The world is confusing, boys and girls can both be stupid, and karma is a bitch. I'm letting go of everything and in a sense, though unintentional, everyone. I once relied so much on the people around me to make me feel strong. But everyone is so weak. Relationship you think will last, don't. People you think are strong, give in to their weaknesses. And nothing is a stable as it looks. But despite it all, I believe in Karma and Fate. Some people wondered why when things fell apart and fell in on my plans last year, I didn't fall apart as well. It's because I know that I was obviously not meant to meet that person, at least not yet, if ever. And people close to me felt as though I was pushing away. I really am sorry for that, but I was feeling a little like falling apart, but not in a burst out crying sense. I kinda shut off, gave up feeling anything. And when I get like that, I get pretty mean. I'm sorry if you took me as cold, but I didn't want to say things I would regret and I know I would have said a lot of things that I didn't really mean.
I'm feeling a lot better now...and I can only hope that there are still some people left. I have Rose, she's good people, so I'll make it through.
