so time off has been really nice but im ready to go back to work cause i really miss my kids, well some of them at least hahah ... for those of you who dont know which would be be all except for 3 or 4 hahah ima swim teacher ages 3months-adults i love it ...it can be really really stressfull but alot of the time its really fun. hahah people always ask me how many kids i have and i giggle and say 3 godsons but none of my own and they seem shocked and then i tell them im 18 and there all oh well thats good youll make a great mom someday , and that if im ever having an off day you cant tell because im all smiles lol which i know isnt true especially when i feel really bad but i try. basically when im having the shittiest day ever i come into work and get in the water and pretend its all ok but when i leave i feel shittier and cry usually when im sick hhahahah but its good to know they dont really notice. i work with a lot of people with disabilities and its hard but i learn to deal with it and find new ways to teach its so much fun i dont know what im gonna do at a normal job. it sure seems like everyone around me would like to see me have kids though hahah strange anyways im gonna enjoy the couple days off i have left until tuesday thats my first day back since christmas eve ..so crazy i havent been in the water in so long ... i mean i take showers but im not soaking everyday for hours lol