XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "Real stories"

I never said was perfect  im just me ... rather im striving to find a way to be humble .. Striving to find a way to be kind .

Sometimes the more friends u have the more you let them down .. But at the end of the day .. you have to try to let yourself down as well. The hardest person on me is me .. And if i gave up on me i'd be dead by now .. if i gave up me i wouldn't feel a thing , i wouldn't try to help a soul .. I wouldn't be me ..

my top epil fail is to procastinate .. 

I get scared sometimes .. and fear sometimes stops you from doing what you need to most .. 

And sometimes the other people or agencies your to use .. don't call 

One little step in the right direction is better then two steps back in the wrong . i'm careful where i place my steps .. I get frustrated too when my efforts seems in vain .. 

i get confused and distracted by others pain

But i won't give up on me .. i'm determined to have  a new life ... I'm determined to better me .. The hardest things in life are generalyl the  things we need to do the most .

Patience is a virtue .. being slow ot anger is a must .. having a sense of homour when it all goes bad .. is a quality i have .. 

I have so little right now in my life but i appreicate so much .. Whereas before when i had everything i threw it all away .. on lonely shopping sprees , and i barely had a true friend to call my own ..

even if everyone does give on me on me God will be there , his arms outstretched to hold me close... We all have fears and we all have failures .. We all have periods our lives where we struggle the most .

I have amazing friends in my life and amazing family both here and in real life !