I stand and I sit and I think~Think of how I can help myself~Should I cut to ease the pain~To understnad the confusion~Should I take the razor blade~And slice it over my wrist?~So I stop and look around at my surroundings~All soaked in deep red, rich blood~I glance downward~And scrape it across my wrist quickly~once~twice~again and again~The memories~The past fading~I begin to bleed~To slowly feel free~No more, No more I chant silently~I fall down on my knees~Watching my blood flow like a beautiful river~I begin to cry~The involuntary tears streaming down my face~Down my arm the blood flows staining the floor I stand upon~These involuntary tears simply fall like rain drops from the sky~Splashing down to my veins~Feeling oozy~fatigued~I leave the world in vein~Remembering to cut one last time~deeper the scar of life~slipping into an eternal abyss and funeral forever~