scottsomers's blog: "respect"

ok alrighty the truth...hum this is a subject most will not want to read for the truth is based on fact fact of life. there not fiction or a fairy tale. so here goes my version of the truth where do i start hum from the begining no thats to far back.. hell iam 47 so if i start there u be asleep before i reach my teens. well that might be a good place to start seam tenns read blogs and for real the truth i already see is most people wont read this. but here goes in my teens i thought i was a typical teenager loved three things thats what my parnets told me first was girls...well that was true there love them and want to have them all iused to wish i was the playboy king himself and the fact of the matter isi wasnt bad looking back then so i uselly got my way.well i hear the old story back then this is the way it was when i grew up well here my version. yes i walkedto school everyday or rode my bike and when old enought i rode a motorcycle to school and yes at the time i lived in the north and yes i diddrive that motorcycle to and from school in the winter with snow on the ground. like i said this is a fact... i left home as a child and drew wellfare to finish school which i did do while i was living on my own yes on my 18th birthday my father and i u  could say had a disagreement which couldnt be fixed so i manned up at that point ad began my life as a man. i finished school to prov that i could do it with or with out anyone help. i did graduate with my class. but i still wasnt the man i thought i was during that time i got to date and man did i date some of the best looking girls or at least i thought i did. this is when truth hit me and hit me hard.i found out back then when there was no intenet and no video chat or on line datting that even tho u met someone and date them they arent what they really are...its starts out honest enough u like someone u date them you take them places and alls u really want is the same thing love and respect. and of course back then sex was no diffrent then now except sex now aday is alot like i wanted it to be when i was growing up . free and easy and try new things. didnt happen back then or did it...it was there u just had to find it.and believe me i found it alright in all the wroung places...lol well anyhow so here i am datting like everyone else and yes i fall in love like everyone else now this is when the real truth starts u see when in love u either fall head over heels for her where she on ur mine all the time or u fall in lust there the first real fact in life.but u see this is the tricky part being young and trying to figure this one out...i found out what i thought was love was lust. see my first love wanted to date me for what i could do for her. hum sound familur dont it. whether ur female or male u can relate to this.  see if ur female he wanted sex and if ur male she wanted other things like clothes or jewarl ect. now aday we call them gold digger u know i am talking about at any age learn at an early age and this is whe u get ur first feeling of being hurt or used...lets face thats like the first time life slaps u in the face...but its the truth . now when i realize i am going no where in this little town and big city i am young i got big dreams to see the world . so how do i do that hey i know join the miltiary . okay yea some go to college and party and become doctors and lawary and judges thank god to them. but its not me or aleast not right now the truth was i hated school just went cause first off i had too that was the law and second remmber there was girls there and i enjoyed wrestling was the team captian ya another story maybe one day.any how back to the us navy....yea get to see the world...man here comes some more truth now the navy said this and that and i joined didnt get this and that but i learned first hand to be careful they lie too. so i see the world get married cause i think i am in love now to me love supose to be honest and faithful and untill the end. hum i think u might see a patern here more life comming. well u know i lived up to my end of this deal until now let beck up for a second i got married i was in the navy good job good money sexy as hell wife speaking of her lets just say the wedding voes u take went out the window every time i deployed..... and after ten years of comming home to someone who let just say had been to the ob doctors more times then i can count and for what dnc... u know at first ill admit i was dumb about woman stuff so i dint know what it was... but after awhile i caught on fast.by the ten year of this so marriage and being unhappy as heck i finally did like anyone of u would the same thingand then got divorced at this time i got out of the military oh cool now i am going to get my benifits...yea right another goverment lye oh btw if u must know yes i told her i was going to go sleep with someone else and did do it..never told her that lye so dont think i lyed yetbecause the point is to tell the truth even if it hurt someone feelings i guess i talked enought about this for now. so close this i just say one simple thing if u ask me ull hear the truth but now u know that life it self is full of lyes... see the truth can only come from urself is what i found out its the only thing u have control of is urself.. you have no control of others or there feeling only have control of ur self. not life not death noone else or anything else u can only control urself. and i think if i control myself then i can control my out come. i have been to wars i have been here for this country and everyone here but i only have control of me...if u took the time to read this i hope in some way u learned smething or u can relate to parts of this. just alittle wisdom and feel free to coment u wont hurt my feeling becase there mine to control not urs.... and i keep them undercontrol...scott