MidnightMarauder the Nocturnal One's blog: "The Gemini Mind"

As I approach an important time in my life I look back at my life and what it has shown me and if I truly learned anything.......over the course of my life the lessons and experiences I've had taught me some things that made me aware of the world around me and of the people in it........do you remember ten years ago?...me I can still remember what was going on at that time.....I had just graduated from high school and was enjoying the fact that I had got my diploma after years of pursuing it (moved around so much thought I wasn't going to get it) and I met someone who I loved....but didn't know I loved (feel me?) but in the crossroads up ahead there was a path I was supposed to take but instead I took the one I was less afraid of and it really didn't hit me till a few months later when the day I get her letter and it hits me (right where I hit myself in the head when I saw the letter from her).........I was afraid...of what? afraid that it was too early for me to think about being with just one person, afraid of letting someone that was already in leave me to the point where I would be destroyed....(member I was almost 20)......and on that day I made a change to be honest and fearless with the choices I make in life..........

Now it's ten years later and the epiphany I had has let me experience things that I wouldn't get to do if I was afraid.....not saying it was all rainbows, there have been cloudy days but when a storm comes you either do 1 of 2 things....pull over on the side of the road and wait for the storm to pass or you could continue to push through the storm and notice that the more you push the path that was not visible in front of you is now there....another thing......I realized  I was afraid to let go which is why I had a hard time moving on (even after I met the son that should've been mine).......eventually I moved on (taking some things with me for prospective) I had to let go cause it wouldn't be fair to the one who is out there for my heart to have someone else occupying it

And now-a-days my close friends are struggling to let go I see it everyday whether it be walking away from someone who you know in your heart is not meant to be with you but you stay anyway continuing to be unhappy....or when the other person has moved on and you still find yourself wishing that they would come back....but in reality there not coming back........So I got to thinking if someone older who went through something similar would've told me this ten years ago I would of taken some time to truly think about it cause at the time of me making that left turn there was nobody to talk to about these things and I made the choice on my own.......(which lets be honest) alot of us make but in this case you got someone who cares about your well-being and is willing to stop you from going down the wrong path............In other words if you knew someone who broke every bone in their body from jumping off a tall building knowing the pain they will go through for the rest of their lives.....why would you jump off the same building? do you think the results will be the same?????,doesn't have to be, just cause your afraid of the unknown doesn't mean that you'll be safe taking the easy way out....in any situation. What are we afraid of really? being alone........if we keep shutting people out that will come on it's own......feeling embarrassed...huh (we're our own worst enemy).....or the one that always gets me no one else understands...... if you have good people....true people in your life you'll never have to wonder about those things or be alone........no matter how old they are....lol