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So I have not put a blog on here in 3 years. I figure it is about time I update a little. So much has changed in my life.
After the fiasco living in Kentucky I moved back to Maine. I had planned on getting my life back on track there and making things better for myself because I knew that I needed it. While I was living there I got to talking to Sweetdreams (Heather) on a more personal level than we had before. As things turned out we had almost NOTHING in common. But, you know what they say, opposites attract. We decided that I should go to Texas to visit and see how things go. Well, I spent almost no time at all in realizing that she is an amazing person. Over the last 3 years we have built a very nice life together. We have had a few ups and downs and some VERY tense situations but we came through them all. We are now engaged to be married on October 13, 2012. I am excited to finally marry this woman that I have come to realize is the greatest thing that will probably ever happen to me.
On a less happy note.... In the 3 years I have lived in Texas, my ex Has not allowed me a single phone call to my daughter Gabby, and not one single visit for my family either. Gabby is 6 now and I am afraid that because I wasn't there very long in her younger years that she will not see me as Daddy ever again. Life is so short and because of a conniving and vindictive woman I may never truly get to know my own flesh and blood. I love Gabby as much now as I did the day she was born. I miss her terribly and want nothing more than to be a part of her life. Some people say that when she gets older she will be able to choose, but how does that make me feel better? I am losing all chance of having an influence in her upbringing. I fear that she will be like her mother's side of the family and not have any of me or my family in her. When I see pictures of her there is NO DOUBT that she got all of my genes in her, but she won't get to learn how to act from me, or how to grow a beautiful garden from my father, or any of the hundreds of things that she could learn only from us because she isn't allowed to be with us. It just hurts.
Back to the good things in life... I was recently promoted at my job. I am now the overnight manager for a convenience store chain that ranges from Atlanta to here. This job is now the highest paying job I have had in my life. Not to mention I get more hours every week than I did at any other job barring a strange week where I had to put in the extra time. Heather also changed jobs. She was working as a school bus driver and a scheduler for a mystery shopping company, but she has now quit both of those jobs and is working as an assistant in the Accounts Payable department of a VERY large oil rig company. Her one job now makes more money than the 2 jobs she was working before. It really seems as though our lives are really headed the right way.
All we can do now is hope that we can continue on in the direction we are heading. Life truly is a strange creature sometimes. But as they say... Things tend to happen for a reason, hang in there and you will make it through.
