Bam Bam RL Hubby 2 Tigger's blog: "history"

so last i left off was was about two and a half years ago. in that first year at moms I ended up  getting with someone named Brandy from fubar. she had been married and we got together talking slowly bc she was going though a divorce from what she had told me. she ended up asking to come stay with me claiming her younger daughters dad had felt up her 15 year old. and we let them come stay with us here in san antonio. I had been working for direct tv so worked a lot of hours . when they came down it started out really good. but her youngest would often throw tantrums so loud kicking and screaming that was so loud the neighbors several times came out onto their porches to see where it came from. the little girl was spoiled rotten to the point she kicked and hit adults. The 15 year old was a really cool little chick. but the relationship lasted 3 weeks. she ended up breaking up with me after 2 or 3 weeks it was rough with me and her two kids. my mom. stepdad and my aunt who has a lot of mental issues including having about 50 personalities.. something i found out the hard way.  my aunt at one point ended up pushing the 7 year old over something to be honest i cant remember what it was but the kid was spoiled and mean and my aunt was batshit crazy. i got between them bc brandy was ready to get in a fight and my aunt smashed me in the face with a shoe out of no where.. she broke my glasses. and ultimately I called the cops on my aunt bc she had assaulted a child and me. and i didnt want it to get worse than it was. they took her away to evaluate her at the hospital and later released her. and even though to this day she did what she did she starts a lot of drama with everyone in the family . but back to brandy. apparently she got with another dude after breaking up with me. still living with us she had a guy sending her money and using me for what she could. and i was a sucker bc i cared so much for her. she would often use my laptop bc hers was a piece of crap. i got up every day to go to work and she didnt do much of anything it turned out she was doing stuff on cam with a dude .. the irony its the same thing she did with me when she lived in california. when mom and my stepdad saw that she was using me they said she couldnt stay .. she was suppsoed to leave every few days for a month.. then my sister was talked into letting brandy and her girls stay with them bc the 7 year old was getting worse and worse and my mom has bad heart conditions and couldnt take it anymore. so brandy stayed with my sister and was supposed to only ne a few days .. it ended up being couple of months. until i got a new gf i had met here in san antonio. one day everyone got together at my sisters and had a bbq brandy was around.. and ended up pulling the girl to the side talking shit about me and my family and the girl ended up telling my sister and her hubby and me what was said. at this point everyone including the new gf was sick of them and we all were having a discussion.. brandy was listening at the door and the finally left a few days later . i havent heard anything from her since.  

 I ended up dating Rachel for a few months and she ended up getting drunk on the 4th of july .. literally slapped me across the face for no reason... everyone was laughing and talking and the next thing i knew CRACK right across the face.. literally everyone was like why the fuck did you do that.. apparently she drinks vodka and attacks people. i found out she has done similar before. we ended up leaving later after a long talk and she ended up going to jail bc she attacked her mom..  we only found out bc she just disappeared and noone knew anything.. her mom talked to me and told me a lot more what happened. and i got rachels wallet and card and stuff and my sister and her hubby managed to bond her out while i was working using rachels money. we helped her as best as we could but i broke up with her bc she ended up being a violent drunk. she used my sister for a place to stay .. even though i said no get rid of her . my sister helped anyway and eventually she moved out.

later my sister and her husband and the kids moved to the northwest side of town and he was doing drugs and stuff and beat the shit out of her.. he went to jail and i moved in with her and the kids to help her. he was in jail about 6 months and we were finally getting the kids under control bc how they have been  raised. he got out of jail and the next day was back in the house. even though there was a no contact order.. and he hid in the house so people didnt know. pretty much he kissed her ass until he felt safe.. then started his bs.. eventually me and him got into a fist fight bc i was sick of his mouth plus in a bad mood. hes verbally abusive and though he has cheated and been abusive on my sister over and over he accuses her of doing shit. ironically she hasnt ever done anything . he is her world. and he uses that.. i moved out when i had been talking to soemoen named ruby.

 Ironically i knew ruby from fubar. she was older by 11 years. to sum it up things werent what i thought they were. and in jan of 16 i got in a wreck at work and was fired. bc they have a 3 strike policy . i had been in three accidents and found not at fault.. but they fire after three strikes the let me go. between several things and work. i wasnt happy and didnt want to stay in the relationship and my sister asked me to come stay back with them. so i packed my stuff up while they were all gone and got most of my stuff and moved out. i didnt want confrontation in person because i did care about her but things didnt feel right for a lot of reasons.  we talked in text for while  I wont talk shit about her she was a beautiful woman and a sweetheart to be honest. but things didnt work .

this last year was rough bc my back went out and i started the process to get help. but the lack of time and money have made it hard. so i started college taking online classes with Ultimate Medical Academy  and i got a job online working from home it took a few months to get it all together. so far out of 8 classes i hae a 3.21 gpa . i messed up and didnt pass one class the last period and barely passed my other class but i pulled it together and got a b in that class.

this leaves me right now.. single and keeping my eyes out fo that person that might be the rght woman in my life. im not going to chase anyone but ill just watch and listen and see what happens.. who knows.. but getting to know someone is the biggest key in my life and working on me for school and trying to work to pay a few bills and keep child support and insurance for me and my kids.

I was recently told by my kids mom the reason she abandoned me was the night my daughter paige passed away i was on the computer. and paige was moved to be on kathy when Tristan was asleep . she blames me.. even though i was the one checking on the kids she told me that i should have heard my daughters gasping breath as she couldnt breath. how .. she was on her moms chest.. she passed peacefully.. they said she passed from creeping pnumonia. that night at the hospital they told us to get counseling.. i did eventually. kathy never did. but she blames me for our daughter passing away. for a while i blamed myself asking if there was anything i could have done. and the answer is no. whether i was across the room on the computer. or if i had been asleep in the bedroom. there was no way to hear paige because she let go in her sleep.

We moved back to the east side over by moms about a block and half away. my brother in law was put on a ankle monitor and finally working and they put him back in jail. the irony is he was supposedly clean from drugs but they busted him for breaking the ankle monitor thing for going to work when they knew. that is what he is telling my sister . who just had baby # 5 by him. they named him Nastu .. a character name from a anime cartoon. lol go figure. my nephew has cleft palete but is beautiful no matter what. today he was holding my fingers in his tiny hands.  my sisters kids are a handful.. were all trying to do this together helping each other and its had bc the kids are super ... uh.. chaotic and dont listen that is whats going on with me. curently. ill try to do more updates more often.