I have been away from THE WORLD - as it is depicted in various forms of media - for months. I do not miss it. I never could choose THE TRUTH - because it truly depends on where you begin the story. Since I cannot decipher THE TRUTH, I am left with what is all any of us can embrace as individuals - my truth.
I love my husband.
I love my family.
I am a Godly woman.
I like to play in the dirt.
I love the Sun.
And yet - I love the moon too. On hands and knees in the moonlit shadows of the Enchanted Forest I cleared a path for my granddaughter and her delight. For my own delight. For the delight of anybody that would choose to walk within a world of possibility. The only thing I could see was the gleam of the moonlight shining off the mother of pearl cross I wear around my neck. GOD MADE THE MOONLIGHT TOO, I told myself. What are any of us but werehumans anyway. So close to transforming into something driven by bestial cues. I shall not walk, nor crawl, in fear. So Faith is my truth.
I have Faith that I have the ability to choose my path. Perhaps I shall sail, or I may fly - but I have Faith that I will do good along the way. Perhaps I will unintentionally wound, the real Unknown is why I would knowingly wound. I am sorry.
I think that THE WORLD must have carried on as it has for longer than I can comprehend, without my understanding or opinions. I prefer the microcosm of what I can directly touch. Helping my children with school or feeding a growling belly. Stroking the roughness of my husband and his hairy cheek, while he achieves his own truth. Taking him on random adventures of microcosmic thrills, because that is where my power lies - in the little things that become a warm memory. I like to listen to my children and my granddaughter. I know a few unassailable truths that I can offer to them as they walk the path they choose - people have big monkey brains that are prone to hooting and flinging pooh if not consciously elevated, tigger will never stop bouncing because that is what tiggers do, and little roo will always have kanga to go to for strength and comfort; just like my family will have from me, and I from them.
Beyond that - I never cease to be amazed.
