I'm so scared an I can't begin to tell anyone just how afraid I am. I want to cry, curl up in a ball,just drive off an never look back, I feel like someone punched me in the stomach an said ha ha the fucking jokes on you and all I can do while fear eats my ass up is vent in this crazy blog!!! its been 22 years since I diapered or nursed a child an knowing that one was coming was overwhelming enough but to see that second lil quite person laying on his side hidden from sight by his rowdy sister was so overwhelming tears failed to come to my eyes. have u ever been so scared all the spit dried up in your mouth? well mine did an as I told my BFF the news I just choked up an all I could tell Mrkeepitreal was I'm sorry like I made the babies on purpose to torture him an make his life a living hell (lol). ok I felt dramatic tears well in my eyes when he told me how HAPPY he was an I lashed out in sheer frustration all I could think of wa ssure ur fucking happy your not going to spend 28 fucking hours attempting to squeeze two huge bodies out a tiny hole that's gonna stretch ten times its size so hell yea your fucking HAPPY buddy!!!! & let's not forget every two hrs feeding an diaper changes of two squalling babies how friggin happy will u be then buster that's what I wanted to say. so as I sit at work just overwhelmed an scared all I can say is I'm nervous!!!!!!!
