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Marine Corps Pfc. James R. Dillon Jr.
Died March 13, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 19 of Grove City Pa.; assigned to B Company, 3rd Light Armored Reconnaissance Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Twentynine Palms, Calif.; killed as a result of a self-inflicted gunshot on March 13, 2003, in Kuwait.

Navy Petty Officer 3rd Class Jason Profitt
Died March 17, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 23, of Charlestown, Md.; assigned to the destroyer Deyo, homeported in Norfolk, Va.; killed in a non-combat-related incident on March 17, 2003, in the Red Sea.

Marine Cpl. Brian Matthew Kennedy
Died March 20, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 25, of Houston; assigned to the Marine Medium Helicopter Squadron 268, 3rd Marine Aircraft Wing, Marine Corps Air Station Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in a CH-46E helicopter crash in Kuwait.

Marine Maj. Jay Thomas Aubin
Died March 20, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 36, of Waterville, Maine; assigned to the Marine Aviation Weapons and Tactics Squadron 1, 3rd Marine Aircraft Wing, Marine Corps Air Station Yuma, Ariz.; killed in a CH-46E helicopter crash in Kuwait.

Marine Capt. Ryan Anthony Beaupre
Died March 20, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 30, of Bloomington, Ill.; assigned to the Marine Medium Helicopter Squadron 268, 3rd Marine Aircraft Wing, Marine Corps Air Station Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in a CH-46E helicopter crash in Kuwait.

Marine Staff Sgt. Kendall Damon Waters-bey
Died March 20, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 29, of Baltimore; assigned to the Marine Medium Helicopter Squadron – 268, 3rd Marine Aircraft Wing, Marine Corps Air Station Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in a CH-46E helicopter crash in Kuwait.

Marine 2nd Lt. Therrel S. Childers
Died March 21, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 30, of Harrison County, Miss.; assigned to the 1st Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in action in Sothern Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Jose Gutierrez
Died March 21, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 22, of Los Angeles; assigned to the 2nd Battalion, 1st Marine Regiment, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in action in Southern Iraq.

Fumafia
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Marine Lance Cpl. Eric J. Orlowski
Died March 22, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 26, of Buffalo, N.Y.; assigned to the 2nd Tank Battalion, 2nd Marine Division, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in a machine-gun accident in Iraq.

R.i.p Mike Baldwin
DEL REY (KTLA) -- Police are investigating the fatal shooting of a man who was driving a stolen car in Del Rey, near Culver City.The shooting happened around 7 a.m. in the 5500 block of Margaret Avenue, close to busy Jefferson Boulevard.Police say the victim suffered at least one fatal gunshot wound to the neck.He was driving a Lexus IS 300 that was reported stolen from West L.A., according to police.The victim has not been identified. Authorities say he is a Hispanic male about 25 to 35 years old.Investigators are canvassing the area looking for possible witnesses. They did not immediately have a suspect description available. http://www.ktla.com/news/landing/ktla-del-rey-shooting,0,6495199.story

Our Mother Who We All Are Killing
i have no purpose. i used to ask myself. what will i be when i grow up. i was asking the wrong question. the question is. what is it that i already am. the world is enslaved. they could've used robots but robots do not have blood. they need blood for their rituals. religion is an important tool to help enslavement. though xians are welcome warriors on the battlefield. they must realize they are a new presence on the battlefield. they are but 2000 years old. our enemy is far older. our enemy knows EVERYTHING about us. and we know very little about our enemy. we are like the hunter seeking out a lion. only in the hunter's mind the lion looks like a pink fluffy elephant. you must know your enemy if you want to defeat him. our enemy is not race, class, creed or color. our enemy is so huge and has penetrated us so deeply that we can barely recognize him. the only thing he fears is the truth. and we have all bought the lie. WAKE UP! i have a 9-5 job. i work with some very special people who

Words
If a mumm or blog poster use a word that no one has ever heard of before, is the mumm or blog poster under obligation to provide a definition, or should the commenters, google, or look up the word in the dictionary?

All I Did Wsa Buzz Kill Her
8:28pm reply ooO HAT3RS N1GHTM...: get all the help you can i have credits for days 8:28pm reply ooO HAT3RS N1GHTM...: mind your damn busines 8:29pm reply ooO HAT3RS N1GHTM...: bring it al 8:29pm more To ooO HAT3RS N1GHTM...: then shut the fuck up and get out of my bartab and shout box

You Are Not Popular
Seriously, I do not appreciate people who judge me based on who I rate/comment/bomb or whatever. EVERYONE has something negative to say about everyone...I'm sure someone in your fam list talks to someone associated with someone you don't like. WHO GIVES A SHIT. Grow the fuck up and enjoy this site. So some girls/guys out here get more than you do on fu that's cuz they play the game a little better than you do. Don't hate appreciate. Learn. whatever everyone just get over yourselves because no matter how popular you think you are on this site...you're not that cool in real life. Sorry to break the news to you but as much as I love fubar (I'm on it every day), it's only a website. How fucking rude are you that you are a top person on this site and you can't appreciate the people who kissed your ass to get you where you are? seriously...It's disgusting. I'm not a top person by any means...but I fully appreciate the people who have helped me get to the level I'm at :) I do not believe I

Palin And Daughter Bristol Seek To Trademark Names (repost)
By MARK THIESSEN The Associated Press Published: February 5th, 2011 03:46 PMLast Modified: February 5th, 2011 03:51 PM Sarah Palin is attempting to trademark her name ahead of a possible 2012 presidential run. The former Alaska governor and 2008 Republican vice presidential candidate filed paperwork with the U.S. Patent and Trademark Office in November to register the trademark. The federal office is seeking more information and examples of usage. The office is also seeking additional details for the application submitted in September by Palin's daughter, Bristol, a contestant on ABC's "Dancing with the Stars" last year. Palin's attorney, John J. Tiemessen, said Friday that he has six months to provide the information. "We are preparing to respond to all their questions for both," he told The Associated Press by telephone from his office in Fairbanks. He said he couldn't disclose the reasons why both applied for trademarks because of attorney-client privilege. But Se

So Don't See A Doctor Or See A Nurse
I have been volunteering at the VA now for almost two months. I am starting to get into the swing of things. I think I have met all the people that work in the ED (it's not an Emergency Room, its a Department with many rooms.) I've seen some sad things, and a few disorented naked men. Most of my duties consist of taking patients to X-ray, Cat Scans, or to be admitted, as well as Lab and Pharmacy runs. I also wipe down the rooms when patients leave to get them ready for the next patient. I also stock the crash carts for each room to make sure there are plenty of supplies. I got a pretty nice compliment from the Nurse in X-ray last week, she asked how long I had been working there, and I told her I just volunteered, she said I was better than most they pay to work there. A week or two, we got another volunteer that was working saturdays. It can be slow sometimes on a Saturday, so to keep up from fighting over work to do, I pushed my hours back and now I work more around lunch

Irate Women - Prt 2
Conservatives are opposed to evolution because it will allow us to evolve out of the tragedy of their exploitation, which the Conservatives live off and profit by: so they impose fear in the hope that we will resist evolution so that they and their progeny may continue to exploit the general population. The result of this is a tension between 'potential evolution' - the result of what would appear to occur given knowledge of all factors - as opposed to mutation - e.g., A fashion and style trend was evolving which allowed comfort and freedom but Conservatives through their symbiotic relationship with business impose dress codes requiring people to wear uncomfortable and ugly uniforms, have their hair a certain way, forbidding piercings, tatoos and whatever else they fancy and enforcing these codes by the deprivation of your ability to subsist - e.g., Blacklisting as done in the so called McCarthy era and on a more general scale, replacing you with immigrant labor, denying you welf

For All Who Deserve To Know The Real Me
Well, appanrently, I'm a "horrible person" to some. Well, those who actually took the time to get to know me, know damn well, that I'm one to care, ALOT about the one's that deserve it. Well, one seems to think that after pushing me away, I didn't care, and when I tried to care, they didn't want it, THEN, made me out to be a cold-hearted, piece of shit stalker.I AM NOT A STALKER!! I do not stalk, I care not to stalk. I deserve to know why I'm getting treated wrong, for someone else's wrong doings. NEWS FLASH! When someone tells you one thing, then does the complete opposite, your credibilty, is pretty much FUCKED! But, lying about me, portraying me to be something I'm not, and then accusing me of things, is not the way to go about it. If you really wanna sit there, and make yourself out to be a victim of an abusive person, when someone else that actually is like that, your chances at sympathy, are slim. YOU made the choices you made. YOU chose to go down that road. YOU were fully aware

Can't Sleep Clowns Will Eat Me
I am a beatin, broken man. I lost due to Telling the truth, wearing my heart on my sleeve and wanting to communicate with a person who is perfect for me, cuz she is me just smarter and much prettier. Only I woulda givin me a chance after everthing i wrote and said

Love And Friendship - What Is A True Friend?
Got to thinking this week, I know a dangerous thing. I'm new at this, so forgive me.... Recently I got hurt by a guy I cared alot for. The funny thing is, like an angel, I made a friend just before it ended.. That friend has been absolutely wonderful. He stood by me and listened to me cry, he helped me to be strong, to hold to my values when I wanted to sell myself short. In just a few weeks he has come to mean alot to me.. So as I sit here and think of him, I got to wondering, how long does love truly take? I have often told people to beware of infatuation, that soulmates don't exist. Lately I have begun to wonder if I was kidding myself. Friendship is a wonderful thing. Never before have I felt that I can just call him, depend on him to be there. I am very independent. I never lean on anyone for long... and I am not used to having someone that knows what a friend truly is. And in teh same way, although I would do much for my friends, I have never truly done all that he h

Was It Real? Part Two
Part Two..... After Tracie moved in, we became even closer than before. It was almost like having my sister here with me. I miss my younger sister a lot, we used to do everything together and I can't wait til spring break when she is visiting me. Anyway, I broke up with my bf. It really wasn't his fault but ever since that night, every time we had sex I would compare his skills or lack thereof to my dream lovers. It was hard for me to remain aroused and I really don't like faking it. He took the breakup in stride as I have heard he is dating one of the cheerleaders, he'll make a good hubby for one of the whorish cheerleaders. Classes have been going good, actually they've been going great! Ever since that night, my head seems to a lot clearer about schoolwork and things. I have been trying to broach the subject with Tracie, but it just seems so surreal and I am starting to think she will think me a crazy bitch. But each night when I go to sleep I see images of them

Love Takes You Hostage!
Have you ever been in love? It makes you vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it mean that SOMEONE can get inside you and MESS YOU UP!! You build up all these DEFENSES, you build up a whole suit of armor so that nothing can hurt you. Then ONE STUPID PERSON, no different from any other STUPID PERSON wanders into your STUPID LIFE... YOU give them a PIECE of YOU. They didn't ask for it! They did something DUMB one day, like KISS you or SMILE at you, and then your LIFE isnt your OWN anymore. LOVE TAKES YOU HOSTAGE!!! It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you CRYING in the DARKNESS. So simple a phrase, like maybe WE should be JUST FRIENDS turns into a glass splinter working its way to your HEART! IT HURTS!!! Not just in your imagination! Not just in the MIND! It's a SOUL-HURT, a REAL gets inside you and RIPS YOU APART! I HATE LOVE! Sometimes the GREATEST Wounds are the ones WE try the hardest not to inflict. The heart wants what the heart w

Art
Euphoric. That's the only way I have of describing it. That moment of impact when bone crashes into bone. My fist loosens teeth and then there's the blood, oh the wonderful blood, a sanguinous symphony. Ribbons ebb and flow from the gaping maw and from the mashed and lascerated things that were once lips. Time stands still as I pummel this unfortunate face into a certain oblivion. I feel every crash. I feel the skin ripple and tear when my knuckles hit home. I feel like.... an artist. Not destroying something beautiful. Molding. Sculpting. I'm making my own. Monster.

Saturday Rock Block & Sunday Morning On The Glow Radio
Saturday Rock Block on The Glow Radio: The Reverend DJ Furg & his "Church of Rock" he will be spinning his mix of Punk, Grunge, Hard Rock & Metal Music starting at 3pm pt/4pm mt/5pm ct/6pm et/11pm gmt next up is The Mistress of Hard Rock & Metal; "Thee Witch" starting at 6pm pt/7pm mt/8pm ct/9pm et/2am gmt next is The Freak Show with Tony the Misfit featuring the best in Rock, Alternative, & Metal Music starting at 9pm pt/10pm mt/11pm ct/Midnight et/5am gmt Sunday Morning The DJ Joe D Show Live from Toronto, Canada at 7am PT/8am MT/9am CT/10am ET/3pm GMT Every Sunday Morning DJ Joe D will be Live from Toronto, Canada The show will include DJ Whitney and her Springsteen Minute.The ever-popular DJ Joe D Blog Review returns as does both the Canadian Content & Novelty Songs of the Week.Tune in for this great new show

Visit With Postal
I haven't been around much the past 7 days... Did ya's miss me? I know most of you know I am out visiting PoSTaL in Denver Co. and I am having the time of my life... for really "COLORADO... A way of life" is an understatement to say the least! You peeps that keep saying meeting people from here is bad ,very very bad... well yer all kinna wrong. About 2 1/2 years ago ,PoSTaL & I became very good friends, after we starting chatting in the MuMMs, we talked almost everyday about funny stuffs that happens here & also about Real life Situations. She was always around when I needed to vent & bitch, about crazy shit that always seems to happen in my life. She always told me "don't worry it'll all work out" & usually it did. She always cheers me up when I sad about not having a man or that my kids were driving me to the funny farm.. Always leaving me with positivity & a smile on my face... A true friend in deed.. We talked alot about getting together & meeting & so, what th

Genetic Slop Bucket
Anyone who knows me at all knows that my health sucks. I could give you another long list of all the crap they've found but at this point it's just another pill. I just try to keep smiling, and buy bigger bras of course :) HOWEVER In the last month alone both of my sons have started being diagnosed with health problems. It seems every time we see a doctor I hear the words "You know this is genetic right?" Now I'm aware that it's ridiculous to feel guilty for passing this crap on to them, but it does get so hard some days to keep that smile on my face. Like really they are six and thirteen why are they paying for losing in the genetic lottery already? I was nearly 30!

If Not Us, Who? If Not Now, When?
From “The Lookout” – written by Zachary Roth – Wed Feb 2, 2011 11:32 am ET http://news.yahoo.com/s/yblog_thelookout/20110202/ts_yblog_thelookout/wall-street-pay-hits-new-record#mwpphu-post-form “Less than two years after a massive government bailout, total Wall Street compensation hit a new record of $135 billion, according to a Wall Street Journal analysis.” “The average Wall Streeter is now paid $141,000 -- up 3 percent from last year. And the heavy hitters seem to be doing very well indeed. For example, Bank of America CEO Brian Moynihan saw a 67 percent rise in his total compensation last year.” “In 2010, Congress put some restrictions on Wall Street's ability to pay bonuses, after public outrage over lavish rewards at Goldman Sachs, AIG and other firms that figured prominently in the 2008 crash. But the sector has largely responded by simply increasing the size of base salaries, instead.&r

For My Shadow
There is something about your touchthere is something about your eyesthe gentle touchthe gaze of loveMeeting you was fatehaving you in my life is pure joyyou are truely heaven sent to meour souls are destined to be togetheri know we havent known each other for that longbut i feel likewe have known each other for an eternityas the old sayins goi have never known a love like thisnor have i ever thoughtthat love could be this good or feel so right.you truely are the love of my lifei want to spend the rest of my daysliving to make you happy and making you feel the way i do about you.i love you, my shadow baby

At Work And Been Thinking...could Something Be Wrong With Me?
Ok, so I am at work, but then again, if I am not at home and sleeping or doing anything with the family, this is were I am. It's not my favorite place to be, but it's where I am, and I am getting paid, so I can't really complain. Well, I get to go donate plasma tomorrow, for an extra 25 dollars, which I guess is better than not getting nothing at all. Which in a way, I could use the little extra cash, at least until I get my taxes filed and see how much I could get back and all of that jazz. I did some thinking today while I was awake for a short while.... I really think that I am done with dating for a while. But I am planning on going on vacation this summer, even if I gotta go by myself, I really think that I owe it to myself to do something like that. Am I wrong with wanting a vacation even if I gotta go by myself? I know this much, I owe it to myself to take a vacation after everything within the past couple or so years I have gone through. I think maybe get away from this

Trapped Hopeless Doomed
Her breath caught Before she could scream, turn and run No time to even really fight it had begun trapped hopeless doomed his hooks were in her she was pinned to the wall the sequence of events a painful blur it started out just a normal day at the mall trapped hopeless doomed room pitch black save a few candles broken down house, practically in shambles psychopathic laugh echoing down the hall she can do nothing but wait, as she hangs on the wall trapped

Weird
I got way to much stuff on my mind atm. Its weird how things happen... The news I got a few days ago has affected me more then I thought they would.. I wasnt prepared for this.. and now I cant decide what to do.. well. I have decided, but I cant make up what to say... and its bugging me like crazy!! I keep going over it in my mind, over and over and over...But it doesnt get better, it just get worse. Its now making me unable to sleep... I hate this!!!

Do You Got What It Takes?
So I have run a couple "GOD MODES" and I have learned some interesting things........ 1. People don't give a FUCK about what your status says until you have that little blinking lightning bolt next to your name. You can literally post for 2 weeks straight that you are taking offers for family adds and not get 1 single offer until you activate. 2. SUDDENLY everyone of the fuckin "green" and "red" name ppl wanna leave you status comments like they have been your BFF since you started FU. 3. Fu-sers like to jump in your SB claiming how "fu-poor" they are and they "really need a boomy, famp, or auto 11 to level :( " And of course I just wanna jump up and say " OMFG!! Of course I will help you!! You're sooooooo cool and I see you scroll all the time. I just wanna lick your ass so you will love me" FOR REAL?!?!?! Get a FUCKING LIFE!!! 4. I KNOW how much you can make in Fubucks running a God mode....... BUT apparently everyone is soooooooooo poor that they can only offer

Now These Guys & The Bitchassness Of The Fumafia Bouncers Who Lick Ass Crack & Play Favs Like T-moble.
Guess I'm a go for the gold & force your hand. Don't really care for the out come.... So Do what you.... [ fubar.com photo: ] check this out tho. Can u say cry baby cry.....

Oh Really...
There is nothing more hilarious than a woman who tells me I am wrong about women... Really? Well let me ask you this... Who knows more qualified to work on cars... An auto mechanic who takes a bus to work every day, or someone who happens to own a car? Ladies, just because you have a pussy doesn't mean you know a single thing about other pussies. So I am telling a girl about how another girl was driving me crazy... Then I make the statement, "This is the kind of shit that drives me crazy about women." She said, "Most women aren't like that." How the fuck would she know? Does she date women? Does she fuck women? Does deal with the emotion swings of this woman then that woman? No... I am dead certain that most women know jack dick about other women which is why women don't have many friends... They fucking hate each other too. The best part is when a women will tell you she is the "exception to the rule" but is 30 years old, single, and lonely... Yeah... Loads differe

Audio: Man Arrested After Asking Police How Much Marijuana He Could Grow Tom Cleary, Staff Writer
All Robert Michelson wanted was a little free legal advice. Unfortunately for the 21-year-old Farmington resident, he decided to dial 911, instead of a lawyer. Now, as a result, he is facing multiple drug charges. In a tape of a Thursday night 911 call made available by Farmington police, Michelson can be heard asking how much trouble he'd get in for growing one marijuana plant. The dispatcher can be heard advising Michelson that he could be arrested, at which point Michelson can be heard thanking the dispatcher and hanging up. Police were able to trace the call back to an address on Waterville Road. Narcotics officers from Farmington went to the house and reportedly discovered that Michelson was growing marijuana there. Michelson allegedly admitted that he has spent "a lot of money on line buying everything he needed to grow marijuana, including the seeds," police said. Officers seized a small amount of marijauna and numerous items of drug paraphernalia for smoking and g

The First Kiss
The First KissI see passion and hungry in your eyes across the room.You walk towards me. It seems like a slow walk. But you are here before my eyes.You wrap me in a warm embrace, You head leans down as my leans up.Your lips touch for the first time.My heart starts to beat faster with each seconds your lips are one.The kiss was warm.The kiss was soft.The kiss became passionate.The kiss became hungry.My knees grows weak under your embrace.Your hand on the small of my back.Your strength holds me up. But your lips never part from the passion.From the hungry of the kiss.This is my first kiss with you.

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Another Hero? (not Another Hero.)
"Was that all?" He still felt hungry. Collecting his blade and wringing his hand against the echo of murder.Someone should have a knife to their throat by now.He stepped through the noise and chaos, the battle was pushing back to the chambers and cloisters beneath. Some resounding energy was coming from the lord's tower. What was once a feast had become a ration, a frenzy of hopes and what people mistook in their own hearts as valor crashed all around him, but it was nothing. Empty. The symphony of colors it had once been was now gray and cold. The pulse was now but a whisper.The haze of battle writhing around him, one would think that the great gilded lord of this hall, in all his repugnant wealth and avarice would serve as a fatted offering, squealing and pleading like a pup with its plump belly proferred to the glittering fangs of the alpha."You're a mercenary aren't you? I'll give you anything you want, money! power! A country- just don't hurt me! Let me go! Please!" He shrieked as

Irate Women In Re Fubar Men
I see some rather irate profile statements from women regarding men asking them to cam look at pix of their cock or whatever and i realize that Heterosexual Patriarchy has spoiled men and is really the root of all evil in society today along with the ruthless exploitation of labor by business and the apathetic disregard of government to both situationsThe solution to this is not government nor business authority commanding discipline and codes of conduct it's how we interact and react with one another. Guys? Believe me, most women Love sex way more than you do. In fact if we could handle them being free you'd never be able to keep up with any of them. You'd be standing around the fire rubbing your cocks drinking beer, talking about hunting nascar whatever and they'd be having the time of their life, enjoying themselves in their own way too. The trouble is most guys and I'm talking like 95% of the male population can't handle that emotionally. They get all huffy, trying to hold back

Stolen Survey
27 random questions 1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?had mental debate on if i should shave today. exciting. 2. How much cash do you have on you? 36$ 3. What's your favorite word that rhymes with "DOOR?" roar? is that a manly answer? 4. Favorite planet?*insert obvious uranus joke here* 5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?GI John. army thing. 6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? uh.. i have "hey sexy girlfriend" from sixteen candles.... it gets laughs. 7. What shirt are you wearing? some douchbagish affliction looking blue shirt. 8. Do you "label" yourself?it would probably be easier if i did. 9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing? cant recall, they have skulls on em tho 10. Bright or Dark Room? dark usually. varies i suppose. 11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?i stole it from her. i think she is neat consideri

From Me To You
Dear Person There are many things in our lives that pass us by, there are many things that we hope will pass our way, but then there are things that come to us without even trying. I write this letter to the person who over the last few days has brought me joy and happiness, who without even trying has touched my heart in so many ways words don’t seem enough right now. There is always someone out there who can turn your spark into a flame and keep it burning, which can make the storm inside turn into a calm gentle breeze, who can keep your heart beating everytime you see them. But there is one person who has done more than I ever thought was possible, who has taken me and made me feel like a brand new person and giving me a new leash on life, who has brought so much happiness into my life without even knowing it. There is never a minute when I don’t think of him, but there will never be a moment when I cant be without him, I’ve grown to know him as time as go

In The Wake Of Rising Oil Prices
Anyone who has ever watched Law & Order knows that someone is held in contempt of court when they egregiously disrespect the role of the court and the rule of law. Holding someone in contempt is a powerful sanction in a judge’s arsenal to redress an intentional disregard for the law and the courts. So it is no small matter when yesterday Federal District Court Judge Martin Feldman held the Obama Interior Department in contempt of court for dismissively ignoring his ruling to cease the job-killing drilling moratorium imposed by President Obama last year. Feldman wrote: “Such dismissive conduct, viewed in tandem with the reimposition of a second blanket and substantively identical moratorium and in light of the national importance of this case, provide this Court with clear and convincing evidence of the government’s contempt of this Court’s preliminary injunction order.” President Obama first ordered the halt of offshore drilling in response to the BP oi

Judgment By Others?
Family and friends I have recently been in contact with my youngest son. One that i havent seen in over 15 years. He was adopted by a family member that abused him and treated him like crap. Now he and i will be reunited after all this time. He will be coming to Washington this month to stay with me. I few have said that they feel that they feel as if they have been pushed to the side. but if you were in my shoes wouldnt you do anything you could for your child. Would you judge someone based on a photo of that person with out getting to know the person for who he is? I mean come on since when does having tatoos mean that the kid is a hoodloom? Yes this upsets me that some think they can judge someone when they dont have kids nor have they walked a mile in my shoes. but yet they think they can tell me whats the best thing to do or not do. to those that have kids im sure you can relate. it doesnt matter the amount of time that has transpired, your child is just that your child and you

Judge Least Ye Be Judged? You Decide..
Family and friends I have recently been in contact with my youngest son. One that i havent seen in over 15 years. He was adopted by a family member that abused him and treated him like crap. Now he and i will be reunited after all this time. He will be coming to Washington this month to stay with me. I few have said that they feel that they feel as if they have been pushed to the side. but if you were in my shoes wouldnt you do anything you could for your child. Would you judge someone based on a photo of that person with out getting to know the person for who he is? I mean come on since when does having tatoos mean that the kid is a hoodloom? Yes this upsets me that some think they can judge someone when they dont have kids nor have they walked a mile in my shoes. but yet they think they can tell me whats the best thing to do or not do. to those that have kids im sure you can relate. it doesnt matter the amount of time that has transpired, your child is just that your child and you

I Am So Tired!!!!
Today is one of the worst days of my life. Today was supposed to be my one year anniversary with my bf. He broke up with me in december. Now he has a new girlfriend and today is his birthday. I sent him a webpage that I had made him and told him happy birthday and nothing. He hadn't even checked his messages. then a mutual friend comes into my live (how convient) and I asked if she had talked to him this morning and she said she did on her way home from work. I take it he called her because she would have been texting and driving...either way he messaged her and talked to her so he was up and online. I am so fucking mad right now!!! I feel so used and under appreciated and he was acting like we were so close and wonderful and then he just slaps me in the face with this. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU !!!!!!!!!!

This Says Fuck A Lot.
So last week i had the displeasure of working with Jackson Hewitt for the first time. Never fucking again. Seriously. How many mistakes can a person make, with YOUR money, before you have the right TO PUNCH THEM IN THE FACE. I dont deal with people for a reason. I cant stand stupidity. If you work with peoples money, please know what the fuck you are doing, or kindly get another job. List of repeated mistakes. 1. Entering my sons birthday wrong, 3 times. 2. Entering my SSN wrong (though it was right in front of her damn face) and wondering why the IRS wouldn't accept it. 3. Entering my bank account number wrong (really?? Isnt it your fucking job to work with numbers) 4. Acting like they idiots when we get upset with their complete incompetence. my head is likely to explode soon.

Emergency Hot Water Heater
Emergency Hot water heater By. Eric Teague HOW TO MAKE AN EMERGENCY HOT WATER HEATER Recently after suffering a power loss throughout my community i started to think and prepare for future outages. One of the biggest gripes during the outage was not having hot water. I decieded early upon a secure purchace of a generator would be wise, i was able to isolate certain areas of my house through the electricial panel. However you just need a 110v power recepticle prior to test and to maintain or elevate the tempature. STEP 1- Go Collecting I found all my items in various places around my house. So this step might vary depending on each individual situation, but here is mine and the items you will need. I first went to the back yard and in my shed grabbed a 5 gallon empty planter bucket. I then walked behind the shed and found a old pool i had, you know the cheep little above the ground ones. I robbed its filtering thingy with the cord, i needed its use not the technic

Get It Right!! (modern Music And The Idiots Who Think They Know What It Is.)
I've been a metal fan for a while. Metallica, Megadeth, Black Sabbath, Zakk Wylde, too many more to list. So as a fan I look for new music to see where the genera is heading. I'm sick of it. So lets go over some rules for the brain dead, junkie, logicaly impared, inebriated simian miscreants that think they know whats what. 1. A band does NOT kick ass because they talk about violence. There needs to be musical talent behind it and meaning behind the violence. Talking about slaughtering people just for shits and giggles doesn't make you kick ass... it makes you a sociopathic loser who can't deal with your problems. 2. FAST isn't the same as GOOD. Lots of bands play really fast... but they use basic power cords and the solo's are mind numbingly dull. Fast is only impressive if its more complicated than three cords. (drummers being the plausable exception to this rule.) 3. Drug use, doesn't make you cool, talented or badass.... The crap you've been through in life d

6 Sure Ways To Reduce Crime In Your Local Neighborhood Simply Through Observation
6 sure ways to reduce local crime in your communities by observatation to spot the Not! BY Eric T A SURE 6 WAYS WAYS TO SPOT "TWEEKERS" LIVING IN YOUR COMMUNITY meth users a.k.a TWEEKERS

Down The Rabbit Hole
So at my weekly therapy session and saw the psychiatrist to discuss my current meds and talked about penguins for 45 minutes. (This man is a literal genius but has NOOOOOOOOOOO interpersonal skills what so ever.) Any who, he left me on 120mg of Cymbalta but added 5mg of Valium twice a day. Now I normally have a very high tolerance when it comes to narcotics but this stuff is kicking my ass. I haven't been able to drive for a week because I almost totaled the truck because I was seeing 2 cars in the on coming lane. On to some better news though, I have been trying for almost 2 years to get on disability due to my severe mirgainrs and depression/anxiety. I got my letter yesterday stating my hearing is in April. So hopefully things will go my way because lord knows we could use the extra cash, and I only plan to spend a small amount on strippers and blow. Just kidding.........maybe ;) P.S. I honestly, truely love some of you. You make me smile and pull me outta my depression funk a

The Glow Radio Friday's
Friday on The Glow Radio: Starting our Friday will be DJ Kellie Khaos with her "Freaky Friday Show" where anything goes within reason starting at Noon pt/1pm mt/2pm ct/3pm et/8pm gmt next up is the Rev DJ Furg and he will be spinning his mix of Punk, Grunge, Hard Rock. and Metal Music on his Church of Rock starting at 3pm pt/4pm mt/5pm ct/6pm et/11pm gmt next up is The Mistress of Hard Rock & Metal; "Thee Witch" starting at 6pm pt/7pm mt/8pm ct/9pm et/2am gmt next is Tony the Misfit with his Freak Show featuring the best in Rock, Alternative, & Metal Music starting at 9pm pt/10pm mt/11pm ct/Midnight et/5am gmt Tune in to The Glow Radio on iTunes; you can find us under Classic Rock in The Radio Directory & you can also find

Deviousness On Four Paws.
Font is Trebruchet MS on account of Tinker being a nerd. He thought up a plan and he thought it up (not so) quick Bruno and I walk at night. Most of the year it is cooler at night and when it is not cooler at least the sun isn't burning a hole in your head. Also, my county has a crazy ordinance against Pitbulls that says basically anything that someone, who may or may not be a dog expert, deems to be a pitbull is one. The fines start at $500 dollars a day and continue until, ideally in their mind, you have the dog put down. My vet agrees with me that Bruno is a mix of a lot of breeds including boxer and mastiff. Certainly one of his parents wasn't a pitbull and that is what the law is supposed to preclude. But then there is that crazy clause that some judge would have final say as to whether of not the dog is half pitbull. Bruno and my solution is that we walk at night. No sense inviting trouble even though I am confident I would win and Bruno would be deemed not hal

Free Food & Cheap Drinks!
When: TONIGHT Friday, Feb. 4th Time: 5:30 - 8:00 PM Where: The Headliner1401 State Route 35 SNeptune, NJ 07753 I have to get the guest list in by noon tomorrow. Send me a message here or leave a message or txt @ (732) 503-8831

Marine Sgt. Nicolas M. Hodson
Died March 22, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 22, of Smithville, Mo.; assigned to the 3rd Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in a vehicle accident in Iraq.

Navy Lt. Thomas Mullen Adams
Died March 22, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 27, of La Mesa, Calif.; assigned as an exchange officer with the British Royal Navy’s 849 Squadron; killed in a Royal Navy Sea King helicopter crash over the Persian Gulf.

Army Capt. Christopher Scott Seifert
Died March 22, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 27, of Easton, Pa.; assigned to the 1st Brigade, 101st Airborne Division (Air Assault), Fort Campbell, Ky.; killed in a grenade attack near the Iraq-Kuwait border.

No Title
So numb it didn't even make a difference Heart cold without a preference Layers of disappointment Don't really care what you meant Meaningless betrayals ineffective and sterile Where are we now but in denial Washed up and spit out Condemned without a trial Withered by time Weak in the moment If I could take it back Pretend I didn't own it...

Secrets And Lies
Untold lies disguised as omissions Secrets of the soul buried beneath the surface of your cold eyes Telltale signs of your distance mocking the truth and it's existence Fake smiles covering the void of feelings Overwhelmingly empty like the silence between us Uncaring hearts playing a fools game Tangled and twisted with pleasure and pain

Marine Sgt. Brendon C. Reiss
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 23, of Natrona, Wyo.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq, on March 23.

Marine Lance Cpl. Brian Rory Buesing
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of Cedar Key, Fla.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Michael J. Williams
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 31, of Yuma, Ariz.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Staff Sgt. Phillip A. Jordan
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 42, of Enfield, Conn.; assigned to the 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Air Force 1st Lt. Tamara Archuleta
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 23, of Los Lunas, N.M.; assigned to the 41st Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Senior Airman Jason Plite
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 21, of Lansing, Mich.; assigned to the 38th Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Staff Sgt. Jason Hicks
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 25, of Jefferson, S.C.; assigned to the 41st Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Master Sgt. Michael Maltz
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 42, of St. Petersburg, Fla.; assigned to the 38th Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Staff Sgt. John Teal
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 29, of Dallas, Texas; assigned to the 41st Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Lt. Col. John Stein
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 39, of Bardolph, Ill.; assigned to the 41st Rescue Squadron, Moody Air Force Base, Ga.; killed in a HH-60G Pave Hawk crash on March 23, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Marine 2nd Lt. Frederick E. Pokorney Jr.
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 31, of Tonopah, Nev.; assigned to the Headquarters Battery, 1st Battalion, 10th Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Cpl. Randal Kent Rosacker
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of San Diego; assigned to the 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Thomas J. Slocum
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 22, of Thornton, Colo.; assigned to the 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Army Sgt. Donald Ralph Walters
33, of Salem, Ore.; assigned to the 507th Maintenance Company, Fort Bliss, Texas; captured by Iraqi fighters in an ambush near Nasiriyah, Iraq, and later executed. At the time, the Defense Department said Walters was killed in the ambush. Officials revised that statement on May 27, 2004.

Army Sgt. George Edward Buggs
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 31, of Barnwell, S.C.; assigned to 3rd Forward Support Battalion, 3rd Infantry Division, Fort Stewart, Ga.; killed after his convoy was ambushed in Iraq.

Marine Pvt. Jonathan L. Gifford
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 30, of Decatur, Ill.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah March 23. He was listed as missing until April 14, when the Defense Department announced his remains had been identified.

Marine Cpl. Patrick R. Nixon
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Nashville, Tenn.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action March 23 near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Army Chief Warrant Officer Johnny Villareal Mata
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 35, of Pecos, Texas; assigned to 507th Maintenance Company, Fort Bliss, Texas; killed in an ambush near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Army Pvt. 2 Brandon Ulysses Sloan
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 19, of Bedford Heights, Ohio; assigned to 507th Maintenance Company, Fort Bliss, Texas; killed in an ambush near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Sgt. Michael E. Bitz
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 31, of Ventura, Calif.; assigned to 2nd Assault Amphibious Battalion, 2nd Marine Division, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. David K. Fribley
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 26, of Warsaw, Ind.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Cpl. Jose A. Garibay
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Costa Mesa, Calif.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Cpl. Jorge A. Gonzalez
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of Los Angeles; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Pfc. Tamario D. Burkett
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Erie, N.Y.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah March 23. He was listed as missing until April 13, when the Defense Department announced his remains had been identified.

Marine Cpl. Kemaphoom A. Chanawongse
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 22, of Waterford, Conn.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed near Nasiriyah on March 23. He was listed as missing until April 14, when the Defense Department announced his remains had been identified.

Marine Lance Cpl. Donald J. Cline Jr.
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Washoe, Nev.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah on March 23. He was listed as missing until April 13, when the Defense Department announced his remains had been identified.

Marine Pvt. Nolen R. Hutchings
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 19, of Boiling Springs, S.C.; assigned to 1st Battalion, 2nd Marine Regiment, 2nd Marine Expeditionary Brigade, Camp Lejeune, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah March 23. He was listed as missing until April 13, when the Defense Department announced his remains had been identified.

Army Sgt. Edward J. Anguiano
Died March 23, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 24, of Brownsville, Texas; assigned to 3rd Combat Support Battalion, Fort Stewart, Ga.; killed in a convoy ambush in Iraq. His remains were recovered April 24. His status was changed from missing on April 28.

Air Force Maj. Gregory Stone
Died March 24, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 40, of Boise, Idaho; assigned to 124th Air Support Operations Squadron, Idaho Air National Guard, Boise; died of injuries suffered in a grenade attack March 22 near the Iraq-Kuwait border.

Marine Cpl. Evan T. James
Died March 24, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of La Harpe, Ill.; assigned to Engineering Company C, 6th Engineer Support Battalion, 4th Force Service Support Group, based in Peoria, Ill.; drowned in the Saddam Canal in southern Iraq.

Marine Sgt. Bradley S. Korthaus
Died March 24, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 28, of Davenport, Iowa; assigned to Engineering Company C, 6th Engineer Support Battalion, 4th Force Service Support Group, based in Peoria, Ill.; drowned in the Saddam Canal in southern Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Thomas A. Blair
Died March 24, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 24, of Wagoner, Okla.; assigned to 2nd Low Altitude Air Defense Battalion, Marine Air Control Group-28, 2nd Marine Aircraft Wing, Cherry Point, N.C.; killed in action near Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Staff Sgt. Donald C. May Jr.
Died March 25, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 31, of Richmond, Va.; assigned to 1st Tank Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Marine Corps Air-Ground Combat Center, Twentynine Palms, Calif.; killed in action while conducting convoy operations near the Euphrates River, Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Patrick T. O’day
Died March 25, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of Sonoma, Calif.; assigned to 1st Tank Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Marine Corps Air-Ground Combat Center, Twentynine Palms, Calif.; killed in action while conducting convoy operations near the Euphrates River, Iraq.

Marine Pfc. Francisco A. Martinez Flores
Died March 25, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Los Angeles; assigned to 1st Tank Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Marine Corps Air-Ground Combat Center, Twentynine Palms, Calif.; killed in action while conducting convoy operations near the Euphrates River, Iraq.

Navy Hospital Corpsman 3rd Class Michael Vann Johnson Jr.
Died March 25, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 25, of Little Rock, Ark.; assigned to Naval Medical Center San Diego, 3rd Marine Division Detachment, Fleet Marine Force, San Diego; killed March 25 while tending to wounded colleagues in Iraq.

Marine Maj. Kevin Nave
Died March 26, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 36, of Union Lake, Mich.; assigned to 3rd Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in a vehicle accident in Iraq.

Marine Cpl. Robert M. Rodriguez
Died March 27, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 21, of Queens, N.Y.; assigned to 1st Tank Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Marine Corps Air-Ground Combat Center, Twentynine Palms, Calif.; killed in action near the Euphrates River northwest of Nasiriyah, Iraq.

Marine Gunnery Sgt. Joseph Menusa
Died March 27, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 33, of San Jose, Calif.; assigned to 1st Combat Engineer Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed March 27 in an ambush in Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. Jesus A. Suarez Del Solar
Died March 27, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of Escondido, Calif.; assigned to 1st Light Armored Reconnaissance Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in action in Iraq.

Army Sgt. Roderic A. Solomon
Died March 28, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 32, of Fayetteville, N.C.; assigned to 2nd Battalion, 7th Infantry Regiment, 3rd Infantry Division, Fort Stewart, Ga.; killed March 28 in a vehicle accident in Iraq.

Marine Sgt. Fernando Padilla-ramirez
Died March 28, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 26, of Yuma, Ariz.; assigned to Marine Wing Support Squadron-371, Marine Wing Support Group-37, Marine Corps Air Station, Yuma, Ariz.; went missing while conducting convoy operations near Nasiriyah, Iraq. His remains were identified April 10.

Army Sgt. Orlando Morales
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 33, of Manati, Puerto Rico; assigned to A Company, 2nd Battalion, 7th Special Forces Group, Fort Bragg, N.C.; killed on March 29, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Air Force Staff Sgt. Jacob Frazier
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 24, of St. Charles, Ill., assigned to the 169th Support Operations Squadron, 182nd Airlift Wing, Air National Guard, Peoria, Ill.; killed on March 29, 2003, in Afghanistan.

Another Night I Must Overcome
As I sit here, the fog of Richmond surrounds my head. I sit and as many before me, i ply my trade putting thought to page, naked to all save my fig leaf. I am no different than those who have already reached plutonian shores. I gaze at the stars and ponder their meaning. There is no tale of daring, no plight of a hero. No forlorn maiden awaits rescue, no telling of the rains or of great victories. No they are just stars, and i am merely mortal, as those before me. Their fixed plains guide me through the darkness as the mariners of old. The musty air is parted by the tinge of brandy. I as many others are lost found and spared and slaughtered under those stars. The light of distant suns my only companion in the chill night air. I retreat to my antechamber, for i am only human myself and the piercing hand of death is too much to bear. It is for that purpose i sit here, for the night is long and the abyss wide between us. So brilliantly they do burn however. When pushed against their count

Marine Staff Sgt. James W. Cawley
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 41, of Roy, Utah; assigned to F Company, 2nd Battalion, 23rd Marine Regiment, 4th Marine Division, in Salt Lake City, Utah; killed in action in Iraq.

Marine Lance Cpl. William W. White
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 24, of Brooklyn, N.Y.; assigned to 3rd Amphibious Assault Battalion, 1st Marine Division, Camp Pendleton, Calif.; killed in a vehicle accident in Iraq.

Army Pfc. Michael Russell Creighton Weldon
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 20, of Conyers, Ga.; assigned to 2nd Battalion, 7th Infantry Regiment, 3rd Infantry Division, Fort Stewart, Ga.; killed in a suicide car-bombing near Najaf, Iraq.

Army Pfc. Diego Fernando Rincon
Died March 29, 2003 serving during Operation Iraqi Freedom 19, of Conyers, Ga.; assigned to 2nd Battalion, 7th Infantry Regiment, 3rd Infantry Division, Fort Stewart, Ga.; killed in a suicide car-bombing near Najaf, Iraq.

Army Spc. William J. Tracy
Army Spc. William J. Tracy Died February 25, 2003 serving during Operation Enduring Freedom 27, of New Hampshire; assigned to B Company, 5th Battalion, 158th Aviation, Aviano Air Base, Italy; killed Feb.25, 2003, in a UH-60 Black Hawk crash in Kuwait.

Applying Heat For Lower Back Pain Relief
Applying heat to an injured area of the back and the surrounding muscles can be a great tool to help reduce lower back pain. Heat is a healing agent that causes vasodilatation to the vessels surrounding the area. What vasodilatation means is that the blood vessels open up and allow an increase in the blood flow to the area where the heat is being applied. With increase in blood flow, the muscles surrounding the area where the heat is become more relaxed and less stiff. Muscles will become more responsive to stretching and strengthening exercises. Muscles can become stiff and tight due to protecting the area of injury or if muscles have been overused or over worked. When muscles are stiff and tight due to protecting an area from injury, your body will create compensatory movement patterns to not involve the injured area. When that happens, other muscles get overworked and that can create additional stress and pain. We can heal an area faster once we get the muscles to sta

"webb Of Lies"
I cannot believe you hurt me this way I relive that same pain every single day I really believed that I would someday be your wife And now I just relive the empty fact that you are no longer in my life Daily and nightly many tears flood from my eyes I feel as though I am drowning in your giant sea of lies I cannot believe that none of it was real For if I did, just for one moment, I know with no hesitation that this broken heart has no chance to ever heal You tell me to believe, you tell me to hope But when I look around, all I see is an empty noose at the end of a dangling rope Once upon a time, I thought all my wishes were finally coming true Yet here I am, lost, blindsided completely out of the blue I knew your heart. I knew your soul Or so I once believed, before you tore this gaping heart hole I want to forgive. I want to not hate But sometimes I contemplate if it’s just too damn late I once called you "prince", you once called me "angel"

I Want To Know What Everyone Thinks Of Me.
Do you think that FuMisfitAngel have a nice body? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel would do anything to succeed? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a good friend? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel needs to lose weight? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel has ever lied to you? Is FuMisfitAngel fun to be around? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a gold digger? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a freak? Would you make-out with FuMisfitAngel for $10,000? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is materialistic? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a smart ass? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel puts 'hoes' before 'bros'? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel dresses well? Would you trust FuMisfitAngel with your life? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is cute? do you think that FuMisfitAngel is religious? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel had a bad haircut? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel could be a gangster? Is FuMisfitAngel a reliable person? If you were being chased by a bear, would you trip FuMi

Society Lost
These days in human life we are all lost in blinded foolish pride, anger and loathing of anything that makes us question our self worth not one person can step back and truly think what can i do what should i do we are a society lost in the he said she said what i own in materialistic value makes me HOW good of a person I AM I SAY WAKE UP WAKE UP ALL WHAT YOU OWN TRULY OWNS YOU anger and feelings of negitivity leads to the true evil of all evils STUPIDITY it wages war it destroys bonds between men and woman , cultures, nations and further more the human race TRUTH BE TOLD RELIGION AND POLITICS play a part when all in a nut shell the main goal of them all is to be BETTER PERSON NOT MUDEROUS GREEDY MONSTERS The message is slow down get away from the tv , the computer ,the mass media look at what you have and be thankful for things could be worse go out into the world be glad of the air, the land breath it in and be thankful to be alive to have food to eat and drink to wet your thir

Isn't It Ironic?
So I’m standing around at a NOFX concert… Yeah, I know. I should have thought this through a little better. Anyway, I’m standing at this concert and I have a total Final Destination moment. This happens due to the summation of several factors. 1. I am on the second floor of a bar/club and I can feel the vibrations of the double bass drum from the band playing on the ground floor. 2. The entire building seems to be made completely of wood. 3. There are numerous men who are much too big to be jumping around like kids who are, indeed, jumping around and punching at each other like children. Hereafter these men shall be referred to as fatties, huge bitches, or big ass motherfuckers. 4. These huge bitches are making the floor bounce like a fucking trampoline right underneath my feet. 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 = death trap. In my mind, I see these fatties causing the floor to give way beneath us. It would splinter like a frozen sheet of ice covering a lake and start to br

I Want To Get A Tattoo B4 Spring Break Hits...
heaven or hell on my upper back and a angel on my front right shoulder an the devil on my front left shoulder is something i have thought about for a long time now. I have been trying to look up art online to find some stuff i might like and it's been so so, but i would love some help. So if you have any heaven or hell thoughts and or ideals please feel free to post.

Eminem Ft Rihanna- Love The Way You Lie
[Chorus - Rihanna:]Just gonna stand there and watch me burnBut that's alright because I like the way it hurtsJust gonna stand there and hear me cryBut that's alright because I love the way you lieI love the way you lie[Eminem]I can't tell you what it really isI can only tell you what it feels likeAnd right now it's a steel knife in my windpipeI can't breathe but I still fight while I can fightAs long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flightHigh off of love, drunk from my hate,It's like I'm huffing pain and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocateAnd right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates meShe fucking hates me and I love it.Wait! Where you going?"I'm leaving you"No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.Here we go againIt's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going greatI'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois LaneBut when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snappedWho's that dude? I don't even know his nameI laid hands on her, I'll ne

Another Hero? (repost Of Part 3)
The plan was quite simple.Send one deligate to the front gate, unannounced, unplanned, and declare victory.Robert, tiny, tan, spindly Robert, new to the boot-outs, and only a little damp behind the ears stood before a full honor guard of white chargers and very shiny armor that glittered in the morning light. The captain had to give his army some credit, at least they knew to attack with the sun at their back.The regular army disregarded Robert, this one straggler as a potential deserter or turncoat, only lobbing a few casually insulted missiles and insults at him.Robert stammered, introducing himself to the assembled enemy knight-captains."My master has a message..." he stuttered and fidgeted with his cap, trying not to look directly at all the spikes, muscle, and stamping horses. He only stood barely over a man's elbow, but what he lacked in stature he made up for in...actually no one was quite sure what Robert was good for yet. He had only just arrived in the band a few

Another Hero? (extended)
The plan was quite simple.Send one deligate to the front gate, unannounced, unplanned, and declare victory.Robert, tiny, tan, spindly Robert, new to the boot-outs, and only a little damp behind the ears stood before a full honor guard of white chargers and very shiny armor that glittered in the morning light. The captain had to give his army some credit, at least they knew to attack with the sun at their back.The regular army disregarded Robert, this one straggler as a potential deserter or turncoat, only lobbing a few casually insulted missiles and insults at him.Robert stammered, introducing himself to the assembled enemy knight-captains."My master has a message..." he stuttered and fidgeted with his cap, trying not to look directly at all the spikes, muscle, and stamping horses. He only stood barely over a man's elbow, but what he lacked in stature he made up for in...actually no one was quite sure what Robert was good for yet. He had only just arrived in the band a few weeks ago, f

I Hate You All..
Day 2 Cigarettes today: 4 Urge to kill Scale (1-10): 10 - Talk to me and I will kill you.. Another shit day.. Every question that is asked of me is now the stupidest fucking question I have ever heard. I see other smokers and want to punch them.. I think Jen is avoiding me.. (I can't blame her).. I bought some weed from my Uncle to help me chill the fuck out.. God bless him, He gave me the greatest deal ever on a quarter ounce.. I'm expecting tomorrow to be more of the suck.. I can't wait.. /wrists..

Judging People...
Years and years ago I remember hearing the story of Job. He lost his children, his livestock, his health, etc but continued to have faith in God. I never could understand that his wife would curse God after it and wanted Job to do it too. I always judged her, thinking that she was unequally yolked with Job. That she certainly must not have the same faith in God that he did. I was so very unfair to this poor woman. You see, in biblical times cursing God was like asking to die. People thought if they cursed Him he would kill them on the spot. I so understand why she did it now that I have lost my daughter but before I judged her terribly. I figure someday in heaven I will get to apologize to this woman and ask for forgiveness because I was stupid and judgemental. What people don't realize though is how easily stupid we all are and how overly judgemental everyone is. Until you have walked a mile in my moccasins or anyone else's how can we possible know anything? U

Me Time
It's a ME night. :) Soaked in a Warm Vanilla Sugar bubble bath, gave myself a mani and a pedi, shaved all areas which needed shaved, and slathered myself in Warm Vanilla Sugar lotion and Cherry Vanilla scented perfume. I smell yummy. Relaxing with a cup of Madigascar Red tea. :D Got some poetic justice today and I am in a fine mood. :) Don't mess it up. ;) /rates dravenx a 1

Tuesdays Surgery
ok so yeah, I got out of surgery at 12, went in at 7. I was in for 4.5-5 hours. I had scar tissue and 2 blockages. Along with having to remove half my 1st vertebra and file it down to smooth it out. I have 13 staples and they couldn't fine pain killers to make me feel better. Tried pure codeine, morphine, perks until they got to dilaudid. And it still hurts but just takes the edge off. The docs were confused that I'm so tolerant. Couldn't eat breakfast. Nothing tasted right. Lunch was great. Never threw up once. Also on a flexeril and decadron and pepcid. I wake up in pain screaming though. Thats my biggest issue. My neck hurts alot but over all things are better. My speech patterns are better. Anxiety gone. I'm not having the issues with claustrophobia that I once had. When confronted with a difficult conversation I was able to talk rationally rather then freak out like I normally would. So all in all not to shabby.

I Stole This Survey.
27 random questions 1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?had mental debate on if i should shave today. exciting. 2. How much cash do you have on you? 36$ 3. What's your favorite word that rhymes with "DOOR?" roar? is that a manly answer? 4. Favorite planet?*insert obvious uranus joke here* 5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?GI John. army thing. 6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? uh.. i have "hey sexy girlfriend" from sixteen candles.... it gets laughs. 7. What shirt are you wearing? some douchbagish affliction looking blue shirt. 8. Do you "label" yourself?it would probably be easier if i did. 9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing? cant recall, they have skulls on em tho 10. Bright or Dark Room? dark usually. varies i suppose. 11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?i stole it from her. i think she is neat consideri

Soilder Poem
A soldier can still hear the drums of battle ringing in his ear.His deployment can take up most of the year.A soldier carries his rifle to tear down the fear,Of terrorist far away and the ones who are near. All soldiers carry the colors to make one thing clear,These colors will never run away from here.Being a soldier I fight for a cause greater then my own.I would give my life to let your sons and daughters grow old.I will stand against all your enemies even if I don't come home.This is our America, witch will be represented by the strong and the bold.I will withstand the heat of the dessert, I will even fight the cold.Although my blood may shed and tears may flow I will always stand my postNo matter what obstacle lies ahead of me I will fight as I'm told.liberty and freedom comes with the price of so many souls.Even if I'm dealt a losing hand I will never fold.Because the safety of our America is my one true goal.

The Devil
The Devil Knows My Name… He Knows All My Weaknesses… He Loves Them One And All… He Wraps His Me Around His Finger Once Again And I Can’t Think Of A Place I Would Rather Be. In His Arms Again… Feeling Whole Again. The Devil Knows My Desires… He Knows The Darkness In Me… He Made A Home In My Heart… I Can’t think Of A Place I’d Rather Him Be.

[let's Talk About Something Else]
Geeze its a bloggy day.I think its the research, writing, and reading.Work an hour, take an hour off kinda thing.I'm reading the Count of Monte Cristo, and yes there's free downloadable and browseable versions of the book up onlineand yes, I'm still opposed to digital books.But its snowing outside and I has a trapped.http://manybooks.net/titles/dumasalpetext98crsto12.htmlProgress on my gouf is trodding along, I also now have a fuckload of spare plaplate to play with as I cut a strip of .25 mm off (and I have a bunch of .4 from previous applications) sitting around.Just putting a few geometric doodads on the surface can really make a model pop with doodads and widgets.I think I'm gonna add some armor plates (very thin granted) to the shoulders, waist and maybe breastplate.You can even do this effect that's very similar to an antique chest/door hinge with a little quadralateral figure and a rod against another quad.I..really don't want to cut any more circular shapes though.Bordering on

Preliminary
Sex is Love. There is no sex without Love. So are there really two kinds of orgasms? Lust, Physical beauty, Imagination of sensual pleasure. Was it learned, imposed that I require an object to devote the product of my orgasm to? Empirically, intuitively, it becomes a sacred sacrament. The reward, it's intensity. The depth of pleasure is Loves efficacy. But not for the point of climax, alone, for that purpose I create a memory profound; and rather than one to be forgotten, one to be reveled in, revisited wanting it deeper with greater intensity and clarity. An incorporeal talisman by rite of devotion. To Love, to Lust and to the memory and thought of this object, now pleasantly plumping my cock.She's turning me onto Life Thinking of her while facing her direction. She comes to me, into my arms, looking into her face her eyes, her arms around my shoulders, her hands on the back of my neck, she controls me, but relents to me, exuding her Love into my heart, caressing her ass feeling our n

[they Bleep That Line On Tbs]
27 random questions 1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?Man, my hair is crazy this morning. 2. How much cash do you have on you? uuuh... $3? 3. What's your favorite word that rhymes with "DOOR?" Floor 4. Favorite planet?Urectum. 5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?Mom. 6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? I only have the one, and its always on silent. 7. What shirt are you wearing? I'm wearing 2. < 20 degree weather is the shit. Olive drab undershirt, longsleave baseball style black and grey (black sleaves and neck) 8. Do you "label" yourself?I'm a fuck-god. THE Fuck-god. And/or Great Destroyer. 9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?I'm not wearing them at the moment- but Converse Chuck Taylors, or as I would "name" them- "awesome Steve". 10. Bright or Dark Room? Fairly bright, my eyes are shit enough I don't need them getting worse when I'm on the compu

Pass The Biscuit
PASS THE BISCUITS When I was a kid, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made brakeakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his Biscuit, smile at my mom and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said: "Honey, Ilove burned biscuits." Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your momma put in a long hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides... a burnt biscuit never hurt anyone!" You know, life is full of imperfect things... and imperfect

Ptsd Poemi Love You Through My Anger, In Between My Fits Of Rage. I Want Us To Be Happy, But I Just Can't Turn The Page. I See In You The Answer
I love you through my anger, In between my fits of rage. I want us to be happy, But I just can't turn the page. I see in you the answer To every time I've prayed. Then I get mad; you leave the room; I wish that you had stayed. My love just wants to hold your hand, But my anger doesn't care. I feel the weight you carry. It really isn't fair. I gave our country everything The day I went to war. I thought the cost would be my life, But it turned out to be much more. I look into my child's eyes, And I see a child burned By Napalm lying on the ground, Without a lesson learned. So now they send the young folks To act like war is fun, Without a thought of how they'll feel When their killing job is done. When folks go fill their gas tanks I think they all should know, A veteran's future happiness Is drowning in the flow. I struggle wiuth this everyday. Wish I had more ppl to lean on.

Attention To All Bloggers
I got a message from some dumbass guy a few minutes ago saying that I was a blog hog well let me express myself and tell that person a piece of my mind... IF YOU WANT TO POST SOMETHING ON HERE THERE'S NOTHING BUT AIR AND OPPURTUNITY THAT IS STOPPING YOU.. AS LONG AS YOU ARE SITTING HERE BITCHING ABOUT WHAT SOMEONE ELSE POST OR HOW MUCH SOMEELSE POST THEN YOU ARE GONNA GET LEFT BEHIND... , I'M IN NO WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM OF BEING A BLOG HOG... SO GET OVER IT..IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM THEN PUT ME OF IGNORE... PLAIN AND SIMPLE... DON'T SIT THERE AND BITCH AND WHINE LIKE A 2 YEAR OLD.... .. THE BLOGGING IS OPEN TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE AND THE PERSON (YOU KNOW WHO YOUR RETARDED ASS IS) THAT WHINED ABOUT IT, GET A LIFE AND START YOUR OWN BLOGGING AND STAY OUTTA MINE IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT.. NOONE ASKED YOU TO READ IT...

"our Heavenly Home"
The good lord tells us of great things yet to be seen... But just what are they that we cannot see apparently it is not yet for us to be known.. But if you keep God in your heart you will end up in a heavenly home and from high above in the sky you will be able yo look down at all of Satan's sinners that God has left behind...

"my Long Lost Love "
I thought that I was once yours that's until you got taken away so now I must leave you for the new love that you found & choose in your life to stay. I hope you the best and that you two make it through life but I wish that you would come back to me and say that you will be forever mine

" In Time "
I can tell the time when you cross my mind because it happens everyday It's the precious thoughts of you that never seem to fade away.. I always think of the time that we will soon be reunited again and just how our friendship ever really began... I miss you so much that words just can not say, I await to be back with you to share the fun & laughter that's presently being taken away !!!!

"i'm Glad You're My Friend"
I could say so many things about our relationship and what you've come to mean to me... The love you've shown, the times you've cheered me on, the friend you've been, in good times and bad, but it wouldn't add up to those simple words that I don't say often enough, I'm Glad You're My Friend !!!

"unforgotten Love"
I can smell you from here even though you're so far away the sweet smell of your colonge that used to put me in a daze It was the fun & laughter that we once shared and your loving touch that really showed me how much you cared... I just can't wait to be back with you to share those memories again, for we'll share the love and laughter that was meant for us two to be together until the end...

"times Helping Hand"
This is the time in life that we all must understand now is the time that we need to reach for each other's hand When we feel down, lost, or just confused that helping hand of yours can come in use. So look around for the hand that reaches out for you because that's the helping hand that's meant to be true...

"who Is That Calling Me "
I was once lost in the darkness and I could not see then at once I heard a strong voice from above calling me.. I felt as though I was being watched with eyes all around. Again I heard the voice say, "My child please look up from the ground so when i turned to look into the sky a bright light caught my sight... Then the voice said, "My child it was I watching you from here up above and I will never leave nor forsake you for you are my child, the one I dearly love"

" The New Arrival "
It didn't take long for him to say goodbye that's when he noticed the tears in my eyes.. He never had once seen me cry but that was the day that I felt as if I could die the pain or the sorrow which hurt most I couldn't tell but now he is gone so what the hell... Now that I found a true love that's here with me to forever stay we planned to be married and happily on our way. Now the first is history and will not be missed. This guy of mine now, oh man can he kiss....

" Someone To Be Found "
It seemed like everytime that I turned to find a friend noone was there to be found. I was lost & deserted from all around until one day it suprised me and there I met you... The next thing I realized was my life began to get brigther as I noticed our friendship grew that much tighter, now I'm glad that our friendship is very close as close as possibly can be... I'm glad that I found you and that you accepted me and I pray that we'll stay friends for "ETERNITY"

" Just A True Friend "
A true friend is someone who will always be near a friend to comfort you when you're in fear A friend is someone who will always stick by your side no matter what the situation maybe he/she's there to be my guide... Or just when you feel down, lonely, or a little sad. a true friend will always be there to pick you up and make you glad. But there are only a few "TRUE FRIENDS" left to be found. That's why I chose you because you're always around... So take our friendship and keep it held close because you are my true friend that I think of and love the most...

"the Return Home"
I may not be at home like you want me to be but that doesn't mean you're not on my mind everyday. Because that you'll always be... You're in my heart and that's where you'll forever stay.. Just a loving reminder I'll be home one very soon day so have the door open very wide because to you I'll be running quick inside and into your loving arms... Oh yes, that's where I should fall and pray that I never return to lonelness not another time or day.. Most importantly, "NOT AT ALL"... But to stay with you in your loving arms that is where I'll forever remain, to get back all the love I've lost, it shall all be regained...

" Only You "
What's this strange feeling calling my heart ? Could it be you calling me to come and be a part ? _________, what is it you want me to do ? Is it to think all about you ? Do you want me to go to a distant land so there I will learn to trust your hand ? Or would you like for me to remain here at home so here I can discover what still remains unknown ? _________, give me the strength to trust only you and let your thoughts guide me in whatever I do. I know you say "It won't be easy" but you also promised, "You'll never leave me" So now only through your trust will I stay cause I know that you will guide me every single step of my way even until the final day. Having learned to be truthful to you I know that's all you ask me to do is to have trust and to always tell you the truth!!!

" God "
Although we may walk from him and try to do things on our own He say "my child I love you" and leads us safely home... " But God I want it this way" he often hears us say "My child I know what's best for you" and leads us on our way Then at night I'm frighten we say "Dear God help us please" He says, "My child I'm here for you, From you I'll never leave " Then we say "THANK YOU GOD" for being here for me I will tell the people of this earth you'll always be !!!

"somewhere Into The Night "
Somewhere into the night where the cool breeze hits your charming face I can hear you call to give you a warm embrace... Somewhere into the night with the stars up high above I can see us together beginning to fall in love... Then it became day with you still by my side and that's when I asked the question will you please be my guide ? And later on, back together and deeper into the night with all things left unseen could you ever imagine it ever being Just "YOU & I "

" Here All Alone "
Sometimes I often wonder where you might be right now How I let you escape.. All my pains and my downs but now I come to realize that I've turned you around Now all that I ask Is where are you now ? I'm sitting here all alone again with you on my mind I know that you must cross it at least a thousand times I lie here at night with nothing else to do except looking at the pictures of "me and you "

" My Long Lost Friend "
I've said some aweful words that hurt you very bad words, I didn't mean that had you very mad... These words that I said really went too far and that's when you told me together, we're apart... I feel very low now for the words that I should not have said.... I just want to apoloigize, and ask you, "WILL YOU STILL BE MY FRIEND ?"

"the Dreams Of Two"
The love that shows deep into your eyes that's the very first thing I realize then the thumping that's in your heart I can hear it calling me from afar that's wheen I come running to your cozy arms that held me tight and set my alarm. It was your lips that touched my tender face Oh my lord, I won the race.... Was this really you & me ? or did I just have another dream ? So please tel me before you go because this one dream I really must know !!

"love On The Horizon"
Oh how sweet if only it were just you and me looking at the skies that are clear and blue having fun on the beach It will be just us two as the sun fades in the distance were walking on the dock we hug and we kiss and "Oops" we got caught (IN LOVE) So as the night glows we begin to head on our way and say to each other I had a great day, and hope we can do it again one very soon Day !!!!

" Lord Please "
Lord please tell me why I'm here Please help me join the race Let me run by your side I'll follow you any place Lord please tell me why I'm here How can I join the pain ? I know life is hard But, I will help anyway I can Lord please tell me why I'm here Make the devil get off my back Help me through the wages of sin Don't let me fall through the cracks Lord please help me while I'm here Don't let temptations do me in Help me to stay closer to you Keep me away from sin Lord please cleanse me of my sins I'm ready to come back to you I've wondered away long enough Now I'm ready to love you too!!!

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These would I keep forever in the chambers of my heart The singing of the robin that annouces you in my heart A meadow bright starry eyed where daises nod and doze on slender streams. Grown weary from their unaccustomed clothes, an apple tree with sprouting birds where blue jays congregate to bring you to me. Each other's realastate. The sound of happy children when their school lets out for play That's when the fun begins on April's first bright day. An April day is brief, I know yet there's a gentleman like you out there for a young lady like me. That lives forever in the heart of me forever & always....

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Life is so very confussing as times goes by it seems very amusing although I want to cry Life is so unfair, it seems to have dealt me a bad hand and tempting me to take a dare. Knowing I can't stand another bad scare, I saw him with her it hurt real bad but it's only a blur that made me super scared I saw him and he saw me. I turned toward them and I took my leave. I only wish I had it on film He turned white they just starred I'll never forget that night for they could only glare before I took any flight....

*******
I met a guuy the other night, I think I have begun to like him. He acts as if he feels the same. One problem is that he may want to remain free. He said he would call but I don't think he will. I'm bracing myself for a fall. I keep waiting still. I jump everytime the phone rings, thinking it will be __________ only to feel the heartache it brings knowing I will still be lonely I'll never understand these things. Why would he say it if he weren't sincere knowing I would I would hold it very dear I would do to see him except for fear of rejection that I'm afraid I would recieve instead of affection. If only I knew weather to be sad and blue or be glad cause my wish may come true that he could be had & he woould say, " I WANT YOOU TOO"

******
I met a special person last night even then I knew he would be different from the other two only he could be my right to take me away from my fright. The first few days I could not believe all the time he spent with me he said he loved me in many ways even then I could not see I was living in a daze I thought I knew him well, but only time would tell soon all his time was spent playin' pool. He no longer had time for me. He told me girlfriends were uncool. I had been aside for everyone to see what a fool he made of me....

*****
I met him one day we went out that night Oh how I wanted to stay. My life had never looked so bright. I knew he would go away Everything seemed really great but I noticed a certain reserve I chose to ignore it at my rate because I really didn't deserve it. It was just a quick of fate.. ____________, had already taken his heart. She had it for well over a year. I wish I had known from the start. It would have saved many tears.Well, that is how I stood. I tried to forget, knowing I never would If only we had never still cause we could...

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Now we are together but yet apart somethings never last forever. Maybe this is just the start. ______________ maybe by my side and still be far away He is still my guide, I won't go astray. My mind is in a whirl. Sometimes I'm just in a daze. I think he is with another girl. Only I know it is a phase. Time is the only answer and that I have plenty of.. He often sees another. Most are around twenty We are still with each other, but not the way I would like. Things need to go further. They need to inore.....

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Instead of a frown on your face put a smile in it's place. Instead of shedding tears from a broken heart shed tears of joy, comfer, be smart. Isn't laughter sweeter than cryin' doesn't make life worth the tryin' - (3) Who can hold my hand look me in the eye and never lie, To him I will always say, "I LOVE YOU" He may never look my way, he may never say, "I LOVE YOU TOO" But there may come a day he will decide to stay. Until then, ________________, I will be here waiting for you...

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I always know when I'm gonna see him By a certain feeling I get sometimes it's dim. But I always know it's because of him. That feeling can take my breath away it is somethng I can't ignore because it's inside me to stay and to remain forever more I wish I didn't have that feeling cause now I believe he has been stealing part of me I can't retrieve. I know he doesn't care but my feelings is still deep inside and it seems so unfair that he can just put his aside I wonder if it was ever really there.

" Advise To A Friend "
So now your going to be wed to someone you say you love. I want to say wait but I keep quiet instead because there is no reason I know of except for what I've read. I hope he loves youas much in return because you deserve the best. He has chosen you from all the rest. You have alot to learn, be careful and always show your concern I'm always here as your friend if yoou ever need to talk. I'm not sure how much help I could be in understanding him. Remember now you must think as we and not me. Happiness is all I want for you and _____________ as well. Best wishes is all I have for you two from your friend _______________.

" First Love "
Does he love me, or does he not or does he just like me or care for me alot. I have to ask these questions before I fall too deep cause I really love him and I want him here to keep. My eyes are full of tears and I don't know why, I think it's because of you. cause you loved me, then left me. Now I'm all alone and I blame it all on you.

"my Love For ___________"
There is this guy named ____________. that I really love alot. But he ignores me and I don't say much myself. I'm always sad because he don't want to be with me. He thinks it's uncool to have a girlfriend like me. Because I'm different from the other girls. Can't he understand he's the one I love, he's the reason I'm always glowing when he's around I wish he would leave everyone else be and come to see me, too hold me and love me. He's the one I'll die for....

Hoars!
So, On Saturday, I'll be activating the God Mode bling thing that the GREATEST TITS IN THE UNIVERSE bought me. Since I like to spread the love, if you'd like me to bomb any of your albums, let me know in this blog's comments. Linking directly to the album in question will increase your chances of being bombed, what with me being a fat lazy bastard and all. Also - if you know any cool people who hardly ever get points, let me know about them in the comments too. You're welcome. ;)

"for Now"
For now be my friend accept me as the person I am Don't force me to shut you out. For now try to understand don't tell me lies that will confuse me futher. For now be patient. Inside me is a beautiful person. For now let me know you care, meet me halfway and walk with me from there. 10. " Feelings " My feelings for ___________ are very strong Sometimes those strong feelings make me want to cry. Here I am sitting up at _______ in the morning thinking about my feelings for __________ and how strong they are. Believe me, they're really strong right now....

"love"
Love can be woderful, that is is yoou can find the right person to share that love with but it takes two people to make love. And I love _________ with all my heart. My mom thinks I'm just in puppy love, I really don't know. Love can really hurt sometimes but then again it can be the best thing on the surface of this earth So find that someone special and find out what love is....

"my Love "
I tiptoed in your room so softly you knew not I was there As I came there for you and caught you unaware. I kissed you so from your sleepy bed. I slipped under covers but you still knew not I was there. Lyin beside you I felt love I kissed you so hard and gave you my love a mealody for yours. Though it echoed all year long. Then I frightened you when I kissed you lasted. Forget me not, I still love you in my heart and I'll always & forever...

"silence"
Here I sit in silence I'm singing sepressing songs smoking a cigarette and drinking a beer. There are five guys that say they love me but I don't understand why I'm always alone. If five people love you then why would yoou be sitting in silence. The week is just starting and it's already hell for me. I just don't understand life is so messed up sometimes but for me it's usually always or most of the time, but why ?

"fish In The Sea"
I have always heard there are alot of fish in the sea I wonder if there is one for me. Someone besides a jerk All my friends have someone that is always there I look around I find noone this is too much too bare. If I could only find my fish I would jump for joy. I only have that one wish to find the special guy. Is that too much too ask for ? Just one special guy that isn't a total bore. I'm beginning to wonder why they all seem to ignore me and want to say goodbye...

"my Best Friend"
I have this friend named ___________. She thinks she's better than me. I just wonder why it can't be. Alot of people say make new friends and let her be, let her go away and she'll realize the friendship the both of us had. I'm thinking about going away so she'll not know where I am. So she can be with the rest of here so called friends and her lover ___________. I'll just let her be and go away and let her be with the rest of her so called friends....

"loves Philosophy"
The fountains mingle with the river and rivers with the ocean the winds of heaven mix forever with a sweet emotion Nothing in the world is single, all things by law devine in another's being mingle why not I with thine ?

"the Meaning Of Free Love "
It is the sharing, cariing, giving, forgiving, loving and being loved. walking hand in hand, talking heart to heart Seeing through each other's eyes. Laughing together, weeping together. praying together and believing and thinking god for each other for that is shared is a beautiful thing. It enriches the soul and makes the heart sing.....

" Dressed Up"
I had ma clothes cleaned just like new I put'em on but I still feel blue. I bought a new hat, sho is fine, but I wish I had back that ol' boy of mine. I got new shoes they don't hurt ma feet but I ain't got nobody for to call me sweet......

"if I Should Go "
Love leave me like the night the gently passing day we would not know but for that night when it has slipped away Go quietly a dream when done should leave no trace that it has lived except a gleam across the dream's face.......

"lonely "
Here I sit very lonely all of the people that say they love me I'm wondering where they are. One day there's so many people at my house to see me and then the next day, there's none and I'm lonely again. I hate being lonely..

"come Back "
Too many things remind me of you things we used to talk about things we used to do. All the times that we spent making future plans believing everything you said to me my heartwas in your hands everything is so different now a part of you has changed. I can't seem to understand it my life is all rearranged I hope someday that will go back to the way it used to be I miss you now more than yoou could know so please come back to me...

" Your Love "
Kidden dreams never revealed Broken hearts never healed Lost friends never found Helping hands never around Quiet smiles never heard Unspoken thoughts never a word Your lover never left, My heart forever melts..

"love Games "
You say that you love me then you leave me again. Stop playing these games where I never win. I thought when I met you your feelings were true you said you said you loved me if only I knew So when you get bored or desperate or down, don't come runnin' to me I won't be around becasue loves not a game. Therefore the winner is you. Love is an emotion shared by two..

" Friends "
Friends are hard to come by Friends are hard to choose A real good friendship never dies Good friends you never lose Friends are not like autumn leaves you find everywhere. Best friends are like diamonds very precious and very rare...

"missing You"
I lie in this big double bed and wonder where you are Are you thinking of me, missing me ? There are times when I feel that I can't go on, no calls, no letters, but there's still a glimer of hope shining bright in me. It's been so many days now but still I can't help hoping that soon, someday soon you will arrive and everytime I hear door knocks I can't help hoping and praying it's you coming to see me That it will be you missing me too. For you see there's no life for me No sun or moon or laughter or love. No reason for walking or sleeping without you...

"loves Final Song"
Love has come love has gone some we loved so much we would sale oour souls. You never want to see them go but once they 're gone you sing a new song. This time you promise to tease and to please. But once you see the fire's not there what a smoke in the ground, he's already found another poor soul. You start to cry, he comforts you while you're down You begin to dream as his strong and loving arms are aroound you as you see his baby blue eyes look insidetryin' to cry. He knows he's wrong but the big man says no. But as life goes on you see him and want him but your lust's still there. So, as the night time come he's friend by day but lover at night. He caresses you and lets you know he's always there. But in your mind you're begging and pleading love me for who I am not what I am. I'm still waiting and aurging for him to bring his love on. Now he's mine from dust til dawn and asI see his blonde hair blue eyed son I see a reflection of my one and only man. The

"love "
Love is a feeling shared by two. Love can touch me, love can touch you Love makes you brave and strong and true Especially the love I feel for you. Though our lives are so different nothing can dim the love in my heart. I have something to tell you, I'll say just to you. The words that I'm trying to say is "I LOVE YOU"

"well I Have Lost You"
Well, I have lost you and I lost you fairly In my own way and with my full consent say what you will, kings in autumn rarely went to their deaths more proud than this one went Some nights of apprehension and hot weeping I will confess but that's permitted me, day dried my eyes, I was not one for keeping rubbed in a caged A wing that would be free. If I had loved you less or played you slyly I might have held you for a summer more. But at the cost of words I value highly and so such summer as the one before should I out live this angish and men do I shall have only good to say for you..

" I'm Possed "
There you sit in your silence here I sit in mine we're so muchalone altogether as if we were apart I long to reach out and touch you, to hold you in my arms Instead I remain sitting quietly for my fear of rejection is strong Wouldn't it be much easier if we coould read each other's mind Be able to reveal, without using words what we're feeling inside But that of course isn't possible so now what can we do to break down this wall between us and let each other through ?

" Day To Day "
All I need from day to day is for you to say, I LOVE YOU" All I need from day to day is for you to need me. All I need from day to day is to feel your arms around me. All I need from day to day is to feel your lips on mine. All I need from day to day is to feel your touch of love. All I need from day to day is for you to say, " I LOVE YOU"

" Hurt "
The hurt is still there and always will be until I know he cares it will remain still. I'm waiting for the day he will say he isn't going away. I don't think that time will come, atleast no time soon. He still thinks he's to young to have a steady girlfriend...

" I Miss You Most "
I miss you when you're here I miss you when you're gone I'm sitting here wondering if you're missing me.. I still think I miss you most My eyes lite up when I see your smile My heart cries out for you when you're gone I long to hear your sweet voice When we sit and talk for hours at a time I feel so great inside But when the time has come for us to say goodbye I miss you most... I long to be with you night & day but I guess I'll have to sit & wait to see what the morning brings.. I often find myself watching & counting the time as it goes by as to when I will see you again.. Time has it's way of torching two people who are so in love I MISS YOU YESTERDAY I MISS YOU TODAY BUT MOST OF ALL I MISS YOU MOST!!!!!!

" Wish I Was There "
Wish I was there to feel all the pain that I have put you through, If only I could take all the pain away that you are in... I wanna be the one who's there to feel your love, your touch, your kiss Wish I was there to hold you and look you in the eyes and tell you how sorry I am and tell you it'll never happen again... I wanna be the only one for you I wanna be the one who makes you happy the one who makes you laugh Just wish I was there to show you how much I LOVE YOU !!!!

" Only You "
I love only you only you know my pain only you can take this pain in my heart away. I hate this pain in my heart.. I can't take it anymore... I wanna crawl in a small hole somewhere and stay there forever cause without you I'm nothing... I love only you and there will never be another... I'll never love another the way I love you no other can take your place in my heart.. Only you can fill that special spot And now it's all cold and empty since you are gone !!!

" Lonely"
I've been lonely since the day you said goodbye All I do is sit and cry I don't know what to do or what to say anymore... I know I hurt you and I hurt you bad And for that I am sorry I know sorry isn't good enough but that's all I know to say right now... Why does love have to hurt like this ? I'm so lonely since you said it's over My heart is now broken and I only have me to blame... I just wish this loneliness would end !!!

" Easing The Pain"
How do I ease the pain Where in my heart only sorrow remains It seems I'm constantly drwoning in tears why can't the hurt just disappear... I just want to fly away and let the agony fall astray but they are with me night & day these feelings so black & gray... But now I see your guiding light shinning so wonderous and bright saving me from the torrents of misery changing my life from chaos to harmony... You are the one who set me free and unlocked the chains of slavery giving me the strength and might and helping me win my endless fight...

"you Are A Special Somebody"
You are responsible for your behavior.. The results of your behavior.. and what you become in life... You shouldn't let your needs or expectations of your friends keep you from doing what is right.... "You are somebody, you are unique !" There has never been and never will be another person like you.. You don't have to pretend to be something that you're really not... Winner's make it happen, Losers let it happen, There in the face of your mountains, you should not quiet You should keep on striving until you climb over them all.. So you can find a path through or a tunnel underneath and stay there and turn that mountain into the gold mine that you deserve ! "You are somebody, You are unique, there should not and never be another person like you." "YOU ARE SOMEBODY"

"night In Shining Armor"
Single, not a care in the world He walks in from the cold All dressed in his Sunday best.. I stood there starring, I knew I had to have him, he's my night in shining armor.... The band played our favorite song He asked me, "Could I have this dance ?" I kindly accepted his offer and off to the dance floor we went... We danced the whole night away.. I just knew I had to have him, he is my night in shining armor... As the night turned into day we found ourselves still holding on tight...He then looked into my eyes and said, "Take me now or lose me forever, I knew I had to have him, therefore he is my night in shining armor....

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I often sit and wonder why you took your love away, is it real or is it a dream, Only time will tell... I think of you each day I think of you each night I often wake up in the middle of the night cryin' cause you're not here... I think of you when I hear our favorite song playing on the radio... I just can't get these thoughts of you out of my head... Why did you take your love from me ? Only time will tell... I can't seem to get use to the idea of us just being friends when we have shared so much together. But I guess time is the only answer as to when you should bring your love back to me....

Happy Thursday!!
Just Thought I would write and see how everyone's doing.. I hope all is staying warm and dry .. and hope everyone has a great weekend.... I am gonna post some of my poetry and stuff that i've written in the past.... Hope you all enjoy it... Peace Out!!

[victory For Ick!]
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? A girl I know. I loled. Did you sleep alone last night? Nope. Mah doggeh keep me warm. Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous? A bit yeah. ... :D Would you ever eat a bug for 1,000 dollars? Depends on the bug. Actually I heard tarantulae taste like crab. Also, in some countries, in some seasons- bugs are your effing protein. Do you like when people play with your hair? NO! LEAVE IT THE FUCK ALONE! Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? Nope. Trying to stay on a schedule. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? Don't care as long as it doesn't lead to massive slips in judgement. Best summer of your life? I dunno, but I bet me and Brandon were running amock in my blazer or I was falling off the hood of his truck. Do you find piercings attractive? Not really. Especially after certain reprehensible people were expelled from my life. Have you ever kiss

Lil Red Riding Hood Salute
I would love for someone to dress up as "lil red riding hood" and do me a salute for this big bad naughty wolf ;) and i'm thinking of putting something similar together for surprise salutes of me in in my wolf form ;) Granny gown and all if I could find one that is :)

How Do I Fill Out A Cca?
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The Demise Of Mamba & Iowa...or Is It?
This is the only time and place this will be discussed. Don't text me. Don't call me. Don't send me a message on YIM or even a PM or SB here. I won't be discussing it. Yes. Tony and I will be divorcing here shortly. OMGZ one of Fu's power and popular couples are divorcing! And since I will be working pretty hard core until next Thursday, I thought I'd write this blog now before we divorce and I have people all in my shit. Here are some facts though. What happened with Tony and I, is Tony and my business. It's no one else's business thus is why I will not be talking about it, TO ANYBODY, other than this blog right here. No. Tony did not screw me over. No. Tony is not a bad person. No, I did not screw him over. No, none of the rumors about other people causing shit in our relationship is true or the cause of this to happen. Tony and I both realized we have more of a friendship than a relationship. It was a MUTUAL decision. 100% mutual. I'm sure even me saying that though, certain

Biological Psychology Question?
1. Should someone accused of a crime be able to plead not guilty on the grounds of brain dysfunction or hormone imbalance? Would this be similar to a defendant pleading not guilty because he or she was under the influence of drugs? When making your statement keep in mind of the Pro's vs con's of the topic also the issues such as moral ,legal and ethical this should be a good debate lets all have fun i enjoy my phys class and would love to share this topic makes you think

Whats Love Got To Do With It?
As we all know that holiday most of us despise is rapidly approaching. In my opinion "Valentines Day" is a made up holiday by chicks. They wanna feel validation from their S/O buy receiving flowers, jewelry, a nice dinner out at a fancy restaurant, a card or any other token to show their "love" I wanna know I'm loved everyday, not just one day of the year. Send me flowers just because it's Tuesday. write "I love you" in the fog of the bathroom mirror, run your lady a hot bath and light a bunch candles, turn on some soft music and wash her hair. Trust me chicks will appreciate these simple signs a lot more (and if not then she is a gold digger and you should dump her ass.)

Another Hero? (continued)
His shoulders creaked now in the morning. His rich, dark hair, now speckled with "just a hint" or "the most austere whisper" of grey. Depending on which kissass described him.Such was the glamorous life. Waking up to footsteps outside of your tent, always one hand on your knife, and a cavalier smirk on your face. How many seasons had he ridden with this fat, pompous, lord with a dirty little private war to fight?"Captain?" came a meek voice behind the canvas."Enter" the old campaigner had his boots on and enough leather to stop one clumsy assassin from hitting anything vital. He recognized the voice, another green farmboy looking to make a pittance at the risk of his life. What had happened to this land in absence of his king? Power vaccuums... good for business, good for war, not so great on the commonwealth and well being of your neighbors and former subjects.Did this boy even remember the nation? The towering spires, the great columns supporting auspicious knights and warriors, the

[for Something Different]
*rubs eyes*Cold. Like really cold, but sunny.I think for something different (after listening to the The Protomen Act I) I'll listen to In Rainbows for a bit and y'know...try to figure out what in the hell I'm trying to accomplish.Oh yeah...immediate concerns being "jorb".There's an opening for a case manager at Valeo. ... *sighs* of course they're asking for more than just a BA but a specific one.Jesus why am I flashing back to 3 years ago when I was calling restaurants 4 times a week just to beg to fry eggs or cut onions?Whole thing makes my head hurt, also- bills are overdue. This is usually a sign that I'm reluctant to take anything more out of my bank account, despite being able to afford them.So as usaul I'll pay the late fee, probably get a nasty note, and not register any of this shit in my head.I dunno that I really want to work, not in Topeka any way...Though I do have housing covered.And that's saving me hundreds a month. And as much as I hate this refrigerator box, it does

Headliner Happy Hour Info!
When: Friday, Feb. 4th Time: 5:30 - 8:00 PM Where: The Headliner1401 State Route 35 SNeptune, NJ 07753 I have to get the guest list in by noon tomorrow. Send me a message here or leave a message or txt @ (732) 503-8831

Racism And Other Ridiculous Assumptions
I was trying to go to sleep. As is a common happening for me, I found myself mad at the things I see no good sense in. I had to get up and do something about it and this is the first place I came to. When we see a person we evaluate any number of things about them in a fraction of a second. We are social animals by nature and depend on each other so it is important that we get in touch with someone before we even speak. We read their facial expression, their body language and their overall frame of mind the best that we can. As a young child I remember being confused and hurt when I realized that a great number of people see skin color before they even see a person's face or body language. I had never assumed that made any difference as I had much more important things to worry about, I suppose. I thought to myself, "How do people drop judgement on me for, not only something that I can't help, but something about myself that has nothing to do with how I feel or who I am, the spirit in

Every Beat Of My Heart
Every Beat Of My Heart With every beat of my heartI feel yours inside of mine,Together they beat as oneKeeping perfect time.With every beat of my heartI hear yours inside of mine,Our chance to be togetherThe beat says it's nearly time.With every beat of my heartI know that yours does to,And every time it pumpsI know I'm feeling you.With every beat of my heartI listen close to what it says,I hear yours calling mineAnd it knows it must obey.With every beat of my heartI feel mine loving you,And with every beat of yoursI know you love me too.With every beat of my heartIt hurts when you say good bye,And with every beat of my heartDrops another tear I cry.With every beat of my heartI miss you all the more,The beat grows ever louderUntil it's like a thunderous roar.For with every beat of my heartInside I feel the pain,Right now mine beats aloneAnd I'm missing you again.With every beat of my heartI need yours here to stay,For I miss you all the moreEverytime you go away.

Ergonomic Office Massage Chairs For Back Pain Relief That Uses Gel Pack Therapy And Massage
Back Pain Relief Pack when sitting is a very common problem for many people today, because the session was to set a higher amount of pressure on the spine has nerves and muscles surrounding the spine. Obtain relief from this pressure is not easy to implement, unless you only resist this to relieve the pressure. Being a developer of office and professional, I explored many ergonomic office chairs since I started in the business of office furniture in 1992. At that time, many fresh products are designed to provide back support in the lumbar region and chairs, which takes the stress of the back with angles and shapes rear seats and even a heated massage. But I found someone who actually offered the option of both hot and cold treatment that was built on a chair. Many doctors support the cold treatment to reduce swelling of the muscle tissue surrounding the area most injuries in all damage not only back pain. Usually after 2-3 days of cold treatment the swelling is red

Why Cant I
WHY CANT I KEEP YOU IN MY ARMS NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO . WHY CANT I WALK AWAY FROM YOU EVEN IF I DONT LOOK BACK. WHY CANT I PUT INTO WORDS TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME . WHY CANT I TELL YOU THAT YOUR MY WORLD MY LOVE MY LIFE. WHY CANT I KEEP FROM LOOSEING YOU EVERYTIME

Pain, Dreams, The Ethereal
I sit here, virtual pen in hand and set about the task before me. It is not a duty i take lightly. it is my only outlet to adjourn myself to, that will distract my minds eye from the ravages of my person. The pain rises and ebbs within me as the tide. It crashes against my soul, and just as i feel my self go under it lazily drifts back only to rise again. The points inbetween i have come to think of as my life. How so cruel and merciless a jailor could be within the confines of this form i know not. But, a cruel torturer he certainly seems to be. Thoroughly and effectively, taking pride in his duties so not to dissapoint his quarry. i have sought to have him purged from my kingdom, but the best knights and magicians cannot remove this fallowing character. I am to live with his torment, for it is not fatal, the wounds he causes. Again it rushes over me and again i rally all restraint, and again it crashes taking me down. It is interesting the parley we are willing to particpate in, giv

Not Sure...
So what do you do when you adore someone? Shit get's weird... you know they like you and you like them! This has been established between you and him both... Me being cautious I always seem to fuck up something good... I guess I ask the wrong questions, but I am not a very trusting person simply because I have had shitty fucking experiences with guys my whole entire life... It's not like I'm trying to accuse him of being shady more a less I guess I just want to make sure that I am really what he wants... He drives me crazy! This is not in a bad way either. When I don't talk to him I miss him like crazy. So how do you even really tell a person what is on your mind? Normally I'm so good at this, but like I said shit gets weird... I get deep in thought about retarded bullshit and get freaked and I'm like fuck what did I just do and how do I fix it... So needless to say my thought process on this issue is a little fucked up... It's like I freak out and don't know what exa

*blinks*
8:16pmrelentless1:So are you dominant?thats something i don't know that u do.. could be hot8:17pmKloverlynn: you asked if I am dominate in bed..well the answer isno..I like MEN..take charge strong men..and if i can dominate him..that makes him a bitch..and I dont wanna fuck a bitch8:18pmrelentless1: haha that has never happened to me so i wouldn't know, i am out to dominate myself8:19pmKloverlynn: imma have to call bullshit on that lol a dominant man? Would never asif I wpuld dominate himin bed. I know BDSM well love and trust me when I say that is fact8:20pmrelentless1: oh yes they would, so you are saying that people never want to try out different things?8:20pmrelentless1: i don't like monotany8:21pmKloverlynn: I am saying a dominant man would never wanna be dominated..considering you have already told me you dont know much about that lifestyle...I do..and a Dom is not gonna wanna be punked by a bitch..true story8:22pmrelentless1: i will call bullshit on that, who doesn't want the o

A Simple Question...
I was asked last night by a fare that called in for a cab what my sexiest feature was...You know...random really drunk boy calling in with nothing better to do then hit on the girl behind the desk answering the phones because he couldn't get one of the girls at the bar to take him home...my answer to him was simply the feature...not the reason why...but I thought on my instant answer a little bit later and this is what I came up with... Truth be told...I don't write this mess, any of it, for it to actually be read... although, don't get me wrong... I appreciate the ones that do occasionally hit my blogs :) I write it because I have a terrible memory and I will forget it otherwise... My sexiest feature? My soul...because it is laid out for anyone who cares to take the time to see it...it can not be changed or altered with makeup or products...it can't be boosted or sucked in...or changed...it can't be molded like a mind or broken like a heart...it requires nothing to be as it is...

Disaster..
Day 1 Cigarettes today: 5 Urge to kill Scale (1-10): 10 - Talk to me and I will kill you.. I started quitting smoking today. I method I am using is the nicotine patch. I smoked on average of 1 &1/2 to 2 packs a day. The largest patch they have is = to 1 pack a day. I already cutting my smoking in half and my body is not happy about it. Todays Mishaps: I was doing just fine until around 3pm today. A customer had a rush job and wanted me to work overtime, This never happens. Lovely.. By 5pm my urge to kill scale was at 10.. At one point I lost a tool for 20 minutes only to find it in my pocket.. I then threw it across the shop and lost it for another 5 minutes.. Jen called me and i freaked out on her for no reason.. She should have hung up on me.. Bright side, the job I did didn't give me too many problems and turned out looking real nice.. I was starving so I go to Subway for dinner.. I was craving a Meatball Sub on italian herbs and cheese bread.. They tell me they are out

Help My Lil Girl Reach Her Goal
Heey there My lil girl Needs Help With donations in rasin money for the American Heart Association if youd like to help please click here THANX http://honor.americanheart.org/site/TR/HoopsforHeart/SCA-SouthCentralAffiliate?px=2413713&pg=personal&fr_id=1436 Help Kinleigh Make a Difference! I'm joining millions of others to help save lives with the American Heart Association's Hoops For Heart Program! I'm doing Hoops For Heart at my school and learning how I can help make a difference by raising lifesaving donations to help kids with heart disease. I'm also learning about my own heart, and how to keep it healthy. And I'm getting active playing basketball! I'm excited about raising money for other kids - kids with hearts that don't exactly work right and to help fund new medicines and treatments to be discovered. Please help me make a difference! Thank you!

My Profile Pic
I was told by someone on here that I look like a whore in my profile pic.This was quite disturbing to me considering the person who told me this likes slutty looking women.I can't for the life of me figure him out.Just wondering if anyone out there agree's.I'm a slut because I showed some clevage?

Improper Phone Boning
Took a phone call before getting in my car today, hung up & placed back in my belt holster. When I stopped at the store, pulled it out to find I had a lil mishap. Now I dont recall any impact that drew my concern, so best I can figure is it got pinched between the seat belt dock and the rivet on my jeans pocket when I sat down, as that kind of lined up with the point of impact on the phone, albiet in the case at the time. Figured I'd throw that out there as a "watch out for". I had elected the insurance when I bought the phone, bout 7 dollars a month, so I called the Sprint store which directed me to the repair facility (didnt bother with their customer sevice line because I knew I'd get Maylaysia). Andrew at the repair shop said to come on down, that he had a display in stock. Was a small que ahead of me when I got there, but once it was my turn, he whipped thru it like a champ, and I was like new in 20 mins, with a new speaker to boot. As per usual, got a survey call to rat

What To Wear?
Nothing new to write about. So if you wanna know whats going on in my life, re-read some old blog posts. I'm conflicted about what to wear on my wrists. I have to many things to choose from. Yup, that right, there just too many choices. What do you think would be best ? Come on, this is your chance. Write a comment ! ~ Dare ya !

Not As Good As The Rest?
Have you really even seen the tears I've cried? The pain and anquish they carry from inside... What they mean, and where from they came... Your hands, your mind, your actions. your heart that is where they got their start. And it's never because you care so much you need to come clean and be forgiven it's more because I have to find it all myself, the lies. cheating and deciept you thought you've hidden Was it because I wasn't enough? Didn't do enough? Was I not enough like them? Not enough not like me? So now I sit.. and everything has it's own bittersweet feeling... everything around has it's happy and sad about it.. because everything around me is everything to do with you.

[replay]
Shoo.. man I'm tired.Well, I could built jet arrays (scared to) or I could replay some of my old gamesI mean- sure, I like this site, and I like you people- but anything more than 8 hours is kinda ridiculous....actually anything more than 1 hour aside from a long piece of creative writing is ridiculous XDAnyway, I've got quite a few to choose from, I could try hooking up my old nintendo and try going through my old Megamans (1-3). I could always hack a copy of Powered up for my PSP or the whole collection on rom, but I don't have a USB controller for my PC.There's also these Squaresoft PS1 classics to considerFront Mission 3 (Giant robot turnbased strategy game!) While the idea of playing FM3 appeals to me- actually playing it probably won't.See- I love this game, I've played through it several times.And even if you skip EVERY cut scene and ALL diologue it takes > 30 hours to complete.I've played it backwards and forwards, and ... if I owned it on my PSP I'd probably just play it when

My Windows
My windows are my eyesThey let me see the worldThrough different types of glassI see different types of moods Through tempered glass I seeThe chilling realityThe bitter losses of those lessFourtunate than I Through stained glass I seeMany different colorsThat blend into harmony with easeBut sometimes they collideInto thoughtless war I see this from my windowsMy windows are my eyesThey let me see the world. Copyright © 2009

Janey Godley’s Podcast “episode 30”
(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language) In the 30th episode of Janey Godley’s Podcast Ashley is left home alone and is charged with presenting the podcast by herself. She tells us all about Mel Gibson’s “reasons” for being anti-Jewish, and discusses (with herself) the pros and cons of civil revolution, she encourages you all to go to your library and read a comic called “100 Bullets” or call the lady behind the counter a cow. Ashley then draws attention to another onslaught of bad weather hitting Australia, and questions why more people don’t like New kids on the block. She worries about her mother’s new role as the “face” of BBC radio 4’s comedy podcast and how this will effect the future of her own podcast all this plus a riveting look into the mind of a twenty something left alone with a microphone and nobody to talk to. Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hea

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There’s nothing in my life I’d say I regret But there’s something in your eyes that makes me forget the times that I believed That love was good as love could be I had it all but I was wrong Thought I’d been touched Thought I’d been kissed Thought I’d been loved But it was nothing like this You can’t describe the sea unless you’ve been there before It’s just a mystery until you’re standing on the shore And moved by every wave Taking your breath away Like you do to me Thought I’d been touched Thought I’d been kissed Thought I’d been loved But it was nothing like this It’s like another life Like I hadn’t felt a thing Until you Thought I’d been touched Thought I’d been kissed Thought I’d been loved But it was nothing, nothing like this It was nothing like this Nothing like, nothing like this

Imbolc/festival Of Brid (breed)
February for the ancients was the time of the long night -- great darkness, piercing cold, and dwindling food stores. February was such a harsh and brutal month that it was called the Dead-month. Since travel at this time of year was so fraught with danger, celebrating Imbolc at a large regional festival was out of the question. Instead the Feast of Brigid was celebrated with small rituals in the village and in the home. Imbolc was nonetheless an important holiday because its message was "hold on, there is hope...the bitter days of winter are near their end." It marked the midway point between the winter and the spring solstice, a time when hope begins to stir with a longing for the return of spring. Imbolc (also called Oimelc) was primarily a women's festival. Young girls dressed in white carried a corn dolly in processions. Women made corn cakes from the grains that were gathered first and last in last year's harvest and the women and girls feasted together. And

Have Fun Fillin' This Out!!!!
2011 Girlfriend Application: Please out and send to my Inbox. Have fun!!!! Name: 1. Date of Birth? 2. Height? 3. Hair Color? 4. Eye Color? 5. Waist size? 6. Bra Size? 7. Piercings? 8. Tats? 9. trimmed, shaved or Natural? 10. Do you drink? 11. Do you smoke? 12. Condom or Bareback? 13. What would you say is your best quality? 14. # of kids/want more? 15. do you work? 16. Living situation? 17. What do you like to do in your free time? 18. What do you think is my best quality? 19. Do you like your family/family oriented? 20. Have you ever cheated? 21. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 22. What’s your worst quality? 23. Are you still in love with your ex? 24. If not, Do I need to kick his ass? 25. Do you have a problem with any of my activities? 26. Would you have a problem with my friends? 27. would you have a problem if I have female friends? 28. Would you go to a strip club with me? 29. If I had a car or truck you didn't like, would you make m

Something Ridiculous And Maybe Something A Little Shady ...
Hey kids..let's keep this simple here ready set go now!!!... Default: Real Salute: I don't have to say much here do I?...also in a totally unrelated issue, word of mouth has it then we have a constant green/teal dude out there that runs God Modes & is on Fubar 24/7 but is "homeless" and "can't pay his phone bill" and is always "looking for cash & places to live",is on "Fu from the Car" and preys on the generosity and naiveness of women here. Word has it that the amount has now about hit double digits. If you or anyone you know has been affected by this please send your information to me in a PM PLEASE and it will be added to the pile. Soon enough everyone will find out, just a matter of time and putting it together. Remember, always be leery of someone looking for cash when they seem to sure have enough time and ability bling to run. Or anywhere for that matter. Have a good night, stay warm, and peace....

A Dream Worth Dreaming
A Dream Worth Dreaming Somewhere in my dreams I hear your voiceWhispering gently....into thin airAt the edge of the mountain I close my eyesSensing your breathing...feeling you appear thereOn the edge of my dreams I see your faceA twin soul......when we share eyes At the edge of the mountain I catch my breathTouching our finger tips...mouth goes dryIn the shadows of my dreams I taste your lipsSo soft against mine like a warm rainAt the edge of the mountain my heart slowsSharing our every breath....two hearts don't refrainIn the deepest part of my dreams I feel your touchBreathless....from the warmth of your skinAt the edge of the mountain I open my eyesSeeing only clouds....feeling.... withinOn the edge of my dreams is where I want to stayIt's there...I'm forever in your arms...safe...soundAt the edge of the mountain I'll remain breathlessFor me.....no greater love will ever be foundWill you always be there on the edge of my dreams?Will you always meet me to the edge of

Boomy Contest Winners....
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Who Me?
I only eat Heinz Ketchup. I am claustrophobic I also suffer from lollypopguildophobia. I will give you a minute to google it. . .. ... .. . good? ok! I only eat fish in the form of sticks. I rarely drink alcohol. I am addicted to hair dye, it's like a bad drug. I have a bucket list, and haven't yet completed anything on it. I probably never will. I am very untalented. I just have no talent. I am a nerd I am 'mathlexic' Every time I go to the doctor, I think they will kill me. I lost my dad in 2008 & will never get over it. I fall for 'As seen on TV products'. I only like raw vegetables unless it's corn. I am afraid to have sex because I don't want to get pregnant. I have crushes on fictional characters .... TV boyfriends are dreamy. I have a real life boyfriend that I have been with for almost 3 years. We act like a married couple. Drag Queens inspire me. I still have security blankets. They will never leave me. I am socially awkward & avoid h

Fu Bear
Her beauty amazes me,Her smile does the same.To never hold her,Only I would be to blame.Her heart I would covet,Forever hold it close.If she would chose me,Her heart I would never lose.Bless me with your smile,And send me your heart.And I promise you beautiful,Our hearts will never be apart.

Socially Awkward
Social Anxiety. Socially Awkward. I saw my cousin at the store the other day, she's much younger than me & waaaay cooler. I noticed when I talk to her online that I can say anything, I can type it. But when it comes to face to face contact I freeze up like a loser. I really need to work on that. I noticed too sometimes, my brain is screaming "talk!" but my mouth just won't move & half the time, my brain won't even tell me what to say. I grew up shy & I am actually a lot more shy than I was as a child. I don't know what to do in social situations & I really don't know how to combat that. This is becoming redundant. Most people label me as the creepy quiet friend & sometimes that bothers me. How do I take that & make it something awesome? I guess I probably should put myself in more social situations, but when I think about that I think I might have a panic attack. Is there a pill I can take for that? Most times, I don't even want to talk to people online because i ge

Another Hero?
"What is this?"Charcoal, so fine, still warm and smoldering. Swept in the wind turning the sky black, and toxic.Crumbling in his fingers like the last remnants of hope.This was peace.This was beauty.This was home.The fires no longer roared, only meekly murmured around him. All had been razed, all had been levelled, the horizon in all directions was like finely driven black snow over a sharp alien landscape. The sun a scornful spectator hung malevelontly from a safe distance.Unaware of the charred earth, the thundering in his skull, the dark dervish and spinstorms around him.He cups his hands to his eyes, leaving long, black streaks across his face, not a howl or a wail of vengeance, but a moan. An injured and sick noise fell from him.This was despair.And it was music to demons' ears. One in particular took notice that day. Idly picking through the refuse and cinder, taking a moment to puppet a dolly into a macabre dance and frolick. A smokey, filthy little thing, hand-carved and pa

The Glow Radio Wednesday Hump Day Rock Block
Wednesday Night on The Glow Radio: First up is DJ Siren & her "Sins Of Rock" Show spinning her mix of 80's & 90's,Rock & Metal starting at 6pm pt/7pm mt/8pm ct/9pm et/2am gmt next up is Tony the Misfit & his Freak Show featuring the best in Rock, Alternative, & Metal Music at 9pm pt/10pm mt/11pm ct/Midnight et/5am gmt Tune in to The Glow Radio on iTunes; you can find us under Classic Rock in The Radio Directory & on Microsoft's Media Player's Internet Radio Classic Rock Section or you can go to our website at: ___________________ www.TheGlowRadio.com Tune in and enjoy the best tunes anywhere on the Web. The music community for the coolest cats in town!

Lonely V
So I just read that "of the 380 English spelling rules, only ONE has no exceptions. No English word ends with the letter 'V'". Having kids, I know that English is already one of the hardest languages to learn and teach. Yet, here is an exception to the exceptions! It makes sense that English is difficult since it is a blend of many different languages. But why make it more difficult. This has to change. I propose we introduce a new word that ends in 'V' and get rid of this non-exception. Here are a couple ideas of the top of my head: Nagev - People who only eat vegetables backwards. Enuv - Exclamation parents use in anger: "I HAVE HAD ENUV" Fubarv - To verbally spew forth garbage on fubar Any other ideas?

Time V2
Time V2by ~martinjrossTickSmoke begins to riseI fleeting moments thoughtTockFlames kissing fleshA lingering lovers caressTickScreams ring forthAn eternal moment passesTockFlesh from boneThe fire takes its duesTickReaching higherPraying for oblivions releaseTockMending of fleshTo feed the hungry flameLocked in a moment of timeTrapped in hell's cruel embrace tell him how awesome he is ..he doesnt believe me lol

Fantasies To Make Real
Fantasies To Make Real Staring Listening with eyes Hearing Finding faraway skies Dreams Dancing in my mind Songs Whispering of fantasies I may find Empty Sitting quiet and alone Waiting For the emptiness to be sown Visions Half hidden by ephemeral reality Focus Beyond the worlds sureality Find The dreams and make them real Hold To words and deeds that heal Love Pocket change in cost Forgiveness Tithe to the lost Embrace The dreams of peace Fantasies That never cease.

Being Passionate About Your Lover
"A touch of skin soft and slippery, with the hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, as the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, to abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, probing gently as if drawing sex, from a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece,Until there were no hiding places, for the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, as the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, and lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, your hands stroked the stray strands, away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way,to urgent and demanding thrusts

Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls
My song to you, you succubus bitch... Top down in the summer sunThe day we met was like a hit-and-runAnd I still taste it on my tongue (taste it on my tongue)The sky was burning up like fireworksYou made me want you oh so bad it hurtBut girl in case you haven’t heardI used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung overI’ll love you forever, forever is overWe used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fightSo don’t call me cryingSay hello to goodbyeCause just one sip would make me sickI used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung overI’ll love you forever, but now it’s overHot sweat and blurry eyesWe’re spinning round a rollercoaster rideThe world stuck in black and whiteYou drove me crazy every time we touchedNow I’m so broken that I can’t get upOh girl you make me such a lushI used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung overI’ll love you forever, forever is overWe used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar figh

For My Baby
For My Baby Every night I fall asleep to thoughts of you and every morning I wake up looking for you.When I am down I all I do is close my eyes. Because your always with me.When I am hurt it's thoughts of you that make me forget about everything. When I am filled with worries it is you that calms me down. Your my first and last thoughts at the begin and end of my day. Your my one and only person I dream about and do anything for.I hope to make you feel like you never have felt before. Thank you for coming into my life. I love you baby

The Evil Love Triangle From Hell...
So yeah. I've been with this girl on and off for about 7 years. And we both like MY best friend. I'm the one who introduced them and my best friend could slap me for it. They were on and off as a couple for a few years too. But whenever they got together I always felt used and betrayed. Mostly cuz she was still with me and got with my best friend behind my back without telling me. Well yesterday I confessed I still had feelings for my best friend and she's fine with it. But I yelled at my ex gf for lying because she still liked my best friend when about a week or so ago she pitched this 'you're the only one for me, i should've never kept going back to her' bullshit speech. And then she basically started acting like they were dating again but my best friend told me otherwise. So now we're not talking. I don't get this. All I ever did was love her. I got her away from her abusive family, gave her a roof to live under, food to eat... Just for her to use me and betray me. My best friend

Love What You Have
"Do you know the saying, "Drink from your own rain barrel, draw water from your own spring-fed well"? It's true. Otherwise, you may one day come home and find your barrel empty and your well polluted.Your spring water is for you and you only, not to be passed around among strangers. Bless your fresh-flowing fountain! Enjoy the wife you married as a young man! Lovely as an angel, beautiful as a rose---don't ever quit taking delight in her body. Never take her love for granted! Why would you trade enduring intimacies for cheap thrills with a whore? for dalliance with a promiscuous stranger? Mark well that GOD doesn't miss a move you make; he's aware of every step you take. The shadow of your sin will overtake you; you'll find yourself stumbling all over yourself in the dark. Death is the reward of an undisciplined life; your foolish decisions trap you in a dead end."

Think About It
Michael Richards Court SpeechMakes one stop and think after reading this :Michael Richards is better known as Kramer from tv's Seinfeld series.This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act.He makes some very interesting points. He said :I'm proud To Be WhiteSomeone finally said it.How many are actuall y paying attention to this ?There are African Americans, Mexican Americans,Asian Americans, Arab Americans, etc.And then there are just Americans.You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction.You Call me 'White boy,' 'Cracker,' 'Honkey,''Whitey,' 'Caveman' ... and that's OK. But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head,Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner , Gook, or Chink ...You call me a racist.You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you,so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live ? You have the United Negro College Fund.You have Martin Luther King Day.You have Black History Month.You have Cesar Chavez Day.You have Yo

True Love
True Love True love is a sacred flame that burns eternally. And no one can dim it's special glow or changes it's destiny. True love speaks in tender tyone and hears with gental ears. To give love with open hearts and true love conquers fear. True love makes no harsh demands. It neither rules nor binds and true love holds with gentle hands with the heart that it is entwines with. Love you baby

Nice Guys "finish Last" . . . . . . .
"Nice guy" is a term in the general public discourse and in popular culture for a male with certain personality traits and behavior. A typical "nice guy" is a man who is likely to put the needs of others before his own, avoid instigating confrontations, do favors, give emotional support, and generally act in a way consistent with the general meaning of "nice". It is an active debate whether these traits, which have historically been considered valuable in courtship, may actually make a man less desirable from a sexual perspective. This leads to justify hypocrisy that may exist among some women; those who "want a nice guy", yet usually end up with the more confident, experienced and less considerate male that may be more subconsciously desirable. That's basically what it's like to be in my shoes everyday . . .

Now What....
memories came back to hauntlittle things that caused smilesnow cause grimaces of paintime passes the memories fadedthe pain went away to a tiny twinge here and therelittle things cause smiles againthe heart was sliced and bruisedthe hand holding the bladeonce touched it so gentlythe bruise went away and a new scar is on itthe blade thrown down and awaythe hand that hurt it unable to touch it againtime and distance healed the damagedamage that never should have happenedbut the past cannot be undonei could have but you didn't let meyou could have but i didn't let younow what....

Be Good To Your Wife, Your Companion And Gift From God To You
"A good woman is hard to find, and worth far more than diamonds. Her husband trusts her without reserve, and never has reason to regret it. Never spiteful, she treats him generously all her life long. She shops around for the best yarns and cottons, and enjoys knitting and sewing. She's like a trading ship that sails to faraway places and brings back exotic surprises. She's up before dawn, preparing breakfast for her family and organizing her day. She looks over a field and buys it, then, with money she's put aside, plants a garden. First thing in the morning, she dresses for work, rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started. She senses the worth of her work, is in no hurry to call it quits for the day. She's skilled in the crafts of home and hearth, diligent in homemaking. She's quick to assist anyone in need, reaches out to help the poor. She doesn't worry about her family when it snows their winter clothes are all mended and ready for wear. She makes her own clothing, a

A Bikers Story...
A Biker story A tough looking group of bikers were riding when they saw a girl about to jump off a bridge so they stop. The leader, a big burly man, gets off his bike and says, "What are you doing?" "I'm going to commit a suicide," she says. While he did not want to appear insensitive, he didn't want to miss an opportunity he asked "Well, before you jump, why don't you give me a Kiss?" So, she does and it was a long, deep lingering kiss. After she's finished, the biker says, "Wow! That was the best Kiss I have ever had. That's a real talent you are wasting. You could be famous Why are you committing suicide?" "My parents don't like me dressing up like a girl......"

Important Facts From Manswers!
-Women who sweat at least 20 minutes a day (excercise) are 30% more likely to have sex. -The more housework a man does, the more sex he gets. For every hour of housework done, he will get two more trips to the love cave. -In Thailand, there is a government approved procedure to enlarge the size of a woman's breasts without surgery. It's called the "breast slap" procedure and takes daily visits for 90 days. By slapping the breasts regularly, fatty tissue in the abdomen is broken up and assembles directly into the breasts. In 90 days, a woman with an "A" cup can have a natural "D". -Women with A.D.D. are 7-times more likely to be bi-sexual. -The best (fastest and surest) way to dispose of a dead body is to burn the body in the trunk of a car. The spare tire burns at 2100 degrees Farenheit, and the frame of the car keeps the body suspended. In approximately 5 hours, there will be no physical evidence.

In.som.nia.
i really hate it when i cant sleep......makes you start to think crazy shit.. also makes you say/type things you want to take back after you have already said it. on a compleatly random note....the original house on haunted hill makes no fucking sense.k

Sometimes.
I am never really a good choice. I always find something wrong. Or I make something wrong. I'm so good at this that for a long while I never knew it. I see all the people from my past in all the people that I meet in the present, mostly. A few exceptions. Generalizing is not always a good thing. Nevertheless...it is one of my finer points. Hah.I recently found out that my ex fiance is engaged to be married. Again. I used to call his penis dinky. I don't know why. Maybe because it was completely inappropriate and I just wanted to push the boundaries of everything. I recently found out that he still complains about me alot. Like "ashely never did this, ashely always used to do this." ish. Recent recent. Initially I felt very bad for this girl. And then I looked her up on fb and I started reading all these things that I used to say and feel. So I guess I felt happy for her. And him. Its like a new version of me. But. Not. I found it weird that my ex used to talk so much shit about large w

You Dont Know Jack Schitt
For some time many of us have wondered just who is Jack Schitt? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, "You don't know Jack Schitt!" Well, thanks to my genealogy efforts, you can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Schitt is the only son of Awe Schitt. Awe Schitt, the fertilizer magnate, married Miss O. Needeep They had one son, Jack.In turn, Jack Schitt married Noe Schitt. The deeply religious couple produced six children: Holie Schitt, Giva Schitt, Fulla Schitt, Bull Schitt, and the twins Deap Schitt and Dip Schitt.Against her parents' objections, Deap Schitt married her cousin Dumb Schitt, a high school dropout. After being married 15 years, Jack and Noe Schitt divorced.Noe Schitt later married Ted Sherlock, and, because her kids were living with them, she wanted to keep her previous name. She was then known as Noe Schitt Sherlock.Meanwhile, Dip Schitt married Loda Schitt, and they produced a son with a rather nervous disposition named Chick N. Schitt.Two of the other

Ugh
Are there no gentlemen anymore? What happened to treating women with respect, not calling her sexy, hot, ect in the first mail? I get so fed up with the shit that men send me. It's disrespectful. Seriously, a decent man will have no problem finding a good woman. If all you can ask is do I like anal, your stupid ass will be blocked. Yeah I get you want to get laid, OK? You're a man. I'm not the kind of woman you want. These are not the droids you are looking for. Move along.

The Love Of Money Is Not The Root Of All Evil
So the saying goes Money is the Root of all Evil. If you believe this to be true then give me your money. Same concept the Church uses to take from you but not I. I work hard for my money and though this is a fact. Money can not bring a person happiness no. Happiness comes from the money earned, you see if I go out and work an average job and look at all the millions of people doing the same what is the secret to these million dollar men. Simple productivity and honest integrated thinking as well as selfishness. Yes selfishness because in reality a selfless person will take what they can from another it is impossible to be both selfless and honest. A selfish honest person does not take from other producer's they teach and protect values through their success. If I discovered the next big step in humanities essence of life would I be happy that I am rich or would I be happy of my accomplishments? The money is just an extra added bonus. Money is the root of your success

The Highway
The highway was darker than usual tonight as if abandoned but for me the sky up above was a ghastly sight almost like a swirling sea darkest of blue, an eerie whitish hue mixed in with the canvas - splashed black swished in the dark clouds, a hint of light peeked through revealing to me what appeared to be a skeletal hand a giant skeletal hand as if the reaper was reaching out for me

Riding My Bike
I get on my scoot and point it in one direction. I take a deep deep breath and let it out and all my troubles disapear. They just go away. Not matter what has happened, no matter what I've been thinking about, it goes away. I love it. I feel that the day I can not ride anymore is the day I die.

Dirty Jokes Xxxiii
A vampire goes into a pub and asks for boiling water. The barman says "I thought you only drank blood?" The vampire pulls out a used tampon and says "I'm making tea". A ninety year old lady is on her way to the gynecologist due to a itchy rash in her puss... when she gets there the doctor checked her out and asked "when is the last time you've had sex?" the old lady tells the doctor that she is still a virgin.. he checks her out again and the doctor tells the lady "I don't really have a medical term for this, so I will be blunt...Your cherry has rotted" Three guys are discussing women. "I like to watch a woman's tits best, " the first guy says. The second says "I like to look at a woman's ass." He asks the third guy "What about you?". "Me? I prefer to see the top of her head." Bubba was fixing a door and he found that he needed a new hinge, so he sent Mary Louise to the hardware store. At the hardware

Dirty Jokes Xxiv
A young woman was having a physical examination and was very embarrassed because of a weight problem. As she removed her last bit of clothing, she blushed. "I'm so ashamed, Doctor," she said, "I guess I let myself go." The physician was checking hers eyes and ears. "Don't feel ashamed, Miss. You don't look that bad." "Do you really think so, Doctor?" she asked. The doctor held a tongue depressor in front of her face and said, "Of course. Now just open your mouth and say moo." A handsome young lad went into the hospital for some minor surgery, and the day after the procedure a friend stopped by to see how the guy was doing. His friend was amazed at the number of nurses who entered the room in short intervals with refreshments, offers to fluff his pillows, make the bed, give back rubs, etc. "Why all the attention?" the friend asked, "You look fine to me." "I know!" grinned the patient. "But the nurses kind

Dirty Jokes
A man went to pick up his date but he was having some trouble with his flatulence system, in other words he couldn't stop farting so when he had to wait for the young woman to get ready for the date he sat on the lounge and let out just a little fart when the dog hopped onto the couch with him. He figured that the parents would think it was the dog. Every time he farted the young girl's parents told the dog to get off the couch and so the man kept going, finally he let rip and the parents finally told the dog to get off the couch before the man shit on him! A man goes to a shrink and says, "Doctor, my wife is unfaithful to me. Every evening, she goes to Larry's bar and picks up men. In fact, She sleeps with anybody who asks her! I'm going crazy. What do you think I should do?" "Relax," says the Doctor, "take a deep breath and calm down. Now, tell me, exactly where is Larry's bar?" The couple had b

Dirty Jokes
Saturday morning I got up early, put on my long johns, dressed quietly, made my lunch, grabbed the dog, slipped quietly into the garage to hook the boat up to the truck, and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. There was snow mixed with the rain and the wind was blowing 50 mph. I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather would be bad throughout the day. I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back into bed. There I cuddled up to my wife's back, now with a different anticipation, and whispered, "The weather out there is terrible." She sleepily replied, "Can you believe my stupid husband is out fishing in that shit." A husband and wife and their two sons are watching TV. She looks at her husband and winks at him, he gets the message and says, "Excuse us for a few minutes boys, we're going up to our room for a little while." Pretty soon one of the boys becomes curious, goes upsta

Dirty Jokes
A farmer goes in half with a friend to buy a bull so he can increase his stock. A couple of weeks later the friend comes by to see how his investment is doing. The farmer complains that the bull just eats grass and won't look at the cows. His friend suggests that a veterinarian have a look at the bull. The following week his friend returns to see if the vet helped. The farmer looks delighted: "The bull has taken care of all my cows, broke through the fence, and has even serviced all my neighbor's cows! "Wow," says his friend, "what did the vet do to that bull?" "Just gave him some pills'" said the farmer. "What kind of pills?" asked his friend. "I don't know, but they sort of taste like peppermint." There was this old woman who heard a song called "Two Lips and Seven Kisses." She called up information after hearing the song on the radio to get the name of the record company. In dialing, she erroneously called up a gas station, and she asks, "Do

Sometimes You Need To Vent
I want to give someone my money right now and let her know that it means nothing to me. I want to hold someone right now and let her know she has someone that loves her. I want to kiss someone right now and let her know she is the only thing i need in this world to be happy. I want to cry for someone right now and let her know I am a real man and I would do anything for her. I want to stand in front of someone right now and let her know I would die for her. I want to cuddle with someone right now and let her know I am content with just being with her. I want to drop everything I an doing right now and go to someone and let her know she is my first and only priority. I want to donate all my free time to someone and let her know how much she means to me. I want to cross the seven seas to find the perfect diamond for someone and let her know that without her it's just a diamond. I want to waste all my energy pleasing someone and let her know it was my pleasure.

Dirty Jokes
A man and his wife go to their honeymoon hotel for their 25th anniversary. As the couple reflected on that magical evening 25 years ago, the wife asked the husband, "When you first saw my naked body in front of you, what was going through your mind?" The husband replied, "All I wanted to do was to fuck your brains out, and suck your tits dry." Then, as the wife undressed, she asked, "What are you thinking now?" He replied, "It looks as if I did a pretty good job." As an airplane is about to crash, a female passenger jumps up frantically and announces, "If I'm going to die, I want to die feeling like a woman." She removes all her clothing and asks, "Is there someone on this plane who is man enough to make me feel like a woman?" A man stands up, removes his shirt and says, "Here, iron this!". One morning a woman was walkin

Movie
Finally, watched a good movie. Brooklyns Finest, starring Ethan Hawk, Richard "gerbil" Gere and Wesly Snipes. Its all about some cops.. good, bad and undercover in NY.. with out spoiling the plot, I will tell you there is three different plots going on so you will need to pay attention to this flick. The stories combine in a similar way that Crash did. In fact, with out knowing the guys name, I would guess the same people were involved with this movie.. so next time you are renting a movie on netflix or blockbuster... get it.. Two thumbs up, aand for those of you with one hand, well..youre just s.o.l. Brooklynns Finest.. recommended

Vote For Me In Playgirl Magazines "real Man Of The Year" Contest
I guess it’s not everyday that you get an email that says “Guess who’s in the Winter 2010 edition of PLAYGIRL?” (It has fellow drummer Phil Varone on the cover)…Seems that there is a contest in which winners of the “Real Man of the Month” ( I won in the July/August 08 issue) are entered in a contest to win the title of REAL MAN OF THE YEAR…The top 10 vote getters advance to a 2nd round…..The winner of the entire contest gets a trip to New York City and his own shoot in an upcoming issue of PLAYGIRL… I’ve been so busy with my music and my band Brent Bly’s Dark Ambition, and my new CD (only 3 bucks at cdbaby.com/brentblysdarkambition ). I haven’t done any modeling recently. I didn’t even know about the contest until a friend of mine emailed me and told me. Despite what some of the idiotic narrow minded rednecks that I’m surrounded by on a daily basis might think of me I don’t

Please Read & Respect
Not every woman on FUBAR is on here for sexual encounters!!! They want a friend with understanding and one that will respect them. Girls who agree repost and to the guys on FUBAR who truly respect women and enjoy their friendship..please repost and show your support. Thanks!

Life And Living
There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and the people who create it. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, and pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of LIFE, Getting back up is LIVING

Toss Salad Anyone?
Last week at some stage my mother decided it would be a wonderful idea if we all came over for dinner my aunty and uncle included in this dinner (dinner was last night), so my aunty threw together a salad and all she needed to do was toss it together when she arrived, so my sister handed her a salad spoon and she proceeded to toss the salad, my sister stood there looking at her and without so much as thought behind it she said "your not much of a tosser are you?"... the kitchen broke down into hysterics

Matthew's Awareness
I was standing against the bench seat, resting my upper body against the railing as gazing far into the night.The tears began to slowly fall, some held back for monthsand the release of all that had been hidden away soothed.The only light there was that of the moon and that from inside the patio door as Matthew approached. He movedtoward me after becoming aware I was there. He knewas he spoke...."Mom, don't worry, sometimes life justisn't fair" and he continued...you know I recall readingin one of your books that even a child at 6 months isafraid of being left behind." The smile came as thewarmth of more tears fell and I knew somehow he knew

The Rage Of My Scream
.Inside me.."a scream"...Clawing through severed walls. Bleeding unseen tears.."RElease me, Cover me withPure Love" .."For internallyI'm dying"......... The stare into skies glitter blueis lost seeing nothing but uncertainties.. The cold winter air embraces herAs she sees him in a sultry mind. He aims the dart toward a heart already deeply scarred. . She feels the ripping as her spirit ceases to continue. And like a broken winged sparrow, flight dimishes. . How...can it be?How is it that his one dartthrown became so destructive,

Since All The Cool Kids Are Doing It
1. Do you like chinese food? eh...i rather have a nice steak 2. How big is your bed? Cali King with a fat ass impression on her side of the bed 3. Is your room clean? always... 4. Laptop or Desktop computer? both...usually on PC tho 5. Favorite comedian? Josh Blue..that crippled dude.. 6. Do you smoke? look im fuckin tryin to quit but you fucktards are not helping 7. Does anyone like you? my priest..he says i pray and ring the bell at communion the best 8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? i so could fit my cock in that gap in her teeth given the chance 10. Sleep with or without clothes on? boxers with Supe..dont ask 11. Who sleeps with you every night? GF, both daughters usually climb in somehow during the night...hence the need for boxers 12. Do long distance relationships work? i have been humping Dud and Odie for a couple years now...i love it 13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Each and every time Supe is with me... 14.

Schitzophrenia
Lost in The Wilderness .......2 Mr. Clarke spoke in a very firm voice. "I am not amused" his gaze burned As if a raging fire spreading wild. And..he searched for the misplaced debit card. . Hours before...Logan was kneeling Beside me, holding my hand in his. And the day just seemed to begin once again...as Steven raised his head. . The personalities that I've met Spin frequently inside this head. As I once again try calling Detective Moore. . The things that we choose to not accept or believe I guess can only be found in time. Each part of him I'd met, more than once. . Until the night from the darkness of unseen shadows "He" appeared. I really thought I'd met them all. "Him" I've never seen again. . He hides silently within. And I refuse to watch Mr. Clarke For him to recklessly appear again. Let this be my warning to more than the few of you. . in progress..............

Cos Everyone Is Doing One!
And cos I remember Crazy Lips said she'd like to know more about me. :) 1. Do you like chinese food? I hate the food of my countrymen! Neh only joking, of course I do. I like the REAL kind and sometimes the junk you get in takeaways too. 2. How big is your bed? Single...but remember a British/European single is smaller than an American single. 3. Is your room clean? It's messy...I have a lot of stuff. 4. Laptop or Desktop computer? Laptop 5. Favorite comedian? Stephen Fry although technically I'm not sure if he's a comedian. 6. Do you smoke? PURPLE HAZE YO! (Amsterdam) 7. Does anyone like you? I hope so! 8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? Who?10. Sleep with or without clothes on? I haz nightie, can't wear shorts/bottoms though. Always wake up with a wedgie. 11. Who sleeps with you every night? Moi 12. Do long distance relationships work? Probably not 13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Nevar 14. Pancakes or French T

[i Was Provided With A Survey.]
1. Do you like chinese food? I do. Incidentally I probably cook it three times a week. I eat a lot of rice. ... more rice than any white person has ever ate in history. 2. How big is your bed? Queen. Big enough for me, my puppy and an average sized woman. 3. Is your room clean? My room is probably the cleanest room in my house, the rest is kinda... stocked with other people's stuff and model/art supplies and their results. 4. Laptop or Desktop computer? Desktop, though I often contemplate getting an iron, nuclear catastrophe surviving laptop to put my work on, a very stable OS, and NOTHING else. 5. Favorite comedian? *whistles* George Carlin? I'm gonna say George Carlin for right now. As much standup as I watch (contemporary or classic) that's a really tough call. 6. Do you smoke? Cigars, and rarely. 7. Does anyone like you? Yeap! Its pretty neat. 8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? The teeth. And you fucking know it. 10. Sleep with or without cloth

Stolen From Kerry Via Ick
1. Do you like chinese food? Some of its ok...the rest i could do without2. How big is your bed? queen...but i want a King 3. Is your room clean? My bed isnt made... 4. Laptop or Desktop computer? I have both; I am on my laptop 5. Favorite comedian? Chris Rock. End of story 6. Do you smoke? I smoke cigars.....cigarettes are a nasty filthy habit 7. Does anyone like you? Yeah....But sometimes i wonder 8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? I thought Janet Reno was a sexy bitch.10. Sleep with or without clothes on? boxers...i dont like to be restricted while sleeping 11. Who sleeps with you every night? me, myself and I 12. Do long distance relationships work? I have tried....and failed miserably 13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? More times than i care to count... 14. Pancakes or French Toast? French Toast....i like the powdered sugar on top 15. Do you like coffee? No thanks...Im a tea person 16. How do you like your eggs? in

New Words In The Dictionary
NEW WORDS IN THE DICTIONARY Each year a handful of words and expressions become bona fide entries in the world’s top English dictionaries. Whether chillaxing with a gal pal or out on a bromantic date, you’ll automagically impress your friends when you rock these beauties. 1. automagically adv. Automatically in a way that seems magical. 2. bromance n. Close platonic male friendship. 3. buzzkill 4. catastrophize v. To present a situation as worse than it is. 5. chillax v. to calm down and relax. 6. cougar n. Older woman who dates younger men. 7. frenemy n. Friend with who one has frequent conflict. 8. friend v. To add to a list of personal associates on a website. 9. LBD n. Little black dress 10. rock v. To do something in a confident, flamboyant way. 11. staycation n. Vaction spent at home. 12. unfriend v. To remove from a list of personal associates on a website.

Unintentional Cold Showers
You turn on the water and put your hand in - hoping to god it's not freezing. It's -33 outside with the windchill and the water heat in your apartment though set on 95 is keeping your apartment a cool 70ish degrees on the warm side. You shiver but the water feels slightly warm. Despite your best effort to take a quick shower while the watter is still hot the shower makes that sound - will it be burning hot or will it freeze you to death? You're lucky it makes the sound or you'd be screwed for sure. You are lucky it stays warm not too hot yet. You look at the window above the shower and there is ice holding it shut - not condensation ICE...Awesome you think...the seals in the windows are awesome. You think back to when someone else in the building mentioned that the boiler is the same one it has been since the building was built in the 1970s - how about an update people...that sound again...the water gets cold suddenly you're freezing finish getting the soap off your body and the shampo

Hooray! The Blizzard Is Coming!
I truly am not a winter person. I don't like cold, I don't like snow. Shovel sucks. It's just not fun at all. Granted this winter as well as others, we've been REALLY lucky and missed out on some nasty stuff, but it doesn't look like we're gonna miss out this time. Two feet of snow, 50 mph winds, white out conditions, ice...yeah, FUN IN THE CITY! My co-worker's daughter lives in Dallas. Schools are closed there. DFW was shut down for an hour because of ice. Her daughter called the police because a trampoline was flipping over a fence into the road. Yes, winds like that and the stupid idiots that live upstairs from me decide to put a freakin' tree that's a house plant out on the balcony. Seriously? Do you have a brain? What possessed them to do that, I have no clue but if that damn thing blows over and does damage to my car or windows, the police better come and take me away cuz I'm gonna beat them with it! Anyhoo, storm is moving at 60 mph so it'll be here soon enough. Happy joy, ha

My Tummy Hurts....
because roKs default is fucking terrifying! yikes! I thought hanging a tampon in my hair was bad but i have got nothing on her epic hoaring skills. I have something coming up...that will either be the worst thing ever, or awesome. we shall see. LOL I have started working on my online boutique and hopefully i will have it up and running by the end of February. Wish me luck! My dog is in love with the giant lab that lives next door...i think she outweighs him by at least 75 lbs....he should come to fubar if he is so in BBWs and.........i have coffee. that is all :D

Christopher.... A Rant
I am so bloody sick of the name Christopher. Why does every mother and father think about naming their son Christopher? Why does it annoy me so much? Because I like differences. I used to have 1 Chris in my cell phone. Then last week, just boom! I had 3. Now, if your name is Christopher, don't take this to heart. I know it's not your fault you have a common name. I really have nothing against the name. I'm just annoyed that so many people have the exact same name.

I Never Learn
I've broken Too many things That I can Never repair Shattered the Trust Of those I loved As if I Never cared All I did Was hurt myself Though they too Felt the Pain I warned them All To stay Away But their heart Overwrote Their brain

Ripping Skins
This blog is to help you rip, and activate a skin. since I have had to instruct people on how to do this for their first time, I will explain step by step how to rip a skin... FIRST, be sure you have skins enabled in settings, by accessing edit profile. if you never see any cool backgrounds on profiles, you dont have them active... 1. to find a skin, use the search feature for skins here http://www.fubar.com/browse_skins.php or if you like a skin on a users profile: scroll to the bottom of the page and look for "Browse members skins" on the bottom right..click the link. you will see the list of skins, "preview skin" and "rip skin". 2. Next i recommend previewing the skin, to make sure it is in fact the skin you want. sometimes you might find that the skin titles are misleading. after confirming it is the skin you want, click "rip skin" 3. Your browser will be redirected to a new screen confirming the action. "You have successfully ripped skin" will appear on top, and yo

Coming To Terms
(Names of other members used but not in Vain) It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of ANNABEL LEE; And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea; But we loved with a love that was more than love- I and my Annabel Lee; With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her highborn kinsman came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulchre In this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in heaven, Went envying her and me- Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingd

Generation Gaps
I spend way too much time trying to please everyone around me. Both my mother and my son are staying with me at the moment. Talk about a generation gap with me stuck in the middle. My mother is hard to please and set in her ways, which I usually just go along with. My son is a young 20something and I am young enough to remember how that is. lol He plays the tv kinda loud because he has 80% hearing loss in one ear. He is in the kitchen a lot because he loves to cook. He helps himself to whatever is in the house, which I prefer. I don't like for anyone to feel as if they can't make themselves at home in my house. Mother is barely speaking to me this morning. Why? Because my son and Blake's mommy are getting back together and she came over last night with her almost 2 year old lil boy. No Blake because we have been sick here and want to make sure Blake doesn't catch anything. As soon as they got here mother told me to shut her bedroom door. I did. She didn't come

Growing Up In The Middle Of Nowhere
I am so glad Martha, Sarah, and Jeffrey met me for Saturday’s open mic (pronounced “open mike”, short for microphone) night at Horizonz on Main Street. I’ve been going there every other Saturday because I have a lot I’d like to put “out there”, and facing a public in the midst of singers and other local artists is something I really miss out of school. The open mic night’s got an almost coffeehouse feel, and when two singers played guitar after I read Sarah and Jeffrey got up to dance and the fourteen or so people there cracked up seeing them! (So did we; look at Sarah and Jeffrey now and you’d swear they’re older than they are – Sarah will be five at the end of February and Jeffrey is three-and-a-half. Growth spurts might explain their … reluctance to hear and obey mom and dad.) Both poems I read Saturday night are intended to be part of a longer work that I’ve tentatively titled “nor long rem

....thought Frost......
So, its a mental blender and heres the contents that i spill; spewing forth the sickness within me, all the twisted tear streaked memories that reside inside my mind. Riddled across the scars of my soul is a jellybellys bag of moments forever immortalized. The sweet tender dreams of yester years gone awry.... Trepid anticipation shattered by the breaking ride of expereince.... Sundering heartaches ripping seams anew, realigning....rectifying.... There is no longer the glimmer inspired by the echo of voices long withheld.. How is there to be a flourishing with all nourishments denied!?!?!?! To ease the Agonies within me, would seem as if a blasphemy as all Soulpieces pick the trials, obsticals that litter their pathway to Grace, Harmony, Mirth, Sacrifice, Compassion, Honor, and not leastly Love..... It is not my place to gainsay Karma's dictations on payment. There seems no abode i might call my own.... ever a steping stone

After Jody, Then Judy, Then A Few More I Can,t Rember There Names Now Donna
meet this 1 from gray court , s.c. been in and out my life 2 times over the lastr 2 years, so many things going on with us,we talked about getting marryed and talked about not getting marred, keeping things the way they are, i let her girlfriends come and live with us, now understand donna is bi, and at times i have too stand by and watch 2 or more females playing with ec other, and not jump in the fun , but donna will say dave come on get the machine out and show my friends what its really like too be used by the machine, and i do it, putting it in eather holes, donna will get up off the bed and gert a whip and every time they get close too a orgasms donna spank,s them , now this dam thing is heavey too hold, fat bbw on there hands and kneees on my bed, it takes 2 hands too hold the machine in place, and she will tell 1 of the others too get down there and ready too lick the other clean if she gets off, all this time i have my fucking pants on but i,m so hard it hurts too keep on goin

The Tragedy Of Arizona, A Ballad:
The Tragedy Of Arizona, A Ballad: Remember 09/11/2001, The World Trade Center In New York City, New York. Remember 01/08/2011, The Safeway Market In Tucson, Arizona. Remember The Young Girl, Christina Taylor-Green. Remember The Oklahoma City Bombing Of The Federal Building In Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. We Are A Nation Wounded; But, Not Crippled. United We Stand, Divided We Do Not Falter. In The Wake Of Recent Events In Our Nation, I Am Compelled To Speak My Mind. Freedom Of The Press, Freedom Of Speech. Alleluia! I Have A Son That Lived In Tucson, Arizona. I Have A Cystic Fibrosis Daughter Whom Resides In Safford, Arizona. She Often Comes To The University Of Arizona Medical Center Hospital For Treatment. They Were Both In Tucson On That Day. I Had A Daughter That Was Killed In A Severe Automobile Accident On July 19, 2001, At Mile Post 22 On United States Highway 89 Inside Kane County, Utah. She Was Only 19 Years Old. I Feel The Pain Of The Families Involved In This Tragedy.

Seducing Mom
I’ve been thinking sexual thoughts about my mother for the last year. I’m eighteen years old now and when I was seventeen last year, I started looking at my mother not as my mom but as a very arousing and sexy woman. It all started with me looking at her sexy panties in her underwear drawer of her dresser. As I gazed upon the sheer lace material of her panties, I became very aroused. I started masturbating into her panties, stroking my hard cock for several minutes until I would cum into the soft cotton crotches. At first I unloaded small amounts of cum but as I grew up, my ejaculations grew too. I graduated to searching the clothes hamper and looking for a sexy pair of mom’s worn panties. I was rewarded several times as I found them and brought them to my nose. Oh the enticing smell of my mother’s sexy juices would send me quickly into an intense orgasm, time after time. My lust for my mother continued to grow. Some may think it was weird but I occa

Rip Kieth
as it started to be a winter storm, god had other plans when he made you go pick up your wife from work, traveling down that icey road, he knew you would do the right thing when that car lost control, he knew you would turn your car so it was your side that would get hit, even tho you leve behind a wife and four kids, god has better plans for you, walking with the angels, rip keith, jan 27, 2011 bedrock

Fading Beyond Myself
Alone in the darkness that is my soul Not ready to move on but needing to Pondering about who I really am to you Tired of waiting so I hide behind my walls No one will ever get through ever again Invisible barely existing I go on about my daily life, shrouded behind a fake persona When home in my comfortable safe haven of what has now become my safety blanket I sit in the dark Pondering what could of been but will never be

Seasonal Footwear
While all guys have an innate fashion sense, sometimes the weather throws us off of that fine balance between the slobby comfort we desire and the incredible good looks the world deserves. I encountered just this exact dilemma while attending firstborn's swim meet this past weekend. I have always enjoyed the comfort and airiness of sandals. They are perfect for summertime, beaches, and indoor swim meets. http://fubar.com/blog-pics/photo-5712960-2265289-4216288785 But I found out that they are not so great when you need to move the car out of a reserved parking space to the visitor lot a quarter mile away. http://fubar.com/blog-pics/photo-5712960-2265289-1264581689 Lesson Learned: Personal comfort wins over fashion. No sandals outside in the Minnesota winter.

The Start
People often come to me seeking my advice on fashion, lifestyle and stuff. Why? Because I have three things going for me - 1 - I'm a guy 2 - I have wisdom and experience beyond my years 3 - I have access to the opinions of my pre-teen children So I will favor you with my help and advice when I get to it. And if no one cares - I'll make stuff up like in the paper.

Thimblerig
thimblerig\ THIM-buhl-rig \verb; 1. To cheat or swindle, as in the traditional shell game known as thimblerig.noun: 1. A game in which the operator rapidly moves about three inverted thimbles, often with sleight of hand, one of which conceals a token, the other player betting on which thimble the token is under.

Silence
Dreamlike silence shrouds my sullen worldWith loneliness keeping me companyA feeling of dejection creeps inside meAs a moment of mourning shares the tearful reality I find myself in solitudein the vast expanse of immense emptinessQueries overflowing, wailing and wonderingfor things still left unspoken All the things turn out to bebleary, bleak and drearyAs tears trickle tenderlyKnowing failure has come my way

Competing..
I just don't have the energy these days to compete for the attention of a good woman. I find one, and instantly I have to work my way up the ladder to try and nudge past the guys with the looks, with the money, with the "bad boy" attitude. I have to work to get past them and use only sincerity and charm. Let me tell you this, those don't work too well these days. They get you into "Friend Zone" and they do that rather well. Even that though is more energy than I have at the moment. I have officially become jaded enough these days, thanks to my ever destructive Ex Fiance', and other women who have done so much to break what hope I had to find a decent woman and have the confidence to go get her, that I just give up. Screw it... either you're smart enough to realize what I got, or you're not. Best of luck to you women. Next time you wonder where the good guys are? I'm right here.. Prove you deserve it. I'm done competing to come in second to brain dead ass hats, who

Wanna?
So I have pulled way back from Fubar. I was trying to decide what to do with my profile here. I still haven't really decided exactly in what capacity I want to participate in the game called Fubar but I have decided a few things... If you are on my friends list please refrain from the following... 1. Asking to be added to my family 2. Asking for my IM address 3. Asking for me to text you 4. Asking to see NSFW pictures 5. Asking to have me add "your name" to my name 6. Asking for me to lock you in as my fu-owner 7. Asking to fu-marry me 8. Asking for salutes Do you see the general theme here? Stop asking for shit from me. Thank you. xoxo Mia P.S. Refrain means STOP

From Peacy Via Crazy Lips!!!
[url=http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/results/?result=Michelle][b]You Are Powerful and Determined[/b][/url][img]http://www.blogthingsimages.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/name.gif[/img]You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you ar

Seeing Red.
ive had a horrible day. i think im just far enough at the end of my rope to hang myself with it. maybe its the weather, i tend to be unhappy in the winter... it doesnt help i drive for a living and they are calling for a foot and a half of snow tomorrow.. maybe i just complain to much.... maybe i could take my ego, put it in a box over there and then have my self a good cry.... maybe i could get drunk and start a fight...... maybe i could just avoid these problems with excessive sleep....... maybe im wrong and everyone else is right...... maybe i should take it one thing at a time...... maybe i should get my blood pressure checked.... maybe i shouldnt waste your time....... maybe ill just order a pizza..... pizza it is. :/ xo

Emotes For Fubar
Okiedokie, since the actual emote didnt work on the paste job in the last job.. here is the link.. btw this blog is intended for my own personal easy access to the list. since my boolmarks are full of shit i use for everything else... http://fubar.com/emotes.php

Realizations...
Things started great. But things turned rather sour when after swearing that no one can get between us, you let them. After I've proven my truth, over their lies, you still didn't believe me, and shut me totally out. You had things come up, and I wanted to show you support, and have your back, but you told me I wasn't allowed. You ignored me, and when you did talk to me, it was almost nothing. You then wanted to work things out, but yet, were still ashamed to acknowledge the fact that we were even in a relationship or even me for that matter. After the constant neglect, and also making me out to be something I'm not, and tossing things in my face, I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. Upon making that decision, you realized, that my support, and presence was wanted, and so much, that you even begged me to stay. Then you tossed in my face that I made the decision, and even now, you choose to continue to throw things in my face, use me as a scapegoat, and push me away, yet not only

I Dont Even Know Anymore
For the longest time now ive been pondering what is it that im doing wrong. No one of the opposite sex at all no attention i mean im not looking for all the attention or i want them all lovey dovey on me either but not even a look when im out at public places no one to talk to, and when i do get setup i get thrown aside by the asshole ones. I feel like giving it up on this, its been 2 years and im 20 bout to 21 and i sit at home and work..this life of my blows badly .

So It Isn't About Bruno. It Isn't All About Bruno.
First of all the font is Georgia on account of Witty's relo. A tale of two kitties I have two relatively new additions to my menagerie, both cats. We got Beezy, who is completely grey in the fall 0f '09. It is scary how fast time flies. Out walking Leo, the dingo dog, there was a bird chirping in the neighbor's hedges along side of their house. There was much discussion and some animated words on my part that of course it was a bird making that noise. My girlfriend was just as adamant, albeit wrongly, that is was a kitten making the noise. Somehow on the way over to investigate the bird flew off unseen and completely coincidentally there was a kitten in the brush. Beezy was a right around 2 weeks old. She had been abandoned by her mother and despite not really being able to walk she crawled out from under the hedge, which was more like a briar. It is amazing how instinctual the drive is among animals to imitate the adults. My adult cats all prefer to drink out of t

What Is True Love?
What Is True Love?True love is...Personal freedom for both people.Good communication on all levels-Verbal, Energetic, And Emotional.Individual space.Responsible behavior towards yourself and your partner.Personal empowerment.Affinity and friendship.Compatible goals(but not necessarily the same goals).Caring.Bliss(At times).Delight in each other.An ability to say NO, and to say Yes.Allowing the other(person) to be negative, as well as positive.No coercion by either person.Non-possessive behavior.Mutual understanding on the basis of attraction.Based on truth, Not fantasy.Respect for both people's needs.Knowing when it's time to move on and say goodbye.True love is more than just wanting that person to be 'The One'.

Really More Of A Wtf???
WARNING: THIS BLOG MAY CONTAIN OFFENSIVE MATERIAL, DON'T BITCH THAT YOU WEREN'T WARNED!!! Ok, let's start with the 1st thing on my mind right now. We have been told for GENERATIONS to keep our fingers out of our mouths. There IS a reason for that, the human hand is the NASTIEST part of the body, so all the pictures of the girls with the fingers in your mouth trying to be sexy, you may as well be sucking sewage through a hose. On to hello Mr. Obvious #2 LESS IS MORE... men (REAL MEN) like their ladies with some class and a bit of mystery, so cover up unless you want to be treated like a whore cuz seriously, thats all they think you are, and this anorexic cat crawl across the bed, MIGHT be sexy if it wasn't so damn obvious that you just snorted a huge line. YES we know cuz your nose is still re as hell an you could lead Santa's sleigh. And last but CERTAINLY not least, WTF is up with this duck face everyone is doing.. I mean is wasn't cute when it started and it's DAMN SURE not cut

Tips On How To Masturbate.
If you're a girl..1) Get something small if it's your first time, like a lip gloss container. Make sure it's got a rounded tip.2) Put a little water on it. 3) Get yourself on the ground or your bed. Make sure you're comfortable.4) Put your feet up on something. Make sure they are higher than your head. Spread your legs.5) For the ultimate experience, relax first. Just lay there. Think about nothing. And DON'T BE NERVOUS.6) Slowly begin to touch your breasts. Feel them (have your eyes closed or open but if they are open make sure you're not focusing on anything)7) Keep one hand on your breast and slowly move the other one down to your thigh. Move your hand up and down your thigh while massaging your breast.8) With your breast hand, slowly take the lip gloss container or your object of choice. Your clit might start to get a weird feeling like you really want to touch it. DON'T.9) Tease yourself with the object by gently rubbing the spot between your poophole and vagina. This will drive y

You're A Homo
Yes I know! I’m a homo! Wow, what a genius! This video is fantastic! And the dancers are so amazingly talented! Hmm, I do wonder what Lady Gaga herself thinks of these parodies from Sherry. I bet she agrees with the message of this one! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa3zoo4IQxA

Life After My Death{@
INFO: SANTASOURS IS TIMOTHY EDWARD SOURS # 1-541-994-4555 & tsours2@hotmail.com +GOD+BLESS+Charities: DAV. and I give to any and all of my fellow human-beings(*:*)my time and $.$$Clubs / Affiliations: AMERICAN LEGION/DAV. Education: 12 + years of military schools all over the (USA.) bases & overseas; also civilian city schools systems. Plus, 27 years active soldier with ARMY Airborne Rigger/OCS., training. With a (AAS.) 4 YEAR DEGREE, in Hospitality & Tourism Management.Family / Pets: I'M NOW A WIDOWER AGAIN{@

Its Been A While
it has been a long time since ive blogged. i suppose it shouldnt really matter because A. no one reads them and B. im sure they arent fun to read anyway. that said, your expectations should be lowered to the right level. im in kind of a shitty mood, they are calling for about a foot of snow in the next few days and my truck is broken atm. woe. wow, i had alot of things i wanted to say but now that im typing , ive gone blank. sorry if your time was wasted here. anyway....

Nasa’s Constellation Program
NASA’s Constellation Program Will the Unites States surrender its leadership role in every conceivable area of importance? The new Congress should demand the reauthorization of the Constellation Program. Beyond the obvious, of being able to fly ourselves to the Space Station, maintaining the infrastructure and programs necessary for space leadership continuity and maintenance of military, commercial and scientific space projects and research, there are other extremely important reasons to fund the Constellation program. It is a very sad fact that a history of disastrous policies like this one defunding our space program has left our nation on the brink of surrounding our super power status. In addition to cutting wasteful spending and pumping up the environment for American business, there are some extremely important actions that must be taken if we are to climb out of this huge economic hole we find ourselves in. We are going to need something like the info

My Love
When love strikes us hard and makes mush of our brain,When love sneaks in and makes us insane,All sense can depart and leave the brain blank,When love like that strikes it can drain our whole tank. So beware of the power you exert over me,For I’m under your spell; that’s clear as can be.Whenever you’re near, my brain slips out of joint;I fight my love, but what is the point? You’re my strength and my weakness, for I love you so dearly I love you Babe with all my heart!!

Unknown...............
She sits at her desk watching her crushWatching him laugh, sing, the way he says her nameMaking her smile as well just from hearing himWanting more than friendshipBut knowning she can't have himHe loves another...another friend of theirsLetting her heart break and mend againShe watches on being the unknownAll the things she feels for her crushHe may never know how she feelsNot wanting to ruin the friendship they haveSo she sits an is silent saying not a wordFor she is the unknown

Thinking Of You.........
Im lying in bed, With nothing to do, Except just lay there, Thinking of you,I'm sitting at my desk, With nothing to do, Except just sit there, Thinking of you,You are my friend, That much is true, But you don't feel the same for me as I do for you. If you did you would be open. So at night I lay just thinking what could be.

[new Game]
Step 1: squint your eyes as hard as you can.Step 2: Breathe through your mouth.Step 3: Stop bathing for weeks at a time.Step 4: Lurk on some of the most unattractive people on the internetwe're talking People of Walmart ugly.Step 5: Leave them a comment stating "ur sexy with X" for example, there's a picture of a woman with a towel wrapped around her torso say "ur (or u) sexy (sexay) with (w/) towel around u"so"u sexay w/ towl round u"Step 6: Repeat until you make a comment following this formula in EVERY SINGLE PICTURE OF THEIR FOLDER LIKE SOME CREEPY BASEMENT DWELLING BABY-FUR!...and I'm not telling you what a baby-fur is. Try it on your friends today.

Boy Toys
A heart is not a playful thing,A heart is not a toy.But if you want it to get broke,Just give it to a boy.Boy's like to play with things,To see what makes them run,They play us girls for fools,They do it just for fun.You wonder where he is at night,You wonder if he's true,One moment you'll be happy!The next will find you blue.You see my friend, I ought to knowI gave my heart to you!

My Uncle, Rip
So since my uncle Mike's murder last week I have been through some emotional turmoil, which I thank those who have been there for me dearly. http://www.insidebayarea.com/news/ci_17217497 Today I had to call airlines, which was so hard to do when asking them the details about "sending a body" to a different state. I feel anger, and hate...And the question "why" keeps going through my thoughts. Seeing the troubled images in detail of that the Detectives told us makes it almost vivid in my mind. Why didnt Bryan le just die? Another part of me makes me question my own behavior. Helping a person out and them to turn around and do somthing so cruel to someone so innocent is beside me.. Between planning a funeral, contacting everyone my uncle knew, speaking to family and the arguments they have started on where they want to bury my uncle, i am about to explode. Tomorrow is another day.. I decided to go to work and see if I can get through it emotionally. I hope I can. Say a prayer for the fam

More Drivel....
Cause I'm not real, but what's real anymore? Truer words were never spoken. I'm not real. I'm what you want me to be. Sure,I'll play nice. I'll listen, offer advice,make conversation. But I can assure you my heart isn't into it. Your talking to a well, a echo chamber of sorts. I'll say what you want me too. Sometimes I think I don't have a heart. I think I've gotten to the point where I'm running strictly on auto pilot. I care for nothing anymore. All my interests fall to the way side. A perfect example.Music.I love it.I have the gear to make it..I lack the intelligence and skill to do so. Believe me, I read the manuals,the faq's and it's lost on me. It's like giving the average joe a manual on physics. He can read it but retains or absorbs nothing. So I read it over and over and it's like reading something totally foregin. In other words, a total waste. Sure I can blame my ADD,but that's a cop out. Some people aren't fabricated to do or create,just to consume. So the stuff si

Poem To You
not glimmer of faith not an ounce of hope just another arguement getting easier to cope let my house be your safe haven let my home be yours too let his hands be your savio r now you know what to do. Life gets harder as we go Your learning this to young before your seventeen your battle will be sung Lift your head up my dear as she drinks another beer dont jump the gun your only once young live life likes its a musical dreams like your rich believe that your martin luther never give up, never quit sing as if your mariah dance until you scream your too beautiful for that rapper your hearts too big not to dream dont let them tell you what you cant be or even what you can love like theres no ending take the opprotunity from the pan your gonna slip baby girl hell you might even fall but life cant beat you if your given it your all. .

Still On My Face
The looks still on my face the exact time, the exact place whats not gone away, the pain i still wish things were the same what was heard the song it hasnt been there very long what i know is true i dont know what to do i see her in the moon she's not gone, she'll be here soon its still going through my head oh my god my grandmas dead

Only One Tear
Only let one tear come rolling down only let one smile turn into a frown only let one feeling cast over yourself only take one day away from everyone else Remember the good days and dont forget he bad she'll still smile when your happy and hug you when your sad. get on your knees and you will see you may not hear but she's listening protecting you and protecting me in our hearts is where she'll be but shes not gone and thats a fact its just purely sight that she lacks so hold your head high and dont let it fall down dont let another smile turn into a frown .

Hit Me With Those Words
When you hit me with those words I dont know what i did wrong i wish i wasnt born i wish that i was strong strong enough to take it strong enough to cry strong enough to fake it strong enough to lie you say that you love me i dont believe its true but what hurts the most is how much i love you your supose to be my mom your suppose to be my dad be there to smile when im happy be there to hug me when im sad listen to my stories just give me some time that heart you hold in your hands believe that heart is mine your suppose to be my best friend im suppose to your world your daughter till the very end and always your little girl .

Grand Father
Now evertime i look up i know ill see your face and ill remember your laughter and your state of grace Ill think of all those stories you so often told and the way you felt so stiff, so cold remind me of those thoughts you never forgot to share and the way you let me know that you truely cared ill act the way you raised me and always keep in mind the person ... that i should be at this point....... at any point and any time

My Sons Dad
My sons dad can not keep a girl friend maybe that is because he can not pay his child support or even have the money to see his child and no this isn't his only child,He has 2 other children too.His 4 year old he doesnt has rights to anymore.His oldest son his is pride and joy fuck his other 2 kids.I wish I had a differnet baby daddy.one that will step up and be dad

True Story
A Muslim man in Egypt killed his wife because she was reading the Bible and then buried her with their infant baby and an 8 year old daughter. The girls were buried alive! then He reported to the police that an uncle killed the kids. 15 days later, another family member died. When they went to bury him, they found the 2 little girls ALIVE! The country is outraged over the incident, and the man will be executed. The older girl was asked how she had survived and she says 'A man wearing shiny clothes, with bleeding wounds in his hands, came every day to feed us. He woke up my mom so she could nurse my sister,' she said'. She was interviewed on Egyptian National TV, by availed Muslim woman news anchor. She said on public TV, 'This was none other than JESUS, because nobody else does things like this!'

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