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IT IS FUCKED UP HOW I GET TOLD TO TELL MY FEELINGS AND NOT BOTTLE THEM UP BUT WHEN I DO IM DOING WRONG. SO DO I SAY WHAT IS ON MY HEART AND HOW I FEEL OR JUST KEEP IT BOTTLED IN CAUSE IM DAMNED IF I DO AND DAMNED IF I DONT. IT IS LIKE GETTING TOLD IM IN LOVE WITH YOU BUT UR NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME . I AM TO THE POINT OF SAYING FUCK IT AND GIVE UP AND SHUT COMPLETLY DOWN IF I DIE I DIE IF I LIVE THEN I LIVE BUT WHY SAY HOW I FEEL WEITHER IT BE ON THE PHONE IN A LETTER IN A EMAIL OR ANYWAYS WHEN IT DONT MEAN A DAMN THING TO THE PERSON I WRITE IT TO OR TRY TO SAY IT TO.. AND WHEN I DO I GET TOLD IM PRESSUREING WHEN ALL IM DOING IS SAYING MY FEELINGS INSTEAD OF BOTTLEING THEM UP AND LETTING THE HAPPINESS STAY IN SIDE OR THE PAIN STAY IN SIDE FUCK IT THE MOTHER FUCKERS THAT CAUSED ALL THE DRAMA AND THE PAIN IN MY LIFE CAN KISS MY FUCKING ASS CAUSE KARMA IS A BITCH AND IM THE REAPER
I CRY TEARS OF BLOOD EVERY NIGHT MISSING YOU . AND IM AFFAID TO TELL YOU CAUSE I FEEL AS IF I YOU WOULDNT BELIVE ME . I DONT LET MY HEART SHUT DOWN . I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER ON KEEPING IT FROM SHUTTING DOWN .. WHY DO I BOTHER LISTENING TO MY HEART ALL IT DOES IS GET ME HURT AND MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A DAMN FOOL. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER WRITING MY FEELINGS DOWN AFTER ALL THEY ARE JUST WORDS THAT ARE OVER LOOKED AND NOT TOOKEN TO HEART OR INTO CONSIDERATION.. I STAND BY WAITING FOR THEM WORDS AND HOLD ONTO HOPE WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER. THE ONLY ANSWER I CAN COME UP WITH IS THAT I LOVE YOU MORE THEN LIFE ITS SELF SO THERE FOR THAT IS WHY I BOTHER. MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL RELIZE U GOT THE TYPE OF MAN YOU SAY YOU WANT STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU WITH OPEN ARMS AND A HEART FULL OF LOVE FOR YOU AND NO ONE ELSE ...
WHY CANT I KEEP YOU IN MY ARMS NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO . WHY CANT I WALK AWAY FROM YOU EVEN IF I DONT LOOK BACK. WHY CANT I PUT INTO WORDS TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME . WHY CANT I TELL YOU THAT YOUR MY WORLD MY LOVE MY LIFE. WHY CANT I KEEP FROM LOOSEING YOU EVERYTIME
AS I WALK THREW THE VALLEY OF THE DEATH I SHOW NO FREAR. THE ONLY FREAR I FEEL IS THE FEAR OF LIVING MY LIFE WITH OUT YOU. YOUR THE REASON I AWAKE IN THE MORNING AND COUNTING WALKING THREW THE VALLEY OF DEATH. THOUGHTS OF YOU AWAITING MY ARRIVAL WITH ARMS OPEN WAITING TO HOLD ME TIGHT AGAIN GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FACE THE EVIL THAT AWAITS ME IN THE VALLEY I WALK THREW. IMAGES OF YOUR FACE BRIGHTEN UP MY PATH THREW THE DARKNESS OF THE VALLEY. THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE IN MY HEAD KEEPS ME ALERT TO ALL THE DANGOURS THAT AWAIT ME AHEAD. MY BIGGEST FEAR ONCE AGAIN IS THAT I CARRY IS ONCE I ARRIVE OUT OF THE VALLEY OF DEATH THAT YOU WILL NO LONGER BE PART OF MY LIFE. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND NEED YOU IN MY LIFE EVEN AFTER DEATH SETS IN
AS I WONDER THREW LIFE I AM NEVER WANTED BUT ALWAYS WANTING . I AM NEVER SEEN BUT ALWAYS WATCHING. AS I WALK ALONE I AM NEVER MISSED NOR EVER LOOKED FOR. I AM NEVER HEARD FROM THE DARKNESS WHERE I ROAM THIS LIFE OF MINE. I AM LIKED BY MANY ATLEST I AM TOLD. BUT I AM NEVER LOVED BY A WOMAN. AS I LAY IN THE DARKNESS I TELL THE GODDS I AM READY FOR MY FINAL RIDE DOWN INTO THE TODAL DARKNESS. I PRAY THAT THEY TAKE ME ON THAT FINALY RIDE INTO THE ETERNITY DARKNESS SOON. MY LORDS AND LADIES I AM SO READY FOR MY FINAL RIDE OF LIFE. SO IN THE PROTECTION OF THE DARKNESS I AM NEVER WANTED I AM LIKED BUT NEVER LOVED I AM NEVER MISSED NOR AM I EVER LOOKED FOR. I AM JUST WONDERING AROUND ALONE WANTING THE PAIN TO GO AWAY FOR ALL OF ETERNITY . I ALREADY KNOW I WOULD NOT BE MISSED NOR MORNED OVER. ONCE I GO ON MY FINAL RIDE THERE WILL BE NO TEARS SHEDDED OVER MY LEAVING OF THIS WORLD FOR GOOD. WILL NEVER BE MISSED LOVED WANTED NOR LOOKED FOR EVER AGAIN.
I LAY IN BED NEXT TO YOU AND WATCH YOU SLEEP WITH THE QESTION OF WHAT IS GOING THREW THAT BEAUTIFUL MIND OF YOURS. YOU LOOK SO PEACEFUL AND INNOCENT LAYING THERE WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED. I WHISPER JUST LOW ENOUGH FOR YOU TO HEAR I LOVE YOU AND HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE. YOU ARE MY WHOLE WORLD AND UNIVERSE. YOU ARE ALWAYS ON MY MIND WHEN I AM AWAY FROM YOU AND WHEN I AM LAYING NEXT TO YOU WATCHING YOU SLEEP. YOU ARE AN ANGLE FROM THE GODDS AND GODDESS'S SENT INTO MY LIFE FOR A REASON. JUST THEY WILL NOT TELL ME THAT REASON. YOU ARE SO PREIOUS TO ME YOU ARE MY WOLD AND MY BEING IN MY LIFE. YOU ARE ALSO MY BEST FREIND IN THE WORLD SOMEONE I CAN TELL MY FEARS AND JOTS WITH. I CAN EVEN TELL YOU WHAT IS BOTHERING WHEN I CANT TELL ANYONE ELSE. MY LIFE IS NOT COMPLETE WITH OUT YOU IN IT. AND I HOPE ONE DAY I WILL KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN YOUR MIND AS YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL
IT HAS BEEN MADE CLEAR THAT I AM TO BE KEEP IN DARK AND HIDDEN . NO ONE TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE IS TALKING TO ME OR EVEN WANTING TO BE WITH ME BUT THEN AGAIN I DONT BLAME THEM SEEING HOW TROUBLE JUST FALLOWS ME AND IM JUST PURE EVIL.. I WILL JUST STAY IN THE COMPLETE DARKNESS AWAY FROM THE LIGHT AND EVERYONE TO KEEP THEM SAFE
I LAY AWAKE AT NIGHT LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURE WISHING I COULD HEAR YOUR VOICE OTHER THEN IN MY HEAD. I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS CAN BE SAID. I REALIZE THAT I DID ALOT WRONG IN MY LIFE AND THE BIGGEST WAS LOOSING YOU. I FELT I LOST YOU WAY BEFORE I REALY LOST YOU. I TRIED TO SAY WHAT WAS IN MY HEART BUT THE WORDS JUST DIDNT COME OUT RIGHT. YOU HAD BRIGHTENED UP MY LIFE SO BRIGHT THAT I HAD TO CLOSE MY EYES. I WAS SO USE TO BEING IN THE DARK AND YOU BROUGHT THE LIGHT INTO MY LIFE AND IT BLINDED ME. BUT NOW THAT THE LIGHT IS GONE AGAIN I MISS IT SO MUCH AND MISS YOU MORE. WE HAVE DONE AND SAID THINGS THAT SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN SAID OR DONE. NORMALY I WOULD BE UPSET AND WANT TO TAKE ACTION ON IT BUT I HAVE NO DESIRE TO. I JUST WANT THIS DESEASE INSIDE OF ME TO DO ITS JOB AND EAT ME ALIVE AND FINSH ME OFF. I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DRAW MY LAST BREATH. AND WILL CARRY YOUR LOVE WITH ME TO MY GRAVE AND BEYOND
YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND THAT YOU WANTED ME AS MUCH AS I WANTED YOU. WHEN TIMES GOT ROUGH I KICKED TO THE CURB. I STILL CARRY YOU IN MY HEART AND SOUL. THEN THEN AGAIN IT IS THE OTHER WAY YOU STILL CARRY MY HEART AND SOUL WITH YOU. I NOW WALK AROUND WITH AN EMPTY SHELL BODY. YOUR VOICE STILL RINGS OUT IN MY HEAD EVERYDAY AND NIGHT. YOU TELL EVERYONE WHAT A BAD HORRIBLE PERSON I AM. WHEN ALL I HAVE EVER TRIED TO DO WAS MAKE YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND FULLFILL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE. NOW THE ONLY WAY I HEAR YOU IS IN MY DREAMS. I AWAKE WITH TEARS CALLING OUT YOUR NAME WHILE LOOKING AROUND IN THE DARK FOR YOU. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY WORLD AND MY LOVE AND THE WOMAN I WANT TO BE WITH AND CANT LIVE WITHOUT
I SAID I WOULD NEVER MAKE YOU FEEL WORTHLESS OR SECOND BEST. I TRY TO DO WHAT I THOUGHT WAS RIGHT TO PROTECT YOU AND NOT MAKE YOU FEEL THE WAY I HAD. YOUR NOT THE ONE THAT IS WORTHLESS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. YOU WERE AND STILL ARE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE... I AM THE ONE THAT IS WORTHLESS PEACE OF SHIT. I KNOW IN MY HEART YOU DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER THEN ME. SOMEONE THAT IS NOT ALWAYS GOING TO FUCK THINGS UP WHEN ALL I TRY TO DO IS WHAT I FEEL IS RIGHT TO KEEP YOU FROM FEELING WORTHLESS AND TO KEEP STRESS FROM YOU SEEING HOW YOU DEAL WITH ENOUGH. IF I COULD GO BACK AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN I WOULD NEVER DO THE SHIT I HAVE DONE TO TRY AND MAKE OUR LIFE TOGETHER BETTER. SO ONCE AGAIN CAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY AND BEING A WORTHLESS BASTARD PEACE OF SHIT I WALK ALONE THREW THIS WORLD.. CARRING THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU WITH ME UNTILL THE DAY I DRAW MY FINAL LAST BREATH. THERE WILL NEVER BE ANYONE TO TAKE THE PLACE OF YOU IN MY LIFE HEART OR SOUL. YOU STOLE MY HEART AND SOUL MANY MANY YEARS AGO BUT DUE TO ME BEING A DUMBASS WORTHLESS PEACE OF SHIT I KEEP FUCKING THINGS UP. YOUR MY WORLD AND MY LIFE SO NOW THAT I HAVE LOST YOU ONCE AGAIN I SHALL WALK IN THE DARKNESS WITH NO HEART OR A SOUL JUST GOING TO STAY IN THE DARKNESS AND FALLOW THE PATH OF LONELYNESS I HAVE SET UP FOR MYSELF FOR ALL OF TIME. I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND WILL UNTILL THE DAY I DRAW MY LAST BREATH AND WILL ALWAYS CARRY MY LOVE FOR YOU WITH ME FOR ALL OF TIME EVEN BEYOUND THE GRAVE. YOUR A BEAUTIFUL SEXY ANGEL AS TO WHERE IM THE UGLY EVIL DEMON THAT CANT LIVE LIFE IN THE LIGHT WITHOUT YOU. I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL FOR ALL OF TIME
