Had a bit of a scare tonight.
Bf called me to his side to hold his hand. He felt it was "time". He could see the light as he pointed out of the window. It was the street light and I told him as such. But he was sure that it was "the light". His voice was totally different due to the pain he is in. I sat with him for a time and told him that I love him. He started crying saying he wanted to tell his kids this. I asked him if he wanted me to call them.
Nephew showed and daughter-in-law. Son was unable to leave work so if it got down to the nitty gritty daughter in law would call him.
Daughter in law was holding me while I cried and bf was telling nephew to not let me cry..as he did not want to see me cry. I was beginning to lose it and nephew and daughter-in-law helped me get myself back in order of sorts.
Daughter was on her way (45 min drive) as I convinced him to take some pain meds to see if it would help. Called daughter and told her to hold off coming as bf was feeling better.
Daughter in law since she just went through this with bf's wife, discussed hospice and what avenues we can explore..there is not many but will take them to see what happens.
He is resting of sorts..Fixed him his soup and put his socks on him as his feet were cold.
I am still teary eyed and scared.