Soda's blog: "depession"

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down -
I cry for help, no one's around.
Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall -
It seems like no one cares at all.

Always an emotion,
But how can I explain -
How can I explain?
Kind of like the scent of a rose,
But you can't explain,
The same with my pain.
Caught up in emotion,
Goes over my head -
Goes over my head.
Sometimes I got to think to myself,
Is this life or death,
Am I living or am I dead?

The clock keeps ticking,
But nothing else seems to change -
Problems never solved just rearranged.
And then I think about all the times that I've had -
Some were good, most were bad.

I search for personality
And I look for things I cannot see.
Love and peace flash through my mind,
Pain and hate is all I find.
Find no hope in nothing new,
And I never had a dream come true.
Lies and hate and agony -
Through my eyes it's all I see.

If I'm gonna cry -
Will you wipe away my tears?
If I’m gonna die -
Lord please take away my fear.
Before I drown in sorrow -
Well I just wanna say...
How will I laugh tomorrow,
When I can't even smile today?

Today, today, today.
When I can't even smile today -
Today today, today.
When I can't even smile today -
How will I laugh tomorrow -
When I can't even smile today?
How will I laugh tomorrow -
When I can't even smile today?

You think something's Funny…..?
Laugh at this!

So when I look outside my room,
I see the world but not the reason.
What it’s done to me's not fair,
You call it fate, I call it treason.
But I know not what to do,
Give me a sign I’ll take whatever.
But if you want me, here I am.
Ain't gonna cry forever.

And I tried to hold ya -
But you just turned away.
And I tried to tell ya -
But not a word I say.
I cried, "I’m so lonely." -
But you just covered your ears.
I gave you all the signs -
But you ignored my tears.

So if you want me,
Here I am -
I sit here waiting for your decision.
But my body fights my mind -
They're heading straight for a collision.
So what am I gonna do -
If I'm still looking in all the wrong places?
But the only thing that seems to change,
Are the looks on their faces....

Doesn't anyone...?
Seems like no one cares at all.
I search for personality
And I look for things I cannot see.
(Does anyone even care at all?)
Love and peace flash through my mind -
Pain and hate is all I find.
(Seems like care at all.)
Find no hope in nothing new,
And I never had a dream come true.
(Does anyone even care at all?)
Lies and hate and agony -
Through my eyes it's all I see.
(No one cares at all.)

How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't smile today -
Today, today, today.
When I can't smile today -
Today, today, today.
When I can't smile today.
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't smile today.
How will I laugh tomorrow?
When I can't smile today.

Lyrics by Suicidal Tendencies