CASH's blog: "daves blog"

I guess some or all of you are wondering what the hell is up with me lately? I can’t say I blame you. Life has been Crazy over the past few years. I did the whole going off to fight for your country thing and that was a good learning experience. I moved back to Fargo, North Dakota for a couple of reasons. First so I could finish my Bachelors of Science in Nursing. Secondly, I had thought that maybe this is where I could do some good and possibly become a roll model. Lastly I like it here, it’s peaceful. I have been really sick lately.  I have a cyst on my pancreas and they think that it may be cancerous. For the first time in my life I realize how precious that life is. I just wanted to say i am sorry to those that I have offended pissed off and letdown. I realize for the first time I am human and I don’t have to be all things to all people. You all know that I am usually the First person that you all call on but I am a little amazed that when I need some one to be there that there has only been one or two of you that have said anything or have asked me if everything is going ok.  I am sorry if I sound like an asshole, but right now I could use all of the love and support that I can get. I am sorry if I am asking too much but damn I need your love and support. I am going through a hell of lot and I am the last person that breaks down but for first time I am breaking down. Anyhow this is what’s going on and hopefully all will be ok Ill keep you all updated.