MY MANZ GONE.....AGAiN...
4 HOW LONG?...WHO KNOWZ...i DONT....iM SOOO L0ST N SCARED....AGAiN.... i HATE THiS...DONT GET ME WRONG, i LOVE MY MAN N i ALWAYZ WiLL...iLL NEVER TURN MY BACK ON HiM...i CANT...iVE TRiED... iT DOESNT WORK...i UNDERSTAND HE MADE A COMMiTMENT 2 PROTECT N BE HERE 4 ALL OF U SELFiSH FUCKZ N i COMEND HiM 4 iT.... BUT i WANT HiM HERE WiTH ME TOO.... WiT US... HiS FAMiLY N HiS FRiENDS...i WANNA B SELFiSH TOO...WHEN iS iT MY TURN 2 B SELFiSH...WHEN DO i GET 2 HAVE HiM 2 MYSELF... i DONT WANNA SHARE HiM N-E-MORE...WiT THA US WiT HiS JELiOUS HOEZ...WHAT BOUT HiS FAMiLY...WHEN DO THEY GET 2 HAVE HiM...i KNO HiS MOM WAS A MARiNE AND SHE UNDERSTANDS BUT iM SURE SHES UPSET TOO...iN FACT i KNO AS A MOTHER MYSELF SHES TERRiFiED...SHE JUST KNOWS HOW 2 HiDE iT BETTER THEN MOST... BUT i CANT NOR DO i WANNA N-E-MORE...i DONT SEE Y iTS WORTH iT N-E-MORE...THA WAR iS STUPiD N iT iS A WASTE OF OUR MENS LiVES...THERE BLOOD SWEAT N TEARS TO B WASTED FOR WHAT?... ANOTHER US iN ANOTHER COUNTRY?...OiL?... A GRUDGE?...A CORRUPT PREZ TRYiN 2 PROTECT HiS OWN ASS KUZ HE FUCKED UP...WiT OUR MENS LiVES?!?! N MY EYEZ iTZ A WASTE... i ASKED MY LiL BRO...MY LiL BRO THAT i RAiSED WiT MY OLDER BRO SO BASiCALLY MY SON WHOZ A MARiNE CURRENTLY iN iRAQ Y WE WERE STiLL THERE...N U KNO WHAT HiS RESPONSE WAS.....i DONT KNO N-E-MORE SiS.....BUT WHAT i DO KNO iS THAT i LOVE U, i LOVE MY COUNTRY AND i LOVE EVERY1 iN MY COUNTRY....AND THATS i GOTTA FULFiLL MY PROMiSE TO THA US,U, AND EVERY1 iN iT....TO KEEP YALL SAFE...MY BROZ BEEN MiSSiN FOR 3 ALMOST 4 MONTHS NOW AND THEY HAVE NO CLUE WHAT HAPPENED TO HiM...AND NOW ONCE AGAiN MY MAN iS HEADiN BACK OVER...2 AFGANiSTAN THiS TiME...BUT YA 2 MY MAN THiS iS HiS LiFE AND i WiLL CONTiNUE 2 STAND BY HiM...AND N-E AND ALL OF HiS BELiFES... NO MATTER WHAT....i JUS... i JUS HOPE THAT i MAKE HiM AS PROUD OF ME AS HE DOES ME....i LOVE HiM SOO MUCH HES iS SO STRONG AND AMAZiNG...EVEN THO i KNO i AM ALSO STRONG HE MAKES ME MORE SO....iM NOT READY 2 LOOSE HiM...i KNO i SHOULDNT TALK LiKE THAT BUT JUS LiKE B4....iM SCARED...i HATE WHEN HE LEAVES...i HATE NOT KNOWiN iF iLL SEE HiM ONE MORE TiME...TALK 2 HiM ONE MORE TiME...2 B ABLE 2 TOUCH HiM ONE MORE TiME...OR 2 EVEN B ABLE 2 FEEL HiS TOUCH ONE MORE TiME....EVERONE iN MY LiFE THiNX iM THiS SUPERWOMAN...WHO HAS NO EMOTiONZ...WHO NEVER CRYZ...OR GETS SCARED...OR FREAKZ OUT...WELL GUESS WHAT i AM DOiN ALL THE ABOVE RiGHT NOW...iN FACT iVE BEEN LiKE THAT ALL DAY 2DAY...iM NOT THAT SUPERWOMAN YALL SEE i JUS KNO HOW 2 FAKE iT TO MAKE iT SPECiALLY FOR MY KiD... BUT JUS LiKE YALL... i CRY WHEN SCARED OR HURT....i FREAK OUT WHEN iT GETS HARD OR iNTENSE...i CURL UP iNA BALL AT NiGHT N CRY MYSELF 2 SLEEP KUZ i DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO...i AM A SUPER WOMAN BUT NOT RiGHT NOW.... OR FOR A LiL WHiLE....
