Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Yet another Christmas all alone am I the only one
Another Christmas all alone with my unloaded gun
Sometimes I wished I got the balls to put some bullets in it
And maybe next Christmas will be a little be better, without me in it
I really want to run away, get away from the pain that lingers inside of me
And I don't know what I'm going to do when the time comes, I have my misery
They promised me that this would be the best year in a while
So I sucked it up and cracked a smile
For the sake of everyone else, Christmas bells
That go deep inside my head it hurts like hell
They can't tell cause I keep it locked tight inside this shell
Until I fell and when the coroner id said to the police
Please don't let this be what I thinks it's gonna be
I answered softly and then I quickly screamed
My parents died because of me
Because I wanted a real Christmas tree
Now I'm so much more alone than I was before
I really want to die so much more
I cry I want to die as I slowly hit the floor
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
What do you do when you've got nothing left
And what do you do when you want to hold your breath
Until you finally turn blue and slowly fade away
Life won't get any better no matter how you pray
I keep telling myself this is all a dream
I keep telling myself it ain't as bad as it seems
My parents will come back they wouldn't really leave me
I walked into the room close my eyes and keep dreaming
So now I sit up in my room and watch it fall apart
Just like my life I watch it shrivel up and slowly rot
I watch the snow as it falls so peacefully
It frees my mind and I start to go back to reality
I can't feel the joy this day's suppose to bring
My body's like a drone so cold I can't feel a thing
I slowly wait for death as I stare at the tree
This year's like the rest nothing there for me
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more