Tonight as I sit in the hospital at Dads bedside I realize there is no worse feeling than to have the man you have loved and respected all your life look up at you, hardly able to know you are even there, and the only thing he can say is "Help me." I know his health is bad and his time is limited but he can't go like this. What can I say to him? How can I help? Is it enough to say "I'm trying or I love you"? Who do you talk to when you have no one? Getting on my knees didn't help. Talking to the cat doesn't work. My co-workers don't know what to say other than "I'm sorry." This world is such a cruel place it makes me wish I had never been born. Before any one gets any ideas, no I'm not going to do anything stupid. I lived through my mom doing that so I won't put anybody through that. I just feel useless, frustrated, and overwelmed at this point. For those who take the time to read this thank you. To those who don't, F@#$ you. That is all.