TiTaNiUm BuTtErFlY's blog: "Twisted and Broken"

"Everyone has their own battles and their own fights. Its just about figuring out what you can take on and what will come out of it that makes you happy dealing with the consequences and theories in the world. You have to develop your own path and your own state of mind."

This quote is from someones video, who I fallow closely for some personal reasons and out of admiration.  He also says that you "cant form your life on others because they have already based what they feel about you based on things they cant even be sure about but they're saying they are. "

This has really came to express my life and how it has been for a short while now. There are some people who are going to meet me, and they are going to base their feelings on such things as my tattoos, how I dress, even my attitude. This brings in his point, they don't know my battles or fights or the reasons for why I do or don't do things. I can try my best at what I do, that is where it goes.  He also mentions that the more you doubt yourself the more right that you are, because then you can admit and see where you are wrong. That does not make us weak, in fact it is the opposite and it makes us even stronger due to the fact that it shows us where we are also right.  There have been some pretty deep wounds recently in my life and I would have been knocked down, felt like dying, like my world was crumbling but that was in my past. There has to come a day when you look at yourself and see that you need to be at that point when you can apply these quotes in your life. Am I there? Yes I am. A lot of people believe that once you are damaged or Twisted and Broken that no matter what you will remain that way. NOT true!!!!!   I cant say it more. In every one of us that are "damaged" goods, we maybe scared or even have a couple cracks but we do not eternally stay Twisted and Broken. People come into our lives and some go out of our lives and all for a reason. But when those of them leave a part of you doesn't die, it changes and so do your plans. It is a speed bump not a canyon. So what do I do, sit and cry? Listen to my usual sad songs and feel like I'm screaming inside? NO NOT THIS TIME, in the past yes, now NO! I work harder! They say take it day by day, well sometimes its about minute by minute. And I look at every one of those minutes and I ask... Am I working my ass off at each and every one? I am pushing through when I feel like stopping and I am noticing every detail. Have my plans changed? NOT ONE BIT! I set my goals and I have them in site and I am willing to do the work to reach them. I will be who I want to be and I will be where I want to be. I will make it! I am willing to sacrifice. And watch out when I get there cause there is no stopping me when I arrive!