destroy's blog: "†нέ΅ƒяąģιſέ΅яσċĸ"

i hear someone telling me to open my eyes
so i do and suddenly i'm towing over everything
i look to my reflection and all that i know of me has blurred
i squint my eyes to look into myself and i'm small; tiny even
i've faded away and i'm fuzzy like TV static
the steady thump of my heart hypnotizes me
but i'm still here even though everything i see has become strangely opaque
so i lose all sense of time and sink into the floor
i try to reach out my arms but i cant move
so i open my mouth to scream but no sound comes
i am stuck in a place with no windows or doors and no ceilings or floors
just this emptiness that suspends me in black and white
i feel no wind, i feel nothing on my skin
but i'm feeling smothered by this and tears well up in my eyes
i'm so afraid of myself because this void is my mind
with an occasional glimpse of myself looking distorted
in the bottom of a bottle surrounded by memories that are slipping away
and i'm stuck here

and there is nothing to comfort this pain of breathing