Fubar Blog Posts 1

I Want To Explain
i want to explain but if i do peeps jst call me crazy fubar change and change its name from cherry lost to cherry tap when fubar name changed last it seem to fill with hatas i felt sensitive to leveling of hate i tried not to show any hate toward any1 yo kno tat was hard when i am met with attittude jst i sai if i explain i get met with attitude first i never did salute why should i i know who i am and a few know me i dont care any about any1 else yea i am showing attitude it jst tat yo make me show tat attitude go ahead suck cake when i go i take a few with me oh fuck i dont care yo wont have me around oh fuck its too hard to post blogs the editor change makes it so hard tired of fighting it anymore ma bff jst tell me to quit it jst stupid to stay nobody wants me here every dear friend who sets salutes onli tats jst saying goodbye

B'more Electro Mash
got some great feedback from the few people I sent this out to...so here it is to share.free stream, free download enjoy!!!this one is all over the place....Beatles, Kings of Leon, Jaime Foxx, Pittsburgh Slim, JayZ all tweaked & twisted up. http://www.house-mixes.com/mixes/playmix/12490/play.aspx

Can It Be
As I sit there, thinking, someone comes towards me and grabs my hand. Frightened, I jerk back; But he assures me that he is here to help me and love me. He begins to caress my neck, my shoulders, my back; And I give in to his orgasmic touch - And I trust him, though I have only just met him. And I touch him, his soft, silky skin, caressing him. Still sitting there, he wraps his arms around me and holds me for hours on end - And he tells me he cares, something never before heard by this lonely heart. Now, as we lay there on the beach, underneath the stars, his soft, sensuous lips touch mine. And I give myself to him, as we make love beneath the stars. And our hearts, minds, bodies, and souls entwine. He knows my every need, fantasy, desire - And he fulfills and satisfies each one of these as I have only dreamed. Now as we lie there, the sun begins to rise. It is not just a new day, but a new beginning as we plan to spend the rest of our lives together, embraced in each other's arms and

Sweet Dreamz
At night I dream of you, Coming to be by my side. I see your silhouette at first; I watch your calm, quick glide. Vivid images; Pictures in my mind. My night's love, my passion; All in you I shall find. Once again, you'll whisper to me, "Hello, my dear. " Your touch eases me, Removing any fear. Your gaze meets mine; The warm look in your eyes, It melts my heart. From now on Nothing but blue skies! Tonight you romance me; Our bodies entwine. You enter; I gasp! Our souls combine. A touch here, a tickle there, It enthralls me; I am captivated. Our bodies move, the motion constant; My body's completely activated. Throughout the night Our passion flows, Coming together, My emotion grows. For you, in dreams, Oh, how I care. But when morning comes, I am left in despair. Anther night gone and passed. I awake in ecstasy all alone. For you visit at night; In dreams you come. And I dread the coming of a new dawn.

Depression...initative
Ever been depressed for a long while,where you just dont want to do shit,but sulk around and wallow in your own filth.music,tv,even close friends only make you happy for the moment.Until you make a call to someone you "adore" after not hearing from them for nearly 2 weeks...awwwwwwww... i wanna shower now... ^_^

Was It A Dream
trying dis one more time da changes in fubar has cuz ma blogs blogs not show as pubished no one knows when do i post a blog i onli get a very few who cums to read ma poems and wit da change to dis editor it is much harder to post blogs was it a dream was it a dream i was leaning back with ma eyes closed an' felt your hands roaming over ma body felt your lips touch felt i was floating on a cloud while you holding me in your arm felt da touch of your lips as i was opening ma eyes to look you into your eyes i found just ma fingers on ma lips was it just a dream it felt so real da dream was it a dream or was it

Untitled Lol
A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent and demanding thrusts of pa

I Tatsed My Fire
I Tasted My Fire The light of the moon pierced the shades Outlining My Fire’s perfect silhouette The sheen of her lips ensnares my attention I could feel us melt when our lips finally met I taste her sweet lips and tongue Slowly I then kiss down her awaiting neck As My Fire’s body begins to tense Kissing down her breast feel my tongues caress I take my time drawing each one into my mouth My Fire’s head tilts back as she softly groans Her hands grip my shoulders guiding me down

Who Are You
There are two sides to who i am. First and for most i am a mother, but i am me. Being a mother and being me are the same thing. People have a hard time understanding how i can be me and think like i do. For exsample, someone asked me why dont i stop smoking it will kill me. Well i told them there are many things that i do that could kill me, hell i could walk out my front door and could get shot. No one really knows how it is there going to go. I have a grandmother that is 90 and has smoked for 60 years and has no health problems, but in the same since i have two grandfathers that have died from lung canser. Every persons body is differnt in how it takes stuff in. I also have very much pitty for homless children or a child born with an addiction they never asked for, but i have no pitty or respect for an adult in the same situation. An adult has complet control of there lives. I dont know what it is im trying to say. Shit, damn writers block. I always tell people to read between the li

Party Next Weekend 5/6/2009, San Diego Hard Rock Hotel
So.... I have a very very special guest coming into town next weekend. I am very excited about her visit to my city. I am planning on doing alot of really cool stuff while she is in town to keep her busy and to make her fall madly in love.... with San Diego!! So; something else I have been tossing around in my noggin is throwing some parties, social gatherings with a mild twist to them. I dont really know that many people in San Diego to invite so I thought I would throw this out there for some feedback. If you are in San Diego, you are part of a couple, you are between the ages of 22 and 38 and would like to attend a party I am throwing; could you respond here on the comments section of this page? or send me a private message? Im working on headcount so that we can go VIP to a club at the Hard Rock or elsewhere for free and to know what size room to get there at the hotel. Thank you for your time and attention to this because im super excited about the feedback and making this happ

Love
I am an emotional and sensitive person. I am a romantic at heart. I love romantic comedies, romance novels, and sappy love songs. I cry at weddings, and the birth of children make me weep. I cry when I am sad. I cry when I am happy. I cry when I am angered by something. I am a faithful and loyal friend, lover and companion. When I am hurt it weighs heavily on my heart and its difficult for me to recover. I have yet to find the one guy who truly understands me and sees me for who I really am. I am ME. A caring, sensitive person. There is not much I won't do for the people that I love. Even the people who have chosen not to be in my life, I still care about. People who have done me wrong I have forgiven. Hate eats at your very soul, forgiveness heals your heart. I am not perfect and I know that. I have had moments where I thought to seek revenge. I had to take a step back and think about what I was thinking about doing and the damage it would cause

Road Of Life & A Journey Of Fate
the ROAD of LIFE & a JOURNEY of FATE As I travel down this Road of LIFE, I look 'round, and see not a Soul in sight. Feeling all alone, wondering if i took a wrong turn, so i slow it down, try to look at my Map so tattered and torn Full of self-doubt,not trusting the way i took,but how can it not be right when its gotten this far...... Not sure what to do,or which way to go, feeling quite LOST, i resign myself, to accepting the fact, i must go this Alone, why i don't understand, traveling in a pair , i cannot command...... So i get up, dust self off, take a deep breathand getting ready to go...down the Road of Life.....STILL all Alone...... But before I can start again,I can Feel before I see, a Strongand Gentle HAND reaching out and grabbing mine, startled, i look up into the Eyes of a Handsome Stranger, who looks 'lil LOST, like He'd been traveling Alone too....... He offers me smile and wipes a smudge of dirt off my cheek and asks...."Fair Maiden, why is it that You trav

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doc_a_911 writes: "I've read all the info about when to shave after a tattoo but I have not been able to find anything on waxing. I am a hairy guy (yuck I know) and I am getting ready to get my second tattoo but it's going to be big and cover most of my back. I feel that once the tattoo is done that the hair will eventually grow back and I'm not a fan of the hair.....is it possible to wax (or something like it) my back after the tattoo is done without damaging the tattoo? I'm talking after the tattoo is completely healed of course.....or will I have to constantly shave or live with an awesome tattoo on my back with hair growing through and around it? Can anyone help?" amy says: As I’ve heard you should wait 2 years before waxing a body part with a tattoo… as a professional (one who provides waxing service), I would never wax someone with a tattoo any newer than 6 months however. Tattoos take time to heal… a good month before they’re considered “heal

A Personal Passage
Each life is a journey-a uniquely personal passage through time. As you travel through difficult places,you need not give into hopelessness. God is able to bring you safely to your destination when you place your trust in him. God is the Author of each journey. He knows the way through every dark and frightening valley. He knows the safest path along each high and treacherous mountain trail. God knows where the cool, refreshing waters flow and where you can find the provisions to meet each of your needs. He shares the weight of the burden you carry and causes you to lie down and rest in lush green medows. He gives you hope and courage as you walk with him, step by step, one day at a time. You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever. PSalm 16:11 NLT God, as I face the challenges of my persnal journey through life, I am thankful for your presence that guids and protects me. Amen

Admirations Voice
Do you have someone like this??? I bet you do and you just havent opened up your eyes to see This friend is a true well wisher. With this persons friendship personified to the last letter. This persons speech gives strength to sagging morale. This person is all ears to any kind of tale. To flatter or be insincere this person does not know. Dislike to hypocrisy, attitude does show. Taking in or talking nonsense is not this persons style. For illogical and foolish talks, this person will not give bail! This person thought process and modus operandi are robust. Their clarity stands out and distinguishes this person from the rest. Blend of practical approach and emotional support in this person, is awe inspiring. This persons wit and repartee with humor’s touch is amazing. The profile of this perspns character does not limit to any punctuation! Not a character in its words bears an iota of exaggeration. If you have this person in your life.. feel free to sha

Watch Out For The Username Archlight Here On Fubar
ok this is a warning to all woman and men look out for the name Archlight he is a fake and likes to use woman he is a freeloader that moved here 4 months ago and likes to drink ALOT he has nothing in Michigan or NY so dont let him fool you. As far as sex goes well ladies I think he likes MEN

Bad American I Guess..
YES, I'M A BAD AMERICAN I Am the Liberal-Progressives Worst Nightmare. I am an American. I am a Master Mason and believe in God. I ride Harley Davidson Motorcycles and believe in American products. I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some Liberal governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican! I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way! I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American. I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything. Get over it! I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, do it in English. I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to. My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and Willie G. Davidson that makes the Awesome Harley Davidson Motorcycles. I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor. I know wrestling is fake and I d

Exquisite
Exquisite Behind a moonlight pane I close my eyes and dream Of past battles, of past domains My heart is locked And the key is in your hold The stars are shining bright The moon disappeared now from sight As I sigh, with pain Wishing you to return Without any constraints For my exquisite love! The wind carries your name in vain Listen to my voice

My Precious Moon...
My Precious Moon… Memories of time Of ages, long past gone In the midst of my mind I have, always come to know, That you were the only one… To make me believe Of setting, my wings free For with power you have chained my soul In a dark, secret, pit Follow the lilt, of a siren song, Here I am, Let me reach you through time Conceal your bright wings And come back t

Somethings About Me
Let's see.....1.) I have been a Master for 12 years2.) I've been told I "make to much sense".3.) People call me wise alot. For the record I'm not wise. Just because you didn't think of it the way I explain it, doesn't make me wise. The advice I give is as much common sense to me as grass being green. I don't get the beaming light from the heavens shining down on me, bathing me with "wisdom". I speak what I believe to be common sense. No more no less.4.) I do not have a "type" of woman I prefer. My reasons of attraction to any given woman are as unique as the woman that I am attracted too.5.) I am an "honest flirt." I will not flirt with a woman who I am not attracted too. Nor will return flirting with a woman I am not attracted to, who might be flirting with me. So if you are flirting with me and I flirt back, it is for a reason. and if I don't flirt with you, well you figure it out....6.) Give me a good 20 minute conversation, and I will tell you things about who you are as a person a

Solace
Seems like yesterday we were riding the bus touring the cityWhether it was to Montgomery wards where i didn't listen when you told me to tie my shoes and i ended up with stitches or to toys r us so i could get the latest ninja turtle toy. I remember all those times I'd stay over your house. You'd let us run around and play with the other kids until dinner time. You were always happy that we were having fun. I remember the Halloween that i was dressed up as smurfette and the pants kept ripping.no matter how how many times it took you kept trying to stitch them together so i could go back out and collect more candy. Now all i can do is sit by your side and watch time go by. I hope that i have been the grandson that you had hoped for. I hope I'm the man that you expected me to be. You've taught me so much throughout the last 27 years. Its from you that i have learned what honor and respect are. Watching how you handled all the rough times has shown me what undying love means. I'm not sure

Blank
I am just so tired of people in this day and age. What ever happened to honoring your word? Why can't people just be real? Why does one have to do things in order to impress the next person? People wonder why I stay to myself. Most would classify me as a hermit. I have very good reasons for staying to myself. I have maybe 2 people in my life that are worth giving the time of day to. Everyone else is just that......everyone else.

Glow Worms......
Often times when i ge t bored Ill look over at the blast box... YET it never fails i wanna spork my eyes out when i do .... and as Ive noticed the same few ppl there lately.... i cant help but to nit pick their pics..and some Ive seen otfen enough to name them.... NOT that its right .. or a very nice thing to do but who am I kidding right .. me nice? ppfft! Moving on ... here are a few examples of pics that need to be..adjusted.... ( in no way am i being mean for size or clothing taste its simply just a bad pic or idea to do to their pics.... The glow worms... the Wet spot... The cougar the canyon AND FOR THE RECORD i AM IN NO WAY SAYING THAT THEY ARENT BEAUTIFUL... BUT DAMN IF YA WANNA BE IN TEH LIME LIGHT .. LOOK GOOD DOING IT...

The Music I Like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0NVIroAyP4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xq0MFEz0pMQ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJBHIU-AZeA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJBHIU-AZeA This is what I spend most of my time on and I got 3 other people to play agenst isint It (Awsome) Ü If you dont buy this game you will have nothing to live for I got alot to live for now its matallica and my 3 others

Street Drugs
You know, I still see alot of signs on fubar that tell me that people on here are using street drugs. I am not a moral majority type by any stretch of the imagination so don't think I'm going there. No my problem with it is this. Street drugs...pot, coke and all that other shit are one of the ways our enemies over here fund their operations against us. They use the money from drug sales to buy weapons, bullets, ied's, commo equipment, government influence etc. So when you buy your bag of weed or your lines of blow your not just having a good time. Your helping to kill the very people who are over here trying to protect you and the rest of the world from psychotic religious, xenophobic zealots like Al-Queda and the Taliban...soldiers like me. Thank you so much! Hey, keep it up! Maybe that way, the Taliban can take over Pakistan. Pakistan has nuclear weapons just like their rival next door, India. The Taliban would jump at the chance to decorate the Punjab with mushroom clouds. And of co

Ensign: Quam Minimum Credula Postero
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 29 May 2009 Even if we’re not conversant in Latin, most of us know the meaning of the phrase “carpe diem”. People often cite it as an injunction to live in the moment and not be overly worried about the future. It translates roughly (like all translations) as “seize the day”. The original phrase found in the Odes of 1st century BC poet Horace is part of a sentence. Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero. “Seize the day, [and] put no trust in tomorrow!” It becomes easy for us to think that there is no rush to live in our witness for God – in fact, out of context you could make the argument from Scripture that NOT doing so will postpone the rapture and Jesus’ second coming indefinitely. The fact that one criterion is the entire world

Truth
You’ve bought out the worst in me, I’m now my worst enemyI can’t seem to be happy and every time I am you break meYou’ve brought tears to my eyes so many timesI said I was done more than onceIt’s a shame how I keep playing your gamesWishing and waiting for what I have dreamedWanting that perfect life with someone I love but also can trustFalling apart and breaking down slowly Drifting away like a long lost memory

Mountains...here We Come!
Leaving in about 4 hours for a nine day excursion into the mountains in Arkansas. Good friends, good times....ha.............bliss. One of these days we will be riding full time and I will be the happiest bikergirl ever! Tata fubar pals....see you when I get back. Please don't hate me cause I'm two-wheelin it...LOL

5 Minute Cake Recipe
MY BFF emailed this to me yesterday. I just made it. Pretty cool. Although I only have Nestle Quik, so I used that. I used like 4 tbs of it and it doesn't seem to be enough. Kind of dry so maybe 3 minutes is too long. So tweek it out a little bit and let me know how it goes!!TROUBLE This is GREAT for when you crave chocolate cake!! Dangerous!! But sometimes we JUST NEED Chocolate Cake!! A RECIPE EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW The most dangerous cake recipe ... 5 MINUTE CHOCOLATE MUG CAKE 4 tablespoons flour 4 tablespoons sugar 2 tablespoons cocoa 1 egg 3 tablespoons milk 3 tablespoons oil 3 tablespoons chocolate chips (optional) a small splash of vanilla extract 1 large coffee mug Add dry ingredients to mug, and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well. Add the chocolate chips(if using) and vanilla extract, and mix again. Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes (1000 watts high). The cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be al

Hmmm.
i wonder why some people can lie to you an honestly think you cant tell that they are lieing. Its so freaking annoying and its not like I wouldnt eventually find out anyway that they were lieing. So thats just really stupid on their part, cause in the end the truth always comes out.

My Second Poem For Lala (i Actually Like This)
In the dark and silence of the nightI creep across death's threshhold...and through your doorspecteral-longing-- impatient...and finding you aslumberinto your dreams i must creep...where any form is mine to createthis is my realitythis world of whisp and ghosts...my realm my kingdom, you are my thrallthe room it fills with candles stubby and whispering of flame...they gutter longing to go out... to give themselves to the black...you, half dressed in white... the gown wrent, torn, where am i...from the shadows i pounce, and turn your face to mine...i cover your mouth with my mouth before you can see my face... it is my one last gentle act... and you can sense it...your heart races and your heat rises as the last of your dress falls way...we hit the floor together...a tangle of arms and legs...and the you are on your knees your eyes can barely trace the blackness of the floor as we become one... a beast with two backs... throbbing and heaving... you awaken from your sleep...just a dream.

Friends??
Ok why is it that people add you to their "Friends" list but then never reply to a message, no correspondence whatsoever, not even the courtesy of rating pictures when you rate theirs?? Do people just want to see how high they can get their friends list??? It's stupid!!

Why I Am Difficult To Love
like waters troubled continue to be disturbed even after the dead are dropped ununder the surface so also I may shake even in the most secure arms You may conclude reaching out therefore you cannot reach me but somewhere inside you do. Months ago I ended years unable to speak my truth And to note feel pain I stopped speaking. Any silence does not mean I do not want to talk to you I do, but for that moment I cannot. With your patience I will and do. Because someone hurt me for doing so There are moments when I may not know What to say to you. Know it is not you but someone else Who is now me...

Mayonnaise Jar And Cup Of Coffee
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the cup of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly.. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced a cup of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effe

New Tgif Illness
A woman calls her boss Friday morning and tells him that she is staying home because she is not feeling well. " So, what's the matter?" he asks. "I have a case of anal glaucoma," she says in a weak voice. "And what the hell is anal glaucoma?"I Just can't see my ass coming into work today ."

*sigh*
*sigh* Life always has to lead you on doesn't it? You think you finally got your sh*t in order and then "Wham! Bam! Thank you Ma'am, but I don't think so..." Then instead of suport from the people you think are supposed to be there, you get nothing... All you hear for days is "Why are you being such a b*tch?" What kind of answer are you really expectin to hear? You don't tend to like "Because I can?" Do you think I'm going to deal with this by myself? Seriously? If you really knew anything about me, you'd realize that is the last thing that will happen. *sigh*

Introduction
Hi, I just wanted to intorduce myself. My name is Candy Anderson and I recently became an Avon Representative. I am having a great time with selling some ownderful products. Did you know that not only do we carry make-up,jewlery and perfumes, that there is also a line of men's products and women's clothing? The styles are amazing and I am sure the men's section will give you plenty of ideas for gifts. Besides, who would want their man to smell wonderful and pampered just as you are. Feel free to come and browse my website, I ship every where in the USA but for the state of Alaska. Just follow this link and it will take you straight there, http://www.youravon.com/candyanderson , I hope to see you there. Sincerely, Candy Anderson Your Avon Representative

Black Panthers Cleared Of White Voter Intimidation By Obama Justice Department Officials.. Welcome To New Politically Correcct America
http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2009/may/29/career-lawyers-overruled-on-voting-case/print/Gee if the skin colors were reversed in this story there would be riotting in the street wouldn't there.But hey there black they're the 'oppressed people' see how oppressed they really are they need to carry weapons to polling stations on election day and stand around make sure you feel the oppression! DevlinnThe Washington TimesFriday, May 29, 2009EXCLUSIVE: Career lawyers overruled on voting caseJerry Seper (Contact)Justice Department political appointees overruled career lawyers and ended a civil complaint accusing three members of the New Black Panther Party for Self-Defense of wielding a nightstick and intimidating voters at a Philadelphia polling place last Election Day, according to documents and interviews.The incident - which gained national attention when it was captured on videotape and distributed on YouTube - had prompted the government to sue the men, saying they violated the

The Realm Of Consciousness
_______________________________The Realm of Consciousness_______________________________How easy it is for people to become trapped in their conceptual prisons. The human mind, in its desire to know, understand and control, mistakes its opinions and viewpoints for the truth. It says: this is how it is.VIEWPOINTS - You have to be larger than thought to realize that however you interpret your life or someone else's life or behaviour, however you judge any situation, it is no more than a viewpoint, one of many possible perspectives. It is no more than a bundle of thoughts. But reality is one unified whole, in which all things are interwoven, where nothing exists in and by itself.INNER SPACE - The realm of consciousness is much vaster than thought can grasp. When you no longer believe everything you think, you step out of thought and see clearly that the thinker is not who you are. The mind exists in a state of not enough and so is always greedy for more. When you are identified with mind,

Phukk Me And I'll Phukk You...
wanna have sex with me??? post this & see just how many people comment you saying they wanna have sex with you.1. No2.may be3.hell yea4.get the condom5. when, where, what positions6.my pants are already off7. I'm in bed waiting(wink wink)8. fuck condoms come heredo it, trust me the awnser you get will amaze u. It's good 2 know

Words Of Meaning...
Hold not thy peace, O God of my praise; For the mouth of the wicked and the mouth of the deceitful are opened against me: they have spoken against me with a lying tongue. They have compassed me about also with words of hatred; and fought against me without a cause. For my love they are my adversaries: but I give myself unto prayer. And they have rewarded me evil for good, and hatred for my love. Set thou a wicked man over him: and let Satan stand at his right hand. When he shall be judged let him be condemned: and let his prayers become sin. Let his days be few; and let another take his office. IT HAS COME TO MY ATTENTION MY NAME HAS CROSSED THE LIPS/KEYBOARDS OF SOME ON HERE THAT I ONCE CONSIDERED FRIENDS. I HOPE THEY READ OF THIS AND KNOW THAT IN THE END GOD HAS MY BACK. HIS LOVE AND STRENGTH IS MORE THAN ANYONE, EVEN I, COULD EVER UNDERSTAND. GOD BLESS TO ALL THE TRUE FRIENDS OUT THERE THAT YOU LIVE A LONG HEALTHY AND PROSPEROUS LIFE. I LOVE YOU GUYS! YOU ALL R

Lets Meet Now
mm horny and im just like the girl next door to your houseonly different is i love hot steamy sex and i still cant find a guywho can handle me do you really think you can be that guy?sweetslutbabeyeah that's it we can t a l k and c h a t therebaby in my ah o o got it? lets meat in yeah woo

Texas Woman Told To Remove 'offensive' American Flag From Office
It's time for some serious changes in America I mean radical revolutionary changes when 1 ONE individual (not Native Born to this country I might add) can under Political Correctness crush the god given right of a native born American from displaying the simple thing as a flag and show patriotism. Devlinn http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,522659,00.html Texas Woman Told to Remove 'Offensive' American Flag From Office Friday , May 29, 2009 FC1 ADVERTISEMENT Debbie McLucas comes from a patriotic family – her husband and both of her sons served in the U.S. military, and her daughter is currently deployed to Iraq on her second tour of duty as a combat medic. So when McLucas arrived at work at a Texas hospital last Friday, she was stunned to be told that the Stars and Stripes she had hung in her office in advance of Memorial Day were offensive, and that the flag had been removed. “I got into work, I was met by my supervisor and told that there had been multi

Robertpannell8
RobertPannell8 New to our family on May 29. 2009 brought to us by Sinful our Manager. Please add him, fan him, and rate him. Show him some good Zodiak LOVE Ty! Please show Sinful some love and thanks your for bringing us a new family member. [ fubar.com photo: 2160380604 ]this is link just click picture link below in comments ty!

A Prayer
Dear Lord,I pray for the strength, the courage, and the wisdom to beat down the beast that has/have taken over my life. I pray that the light within me may over take every part of my life, both day and night. I pray that I can be the parent to my children that they deserve. That I be an example unto them and to others of your love and your strength in our daily lives. I pray that I can be the friend to the love you have blessed my life with, that they know beyond a doubt that they are loved about all others. I ask, God, now for the forgiveness of the errors of my ways. That I may leave this path of darkness and come into the light of your love. Lord, my heart is set on you and I give my life to you to do with as you see fit. Use me and my voice that I may share your love and your amazing blessing with others. I thank you with all my heart for the love and support of my family and my friends. I thank you for never letting me forget your endless power and mercy.In Jesus Name I Pray,AMEN!

Flashing Lights
ooh my, another friday, another 26er, another gathering, but theres gonna be a few changes tonight. Krys is staying in corner brook with his jaw still bleeding from sugery. I msis him so much its insane, I never thoguth Id be one of those couples who is like imu:# after 6 hours ofbeing apart but after 6 hours I missed his sweet ass. Its been since tuesday hes been gone now. I stumbled across a camera and decided to take some pics for him;) They are posted in nsfw, Im gonna send him fubars favs so choose wisely: ) The past month or so I've pretty much been living with krys (well hes been living with me in my house) and for that whole month every friday was the night i raped him, Im serious, last weekend lenroe left the room to him screamingher namme " lennnnooooooooooooOOOORRREEEEEE". The funny part is how i got him in the room, apparently ( I have no memory of this) I got my mom to help me drag him in the room tobe raped, apparently also mom was a good helper. krys has started call

Foxisms
crabs hurt my feerings damn fetus clogged mah toilet date rape: no pain, no gain deepfrying a baby...brb did they use needlenose pliers to pull you out of your mother? dolphins make great lovers eating vaggies gettin a face transplant...brb God lives in mah pants having Fox flu honey, I'm homo!...err, I"m home! Hookd on Fonix is krap I'm just a ray of moonshine I have LemonAIDS I put Rape in Grape I put ASS in CLASS I make yoo feel good fo dollah I'm a chip off the old Eastern Bloc Is it too late to shove you back inside your mother? Masturbating to Barry Manilow's nudies My crabs have gonorrhea My rap name is Lay-Z My scrotal sac smells like rotten potatos My shirt smells like dolphin cum Please do not feed the crabs Penisfish Romance is lettin her keep the brown bag on Save rubber- use spotted owl skin condoms So you call THAT a penis?? The bigger you are in FU, the smaller you are in life The moment you were born was a biggest FAIL What doesnt kill yo

Broken Things Inside.....by Rickyd....my Journey Of Fate Partner
The poem your about to read is 100% factual. I was greeting all the pplinside the velvet kittyLaughing and joking and pretending to be a man that truly wasnt meThen in walked Spirit, attitude with class and beautybut as trained Marine I quickly saw throughI seen that she glowed and there ismore to this woman than i ever knewI knew right away she was more woman than I was manBut her presense I couldnt resistit consumed me I couldnt understandThen she called my name and withmy fear hidden answered this maidens callWe began our journey with just nothin but small talkAs we talked the more in depth our convo began to growI suddenly told her theres something you need knowMy outside appearnce is wellas you can plainly seeBut deep inside there are many broken thingsThen I felt her courage and compassion that Ive only felt by a fewAs she said ricky to fix your broken things it will take not 1 heart but 2I instantly went back to a day gone pastWhen mom called me to her death bedto tell my futur

Dj Wanted
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The Facts On Obaba" Supreme Court Choice
President Barack Obama nominated Judge Sonia Sotomayor toreplace retiring Justice David Souter on the Supreme Court.» To ensure lawmakers, the media and the America can get all the factson the Supreme Court vacancy,Senators should "engage in robust advice and consent to assure that if confirmed Judge Sotomayor would not use her seat...to advanceliberal policy preferences," argues Ronald Reagan Distinguished Fellow and former Attorney General Edwin Meese.The "advice and consent" process, mandated by the Constitution, is adelicate and timely one. Senators should use it to determine whetherJudge Sotomayor will faithfully and impartially interpret theConstitution and laws of this nation -- and not shape them to herpolicy preferences."Nominations should be judged by a common standard: Will they apply the Constitution of the United States and the law as it is written and according to its original meaning?" asks Heritage expert Conn Carroll."Or will they use the lifetime appointment to enact

Digging A Hole (repost)
Digging a holeBurying it all, but your losing your soulBlame no one but yourself when you dig to deepYou are the product of your own self-defeatYou define yourself through self-inflicted painYou search for the storm clouds just to complain about the rainYour are a victim of choice, not of circumstanceHide like a hermit just because you don’t have the guts to take a standCutting out the ones you love like a cancerRemove them from your life when you don’t like their answersYou fear the truth like the monster under your bedCan’t handle being wrong, so you run away insteadThis is the last time I will offer my handI suggest you take it while you still have the chanceGoing against the grain just to prove you have controlI'm begging you, stop digging this hole

Response To 'drama And Shit'
I'm shocked, that you'd tell boldface lies - no wait, no I'm not. Telling me how you could never be with him because of his teeth, how you'd never be able to look at his bald spot, and gagging when I showed you his salute to LaLa... but go ahead, deny it, idgaf. It just proves to me who you really are, nothing more than a user and a fake. I was good enough when you weren't online, to talk to till 3am, to cry to when your Mom was sick, but you get back online and you're a different person. Sickening. Here, just for you: 1. I didn't say he was bald, fat, toothless, or gross. You gagged at his salute to LaLa. I have the screenshot if you'd like it. You said you could never be with him because of his bald spot and the fact that he barely has any teeth, which you noticed looking at one of his pics closely, you even mentioned the pic, but I don't remember which it was. That was on the phone, so I can't screenshot that. :| 2. I never said I believed any of the stuff that was goin

No Expectations
Someone told me Have no expectations and I'll have no regrets and shes so right. I have expected people I've met online to be true at heart as I am, Im easy to open my heart whether it be online or off and always treat them the way I would want to be treated, but Im relizing I can't put my guard down with everyone, because some are just out for self, As they say beware of the wolf in sheeps clothing.

Apologies From California By Mark Morford
I know, we're supposed to be the vanguard. We're supposed to lead the way, set the agenda, be at the forefront on exactly this kind of delightfully blistering, divisive, sticky cultural issue, especially given our world-renowned reputation for flying our fearlessly flamboyant freak flag as high as the Transamerica Pyramid dancing on ecstasy at Burning Man. I know, we're supposed to be this unswerving bastion of progressive liberalthink, the frothing epicenter of just about every wild/weird/wonderful sociocultural movement and civil right in America. After all, we're the birthplace of hippie culture and gay culture and New Age culture and roughly 10,000 other progressive beliefs and revolutions and soul-fellatings you can name and many you can't, because they have yet to be concocted in one of our genius inventor/scientist/poet's feverish peyote dreams. I know. In other words, we're supposed to know better. We're supposed to get it right, particularly about something as obvious and re

Priory Priority
The 104-year-old building that had served as the priory and primary student residence of the small Catholic university where I work was about to be demolished. As the wrecker's ball began to strike, I sensed the anxiety and sadness experienced by one of the older monks whose order had founded the college. "This must be difficult to watch, Father," I said. "The tradition associated with that building, the memories of all the students and monks who lived and worked there. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you." "It's worse than that," the monk replied. "I think I left my iPhone in there."

A Story Upon Your Skin
let me begin this tale with a kiss upon your brow to ease your mind for the tale im bout to give you lips placed upon your eyelids so you can see me whether your awake or asleep a gentle kiss placed on the ear so my words are all you hear lips along your jaw to tease you just a lil wandering lips have found your collar bone the secret spot you hide so well a dip of tongue finds it fast as a sound of pleasure escapes your lips wickedlythe lips seek out more for this tale is not over not by far they wander with great recklessness down over your inviting chest to find a nipple a nipple to first lick awake to give it some warmth from my open mouth hovering so close to it a nip to make you pay attention

I Feel Sick
Silence envelops the moths inside, flying into my gut wall, again and again - I feel sick. My tongue of sandpaper, hopes your heart isn't as fragile, as mine. And my tears wish they could change the world for yours... But, I can no longer be the soul, standing behind you, as you fall, as I'm simply not strong enough to catch you.

Revenge Is Best When Served Cold
When your husband or wife does something that makes you really angry, don't give in to the temptation to argue and fight . . . Just count to ten, remain calm and after he or she goes to bed, super-glue their flip flops to the floor ! I could watch this one over and over.............

My Poem Wept Soul
Wept Soul The sun driped heartache on my shoes today.The clouds covered my vision,I heard the thunder.Where is the rain?It is in my heart, pierced by the thorn you left,with your black wilted roses and the promises you never kept.I feel the pain of no tomorrow, the sun faded and color is gone.Hope left the room,as you sored to your deathThe wind began to blow what was to be a disaster.Acid tears hit my cheek heavy with fear.I'm left with your ashes in the urn of sorrow.The son you left behind,weeps for the father he wish he knew.When your soul was in flight and sored to the pavement,what was the last thought you had? You selfish Tormented Soul.The memory your son will have is a picture of you and nothing more. Copyright ©2009 Stacey Adams

Nasty Boo-boo
So I was in NJ visiting my gma.. everytime I see her I help her, like putting out her deck furniture, grocery shopping, tending to things she can't get to anymore... Saturday 5/23 started beautifully. The beach was warm, the sky was blue, and I was happily busy helping my grandma... I was taking her deck furniture out of the garage, washing it, and planned to put it back on her deck in the back of the house. My grandma wanted to help... I had to keep chasing her away so she wouldn't slip and hurt herself. I was going to bring a chair off the deck down to the driveway so I could clean it. When i got to the top of the stairs and began to drag the chair down the steps, I stopped. Chair was too heavy. I left it. I began to back my way down the steps... got to the last step and I slipped. I was wearing wedge flip-flops... BIG MISTAKE. So I rolled my right ankle cuz of them damn flip flops... and then BOOM.. I fell on my left leg. I'm laying in the mud/water/driveway, look down

Gone Fishing
Going FishingSaturday morning I got up early, dressed quietly, made mylunch, grabbed the dog and fishing equipment, slippedquietly into the garage to hook the boat up to the truck,and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour.The wind was blowing 50 mph. I pulled back into the garage,turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather wouldbe bad throughout the day.I went back into the house and slipped back into bed, wheremy wife was turned away from me. I whispered to her, "Theweather out there is terrible."My loving wife of 20 years replied, "Can you believe mystupid husband is out fishing in that mess?"I still don't know to this day if she was joking, but I'vestopped fishing.

Even Now
even though we have never met face to face i feel as if i have all my life every word spoken seems to be familiar to me somehow i know you there are things i keep close you know them before i speak them when i feel sad you show up and chase it away when im afraid you open your arms how do you know me so well were we lovers in our pasts do you believe in fate was fate cruel to us once then saw how bad it tore us open and now is trying to throw us back together even now when i close my eyes i feel your hand caress my face with a gentle kiss on eyelids sealing my lips with a kiss of unspoken love even now i know you think the same things even now

Through His Eyes
through his eyes i am beautiful inside and out he sees me in a way i dont when i look in a mirror i see damaged, ugly watching him now as he gazes at me i see the beauty that he has spoken of so many times in the past some have said it before but not with their eyes his eyes have never lied to me they have always held truth through his eyes i am beautiful in his eyes i hope to remain

Drama And Shit.
Where to start. This is just fucking pointless really. But I feel like I need to clear some things up. I shouldn't have to do this, BUT I do. This basically goes to one person, which I know will read this. 1. I didn't say he was bald, fat, toothless, or gross. 2. I never said I believed any of the stuff that was going around about you. 3. I didn't say YOU were an annoyance, just that you aren't my friend, yet you are still showing up in my bar tab. 4. You got mad because of things I didn't do. Well, too bad you didn't even give me a chance to tell you that I didn't have my phone with me. Too bad you didn't let me tell you that I never got the alert you signed on or I would have asked you how you were feeling. Too bad you assume way too much shit about me. 5. You make your status about me, and about how horrible I am..but you send me text messages the next day saying you don't want to lose me. This isn't the first time you've done something like this. I forgave you once..you swo

Seniority
Shown below, is an actual letter that was sent to a bank by an 86 year old woman. The bank manager thought it amusing enough to have it published in the New York Times. Dear Sir: I am writing to thank you for bouncing my check with which I endeavored to pay my plumber last month. By my calculations, three nanoseconds must have elapsed between his presenting the check and the arrival in my account of the funds needed to honor it. I refer, of course, to the automatic monthly deposit of my entire pension, an arrangement which, I admit, has been in place for only eight years. You are to be commended for seizing that brief window of opportunity, and also for debiting my account $30 by way of penalty for the inconvenience caused to your bank. My thankfulness springs from the manner in which this incident has caused me to rethink my errant financial ways. I noticed that whereas I personally answer your telephone calls and letters, when I try to contact you,

May 29th Update
Well, here's just a little update on whats been goin on the last few days... Yesterday, the specialist the plastic surgeon the guy who did my surgery behind my thigh and knee came in and he said that things are getting smaller just very slowly... I have a tunnel in the sore behind my thigh and its only deep enough for a long q tip to go through and yesterday, the doctor tried to put his finger in it to see how deep it was.. he found out that its not as deep as it was and does not tunnel to the sore behind my knee anymore.. But when I told him that it hurt he decided to try to push harder to make it even more painful.. and yesterday they gave me as much pain meds as they could.. they ended up givin me all 4 cc's of my iv pain med.. they gave me 3 cc's of the pain med before the first dressing change since i knew the doctor was coming in and i knew i would be hurting more.. then after they gave me a pain pill and that still didnt hardly touch the pain so then they gave me the last 1 cc o

The Yadlow Method
Greetings Fubar friends and neighbors!! I felt I need to explain my action on this particular page os maybe you can understand the method behind the madness that is "YadlowXP". First and foremost, I am here to make friendly contacts- whether it is a generic hello or a blatant flirtatious remark. I am here to make friends, pals, buddies. So, for those of you where I have had even brief conversations, I thank you very much. You make an old man feel..well less old :). Now to the method. 1. When going through the profiles, I will often rate the profile first. 2. Rate the pics that I feel I am worth the points ( I do this so I dont fall into the trap of only ratings women's boob shots. While they can be pleasant to the eye but not very wise to keep leering or coveting something you can never have. Just like flowers in a valley.. pretty to see but better left to blow in the wind) 3. Check for any blog and rate accordingly (especially if it is not just another sales pitch to

13
Bad luck wind been blowin on my backI was born to bring trouble wherever Im atWith the number 13 tattooed on my neckThat ink starts to itchBlack gon turn to redI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngGot a long line of heartacheI carry it wellThe list of lives Ive brokenReach from here to hellAnd a bad luck wind been blowin on my backPray you dont look at meAnd I pray I dont look backI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngFound me with a preacherman confessin all I doneCatch me with the devil playing 21And a bad luck wind been blowin on my backI was born to bring trouble wherever Im atI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngWhen I was youngWhen I was youngWhen I was young

Elswhere
I love the time and in between the calm inside me in the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered to touch upon the years... of reaching out and reaching in. Holding out. Holding in. I believe that this is heaven for no one else but me and I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence. If I choose to, would you try and understand? I know this love is passing time passing through like liquid I'm drunk in my desire. But I love the way you smile at me I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near I believe... I believe that this is heaven for no one else but me and I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence. If I choose to will you try to understand. Ooh the quiet child awaits the day that she can break free the mold the clings like desperation. "mother, can't you see I've got to live my life the way I feel is right for me, might not be right for you but it's ri

10 Reasons To Date A Hockey Player
10 Reasons to Date a Hockey Player 1. They always wear protection 2. They have great hands 3. They are used to scoring 4. They have great stamina 5. They find the opening and get it in 6. They never miss the target 7. They know how to use their wood 8. They have long sticks 9.They know when to play rough 10. Because baseball players only know how to hit balls.

Never Enough
Never Enough I always wanted to ask,Why was it you left meWhy is it you hurt me,Was I never enough?I never once hurt youDid I not deserve you?Was I never enough? The last time I saw youWhat remnants of my heartFinally felt aliveWhat am I to do?I feel torn apartDown to the last diminutive splinterThen when you left,It stopped and grew coldLike an arduous winter What is it I need?For you to tell me you love meTo tell me you need me,That I'm always enoughBut this is a nightmare,And I need to dreamOf a second chance, an adventMy world yerns for youDefinitive and ardent

Wish Me Luck & Pray 4 Me (please).
I will be going before a judge today to get the no contact taken off my husband do to the fact that my kids need their father, and with me being sick as I have been for months on end, I need him here to help with the house work, ect... I know people may not understand why in the hell someone would take a person thats aggressive back into the home however he went an seen a doctor to see what might be the problem well come to find out he has serve bipolar & depression.. That there can make someone be this way so he is on meds to control his systoms... I just need him back is all because the day before yesterday I went into see my internal doctor an I've lost more weight I'd say about 3LBS, last time it was 154 1/2 now I'm down to 151.8LBS which the doctor said isn't looking good, anyways I just thought I'd bring this to you all & vent for a few sec before going before this judge cause I haven't seen one in damn near 20 years and hell I'm freaking the hell out at this point & time, cause

My X's Bull Shit
Ok kids. I am going to be a DAD soon! My X's has been fucking my life over and over agen!! braking up with me asking back and then more of the same!!! She just tolled me it is her body missing with her and she is takeing it out on me!! If so how shoud i feal abut that? Thake it and try to deal or move on and just be a weekend dad. right now i dont like eather of them but I AM THE DAD and i know i have to do the right thing! It is just killing me can some one help me out with some info??? thanks

U Wanna Own Me
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♪ Pages ~ 3 Doors Down ♪
What happens to a man when, He spills his heart over a page, And he watches words float away then, His feelings lie over a page, alone. They're waiting, for someone who cares to read them, To open their eyes and see them, To see if they can make his thoughts their own. To find out, that maybe life's not perfect... Maybe its not worth the hate it gives away. You can see that, this broken soul is bleeding..

Shifty Dodge.
Down highway 75 there's a dot followed by a dust trail. If you look hard enough you'll find a bard with a banjo he can't play, and a muse he named Steve.But that's not really his name. Steve's at the wheel, the boy-bard is just keepin the sun out of his eyes with a thatched straw hatcommenting on the haphazard state of broader topics of great importancelike sex laws, belief, summoning true love, and where to find the best hot pork tender sandwich. That's where this adventure ends, but we're concerned with the middle. In an old cadillac named Bluis... alright, not so much a cadillac, more like a 2 door hoopty box with oversized wheels and too much airborne mischief. I'm not playing Bo Duke because my ass keeps catching on the dry sundamaged paint. But today, I'll be a poet, and see how far I get with that before I get bored.

♪ Changes ~ 3 Doors Down ♪
I'm not supposed to be scared of anything... But I dont know where i am... I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted... And nobody understands (how I feel) I'm trying hard to breathe now... But theres no air in my lungs. Theres no one here to talk to... And the pain inside is making me numb. I try to hold this... under control...they can't help me... cause no one knows... Now I'm goin through...changes...changes... God I feel so frustrated, lately. When I get suffocated, save me... Now I'm goin through...changes...changes... I'm feelin' weak & weary, walkin thru this world alone... Everything I say...every word of it...cuts me to the bone (and I bleed)

♪ Fade ~ Staind ♪
I try to breathe... Memories overtaking me. I try to face them but, the thought is too much to concieve. I only know that I can change... Everything else, just stays the same. So now I step out of the darkness, that my life became 'cause... I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself. You were never there for me to express how I felt, I just stuffed it down.

When Will You Grow Up??
While doing my usual looking at blogs and mumms, I have notice more and more people are feeling like I do about ignorant, low self asteem peeps. Who have nothing better to do then to name call, put down others just because they dont agree on the mum that person posted. Its amazing how high and mighty they feel, but I tell ya. If they didnt have their sheep to follow them and agree with every word they said. Bet you they wouldnt be commenting so much. So to take the wind out of their sail, stop allowing them to be-little you. Don't feed into their narrow minded self absorbed feeble attempts to piss you off. Simply tell them they are pathetic and a joke at best and carry on having fun.

♪ Lost ~ Faith Hill ♪
Is it obvious to you, when you walk into a room, your face is all I see? And my heart races so fast, I never knew a rush to feel like that, every time you're touching me. I never did believe in anything, I couldn't hold between my fingers. But the way you make me feel, it's just so real the way it lingers... I get lost inside your stare... Lost when you're not there...

*to All Dutch Military* Kapt Marco Kroon
The Military William Order, or often named Military Order of William (Dutch: Militaire Willems-Orde, abbreviation: MWO), is the oldest and highest honour of the Kingdom of the Netherlands. The Order's motto is Voor Moed, Beleid en Trouw (For Bravery, Leadership and Loyalty). The chivalry order was established on 30 April 1815 by King William I and was presented for feats of excellent bravery on the battlefield and as a meritorious decoration to senior military officers. Comparable with the French Légion d’Honneur but far less awarded, the Military William Order is a chivalry order of merit open to everyone regardless of rank and nobility, and not only to Dutch military but also foreigners. To date the Order is extremely rarely awarded and only for excellent bravery in battle. In the spring of 1940 it was decided that civilians would receive the Military Order of William for heroic acts in the resistance. The chancellor of the order and the government seem to have been unaware tha

♪ She Don't Want The World ~ 3 Doors Down ♪
The open wound she hides... She just keeps it bundled up, and never lets it show. She can't take much more of this, but, she can't let it go. And that's ok...She don't want the world. And all the things she says... Well, he's just laying there, without someone to hear her cry. She slips off into a dream about a place to hide. And that's ok...She don't want the world. This love she feels.. Everything she's ever known or ever thought was real. Seems like it's been thrown away. Now, how's she gonna live? It's ok...She don't want the world. ~ Those words he never spoke... hold her like the memories of all the times before.

Duckpond
Everybody is leaving, from this town and from meThey've got the burning flame, they sure achieve their aimYou know that's tough for me to seeOh, how I wish I could do the same as them and goJust pack my bags and good-byeGet out fast or fade away real slow'Cause what you see is what you get right hereWhere a change is nowhere nearWhat you see is what you get from meIn this duckpond leave me bePretend my life is perfect, like the faces on TVYeah, that's the only way to face another dayTry to deny the miseryBut those are the way of looney's, and like a clownYeah, I do actNo matter where I could be or would like to goI'm stuck here, that's a factI'm too weak, I'm down on my kneesToo feeble for something newFeels like there's nothing I can doKeep on laughing 'bout meKeep on doing your ownBut someday I will be that oneBe that oneYeah someday I will be that one...

Ss Metaphor
I can only drop to my knees in moments like these. Time enough for the fall, time enough to land, stand up and fall again. Press the trigger and loose a new breath in your next face. Beg and wonder, try and silent till morning. All I can do is glance, all I can do is say a few simple words, all I can do is wonder if you get what I mean in at least one of the million thoughts a day I have of you. Even if it’s just in the typing of a brain you leave lacking for words.

♪ Believe ~ Staind ♪
I sit alone and watch the clock... Trying to collect my thoughts... All I think about is you. And so I cry myself to sleep, And hope the devil I don't meet, In the dreams that I live through. Believe in me... I know you've waited for so long. Believe in me... Sometimes the weak become the strong. Believe in me... This life's not always what it seems. Believe in me... 'Cause I was made for chasing dreams! All the smiles you had to fake, and all the shit you had to take.

♪ Landing In London/all I Think About Is You ~ 3 Doors Down♪
I woke up today in London, as the plane was touching down. All I could think about was Monday, and maybe I'd be back around... If this keeps me away much longer, I don't know what I will do. You've got to understand it's a hard life, that I'm going through. And when the night falls in around me... I don't think I'll make it through... I'll use your light to guide the way, 'Cause all I think about is you. LA's getting kinda crazy. New York's getting kinda cold. I keep my head from getting lazy. I just can't wait to get back home.

Riddle Of The Day
With no wings, I fly. With no eyes, I see. With no arms, I climb. More frightening than any beast, stronger than any foe. I am cunning, ruthless, and tall; in the end, I rule all. What am I? give it your best shot

Agood Women
A GOOD WOMEN!!A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks defintion from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quit capable of articualting her needs. A good woman is hopeful. She is enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, there for she gives love. She recogniz that her love has great value and must be reapprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears. A good woman has a dash of respiration, a dabble of endruance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future. A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life expereincs are merely lessons, meant t

Fear Is A Cannibal
I Only Want to Give Love - HELP ME, HELP YOU.post date:2007-08-11 09:24:06A customer at work asked if they could ask me a personal question. I said, "Sure." Aren't most of my blogs deeply personal? Why do I open myself up as I do? Because I don't think I'm unique. I think that anything I feel or think has been felt and thought before. Maybe if somebody reads what I write it will make them feel less alone. Maybe it will give them a new path to travel.I've covered this topic before, but I guess I'll do it again. People live in fear. Tremendous amounts of fear. Some of the questions a typical fearful person thinks are : "What will OTHER people think?" "Am I doing the RIGHT thing?" "What if I fail?" Some people get so overwhelmed by these questions that they turn them inside out and start judging other people because its just too scary to allow anything but their own ideas to flourish. Even though mostly these people do not have their OWN ideas, they have ideas that have been for

♪ Iris ~ Goo Goo Dolls ♪
And I'd give up forever to touch you, 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, And I don't want to go home right now. And all I can taste is this moment... And all I can breathe is your life... 'Cause sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight. And I don't want the world to see me... 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken... I just want you to know who I am! And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming, Or the moment of truth in your lies. When everything feels like the movies, Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive. And I don't want the world to see me... 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken... I just want you to know who I am! ~ And I don't want the world to see me... 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken... I just want you to know who I am! And I don't want the world to see me... 'C

♪ Posession ~ Sarah Mclachlan ♪
Listen as the wind blows, from across the great divide Voices Trapped in Yearning... memories trapped in time... The night is my companion, and solitude my guide. Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied? And I would be the one, to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away.. and after I'd wipe away the tears. Just close your eyes dear. Through this world I've stumbled so many times betrayed. Trying to find an honest word, to find the truth enslaved.

Breach And Entry
in law enforcement, a breach and entry into someone's home is a violent, fast, shock inducing procedure, designed to use maximum psychological effect to bring a suspect into a submissive attitude...but that kind of technique in every day life, like relationships, the whole "breach and entry" technique will never work, because relationships arent the same as hardened criminals...but what do I know.. I'm a man with a failed marriage under my belt and several disastrous relationships... I just want that one...one that would be right..not perfect, but right.

Damn Him!
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted?my good friend [2] You were in the car with? Shawn [3] Went to the mall with?Vicki [4] Person you talked on the phone with?Christy [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar?Mark T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends?true Q: Been searched By Cops?True Q: Been suspended from school? true Q: Sat on a roof top?True

[son Of A Mcbastard]
Alright... I'm seriously kinda out of food right now.I had fish lentil soup with taco shells and ice cream ffs tonight. My point being? *shrug* I need to come up with something good, so, what do we have in the inventory for lunch tomorrow?And yes... shopping is futile right now, we're going to ye ol hometown tomorrow night. We got lentils, chickpeas, red beans, onions, garlic, fish...flour... And we're running very low on rice. Very very low.And 1 mango. wait... damn it I can't even do a fry batter, I have no bonders. Milk and eggs are out. Man what I would do for a big plate of pancakes fried eggs and some peanut soup... and some bacon... and some sausageand someFOOD I mean, jesus, lentils might be one of the most nutrtionally efficient foods on earth, but it leaves something to be desired in the flavor, texture, filling... EVERYTHING department I'm out of $ again, but I'm pretty sure I can live for a bit on these beans and random pastas. But man... peanut soup would be grea

I've Earned My Wings
I'm sorry mommy i left you so soon, I was there when the angels woke you up at noon. I know i was gone from the flash from the start, Mommy remember ! I'll always be in your heart. I listen to you dearly,when you visit my grave. Please don't cry , be sad.Continue to be brave. I didn't mean to leave you and daddy so soon. I was looking from heaven when everyone released their balloons. Take care of my little sister and daddy too. There will always and forever be a part of me living in you. I'll be waiting for you here , at the golden gates. Time is ticking mommy , please don't be late ! I long to embrace you in my arms. Don't worry Mommy !! I'm at a place where there is no harm. I've earned my wings , I live in the sky. I'm watching everyday mommy so please don't cry !! Love, Your Son

In The Rainbow
subject:Hope and Despairpost date:2007-11-04 16:43:24"...Once upon a time I named myself Nekyia - the 11th book of the Odyssey in which Odysseus, the thinking hero, journeys to the Underworld in order to consult with the blind propet Tiresias (famously transformed into a woman for seven years too) in order to find a way home... " I think." ...Just click your heels together and say, "There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home." You need ruby slippers and the advice of a good witch that roams the countryside as a bubble as well as the right words... " I think." ...Say your right words.As the pain sweeps through,Makes no sense for you,Every thrill has gone,Wasn’t too much fun at all.But I’ll be there for you,As the world falls down. And there I am, inside the bubble. The magic is mine... " I think." None of that is real. It's pertinent, but it can't be done. Is of no help. If all I had to do was to take on another world, wear the

Fubar Is Serious Business Apparently....
Okay so I rated this persons page and they returned the rate. Which is good right? Not in this case... They decide to send me a friend request with an order of fan plzzzzz. Now everyone handles Fubar a different way, in their own way. So is their really a Fubar way? As in Add/Fan/Rate or some version of that. Since everyone has their own way of doing the FU as I will put it, Should those who think that you have to Rate/Fan/Add every page you go to is necessary? Some people care about ranking etc... Others don't. Some people care about leveling as soon as possible others don't. As I said above everyone does Fubar in their own way. If you really think about it what is the rush? Is there a big prize once you reach the top level? Some people spend money on Fubar as they have it to spend, others beg for things or are gifted things. I have met some really cool people on FU they know who they are. I do know I help entirely way to many people and little in return. T

Looking For Someone To Make Pics 4 Me!
so i see alot of pictures as i am rating that have been made for other people from a friend. I was wondering if i could get some cool ass pics of me made. all my pics are located in the BLaCK WHiTe or ME folder take whatever you want to use. i will pay in fuBux whatever you will charge me, as long as it is reasonable lol. just a few tips: **pink** *black and white* PooKie is the name and whatever else u wanna do, go for it!!! i appreciate your time in making this for me so i will pay in fubux and i get bling credits on the 2nd so the best one gets a bling!!! yay :)

Updates On Numbers And Friends
Humanitarian Effortspost date:2007-07-20 22:50:21I'm never going to do as much as I'd like to. I'm never going to take away the pain. Its an impossible task. But maybe, if I give one moment of surcease, that will be the moment that somebody will look back on and hold on to. So this is the story of 666. Some people are sensative to it. I used to be. I'm not anymore. I fully acknowledge the forces of emptiness and their need to feed. Its not scary, its just part of life. I had it in my power today to take that number out of a person's life. It cost me a bit of my own money, but who am I to step back from an easy fix? People want so much to be in control. How can you be in control if you can't identify the enemy? How soothing is it to find a mere number to fear? I fear for my friend. My very best friend. Doctors don't know whats wrong with her. There is no number to cower from. There's only pathology and testing. I'm sure an excellent mathmatician would be able to boil down all the pr

Blech
I don't know if its just me or not, but the prednisones that the dr put me on yesterday for my hand and stuff are making me feel totally blech. They put me on a big dosage, or so I think, I have never taken so many pills in one day :( Yesterday and today I have had a total of 16 10mg pills and YUCK! I can't tell if they are helping too much or not cuz when I take off the thumb/wrist splint to type or do something I get the pains again, guess I can't expect overnight miracles. With the muscle relaxers he gave me with these, I can be taking one up to 3 x's a day, but I am not sure I want to be taking them with the way the others are making me feel. Just venting.... muahz all

Re-grand Opening
IT'S THE GRAND RE-OPENINGOF THE HOTTEST LOUNGE ON FUBAR!!~~COWBOYS & COWGIRLS SALOON~~Where we play country all the time!!!COME JOIN US ON JUNE 13TH FOR THE BEST TIME EVER!!! Stop by our Homepage:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Bully by:MscFrk

Welcome Black
That I thought I saw the sun, what a fool i was and staring into the pit until all i see is -black- so cool, safe, i can hide again, the darkness, the womb the safety the - STOP!!!! you know you wanted the light... and the black... is blind suffocating i feel the cobwebs it crushes, i'm scared - someone... come please... and yet, i so love... THE BLACK!!!

I'll Be In And Out A Lot For Awhile
I'll be in and out for awhile due some important and disturbing news concerning my son. We have several meetings we have to attend and that's going to keep me tied up some. These are not things I look forward to but have to be addressed. I'll be checking in from time to time.so don't think I will forget any one because I think all of you are very special. I just hope all goes well for my son. He's haveing a real hard time right now.

Love
LOVE Love is a Beautiful Sweet FeelingLove is Caring and SharingLove is Forever, True HappinessLove is Sunshine, Rain; RainbowLove is Affection, Admiration, Adoration Love is Bonding and BindingLove is the Strongest EmotionLove is Devotion and DedicationLove is Invaluable yet CommonLove is Being Good and ThoughtfulLove is Trusting and Being TrustworthyLove is Universe and UniversalLove is Giving and ForgivingLove is Passion and CompassionLove is Patience and CommitmentLove is Togetherness and UnderstandingLove is Perseverance and ResponsiveLove is Dream, Hope, FulfilmentLove is Mystical.Mythical and RealLove is Sensation, Meditation, SpiritualLove is Kindness, Gentle TouchLove is Fire, Air, Ether, Water and EarthLove is Mind, Heart, Body and SoulLove is Natural, Creative and GrowthLove is Patriotism and HumanityLove is Peace and ProsperityLove is Family and the WorldLove is Persistence and FreedomLove is Conservation and GenerosityLove is Self and Sel

Viral Infection
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? Kara [2] You were in the car with? Family [3] Went to the mall with? Same as above [4] Person you talked on the phone with? kara [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? Radio (John) T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? True Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? True Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? False Q: Broken a bone? True Q: Have shaved your head? True Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? False Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? False WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? Eat [2] Be serious or be funny? funny. Why So Serious!? [3] Go to t

Why Men Get F@#cked In Divorces
I RAISED MY 2 GIRLS FOR 4 YEARS AND GOT CHEATED ON TWICE. I FORGAVE ONCE, THEN IT HAPPENED AGAIN, WELL THAT IS PRETTY SELF EXPLANITORY. WELL I WAS THE STAY AT HOME DAD FOR 4 YEARS AND RAISED TWO AWESOME LITTLE GIRLS THAT STILL WANT TO LIVE WITH DADDY NOT MOM, WELL UNLESS YOU GOT A P@#@SY THAN YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHTS IN UTAH AM I BITTER YES . BUT I HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE AND STRENGTH TO FIGHT TO THE END. I KNOW IM RIGHT. AND IF I OFFENDED ANY OF THE FEMALE GENDER, WELL IM NOT SORRY CUZ IM AN AWESOME FATHER AND A TOTAL MAN:)

Because Dating Sucks
Yes, I know it and you know it. Two people enter with hopes raised, into forced conversation and awkward exchanges. You try. You try again. Then out of the blue, there it is... somone who "gets" your silly jokes, and snaps right back with their own, which you actually think are funny too. A glance.. eyes connect. Conversation last for hours.. where did the night go? I call you up for a spontaneous outing.. and of course, You say yes. It's really great that we can laugh at that.. I didn't think anyone else thought that was as funny as I do. Drinking a few too many beers, and spending the evening spilling secrets.. only to laugh about it all later. Remember that time the car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, and we had to walk back to civilization? You know.. when we really learned to love/hate each other walking on that warm summer night? Remember strolling downtown at Christmas with the flurry of snow swirling all around us? Yeah, so I saved the little piece of wisdom from that

I Tried To Sneak Out Of It...
... but I knew that it was gonna catch up with me sooner or later, and I figured I'd better do it. RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted?Carolina[2] You were in the car with?My family[3] Went to the mall with?Myself[4] Person you talked on the phone with?A client[5] You messaged/commented on Fubar?VanT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends?TrueQ: Been searched By Cops?TrueQ: Been suspended from school?FalseQ: Sat on a roof top?FalseQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?FalseQ: Broken a bone?TrueQ: Have shaved your head?FalseQ: Played a prank on someone?TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?TrueQ: Shot a gun?True Q: Donated Blood?TrueWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?Eat[2] Be serious or be funny?funny[3] Go to the beach or mountains?Beach[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?ShotANSWER TRUTHF

A Husband?
A Husband... A husband should beLoyal and honestA husband should beStrong and protectiveA husband should be Loving and romanticA husband should be Patient and understandingA husband should knowWhen enough is enoughA husband should know When to fight and when to cryA husband should knowall your goals and dreamsA husband should knowyour strengths and well as your weaknessesA husband needs to be a true manA husband needs to love you unconditionallyA husband needs to know your heart is forever his

Damn You, Meathead
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted?MoP[2] You were in the car with?My cousin Jessica[3] Went to the mall with?I have no clue[4] Person you talked on the phone with?My Mom[5] You messaged/commented on Fubar?VanT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends?TrueQ: Been searched By Cops?TrueQ: Been suspended from school?FalseQ: Sat on a roof top?TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?TrueQ: Broken a bone?TrueQ: Have shaved your head?FalseQ: Played a prank on someone?TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?FalseQ: Shot a gun?TrueQ: Donated Blood?FalseWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?Eat[2] Be serious or be funny?funny[3] Go to the beach or mountains?Mountains[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?ShotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon?Moon[2] Winter or fall?fall[3] Left or right?right[4] Black and whit

The Man Of My Dreams .....
How I Found the Man of My DreamsI guess I wondered if I would ever findthe man of my dreams.I didn't know who he might be,or when it might happen,but I did know this: the man of my dreams couldn't be just anyone.He had to be someone INCREDIBLE...The man of my dreams wasn't going to beeasy to find.He had to be a lot of things:someone with whom I was able to be sincereand communicative and completely honest,just the way I wanted him to be with me.Sometimes he would be outrageous and funny and wonderful, and yet he would be gentleand genuine and always there - in good times and bad.He would be very reassuring and supportive.The man of my dreams had to havea warm heat and a sensitive souland be full offun and friendship and shared feelings.It seemed like the man of my dreams was just a figment of my imagination...until you came along.And then..when you did...I discovered that you are EVEN MORE WONDERFULthan I imaginedany could be.

Ty Everyone
I JUST WANT TO TAKE THIS TIME TO THANK ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR MAKING THIS BIRTHDAY EXTRA SPECIAL FOR ME...I ALMOST DIDN'T MAKE IT BUT I DID AND I AM HERE AND IS SHOWING MORE LUV THEN EVERY. SO TO MY PUSSYCAT FAM, MY REALEST FAM AND TO ALL MY TRUE FRIENDS I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY AND TO MY NEW FRIENDS DON;T BE A STRNAGER I WON'T BITE..UNLESS U WANT ME TOO LMAOO P.S TO NINJA THANKS GIRL FOR MARKING ALL MY PIXS U FELT WAS NSFW..I GUESS THERE IS ALWAYS ONE HATER OUT HERE IN THE WORLD LOL I LOVE U ALL AND IF YA KNO MY SAYING...KISSES SUGAS

Drh ~daddy Rocks Hard~ Has The Autos
That SEXY man we all know and love Daddy Rocks Hard has auto 11’s on all day today, and tomorrow May 28th&29 Enjoy his 11’s and the points you both gain from rating during the next 24 hours and during Happy Hours. So, Come rate his pics and BOMB him good and help him and yourself towards leveling…! Click the link to his page Daddy Rocks Hard™@ fubar

Perfectly Perfect
Well, since Stacie wrote a blog about me, I'm gonna write one about her. That's the way it works, right? But...hmmm, what to say about Stacie? She claims she can be a bitch, but in all the years I've known her I have yet to see it. She's the sweetest girl I have ever talked to, genuinely caring and kind. One of only 3 people in my ENTIRE life that I can stand to talk to on the phone for more than 20 minutes, I dunno...must be something to do with trains. Still to this day, she is the only person who "gets" me. She understands me better than anyone, I think she's still the only one who has attempted to truly understand me. When everyone else turned away, she was still there, she is faithful to her friends to the end. Crazy-funny and still incredibly smart, it's always a blast to talk to her. She is just all-around awesome, and there are no words I could use to explain even part of what she means to me. For those who know her, you already know what I mean and are nodding along. For t

May 8th 2009- Clothing Optional Foam Party Pics!!
Ok these are pics from May 8th 2009 - foam party Edited ofcourse... 2 live bands, DJs, Foam Dance, Pool, Hot tub, and lots of Debauchery! If you wanna see the unedited versions check out the resort website @ www.naturallynude.com

So Yeah This Is Whats Going On
ok i havent been around alot lately.... it's hard for me to get time on the computer with my work schedule... i dont have my own internet so have to use my roomates computer and can only get on it when they are not home.... sooo since i havent been able to hang out with my internet folk i started hanging out with real live people!!!! OMG!!! and i started dating this super great sweet awsome guy and uh yeah.... I'M ENGAGED!!!!!! WO0T!!!! some of you already know from my status a little while back but i figure since ya'll send me messages wanting to know why i havent been around i will write this to tell everyone... :-D don't have a secure date set yet but will be probably spring 2012. i know i know its like 3 years from now but he wants to do it right and i figure i've never done it right before and they ended in divorce so why not try it right this time so we are both finishing school first and he's buying the house and saving for a real wedding with a real dress and reception and

Who Is Belizaire?
Hey Yall It seems last night I was involved in a discussion in the MUMMS and didnt know about it until after the fact, I seem to stay in the dark about a lot of things on FuBar lol. Some were wanting to know who I am and if I'm real . My name is Paul and if you take the time to come by and visit with me,You'll know everything there is to know about Paul, plus I'll probably have a cold beer for you if you partake of that stuff and maybe some good food fresh off the barbecue grill. To make it easy to find me if you have google Earth or a GPS goto 32' 47.280 N 91' 53.760 W that should put you in my front yard at least. For those that dont have either of those get in your vehicle and goto Bastrop, La 71220 1601 Montgomery Ave and that will put you in my front yard too if you cant afford a vehicle to go in and have a phone call 318-239-4685 and I'll answer and talk with You If Your not interested in doing any of this, Dont be bashing My Sweet LadyDonna, shes o

The Smile
The smells of smoke and liquor. The sounds of Coughing and splashing The sight of you growing weaker The smile never fades. The smells of shrimp and chlorine The sounds of The Grinch and heart monitors The sight of you lying there The smile never fades The smells of incese and roses The sounds of tears and eulogies The sights of coffins and tombstones The smile will never fade.

Heart Break
Heart break i fucking hate it. i wish i didnt have to deal with it. but no matter what we have to deal with it. one thing that is heart breaking is being away from the one i love to death for so long. Another thing that is really breaking my heart is the whole situation i am having with my brother. I want to be apart of my brother's life very much. i feel like i was forced into making a choice i didnt have to make. but whatever my brother doesnt got how hurt i am by it.

Avoirdupoi
avoirdupois \av-uhr-duh-POIZ; AV-uhr-duh-poiz\, noun:1. Avoirdupois weight, a system of weights based on a pound containing 16 ounces or 7,000 grains (453.59 grams).2. Weight; heaviness; as, a person of much avoirdupois.

The Puppet Master
I hate thinking about what we were and what we should have been I hate that you haunt me and hurt my soul from deep within Every time I start to move on you come back to break me You worm your self back in bringing only misery You hide behind your phone calls and your glowing computer screen Bringing hateful insults but never being seen You watch over my like a child over whom you've lost control And your attempts to bring me down are attempts to make yourselves whole Your happiness is a mask to fool the nonbelievers But crippled from the pain that your tainted lie delivers You've spun yourself into a web that you can never ever escape I'm done dealing with the effects from your one big mistake So I'm pathetic, I'm the psycho but you're the one concerned With my thoughts, my actions, my brutal tainted words I'm winning I'm ahead, you're just putty in my hands You're my puppet on strings and I'm the puppet

Which Cartoon Character I Am.
I'm Bart Simpson Eat My Shorts! You were the cheeky little neighbourhood kid that was always up to your ears in mischief. You are unafraid of the consequences of your thrillseeking actions and are always on the lookout for an easy mark to carry out your shenanigans and hi-jinx!

Surgery Part 2 And More Bad News
My botched surgery on April 3rd is rescheduled for tomorrow at 8 am. I am nervous as hell. Adding to that.... There was another victim of the horrific accident that took Chonni and her daughter, Hollie. Chonni was a little over 3 months pregnant with a son. She was going to announce her pregnancy on her birthday. Dale told me today and I completely broke down. They were going to name him Thomas for Chonni's father who passed away 2 years ago due to cancer. Maria, Chonni's mother, is not taking anything well. She is in a nursing home and it is looking very bad. Dale is absolutely distrought that he will have to bury his wife and his eldest daughter, and possibly his mother-in-law. Dale was the son Maria never had. When Chonni got pregnant with Hollie at the age of 18 [and still in high school], Dale manned up and got two jobs to support him, Chonni, and Hollie. They were so crazy in love even still. My heart breaks so much for him. Once again... prayers for Dale, Maria,

A Poem Dedicated To The Exes In My Life
A poem I dedicate to the assholes that I have dated. Here I stand alone thinking of you and all that we shared. Thinking of all the pain you caused me. All the tears that fell and all the screams in my head that wont stop screamin my name and callin me stupid for being with you. I cant get them to stop. How could i have been so nieve? Why did I fall for all your lies and your pretty face? You ripped my heart out at the seams and smashed it into a milliion peices. How am I to recover and move on? Whats a person to do when they thought they could trust just to have it thrust back into their face? The screams are getting louder now. They are screamin at me for not getting out when I have the chance. Why didnt I listen to them? Where was my time for that last dance? You wrecked my world and my life. How could I have been so stupid to have let you control me like a puppet on a string? How do I learn to trust again and to move on without you controling my every move? What am I supposed t

Shy Strangers
Shy Strangers(6/14/08) I sit here staring across a crouded room at a stranger. They stare back when I'm not lookin. Where is my courage to go talk to them? How do I find it? Where do I look? I catch Their eye once in a while but I'm the first to look away. I'm too shy to go and ask their name. They sit at the table close to mine. So shy I am. I can only make glances and hope they make the first move. The music make me want to dance their direction, but I'm too shy. So I dance where I'm at. Hoping that they will dance my direction. When will my chance to dance with them come?

Our Time Together
Our Time Together(7/15/08) I look in your eyes and I see a glimor of hope. A glimor of hope that things will be better for me. You want to be that rock in which I can lean on in times of need. A rock of strength that I know I will need in the future. A strength that will be there if and when the time calls, I know will be there uncondtionally. The future seems so hazey now, but I know that in time it will become clearer. Our time together is precious and each moment should not be taken for granted. We can never be sure of when our time together will end. I know our time will end, but as to how is not known. It could be the fact of finding someone else or the call of death that may end our time together. With that knowledge we should make every moment count and make them all memorable. Each moment that we can look back on and smile is the best moment we have.

Untitled
Untitled(7/16/08) I lay here watching you so deep in sleep. You look so peaceful and happy. With each breath you take I feel so lucky to lay beside you each and every night. With you next to me at the end of each day I feel safe and cared for. I can feel the strength of your arms holding me and I know that no harm will come. With your arms around me I feel protected. A feeling that has not been felt in many moons. I lay here next to you writing this and I feel that I'm falling for you more and more each day and night we are together. When I caress your face as you sleep I can feel each and every feature and I melt a little inside each time. You have given me a strength I didnt know I needed until you came into my life. I am so glad that I met you that warm sunny day. I wouldnt change it for all the world.

For Him Im Falling
for him im falling(5/7/09) for him im falling falling fast faster than im used to a short time known yet im fallin fast i know slow is how it should go but i have no control control i have lost for him im falling to him i want to turn for comfort i feel im falling faster and faster i know i should slow down before i get hurt but im falling for him and it feels like a great high for him im falling

The Worries Of A Parent..
Being a part sure is the toughest job on earth..My oldest son, Robert, who is 14 yrs old has been having alot of difficulties in school and at home..I don't mean he is violent or in trouble with the law, just very distant, doing poorly in school and talking back..I have tried everything to get through to him and nothing works ..until tonite...He broke down into tears tonite and told me that he hasn't been doing well because he is scared to trust anyone anymore since my boyfriend Ron (his stepfather) passed away in 2006...they were very close, almost like best friends...Ron was the first person, other than me, that my son opened up to...I wish his real father was someone he could look up to ..but let's face it..........he's a lost cause (long long story)...My new husband, Shawn, has opened his heart to my sons and especially Robert but it's not easy....now that Robert is a teen....He is scared that if he lets another man into his life as a father he will die...and quote "where will I

U Knew It Was Coming
SO WE HAVE 2 FULL DAYS OF SGB HAPPY HOURS, FOR THOSE THAT DON'T KNOW, THIS IS A VERY CONTROVERSIAL THING AS WELL AS IS SHE. LET ME TRY TO EXPLAIN..... AS A TOP 100 MEMBER YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED IN ANY WAY TO BE "FAKE" ie AS IN A FAKE DEFAULT PIC SUCH AS I USE AT TIMES. SHE CLEARLY PHOTOSHOPS HER FACE ON YOUNGER BODIES (AND DOES SO VERY BADLY) PLEASE!!!!! *ALWAYS* LOOK FOR LADIES SALUTES AND PICS OF THEMSELVES AND COMPARE! EVEN ASK AROUND BEFORE YOU SPEND MONEY ON THEM GUYS!!!!! I SEE SOOOOO MANY OF YOU GETTING SUCKERED DAILY IT IS SAD! YES, I HAVE SALUTES, CHERRY TAP AND FUBAR AND YES I HAVE PICS OF MYSELF MARKED IN SUCH A FOLDER, I ALSO PUT A NOTE ON MY DEFAULT ASKING YOU TO PLEASE RATE MY SALUTES SO THAT YOU WILL SEE THEM. AND I NEVER ASK FOR ANYTHING. OK, BACK TO SGB.... IF ANYONE CAN AFFORD THAT MANY HAPPY HOURS, GO FOR IT, IT'S NOT FOR ANYONE TO JUDGE. HOWEVER, I HAVE HEARD AT TIMES THAT SHE WAS RELATED TO A SPECIFIC PERSON OF ADMIN THAT I WONT MENTION

Echo Of Existence
when shadows fall i stand in the distance waiting to know the purpose of my existence. through the complexity of cahotic despair. facing the reality that no one really cares. some use the heart as a weapon. others refuse to let you in. so you walk your path lonly but inside. Face the shadows fall but one step at a time. © WJA

Heroes!
What makes us heroes and why do we do what we do! I don't know what drives people to put their lives on the line to save others from death and destruction even when they aren't even worth the effort! I'm going to get a lot of flack for the shit I'm about to say but there is some shit that is eating me up! Maybe it will make me a hero with these words! I blogged on this back on myspace and I'll do it again right now about Prop 8! We need to stop this bull shit and leave the damn gay people the frak alone! We got more problems with missiles and rockets pointing at our heads from other countries wanting us dead. We've got to many damn people dying to save other countries. We need to worry about that and Laura Ling and E. Lee to be returned home to us from North Korea. those are some of the issues that we need to fix instead and worrying about Gay people being married or not! The government of this country suck ass some times. I'm sick of tired of our own country keeping us in th

Virgin Mobile
Anyone have that, besides me? I'm wanting to get a phone that I can send/receive music with using bluetooth. The one I have now has bluetooth, but I can't send shit. I can only use it to talk on the phone. NOT what I wanted. Anyway, just looking for some ideas. Another thing, in the details of one of the phones it says "Stereo Bluetooth® Wireless Technology"...what the fuck does that mean?

New Music
Well it's been a while... but I think i finally got it all together. With a recent move to GA from NY and a new creative streak we (The Local) hit the studio tomorrow. At this point we'll simply be recording some acoustic tracks to fill up our webpage and to build a name in the area. Myself and my lead guitarist have been through a number of bands and we like to think we finally found our home and our chance to really hit our stride. As the songs come out i'll be posting them on my page and also on our myspace band page, if any of ya'll hear them and like them plese don't hesitate to let us know what you think! all feed back is most welcomed. Joshua

Taxes
The Tax Poem At first I thought this was funny...then I realized the awful truth of it. Tax his land, Tax his bed, Tax the table At which he's fed. Tax his tractor, Tax his mule, Teach him taxes Are the rule. Tax his work, Tax his pay, He works for peanutsAnyway! Tax his cow, Tax his goat, Tax his pants, Tax his coat. Tax his ties, Tax his shirt, Tax his work, Tax his dirt. Tax his tobacco, Tax his drink, Tax him if he Tries to think. Tax his cigars, Tax his beers, If he cries Tax his tears. Tax his car, Tax his gas, Find other ways To tax his ..... Tax all he has Then let him know That you won't be done Till he has no dough. When he screams and hollers; Then tax him some more, Tax him till He's good and sore. Then tax his coffin, Tax his grave, Tax the sod in Which he's laid. Put these words Upon his tomb, 'Taxes drove meto my doom....' When he's gone, Do not relax, Its time to apply The inheritance tax. Accounts

Work
Have you ever had to work with someone who you absolutely cannot stand? Someone who makes your life a living hell every single day? How about someone who lies to make you look bad and them look better? I woke up today to a phone call from my ex boyfriend who is also a manager where I work. He was FLIPPING out on me because I supposedly told a new manager that he was going to be transferred. This new manager from day one has picked fights with me because he knows that I'm better than him. He went WAY too far this time. I am about to lose my job because he is making things up. I have NO CLUE what he said to them because no one will talk to me about it. They just say, "Its done." They won't let me talk to anyone about it. Now Its all gone to shit because some wannabe HOTSHOT wants to go run his mouth to the big rigs bc he feels inferior to me. I am about to just say fuck it and completely quit my job so they don't fire me and because I cannot work with ppl who think I'm a liar

Whateveritis
She got eyes that cut you like a knife and lips that taste like sweet red wine And pretty legs go to heaven every time She got a gentle way that puts me at ease When she walks in the room I can hardly breathe Got a devastating smile knock a grown man to his knees She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everything I wanted to say to a woman but couldn't find the words to say She got whatever it is I don't know what to do Cause every time I try and tell her how I feel it comes out "I love you" You got whatever it is You know I've never been the type that would ever want to stay Bring 'em home at night and they're gone the next day But that all changed when she walked into my life And people askin why it is I tell them I don't know Just something about the woman makes my heart go haywire And she's gonna be my wife She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everything I wanted to say to a woman but couldn't find the words to say She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everyt

Here I Am Again
here i am again nothing to have to think about school over finish done for this year nothing to think about but my own just my own troubles i have now others problems seems tiny as to compare to mine own my bff is getting better she has no more problems to be concerned about soon she be running off finding a place to be dancing my problems become top thing its just too much for me to think i want things the way it was i want my nanay she was my only friend only one to accept me the way i am i miss that from her

The Palette
The Palette The candles flicker as her figure casts a shadow I take my palette and brush I feel my lust grow My eyes become lost in her sweet scented wares She is my canvas now for the fantasies we share With each brush stroke we delve deeper in desire Sweat glistens in the candle light her lips inspire We kiss softly as our tongues now dance in time Our hands trace each other’s bodies feeling shivers in our spines She beckons me inside of her sugars walls Her luscious legs wrap around my hips as I heed the call

One
One of these days I will no longer care, nor will I worry, or be afraid One of these days I will share my life, share my heart, and my soul One of these days I will speak say the words I hold inside But it is not time for me to say these things I am not ready, unsure of how you feel scared to tell you, afraid to reveal The truth in my heart, I feel each day pulling me to you, yet pushing me away

Are You Thin Skinned Or Thick Skinned?
You Are Thick-Skinned People may not always love you, but that's totally fine. You're happy with who you are, and you don't really crave outside approval. You love yourself, and that's the most important thing. You have high self esteem. And because you don't care what other people think, they tend to like you a lot! Are You Thin Skinned or Thick Skinned?

The Watercolor Test
You Are Highly Inspiring You believe that your life has a higher purpose, and you do all you can to achieve it. You are wise, and a lot of your wisdom comes from self discipline. You try to live as moderately and modestly as possible. You make room for rational, small indulgences... while living as ethically as you can. The Watercolor Test

Part Three~
She could remember when she longed for the gag to be removed, the thrill she had felt when the kitten worked at the strings and she thought she might be rid of it. Now that it was gone, Elyndria was more frightened that she would unconsciously make a sound or moan and be punished for it. Her captor had left no doubt in her mind that he would not stand for disobedience and restrained as she was, she had little choice but to submit to his demands. Still, she often found herself now licking her lips, or running her tongue across her teeth, savoring the sensations she had been denied before. There fact the gag had been removed gave her hope that other of her restraints would be removed, and then her chance would come to escape.She thought she heard movement off to her left and strained to listen for any sign of someone there. She started to call out a hello, but caught herself just as her lips formed the word, remembering her command to remain silent unless spoken too. The silence surround

Part Two~
Elyndria awoke to the sound of a soft giggle, and the twitching of her left foot. There was the hint of a light touch, almost imagined along the sole of foot, then teasingly brushing across each of her toes in turn. She tried to jerk her toes away from the touch, but the caresses continued no what way she moved or twisted her foot. Then the touches began to move... lightly up her foot and then slowly and tantalizingly up along her left leg. There was another restrained giggle as a second series of touches moved up along her right leg. Sometimes in concert, sometimes in discord with the first, the continued their slow advance up along her skin.Her mind worked feverishly to try and figure out what was happening to her. A cold pit formed in the hollow of her stomach as she realized it was feathers that were caressing her skin. Somehow whoever had captured her had found out her fear and dread of being tickled, something her brothers had done to her without remorse whenever they wanted to t

Part One~
The touch of something soft and light brushing across her stomach and ribs brought her out of sleep slowly, then suddenly brought her jarringly awake as Elyndria realized she could not move her hands to brush away the itch. Her eyes flew open to blackness and as she started to scream, she realized her eyes and mouth were covered as well. She was bound spread eagled on a fur or blanket of some kind, and the air was warm around her as she lay there in naked splendor. How? What? Who? Were just some of the questions that ran through her mind as she fought to drive off panic. Shaking her head rapidly back and forth, she sought to dislodge the bindings, but her efforts were to no avail.Suddenly, there was a soft whisper by her left ear. "There's no use struggling, my pretty bird, you are well and truly caught. I've been admiring you from afar while you were so haughty and cold, disdaining those around you as if they weren't worthy of your notice. A few gold in the right hands, and now you ar

Observer
I sat in the chair with my palms pressed against the top of my thighs. I was wearing a skirt that hugged my full ass. If I were standing up the skirt would have come to my mid thigh. A black stretchy tank top covered my lace demi bra. I was not skinny girl; I came with curves, Full double D breasts and a round ass. He was a mystery."You may move your hands now, but only touch your thighs." I slowly began to rub my thighs. Soft caresses and then with more pressure to indicated my desire for more."Move your hand up, and rub your belly."Slowly my hand traveled up my hipbone to my belly, above my pussy and below my breasts."Use both hands."My hands pulled away from the center to my sides then back again, each time increasing my arousal. I could feel my clit swell and my panties become moist, and even though I couldn't touch my nipples, I knew they were hard."Such beautiful breasts. Touch them, but do not touch the nipples."My finger tips traced the sides and up around the swell of my breas

Nice Experience
A few months back I had a bad experience with a regular customer of mine. He had come into the store with his partner and asked me something, I had looked up from some paperwork I was doing greeted them and answered, then glanced back down to mark my spot. He blew up immediatley called me a stuck up cunt and raged out of the door cursing up a storm as his partner looked at me all embarrassed and mouthed the words sorry before he followed him out. I had forgotten about it until just now. I was standing outside when he approached me and apologized saying I have no excuse and you did nothing to deserve that. He also promised now that he felt he had mended a bridge that they would shop in my store again. Not very often you see someone step up to the plate when they are an ass and take ownership of it. just wanted to share my smile of the day

Sleep Death
If world travel opens the soul then jet lag is a punch in the vagina (repeatedly). My brain will not get itself into gear. The flight from Auckland to Hong Kong wasn’t too bad, I had a front seat with leg room and I did sleep a bit. The flight from Hong Kong to London was cool as I got upgraded to business class; though the seat wasn’t that great the food was good. I would have sold my soul to stretch out and lie down, I started getting grumpy. I occasionally get so grumpy I need to sleep properly and I get mental, husband and Ashley and maybe best mate Monica have seen me in full swing ‘GRUMPY and MENTAL’. I go very quiet and become secretly determined to annihilate everyone in a five feet radius. I usually start on the small people and work my way up. Luckily just as I was plotting everyone’s murder, I fell asleep! I finally arrived in London, got off the plane and immediately lay on a flat floor to stretch out my back, people stared at me but I didn

Woman Of The World
Woman of the world did stand on the hearth; looking out she watched the mob tear her fair hair. "Why do you do this my people of Antioch? What have I done to deserve this? What have I done that you shout for my death. Did I kill a beggar in the street? Did I take the cloths from a freezing child? Do not take my life without purpose for I am mother, daughter, child, and lover." One looked back with eyes of rage and death; "You loves another" he said shaking his hand in the air. "I love the fair Tiana, she brings me joy and comfort from the cold of night. She holds me when I am tired and sick. She takes me to different worlds of Plato and Aristotle. And yet that is why you kill me? For loving of a Woman of the World?" Another of darker rage and retribution with lust in his eyes; "You disgust us with your foul tongue," as he planted a blow. "Goddess, God and Creator all do give me peace," she cried; "...forgive these fools who know love not," as her soul flowed.

Anal Sex #2 (the Drink)
I had no clue that there was a drink with this name. I figured I would share the recipe. Not sure that it even sounds good. The YooHoo kinda killed it for me. Since this is listed as Anal Sex #2 I am wondering what #1 is. Anal Sex #2 (Cocktail)Everclear, Lemonade, Orange Juice, Vodka, YooHoo Ingredients 2 oz. Lemonade 1/2 oz. Everclear 1/2 oz. Vodka 1/2 oz. YooHoo Orange Juice

Farm Porn
Because not all farmers are early to rise, I was still in bed when the mailman slowed to a crunchy stop on the gravel. I heard the electronic whir of his car window, listened as the box opened, scraped shut. And Jeff drove off. “I’ve got mail!” Clad in flip-flops and pajamas, I wandered out to the mailbox and rifled through the pile of mail. Jeff had delivered Ag Pride (“Nebraska Cowboy finds niche as custom hat maker”), the Menards flyer, and The Farmer & Rancher Exchange. The Exchange sounded promising. Does it cater to people wishing to purchase or exchange farmers and ranchers? Sadly, it does not; the publication is geared toward livestock auctions and sales of trucks and farm equipment. And semen. $18-25, depending on volume. The fine print below the bull’s sagging testicles reads, “See the video on our website.” Ok, so maybe it was a good mail day after all.

Y'all Are Funny....
You know what I've come to realize??? Some of y'all are funny as hell!!! Not funny in a lol way, but funny in a, you can't be serious way!!! Some of the people we come in contact with, hell most of the people, we come in contact with on this site we will never meet in person. We are seperated by hundreds or thousands of miles, and many geographical boundaries. Instead of using this site as a tool to get to interact with people we might not normally get a chance to in real life, instead of using it to step out of your box, or comfort zone, some of you use it to become bigger assholes than you are in real life!!! Y'all know who you are, and you know what, maybe you are laugh out loud funny, 'cause I'm laughing my ass off at y'all pathetic bastards... Peace!!!

When I Open My Hand
When I Open My Hand I watched the last tear hit the floor I saw what was my life in that pool I turned my face towards the heavens The sun breaking in on this fool As my eyes slowly came to focus I could see a shadow of beauty A figure in the mist becoming clear As her eyes pierced right through me I could see her wings start to spread I could feel my heat begin to beat The ice cold blood melting in my veins

Limo In Vegas
I work as a limo driver here in Las Vegas, if your making plans to come to Vegas...... remember to give me a call. I can take care of Night Clubs, Strip Clubs, or anything you will need on your trip... I can cut you a deal if you mention your on FUBAR.... Jerimiah 702 834 1250

Is He A Dumbass Or An Asshole?
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Ride This
NOT EVERYONE WILL ENJOY THIS RIDE. OF COURSE YOU MUST BE FEMALE BUT I WILL DETERMINE IF YOU GET TO RIDE OR NOT. THERE WILL BE MANY MORE NOTS THAN THERE WILL BE FREE RIDES BECAUSE THE QUALIFICATIONS ARE EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO MEET. YOU ARE WELCOME TO SUBMIT YOUR PREPOSAL BUT DO NOT GET YOUR EXPECTATIONS TOO HIGH. GOOD LUCK CE

Lo9ng Silence
Sorry for this long silence, I got ill and was in the hospital for the last month. I am OK now, it was an infection requiring IV antibiotics, and I opted to hyave as much done in a specialty care unit rather then go home with it and try to deal with the antibiotic bags, flushes and all.

Jail Bait .... Part 2
Driving to undetermined location.... when i get a call Jeff: Hi sorry this is the address you have to go to to pay the bail.....601 5th st. Me; You so owe me Jeff: I know.. I have to go... Me:Ill be there in 20 minutes see you soon... Needless to say I have no idea what it takes to Bail someone out.. I have the beautiful Nakita because she puts me in a good mood, despite the circumstances.... Driving around downtown Calgary... what the hell the address is a large hole that they are currently removing what looks like to be the shell of a building.... Great.... texting Witty, texting Seamus.... asking my good bug Hugh (who i secretly want to fu marry) should i really bail him out.....? Fuck of course ill bail him out but his ass better be sore.... Finally after circling a few block radius i realize my boyfriend is a dolt.... There's the courthouse.... its where I'm suppose to go.... Find a parking spot go to the parking pay station.... fuck its broken ....Ill only be a few minu

Bryan Herrick My Adopted Son Need Ur Prayers To Be Heard Loud
MY SON WAS HIT SATURDAY NITE WHEN HE WAS CROSSING THE STREET TO MEET UP WITH A FRIEND SO THEY COULD TALK BOUT THE BIBLE N HOW IT HAS HELPED BRYAN TO OVER CUM HIS DRUG N ALCOHOL PROBS N IS NOW WALKIN IN THE PATH OF THE LORD... A CAR HIT HIM STOPPED N CALLED 911 AS HE WAS CALLIN 911 THE MINI VAN BEHIND THE CAR RAN BRYAN OVER.. VAN LEFT THE SCENE... THE THIRD CAR BEHIND THE VAN ALMOST HIT BRYAN TOO AND THAT PERSON WAS THE FRIEND HE WAS MEETING... BRYAN IS FIGHTING FOR HIS LIFE RIGHT NOW... LAST WE HEARD FROM THE DR IS HE IS NOT GONNA MAKE IT THRU THE NITE... BUT WE DONT BELIEVE IN THE DOC WE BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF PRAYER N IF WE ALL PRAY N PRAY LOUD GOD WILL ALL HEAR US FROM AFAR N NEAR.. AND WILL GIVE BRYAN THE MIRACLE HE NEEDS RIGHT NOW SO HE CAN KEEP ON PREACHIN TO KIDS, ADULTS, ETC... BRYAN HAS MAJOR BRAIN DAMAGE ITS NOT GIVIN NO SIGNALS WAS TOLD HE IS BRAIN DEAD N REST IS NOW TO FOLLOW HE EVEN HAS TIRE TRACKS GOIN OVER HIS BELLY WHERE THE VAN RAN HIM OVER... AND GET THIS

It Is Time To End It
It is Time To End It Do you remember the spaces you filled? Do you remember the smile you caused? Do you remember the fire in my eyes? Do you remember the life now paused? I see your face everywhere I look You are my total eclipse of the sun I stand in the darkness of you leaving I have no strength to run Why has my life shattered? How did I let myself become this low? I curl up inside my corner alone

Bomb List
Dani http://fubar.com/images.php?u=701816&albumid=1231415 Arelik http://fubar.com/images.php?u=3120730&albumid=1693065 Gracie http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2168668&albumid=1475781 BAY http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2409682 Jeep http://fubar.com/images.php?u=1750772&albumid=1535572 Snowman http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2151927&albumid=1390442 Harley http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2257687&albumid=1677076 PITBULL http://fubar.com/images.php?u=829883&albumid=723511 RAZORBACK http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2716866&albumid=1598761&idx=0 68 IOU http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2177018&albumid=1351276 ORUKIDDINME http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2673333&albumid=1643886 HALOZ http://fubar.com/images.php?u=1698399&albumid=1035862 NEM http://fubar.com/images.php?u=428343&albumid=1317852 CHAOTIC http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2322927&albumid=1438103 WAFFLE hehe X) http://fubar.com/images.php?u=2348997&albumid=1540241 CRUEL INTENTIONS http://fubar.com/images.php?u=1702942&album

Can't Have It All, So Will Take What I Can Get
My life virtually sucks... Can't get my way to save my life... So why don't you all donate to me for spotlight and make me smile, pwease??? I accept every kind of help I can get, as long as it gives me the fubucks!

Poee
POEE POEE (pronounced "POEE") is an acronym for The PARATHEO-ANAMETAMYSTIKHOOD OF ERIS ESOTERIC. The first part can be taken to mean "equivalent deity, reversity beyond-mystique." We are not really esoteric, it's just that nobody pays much attention to us. MY HIGH REVERENCE MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER, AB, DD, KSC, is the High Priest of POEE, and POEE is grounded in his episkopotic revelations of The Goddess. He is called The Omnibenevolent Polyfather of Virginity in Gold. The POEE HEAD TEMPLE is the Joshua Norton Cabal of The Discordian Society, which is located in Mal-2's pineal gland and can be found by temporally and spacially locating the rest of Mal-2. POEE has no treasury, no by-laws, no articles, no guides save Mal-2's pineal gland, and has only one scruple--which Mal-2 keeps on his key chain. POEE has not registered, incorporated, or otherwise chartered with the State, and so the State does not recognize POEE or POEE Ordinations, which is only fair, because POEE does not rec

Let's Go Out And Have Some Fun
Let's go out and have some fun.It doesn't matter where or when,Or what we say or what we do,As long as it's just me and you. Let's be together for a whileAnd get to know each other well,Exchanging jokes and tales and chatterBefore we get to things that matter. Let's see what happens when we danceAcross an evening sky, and glimpseBelow the stirrings of a seaThat might--or not--wind-haunted be.

Some People Just Should Not Drink.
Have you ever met that person that just don't know their limit? The one that does the dumbest things when they are drunk? They drunk dial, or drunk text. They usually never get sick, they just pass out and drool. The next day these people have a complete different memory of how things went. To them they were just having fun. Everyone was laughing with them. If you're one of these people, please. Don't drink!....or at least learn your limit. It wasn't fun, everyone had to watch out for you. They didn't know exactly where or when you would fall. You probably made a lot of people mad. They definatly were not laughing with you.......maybe at you.

My Lists
who i add to my family list?? i only add those friends who they truly like to chat to me and be my friends in realnot just a name on my list or their lists.who i add as my top frinds??those who are truly honest with them selves before being honest to me.who i fan??my family members and those who have unforgetable 38d+lolso to get on my friends list is easy be ur self and make sure u have the 38d+ to level up .lol thx for reading it anyway.

Im New And Was Just Curious
hi all my names ryan , was just curious if there are any kool down to earth ladys out there . im also lookin for friends , you can never have too many of those :P well hmm i guess thats it for now :) hope to hear from sum 1 sumtimre

The Damn Rules Are Back,lol
hello everyonei am back.for those who never heard it,i am the one who came up with the 3 questions gamei made the rulesand i say who and when to break it ,lolif we ever played itthen i hope u had fun with itcuz after all ,its all about geting to know each othersand have funthx anyway--------------------3 questions game rules:1: u cant ask the same i ask on the same round2: gotta be honest,cuz honesty is all u get3:u cant ask 4th one unless u were level 31 or more[lol]4:u only have one pass so be careful when u use it and how to use it5:u cant get a 3ed player into this game6:dont ask some question u wouldnt like to answer it7:u dont have or need to answer ur own questions8: if u dont want to answer any question then dont expect to get answers for all of ur questions9:dont be shy cuz i am not and wont be10: enjoy it as much as u can or it will be ur loss .lol ------------------------------------------------------------------ P.S : last time i played this game, i lost,and ended up marr

Recession Hurts Worlds Oldest Profession
In Patpong, one of Bangkok's most notorious red-light districts, go-go girls count their livelihood by the number of sex tourists they entertain. "Three inches, three minutes, 3,000 baht ($87)," laughs Goy, a 25-year-old bargirl. Last summer, she and her fellow pole dancers at the Camelot Castle entertained scores of men every night - first in the bar, where they earn a monthly salary, then at the customer's hotel, where they negotiate their own rates. But as cash-strapped tourists have turned their backs on Thailand - tourism officials say revenues will plunge 35% this year - the ranks of men cruising Patpong have thinned dramatically. On a recent Wednesday evening, just three tourists watched a visibly disgruntled Goy wiggle around her pole. "My base salary was 8,000 baht ($232) a month, but now they are giving me 6,000 baht ($174)," she says. "I haven't had a customer in five nights, and I'm lucky if someone buys me a drink." As the recession continues to bite, sex workers from Ban

Biggest Turn Offs
Girls do all kinds of things that piss guys off. Usually they don't realize what they're doing. Then we never call them again and they think we're assholes and then we get their mother pregnant. But it was their fault all along. Here are the biggest worst turn offs available that I can think of. 1. Driving safely You can always tell how boring a girl is by how safely she drives. 2. Flushing the toilet If she wastes water, I wonder what else she wastes? Most likely her life and existence. 3. Wearing a baseball hat Sex and baseball are not heterosexually corrolated. Nobody gets aroused by mental imagery of girls playout center field. Girls playing sports is not hot, especially baseball. The only time girls should be permitted to wear mits is when they're taking food out of the oven. 5. Baby talk Not cute. And even if it were cute, cuteness sucks. Cuteness is for teddy bears. Unless you're looking for the type of guy who fucks teddy bears, stay clear of anything cute.

Just A Biker
JUST A BIKERI saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant when you saw my bike parked out front. But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But you didn't see me riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you roll your eyes at our leather jackets and gloves. But you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old ones to

Why The Scapegoat?
Ok so i'm watching the news and this story comes across the screen. "Woman kidnapped and stuffed into a truck."...who was she kidnapped by?? Black men. The problem is, this story was a hoax. This woman was in Florida living it up at Disney with her daughter and apparently didn't tell anyone including her husband. So instead of telling the truth, this heffa made up a lie. Those evil minorities kidnapped me. Some years back, another woman killed her children and claimed she was carjacked by a black man. These stories continue. If there is a problem then scapegoat a minority and cover up the truth. The same can be seen in the illegal immigrant debate. Let me put this out there. I'm only a fan of legal immigration. I believe a soverign nation should control its borders and have the right to determine who's allowed in. However, I can understand people's desire to come here and make a life for themselves and their families. When you look at the situation if employers did not c

Bad Business
So, after approving my new salute, fubar decided to revoke it, & when I complained about this, well, I'll let the screenshot speak for itself. Chances are they'll delete this blog entry too, but I hope to at least get the word out here. This site has horrible customer service. If people start doing something about, they will be forced to fix it, or go out of business.

What Do I Do?
Ok, I am in a situation and don't know what to do about it. I am with this guy and have been with him for 7 months now. I am the type of person that needs love and affection. I need to be told that the person I am with loves me, I need hugs and kisses all the time, I need to be cuddled at night. With this guy, at first he would tell me that he loved me all the time. He'd always come up to me and give me hugs and kisses. And we'd fall asleep in each others arms, and wake up the same way. Now, he doesn't tell me he loves me, we don't hug or kiss at all, and we sleep on opposite ends of the bed...him all the way on his side and me all the way on mine. I don't know what to do. I told him that I feel this relationship is falling apart and that I was going to leave. He started crying and told me that he "needed" me. If he needed me so badly, wouldn't he at least show me some love and affection? The second part of my dillemma is that I met the sweetest guy ever on www.fubar.com.

10 Cancer-causers To Remove From Your Home
Given poor government regulation, many of the cleaning products available on the market contain “everyday” carcinogens such as formaldehyde, nitrobenzene, methylene chloride, and napthelene, as well as reproductive toxins and hormone disruptors. Not to mention other ingredients that cause liver, kidney and brain damage, allergies and asthma. I really am a happy person–not your basic Eeyore type, but toxic cleaning products seriously get my goat. One of the best things you can do to detox your home is to create one of Annie’s simple non-toxic cleaning kits to use–most of the ingredients you probably already have on hand. But there are a host of products, other than those used for basic cleaning, that often contain carcinogenics. This list, from Cancer: 101 Solutions to a Preventable Epidemic (New Society Publishers, 2007) by Liz Armstrong et al, cautions against 10 household products, in addition to cleaners, that you should avoid having in you

Wickedus Insanious Poeticus Flow
No intake who give's dayum bout what i make or say. I don't play don't make it a mistake. What am i'ma do tell ya what ima do break throught to you n say the crazious shit. Ya that's what i'ma do say the meanest angriest thing n be insane cuz shit ain't plain life is a game nothin to loose nothin to gain btw who is lil wayne jonas brothers na they called the jonas smothers why you think their called brothers cuz they have no other n they incest n was caught in the back of their tour bus kissin eachothers. They say i'm on some shit ya I must be if i'm that crazy nothin as can be I don't really see i'm just a un normal human being what gives you a reason to get on me. Fhuck a racist beat him/her/them down chop their head off feed it to the pigs. Get their wigsplitz nothin's hotter then this like a poem i just recited from in one of my blogs don't fhuck around. Get hit with a cabin's lincoln logs crashin cars in the fog lung smoke caught in the smog. Hittin bats reanactin talk disamateur

Fake People And Drama !!!
I don't knowwhy people are soo immature on this site ..Why they like to start drama and act like there are in H.S. People get over yourselfs and get a life. Mind your own business and worry about your family life , relationships and leave others alone.For Highmaintence*****69 this woman is a fake ass person who's only picture she has up is of someone else. She is a fat ugly ass who is married and has 6 kids with one on the way. The self rightous freak has no room to creditize anyone. So for anyone else who wants to be fake and call people names and cause problems on here need a life of there own... Too many fakes and kids on here ...

Kids And The Kobayashi Maru
Our family made Tuesday’s newspaper! Monday to a light rain my daughter Sarah, my son Jeffrey, their aunt Mary (who’s only referred to as “their aunt” in the newspaper article), and I went out from our house at eight in the morning to Veterans Memorial Walkway, a former bridge across the street from us where a few dozen people had assembled for the display of the color guard and the strewing of the flowers. Sarah’s grandmother, my mother-in-law Sharon, is the Disabled American Veterans Auxiliary commander this year and she strew the rose petals in the river and later laid the wreath at Rosehill Cemetery. That’s when the photographer snapped the photo of Sarah accompanying this entry. The caption: “Sarah [her last name] twirls her umbrella.” Mary’s in the jeans and jacket to her left and that’s me in the slacks behind her. Martha had to work at WalMart Monday morning, so she didn’t get home to see us until the after

Bowl Of Rice
I was no more than 8 then. life was relatively easy, did some homework, dodged most and spent the time left in aimlessly walking around with friends and cousins or play. meal times, frequent meal times were the times we sat down. on one such summer afternoon my cousin and me, found a man no more than a skeleton covered in skin on the ground by the street, his head was held up by a lady in a white dress with blue border. another lady, similarly attired, was trying to feed this man some steamed rice. they were missionaries of charity, a Mother Teresa run organisation. my cousin, scared by the visual it was, ran away. the man was making no effort of his own. he had been hungry for so long that he did not have the strenght to eat. his eyes, half closed looked vacantly at the bowl of rice, within his reach and yet.... the lady holding the man's head started to cry. her tears, almost equally swiftly rolled down her face and closed in on her chin. the other lady kept asking the man to try a

Mindfucked
YOUR mind is understimulated The soul is worebruised and battered through THIS war.Tranquill times they seem so far away.OUR heart struggles to get through each passing day.the world is VANITY LUST at its finest.is this BULLSHIT the only thing to define us.in a WORLD overuled by money and GREED.SATANS work INFECTS us politics the SERPANTS KEY.Lock in CURRENCY the cosmos KING your EXISTANCE no matter above anothers BLING. so FUCK what you have and PRESERVE who you are. for you never know what truly Mattered At all.

Mzliz Birthday Train
~*Mz Liz‘s Birthday Train*~ It‘s birthday celebration time! Lets all give “MzLiz” a warm birthday greeting and help her celebrate! Her special day is June 6th. Hats off to you chicky and hope your day is the best! ~Rules~ R/F/A everyone on the list starting with the birthday girl or comment if already added. Rate the pics (links below) in the MzLiz’s birthday and LadyStClair’s birthday album. Please leave a comment at end of LadyStClairs folder to let us know when u have finished. Will add you to the train then. MzLiz will be making the tags. Also would like to wish our pal “Inkspot69” a very happy birthday as well! ~The Birthday Girl~ ♥ MZ.LIZ ♥ ®® Head Recruiter,Llama leveler, Affinity Train Maker and Rider ◊ LadyStClair ◊ *☈☈Recruiter* *Owned by Inkspot69* Train Riders ~Inksp0t69~DDR ENFORCER~ RATING REVOLUTION HEAD CREW LEADER~ Fu Owned By~COCA-COLA-GIRL~

Erotic Thoughts
i love you more than me you pour out your emotions in a long felt verse my love is met by liars only to be dashed by the heartless all is lost on the loveless i am in love with you baby i just want you to know if i had you here to myself i know i get it like i want it cameras flashing showing my wonder showing everything everyone looking nobody want to see me just what that make them stand i never kiss n' tell i kiss more than one lips my face gets wet n' i dont even mind sweet juices did roll down my face

Pet Store Monkey...
A man walked into a pet store and was looking at the animals on display.Whilehe was there, a First Class Petty Officer from the local Navy basewalked in and said to the shopkeeper, "I'll take a maintenance monkey,please."The man nodded, went to a cage at the side of the storeand took out a monkey. He put a collar and leash on the animal andhanded it the PO1, saying, "That'll be $5,000." The PO1 paid and leftwith the monkey.Surprised, the man went to the shopkeeper andsaid, "That was a very expensive monkey. Most of them are only a fewhundred dollars. Why did that one cost so much?"The shopkeeperanswered, "Ah, that's a maintenance monkey. He can run diagnostics onall radars/weapons systems, score 95 on the ASVAB test, operate allforms of test equipment, perform the duties of any Maintenance Man qualified person with no back talk or complaints. It's well worth the money.The man spotted a monkey in another cage. "That one's even more expensive, $10,000! What does it do?""Oh, that one is

Thanks To Everyone!!!
Just wanted to say THANKS to everyone that helped me get to Godmother!! Im not going to name names as Im sure this old brain would miss someone and I dont want to do that! I have the BEST FRIENDS on the Fu!! Stop by anytime and I will return the love! Thanks again, you guys made my day sooooooo much brighter!! xoxoxo Sunny

Fifth
It was nearly nightfall of the next day when Alais returned to Zasch, blinking suddenly into existance outside of the cave. She raced into the cave, to find Zasch quietly conversting with the werewolf woman still. The woman was still wrapped in Zasch's cloak, but she looked as if she were uncomfortable to be out of her hybrid wolf form. Alais allowed a moment to survey the strange woman. She was dirty, but her skin was fair, with fiery red hair. She had one green eye, and one blue. She was lovely by any human's standards, dirt and grime aside. Alais blinked over, shouting telepathically into Zasch's mind, "It's a Goristo." The mention of the demonic name drew Zasch's attention, and she could sense is sudden unease. A Goristo was far from a simple demon. They were often the favored creatures of many of the greatest named demons. And with terrifying reason. "You are certain?" Zasch asked in aloud, making it clear to Lupa that he was speaking to the Wisp. With her certain response, Za

Wow Just Wow
I WANT TO TAKE THIS TIME TO THANK YOU ALL FOR HELPING ME GET SO CLOSE TO ORACLE...I'VE GOT THE BEST FRIENDS ON FU, I HAD FRIEND BLING ME, PIMP ME OUT, RATE ME, BOMB ME, PIMP ME OUT IN THEIR STATUS' SEND THEIR FRIENDS TO HELP ME, ALL THE BOMBERS...I CAN'T PUT INTO WORDS THE GRATITUDE I HAVE FOR ALL THE LOVE SHOWN TO ME YESTERDAY...I HAVE 3.5 MILLION TO GO TO ORACLE, NOW IT DOESN'T SEEM SO FAR OUT OF REACH THANKS TO YOU ALL...

No Subject Really....
You will miss me when Im gone One day you will see I wasnt as bad as you thought, just a lonely soul You couldve wiped the tears I cried After all they were yours I never had the loving arms around me when I hurt I wiped my tears alone I wasnt the cold hearted btch you thought after all I have feelings Noone bothered to check them

Un-fair
Left with nothin but pain inside left with nothin but pain in my life. Left with nothin but my pride. Left with nothin but your distained. Left with nothin but your shame. Left with all bein insane nothin's ever plain. It's all the same nothin all changed in the game. Fuck your lie it's all the same.My life never meant anything. Your cause of a god flaud. I am anything but this. You take from me just let me be. You fool you don't see just let me be.Lifewaste shit takes you make you fake death wake this ain't a dream. So don't make it worth what it seems find something at means. All through life shit is what i had to take. Now it's your turn to break & take what's at stake await your death. Leave you dead in the ground with no breathe.Pry with what you try when all is a lie. You die why do you justify make all seem to real. Fheel what you can't fheel. I am gonna kill make you fheel my pain. Rain down insane pain rain down insane pain. Break what you thought you could take. Less not live

Disasociate/make Urself
Living down on what you found try to take my crown. What you not know how am i suppose to show. Where am I suppose to go. No one ever seem to care. No one ever seem's to be there. All left with no air. I'm down by with what you say. Come out come around if you think you can play. Your life ain't all what you call you fall. Make you seem less live to believe one's life is not a lesson well taught make your self caught. You bring me down why you make me fheel less down on myself you take away stay away you can't keep your self from me.Pain yourself away from me. Who gives a fuck bout what you think. Your not all but used & left on up.Why are you one to jhock get your self off my cock. Why are you one to ever put your self up to what you thought. You could never knew. How could i ever know what never ever seems to flow. How am i suppose to know weight dead brain insane. My life full plauged of all what life is made never found what is not fheelin better. I am a reason of a cause you fucke

Growl
Findin my inner self gotta let loose go with the goal. Can't let myself get out of hand. Know when it's time to take a stand in bein a man. Low-Not found but downed bound deep in a situation at loss. Don't pay the price. If you don't know the cost. High-Can't seem to get by. When all is asked why shit found in a lie. All you wanna do is cry. When people don't wanna see you do good. All they want is pain/lost inside-self-insane. Burnin bridges down kid ya self around ask who is the clown. I'm not one to kill the cat. If ya fuck with me better hope I don't have a bat. Cuz I'm not the one to take or put up with anyone's shit. Quit with all your fit & stop with your stupid bullshit. I ain't the one to play. Watch with what you say. Don't make shit seem mininless stress. Endless never talk shit less you know what the hell your sayin. You were the one to say your shit. Callin me some stupid useless bitch. Like you some wannabe ugly angry mean glasses face punk. Fuck around get ya self ran ov

Juggalo's Song
This goes out to those juggalo's, lette's, ninja's, jette's, whomeverYo this a song for the juggalo's a song for the juggalo's song for the juggalo'shere it go my name is kris n i got flow but this song here be for the juggalo's n the lettes & all that. Cuz i'm down with the hatchet n it's like that i kno family got my back. I'm real proud to be down & be a juggalo way since i listen to hell's pit & carnival of carnage. You wanna kno what it be a bout it's the gathering where all the juggalo's, lettes & all psychpathic family be. It's a real dayum shame cuz i'm not gonna be there. You ask why cuz it's far & cuz it's lot of money. Hey but there is somethin least i can make it to n that's seein twiztid & n.y.c on the 27th at b.b. king's club for my 1st time. That's fhresh what i kno is even gonna be fhresher is the gathering of the juggalos. See the gathering is a big event where all artist's gonna be performing like i.c.p twiztid, blaze ya dead homie n a whole bunch of other acts anothe

No Style
I ain't skitso not frantic or in a panic you sink like the titanic don't understand it smashin through oceans like the atlantic. Tick tock just don't know my flow so ya know how it goes. I'm rainin down insane pain drain acid can't passed it. I wreck a rock a rhyme spittin with what you not gettin I'm as real as ill hard like steel kickin with ish you can't fheel. Rhyme wreck a kris it's get's no harder then this have yo mouth full of piss. Can't no one fhuck with this get's no better kickin the latter shit clatter's break's glass have yo ass dead buried beneath the grass way deep down underground. I ain't the one to be fucked around boom comin/kickin with the sound puttin 5-4 hollow tips as you trip get a kick shit I spit is so sick like my mind fuck what you think you make me tick. I'm sick of bein be dizpleazin. Wordz of an extract of a calibur don't let me have to be the to bury ya i'm iller fhresh. Not like the rest on his way to be the best.You just like less what I kick is so f

Ill Lyrical Damagin
I'm wicked with rhymes I spit you know i'm just the shit kick with lyrics that shouldn't be hard for you to get. Absolute to fabolus takin names dismantlin ya whole fhrames horrorcorish malnourish shit flourish. My style ain't nothin for you to fuck with get with what i am I don't give a damn no. I'm not signed ya couldn't get in even if you tried to fuck with mine like ya couldn't fhuck with one line. Gimme mine this is fine let shit untwine. Have you warped into the next zone you couldn't get on disown like if you was on the twilight zone. Kickin heiroglyphico i'm meterphoric shit kickin mind's tickin up for the pussy lickin. Quit to pull a trigga on a nigga that talk's shit you ain't it. What the fhuck is you thinkin eye's blinkin teeth clenchin rhyme linking. Admit it ain't no one comin fhresh as this ain't no one hittin then kris rhyme wreck intellect shit is real you couln't fheel slippin & fallin on a banana peel I'm as ill. Kick hype shit dispite don't even worry bout what i wr

Horror In 360
Disinfect bound to wreck rhymes I elect dialect poisonus deadly sliced tounges leave ya hung off ya back with blood drippin. Acid reflux trippin I'm in inning like seein I'm as of this hazardous. This ain't me nor actual being just bein rippin skulls breakin backs on thumb tacks. It's facts not to react who it is it's jhack motherfkn fhrost you is lost in a-maze of haze full of disgrazed I'm crazed. Mind disfunctually not fully active fhuck a lady women rights activist. Ain't fhuckin with this writin rhymes down with my pen ya ass be found unconcious in a chicken pen deadliest as disease. Febreeze fhuck the world fhuck cops screw the police fhuck everything. Beat down a fhuckin pig til he skinned. God is not one sinned to give in let loose a rebel fhuck a devil beat'em down with a shovel shit I hear on the radio is rubble. Dead within as my body weeps out losin lettin be take by control I can't get a hold not steep. My mind's a negative astro creep as I stare back lookin in as is what

Murder
Life is living through hell shit ain't well I fail disease that is sickning is tickin. I'm as angry aggravatis per verve fetish. Life for me ain't nothin worth then a dispurse of what is worse. Lit wit acid fuse used long with abused. In a world where my mind is not where to be. fheelin lost confuzed dazed in this dark space of no place fheel likin my life is a mystery. Everytime i wake up shit round me ain't so fhuckin clearly. It's dreary everyone waitin to fhuckin threat or kill me but why cuz there jealous I'm murderous if ya try to get close slittin all of ur throats. Rich cats smack 'em in the head with bats cuz they ain't worth not a dayum shit to me. Check my last shit i'll murder you in a horroriflicus 360 I murder like esham was my last my favorite jam. I'm seemin to never take shit no more my mind thought plauged filled with hate/paranoia. Havin strange weird dreams where i'm somewhere else. Different place no like of taste misface fheelin between useless & a waste. Thoughts

The Beach
Sitting on the rocks looking out over the water, she sees a man walking by the pier he stops and takes off his shirt she sees that he has the most beautiful back and arms his back ripples with strength and muscles the kind you just want to scrap your fingernails down. When he took the ponytail out of his hair and ran his fingers thru it and it was so long and her fingers itched to reach out and do the same she could just see the softness and silkiness of it then he reached down and undid his jeans and slid them down reveling a very hard yet very nice ass wow she smiled an bit her lip.... she wasn't expecting the view to be be this good when she came down here but ya she was glad now. He slowly walked into the water and she watched the muscles in his back and butt and legs he moved like a cat grace full yet you could feel the danger in the way he moved he dove then and diapered from view for a minute & when he resurfaced he was almost at the end of the pier. He swam like that for a

Mistake
PainedI could fheel less down bout what you think of me. Less then hallowed underground. Find myself fhuckin up no control over how I am.Mind Downed fheel pained insideI try to conquer over how I fheel less then to deal. Take all this off of me & let me BeYou make me you rape me you make me. How I'm suppose to be. What I can't see all that I take everything I'm doin is aMistakeFheelin so left down no one around to care no one there nothin but dead air. Please tell me what do I do to deserve all ofThisWell I can't take you rape fheel forsake I'm heartache. My life at stake not real but fake. You take you make you rape & all i'm doin is aMistakeMistake a mistake you try to take make you rape you rape make me fheel so downed downed. It's all I can take take you fake.Givin in give out life's not worth what it's about I'm as this asiest to take this you make this this life is not what is fake fake stake n everything i'm doin is a Mistake

W.ords O.f E.xpression
This rhyme I write despite insight lite weight height. Shit itzo kick with phat flow think this a jhoke. Fhuck no so here I am here I is don't like it then drink a full mount of piss It's kriss. Ain't no one you ever heard like this explode into analysis. Fhat kick-ish with that wack sit back & relax rhymin over fhat tracks stack like fhat backs break like vertebre. Watch with what the shit you say I don't play. Crazious as to rhymious poundin groundin choppin necks. I exact infact beat ya dead with whole bunch of thumbtacks. I metaphor better yet I murder ya no one ain't heard of ya much disturbia. It's shit I elit highlight I write with Fhattest ish don't worry bout wear it starts rippin out motherfkers hearts no breathin leavin none left beatin ya to death. Fhuck with me your ass bee like starch you'll be stomped in the march. Pity pat pat It's like woah shit's bound to blow. Excite kickin with rhyme witty flow car crash ash stick like stash. I'm hidden good ridden I'm in & in ning

Waterfalls
Naughty thoughtsOne Evening when the sky is painted with beautiful colors of purples, pinks, yellows, and blues where the stars are begging to show in the sky . The air is sweet with the smell of Roses and Jasmine. The air is humid, from the heat and light rain of the day. You go to your French doors and look across the beautifully kept garden onto the waterfalls across the way. You sigh for a moment and decide to go to them you slide your flip flops on and walk out the French doors to the brick patio. You go down the stairs and through the beautiful garden. You walk slowly taking in the air, and your surroundings. You come to the waterfalls where the water is peaceful looking like a mirror of the sky. The water is only disturbed by the light pounding of the water falling to its surface that hits on the rocks before the surface over in the back corner. You slide behind a bush where you undress taking off the dampen jeans that the air has made, then your boxers, and then the wife bea

Mother
All things down n i'm insane painTake rememberin all the things you said. All the things you did. Always ever wondering why in life all the shit you did hurtin myself inside not fheelin why. Can't believe all the shit that was done. Askin myself why does the shit happen to me all the time. If knew long nough would of never got myself caught.Up in ur shit fhuck you skank whore bitch. I hate what the fhuck you done to me. Why do you have me in thinkin fheelin like there is no other i'm smothered fhuck what this world has done to me. I don't want to be bothered.Mother-All the pain you caused you flaused. Smothered my life was never meant to be. Mother-Fheelin like no other. Mother just a lost little brother. Smothered life ain't nothin to be. Just really can't see how i'm suppose to be.Don't get why all the hate the pain this world has to be put me through. Fhuck all ur shit the shit that you done to me why n why why do I fhuckin ask. If I saw you I prolly blindful you stick my 9inch in y

God(cycle Demo)
IntroLordPlease forgive meFor the sins that we commence in for all things we doGod (Doesn't want me to be)God Doesn't want me to beWhy try to save the world. When we can't why try to save the world. When we can't.Everything is a mistake shit is all I take. Seein myself givin never known. Fhuck with me & it's on better get urself gone be home play with ur bone. Distaste see right throught ur face find urself in a misplace Cuz god doesn't want me to be. God doesn't want me to see. God doesn't want me to fheel. God doesn't want me toBeI am nothin to be. God doesn't want Why try to save the world when we can't. Why try to save this world when we can't. No point no means of it. All is lost i'm so lost in this dark place losin my mind so losin my own fhuckin mind so bored drained so dull n I don't know I never know I never fhuckin know. I never Know.God doesn't want me to be god doesn't want me to fheel god doesn't want me to see god doesn't want me toBe

Suc
WhyAm i always a victim to your shit. Stone all in out thinkin what the fhuck you kno life's about. I don't need you urself or ur shit. Matter fact i don't wanna even see ur face you make sick go fhuck off die choke a dick. Life never wasn't really nothin to begin with. Everyone just gets on my fhuckin nerve. Fhuckin racist ass lucky i'm not close. Or i would've fhuckin punched ur lights out. Fhuck you n urself you lazy down beat ho you don't fhuckin know. Never really got why the fhuck i'm such a target to this world. Fhuck how to spell like it fhuckin matters. Hope you die n ur brain scatters. Blood drippin from ur mouth. Had to pick on me for no reason. Why cuz i'm black can't get urself up from a heart attack. Ur lifeless ain't shit you fhuck you stuck cuz youSucSuc suc suc suc sucCan't take my life away no you won't won't take my life from me no you won't. Think that you can cuz ur less then in an. Find you dead in a garbage can with ur chopped body parts all into pieces diseased

Song /rap I Like The Lyrics
TRUTH:"PICTURE MY VISION"Submit this to him who has committed wrong,but can not admit it. Opportunity is now presented.For your own use,I have given you granted permission.That if you disagree and refuse to listen,feel free to try to cast at me the first stone.So you yourself can witness.That by judging me;it's your own past that you'll have convicted,and your own actions you'll have condoned. With set aside differences,I ask can we at least act like we have grown? Do away with childish intentions,and agree that this problem can not be prolonged.Picture my vision!For we are brothers of the same blood.We all share the same home. Yet we suffer opinion collision at the embarrassment that we can never get along.Even so, when we can't cherish a moment, we seek out someone to place in place of us to place our own blame on.Only to taste the taste of disgrace from knowing the fact we face is that only by ourselves shall the shame be owned.When in fact our pride and arrogance excel parallel mak

Thinking What You Don't Say
Thinking What You Don't Say Filled with delicate reluctance, I see you differently.I know and yet I wonder,Just how you see me.I thought we watched the ivy twine,But was it on your walls or mine?Marie Curie had a glowThat Einstein couldn't miss. But clever conversationCannot compare with this. In every silence that you spokeAnother brilliant newsflash broke.A Yellowtail ShirazTurns a corner on my lips,It is your taste that makes me smileWhen progress halts and schedule slips. I'm sure that it was your arrivalThat turned mere Existence to Survival. I didn't know how to hate you,But I stopped you as you spokeAnd softly though the words you breathedI read the signals through the smoke. You etched your name in frozen time,And I float here in suspense sublime.Now abandonment holds no fear,Though I have fretted for a year;You slowly marched up to the helmAnd ushered me to some new realmWhere imperfect puzzles ring so trueAnd there's a day for me and you.

Douche Of The Day (vegitarian)
I would like to submit the following entry to the Vegitarian Douche of the Day: This guy in subway asked the sandwhich artisan to switch her gloves out after making my sandwhich because ... "He's a vegitarian!" There you go ladies and gentleman, your Vegitarian Douche of the Day.

Watch Your Usb's
It seems some have influnace a sexy greek geek of mine to become a nun... THis is a tragidy to man(and woman) kind. If this person continues to uncorup people whom will I play with .. Whom will I talk about tub rubbing with, or coke can cocks? who will i ask if this bra looks good with or with out panties?... Who will be my Greek Goddess of Perversion? .... It is my soul purpose to put a stop to this madness at once.... I will snap ubs's if i must. *shuns!*

Masturbating In Public.
Jerking off around people is fun, but it can have an overall negative influence on your personality. For example, there's twenty minutes left on the bus ride home and you're all alone in the back. You begin spanking and all of a sudden a terrifying wave of paranoia rushes over you. Frantically looking around, you pay attention to every little thing people say because you're worried they might catch on to your horrible agenda. A girl in the front of the bus says, "Look at that flower," to her friend. You hear that and think, "Flower? Plant? Tree? Log? Wood? Does she know? Holy shit!" Panicking, you quickly cover up and look around the bus for hidden cameras and mirrors. See what I mean? You have to be confident. Even if people do catch on that you're stroking, you must maintain control and stay calm. One time I was bored so I took off my pants and furiously beat off. Everything was going great until I lost control and huffed loudly. At that point, everybody in the church turned arou

Public Apology
Ive come to realize that I'm a bit of a pervert. I think it might be inbred into me with my Greek heritage. Also the fact I was named after the Greek god of wine and debauchery.... I believe I owe you all an apology ....especially my girl friends.. So to you I say i am truly sorry.... I'm a pervert.. I will try to behave it will be hard, but i will try... *molest a few girls before i go* Also I will apologize to Seamus in advance to anything I might possibly do to hurt his feelings... I apologize for being confusing and sometimes and outright mess (most of you have seen this) Also last but not least I apologize to the male friend I have for being that cute but slightly dorkish girl that loves to stalk....(please refrain from locking windows it makes my job a little more difficult) Wicked the nun PS.... thank you Jai for the spelling correction if its grammatically wrong blame him.(they never read small print)

Fool's Gold
I've been empty for so long. Filling the lonely with the unworthy and the never should haves. To many times have i laid a needing heart out for a using soul. Only to have each role played out all to knowingly. Sinking into the abyss of missed opportunities and the unexpected expected, there sits me. My heart grows even more murky, the deeper i allow the expected to creep. I've seen lights with no tunnel's end. I've seen smiles with tear filled reflections. I've felt the love of a selfish heart. I felt the passion of the unforgiving. My heart yet remains, not just hopeful, but empty. Empty of the taste of fool's gold. Empty of the promises of a lair's tongue. Empty of that which makes draining necessary. My heart is waiting for the words writing in myth, told as fable, seen as unattainable... I want that which captures my soul without surrender. OUR love gives breath to dreams. OUR love gives hope to doubt. OUR LOVE can be spoken of in whispers, yet felt as if the loud

Fourth
With a hateful, vicious snarl, the werewolf let out a threatening howl, and hatefully stared Zasch down. The creature's eyes betrayed it's underlying intelligence, but Zasch had never had the intentions of underestimating the dangerous creature. "Alais," Zasch shouted into his familiar's mind, "warn me if the wolves should return." Without waiting for Zasch to make the first move the lycanthrope lunged forward, snapping it's jaw for Zasch's throat. Zasch jumped back a step, avoiding the attack, and shifted to his left and took a step back, luring the creature to move where Zasch had just been, and to catch Zasch's attack in it's arm. With a howl of pure agony, the werewolf, stumbled back, and Zasch pressed the advantage. The Khopesh's blade began to glow red, devouring a small bit of Zasch's energy, using it to fuel a bitter attack. As the blade struck a glancing blow on the lycanthrope's tough hide, the blade of Zasch's khopesh turned pitch black, the foul magic from the blow sa

Leaving
Sooooo, I have pretty much made my mind up with leaving this site. Seems there is nothing but drama and jealousy all over this place. There is nothing left for me on this site. I made a few great friends and I am thankful for that. And those friends, you know who you are, know how to get in touch with me. If you want to keep in touch, just e-mail me. jerzeydevil31@yahoo.com. If you dont want to keep in touch....enjoy the games in here. So, since this site is all about people perving and shit, should I just break down, take a NSFW, and post it? Seems thats all anyone wants here anyways.

Bored And A Poem.
Alls these people wishing I was dead From all the fucked up thoughts running through my head Paranoid thoughts I was to shread Suicidal thoughts hanging over my bed I no longer feel alive I no longer feel dead Drugs after drugs Night after night Man these drugs are out of sight It could be acid It could be shrooms Alls I know is that the fucking room moves I hear screaming in my head Makes me wish I was dead Homicidal thoughts racing through my head Holy shit I want you dead GOD DAMNIT BITCH QUIT SCREAMING IN MY MOTHER FUCKING HEAD SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU RAGGIEDY ASS CUNT Click click Bang bang I wonder who's dead.

I Love You Anyway (repost)
Don't ignore meThat's just boringCut the chordWhat are you waiting forGet it doneHope you had funHow long have you knownWhile my love for you has grownYou don't want this anymoreJust leave my heart on the floorI've patiently waitedWhile you've debatedHow to deal with thisThere's one thing you missedI'm a part of itI wont "just go away"Say what you need to sayNo we can't be friendsThis is where it endsYou know how I feelFor you that's too realThere's nothing left to sayIn the end, I love you anyway

Bbq Rules
Standard Operating Procedures released today. Please learn. BBQ RULES We are about to enter the BBQ season. Therefore it is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of this sublime outdoor cooking activity. When a man volunteers to do the BBQ the following chain of events are put into motion: Routine... (1) The woman buys the food. (2) The woman makes the salad, prepares the vegetablesand makes dessert. (3) The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - beer in hand. (4) The woman remains outside the compulsory three metre exclusion zone where the exuberance of testosterone and other manly bonding activities can take place without the interference of the woman.

What Real Friendship Means
We seacrh for friends and sometimes get lucky.. Then you crash into angels that love you for the soul you have inside and never judge .. only stand by you , asking nothing in return...... I have been so blessed to find two angels that bring light and warmth into my life.. Ronpowers... ty for always adding love and kinds words to my day...and for letting me give the same. Carlos... your my rock, my friend, and the most giving person i have ever met.. I love you both for the wonderful light you carry inside and for being such great examples of what a man can be. "You gave me wings and watched me sore to the heavens, never once failing to push me higher".. that is what a true friend is.. am and will always be your rock.. Vanilla

To G. A. W.
19. To G. A. W.John Keats (1795–1821).The Poetical Works of John Keats. 1884.NYMPH of the downward smile, and sidelong glance, In what diviner moments of the day Art thou most lovely? When gone far astrayInto the labyrinths of sweet utterance?Or when serenely wand'ring in a trance Of sober thought? Or when starting away, With careless robe, to meet the morning ray,Thou spar'st the flowers in thy mazy dance?Haply 'tis when thy ruby lips part sweetly, And so remain, because thou listenest:But thou to please wert nurtured so completely That I can never tell what mood is best.I shall as soon pronounce which grace more neatlyTrips it before Apollo than the rest.

Ty Knck !
Three fans are walking to Fenway Park for the Red Sox-Yankees playoff series, when they see a foot sticking out of some bushes. An inspection revealed a dead-drunk naked woman. One man placed his Orioles baseball cap on her right breast. The Red Sox fan placed his cap on her left breast, and the Yankee fan put his over her crotch. They then called the police.The cop lifted up the Orioles cap, and made a few notes. He then lifted the Red Sox cap and made more notes. Then he lifted the Yankees cap, put it down, lifted it again and put it down. When he lifted it the third time the Yankee fan said, ''What are you doing? Are you some kind of pervert, or what?'' The cop said, I was just confused, usually when I see a Yankee cap, there's an asshole under it.''

The Most Steamy B-day Bash Ever!!
wvwiwvw Hey Everyone! Have I got A PARTY 4U.. My Bestfriend is throwing me a hot steamy B-day Bash next saturday June 6th at the Ramada Inn on the southside of Indy.. You Must Bring a Very Open Mind and a Fun Personality oh yea and maybe a lil sumthin sumthin for the b-day gurl lmao j/k anyhow if interested and need details let me know soon.. Have a Great Day!! Lotz of FuLOVE, ~*Victoria*~

Hes So Sweet
look into my eyes. watch the tears pouring out of my eyes. I'm happy to see your beautiful face.look into my heart. you will recognize how much i love you. i will never be the same without you. i could feel you beside me. with all the memories i have talking to you. please say yes, yes i want to spend your life with me like i want to spend mine with you. i cant just walk away. i want to keep loving you, loving you forever. i belong to you. my heart belongs to you my love. i know i wont forget our 1st kiss. the memories will stay in my mind after i die. you lead me here. you show me the way. i cant walk away. i miss you in a second. the promises i can make. promises of being yours forever. i cant let you go. cause i love you

The World Is Still Turning
The World Is Still Turning The world is still turning The sky is still blue The windows still open For me and for you. The breeze is still blowing The air crisp and clear Does not matter if we are far Or if we are near. The clouds may still come But they surely will go As long as you, and I Always know. That within us is all

No More Nothing
I've given all i can give, I’ve changed all i can possibly change. Still it's not enough. Forgiveness sometimes never arrives as your savior. Too many differences in opinion, too many things wrong with each of us to see the real problem. We blamed each other and became bitter. Sore at the world that was us and we fought several wars which all ended in a draw. Redrawing your feelings broke me in a way i can't bare to explain. It shoved me violently back into that fucking cage of mine. Made me retreat from my mindset and reevaluate why it is I’m here. I don't know, never really did i suppose. I have a goal now, and I’m breaking my fucking self to accomplish it. I will not allow myself to be crushed by this momentary depression. Fuck my family and their back stabbing way, I’m tired of being afraid of being myself. I'll fucking kill myself to get what i want now, and what i want is what I’ve always wanted. Music. So mend your wounds that i opened, tend to th

Never The Same
Parts takenStitched from scrapsHeld together with insanityNeurons fire down a cold spineUp the neck punctured with Razorblade teethWarm brain, blue body lying on a bed of deceit170 thumps to the head every minuteGive me new form...lifeNew instructionsTo go forth and infectTo resurrect ones mind without painful memoriesWithout recallSimply no existence

Phone
Sitting here waiting Waiting for the minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or even year to pass. Until the day your ready to make the call that brings me back to you.'Til then my phone remains silent. I stare at it endlessly, hoping maybe it'll ring soon. I look at the clock 11:17 then turn my attention back to the phone. A few minutes pass, or so it feels that way. I look back at the clock 11:17, then it changes. Life moves in slow motion without you. Even my heartbeat slows to a lonely thump. I'll continue waiting, as my heart continues breaking...right here by the phone.

The 7 Gates
Wealth... People tend to say that they have worked hard to achieve what they have. In actuality what a person has is actually luck. Two people can make the same amount of money, pay the same amount for a house note and one can put extra money away and the other cannot save a penny. (Due to "unexpected situations", home repairs, traffic tickets, car repairs, etc.) Some people have worked all their life and have nothing. Then there are college graduates who don't have jobs and high school drop outs that are millionaires. So accumulation of wealth really has nothing to do with man in the truest sense. Wealth and poverty are circumstances that provide tests. It is not as important as to wether a person has a lot of money or a little, but how he or she conducts themselves as a person. All things have some root of spirituality. It is a blessing to have money. As you read these lines may you have my blessings of good luck and wealth. May it come miraculously and flourish swiftly. May it com

Drain Thy Veins Of October
I drain my veins upon this page in hopes of putting the month of October to rest. I lay my wrists upon my desk and with one quick swoop, my deed is done. All the pain, the torment, and the emotions I’ve felt this month poor upon the page and form words. Feelings embedded deep enough that the razor doesn't touch them. Will anything or anyone ever touch them again? The relationship between you and I much like the layers of sliced flesh. Forged from the same piece, but once cut... they will never be the same. Scar tissue created causes tension in the healing joints. It hurts, to use that wrist...but it felt so good to bleed. Slicing through scar tissue this time i bleed much more than before. Causing permanent damage to the flesh. Despite attempts to slow the bleeding this time i fail. Blood gushes out of control from the severed arteries and through my fingers which are held tightly upon my wrist. In every attempt to keep the two pieces of flesh together. The blood flows freely as

White- Failed Attempt
Staring downward through the water my eyes strain to focus on the bottom of the bathtub.All i can see is white,The textured surface of the tub leaves it's impression upon my chest.It makes me think,Have i made an impression on anyone? Strangers or people I know? And was it good or bad?A lot of questions and several people come to mind.I lay there whimpering, knowing that I'm only one deep breath away from what i want.What do I really want? I'm not sure.But I'm tired of trying,Sick of being me,Sick of being...SICK,Fed-up with trying to find the perfect match.My mind determined on self destructionI take a shallow breath in to experience what's to come.Now all i can think of is my nephew Jacoband him becoming as fucked up as I am.Now I'm hurting bad...a broken heart,emotionally damaged mind andwater filled lungs.I'm here to experience life as it shits on meBe it good or bad...until the day I see White.

- (negative)
Maybe you can still see the sadness in my bloodshot eyes. Allow me to wipe away the tears, to shed that one solitary tear that rolled down my cheek as my heart broke. Something's changing, maybe it's time to make something new? I feel myself changing into something, someone I’m not. I'm no longer what you want, your desire, the one thought that makes your heart race. Maybe it's you that's changing, changing me. Then again, maybe it's just your love slipping away...wanting someone else.

Brick
Should have known not to get attachedLike the hook to loop on VelcroHeartbroken, already abysmal with dismayRemove the sickness from my head andSow my mouth shut.Contain the misery where it breedsShow my flaws to no oneTake me as-is or not at all.

Prisoner
Held in this cell against my will Made to live my life as yoursSpeak commands i must obeyI perform as told, without a choiceFor i am your prisoner Freedoms bells no longer ring for meThe sound of silence callingNo comforting voices to be foundThese bars stop those sounds Please let me outI'm dying in this placeTrapped here like a animal in a cageWhat's this life for?Life is meant to be livedNot trapped here with you

Holding Ground
I sit here deteriorating more by the minuteSickness spreadingCausing infection and decayMy world crumbling with me within itThis body my holding cellCaptive prisoner for all eternityMy blood is taintedSickness in these cellsMental state degradingAs my oxygen's depletingHallucinations entertaining meFeverish phantoms carry me away in the nightCarry me away, into the lightThis isn't heaven it's much worseLiving my life again, sick from the beginningDie my death at 3 years of ageWill it ever be permanentIt was a sign, don't tamper with my lifeShouldn't have been given another chanceI didn't ask for any of thisI'm falling apartFar to young to experience what I've livedTortured?Yes I say soI try so hard to hold my groundAlways slipping, never gripping what i needI can't do it, slipping...things being ripped from meThe "S" word seems so temptingIt includes "U" and "I""C" you don't see me as I see me, or feel what i feel"I" do realize what this all entails"D" Death is what you make of it"E" E

63-76
So indeciveWhy didn't she fight it?She gave up so easilyTattered and TornHer soul well wornDamaged so completely She gave into her lustful feelingsGave up all my hopeThat something would be rekindledThe spark, that she extinguishedSo desperately in demandShe quenched her thirst for something differentStumbling along in the darkSearching for her waySearching for answersShe chose her fate that day.

Endless
Searching through this endless seaWondering what I will becomeWill I ever find someone specialSearching in places god hasn't seenAnd I wonder... what will become of me Will this ever endMy search for somethingMy longing for someone specialMy search, It's become endless Searching through this sea of lifeless bodiesWondering what it is I've becomeJaded mind and faded emotionsBlock all feelings from my chestTerminal disconnection from my heartSo I wonder, what will become of me

Another Life Destroyer
She'll take your soul and rule your lifeUntil your dying dayWaiting a year to claim her freedom Starting over with so much moreI can't contain this damageIt hides from no oneMy body aching from the truthHis dreams fulfilled on a full moon I expect everything went perfectlyThere's only one hitchSomething you can't ditchSomething you'll catch from that bitchIf you allow yourself to be played a foolFalling captive to her mind games

From The Inside
Anger growing with your every syllableHearing your voice or seeing your face enrages meDisappointing downfall leading to my demiseYou've made me everything I amI'm everything, but nothingThe gum on the bottom of your shoe Everything I feared is coming trueEverything I am, I'll invest in destroying youBreaking me down to my coreLeaving wounds exposedBut locking away the truth A year wasted with youAnd a lifetime of regretYou need to know how much I hate youNo fear of being locked away forThe unimaginable things I would doThe sickest of the sick at work Raped repeatedly and ripped apartDestroying your anatomySlicing deep within your fleshJust to see you in painAllow me to salt your woundsDisemboweled and scattered amongst the landscapeMe all covered in your bloodWearing your flesh as my new skinI finally understand how you feel...inside.

Turnaround
I was wrongWhat a fool I've beenCreated such dark circumstancePushed myself away from everyone and everythingDue to unrighteous thoughts in my headSickness in part due to a broken heartSomething a band-aid cannot mendTime and understanding is my first-aidPictures remind me of the lies I toldThe sadness once in my eyes, now rests in your heartBecause of meForgive me of my wrongs and understand why i still feelThat's all I ask.

Helping A Fu-friend
PLEASE help my #2 Family! On May 20th 2009 a very good friend Parker20 Twisted Phucker' account was hacked and he lost everything he had worked for. The hacker deleted everything he could. If you look at His former fu-ID #2236411 you will see the only thing left is his Fu-Wifeys name. Parker still does not have access to his old account.

Tired
The clock always giving a constant reminder of the things i haven't done today. Listen closely, you can hear the seconds ticking away on the digital clock. It's the sound of boredom, the sound of something to come, perhaps an end of something or someone. Look out the window, see the clouds passing by. Reminding you of the many memories passed. Friends, family, loved ones that are no longer with you. Only live on in your memories. Tired of the memories that constant taunt me. Like the sickness that plagues me. Tired of feeling helpless, stuck here like a turtle on his back. Fighting to regain my stability, but help to do anything about it. It's life i suppose.

Mourning Glory
Time passes to heal most woundsOthers, time seems to forget.Open wounds leave vivid memories of someone/something whom we regret.Scared our souls beyond recognitionOur names carved in our flesh as a reminder of who or what we are.Conscience eating at us, gnawing, chewing and ripping at our fragile emotions.Silence protrudes from the darkness in the form of death.I beg of it to render me useless and take what little I have left. Lying on the ground begging for mercy and severity from this life.Finally an end to EVERYTHING!Mourning glory please, I beg of thee!Render me helpless upon this new day of light breakAllow me to surrender all my worldly possessions, my life and my soul to alleviate this misery.Time passes to heal most woundsOthers, I seem to forget.Open wounds, wonderful memories of something/someone....I forget.

What It Takes
Murdered myself in a business style suicideWorking myself to death Where did the years goSuppose I worked them away Middle aged and manicSearching frantically for the riches of her labored lifeFound nothing but loneliness and solitudeRunning open arms into her death.

Wish I Was Mechanical
Sometimes I wish I was something else. Something other than human, something mechanical. Simple moving parts, wiring and an electronic brain, they still malfunction...but don't cause you pain. Worn out parts are a simple replacement, but mine are all the same. Original parts, worn and used as the body they slave away for. My brain allows me to live life. But emotions, sensations, and feelings I could live without. Senseless without consequence. Thinking nothing of the world, as I live my life without sickness or pain. Oh what a dream it would be to be something else, at least for a little while.

Walk In The Snow
No motion, sound, or light gathering in my brainTrampled snow is where my spirit roseShadows pile up as the surface decreasesAppendages numb The surge of swirling wind definesSnow haze gleams like sandEverywhere, utterly.The images of roads, weather compromised I seek, above all, in the wanderingLeft and right, and far ahead in the dark I treadWith my foot steps as empty as I am, I surrender Against this sky, no longer of our world.

Mere Memories
What is life?Scientific functions that make our bodies exist?Perhaps just a collection of memories,Categorized by our years of living. Is it something special, that should be cherished and celebrated?Some think so, others disagree. Life is hell for some, Heaven for others. Either way, life is short. Time passes so quickly. Before you know it, months, years and decades pass. Leaving you dazed and confused about where your life went. What is life but time spent with others. Friends, family and loved ones. You may or may not enjoy their company. With the right people though even the worst job seems fun. With the right people, hours slip by like minutes and leave a smile upon your face. Life with the right kinds of friends is a life worth living. Unhappy? This is quite depressing, my life has me stressing, forcing me, rearranging, testing me. My open sore, come pick my wounds. Here's my issues and my personal box of salt. Pour it on as i struggle and fight. Emotions churning as the

Contest
So I entered a contest. It'd be greatly appreciated if you'd go vote. It's Metropark, and you'll need to create an account. You only have to vote once. =] Men's design: http://www.metroparkusa.com/publicworks/design/1086 Women's design: http://www.metroparkusa.com/publicworks/design/1099 http://www.metroparkusa.com/publicworks/design/1103

Without You
My arms are empty without you And my sighs are useless They don't bring me to you The world's so hazy And it's all so fruitless Without you I'm sure you know Every moment hurts without you And as my love grows My mind's never at peace The pain never seems to cease Without you And your burned into my dreams Telling me sweet things With your eyes that gleam But when my eyes open You're not to be seen Without you But the nights never end And the thirst remains As long as you're away Cause I want you near So I'll have nothing to fear As I don’t want to live I have nothing to give Without you But when I imagine That your here with meEverything glows Because you're near Am I awake Or am I asleep I'm lost hereSo very deep And it clearly shows Cause I'm incomplete Without you

Love Isn't Enough
Sorry if my death was too much for youBut I can't bear to see you cryLiving my life with you all I did was die. I searched and searched for days,looking for better ways. My lack of motivation and abundance of desperation led to my demise Sorry if my death was too much for you,Seems i was never good enough. I know life is hard and times get toughbut without your support, sometimes love isn't enough.

Beyond The Cellar Door
Beyond the cellar door, in the darkness i wait.Lonesome and wearyMy mood like the weather, cold and drearyLying upon my side on the cold concrete floorStaring off in the distance at the dirt,Soon to be my grave.Lingering persistence of some sort of hope teases my heartWaiting for you to rescue me from this prison my mind has createdOne soul connected to another cannot live apart.Lying here waiting... for hope, for life, for my dreams, for something or someone.Even my most beautiful thoughts now tainted with anger and deceit.My conscience yelling at me in a hateful tone.Belittling me, confirming my paranoid thoughts that everything is against me.Lying here on my side, waiting...hoping...praying that someone opens that Cellar door.

Sound Of Silence
Listen to thatThe sound of silenceMy heart breakingThe sound of no one thereListen closelyIt has a lot to sayIt tells you how I feelBut it doesn't tell me how to dealI'm deaf to it's voiceBut I know it's thereBy these feelings I haveNo human connectionTo see you would be niceA hug from you; Great!That soundListen... it's here, there, everywhereIt's the sound of nothing, no one and never ending heartacheThe sound of hellIt's the sound of you not here.

Soldiers (fold The Flag)
A touch of your name echoes back the existence of a life that was taken too soon.My sight blinded, from gracing your faceOnly leaves a hole in my soul, that nothing can replace.The letters of your existence written, spell out your nameI pray to god, or something that your death wasn't in vein.My senses dulled, everything but the pain.My life's without you now,A soldier was your name.

Window Into Hell
It's your dying dayYou awake gasping for airOne last glimpse of the world as you take your final breath, and so...darkness sets in. Standing before me and all the others you've wrongedAwaiting your judgmentNothing but simple words from me.I wouldn't waste my time.Life was hell with and without youThe judgment passed by me,I want to watch you burnI want a front row seat in hell for eternity,Just to watch you burn.

Threshold
Holding back my tears as I surrender my place in life.Holding back words, some of which i need to say.I know you hear me, but I need you to listen.I'm broken and dyingIn my world of dismay. Pushed too hardI'm bound to collapseStriking my weaknesses and building upon my faultsA suicide waiting to happenMy body's a time bomb. An overdose of life leaves me comatoseMaybe it was the pills, considering I overdosedThousands of milligrams coursing through my veinsSending my life spiraling down the drain. Pushed too hardI'm bound to collapseStriking my weaknesses and building upon my faultsA suicide waiting to happenMy body's a time bomb. My eyes are getting heavy and the room begins to spinAs death approaches, I close my eyes and grin.I embrace death as he closes in and i whisper in his ear"Take me please, I can't live this way." I was pushed too hardMy world collapsedConstantly striking my faults and weaknessesSuicide happensMy body's numb.

The Key
The solution is simple,Know what's right in your mindand believe it in your heart. Escaping the straightjacketand preventing suicide. The key to life's problems,all hidden inside.Dig through the depthsand search through the darkness,to find the truth. The key will set you free. Locked away in madnessYour crumbling world of dismay,shadowed disillusionsWhat do i do to escape?My body has been set free,It is my mind that is trapped.Insanity a constantDesperate for an escape. The key to life's problems,all hidden inside.Digging through the depthsand searching for light in my darkness,To find some truth. The key will set you free.

X
I'm not the same person I was when i met you.Now bitter and angry,Perhaps a little more insane. Leaving you hurts me,But not nearly as much as you did.Anger replaces the love when we argue.You did this, you did that...who really cares? But when it comes to trust,I'm the only one that shares.Trust me and love me.It's the only way,We'll be able to make it from day to day. Missing you dearly,Wanting to hold you tight.Your absence here, is what has me missing you tonight.

Turn Off The Heartache
Blood flows through these veins of mineinto various parts and organs,including my heart.You'd have to turn off my heartto stop the heartache.Every beat fuels my brainand it remembers you, your touch and your love.Which in turn, brings on heartache.You could sever the connection but I'd still feel, the way you should "feel"and that is with your heart.Even removing my heart wouldn't do any good.I'd still feel empty without you,and that emptiness is heartache.You could end my life,but that would only cause the people that care heartache.There is no ending, someone must carry this pain.So let it be me.It lives inside me contently,as long as my heart continues to beat.Until my dying day,May you live and love without the burden of heartache.

1st Timer
You know you can't avoid it ..IT JUST HAPPENS . That 1st time it creeps up on you and sometimes you dont know it. It just happens ,Its unavoidable. OR IS IT ?? I've decided to go ahead & Blog away my thoughts,feelings,rants , etc etc etc. Let whatever come forth from my fingertips come forth for all to see. SO on that note be forewarned It could get ugly or it could be really great ...who knows Where to start ?? Well I guess I'll start with this last weekend. My band just happened to land a pretty big gig here in SA. playing at the SOUTH TEXAS ROCK FEST 2009. The 2 day event is topped off by GREAT bands including legends SAXON and QUEENSRYCHE. My band was chosen to play DAY 2 of the event and open for Queensryche. We ended up with a great slot ! Right before the awesome TEXAS band Dangerous Toys ! These guys have been one of my favorite bands for years ! The day started out kinda shaky with rain in the forecast and sure enough right before the gates opened it POURED. Like freaken c

This Room
Opening the door to memories pastThis room holds many talesLove and HateLust and DisgustPlease walls, tell me a taleThings I might have forgotten, many a lessons learned. Memories of you here that I can't seem to let goThings fell apart One of those things was meThings went to hell in this roomSo many tears shedI want to let it goI just want to leave, this room.

Children
The future of this world looking up at meTheir laughing and smiling warms my heartChildren,Listen to these words and my musicFeel the love I have in my heart for you. Their tiny hands holding onto mineI can't help but smile.You fill this empty soul full of lifeYou make the pain fade awayI don't want to leaveDon't be sad I won't go awayI'll be back in one more day. The children looking up to meHope shining bright in their eyesTheir existence you can't denyYour the reason I live this lifeYour the future of tomorrowHold on for just one more day.

Someonebody, Someone
To look into your eyesknowing that you love meas fucked up as I am. By far I'm not the bestbut my heart's in the right placeI'll love you, if you love me. Make me feel specialThe way love should feelYour the one and I know it. Look past what you seeand let me show you something you can'tLook inward and see what I seeFeel what I feel, but not alone. Don't love me and leave meI'm supposed to feel, but not a hurt this deepThis must be my curseSomebody...Someone, to love.

Straightjacket Sucide Song "love You Dear"
You hear the words i saybut they don't mean shit to you.I have feelings tooThey turn on when your gone.Somehow it's always misery that remainsand it's only tie is you.Maybe I should cut you looseor I'll end up in a noose. (Chorus)Better yet, just wake me when your goneCall me on your cellTell me all the thingsThat you couldn't say to me.Tell me that I suckand how you don't give a fuck.I'm a waste of time and spaceand a disappointment too.Loving memoriesYes dear, I love you tooSweet lies whispered in my earToo bad I was never quite enough,to get through to you.Better listen upBefore this happens to youIt'll be too late when I'm gone. (Chorus Repeats) Fuck it, I'm through with youEspecially after all the bullshit you put me throughYour lies and games had me sown upNow mentioning your name makes me throw upMaybe you were rightI don't love you. Song, lyrics and all expressed and unexpressed right of this song is property of Shaun Dean/Straightjacket Suicide. Copyright infringement

Pseudoephedrine
I should be deador so the DR saidThis medicine is killingwhat's in my head.Is fate making It's own decisionsChoosing if I live or die. This poison I'm takinghas my body aching.It's the devil taking his dueI'll trade you this for thatBut at your expense. The decision was mineand I live with it.No it isn't fineand I hate it everydaycause it's changed how I live. My brain deterioratingBrain cells dying in drovesMy memory leavingI assure you it's not pleasingto lose control.

Conflict
Like an engine without oilLike a fish without waterI struggle and on come the conflicts. My brain stumblingTrying to go forward in reverseDo this, do that...wait, do this too!What was I doing? My brain fumblingThree little lettersADDbut nothing adds upunclear logic, scrambled signals to decipherI have rabbit ears, but they don't hear. Sometimes the message gets throughSooner or laterWell, sometime today...what was I doing?

Death Dreams
Last night while I was dreamingA demon came to meTold me my soul was bleeding. She said she was a friendShe told me what he wanted and what I needed She told me what to do to find a cure. He led me to the kitchenOn the counter, there laid a knifeFor me to take my life. Lying on the floorI couldn't take anymoreShe said "Make it so!"So I may claim your soul The demon screamingHer body's the only thing bleedingMy life without you was all I needed.

Love Wounds
From me to youYour existence doesn't mean shit.Your delusional world of liesHeld together by your dysfunctional ties.Ignorant, inbred friendsFucking one anotherIs someone else coming?Your always cumming!Legs spread wideFor anyone who wants insideYour tainted love woundDripping my hatred Diseased, but that's only your brain.Fuck a married man just cause you canDid you use your handJack him off and suck it from the tipDid he leave it insideThe place where souls die?Do you think of me and the ways I made you screamI hope you think about me and I appear in your dreamsI know you want more,But that's the difference between you and me.

Broken
All my desires missingCause other guys lips you've been kissingFishing for someone newOr an additional someone to screw.You didn't realize times were toughI had a lot on my mindNow I've left it behindYour in the pastBut you've left me brokenBroken little whoreAlways looking for something moreNext time I won't try to loveI'll just live day to day.

Oh Jesus- Parody
kinda set to the melody of "away in the manger" I cry for JesusCause he's sooo sad.Living a life of sacrificeHas made him mad.Earthquakes, Floods and Poverty too.I cry for you lordTomorrow will be better,It's a new day! I cry for you JesusThey say you hung on a crossIt must have been drafty in just a loin cloth.Nothing to do but just hang out.Here comes famine, disease and a drought.You must be pissedWithout a doubt. Christianity has driven me insaneYour supposed to see everythingSee that I'm in pain.All your rules and regulationsThe bible's more like a game.Scripture written thousands of years agoHow do i know it's true If i can't see you? I cry for you JesusI wish the world wellI'm just humanI'm sure i'll burn in hell.If the day comesWe met face to face.Be patient with meAs i plead my case. Cry for me Jesus Cause I'm the one that's sad My pathetic existence is all i had. Carry me angels

Third
Zasch stood observantly at the mouth of the cave some time later, Alais hovering around him curiously. He had followed the trail here after it had doubled back, and now he stood not far from his quarry. He spared a glance to Alais, and her sweet whisper came again. "I can travel the plains and ask for Kallista or Muriel to aid you." Shaking his head slightly, and went about setting up a quick ritual that would allow him to see in the darkness of the cave. In less than a minute an opaque black ball had formed in his hands, and floated just over his right shoulder. Zasch drew out his blade, and motioned for Alais to follow him. As he entered the cave, the dark ball did it's job, shedding everything within thirty or so feet in dim light, though in varying shades of gray. Zasch was still for a moment, allowing himself time to adjust to the change in coloration, and started forth. Alais hovered somewhere above him, blinking between the stalagtites that clung to the ceiling, the Wisp kee

The Fire Within
I met a woman with the greenest of eyes.When I looked into them,I swear I saw the devil inside.Flames a plenty burning deep in her soul,Dancing and flickering with her every breath.I feel the warm air of her breath against my face,Spreading to consume me.The touch of her fingertip to my lipTells me she wants something more.The eternal flame intensifies,As her lips touch mine.Kissing, the flames consumes us both.The fire brought back something,Something that died.Something that I once had inside.Life...Given back to me,Through the magic of a kiss.

The Girl On The Mountain And The Man In The White Truck.
I interfered, this girl caused a ripple in my life.Am i a sub polar magnet?Always drawing negativity to me. The air still tense with his presenceHer half clothed and cryingHe forced himself in her worldTook all he could and ranLeaving without a trace.She called him the disappearing manThis isn't the first time...time and time again.He unwillingly showed her his friendKicking and screaming is how her story beganHe looked at me smilingHolding me downHis hand over my mouthHe took what he wanted and left... "This isn't the first time...time and time againthis has happened. Thanks for being a friend.Sorry I'm rambling, I don't know where to begin.My world's fucked up and so am I.Sometimes when he rapes me I wish I would die.I'm so tired of that shit, so tired of crying. Tired of living and tired of trying."

3am
Lick my woundsTaste my sufferingAt the hands of a psycho with a knifeTempting me with the sharpened bladeMy laughter only pissing her offStab and stab again my friendDo it repeatedlySee me through to the end.My blood is on your handsDrink me dry as I cry for helpCover my mouth to ease your sufferingSome kind of god your not.

One-way Relationship
So many miles separate usWhy must we be so far apart.Staring at your pictureWishing you were here with me. I've come to realize your untouchableOne of god's gifts, but not to me.I know that I'll probably never see you face to faceNever feel your touch or your embrace. So untouchableLike a collectable put high on a shelf.Just slightly out of reachI offer you my hand.I know it'll be a long waitHell hasn't frozen over yet.At least i can still look and dream.

For The Friend I Didn't Know
Hold on to what life you havesave it for another day.I can't take your pain awaybut I would if I could.To have you smile and not shed a tearwould mean so much to me. I wish I could turn back time.Give me just one more dayto make the wrong things right.Maybe I should have wished for longercause this may take all night. Don't slip away my friend.Hold on...give me just a few more secondsbefore you close your eyes.To tell you that I loved you and say my goodbyes. I'll tell you all the things i couldn't tell you while you were alive.Like how much I've missed youI can't believe I've lost youI can't believe your gone.So many good times with youjust for you to pass on.

Death Is Me
Death is my companionHe sits with me during the day and we talkHe lies next to me in bed at night as i sleepWhen I'm depressed, he lets me hold his handHe shows me how much worse my life could beWhen I'm cold he holds me closeand shows me the fires of hell.Death has taught me a lot about life, pleasure and painHe showed me that life is preciousHe showed me what it's like to really liveHe told me many things about people and the weird thoughts that hide away deep in their brain.Death told me I have lots of life, but not a lot of time.Death is my friend and I know he'll see me through to the end.

Been A Busy B*****
ok so maybe its supposed to be busy bee.. but I prefer bitch. *shrugs* anyway.. have been on a nutzo streak adding products to my online shop. http://www.cafepress.com/hallowedgrove That is my Hallowed grove. only on the web for now, but one day it will be real, but alas I am rambling.. here are some of the designs I have added.. well for the word tee's. "SUPPORT CANNIBALISM! eat me. " "I'm not a stalker... I'm just curious. By the way you're out of milk." "I have the perfect body. But its in the trunk and starting to smell." and alot more, I will me adding more through out the next few days.. let me know what you think. ok.. off to think of some more demented shit to turn in to a tee. *waves*

Words Of Wisdom
You seem to have it all You seem to have control But deep within your soul you’re loosing it You never took the time assume your to blame You think that your insane... spare me You better check yourself before you check out ~ Tantric ~ Breakdown

The Garden In My Mind
There's more to me than you seeLook again, look deepPast what you see on the computer screenGet to know meThe real me, not just the body you seeFake like a mannequin I'm notNo plastic existence hereBehind these green eyes,lies a garden of thoughts and ideas in bloomFlourishing inside the darkened forest that surrounds and protects them.The pathway to the garden is narrowFollow your heart to find the wayGreed and selfishness get you sent awayTake your time...If my heart coincides with yours, the pathway will be lit.For some the journey is short and for others it's longThe distance depends on youTo find the garden is something rareLost in the labyrinth of my mindI'm not sure I know exactly where it isBut it's there...cause I’m here.Follow your heart to find the way.

Digging My Own Grave
Scratching and clawing at my skinTearing into my fleshDigging deeper in my existenceThe memories in my mind are the fuel for this machine.Where did I go wrong?Dig deep to find outKeep digging through the skin, through the flesh that makes us human.Through the deepest trenches of blood that flows,through our veins.Dig deeperKeep digging my mind saysHell...I'm digging my own graveLost answers never recoveredHow do i get my closure?Block out the memories and hide the pain inside.My closets full of painful skeletons begging to get out.Beneath the floorboards, skeletons lie that I've put to restBut those don't compare.Fuck, I need silenceMy soul is screaming"Release me, I demand you!"Pounding on the door of my mind.He's sat fire to the forest that protects the garden!Watch as it withers and burnsMy psyche shattered and my soul escapes.Nothing left, just a shell of a manThe garden and forest destroyedOnly ash and darkness remainA catatonic man in a straightjacketStaggering and stumbling thro

Up From The Ashes
I think about you all the timeYour alive in my dreamsYou and i holding hands and walk through our livesYears pass like moments as we ageTender in your yearsStill holding hands, I hold you dear.I gave you my heart knowing that you careNow old and feebleYour still by my sideI look at you darling and saywe'll be together when i die.

Home
Married to death and diseaseMy life is shitLiving without livingDying without tryingFeeling too muchIt's tears of torment I'm cryingMy hearts growing colderand with each passing day I get olderSame old shit, just a different daybut it's the same shit,day after day.

Carpenter
My depression is a toolSomething I use to get things done.Mostly used when I come undoneCome sit by my fire and watch me build... Upon myself, day after day until I'm finally finished.I wonder, will I ever finishI wonder what will be accomplishedIn the short time I have left. Will the room be finished that holds and protects my heartBlocking all the harmful things outside from hurting it. I hope not.

Military Man
A career military man, who had retired as a Master Sergeant, was telling the new recruits how he handled officers during his years of service. "It didn't matter a hoot if he was a full bird colonel, Major General, an Admiral, or what! I always told those guys exactly where to get off." "Wow, you must have been something," the admiring young soldiers remarked. "What was your job in the service?" "Elevator operator in the Pentagon."

Unfelt Feelings
Something about your kiss that's freightenly familiar.Like a kiss from a lost love from years forgotten.As a smile grew upon my face, holding you felt comfortable to me.Do i know you? I asked myselfFeelings like this, feelings never felt beforeI've searched for someone who makes me feel loved when i wonder why someone loves me.Someone who's touch is as welcomed as mineYour kiss amazed me, a spark upon my lipsYour beautiful eyes captivate me and still taunt me in my dreams.All i can do is stare in wonder and appreciate your beauty.

Pedals In The Wind/be My Valentine
As i sit here alone on these wooden steps, on this cold windy day.I think about you.Across the road, off in the distance I see several rose bushes swaying in the breeze.One rose in particular caught my attention.I arose from my stoop and made my way over to it.The closer I grew to it the more intently i stared.As I kneeled down I released a saddened sigh."It's broken" mumbling to myself.I snapped it off at the break, cradled it in my hands and made my way back home. Upon arriving, I immediately trimmed the stem and gathered some water in a nearby glass.I took a seat at the kitchen table and positioned the rose in front of me.As I sat there basking in it's beauty I noticed several flawsAll of which though made the rose all that more beautiful to me.I placed my fingertips upon it's stem and spun it around slowly admiring it.Each time my fingers would slip off, it would always come to rest on the right side of the glass. I folded my arms and laid down my head thinking about you.Wonderfu

Day Dreams
I think about you when your not hereThe days they pass so slow.Hours fade together until the time I talk to you.Lost in my day dreams that this is my perfect life.Lost in my day dreams when it sudddenly becomes night. My dreams lost in a nightmare world where nothing is the same.My life comes unglued My future right in front of me but I already know I’m screwed.As tempting as it is to sever these veins and watch dyingas my life, my future and my blood flows down the drain. I take a deep breath and realize tomorrow is a new day.New day dreams a plenty, day dreams of you.

Another Turn In The Jacket
Sometimes I wonderHere in the dead of night, if you really love me.Is all this worth giving up my life.Panic striken that I'll always be alone, I caveAdmitting that I'm wrong.I often wonder Why I'm the one to blameEverything's out of context and it's driving me insane.There's nothing here for me nowIt's all been sent away.If you happen to see my lifeSend it back my way.I want nothing but happinessBut all I get is hurtBroken feelings once againIf you could only seeThey'd be black and blue.Due mostly to outside peopleBut today it's because of you.

Black As My Eyes
I wish my eyes blackIt would show how dead I am inside.These things called emotions keeping me aliveHeart palpatations awaken me at nightFor a moment I feel aliveI notice you lying by my side and happiness overwhelms me momentarly.But as usual, pain sets back in to reassure me that it's all too real.Keeping me in check. Disillusional thoughts of a man gone partially insane.The emotions keeping me aliveNo longer is it my willSometimes no longer do I wish to feel, especially the pain.Depression his partnerThey destroy everything I loveTearing me apart, as my body wishes to do.Failing me when I need it mostOne day my eyes will turn blackShowing that I’m dead outside.

Whatever U Want To Call This
Free will, the ability to make decisions on our own that determine our future No higher power has influence on our decisions, but does show us both possible outcomes God presents us with a plan, but it is our free will that determines how that plan plays out More and more everyday it seems like Gods plan is slipping away People are choosing the path of least resistance instead of working hard and taking the better path Nobody deserves or is "entitled" to anything It must be earned through hard work and sacrafice We are getting away from ethics and morality Sadly these have become a thing of the past No longer is it "God Bless America" It has become "God Save America"

Dazed And Confused
recently I received the news my father after having open heart surgery, has no money. All along the family beleived that his retirement was still intact, this would have taken care of sum bills . We now know there isnt any money and have pulled together to get him help. We have found out in this process that my father whom was so responsible gave his money to sum random guy whom has leeched off him threw the years claiming to care and be his friend..... needless to say I do beleive we need to submit a bill to him ....

Parished
Out on the snowy field lies deathDeath to all things that once inhabited the field. As winter approachedThe creatures and animals of the field made hasteTo prepare themselves for the upcoming winterBut the field, it just sat.Sat there in silence like it did last yearand the year before and so on.Winter creeping up like a thief in the nightThe weather changing from cool to cold in a moments notice.Once again, the field seem unpreparedIt knew winter was coming but did not care.Empty and desolite much like myself we sat together and watchedAs the winter months drew on.Layers upon layers of snow blanketing the ground.Hiding the beautiful surface of the field from the world.Everything beneath the snow has parished. Dead, but covered in such beauty.The field remains silent beneath the deep snow.Walking through the field, dragging my feet in the snowExposing the once beautiful green field.A whispering sigh mutters from my lips As I fall backwards into the snow.Awaiting new to fall and cover

United States Of Embarrassment
Look to Bush for answers we don't getHe's to blame for what we don't haveNo way to turn it around.Now there's no looking backHis decisions have brought on a recessionAnd caused another great depression. Watch as the world crumbles around you (us)The crumbling economic situationLeading to civilization mutilationCrime rates increase as the money flow begins to cease4 more years to 2012 People's right to vote, rejectedAnd stuffed back in our throatsDoesn't matter what we sayMoney speaks louder than any voiceMoney means more than any lifeWe can't live our life our wayIn this united states of embarrassment. Watch as the world crumbles around us (you)The crumbling economic situationLeading to civilization mutilationCrime rates increase as the money flow begins to cease4 more years to 2012. The price of their lives, but for what?Lack of fear from foreign terrorThe fear is real, but the fear we should be fearing is hereWe can't live our lives this wayChildren going hungry like some third

Comfort In The Shadows
Dead skies and broken hearts rein hereThere’s comfort in the shadowsProviding darkness for which to hideDarkness pours from meClouding my life and everything in it.Searching to find my way through this labyrinth of lifeLooking in the mirrorMy reflection gocking at meCurious stares wondering is this me or is this youMy evil twin taking over when I am not awareTaking sanctuary in the darknessIt provides me with all I needComfort in the shadows.

One Of My Famous Rants
We have lost our way. Our morality has disappeared. Religions marrying teenagers against their own free will. Fighting a war abroad instead of taking care of home. We are a crisis ready to implode. We are to afraid to do the right thing even though it would anger a select few. Having your cake and eating it to does not work. No more middle class. Either you are rich or entirely destatuit. Times are changing, but no one is listening. Politicians full of empty promises. What will it take for the rebirth of this country? Are there any viable solutions? Of course there are, but no one has the balls to put them in action.

Fu-break
I'm done. Had enough of people who would rather spend their time making others miserable like themselves, than anything else. I took a break from Christmas till about April, and was extremely happy. I come back here a few weeks, and have had nothing but stress and drama. I have a life, and I'd rather live it happily, than deal with the childish, petty, spitefulness I've been dealing with on here the past 2 weeks. There are a few on here that I will keep in touch with, of course, and anyone else that wants to keep in touch, feel free to find me on yahoo... my username is a little obvious ;) Thank you to those who stuck by me in these testing times, and I'm not going to say any more about it, but those of you who know me, and were here for me, I truly appreciate it. I will never forget that. Anything else that's said about me, or whatever, idgaf. I'm not talking to any of the people that started all this shit, so whatever they say from now on is strictly their own mindless drivel, due

Fear,
Have You ever needed, desired, longed, dreamt for something so bad and for so long, and tried going for it when You thought it was there only to have it be not it and after evrytime You bury all those longings and desires lil deeper...... so now.....i see in front of me what i think is really it......yet here i sit, shaking in my shoes, scared to death, but feel myself reaching out to it none the less......... makes it hard to breathe..... thoughts all over the place.... Hearts racing..... but ... I AM GOING TO OVERCOME MY FEAR........ PUT FEAR WHERE IT BELONGS..... GONNA TAKE THAT CHANCE, AND JUMP!!!!

Happy Thursday My Friends
Just want to wish you all a wonderful day and say that our pool opens today!! I am too too happy. I love swimming and it's a marvelous way to exercise...not to mention, meet people! We'll be taking my sweet Onyx to the vet in a couple of hours and then diving in....enjoy your day too fubabies. Love, Deb xoxo

Random
So it's about 8am and I'm running on about 3 hours of sleep. Was up too late talking about things that needed to be said. I know, sounds like a weird combo. Anyway, I have completely forgotten the password to my online checking. Been trying to remember it since I sent my computer back, no luck. I called this morning to get my balance and I have more than I thought. Yay for me! Thing is I'm now stuck in what I should do with said money, lol. Do I take a small trip this weekend, buy a bling pack and trade autos with someone, or find a point whore to Fu-Marry? Also, nothing like finding texts sent the night before telling you how worthless you are. Really? I don't want to go to work this morning. I'm sure we are going to be busy and I just don't have the enough energy to deal with the stupid people I work with and the customers. I can only hope that my boss isn't too much of a bitch today. I'm also thinking about what I could do for my birthday. I have a few weeks left, that leaves

Great Orators Of The Democratic Party
Great Orators of the Democratic Party 'One man with courage makes a majority.' - Andrew Jackson 'The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.' - Franklin D. Roosevelt 'The buck stops here.' - Harry S. Truman 'Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country.' - John F. Kennedy (By the way, this is an exact quote from a speech given by Army Gen'l. Omar Bradley in 1953, just a few years prior to JFK using it in his inaugural

Embrace Your Life
"If there is a sin against life, it consists perhaps not so much in despairing of life, as in hoping for another life, and in eluding the implacable grandeur of this life." -- Albert Camus Have you taken ownership of your life? When we own our lives, we accept what we’ve inherited and the experiences we hold in our memories. We also lay claim to our right to create new conditions if we’re not happy with what’s come before. We assume responsibility for changing what does not suit us. We acknowledge our own special talents and skills, and truly comprehend our right to enjoy the journey. In short, we embrace the meaning and purpose, the mystery and the beauty of our lives. "Recognize that life is what you get when you’re born ... living is what you do with it." -- Jim Allen

Flashy Picture Thing
hey friends... so whats the going rate for making a gif thing with a few of my pics... what ever they are called... when they flash thru several photos...any ways i will pay bling or bling credits for it...i would like it asap since i did a blast today for myself and would use it as my default during... and i didnt think to solicit this before hand. talk to me as you were

Just A Vision [11/28/08]
AS I LISTEN TO SHIRO SAGISU WITH EYES CLOSED AND MIND CLEAREDONLY IMMERSED IN THE SOUNDS I HEARI ENCOUNTER VISIONS OF A PERSON RUNNING....RUNNING FOR HIS LIFEHIS LOVEHIS DESTINYWITH TEARS STREAMING DOWNSILENTLY SCREAMINGSCREAMING FOR A SUNRISEFOR A REASON TO LIVE IN A WORLD CLOUDED BY SELFISHNESSA MAN THAT WOULD DIE BEFORE BEING PLAGUED BY SELF INDULGENCEOVER TIME HIS SADNESS GROWSOVERTAKING HIS VERY BEINGAS HIS RUNNING SLOWS TO A COMPLETE HALTON A CLIFFHE LOOKS DOWN AT THE JAGGED ROCKS BELOWTHEN LOOKS BEHIND HIM SEEING NO ONE...WITH ONE FINAL TEAR STREAMING HE SLOWLY CLOSES HIS EYESAND LEAPS WITH ARMS WIDE OPENIN HOPES TO ENTER A NEW WORLD....BUT WHAT HE NEVER NOTICED WAS SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY NOTICED HIMAND WANTED TO CHANGE HIM FOR THE BETTERWATCHING AND HOPING HE WOULD NOTICE HER.........SHORTLY AFTERWARDS, SHE LEAPED FROM THE EXACT SAME CLIFFTO HELP HIM FIND WHAT HE WAS LOOKING FOR.....-Z-

~*~rip Jamie~*~
Well, almost another week has gone by.... and things are getting easier. It's been about 2 1/2 months since Jamie took his own life. I heard the song "Why" by Rascal Flatts while getting ready for work, and all I could do was think of him. I don't know why... but it just seems like a vacation, like it isn't even real. Just wanted to say that I love you Jamie! I'll see you again one day... but hopefully NOT too soon..... guess he still has a plan for me, eh? WE MISS YOU!!!

Nobody's Home
Well, I couldn't tell you Why she felt that way? She felt it everyday And I couldn't help her I just watched her make the same mistakes again What's wrong, what's wrong now? Too many, too many problems Don't know where she belongs Where she belongs? She wants to go home but nobody's home That's where she lies Broken inside with no place to go No place to go to dry her eyes Broken inside Open your eyes And look outside find the reasons why You've been rejected And now you can't find what you've left behind Be strong, be strong now Too many, too many problems Don't know where she belongs Where she belongs? She wants to go home but nobody's home That's where she lies Broken inside with no place to go No place to go to dry her eyes Broken inside Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind And she can't find her place, she's losing her faith She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place, yeah She wants to go home but nobody's home

Who?
Just bc my name has the word P3nis in it doesnt make me a slut! I dont want to cam with you or get you off! I just like the name. The other girl goin around with my name is NOT ME! I'm The Original! P.S. I AM seeing someone and we ARE ENGAGED! So Sorry to anyone I used to talk to, we had fun and always remember me!! And FUCK OFF to anyone who's TRYIN to get with me!! I apparently DONT want you! LOL! On here for FRIENDS! Please and Thank You! Have a GREAT DAY! *Kkisses*!If you want a Friend add, you have to be at LEAST a level 5 with at LEAST 5 pics of YOU in your folders!!!!Rebel Flag Pics? DONT EVEN BOTHER TO ASK ME! I dont care how much you say that it's "heritage not hate" it is STILL a hate symbol to me! ANYTHING that is associated with and/or a symbol of the discirmination, stifling, suppression and/or repression of the African American people --or ANY minority-- is an abomination to me! Also, please, if you bash Obama in your pics or on your profile, then pls DONT friend request

New Technique
I had to wash the cat and came up with a way to do it without getting clawed and wanted to share this new technique. · Thoroughly clean the toilet first. · Add the required amount of shampoo to the toilet water, and have both lids lifted. · Obtain the cat and soothe him while you carry him towards the bathroom. · In one smooth movement, put the cat in the toilet and close both lids. Note: You may need to stand on the lid so that he cannot escape. CAUTION: Do not get any part of your body too close to the edge, as his paws will be reaching out for any surface they can find. · Flush the toilet three or four times. This provides a "power wash and rinse" which I have found to be quite effective. (Don’t worry about the sou

Love
There is no other word like it. its good, its bad, brings great joy yet can cause such sorrow. before in my life, love had cost me so much. i made choices based on that love that actually wasnt really there. but i see now that is where fate takes its turn in my life, and explans alot, because with those choices i would be the preson i am today... my heart would still be locked up behind a wall of pain... but that wall was knocked down once.. for all the wrong reasons... it left my heart open like a wound waiting to either be patched up or buried in a mountain of salt. neither really happened, so i began to rebuild my wall.. slowly and being selective to who i even let near it. that is until i made one of the greatest choices of my life. i said a simple hello, that unlocked so many emotions, so many feelings my mind was nearly overrun. the first hug, first kiss sent echoes of happiness through my being so strong my rebuilding wall just shattered, and your hands gently reached through th

Song By Trapt
"Black Rose" I saw you in the garden I wanted you so much I really thought that you were different Oh I couldn't get enough I tried to save you from yourself I felt every high and low now the lows have drowned the highs away now there's no where else to go Black rose your thorns are cutting into me for the last time Black rose I saw your petals wilt away I couldn't bring you back to life You were always where the sun could never go I never wanted you to have to be alone But I couldn't find a way to help you grow Black Rose You never tell me how you feel and your moods they always change I really tried to make it real but you never had the faith I tried to give you something good to take the pain away I tried to make you understand You don't have to be this way I'm not the one who hurt you So why are you so scared (I couldn't save you) (You are who you are) All that you've been put through couldn't be repaired (I couldn't break through) (we're too far apart)

Feeling
I lose myself in the pain of art not to feel happy and accepted but to realize I am alive… That is the latest status that cant begin to describe the overwhelming feeling of confusion and loneliness that plagues my mind. I find myself back and forth between numerous hopes of futures that are only baring down present goals. I try to use this pressure as fuel to help my struggling soul dive through a valley of darkness and pain, but the sorrow is so unbearable I see no way out. I circle around viewing my options, hoping for a break, some kind of gap for me to slip through and lift this burden off my shoulders. I see this small glimmer of light, maybe it’s my way out, venture toward the distant beam. Wrapped in solitude it seems so appealing, but like the valley it’s only a mask for its true ugliness. The feeling of being alone had chipped a small crack into my shell of hopelessness. Being alone pushed me over the already small edge my weathered fingers clenched tightly to year after y

...sigh...
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother!!!! I care about my friends! But FEEL there is a lack on their part.And get this... I have been told countless times that I don't know a damn thing when it comes to relationships!!! Bullshit! I have put 250% in any relationship I am in. Whether it be with a chick or a guy! And yes... even my exhubby! But... again the same cycles occurs!Is there something really wrong with me? Is it a bad thing to actually give a damn about someone? Yeah, I know I wear my heart on my sleeve. But that isn't gonna stop me from caring and loving my friends! I am not asking to be on their priority list. I could never ask to be #1. Hah... very unlikely! But it would be nice to know I am #5,394 or #141 or #83,172. I know, I know, I know! I am being a whiny baby! I am big crybaby! I never give up on anyone!!! I am not a quitter! I just don't drop anyone cuz I am bored with them or feel too "way out there".Yeah! I will admit I will close up when I feel threatened! I got

About My Life
My mom and dad got divorced when i was 7 years old. i was born in iowa and raised in washington. After my mom divorced she met a man named michael and he proceeded to molest my sister and i for 5 years. I was put into foster care when i was 12.My foster parents were really nice and they treated me and my sister just like there own. i still keep in touch with them. I started smoking cigarettes when i was 12 and i started to smoke pot when i was 16. that was my first mistake. I signed a contract with the state of washington when i was 18 stating that i would stay and graduate from high school. I was in 11th grade. after i graduated i worked at a mcdonalds for about a year. The guy i was with was addicted to pot and after a while he started to throw my dishes around the house. that is when i moved to montana the first time.I moved to montana because my mom and my sister live here. I lived with my mom for about a year and i felt like i was 12 years old again because her husband believes t

Life
To All My Friends Well my dear friends just wanted to give a update of things that are going on in my life I may be down in the dumps right now but with 3 out of 4 of my best friends in my corner I am slowly getting back on my feet I know what I have to do but it is just hard to fight with a man you fell in love with as a kid and then again after so many years but I have not talk to him in about a week now and I do not plan on talking to him unless I have to but not that I do not want to talk to him and remain friends I would love to but I am doing the things that I need to do for ME and only me now I can not let his negitive aditude bring me down any more I need to get back on my feet fine everything that I need for myself I will always be there if he needs me to talk to but as for any thing more NO NOT right now or ever and it brakes my heart to say it but I need to come frist Why oh why do men and brake ups have to hurt as much as they do when u have one person tring

Missile...
I was watching discovery channel and a small tidbit thing came on talking about golf balls and how the dimples on the ball make it minimize resistance,helping it fly farther... So...I'm thinking,What if you took a missile and stuck dimples all over the missile?wouldnt it fly farther? And ya i know a missile.a weapon.well its just an idea...so suck my cock...

Auto 11s Activation For Alternating Thursdays
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For My Military Men
My fingers shake slightly as I insert the key into the key slot of the hotel we rented. Entering the dimly lit room I look around to get my bearings. Letting the door close behind me, I put my bag next to the desk. Finding a light switch I find a note scrawled by you telling me to get comfortable, you'll be there soon. Can't wait Kisses yours truly. Looking up I see the hot tub. Yes! Pulling up my bag I search for the bubble bath I stashed in it. Walking over to the tub with the note and the bubbles I start the water. Watching it run into the tub for a moment I add the bubbles. Turning away I hear your card at the door. I wait holding my breath as you enter the room. As you let the door close behind you your head is down to pull the key from the door and setting your bag down. I run my hands through my hair as I wait for you to look up. You raise your head to meet my eyes. We just stand there looking at each other for a moment. Then we start to make our way to each other. Grasping me i

Machines Rage
cryptic cahos the doors of the unknowncontrolled by the mighty machines that dromewelled with fear we tense up insidetheres no place to run theres no place to hidethey consume us thy metal rips our fleshstanding fighting the enemy until our very last breaththe road to victory to much of a stride theyre gonna winbut some of them have to die for the planet raged in the age of machinesjust another evolution beyond our wildest dreams © WJA

Unseen Vision
The tables are turned the bridges are burnedNow just a shadow of my former self reflections disections former projections of the vision that revealed itself.changing the range swallowing my pain rebuilding my strength determining my fate. taking stride resuming pride from a ride that pushed me aside through turmoil and lies. lying in wait far to late to demonstrate emotional gratification. physical stimulationmind altering communication. Forever it is but a disguise there are notomorrows because they are all unknown lies. © WJA

Wednesday May 27, 2009
What terrible irony that he should find himself falling in love with the dark reflection of an old crush. He could see it happening, could tell where it would lead him but was powerless to do anything more than stare at her picture. Mesmerized, that was the word he’d been thumbing through his mind in search of. Minutes had been screaming past him, minutes he should have been focused on things other than her eyes, her delicate skin and the intricate tattoo on her chest. Some feeble and neglected part of him kept trying to tell him that it was wrong, that he shouldn’t want her, but he wasn’t listening. They were just images on a screen, at least that’s what he kept telling himself. Doing as he’d always done, try and talk or think his way back to the serenity of what had always been. He wanted more, at times had talked himself out of wanting more, but it wasn’t working. She always seemed to interrupt him with a smile and a gleam in her ey

Yep. Done.
Fuck you. Yeah, you. You too. There are so many people on this fucking site going around saying shit behind my back, and to "friends" who don't say a word about it to me, or in any way to stand up for me. I don't need any so-called friends like that. If anyone wants to spread or believe that I molest my daughter, or tried to set up Sam (MsMojito) to rape her, fine - be my guest - I see my daughter every weekend, unlike 95% of the so-called Dads these days, and am an AWESOME dad. Sam talks to me just about every other day, and will definitely straighten out the sick fucking fat bald jealous jobless fuck (yea, YOU Van) that started this, because he was jealous that she'd sleep with him, then run outside (cuz she had to hide from him that she was calling a guy, she wasn't "allowed" to) and call me afterwards... She and I spoke on the phone, from the minute we woke up (on cam, sleeping) till the minute we went to sleep (still on cam), for many months... funny, you'd think if I was t

Red White And Blue
I wrote this for Memorial day for another site and thought I would post it here. Red White and Blue She awoke this morning with tears in her eyes. Some things just never get easier she thought in fact some things get harder. She knew it was time to get the children and grandchildren up and fed. They had come home for this day as they did every year. She could deal with birthdays and anniversaries alone, but even after all this time, she couldn’t deal with this day. They would have come this year anyway as she was to make a speech today and there was no way they would have missed that. As she lay back with her eyes closed she could still here the shots. Bang! 7 shots rang out. Bang! Again 7 shots went out. And finally, Bang! the last 7 shots rang out. The bugler started to pl

Rough Start Here It Seems
So I am new to this fubar site have no clue whats going on, atleast it seems active and I guess thats good. so far though it seems I have pissed someone off, alice cullen I think was her name, oh well guess you can't get on everyones good side. Anyways hope everyone is having a good time.

Couple Celebrate 81st Anniversary
Stories like these always bring a smile to my face and fill me with great hope that one day I'll find the same type of Love one that lasts forever.My parents were together till there 41st wedding anniversay until my dad passed away. Married in a literally bombed out Catholic Church in Bavaria Germany at the end of World War II.My grand parents made it until their 62st. Married the year my grand father returned from the front lines of World War I "The War to End All Wars."Interestingly enough my Grandparents Adam and Martha gave the same exact advice as Frank Milford (in the story belowl) Adam "If you think its going to be story book marriage happliy ever after your dead wrong. She's going to argue with you, disagree with you and times boil your blood pressure with her stubborness to see things your way. But thats the beauty of it. For in her challenging you and going up against your male ego She makes you a better person for it fore you begin to see the world therw new eyes 'her eyes'

Family
Well just wanted to write a lil somethang bout my dad! So its goin on four yrs since hes been gone...Its a sad thing but i love him with all my heart hesmy best friend! Hes the sound of a harley far away and his spirit is with me everywhere i go! Along with my mom and step mom yall are missed terribly!

Let's Meet Tomorrow
I have a meeting tomorrow that could well determine my fate as far as employment at my current job goes. The latest news is we can stay as long as we have the money to pay ourselves a month before. Not really a terrible proposition, just a lot of pressure applied to closing deals. If I do get to stay, I may not stay long. The antsy part of me has been fired up since hearing I may have to leave, and is looking toward a new job/location. I may have mentioned this before, but that part of myself scares me. What if I have to have that change every couple of years or else I go crazy (more so than I apparently already am)? Being uncertian always seems to be my downfall. Wonder if I can work on developing my psychic abilities to tell the future. Hah, if only. I've been quite irritable today, every little thing seems to set me off. I need a calming influence in my life. I downloaded one of those white noise programs for my phone, maybe the sound of a thunderstorm for a few hours might help

And Here..we...go!
So..Friday i'm adding to my gallery of body art. I have much to do since the shit head artist I used to go to when I lived in N.O. didn't know the first thing about actual tattooing. Just because you have a tattoo machine and a shop doesn't make you an artist. Trust me, I know. So...I'm adding to my "darkside" theme on my left arm and I'm gonna get a lil something for my stomach. I don't have abs of steel but I don't care. My caring days are over! if you want a sneek peek at what I'm getting..I've made this blog NSFW so don't whine n bitch if you're some goody-two-shoes feminist. You were warned.. You have entered The Tiger's cage!

Man In Black
I'm just looking at a man in black. He makes me want to have him in my bed. I dismiss that idea immediately because that just wouldn't be possible. Here I am a lonely, horny woman and Mr. Man in Black would not be in interested. Wait, maybe he is! He keeps staring at me! Man in Black is staring at me Hard. Like he's undressing me with his eyes. Is he thinking about me the way I'm thinking about him? I'm thinking about pulling, no Ripping his clothes off and pushing him on to my bed. Having him rub my body, squeezing my ample hips, kissing the tops of my breasts and nibble on my nipples with his teeth grazing the nubs, bringing intense pleasure to my aching body. Closing my eyes in that little cafe with Mr. Black watching me as I tantalize him in my mini-fantasy. My tongue darts out to lick my lips sexily. I can feel how hard he would be my thighs as we kiss, he'll devour my mouth and I follow along. I'm loving his mouth. His lips would be soft yet hard when they need to be. This is a

Makes Me Sick
my own little brother just getting done telling me that only white people belong in America. so should he tell my Mexican Aunt that? my black friends? my asian friends? my puerto rican friends? HIS jewish friends? i want to understand the hate because i dont get it. from such a young mind too. how bad was he and his pals injured by non-white people? did the south american migrant workers give them their DUIs? did black people force them to be high school drop outs? did jewish people force them to lose their jobs for not showing up? or being too fcuking drunk and lazy to live up to their own responsibilites? im sick of it! sure joking is fine..sure stereotypes are funny...im part Polish i get it loud and clear "brotherrrrrrrrrrrr". im not trying to be another race or a race traitor or too "leftist"...im being a human adult in the 21st century. i dont care that the president is half black. i dont care that hes half white either! that obviously hasnt changed the hate amo

Lessons From Aunt Grace - A True Eye Opener
Lessons From Aunt GraceThis is very well worth reading by all of us..................The day we moved away I hit bottom. Saying good-bye to my friends and to the house I had loved made me feel as though my moorings had been ripped loose. Now, in what my husband kept calling "our new home" (it wasn't new, and it wasn't home), I was so awash in self-pity that I almost ignored the white leather book I found while unpacking an old trunk. But something prompted me to examine it.The gold Victorian script on the cover spelled My Diary. Opening the book, I recognized the spidery handwriting of my great-aunt Grace, who had lived with us when I was a little girl. Aunt Grace belonged to a species now extinct - the unmarried, unemployed gentlewoman forced to live with relatives. All the cards had seemed to be stacked against her. She was plain-looking; she was poor; she was frail.Yet the thing that I remember about her was her unfailing cheerfulness. Not only did she never complain, but she never

Fu Marriage Announcement
First off, I'd like to say sorry in advance for the site glitch in which you all did not receive your formal announcements.Everyone had the right to be informed, and come celebrate with us,hence the reason for this blog. Without further ado, I present to you Princess Leia (Lauren)and DJ Army Medic (Chris), fu-married on 5/23/09 at 10:30pm.Princess LeiaDJ Army MedicHappy hours, Cherry Bombs, Auto-11s, Blasts, whatever gifts you'dlike to give us at this time to help us celebrate our fu-marriage,we can now accept.

Go Fuck Yourself
I'm so sick and tired of people getting all pissy over things I do on here. Am I not allowed to have my own feelings? Am I not allowed to say that I don't think I could look past something, but still love someone? Who the fuck even knows what type of love I'm talking about. I tell most of my friends and family on here. Just because I tell someone I love them does NOT mean I want to be with them. Doesn't mean I'm in love with them, that I want to spend the rest of my life with them. Just means I love them, as a person. Now for your status changes. I'm so glad that you feel the need to make your status about me. And as for me being two faced..not at all. I dont' give a fuck though. You can think whatever the hell you want. I'm done trying to explain myself. I'm sure this person will have someone read this for him or he'll try to come see it himself. Whatever.

Random Crap
1. MIDDLE NAME? Eric ...Thats all u get to know for now lol 2. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? N.J.3. FAV. PIZZA? Pepperoni,onions,gr.peppers,blk. olives 4. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No not yet 5. DREAM JOB? Nascar driver...... Hell since i drive like one lol 6. DO YOU USE SARCASM? UMMMM AHHHHHH lol 7. MARRIED? No not yet 8. LAST BROKEN BONE YOU HAD? My nose was shattered 9. COKE OR PEPSI? Diet coke 10. IF YOU ANSWERED NO TO #4 BOY OR GIRL FIRST? Girl always wanted a daughter11. PLACES YOU WANT TO VIST OUT OF THE U.S.A.? Greece, Italy and Brasil12. WHAT YOU DOING RIGHT NOW? Are you kidding me? Answering this thing lol 13. FAVORITE DRINK? Coffee drink way to much 14. DREAM CAR? 69 firebird 15. Where you ever truely been in love? Yes once16. FAV. FAST FOOD? If i have to Burger King 17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Family members that have past 18. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My cuz19. Fav. Football team? Da Raiders baby 20. Wawa or 7-11? Wawa of course 21. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU