The freedom of choice and life and breath unencumbered
The loss of inhibition and guilt and the simple joy of being
Free to dance in the rain and play in the snow as it falls
One with the universe in a sense most of us can only dream
Joy so pure it makes you want to cry just to behold it
Perhaps more so knowing it is no longer your own
And saddened further by the knowledge that perhaps
It will never be your own again, you will never find it alone
Not anymore
Feeling the pain of innocence as clearly as if you yourself had fallen
As if your own small and simple excitement had been crushed
And feeling the need to protect and honor and cherish it forever
Because you've been through it all, and know it can only take so much
So you dance in the rain, and you live half outside yourself
And you throw everything you are into every day, every moment
Hoping in a slightly selfish way to feed off of that purity
To feel just once more as you know you once did, before you had to grow
Before real life happened
And you would die for that smile, would kill for that laughter
Would willingly storm the gates of Hell itself if need be
Because you know, deep down in your innermost self
That she is worth all you have to give. I love you Kali.