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Everyday we make choices. Some good...some bad. Some people have the balls to admit to what they do while others chose to pass the blame onto someone or something else. I have a confession to make. Ive been logging into my ex boyfriends FU account off and on for over a year. Pretty much since he gave me his log in information in June 2013. I got to read lots of conversations that he had with other women while we were together. Some were of a sexual nature and others were nothing more than drama. After months of being neglected and abused during fight after fight, I decided that I'd had enough so I walked away from our relationship. He didnt like that and would continue to make that very clear with text messages. Finally I got to the  point that I couldnt deal with it anymore so I blocked him on my phone, facebook and FU. 

I must say, its been nice having some peace and quiet after being berated so many times!

Well, this week I decided to take a peek and what I read completely floored me! I read him telling a woman that his ex gf was "dating an arab guy now". Then he decided to go even further by saying "yeah and he seems a bit of an extreamist but idk for a fact". He also called me a name which I could care less about...what I have a HUGE issue with is not just him but ANYONE referring to someone as an extremist. Especially a Muslim. My ex boyfriend doesnt know anything about my current boyfriend other than the fact that he might resemble an Arab and he would have taken a guess that hes Muslim because thats not something that my boyfriend has announced on his profile. So, my ex bf is making assumptions at this point and is telling someone that he thinks hes an extremist. Thats WAY beyond fucked up. This world is filled with hatred towards Muslim people, thanks to those Zionist fucks who are behind 9/11. Too much hate towards Islam and their Muslim religion. I will be damned if I will be silent if I find out someone I know is accusing my boyfriend of being an extremist. 

So yes, I snooped on my ex boyfriends page. Im a big girl...I have no qualms admitting that. I dont feel guilty...I can clearly see who he is now. A sorry assed narcissistic drunk bigot who never has the balls to admit when hes wrong. 

He can make his status say anything he wants. Fact is...I never chatted with his friends while logged into his account, hes just trying to create a smoke screen for the fucked up shit he said. Easier to call me crazy and make others think it was me who was having those conversations than for him to fucking man up about the shit he said.

I could give a shit about what anyone thinks of me. I made a choice to look. Sometimes when we open Pandoras box we might find things we dont like...that would be me. Like I said...at least I know now that no matter how much he would like others to think hes a nice simple man. Hes an abusive complicated ball of drama. Holy shit Im glad I walked away from that!