Subliminal's blog: "Subliminal Lies"

BLACK SABBATH . WARNING now, the first day that i met you. i was looking in the sky. when the sun turned all a-blur. and the thunder clowds go by. the sea began to shiver. and the wind began to moan. it must have been a sign for me. to leave you well alone. i was born without you, baby. but my feelings were a little bit too strong. you never said you loved me. and i don't believe you can. 'cause i saw you in a dream. and you with another man. you look so cool and casual. and i tried to look the same. but now i got to know you. tell me, who am i to blame? i was born without you baby. but my feelings were a little bit too strong. now the whole wide world is moving. because there's iron in my heart. i just can't keep from crying. because you say we got to part. sorrow grips my voice and i stand here all alone. and watch you slowly take away. a love i've never known. i was born without you baby. but my feelings were a little bit too strong. just a little bit too strong. now the whole wide world is moving. 'cause that iron in my heart. i just can't keep from crying. 'cause you say we've got to part. sorrow grips my voice. as i stand here all alone. and watch you slowly take away. a love i've never known. i was born without you baby. but my feelings were a little bit too strong. just a little bit too strong.

It's interesting... well, a lot of things are interesting. but at the moment, after talking to someone old... not by age, but i've known them... a little over a year... just commented on my mespace blog, actually, which is what got me to thinking. suicide is always a viable option. for a handful of reasons... but mostly, because it's the one thing we have control over. 

see, we do not ask to be born... sure, our parents do still have choice (thank fucking god), but the majority is in favour of breeding, right? right. but nonetheless, we still don't have a choice in the matter. we have no control over whether or not we're birthed, and brought kicking and screaming into this world... literally and figuratively. the point is, throughout our entire lives, we really don't have much fucking control over any goddamned thing... we get kicked and poked and prodded and moved along, we get left, we get happy, we get incurable diseases, whatever - no fucking control. the only thing we really have any surefire amount of control over is death. so, snuffing it is ... in some respect, it can be solely about having control over that one thing. it's one reason i'm a proponent of the Right to Die foundation. Dr Jack, he's a good man. he really is.

have you ever seen someone truly suffering from some wicked terrible disease that there's no cure for, and the only thing they have to look forward to is an insurmountable pain for the rest of their days? yeah, that'd be hell. so, let's look at these people who think the right to die is a bad thing, and most of them are these lovely cross baring fundamentalist christians... why they're against it, i'm not sure. i have a handful of theories ... that they're really not buying into their heaven shit, that they're a congregation of fucking sadists (they do wear a cross after all, where their saviour was crucified, sounds rather fucking sadistic to me), or something else. i don't know, it doesn't really matter, it's just illogical. these people are supposed to be compassionate, and they should be all for the Right to Die... they're all for the fucking Death Penalty, aren't they? yeah, most of them are.

Which is funny... because they're also usually, in this country at least, in favour of war. WAR!!! NUMBER TWO CAUSE OF DEATH! next to smoking, but whatever. I just don't get it. Their fascination with life.

They care about foetuses, and dying geriatrics. but... soldiers? people of a different skin tone? couldn't really give a good goddamn less. now, i am the first person to admit that there are some actual good christians out there, who really do practice what they preach, and stand up for it, no matter how illogical. they don't agree with war, and they understand that people are people and capable of free will, and choice, and they believe in heaven and they understand that suffering is not a good thing. It's just that the majority, or maybe just a bunch of bad apples, ruin the image.

Okay, now... I have a funny for you. Let's just say... as a for instance... one of these PRO-LIFE fuckers saves a foetus. said foetus grows up to be a doctor, a rather admirable position for most people. okay? well, this doctor, he ends up working in an establishment that does abortions. okay? so, what do these PRO-LIFE fuckers do? they... well, they blow him up. beyond the irony, i wonder how fucking pro-life these people are. they fucking KILL doctors? wh-wh-what? explain to me, please, who has room for this kind of hypocrisy?

right, i admit, that's a bit outlandish, maybe. but, let's continue on. with the same kid, saved by some pro-life faction, and the leader, we'll say is Timmy. the kid's name is Jimmy. i'm keeping it simple for you. well, let's say Jimmy commits murder? whacks his mother, maybe. Just for the double-irony. right? well, Jimmy will be on death row, assuredly. Matricide is usually frowned upon, and let's say it's so heinous, the judge says : "You're to be hanged until you are dead, dead, dead..."
So, on the night of li'l Jimmy's execution, Timmy is out there with a sign screaming that this man deserves worse. he deserves to be skinned and drug through the Bonneville Salt Flats. right? you've seen them, i'm sure. on television, or at least you've heard about the pricks. I just, I don't get it, i really don't, i really can't wrap my head around it at all.

It bugs me, on principle. While i find the irony hilarious, i hate the hypocrisy. it's illogical. and we all know, i'm a fan of logic.

But... yeah, back to the point. Suicide doesn't have to be a mopey thing, someone sick of life, just wanting to end it, and be done with it. Suicide, in some ways, makes a lot of sense. actually, i'm a big fan of death for people. and not in a gruesome, morbid way. but, the fact of the matter is, i don't think this life has much of a point. the most we can do is to be as happy as possible and have as much fun as possible. that's the reason we're here, to do our thing and move on. but, look at all the shit we have to deal with. disease, politicians, liars, fools, hypocrites, sadists, politicians, traffic, assholes, et al... the list goes on forever, of things and people trying to bring us down, to make us un-happy. and death? well, death is peaceful. they put you in a box and bury you six foot deep. sure, they don't let you out on weekends, but so be it, you don't have to deal with this endless stream of shit.

So, the point is, what's so fucking bad about DEATH? i know, it sucks for people living who have to grieve and all that shit... but, fuck 'em, they should've bit the big bazooka, too. they should be happy for you, but of course, the human condition includes being selfish welps.

Which i guess is what it boils down to. these people, they're selfish. and maybe a little sadistic. and even a little bit ugly on the side.

I just can't comprehend it. I wish i could, I wish I could make sense of people, but I can't, which is why i'm still here. sticking around, to try and answer the greatest riddle: WTF is wrong with you people?

Now, back to the war-time bit... We have these pro-lifers, well, they want to support the troops and support the war, which is a contradiction in terms. Support the troops, and bring them home. save their lives, and the lives of the people they're to kill on the Grand Poobah's orders. But, these pro-lifers aren't too concerned about the people we're at war with, are they? They want to see their olive-skinned hides made into lampshades. Not saying, all of them, but probably the majority. 51% at least. They're not practicing what they preach. And I just don't get it. I can't dig it, see. I'm all for life, once it's forced upon us. Not a big fan of people getting killed for no reason, but as i've said before, there are no innocent victims. only children, and they're the biggest victims of all... anyways, not to get off track. I think they should be brought home, but not necessarily for the sake of their lives... but, so these other people who really don't have much of a quarrel with us (well, they didn't before we invaded their sovreign nation) aren't being killed anymore for no reason whatsoever. It's the hypocrisy I disagree with, Support Our Troops, as they kill those fucks who don't act like us, look like us, or believe like us (and don't give me any shit, a lot of it is based on religion, fuck you)... it's just, it's fucked up.

On a side note: If religion were suddenly outlawed throughout the world, we'd actually live in peace and harmony. But I know it'll never happen, at least not in my lifetime, or my great great great grandchildren's lifetime, but I can dream.

Nonetheless... while I could go into why Children are the only innocent victims on this planet, I'm not going to, because, i don't feel like it, really. but also because, if i did, i'd have cut it out of some future thing, when i'm struggling on what to ramble about. Later, folks. Fuck off.