Dimka Blackrose's blog: "more about me"

On June 7th I went seen my Shirk and I was there for 1 1/2 talking to her about stuff going in life now and what happen in my past.Well In last 2 weeks I been having keep mood rate dairy from 1 to 10.1 for been in great mood and 10 for wanting kill myself since I started the the rating is not looking and I have put on the danger list with my Shirk and my family has watch me make sure I don't snap.It hurts when ur husband has tell ur friends and family that his wife is dangerous and came go off the deep end anytime.I been dealing with problem since I was little girl when I was 7 years old I try kill self by using a jump rope,so I walk over to a tree and climbed up tied the jump rope then I put around my neck then I made my mom was looking and I push off the tree limb.I miss judge distance of trying hanging myself cause my feet was 2 feet from the ground the rope started cutting into my neck and choking me I decide I wasn't able don't I swing my leg over to tree and pull myself up and was barley able cry to mom.She hear heard my muffled cry and she started screaming and said what was I thinking,she got ice pack for my neck lay it across my burned neck and reduced to swallowing in neck.Let say I wasn't able to speak good for couple days and still till i bare I the scar were I try kill myself.I have people tell me clean ur neck and I tell them it a scar from my past.I my wording I have dyslexia so if anyone leave a hateful comment it will be deleted and you will be blocked this goes for my friends as well I'm not taking anyone more bs.