Hurts to swallow
and talk
but I did make it outside today
drove around, got a drink, got a few groceries
these tomatoes are pathetic
like... red styrofoam and hate.
no
hate has too much energy
failure.
Yes.
8 pills.
I didn't quite make it through the whole day without one.
It felt good, so did the hot bath.
Why am I afraid that I'm not going to enjoy doing anything I used to enjoy?
And seriously
can we get the swelling off my eye? I look like a mongoloid, and it feels really weird to blink.
On the upshot my neck is oozing less
and overall bodilly pain is down.
Checks are written.
Unemployment is filed. Awaiting a phone interview.
One claims packet is in waiting for me to fill it out and mail it back.
36 hours til I can get my stitches out.
Now what?
Cure cancer and punch out god?
I'm on it.