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Rough Draft
Everyday now I feel so empty deep inside It feels like my passion for everything has died My friends ask me how I am doing all the time I just lie to them and say I am doing fine I am no longer the person that I once was I have no answers other than just because It is just so hard for me to try to explain I see no sunshine in my forecast, just rain It hurts to be awake and it hurts to be asleep It is like someone has stabbed my soul so deep I feel like I am trapped behind my own prison's walls Not sure if I even want some to ever answer my calls I no longer know what it is like to be alive anymore I am in so much pain and everything about me feels sore I am not sure how much better off I would really be If my cage door was opened and I was allowed to fly free Maybe I would soar to close to the sun and get burned No lesson from my past mistakes having been learned

Round 2
well i just got a cal from her wanting 2 know if i still want 2 be with her and i said i dont care. i pretty much called her a lien _ _ _ _ _ ! she says she can make it all up 2 me. god im such a fuckn dumb ass. the worst thin gis that my boyz have talk 2 her and r attached to her. how can i let a women who lied and used me b around my boyz? im so pissd rite now im cryn, yes i said it IM CRYN!!!!i could just scream but my boys would b so scared. sometime i think they would b bettr off wit out me. but there mom cant even take care of herself. so i got 2 reach down and grab my nuts and keep goin on wit life. if it wasnt for them id run away live in d mountains away from everyone and live off da land and if i died alone. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I GOT 2 JUST GIVE UP A

Poem4 I Wrote.
you take away the pain of being alone, you make me feel like im not in this world on my own. everytime you look at me my heart skips a beat making it go slower and faster on a repeat. i love how you hold me in the night and love how ou wipe away the tears when i cry. when im with you everything becomes alright. when you kiss me i wonder y...before i met you i wanted to die; now its only when im not with you that i lie. lie to myself and to the world a fake smile parades the streets and greets the faces. i keep getting lost in all the mazes. my mind wont let me stop thinking of you , and i hope whereever you are youre thinking of me too because for me theres only you.

Poem3 I Wrote.
cutting and scratching at my skin crying to please let me in so i can bleed and watch the pain flow away. im searching or answers but the answers i find chase me farther away. im scared and running; i want to disappear because i dont deserve to be here any more.

Woohoo
35 DAYS CLEAN & SOBER AND COUNTING This is a record for me yall GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only thank my kids (I love you Luke & Libby) and Will, and my friends who've been there for me thru everything and put up with my shit over the last couple years. I wouldnt be what i am without my friends, im finally realizing who my true friends are. Weez i known u for 6yrs and ive been thru alot and u been there for me...I love u girl James, my god bro, u've known me since i was 11...and im 22..thats a long ass time...we both fell off the earth a few times, but u been there...I love ya hun...ill always be ur spex :p

Insane Radio
One of my good friends is a DJ for Insane Radio. They play awesome music and you should check them out. They play everything from Country to Rock-N-Roll. When you get to there website, click on the It's 5 O'Clock Somewhere picture and it will take you to there home page. From there you can read the staffs bios and check out their playlists. You can make request by using the buttons on the staff's playlists. http://www.insaneradio.us/

A Day In The Life Of Me.....
Ok this is my first entry on fubar....for some reason I think I like myspace better. This site is a bitch to navigate. Anyways....a day in the life... well, my life is just fucking peachy these days. Dont know if I can stand much more excitement or good fortune. If you believe that then I have some swampland in Az for sale!!! Had shoulder surgery, which went great, actually went back to work 2 weeks early only to twist my ankle in the parking lot of the hosp 2 days later. Just my luck!!! But I'll heal. I dont know half of the ppl on my friends list on this mother******. Sorry, I can be a bit of a potty mouth when I'm in a not so good mood. LOL. Anyone out there ready to cheer a girl up?

New Meaning To Dominate :)
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Dave Chappelle
Damn. I'm such a dirty girl. It just occured to me...I guess I can't put videos in my stash that have a string of expletives in it either. Still gets thrown into the "NSFW" bucket along with glistening, naked flesh, right? So here is my way around that.... Blog it, bitches!!! :D I have always loved this Dave Chappelle clip--the one of him acting like Samuel Jackson peddling his own beer. The original video was yanked from YouTube like TODAY (I watched it this afternoon and mere hours later, it is no longer available for viewing...), but I did manage to find this "Baltimore club remix" version which I think is too funny. Warning: You will probably only appreciate this if: 1) You know who Dave Chappelle is and find him funny 2) You are familiar with the original Samuel Jackson beer clip 3) Are not easily offended by rapid fire rounds of cursing with no redeeming social value. If you're cool with all that, then........Enjoy! :D Damn you, Fubar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Poem2 I Wrote.
roaming these overcrowded streets i never felt so alone. bobbing my head to the steady beat of my heart to remember im still alive. how could the world i created for myself be so cold and cruel? somehow i slowly become one of the few thats slipping through the cracks. i keep asking myself y, but maybe im not askin the right question. i always find myself running, but the thing is wat am i running from? am i running from myself? suffocating, watching my life pass me by like in the movies. dying isnt so bad, i guess; but its kind of lonely. my mind never stays put it just drifts from one disappointment to the others continually, roatating, driving me insane. just one hit and ill be fine, 20 bucks bitch cash, but too many narks hard to find sum1 to trust in this hell hole. the feeling i miss being so high im flying. but just how much am i willing to lose before it pushes me over the edge? am i going to have to die first. or am i already dead? i feel so lost. where do i belong if i feel i

A Poem I Wrote.
i hope this is another dream. im at home in my bed head on the pillow. y do these thoughts,visions haunt me. why me? i just want to be normal, a regular kid. although, i will never be normal, the voices will always intereign. it wasnt intentional to turn out this way, i got lost tryin to find who i really am. before i knew it the voices took over. "ur worthless,nothing it wont matter, no one will even care, just do it. kill." what do i do when the voices return, they will continually chant until i disappear. each cut makes the whispers softer, no one understands, i cry or help but no one can hear... i cant blame them , how are they supposed to help when i cant even help myself? the guns in my hand, the voices again... "trash, whore, wat are u waiting for? ur nothing, whos stopping you?" no. "liar, slut!" no. "pull the trigger!" no, stop please!! "pull it!" No, please! "NOW..." everything stops...silence, seeing myself from above pressed hard, gliddin

Midgets: Why They Would Make Good Pets
Midgets. Gotta love 'em! Most people don't agree with me when I say that midgets would make good pets. Actually, they tend to look at me like I'm a freakin' psycho! They just don't get it. A well trained pet that could perform better "tricks" than most other pets. Here we go. Midgets: Why They Would Make Good Pets 1. Already house trained. 2. They can clean up after themselves. 3. They can hold down the fort while you leave on vacation. 4. They can refill their own water dish. 5. They're midgets... and your pet. How cool is that!? 6. You can make a joke that your pet is a mini-you... and it causes good Mike Myers flashbacks. 7. You can make them do the housework. 8. Don't feel like cooking? Chef Stubby to the rescue! 9. You can dress them in costumes and have them wrestle other midgets. 10. If you find a good quality helmet, you can throw them! Midgets: Why They Would Not Make Good Pets 1. If you tell them to clean up after themselves,

W0o A Crush!
Okay, lol just thought I'd get that out there lol. my friend from the nazy is coming back in from florida next month for 20 days and said he's gonna come see me :D w0o!!!!! i haven't seen the guy since 7th frikkin grade, i can't wait to see him. childhood best friend right there.. wow i have a whole lot of nothing to say.... will post later

Journal Stuff
October 8, 2007 I promise not to hurt you. I may not have the best past, but I want to change. And I will. I'll do all I can to make you happy. I want to give you all you want and need. I'll be there for you anytime you need me. I can be your ideal woman. I just ask that you be there for me, and that you don't hurt me. Someday I may give you my heart, please don't break it. I think I've fallen for you. You make me so unbelievably happy, it's surreal. Do you feel the same way? My guard is still up, help me bring it down. Tell me honestly that it's ok to open up and just be myself. Let me know you are with me for me and not some other reason. but if you are, or things change, just be honest. I don't ask for much, only basic things. I've never really been a faithful girlfriend to anybody, but I want to change that, starting with you. I'll love you the best I know how, and try to show you a great relationship to the best of my ability. I want to be that girl that th

Cheese
is there anything better than cheese!! i mean come on!! cheese on pizza, cheese on noodles, cheese on chips, cheese on meat, just plain cheese!!! i mean really who doesnt love cheese!!! cause i know i sure do!!!

Wtf/ever
I don't usually read my horoscope, but thanks to Cristilee, I did and this is what it says... You've got something to say to your spouse or sweetheart -- or maybe that new crush -- and now is the perfect time to get it off your chest. Your way with words is almost magical and they'll see what you mean. Talk about a slap in the face..........damn

Dreamcatcher
Dreamcatcher - While many tangible aspects of Native American culture have found popularity in modern America, from moccasins to beaded bags, none seems to have resonated like the dreamcatcher of the Anishinabe. Although they have been given tribal names like Chippewa in the United States and Ojibway in Canada, the word that these people actually use for themselves is “Anishinabe” or “original people.” Straddling the border between the north-central United States and Southern Canada, these Native Americans or First Peoples have managed to continually occupy their original territories, unlike neighboring plains groups who were forcibly relocated. Because dreamcatchers can now be found everywhere from the tribes of the northern plains to groups in the Pueblo Southwest and even Central America, the origin stories of the dreamcatcher differ. Most, however, tend to at least share a similar use which, as the name implies, involves catching bad dreams while letting the good ones pass thro

Leaving Again
Its almost midnight. I have to leave in a couple of hours to return to West Virginia. I am leaving behind my husband, my son, & my cat. I am doing this for the greater good. I must find suitable housing, work, school, daycare, etc. I am feeling guilty about leaving my husband to handle so much of the work, but I am confident he can handle it. He has the support of friends and the Military will handle most of the move. I will miss them more than anything but will see them in less than a month. I just needed to vent a little.

Who Will Win It?
Saturday is the world cup final. against all odds current champions England have removed Australia and France to get to the final But they face South Africa now whom beat England in the group stages before England started firing on all cylinders Who will win? I want England to regain it but have to be realistic, I think South Africa are too strong and I see them winning it any opinions?

No Good To Me Dead Or Alive
ok some of you know that im a single mom.. with no child support at all.. well the sperm doner... is in jail for the child support and might face up to 10 years in prison for drug charges ( noted he was a one nite stand i got pregnant.. didnt know he was a complete loser.. so what does this teach us boys and girls. wrap it up!!! no glove no fun,,) so right now im thinkin he is no good to me dead or alive or in jail or out.. cuz he has been workin under the table. even if his dumb ass got killed lol my son wouldnt even get SS lol you have to work for um taxes and shit.. ok there is my rant

~prayers Needed~
IT SEEMS AS IF WHEN IT RAINS IT POORS IN MY LIFE AND FAMILY...I NEED TO ASK THOSE OF YOU WHO PRAY TO PLEASE KEEP MY SON IN YOUR PRAYERS...HE WAS IN A HORRIBLE AUTO ACCIDENT AND HE BROKE HIS NECK,BACK,RIBS AND HAS OVER 180 STITCHES ON HIS FACE. HE WOKE FROM A COMMA TO HEAR THAT HE WOULD BE PARALIZED BUT HE IS HEAD STRONG AND STUBBERN AND HE GOT UP AND WALKED.HE WILL NEED SURGRY TO CORRECT SOME OF THE INJURIES AND HE IS HOME RECOVERING NOW.tHANK YOU ALL IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYER AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Poem Written For Me By Forsaken
Just another stranger behind a mask, only words to your eyes from the past. Eminent hearts whispering from a distance, only adding pain to the resistance. Such as these hearts separated by more than time, can only find each other in this rhyme... Seek no further for what you’ve your lost, taking hold of this sacred has its cost. Imagine now what future times have to come, foundations built must come undone. Can you feel the grace upon your flesh, only a desire leaving you without rest Accept no one love greater than yours or mine, look to the heavens now is your time… Thank u so much...It's beautiful!!!

How To Stop People From Bugging You About Getting Married
HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

Re: Ed Brown Gassed, Tortured In Deprivation Tank
RE: Ed Brown Gassed, Tortured In Deprivation Tank ----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: Alex Jones Date: 17 Oct 2007, 15:10 Ed Brown Gassed, Tortured In Deprivation Tank In a disturbing audio clip, Ed Brown speaks for the first time since his arrest and relates how he was gassed by noxious fumes for three days in a detention center as well as being put in a deprivation tank for 15 hours. http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/october2007/171007_ed_brown.htm

Re: Illegal Irs Tax Protestor Ed Brown Gassed & Tortured By Feds
RE: Illegal IRS Tax Protestor Ed Brown Gassed & Tortured By FEDS ----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: We Are Change NYC Date: 17 Oct 2007, 15:45 From: The fool on the hillBrian[RONPAUL2008.COM]Date: Oct 17, 2007 4:15 PMDigg Ed Brown Gassed, Tortured In Deprivation TankTax protester speaks for first time since arrest in prison phone call Paul Joseph WatsonPrison Planet Wednesday, October 17, 2007 In a disturbing audio clip, Ed Brown speaks for the first time since his arrest and relates how he was gassed by noxious fumes for three days in a detention center as well as being put in a deprivation tank for 15 hours. Shaun of MaketheStand.com was able to call the Ohio prison that Brown has been incarcerated in and talk with him on the phone for 10 minutes. Sensory deprivation is a form of torture and extended deprivation can result in extreme anxiety, hallucinations, bizarre thoughts, depression, and antisocial behavior. Brown also said he had been p

Depression
Mrs. WitchDate: 16 Oct 2007, 09:49 Wake up and pay attention!Turn Up Your Speakers & Listen! Why do people commit suicide?Why do people cut themselves? Why do girls become anorexic and bulimic? Why do kids bring guns to school?Why do kids get depressed...so they start using meds, and abusing them?Why do girls feel the need to act like sluts to impress guys?Why cant people show their sexuality freely, without worrying about being judged?In the Bill Of Rights, it says we have FREEDOM OF SPEECH! So why are we so afraid to speak up for ourselves?I KNOW WHY! "Whores""Geeks"

Pain
It's hard for me to make this decision. I am going to make some drastic changes in my life and more then likely one of them is going to be leaving Fubar. if you want to reach me send me an email There is alot going on emotionally for me so i'll be absent for a while before i make the final decision. I hope each of you finds what you are looking for.

The Lovers
The Lovers Tarot Card Number 6 of the Major Arcana The sun shines at its zenith and beneath it is a great winged figure with arms extended, pouring down influences. In the foreground are two human figures, male and female, unveiled before each other, as if Adam and Eve when they first occupied the paradise of the earthly body. Behind the man is the Tree of Life, bearing twelve fruits, and the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil is behind the woman; the serpent is twining round it. The figures suggest youth, virginity, innocence and love before it is contaminated by gross material desire. This is in all simplicity the card of human love, part of the way, the truth and the life. The woman signifies the attraction of the sensitive life but she is part of a secret law of fate than a willing and conscious temptress. It is through her that man ultimately comes and only by her can he complete himself. The card is therefore in its way another intimation concerning the great mystery

Fight For It
WHEN THERES SOMETHING YOU WANT FIGHT FOR IT DONT GIVE UP NO MATTER HOW HOPELESS IT SEEMS EVEN WHEN YOU'VE LOST HOPE CAUSE YEARS FROM NOW YOUR GONNA LOOK BACK AND WISH YOU GAVE IT ONE MORE SHOT CAUSE THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE DONT COME EASY ITS THOSE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE TO FIGHT THE HARDEST FOR SO IF YOU WANT IT KEEP TRYING AND GIVE IT ONE MORE SHOT

Vessel
You are the last vestiges of a love once grand. The chosen one to carry the memories. You're the terrible statue, The one where they return to remember, reflect, and then pass on again. Who can save one so heavy? Could you be toppled, then carried in pieces, as broken as your soul? Or will you weather and stand, to wait for another, who stands silently ruined? Perhaps there will be comfort, knowing another pair of stone eyes will watch the same things fade in time.

Just A Thought
A thought for you my love. With you, I've learned what true love is all about. True love means staying together & being strong during the most difficult times. You & I have overcome life's challenges & we've also lived through wonderful experiences. Together, we've built a deep & lasting relationship. I know that I can always count on your support, your love, & your friendship. For that I want to tell you how much you mean to me... I love you

Feelings
LIFE IS TO SHORT GRUDGES ARE A WASTE OF PERFECT HAPPINESS LAUGH WHEN YOU CAN APOLOGIZE WHEN YOU SHOULD AND LET GO OF WHAT YOU CANT CHANGE LOVE DEEPLY AND FORGIVE QUICKLY TAKE CHANCES GIVE EVERYTHING AND HAVE NO REGRETS LIFE IS TO SHORT TO BE UNHAPPY YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE GOOD WITH THE BAD SMILE WHEN YOUR SAD LOVE WHAT YOU'VE GOT AND ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT YOU HAD ALWAYS FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS CHANGE AND THINGS WILL GO WRONG BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER LIFE WILL GO ON

Friends
A friend shares your happiest moments. He laughs with you, cries with you, & stands by your side...even when things go wrong. His friendship is constant & always sincere. A friend is wonderful...if he's like you.

Only One...
When no one is really there When I feel I've lost everything I remember that you truely care And realize that I have something When my life doesn't seem to matter You tell me you love me My tears seem to fade And I wish for better things to be Thank you for caring You seem to be the only one Thank you for sharing You make things better when my life comes undone! Written October 17, 2007 Deticated to Thomas

Thank You
How can I ever tell you how good it feels to share your love...to be a part of your life? You've given me so many happy moments that I wouldn't trade for anything...so many reasons to be proud of you & grateful for your love. Sometimes I may be pretty moody & hard to understand...but somehow you seem to know me better than I ever thought anyone could. And it's great to know that I can always count on you. Thank you for being the kind & caring person you are...but most of all, thank you for loving me.

Please Read Rules Of Fubar
I must remember that,I must not be so Outspoken when Fubar Fucks up.That Fubar is an Exsperimental Online Community.An I'm another Addicted Guest here an I must Follow their Rules or Loose my Priveledges to be here.It's good to be back. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ fubar.com is a social networking service that allows members to create unique personal profiles online in order to find and communicate with old and new friends. The service is operated by fubar.com, ("fubar.com"). By using the fubar.com Website (the "Website") you agree to be bound by these Terms of Use (this "Agreement"), whether or not you register as a member ("Member"). If you wish to become a Member, communicate with other Members and make use of the fubar.com services (the "Service"), please read this Agreement and indicate your acceptance by following the instructions in the Registration process. This Agreement sets out the legally binding terms for your use of the Website and your Membershi

Sacred Hearts
I sit here feeling the disease running rampant through my body. I feel the anguish, torment, and disdain coursing through me, I feel the bitterness, fear, and resentment burning in my veins. I was so fearful of losing you that I kept pushing you further and further away as I told you I wanted you closer to me. You always said that you never wanted to hurt me or break my heart and I used that to stab my own heart and desires while blaming you for my self-issued torment. I took you for granted and blamed you for it. Anytime you told me you cared for me or loved me I would look for a different meaning behind it, I could never accept it as truth without adding a cryptic message of loathing to it. Every other relationship I have had has been a failure stemming from my hatred of your pure love. I sit here and feel this disease coursing through my veins, destroying any and all hope of love from my body. I feel it numbing my emotions and turning all my feelings to coa

I Was Bored ..lol
i took all the test that people sent to me and here is what they all came up with Your Personality Is Idealist You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. Your Seduction Style: The Charmer You're a master at inti

Internet Love
If I see one more person (especially someone I know) put up a status that they "Love" so and so I am gonna frikin puke. C'mon, reality ck here ppl I mean seriously Love? You have never met this person...in most cases your not even in the same state, how the hell could u use the word love, I know there is a hell of a lot of lust, need and desire out there, but what a fuckin joke. And yes Im a bitter bitch at time, but that is why mosy of ya "Love" me. K done venting

Being Apart
Being apart from you is even harder than I thought it would be. I try to be logical & tell myself that it won't be forever. But that's not much comfort when I really need to touch you, kiss you, & love you. Sometimes I close my eyes & hold a picture of you in my mind & imagine all the things I'd say if I had you here. But no matter how beautiful the picture is, it will never compare to the real thing. To be looking into your eyes, whispering your name, & kissing your lips. I miss you so much, & I can't wait for the day when I can stop holding on to a daydream & start holding you in my arms again.

Kan Any One Be Really Nice Out There?
How kan u make a diffrence in tha world is there any one really nice out there? kan one person make a real diffrence? well i think it's true but u have to work so fucken hard to make a diffrenc it crazy!! But i guess in tha end it's all good! has any one change a person's life in there life time? Mine was this little gurl who lived with her mother of course she was a single mother with low income but it's seem's so tha norm now a day's. Well anyway's this child of 13 was sitting on the steps of this buildig looking so lost and sad!!! so i walked up and said hey what's going on why u out so late? so She answer's me i'm trying to stay away from home cuz mother is out parting and my sis at her friends and i'm by myself! And me i'm like woh!! mean!while i'm kinda buzzed from going out with some friends, so said have u eaten she's like no.NO nothing to eat at home and i rather starve so i was like why don't u wanna eat? she like wanna starve cuz no one care's and i thought what? Cu

I'm Back!!!
I've been on a hiatus to handle some personal issues. I also took down Pookies Playland and walked away from the graphics resource site for several months. But I really missed running it so I decided to create a new site called CustomizeLife.com. I was able to rescue more than half of the content that was originally located at Pookie's. Once I've uploaded everything, I'll be updating the site more regularly. If you have any suggestions on what you want to see, hit me up. And thanks so much to everyone who sent me gifts and sweet comments on my birthday. You guys rock!

Everytime I Think Of You
Everytime I think of you I smile No matter if I am sad & blue or happy & cheery I can't wait until I can see you again When I don't see you it seems like an eternity to wait I yearn for the day you can hold me in your arms And tell me everything is going to be okay Something tells me you are the one I've been waiting for all my life Now that I have you please never ever let me go

If You Love Someone, Set Them Free?
The Man I fell head over heels in love with suffers from Myeloma (Bone Cancer) and Leukemia. He is in stage 3 of his illness. It mean he is terminal. A short time ago he had an amputation. He also has a mass in his lungs. The progression has been devistating. It eats him away like a rapacious creditor. He daily struggled just to get up and breath sometimes. About a month ago we had parted ways for a few days. I knew at that time he was trying to push me away to spare me from the devistating disease tearing through him. Without faltering I did not go away. This time it is different. I think he honestly wants me to leave him be. He has now refused further treatments and does not want to deal with anything anymore. I can not let him go. I know if you love something set it free...but I don't think I can. I told him I would love him forever..not to just to the last breath that he draws, but to my last breath.

Love & Respect
Love & respect everyone. Be kind. Even when life is scary or confusing, take courage & be of good cheer, for I am always with you. Learn how to be quiet, so you can hear my still small voice. Leave the world a better place by living your life with dignity & gratefulness. Hold back nothing from life, for the parts of you that can die will surely die & the parts that can't won't. Make your own everyday life a shining example of kindness & good humor. Abandon your fear of each other & begin living, loving, & laughing together.

Cali Or Tx?
this is a blog to let everyone know that i am moving to cali in about 3 weeks... if you are there and want to keep in touch hit me up on here or on myspace and we will do sooo. i don't get to talk to you guy's much but i will try more.... here is my myspace email address... gaytan2907@yahoo.com... keep in touch people.. much love to all of my friends!

Funny True Stories
Funny and true I was a middle school teacher before retirement. One day I had students at the board working problems. One of the young ladies was an exceptional student who happened to be a blonde. For some reason I told her that she was using a piece of left handed chalk. Without turning around or saying anything she put the chalk in the tray, picked up another piece of chalk, and continued with her problem. I was handing out directions on how to make something. I can not even remember now what it was. One little boy turned to the kid next to him and he said--- "I love it when Mrs. Towell hands out erections." My 5th graders were doing their warm-ups when one came up to ask a question about something he didn't understand. He read it out loud to me. "According to the picture, how much would the orgasms be magnified." I am soo proud of myself...without busting, I politely corrected his pronunciation. "That word is organism Dear." I teach preschool, 2 year olds. Whe

The Icing..........omg Lmao
A 10 year old boy was watching a movie on the couch with his mom when an adult scene came up he asked her "Mom,what are they doing"?She replied "they're baking a cake". The next day she took him to the zoo,and when they walked by thew monkey cage 2 monkeys were mating.The boy asked"Mom,what are they doing"?She again replied"they are baking a cake".The boy asked "like you and daddy baked a cake last night"?"How do you know about that"she asked him. He answered"this morning I went into your room and licked the icing off the bed".

Stupidity
When we make plans with our friends and they fall through.. why do we not say sorry right then and there. Why wait until you speak to your friends again? Why make your friends bring up the fact that you are a LOSER...with the worst memory! You simply have no excuse for your behavior you try to make it up by saying lets plan to hang out and you never do... all though you really miss your friend you keep dippin on. Yeah I know what an oxymoron.. you miss someone so instead of hangin out you stand them up numerous times with no damn good reason why. Wonder how they feel? I feel stupid when it happens and that I have been called on my stupidity. Life as a young person is so busy, i think we miss the things that are important that are right in front of us. We are so busy working, shopping, paying bills, and trying to be something that in the end does not matter anyway that we are missing the things that make us happy. We over look the small stuff to attempt to have a part of the big

Poem To Me From My Daughter
Please, Dad As winds sweep away the days, I look back on life through a haze. Remember playgrounds, parks and friends, In childlike gaze that never ends. The laughter in a game of catch, Shall memory ever attach…. To innocence in youthful eyes, Catching the ball to dad’s surprise. I recall my first bike and the first wreck, Who picked me up and said “what the heck?” Convinced me to give it one more try, While knees skinned, I forgot to cry. Just the joy knowing he was there, Make him proud my only care. There was nothing I couldn’t do, My heart held fast that to be true. Though teenage years were kind of rough, I sure wasn’t too big or tough. You taught me to defend what’s right, And never back down from a fight. So I learned the hard way to stand, Still with each lump, I found your hand. Drawing from you an inner strength, And stubborn pride of equal length. But there the line of fate was drawn, As though I blinked and you were gone. I found myself fac

Mama I Blew It At Love
Mama I Blew It At Love Mama once told me when a man doesn't respect love he loses love.Mama I must admit that your right and say that I disrespected love;now it's gone cause I blew it big time Mama not taking her feeling inconsideration,so now I see what you mean Mama about losing love cause I did lose it. Poem By:Charles LaMark Nelson

What Should I Do?
Ok, so everyone knows that I got let go from the bowling alley awhile ago. Well I have been looking for another job to take over for the bowling alley, well I tried at Cub a few times and then at the YMCA. Well I finally got to the Y for them to do all the paper work for working there, my backround check came back good. Well that was friday a week and a half ago, I thought I would have heard back sooner from the Y, so I called Cub to see if they are hiring again and they were and they set me up for an interview for today. The interview went very well today and got hired on the spot and I go in for my drug testing tomorrow at noon and then after work I go in to talk to Lucia about what hours I can get on for the Y. So what do I do? I really want the job at the YMCA, I will be making $9.00 and I have a gym membership, at Cub it's $6.95 and then I pay union does and I can get any days I want, and also get paid weekly. I have kinda already made up my mind on working at the YMCA, but do I w

10-17-07
You and an authority figure clash at one point in the day -- or maybe your own authority is questioned by someone who really ought to know better. Try not to lose patience, as things should improve pretty soon. ************************************************************ Bring it on, who wants some?????

Im Sorry........
I'm sorry... if im not skinny enough for you.I'm sorry...if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".I'm sorry...that i dont want to have sex every minute of every day.I'm sorry...if I'm not a playboy model so I don't act like a porn star for you.I'm sorry...If I don't have a dream body that turns you on.I'm sorry...if I won't drop down to my knees to get you to like me.I'm sorry...if my hair is not long enough.I'm sorry...if I'm not the hottest girl you have ever seen.I'm sorry...That i try my best to get you to like me, then get hurt.But most of all....I'm sorry that

Hey Ty U All
i love all the beautiful birthday comments u all had sent me and the lovely gifts u bought me too i THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART>>>XOXOXOXOXOXO....AND YES I HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY....I TOOK A PIC OF ME AND MY BIRTHDAY CAKE....I WILL HAVE IT UP SOON....HUGGZZ AND KISSES TO U ALL AND THANK YOU AGAIN I LOVE AND MISS YA ALL....LOVE STACIE

When
Ok I saw this in someone elses blog and thought it had some truth to it so i kinda stole it :) When.. When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand When she wants a hug she will just stand there When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around. When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine. When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future. When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more

Playing A Gig On Friday
Im playing a gig on bass guitar with a band on friday, its thursday morning now and i havent yet heard most of the songs i will be playing tomorrow, i dont understand why im so calm about it, i should be nervous but im not..Yet. I will probably post some pictures from the gig on this site, thats one of the good things about photograps of bands, you cant tell by looking at the photos how badly out of tune they are or that they dont actually know how to play their own songs, in that way photographs lie to you.

Car Accident
A woman and a man are involved in a car accident on a snowy, cold Monday morning. Both of their cars are totally demolished but amazingly, neither of them are hurt. God works in mysterious ways. After they crawl out of their cars, the woman looks at him and says, "Here we stand... a man and a woman, just involved in a bad accident. WOW... just look at our cars, there's nothing left of them... yet we're unhurt. This must be a sign from God that we should meet, and be friends, and live together in peace for the rest of our days." Flattered, the man replies, "Oh yes, I agree with you completely; this must be a sign from God!" The woman continues, "And look at this, here's another miracle. My car is completely demolished, but this bottle of wine didn't break. Surely God wants us to drink this wine and celebrate our good fortune." Then she hands the bottle to the man. The man nods his head in agreement, opens it, drinks half the bottle, and then hands i

The Fly By Night Family Is Looking For Bombers
HELLO EVERYONE, THE FLY BY NIGHT FAMILY IS LOOKING FOR NEW MEMBERS TO JOIN OUR RANKS. JUST A QUICK BACKGROUND ON THE FAMILY NAME. I AM A DIE HARD RUSH FAN FLY BY NIGHT IS A SONG BY RUSH. THE FAMILY WAS STARTED AS A RUSH TRIBUTE FAMILY NOTHING MORE. THEN WE BECAME A CONTEST-GIVEAWAY BOMBING FAMILY. NOW AS FOR QUALIFICATIONS FOR MEMBERSHIP. 1. MUST HAVE AT LEAST 1 SALUTE THATS BEEN APPROVED BY FUBAR. 2. MUST LIKE AND WANT TO BOMB IN CONTESTS AND GIVEAWAYS. 3. BEFORE ENTERING A CONTEST LET ME KNOW SO WE DO NOT HAVE MORE THEN 2 or 3 IN A CONTEST OR GIVEAWAY AT ONE TIME. ONCE WE GET LARGER AND CAN SUPPORT MORE CONTESTS WE WELL INCREASE TO 4, 5 ETC. 4. THE FAMILY HAS ALLIE FAMILY'S THAT MAY ASK FOR HELP. SO YOU MUST BE WILLING TO HELP THEM. 5. I WELL ASK FOR VOLENTEARS FIRST. IF NO ONE VOLENTEARS MEMBERS MUST BE OK WITH ME ASSIGNING THEM TO SPECIFIC CONTESTS AND/OR GIVEAWAYS. RULES FOR BOMBING MEMBERS ARE ALLOWED TO BOMB WHO THEY WANT AND WHEN THEY WANT. I DO HOWEVER AS

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Becasue it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I- I took the one less traveld by, And that has made all the difference Robert Frost To those who don't know me well this is one of my favorite poems! I try to live by this poem.

Goodnight, Sleep Tight!
Yes go to sleep, close your eyes Listen to my whispers of lies Sleep to join me, we'll have a ball I'll make you dance until you fall Yes, relax your breathing, relax your mind Who knows what you will really find In my realm of dark, where horror reigns We'll feast on the blood dripping from your veins I won't kill you, there is no fun in that I will play with you, like a cat with its rat I won't allow your heart to stop beating The promise of death teasingly fleeting So go to sleep, sink into my dream In a place of sheer terror, useless to scream Relax your muscles, let your soul roam free I will guard it for ever Close to me ©dutch2lips

Consider The Impossible
For as long as I can remember my drivers liscense has always had organ donor on it. People would tell me, "you know that don't work on you or get you to the hospital that fast if you have that." Well, is that was the case there would be less people on the waiting list. My mother contracted a disease during a transfusion in the early 80's. It was before aids testing, hepatitis testing, etc. You can imagine. My mother was having a hysterectomy. Get over my spelling on this one. *smiles* I am tired. Anyhow the disease caused her liver to fail. There is no big money law suits there is no happily ever after. Forget that idea. She had a liver transplant 14 years ago. She is still with me. I treasure every day. Although because many of the medications at that time were experimental over time it has taken her kidney functions away. She is now in dialysis. I am going to be tested to see if I can donate one of my kidneys. Many people look at me shocked. Some people would neve

Some Thoughts On The Opposite Side Of The Nice Guys, What About Nice Girls?
Ok so we hear all the time about nice guys finish last right? Well what about the nice girls? Yes there are some, though it seems very few and far between now. We dont mind the countless calls, or the endless romantic guestures, in fact we quite adore them. We seem them far to few times in most relationships. We strive to find what our hearts yearn for but never seem to be within reach. We always hear about the girls looking for Mr. right, but end up finding Mr. right now. Well they obviously werent looking hard enough. I used to belive that nice guys didn't exsits anymore. Seems like they are a dying breed, but I now think that they are just like the dying breed of nice girls. The nice girls are always the ones taken advantage of, and usually left behind because they don't put out, or act like a bitch. The call to much, and are labeled as needy, clingy, or co-dependant. The ones that jerks and losers love to take advantage of since we are so willing to give it our all, and hold nothin

Fresh Meat Here...lol Be Patient....
Just wanted to say hi and thank you to everyone who has welcomed me to the site. Still trying to learn the ropes, so don't take it personally if I don't get back to you. I will soon.

No "mom And Dad" In California Schools
(CNSNews.com) - A conservative group says private schools and home schooling will be the only sanctuary for California parents when two "school sexual indoctrination" laws take effect on Jan. 1. California Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger -- without comment -- signed four bills backed by the homosexual community over the weekend, two of them dealing with public schools. (Gov. Schwarzenegger vetoed similar bills last year when he was running for re-election, conservative groups noted.) "Arnold Schwarzenegger has delivered young children into the hands of those who will introduce them to alternative sexual lifestyles," said Randy Thomasson, president of Campaign for Children and Families (CCF), which helped lead the statewide charge against these bills. "This means children as young as five years old will be mentally molested in school classrooms. Shame on Schwarzenegger and the Democrat politicians for ensuring that every California school becomes a homosexual-bisexual-transsexual in

Thanks Everyone
hey just wanted to tell everyone thank you that has been rating me and helping me level up. I cant return the love to you all right now because im on slow ass dial up and it sucks. so as soon as i get my computer up and running again i can get back to my high speed and can show you all the love you deserve!! Thanks again especially you DJ Baby Boy!! thanks!

To Be Again
Your face haunts my dreams my reality is days of nightmares your words echoing in my ears sending chills down my spine my skin crawls from the rememberance of your touch my stomach churns as i remember the days... I tear myself away I pull myself up I stand on my own feet I am Not to be destroyed I will not be pushed down I rise up against the overwhelming opposition To live again To breathe again To smile once more Pushing the past behind me I look toward a future Without You

Vote For Me For President?
It has been suggested that I consider running for president of the US in 2008. LOL... Curious... how many would vote for me based on what you know about me from my FAQ list on the home page of profile?

Lost
Someone come change my life Take me away from the torment and pain Turn my sorrows into smiles Take my hand lead the way I have been lost for so long I no longer can see the path Blinded by the pain Hurt by the ones I loved Lost to everything Bring me back to life On the brink of life On the brink of losing it all I call out for help To anyone that listens Breaking my years of silent suffering Hurting so much Its hard to breathe Painful memories Tormenting realizations How did I live through it all Turning my back on what once was And finally Looking to the future The Future without pain

My Torment !
9:20 PM 10/17/2007 It is the quite of the night when the world makes ready to sleep . I am here....in the dim light of my dwelling , Restless and unable to allow my mind to rest . The pentence i pay is for my secrets and my hidden desires. Living by the rules of my heart is not always a peaceful emotion . I struggle with decisions yet act on a whim . I am constantly in dis agreement with what i am allowed to have and what i truly want . How is it to be ...to tame the heart when it is suspose to soar ? Well into my torment i know less of the why and more of the why not . Standing in the middle of the bridge ..... about to collaspe.... what direction shall i run ...what side is saftey . I wish i could tell ....whats makes me so weak . I must hush to survive yet i want to scream with delight .

Triskaidekaphobia
Triskaidekaphobia There once was a soul Running away from heavens gate In such dreadful fright Screaming for forgiveness Kneeling long enough for a quick prayer Alone it journeyed though out time and space Ignoring the angels calls Debating openly Gods kindness Everlasting cries of torment echo on Knowing that Gods word is final And then one day God appeared before it Please tell me why you run from me Heaven is waiting for you Oh lord I know your place is truly great But there can be no heaven for me without my love I see it is my laws and my decision who gains entrance Although your devotion has changed my mind

To Every Thing There Is A Season
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, anda time to laugh; a time to mourn, anda time to dance; A time to cast away stones, anda tiem to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

Into The Darkness I Scream
Alone I sit Into the darkness I scream Skin crawling clawing at the pain Shadows around me taking over my soul Into the darkness I scream Cowering from the memories Running from the haunting visions Blow after blow I took Not even a whimper Passed my lips Into the Darkness I scream Pushing past the enveloping pain Pulling myself up and away I take my pain Transforming it into motivation Taking my life And Inverting it into something new Into the Darkness I scream Erasing my past I push toward the Future One without the haunting memories That plague my dreams at night

Today Is My Birthday
Today is my birthday and I am having a day. I got up late because I hit my alarm 2 times because I just couldnt get up the energy to get out of bed. I got out of bed at 5:30 and now I am late. The kids were running around like chickens with their heads cut off. I told them all that I was sorry. They all told me Happy Birthday and I wanted to burst into tears. My emotions are starting to get the better of me. I feel really moody today because I have so much to do. I had a bus meeting this morning at 9:00am and then I had to do my bus route and then come home to clean house and make phone calls just to keep my household safe. I found out from my attorney that I needed to take pics of his stuff before I move it and then have him sign it when he comes to get his stuff. I didnt move the jeep yet for I have no keys and I didnt move the motor yet because its too heavy and I don't want to break the intake trying to get it up off the floor. But I did manage to move all the rest of hi

Fair Tax Plan
A FAIRTAX TALE I have a little scenario I would like to paint for those of you out there who just insist on finding something wrong with the FairTax. Admittedly, the FairTax isn't perfect. No tax plan is. How, after all, can you come up with a perfect way for a government to take its operating funds from its subjects? If you know an easier and more equitable way to do it, by all means, let me know! I'm going to ask you to crank up your imagination for a moment here ... and by "you," I mean those of you who think that this FairTax thing is a bad idea and you're not prepared to come on board. I want you to imagine a scenario. Don't worry about whether or not this scenario is possible .. Just accept it as I present it, and then consider the alternative picture I'm going to also present. Simple as that. Let's imagine that the FairTax is the law. We've been operating under the FairTax since the day you drew your first paycheck. It's all you know. Here is your imaginarily "reality." • O

Think Before You Speak
Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak - The last one is great! Have you ever spoken and wished that you could Immediately take the words back... Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did.... FIRST TESTIMONY: I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, "How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?" I turned around and walked back out and never went back. My husband didn't say a word... He knew better. SECOND TESTIMONY: I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen Who works at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, "I think I like playing with men's balls." THIRD TESTIMONY: My sister and I were at the mall and Passed by a store that sold a Variety of candy and nuts. As we

Brattybytch
For those of you that know BrattyBytch .. You know she's a wonderful friend and Fellow Fu'er .. Well She's been at Level 22 for quite some time now and I thought we could all go show her some Fu-Luv and help her level . yeah she's got a tad bit of a way to go .. but hell a lil here and a lil there will top her over and get her one step closer to the tippity top .. so .. Get ya buns over to her page and rate her .. fan her .. add her .. you know the drill .. Ill see you on her page :) BrattyBytch - {{Shadow Leveler}}@ fubar

Just To Let You All Know
HEY EVERYONE, I'M NOT FEELING GOOD SO I'M GONNA MAKE IT A EARLY NIGHT TONIGHT. MY THROAT AND EARS BEEN BOTHERING ME ALL DAY...NOW MY HEAD IS POUNDING AND ITS MAKEN ME NAUTIOUS.....SO I'M THINKING THAT I NEED TO GO LAY DOWN AND TRY TO GET SOME REST AND HOPEFULLY I WILL BE BETTER TOMORROW. HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD NITE AND A WONDERFUL DAY TOMORROW. HUGS, ERIKA

You Know Your From Vegas When.....
Your pregame starts at 9, you go out at midnight, you go to after-hour clubs at 4, and you go home at 9 am. Sleep, Repeat. You don’t know what a last call is. You don't pay for clubs. You know what the real pandoras box is You say "Hella" and "Fuck" and say them often! Balllinnnnn. You have friends who are strippers, and know they prefer to be called “dancers” You got your first fake ID when you were 15 You don't pay a State Tax, thanks for coming You don't wear "Las Vegas", T-shirts. Only people from Cali would do that. You can get anything at any time…even a steak at 4 am. 24/7 Bitches When you go to different cities, you're amazed things aren't open after 9 pm You valet everywhere, you bitch about parking in every other city…and you don’t use cabs You've never HAD to pay for parking. Oh, and parallel parking...what's that? When it rains people freak out & when it snows, they lose their minds. In the summer, your car is overheated...before

Contest
I have been here for everyone that have been in contest before... I hate contest like these, but I wanted to see where my friends are. I have decided if I do not finish in the top 2 I will be leaving fubar unless someone can convince me otherwise.

Please Come Help Bomb
Come help out my friend "Ice Man". Christopher is in a contest and could use your help dropping picture comments. Even if you only have a few minutes, your time would be appreciated. The rates and help with your contests will be returned. Here's the link http://www.fubar.com/blog/138892/569596 Thanks all! Big Hugs, Beth

Stroke Today
I just got back from vacation to the beach with my family from Grenada -- and tonight I just got a call from my Mom. I found out that my favorite Uncle - Uncle Clarence - had a stroke. I can't believe it - I just saw him two days ago at the beach... He is a vibrant man - 75 years old. It's amazing to even think that he is that "old". He's had mini-strokes in the past, but he is healthy and active. He's my mom's favorite brother and my favorite uncle. He's been there for her thru thick and thin (he was the father she never had. And on vacation... he drank me under the table! I had to laugh - I make sure that I don't accident sip HIS drink - I'd pass out (just kidding). He is paralyzed on one side and I am devastated. He's so far away that I can't be there to hold his hand and give him a kiss. PLEASE - if you read this tonight - pray for him - Clarence Searles - in Wayne NJ. Thanks guys. Thurs 8 a.m. - I talked with my Mom this morning and my uncle has been moved to t

I Can't Wait
I can't wait until you can hold me in your arms and keep me safe & warm I can't wait until I can have you hands rub my body soft & gentle I can't wait until I can gaze into your loving eyes anytime I want I can't wait until you can twirl your fingers through my hair to put me to sleep I can't wait until I can taste your sweet lips against mine I can't wait until I can finally be with you & know everything is going to be fine

From Kathy I Love Her!!!
Hey ya'll. BrattyBytch here, I'm just here to post a pimp out for one of my favorite Fu's! This sweet & sassy lady is trying to make GodMother...What the heck are you waiting for?? Go show her some lovings! Tell her that her Bratty Sister Bytch sent you to spank her with rates and Fubar Lovin! Christie@ fubar ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This pretty pink pimpout brought to you by none other than: BrattyBytch - {{Shadow Leveler}}@ fubar

My First Of Many
Let's see here not all that great at typing but hell I am good at speaking my mind which eases my inner child may we say. Today was a true so so day. You know when you wake up do your regular routine work, off work, beer thirty, then bed....... well none of the less I started on thinkin of ways of changing that cycle. One of the ways i thought of was changing the job, maybe I've came to the end of the line there ... or maybe not. Perhaps maybe just making it beer instead of beer thirty, do we really need to wait for those thirty minutes that don't really exist in this case. and just going stright to bed, maybe i need to get a night life back again you know buy stock up in Jim Beam and Trojan condoms.... now would that be fuckin drunk or drunk fuckin, either and or both would be nice. Well either and or something different would be nice for time to time but in one sense, I have a stable job good income, and my daughter is well taken care of. I guess sometimes its just nice to re

Gypsymisstress/what's In A Name?
I have been asked about this. So let me try to explain; the last long term relationship I was in was with a guy who was into bondage;S&M etc. So I became a Misstress. I don't take money for my services and I'm not a sleeparound escort. I enjoy sex----I like to give head--I like to be submissive or dominate. If there are any questions just ask, I have tried to clear this name question up as clear as I could.

Are Rates Still Messed Up ??
I added some new pics today . and know for a fact that more than just one or two people rated them . and yet .. all of the pics are stating there have been online 1-2 rates ??? Is BabyJesus Still working on this or is it just me thats having this issue ???

I'm Christian So I Must Hate Homosexuals.
Share this if you are against stereotypes and think people should just shut up and stop. Pick the stereotype that fits you. i love SUBLIME, so i MUST be a stoner. im a Skater so i must be an idiot. I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists. I'm COLORED so I MUST carry a gun. I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed. I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat. I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy. I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy. I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS. I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape. I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist. I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch. I SAY WUT I WANT, SO I MUST BE AN ASSHOLE!!! I'm an OREGONION so I MUST hate white people. I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat. I'm ATHEIST so i MUST hate the world. I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals I'm a FOOTBALL PLAYER, so I MUST be a stupid jock and get everything handed to me. I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUS

At My Masters Feet
A hand reaches out in the darkness eyes strain for a glimpse of light As fear and doubt engulf me He hears my pain... He sees my plight. Against this hell i struggle rage against the status quo i fight for a piece of Heaven His voice fills the void... He soothes my woes my mind searches in vain for reason my soul craves passion as yet untold my heart beats with an animal rhythm my body hungers for things unknown Through my despair He whispers the answer In one touch the Truth unfolds on wings of lust He lifts me my Harbor, my Heart... my Home i wear His chains of freedom shackled in love this heart beats strong i can face all the tomorrows at His feet.... where i belong.

The Ugliest Drug Marketing Scheme Ever
IT IS SCARY FOR ALL OF US WHO HAVE CHILDREN & GRANDCHILDREN. The Ugliest Drug Marketing Scheme Ever SEND THIS TO AS MANY PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS AND PEOPLE WHO KNOW PARENTS AS YOU CAN. Children's Meth Checked this on Snopes. It is true. http://www.snopes.com/horrors/drugs/candymeth.asp A very scary thing is going on in the schools right. There is a type of crystal meth going around that looks like strawberry pop rocks... It smells like strawberry also and it is being handed out to kids in school yards in AR. I'm sure it will make its way around the country. Kids are ingesting this thinking it is candy and being rushed off to the ER in dire condition. It also comes in chocolate, peanut butter, cola, cherry, grape and orange. < /SPAN>It looks just like pop rocks. Please instruct children to not accept candy that looks like this even from a friend and to take any that they may have to a teacher, principal, etc. Pass this around it could save some family

Harley Update !!!!!!
On Harleys last visit to the Cancer specialist It has been diagnoised as a 72 5 shrinkage in the tumor on her brain.So your prayers are definantly appreciated. I want to thank each and everyone of you that Prayed for her.We are praying that it clears up all the way.Again Thank you all. LOL Dave

Korea
30 days until Korea! Oh, wait you all don't know about Korea. See my wonderful husband...is in Korea thanks to the Army. So I get to be there for 3 years yay me! So, until then I am going to live it up and have some fun! 28 days until my birthday...YAY ME

New Preamble To The Constitution
"We the sensible people of the United States, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior, and secure the blessings of debt-free liberty to ourselves and our great-great-great-grandchildren, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guilt ridden, delusional, and other Liberal bed-wetters. We hold these truths to be self evident: that a whole lot of people are confused by the Bill of Rights and are so dim they require a Bill of NON-Rights." ARTICLE I: You do not have the right to a new car, big screen TV, or any other form of wealth. More power to you if you can legally acquire them, but No one is guaranteeing anything. ARTICLE II: You do not have the right to never be offended. This country is Based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone -- not just you! You may leave the room, turn the channel, exp

Just Wanted Today
My brothers and sisters are out there putting their neck on the line , never felt so proud to be a part of such a great family (USMC.) while politicians take away our benefits , and our pay we still come out every day to take care of bussines. I happy to say that even do i shreded blood for this country I wouldn't have it any other way I love my country , I love america , there no place like it . God bless this great country and everyone of my brother and sisters that live in it !!!!!!!

Can't Do It Anymore...at Least For Now!!!
I give myself a lot of credit for enduring a lot of what has happened in the past few months. Life and circumstances have smacked me in the face and I have stood stedfast through it all. Today, reality threw me a new curve, but it is one I accept without any guilt or sadness. As some of you may know, I had enrolled myself back in school to get my Masters degree. After enrolling, I had learned I once again had cancer. Now I had to go to classes and have to endure treatments. If it seems like a lot, then you're right - it is a lot, and it is not easy. Constantly feeling sick while trying to concentrate on what the professors were saying was a chore. Getting to class itself was not easy either. Going anywhere from 2-9 hours a day from class to class while experiencing fatigue is the absolute worst. As of today, I have decided to seek a medical withdrawl from school and focus moreso on treatments. I have started the process to withdraw from school with the intent of possibly

Amarillo, Texas
Well here I am, sitting in a Petro Truck Stop in Amarillo, Texas, bored to tears with nothing nor nobody to do. Wondering what to do with myself cause i don't have to be in Dallas, Texas until Friday morning to unload. 3 days to do a 2 1/2 day trip from the yard. One of the worst things I hate is sitting, I get paid by the mile not the hour. Soooooo...I came on to see if anyone was here, but alas I am here alone. Oh Well....Story of my life. Guess I'll turn on the C.B and listen to the "Lot Lizards" ply their wares.....

The Angry Video Game Nerd
any fans of the Angry Video Game Nerd here. being a videogame fan i find is reviews relly funny because i remember playing them shitty games when i was younger heres one of my favorite reviews its friday the 13th on the NES also staring Jason Voorhees.

I Believe
I believe the cripple stool is the king of the pooping stools. I believe a man has no right to raise his hand to a woman in anger, no matter what she has done to you. I believe that a person does not have to go to church to worship GOD. I believe that a mans heart is more fragile than a womans because he doesn't know how to give it to another person. I believe that I am one of the few men that actually might come close to understanding women. I don't understand them I just come close. I believe that pets are telepathic. Look at all the things they teach us to do for them without saying a word. I believe that GOD has a sense of humor. Just look at my picture. I believe that family is the most important thing. I believe blood does not make family I believe that just because you don't know my plan, doesn't mean I don't have one. I'm here to meet someone to spend the rest of my life with. applications accepted at jspiel@fubar.com. please include a photo and resume. Thanks

Yewie - Lets Make Some Money!
I GUESS SOME PEOPLE HAVE MADE SOME MONEY WITH THIS SHIT...I AM TRYING IT RIGHT NOW...SEEMS LEGIT. YOU BASICALLY SETUP A MYSPACE LIKE THE ONE YOU HAVE BUT THEYSITE PAYS YOU TO USE THERE'S...THE LINK BELOW EXPLAINS BETTER THAN MY LAMN ASS CAN: JUST GIVE IT A WIRL!! http://r.yuwie.com/sidluscious

Reincarnation & The Afterlife
Reincarnation & the Afterlife is a special thing. Life continues, just on a different plain. Physically not here but there. An adventure of an experience this is. A Dragon, an Angel, an Insect or a General. Anything is possible, Which were you? I recall being someone hiding people in the Underground Railroad. I also think i was an Eagle or a Hawk & maybe a Dolphin too! If Reincarnation & the Afterlife is not for you then people are in Heaven having all kinds of family reunions and listening to Elvis, John Lennon and many others jammin!

Think About It...
Just think about this for a minute....Everything in your life was going perfect..then one day it rained. It stormed so hard that it blew everything you worked so hard to get, away. How do you deal with it? Do you start all over or just let nature take it's course? Would you work hard to replace it, even tho the harder you worked to get it the worse things would get? Things can be so decieving. I can't understand why things have to be so hard at times. Just think of about your life...about why your still here. I think everyone is here to serve a purpose. Don't you?

Whats Wrong
why is it when i find a grrrl she ends up bullshittn me.im i a sucker n fall for it or do i have a soft heart? i ment a women online bout a year ago and boy did i get taken on one hell of a ride by her. she told me she was going through a d-vorc and lived wit her mom. the truth is she is married and was unhappy so she got a boyfriend and was unhappy so i came along and boom we a couple. then she says that she is going 2 break up wit him and doing the big d for real. guess what you got it a lie i found out that they were stiil together and all the normal stuff that goes along with that lie.this is the short version of the story hell there lies of a warrent for his arrest for beatn her and so on and so on. then about a couple weeks ago a couple of freinds were tired of seeing me unhappy and drinking like i did a couple years ago so they suggested this site sao we got on line and wow the response has been amazing to say the least. you may not beleive me but i have not had soooo

My Friends Here
Not to get all sappy and whatnot, but I haven't read all of the rules here and surely had no intentions to overstep any boundaries at Fubar. With that being said, last night, I created a photo album, like you would a physical one. And I wanted to put inside pictures of Friends Here (the name of the album). I enjoy photography and like having pictures of people at their oddest. To me that's most interesting. I started ripping photos, left and right. (wow! this is gonna be great!! Cool!) But I started running into snares; Some wanted to be asked first. And that seems fair to me. Just because my friends here didn't lock their photos doesn't make it ok to rip them without asking. (I need to read those rules) I should have asked. My sincerest apology. I will find another to pay homage to my friends here and those to come.

22,500
i am more then halfway there! woo hoo! if anyone is bored and needs something to do I am in a contest to win a Happy Hour. If you could leave a comment or two it would be greatly appreciated! I am all about showing luv to those who help me out! Please come by!! Thank you, Jennifer link:

My Mom
HI EVERYBUDDY I DON'T ASK FOR ANYTHING UNTIL NOW PLEASE HELP MY MOM? SHE ONLY NEEDS 5000 COMMENTS SHE HAS NO MORE AND I ONLY HAVE A FEW LEFT I WANNA SURPRISE MOM BUT I NEED HELP CANT YOU LEAVE SOME COMMENTS WITH ME PLEASE? I WILL NEVER ASK FOR ANYTHING AGAIN I PROMISE (UNLESS IT'S A KISS AND HUG FROM MY GIRLS) (AND MAYBE A BEER FROM MY PALS) BUT THAT WOULD BE IT! I PROMISE HERE IS MOMS PICTURE PLEASE HELP ME HELP HER SHE WILL BE SOOOOOO SURPRISED I LOVE YOU ALL! XO MARVIN

Life
What's most important in life? Being with someone you love? Doing everything you possible can to please others and not your self? Acheiving every goal your working hard to get? Making people happy and smile? Life has so many reasons to live it. What's yours?

Universe Of Discovery
As I sit here I begin to think about this vast Universe we live in! The Earth, Moon, Stars & Sun! So many other planets to see and explore! Grasp the adventure & discovery of the Universe & enjoy!! We are in for a wild ride!!!

E.e. Cummings
(For my darling S.B.) i carry your heart with me i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Life
so as we all seem to know all to well that when life seems to start going good it shits on you...well in my case life doesnt just shit...it takes ex-lax and blows liquid chunks. so hmm i am feeling a bit defeated right now and doing everything to keep my head outa the water and so far i am doing OK...i dont know how long that will stay true. So anyway i am still single still a father and still bored off my mind daily....the only people that seem to care about me is the people that send you your bills, at least they call to see if i am still alive. well hopefully all works out i am gonna sit here and self medicate on Bud Lite. well hit me up if your bored or if i owe you money either way talk to you later

They Need Some Spanking !!!!!!!!
THESE PEOPLE ARE GREAT TO EVERY ONE THEY HELPED ALL AND NOW THEY NEED YOU TO HELP THEM TO LEVEL UP. CAN YOU PLEASE HELP OUT AND SHOW THEM LOVE???? AND ALL THE LOVE WILL BE RETURN.... COME ON GO AND HIT THEIR PAGES HARD CAUSE THEY ARE GONNA ENJOY IT VERY MUCH!! LOVE TO ALL WildCat Ü§ ÃRĦY ĦÈĦßÈR õҒ Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ. (21B) ÊÑGÏÑÊÊR§'s4,236 ÄRÌÈL ÄÐÐÌÇŦÈÐ ĦÈĦßÈR ÖҒ Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ19,693 Ã£ÊX1987 ĦÈĦßÈR õҒ Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ.27,042 GHOST RIDER ĦÈĦßÈR õҒ Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ. & SECURITY FOR WÌ£ÐÇÄŦ £ÖÚÑGÈ۞39,484

Beware Downraters Drama Ppl
Hey guys just a little heads up, they both came to my page and started shit with me so I beware of these two people, they like to downrate people a "1", so just a little heads up. They like to start shit with you on your comments calling you a "down rater" when I never went to there page. So I had to deal with these two idiots and block them both, so if you do not want drama or problems. Block of both of these down rater drama queens and people. Thank you for your time. If you wanna post in a bulletin go right ahead. Thanks for your time. Take care. Da Ice Man Baby ~ItZ Da IcE MaN BaBy~@ fubar Autumn Autumn@ fubar

Watch This Before It's Taken Off The Web
Bravo.....a brilliant speech by a brilliant woman.. Open the attached website to hear one impressive woman. Here is a powerful and amazing statement on Al Jazeera television. The woman is Wafa Sultan, an Arab-American psychologist from LosAngeles. I would suggest watching it ASAP because I don't know how long the link will be active. This filmclip should be shown around the world repeatedly! http://switch3.castup.net/cunet/gm.asp?ai=214&ar=1050wmv&ak=nul

Please Help My Wife Out!
hEY MY WIFE ENTERED A CONTEST AND SHE IS GETTING CREAMED!!!!! THE PPL SHE THOUGHT WERE HER FRIENDS ARE NOT HELPING!!!!! IF U HAVE TIME PLEASE HELP BOMB HER!!! TY VERY MUCH. CONTEST ENDS HALLOWEEN, ALL HELP IS GREATLY APPRECIATED.

Live Live Live
Never take a single moment for granted... Speak up and be heard... Make each day worth waking... No one ever promised... That life would be easy to live... The only promise we have received... Is that in the end its worth it!!!

Take Time To Tell Someone U Love Them
I Love You Brittney loved basketball Friends and parties too And when it came to painting That's all she wanted to do She painted everything she saw Birds, flowers, the sky Some days she sat at her window And painted everything that passed her by But lately she'd been feeling woozy Her muscles ached a lot And her parents got kind of worried So they took her to the doc The doctor took a couple of tests To see if everything was okay Then the nurse came out with a look of sadness And this is what she had to say; "I'm sorry but you've got leukemia," "You've got about 3 months more." Then Brittney got up and ran out of the room And slammed the office door She ran down the street screaming And cried her eyes out dry And stayed up all night Wondering what it's like to die Her parents held her tightly And said, "We love you," "We'll make your last few months the greatest," "We'll do anything for you." So Brittney and her parents moved to Florida To live by

Hey There Mystery Man
Hey there mystery man tell me something if you can, you came to me, not the other way around you say you want to play on my stomping grounds. You ask of me all I have to share yet when I ask back, you seem to not care, I can't walk in the dark with my eyes closed so if I walk with you, there's things I just must know. You say you want to share my nights then to be sure of you, I have the right, I find myself daydreaming, praying you are real so if you are, then here's the bottom line, here's the deal. Talk is cheap and words cheaper still yet to think of you melts my defensive will, but I've trod those roads before, so I need strongholds like pictures and detectable history to what I'm told. I've shared more then I should with what the internet hides but to think of you excites my whole being, my insides, so please open up to me, even if just a little bit before my red flags tells me it's time to call us quits. I want to use intimate words like you do

Destiny
Being alone is my destiny There is no one in the future for me My heart aches at the thought of this There will forever be an emptiness I must come to terms with my life Although it hurts worse than any knife Acceptance is futile The heart always fertile But it is my destiny No one in the future for me

Please Help
This Bulletin brought to you by me Founder of The Order Of The Dragon Leveling Crew@ fubar Family, Friends, Fans, Bombers, I would like to ask for some help a member of my family has joined a contest and we are asking for everyones help. Christina~Irishtoads Princess~Protected by Castle Secrets~Order of the Dragons~@ fubar This is the link to her picture OCTOBER 17th @ 7:00pm Central (8-EST) ENDING: NOVEMBER 1 @ 7:00pm Central (8-EST) 1ST PLACE: 3 MONTH VIP OR 30 DAY BLAST 2ND PLACE: 7 DAY BLAST And BIG PIMP GIFT 3RD PLACE: 1 DAY BLAST And BIG PIMP GIFT RULES: · You must actively bomb yourself and have your friends back you-First place must reach 35,000 comments, second place must reach at least 25,000 comments. · No NSFW pics allowed. · Must play well with others. This means NO downrating. · Comment Bombing is a must. · No Scripts of any kind to be used. . .If detected, you will be disqualified and r

Hate Me
Hate me Set me free My insides are froze Cannot think anymore My dying brain is so sore So many mistakes I made The pain doesnt fade I wish I knew the real me I wish my would open and I could see Me I will forever hate Saving me it is too late I cannot move on from here I have so many fears Wish my life was over soon The walls have closed in on me here in this room

For Jenny
Hey Whats up? Heres another one of my friends Who is only trying to Level up and be F/A/R/C/B for the newbies of the fu who read this, that would be Fanned Added Rated Crushed and Blinged! So stop by her page say Jessa sent you and Walla youll make a friend YOU WONT EVER FORGET! Theres no love like a mothers love So go talk to her drop her a line rate her if you wanna but remember...shes a friend worth having ♥DJ Pebbles♥@ fubar This train was brought to you by!! ø¤º°`°º¤ø.The Fabulous Jè§§ã Pie,ø¤º°`º¤ø i stole hammy the squirrels nutz!† Manson Family †@ Fubar

Invsible
Reaching to the heavens with a breath of final hope... I turn to pray for answers as my dreams go up in smoke... Love promises forever and ever more... Though now I lay here bleeding; upon your kitchen floor... Didn't you even stop to think about how I would hurt... When you came walking in with her and in my face kicked dirt... So now you have to deal with me; no longer can you pretend... For in your eyes I take my life; with you I meet my end... Now tears fill your eyes as you begin to see... The lover you gave so much grief; now see the invisible me.....

Ugly Bush!
Odessa,Texas 1948! He was destined for greatness,and couldn't wait! As for a motive, that up for debate! Long star,yeah...he's packin' the heat and rubbin' elbows with the social elite, who took notice of a world at his feet! the big drill,and the C.I.A. mr richard nixon paved the way for this this damn dog to have his way! V.P. underBonzo Reagan, then the prez of this oce great nation! 91, his first invation! Oh....the good ol' days I miss... Now get us out of this,this hierrachal abyss! Kissing Middle Eastern ass-White pride, black gold and gas- just a profiter on your foraign soil! OPERATION/BLOOD FOR OIL! He passed the buck on his # 1, now we are all fucked by the bastards son! theres nowhere to hide! no where o run! 3 cheers for the underachiever- once a drunk, and now abeliever! All hail, the great deceiver! First term we saw mass corruption- 2 wars to boost production and its all done for your protecion!? C,est La Vie to french ralations and to N.A.T.O.'s limmita

Pumpkin Bundt Cake
INGREDIENTS 1 (18.25 ounce) package yellow cake mix 1 (3.4 ounce) package instant butterscotch pudding mix 4 eggs 1/4 cup water 1/4 cup vegetable oil 1 cup canned pumpkin 2 teaspoons pumpkin pie spice Whipped cream DIRECTIONS In a large mixing bowl, combine the first seven ingredients. Beat on low speed for 30 seconds; beat on medium for 4 minutes. Pour into a greased and floured 10-in. fluted tube pan. Bake at 350 degrees F for 50-55 minutes or until a wooden pick inserted near the center comes out clean. Cool in pan for 15 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely. Serve with whipped cream if desired.

Would You Help For A Gift?
This is my friend Amanda's first contest and she really, really wants to win. I would LOVE her to win. So much so that if you leave her at least 25 comments and let me know I will send you a gift. The more comments you leave, the bigger the gift. If nothing else, rate her pic because that helps too. Thanks guys!

I Want To Be The One
I want to be the one You see in your dreams, The one that wont make everything Rip open at the seams. I want to be the one That makes you happy inside, The one you run to When the world makes you wanna hide. I want to be the first one you look for When you walk in a crowd, The one you miss When Im not around. I want to be the one You show off to your friends, The one you wont leave standing alone With no one to cry to in the end. I want to be the one Who picks you up when you fall, The one you want to talk to, The first one youll call. I want to be the one you look at And say he’s the one The one you think of When night falls and the day is done. I want to be the one You would drive 10 hours to see, And you wouldnt mind If you could only stay for three. I want to be the one Youd sing for any day, The one you will comfort When distress comes my way. I want to be the one, The only one for you, The one you love To whom youll always be true.

Haunt Me
Why do you haunt me Everywhere I turn it is you I see You have ruined my life too many times And spoken so many lies But I still hold onto you Hatred starting but seems so new I need to let you go A new life I need to know You are haunting me still But love for you I can no longer feel Please move on and set me free I need to be me Give me my life back please And forever set me free

I Want To Be With You
I sit here in the night Staring into the heavens above. Wondering if I'm lucky enough To be given your love. Even though I met you Just a few days before. I have learned so much of who you are And thirst to learn even more. I want to share my world with you, All the smiles and all the tears. I want to learn to trust again; Something I haven't done in years. You are very special to me, You have kindled something new. I want to feel loved in my life, I want to be with you.

Homemade Refrigerator Pickles
"Just pickles!!! These are easy to make, and are a great way to use vegetables from the garden." INGREDIENTS 1 cup distilled white vinegar 1 tablespoon salt 2 cups white sugar 6 cups sliced cucumbers 1 cup sliced onions 1 cup sliced green bell peppers DIRECTIONS In a medium saucepan over medium heat, bring vinegar, salt and sugar to a boil. Boil until the sugar has dissolved, about 10 minutes. Place the cucumbers, onions and green bell peppers in a large bowl. Pour the vinegar mixture over the vegetables. Transfer to sterile containers and store in the refrigerator.

Here I Sit
Btw before I get started on these I realize they arent that great, but I wanted to print them. They are from a time in my life that I need to let go of, and I feel that putting them in print will start that process. Here I sit with my head against the wall Soon my head will fall Feelings are so foreign to me My life so torn I cannot see I have become so numb, and my thoughts have come undone So here I sit with a fist full of pills My heart never heals The emotional scars will be gone For my head will fall before dawn

Still Hurt
U TOLD ME SO MANY TIMES IT WASN'T OKAY TO CRY SO MUCH SO THAT I WANTED TO DIE U TREAT ME MEAN U TREAT ME CRUEL WHY IS ALL I ASK OF U THERE IS NOTHING LEFT INSIDE CUZ U KNOW MY SOUL HAS DIED YOU PUT ME DOWN HOPING I'LL STAY ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN AWAY THESE TEARS I SHED ARE REAL SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME DEAL I DIDN'T MEAN TO CRY BUT ALL I WANNA DO IS DIE THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL MY HEART BROKEN SPIRIT GONE LOOK AT THE DAMAGE U HAVE DONE U TELL PEOPLE I MAKE U PROUD BUT REALLY U ARE IN THE CLOUDS U SCARRED ME FOR LIFE KNOWING SOMEDAY I WOULD BE SOMEONES WIFE BUT YOU DON'T CARE WHY WOULD YOU DARE YOU KEEP HURTING ME NOT HEARING MY PLEA I CRIED TEARS FOR THE FIST TIME CUZ YOU ARE ON MY MIND WISH I COULD SAY I LOVE YOU WISH I COULD FORGIVE YOU DAMMIT MOM I JUST WISH YOU CARED ENUFF TO HEAR ME I WANT TO END IT WITH YOU AND SAY I LOVE YOU BUT I JUST CAN'T I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING IT'S OK CUZ IT'S ALL ON ME I SHO

Never Forget
I could never forget You gave me a smile When we first met Nothing I did could protect me from you Looking at your picture I can see why I fell for you Now you're in heaven I can still picture you I can see your face I smell your fragrance in the air I hope you can see me Every one keeps telling me to move on But how could I forget the best thing To ever happen in my life? I just can't move on You could always make me smile You could always make me laugh But you never made me cry Looking at your picture I can see why I fell in love with you I'll never forget you I'll never let you go

Wow! I Love Payday!
Damn...I got a nice paycheck. I got more than I thought I would. Now if they deposit into my account tomorrow...then I can just wait until Nov 1 to do my rent. That way I can pay the other things ahead and get me a few things I need. We shall see if that works. And I will have a bit of extra funds to do what I want. We shall see if this pans out. Plus I owe some to Kandi and Michael. I am gonna figure that out tonite at work of how much to pay. That is if they put my check in tomorrow like I am hoping. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me! LOL. Friday nite is gonna be sweet. I am going to go over to Master's house for more "punishment". Some would look at it as that...I look at it as a turn on. And I really enjoyed myself last time! What can I say...I enjoy Him very much! He takes good care of his slave! :D Saturday nite my plans are kinda shot. Yes I am still going to BDSM nite at the club...but this guy I was supposed to meet there cant make it! :( So ye

September 1960
In September 1960, I woke up one morning with six hungry babies and just 75 cents in my pocket. Their father was gone. The boys ranged from three months to seven years; their sister was two. Their Dad had never been much more than a presence they feared. Whenever they heard his tires crunch on the gravel driveway they would scramble to hide under their beds. He did manage to leave $15 a week to buy groceries. Now that he had decided to leave, there would be no more beatings, but no food either. If there was a welfare system in effect in southern Indiana at that time, I certainly knew nothing about it. I scrubbed the kids until they looked brand new and then put on my best homemade dress, loaded them into the rusty old 51 Chevy and drove off to find a job. The seven of us went to every factory, store and restaurant in our small town. No luck. The kids stayed crammed into the car and tried to be quiet while I tried to convince who ever would lis

Contest I'm In
Contest I am in. All help please. WILL BEGIN: OCTOBER 17th @ 7:00pm Central (8-EST) ENDING: NOVEMBER 1 @ 7:00pm Central (8-EST) PRIZES 1ST PLACE: 3 MONTH VIP OR 30 DAY BLAST 2ND PLACE: 7 DAY BLAST And BIG PIMP GIFT 3RD PLACE: 1 DAY BLAST And BIG PIMP GIFT Stop over and hit up PeggySue *treehugger* she is running this great contest. PeggySue*treehugger*@ fubar

Broken
Fallen from the grace of heaven... I have given all for you my love... Opening myself to mortality and pain... Sadly, you left me standing... alone, afraid, and cold... for you I gave it all... Now to walk this world of hope... without any for my own... you turn away for her to hold... don't know how much I can take... I pray each day for forgiveness... to return to the life I knew... but still I remain broken... Here crying over you..........

Near And Dear Friend
I have a good friend of mine in a contest that I ddin't know he was in, and he needs help with comments....Can you Please stop by and comment bomb a few? (commment bomb means bombing the same picture over and over again with comments) Thanks Everyone!..Hugs and Kisses!

Fascists
Sorry fans, friends and family...I finally figured out how to upload a bunch of really beautiful photos to my stash. Unfortunately, did not realize you can't upload NSFW photos to a stash so....had to rip them all down or potentially be deleted completely from Fubar. Ugh. Very frustrating. For the very few of you who were quick enough on the draw and got to see some nekkid naughty bits, well God bless ya' and thanks for playing. When I level up, i'll get some more photo privilieges and gradually add them back. Until then....my sweet and charming disposition, sparkling wit and engaging personality will have to suffice to keep you entertained. :D Thanks to all my babies! Muah!!! SoulKiss (Michelle)

Pumpkin Butter
"This pumpkin butter is an excellent hostess present, and is a wonderful spread for toast and muffins. It can also be used to make a spectacular holiday dessert, Pumpkin Pecan Cheesecake. Originally submitted to ThanksgivingRecipe.com." INGREDIENTS 1 (29 ounce) can canned pumpkin puree 3/4 cup apple juice 2 teaspoons ground ginger 1/2 teaspoon ground cloves 1 1/2 cups white sugar 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon 1 teaspoon ground nutmeg DIRECTIONS Combine pumpkin, apple juice, spices, and sugar in a large saucepan; stir well. Bring mixture to a boil. Reduce heat, and simmer for 30 minutes or until thickened. Stir frequently. Spoon hot pumpkin mixture into hot jars, filling to within 1/4 inch from top. Remove air bubbles; wipe jar rims. Cover at once with metal lids, and screw on bands. Process in a boiling water bath for 10 minutes.

For Star
Hey Whats up? Alot of you guys like to giveaway Free Blasts and Vip's Well I know someone who as she puts it.. ☆§t@r☆§trùçk☆ ...me will love him long time lol thats her words there boys n girls.. So go talk to her drop her a line rate her if you wanna but remember...she wont make you dissapointed ^_^ ☆§t@r☆§trùçk☆{♥IMCM♥}☆@ fubar This train was brought to you by!! J£§§Å ♥ ShadyJ *claimed Greyson*@ Fubar

Wtf?
Ok I just had someone completely new with no friends or anything rip my salute pic, andnow he won't answer why Just be careful and I want to make sure I recorded this in case something funky happens later..LOL MUAH Beware..no reason to rip...:( allen35@ fubar

A Brief History Of Halloween
Halloween traditions of trick-or-treating and jack-o-lanterns were brought to America in the 1840s by Irish escaping the Great Potato Famine. On Halloween, Irish peasants begged the rich for food and played practical jokes on those who refused. To avoid being tricked, the rich handed out cookies, candies, and fruit - a practice that turned into our present day trick-or-treating. Jack-o-lanterns trace back to an old Irish tale about a man named Stingy Jack. Unable to enter Heaven because of his stingy ways and turned away by the Devil, Stingy Jack wandered the world, searching for a resting place. To light his way, Stingy Jack used a burning coal in a hollowed out turnip -- hence the name "jack-o-lantern." The first jack-o-lanterns, in fact, were carved out of turnips. Only when the Irish tradition reached America did turnip carving turn into pumpkin carving. Witch means wise one. It comes from the Saxon word wica. Witches were thought to be wise enough to tell the future.

Fakes
Why is it that some freaking people that exsist in this world cant own up to what they have done. All it takes is a "yes I did that and I am sorry and I will change to make it better." Instead I heard "screw you. I didnt do that." That kind of shit really pisses me off. If I can own up to mistakes then why cant this freaking ass that calls himself a man admit that he beat me up and own his shit. Then stalks me after he has been told to have no contact. Then people wonder why it is hard to trust? well no brainer there!!!I am just so pissed right now because this man wont leave me alone and lies about what he did and continues to do. I thought he was gone for good then boom today I get a freaking message again!!! lying about the shit again!!! Arrggggggggggggggg!!! Well I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening. Any suggesstions???

B.a.c.a.come Show Support
Come jump aboard on the B.A.C.A. bus and head over to the Bikers Clubhouse Bar And Grill and sign in to show your support. Prizes given out to every one that signs up and the119th person gets a ring. click pic to get to lounge-

I Need Help Please .
this guy DA WHITE SOX is a down rating pev! he started talking to me and then started being nasty . and when i told him the conversation was over he called me a fucking cunt . just because i did not want to watch him wack off! sorry as all my friends know i don't talk dirty to anyone on here and if i am going to i know which ones not him . and there r a lot of guys on here who look out for us ladies on here ! please help . if you can please go to his page and give him a 1 and block let him here from the real men of fubar and the women who won't put up with his shit ether. xoxoxo ann

Deep
DARK DEEP LOVE OF MINE THIS FEELING IN MY HEART IS SO DIVINE HOLD ME CLOSE HOLD ME TRUE ALWAYS SAY I WILL BE NEXT TO YOU HOLD ME CLOSE SO I CAN FEEL THE WARMTH OF YOUR BODY NEXT TO MINE SAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR ALL OF TIME ©sms 2007

Think I'm Gonna Cry
my mother and my sister and a friend of my sister's are attempting to take over the planning of my wedding. everything that i like or want is wrong to them. i'm ready to cry. to give up and just say fuck it and let them have the wedding that they want. fuck what i think or want. fuck my dreams and ideas. as long as they are happy. that's most important isn't it? that everyone else is happy to hell what the BRIDE wants or thinks or dreams about? i'm sorry that i am being a bride-zilla but i'm just so frustrated right now. *sigh* is having a wedding really worth all of this? i feel like i'm trying to develop an ulcer. . . did that with work too, but this is another one. . . or on top of that one. whichever. okay, until next time. goodmoshpitting to all.

An Honour...or A Nightmare?
It was announced at work today that I along with three other employess are being shipped out next month to assist with the grand opening of another store in another city. (It wasn't a huge surprise as the store manager had already spoken to each of us individually about this prior to the announcment.) So, along with my three co-workers, we will be training the new store's upcoming cashiers. O.O Yikes! Scary! From what I've been told, our grand opening day two years ago saw over 11, 000 people come through the checkouts! For a city that has (barely) 40, 000 people living in it, that was an unprecedented number in my opinion. @.@ Saskatoon is around 5 times bigger than P.A., I think. Double yikes? So...yeah. Those are going to be kick-ass long hours. -_-; But, I'm kind of excited, despite my trepidation.

Atten.native Spirits Tribe (pimpout)
It has come to my attention that we as of now are not doing pimpouts.So what im asking is do you all want a pimpout. plz leave a comment on this blog either ya or na for the pimpout. all comments will be counted as votes. thank you ruzz

Why Try To Say Something Better Then Something Thats Already Been Said Well?
I'm moving through some changes I'll never be the same Something you did touched me There's no one else to blame The love we had has fallen The love we used to share We've given up pretending As if you didn't care I look into the mirror I see no happiness All the warmth I gave you Has turned to emptiness The love we had has fallen The love we used to share You've left me here believing In love that wasn't there When I look into your eyes and try to find out how There's no way to save it now And everything I feel Changes For some reason you're questioning why I always believe it gets better One difference between you and I Your heart is inside your head

Ooh Rah!!
Major General (Sel) John Kelly was a recent guest speaker at the San Diego Military Advisory Council (SDMAC) networking breakfast. He is General Mattis's deputy (again) and, as you will read, it is no wonder that Mattis wants him around (again). This little speech given by a little known US Marine Corps General Officer should be in every paper across the country...instead, it was given to a small group of patriots in San Diego...and now to you. Thanks as usual to former Marine Seamus for sending it on. It is worth your time: I want to open by offering LtGen Mattis' apologies for missing this event. Until recently he certainly looked forward to being here, but an unexpected change in a three and four star executive offsite in Washington prevents him from joining you today. I am his recently joined deputy at the First Marine Expeditionary Force at Pendleton, and will have the honor of taking the next Marine rotation to Iraq early next year. I was also General Mattis' deputy once

Breaking Down
Touching your photograph; tears falling from my red and swollen eyes. Those words ringing in my ears; "I love you and I'll never leave you!" Where are you now my love; where have you gone.. Why have you forsaken me for another.. Is she everything you dreamed about... Can she keep you warm at night.. Will she be there for you when you need her... Is she holding you tight... My stomach churns; my vision blurs; at the thought of another in your arms... I feel as if I'm breaking down... Falling completely apart... You are my soul; my heart; my dream; without you I'm not me....

Iraq And Afghanistan Veterans Of America
Together, we're building a movement for Iraq and Afghanistan veterans, and our voices are being heard. Yesterday, after months of mounting pressure from concerned citizens like you, the President finally addressed the issue of our broken veterans care system. The President stood with former Senator Bob Dole and former Secretary of Health and Human Services Donna Shalala in the Rose Garden and said, "Our system for managing this care has fallen behind. It's an outdated system that needs to be changed." The President's remarks illustrate the incredible progress we've made. President Bush announced a plan to streamline veterans care and fix the problems that allowed so many wounded warriors to fall through the cracks. But our fight is not over. The next few weeks will be critical as the White House reveals the details of its plan, and presents its suggestions for turning it into law. Watch the video of the President's comments, and read the New York Times article, featuring IAVA

What Would You Do?
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.. In times of trouble, In times of need, If you are feeling SAD, You can count on me. I will gi

The Damn Dam
This is one of the funniest emails I have ever had!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENJOY ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have seen this over the years and it is still enjoyable to read every so often. DO READ THE LETTER!! This is so sad but true as to the way government acts in more situations than we would want to know about. ENJOY!!!! The Dam This is an actual letter sent to a man named Ryan DeVries regarding a pond on his property. It was sent by the Pennsylvania Department of Environmental Quality, State of Pennsylvania. This guy's response is hilarious, but read State's letter before you get to the response letter. SUBJECT: DEQ File No.97-59-0023; T11N; R10W, Sec. 20; Lycoming County Dear Mr. DeVries: It has come to the attention of the Department of Environmental Quality that there has been recent unauthorized activity on the above referenced parcel of property. You have been certified as the legal landowner and/or contractor who did the

President In 2008
Here we are already discussing the future President of the United States in the Year 2008. For those of you who would like a choice for President, we have a solution: It is probably time we have a woman as President . One choice is a very special lady who has all the answers to our problems. PLEASE give it a thought when you have a moment... MAXINE FOR PRESIDENT! Maxine on 'Driver Safety' 'I can't use the cell phone in the car. I have to keep my hands free for making gestures.'....... Maxine on 'Housework' 'I do my housework in the nude. It gives me an incentive to clean the mirrors as quickly as possible.' Maxine on 'Lawn Care' 'The key to a nice-looking lawn is a good mower. I recommend one who is muscular and shirtless.' Maxine on 'The Perfect Man' 'All I'm looking for is a guy who'll do what I want, when I want, for as long as I want, and then go away. Or wait nearby, like a Dust Buster, charged up and

Friends Are Friends
No matter which way you look at it..whether it be guy or girl and right now this friend of mine needs help. If any of you can swing by and add, fan and rate him I would appreciate it. He is lacking only about 7500 to level and I know how much friend love you can give! Hug and Kisses! Click the Pic and Add a Friend! AJ@ fubar

Today... Ehhh
ahhh... so all i want to do is scream now... so i had physical therapy this morning... and my therapist told me that because it was so close inbetween pregnancies that more than likely my muscles didnt have time to fully heal... so basically i kind of did this to myself... but kind of not... so she showed me a bunch of different things to help strenghten my hip muscles and to also releave the pain and inflamtion... then on top of that i found out that i have a lot of tension in my upper to middle back... mainly because my milk is drying up.... so that was just another thing i wanted to hear... NOT! so then everything was fine and then my dad started to say how bla bla bla and how he "knows" everything... god i hate him right now... anyways i went to my doctor appt at 1 and found out that there is one of two things wrong with my wrist... either a its broken and healed funny so they might haveta rebreak it or do surgery to fix it... or it could just be a cyst... which didnt so

Computer Crashed
I just wanted to let everyone know that I might be down for a couple of days. My computer took a dump on me and I am tearing it apart to see what happened. I will be back on as soon as I can. In the mean time I will miss you all and please bomb the shit out of my page and help me level up, LOL Thank you all and see you as soon as I can, Shane

Wrong Or Right
I was at a hospital having test done while in the lab waiting room I noticed the t.v. was on so I watched to see what was on and it was on a channel that was not english so after I had my test which was over an hour long I came back in to find the t.v. on the same thing gggggggrrrrrr I feel since we are in the USA that everyone speak as we americans do! tv or wherever we are. agree or disagrre with me huh?

My Thoughts And Feelings.
Hey everyone, What's up? Not much here. This will be my first really serious blog for Fubar. I have done many on myspace. But most have been music here. First off, would like to start off by seeing how all of you are?! I hope well, safe and happy. Anything new with all of you? Anyway I can help whether it be just listening or whatever please let me know. Ok now for I guess the randomality of this blog. Some might think it's pointless but just my time to put my thoughts into writing. I appreciate all the friends I really do. So don't think I don't. I am always up for getting to know new people and make new friends. I appreciate each and everyone of you all. I know fubar is all about whose more popular and all sorts of things. But I am not all about that. There are some great people here who I have been lucky enough to start getting to know. But here is my thing. If I ever get to godfather I don't care. It's not about popularity or points to me. It's about meeting new, genuine peo

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3,000,000,000,000 To Godfather!!!! Stfu
WTF is with the bulletins claiming you only have 300,000 to Godfather, or 250,000 to level up? Holy fuck people, I can see if you're within a couple thousand, but please any more then that, STFU. There are some real worth bulletins out there and this bullshit is getting out of control. Let's try and use some common sense. More then 3,000 to level, it's not going to happen any time soon.

Help Her Level
This wonderful lady has only 262k to level to godmother and with all the happy hours tonight i think we can do it, she has lots of stash and pics. Show her some love and make her godmother!!! Christie@ fubar

Why People Are So Jealous About Other People Is Out Of My Mind
Why do people have to be so damn jealous... that shyt is for little kids... if you are jealous over someone bein wit someone else go the fuck up.. people are with how they are for reasons and if they are not wit you there has to be reasons why the are not wit you so just go the fuck up and stop being so damn jealous... people are tired of everyone bein jealous... you need to understand that you cant have everyone that you want... just because you want that person that does not mean that same person wants you... everyone needs to get that through their head... and stop fuckin up other peoples relationships... go out and find someone elses... that will stop alot of drama for alot of people... everyone just needs to worry about their own fuckin life and stop worring about other peoples.... STOP BEING SO DAMN JEALOUS EVERYONE.....

Ok Been In The Hospital
I KNOW DONT WORRY LOL I WASNT HURT I HAVE A HISTORY OF ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION WELL I BEEN STRESSED LATELY AND REAL DOWN SO SUNDAY WAS THE BREAKING POINT HAD SOME ISSUES MY DAD SAID HE WANTED TO TAKE ME TO GET HELP I HAVE BEEN WITHOUT MY MEDS HOME SICK AND JUST PLAIN STRESSED OUT OF THIS WORLD SO HERE YA GO YOUR GIRL WAS LOCKED UP IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL YOU WANT TO KNOW ME WELL HERE YOU ARE I HAVE TO TAKE MEDS EVERY DAY I AM VERRY GOOD AT HIDING IT AND COVERING IT UP TO PPL ON HERE BUT AT HOME EVERYONE COULD SEE SOMTHING WAS UP AND THEY MUST HAVE BEEN RIGHT CAUSE I DIDNT VOLENTEER TO STAY THEY MADE ME AND MY DAD DIDNT COMMIT ME SO IF I HAVNT BEEN TALKATIVE AND I DID TURN MY SHOUTBOX OFF BECAUSE I STILL AM NOT FEELING LIKE ME IM DEF NOT 100% YET BUT IM SHURE I WILL BE SOON I JUST HAVE TO GET OVER THE WAY THE NEW MEDS HAVE ME FEELING I NEVER EVER WANT TO END UP IN THAT PLACE AGAIN WELL THERE YOU ALL HAVE IT IM CRAZY HA HA WELL IM SHURE THOSE OF YOU THAT KNOW ME ALREADY KNEW THAT MUAH HOPE E

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Nice Guys Stiil Finish Last
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait." To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state line) to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes. To every guy that would give his seat up. To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every guy

Ru Ready
i will pull you close grasping your hips feeling your beauty and tasting your lips i'll give you tickling whispers that breath down your neck. you'll want me so bad it will leave you a wreck. dont keep your hands to yourself everything is free do whatever you want baby corrupt me. my mind is running circles and my eyes are in love with every part of your body i cant get enough. looking at you fuels my desire to touch every part of you and set you on fire with shivers of thrill that run through your veins one kiss from my lips will drive you insane. but your lips arent enough i want to explore every curve i discover leaves me wanting more. its gonna get hot and it will probably get sweaty im going for the kill i hope you are ready

Friends
Friends come and go and some stick with you through ewverything. The ones that stick with you are the true friends.The ones who think they need to play with your emotions and life aren't. I've been played sooo many times it funny but it's all over now.For those who have played me and think they are playing me well you have another thing coming. This girl is done with that and i think you know who you are. I don't change for anybody Iam who I am and if you don't like it you can go screw yourselves.I don't need you and for those who are true friends I love you to death and thank you for being there for me. I am tired of being hurt and used all I want is to make new friends and even though most of us live a distance from each other maybe one day meet. I want to thank all my true friends and for my new family I Love you.

Hidden Talents
You have a sexual hidden talent You have a sexual hidden talent. You might not look it but you are a dynamo in bed. Most of your lovers think that it is from years of practice, but really, you were just born with it.

Pure Bliss
As the lightning crashes Our bodies glisten Hearts entwined As the world listens The rain pours down Our sole intentions Passionate bliss Beautiful temptations Sensually we touch Soft libations Descent into Indecent liberation

Life
A Decoz® Numerology Chart Analysis for Michelle Welker by Hans Decoz Birth .. Michelle Marie Welker October 15, 1965 © Copyright 1985, 2003, Hans Decoz. TABLE OF CONTENTS INTRODUCTION 4 LIFE PATH 4 EXPRESSION 5 HEART'S DESIRE 7 SUMMARY Birth name: Michelle Marie Welker Short name: Michelle Welker Birth date: October 15, 1965 Your Life Path is 10/1 5 Your Expression is 16/7 6 Your Heart's Desire is 8 7 INTRODUCTION About your Personal Reading This reading was composed for you personally, Michelle, and is based on your full name at birth, your date of birth, and the name you now use to introduce yourself. Please check your birth data on the title page to make sure the names and date of birth used are correct. If you have two or more middle names or last names, y

Get Paid To Have Fun!
if you like myspace...facebook then youll love this! its jsut like them but you get paid for doing things! i love it! come join me in the fun! http://r.yuwie.com/Sheila76 hope to see you there!!!!!!

Thanks To Everyone!
I want to say thanks to Everyone that helped me get started on my fubar account. I also would like to thank anyone that i ripped photos from there site. Please check out my friends,fans and rate them. Feel free to comment on there pics too! p.s. Thanks to everyone that rates my pics as well and feel free to drop me a message anytime!

The Longing
I lay in my bed longing for you. Temptation taking over me; Chills and sensations flow through my body. Let’s make love! I want to feel our two selves entwined together. Go ahead… make your move! It is too late – Although our bodies are behind, Our souls have already begun the motion. We have been here before. We have made love for lifetimes. It’s just the first time here and now. Don’t be so afraid. Don’t think so much. Let your mind go and your body will follow. My lips against your neck, Our skin grazing against one another. I smell you as you breath into me, And I want to ingest your energy. Your pheromones linger in my room, Torturing me in my dreams… Teasing me in my fantasies. My body is screaming to touch you, let you in, let you know how I feel. I ache to feel you inside me and encompass your warmth. I want to feel the uncontrollable motion of your body beneath mine. I want to taste you. I want you under my skin. I want to grab you, kiss you, show yo

Butterflies
Your hands on my skin, wet lips on mine, indulgent; receiving kisses that spill from your mouth and melt into my body. Your sensual touch awakening butterflies inside of me. Silent smiles in the dark. Your smooth stomach on mine, soft shoulders, warm thighs. Your teeth on my neck as I press your body against mine. "I love you." Nothing but devotion between our beating hearts. Your tongue caresses my own, hands search for breasts. We are eager bodies, lovers anxious for proof that love is tangible. It's an early morning yearning asking if we have to sleep today and telling me to never let you go. We sleep in close proximity, unwilling to abdicate.

My Little Girl
A single tear, that love bears no boundaries. A simple touch, to wrap my arms around you. Within your smiles my heart embraces, Within your laughter my heart caresses your joy. In every story you have to tell me, In everything you do in play, In everything you dream to see, I love you more for this each day. In every way you want for the spotlight, In everything that you must bear, With every day you learn wrong from right, I look inside myself - I see a child who was once there. Let me dry the tears that hold you in sadness, Let me hold you in your joy, Let me show you all I know in lovliness, I shall love you forever. My little girl, Unconditional love for you forever, My little girl.

Omg.....stang Closed The Undergroundd!!!
Not on a wild bet but we have been forced to move it!! We are planning our grand re-opening so drop in, subscribe so you are on board for the cool give aways we have planned!! Click the banner, hop and and subscribe, that way you don't miss a beat in the sexiest lounge on FUBAR. What do YOU have down under?.....PLEASE REPOST SO YOUR FRIENDS CAN GET IN ON THE FREEBIES TOO!! ۞Stang۞FU BAD B!TCH۞ Owna & Reppin Stangs Underground۞@ fubar

Walls
Sometimes people put up Walls not to keep others out .... But to see who Cares enough to tear them DOWN.!!!! If u love them,Say it!!!! If you trust them,Do it!!!! If you want them,Show it!!!! If you need them,Prove it!!!! Find arms that will hold you at your weekest ! Eyes that will see you at your ugliest ! And a heart that will love you at your worst ! Then you have found True Love !!!Never say i love you ,If u really don't care.Never talk about feelings,If they aren't really there.Never hold my hand,If your gonna break my heart.Never say u are goin to, If u don't plan to start.Never look into my eyes,If all u do is lie.Never say hi,If u really mean goodbye.If u really mean forever,Then say u will try.Never say forever,Cuz forever makes me cry.

To Family
well the bitches know who they is he he he audreay and lauren you are the best sis's one can have as far aprt as we are i love's you so much perry keef poker and many many more chris mz he he he pink pt and more i wuvs ya all and to anyone from fu on my family hope you like it there

If I Were In Your Bed
If you woke up one morning and saw me in your bed what would u do? 1) Go back to sleep 2) Slap me 3) Cuss me out 4) Push me off the bed 5) Just tell me to leave 6) Climb on top of me and cuddle 7) Fuck me 8) Make me breakfast 9) Ask me my name 10) Call the cops Repost with the title 'If I Was In Your Bed' and see how many people want you in their bed...you might be surprised by the answers you get back!!

Friendships
Life is a garden, Good friends are the flowers and time spent together life's happiest hours... And friendship like flowers, blooms ever more fair... when carefully tended by dear friends who care. ~Helen Steiner Rice~ A true friend is one soul in two bodies. ~Aristotle BC 384-322~ He who has a thousand friends has not a friend to spare, And he who has one enemy will meet him everywhere. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ Hold a true friend with both your hands. -- ~Nigerian Proverb~ One who looks for a friend without faults will have none~ ~ Hasidic Saying~ Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief. ~ Swedish proverb~

What Is Up With This?
People, I was on ly 2900 points from going to next level. I got almost all the points myself with rates and opuinion polls and so on. I asked for help to finish up the last little bit from exactly 15 friends who were online and only 5 peeps came to help me out. Those that helped....Thank you so much. What the heck is up with that? I am always ready to help any friend out any way I can. Maybe I expect too much from people. I am not upset or anything like that....just surprised at the turnoyut to help me...A couple had a few things to do first and then they said they would get to me. I get most of my points by by doing one survey after another. Not a prob.prob...Just...."HMMMMM"

Li As I See It And How I Want It To Become
I been thinking about life alot I guess. Looking back at the past and then looking at now...It has gave me alot to think about. As i was growing up like when I was 17 and 18 I had thi I loved in life.I had friends that actually wanted to do things with me. I had gurls that loved me, but at the same time I believe they only loved me due to I had weed everyday and I ani't talk to smal amounts either, or cuz I had money all the time. I always had a job on top of that. But as life as i started living it was icredible I thought. I had a beautiful young woman that I could come home to every night after work and she was there everytime...Waiting for me to wrp my arms around and cuddle and hold her...Don't get me wrong I done with out things for her such as clothes,cars,friends,family,(well her family was there for me unlike my wasn't) they treated me like I was one of them. Yeah I ani't going to lie about it Everyone called me her little bitch boy cuz I was always doing everyt

Find Me!!!
If you can't find me on here you can always find me on Yahoo under the name sweet_package_69 or on MSN as senbrown@hotmail.com. You can add me to one or both if you want to. .¸¸. ºÖº.¸¸. ºÔ ºÖº.¸¸. ♥ Sweet Package ♥ .¸¸. ºÖº.¸¸. ºÔ ºÖº.¸¸.

Someday
Someday… I’m going to love as my heart desires. I’m going to live… I’m going to fly… Someday… I’m going to forget the pain… The past… Hurt caused by others. Someday… I won’t be so scared… I’ll open the gate… I’ll let others in… Someday… I will enjoy the view… The walls will fall… Show the real me… Someday… I will take a chance… Quit being so protective… Let my heart feel… Someday… The other half of me will live… Be carefree… I will shine… Someday… I won’t be so worried of what I say… How it will be taken… Take it as is… Someday… I will except the flaws… Live for the moment… Live for myself… Someday… I will except my weakness… Embrace my strength… Live to the fullest… Someday… I won’t be so scared… Of what can be done to me… Let life in… Someday… I will trust again… Let the past go… Let the present in… Someday… I will be free… Someday I will be happy… I will be ME…. Someday…. Yes...I'm looking for someday...

Contest Update!contestants Please Read!
I made a mistake!!! Dont fire me! I put the wrong END date for the contest... its a 10 day contest not a 7 day! SO... the END date, is Nov 5 at 6pm PST... Sorry guys! Good Luck! The Lip Lovers Contest will run: October 26, 2007 6pm PST through November 5, 2007 6pm PST Let your back up know! There are only 3 slots left open! If you haven't entered yet, and would like to, please fumail me with the pic you would like to use!

Blahness
So I'm reading this book called, "He's just not that into you" and can I just say that it is hilarious..... hilariously funny but oddly true at the same time... It states simple facts about relationships that just shouldn't be relationships..... Such as.... if you meet a guy and exchange numbers... don't call him.... if he really wanted you enough, he would call..... Sad reality.... he would call if he wanted you enough..... I have to get past the point of thinking that no one wants me to the point of letting someone chase me..... not giving in so easy all the time.... why do I have to be like that? Not sure....

7 Important Things To A Woman...
THE DOCTOR because he says "Take your clothes off."THE DENTIST because he says "Open wide."THE HAIR DRESSER because he says "Do you want them teased or blown?"THE MILKMAN because he says "Do you want it in the back or in the front?"THE INTERIOR DECORATOR because he says "Once it's in you'll love it."THE BANKER because he says "If you take it out too soon, you'll lose interest."

Halloween Funnies...
Snagged from a much passed around mail... A Halloween Safety Public Service Announcement As we all prepare for the upcoming Halloween season, please take a few minutes to read some simple rules to help keep everyone safe. 1. Don't assume the telephone calls are coming from another house. 2. When it appears that you have killed the monster, NEVER check to see if it's really dead. 3. Never read a book of demon summoning aloud, even as a joke. 4. Don't go into the basement to check the power when the lights go out! 5. If your children speak to you in Latin or any other language which they should not know, shoot them immediately. It will save you a lot of grief in the long run. However, it will probably take several rounds to kill them, so be prepared. This also applies to kids who speak with somebody else's voice. 6. When you have the benefit of numbers, NEVER split up and go it alone. 7. Don't have sex. Especially if you've noticed a few of your friend

Fake Profile Creations
In the past 4 days, I've seen 4 different people on my friends list creating a total of 235 fake profiles. I block them instantly, but now I've decided to simply go and remove them. It's cheating just so they can move up in levels. It's crap, still cheating. And I won't have cheaters on my friends list. UPDATE: Ok I wasn't going to do this but one of these people are just plain pissing me off. Lady Di is a fucking cheat. Over 50 fake profiles in 3 days. How do I know? Because I block them immediately, then look at my block list the next day. Every single one has been deleted. It no longer exists. They're fake, just to get sign up points and get to that almight Godfather level. WTF.

Not A Poem
its not a poem it a scripture from the bible and i found it and i think it was for me to read. A RIDE HOME “But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep. For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words.” 1 Thessalonians 4: 13 - 18 King James Version

The Final Blow.
I feel as if it happened. It was that devistating pain in my heart. He cut me loose. Tears streaming down my face I just feel as if I had the knife pierce my heart. I can not just turn off my love for someone. I know distance and the situation may be tough, but I never lied and my true feelings for him always were shown. If you see me just understand, I can not stop the bleeding from my heart. It is like I was pushed away..and will never be able to go back. I am so sorry everyone..

Get Lucky
YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKED! Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends and FUCK THEM! This is for any one you think is hot! RULES: 1- You can fuck the person who fucked you, of course. 2- You can fuck the same person as many times as you can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!* 3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine and dandy! 4- You should fuck in public! Be adventurous, damn it. Paste it on their user page so they feel slutty! 5- Random sex is perfectly okay! 6- Please, don't worry about same gender fucking, it's HOT. 7- You should most definitely get started fuckin' right away! This is about showing everyone how much you care for them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEIR ASS! Make everyone feel a little loved (and roughed up!). Please don't take this too personally, BUT I JUST FUCKED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> F.U.C.K Stands For: Friends U Can Keep. So prom ise me We'll F.U.C.K forever! Send this to 10 people & 1 back to me. To know

Ladies Prayer
Now I lay me Down to sleep. I pray the lord My shape to keep. Please no wrinkles Please no bags And please lift my butt Before it sags. Please no age spots Please no gray And as for my belly, Please take it away Please keep me healthy Please keep me young, And thank you Dear Lord for all that you've done! Foot Note: One saggy boob said to the other saggy boob: "If we don't get some support soon, people will think we are nuts!"

Hater Axx
This woman is going to peoples pages and rateing all there pics a 1 and than blocking them so they cant respond back to her she is a level 5. And she called my brother a spick when he defended dj.(thelatinro...: Sexxy_Beas...: spick) Dont let her talk to people that way on here she down rated DJ BABY BOY and used rasism against my brother for defending him. $DJ BABY BOY$ ~DJ FOR THE GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY & BOMBSQUAD~{ DIRTY SOUTH CREW}@ fubar and this is what she rated him... Sexxy_Beast420@ fubar· · Sexxy_Beast420 rated your photo a '1'! 32 min ago · Sexxy_Beast420 rated your photo a '1'! 32 min ago · Sexxy_Beast420 rated your photo a '1'! 33 min ago · Sexxy_Beast420 rated your photo a '1'! 33 min ago ~brought to you by $DJ BABY BOYS BOO$~ angel eyes CT wife to Jay 'bob vila' ~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY BOMBSQUAD~@ fubar

Crock Pot Cajun Pot Roast
1 (15 ounce) can crushed tomatoes in puree 1 cup beef stock or chicken stock 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/2 teaspoon dried basil 1/4 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes 1 bay leaf 1/2 teaspoon cayenne 1/2 teaspoon fresh ground black pepper 1/4 teaspoon salt 3 lbs chuck roast, lean, trimmed of fat, cut into 1 1/2 inch thick steaks 2 tablespoons olive oil 2 onions, chopped 3 stalks celery, chopped 1 green bell pepper, chopped 4 garlic cloves, minced 2 tablespoons flour Not the one? See other Crock Pot Cajun Pot Roast Recipes * Main Dish * Crock Pot Main Dish * Southern U.S. Main Dish * Beef Roast Main Dish * Low Sodium Main Dish 1. Add tomatoes, stock, thyme, basil, red pepper flakes and bay leaf to the crock pot set on high; mix well. 2. Mix cayenne, black pepper, and salt. Rub well into the roast. 3. Heat a cast iron pan, add oil and brown meat on all sides. Add to crock pot. 4. Sauté the vegetables in the

You Are The One
Black rose & a radio fire its so contagious such something changing my mind im gonna take whats evil ........................................................ Your cover melting inside with wide eyes you tremble kissing over & over again your god knows his faithful ........................................................ I try - to digest my pride but passions grip i fear when i climb - into shallow vats of wine i think i almost hear - but its not clear ........................................................ Chours. You are the one you'll never be alone again your more then in my head - your more ........................................................ Spin faster shouting out loud you cant steal whats paid for such something hurting again murder son shes painful You so believe your own lies on my skin your fingers runaway until the last time were gonna lose forever ........................................................ when you try -

Look Within
There is so much beauty in This wondrous, blue rose If only we could capture it Within our very souls If we could take its beauty And apply the glow within Search a little deeper In the soul beneath our skin Take what it does stand for And shed its love abroad Don't hide the glow within you But share the love of God You know you can't touch beauty Without it rubbing off on you And spreading it to others In the kindness that you do There lies within each one of us The beauty like this rose When it's used in touching others Then its beauty overflows

I'm Going..add Me To Msn Please
Hi everyone Just to let you know i am deleting my profile off here so i have left you my msn addy in case you want to add me and keep in touch evoamy@btinternet.com Love you all and hope to speak to you all real soon!!!! EVOAMY~ENGLANDS #1 BIKER BITCH xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Rose Of Life
I am unfolding gently beneath your loving touch Becoming I let wholeness breath my petals free Awareness Sweet fragrant Spirit touching senses into life Wisdom Giving beauty back to the universe Knowing Each petal, sweet miracle of life Oneness We are hues of color, yet one in Spirits blossom

Word
DO the skies themselves send down showers? No,it is you,O Lord our God. Therefore our hope is in you,for you are the one who does all this.O Lord, My strength and my fortress,my refuge in time of distress,to you the nations will come from the ends of the earth. DO men make their own gods? YES,but they are not gods! Therefore I will teach them this time i will teach them my power and might. Then they will know that my name is the Lord. I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve.

Jackie Will Save Me
Early morning Summer soul and solace The world is watching.. Yeah Vicious circle Washing virgin halo You’re in agreement.. You can understand Enter static A gray mistake So you both come crashing over ground New machines have born their notion What can I say...you’re crazy Jackie, what’s the problem? You’re a lady You can stop them Where’s your baby? He’s alone... Kennedy Your Kennedy All the constant Super color motion Burning senses Yeah I think you’re slipping American coca-cola Sugar sweetness 1963.. Jackie, what’s the problem? You’re a lady You can stop them Where’s your baby? He’s alone... Kennedy Your Kennedy You’re a lady You can stop them Where’s your baby? He’s alone... Kennedy Your Kennedy

Two Choices
Two Choices: What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice? At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do Where is the natural order of things in my son?" The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handi capped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child." Then he told the following

Want A Picture??
Hey there just thought I would share some pics I have made or others have made me but I can do as well =). If you want one just ask. Let me know what you want. So here are examples Color Change Effect Rainbow Effect Lightening Effect Heart Effect Sparkles Effect Old Time Movie Effect Fire Effect Bubbles Effect Just let me know what you would like :)

Mom
I know you care for me, Mom, and I know you love me, Mom. I do what you tell me, Mom, and I know Whats Right, Mom. Although you may not know it, Mom, you are my best friend, Mom, and I Love You So Much Mom. I wrote this for you, Mom, to tell you How much I care for you, Mom. I'll be a kind person, Mom, and I'll do Everything for you, Mom. You may never know it, Mom, but you're not only my mom, but My Friend, and I Love You Very Much Mom.

The Trials And Errors
The trials and errors Far too often, most all of my days My life it seems has been a constant maze. I’m not always certain where, I’m to go. I don’t want to turn back, this I know. Life isn’t about the final destination but the journey. The trials and errors are what make me. Given a choice in life, we’d make one without pain. Still, it’s hard to accept mistakes as personal gain. The book of life should have a manual for us to read. To tell us of curves ahead and to take heed. But, it’s up to us to make decisions of wrong and right. We have to learn when, to let go and when, to hold tight. Just as a mother bird pushes her young from the nest. We learn quickly that, life is a test. Each day, we’re given a chance to start again. It only matters what, you do that day, and not where you’ve been. But, if you’re wise, you’ll pass each test you take. Unless, you’ve learned you’ll repeat the sam

Remember Our Firefighters
I have always thought that angels, wore halos and wings of white. But now I find they wear hard hats and black coats with yellow stripes. And angels, in my mind, wore long flowing gowns of white. But now I see dark pants and shirts and badges shining bright. And angels always floated, with bare feet above the ground. Not true! For they wear steel toed boots and go where death is found. Not all angels have smooth hands that look like porcelain. Some angels have torn gloves and cuts and burns upon their skin. And while I thought all angels glowed from heavens light. I see an angel cutting steel, his torch is shining bright. And while these earthly angels passed buckets of debris, The angels up in heaven looked down on bended knee. So while the smoke continued to rise into the sky, I watched the rescue workers weep, I've seen the angels cry.

Oh Such Misery
Today I feel rotten Lost and forgotten Moody, misty and blue My hair is splitting Nothing is fitting Both my thumbs I chew Today I feel crazy Like a windshaken daisy The dizziest dame on your way I am all out of order On the misery border And my heaven is terribly grey I am awfully saddened Not very much gladdened It's as if a bad crop I grew Everything's creepy I am feeling all weepy When I see the thumbs that I chew Today I am mouldy And "Oh" such an oldy A shrunken, outdated prune My joints are all rusty My corners all dusty And my voice is all out of tune I look at the sheet That lays underneath My unhappily writing "ball" And I ask with a sigh "Whyever and Why" Do I write such nonsence at all.

First Thing After Work
Like most people, I look forward to when I get to get home after work. Though perhaps unlike most people, the very first thing I do when I get home is to get out of my workclothes. (shirt, pants, and usually underwear too). I tend to work up a sweat at work, plus the clothes often get dusty and dirty, so it's quite refreshing to ditch those icky clothes ASAP. Eventually, I usually throw on a pair of boxers and/or some pajama pants to lounge in, but there is usually no rush for that. haha. So yeah, I've been sitting around for an hour and a half in socks and a tshirt. cuz it's comfy. ;op

Tomorrow
Tomorrow smile at someone That you've never seen before. Take time to think of others that You feel compassion for. Tomorrow tell somebody How they brighten up your day. Let random acts of kindness Put your feelings on display. Tomorrow hug your children Somewhat tighter than before. Be sure to think of all the things You can be thankful for. Pat your dog a little longer. Hug and kiss your husband/wife. Thank your God for granting you Another day of life.

Senior Moment
I got up this morning Hurried to make my bed, Went to make the coffee Turned on TV instead; Thought I had the paper Looked but never found, Searched the room, went to the door It was laying on the ground; Went to pour my coffee Forgot to fill the pot; So turned around as I sat down Wondering what I forgot; Wrote myself a little note Forgot what I wanted to say, So turned around went back to bed I'll start over another day. HOPE I REMEMBER TO GET UP!!!!

Life As A Rose
I can see the flower upon which my life grows, blooming into a rose. See the hope and courage in the strength of the petals. As long as I am, I will be. The flower will never wilt or die. As my life grows back, I shall become strong. I shall become stronger only one person can be That one will be me. I will rise with my petals high. My life as a flower will bloom and prosper as I grow. I may not be the pick of the patch, but I am just as beautiful as the rest. I will stand as one, but not a lonely soul. For you my Angel The tears will be far from my smile.

Well The Big Day Is Almost Here
Well as some of you know I have been going through some major health problems lately. I have gone through so many test and minor opperations over the past few months only yo find out that I have partial kidney failure do to the fact that I was born with a birth defect where I was born with 2 uriters going from each kidney to my bladder (the normal kidney only has 1 from each) and the one extra uriter got blocked and backed up and just shut down. So now here on Monday October 22, 2007 I am to have surgery to remove it. I'm worried about it and afraid a little bit. The opperation will last for about 3 hours and will be at Cleveland Clinic. So if I'm not here you know where I will be I would love to chat with everyone while I'm on the way to recovery so if you want I can give you my cell and my yahoo IM so I can still chat with you all. Can't wait to come back will only have access to the internet for 2 more days after today. I wish you all the best, Chris

Surviving The Crisis
I am still hanging on to my sanity....but only by a small thread. A few things have changed for the better. But not enough to get me out of the woods. I hope to get my utilities paid soon so I can relax and try to go forward with my life. I have some very good friends helping me and a garage sale did bring in some sorely needed cash. I have a roof over my head and food in the freezer so I will not have to beg for everything. Small consolation but I'll take what I can get. And I still can't get used to being helpless. I hate it!!!!

Another Poem
This is something my friend wrote for me that I personally loved and decided to post it on here. Righteous I found her first at evening Prayer Inside the small stone church So shoulder-stooped, so wan with care The object of my search She would not heed my tale at first I'm told it's often so She neither fought nor cried nor cursed She just simply answered, "No." Just "No" and turned I ran behind to ask, "How can you know?" "For God is good, and God is kind, and would not curse me so." But she could not for long deny The power in her veins She said, "Christ suffered--so shall I to thank him for his pains." And she she trained; she studied, fought, preparing for her war She soaked up all that could be taught and still desired more No longer pale, but flush with life she strengthened every day Young men, on hunt to find a wife, surprised, looked her way But like a nun, she'd none of love She could not be seduced For she ha

Views On My Poem Please
Ok, this is a poem I wrote a little while ago and I wanted to know some peoples opinions. I personally like the poem but it is a little dark. A Dying Moment of Suicide The message I write I wrote for you As my final hour approaches I stretch my hand as far as I can So to be held by you one last time... But you never make it Time stands still You look at my now closing eyes Wishing me peace Knowing there is for me But living with my memory Each and every day Haunts you until your time When time stands still once more Knowing it was all worth it The pain gone from our eyes In the heavenly bliss we now share But people move onward We are soon forgotten Our bodies placed along side others Only to be visited every now and then Our Souls have moved on And time starts up again

9/11
Wake up to the day Just going their own way Not knowing life will end Kisses and huggs is what they send A ordinary day so they thought But evil and pain was about to be faught Early they feel the shake and rumble As they ran they all tumble Look at the smoke , blood , and tears This has become everyones great fear Some are saved , some are lost To show their point , at a great cost Why so much pain and death on their hands To bring this sorrow to our land The memories and loss will be forever Courage and faith pushed through the fire On that day the world was frozen Our love and hope they thought they would ruin We come together stronger than before Waiting and watching for our savior Watch them sore into the heavens We may never understand the reasons Stand strong, show our pride You will never break out stride In our hearts and souls we are american You did not break us..you did not win by alanna

Crappy B-day Due To Ex-wife
I got to have the kids spend the night with me last night and wake up to them singing happy b-day to me. That was totally awesome. After taking the girls to school, the EX called bitching about how I'm not a daddy to the girls. She kept threatening how she was going to do this and that, take me back to court and all of her other childish games. What it all boilded down to was that I had plans to go out for my b-day and wasn't going to keep the kids whenever it's convenient for her like she WANTS. That really got my blood pressure up so high that I was having a headache. I just had to get this off my chest. Maybe it will make me feel somewhat better.

Bulletins
Said so awhile back but takes re-iteration I suppose... and more true now, than then. I rarely visit the bulletin section, I rarely post bulletins or repost them. It's like reading one's spam-tagged mail in hopes of coming across some... worse, really, much. If you post something in a bulletin and are surprised I didn't know about it - ... ah. If you want me to know about it there's a better chance, anyway, I will, if you post it in a blog. If it is essential that I know about it- find out my personal e-mail (I've put it in a reachable place) and mail me.

Growing Old Gracefully
There's a mole on my neck that's growing a hair When I was younger it wasn't there A lot of things changed since I've grown older like my fallen arches and this hump on my shoulder Yesterday I noticed a twitch in one eye and spots on my hand that resemble a fly I used to be able to party all night but now to stay awake until five is a fight My breasts used to be firm and quite pert Now I have to be careful they don't drag in the dirt Gravity surely has taken its toll What was once on the surface is now in a hole The backs of my arms are wobbly like jelly and I found the remote tucked under my belly I used to eat steak but now I can't chew it Growing old gracefully. I don't think I can do it Wrote this, because I am 30 and in Fubar standards.. I am over the hill, and ancient when it comes to a female's age here.

The Dance
It sits in the back of my closet. It's on the hanger I bought it on too. It's my little black dress. It's a halter dress with a plunging neckline. No sensible young woman would be able to find a bra that sat low enough, I have two that do the job.. Right between my bust, right where the neckline ends sits a silver diamond. It's about as big as my fist and it pulls my breasts tight. It draws in the eye and makes you salivate. The dress hugs my hips and waist... Then it carefully becomes an A-line skirt... a short A-line that ends about two inches above my knees. Short enough to keep the eyes moving, long enough to keep me a mystery. Tomorrow night is a University wide Winter Semi formal, I had planned on going. I'm not going... I mentioned it last time I saw Beloved, but he dismissed it from his mind; last night when I brought up that I was not going, he complained that I never told him these things... Let the fantasy begin... My black stiletto heals tapped the hard carpet

Fireant Needs Less Than 9,000 Comments For A Week Blast
If you can drop by her page and help out I would appreciate it. She is one of my best friends on this site. Show her some love she is always looking to help out everyone. Here is her photo link to the picture she needs comment bombed.....

Wed (no Hump'n For Me)
I'm starting to like putting these up daily for a couple reasons: It will help me remember what the day is (lol) nah, I mean I can use them as referrals to what gifs I've used & prevent over usage of said widget & pics Also to just chat with you that wanna 'Catch' up on things :) Back when blogs started I used to go to great length's each morning to entertain a decent size following (about 100 regular viewers) I was even in the "Top 20" blogs for months & months - but I lost interest (probably something shiney caught my OCD eye) *laughs* I just don't want to use them to rant & whine ... and after reading yesterdays - It reminded me to Sshuddddup! (there more serious things in you folks lives than to read some hippies bitches about pretty much nothing!) Isn't that what the MuMM's are for? ha-ha-ha-ha Funny thing about today's comment, I'd posted about half of them, then had to go back and delete & repost them again . . . duh, forgot to take time

Mr. Cupid
smitten feelings seatch the sky cupid knows exactly where I lie On the couds, arrows saftly glide To find the heart which I hide Over mountains and thru seas they sail No rest at all till my heart they prevail The sun and storm- they are no match The broken spot they seek to patch Mr. cupid you search and search A place for you white doves to perch From heaven and right past hell Your arrows, mr. cupid, i hear their bell The ring is low and sweet My pulse can't help but skip a beat Once they hit the target of my heart I fear it may quickly fall apart You see mr. cupid your intentions are well But safety from pain you do not sell Please forgive me, mr. cupid for how i react With my love there is no contract I'm stowed away under cover Your arrows know right where to hover My soul they will eventually hit Its then I shall stop and running will i quit For its then that you will have won mr. cupid i'll admit when i'm done.

Life....
Life is a journey. We all have to travel alone. Nobody would be in our journey. The journey is everlasting. The ups and downs would be there. Feeling low and high would keep on, But this is the ordeal of our life. We have to be very bold and strong. The journey is full of joys and sorrows. The journey would appear empty and lonely, But we have to move ahead not back. The journey would be boring and tedious. When we just get through the journey, Then the real taste of life we come to know. We forget all our troubles and obstacles. The is the journey which we ever knew.

The Salesman
The Salesman He sold it in the usual way, Led him down the primrose trail, Made promises he knew were unreal, His ultimate goal under a veil. The victim signed up with no regard, He knew a good deal when he saw one, The fine print was not really clear, Just legalese that could be un-done. Surely enough, just as they agreed, He enjoyed riches beyond his belief, He made enemies and sealed their fate, It was all in the deal, all in the brief. In retrospect things looked better on paper, Shoulda been more careful, can’t believe I fell, For the oldest trick on the planet, The salesman was Satan – welcome to Hell. Copyright Steve Britt 23 July 1996

Needs Leveling
hey everybody...my boyfriend was sweet enough to post a blog to help me out in the contest that im in so im gonna return the love for him by posting this to help him get closer to leveling. he still needs a good bit to get there but all that you do will surely help. if you help him, leave me a comment here and i will send you a gift...also if you help me out for the contest...leave a comment on my blog about that and i will also send you a gift. thanks everybody. $king of hearts$$clubF.A.R@ fubar

What To Be For Halloween
Ok here goes. You all know I can't mumm anymore so i have to do this blogging stuff. Halloween is just around the proverbial corner and I do NOT know what to be. We always have a spook walk, cook out & campfire stories for all the kids whose ages range from 2-18. After all the little kiddies go home, we usually have an adult halloween party. So I may need 2 ideas. I'm totally cluelss as to what to be. Any insight would be greatly appreciated. Pictures would be very helpful as well. I figure if I can get at least an idea for it, then I can start working on it this weekend and maybe have a finished product by the time Halloween gets here.

Defective
Defective I am a human being Defective by design Not a matter of if Just how severe I don’t ride a white horse Bodies strewn along my path The burden of this cross Are short fallen intentions My character precedes me No need to persevere Winter is close at hand Discontent is mine Copyright Steve Britt November 8, 2006

Music
Music is a gift that feels our heart each day The blessings of music heal our souls each day Music relieves the stress in our daily lives Music is soothing to our ears The blessings of music heal the sick and comfort the sick also The blessings of music Is powerful It is wonderful to hear When somebody is playing something for every one to listen His giving you his gift of music to you and others And to you also God The blessings of music Music is powerful And has a great impact in everybody’s lives The blessings of music Music is universal The blessings of music You can hear the music being played from far away Every song is special Every song has a different meaning and different words

Doc Nasty, Mirage And Raven!
Well at Gothicfest 2007 in Chicago I met Doc Nasty & DJ Mirage. I must say, it was nice to finally meet Doc in person. he's one of the coolest people associated with Krush Radio or WRR. We had a great convo and just talking about everything. I made a bullitin about this so I'll leave this blog short and sweet. If DOC need anything from me or Krushradio, I'm there for ya man! And thats real talk! It was a pleasure meeting you 2 and Im happy that we're friends. **TAKEN AT GOTHICFEST 2007 in Chicago**

I Need Your Help!!
http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=211877&i=2223214668 My friend is in a contest and needs your help....if you could please go to her link above and rate/comment on her photo that would be appreciated....thanx

Friends
friendship is love but not in love friendship is a secret never to be told friendship is a shoulder to cry on friendship is not having to say sorry but do friendship is not judging no matter what friendship is someone to run too when things are tough friendship is a hand to hold when things are so rough friendship is someone to laugh with not at you freindship is just knowing they are there my freind is all of these hope you have one just like her...

I'm Yours And Your'e Mine
On my fingertips. On the tip of my tongue. I register your every touch. I hear your smell. I hear your smile. Fast as light. Two hundred miles. And all across that line. Stretched between your bed and mine. All alone just for tonight. I'm yours and you're mine. I got birds that shiver in a forest so thick. I got hands full of magic tricks. And I'll part those branches with my hands. Clear the land mines from your path. And all across that line. Stretched between your bed and mine. All alone just for tonight. I'm yours and you're mine. And all across that line. Stretched between your bed and mine. All alone just for tonight. I'm yours and you're mine. On my fingertips on the tip of my tongue. I register your every touch. I'll row the boat across the lake. We got smoke, we got perfume in our wake. And all across that line. Stretched between your bed and mine. All alone just for tonight. I'm yours and you're mine. Artist; Morphine

My So Called Meeting For 10-17-07
Yeah, first let me apologize for not posting sooner. Well I had been told by my mom over 2 weeks ago that I had an appointment at immigration for today Wednesday, Oct 17th, 2007. Well the lawyer told this to my wife and my mother over the phone. Telling them that I was going to be receiving a letter in the mail about my appointment. Well I had no news on that letter and my wife finally called the lawyer a on Friday. Well the lawyer said he wasn't sure, he said I had the appointment because he supposed it was time. So nothing was confirmed, he said that without being sure himself. So I have been telling all my family here that I had an appointment. All my friends back home were all excited. So I sit here still waiting to get news of my appointment. I don't even feel like being upset. I have been here 15 months today what is another little bit. I love my twins and family. I can't wait to get back and address that problem with the wife. We all deserve to be happy even if it means separati

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Men Are Happier.lol
Men are Happier Men are just simply happier people, and here is why... Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car Mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You dont have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you are talking to them. The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected. New shoes dont cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time. Phone conservations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A 5 day vacation requires only

Respect
I know a person, male, 20 something, who really has a problem with some ethical and moral issues. You see, I place respect in the category of morals and ethics. The more I get to know this person, the more I believe that he is an evolutionary throwback to stoneage human males. I have no idea what his history with relationships has been in the past, but considering some of his statements, I am very much surprised that some woman hasnt cut his balls off. He seems to profess the idea that women are nothing more than something for his pleasure, constantly commenting on body parts, and the fact that he cares only in what he can get, sexually anyway. Somewhere, this person failed to learn that women are more than pieces of meat, that they have a brain, spirit and soul. Sex isnt the only reason for a relationship with a woman, it is a basic biological drive that need not be a part of the relationship. In other words, a male can have an intelligent conversation with a woma

Wash Your Hands ;p
So last weekend was pretty sweet. Saturday was the errand run about then kick back zen day full of hiking and puzzle games after the taskage was complete. Sunday was my favorite day (even though I had to work that night). Slept in. Boo made an awesome breakfast of French toast, and bacon. Yummy-yumms. Long lazy shower, then we road tripped to Silverman Farm in Easton (http://www.silvermansfarm.com/ ) to go apple picking and other mad nonsense (to be more specific Silverman's has a pretty awesome petting zoo, and I have goat issues as well as cow love...) I cracked open the change jar and liberated a firm fistful of quarters to buy corn for the animals (oh-cloven hoofage) The trip was fun- the kids being ham & cheese, and the last 10 minutes chanting a Liz song in ode to the apples & goats-yeah! I think the song bit wore on my man, but being hard core he smiled benevolently at his encompassing chaos. We meet up with our friends Mike, Angie, and their little girl Zoe. Deepest of ironies

Projectile Sharps!
While awaiting the Hooligan & his bad bunny for our random themed date nights I learned how to play darts. My boo hung his Red Lion Wine & Spirits cabinet of cork, chalk, and flying sharps, then proceeded to lay out the basics- note that I spaz a bit and ricochet darts off the porch and zing 1 into the outside stereo speaker. Good job! I begin drinking liberally, and start to ferociously rock out to the 80's hair metal drifting from speakers. When Joan Jet came on I squeed in fan girl-y glee executing the random shimmy jig, and upon my turn become lethal compatant dart girl. WTF? Witness my idiosyncratic glory.

A Busy Day.
Today has been hectic,but i got some new clothes so that rocks.Went n filled out an application for a job n i go for the orientation on Monday! yay imma have money soon!!!!!! Um i get the ole tooth pulled tomorrow,and yes vince ur lsd in the hole story is awesome. :D so peeps,imm off gunna go relax n eat cuz i wont be able to rock any food for about 3 days,ohwell not like my fat ass needs to eat any way. OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH I ALMOST FORGOT! there is this old man that works in the health food store...and omg im so inlove with his,he is a splitting image of Jigsaw(tobin bell) on SAW!! omg when i see him its like ERECTION!!! (if i was a guy)

Stages Of Breast Cancer
http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/pdq/treatment/breast/Patient/page2 after breast cancer has been diagnosed, tests are done to find out if cancer cells have spread within the breast or to other parts of the body. The process used to find out whether the cancer has spread within the breast or to other parts of the body is called staging. The information gathered from the staging process determines the stage of the disease. It is important to know the stage in order to plan treatment. The following stages are used for breast cancer: Stage 0 (carcinoma in situ) There are 2 types of breast carcinoma in situ: * Ductal carcinoma in situ (DCIS) is a noninvasive, precancerous condition in which abnormal cells are found in the lining of a breast duct. The abnormal cells have not spread outside the duct to other tissues in the breast. In some cases, DCIS may become invasive cancer and spread to other tissues, although it is not known at this time how to predict which l

Single Again Unfortunetly
I am starting to wonder if The Damned are not ment to be happy because I am single again and this time it was not my fault. I guess when you date someone 14 years older then you and is having a midlife crisis and menopause I guess you get the bad end of the stick. My last relationship prior to this well I fumbled the ball and things were trying to get better and then last month with me being in a relationship pissed off a few ladies which was never my intention to hurt them. Seems like no one truely understands me, not my family, not even my own close friends. Sad aint it? So being single does have its ups and downs but I dont like to be single. I suppose no one does.

Greatest Gift
Everything I do, yes I do for my love Every place I go, she is on my mind I would give the world, my soul, to discover Send me just a sign angel on my mind And if I should dream, I could dream of no other Out here in the deep, hear my body cryin' Heaven knows the fire that I hide and recover Glorify this fool, angel on my mind, on my mind This is the greatest gift that I can bring to you I feel the world that moves inside This is the moment I have dreamt of all my life Reach out and touch, and you will find Why am I crazy, who is foolin' with the order I am strong, I will not fade, I will survive Look in my eyes, you'll see my heart, I will recover Send me just a sign, angel on my mind, on my mind This is the greatest gift that I can bring to you I feel the world that moves inside This is the moment, I have dreamt of all my life Reach out and touch, oh, and you will find This is the greatest gift This is the greatest gift This is the greatest gift that I can b

Whisper
Whisper Don't worry I'm not looking at you Gorgeous and dressed in blue Don't worry I'm not looking at you Gorgeous and dressed in blue I know it drives you crazy When I pretend you don't exist When I'd like to lean in close And run my hands against your lips Though we haven't even spoken Still I sense there's a rapport So whisper me your number I'll call you up at home Whisper me your number I'll call you up at home Don't worry I'm not looking at you Gorgeous and dressed in blue Don't worry I'm not looking at you I know you see me see you As you see me walk on past When there's nothing more I'd like to do Then come in close and hear you laugh Though we haven't even spoken Still I sense there's a rapport So whisper me your number I'll call you up at home Yea whisper me your number I'll call you up at home Whisper me your number I'll call you up at home Hmm whisper me your number Artist; Morphine

It Wasn't Me!
I'm not allowed to post mumms anymore, apparently I was a bad girl. To a certain someone-it's really not my fault if you'd rather sit there stoned in front of your computer than have a wild night with me. Don't you dare blame that on me. I tried getting your attention. Your move, a$$hole. It's raining now, and I think I'll go puddle jumping.

Poor Little Guy
This little guy is sitting at the bar just staring at his drink. He's been sitting there for half an hour when this big trouble-making BIKER steps up next to him, grabs his drink and gulps it down in one swig. The poor little guy starts crying. "Come on man, I was just giving you a hard time," says the biker. "I'll buy you another drink. I just can't stand to see a man crying." "This is the worst day of my life," says the little guy between sobs. "I can't do anything right. I overslept and was late to an important meeting, so my boss fired me. When I went to the parking lot, I found my car was stolen and I have no insurance. I grabbed a cab home but, after the cab left, I discovered I had forgotten my wallet in it. At home I found my wife in bed with the gardener. So I came to this bar and was thinking about putting an end to my life, and you show up and drink the damn poison.."

Our Song!!!!! Forever!!!!!!
I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself, but it's true There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my head over you I lived so long believin' all love is blind But everything about you is tellin' me this time Chorus: It's forever, this time I know and there's no doubt in my mind Forever, until my life is thru, girl I'll be lovin' you forever I hear the echo of a promise I made When you're strong you can stand on your own But those words grow distant as I look at your face No, I don't wanna go it alone I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line But everything about you is tellin' me this time chorus - yeah! I see my future when I look in your eyes It took your love to make my heart come alive Cos I lived my life believin' all love is blind But everything about you is tellin' me this time

Why..
Why... Why do the ones we love hurt us the most.. Why do the ones we love betray us so often.. What am I to do.. Do I tell the one I Love somthing that could change every thing? Or do I keep the trust of a friend..of family, and if I do then do I lose the trust of my Love? I feel things sliping and I have to sit back and watch. If I get to involved then more people get hurt. I hate this I hate not knowing what to do..I hate having to choose my sides.. I should beable to talk to who I want with no problems. But that is not my complaint.. I have no problem talking to both sides I just dont want to walk this tight rope any more. So tell me how can I choose, how do I pick between my Love and my friends and family when we are all sapost to be close. So tell me how..give me a answer please...

Born In 1974!
If you're under the age of 13...you shouldn't even read this and if you do, you should not repost this. Just because you were born in '97 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid. It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90's just wont cut it. You're a 90's kid if: You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _] You remember watching: -Doug -Ren & Stimpy -Pinky and the Brain -AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! -Rockos modern Life. -Gargoils You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!" You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ." You remember: -LEGENDS OF THE HIDDEN TEMPLE!!! -Step by Step -Family Matters!!! -Dinosaurs -Boy Meets World!!!! -Wild and Crazy Kids You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. You remem

Book Review: "puppetmaster: The Secret Life Of J. Edgar Hoover" (2004)
Author: Richard Hack Plot: An in-depth examination of John Edgar Hoover from childhood to death. In between, we see how he combined his gift of intelligence, love of organization and need to be in control into the tools he would use to make him the most powerful law enforcement official of the 20th century. Likes: JEH is shown in all his glory and evil. As you read, there are times you are impressed by him, and times you might dislike him.; The author never really judges JEH himself but gives enough well researched information that helps the reader to decide JEH's place in US history. Dislikes: While the subject matter is interesting, the writing style (which is like reading a college term paper) doesn't exactly make the book a page-turner. Five Facts: 1. JEH went from high school straight to earning a Masters In Law degree from George Washington University night law school. 2. JEH joined the US Dept. Of Justice at a time when it was very corrupt with political appoin

Hey It's A New One!
Hello all! It's been quite a long time since I've posted a blog so I thought I'd update things a bit. Yep, I'm still single. And I'm dating peeps, but not really looking for anything as I am leaving for Germany in May. My daughter's father is in the Air Force and he got orders to Germany for up to 3 years. Rather than fight him for custody and keep my daughter here away from her dad, I decided to take this once in a lifetime opportunity and move with them. I have some friends that are coming with me so I hope that all will go well. We've got a big Halloween shindig we're throwing at our place on the 27th of Oct. All are invited should you be interested in joining us. Send me a message or catch me on Myspace.

Fishing With My Grandpa
Fishing With My Grandpa My Grandpa and I did a lot of things together. But fishing with my Grandpa was the best ever. I loved going to the river when the sky is all blue. I love riding in my Grandpa's van too. The last trip to the river, I do really miss. But I know Grandpa is with GOD catching fish. Love and miss you Grandpa, Sean Bates

Religion
I am a Creator -- yes, we are still out here! -- and this is a partial reply to an old acquaintance who sent me a pro-Christian chain email. When we speak of 2 + 2 equaling 4, we don't speak of faith. We only speak of faith when there is a lack of evidence. People can live good honest lives without believing in unprovable imaginative meanderings. It is impossible to prove "God" exists. It is also impossible to prove "God" doesn't exist; but on this count, it isn't up to me to disprove it because I am not the one making the claim. The burden of proof rests on the party making the claim. What if I said that I believe there are millions of 8-foot by 8-foot square pink polka-dot beings that dwell 300 feet above the surface of the planet and they constantly o

This Ain't Fuckin Myspace
So this is a bulletin floating around here If you love God and you're not ashamed of him, repost this and see what he does for you tonight... ************************* *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** **888888888888888888888** **888888888888888888888** **888888888888888888888** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** *********888888********** ************************* Repost this saying: "Delete her!!!" Remember, the Bible says: "IF YOU DENY ME BEFORE MAN, THEN I WILL DENY YOU BEFORE MY FATHER Now this is something I would expect on myspace from a bunch of the little teenie boppers there and all of their bullshit. I didn't repost this bulletin cause I rank it up there with the whole "If you don't send this to 20 million people in 20 seconds the stay puft marshmallow man will

Marines' Slogan Wins Contest
Marines' Slogan Wins Contest Marine Corps News | October 15, 2007 MARINE CORPS RECRUITING COMMAND, QUANTICO, Va. -- Madison Avenue’s Advertising Walk of Fame now has a new member in its ranks. "The Few. The Proud. The Marines." will be forever enshrined on the famed walk, the announcement, Sept. 26, was done during Advertising Week 2007, held in New York. Advertising Week, the largest and most prestigious annual gathering of advertising and media industry leaders in North America, has named the United States Marine Corps an inductee to the “Walk of Fame” for advertising slogans. Voting took place via the World Wide Web Aug. 28 through Sept. 25. "This slogan reflects the unique character of the Marine Corps and underscores the high caliber of those who join and serve their country as Marines," said Maj. Gen. Richard T. Tryon, commanding general, Marine Corps Recruiting Command. “Such recognition reaffirms the special relationship we have with the American public.” “The Marine Corps

" I Wish "
I wish you happiness...the kind that is deep within your soul and shines through your eyes for the world to see. I wish you serenity and a sense of perspective, to calm you and lend you understanding even in the most difficult times. I wish you success in every facet of your life, and satisfaction and contentment in every single thing you do. I wish you sweet dreams and the promise of their fulfillment,a lifetime of extraordinary memories, and a path that leads to beautiful tomorrows. And above all I wish that you could see...how big a difference you make in my life and how grateful I am to know you! Denno..

Enough Is Freaking Enough.
I've decided to finally stop effing around and get some damn nails put back on. It's so weird, when my oldest sister has long nails I have NONE. But when I have long nails she has NONE. Freaking genetics. Anyway, it's almost time to go home. Who's coming with me? :)

Compatibility Test/ Personality Traits
Self-Confidence As someone with high self-confidence, you feel quite comfortable interacting with other people. Indeed, you find the company of others very stimulating and enjoy meeting new people. Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as socially competent. The confidence that helps you feel comfortable talking to people also spills into your own personal beliefs about yourself. Although you have several strengths, it’s likely that you also acknowledge and accept your weaknesses. But unlike some people, you take full responsibility for your actions—you rarely regret things you’ve done in the past and are not embarrassed easily. Perhaps the defining feature that sets you apart from most people is the exceptionally high standards that you set for yourself. Your competence in social gatherings as well as at work should provide amp

Recruiters
Went to the recruiters yesterday morning and decided to take the advice of a few people and checked out what the Navy and Army had to offer.. nadda! As a single mom I can only go reserves with Navy and Army which means no housing and no medical coverage for my son.. that seems like a waste of going to bootcamp!! I am not going to be away from my son for 13 weeks to come home and not be able to provide for him much more than I can now.. So the Marines is the route.. I just gotta figure out which job I'd like to go into so that way it'll help keep me motivated..I like to know my options up front and make goals so I know what I'm doing.. as of right now.. I am starting to wake up earlier than normal and when I get use to that I am going to start waking up even earlier (I am not a morning person so this takes steps.. lol lol lol).. Today I have been eating healthy and have been doing lots of housework and drinking lots of water so that's a start too.. I didn't have the chance to go to the

Friends To Friends.
I had some free time, so what did I do? I checked the computer to see if I'd heard from you. I used to walk out to a box to retrieve mail But I'd rather get it instantly than wait on the snail... Checking my email is always fun I usually get a joke or greeting from someone. I feel so connected because on the other end I know I've discovered a newfound friend. When I've had a hard day and need to share Here I can find a friend who will listen and care. And to this friend I hope I let know That I am always there for them also. Isn't it a strange kind of bond we form? It isn't exactly like the "norm". But where is it written, face to face we have to be For you to be a very good friend to me? That little joke, or not, or even just a simple "Hi" Could be like a ray of sunshine from the sky. So, my online-pals, this is dedicated to you For all the smile you have made anew. May our friendship continue to grow and the warmth we feel continue

Halloween Ball
I know a lot of my friends that read this do not live anywhere close to where I am at, but I still want to get the word out. October 27th our Relay for Life team will be hosting a Halloween Ball at the Knights of Columbus is La Salle, Illinois. It starts at 7 pm and ends at 11 pm. We will have a live band called Group Therepy. They played at the Relay for Life this year and were awsome. There will be food provided. It is a cash bar that night also. It is $10 dollars per person to get in the door. Must be 21 or older with valid ID. There will be a costume contest, but you don't have to dress up if you choose not too. We will also be having a 50/50 drawing, raffles and door prizes. I, the Amazing Madame Jester, (lol) will be doing fortune telling all night long. And not to brag, but I have been told that I am pretty good at what I do. I guess you will just have to find out. If you need any more info just let me know. Thanks!!! Also please keep in mind that all the money w

Domestic Violence
I have too much to do today really express my thoughts on this, though it would probably put my mind to ease and clear my head if I did. On the way to this morning's meeting, I was listening to the radio and during the news, they had a segment on Domestic Violence Awareness in PA and they were kicking off a campaign. That is a great thing. Everything that can be done to stop the violence should be. People should know their options, the programs to help them, where to go, what to do. The state legislator heading it, provided statistics about how many women are abused. It is really terrible just how many women are abused. And it needs to stop. I commend her for her efforts. At the same time, I would express my deep disappointment. You see, every statistic, every reference was about women being abused. For someone promoting the awareness of Domestic Violence, she has failed. Because she forgot me. And she forgot those who are like me. Society accepts that women of every col

Friggin Assholes
Heh the mother fucker lied to me. I should expet anything less? I'm so fucking pissed. He lied to me! Told me he was going to work under the table for his buddy today for $100. Brings home $22 and is drunker than hell. They'd been drinkin since 9am!!!!! Just proves how much I do really need to get away from him. I dont care about drinkin, i do it here and there myself...but dont fuckin lie to me and tell me you are going to be working all day, keep me up with our daughter so that I only grab maybe 3 hours sleep and have to function on a 12 hour shift like that. I think he is starting to suspect something isnt right. I took some more of my stuff to mom's. He comes in,looks around and is like...what happend to all the clothes on the dresser? I was like Well considering they are summer clothes, I took em to moms to store in the attic, I'm not putting them under the house. He was like, well anyother time u wouldnt have done that, so why now? LOL I just answered "cause i felt like it"

~~pink Ribbons~~
This is dedicated to all women. Especially to those who have survived breast cancer, including my Grandmother~~Ollie Mae Rollins~~ center> ~~October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month!!~~Help Save the Boobies!!~~ Get this widget | Track details

Luv My Carvin Fraser, Enjoy Hearing Them On My Round Up
----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: Carvin Fraser Date: Oct 17, 2007 12:33 PM PLEASE VOTE FOR CARVIN FRASER...GO TO http://www.myspace.com/scottallenfraser, PICK ANY SONG OF OURS THAT YOU LIKE AND EMAIL THE NAME OF THAT SONG TO nick480@aol.com TUNE IN HERE http://community.loudcity.com/stations/radio-indy/tune_inTHEN.....COME BY ANYTIME TO CHAT AT http://www.dixieboysradio.com/radioindy/ JUST PICK A NICKNAME FOR YOURSELF, COME ON IN AND HAVE SOME FUN!! WE EVEN GET IN THERE PRETTY OFTEN SO YOU CHAT DIRECTLY WITH US.THANK YOU SO MUCH AND HAVE A GREAT WEDNESDAY!!!CARVIN FRASER

The Witches Of Minot And Portobello
Just where do the pointed hats witches wear come from? I was just thinking about that before starting today's entry where I was going to tell you that we've already got the costumes Sarah and Jeffrey will be wearing for Halloween; Martha and Mary were out to get Sarah's costume on Sunday afternoon and they brought home this especially cute black dress and pointed hat both with pink trim. We already have tights for Sarah to wear as well -- we got them and other clothes from Sarah's godparents on my side of the family, my brother Bob and his fiancee Diann last Christmas -- and sometimes I think it fits her personality. Jeffrey gets to wear a hand-me-down tiger costume which my mom originally made for my second-oldest niece Callie (who's in her late twenties now) and it's since gone down through every grandchild. Jeffrey makes my mom's twenty-first grandchild, so it took a while to get to him . . . orange overalls, stripes on the sides, a cap with standout ears, and even a tail. As f

Welcome To Fubar!
There are a lot of new people her on Fubar, so I thought I would try and help everyone at the same time. Wow..its getting harder to help everyone individually..LOL As much as I would like to..:) So as a basic rule..its all about leveling and getting points..LOL First you Rate there profile, then you fan them, and then you add them as a friend..:) Pretty simple...After that if you want you can rate pics and do comments..:) (word of advise: its and unwritten rule that you don't rate below a 10 or more, otherwise you are considered a downrater, and thats no fun..LOL) Other than that you can find anymore information you need in the Fubar Bible..:) Have fun with this!..:) Hugs and kisses! Copy and paste this link http://www.fubar.com/bible.php

You Make My Heart Melt
You make my heart melt Into a puddle on the floor I am looking for love Please don’t close the door To love or not to love That is the question I ask Why must loving someone Be such a hard task I think because it’s full of emotions That makes it so hard If I fall in love with you Then I am letting down my guard It is up for a reason This you should know My heart has been broken A few times in a row I know things won’t be perfect Because I know they never are But with you I hope I’m not just wishing upon a star I have feelings deep and so true For what I feel and have to say Is that I am falling for you More and more each and every day Sometimes I wonder Am I setting myself up for more pain? Is this for real to him too? Or is it just a game My heart is not a toy Please don’t treat it as such I have thought about you Oh so very much I really hope that when we meet That you will love me And we will go beyond all of this And what happens

Need Your Salutes Please....
Alright, a friend of mine, Chris and I have a bet going to see who can get more salutes by tonight. The only "prize" is going to be bragging rights but that's how we roll. :0)Please send me your salute photos so I can show him I'm way better than he is!!!!! Thank you... For those of you who don't know what I mean....you need to write my name: *Mistress Panttherlady* (two "t's" in Panttherlady)on your body or paper or something and take a pic with it, then send to me. I'll post them in a folder on my page.

Lol
You are a Rocker Girl! If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker! What Kind of Girl Are You?

Anyone Else Feel Depressed On Their Bday?
i don't know what it is..but i'm sooooo freaking depressed right now. and it seems like nothing is going right. my kid does NOTHING that i tell her and EVERYTHING that i tell her not to do. everyone keeps telling me "that's what 4 year olds do" bullshit...i've seen tons of kids her age act like a child, instead of the demon spawn that my kid acts like. i have no idea how to fix it. i've tried everything i can think of short of beating her to a bloody pulp (no i wouldn't ever do that so don't get on my case about it..it's a figure of speech people!) i'm just so depressed and frustrated right now i wanna just crawl under a rock and die. i'm old, ugly, fat, a bad mom, a bad submissive, a horrible girlfriend... i just feel worthless.

Fireant
OK PEACHES...FIREANT IS IN A GIVE AWAY FOR A 7 DAY BLAST...THIS IS WHO WE CONCENTRATE ON IT ENDS IN 9 DAYS...WHICH IS THE 26TH...SHE NEEDS 10,000 COMMENTS..THIS IS A PIECE OF CAKE FOR US...LETS SHOW OUR SECOND IN COMMAND SOME MAD PEACH LOVE

Alone
I feel so alone I feel like I have no one I feel so sad What have I done? I feel so empty inside Does anyone love me? I feel no love None that I can feel or see I feel so empty I am so sad I’m feeling down I feel so mad I want to be loved But I am alone Alone in this world A heart-broken one I don’t feel anything There is no love for me I feel nothing There is nothing I see I want to feel love Ever so true And all I feel anymore Is just so blue Who I want I can’t have And whom I have I don’t want This is why I feel so alone My heart sinks down low I feel so sad and so empty Away is where I want to go Away with someone who cares And with so much love Maybe heaven sent From up above Then I will have someone My life to share And not be alone And have someone to care Being all alone in this world It is so gloomy and so dark I feel as if love for me Has missed its mark I hope that it hasn’t And one day I will find him

Last Chance To Enter!
Last Chance to Enter! Win a 7 day Blast! I have 10 entries now but if you are interested in entering you gotta let me know by today! Its a Show me Your Grill contest! Just use one of your favorite smiling pic..:) Comment bombing is allowed and advised. No drama! Most comments wins! Will start October 20th @ 7 pm Eastern and run till October 27th @ 7 pm Eastern If you are interested let me know and I will add you! Prizes: 1st 7 Day Blast 2nd 3 day Blast 3rd 1 Day Ticker 4th Big Pimping Gift!

Apparently They Don't Understand This "flu Shot" Business.
The company sponsored a "Flu Shot" afternoon, where we could all get flu shots for $25 or something if we so choose. I of course got one, because although it's a crap shoot that the antibodies used will be effective(It's only 3 of the main 5 strains), those are pretty good odds. I've blown a lot more money on less. You would think others would do this. But these are actual comments from my co-workers why they didn't. "Not for me but thanks for asking." Not...for me. Apparently it's a lifestyle choice I was unaware of, not being filled with snot. "No I'll be fine this winter." Sure. But if you get sick and come into the office, we beat you with sticks. "Umm..i think im good." You're good? How are you "good"? Do people only get car insurance when they're driving good? "I'm not sure it's a good idea with preggie @ home!" Don't even get that one. I would *think*... you'd want to avoid sickness with a newborn at home. I don't get people. And before you say it,

Is It That F*cking Hard
You know the saying behind every BITCH there is a man that made her that way I like to change it a bit cause we can't blame it all on the man cause it is caused by many that make her that way. Its just all the Bullshit that goes around .I am the type of person that likes to see people happy but yet I find myself always feeling like crap. I think I am going to be done with everything all I ask from peps to keep it real no bullshit but I notice from a few its cant be that way so I ask this from my friends that I luv so dear should I stay... I am really getting tired of the lies an fake ablies I am real with you is it that fucking hard to stay real with me...

Him
Im just sitting here thinking. Woundering if the person Im thinking about is thinking of me. I cant wait to see this person again. I hope he is having a great day. I just want to hear from this person. When I talk to this person it makes my day all better.

I Want You Oh So Near
I want you oh so near And you are the one I hold so dear I want to feel your gentle touch That is what I want so very much You are what I am longing for I want you more and more I want your love and affection I don’t want any rejection I hold you so dear in my heart Please oh please don’t tear it apart I want to feel with you a love so true And I want you to feel it too As I look into your loving eyes I hope they are not telling me lies For what my heart says is true and pure Heartbreak is not what I want to endure I feel something with you so very great I hope I will always be your date I have an empty heart to fill with love for you I hope it will always be full for you Though we haven’t met You are the one I want to get You are the one in my thoughts and my dreams But you are so far away it seems If this were to work, I really hope so My love for you would overflow If you accept and love me and also my son That would tell me that

My Horoscope Today.....
You are feeling your oats today as your key planet Mars receives a gentle kiss from beautiful Venus, enabling you to warm others with your good intentions. Don't hold back; be direct and tell others what you want. If you can demonstrate your patience, you might just get what you need. Good advise.

4th Street Records
i gotta do it, my expenses are expensive my soldiers on the move, my clique is aprehensive i got dem blueprints in my mind, so i gotta be on my grind i can't sit back and unwind if i expect to shine i can't yet afford my beats, so i'm acappella in the street these girls want my heat, all they gettin is cold feet just gimme all my props, i already got my rocks i'm claiming south 53 and i'm settin up shop if u got beef i'm gon eat it up and spit u out $1400 in my mouth trust me we ain't gonna talk it out all you'll get is a broken neck, so u best go walk it out my soldiers can bodybag ya, let the 5-0 chalk u out we goin straight up like paula, to the top get at me and my catch 22 boyz holla

I Give You My Heart 2
I GIVE YOU MY HEART PLEASE DON’T TEAR IT APART IT IS YOURS TO KEEP WITH A LOVE SO DEEP YOU MAKE ME SMILE WHICH I HAVEN’T DONE IN A WHILE I AM FALLING FOR YOU AND THESE WORDS ARE TRUE I WANT TO KNOW YOU EVER SO MUCH AND I LONG TO FEEL YOUR TOUCH RIGHT NOW MY HEART IS BLUE UNTIL I GET TO BE WITH YOU THESE FEELINGS ARE REAL MY HEART YOU DID STEAL YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME THIS I HOPE YOU SEE I WANT YOU HERE WITH ME SO VERY NEAR I SEND YOU ALL MY LOVE SHOWERING YOU FROM ABOVE I HOPE YOU FEEL THIS TOO EVERYTHING I SAY TO YOU THIS IS FROM MY HEART I AM HOPING THIS IS A GOOD START I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE BUT I’LL SAY THIS; I AM FALLING FOR YOU, HUN! October 11, 2007 KIMBERLY

Lost And Alone
Lost and Alone Within this Life Searching to find Some form of comfort While Lost I sit Alone Within this Shell Of this World Wanting to be Found To be Loved and Held Within your Strong Arms Knowing I'm Safe and Found While I wish for this I shall wait til I'm Found Forever Lost and Alone While I fade into Darkness Wrote on 10~17~2007 by Raven Darkwood

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It Was One Of Those....
I wrote in my blog this morning..."I sure hope it isn't going to be one of those days." Well, just guess it WAS one of those days. On top of wakin' up, thinking this was Thursday, and that my week was about over, just to find out it was Wed., having to drag out in the damp and rain to go to work, ...then when I finally get there, not more than 30 mins. or so after arriving, ALL of the computers went off line! The internet went out, and none of our 4 registers were working, and people were starting to pile in for the lunch rush. So...with about 10 people waiting in line to order, we're trying to take orders by writing each order down...and had to be exact cash only...we couldn't make any change...nor was the credit cards working. Then all orders had to be taken back to the kitchen, since none of them were showing up on the computer screens. I am glad though, that all the customers we waited on, were very patient, and understanding about our situation. I guess we finally got the

Im Back Sorta
i know i havent been around as much as i used to but ill explain why i started collage on the 8th of this month Im enrolled at UTI and the baby keeps trying to make his appreance early but the damm hospital wont let him till heather is 36 weeks which is today by the way so if he trys to come early now they wont stop him so between taking care of her and trying to cram every thing there is to know about diesl engines into my dome i havent had much time to do much more than pop on for a sec or 2 ill try to be on as much as i can but no promises i will however blog atleast once a week to keep those that wanna know updated.Oh yeah as of right now i have a 3.8 gpa and perfect adendance im well on my way to my goal of makeing the dean's list thats all for now hugs to all

For A Start
The toy biz is going well, would like to do some parties to show off my wares though. No, I don't do Passion parties! My parties are geared more for couples and wild women. Not that I have a problem with passion parties, I just don't feel the need to try to make money off of other people's work! Plus, I have access to 60 different companies for my stuff, not just one. Anything goes! I will be posting reviews of toys here. If anyone wants to know about toys, ask me. Chances are, if I havent tried it myself, I know someone who has!!!

A$$hole's Contest
Our favorite A$$hole is in a contest. Please stop by and show him your love and support. He need 10,000 comments to get either a VIP or one week blast. I would consider it a personal favor if you drop him some comments. Thanks, Tiggerbear2007

Some Thing To Think About
As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom,in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine &beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit There is no need to thank me for this valuable information: I'm doing it as a public service.

Alright, Sorry Kid
my ex hangs around me/my house/my family a lot. it makes me uncomfortable when i wake up to him knocking on my bedroom door. i understand that there's a love there but it is NOT a mutual thing. i have recently found out that even though we're NOT dating... he told jackie (my best friend) that he wanted to propose to me and even sent her a picture of the ring he wanted to get me. this freaked me out because he's been pushing me to meet his family and i'm NOT, i repeat, N O T going to marry him. so i have to get this notion out of his head before he takes it too far. thanks to a very "creative" fubarian friend of mine... i've decided to tell him one of two things to get him to back off: option #1: i'm working for the cia gathering information on a possible terrorist attack anf he's going to blow my cover if he keeps invading my "life". option #2: i (may) have feelings for someone else and i'm not interested in a relationship with you. i'm sorry if this hurts you but i would'v

Bathtub Test...
The Bathtub Test During a visit to the mental asylum, a visitor asked the Director how do you determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalized. 'Well,' said the Director, 'we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub.' 'Oh, I understand,' said the visitor. 'A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup.' 'No.' said the Director, 'A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?' ARE YOU GOING TO PASS THIS ON, OR DO YOU WANT THE BED NEXT TO MINE ?