i see me as a broken china doll
with cracks and chips missing
fragile but with a hint of disdain for all who try to shatter whats left of me.
to trust someone else
to believe in someone else
to let go of the control i have
over every little detail
to just breathe
and be free
to liston and obey
someone else besides the devils in my mind
to have knowledge that although control is gone
love and respect is not
and when sunlight is streaming all the other masks i wear are on
i can still be proud of myself
and when darkness comes
and i can be free...to feel alive thru pleasure and perhaps pain
to see the pleasure in your eyes to hear "yes sir"
tremble from my lips
to know i am safe for a few hours
and unmasked so i can breath
and happiness beyond expectations
because i choose to give my control to you
for safe keeping...my sweet....