MONDAY NIGHT I ALONG WITH MY BROTHER AND SISTER HAD TO MAKE THE DECISION TO TERMINATE LIFE SUPPORT FROM OUR FATHER , AFTER TALKING TO HIS NURSE AND DOCTOR AND HEARING THERE IS NO HOPE AND THE OUT COME IS GRIM WE CHOSE TO TERMINATE AND LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE . I HAD NOT SEEN MY FATHER IN 9 YRS AND ONLY TALKED ON THE PHONE MAYBE 6 TIMES IN THAT TIME , WE HAD A HISTORY THAT KEPT US APART WELL MORE OF HIS CHOICE BUT I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME FORGIVING HIM FOR THE THINGS HE HAD DONE NOT JUST TO ME AS A CHILD BUT TO MY MOTHER ( KIDS AND WOMEN SHOULD NEVER BE USED AS A PUNCHING BAG!!!!) YES I HAVE/HAD A LOT OF ANIMOSITY TOWARDS HIM , HE NEVER MET ANY OF HIS GRAND KIDS BECAUSE HE WAS STILL TO BUSY BEING WASTED .. HE ALWAYS KNEW HE WOULD BE WELCOME BACK IF HE JUST GOT STRAIT AND STAYED STRAIT BUT BY THE TIME HE STARTED THAT IT WAS TOO LATE AND NOW THE CHANCE TO RECONCILE HAS LEFT US . I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FEEL ANYTHING FOR HIM BUT IN TRUTH HE WAS MY FATHER AND I HAVE YET TO STOP CRYING , IT HAS HIT ME HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD AND NOW I AM TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF EVERYTHING , TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THE NEEDLE IN HIS ARE WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN HIS KIDS , WHY HE NEVER MADE THE EFFORT TILL IT WAS TO LATE , IF WHEN I TOLD HIM THAT I FORGAVE HIM IF IN FACT I REALLY DID . I WISH THERE WOULD HAVE BEEN MORE TIME BUT IN REALITY THERE IS NEVER A PROMISE OF TOMORROW THERE ISN'T EVEN A PROMISE OF THE NEXT SECOND . LIFE IS TO PRECIOUS AND WAY TO SHORT TO LIVE LIKE YOU HAVE FOREVER . SO MY ADVISE TO ANYONE THAT READS THIS IS JUST SIMPLY THIS IS WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN THE PAST WORTH THE REGRET YOU MOST ASSUREDLY FEEL IN THE FUTURE IF YOU DON'T MAKE AN EFFORT TO MAKE AMENDS ? TAKE THE TIME TO BREATHE THE AIR TO FEEL THE WARM SUN ON YOUR FACE TO PLAY IN RAIN AND TO FORGIVE ...
