Some days it is hard to put what you are feeling into words, when you know in the core of being that something is not right yet you don't know what it is. You try to push the annoying nagging feeling to the back of your mind and forget it, and for awhile you forget about it. But it is always there under the surface and when something triggers that unknown want it builds from a tiny ripple to a tidal wave and crashes into your soul. Maybe the reason this want is unknown is because I have let the hope inside of me die. This unknown desire only lives on the side of hopes and dreams that are thriving, but now all that is left in my soul is a faint remnant of believing in better things. Maybe one day soon my hope will be resurrected and I will finally know what this thing that is missing inside of my heart............Then the chapter of getting this unknown desire begins. It may never happen but still it is a good dream.