Crazed2APoint ENIGMA WRAPPED IN FOOLISHNESS's blog: "Crazed Times"

can't tell you how many times, i done lost my mind/ lookin at people straight faced while i tell em i'm fine/ it's not a lie i'm doin it for your own good/ save you the trouble of tryin to figure someone out who is chronically misunderstood/ i stood by the lord, cried a lil and poured my heart out/ he told me he only helps those who help themselves, so i stopped holding my hand out/ never bite the hand that feeds you but i did cus i was starving/ things were taking to long and i was starting feeling caged in/ locked in, my own personal pit of hell and sin/ sick thing about it is i learned from it so i would do it again/ trials and tribulations of all these random predicaments/ that got me looking on the inside at my heart that has permanent disfigurement/ can't get complacent though dry my eyes and continue to go/ i've become one with the pain, but also with how to let the rhyme flow/ used to hold on to grudges, asking for forgiveness was met with a word like no/ follow up words like ''but i swear i'm sorry'' was met with so?/ and i look back on it now and feel like a total asshole/ now i think about em while i continue to roll/ burned bridges because i held all my words hostage/ didn't rhyme it out now i have all this excess baggage/ but with everything that i write i seem to gain insight/ on why i feel like i go thru dark times even when its daylight/ i'm a human contradiction but i like to call myself complicated/ cus i'm actually a happy hopeful person and very dedicated/ to staying optimistic no matter how much the situation seems ill faded/ cus me and the devil mite have danced but we sure as hell is hot never dated/