Today is the start of another wonderful day, I'm quite emotionally a wreck now I found out. I helped my daughter pack to leave for a year during the day yesterday. This will be my first full year without having custody of my daughter and I'm worse then I thought I would be. She tells me she loves me and its okay. She tells me to be strong, and she is 9. I cant help but hurt. This being said if you notice like most of you have that all of the sudden I am not cocky, outspoken and my normal self you aren't alone. Messages have been pouring in pretty much the past 2 days and all I can really say is I am sorry and will try to be more chipper for all of you. Its a huge loss for me this year, but I will have to get used to it. I havent had to let her go for so long before so all of this is very new to me. Thanks, to all of you for your continued support and love and prayers. It does mean alot to me, and I'm sorry I have put alot of you on the sideburner. There is just alot going on in my head right now. I Love you guys!