Drunkfox's blog: "Daily thoughts"

my daughter was born in september of 2000...in august of 2001 my gf gave birth to a son ethan scott. when he was 8 months old he was killed by a drunk drivedr in a car accident...my parents did not know about ethan because of the bullshit i was going through with aly at the time...macy and ethan were coming to the beach so that my parents could meet him for the first time...i never to this day have told them the truth.

macy blamed me for his death because before she left she had called me to tell me they were heading down and wanted to get ahead of weekend traffic...i told her to talk to me a lil longer because i was just about off work and so we talked a lil longer then she said she had to go and that she would call me on the road.

she said if i had let her go then ethan would still be alive and threatened to call the police if i spoke to her again...she had him cremated and took his ashes somewhere to the midwest with her.

to this day i cannot cry over anything sad....i have yet to cry over dads death and that was 3 yrs ago...i do not have a conscience when it comes to sad things.

i have been told i was callous and cold but i feel that when certain events take place in your life you adapt new emotions and have a habit of staying with them