XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "Real stories"

Up Early Today

I am really up early today , i heard the birds start singing , the felt light of the sun come through my window , and the bitter cold of the morning transand my space. It was so peaceful and till i heard the others wake. Some people are so loud they just have no idea how loud they are. Yelling from room to room , the neightbours must hate us lol .. I bet thier thinking gosg darn i wish they wouldn't be so lound we are trying to sleep up here. or maybe that's putting it too politely thier thinking shut Bleep up already .. Yeah that's probably much more likely .. Or in spanish Otra cosa, es muy fuerte. No es, "la maldita boca" sino, "la puta boca" u algo por el estilo.Cause our poor neighbours are spanish. So they probably think in spanish too at least part of the time .

Well anyway i'm up early today , i'm doing some volunteering with a group of mine , and were going  to make a difference today .I'ts really good to give back not because your told to , but because you genuinely want to something good for others . I'm looking forward to today and maybe seeing some people i used to see more .. Perhaps mending some bridges As time passes we'll if they remember me fondly or at all.

Story Telling 

Whether it's a gift or something learn , story telling can be a amazing thing . Sometimes you really just have to listen to what people have , not interrupt them just them talk , listen to real details . 

I've met many a person in my travels around the world , and i love to hear thier stories , whether im taking the bus or the train , or on a long flight to Australia .. I always like to meet new people and listen to thier stories , try to understand them and how they get through life .

It's amazing how much hearing the story of a complete stranger , teaches you something , gives u hope sometimes. It lets you know that we are all human , none of us perfect .. and the harder things get you meet other people who've been there and they have come out the other side. 

Today i helped a Lady , i kinda scared by realising how dangerous stress can be , i wanted her to know that stress kills. I told her about my mother that had died young because all of been being able to care of herself  but she used all her energy to take care of others . And i told her how it is to learn to do after your parent is the one who is a major role model . but sometimes i said you have to make your own traditions , and break free of the bad ones . Its so easy to blame our parents for everything  but if that's all we ever do ..Are we really taking accountabilty for our own lifes ? 

We as humans can excuses for anything but in the end , what does that mean ? and what do we achieve by doing this . I think its better to realise we are in control our own destinies . Sometimes we have to forge a long difficult path through but at the end of the we will still get there because we are trying .. whereas the people who don't try wont ... 

And having a positive outlook on life and adversity somehow inspires others , it's good to encourage each other. i lay myself bare on the page , but that its what writers do. 

On Monday they attacked our city ,We were all in shock , tuesdaywe were ready to fight back , as the week goes on our resolve gets stronger , and we can feel support from the rest of America. So many were affected by this.

I wasn't there that day , but only a couple of weeks ago i was doing a model shoot in Boston Common .. and now it crazy it think of what happened there . It like being a bad movie , it just doesn't seem real .. The news keeps playing the footage over and over again .. I feel a little numb ,Angry , confused , sad and concerned for all the injured and their familes .

I'm not myself  this week , the only thing i can really compare it to being like is 911 .. not by size but by devastion , one inncoent life is too much .. not only here in America but around the world too .. We're not used to seeing this stuff but over in Iraq ,and Certain countries in Africa its more normal .. Scary think that isn't it ? 

 A child suffering  opens our eyes to worst of humanity. A Child's death here in America  leaves a mark , leaves  a scar , puts a face on the tragedy.

My new Friend invited a few of us responsible adults over  a for lovely dinner party last night , it was very sweet. i think there ended up being like eight of us altogether including her kids.  We had platters of cheese to much on while we sipped our drinks , we had olives and pickles, and wheat thins , Our next course was a lovely meditaranian salad with tomatoes , red onions , cucumbers, mint , feta if we wanted it and sun flower seeds. Our third course was a marinated Chicken breast , with orange and yellow chopped peppers , and green beans , topped with a lovely mustard , balsamic vineger glaze . And the last cource was Desert a Chocolate cream pie , with bits of toffee, filled with chocolated pudding , cream on top  strawberries , more chocolates pieces of toffee, and a dizzle of chocolate syrup. Everything was so good and fresh . My friend loved the pie more then anything he'd been waiting for the pie all day . I must admit i normally don't desert but wow .. that pie was incredible and we all hung out in kitchen talking while she made it, it was good time had by all with little to no drama .I'm really grateful for that , and grateful  i was invited .

So yesterday i when got a break , my little girl went with her father to the Basketball hall of Fame , and they a good time , he took her out to eat afterwards and even got her a Basketball Jersey .She was smiles when she came home and i'm writing this down we we both can we remember the good times they had , I doubt she will ever forget this day ... Her Dad and her have a tough time getting to know each other but they love each other very much. I had to be grateful that he stayed around and has helped her grow up , noone is perfect and that includes me too , but a father that makes an effort is a good thing . Whether i'm with him or not i know he is important to her .. andher happiness is important to me. 

So i'm not going to stop trying to build bridges between us , because the bridges needed to be maintained and it wont always be easy but it will always be nessacary.

I went to church with my daughter and saw her performi n her play , and then after church we were invited to my Adopted american familys hose for church with all her family .. her house is lovely and very cosy .. They laid out a beautiful table .. complete with vase of flowers , her hubby had gotten her the other day .. And the food wow lots of creamy potatoes , two legs hams off the bone .. carrots , gravy , two types of peas , flaky biscuits , cresent rolls .. mmm it was so good .. and we all sat together and prayed and thanked god for the meal .. i ate so much my tummy hurt .. and the conversation never got boring it was really lovely .. and so nice to have somewhere to go .. and not sit at home .. missing my family back home in australia .. we had dessert too , Resurrection cake , shortberry cheescake .. and rice krispies yummm .. and then after all that the kids had an Easter hunt .. after the Easter hunt we all crowded into the lounge room to watch a movie together and laugh ...at al the crazy things that happened .. there was so much running commentary dujring the movie i joked it was the offical version..

My little sister is in germany today , where our mother is from. she's enjoying the lovely sights there ,and all over her facebook is pictures of everything she's seen i wish i was there with her .. She's fantastic and so intelligent . She's on a great adventure, shes also going to university there in Europe , i thought i was in switzerland but it might be in germany i'll have to check again with her . 

I miss her . sh'es alot of fun . we grew up together well sort of , till i moved to a different country , but i miss her all the time and wish i was a bigger parter of her life..

Positive People thier amazing

they make life so much more fun .. 

they encourage other to do amazing things , 

They amazing things themselves .. 

It's not not enough to stay in your comfort zone , you have to go beyong that 

 yuo have to deal with the real issues , that stop from living the life you want .. 

if you don't things won't ever change . 

You have to make them change , by your own words , your own actions .. 

and you have be around positive people who belive you can do things .. 

who believe in you more then you do yourself at times .. 

push yourself hard .. 

then pusher yourself even harder then that .. 

beleive in yourself 

And hopefully youll find giving me them something too , because theres too many takers in life . people who don't care about others , and don't care what happens to others ..

do you want to be a giver and give back and make this world a better place by doing so .. or a takers that takes untill theres nothing left to take ? 

giving requires sacrifice but it the end its worth it .. 

taking is easy .. 

we all need balance in our lives .. 

Everything in moderation is a great  standby quote ..

Long live positive People who make this world a special place!

I have a friend and amazing friend , shes adopted me .  this story today isn't about her its about a lady i met in the Nursing home last  time  All her  the family is in another country and she gets lonely too sometimes , we met the  last time my friend went to see a member of her family , and i asked to see her , this time we spoke , it was longer it felt more natural and i could see her smiling and we talked of German food  , and germany ,we even spoke a lil german together . it was fun , she was kind and sweet and hardworking all her life  shes what i call  a good soul .

We  chatted and chatted , and even forgot about the time and then when it was time to say our goodbyes, i knew i was going to miss her a little . as we were getting ready to say our good byes .

I thanked her for letting me visit once again .. she said please come back and visit me again .. i felt so touched i almost cried . I know what it is to be lonely. And when smiled  up at me i knew i was in the right place . i knew i was making a difference ... and that i'd be a great pca person / or home care aide .

I have a dream 

That my daughter will be treated equally .. 

The she will loved not for the colour of her skin 

But for her kind heart and soul 

I have a dream that she will do something to give back to humanity .. 

She touch lives with her kindness.. 

And that she will successful enough to give back to the community in which she lives .. 

I have a dream , that she won't let the racism around her poison her heart , but will she everything as challenge to overcome , 

to make things better .. 

I will always have this dream , and this love for eqaulity among us all .. 

I pray that others will keep this kind of dream  and  create own dreams for thier  children  as well .. 

Let us use love , instead of hate !!!

Let us use kind words to encourage rather then sad ones to hurt . avenge etc ... 

Lets us have courage to do the right things .. 

And let her Know that once i'm gone i'll live on in her heart , in her soul forever .. 

And may she continue to pass on the dream to the next generation ..