Well my weekend is over....back to work ago. This wasn't the greatest week...I'm sad at the moment....
I feel like giving up on a lot of things. Maybe I just need a break from everything....everyone....
But then I think, what good would that do?
I still crave for attention....I want attention. :( I want to be beautiful....just to be noticed....
Why does it seem like....ugh I just don't know....it just hurts a lot and I never know what to do...
What if i just disappeared...would anyone even notice? Not just on the online world..... here as well..
No one talks to me...I don't talk to anyone... my friends....well what friends?
I feel alone...I don't know what to do... maybe i do need a break. I should pick up on drawing or something. I've been wanting to paint....that's good right? Would it be a happy painting? Or a sad painting?
I'm going crazy in the head again.... I'm tired of feeling hurt...ugly...lonely, neglected, un noticed..... sigh...
This is going to be another night where I stay up thinking all night long until I workk....then Ill be thinking all day at work....again and again over and over...
I so hate myself :(
