i try over and over again
to drink myself into submission
but it just doesn't work.
i keep thinking maybe i can drink away the pain
for an hour or two.
but it just doesn't work
you're always there
and there's no escape
i wish there was.
last night i turned into exactly what i tried not to be.
a chain-smoking alcoholic.
12 cigaretts, 1 pint of smirnoff ice, and a 12 oz bottle of smirnoff watermelon
and you were still
my predominant thought.
i wish you'd just go away
and leave me be
for a day
so maybe i could regain some of my sanity.
