DJ ROB BLACK WOLF OF MISSOURI's blog: "some of my writings"

i know what is in my heart but need to put the heart down. no sence of keeping the feeling out in the open when they can not be showed back or shared. i just cant keep going like this so as of now i have incased my heart in a prison of stone. with no opens for light or anything else to get into it.

i look into your eyes and i get all warm all over when i am with you nothing else around us matters to me. then as i drive away the warm feeling truns to coldness.  your my whole. at one time i was yours. but now i m just there for a fimar face. it is like we never had loved at all

they all say im crazy for loving someone like you. some say  your out of my league and some say that im not good enough for you. others say that your not good enough to be in my life. i had you in my life once. but i pushed you away you say im your deariest freind. with how i feel about you just makes hearing that harder then it was before i ever told you what i felt for you. they was right i am not good enough to ever be with you. so as i fade in to the darkness i bid fairwell to you . i will be around in the darkness watching over you waiting for the day you want me or you can love me back

as i fade into the darkness i whisper in your ear that i love you and always will. you look around and im not there. it hurts for me to not be next to you. it is the way it has to be i tell myself it is to protect you but it is to protect myself. it kills me to know the love is gone. after being told that the love was stronger then anything

i see your face every where i look . i see you in my dreams at night. as i trun the corner i see your  face. i told you that i would always love you. but i wonder if i would ever be missed as a lover if i was to leave this  world today.

i once walked in the light with you be myside. i was full of warmth and love with you by my side. we had a wonderful life together so i thought. then one day the darkness came in as you left i felt the coldness of the darkness cover my whole body. my heart and soul is still full of love for you. my life has fallen apart since the day you walked out of my life. as i look back i relize that my life now is what i deserve for what happened between me and you

i never knew what love was or felt like untill the day you had came into my life. you was the most inportant thing in my life. you stole my heart right away. i walked away as i watched you walk away with my heart. my body and life is so empty now that your gone. as i sleep i feel your touch and love. i awake to find that your not there. i find myself praying for the final sleep or the answers to get your love back. i still love you and always will cause you still carry my heart wiht you

i have made alot of mistakes in my life. there are alot of them i regreat as there are mistakes that i dont regreat. the bigest mistaek in my life i wish i could go back and fix is the day i let you go. been told that i made a mistake falling deeply in love with you. to me that wasnt a mistake at all. my other mistake was giving up on getting you bad. i said and di something that was a mistake that i wished i never did. there are times that i feel i should die cause of all the mistakes i have done that hurt the one i love. my ultimate mistake in my life was not fallowing my heart instead of listening to other people