures. It's not about these rusty trombone, and dirty sanchez. It's not about rainbow showers and camel-toe slide, and your Cincinnati bowtie, your Arabian goggles or the hot carl and pearl necklace, or pussy juice cocktails, and the jagged-head dildos, and the double-decker pussies. Shit stained balls, and cum swapping, and the hanging brain, it's not about the rattlesnake wiggle, and the alligator fuck house, donkey-punching, the tea-bagging
Tagged!Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
1) I refer to my kids as 'trolls', even though they are awesome.
2) I like menthol cigarettes.
3) Fubar is a nice diversion.
4) Sarcasm is admired & greatly appreciated.
5) I've taken online IQ tests and range between 135-142.
6) I refer to my ex-wife as ex-zilla, cause it fits her perfectly.
7) I crave banter and intelligent convo. If I SB/yahoo with you - your mind has caught my interest.
8) I think true love is possible even though I no longer expect to find it.
9) I might be preoccupied with sex - it crosses my mind often.
10) I love to cook & experiment with food.
Tagged, in alphabetical order: Bludgeon(token male),
Depression.No r/l friends, no friends online that i can even consider real friends as most don't even give two fucks about me. No job (I'm on disability for severe depression and anxiety) who really wants someone who cannot advance in life? I know blah blah blah work for it, thing's will get better if you get out. Well, its not that easy. I don't have a single friend. I don't go to bars or any shit like that as I'll end up drinking alone and besides i think that is a horrible way to meet someone. 5 years of depression and anxiety and just about every bit of drug out there has not helped one bit. I know that I have to put forth the effort to correct myself but how can I when I feel there is little to live for? I just want it all to end, this depression. I want to be able to go out and make friends to hang out with but this disease has consumed me to the point of where I started cutting again. I don't know what else to do. This probably isn't even the place to be saying this but whate
YouYou make me smile when I’m down,
You make me laugh when I cry.
You make all the anger in me flee when I hear your voice.
You make the world better when you’re near.
When you laugh, I get comforting chills.
When you cry, I cry.
When you smile, my heart skips a beat.
The sensation you make me feel when you touch me,
Sends a tingling up and down my spine;
Your miles away this I know,
I can still feel them in my mind.
I think of your hands running along my skin giving me chills.
The sensual kisses you place upon my neck,
They stay fresh in my mind when you are away.
My heart cries for you when your miles away,
Begging for the day to come when you’re home again.
I know that I am strong,
I know I will wait for you.
No matter how long or how far,
I’m here longing for you to hold again.
To touch, to feel, to kiss.
I miss you more with every passing day;
They seem long,
Not going by quick enough.
The more I miss you,
The more I fall in love with you.
You have my heart
Bringing In The New Year Auction!!!!!It's time for another auction! This is a long one, and you can enter starting Nov. 22nd. Entries will no longer be taken after 10 pm MST on Nov. 29th. The Auction will run through the month of December, Starting at Midnight Dec. 1st and ending at Midnight on Jan. 1st 2010.
Rules:**50k buy-in-- non-refundable.**Must provide link to your picture (anything goes...within reason) & list of offers with fu-pal payment.**Must promote yourself or have others promote you, however you are welcome to repost my bulletin if you don't have the means to make your own.**Dropping out of the auction forfeits all three competitions.**10 people at minimum must enter auction by November 30th or auction will not commence, so please get your friends to enter as well!**I am not liable if the high bidder of each auctionee doesn't pay, however if this does occur, Auctionee must contact me via private message as the next highest bidder will be declared the winner, and so forth.Three competitions are going at
The Thought Of YouThrough the darkness see the light, This shallow years end in fright.
All of what I know and see, always something in my dreams. Come to me, you wretched thing, for your the first I will sing. Time to part the beaten path, everyone else can only laugh. My heart goes out to very few, but when it does its very trueWithered and decayed it is, but always growing to be new.I cannot stop this emotional bond, nor wallow in the dreams beyond,I only lack in every word, the dreams that are within my pond.My heart is frgile and its clean, but only I can see my dreams,I love my family I love my friends, but what else could this actually mean.It means I am here and will always be, The one you know I shall always be,A man with purpose and with thought, And all with truth and never naught.Life is long but time is short,and I am here but not for naught.My triumph my courage only you,And if perhaps you only knew.I cannot change the beaten path,For if I do it is my wrath.My soul is split, and it seems
Michael Meyersthe mask that michael meyers wore in halloween, whos face did they use to make that mask?? you can answer through comment or through my sb
Ultimate Naughty QuizULTIMATE NAUGHTY QUIZ! be detailed :) and no skipping or idks! Fill it out and send it to me in a message, and repost to see what people put for you!
1. Your Name:
2. Age :
3. Dick/Boob Size:
4. Favorite position (s) ?
5. Do you think i'm hot?
6. Would you have sex with me?
7. lights on or off?
8. Would you have to be drunk?
9. Would you take a shower with me?
10. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?
11. Would you leave after or stay the night?
12. Do you like cuddling afterwards?
13. Condom or skin?
14. Do you give Oral pleasures?
15. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures?
16. Have sex on the first date?
17. Would you kiss me during sex?
Something I Like"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so that the better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe
They Call Mi DictaterJason Castro, Jason Lambert - so close, but no cigar. Good thing I don't smoke, nor have I garnered an internship with Bill Clinton. -- I do have to apologize to the store clerk that I was whistling to and asking "DON'T YOU WANT TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN????!!!!" - when he very nicely asked if I was trying to tell him he was taking too long to wait on me. He did not get the reference immediately so I told him it was a song by Jason Lambert - Let's Fall In Love Again.
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Turns out that Jason Lambert was stuck in my head because he is a UFC fighter and I was busy thinking about the fight between Tito and Forest that I did not get to see, due to the fact that ... well, why put myself in a bad mood. We will ignore why I could not stay at home and watch the fight.
Anyway - I think whistling could help any UFC fighter with their training, and Jason Castro probably has to fight off a lot of girls... Whatever Works!
My HeartMy heart is full of broken fragmentsFrangments so small you can't see themThey're like sandSand thats wearing away at what remains
Every time i start to healEvery time the pain starts to fadeYou come around and rip at the scabsTearing open old wounds
My heart has become so fragileIt can't take another breakIt can't handle another tear
You've left my heart in a sad stateStop tearing it apartPlease
My Heart And IENOUGH ! we're tired, my heart and I.
We sit beside the headstone thus,
And wish that name were carved for us.
The moss reprints more tenderly
The hard types of the mason's knife,
As heaven's sweet life renews earth's life
With which we're tired, my heart and I.
You see we're tired, my heart and I.
We dealt with books, we trusted men,
And in our own blood drenched the pen,
As if such colours could not fly.
We walked too straight for fortune's end,
We loved too true to keep a friend ;
At last we're tired, my heart and I.
How tired we feel, my heart and I !
We seem of no use in the world ;
Our fancies hang grey and uncurled
About men's eyes indifferently ;
Our voice which thrilled you so, will let
You sleep; our tears are only wet :
What do we here, my heart and I ?
So tired, so tired, my heart and I !
It was not thus in that old time
When my love sat with me 'neath the lime
To watch the sunset from
Seek Not My HeartOh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies, Do not you hear my heartfelt cries? Below the branches, here about, Do not you sense my fear and doubt? Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams, Do not you hear my woeful screams? Upon the meadows, touched with dew, Do not you see my hearts a'skew? Beneath the thousand twinkling stars, Do not you feel my jagged scars? Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze, For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees. It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies, Accompanied by heartfelt sighs. It's drifting o're the gentle rain, A symbol of my silent pain. It's buried 'neath the meadow fair, Conjoined with all the sorrow there. It's lost among the stars this night, Too far to ease my quiet fright. No gentle winds, seek not my heart, For simply ... it has torn apart.
Another One Of My Special Blogs...hahaI had a great amazing weekend! Saturday I saw New Moon which was a great movie! I'm excited to finish the book during school break. We went to Chillies after words. More shopping and went to Roburitoes for the first time because dirk thinks it so sooo amazing. It was pretty good. Than party at my brothers. Today was my lazy Sundays nice walk with dirk and chance. (wow this blog is really lame) hah
Oh... some exciting new hah (not really) my town is finally putting in a freaking gym!!! It's good price and open alll the time! The one (big) thing I don't like about it is there isn't always staff their working. They have certain day time hours. I sometimes like to go like around 10ish 11 and at that time no employee will be ther and when I use to go to Planet fitness late at night there would be like 7 guys and maybe me and another girl. That's kinda scary and dirk is kinda weird out about that i dea because he has to work really early in the morning so he won't always be able to go with
FeelingsThe 24th Is going to be a really hard day for me. I have learned that it's best to tals about how you feel but then again on the otheer hand it's almost like i am scared to talk about it. I have always been like this some stuff on the surface i can talk about but the other stuff i am scared to.
Affableaffable\AF-uh-buhl\ , adjective;1.Easy to speak to; receiving others kindly and conversing with them in a free and friendly manner.2.Gracious; benign.
284Ideas shape the course of history. - John Maynard Keynes
Two Become One.. RedoneTonight As darkness falls Upon a moon kissed weary earth Stars sparkle in ebony skies Dancing in sweet rhythm To our whispered words of love Two bodies wrapped together In a sensuous lovers embrace A deep hunger for each other So plain to see upon each face Each heated touch Each fevered kiss Kindles white hot passion Brings oh such bliss Two hearts come together Now to beat as one Two souls joined forever Two bodies become one
Words Women UseFINE This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments. FIVE MINUTES This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it's an even trade. NOTHING This means "something," and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with "Fine" GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows! ) This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine" GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows) This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by "N
Sign From GodA woman and a man are involved in a car accident. Both of their cars are totally demolished but amazingly neither of them are hurt. After they crawl out of their cars, the woman says, "So you're a man, that's interesting. I'm a woman. Wow, just look at our cars! There's nothing left, but fortunately we are unhurt. This must be a sign from God that we should meet and be friends and live together in peace for the rest of our days." Flattered, the man replied, "Oh yes, I agree with you completely!" "This must be a sign from God!" The woman continued, "And look at this, here's another miracle. My car is completely demolished but this bottle of wine didn't break. Surely God wants us to drink this wine and celebrate our good fortune." Then she hands the bottle to the man. The man nods his head in agreement, opens it and drinks half the bottle and then hands it back to the woman. The woman takes the bottle, immediately puts the cap back on, and hands it back to the man. The man asks, "
Ugg HistoryDid you know that Australian Sheepskin Ugg boots have always been called Ug, Ugh or Ugg boots and have been made in Australia for almost 200 years? "We always called them Uggs, Smith says, "long before it was a trademarked brand." Brian Smith, Founder UGG Holdings, Inc. Los Angeles Magazine October 1st, 2001.The original Ug Boot. "Ug," (also spelled "Ugg" and "Ugh" in Australian dictionaries) is not a brand name but an age old generic term for this style of Australian-made sheepskin boot. In Aussie slang, the Ug name is short for "ugly." In terms of comfort, however, the Ugg Boots is a thing of beauty. The softness of the Australian Merino sheepskin produces a boot with a snug, cozy, form-fitting feel that’s more like a sock than a shoe, yet it’s rugged enough for outdoor wear. The fleece lining has the astonishing property of providing year-round comfort. In cold weather, the plush fleece provides an insulating layer of warmth by trapping your body heat, much like goose do
The Thing About LoveI THINK IM READY TO LET IT GO..THAT LOVE I WANT BUT WILL NOT KNOW. A STRONG MAN ON THE OUTSIDE IS WHAT I SHOW..BUT THE TENDERNESS AND WEAKNESS INSIDE, PEOPLE WILL NEVER KNOW. THAT SEED INSIDE ME THAT I JUST WANNA MAKE GROW AND GROW! AND OH HOW I DREAM OF A DAY WHERE LOVE WONT GO AWAY! THE THING THAT STAYS BY ME NO MATTER WHAT COMES MY WAY! BUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE LOVE U LOVE WANTS TO LOVE ANOTHER THE SAME WAY? I JUST WANNA SEE WHAT IT IS THATS WRONG WITH ME! SOMETIMES I BELIEVE..THAT THERES NOTHING OUT THERE WAITING FOR ME. AND WHY DOES IT SEEM...THAT A DREAM JUST STAYS A DREAM? THAT A MAN LIKE ME IS WAITING TO BE REDEEMED! JUST TAKE ME IN...TAKE ME IN THAT PLACE IN UR SOUL WHERE U DONT LET BE SEEN! THE THINKG ABOUT LOVE IS...ITS A VERY STRANGE THING...ITS SOMETHING U WANNA GIVE BUT IT SOMETIMES BRING U PAIN. SO I THINK IM READY TO LET IT GO...THAT LOVE I WANT BUT WILL NOT KNOW...THAT STRONG MAN ON THE OUTSIDE IS STARTING TO HAVE A SOUL SO COLD. AND DONT GIVE ME THE CRAP ABOUT MY AG
A Small UpdateHi all,At the moment I still have no internet access. I am currently at a friends house so I am able to use theirs for a few seconds. I am currently looking to get a new laptop (mine finally died) and establish some sort of an internet connection. I am still alive :) Thanks for all of the love while during my time offline. I hope to be back on soon. xoxo Lanah Layeau
An Angel Has Gone Home
TO SIGN MY HUSBANDS OBITUARIE IF YOU WANT TO SAY GOODBYE OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY TO OUR PRECIOUS MICKEY AKA SR DARK KNIGHT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT GOT TOOKEN WAY TO YOUNG. DEB http://www.funeralplan2.com/lawjones/obits?id=182692 ALSO I KNOW ALOT OF YOU KNEW THE BOTH OF US OR JUST HIM AND WOULD WANT TO PAY YOUR LAST RESPECTS SO THIS IS HERE FOR YOU ALSO, GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU AND BARE WITH ME THREW THIS GUY WRENCHING NIGHTMARE IN MY LIFE AND TRY TO LOVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, AND YES TRUE LOVE CAN HAPPEN ANYWHERE WE MET ON FUBAR 3 YEARS AGO AND GOT MARRIED IN REAL LIFE AND I WOULD HAVE RATHER LOVED HIM THEN TO HAVE NEVER KNOWN HIM SO THANK YOU FUBAR FOR A WONDERFUL GIFT LETTING ME MEAT MY SOULMATE ON YOUR SITE. LINK TO HIS PROFILE AS WELL RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS PROMO CHIEF 2ND ALARM HOTTIES~ LOVED MANY & LOVED RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS BLONDIE ECS~DSC~ LOVED MANY & LOVED@ fubar here is a blog done by a beautiful
An Angel Has Gone Home
TO SIGN MY HUSBANDS OBITUARIE IF YOU WANT TO SAY GOODBYE OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY TO OUR PRECIOUS MICKEY AKA SR DARK KNIGHT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT GOT TOOKEN WAY TO YOUNG. DEB http://www.funeralplan2.com/lawjones/obits?id=182692 ALSO I KNOW ALOT OF YOU KNEW THE BOTH OF US OR JUST HIM AND WOULD WANT TO PAY YOUR LAST RESPECTS SO THIS IS HERE FOR YOU ALSO, GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU AND BARE WITH ME THREW THIS GUY WRENCHING NIGHTMARE IN MY LIFE AND TRY TO LOVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, AND YES TRUE LOVE CAN HAPPEN ANYWHERE WE MET ON FUBAR 3 YEARS AGO AND GOT MARRIED IN REAL LIFE AND I WOULD HAVE RATHER LOVED HIM THEN TO HAVE NEVER KNOWN HIM SO THANK YOU FUBAR FOR A WONDERFUL GIFT LETTING ME MEAT MY SOULMATE ON YOUR SITE. LINK TO HIS PROFILE AS WELL RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS PROMO CHIEF 2ND ALARM HOTTIES~ LOVED MANY & LOVED RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS BLONDIE ECS~DSC~ LOVED MANY & LOVED@ fubar here is a blog done by a beautiful friend
Changethinking of making new pics.
any suggestions?
Black Friday Rip Offs!
Here are a few things bargain-hungry consumers need to know before they hit stores before dawn the day after Thanksgiving.
Here's a Black Friday reality check: Of the hordes of pre-dawn shoppers who line up for hours outside stores on the day after Thanksgiving, most will not bag the best bargains that appear in merchants' circulars.
Look at the fine print that appears next to an advertised "doorbuster deal" at the bottom of the page in this year's circulars.
It will either say "While supplies last," "Minimum 2 per store," "No rainchecks" or "All items are available in limited quantities."
A quick scan through a few of this year's Black Friday circulars show quantities as low as a "minimum of 5 per store" on some models of large plasma and HDTVs and popular brands of home appliances such as a washer-dryer pair.
Should Black Friday deal hunters feel cheated? Yes they should, say some retail experts.
"It's a sleazy practice," said Craig Johnson, retailing expert an
$350k For One Glove???
Would you ever pay $350,000 for one shimmering white glove? I guess you would if you had money to burn. A Hong Kong rich guy, Hoffman Ma, paid that much at an auction for the glove Michael Jackson wore in 1983 when he did the moon walk for the first time. The glove was estimated to bring in $40,000 to $60,000. I think I’ll make a YouTube video of me moon walking with a glove on.
http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2009/11/21/jacksons-glove-grabs-g-auction/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%253A+foxnews%252Fentertainment+%2528FOXNews.com+-+Entertainment%2529You can read about it here: .
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Free LancingOk so I love making bullies and tags...If you want me to make you something TAGS are 10k and BULLIES are 25k... sb or Pm me
RefineryI wake up today to find out that there was a fire at the refinery. Apparently a nice blue-black cloud of burned oil filled smoke rolled across town. Both my cars, and all 4 of my roommates cars are now covered in little black spots of burned oil. Fucking Ohio.
Girl FriendsWhen I was 14, I hoped that one day I would have a girlfriend.
When I was 16, I got a girlfriend, but there was no passion,
so I decided I needed a passionate girl with a zest for life.
In university I dated a passionate girl, but she was too emotional.
Everything was an emergency; she was a drama queen, cried all the time
and threatened suicide. So I decided I needed a girl with stability.
When I was 25, I found a very stable girl, but she was boring.
She was totally predictable and never got excited about anything.
Life became so dull that I decided I needed a girl with some excitement.
When I was 28, I found an exciting girl, but I couldn't keep up with her.
She rushed from one thing to another, never settling on anything.
She did mad impetuous things and made me miserable as often as happy.
She was great fun initially and very energetic, but directionless.
So I decided to find a girl with some real ambition.
When I turned 31, I found a smart,
Just LostI am lost amongst the thievesWho took my life away from meWhy can't they leave me beAnd let me die PeacefullyThey haunt me in my dreams Always coming after me This is why I never sleepIn fears they will find me torturing my insanity!Maybe this is why no one will love meFor I am damaged beyond repair.I ruin all I touch and all the people that careMy heart feels so bare.I curl into a ball and cryThe darkness I seekI am feeling so weekI don't know how long i'll surviveFor I am lost the reality is goneI don't really feel alive
A Mothers Lovejust to be happy again would be nice to have my heart whole again...This well never be again I have lost every..Sitting here in tears thinking about my sons and how much I miss them and love them...I well never get to see them again..I am missing so much My babies are my every thing...I am so lost with out them...Omfg it hurt so much and it is killing me not seeing them...I just wish there jerk of a father would wake the hell up but he well never well..
WomenI thought I had women figured out, well at least one. She tells me that she want to be with me. I continue to be nice to her and wait on her to get things in her life straight. Seems like that is a snowball's chance in hell. I am just not going to let it get to me. Women Suck! not just one, All women. From this day on I must take a woman's word as one would take that of a habitual liar, not very trustworthy! I MUST LIVE UP TO MY SCRENE NAME, "THE TIN MAN"
WordsThe Power Of Words
Have you ever stop to think about the words that you say? When you are angry, is it not words that we use to hurt someone else? If one uses the right words you can bring someone to their knees. Saying something like you are a worthless piece of shit, can stab someone's heart and hurt them more deeply than if you were to hit them. Why are humans like this? Why are we not consciously aware of what we say? When Jesus was hanging on the cross, the physical pain his body was feeling was not enough for some. Some had to add to his suffering. They said harsh things to him to make the pain he felt , go to his soul. Even given where Jesus was, he did not use words to hurt them back. No,instead he ask his father to forgive them because they didnt know what they were doing. How true that was. We use words to get back at others. To hurt them in a way they will never forget. For some the hurtful words live with them forever. They feel the pain forever as well. So instead of want
Tomorrow I Startliving better. I need to get into shape again.
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For Our Mafia!I had a buddy of mine make us a tag so that we can get more ppl into our turf and our crew. I will get all a link to it so when we use it they will click the link and it goes right to our turf and that way we can BLAST OURSELVES!!!
My good buddy The Dark Man made this for us so please you guys give him much thanks for what he did cuz he has his own crew but he hooked us up, here is his link ...
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Poetry Workshop 7/2/09Workshop w/Nicole
Prompt: I was taught…& now I know
Funny little lessons sprinkled on a childhood veiled in normalcy.
Strange how by example sunk deeper into my awareness
of conscious than any by the hand preaching ever could.
I was taught by stitched up lips that speaking up was sacrilege,
that the gaze of our pupils were only meant to be cursory acquaintances.
There’s a Grand Canyon gap few are aware of
between being taught a lesson and learning one.
My misshapen diction that never found a puzzle piece home,
always felt worn-in comfortable.
Edit by 50%
By example sunk deeper into my conscious awareness
than any lesson taught by hand in a childhood veiled in normalcy.
Speaking up was sacrilege screamed those stitched up lips.
My direct gaze never quite catching your pupils’ perpetual dance of escape.
Misshapen diction without a puzzle piece home fit me just like worn-in comfortable shoes.
Edit to 50 words
Examples quicksa
All MovedMoving went pretty smooth. Not even a drop of rain. It rained the day before and after I moved, which was nice. I had a few people helping me. Kari unpacked for me. Myke was there for a few hours until he had to go back to work. Turtle was there for a couple hours but wanted to go home early. Randy came and helped which was nice. My dad even helped and brought his good son over to help bring in a couch and help mount my tv onto the wall. I had bought a 32 inch flat screen tv. Yay..so I have a nice tv in the living room...a old tv in my bed room that was given to me.
I have the net and cable set up today. It's been way too quiet without anything and I been real bored. I am waiting for the ex to move his stuff out. I asked him when he planned on getting his crap out..he said he wasn't sure...either monday or tuesday. I told him, to get his stuff out by Tuesday night or I will be tossing it. He has all this time to be packing and moving shit over. I need time to clean up the place before
Ladies Man In The Making...is what my four year old son is. Yesterday was his season ending soccer game. Beautiful sunny day, just the right chill. He has been sick recently so I, being an over protective Mom, wanted to keep him out of the game. Well, I gave in and he played the last quarter. There he was running around, not paying any attention, and then he all of sudden got the ball! He passed it to his teammate, a pretty little blonde, and she passed it back. They went down the field passing it back and forth as their coach had painstakenly taught them all season. My son made it to the goal, stopped, stepped back, and motioned to the little blonde to make the goal. Which she did, happily.
We don't keep score at this level. We only have fun...but my son won everyone's heart.
Insanin StylesRhymes i kick unamazed. Fuck no i'm not phased. But i'm death crazed. Ima hardcore ill tick tock spiitin ill black juggala. Nothin not stoppin ya. Tell me how fine i am. What you wanna peice of this fine black ass. Deranged crazy & psycho off with dispackagin stablishin rhymes rough times committin without crimes unsigns see through the reap to weap decrease in pain for the seize. Chicker the checker mic 1-9 wrecker offer to breaker then leavin ya hold up for a stake up. Ain't have much since goin through break up. Fuck i'm a rip loose lost in a mind trip. You tell me what the fuck. & i'm here with my huge fhat 9 inch stuck in ya white girl's slut mayonnaise butt. Off into holds fallin with no control. Losin my mind insanity no grip. I have no soul. Where mind leads off into wonderin hallowin ungoin & swallowin. Untold called for 4's in the back of a store acid rush to kickin trippy. Mind insane to driftin shiftin in changin in. had a dream i walked up in a house. Idk thought it was h
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Insane SpazinHere i come spittin half ill ish. Horrorcorish ill lyricism spittim. Nothin get's em. Call me what you want i don't care ass or dick. I spits with the ill wicked shit. Nothin to loose half out with itz. I'ma keep goin on with what i'm sayin fuck ain't no playin. I got skills ill be the illest black half rap juggalo. None spittin average flows yo so. Here i go dippity dabbity twistin up the funk scheme flow turnin insanin ill flawin powerin. No stallin. Raise up dead bodies i'm iller then blacker to attack ya. Its the black wicked juggala aka the nightstalker back on the prowl. You don't know how no my dayum name ain't sal. & i'm not your fuckin pal bitch. I curse use profanity out of my own insanity. No you or anyone can tell me what i wanna do. I do just what the fuck i wanna do. Say what the fuck i wanna say speakin of which. I don't wanna black bitch. I wanna thick white queen. With a curvy mayonnaise lookin ass so fhat. Its all stacked with 44 ddd's. Believes how its not to perceiv
Horoscope What?You may find yourself pulling together diverse people and/or things for a single purpose today, Scorpio. It seems that the planetary focus is on cooperation in some way. These configurations could also be about finding ways to adjust to unfamiliar situations, especially at home. You may find yourself around people whose ideas may be quite different from yours, and if so, the need is to express your identity rather than trying to suppress it. You need to do your best to allow others their opinions, and not try to judge their standards by your own.
Up... Down...Up...
Down...
Inside...
Outside...
Crazy..
Love...
Resentment...
Trust...
Control...
Lost...
Walls...
Falling...
Ending...
Beginning...
Spinning...
Laughing...
Crying...
Excitement...
Trying...
Done...
See How Many You Can Find..LETS SEE HOW MANY SPELLING ERRORS U CAN FIND.lol
I AM VARY BOARD IS THIER ANYTHING FUN I CAN DO HEAR ON FU? SHOULD I LISTNE TO MUSIC MAYBE BLACK LABLE SOCIOTY? HOW ABOUT IF I GO MAKE RAINDEER PICTIRES AND ZOMBE PICS. I CAN'T SPEL VERY WELL ,MAYBE TOMMORROW I CAN.
THERE ARE 12 MISTAKES CAN YOU FIND THEM? LOL YEAH I BET MY FRIEND CHRIS CAN LMFAO...
NaughtyAs i gaze in your eyes Ill take you holding you ever so close Ill slip my tongue inside your mouth as our tongues circle sensually togeather in a heat of passion Ill take my tongue as I glide my tongue up along your neck kissing my way up to your ear Ill flick the tip of your ear with my tongue and then playfully nibble and tug your ear Ill softly Whisper "I want you" ohhh yess my love I want that you feel my words of passion and know my hearts desire is to please you I want nothing but to take you to worlds of intense pleasure and sensual seduction "Ill gently lay your body down under the full moon stary sky my my hands gracefully running up and down your warm soft beautiful body caressing you with my touch my tongue now circling along your shoulders placing warm passionate kisses and bites along your shoulders Ill take my hand as I let my finger tips graze along your thigh and up and around in between your inner thighs Ill open your legs wide enough to allow my figers to gracefully
DarknessI tried so hard to tell you that you would cause me a pain like none other .Neither one of us seemed to care of the pain I knew was to come. So caught up in our time together no thought to how we could hurt the other. I knew you would devastate my very soul. I tried to tell you. Now the darkness has settled over me like a great fog over the water. No light is allowed to break through the darkness I feel. No happiness allowed to dwell within. Just a deep dark abyss of sorrow and pain. A vortex spiraling out of control to the deepest darkest pits of hell. I have tried for so long to keep the darkness away and in one fell swoop it has descended upon me again. A few stolen moments of happiness and more laughter than I had known in so long a sharing of my soul with you and now nothing but darkness to replace every happy thought I had. Every second I’m awake it is pure torture. Every second of my dreaming hours you haunt and taunt me bringing only more despair to my already shattered h
Brick By Boring Brick - ParamoreWell she lives in the fairy taleSomewhere too far for us to findForgotten the taste and smellOf a world that she's left behindIt's all about the exposure the lens I told herThe angles are all wrong nowShe's ripping wings off of butterfliesKeep your feet on the groundWhen your head's in the cloudsWell go get your shovelAnd we'll dig a deep holeTo bury the castle, bury the castleGo get your shovelAnd we'll dig a deep holeTo bury the castle, bury the castleBa da ba ba da ba ba daSo one day he found her cryingCoiled up on the dirty groundHer prince finally came to save herAnd the rest you can figure outBut it was a trickAnd the clock struck 12Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brickor the wolf's gonna blow it downKeep your feet on the groundWhen your head's in the cloudsWell go get your shovelAnd we'll dig a deep holeTo bury the castle, bury the castleGo get your shovelAnd we'll dig a deep holeWe'll bury the castle, bury the castleWoah, woah.Well you built up a world of magi
Retired HusbandRETIRED HUSBAND:After I retired, my wife insisted that I accompany her on her trips to Target. Unfortunately, like most men, I found shopping boring and preferred to get in and get out. Equally unfortunate, my wife is like most women - she loves to browse.Yesterday my dear wife received the following letter from the local Target.Over the past six months, your husband has caused quite a commotion in our store. We cannot tolerate this behavior and have been forced to ban both of you from the store. Our complaints against your husband, Mr. Samsel, are listed below and are documented by our video surveillance cameras.1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in other people's carts when they weren't looking.2. July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in House wares to go off at 5-minute intervals.3. July 7: He made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the women's restroom.4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told her in an official voice, 'Code 3 in House wares. Get
BeyondIt is now beyond two days but I'll let it go another 12 days and see where I am at in two weeks overall? That physician might be right. I may come a running to the ER?
What was going on at Cooper, like other hospitals, the Resident's and the Nurses are the ones making the decision as far as any medication or surgery. If I didn't add my two cents of my past medical history and how these meds were affecting me than I'd be screwed over and over.
I saw how I was going down hill in my pain of my Cervica Spine and my over all condition so I decided to leave. 10 minutes I was headed out of Camden on 676. Asked the Nurse which way is out, Security Officer for the front door, and the Receptionist to call me a Cab. Cab arrived in five minutes.
Surgery was in their court and they did their best. Now it is up to God.
Norio
Achesmy heart is full . my soul aches . you touch i await , im so scare to hope , been ther before , shot down badly . i dream of being happy of being with you . but i know what i desire might never be true .i sing in my heart and cry with my eyes ... i never felt more like hiding away from everyone , so they cant see how easy it would be to make me shatter in a million pieces , if you ripped my heart out . i think imi just dying ,my heart crying to have you here with me , can i go on by myself ...i hate it sooooooooo much .
Paramore - The Only Exception
When I was youngerI saw my daddy cryAnd cursed at the windHe broke his own heartAnd I watchedAs he tried to reassemble itAnd my momma swore thatShe would never let herself forgetAnd that was the day I promisedI'd never sing of loveIf it does not existBut darlin,You, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionMaybe I know, somewhereDeep in my soulThat love never lastsAnd we've got to find other waysTo make it aloneOr keep a straight faceAnd i've always lived like thisKeeping a comfortable, distanceAnd up until nowI had sworn to myself that I was contentWith lonelinessCos none of it was ever worth the risk, butYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionI've got a tight grip on realityBut I can'tLet go of what's in front of me hereI know your leavingIn the morning, when you wake upLeave me with some proof its not a dreamOhh---You, are, the only exceptionY
Omfg..things.It's nice having a cell number that not many peole know. I do miss the texts though. Not the ones from the person that made me change it. I'll be getting around to texting the people on my phone with my new number later.
If I remember right, my parents are the ones that kicked me out. When I left, so did my children. Since then, they've done nothing but complain about how they don't have much food or money. If I'm not mistaken, they said I didn't pay for anything...that I didn't contribute. WTFever, I know I did. I am the one that bought food for everyone and I bought them stupid shit that they didn't need. That way they could afford the stuff they needed AND wanted. I've blogged about this before.
What made me start on that rant again is the fact that they pretty much said I kept the boys away from them on purpose. As some kind of punishment. I'm not doing it with that in mind. I just know that I get off work at 4. My oldest gets picked up close to 5. By the time he eats dinner and
My Trip To The ErUPDATE: I am finally home(Friday), Dr came in and told me everything... so Tuesday night i had a migraine coming on so i took my imitrex, well about 30 minutes later, i started to get shooting pains in my head and my jaw locked up and my chest started to tighten up. well i didn't think anything of it.. (yea stupid me) and i just went to bed. well the next day the pain was still there... so i went to the er (Wednesday).... they admitted me asap... they thought i was having a heart attack SO.... they hooked me up to an iv.. gave me morphine and nitro and had to inject me with blook thinners so my blood wouldn't clot and put me on a 12 lead EKG. the morphine wasn't working so they had to go stronger.. and they had to take me to xray... at this time.. my BP was 168/116 and my heart rate was 125, i had a fever. they had to give me a bettablocker.. if i spelt that right... well they got my heartrate down BUT it also got my blood pressure way down... tooo low ... it was 78/54. and at this tim
Little Johnny Strikes AgainThe teacher asked the class to use the word 'fascinate' in a sentence.Molly put up her hand and said, 'My family went to my granddad's farm, and we all saw his pet sheep. It was fascinating.'The teacher said, 'That was good, but I wanted you to use the word 'fascinate, not fascinating'.Sally raised her hand. She said, 'My family went to see Rock City and I was 'fascinated.'The teacher said, 'Well, That was good Sally, but I wanted you to use the word 'fascinate.'Little Johnny raised his hand. The teacher hesitated because she had been burned by Little Johnny before.She finally decided there was no way he could damage the word 'fascinate', so she called on him.Johnny said, 'My aunt Gina has a sweater with ten buttons, but her tits are so big she can only fasten eight.'
The teacher sat down and cried.
Fogging The MirrorsI needed release. This was a simple fact, I knew; a result of uncontrollable circumstance. I supposed that everyone knew tension like this on a personal basis, but I wondered as I closed the door behind me if everyone felt as much lust built up with it. I had sat at my desk for most of the day trying to focus on work; but I nevertheless found myself dreaming of your gentle caress and expert touch. An ache had been building within me, bringing a distinct wetness to my nether regions. I knew it as I lit the candles and oil lamps; I knew it as I filled the bath with hot, bubbly water; I knew it as I smelled the aroma of musk permeate the room from the incense. I needed release. As I stepped into the bath, removing my small silk robe and leaving it on a hook beside the bath, the warming touch of the water drew all my tension away. I lowered myself into the steamy water, allowing it to engulf me in its warm and soapy embrace. I sighed. It felt so wonderfully relaxing, my mind quickly drift
What Shall I Do Now?As you probably know by if you've read my previous blogs or mumms, I was in a bad relationship. Been over 2 yrs. I'm ready to move on & what happened in the past is past. Looking ahead to what the future holds. Just because 1 person ruined my faith in females does not mean all females will be like her. GOD I sure hope not!! LOL
I've been off & on here. Can't say if I am looking for Miss Right on here or not. I guess I am just waiting for her to fall out of the sky & say "Here I am. The woman you've been looking for all your life" If I think that is gonna happen I might as well keep dreaming. I guess I'm looking for someone to just pop up & tell me I've been looking for someone like me.
Really looking forward to my class reunion next weekend. I'll probably be the only one there without a date but it wouldn't be the 1st time I went alone. Too late tho to find someone to go with me. Only God & time will tell me what will happen in the future. Until then, life goes on & so does my search
This Is For Ma ChatonWell now down my memories through nightmares,
along lonely roads paved with the fallen.
I walk alone, always alone.
Forever searching for ma chaton,
I pass a way gate and for a moment I scent her,
but the wind changes and the scent vanishes.
Where is ma chaton?
how did I lose her?
where can I find her?
A sudden change in the wind,
nothing but a breeze but a scent is in it.
It is HER!
MA CHATON!
I run, fast and sure, following my nose,
through way gate after way gate!
through time and space,
I claw at the very walls of the void!
tearing a hole I move fast into a strange jungle,
always following her delicate scent.
Through to brush I see her looking alone and frightened
I run to her and take her into my arms holding her close as my wings enclosed her protectively hearing her small mew then who content sigh as she snuggles against my chest,
I look down the and kisses her deeply before whispering “I will hold you forever ma chaton! And I will never lose you ag
Off My Chest....Dear Shallow,
I've been thinking of a nice way to put this, but the solution has escaped me, so here goes.
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME! I'm so tired of the whispering, lame status's, and conjecture, among you and your judgemental fu-minions. Seriously, you haven't a clue. And if you'd like the correct information, why not come directly to the source, instead of playing the telephone game like a bunch of children?
A lot has transpired in the past several months. None of which is any of your business, at this point. So, it may stand to reason that your information is incorrect. Just a thought.
You know what else would be swell? If you would stop lurking my page, and my friend's pages, to see what I am saying to them. So creepy. You're not really all that invisible. Your passive aggresive is showing. Might want to tuck that in.
If you don't care for me, or how I live my life, then please feel free to fuck off. I promise you that I just don't care anymore. I have plenty of friends, none of
Damn FriendsSo, last night my friends took me out for my bday. I'm thinking out to eat and then to a club of some sort. Yeah, we hit a club alright. A flippin' strip club. Then they proceeded to tell the dude there that it was my bday and next thing I know, I'm up on stage TIED to a frigging chair and all of the strippers proceeded to rub their tits and crotches on my face and every other available body part I have. Let's not forget for the finale, they untied me, made me get down on my hands and knees and proceed to SPANK me with a fucking belt. Suffice to say, I woke up this morning smelling like liquor, baby oil and snatch.
Fun times.
Is It Wrong??To have such horrible and fucked up and twisted thoughts?
Example:
Acts of sadistic torture.. Like I would LOVE to do this to a few people O.O
Tie em up to a pole, buck naked, in the middle of a cow pasture, filled with a bunch of hungry baby cows...
I think I've lost it.
Finally!
My Little TragedyMy sin is treachery. I say one thing and do other Lies caught up dying With your tyranny Deep inside of me Put yourself in my place And feel what I feel I'm into deep with you My little tragedy I'm into deep with you My little tragedy With your slavery you on top of me with your nails in my face scratch in bleeding I'm in to deep with you And all you do is Fucking hurt me. I'm into deep with you My little tragedy I'm into deep with you I'm falling like a stone into water And when you learn to swim You want to pick me up again I'll be gone Driven to see. Ahhh ahhhh ahhhhh ahhhh I'm into deep with you My little tragedy I'm into deep with you My little tragedy
Have You Ever??Seen those stupid infomercials for As Seen On TV crap?
Have you ever noticed how they always double or triple the offers?
Why??
Is it because the stuff is a piece of shit and will break? Even when they PROMISE that it will last forever?
So why double or triple the offer?
Dumbasses......
Oh yeah, Love you all.
Fuck you and have a nice day! :D
Just A Pictureit's just a picture...
yet when i look in your eyes, i see joy, pain...far away places
it's just a picture...
yet throughout the day it flashes in my mind... makes me smile
it's just a picture...
that draws me to you...makes me say silly things & try to get to know you
it's just a picture...
i think... when i can tell that i am not the only one...
it was just a picture,
i whisper as i walk away from the computer when you break my heart.
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GoodbyeWhat should I do
I'm just watching you
I can't even say a short farewell
Your hands slowly slipping away
What should I do
I no longer held your hands
Nor utter a word
My heart overwhelmed with tears
Barely can I hide my bitterness
You are walking farther away
The heart that I couldn't hold on to
What should I do
Don't forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even thou this is a painful farewell,I'm glad that it was you
For now, this is a journey, I must walk alone
Goodbye
Sweet DreamsThis morning as I lay sleepingAs vision came to meIt was of you and IA wonderous sight to see
And in the dream I hadI reached and touched your faceI clasped your hand in mineAnd felt your warm embrace
I pressed my lips to yoursTo taste your kiss so sweetYou held me for a minuteIn this moment that did fleet
I wakened from the dreamWith a thought of you that stayedWith me throughout the dayAnd never once did fade
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Busy But HappyI am HAPPY that I've been able to catch up with some of my peeps. Lynn and I have been unpacking and getting the house set up. We took this weekend off to watch some football. We grilled out and had a Great weekend. I am learning to cook and suppose to cook Chicken and Dumplings today or Monday. School is out for 10 days and I'll have less time to unpack till Sara goes back to school. We have TONS of stuff to do with her while she is out of school. She is learning to play the PS2. She has done well the past 4 months. I still can't play. LOL I Fu' instead. We at least have time to unpack b4 Christmas hits. I know where 1/2 my decorations are. I will have my tree! The kids are geared to see Santa and eat cookies. We bake too many this time of year. We have a puppy now her name is Me-Ha Means babygirl. Sara LOVES her. I am not an animal person BUT this dog is smart and has won me over. She is a Minn. Jack Russell Terr. and is house traied. Thank God. We can leave her home and she won't te
Getting Over"Always remember that pain is necessary and suffering is optional. It's always YOUR choice.
well, i am over it, i am done , and happy now, i am free, looking back,i can always say,sigh, ohh boy what an experience, ..i can just smile,ohh yes, i remeber the boy, but i cant remeber the feelings anymore,...it's weird, but TRUE!
An Unfinished DreamWe returned to our respective places
Back to our daily rigid lifestyle
Putting behind the days our laughters entwined to each other
Sometimes, I will look at those photos
Reminiscing those days
You would say," I'm crazy"
Staring at you at a corner,immersed at what you are doing
You shyly looks at me and say that," I'm crazy"
Yes. I'm crazy for you
Fallen for you and who wouldn't
You are an amazing person with a gentle heart
Only a fool will walk past without noticing your presence
You will say I am insane to have such thoughts
Yes.I'm insane for you
You are a disease that I hope for no cure
I want to die in your hands
I want to be controlled by you
I want you to be inside of me
The morning sun shines
Its time to wake up again
Back to my daily routine
Putting you back to the place
For the time now,rest well
I will see you tonight
In my dreams
Thoughts Of Love...Well I have had many thoughts on this topic. this is also my very first blog in my whole life so dont be too harsh. Love it what makes people want to do things. just like in the beetles song... All you need is love. thats all i need to be happy. i would be happy living on the street having to scrounge up money to get a mcdonalds cheeseburger to eat, just as long as i had someone to love, and them love me back just the same amount. Love I never say this word if i dont mean it. this word is very powerful to some and very weak to others... if you say it a lot no one will believe you and just think your a player.. i have been talking to someone really nice, she doesnt live too far from me. she is in this subject because yeah i love this girl as a friend. She has been nothing but nice to me very awesome personality and just an all around great person. i want to like her more. but im so worried. ive always had worries about love too many times ive been heartbroken and left because they wante
A New BeginingI know its been some time since i wrote one of these but then again allot has changed since i last wrote in my life.They say that a person can live there whole life without ever knowing love or being loved.Well I myself figured i would be the one never to find that true thing we all search and look for.In fact when it found me I had given up completely on the whole idea.Then something happend that changed my veiw on just about everything i thought i knew.
Well one night here in fuland I was mixing live in a lounge when this nice girl asked me to play a song.I was fortunate to have it on hand even though it was a hard to find song.Well we talked bit became freinds and passively kept in touch.I didnt know at this time how important this girl would be to me and mean to me in the time to come.I just figured hey i made a new freind and all was good.Turn the clock forward a ways and i love this girl with all my heart.She means more to me than I ever thought was possable.The thing i
Never Look Inside Your Own MindI've started looking into my own mind, and it's a place I really don't like. The week I had last week, followed by this week end of silence has caused me to really examine myself.
One should never do that, unless they are prepared to see themselves as something less than they are.
In searching my self, I've found I don't even know me anymore. For years, I have buried the person that I once was, and have left them far behind.
Who am I now?
This is something that I don't even know. I look at who I have become and wonder if I could even like that person.
I have accomplished goals that I have set for myself, but at what cost? I've lost myself along the way, and I don't know if I can go back.
I don't even know if I want to go back.
All I know is that some how, I have to reconcile who I was, with who I am and find a way to keep what little sanity I have. Happiness is something I don't know if I can ever find, I'll settle for contentment.
To be strong for my son, that is al
Doing What Needed To Be Done!There are just somethings that you and only you can do to fix a problem that has become out of control! There's only so much one can take before it takes you past the limit of understanding what must be done! There was a time,a very long time 20 years or so,that I was well known for(and still proud of)the way I fight and handled my own everytime! Well after getting older and wiser I changed my ways and lifestyle so I didn't have to put myself in that position anymore.Well ya ever hear this old saying"LET SLEEPING DOGS LYE"? LMFAO SOME POOR BASTURD JUST WOKE THIS ONE UP!!!
YouI am not going to name names, but if it fits, you might want to think about it. One or more may apply to the same person. If it really bothers you that one may be about you feel free to ask in my mail but do not get mad if I am honest.1. You only talk to me when you have no one else around to speak to.2. You ask me to rate your pictures and others stuff yet you cannot take time to rate mine unless it is NSFW.3. You have known me for years, yet we barely speak anymore.4. You are a constant source of laughs when you text me.5. You only speak to me because you seem to feel obligated.6. You were one of my sweetest friends until you decided to hang out with the wrong sorts.7. You are MY constant, and I love you for it.8. You have a wonderful boyfriend who adores you; I hope you do not take that for granted.9. You have become like a big brother to me and I cherish you.10. You always pop around my inbox just to say have a wonderful/great/magnificent day and I appreciate you for that.11. You a
Fun Survey Woo HooWhere does the last person you kissed go to school?he's done with schoolWhat was the first thing you did this morning?got a showerDo you care of what people think of you?sometimes I doWho was the last person you took a picture with?dirkLast person you went to the movies with?Caity today to see New MoonWhat are you looking forward to right now?sleeping in tomorrow and the holidaysDoes your crush like you back?he betterHow many people have you liked in the past 8 months?a couple because I was single for a litlteWhat did you do today?had a great day movies and lunch at chillis with Caity, went to dirks took a nap when he watched tv went out shopping and out to dinner than party at my brothersDoes anyone hate you for no reason?I dont think soHave you ever kissed someone who's name starts with the letter C?yesHas anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it back?oh yeahToday did you hug a person you have feelings for?yesIs the person you like older or younger than you?older
It's All In The Detailsi'm not on so much these days and when i am, i rarely take time to blog. it's not as much fun when the crazy daywalkers aren't around to comment but here are some details from life as of late...
1. the pharmacy i work at has been associated through past ownership with a current investigation into prescription narcotics trafficking. a pharmacist friend of mine has been arrested and is still in jail. the pharmacy he worked at was shut down which resulted in a 33% daily increase in prescription volume for us with no additional help. it's been stressful because i was worried about losing my job and because of the extra workload. between driving and actually working, i worked close to 60 hours the last couple of weeks.
i am, by far not a law abiding citizen. as soon as i learned about the investigation, i text my boss (lucky bastard was out of town) to ask what i needed to do to make sure our asses were covered just in case. i did end up flushing some things. see, the man that used to
Realizations V21. Something is wrong with me. No point whore is willing to fuMarry me. =[
2. The people that are on the top for winning at the slots and poker really don't have good luck. They probably just spent an ungodly amount of money to get creidits.
3. It's nice having a new phone number that only 4 people know the number to. [if you're on my phone and you don't have the new number yet, you'll get it]
4. I didn't realize, until today, how many weirdos I know. It's scary.
5. It's looking like things are looking up for me and I couldn't be happier. Maybe December will be a good month and a great start at something new.
6. As always, I love my friends.
RawrMysteryI wish you could know how it feels to be me,Why I appear so intoxicated,When I let you inside to seek,Looking for what you seem to need.Some nights you enter ever so tenderly,Others you ravage and plunder,Pervading primed lips, as I silently wonder,As host, which pair you like most.Occasionally you command my head,Forcefully pushing down,Saturating my mouth with your entirety,As I succumb to the rhythm that you need.Intensity enflames me,When you speak my name in ecstasy,Igniting a craving, insistent that I mount,To fuse us with its heat.At times you are a hungry lion,Stalking, as soon as I step through your door,And I fear being torn apart, resisting,As savagely you thrust, the moment tasting.Desperately searching,Exploring for something I hide,You tunnel further with every stride,Into the cave that houses my soul,Digging for a treasure to make you whole,One you think is buried within,Beneath my skin.Although, I know not what you're mining for,And so you are,And forever will re
A Wedding To Remember
Your Invited to the Wedding Between
Worshipful Master ~~♥★TexasBabygirl★♥~~
Date: November 22, 2009
Time: 10pm est 7pm pst
Locate: http://www.fubar.com/lounge/69381
For YouI know sometimes it is hard to see things the way others do especially about yourself. You are honest, caring, passionate, dedicated, loyal, very respectful and a great loving father.
When I think of you many things come to mind. I love you , I value your opinion , I trust you wholeheartedly and I know you would never intentionally hurt me. I would never hurt you either.
You Know we all have inner demons and fears we need to conquer. I know it's hard to look from the outside and see things as they are. Seeing the whole picture isnt always easy, but in order to figure out the future we have to see what is truly there . We have to be able to embrace and communicate it.
We cannot turn our back on friendship, love or any other amazing connections we may make in the crazy game of life. You and I have made a true connection since we have gotten to know one another.I thank heaven for you every night. So, for a moment sit back see yourself as the man that I do
That's Right! And With A Smile :dDon't fuck with me.
Don't piss me off.
Don't bitch and moan to me.
Don't whine to me about your problems.
Otherwise, you'll just get a big FUCK YOU and with a smile :D
Just taking an emotional break ;)
Why, Why, WhyWhy do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money?Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"?If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner , then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put
Micro$oft Vs GmAt a recent computer expo (COMDEX), Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated,"If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25.00 cars that got 1,000 miles to the gallon."In response to Bill's comments, General Motors issued a press release stating:If GM had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics (and I just love this part):1. For no reason whatsoever, your car would crash........Twice a day.2. Every time they repainted the lines in the road, you would have to buy a new car.3. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason. You would have to pull to the side of the road, close all of the windows, shut off the car, restart it, and reopen the windows before you could continue. For some reason you would simply accept this.4. Occasionally, executing a maneuver such as a left turn would cause your car to shut down and refuse t
Job Interview - IndiaPranjal was trying to get a job in India ..The Personnel Manager said, 'Pranjal, you have passed all the tests, except one.Unless you pass it , you cannot qualify for this job.'Pranjal said, 'I am ready.'The manager said, 'Make a sentence using the words Yellow, Pink, and Green ..'Pranjal thought for a few minutes and said, 'Mister manager, I am ready'The manager said, 'Go ahead.'Pranjal said, 'The telephone goes green, green , and I pink it up, and say,Yellow, this is Pranjal.'Pranjal now works at a call center.No doubt you have spoken to him. I know I have
GloryI - i feel no pain i feel no life i feel im falling
I - am full of lies decieving lies i feel im falling
out - down a hole i feel so low i feel im falling
I - i see no light and i know why i feel im falling
chorus
and now i see
will you take away my yesterdays
and now i know
will you come and change my life
I - i feel no pain i feel no life i feel im falling
I - am full of lies decieving lies i feel im falling
out - down a hole i feel so low i feel im falling
I - i see no light and i know why i feel im falling
chorus
and now i see
will you take away my yesterdays
and now i know
will you come and change my life
bridge
glory oh lord
i give you all my praise
glory oh lord
jesus is your name
for i know that i am changed
please forgive my sins
and i will be your child
glory is your glory is your name
Germanegermane\juhr-MAYN\ , adjective;1.Appropriate or fitting; relevant.
SoulTake me down from this immortal pedestal you have placed me upon.
I am nothing but a mere mortal just as you.
When you are cut do you not bleed? Then surely I bleed as well.
When you are hurt do you not cry out in pain?
Then surely when I am hurt I cry but when I hurt my very heart and soul cry.
When you are angry do you not yell with great frustration?
The differences between you and I is this when I get angry the screams echo and vibrate off my very soul over and over leaving a mark upon my very soul. A mark that runs so deep it will never be healed.
How I wish I could cut my feelings and emotions off like so many people seem to be able to. Yet I am doomed to love for ever more. When I cry I try to keep it in and my soul mourns silently with a deep despair like none has ever seen. I can not give you the pleasure of knowing how you have cut me to the very core of my soul.
283Even a paranoid has some real enemies. - Henry A. Kissinger
Helping My Girlfriend. :)As some of you may know, my girlfriend (who is also my #1 in both the friends and family lists) needs help leveling. What she needs is to be worth 25,000,000 in fuOwned.
I don't have nearly enough fubucks for that at this very moment, so I'm asking for your help. I'm asking for whatever you can do. Rates, comments, fubucks donations, anything at all. Later this week, I'll even be able to offer a 25-credit bling pack to the first person who altruizes me in order to help me do this.
As my girlfriend has two children and is doing a damn good job of raising them on her own while working and being a full-time student, she doesn't get to go out and do many of the things that myself and some of you can do. Fubar is her outlet to chill and have some fun. Being able to level would mean a lot to her, and being able to help her would mean so much to me. I love making her happy! :) That's what a good boyfriend tries to do, right?
I thank you in advance for any amount of help that you ca
I Have Lost My Will Toargue stupid fucking things in the mumms.I cant bring myself to it.Why?I will only get the same half idiotic/half copy and pasted response.No matter the mumm.The words might not be the same,but the idea is.I no longer enjoy it.I think I am ill and should seek help.Pissing people off used to be so much fun.Now I yawn.PK is asleep and I am bored.This blows.More punk music and shitty comments I guess.
The NightStill a mystery,I can’t figure out;Race home from work,Where life is without.*****I race to see you,And hold you to me;My mind says you’re there,And my heart won’t see.*****I open the door,It’s still a surprise:You’re not there,And tears fill my eyes.*****I need someone,Or call on the phone;But nothing breaks the silence,Of these walls made of stone.*****I punish myself,By refusing to eat:Depression is silent,I hear my heart beat.*****Where can I go,Or should I stay:Shy to choose,In bed I lay.*****Time will pass,And the dark sets in;Laying there wishing,I could still touch your skin.*****Lying there hurting,I wish I could die;Missing you so much,Again I start to cry.*****Sometimes I wonder,If you even know;The way that I need you,Would you still go.*****I can’t sleep now,Again a long night;Are you this lonely,Do you share in my fright.
RealizationI am very self-centered about some things. I hate it. I also can't help it when I get jealous about it. Stupid jealousy issue. It comes from low self-esteem I suppose..
Saturday NightJagerbombs...........RibSteaks and chili............UFC fights
and nipple pics.....................dig it
toodles :)
Just Stuff Im Pulling Off My Usb"Me...I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I did, of who Iam and most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you!" (Dirty Dancing)Never take someone for granted Hold every person close to your heart Because you might wake up one day And realize that you've lost a diamond While you were too busy collecting stones.
DesiredDesired
Interesting conundrum
Describing perfection
Personified
In you
Apple white skin
Blemish free
Yet fresh
As from the tree
Eyes inquisitive
Clarity spoken
Coffee
Envy"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not, but remember that what you have was once among the things you only hoped for"---Epicurus
C51 - This Is How We FuHey Fans and Fus... heres the new Vid! The first one is the real one and the 2nd I did first but... I fucked up on it so its a blooper! Hope you love them PLEASE COMMENT!!! Want to add me to your YouTube Favorites?
Heres the link: http://www.youtube.com/user/C51CREATIONS
Blooper With More Dancing:
RegretsLife is too short to wake up with regrets.So love the people whotreat you right.Forget about the one's who don't.Believe everythinghappens for a reason.If you get a second chance grab it with bothhands.If it changes your life let it.Nobody said life would be easythey just promised it would be worth it.
Love Is My SinBy William ShakespeareLove is my sin and thy dear virtue hate, Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving: O, but with mine compare thou thine own state, And thou shalt find it merits not reproving; Or, if it do, not from those lips of thine, That have profaned their scarlet ornaments And seal'd false bonds of love as oft as mine, Robb'd others' beds' revenues of their rents. Be it lawful I love thee, as thou lovest those Whom thine eyes woo as mine importune thee: Root pity in thy heart, that when it grows Thy pity may deserve to pitied be. If thou dost seek to have what thou dost hide, By self-example mayst thou be denied!
Crossing The Borders IllegalyIF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR......IF YOU GO INTO CHINA ILLEGALLY, YOUR CONSIDERED A SPY AND GET HARD PRISON TIME.....IF YOU GO INTO GERMANY ILLEGALLY, YOU GET A HEFTY FINE, WORK IT OFF OR PAY IT OFF, THEN DEPORTED........IF YOU GO INTO ENGLAND ILLEGALLY, YOU ARE IMMEDIATELY JAILED AND DEPORTED........IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY....BUT, IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. .. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET: 1. A DRIVERS LICENSE 2. A SOCIAL SECURITY CARD 3. WELFARE 4. FOOD STAMPS AND 5. FREE HEALTH CARE?I guess I still don't understand...maybe we need to VOTE OUR LAWMAKERS OUT.
EmptinessAlone in this world
Searching for something not to be found
Coming close, but yet so far
Within inches it lays
Reaching out to grasp
Coming away with empty air
Love once was near
But with each passing of the sun
Further and further it slides
Away from touch or feel
Emptiness in this world
Is all that stands before
The meek and lonely
Shall perish without a trace
Emptiness is all that is known
No love allowed by those whom we trust
No love allowed by whom we know
Emptiness is all around
This soul departed
Not to be missed
Along the cliff's edge
Teetering on the edge
Plumeting far below
To the raging surf
To disappear without a trace
This emptiness shall fullfill
This longing shall c
~~open Your Eyes~~this blog isn't being made to see how many people i can get to say i'm sorry..it is being made so people can realize what they have in life and to cherish everything and everyone in it..if you have family or close friends that you haven't talked to in a while maybe you should..send a text,e mail or even pick up the phone to make a simple phone call to show them you are thinking of them..it shows a lot to someone..even if it's just to say hi..i never got that chance...and never will......on Monday,November 09,2009 i lost someone very close and dear to me..*R*I*P*DEBBY...she was my everything..Debby was like a little sister to me..she was my best friend,my rock when i needed to vent or cry,as i was for her also..no matter what time of day or night it was,we were always there for one another no matter what..we could always count on each other to make to other smile no matter what to situation was..through good or bad..i never got the chance to tell Debby how much she meant to me and how m
ShatteredLove is pain like the soft coming down of rain
You think everything is right nothing could be this bright until you lose sight
Sight of a frigid cold a person you thought could never be this bold
The love is shattered the pieces now lie on a platter you think nothing else could matter until you climb that ladder
You see the light you are feeled with spite once blind, but now see she cheated on me
Or TwoA physician before I left told me I'd be back in a day or two. A day plus has passed and quickly approaching two on Sunday. Who knows, you maybe right? I might be knocking on the door of Cooper Hospital before Sunday 11 AM?
First decent meal since last Saturday. I feel a little better and more balance wtihin myself. Stability is being achieved and energy balance as well.
My sister several years ago assumed that I answer to no one and do pretty much what I want. Here I'll correct this misperception right now. I answer to God and do what The Christ induces me to do. No, God or The Christ does not converse with me and never did.
Norio
RelationshipsIt's been over 2 yrs since my last relationship. When I met her, I was on cloud 9! after a few months the relationship ended & in a bad way. Ifelt like I could never trust her. Sucks when you can't trust someone you are in love with. Now I am beginning to wonder if I will ever find love again. I've tried but something always came up when it was time to meet someone.
Next week is my class reunion. I'm really looking forward to going but then I feel sad because I know I will be the only one there without a date. I'm sure I will have a good time but really wish I had someone to go with. Who knows. Maybe I might find someone who is single there. Time will tell.
Our LoveDo not doubt I love you, even though My actions may have undermined my words. We could be as connubial as birds Had I not let my wild longings show.
I cannot help wanting to devourAll the world that comes before my eyesBut more than all the world is that which liesWithin the precious circle of our bower
I'll do anything to keep you with meOur love will last as long as you have willDespite my untamed need, my love is stillA rock against the surges of the sea
If You Have/do Use... Please Read CarefullyVicks Sinex Nasal Spray Recalled for Bacterial Contamination11/20/2009The Procter & Gamble Company announced today it is voluntarily recalling three lots of its Vicks Sinex nasal spray in three countries: the United States, Germany and the United Kingdom.The company said it is taking this precautionary step after finding the bacteria B. cepacia in a small amount of product made at its plant in Gross Gerau, Germany. There have been no reports of illness. However, the bacteria could cause serious infections for individuals with a compromised immune system, or those with chronic lung conditions, such as cystic fibrosis. B. cepacia poses little medical risk to healthy individuals.P&G detected this problem during routine quality control at the plant and promptly took action. The company's analysis to date shows this problem is limited to a single batch of raw material mixture involving three lots of product. These three lots were sold only in the United States, Germany and the United Kingdo
Love >>>>>>I will cover you with love when next I see you, with caresses, with ecstasy. I want to gorge you with all the joys of the flesh, so that you faint and die. I want you to be amazed by me, and to confess to yourself that you had never even dreamed of such transports.... When you are old, I want you to recall those few hours, I want your dry bones to quiver with joy when you think of them.
Love Is....
Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans. But that's the thing. Love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can't comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can't see. They can't see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you're in love. It's inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can't liv
My Thanksgiving Horoscope:D
Thanksgiving Horoscope for Cancer
You're the sign most likely to both dread and look forward to Thanksgiving. Your signature dish: Mashed potatoes Your signature dessert: Pecan pie This holiday: Don't let crazy family members get you down. Maintain your tough outer shell!
What's Your Thanksgiving Horoscope?
The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings
Heart Broken And Alone AgainWhat do you call a guy that never talks to you , but says he loves you and tells you that he will be with you in jan, but then all of a sudden deletes off here with even say good bye to you or anything??
I trusted him. I told him all person stuff about me and my son. and he just walks away from us. Guess he is like alot of guys on here. Play head games to get thier kicks and when thier done, just walk away from the hurt they caused and move on to someone eles to hurt and play head games with!!!
Just so who ever reads this his name was dj rockerrprince aka Jd, i really thought he loved me cause i gave him my heart and he walked all over it like it was nothing.
Never Look Back.-Never Look Back-Life is SpontaneousSo walk through it blindYou'll find all the wondersWhich others pass by.You'll know when you find themFor they'll steal your heartAnd you'll be so happyyou'll never wish to part.And when times get toughdon't look back.For when you look backyou'll remember the scars.remembering the woundsbrings back a fearand when you listen to your mindyou'll wind up here.."Did I make the right choice?"A question to be forever in your thoughts.Haunting you..Leaving you full of remorse..So heed my advice..It's just as simple as that.The past has passed.So let us leave it all behind.Keep it out of sight.Keep it out of mind.Never look back,Don't ruin what you have.Keep walking blindYou're on the best pathDon't pass up the oppourtunitythat you are unlikely to get again.Because if you throw it away,there can be no amends.
The Circle Of LifeFirst: did you know that all the clocks in Pulp Fiction was set at 4:20p.m. Time has no begining,middle,or end.The circle is the bases,and the design of all createtion.When your born,you have to learn to walk to talk,and you wear a dipper.If you live long enough you forget how to walk to talk,and you have to wear a dipper.
Spoiled Rotten At 10 Fitch - 6/6/09
Ok, this is not a poem, but the journal entry I left at the Inn 7 friends and I stayed at in June to celebrate all of us turning 40 this year. Pics are in travel section. Wonderful place & great innkeepers!
SPOILED ROTTEN AT 10 FITCH
The word “accommodations” will forever be changed in scope and meaning thanks to Cheryl and Sally bestowing hospitality with the grace and speed of fluttering humming birds giving each bloom equal care. These 8 blooms named Jen, Linda, Jessica, Cheryl, Maribel, Trish, Kris and Maria, were spoiled rotten by 10 Fitch’s unsurpassed attention to detail.
Fresh flowers, lush gardens, and a Bed & Breakfast no decorator could match were weaved into a braid of genuine warmth, colorful original designs, and supreme comfort. Our mental scrapbooks are now bursting with the seamless additions of priceless keepsakes called 10 Fitch memories.
Our camera memory cards were quickly eclipsed by our mental shutterbugs now crawling with giggles,
Love Has No DesireLove has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.
This Open For Any Culinary Questions...Please feel free to ask me any culinary or dietary questions you might have. The culinary arts are my number 1 passion in life (even ahead of girls-they come in a very close second and are actually an inspiration for my culinary master piece). Need to borrow any of my personal recipes let know.
Faith Is A CandleDavid says:
Jul 3, 2008 11:02 AM
FAITH IS A CANDLE by HELEN STEINER RICE IN THIS SICK WORLD OF HATRED AND VIOLENCE AND SIN, WHERE MEN RENOUNCE MORALS AND REJECT DISCIPLINE, WE STUMBLE IN "DARKNESS" GROPING VAINLY FOR "LIGHT" TO DISTINGUISH THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WRONG AND RIGHT, BUT DAWN CANNOT FOLLOW THIS NIGHT OF DESPAIR UNLESS FAITH LIGHTS A CANDLE IN ALL HEARTS EVERYWHERE AND WARMED BY THE GLOW OUR HATE MELTS AWAY AND LOVE LIGHTS THE PATH TO A PEACEFUL, NEW DAY.
Expression. Written Nov. 21 2k9I wish I could explain the way
you make me feel inside.
Until you, my feelings did not show
they would run away and hide.
But now, I do not know what you did
but I suddenly feel the need,
To tell you without a doubt,
you are the best gift I have ever received.
My eyes have been opened to a whole new world;
I can see it as clear as day.
I love this new world you have given me.
All my problems have gone away.
I will show you I am the one for you
if you just give me a chance.
I will treat you like the queen you are,
give you a life filled with romance.
It may take a while to get my chance;
maybe a year, or two or three.
But that is ok, for you my love,
I would wait an eternity.
I Meet God In The Morning DAILY PRAYERS DISSOLVE YOUR CARES by HELEN STEINER RICE I MEET GOD IN THE MORNINGAND GO WITH HIM THROUGH THE DAY,THEN IN THE STILLNESS OF THE NIGHTBEFORE SLEEP COMES I PRAYTHAT GOD WILL JUST "TAKE OVER"ALL THE PROBLEMS I COULDN'T SOLVEAND IN THE PEACEFULNESS OF SLEEPMY CARES WILL ALL DISSOLVE,SO WHEN I OPEN MY EYESTO GREET ANOTHER DAYI'LL FIND MYSELF RENEWED IN STRENGTHAND THERE'LL OPEN UP A WAYTO MEET WHAT SEEMED IMPOSSIBLEFOR ME TO SOLVE ALONEAND ONCE AGAIN I'LL BE ASSUREDI AM NEVER "ON MY OWN"...FOR IF WE TRY TO STAND ALONEWE ARE WEAK AND WE WILL FALL,FOR GOD IS ALWAYS GREATESTWHEN WE'RE HELPLESS, LOST, AND SMALL,AND NO DAY IS UNMEETABLEIF ON RISING OUR FIRST THOUGHTIS TO THANK GOD FOR THE BLESSINGSTHAT HIS LOVING CARE HAS BROUGHT...SO MEET HIM IN THE MORNINGAND GO WITH HIM THROUGH THE DAYAND THANK HIM FOR HIS GUIDANCEEACH EVENING WHEN YOU PRAY,AND IF YOU FOLLOW FAITHFULLYTHIS DAILY WAY TO PRAYYOU WILL NEVER IN YOUR LIFETIMEFACE ANOTHER " HOPELESS DAY." I WILL TALK TO OTHERS AL
Number The Stars In The AirWe got home from bowling Thursday night – I’d brought Sarah and Jeffrey with me to visit Martha and Mary on their leagues after Margaret met me at Allan and Malesa’s house with the kids since she had babysat them for us for the day – and Sarah was looking up as she got out of our van and pointed to “so many stars in the air”! Jeffrey was looking up too, but our daughter’s who actually said it and her mom and aunt were quick to correct her “stars in the SKY”. And when I was younger and not as wise as I hopefully am now, I would have done the same thing. Later that night, Sarah corrected me when I said what she did; I said “stars in the air” and she said “sky”!
Yesterday was my day off for the week from my office, and I volunteered three hours of my time to raise money for KHRT’s Horn of Plenty program to make sure families without food or kids without toys get them this Christmas. During my time at
SignVery kind of my sister, her husband, and children to pitch in for me. No reason to ever doubt me when that sign is given to you. That sign was given to you this past Sunday morning. I gave you two packs of cigarettes, a box of cigar, and a lighter in a bag and asked you to get rid of it. That is a true sign from me, it is time for me to ever walk away from any smokes.
Far as any plan? There isn't any. No, I'm not going to wing it but according to what God hands me and not according to Norio or anyone else. God is the best at these things. God is in charge and not me or any one else. We're not going to lay down any plan according to but as God sees fit and allows it to be.
I walked out of Cooper Hospital so fast the dust didn't even have the time to stir. You kept putting off to refine that which already laid waiting and now it is time for God and not according to any man or woman.
Usual will be followed about these other physicians.
Norio
To Much Respondsiblity For One PersonTodays pet peve is simple and most woman will agree with me I hope.
When your married and you have kids, you might be a stay at home mom while your husband is the as they say the bread winner.
I think what annoys me the most is, what we woman do for our hubbys and kids is just as important as bringing home the money.
I mean a man goes to work for what 8hrs maybe 12hrs a day. As soon as his foot enters in the door his work day is done. A child or teenager or even young adult goes to school for certain amount of time and once their foot enters in the door its over for them
NOW!!!!! Our dam job is never ending, we dont stop working till our asses hit the bed. We are always taking care of something or other .
We might have moments were we sit down to take a rest to purhaps watch a show, or have the luxury of going out with a friend or to the gym.
But most the time we are on call 24/7.
Now here is my peve ....I dont expect my hubby or son's do do much durring the week ..meani
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Virus Warning Over The HolidaysA dangerous virus circulating on the Interenet is the UPS/Fed Ex Delivery Failure. You will receive an email from UPS/Fed Ex Service along with a packet number.. It will say that they were unable to deliver a package sent to you on such-and-such a date. It then asks you to print out the invoice copy attached. DON'T TRY TO PRINT THIS. IT LAUNCHES THE VIRUS! Pass this warning on to all your PC operators at work and home. This virus has caused Millions of dollars in damage.
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Sex EdWhen Jane initially met Tarzan in the jungle, she was attracted to him, and during her questions about his life, she asked him how he had sex ? "Tarzan not know sex" he replied. Jane explained to him what sex was. Tarzan said "Oh,.Tarzan use knot hole in trunk of tree." Horrified Jane said, "Tarzan you have it all wrong, but I will show you how to do it properly." She took off her clothing and laid down on the ground. "Here" she said, pointing to her privates; "you must put it in here." Tarzan removed his loin cloth, showing Jane his considerable manhood, stepped closer to her and kicked her in the crotch! Jane rolled around in agony for what seemed like an eternity. Eventually she managed to gasp for air and screamed "What did you do that for?" Tarzan replied, "Check for squirrel first! lmfao
Always On My MindYour Always On My Mind Like How My Dreads Sit Ontop Of My Head.I Think About You Everywhere Everyday. I Wonder how Your Doing Are You Ok I Can't Get You Off My Mind Even With You By My Side I Still Think About That Wonderful Night I'll Never Forget About It Or You Like Theres Always Morning Dew. I Sit And Wait For The Day You'll Let Me Call You Boo As We Lay side By Side I say To Myself That Can Be My Baby With Pride. You Stay On My Mind Like My Eyes Stay Brown Your A Queen That Should Wear My Crown The Days Your Are Said I Can Be Your Royal Clown. YOur On My Mind Just Like That First Kiss That Was A Wonderful Bliss All I Can Dream Of Is Doing It Again. When I'm With You I Often Day Dream Of Feeling Your Warm Spot With My Body I Wish To Penatrate Your Warm Spot And Shower All My Love Inside And There I Wish For It To Remain,So It Will Never be Cold Again No Not Your Pussy But Your Warm Beating Heart Never Will I try To Break It Or Make It Cold. I Know Why Your Always On My Mind Everday
One Way RoadAs I Stand Alone With No One Having My Back As I Stand Looking Down My One Way Road. I Walk Down This Road Of Darkness My Sadness Rains Down On Me Washing My Feelings And Emotions Down On The Road. My Rain Is So Cold As It Touches It Makes My Body Cold As I Walk My Heart Grows Cold No Longer Will I Belive The Words You Say No Emotions Will Never Arise From My Once Warm Beating Heart. As I Shut Down my Emotions Down Like A Major Plant Full Of Workers I Will Be Sad To See Them Go But I Cant Afford To Keep My Facotry Going. As I Shed My Workers I Shed A Single Tear Cause The Fact That I Started A Storng Foundation With These Workers, As I Move On Down My Road I See Signs Of A Break In My Sadness With You But Things Fall Down Around Me Crashing Like Those Towers A Sad And Tradgeic Day Everything That I Thought Was Real Was Nothing But Me Being Foolish, To Belive You Was Really Into Me. As I Walk Down My Road My Skys Darken Like A Room With No Light As I Walk I Feel Myself Slowly Fading Awa
Me In An Auction!!!Check me out! First time I enter an auction!
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I can not for the life of me figure out why it wont post as a clickable link or clickable pic, Sorry :(
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