jerry's blog: "Lost Serenity"

Today was one of those days that started off good and then ended on a sour note.Its been quite a change from last month to now.Starting over from scratch to build a new life is proving to be a challenge due to the fact that while working on the new you have to still deal with the old.At the end of the day I often time am thinking of what adjustments I need to make to continue on my new journey.However past decisions are proving to be a drag.Whether it be a relationship dealing with the x or a dipshit business partner.I do understand that there are people dealing with more than what my situation may be.So I must solder on not only to prove to myself but also anyone else that I can overcome.Over the past couple of months FUBAR has become an intricate part of moving forward for me.I was a little reluctant to put myself out there on this site but I needed an escape from all the crap.I am becoming comfortable on here to the point I can open up to keep from going crazy and meet great people in the process.I want to say here that I really like this site and all the fun things you can do here.Its kind of strange,you can rate,fan,become friends with or let people become part of your family which in my case is hard to get into.So whether you like me or not I can always pick and chose who I find to be someone I might or you might click with.No pun intended.Just the opportunity of interacting with people you may never meet in person and sharing who you are and what you are about has an appeal to it that I like.So after an evening filled with a bunch of bullshit drama its nice to come into my new living quarters cut on my pc and see the few people on here who take the time to buy me a drink,rate me or send a chat message really takes the edge off.I am really shy at times and really don't know how to approach people.I am growing here and I hope that I meet the one I feel I can achieve a fulfilled and happy life with here as well as meet great new friends in the process.So thank everyone who is involved in making this site what it is.Thank you for keeping me up when I feel down.Love is here!!!