I am having a really rough day... I can not pretend anymore that I am fine today when I am breaking down and falling apart. At this EXACT moment I am writing this, my son's graduation from high school is going on. I didn't get a ticket because we are estranged to some sense. I texted him daily asking if I could come, hell I even blocked my number and tried calling him and got nothing. I was hoping with me going to his baseball games that it would have opened the opportunity to start a relationship again but obviously not. This feels like its ripping my heart out because this is a VERY important day of his life and I am not involved. I dont know what to do or say, all I feel like doing right now is crying, but I am trying not to. Trying to keep myself busy but that doesnt seem to be helping either... My heart hurts..... :(