Meags's blog: "life"

What do you do when all you can do is nothing? The feelings that you have are there and not so easy to change. I wish I could change how I feel and make life easier for you because in the end my life would also be just a little easier and my heart wouldn't hutn nearly as bad. I have to put on this brave face everytime I think about you and the fact that I can't really have you. I should be extremely happy with what I have an in the end I guess I am... But why do I keep looking? Is it because at one point I had nothing to look forward to and even though now I do I don't want to be in that situation again. I was alone for so long and it sucked... I mean I have really great friends but that love isn't the same... Ugh.... My intention was never to hurt anyone, so why is it that I do? I mean really... Sigh. Deep sigh